Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting? Who should I do therapy with? Can I trust my entire life's story with anyone who's not on this site?
Maybe if I tell you my life's story, you can give me life advice.
I was raised by abusive lefty parents who hated their smart white son and often tried to push me towards trannyism. Never fell for it.
First I was sent to a shit primary school. A few kids bullied me there and teachers punished me whenever I fought back. I was a fat angry kid who could punch hard when pushed, and they liked attacking me and then running away. But when we fought properly I'd kick their asses. One time I kicked their asses hard enough to make them stop bothering me.
When I graduated from this school I was sent to the special school of a catholic school, and made the personal property of one old bitch there who hated autistic kids. Around that era I got interested in Game Maker and pokemon romhacking but that interest never amounted to anything, though I did have a USB full of GBA roms and romhacking tools and the fact that I was able to code at such a young age when not all kids were learning that should have shown somebody that I had more to offer the world than shitty schools thought I should.
Thanks to that school, my schedule looked like this: Enter a side building, wait for the day to end, sometimes get insulted by the teachers if they felt like abusing me, usually get to eat lunch at lunchtime but sometimes they wouldn't let me (and it didn't matter whether I brought a packed lunch to school or brought money for the school cafeteria) and eventually go home to a house with parents that, when told the right words by my boomer bullies, would freak out and abuse me at home too. Rarely I'd get to join in a classroom... but class clowns would act up until I'd get blamed for it and sent out.
If I had a tape recorder or decent phone, I could have gathered evidence of the shit said/done to me (audio files of verbal abuse, pics of bruises, etc) and posted it online. But I was never allowed anything like that, because my parents feared I might use it on them. One day at school the art teacher bumped me with her car while backing up into a crowd of kids, I was fine but pissed off and the art teacher shrieked and blame-slinged feministically at me until I lost my patience and started barking back, then she put me in front of the headmaster and I told him about the abusive staff members and called him terrible at his job, so he kicked me out.
Then I was sent to a worthless "speshul" school where a few teachers abused me and the students usually watched in confusion when they weren't joining in. Whenever I trusted an adult enough to tell him or her what happened at home, that adult decided to call child protective services, who sent the same fucking boomer woman over to warn my parents that I was talking about what went on at home again. I couldn't get away from my family until I became the problem of Adult Protective Services, where the slightly less retarded and lazy people go.
A woman my age at the autistics-only youth club I attended got mad at me over retarded internet roleplaying nonsense-drama that didn't even involve me, and she lied about me to the cops and accused me of abusing her, even went to some clinic to fake signs of a concussion she didn't have because she's a spoilt bitch who knows how to play her rich parents like fiddles, she was a low-functioning sociopath woman with histrionic personality disorder and every retarded boomer's sympathy. She lied and got away with it, because the cops weren't interested in this case after she cartoonishly fucked up and started gloating about physically assaulting me without realizing it hurt her case. But even though I said to the managers of the youth club and the friends I knew there "If what she said about me was true I'd be in jail so you know she's lying" they couldn't believe me because they were dumb. There was one weird creepy fucker I used to talk to online because his "woe is me, asian school life is sooo hard" shit kind of reminded me of me at the time, but he got severe TDS and stopped being a person once he stopped viewing me as a person so I'm glad I didn't tell him anything sensitive or identifiable that could fuck me over later in life.
Anyway when I went to college, I was lied to and exploited by the staff until I dropped out. They even tricked me into taking a worthless course that turned out to be the dump where they dump the autistic kids and give them a useless fake newspaper to write. I wish I dropped out sooner, trying to live on barely fucking anything is hard enough when your mom took govt money meant for you, but it's harder when you're forced to spend most of your cash on train rides between your college and shitty home every two weeks and all your cunt government can offer is a discount pass. Now that I'm living alone, I've got a free bus pass I can barely use. Government priorities, am I right?
I am an autistic man, I'm 24 years old, I'll be 25 next year, and I've spent so much of my life as property of someone else that I find it hard to notice when I'm hungry or tired and remember that I should eat or sleep without someone or a phone alarm telling me to. I shower every night before bed but sometimes I miss meals, it's what helped me go from obese fatty to only-slightly-overweight. I don't think I know what it feels like to be loved by someone else. Learning makes me happy and I love documentaries but when I tried an online free learning site it reminded me of school and I couldn't do it. Sometimes I talk to people and act charming like those "Charisma on command" youtube vids told me so they'll like me, but I've never given anyone my full backstory before. The only woman in my life I ever kissed was that bitch who falsely accused me and got away with it. I want to say I have no interest in modern women but I still feel the urge to wank to them. But I don't wank any more because of nofap.
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>>5634Hell, the video on Labcoat 21 missed shit. She's even better than the video makes her out to be. She deserved to be banned, even UI Goku Blanco at his most bullshit (aka on release, so people could purchase the power everyone at every tournament was forced to buy and use) wasn't this cancerous.
https://www.dustloop.com/wiki/index.php?title=DBFZ/Lab_Coat_Android_21I hope none of my Sonics ever get this bullshit broken.
Naruto has a giant fox inside him and sometimes he's a girl, he's kissed a guy his age, he once bonded with another guy his age over the giant male things forced inside them when they were both babies, something deep inside them were once sucked out by older men, an old man fingered Naruto's ass, Naruto once had every inch of his body fingered by a guy his age, the power of male homosexuality helped Naruto seal away ninja jesus's evil mother, and it's still less gay than most animes because at least there's no oni-chan little sister libtard pandering lolishit. I described Naruto homosexually for fun but it was a bit gay at times. Still not as gay as some animes. The leftist fetish for androgyny stems from their immense pedophilia and state of arrested mental development. Physical differences between men and women upset the delusion that their kink for prettyboy popstar men and ugly girly men and incompetent toxic mannish women is better than normalcy, this is part of why they hate healthy tomboy gfs and bikini armour for strong female characters upset them. The other part is their hatred for beauty. Small children are to be protected. Anime shouldn't try to pander to democrats with brain damaged childish characters who will look young forever and be young forever. If an adult character looks like a small character that's tragic for her, because only perverts will be into that. Anime characters should have huge fucking tits. That's how you know they're mature. Also I like tits. Tits are better than asses. That thing where you can see the peak of a woman's thighs thanks to her low cut jeans/skirt/whatever is also better than ass. What are those officially called? I have heard them called cum gutters and vagina bones.But that sounds too lewd to be the technical term. Anyway media will only get more horny as society's tolerance for horniness grows. So some healthy media should find a way to be intensely horny in a healthy way. Perhaps more healthy wholesome families with countless offspring and no gay sitcom "life sucks for large families" lies. Perhaps more wholesome love stories where offscreen sex is implied to happen often and last practically forever once the couple gets together. Sex jokes except instead of "your mom's a whore" and "I fucked your mom" it's "Your aunt's a childless cat lady with over 300 sexual partners and none of them thought she was worth a damn" and "Tell your mom I can't do this any more, I have a wife now, and kids".
Also Eggman is retarded and nobody ever talks about this but he's really on a downward spiral mentally. In SA1 he fires a missile into Station Square when he is very close to Station Square. When it fails to explode he flies over to detonate it in person. SA2, he blows up a big chunk of the moon when he could have held Earth at gunpoint and said "Surrender now or I blow up most of earth in a few hours and keep firing until the survivors tell me I'm in charge of Earth now". He fucked the world up in Advance 3. And he seems to think ancient deities, uncontrollable robots, magic relics, and living superpowered beings almost on par with Sonic are toys he can play with unsafely.
What's your favourite Eggman Moment?
Not sure why ID changes sometimes. I blame the dogshit wifi extenders in my house. Anyway does my backstory ever seem unrealistically awful when it comes to my parents? They were child molestors, so they were cunts. And they were also cunts for reasons unrelated to the way they'd jack me off or make me dance naked or make me watch degenerate shit with them. If they were characters in a book I'm sure some editor would feel the urge to say "It seems excessive for them to be both child molestors and retards who also hate kittens, puppies, small children, books, freedom, sunshine, love, whites, and productive hobbies" but anyone who's been in those sorts of situations can tell you people willing to be awful in huge ways for fun won't think twice about being awful in small ways for fun. They were pure fucking evil.
The truth is like glass. If you can't see it, change your point of view. And if you don't think it exists, you will walk into glass walls.
Seems the primary appeal of gay emoshit is the self indulgent ego-comforting way they pretend misery is something unavoidable and tragic, and never a consequence of a nihilistic unhealthy lifestyle. Hell, the media tries to glorify it, sell it as something that makes you special. People can be sad for many reasons but this media pretends it's an inevitable fact of life that makes the unhealthy better people than the healthy. Stronger. Healthier. Deadlier. "If you have no reason to live, consoom product". Spoiled rich boys pretending they have it hard, pretending they're oppressed, pretending their misery makes them special, pretending their nihilism and sloth are consequences of unavoidable unconquerable misery inherent to the human experience as they lie about being dangerous or preach the "virtues" of lacking virtue. Born to die, world is a fuck, parodies are better than the real thing because they aren't trying to sell you a product, they're mocking the corpos out to sell you a lie packaged with the trash music. As someone raised in a shit place I know how tempting it can be to give up on life. But holy shit, this sort of big corpo feels-media shit makes me embarassed to say I have ever felt anything.
Guys is it a bad sign if your woman's crying in her room and doesn't want you to go in and try to make her feel better, even though her faggot parents are the ones who made her cry?
