Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting? Who should I do therapy with? Can I trust my entire life's story with anyone who's not on this site?
Maybe if I tell you my life's story, you can give me life advice.
I was raised by abusive lefty parents who hated their smart white son and often tried to push me towards trannyism. Never fell for it.
First I was sent to a shit primary school. A few kids bullied me there and teachers punished me whenever I fought back. I was a fat angry kid who could punch hard when pushed, and they liked attacking me and then running away. But when we fought properly I'd kick their asses. One time I kicked their asses hard enough to make them stop bothering me.
When I graduated from this school I was sent to the special school of a catholic school, and made the personal property of one old bitch there who hated autistic kids. Around that era I got interested in Game Maker and pokemon romhacking but that interest never amounted to anything, though I did have a USB full of GBA roms and romhacking tools and the fact that I was able to code at such a young age when not all kids were learning that should have shown somebody that I had more to offer the world than shitty schools thought I should.
Thanks to that school, my schedule looked like this: Enter a side building, wait for the day to end, sometimes get insulted by the teachers if they felt like abusing me, usually get to eat lunch at lunchtime but sometimes they wouldn't let me (and it didn't matter whether I brought a packed lunch to school or brought money for the school cafeteria) and eventually go home to a house with parents that, when told the right words by my boomer bullies, would freak out and abuse me at home too. Rarely I'd get to join in a classroom... but class clowns would act up until I'd get blamed for it and sent out.
If I had a tape recorder or decent phone, I could have gathered evidence of the shit said/done to me (audio files of verbal abuse, pics of bruises, etc) and posted it online. But I was never allowed anything like that, because my parents feared I might use it on them. One day at school the art teacher bumped me with her car while backing up into a crowd of kids, I was fine but pissed off and the art teacher shrieked and blame-slinged feministically at me until I lost my patience and started barking back, then she put me in front of the headmaster and I told him about the abusive staff members and called him terrible at his job, so he kicked me out.
Then I was sent to a worthless "speshul" school where a few teachers abused me and the students usually watched in confusion when they weren't joining in. Whenever I trusted an adult enough to tell him or her what happened at home, that adult decided to call child protective services, who sent the same fucking boomer woman over to warn my parents that I was talking about what went on at home again. I couldn't get away from my family until I became the problem of Adult Protective Services, where the slightly less retarded and lazy people go.
A woman my age at the autistics-only youth club I attended got mad at me over retarded internet roleplaying nonsense-drama that didn't even involve me, and she lied about me to the cops and accused me of abusing her, even went to some clinic to fake signs of a concussion she didn't have because she's a spoilt bitch who knows how to play her rich parents like fiddles, she was a low-functioning sociopath woman with histrionic personality disorder and every retarded boomer's sympathy. She lied and got away with it, because the cops weren't interested in this case after she cartoonishly fucked up and started gloating about physically assaulting me without realizing it hurt her case. But even though I said to the managers of the youth club and the friends I knew there "If what she said about me was true I'd be in jail so you know she's lying" they couldn't believe me because they were dumb. There was one weird creepy fucker I used to talk to online because his "woe is me, asian school life is sooo hard" shit kind of reminded me of me at the time, but he got severe TDS and stopped being a person once he stopped viewing me as a person so I'm glad I didn't tell him anything sensitive or identifiable that could fuck me over later in life.
Anyway when I went to college, I was lied to and exploited by the staff until I dropped out. They even tricked me into taking a worthless course that turned out to be the dump where they dump the autistic kids and give them a useless fake newspaper to write. I wish I dropped out sooner, trying to live on barely fucking anything is hard enough when your mom took govt money meant for you, but it's harder when you're forced to spend most of your cash on train rides between your college and shitty home every two weeks and all your cunt government can offer is a discount pass. Now that I'm living alone, I've got a free bus pass I can barely use. Government priorities, am I right?
