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Should I get therapy?
Anonymous
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Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting? Who should I do therapy with? Can I trust my entire life's story with anyone who's not on this site?
Maybe if I tell you my life's story, you can give me life advice.

I was raised by abusive lefty parents who hated their smart white son and often tried to push me towards trannyism. Never fell for it.
First I was sent to a shit primary school. A few kids bullied me there and teachers punished me whenever I fought back. I was a fat angry kid who could punch hard when pushed, and they liked attacking me and then running away. But when we fought properly I'd kick their asses. One time I kicked their asses hard enough to make them stop bothering me.
When I graduated from this school I was sent to the special school of a catholic school, and made the personal property of one old bitch there who hated autistic kids. Around that era I got interested in Game Maker and pokemon romhacking but that interest never amounted to anything, though I did have a USB full of GBA roms and romhacking tools and the fact that I was able to code at such a young age when not all kids were learning that should have shown somebody that I had more to offer the world than shitty schools thought I should.
Thanks to that school, my schedule looked like this: Enter a side building, wait for the day to end, sometimes get insulted by the teachers if they felt like abusing me, usually get to eat lunch at lunchtime but sometimes they wouldn't let me (and it didn't matter whether I brought a packed lunch to school or brought money for the school cafeteria) and eventually go home to a house with parents that, when told the right words by my boomer bullies, would freak out and abuse me at home too. Rarely I'd get to join in a classroom... but class clowns would act up until I'd get blamed for it and sent out.
If I had a tape recorder or decent phone, I could have gathered evidence of the shit said/done to me (audio files of verbal abuse, pics of bruises, etc) and posted it online. But I was never allowed anything like that, because my parents feared I might use it on them. One day at school the art teacher bumped me with her car while backing up into a crowd of kids, I was fine but pissed off and the art teacher shrieked and blame-slinged feministically at me until I lost my patience and started barking back, then she put me in front of the headmaster and I told him about the abusive staff members and called him terrible at his job, so he kicked me out.
Then I was sent to a worthless "speshul" school where a few teachers abused me and the students usually watched in confusion when they weren't joining in. Whenever I trusted an adult enough to tell him or her what happened at home, that adult decided to call child protective services, who sent the same fucking boomer woman over to warn my parents that I was talking about what went on at home again. I couldn't get away from my family until I became the problem of Adult Protective Services, where the slightly less retarded and lazy people go.
A woman my age at the autistics-only youth club I attended got mad at me over retarded internet roleplaying nonsense-drama that didn't even involve me, and she lied about me to the cops and accused me of abusing her, even went to some clinic to fake signs of a concussion she didn't have because she's a spoilt bitch who knows how to play her rich parents like fiddles, she was a low-functioning sociopath woman with histrionic personality disorder and every retarded boomer's sympathy. She lied and got away with it, because the cops weren't interested in this case after she cartoonishly fucked up and started gloating about physically assaulting me without realizing it hurt her case. But even though I said to the managers of the youth club and the friends I knew there "If what she said about me was true I'd be in jail so you know she's lying" they couldn't believe me because they were dumb. There was one weird creepy fucker I used to talk to online because his "woe is me, asian school life is sooo hard" shit kind of reminded me of me at the time, but he got severe TDS and stopped being a person once he stopped viewing me as a person so I'm glad I didn't tell him anything sensitive or identifiable that could fuck me over later in life.
Anyway when I went to college, I was lied to and exploited by the staff until I dropped out. They even tricked me into taking a worthless course that turned out to be the dump where they dump the autistic kids and give them a useless fake newspaper to write. I wish I dropped out sooner, trying to live on barely fucking anything is hard enough when your mom took govt money meant for you, but it's harder when you're forced to spend most of your cash on train rides between your college and shitty home every two weeks and all your cunt government can offer is a discount pass. Now that I'm living alone, I've got a free bus pass I can barely use. Government priorities, am I right?

I am an autistic man, I'm 24 years old, I'll be 25 next year, and I've spent so much of my life as property of someone else that I find it hard to notice when I'm hungry or tired and remember that I should eat or sleep without someone or a phone alarm telling me to. I shower every night before bed but sometimes I miss meals, it's what helped me go from obese fatty to only-slightly-overweight. I don't think I know what it feels like to be loved by someone else. Learning makes me happy and I love documentaries but when I tried an online free learning site it reminded me of school and I couldn't do it. Sometimes I talk to people and act charming like those "Charisma on command" youtube vids told me so they'll like me, but I've never given anyone my full backstory before. The only woman in my life I ever kissed was that bitch who falsely accused me and got away with it. I want to say I have no interest in modern women but I still feel the urge to wank to them. But I don't wank any more because of nofap.
Anonymous
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There were some replies here but I didnt get to read them in time. What did they say?
Anonymous
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>>3147
Talking to a therapist won't hurt as I see it. If you select to see one, make sure to get an psychiatrists and not a psychologists as the psychologists can only do talk and not prescribe any medicine that might be beneficial. Sometimes using medicine for a short while (subjective to needs) can be helpful and enough. It was for me. It can take some time for medicine to work and give new outlook on life, so expect half a year to a year with probably adjusting before seeing/feeling a change. Change will be gradual too.
I know a lot say you should not take anti-depressive medicine or the like, but I don't see it as a particular bad thing as it can help. This is also why I think looking for a psychiatrists and not a psychologists is key. Because it takes a while for the therapist to get to know your situation and what might help, and then discovering, if you chose to go to an psychologists, there is nothing he/she can do except offer more talk can be a downer.
Anonymous
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>>3152
Some of the things i wrote were a bit too personal, basically detailing my experience with schools and how much i hated it, it brought back some memories i don't want shared.
I'll rewrite a certain segment i wrote.
Don't keep crying over old tears, it only brings you down further and is probably what those twisted twats want you to feel like, don't let them win over yourself but instead use those old wounds to strengthen yourself, use them as a baseline for how nothing can hurt you emotionally as hard as it hit before, don't let those scars bite back at you from the past, i know you can't forget what has happened to you and neither can i forget how cruel others have been.
Focus on something else to get your mind away from self history, walking in the woods always made me feel calm and being around ponies has been a good stress relief, it's nice to be with something that isn't a human yet is still sociable, i don't think i can emotionally live without them at this point as they give my life meaning.
>>3153
I never enjoyed telling others about my past except with tulpas, psychology only made things worse for me mentally and i hated how the only thing they could offer were questions, i was looking for a friend but i came to the wrong place.
I avoid prescribed anti depressants because i would rather use my own mind altering medicines than them, maybe they would work but the things i use at the moment suffice, i don't see any drugs as bad but rather the people who take them and in what way they use them on themselves, it depends upon how the person uses it rather than the drug itself since a drug is nothing more than a drug, it serves whatever purpose it has for the user but it is the user himself who decides how they use it.
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>>3147
>>3154
Therapy is 90% just getting stuff off your chest and prompts to make you self reflect. I say its better to introspect on your own, but there's no real harm in it. You're basically doing that here now.