>>5673Don't think so. Just let her have her time to herself. Make a nice dinner or a comfy pizza night with movie or something so she has something good to come to once she is done thinking about her troubles. She will talk about it if she feels she is ready. The best you can do is create an environment fully devoid of any problems or reminders of the trouble she might have with her parents. Be the /comfy/ zone that is all about you two and not about anything else in the world. But this is just what I think is best not claiming I know the answer.
>>5567Bet if I wrote about a robot-maker named "Dr Link" with a robot named "Adam" and a dog named "Terry", most readers would say "omg this is a Doctor Light from Mega Man and Link from Legend of Zelda and Terry Bogard from Smash reference! And the robot's literally Mega Man or the biblical Adam from The Simpsons! Also this is a reference to Will Smith movie I Robot or something by Issac Asimov, whoever that is!". No idea that I got this from Eando Binder's "I, Robot" after hearing about it in a youtube video essay.
>>5674Giving her space before inviting her to the maximum comf zone was a genius idea. I felt like I needed to rush in and be there for her in the moment even though I had no idea what to say. But this works too. I made an adorable pillow and blanket fort for her atop our bed and put away all the clocks and turned off the alarms, leaving our phones outside. No distractions. No annoying noises from her phone.
Fuck her phone.
Holy fucking shit her phone noises are annoying. Practically anti-ASMR. Does that already exist? Obnoxious sounds to hurt the ear and soul? Probably exists. Probably has its fans.
I think I could write a good romance story now, because I get it. Romance and people are still confusing. But this woman is fundamentally good so she doesn't hate me for months if I misunderstand things. As a teen I fantasized about the sort of person I might end up with and the sort of things we might do, but those fantasies were just the fantasies of a horny isolated depressed raped person doing his best. It's hard to describe how fantasies slip away when you encounter someone real and care about her in ways you never thought you could. I don't want to do anything perverse with her because fuck perversion. I remember being terrified I would be unable to love anyone. Terrified flashbacks of my parents sexually abusing me would get in the way of my capacity to fuck. I want to reclaim all of my sexuality and draw my OC with his cock out, nude and unashamed. But I don't want people to think I'm a pervert. And I don't want people flooding inappropriate places with that image. What should I do?
>>5673You got a Girlfriend?
I don't know what the point of the mask is. But I am taking it off.
The truth is it does not bug me that whatshername's comic ideas fucking sucked when I knew her. I also sucked at stuff when I knew her. We weren't experienced pros in the industry. Talking about what I didn't like about her comics distracted me from her and helped me cope with the regret. I felt lonely when I talked to her. Lonely and not listened to. She wasn't consistently unfair to me when it came to communicating and what she expected from me vs what I could expect from her. But she was often and I dom't think she ever realized. I'm not good at relationships or communication. I shouldn't blame myself for how she chose to be but maybe if I had grown a pair by the time I met her she would have respected my ideas instead of exclusively wanting me to be a fanboy. Or maybe having balls would have just pushed her away faster. She would ask me for input when she really wanted praise, and she would get mad at me if I didn't praise her enough or seemed fake when praising her or offered advice she didn't like hearing. I think the reason I said "plz watch this show like what you want to make" so often was... I wanted her to expand her horizons, read more than one book, rip off different things for a change. I wanted to think about what these shows did to flesh out their characters and pit them against meaningful challenges and not just make their protag a one note girl who's only special because of external factors like superpowers and blood. There were these other ideas she had for original things, but she preferred the circlejerk of nostalgia to anything new and challenging. Felt like she saw people primarily as the service or resource they provided but she felt little urge to seek out useful people, she felt eventually she would conveniently run into a complete set of all the men who could serve her and do all the work making her shows for her, but until then she collected people and talked more with those she thought she could get more out of. Sometimes had us talk and told us to plan out the process of making her show... as if a handful of guys she strung along and me could do that alone without money. I wish I was charismatic and convincing so I could help her see the potential in her ideas that weren't shoving degeneracy into kids media for the sake of seeming mature and edgy. I had shit taste back then. Maybe if I had better taste I could have shown her better shows and they would have helped her. I haven't talked to her for a long time. I hope she is doing okay but checking her social media accounts would be cringe. I know how she was raised isn't my fault. But if I wasn't retarded I would know what to say to help her. She wanted attention but didn't respect me enough to think I was anything. Did I ever matter to her? Maybe if I was cooler she would value what I said. Maybe if I knew more about writing I could have offered better help. In videogames it's so fucking easy to fix people's mental problems. You just talk to them long enough and pick the obviously right options and they get better. I thought I was saying the right things with her but our conversations never seemed to go anywhere that resulted in a meaningful positive change for either of us. No matter how hard I tried with what she seemed to want whether it was advice put nicely or praise or a retarded speech about doing your best and never giving up it never resulted in any positive change. I wanted to be a positive influence on her. But she'd be the same whiny wreck tomorrow crying on my shoulder because she's a grownup now and so sometimes she has to clean her room and change her clothes and do coursework on time and make sure she doesn't waste all her money on shopping for plastic shit only to be left with no money for the next shopping session and sometimes mommy seems quietly disappointed in her child but she's incurably female so she is unwilling to ask what she can do to try and turn her daughters life around for the better. The other artist woman I knew at the time treated me better. She never blew up on me or ghosted me for giving writing advice she asked for. She was a good person.
I want to thank all of you.
Even the critics.
Thank you all.
Even though I'm not a nazi, we can still talk about the bad jews/blacks/etc out to enslave/replace us. It's a fact that they're out to get us.
That Ponymon game turned out pretty great, right? Even though I only added a handful of ponies before release. I should release an update that adds at least 50 more ponies to the game, though I'm not sure which to add. I wonder if someone could beat all the Gym Leaders, or even Professor Wisteria herself, using only Ponymon. Though for now I'm waiting on Pokemon Gen 9 stuff to be added into Pokemon Essentials. It will probably add a ton of unbalanced idiocy to the games I'll have to rebalance or patch out like I removed RNG-based items and abilities, RNG-based bonus effects, the Z-Moves, and more.
Pokemon's fucking obsessed with scope creep. Gotta waste cash on the new gimmick to set the game apart from the last 3DS game and create the illusion of growth. Even if that literally means making your game's gimmick the illusion of growth... Only to squander the time+money-saving potential of the Dynamax gimmick by making Gigantimax forms.
Instead of wasting cash on gimmicks to scrap a year or two later, they should focus on the fundamentals. Like appealing animation and a less fundamentally broken battle system. I'm not asking for mainline games to reinvent the wheel with an Active Time Battle system, but maybe the power creep problem needs to be solved. Fighting games have tiers to rank the relative strength of characters, but only in Pokemon is it damn near impossible to beat the average OU or Uber team with an entire team of inferior mons if your "opponents" aren't friends playing dumb and talking shit in the chat for the sake of a youtube video.
You don't need realistic graphics, just appealing ones that don't look like reused 3DS models with lazy idle poses. One Piece used to have comically shit animation full of filler and then one day, somebody in charge said "Wait a minute, we're a fucking huge media property, why are we being so cheap on the biggest thing that sells our franchise?" and suddenly the animation got good. Pokemon's the biggest media franchise on the planet and they will never have that "Aha! My thumb was covering up several zeroes on our budget the whole time! I have more money than I thought! Let's spend more money on making our products good!" moment. Why would they ever change? It's not as if customers ever demand more loudly enough, when their voices are drowned out by loyal consoomerdrones at their troughs. Can't fucking believe there are consoomers defending Sonic Farces, the seizure-inducing Colours remake, and the new soulless Frontiers. To say it looks like a fangame would be an insult to fangames. It looks worse than the Mario demo where he's running in a field with stock assets and hyper realistic deer. Guess the best and brightest of Japan still can't crack the mystical esoteric secrets of "basic fucking physics". Still have to put boost pads and springs and grind rails everywhere to create the illusion of content in this empty soulless open world.
Where can Sonic go as a franchise after this? It's already gone open world, and that tends to be what franchises do when they're desperate. They've failed to innovate on Sonic and they've failed to figure out a functional foundation for 3D Sonic, 2D Sonic, any kind of Sonic. The best Sonic game in decades was made by fans, the worst Sonic games in decades besides the linear boost2win rehashes were buggy ports of games that ran better on my PS2 and Wii respectively (Sonic Mega Collection Plus and Sonic Colours).
I need to stop caring about video games. Then again, making video games is my passion. So maybe I just need to stop caring about what the megacorps are doing. I don't care about what celebrities are doing. So I shouldn't care about what celebrity-esque franchises are doing. I didn't buy SwSh or the Sinnoh remakes. I don't think I even own a Switch. I expect Sonic Frontiers to overpromise, underdeliver, sell well due to dishonest trailers, piss people off, cause some laughs on twitter, and tank the franchise's already-abysmal reputation further. Sonic games aren't good. Sonic games aren't good, on average. In the entire franchise you'd be hard pressed to name five good games released over the franchise's 30 year lifespan, spinoffs included because Riders 1 was good. Buggy modern console ports of decade-old games replace the original in the public's consciousness. They don't remember SA1 for the Dreamcast, they remember the buggy PC port where you clip through walls during scripted sequence and jank unjustly kills you for trying to play the cutscene automation game.
I finally understand why I've never been satisfied playing bad games. I wasn't meant to rant about videogames on the internet forever.