I am an autistic man, I'm 24 years old, I'll be 25 next year, and I've spent so much of my life as property of someone else that I find it hard to notice when I'm hungry or tired and remember that I should eat or sleep without someone or a phone alarm telling me to. I shower every night before bed but sometimes I miss meals, it's what helped me go from obese fatty to only-slightly-overweight. I don't think I know what it feels like to be loved by someone else. Learning makes me happy and I love documentaries but when I tried an online free learning site it reminded me of school and I couldn't do it. Sometimes I talk to people and act charming like those "Charisma on command" youtube vids told me so they'll like me, but I've never given anyone my full backstory before. The only woman in my life I ever kissed was that bitch who falsely accused me and got away with it. I want to say I have no interest in modern women but I still feel the urge to wank to them. But I don't wank any more because of nofap.
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True. Women ain't shit but hoes and tricks, and the trick is that they say we live in a society when really we're slaves in a gynocentric matriarchal jewocracy.
I haven't seen Squid Game but nobody's shutting up about it IRL. Is it more jewish subversion?
Always found it funny how when YIIK got attacked by SJWs, he tried going to gamers and saying "Fuck SJWs" but they weren't impressed with his game either. Gamers don't hate SJWs because they're arbitrarily opposed, gamers hate SJWs because SJWs are pure evil and on a quest to conquer everything, even entertainment.
On the surface YIIK looks pozzed as hell. Gay-ass characters with gay-ass appearances and turbo gay personality traits. Even the main hero's designed to look like an obnoxious self-insert.
Below the surface it's an intentionally unfun game designed to be unpleasant. Making it a bad game by definition.
If this is also art, this piece of art and the choices made involving its development (and how its best ending is locked to a developer-only youtube account) seem to say "Fuck gamers, they're puppets playing into artificial narratives where they get to be the hero. But if the devs don't let gamers get the secret ending where they're the hero, only the devs can unlock that ending".
The hero's a whiny twat but he only grows out of that in the developer-only ending, so there is no growth in the version of the game players get to experience. I guess you could call this "ARG Shenanigans" but a piece of media's quality should be there even without any external pieces of media. We should be able to enjoy a game without relying on information or content in the enclosed instruction book and movie and ARG puzzle bullshit and TV series and mobile game spinoff and prequel and three sequels and youtube-only four-episode series of animated shorts. All that extra shit can enhance media but it shouldn't be required to enjoy the media.
Meanwhile because the game makes the stupid hipster protagonist a cunt everyone who plays the game will hate, actual hipster cunts hate it for holding a mirror to their faces and making them shriek "Ugly!".
The developer referenced the real vanishing of an asian woman and the IRL speculation on her kidnapping or something, in a game where everything that happens is bullshit intended to give the protagonist shit to do. His universe really does revolve around him like he thinks it does. I guess you could call that insulting to the real asian woman, but the dev wanted this to say "White people don't care when nonwhites disappear" even though that's complete bullshit. Hell, he only heard about the disappearance in the first place because of the whites talking about it. It's always weird when SJWs with blatant fetishes for African/African-American/Native-American culture and fetishes for black rapists try to act like they think there must be something wrong with any white guy who likes Asians or includes them in his work in any significant way. They'll shoehorn blacks into King Arthur because of their fetish for replacing whites and taking part in the great replacement, then they'll blabber lies about the importance and necessity of divershitty when it benefits them, then they'll insist some white guy's a pervert for putting asians (especially cute asian girls) in his shit.
The left have cuck fetishes, the left rapes kids with the aid of islamists they import and protect and enable, the left have black fetishes, and because weebs aren't africa fetishists like the left, they hate weebs. The Japanese know body pillows of hot anime babes sell better than SJW Marvel capeshit. A weeb with a katana's technically still exercising, making him fitter than a feminist.
It's like Asians are only "Diverse" to the left and therefore deserving of special privileges when they can't compete in any asian country or an affirmative-action antiwhite country like America and due to their failure and entitlement, feel like they have to become professional narcissistic "Activists" in the war on whites to get ahead. Fucking weird. Then again, that one black politician got attacked by a white leftist woman in a gorilla mask and that wasn't called a hate crime because leftists only give privileges to actively anti-white and passively anti-white enemy combatants.