I think the more important thing would be setting up your mind, body and surroundings so you feel happy. Introspection helps with that.
Anonymous
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>>3155
>Therapy is 90% just getting stuff off your chest and prompts to make you self reflect.
Whenever i attempted to self reflect it didn't work as good as talking to my thought forms about personal experiences, yes it is mainly about letting out emotion but it never satisfies me enough to warrant me feeling better.
>I say its better to introspect on your own, but there's no real harm in it.
I agree, introspection within my head was more in depth and personalized than any form of therapy i underwent, i couldn't trust the therapists at all since i knew they would diagnose my mental health with a label which i didn't like if i told them everything.
>You're basically doing that here now.
Yes, i am and have been for a while due to a couple factors, OP has for a longer time than i have though but doesn't really understand why he is doing it, i have a purpose for what i write and so does he even if he doesn't know it.

>I think the more important thing would be setting up your mind, body and surroundings so you feel happy.
Magical workings are the most mentally meditating and effective form of mental help but can also be a detriment if done wrong.
>Introspection helps with that.
It does and i recommend it.
Anonymous
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>>3155
Society is poisoned. It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be. We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity. We are expected to live lies and support lies. Politicians paid by the music industry are trying to attach jail sentences to DMCA copystrikes but they are still less reviled by normies than anyone the tv calls a nazi. We are expected to be perfect enough to keep this broken machine working even though this machine was redesigned to hate us and kill us and drain us dry. Men are poisoned from birth in body and food and nonsense ideas forced on us by hollywood and boomer parents and school. When I try speaking to fellow christians they turn out to be cucked satanist liberal scum who refuse to recognize that laziness and PC lies won't save anyone. Nobody can appease satan or its synagogue. They are pure evil and I wish I could save people. But so many people don't want to listen to reason.
So many second hand ideas swirl in my head. I wish I could flush all the lies away. I wish I could speak to a wise all knowing mentor figure who is a thousand times my age and knows the future even though I know those dont exist. I wish I could talk to God and ask him all the questions man could ever ask.
I don't even know what I want from myself any more. I have unrealistic expectations for myself. I expect myself to be fine after everything that's happened. And that's unrealistic. People have broken from going through half the shit I went through and there are people out there who survived lives ten times as bad as mine.
Sometimes I wonder if a live spent accomplishing nothing and hiding in fantasy would make me happier than a life spent trying and failing. These are normal human feelings, right?
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>>3157
>Society is poisoned.
A venom has always lingered around the serpent sanctuaries, wherever there is houses there are rats and if there are no measures to get rid of them they will only feed from other peoples work, society has always been the victim of snakes and will continue to be that way until a potent antitoxin has been created to null the effects of street vipers, until then we have snakes creating carnage wherever they please because they can.
>It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be.
No one knows what they want, they only follow what they think they desire, men can't escape from themselves which most can't deal with so they use methods of cope, men can be whatever they want to be but live in fear of others from a young age which influences their thought.
>We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity.
The heroism of men has been reduced to a fantasy stereotype of super hero characters, nothing now is expected of men other than to submit to false help and hope, to accept being walked over by those who they are told are better than themselves.
>We are expected to live lies and support lies.
The narrowness of education has imposed superficial lies about the sexes upon impressionable children which has resulted in them living a life of lies where they hate themselves for existing, the 'men' of today have trouble living with themselves instead of actually living.
>Politicians paid by the music industry are trying to attach jail sentences to DMCA copystrikes but they are still less reviled by normies than anyone the tv calls a nazi.
While orthodox Jews and Muslims abduct girls with the help of police, get offered bail out of jail when caught and given a soft sentence as opposed to a guy in England carrying a steak knife or fishing without a license, they are offered a discount on life because they are not native which is a clear example the state does not care about the lives of it's own people.
>We are expected to be perfect enough to keep this broken machine working even though this machine was redesigned to hate us and kill us and drain us dry.
Not everything is picture perfect as people are led to believe, the government is nothing more than secret slave masters who use people for profit then discard them like a used condom, humans have little meaning to the state other than as potential profit or pleasure, their livelihood is not the concern of them but rather the service they are forced to serve and anyone who rebels is locked up in a dog cage built for men.
>Men are poisoned from birth in body and food and nonsense ideas forced on us by hollywood and boomer parents and school.
There is so much soy or chemicals inside food to dampen the bodies of boys so that they are feminized and thus more accepting to things imposed upon them without their choice, they are told it's okay to have a different opinion and have choices but when they voice their thoughts or do something that is deemed wrong they are treat no better than a dog, the sole purpose of government funded education and entertainment is for brainwashing.
>When I try speaking to fellow christians they turn out to be cucked satanist liberal scum who refuse to recognize that laziness and PC lies won't save anyone.
Christians are nothing more than sheep, they follow whatever is the most kindest or nicest thing they are told to mindlessly obey to, it is the religion of submission and stupid sin that belongs in the bin, it isn't worth being good for god if there is no benefit for the person who willingly gives them self to an invisible man, it's better to better yourself instead of doing it for someone else who isn't you.
>Nobody can appease satan or its synagogue.
It's a waste of time trying to make peace with someone who was born to create chaos, the Jews are the embodiment of the 'devil' and definitely haven't strayed from being demons due to genetics, they can't stop themselves from doing what they were born to do nor can they stray from ever riding Satan's sleigh, the ride certainly hasn't ended for the Jews and they will continue to do what their ancestors did since they derive from the same Satanic stock of Sodom.
>They are pure evil and I wish I could save people.
They are inherently immoral and nothing can change that, they were bred to inflict the worst possible amount of oppression on those who aren't them and were taught that from birth.
>But so many people don't want to listen to reason.
You must try different methods of mental warfare on those you wish to apply doubt of the masters upon, a dog does not willingly go against his owner without a reason, give them a good point that logically suites the illogical and they will secede to follow you, humans are animals which means the standard rules of pressure and release also applies to them since they are apes so you can create a question that goes against their train of thought in a way that brings their train to a stop, most will not go down easily in their realm of logic since they are obedient to though so observe for the ones who are the least likely to be loyal to lies then you will have a chance of instilling your will if you are confident to do so, be patient as it is a learning process for both you and whoever is your subject.

>So many second hand ideas swirl in my head.
Same, i have lots of creativity but limit myself because i don't know what i truly want so i ignore my artistic ability, it is the result of a creative imagination which is more of a gift than a curse, i don't want to be normal and i know that it's best to think outside the box than to keep yourself close minded, by thinking of what you can do to create something new you are letting those thoughts run free which is good to see since not many people can look at things from a philosophical angle with an open mind.
I appreciate you for doing what you want.

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Anonymous
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>>3156
Talking things out doesn't necessarily have to be talking. Consider getting a journal.

A pen an paper journal, and write in it. The tactility of using a pen instead of a keyboard to write can sometimes help. Getting your thoughts out and fully written down can tell that part of your mind that's stressed about those thoughts that you've worked through the problems as much as you can. You'll find that you worry about those things less.