This is real. This is me. My game... It works. It works and I can build on this. Playtesting it with my friends, one seemed genuinely shocked that I made this. "Why, because the characters actually move in this one?" I laughed. Yeah, he said. "Nobody could pay me enough to animate over 800 pokemon for free" I explained, and he said ok. The roster got some laughs at first but when they got the differences between the characters they got the point of the game. And my accessibility features work!
It always sounds weird to hear people say stuff like "I can actually play this game!" just because you execute a move with the special button or forwards-special instead of quarter circle forwards light. But then again, it's an accessibility feature. Those who don't need them don't care about Large Print versions of books, but those who do need them love them. Audiobooks are a convenience for those who like resting their eyes when reading, but they're a huge deal to blind people who want to read War and Piece in audiobook format instead of Regirock Language.
>>5669This.
I saw this post a while back but then I didn't reply. I related super hardwith this. Like exactly that.
It reminds me of shows like South Park, Rick and Morty, or like a movie like American Pie. They have these fuckhead characters that does all kinds of shit but then the show expects you to take what is happening seriously because Kyle starts to have an emotional speech (I guess I haven't seen much of SP but this is my impression of it) about how, "Maybe, maybe... We could all work together and love and tolerate." Like one moment they are above it all and sarcastic and cynical and then they change on dime to become all genuine and peace-loving.
That's why I like stories that stick to their scripts. That are self-aware enough to be consistent with this. Like mlp is a fully genuine with their message and way of portraying characters.
And Freddy got fingered (I haven't watched the whole thing but it seems that way. It's a bit visually gross at times though.) reminds me of a typical shitpost: Self-aware, self-deprecating, and irreverent. The people around him and the audience isn't supposed to care or take the mc seriously. They laugh at him. He's not a hero and the world reacts appropriately to him and when they don't, then it's played up for laugh. Compare that to Rick Sanches that is like tornado traveling across the galaxy causing mayhem but then comes back to his daughter to have serious
drama. These caricatures aren't real characters, don't try to make me care for, especially as a follow up to scenes were you prove that they aren't real.
>>5722Fuck yeah! Rick and Morty loves to preach that nothing matters while making meaningless noncanon episodes about alternate universes and clones and uploaded mind copies. And then it decides it wants to be "big" and "epic" and "meaningful" so everything suddenly goes from low effort shitpost to cliche melodrama. And these moments of melodrama with cookie cutter one note cliche characters really show you how bad they are at telling meaningful stories with genuine emotional payoff. But the bug-eating dog-fucking wine aunts and 40 something manchild consoomers will clap like retarded seals anyway because Glup Shitto from his shows just showed up and did something "epic". Stories don't really need to strive for excellence. They just have to be good enough. There is nothing the normie hates more than ambitious commoners, and there is nothing the loves more than those born successful, those handed success, and documentaries celebrating the failure of ambitious people. Sensationalized documentaries thrive when they simplify the world into wise all-knowing critics who should have been obeyed- I mean listened to, and overambitious tryhard foolish egomaniac artists who respond poorly to criticism by not saying what the professional critics want said. Anything to please the wise critics who will never feel like failures because they never tried to be anything more than armchair quarterbacks, games journalists, and that one fatty who thinks he can crush Connor McGregor in a real fight because he's never been punched in the face by anyone even half as strong as Connor McGregor. Megacorp slop like marvel movies will never be criticized even half as harshly as any solo indie developer's first attempt at something great. But if something is familiar and easy, it gets celebrated for being "nostalgic". There are videos analyzing complex themes and symbolism in media for adults. And there are videos for explaining obvious things in marvel movies. You can guess which type of video gets more views. Art can't just be for a select group of people, genres can't exclude critics who loathe that genre. Everything has to be the new Horizon Zero Sales or it's evil and inaccessible and racist or whatever they called Elden Ring.
I used to think if I ever had a girlfriend I was proud of, I'd document every moment of my life with her and brag non stop about her and all the cool and good shit I do for her. Maybe if I was still a small child desperate for attention I would act that way. But instead I want to keep her safe and stay quiet about her. She's mine. Just being with her feels right, no matter what we are doing.
Fuck games journalists. They don't understand fighting games. They really think the winner is whoever uses the best special or super, so they fixate on the difficulty of performing these supers instead of remembering what half circles are instead of appreciating the ever expanding complexity of Anime Speed Chess aka good fighting games. They don't appreciate the depth before they give their opinions to anyone dumb enough to still think mainstream journalists know what they are talking about. They don't understand the depth either. So they praise the game for shit irrelevant to the game, such as the pretty pictures and colours and noises and how big the main menu looks at a glance and voiceover work and how the story mode makes them feel when they button mash through it on easiest mode and how hard they try to accomodate games journalists, even if it's with a fundamentally flawed optional control scheme with absurd downsides that would sabotage anyone seriously trying to use this as a stepping stone for learning spacing and neutral before complex controls.
"Out of your friends, which are you? Superman, Pikachu, Satan, or Garfield? Find out now by taking this wacky quiz! You see a wallet on the side of the road... What do you do?"
>A, take the money, leave the wallet, steal a car and eat six kittens while calling them niggers
>B, pick up the wallet and dedicate the rest of my life to finding its owner so I can give it back no matter what this costs me because I am just so absurdly brave and noble in my fantasies that the thought of responsibly putting my best qualities to good use never enters my mind
>C, nothing because I am lazy and I have crippling depression like so many kids these days who feel insufficiently rewarded for enduring the way the system treats people and unoptimistic about industrial society's future. Don't know why, but mom blames my PS2. Maybe it's being abused and molested at school and at home while being forced to live with parents that see me as an unjustly imposed burden on their desired boomerish eternal childhoods that makes me miserable? Maybe being forced to grow up early fucked me up and made me unable to relate to others or connect with them. Mom blames my PS2 for all my problems even though it actually provides my only escape from them. Though I never know when they will come I look forward to the days when she can't drag herself out of bed and dad isn't around or vice reversa because I get to microwave food for myself and pretend I have dead parents which means I have no chance of being abused today or ever again. Deep down I crave death's sweet release but the fear that they'd get my sister and treat her how they treat me or worse if I wasn't around keeps me around to keep an eye on her. I sure hope she won't take a fat steaming shit on the only reason I stayed by turning out worse than her parents. She's their perfect little dog, eager to please them and reject normalcy if they make her feel rewarded for it. Lazy and desperate to take the path of least resistance. In the videogame I can improve my skills and myself and be rewarded and respected for it but outside people like me just weren't meant to succeed within the system, not if we aren't given the freedom to prosper. Mum and dad wanted dogs, not people, people were complicated and had needs more complex than food and water and barked orders and rare visits outside for exercise. So many people in my life back then were just NPCs waiting for the day to end so they could go back to their soaps and update their programming. Never cared what it took to get through the day and get back to their soaps. Maybe God is bored again, and that's why he's punishing people for being what he wanted them to be deep down. God made us in his image? Yeah right. Such divine beings, these humans, with such strong connections to God. God made us this way to make himself feel better. Maybe man was meant to kill God by overcoming him and he'll keep torturing us until we overcome him, but to comfort the omniscience and distract him from his own absolute understanding of his own absolute impossibility, God intervenes every time we are close. Maybe God is Satan's pseudonym and he made this broken world as a joke with a punchline he forgot as he was telling it. Maybe there's a new punchline randomly generated every time someone tries to see meaning in all this suffering... oh wait shit I got distracted and this was supposed to be funny meme time. Uh... hahaha I am a lazy fat cat who loves lasagna. Time to kick odie off the table so he won't eat my lasagna or something.
>D, shit in traffic with a toy dog balanced on my head while singing Have You Seen My Wife except every time I say a word with a vowel in it besides nigger I replace the next word with nigger.
If you answered mostly A, B, C, or D, you fit into a category this quiz feels qualified to talk about at length or describe more vaguely than any horoscope! If you gave a mix of answers, anything that separates you from your primary category is ignored to make sorting you faster and easier on the quiz's designer! If your answers are an even mix between two or more types, an answer will be chosen at random if an uneven number of questions or points given per answer makes this impossible!
God I fucking hate personality quizzes. I want to fish again with the lads. Men were meant to fish, farm, fuck, fulfill their destinies as leaders, and fucking create amazing shit. I got distracted recalling supressed childhood trauma. My parents were pedophiles and I think that's why I'm libertarian and reluctant to trust others. Well, that, and all the times the government has fucked up and all the times trusting the wrong people has screwed me over. If I had human parents I'd still be a libertarian because the government is corrupt. Is it weakness to have a soul that feels things? So many thoughts melt away with her in my arms. I want to take her and move to a new home somewhere far away from all the madness and all the libtards. A nice farm isolated from the rest of clown world, the perfect place to prepare and grow and prosper. But money doesn't grow on trees. I wish there was a country uncorrupted by the enemy with its own water for fishing and purfying, land for farming, maybe even its own internet free from degeneracy in addition to the usual internet. Society is falling apart under the weight of the ruling class's scams. Where will people go when there is nowhere left to go?
You're no "Free Thinker" if you only think what Paid "Thinkers" tell you to.
Right wing memes: Here's a chart I made in MS Paint detailing the results of my investigation into the Mossad agents working at CAIR and BlackRock and other leftist organizations working in tandem to kill us, also I put a funny little frog guy on the voter fraud and 9/11 facts.