The only meaningful choice the player can make in the version of the game players got their hands on is to end the game, but Stanley Parable(Nonlinearity is a false idol, for a game to offer you freedom it has to anticipate your choices and falls apart if you do anything legitimately or seemingly unexpected like pulling the plug, the storyteller needs the listener, morality plays like the baby fire game suck ass, artsy games that get too far up their own ass forget to be good games, nonlinear games will inherently have linear paths even if there are a lot of them) Undertale(don't get me started, but Undertale seems to insist the best way to experience media is to use your free time and game-fucking superpowers like resetting to experience it fully in the best way possible and appreciate the developer's product as intended because you'll only learn Frisk's name if you act like Frisk and be the nicest guy possible like he would even if it means dying many times trying to Pacifist the game, because being a "get through enough of the game, fuck the story just kill enemies, then move on to the next without experiencing the best and depeest parts" kind of guy makes you Chara) beat YIIK to that punch long ago.
YIIK isn't really clever or deep, but it could have been really clever if it started off like a shit game and then challenged the player to stop treating it like a video game and start breaking it. The wimpy whiny twat hero starts saying "I have no idea why I did that, why did it work?" and "I guessed the password correctly, haha lucky" and "What the FUCK is going on why did the final villain just drop dead" as he stops being the protagonist of his doomed-to-failure story while the player takes his hero role and earns it. Using knowledge gained via save scumming, editing an easily-accessed fake save file, killing an invincible boss by deleting fake character files DDLC style, the player character chooses to give this doomed tale a happy ending.
Hehe design doc calls for asynchronous time storage system that violates the finality of a 2d fighting game
Coding makes my two brain cells copulate
I hope this is the right place for this sort of advice...
I designed a fighting game character with a lot of abilities and when playtesting him in my head I discovered using certain moves in a certain way means the game never ends.
The timer never runs out. Nobody loses health. The round never ends unless you unplug the PC and forfeit. Even if you pressed a button that made your character pull out a gun and blow his own brains out it wouldn't help. My guy's technique is absolute. He spends meter to prolong a match and has moves that give him too much meter.
The "Funbro" strategy that made Smogon think of the Endless Battle Clause ain't got shit on this.
I have three ways I can fix this... hyper-infinite?
A normal infinite combo in fighting games combos the foe to death. This combos the game to undeath potentially forever. A bot could do this forever as long as no power outages happen.
Either I limit how many times he can use a certain awesome and incredibly unique move that took way too fucking long to get right to just once per round, maybe even once per match
or I remove his meter-building move entirely
or I program his Stalling move and all other supers and EX specials to work on separate meters, so you can't stall the game out by building meter while stalling then spending meter to stall more.
Some of these options are easier than others. I guess it comes down to how much effort I want to put into this but every second spent on this is a second taken away from my main indie game.
By the way, stalling is just one of my move's many amazing uses. But because it's so good for comebacks, maybe it should be a "once per round" thing you always have access to until it is used. After all if it costs 3 bars of meter who the hell would ever fire BIG FUCKIN LASER when this genius play is always on the table? Then again if you could use it multiple times in a match would that harm its hype factor? This is the kind of move that, if used in a real fighting game tournament, would make the whole crowd scream and cheer and jump for joy and lose their goddamn minds in a hype overload. It's so fucking cool. Maybe it should be overused? This one move has limitless implications on balance and combos and more. It turns every option in my hand into a good one. even the option to do fuck all. I can literally press the button and do fuck all and still end up in a better position. I don't just take the advantage or take advantage of the advantage state, I take advantage of the code to take the opponent's life bar away, take the opponent's will to live away, even take the opponent's win away. Name any strong character in fighting game history. You can name a character with broken overpowered moves that take the opponent's health and meter and lives away. But... You can't name a character who can do that. Nobody can violate the game itself like this. I didn't stop time. I fucked time.
Oh hey my id changed
That stupid woman microwaved rice in a foiled packet, it sparked and burned the packet and the rice, all she had to do was turn the microwave off or unplug it but she stood there yelping with her hands up like the microwave was a niggerloving cop with a gun. Didn't even think to call for help, just expressed shock at a problem until I wondered what the noise was and came over. Goddamn women. Nothing matters to them but their feelings.
a man walks into a bar and says "Can I have the menu please?"
and the bartender says "Sure, I'm done fucking them".
See the joke is that menu please sounds like menu please
also I'm amazed at how hard and intelligently I've been working lately.