You also don't have to only write stuff that bothers you. You can write down the nice things that happen in the day. If you've had a decent meal, a good workout, an interesting dream, et cetera.
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>I wish I could flush all the lies away.
It's not that easy to simply end it all, suicide is the weak man's option and while down in the dumps everyone questions their existence, no one is exempt from this life of toil and strife but we are still here to live in fear, it doesn't make sense why everyone is so horrible but sometimes there isn't a good reason for why things happen and existence doesn't need an excuse to keep being bad or to do good, there is no answer to the questions we want to ask ourselves and you will never find it no matter how far you go for that knowledge, it will not come to you unless you accept that pain is temporary and necessary, it is worthless crying over your ineptness or a situation out of your control, the world is full of shit and it's hard to flush when there is no handle on life.
>I wish I could speak to a wise all knowing mentor figure who is a thousand times my age and knows the future even though I know those dont exist.
I am not that person and you will never find one, they are just men with experience in thought who have practice with their psyche, there are no gods other than what we are capable of knowing which is confined to our human intelligence, i know nothing and neither does anyone else, it's all mind games that do not mean anything other than to get part of a wider answer, i'm not old nor am i wise, i just spend my time doing what i like to do and that is the same with everyone else.
>I wish I could talk to God and ask him all the questions man could ever ask.
Why? What would you gain from asking some guy in the sky why people live and die for apparently no definitive reason other than to merely exist? I don't care because i have no good questions that matter in the grand scheme of life, i wouldn't trust him and his answers if he wasn't myself as his answers would only make sense to him because he is only an extension of man.
We all wish for something but it only comes true if you make it actual through the will of your inner self, inside yourself you are a man and you know what men are able to do but you only need to listen to yourself instead of relying on the hearsay of others, their words do not apply to you and your life.
>I don't even know what I want from myself any more.
Neither do i, nor does it matter whether i exist or not but i do, i do exist and i am here writing to you while on my surf across the web, i am thinking of responses to your responses while i exist but i do not know why i do these things at all, although it doesn't matter why since i am enjoying it so i put aside my other wants because i feel it is necessary to give you something from me, my words on a screen may mean nothing to you and neither do they have a meaning to me because i don't care about their meaning since the answer is not for me to know.
>I have unrealistic expectations for myself.
So do i, i want all the mares i could ever get my hands on but i know i will not be their master since it i am not meant for that role, i expect myself to stop myself yet i cannot since i am guided by my desire which is stronger than my opinions or biases, i expected to be a better person than i have turned out to be, i had so many opportunities i missed out on but yet i still take the path i know since it is all i know.
>I expect myself to be fine after everything that's happened.
You have expected things that have not come, you have been let down so many times by others that you expect nothing from them, you only expect betrayal which is logical given your vast amount of bad experiences at the hands of those you thought you trusted, your calls were so many times ignored that you have grown accustomed to being the subject of hate, i will give it to you that you are definitely persistent, you haven't given up yet at the hope that someone is there for you somewhere, you are still looking for someone to trust since you never had anyone trustworthy throughout your whole life, you are looking for that affection you missed out on.
I trusted people i shouldn't have and was punished for being a fool so much so that i figured it's best to keep away from those i don't know since i have come to fear people more than my eventual death, it is only logical.
>And that's unrealistic.
You will eventually feel like you are in a good position but you have to fight for it, the struggle of life is a fight and i have fought all my life against people along with myself, it is a game we are eventually going to lose at some point but we must fight like men if we are to become strong, even if we are only a shell of what are supposedly men, we mustn't give up for everything we have been through for everything we have fought for would be in vain.
>People have broken from going through half the shit I went through and there are people out there who survived lives ten times as bad as mine.
I have never handled stress from other people very well, i break like a twig when faced with something i'm told to do, i do not follow orders very well and never have done so i make my own rules because i can't follow others, the school told me what to do and think so i struck out against them for treating me like their pet which i was punished for, it didn't work though since i didn't listen to their word or care about what they had to say, they didn't care about me so i didn't care about them.
>Sometimes I wonder if a live spent accomplishing nothing and hiding in fantasy would make me happier than a life spent trying and failing.
It doesn't matter whatsoever what you do with yourself but if you do what you enjoy the most then you will have a life of love, the words or thoughts of others cannot affect you other than what you let yourself do to you, your fantasy or enjoyment is subject to you, no one else.
>These are normal human feelings, right?
There are anomalies in every man's emotions, no man can feel the same about the same as another of his kind, do what your human brain enjoys the most instead of doing what other people like.
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>>3164
I already have tried that, the most i could do was write about my dreams for a few days until i got bored of writing about a manifestation of my sleeping mind, it doesn't matter to me how much good or bad i do in a single day since it will always be something different the next, call me crazy for not caring about myself but i hate writing about the little things i do throughout the day, i don't care about what i do and neither do i consider it worthy to write down because it doesn't interest me.
Anonymous
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>>3166
>>3164
Part of writing and being thankful is a psychological reward for the subconscious mind.
You made yourself a nice lunch, it was really tasty. Thanks. You might not remember, but your subconscious will note down this victory and strive to have that kind of victory again. Maybe bigger or better.
<You wrote down your dreams, it was something. Thanks. Your subconscious will lean a bit more where you remember it.
<You write down the interesting things. Thanks for helping me spot it. Your subconscious will be on the look out for those neat things.
<You accomplished your goal today. No matter what it is. Thanks. Your subconscious will help you achieve any and all goals you put forth.
These little steps add up, it's training and it's extracting enjoyment, contentment, or at least engagement from day to day life. It builds history you can rely on.
<Remember that one time we pulled through? Let's that again.
<Remember that weird experience? Let's use this specific part for this purpose.
Then someones asking retorical questions you get replies.
>"Where did I leave my keys?"
<flash of thought, table plate
>"Thanks."
The metastructure remembers that, and will strive for that goal.
Although it didn't necessarily have to be writing, but a physical testament to these things can be useful.
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>>3166
You seem to lack patience and focus. These arent practices that are going to work overnight, and progress will always be slower than one would prefer. Theres no magic bullet/cure.
>I already tried that
For how long? A few days? Get real.
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>>3167
>>3168
I don't care about writing down what i do throughout my life, i would rather not go through with the process instead of doing it, i have the tools at my disposal but i will do it when i'm ready or when i feel like it, if i do something like writing about my dreams or something i did then i can't bring myself to continue the cycle for more than a couple days otherwise i get frustrated quickly, whenever i have written about them i like it but easily lose interest after repeating the same action with a completely different dream.
I have seen certain things while asleep that directly tell me what is going to happen throughout the week but the dissection of what the hell went on in my head is often too in depth to detail in full, my dreams are complex so it's easier to just not write about them because i often have 4 or 5 dreams per night, i have the choice of not writing them.
Yes i'm very impatient and i hate focusing on a certain task if i don't feel right about doing it, i get bored so i move onto something else or get frustrated and destroy what i have done so it's better not to push myself.
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>>3169
Sounds like boredom and frustration are self defense mechanisms geared toward justifying for you what you do and dont want to do, which seems to include (but is not limited to) pushing yourself.
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>>3170
You are right, thank you.
I can't get over it, i have tried and tried, it has plagued my life, limited all my capabilities and i hate how childish i am when i make a mistake while i was enjoying something like drawing or writing, it has led to me hating what i thought would have been nice to do so many times, i like art but know i would get flustered over something that shouldn't matter so i don't because i know that it would be gone at the fault of my hands.
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>>3171
You need to find someone irl who has been in your shoes and has successfully made the changes you hope to make.
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>>3172
It's as if this behavior has been engraved into my psyche, it's a part of who i am and i despise it, my father suffers the same mental hardship so maybe i should seek him out and ask him, he is the one who knows since he is the one who has dealt with this longer, he has done things at the fault of himself that he regrets like i have regretted...
Anyways thanks again.
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>>3169
I understand to an extent.
And the doing what is right with gut instincts is really important and it is vital, but also verifying them for outside manipulations. In my experience gut feelings are true.
Writing (or any action undertaken) shouldn't have to feel frictional and harsh.
The point isn't dissecting dreams, just key elements or a word or two a distinction that it happened.
Arts also happen to be excellent for subconscious communications.
My experience when the urge for self destructive practices (or feelings) emerge I brutally deconstruct those urges to find out why and what reason. If it's magic related and the answer is magic, that's a bit tricky. At least as much information I can unearth or require.
When all else fails save and make a copy or two (if possible). Then do as you wish upon the copy that isn't related. Or switch to a new frustration art piece that explores the feeling.
>>3157
>Society is poisoned. It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be. We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity.
That's the point. They want to grind away at the fabric of your being.
>>3147
With that said the most important thing is to reinforce and discover, and know yourself.
>>3171
I would recomend Jocko Wilink, while he isn't perfect he does have good advice for self control and discipline. Mostly the other cohosts expanding and detailing. Do it or Don't do it
A martial art might also help.
>>3172
This is very useful.
I would suggest for the time being picking one tiny itty bitty thing you know you could easily do that would help you.
I'm talking instead of reading thirty books a day, read a sentence a day. Something that is easily done you would laugh at doing, and contributing to do it. Maybe more at times, but at least meeting that minimum your goals will be accomplished.
Anonymous
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>>3166
I don't think you really get what I was saying.
Write. Writing = thinking. Just write whatever comes to mind. Aim to fill up a page of writing on a regular basis. If writing out all the details of a complex dream is too much to do, then sketch out the dream in general terms.