Left wing memes: Here's a professionally made drawing of a pyramid CNN published with the aid of think tanks and govt funded political organizations upon which I wrote the names of Hitler and Jordan Peterson and you and Pewdiepie. Because all these people are literally Hitler! CNN told me so! Every youtuber with a camera and pedophobic opinions deserves death or imprisonment for their sins against saint clinton! The right are conspirators, not us! Taxpayer money was spent on this newfangled "meemee" thing to say so! Initiate LateNightTalkShowImpression.exe!
Fuck libtardism. Libtard votes count just as much as mine, but their imported sub-90 IQs outnumber me and the children we can't afford to raise thanks to taxes and globalist policies, isn't Democracy grand? They get to force their views onto us with votes and terrorism, and force their way of life onto us with votes and terrorism, and restrict our right to fight back with terrorism and votes. It's a tyrant's slow genocide with extra steps. They're a plague. A gangrenous cunt infection. Mob rule when it's convenient, and "hurr durr we must elevate minority voices because they say so" when it's convenient. Liberalism isn't one big fundamental misunderstanding, it's pure evil weaponized and cloaked in layers of contradictory lies. It's like a balloon. Peel back the layer of plastic with a knife and it fucking pops, revealing nothing but hot air. Democracy is a gang of rapist migrants ganging up on a small child and deciding their collective wants and perceived rights outvote her needs and rights. A man's natural rights shouldn't be up for debate or negotiation. Real humans were meant to be free. Liberals will never let real humans be free. Because if real humans are free to succeed or fail based on their own merit, the smug CNN watchers and globalist conspirators of the world won't get to hold us back and pretend to be on the same level as us or above us depending on what's most convenient for them. I will never forget their atrocities against mankind. The thought that I will be needed to save lives and be a medic keeps me going as I learn first aid. I will be needed alive to save more lives. Save the lives those pedoleftists would destroy while their greatest ally, the neutrality-fetishizing centrist NPCs, watch and do nothing or distract themselves with cartoons and drugs.
Do you think the MLP fandom will be spoken of in the same way as the Sonic fandom some day?
I think the normies will hate FIM fans more. Because we're not collectively forgetting about FIM and moving on to Hasbro's latest shit in the way Marvel bots move from one movie to the next.
Normies hate fans who don't consoom mindlessly. Prefer when Sonic's arms aren't blue? That's too much of something approaching an opinion that affects your loyalty to the company and your desire to financially simp for it. Company loyalty is the lifeblood of the company shill. Atheist or not, the company loyalist desperately needed Jesus growing up and still does, because serving corporation and getting excited for next product has become more important than God for this godless heretic. No matter the company's name, it means more to the consoomer normie than God and Jesus combined. That kind of normie sees all humans as pigs in human clothing, and nothing enrages the pig like seeing anyone turn their nose up at pigslop.
It's such a small thing for the robot to get enraged about. But for him it is the most important issue he has ever thought about. I think perspective is necessary to live a healthy life. If you hate taxes and banks and the antiwhite SJW pedophiles importing isislamic pedo culture and protecting it from scrutiny via legal and illegal force, you won't get your panties in a bunch over what secondary colour Batman's wearing. You've got important shit to care about. Some people out there... their entire world is media consooming. And I pity them. Future generations will loathe them more than Boomers are hated, because the boomers and their boomer parents were raised to betray whites and hate them. The globalists had a monopoly on most information sources available to the boomer. But right now, while the facts are spread across the internet for everyone to see, the normies were too busy playing Call of Duty and watching cartoons or sitcoms to care about the past, present, or future. Everyone's livelihoods and rights depend on being free. Everyone should want to be free. But some just don't care, and that type shouldn't get a say in whether others are free or not. I don't care if his space sitcom cartoon told him world peace will be caused by universal suffrage and a one world government with sufficient authority. No government has the authority to restrict the rights of free people. Libtards love their subjective laws and red flag laws because leftists can use these like clubs to censor and imprison good people. Evil like that deserves censorship and imprisomment. We don't need to censor the enemy to win arguments, unlike the enemy, but the enemy only uses its voice to rape kids. It rapes kids with extra steps by dishonestly arguing for and maliciously voting for pedos who import more pedos and legalize pedophilia for the left. At a certain age an adult is expected to take responsibility for their actions and not use ignorance as an excuse to get away with harming others or society, and liberals are kidfucking harm to society. Drunk drivers cannot use "nobody could convince me it's wrong to drive drunk" as an excuse so why should Biden voters get away with using "Nobody could convince me he's corrupt" as an excuse? All leftists are pedophiles who will never let good people be free.
I should not feel responsible for the wellbeing of others, right? But I still feel bad about some people I couldn't help. Even if they want nothing to do with me, I still find myself hating myself for not being the master of psychology, able to talk anyone I meet out of bad choices. Maybe I'm fucking retarded for that. Maybe it's genuinely retarded for me to hate myself for skills I lack. I'm not a psychologist and I shouldn't pretend I am. I am not qualified to give professional psychological advice. I might be the least qualified man alive to give psychological advice. As a friend I can listen to people and be there for them when they need me. I can give advice as a friend. But I shouldn't beat myself up for not knowing how to help people trained professionals would not know how to help. My retarded perfectionism is a sin I must avoid and overcome. I did all I could. I did the best I could. I need to grow the fuck up and accept that not everybody wants to be helped, even if they seem like they do. Sometimes people want to make bad choices you can't talk them out of. Should I hate myself just because some GTA-obsessed dishonest manchild who wastes his benefits tugboat on plastic toys to shove up his ass did not want to grow up? I am not an inspirational success story yet. I couldn't reason with him during political discussions. I am just one man. Just one fool doing his best in a world of madness.
>playing Ratchet And Clank 3
>shooting the fuck out of enemy noids with guns, black holes, hoverships, RYNO
>she snooze
>hack a door with The Hacker
>she's on the edge of her fucking seat, visibly and audibly relaxing when it's over
The fuck?
Also you can tell RAC3 is the one with the "professional" writer because of all the cliches.
This universe takes a step back from mocking celebrities and corporations by turning the washed-up "former hero" and full-time villain, because to make Qwark into the kind of pulp fiction hero he was made to mock, the universe has to become pulpy melodrama full of lolsorandum humor. It's a massive step up from what the franchise becomes, but it sows the seeds that lead to the reboot.
Suddenly there's a Galactic Ranger force, a galactic president whose daughter Ratchet wants, and the obligatory Dr Eggman-style recurring villain ends up being a robo nazi.
And yes, the silly robot doctor with a hint of a german accent is intended to be another Hollywood nazi. A caricature so divorced from reality it doesn't resemble what they're trying to mock at all, even though you can tell that's what they're going for.
He's a loud "intellectual" who's not as smart as he thinks he is (despite having the intelligence to make vast robot armies)
Evil name like Doctor Evil or Doctor Bad or something german like Doctor Badshittenstein
He was bullied in school, because hollywood thinks that's funny except when it doesn't
He can't tell the difference between fantasy and reality
He's aided by an alien race of violent screaming Minion/Rabbid-esque idiots who don't care whether their leader transforms them into something unnatural or kills them all once they have outlived their usefulness
He's not a real member of the group he idolizes or the group he uses to take power
He harbors irrational genocidal loathing towards a type of life form.
He fetishizes another type of life form, despite not being one
He makes a death star
It gets destroyed when the hero takes advantage of a design flaw
He makes another death star
And it can transform into a giant fucking robot for the final battle
That's really dumb
...okay I'm kidding giant robots are fucking cool. Maybe disney's star wanks would have been less shit if Palpatine's final death star could turn into a Sith giant robot with a red and black lightsaber able to slice planets in half. All the heroes could split up and work together to disable it in a different way, so everyone has something unimportant but cool-looking to do during cutaways from the important fight where Kylo fights Palpatine alone to avenge a permanently dead Rey. Like the Kuviratron fight in Legend Of Korra but even bigger and even stupider.
Anyway RAC3 was a huge tone shift and while the series went back to its thematic roots in Deadlocked, I wonder what the franchise would be today if Angela featured prominently in 3, there was no Dr Nefarious, Qwark was still a villain, and 3 focused on saving some new galaxy from a new threat instead of saving 1's galaxy from something that only exists to legitimize Qwark as a character.
3 and Deadlocked have these moments where a character openly states "The villain did a bad thing, it's the villain's fault and this must be set right". They refuse to blame the wrong people. Metropolis in 3 and Al getting shot in Deadlocked. I forgot whether 2 has a moment like that or not but I think they're trying to make up for how overly hostile Ratchet was towards Clank in RAC1 over the Qwark betrayal. I can repsect a buddy story where they aren't buddies the whole time, but holy shit, his attitude got old. Was still funny when he was a cunt to other characters.