Fellow based geniuses, why is Animal Crossing so popular with faggots whose lives have turned into such absolute messes that they considered "I did adulting stuff today like cleaning my room" a colossal and hyper-rare achievement?
Is it because the game is so easy, dull, tedious, mind-numbing, and repetitive that the sunk cost fallacy makes you afraid to admit your 800 hours with the game were wasted just like the 2+ hours you'll spend with it tomorrow and the next day and the next and the next?
If I want to experience the sensation of "No thoughts, head empty" I throw myself into a hardcore video game I'm good at and experience the flow state. I experience Ultra Instinct. I rip and tear in Doom Eternal Only Faster. I experience enough dopamine to kill an elephant every time I Heavenly Potemkin Buster someone. I play my own game's endless mode and ignore the placeholder graphics and fight until I die.
But I guess that's not an option for some people. So they choose to grind away at mundane insanities in worship of companies that sell repackaged nostalgiacoom back to the consoomers.
why does my ID keep changing
Cuz even your ID wants to dissociate XDDD
I'm doing no nut november but I haven't nutted in months.
So to partake in the spirit of NNN, I'm taking a month-long break from all forms of sexual media.
Anon is hoarding power and that's awesome.
Getting fucking ripped and highly productive helped my self-confidence, masculinity, and self-image more than any pussy-ass therapist could have.
Besides, the therapists probably would have spent the whole time trying to blame child-me for what the bitchy out-of-control females in my life did to me as a kid.
Anything to keep a white man sad and paying for his therapy sessions.
Maybe No Nut November should be upgraded into No Sin November. No nutting, but also no porn, degenerate media, fast food, processed meat, no unhealthy shit of any kind. Mandatory exercise and mandatory positive productivity.
Who's definition of 'sin' are we using, and why isnt it yours?
the list of sinful activities I mentioned...
I choose to avoid them for the month.
Disagree with my list's choices?
I didn't see any point in listing sinful things I already don't do.
>>4532>no unhealthy shit of any kind
Good luck making that bar. Also, unhealthy according to whom?
If you ever look at a hot babe and think "I want her to step on me, choke me, crush my testes, inflict violence upon me", you're a faggot.
Women are supposed to have that reaction to men.
Women are supposed to crave pain, not inflict it.
>>4469>By the way, stalling is just one of my move's many amazing uses. But because it's so good for comebacks, maybe it should be a "once per round" thing you always have access to until it is used. After all if it costs 3 bars of meter who the hell would ever fire BIG FUCKIN LASER when this genius play is always on the table? Then again if you could use it multiple times in a match would that harm its hype factor? This is the kind of move that, if used in a real fighting game tournament, would make the whole crowd scream and cheer and jump for joy and lose their goddamn minds in a hype overload. It's so fucking cool. Maybe it should be overused? This one move has limitless implications on balance and combos and more. It turns every option in my hand into a good one. even the option to do fuck all. I can literally press the button and do fuck all and still end up in a better position. I don't just take the advantage or take advantage of the advantage state, I take advantage of the code to take the opponent's life bar away, take the opponent's will to live away, even take the opponent's win away. Name any strong character in fighting game history. You can name a character with broken overpowered moves that take the opponent's health and meter and lives away. But... You can't name a character who can do that. Nobody can violate the game itself like this. I didn't stop time. I fucked time.
Reminds me of how it's possible to use inputs to reprogram games like Pokemon Yellow. I don't see why it isn't possible with Mugen with enough time and know-how.>>4498>Fellow based geniuses, why is Animal Crossing so popular with faggots whose lives have turned into such absolute messes that they considered "I did adulting stuff today like cleaning my room" a colossal and hyper-rare achievement?
Because for a chronic procrastinator, doing chores in a cutesy, colorful game where even the chores are designed to be fun is satisfying. It gives you the illusion or excuse of "accomplishment" without having to do icky, unfun things like clear your closet out of cobwebs. Inertia is quite powerful: if you're used to physical, tedious chores you won't hesitate to get to them if you're not lazy; if you tend to spend most of your waking hours sitting down staring at a screen you'll put off anything that's not strictly necessary. This is why exercise is important.>>4535
How did you guess how it works? Also I am OP. My ID changed again.