Your goal is to train your mind to regularly work through ideas and see them through to the end. The self-reflection and mood alteration (from focusing on good things that happen) are almost incidental compared to this. You're trying to build up good mental habits. Good mental habits are a critical foundational skill to have for just about everything else you do in life.
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>>3174
>I understand to an extent.
Maybe you do, i wouldn't put it on you.
>And the doing what is right with gut instincts is really important and it is vital, but also verifying them for outside manipulations.
Forcing something that shouldn't be pressured is a good way to create an explosion, your body will tell you when it's ready for whatever you plan to do with it.
>In my experience gut feelings are true.
Always get an upset stomach when i know somethings amiss or i'm in danger, the gut rumbles and you know what's gonna happen.
>Writing (or any action undertaken) shouldn't have to feel frictional and harsh.
That's why i don't write often, if the time isn't right to write i won't.
>The point isn't dissecting dreams, just key elements or a word or two a distinction that it happened.
Like an anchor to the memory.
>Arts also happen to be excellent for subconscious communications.
Shame i haven't had that happen to me yet, i have had direct subconscious links where something is explicitly shown either just before falling asleep or waking up where i actually see what i am going to see sometime in the future, although i have practiced asking myself.
>My experience when the urge for self destructive practices (or feelings) emerge I brutally deconstruct those urges to find out why and what reason.
Usually results in me hurting myself somehow, it has a reason but it derives from my self harshness towards me, when questioning becomes part of the equation it only furthers me to being furious so instead i drop what is ultimately causing it.
>When all else fails save and make a copy or two (if possible).
Doesn't always work, i have ideas for drawings but suppress them because every time i have tried putting my thoughts to form it goes the way i didn't want it to go, i can't stand having to constantly make changes to match my errors because i know i'm just gonna make more so i don't give a fuck about drawing anymore, it's tedious.
>A martial art might also help.
Forget it, it's not for me neither are any other arts, i am not an artist in anything.
>>3175
Sorry to break it to you but it isn't in my interest to write, i have no reason to train my mind to do nothing for the supposed sake of something good, my goal is not to write because i dislike even writing sentences or letters to people so it would be pointless to do it, i am not a writer.
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>>3176
>Sorry to break it to you but it isn't in my interest to write
It's not about which one of your existing interests you should continue to indulge in, it's about helping you fix your brain. It's about rebuilding the fundamental structure and routines to properly organize the world you perceive such that you can deal with hardships in a more mature way.

I'm sorry, but if this is the kind of response you're having, then I honestly don't think therapy would help you. The minute you would be asked to do some sort of exercises to help you, you'd resist and give up immediately. No-one can really force you to rebuild yourself, you have to do it on your own. At least not until things get bad enough for you to be committed against your will. Even so, it'd be hard going to have your caretakers holding your hand and trying to force you to do these exercises. I think most institutions that used to do this (if they ever did) would have swapped to just drugging you up to the point where you weren't a problem anymore.

We're not telling you to develop a new passion, we're trying to get you to develop a constructive habit. It's like brushing your teeth. It's not all that "fun", but it's good for you.

Writing, whether it be journaling, stream of consciousness, or any other format, is about getting you in the habit of putting your thoughts into words.
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>>3177
What?
I never said i needed therapy, you go have fun with your journals and paragraphs of bullshit, doctor.
Anonymous
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No.3179
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>>3177
It's no use, he doesn't want it. Also.
>We're not telling you to develop a new passion, we're trying to get you to develop a constructive habit.
Who is "we"?
Anonymous
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No.3180
3181
>>3179
He was complaining about writing. There was more than one person talking about using writing as a tool. The "we" refers to all the people who were suggesting using writing, or who were suggesting using some sort of tool and applying it for more than just a few days before giving up on it.
Anonymous
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>>3180
>He was complaining about writing.
There should be another reason for him to not like writing so much.
>There was more than one person talking about using writing as a tool. The "we" refers to all the people who were suggesting using writing, or who were suggesting using some sort of tool and applying it for more than just a few days before giving up on it.
Alright i was a bit confused, what other tools are there?
Anonymous
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No.3182
>>3181
>There should be another reason for him to not like writing so much.
I don't like writing if i don't feel like writing and i don't like drawing if i don't want to, if i'm not determined or lack motivation to do so the idea is soon scrapped and forgotten, it's unlikely for me to do either anyhow because it's never had an appeal to me to be good at it or share it with others, is that good enough for you?
Anonymous
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No.3202
3215
Writing is fun and theraputic when done freely. If it's not fun for you try writing something else. Even if it's just shitposting. Always wondered what it would be like to dump the biggest shitposts in some big writing genre under a fake name. To try and intentionally upset readers with countless meandering chapters of bullshit and suffering and dick jokes.

Been exercising more lately but legs are still weak, ankles and knees are still shit, stamina is still low and run speed is slow. I should get out more but the roads and paths are dangerously slippery in the winter and autumn from ice and wet leaves. even mild exposure to the sun burns me in spring. Maybe I should actually try sunscreen.