Sonic is the center of Sonic's World. It used to be called Mobius but that implied he wasn't at the center of everything. Everything in Sonic land revolves around Sonic, even Eggman. It's rare for anything to ever happen in this world without a Hedgehog or a Robotnik at the center of it. At this point I'm surprised the houses aren't shaped like Sonic's head. I'm surprised Sonic doesn't have a pet hedge-dog, like how Pac-Man has that Pac-Dog, and I'm surprised Sonic doesn't have a house full of SEGA arcade cabinets. They could give Sonic a (time-travelling?) son named Sonny to make Classic Sonic a thing again while integrating him into the story as something more than a gimmick, like how Goten exists to look like Kid Goku. Vector The Crocodile sticks out like a sore thumb because in a cast full of characters designed to look like Sonic(tm) Characters, he and Big The Cat are the only characters who break the copypaste mold used for 99% of all Sonic characters. This franchise is obsessed with itself. With Sonic and Eggman. Obsessed with retreading old ground. Couldn't even give Sonic an edgy dark rival without tying it back to Eggman's family. Where are the dynamic exciting risky new ideas? Where's the ambition we saw during the Adventure days? Why does the growth of each character depend on the writer?, Everything feels too big and too small. Too restrictive and formulaic yet the only guideline for writing in this world is the formula. Eggman tries a bad thing, heroes stop it, there may or may not be something extra involved like new special stones, a new hero or new villain, a new villain turned hero, and another character for Eggman to fail to control when it matters most, typically a giant monster but it can be Sonic sized like Emerl and Knuckles and Infinite. There has to be something new to make this spin of the cycle seem new because stories can't happen unless Eggman's involved or it's a noncanon spinoff. Adding extraneous new elements won't address the core problems with the setting. Soleana and GUN have nothing to say about each other. South Island and Christmas Island and Little Planet and Neo Green Hill Zone, all of these locations are just backgrounds for the characters, not characters in their own right with stories of their own. Everyone's a role, but where do they go from here as characters? Sometimes trying to care about this nonsense world's lore and continuity feels like trying to care about the continuity and lore of coco puffs ads. Sonic means a lot to me. But there's stuff that should have been fixed by now. Like whatever problems cause every game released after S3+K besides Mania to turn out janky and borderline unfinished at the best of times. They can't even let talented people port games right. Sega has to get in there and Sega it up until it's more in line with what we have all come to expect from the Sonic franchise in its current state.
>>5770Which makes it inherently narcissistic.
Observational comedy can be so cliche.
Ever notice how many boxes there are in videogames?
Hurr durr, it would be horrifying for the videogame heroes to kill so many villains, if the villains had blood and loved ones and didn't deserve worse.
Dorkly style humor is painfully unfunny.
And yet I saw it on TV today when trying to enjoy my girl's current favourite TV show. It's as if these clown writers really thought they were the first people alive to think "Wow it sure is fucked up for the kid hero to be a kid hero" or whatever. Jake Long American Dragon was saying that obvious shit years ago, and it wasn't the only cartoon like that, and it wasn't the only cartoon making that observation.
Television is gay. Anything that distracts me from her is gay.
That disney princess PS2 game is on the tiny TV in her room. I play the player 2 side, which I don't usually do, because player 2's magic blasts look more like fire and that's awesome. We're having a good time. I think about Touhou. I wish we were playing Ratchet And Clank 3 multiplayer but she wants to play the disney princess game while babbling about kingdom hearts stuff. She fucking loved that series. I think she still has my DS carts for Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days and ReCoded. If she's reading this she can keep them, and that jank as hell DS Lego Star Wars game that felt unfinished, especially during download play multiplayer mode. I think they were the last gifts I gave her, and I played them first. I wish I saved copies of her old KH fanart, it was cute as hell that a kid would make this stuff. OCs, made up babies of the couples, the works. Even this fucking weapon... she made up a word for this thing that would give Skallagrim's ulcer an aneurysm. Anyway, we're playing that Disney Princess game for PS2. It's pretty dull. We've beaten it together before. It reminds me of Over The Hedge for PS2, we played that together and liked it. She'd pick the Hamster and I used to pick the Skunk because haha funny farting cartoon character farts funny. She liked Sonic Riders and was decent at it after I helped her learn it, but she said she wanted to play this game, and she looked sad. She had a shit day at school and looked like she needed someone to talk to even though she said she wanted to play the game and forget about everything. We're playing this game. But her mind isn't on the game. She's thinking about life, and her fucked up family. She had a shit day at school today and mom and dad blamed her for not handling it better and being able to tolerate everything or whatever even though she did nothing wrong and was exclusively the target of abuse that day. My sister, she tells me she loves me. I tell her I love her. I ask if we can play a better game now. God I want to go back in time and punch myself for that. She asks me why mom and dad hate me. I don't know what to say. "Deep down, they're dumb and evil," I tell her. That's how I rationalized it back then. Good people are good no matter the pressure on them to do otherwise and evil people are just like that. Maybe that's a fucked up thing to say to a girl. She's four years younger than me. We keep playing the game. She doesn't know what to say. She cries, I pause the game and she cries on my shoulder. Quietly, so mom and dad doesn't hear. If they hear, they'll barge into her room and blame me, and my own sister will blame me because she is scared of them. One time they broke her toenail slamming the door open without wondering who is on the other side. Mom and dad blamed me even though I was already in the room with her.
Fucking retards.
She's covering her own mouth and pinching her nose to stay quiet. She doesn't want her own body ruining this hug, and she doesn't want her parents showing up and screaming, she can't take that right now. As a kid I just thought mom and dad were too stupid to remember facts correctly. Now I know they rewrite their own memories by choice to comfort themselves.
A pair of narcissists... They would be in prison if this country had laws that protected children. I tell her I wish mom and dad didn't hate us both for stupid reasons. I hate myself. I should have said something smarter back then.
Maybe if I wasn't a retarded sheltered preteen twat I would have been able to psychoanalyze everything and explain to her how her parents resent this planet and everybody on it almost as much as they resent the lives they live, and that's not our problem. My sister was passionate about nerdy shit her parents hated and she wanted to create things her parents hated like fanart for something mom and dad didn't like.
It isn't my fault or my sister's fault that our parents are like this. They both felt entitled to better and while they couldn't define better realistically and work towards it if you paid them, resentment for what they have fills them.
Even that time some adults at a youth club asked questions about kid-me's bruises and we all really thought I might be taken away this time, and even that time Dad got cancer from smoking in the house and in the car and around his wife and kids at least once a day and had to go without smokes before shifting his addiction to diet coca cola didn't give them any kind of appreciation for what they had. We had a dog, they treated her like a nuisance when she wasn't being used for attention.
Mom'd post about our dog on some stupid fucking furry site, making up retarded "and then the ehole bus clapped" stories for nerds. Paradoxically, mom and dad think the world is fair and everyone struggling could succeed if they just worked harder, and they believe everyone with less than them is pathetic, except when they think the world is unfair and everyone with more than them is evil. They don't have concrete values, they are hungry mouths wishing they ate better while feeding their kids cheap shit.
They will contrive an excuse to hate someone they just met and feel superior to them without having to earn that feeling.
In their eyes everyone is trying too hard or not trying hard enough, everyone is an enemy sent to inconvenience or exhaust or oppose them, nobody is a person with rights and agency and free will.
Everybody is a character in their painfully dull sitcom where they are the main characters who can do no wrong according to them. They are NPCs, not people, and they should not have been allowed to watch television growing up because it ruined them mentally. They beat their kids for fun. They sexually abused their kids. My parents are awful people. And that little girl, my sister, decided she liked them more than me. What the fuck? Why? What could she possibly see in sacrificing her ambitions to fund their cashwasting? If that's her idea of adulthood count me out. I'll dream for both of us.
>if you convince him you are right, because you are, even if it seems he is fine with it in the moment, he feels like he's lost the argument and resents you for hours, pouting and growling and sighing, hating you and your presence, muttering shit into the ears of people near him like "what does he want now?" and "I can't stand it when he talks back to me" and "he should pay extra for this" because he knows it slips these thoughts into the empty heads of retards and gets them thinking like him
>and his standards for what an argument is or isnt are so fucked, he'll hiss and whine at anyone who disagrees with him on something minor or subjective, and he'll sigh "Don't argue, you two" or snarl and nyaaah and waaaah at two laughing bros shit-talking each other with smiles on their faces, or two friends agreeing it's better to do x instead of y
>he simps for women on instagram and calls the several girls still willing to talk to him despite everything that makes him who he is "his girlfriends" even though many have boyfriends and some even have kids with said boyfriends and some have kids but their dad's missing
>whines about the economy if his money runs out, even though more money is only a phone call to mommy away, he's addicted to impulse buying clothes and music, he has youtube premium and purchases porn on onlyfans, and his weekly allowance for food and clothes shopping (and instagram/onlyfans) is greater than the money made by most workers we know
>sometimes he compliments or approaches women his age IRL and they laugh at him or dismiss him and this causes him to rage and pout and yell childish edgy catchphrases about violence and mass murder, only to forget it all tomorrow and go back to ranting about how much he hates "anti-feminist incels" as if anyone fucking asked
>loves taking up the house's tv for hours at a time listening to dogshit rap he could get on his phone anywhere in the house
>loves George Floyd and BLM but also loves cops, hates gun rights, and regularly enjoys Copaganda that paints cops as "righteous crusaders on the front lines of the war against dangerous criminals who could hurt innocents" and really claimed "cops are all that stand between us and certain death" today
>his idea of contributing to political discussions is blabbering about his feelings or seething silently in a corner as smarter men speak on topics he doesn't understand, waiting for an opportunity to grab the mic and get people looking at him again so he can shout platitudes or movie quotes or nihilistic demands for death to take us all, anything to derail a mature conversation into something all about him and his feelings on the matter
Wow. Didn't know I hated people like that until now, because I didn't think I'd ever meet someone this fucking pathetic, aggressive, spoiled, and embarassing. If I read about him in a book, I'd assume the writer was clumsily trying to manipulate me by making the protagonist's roommates cucks. That first part, getting pissy and emotional over someone not agreeing with you immediately... I never thought I'd meet anyone like that. Never even considered someone could get emotional over something that has no reason to have emotions involved. Some guy wanted to bring his game console down for some Mortal Kombat, I reminded him his second controller's broken, he says oh right haha, I say we could play older MK on my retropi since it has two working controllers, he says sure, and while I set up my retropi, the whiny bitch seething in the corner because it wasn't all about him for almost ten whole seconds starts whining about people arguing. That wasn't an argument! This fucking guy.