Also that Animal Crossing stuff makes sense.
And fuck modern movies. Saw the Angry Birds movie and it's got annoying feminist cringe scene where the white male red bird tries doing everything himself and needs the girl one's help but won't admit it. Stupid feminist propaganda. Shit like this encourages women to think they're qualified on things they know nothing about and any man who says "please stop you are not a qualified electrician" is just patriarching.
You know what's an underrated teaching tool in fighting games?
Playing with another person, in training mode.
Infinite health at minimum, perhaps even savestates and visible hitboxes and game speed adjustments, maybe even LUA scripting if you're really fancy.
You're not trying to "Win" against the other player or expect them to grasp a concept they just heard for the first time while under pressure, you're trying to teach them how to win, how to deal with common situations, and it can take as long as it takes.
It reminded me of that training scene in The Matrix.
I even quoted the "Stop trying to hit me, and hit me!" line.
I did this with a friend recently who's new to fighting games and I was shocked at how quickly it helped him learn enough of the basics to make our matches fun for both of us. It's definitely better than just going into a VS match and holding back for the illusion of back-and-forth momentum while telling him how to walk and expecting him to dance.
At least it has a good take on immigration, which I think beats out one little feminist moment.
Do you think the bit where the guy "decided he wasn't ready for commitment and left her at the altar" was pozzed?
It seems like propaganda to shame men who back out of marriage at the last second or don't feel like commiting to a woman when a healthy relationship doesn't need a contract restricting your rights and permanently financially enslaving you to her to keep it together. The focus is on her feels and his random nonsensical no-reason-provided moment of "lmao nope marriage sux" but this is used as her retarded obligatory freudian excuse.
Ever notice how in fiction, good is the default state of practically all beings not explicitly declared "pure evil and evil in nature" and any deviancy from this requires an excuse in the form of a tragic backstory or goal or ideology?
I think I've met a good woman. I hope this turns out better than the last times.
>>4563>I think I've met a good woman
There's not such a thing. Either you have the upper hand and rule over the beast, or you are a cuck. Can't be any other way.
Anyway, it is hardwired in women's brain to try to flip the game and dominate men by any mean necessary, and if it is not, she will play the submissive good woman to keep leeching you for as long as possible. You are warned.
See: >>1566 →
But this one likes it when I dominate her.
Sure, as long as she can leech you, you will be the one.
By general rule, it is only a matter the time for anyone to run into monetary troubles, or another cuck with more money than you to show up. Both scenarios will mean the beginning of the end of any relationship.
You can't change how women are hardwired.
You were right. She turned out to be a huge bitch.
>>4563>>4568>>4570>I think I've met a good woman.>I hope this turns out better than the last times.>But this one likes it when I dominate her.>You were right. <She turned out to be a huge bitch.
Villainous whores, classical. What was there to be expected? HA! Nothing less nor more!
I'm glad nothing bad will happen as a result of that failed relationship. We're just going to pretend we never met each other. And then never look or speak to each other again. The game has themes, I... guess? But most people are just there to BUY A PIXELIZER. Collect trading cards. Immunetocriticismimmunetocriticism super fighting robot you tried to leave my rangers alone. You said you'd kill them. O o o o what
what a trick
are we looking at the next skid mcmarx here
umbris is another world that gets cucked
Women are fucked in the head.
Remember Attack On Titan?
There's this scene where the hero guy Eren just became a cool monster called a "Titan" and saved everyone's asses from the bad Titans.
He's chained up and on trial and the cunty humans are afraid of him.
So this thirty something beyblade midget with OCD strolls up to him and kicks him in the gut and says "See? This little bitch is harmless".
Just kidding, he kicked more than once. He kicked way too many times. And not just in the gut. Eren lost teeth. Sure he can grow those back but still.
It was written to be a shocking moment.
I get that. It worked.
And it made women all over the world flood their designer skinnyjeans.
You would not believe how many horny insane bitches were drawing and writing porn of these two boning. All because this shocking moment of tiny man on taller helpless(by choice, he could have turned Titan from any injury if he wanted violence) chained teenager violence turned them on.
Later the murder midget gets more character development and screentime but this was the moment that made women want him to fuck them and fuck Eren.