It hurts when talking to people I care about and hearing how this plandemic fucked them over. Some people have elderly obese smoker 50 something wine aunts who supposedly died from the Rona so they refuse to listen to any questioning of the narratives or govts. I always wondered what it feels like to have a family full of people you care about. My family was bastards so I never got to feel that. What if I missed out on something vital for healthy and stable human development?
I wish a short burst of hyper intense training could instantly make me amazing because I desperately want to become stronger. But last time I went into "push myself no matter what" mode I fucked my elbow up and it took ages to heal. I need to be smart. Slow and steady wins the race.
Anonymous
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No.3215
3216
>>3202
>Writing is fun and theraputic when done freely. If it's not fun for you try writing something else. Even if it's just shitposting. Always wondered what it would be like to dump the biggest shitposts in some big writing genre under a fake name. To try and intentionally upset readers with countless meandering chapters of bullshit and suffering and dick jokes.
Intentionally upsetting people has been a favorite of mine for ages, that's what i have been doing here for awhile and has been my main game.
>Been exercising more lately but legs are still weak, ankles and knees are still shit, stamina is still low and run speed is slow. I should get out more but the roads and paths are dangerously slippery in the winter and autumn from ice and wet leaves.
Try walking long distances in flat shoes or boots, unbalanced heels on boots are a killer and can fuck up your posture so avoid them if you can, if you want to still get out then just walking won't be as bad as running on ice.
>even mild exposure to the sun burns me in spring. Maybe I should actually try sunscreen.
Sunburns make your skin more resistant against the sun if you can endure it, the spring sun is the time when i'm most outgoing so i get burned early so the skin builds up a defense against the warmer summer sun, it's a nice trade for having fun given it's an eye for an eye with being burned, spring is the best time of the year given how exciting it is waiting for it and how often it pays off at the climax.
>It hurts when talking to people I care about and hearing how this plandemic fucked them over. Some people have elderly obese smoker 50 something wine aunts who supposedly died from the Rona so they refuse to listen to any questioning of the narratives or govts.
Gullible cattle are so easily herded once they have mislead proof of an imaginary worry, it's quite pathetic how uncooperative with words them become after a single occurrence without further research because of some hoax that they believe.
>I always wondered what it feels like to have a family full of people you care about. My family was bastards so I never got to feel that. What if I missed out on something vital for healthy and stable human development?
At times it becomes an irritation but for the most part it's worth being part of one due to the added support that comes with a family, on the other hand you can have a real shitty handing of family cards so you get a crap deal that wasn't down to you, it boils down to the parents and how they treated their kids so a bunch of behaviors can become changed from someone's upbringing, neglect from parents or abuse can make a kid become lacking in certain emotions like empathy, if the mother is especially cruel then the boy will become highly distrustful of females or completely lack interest in them, absence of a father figure can result in bratty behavior or mischievous actions leading to nonseriousness about important tasks, there is a lot of changes that can occur depending solely upon the parents actions towards their children, it's all luck really on how you get given good and bad experiences from families.
>I wish a short burst of hyper intense training could instantly make me amazing because I desperately want to become stronger. But last time I went into "push myself no matter what" mode I fucked my elbow up and it took ages to heal. I need to be smart. Slow and steady wins the race.
Obsession over physique is generally good for both sexes but can turn into an unhealthy hobby quickly from over indulgence in the desire for fast change, there are reasons to want to be the best and look the nicest but they were never a major concern of mine from how fast my interests in the cosmetic dissipated, i value my own strength over being constantly rather than becoming fixated on how i appear to others, my social nature has evolved into becoming unsocial from years of genuine uninterest in the common fads.
Patience is a virtue and is totally worth it in the long run, don't overstep the line too quickly then fall over yourself to receive ridicule from others, look at where you are placing your feet beforehand.
Anonymous
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No.3216
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>>3215
This sounds like good advice.
I don't think I have any interest in modern women. I still like tits and ass but I've never met a woman I actually liked. So many of them are shallow selfish "lesser men" with little to offer the world coasting on their privileged gender while robbing men for fun and profit. When I talk to women I just met I feel like I am waiting for them to disappoint me and reveal themselves to be as terrible and selfish and petty and malicious and short-sighted as their jewed upbringing dictates.
I saw a video about post-Avatar depression. That blue people film gave some fags who watched it Otherkin Syndrome. These people actually wanted to go to Pandora and be cute-ish blue cat niggers and live on this pretty planet because it seemed so much nicer than earth. The film's "fuck humanity" message stuck with them. They expressed misery and depression and a desire to suicide and reincarnate into pandora. It reminded me of the weeaboos and bronies with similar mindsets.
Just like how when Lord Of the Rings was in cinemas... so many people watched it that it turned fags into Elfkin. Losers who decided they were elves on the inside or wanted to act like elves and reincarnate into elves.
Did you know? When Elfkin forums got popular many other weirdos went to these forums claiming to be vampires or werewolves or gods or other misc things from movies they saw as children. Elfkin named those weirdos Otherkin.
Modernity. It's so "wonderful" that everyone... even the normies... spends all their time and money trying to escape from it.
Anonymous
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No.3226
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>>3216
>I don't think I have any interest in modern women
They are strange and make no sense to me, it's a waste of time being around them and frustrating, i can't stand them or their stupid interests so it's hard trying to put up with them for very long given they are no better than children, their bodies are the only thing that is interesting about them.
>I still like tits and ass but I've never met a woman I actually liked.
I have met horses i liked but never a good woman, at least horses have hearts unlike the female apes.
>So many of them are shallow selfish "lesser men" with little to offer the world coasting on their privileged gender while robbing men for fun and profit.
Most of them are not worth the light of day to see let alone giving attention to, men are stuck within their own world while women are trapped in their surroundings.
>When I talk to women I just met I feel like I am waiting for them to disappoint me and reveal themselves to be as terrible and selfish and petty and malicious and short-sighted as their jewed upbringing dictates.
It almost always happens, distrust is the logical solution after being betrayed countless times by other members of your species, i am friends with hardly no one for good people are a rare commodity, they are dicks and i hate them all.
Their upbringing is spoiled and bratty due to the way society treats them like they are the princesses they aren't, it results in them feeling entitled to just about anything that they don't deserve, the little girls are the ones who get the expensive ponies from their equally Jewish programmed mothers that they get to make run circles for entertainment, they don't care about the wellbeing of others if they get satisfaction out of them so they are not trustworthy at all, they will walk over you like you are an animal until you are pushed to the breaking point then they get away with it. Their behavior is completely akin to full blown psychopathy and modernity has only managed to influence their unruly attitudes.
>I saw a video about post-Avatar depression. That blue people film gave some fags who watched it Otherkin Syndrome.
Otherkins are unable to accept the scary world outside so they live in an imaginary world where they might have a more fair chance at existing in a world of rainbows, the Christians are no better since all their efforts are towards an imaginary world too.
>These people actually wanted to go to Pandora and be cute-ish blue cat niggers and live on this pretty planet because it seemed so much nicer than earth.
People so easily fall into any form of abysmal escapism that they can get their heads around or make them feel the nicest, it's pathetic how it's encouraged in the media to act like an utter idiot and stick your head in the ground so you don't have to see the world for the hell that it is.
>The film's "fuck humanity" message stuck with them.
No wonder, it was Jews encouraging that people are bad as a method of subversion from reality, visual impressions are so greatly impressed upon any fools who believe the scripts and what they influence along with the madness of the media.
Fuck humanity is a good message if applied to Jewish controlled civilization since a slaves life is no life, governments are good when they want to be but in general they are destroyers of everything they touch, it isn't humans who are evil but the self entitled brats who love to be in control, they are the ones who should be persecuted but most humans refuse to acknowledge the misdeeds of those 'above' them.
>They expressed misery and depression and a desire to suicide and reincarnate into pandora. It reminded me of the weeaboos and bronies with similar mindsets.
It is a literal form of giving up and submitting, they get into the mindset of a depressed dog then instead of biting the hand that feeds them poison they take themselves out of the opportunity for revenge against the world, all those wasted lives were spent in toil due to living in the real devils chains, they gave themselves to the government and spent their free time crying about life rather than making a change, it's like the shepherd and his sheep in the way of how sheep are incapable of realizing the situation they are in.
>Did you know? When Elfkin forums got popular many other weirdos went to these forums claiming to be vampires or werewolves or gods or other misc things from movies they saw as children
Just like with politics or religion, people give themselves names and defend those names for dumb devotion to a false cause, it's ridiculous how they play like the pawns they are with each other, it involves nothing critically concerning nor does any of it meaningfully matter, people are herded into forms of thought from what they see around them then mimic those same behaviors of others for the sole purpose of being apart of a group that does not have the wellbeing of it's members above all.
>Modernity. It's so "wonderful" that everyone... even the normies... spends all their time and money trying to escape from it.
True, inaction brings no change and escapism is a form of doing nothing note able or worthwhile, playing games whether it be with yourself or others has nothing nice about it since it is only momentary satisfaction, games have strings attached to them that belong to the puppet masters.
The normal fags are money slaves and spend their pointless paper to the paper printer puppeteers that they are devout by, they are sheep and cannot understand how they are being corralled into focusing on the petty problems rather than the bigger picture, they refuse to realize they are trapped in a physical hell made by the devils in control, it's a shame how many opportunities mankind misses by being so focused on the nothingness of false reality than taking the steps toward making the real changes needed towards being in a better life.
The "progress" of humans has been haltered by living in a world of pointless pleasure than doing what we can to improve it we idle away.
Anonymous
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No.3231
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>>3226
I think society will keep focusing on meaningless fleeting pleasures until it regains its drive and understanding of what to strive for. It will put away the shallow entertainment when it rediscovers age-old sources of happiness like community and family and love. It will remember how to stand and walk and run when it remembers what a healthy society should run towards and what a healthy society should leave behind. Like bad ideas and old lies.
I don't think "humanism" can work. Not all ideas or ideologies are right. Not all races are equal. Why should America pay out the ass to India for example ust to keep some poor people in India above the poverty line when rich Indians are thriving from cheap labour? If whites controlled that cheap labour we would make it sustainable and pay it fairly because we're nice like that. It would also stop corrupt companies from outsourcing jobs to cheap overseas labour. If you feed a hobo he will come back tomorrow for more. You can only meaningfully help a hobo by giving him a job, the means to pull himself out of poverty. There will always be more poor people somewhere and there will always be more hungry mouths to feed. I don't think it's possible to feed everyone on the planet and I don't think there's any virtue in trying to feed everyone whether they give and take or just take. Most foreigners don't deserve foreign aid. How do we benefit from this arrangement? Africa and India are overcrowded thanks to foreign aid keeping their birth rates high while our own birth rate falls below the replacement rate thanks to the jews. "humanism" says you are nice if you help a lot of "humans" no matter what they contribute to your quest but that just creates dependency and unsustainable population numbers and rapefugees hungry for even more gibs.
Anonymous
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No.3241
>>3231
>I think society will keep focusing on meaningless fleeting pleasures until it regains its drive and understanding of what to strive for.
The human herd is being prodded towards engaging in degeneracy and will be lead down the path of living a life of sexual displeasure disgracefully, unless something steers them upwards instead of downward. It's unlikely the world will ever progress past being "progressive" if the ship is headed directly into a storm of cum.
>It will put away the shallow entertainment when it rediscovers age-old sources of happiness like community and family and love.
If humankind discovers how to live instead of merely existing it will be better off without tiedowns to those who live low in the world. All irrelevant entertainment is unnecessary to have enjoyment, it is optional as a way of living but leads toward an unneeded expense of skill.
>It will remember how to stand and walk and run when it remembers what a healthy society should run towards and what a healthy society should leave behind.
Running in a direction without a goal is better than having shackles bound to the feet but is running nowhere fast, a plan is needed to not fail the opportunity for being free, any civilization that seeks to help it's people is better than the hidden slavery we currently exist within, at whatever cost freedom is important but requires a definite destination to strive toward so as not to become lost.
What is a complete optimal society? What flaws within laws are the most irritating towards achieving structural success? What commodities are really needed in life?
>I don't think "humanism" can work.
Neither do I, it relies upon giving rather than making which is destined to doom. How can someone give to another foreigner without expecting to get anything in return while maintaining his success? It is hilarious how people defend an order of disorder while getting nothing in return, they are being used no better than dogs if they serve the masters of disasters.
>Not all ideas or ideologies are right. Not all races are equal.
Every single being is different, nothing is subject to not being exempt from dissimilarities as there is not a thing that is equal, it is a complete lie to state that life is fair to all.
Every thought should not be taught but rather learned, it is a waste of time teaching another man's ideas when your own is more important to you, it should be taken from a viewpoint of how to improve than as never to move the structure of the idea of the ideology, life is always moving and to rely on outdated techniques of thought is to be living in the past rather than the present, time has proven that following another man without a plan soon leads to failure, doing what doesn't work is plainly not going to work.
>Why should America pay out the ass to India for example ust to keep some poor people in India above the poverty line when rich Indians are thriving from cheap labour?
It shouldn't give anything to nobody other than the people it is supposed to serve, America serves Israel like a dog puppet nation and should be severed from the ability to give unconditional support to those who do not care about the state of the states, if you kill the point of supply for someone then they will be forced to look somewhere else for food, destroying every bit of money made by the fed will benefit the world, by killing those those who wish to get rid of us we are preserving ourselves but the method of doing it is most important so as not to attack blindly. The walls of the white house aren't indestructible nor is the money they make.
>If whites controlled that cheap labour we would make it sustainable and pay it fairly because we're nice like that.
Is the wellbeing of lesser races really in the horoscope of humanity? A person should first be deserving of that support in order to be worth helping. People may be nice but sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind.
>It would also stop corrupt companies from outsourcing jobs to cheap overseas labour.
The people who do the labor are necessary to complete manual tasks but profit should not be made from them to someone who doesn't do the work, capitalism is easily exploited and creates monopolies that are left to run rampant on their own accord without correction.
>You can only meaningfully help a hobo by giving him a job, the means to pull himself out of poverty.
Poverty should be worked out of rather than helped out of, one should be able to help himself to then receive support from others. A drug dealer helps habit rather than offering fundamental support, a soup kitchen only gives food than the opportunity for jobs.
>There will always be more poor people somewhere and there will always be more hungry mouths to feed.
Pitying the poor is akin to being depressed over dogs, it's a food fight that never wins.
>I don't think it's possible to feed everyone on the planet and I don't think there's any virtue in trying to feed everyone whether they give and take or just take.
Helping everyone in the world is a fantasy that people believe they can do.
>Most foreigners don't deserve foreign aid.
A bullet is cheaper than the amount of chicken a nigger will eat in his life.
>How do we benefit from this arrangement?
There are no benefits to government 'benefits', the profit is not for people but for money, the only person who benefits is the money maker.
>Africa and India are overcrowded thanks to foreign aid keeping their birth rates high while our own birth rate falls below the replacement rate thanks to the jews.
The Jews work to destabilize the world into disarray, they care about only what profit they can make from people.
>"humanism" says you are nice if you help a lot of "humans" no matter what they contribute to your quest but that just creates dependency and unsustainable population numbers and rapefugees hungry for even more gibs.
It is false generosity that is made to look good so that charities can make money out of misleading people, it's all for money.
Anonymous
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No.3275
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>feel depressed when working
>exhausted, spend leisure time on mindless timewasting shit
>regret it later
>feel insufficient as a man
>resume working