>>5802Also
>growls and mutters, spits cliches at people rudely, and interrupts people and shouts them down, tries all he can to pick fights with people while insisting he doesn't want any drama or fights and anyone who disagrees with him on anything or ever talks back to him is "starting arguments" or "giving him anxietyWhat kind of privileged life must a "man" like this live for him to end up severely uncomfortable with other men his age disagreeing with him, or "talking back to him" as the obnoxious crybully puts it?
Fuck the word anxiety. It's nothing but a newspeak word for badfeel. All he wants is goodfeels. He listens to retarded music and embarassing ASMR roleplays in public, eats shitty sugary fatty fast food, and consooms eceleb tardtuber drama when he's not consooming normie sitcoms and copaganda. Anything to dose himself up on easy sources of goodfeels and keep the badfeels at bay. Men disagree with you? Women don't swoon over you the second you talk to them? Oh no, oh no, this causes badfeels! Must scream and protect your wounded ego by pretending to be a violent dangerous man at his breaking point! Must retreat into the safety of your bedroom pillow fort using your niggerish Sail Foam to listen to dirty talk and cheap meaningless affirmation from literal prostitutes!
Shit like this is why people should not be able to vote unless they're mentally sound and they've done something good for their country for at least a few years. Don't want it to be police service or military service because you don't want your country to have a big army? Fine, make it a real job farming or building. No bullshit jobs like middle management or dievershitty hires. People too immature to handle men disagreeing with their political ideas should never get a say in how the country that supports them is governed. If they're going to give up on being adults they shouldn't be able to make bad choices for themselves or others. Otherwise you end up with clowns like him who waste government benefits on overpriced brand name clothing to try and impress and attract golddiggers so he can pretend he has girlfriends sometimes, and clowns like that other twat I knew who wastes his government gibsmedats on plastic toys to shove up his ass when not flirting with his discord moderator boyfriend and calling on him to censor disagreement in his retard discord server, and all three hate individual rights and love big government and hate those not reliant on big government. Where the hell does their hatred for the working class and their unjustifiable smugness come from? The burger flipper flips meat farmed by farmers and transported by truck drivers, all of these men do more good for the planet than these smug pseudointellectual coomer midwits with painfully dull takes on everything from fiction to reality. I wish there was some service these clowns could call upon to teach them how to get their shit together as men, help them clean their rooms, spot for them when they exercise, and so on. But when they see me exercising, they fucking smirk at me. How many levels of denial do you have to be on to end up like this?
Is it my fault that my relationship with my family is so awful? Is it my fault that I am hated? I want to be able to see myself in a mirror without seeing a hideous fatass who reminds me of my father. I've lost so much weight and gained so much muscle yet my fitter friends are so much more beautiful than I may ever be. I want to be more than my parents wanted me to be. My own family... I can't look at these people or think of them without remembering how they all knew how badly my parents treated me and yet they said and did nothing, or they went out of their way to help my parents get away with it. I like the idea of having a sister and I remember the good person she used to be. During the bad times we were both victims and our parents didnt know how to deal with her problems or advise her on anything going wrong in her life so they basically just blamed her so they could retreat to the comfortable feeling of feeling superior to somebody. During the bad times life sucked and all my sister and I had was each other. The times when we'd lean on each other and fantasize together about the ridiculously luxurious lives we'd lead when we spontaneously became rich beloved hyper successful people our parents never thought we could be. But when life was good for my sister, my parents actually wanted to know her. Or rather, the obedient version of my sister inside their heads with no interest in anything they didn't force upon her. She bottled up her feelings and kept her problems to herself and pretended to hate me so she could please her parents and be their idea of the perfect daughter. Is it my fault? Am I ugly and uncool enough to be despised for existing? Do I deserve to be loathed? Would others be happy if I hid in a cupboard over the stairs, making no noise and pretending I don't exist? Is that why my sister would rather be their pet than her own person? If I ignore all the bad days where she was the worst person in that house and focus on the rare happy moments where she came to me for companionship or advice or comfort despite how she and her parents usually treated me, these happy moments that were only happy because I was willing to overlook all the downsides to life with my parents and sister and try to help somebody who didn't deserve my help but needed it anyway... Fuck, I forgot where I was going with this. I want to forgive my sister for everything and see her again, but is my sister even still in that head of hers, or have my parents hollowed it out with their years of absolute unrestricted uninterrupted control over her? If she came to me, she wouldn't have to come crawling back apologizing for everything, she would just have to remember the truth about what went on in that house instead of indulging her mommy's revisionist history fantasies. Is it my fault that my relationships with girls fall apart? The closer I get to this new girl the more I fear finding out she tortures animals for fun like the weeb roleplayer horse girl or sees me as nothing but a plaything like the entitled artist. It doesn't feel right or natural to be happy. Not after being miserable for almost every moment I was alive. It feels like this new source of happiness might be a delicate lie that could break any day, leaving me with nothing. I would die for her. But even though she has given me no reason to suspect anything I feel unsure that anything that makes me smile can last. This fear that I might lose someone... is this is how it feels to care about someone more than yourself?
>>5813>Do I deserve to be loathed?No.
You deserve to be loved. Glad you have a nice gf.
This fucking roommate... Sometimes it's funny when he blurts out a random internet meme during our conversations or when I'm talking to someone else. Sometimes he's not funny but I laugh anyway because it keeps him from repeating himself until I do. But when the topic is politics there's something fucked up about the way everything has to relate to a regurgitated soundbite before he can get it. Even if it comes from a rapper or YTP. He repeats words sometimes and YTPs them but without the funny, I hope he never visits the anne frank museum at Auschwitz (Hitler should have renamed the place Auschfart so all future people would have to read about him gassing the jews at assfart) because his mind would be in YTP mode 24/7 looking for words to fuck with and repeat. Doesn't even make funny sentence mixes like making a character who says "all I care about is doing my job" say "all I care about is doodoo" or "my doodoo is all I care about". It's just "sus splalps sees freerf my mission is- my mission, the issue is- the issue" with this guy.
We watched a video on china's 300 billion fuckery, he seemed to be following along, we were talking, and then he said memes until I realized he didn't understand at all because he said the wrong meme. So I had to explain it slower afterwards, giving him time to think. To think of the topic, and think of a meme to say, only responding normally if he can't think of one. And he still has to repeat movie lines now and then. People banepost ironically but he disney-pixarposts to help understand the world, like a tvtropes user trying to understand media by making lists of all the ideas they recognize from trope pages. Where some would pull from past experiences to understand the world others pull from media.
He's only 2-3ish years younger than me. Why does it feel like the age gap is a decade? The internet can be more than a TV but for some it is just a gayer TV, and TV is already homosexual.
>>5818Thank you for saying that. I didn't think anyone would read this. Work on the pony fanfic is still going, just slower as I work on the game.
>>5824Hey! I congratulate you first.
forgot to sage
>mfw looking in on this thread after several months
I kid, this is a commendable amount of effort and you have my admiration.
>>5843Hehe, pikajew.
I bet instead of getting stronger when holding the Light Ball like a Pikachu, Pikajew would die after touching the Reich Ball.
Don't know if I ever told anyone this but when I tried playing Persona 5 and 4 on a friend's system, every time I asked myself the question "How do I make the most of my time?" it felt like "Not wasting it playing this" was whispered in my ear. The game's optimal progression path requires hours and hours of grinding and RNG based luck. God I hate luck. As a concept luck is incompatible with the notion of free will. The idea that dice rolls and our paths in life are predetermined by fickle chance and whatever nonsense ritual seems to bring more luck like wearing a lucky sock or mashing A when catching a pokemon is more offensive than the idea that we are all puppets unknowingly acting out a script written by aliens. If you gamble and believe in luck Christ doesn't love you and you don't love Christ. My childhood would have been happier if my father had died of cancer. My mother, too. Maybe even my whole family, or at least the people who knew how evil my mother and father were and did nothing or helped them get away with it. Persona 4's story of teenagers accepting themselves was fine and P3's story of confronting death by living life to the fullest was a bit pretentious but better. P5 has the style of rebellion and anarchy but no balls and no substance. Nobody asks if society should really have these all powerful government figures and mafia leaders and celebrities and bankers who can do no wrong and are seen as above the law. Nobody has the balls to say maybe we should not assume the best in celebrities and politicians. Politicians ingame speak in vague nonsense, the baddie wants to steer the ship and be in charge, and it is bad for him to steer the ship because he is a cunt who views the world as sunk and his ruise cruise as a pleasure cruise for the elites above water, and the goodie politician is a goodie because he loves the kiddies uwu. Never says anything concrete about ending cancel culture or investing in education or investing into business opportunities for young adults and for the best young adult etrepreneurs.