Reminds me of Reylo.
Bad boy dangerous man (with a stupid-ass face and petulant feminine manchild soyboy attitude and random infantile Vader fetish) on the scaaary alluring cool "nazi" side they're told to hate and fear, even though the only glimpse of Empire policies we ever get are "they want to be in charge... oh and smugglers are common".
And bland generic grey Ma-Rey Sue who's just sooooo perfect despite being bad at acting and so painfully bland-looking she's unpleasant to look at...
No wonder women got so horny for it.
Women legitimately want to be dominated. It's in their nature. Even ones who claim to not want domination change their minds the second they see what they percieve as a worthy master. I'll change my mind on this the second I see a woman who's a genuine libertarian even when it comes to the rights of those beside herself and niggers and jews. Shit women want to be made to submit and feel there is no other option. Because when they have options they get picky and egotistical and irrational and whiny and bratty and flakey and way too eager to rob one man of semen and cash and kids before moving on to the next and the next and the next. I have never seen a woman who didn't want to be stepped on by somebody, be it a fictitious man or the fictitious public persona of a fake Celebrity. It's in the nature of women and the most feminine men out there failed by their boomer fathers and raised by their feminist boomer mothers to be as female as possible. Women want to be dominated and they started shit-testing men just as their jews taught them for being far too pozzed to give feminists the pumishments they deserved for being war criminals in the war on boys, men, and civilization.
I forgot to specify this but Eren is in human form during the court scene. He was in human form when they arrested him too. So the scene looks like a dude kicking a helpless defenceless dude when he's down. I get that it was supposed to look like that, and make characters in-universe feel bad for Eren. The hilarious part is how horny it made women for the guy kicking the crap out of the hero.
I bet if these fucks watched Jojo's Bizzare Adventure they'd walk away from it wanting to fuck Steely Dan and Alessi.
I have transcended DP with a tool so disgusting I actually feel hesitant to put it in the game.
That would sound weird to a non-gamer...
Many fighting games have a "dragon punch", an invincible reversal that fulfills the same role as classic Ryu's Shoryuken: getting you out of a bad situation invincibly if used at the perfect time.
What if it was metal?
I decided to make it metal.
I always hated how a Shoryuken leaves you in the air when it's done. So punishable. How about a grounded Shoryuken you can extend by mashing?
Thus, guitar shredding to shred the foe's healthbar.
Skidaddle skidoodle I control the neutral.
Fuck marvel's sky beams, mine's bigger.
*crosses up behind you and in front of you at the same time*
nothing personell kid
*breaks time and space*
>>4574>Women are fucked in the head.
Obviously they are, the purpose of women is to continue our bloodlines through procreation and to ensure the future of children as the 14 words reference but when that primal purpose is perverted we get sluts and whores who revel in shameless acts of debauchery.>Women legitimately want to be dominated. It's in their nature.
Of course, as do most other mammals want to dominate and submit to each other, we too have this underline desire to impregnate females and procreate as women should want to be mothers for males.>Even ones who claim to not want domination change their minds the second they see what they percieve as a worthy master.
Actions speak louder than words, it is thoughts which give rise to deliberate acts and not literal syllables. They are creatures of femininity and emotion rather than logical thought or reasoning.>I'll change my mind on this the second I see a woman who's a genuine libertarian even when it comes to the rights of those beside herself and niggers and jews.
Good luck on that one, 'cause you're gonna need it.>Shit women want to be made to submit and feel there is no other option. Because when they have options they get picky and egotistical and irrational and whiny and bratty and flakey and way too eager to rob one man of semen and cash and kids before moving on to the next and the next and the next. I have never seen a woman who didn't want to be stepped on by somebody, be it a fictitious man or the fictitious public persona of a fake Celebrity. It's in the nature of women and the most feminine men out there failed by their boomer fathers and raised by their feminist boomer mothers to be as female as possible. Women want to be dominated and they started shit-testing men just as their jews taught them for being far too pozzed to give feminists the pumishments they deserved for being war criminals in the war on boys, men, and civilization.