How do you break the cycle?
Anonymous
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No.3277
3278
>>3275
>How do you break the cycle?
You have to begin anew, one cycle stops and another starts, plan out what you have at your disposal then look at the options as to what you can try, then make it or break it by stepping into fresh waters, in or out of the comfort zone.
The cycle (ride) never ends, you can only change yourself.
Avast you may do things that bring no satisfaction while asking yourself whether there is more to life yet continue doing the same repetitive tasks, there is a world outside and it does exist while you decide if you should stay inside.
I am glad to have known and been alongside the few that I have had happiness with, the cycle of friendship ends and another one begins until there is nothing left to love, then a different type of cycle takes ahold of the previous predominant one. Depending on the way the last story ended the new habits can be greatly affected, due to extreme euphoria or crippling depression, one may start doing things abnormal to the typical character of the individual or doing a task more often from an influx of negative or positive stimuli, thus leading to a type of crutch if unhappy emotions are clouding the head or an extreme obsession to something that offers emotional or mental support, positivity is usually accomplished through being surrounded with what makes one happy, if you can somehow manage to find something you greatly enjoy, nourish it and be happy for being happy that you are enjoying something, revel in the opportunity for positivity for there is no sense in being sad over something you devoutly do like or love.
Vril would be the go to guy to ask, wherever he is.
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No.3278
3286
>>3277
That makes sense, thank you.
I do need a new cycle. A new road to a new me. I thought changing my diet and raising my exercise intensity and cutting fapping and aimless streaming/gooming out of my life would magically make me a new man overnight. Maybe it's going to take time for that to show results, and for the "I miss unhealthy drinks/cooming/gaming" urges to go away.
Keeping up with politics is an addicting rush of anger. Sometimes I refresh webpages because I'm desperate for more. It's like a drug and I should probably cut it out of my life too, or limit my news intake to once a week. I want to save people. But for now I can't save anybody.
I greatly enjoy art and animating. I greatly enjoy good anime, even though it's so hard to find and the only way to find it is to watch episodes of a load of bad animes that only sound like something I'd like at first before they waste their interesting premise and turn out to be shit. I should draw more. I will draw more.