Saying anything concrete in this market product would harm its brand appeal. It's why Ann never gets molested. It's why the game tries to blame everything Ann and Shiho go through on miscommunications about volleyball/cheerleading/whatever and one guy's villainy, because if these characters were used to explore those who go along with the current regime and genuinely try to suck up to the elites for favors it would ruin the appeal of these characters. The heroes don't seriously analyze the ethics of using brainwashing to transform baddies and the writers did not feel like rewriting the power of the heroes to only ever rob baddies of the belief that they are allowed to do bad things. Regular additions to the party are used to create the illusion of growth and progress as the numbers go up. How many story arcs amount to filler, and what percentage of each one is filler? What if the heroes could only rob victims of the delusion that they cannot fight back and should not work together against injustice, and that was what stealing the crowns and medals and other treasures of villains truly represented: Proving their vulnerability and fallibility?
The characters cannot meaningfully grow over time because growth is restricted to optional side content where you unlock the right to see characters grow outside the canon of the game you are playing. The creators can't be assed to write and voice act an extra line here and there that replaces normal lines if your character should have grown up during optional social link cutscenes too much to say something the old version of that character would say.
The heroes talk and act too much like fame obsessed thrill seekers looking for the biggest scores with no serious debate on which villains deserve stopping and if any deserve stopping more than others. And they do that stupid fucking "We heroes lost our way" cliche that is almost as overused and tired as the "liar reveal" cliche and "second act temporary breakup" cliche Hollywood has a boner for.
Plus Futaba's OP hacker god powers break the story. She can do anything the plot requires even if it is impossible.
This story's moral messages aren't good enough, and you can tell they aren't good enough when you look at the effect this game has on the nerds who obsess over it because they never read books and never played another game better than this one just like the Harry Pottards who never read another book.
Normies who play this game don't walk away wanting to be better people. They don't walk away smarter people. They walk away wishing the Phantom Thieves were real and willing to use omnipotently magic coercive force to magic away all the world's problems for the normie, taking down all the "villains" the TV demonizes. They fall for the dichotomy of heroes and villains and background character bystanders these stories sell. Just as Sonic Forces claimed to be about the resistance only for pretty much everything to be done by Sonic and his new best bud Garfield, this type of media never actually does anything smart with the idea of large resistance movements demonized by the media and establishment. The nerds who love persona don't think critically about what the TV shows them because there was no persona game about that. Thete was no Bob Barbas boss battle where you fight a big nosed TV talking head in the Fox News dimension as he depicts you as a soy wojack or mass murdering human-slaying mindless terrorist now and then to spice up the fight.
DmC Devil May Cry featuring Don'te El Exterminatador des Demonios was more mature than this game when it comes to society.
And that game was fucking SHIT!
But not complete ass, it had some good ideas. I bet if ninja theory had more development time and their own IP without any unwanted reboot baggage it would have turned out better.
Persona is so fucking gay people are still pissed it wont let you fuck your very straight friends ingame.
What shocked me about my sister wasn't that she was eager to forget about what life was really like in that house. I could understand wanting to put it behind you and never speak of it again. But she wanted to go along with her mothers fantasies and that means blaming me for how my parents treated me before and after I was old enough to talk. I can remember moments when I distracted my enraged parents from my sister by saying retarded shit like "I like ice cream" in my retard voice to get their focus on me even if it meant them hurting me when all they were doing to my sister was shaming her and verbally abusing her and bullying her and screaming in her face. They always mistreated me worse than her. But I hated seeing her upset. Despite all those moments where she and I were two survivors without anyone besides each other, she was willing to throw all those memories into the memory hole if it meant gaining narcissistic mommys manipulative conditional approval. She wanted to believe everything in that house was fine and good except me. On a deep existential level, from one survivor to another, that is such a spit in the face. Could you imagine two torture victims abused at an orphanage living together only for one to one day pretend everything was fine but also awful and exclusively the fault of the other kid just because one survivor decided cucking out to authority was easier than escaping from it? I can understand not wanting to be reminded of bad times. But to lie to yourself and your fellow survivor about what really happened to both of you... I want to say I'm pissed off. But I just feel stunned and confused even now. Is a woman's capacity for willing self delusion truly that great? No wonder so many women are drawn to no touch knockout martial arts. My father was an abusive control freak who liked being angry. Once he forced me and my sister to try playing world of warcraft together. She and I had a good time alone together as Night Elf Druid (me) and Night Elf Hunter but dad wanted to be involved because he liked feeling in charge and wanted us used to obeying him in guild raids. That's uh... a multiplayer gamer clan thing. 5 to 40ish nerds would fight a dungeon full of enemy dragons together. I don't think the characters you gravitate towards says something about you but I find it funny that our characters reflected us. He insisted we must be humans so we were humans. She was a healer because that's the path of least resistance, it's living life on easy mode. I was the tank because I'm a survivor. I was used to getting the attention of monsters away from my sister IRL and getting them to focus on me. I chose to be a Paladin, a hero of justice who protects the weak and helpless, even though dad yelled at me for not picking Warrior because he wanted me to be a Warrior because he thinks Warrior is better even though it isnt. A paladin has more utility, he can heal and resurrect allies where a warrior just hits enemies. My sister on her own or when playing with me was a Hunter because it was fun and easy and you get a cool pet. But when dad was in control she was his. So she was a Priest because dad wanted a healbot to cast heal when necessary and wait around until heals were necessary. No hitting the enemies of course, "that wastes mana". Actually it preserves mana by GETTING THE FUCKING COMBAT OVER WITH FASTER which means I spend less time taking damage which means fewer heals are necessary and we get through quests faster so we can get this all over with. Loss mitigation, risk mitigation, speed, efficiency, fucking hell I was a nerdy kid but I had no illusions about what this "playtime" really amounted to and how much we all wanted it to end, how much we wanted our exposure to dad minimized. I was the backbone of the party and the reason it worked, my sister waited around unless helping was absolutely necessary... And dad was the DPS because he's an extraneous extra element who only knows how to hurt others. He can dish out damage but can't take it. He's a pussy and he's nowhere near as smart as he thinks he is and he always relied on me to interpret Warcraft Character Build Guides and translate it into retard speak. My sister and I were a good team, I could spellcast foes dead as a druid and heal or become a bear as necessary for tanking and when shit went wrong we used Shadowmeld to turn invisible and survive the fuckup. If only night elves could be paladins and her pet could AOE heal, then our setup would be perfect. But the game doesnt need perfect setup and optimal plays because it is a grindy game for addicted gay retards who love skinner boxes.
I fucking hated when the build guides said "if you use this spell more buff this spell and if you use that spell more buff that spell". Why? Because dad hated hearing it. So I'd translate by picking a random spell to buff. The fat retarded pussy hated thinking. He wanted a world of simple instructions and at the same time he felt entitled to make up his own and if he ever got us killed or made the game unfun enough for my sister to admit she didnt want to play any more he'd blame us. Guilt trip us over warcrafts cost (and shekel shriek jewishly if I suggested a free faster private server with custom better content because his boomerish ilk only know how to colour within the lines and pay for disney).
Sometimes I feel tempted to go back and replay warcraft on a free private server with sped up rates, but... no. No point. There are no glory days in warcraft to relive. I met no valued friends to quest with. Dad insisted on micromanaging every aspect of my gameplay and social interaction when I was on that game, and he was shit at everything. My sister is dead inside thanks to my parents. Who else would I play warcraft with? Besides other games are better than warcraft. And i dont want to be a MMO addict like my bitch father.
>>5857>>5864You could try
Lacrimosa of Dana (YSVIII). It's honestly one of the best gaymes I've ever played, of any genre. I had my doubts at first.
Felt slow, not particularly a huge fan of nip media either. But I continued under some insistence from a fren, and Boy! It was really good. I wanted to get some gameplay from the underwater dungeons for a thread on /vx/. But my hardware sucks so much ass.
Played the game on Vita.https://fitgirl-repacks.site/ys-viii-lacrimosa-of-dana/It is a reputable source that I've used extensively, but try not to make a typo when searching for that website, as there are many copycats.
Funny thing happened today.
Was watching tv with the bros when smug faggot old boomer snidely mocks our taste.
It's that faggot who thinks videogames are "shit and unrealistic because i saw one guy go into a room full of enemies with guns and nobodys bullets ricocheted off metal walls" but also believes "nunchuks are the ultimate weapon and someone who has trained with nunchuks for four years can defeat anyone and block anything even baseball bats and disarm baseball bat swingers by wrapping their nunchuk chains around the bat and pulling".
You can't whine about how the willing suspension of disbelief keeps a gun videogame playable and prevents it from turning into a comedic moment where all the baddies ricoshoot each other and die, and then weeb out over fucking nunchuks, when you're between fifty and sixty years old and the type of guy who falls asleep on the sofa when surrounded by other men talking to each other.
I try talking to him about kickstarter scams since I was talking to someone else about kickstarter and he smugly says "there is more to life than the screen". Nigger, nobody white I know looks at their phone more than you! This isn't fiction, kickstarter is something real that involves real money.
Of course, wigger friend takes boomers side just because it isnt mine. What a petty faggot. I forgot what he holds a grudge against me over. Does he even realize he acts like this? I ask because sometimes he plays nice and seems to forget the hatred he holds towards me at other times. He "found" the blender blade I lost and tells me it was in my other roommates cupboard. No answer for why he was looking in there so he probably took it and planted it but fuck it, at least I got it back. Maybe I would have found it sooner if I searched their cupboards while they weren't home but that would have been a breach of privacy and I don't like the idea of doing anything immoral.