There are some good girls out there that hate niggers and the government but you'll only find one in a blue moon, I have lost the majority of my trust within the general populace of humanity which includes the vastness of normal's and roasties alike. They are almost alien to me although I can analyze their intentions and motives through study of their body language or vocabulary, I'd love to have a family but not right now in the present although it seems like a ideal end goal to me as long as I can associate my bond towards a potential partner.Still I have yet to find a decent girl, let alone fuck one or even a kiss. Albeit I'm not a virgin by the ordinary means of intercourse with human females, through dark and degenerate deviation has this been bestowed upon me which I do not regret.>Therapy
I've always been lonely and without friends, though I still remain active tending to my responsibilities and duties. Some women can be talked to easier than others as with men too but communication is not as preferable to being mutable, such as my inherent recluse behavior permits me to socialize, I may discuss the necessities of business better than personal affairs due to the evasion of my hidden intentions.
I have tried therapy in the past but the communication and self reflection is more of a stress than a reliefTL;DR
I'm distrustful of women akin to men, though I have other passions which serve to keep me occupied and focused while at the same time make me happy even if they're completely fucked
and stop me from steeping back into that pit of deep depression and utter loneliness which I no longer dread.
Mostly off-topic and not necessarily directed at you in particular:
Women really aren't worth worrying about. I've had two long term relationships and a few flings. It gets exhausting after a while. It seems like a lot of virgins get hung up on their situation and feel a sense of dread due to their virginity, but I promise you that same dread comes back once you've lost it and haven't had sex in a while. The only plus is that you stop caring after x amount of time since your curiosity has long since been sated and going without is significantly easier.
Mares will always be superior because they're a romantic fantasy like most of us were conditioned to believe was reality since childhood only to be disillusioned by actual modern women and their true nature.
Tl;dr: I've have had sexual+romantic relationships and I'd genuinely rather think about mares before ever bothering with any real woman. The thought of cuddling a mare is superior to fucking some lame bitch.
Don't beat yourselves up, virgins. You're really not missing out on anything that great.
>>4589>Mostly off-topic and not necessarily directed at you in particular:
Understood.>Women really aren't worth worrying about.
About that much and more was previously gathered from contemplation, that and comparisons from others experiences.>I've had two long term relationships and a few flings. It gets exhausting after a while.
That's what I fear about those kinds of situations with them, the aftermath of the initial infatuation would drive me to inevitable insanity resulting in multiple mad methods of escape which would potentially threaten both myself and whoever else involved.>It seems like a lot of virgins get hung up on their situation and feel a sense of dread due to their virginity, but I promise you that same dread comes back once you've lost it and haven't had sex in a while.
It always returns, for it is the loathsome lust which pervades and invades the psyche, it must be kept at bay and under supervision lest it grow into a unavoidable annoyance which increases the tallying of days gone by since the last intercourse. Virginity is a mental delusion while pointless sex is an emotional illusion, once that fleshy hole has been penetrated and the goal is complete it does queer things to one's mind in relation to dopamine and the potential acquiring of addiction.>The only plus is that you stop caring after x amount of time since your curiosity has long since been sated and going without is significantly easier.
Knowing the sensation satisfies the phallus and makes it a remembrance as opposed to being unbeknownst about velvet-like vagina.>Mares will always be superior because they're a romantic fantasy like most of us were conditioned to believe was reality since childhood only to be disillusioned by actual modern women and their true nature.
A pony female with the intelligence and vocals of a human, mixed habits of horses and humans with a social dynamic of both, the compassion of peak feminine values with loyalty to her mate. Semper fidelis equus.
If only it were reality... >I've have had sexual+romantic relationships and I'd genuinely rather think about mares before ever bothering with any real woman.I think about mares 24/7, they burn in my brain and are fixed within this labyrinth of thoughts. My thought form(s) is supportive of the ponies which I obsess upon.>The thought of cuddling a mare is superior to fucking some lame bitch.
I agree wholeheartedly.
>>4594>That's what I fear about those kinds of situations with them, the aftermath of the initial infatuation would drive me to inevitable insanity resulting in multiple mad methods of escape which would potentially threaten both myself and whoever else involved.