Haven't thought about him in a long time. I checked if he's still alive and he's shilling his Hyperdimension Neptunia fanfics on reddit. Despite everything I hope he has fun and I hope things turn out alright for him.
Anonymous
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No.3286
3288
>>3278
Glad you still like watching those Japanese 2D picture pornos and drawing swastikas, my interest in art and shows is long gone, it has been replaced by more intimate and intense emotions.
My habits and cycles are dwindling further into the abyss day by day, I have given up on improving myself while my infamousness has only grown alongside my perversions and I have found that this pit of depressive deterioration is a hole that has been gnawing at my soul for a long time, it lingers like a noxious gas cloud that has seeped into my surroundings which continues to haunt my actions like a growing hatred that only waxes in loathe.
Not exactly what I expected but at least he is still running his cycles, albeit in a dissimilar way.
Anonymous
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No.3288
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>>3286
Please don't give up on improving yourself. How will your life improve if you don't do your part to improve it? Losing weight didn't magically cure my depression overnight but it did help me immensely by letting me think to myself "I succeeded and that is proof that I can succeed. My weight loss goals have been met! I am responsible for my own physical and mental health. Calling myself a short fat faggot won't make me taller or buffer" whenever the dark thoughts start coming back.

Ask yourself why your old hobbies don't feel as great, and if you need to kick things up a notch. Once I went through a "Video games don't feel as fun as they used to and TV is boring" phase but then realized I only felt that way when playing mediocre games and dull TV. I was watching/playing these just because I had them, not because I actively liked them or felt any kind of challenge from them.. I'd grown as a man and I needed art that can mentally stimulate me. I needed opportunities to be creative when being productive and opportunities to be creative when playing games. As a child any respite from the outside world and any way to pass the time was a rare treat, I'd play through any shit game just because it was there and I'd beaten my best games over and over, but once you become an adult and have control over your own free time there's nothing wrong with raising your standards and going for the good shit. Even if the good shit means speedrunning an old classic.
I don't know if this advice will help you, but it helped a friend of mine who needed to hear that last bit before he could admit to himself he was sick to death of mediocre time-wasting cliche-ridden billion-hour JRPGs and wanted to try something for hardcore gamers that want to learn things and improve at a game while playing it. I taught him fighting games and he's gotten pretty good at Marvel VS Capcom 3 and Doom Eternal. It's hard to remember when he played these games like a game journalist, now that he's good at them. His Vergil actually kicks my Vergil's ass now, and it feels good to have a rival to compete with to better ourselves.
once he posted about cycles, now he posts about waifu computers and gaming console girls with computing cycles
Anonymous
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No.3289
3291
Spoilered
>>3288
Look anon, let me be clear with you that I am free to punish myself as I please and success is not important to me whatsoever, I have no hobbies but only habits that bring me satisfaction which is all that I really want, telling myself lies is only half the cake and games aren't enjoyable anymore when all I am doing is playing the same shit over and over as games are only mentally challenging, the challenge for me is getting mares to willingly suck my dick without forcing them, which is more stimulating and harder than any copy pasted mortal combat, to rob a stallion of his brides is my hobby and getting away with it is why I still love it, I don't give a damn about riding horses or any other 'normal' hobby most people have, that same old crap doesn't interest me and it's more fun fooling around with ponies despite what everyone tells me, lifting weights is something anyone, even women can do, diets are just as easy if you care so much about the way you look to others.
None of it really matters and whatever I do is down to what I decide, no matter how many words you throw at me I will not submit and do what someone told me to do, I do not care how many virtual trophies you have in Minecraft or your reputation within a gay group, I have done nothing what anyone told me to do in this thread or on this board and I'm just fine the way I am living.
Have a nice day, you colossal cunt.
Yours truly, horse fucking faggot.
PS:
I meant everything, except the colossal cunt part, you really should stop worrying about helping people who don't need it, honestly it's pretty god damn gay and you are bound to be fucked over eventually out of supposed 'good' will, I can just as easily toy with your emotions and so can anyone else, so don't give them, or let them, have the opportunity to spit in your face, don't set yourself up to fail if you don't have a plan to help people, don't get sad over why gamers aren't buying your gospel about evil Jews, help whoever you can and tell those who are willing to trust you about (((them))) but don't expect those internet normal fags to instantly believe you because you were the one who told them. Keep doing what you are right now while you are motivated, you have made good progress and I'm sure you will get what you deserve eventually, I got what I wanted after enough searching and I am happy enough where I currently am, the snow is a nice addition and I like waiting for spring, for reasons.By the way, I'm not a person who needs help desperately and telling me something like "How will your life improve if you don't do your part to improve it?" is not gonna win me over to start playing fighting games, I hate them with a passion, also another thing.Vril is a nerdy, filthy, faggot E-girl chaser that runs cycles for sluts.
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No.3291
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>>3289
You're right, and I'm sorry if what I said overstepped boundaries. I have no right to give life advice or tell anyone else how to live their lives.
And now that you mention it, there's someone who doesn't use this site. I think I'm being manipulated by this person. It's like I only exist for this person when he needs my help with something, and he rarely if ever listens to the advice I give.
How common is it for someone whose life is a mess to try and make himself feel better by giving life advice to others? Over the years I saw a lot of people try to give life advice to others even though they needed to take their own advice but didn't.
I probably shouldn't diss the guy behind his back but he did the same to others. It's weird how Vril tried so hard to look like he belonged here with the avatarfag-flag and "Name myself after something that seems Based And Redpilled(TM) to me" bullshit but his actions here were so childish and petty. Reminds me of the bullshit I saw idiots do to other idiots on anime roleplaying forums back when I was a preteen. Everything revolved around power and trying to manipulate perceptions with that guy, and it was tiresome. He repeated lines like a NPC. "Welcome to Corneria! Welcome to Corneria! Muh cycles! Muh cycles!". Why was he even here? It's not like he had something to say about ponies that could only be said here like "I didn't like the diversity six" or "This popular fanfic actually sucks dick and here's why" or anything like that. Did he ever disagree with "The Herd" you'll see on mainstream brony sites and their corporation-worshipping normie-tier coombrained faggot opinions?
All he ever had to say about politics was the same few pseudointellectual memes about baselessly guessing at the future through the 'mystical power' of cycles AKA fictional-world thinking. "Oh no, we must be in the bad cycle now! But things will surely get better because cycles!". Give me a fucking break, the real world doesn't work like a book where things can only get so bad before the author decides it's time to fix shit with the plot-armoured protagonist. Besides, wasn't "Vril" the name of some german psychic chick society? Or was it the name of some "subterranean master race", or a UFO some UFO-lovers think Hitler had, or some kind of energy-being? Or did he get the name from some alt-history fantasy novel about some fictional race with a stratified caste system? I forget, but I think the flag came from that last one. Fuck caste systems, they're gay. Anyway, good to see he's found some other fandom to try and ingratiate himself into. Maybe if he learns to draw, someone will pay him to draw PS2-chan with a pair of K-cup breasts or something.