Anyway I put on some Tom Scott real world interesting shit (did you know dievershitty fucked up an american musical road twice? The gay niggers mistranslated english into faggotese and carved grooves into the ground while fucking up the distance between each groove, fucking up the notes) and he calls Tom Scott a twat just for looking like Tom Scott. What a smug dismissive cunt. Who invited this clown? I don't care about some boomer's opinion on my career or my hobbies. I hand the remote to Wigger and ask if he's heard any good music lately, he puts on actual good metal (why does he listen to gangster trap mumble rap crap if he also likes real guitar music? Could be the aesthetics that paint being a violent failure with nothing to lose in a positive light, could be a desire to larp as someone less white and privileged and obsessed with copaganda) and we enjoy some music while the smug old boomer shits on his musical taste. Hilariously, angry guy hates it when his tastes are insulted by a smug old boomer. Hoo boy, he got pissed.
Honestly I feel bad for the old fart, who's insecure enough to front around kids? We're basically kids to him. No friends and family, no strong desire to go out and meet new people, his loneliness compelled him to insert himself into conversations with people a third of his age just so he can shit talk whatever the youth enjoys for not being Buzzfeed-tier MTV top ten Prince songs or whatever the fuck he usually watches. He's a normie. A consoomer drone normie desperate to reassure himself of his imagined superiority despite how this makes him come across to others. These days it's easy to look online and see a million smug normie morons who think affecting an authoritative tone and smirking down on others makes them seem more intelligent. He's a normie with nothing interesting to say and none of the deep insight he thinks he has. Maybe if I was ten years younger I'd tell you I hate the guy. Instead I exercised thinking "I'm glad I'm not elderly".
Goddamn, my old pony fanfic writing was embarassing. How did I ever produce this crap? Silver Star Apple is such an unpleasant person to be around, just like all the smug cunts real and fictional who inspired his "before" characterization. After character growth, his characterization would be inspired by real cool characters. It's retarded for Silver to put on a Canterlot accent and persona to fit in with snooty rich retards when he was raised by farmers and made his fortune making his own deals and his own products. Why would someone like this feel any urge to fit in? He should be speaking in western LOUDER when around snooty canterlot types just to rub it in their faces that the hard working cowboy is also smarter and richer than them. That would have suited his old personality better, where the twat sees everything as a competition due to his own insecurities. I should not have allowed obnoxious trends and what the fandom's tastes at the time seemed to trend towards and my own complete lack of writing experience to ruin this character. Silver's an obnoxious retard with a stick up his ass lodged in there so deep it would make gay buttsex impossible. Not that he would ever engage in sex because even gays probably hate this guy. Probably. I mean gays are still people they just crave cock and people are varied if they aren't normies. If I was homosexual but I didn't fit into the mold of what homosexual culture wants homosexuals to be I'd stay far away from gay culture. Like a guy who uses weed recreationally staying away from those who make it their lifestyle, aesthetic, and personality replacement. I'm glad my new Silver isn't gay. He even has a cooler name. Sunrise Stardust. Silver Star Apple worked as a pun name. Born Star Apple, he calls himself "Silver Star" in Canterlot to fit in while quietly rubbing the obvious in their faces. He thinks the Silver Stars of Sherrifs, they think of the night sky and precious metals. It was a good pun. But Sunny's name is better. Cooler. More unique, too. There are a million Silvers. But only one Sunrise Stardust.
>>>/ub/5875 →>It's great that DMC is reaching a wider audienceI've kinda learned to get worried whenever that happens to a franchise I enjoy. The staff no longer has to satisfy their niche audience; which often times means that the product will devolve into something vastly different, at the very least.
>but isn't this repeat of the "rickroll" meme just an excuse to show someone much of or even most of a porn animation before the cutaway?I can see the author being secretly a hentai fag. Then again, it's a bit subjective to say it's "most" of the animation.
>Doesn't seem like much of a bait and switch if the bait is something pornographic that would be hard if not impossible to put on youtube.I actually got it from yt, but I agree it may not last that long.
That said, am sure you are aware this is mostly done by, or for the appeal of a demographic that absolutely despises hanime.
I really don't think it's worse than western media when it comes to its degeneracy. The fact that even the WEF tried to encroach on it, is relevant to this. Which is further proof that going mainstream didn't help either.
I do love nip animation/drawing-styles when it comes to aesthetics. But I don't really consoom much of it.
>>5879>mostly done by, or for the appeal of a demographic that absolutely despises hanime.Okay, I've spoken too soon, holy shit. So, it's rather, that anime has become so mainstream, that by talking about porn, you are defaulting to hentai. Which obviously also applies to anti-porn.
>>5881Which is to say, you may be right, OP.
I've considered making a writing thread specifically about the writing project I've been working on. But I wouldn't want it cluttered up with "You're that british guy! Shut the fuck up!".
Even if aliens and mermaids are real, libtards are raping children now, so conspiracy theorists need to shut the fuck up about aliens and magic and focus on the important facts instead of speculating on what the kidfuckers "might" be hiding from us. We know enough about what they are hiding from us already to know that the leftist pedos deserve worse than anything they have ever done to innocent people. If a good man takes over to kill communism and end globalism he can declassify literally all shit ever. He can open Area 51 up to the public. He can let people know who killed JFK. And he can save kids, which is more important than any drunk with sleep paralysis demons who got roofied and buttraped at las vegas and woodstock and roswell only to stumble away thinking aliens did it. Flat earth is a gay marxist psyop that exists to make places where flat earther talk is permitted look distasteful. Same with aquatic ape theory. The government might be raping aliens in area 51. Or it might be epstein island 2. Nobody will know until the world's problems are fixed.
I used to think if I ever got a girlfriend I'd constantly tell the internet how grateful I am and what we did today. Obviously I'm grateful but I don't want to tell strangers how often we've fucked or how we fuck. That feels wrong. That's private. I even feel reluctant to tell people about our dates. This is my love. And hers. I'm not the kind of person who will liveblog a relationship. I don't want to be that kind of person. I'm not a popstar. I'm not Taylor Swift. She isn't Taylor Swift. She's not content. She's a person. She makes me want to write about amazing women who are almost as amazing as her. I finally found it. I finally found her. Best girl.
>>5889I remember asking "red-pill philosophy" once.
<why should I care whether the earth is round or flat?The general reception was kinda hilarious; as he sort of admitted that he never asked himself that question before.
>>5885I am interested, but I share the same concern.
>>5891And you doing the right thing fella. Glad you made it.
I used to fucking despise The Legend Of Spyro.
Why buy the Spyro franchise and spend all that money on expensive voice actors like ELIJAH FUCKING WOOD if you're going to half-ass it?
That's what I used to think.
But now... I think they didn't half ass it. I think this really is exactly what they wanted to make. Sure, it feels paint by numbers, assembled on a tight deadline out of ideas that were already done to death years ago. Sure, games released after, near, and before its release blow it out of the water. But I think there's a level of passion here I can respect, even though all I ever see when I look at this is the missed potential.
Crash Bandicoot started life as a platformer with simple 1-hit-kill combat. Then there were PS2 games with combat. You've got basic attacks and heavy attacks for breaking enemy blocks.
TLOS 1 and 2 have inferior combat because there is less complexity. Maybe I'm playing wrong but it seems the only block breakers are the elemental breaths that trivialize combat until the green meter runs out. Imagine if changing your equipped elemental breath also change what your attack buttons do in a way that matters. Basic attacks on Fire, slow strong attacks on Earth, swift weak attacks on Lightning mainly used for stunning foes, and for Ice, AOE and multi-hitting committal attacks. Could also change that elemental explosion button (why spend a whole button on such a simple thing?) so Earth gives you armour that makes you invulnerable and makes your attacks unblockable until the meter runs out, Lightning makes you faster and stronger and unblockable until the meter runs out, and Ice conjures ice swords or swirling storms around you until the meter runs out. Devil Trigger, big explosion, Summoned Swords, and invincibility mode. Better yet, let players hold the DT button to access new moves in their arsenal, or doubletap/doubletap and hold the second time to decide how much of that Super Meter they want to spend, and on what. DMC3 Dante's explosion is cool because you can build it up while attacking, TLOS Spyro's fire explosion is lame because you float up in slow motion to do it. Just slapping slow motion onto your game won't make it cool. What was the point of adding a bullet time button to a game that makes no effort to give Spyro any guns or anything sufficiently gun-like?
Fire Emblem's design restricts the gameplay identity of its characters. Characters can only be "Glass cannon, good enough meat shield, overpowered guy who can do both offense and defense, healer, your one dancer, barely passable filler, or worthless benchwarming filler trash."
No wonder Wargroove mixed so much of Advance Wars's DNA into their game. Tactical decisions made with funds and disposable units and military objectives are more tactical than "me send big smasher god waifu in to fuck everyone up and if she dies I reset".
But something makes the Dancers and Healers special in Fire Emblem. They can succeed without needing great damage or great defense. They have a use outside of combat in a game hyperfocused on combat. The series needs more classes who have gameplay utility outside of direct combat, like a Necromancer who creates disposable units who cannot gain EXP(forcing the player to choose between using disposable units who don't grow and your characters who can grow and have names and faces), and an Earth Mage who creates breakable barriers to protect your units/trap enemy units and isolate them from their friends/etc.
Got bored and felt like fixing these stupid whiny narcissistic mom comics and then got bored so that's all I'm doing