I don't have anything major to report on my own life.
Still eating healthily, still avoiding porn and masturbation. Only drinking water or fruit juice or fruit smoothies or protein shake.
I cooked lasagne today for the first time, it turned out great!
Fridge is pretty empty, need to get more meat soon but cupboard is fine.
One friend told me he got the new Flu Jab. I don't trust vaccines and I'm not sure if he'd understand "Vaccines bad" if I tried explaining it to him. But I want to try anyway. Where should I start?
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>>3288
>>3291
Also that's me. Why did my ID change?
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>>3291
>You're right, and I'm sorry if what I said overstepped boundaries.
It's alright, my reaction was more unprecedented than accordingly appropriate.
>I have no right to give life advice or tell anyone else how to live their lives.
Maybe if you had children then your teachings would mean more to them than me or anyone else.
>And now that you mention it, there's someone who doesn't use this site.
I guess he doesn't like pony pussy.
>I think I'm being manipulated by this person.
Does this guy give you the impression that he doesn't like you?
>It's like I only exist for this person when he needs my help with something, and he rarely if ever listens to the advice I give.
You know there is more in life to see and experience, you don't have to be bound to what people tell you or want you to do, leave him if you truly feel there is no friendship, if he is no fun then what are you getting out of this deal other than being his slave? If he doesn't appreciate you or spend time talking with you then is he really just using you or he is a false friend? What good has he done for you as opposed to the bad?
>How common is it for someone whose life is a mess to try and make himself feel better by giving life advice to others?
Probably uncommon I suppose, advising someone is hard and if done incorrectly can end in mistrust or misinterpretation of the help.
>Over the years I saw a lot of people try to give life advice to others even though they needed to take their own advice but didn't.
The helpless are not able to control their impulses, they cannot be able to have worthwhile wisdom if they have a negative outlook on themselves, it's better to leave people to their own devices than intrude.
>Spoiler
He has always been a Reddit fag gamer girl console cunt licker and uses books as a shield for his white knighting, he is a nondeified book worshiper that lives in science, all he ever wrote about was numbers and frankly even I was tired of it.
The word Vril is symbolized with a German idea of power or energy that exists in everything which can be manipulated in some way to change route to the favored desire, there's a bunch more shit behind it but I suggest you lurk moar and find out for yourself.
>I don't have anything major to report on my own life.
Some interesting things have been happening around me recently but it is partially my own doings, sometimes slowness can stagnate into boredom so I try avoiding the situation entirely so as to avoid feeling lonely, I have begun to hate playing games by myself as it has started to feel lonely.
>Still eating healthily, still avoiding porn and masturbation.
Well you're doing better than me at the moment but that's pretty easy to do anyways.
>Only drinking water or fruit juice or fruit smoothies or protein shake.
Oats are good for you and lower cholesterol, porridge is nice with some form of sweetener.
>I cooked lasagne today for the first time, it turned out great!
Well done, I recommend homemade shepherds pie if you liked the lasagna, it has vegetables mixed with mince meat and herbs with a layer of mashed potatoes above with cheese on top, goes good with gravy.
>Fridge is pretty empty, need to get more meat soon but cupboard is fine.
Pork loin and sirloin steak are nice cuts of meat.
>One friend told me he got the new Flu Jab.
He's fucked.
>I don't trust vaccines and I'm not sure if he'd understand "Vaccines bad" if I tried explaining it to him.
Someone who has already given their bodies to the system must trust them, if you have enough trust in each other as he does the government then he might believe you but you would have to be closer friends to be able to convince him, although I don't him personally so only you would know.
>But I want to try anyway.
It's your funeral.
>Where should I start?
Think about him in an analyzing manner, wonder about if he is oblivious to the world around him, what he does on a daily basis, his routines and passions, come to a conclusion that meets the situation you are in.
>>3292
Shit happens.
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>>3291
>everybody:

>(you):
>Man fuck that Vril guy amirite?
Literally who cares? Besides, you of all people have no grounds to be bitching about other posters, particularly ones who havent been identifiably seen in over a year
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>>3295
Makes sense, sorry about that. I'll stop.
>>3294
>loneliness
I've been there. Playing games with others helps make it go away, but only games where there's communication and a meaningful connection between the players. Team games like League are terrible for this, but have you ever tried Ratz Instagib 2.0?
Next time I go shopping, I'll buy what I need for shepherd's pie.
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>>3296
>I've been there.
We all have at some point.
>Playing games with others helps make it go away, but only games where there's communication and a meaningful connection between the players.
Don't get me wrong I still like games, it's just that there are more interesting or better things to spend time on, team games only often work well with friends yet fall apart without precise communication, well organized groups can steamroll any game they want but must have some knowledge of the game beforehand, a group of speed runners will be faster than just 1 guy trying to get lucky with RNG.
>Team games like League are terrible for this, but have you ever tried Ratz Instagib 2.0?
Heard about it a while ago but wasn't interested enough to look into it.
>Next time I go shopping, I'll buy what I need for shepherd's pie.
Good luck with it, personally I prefer it to lasagna.