The onset of infatuation is powerful when you're relatively new to relationships, but it's something that quickly plateaus into a tedious emotional tug of war that will drain you over time. The worst part is that you might not realize it at any phase until it's too far gone. It's always good to handle IRL relationships with a fair deal of analytical distance, if you can be bothered by it. There are good girls out there worth loving, but they're increasingly scarce. Don't get attached.>Knowing the sensation satisfies the phallus and makes it a remembrance as opposed to being unbeknownst about velvet-like vagina.
Maybe, but it doesn't matter if your memories of coitus are plain. Virgins could always consider seeking out prostitutes to sate their curiosity and carnal urges. Hell, I've fucked hookers when I had money to burn and I couldn't be bothered with trying to romance some local meth head in my town. It's not some ascendent thing.
Not directed at you in particular, but others who may read this.
My point is that virgins would realize how irrelevant sex is to overall happiness if they could see the forest 'fore the trees.>I think about mares 24/7, they burn in my brain and are fixed within this labyrinth of thoughts. My thought form(s) is supportive of the ponies which I obsess upon.
Likewise, friend. We are united in our autism. I have always tried to use it as a vehicle for self-improvement. You're definitely more intelligent than me, just direct your autism effectively to succeed in life.
It took me ten years to find the answer to something I forgot in two seconds
>>4595>The onset of infatuation is powerful when you're relatively new to relationships, but it's something that quickly plateaus into a tedious emotional tug of war that will drain you over time.
So can be said for affairs with human females but I assure it changes when applied in context to cross species intimacies, I have found that it rather does not wane over time but enlarges into a bond without the nuisances of language or the nagging of voices which turn into vicious vices once heard on repeat. The annoyance of perpetual whining is enough to spark fury and vigorous rage, for this would be my reaction to the perceived agitator who emits verbal stress and I know it.>The worst part is that you might not realize it at any phase until it's too far gone.
Perhaps this notion of realization which you reference does not occur to me in a manner that brings about regrets but that's my personal perspective so it's not the same as what yours may be, I could give an analysis of my current strange sexual status but due to it's closeted and convoluted concealment I choose not to even if it's occasionally hinted, so it's best left to guesswork to whomever has any idea of what it could be.>It's always good to handle IRL relationships with a fair deal of analytical distance, if you can be bothered by it.
As such a masked and devised spoken tactic is more persuasive than that of true honesty could ever be from my standpoint, manipulation is not fun to perform and neither is playing with someone's emotions, for I would much prefer to let my inner instinctual intents fully loose than make mind games with a woman who I'm practically using to further my lusts.
Recognize patterns in one's behaviors and body language along with facial expressions, to analyze them from a position where judgments may be made towards their potentiality as a mate.>There are good girls out there worth loving, but they're increasingly scarce. Don't get attached.
A furthering ideal of the past. The most likely to be found which meet the criteria of breed able tend to be in rural areas compared to that of the densely populated places, for obvious reasons.>Maybe, but it doesn't matter if your memories of coitus are plain.
Ah, not if the first copulation is immeasurably beyond any normal means of the act which most experience, it then leaves a lasting impression that is unforgettable when it exceeds all expectations of the ordinary. >Virgins could always consider seeking out prostitutes to sate their curiosity and carnal urges.
It is an option that is rarely considered, there are plenty more choices that appeal to different tastes and cater to deeper desires. They're the frequently used sluts who exist to calm the cravings and lustful longings.>Hell, I've fucked hookers when I had money to burn and I couldn't be bothered with trying to romance some local meth head in my town.
How American indeed, the pinnacles of liberty.>Likewise, friend. We are united in our autism.
How about a confederacy of ass burgers?>I have always tried to use it as a vehicle for self-improvement.
If that's the purpose you have chosen to use it for then so be it, anon.>You're definitely more intelligent than me, just direct your autism effectively to succeed in life.
I appreciate your flattery. Efficiency is not my strong suit nor what makes me somewhat successful in what I do for a habitual hobby, it's the ability to comprehend others mindsets and manners while maintaining respect for what they want but prioritizing my own needs first and foremost without worrying about others unless they are my direct affiliates.
It's been nice to vent some words on a Slovakian sex site with you.
OneShot was disappointing
I was told it is "like undertale" and got my hopes up too high
The game's ARG shit was really fun
But the writing was a bit too on the nose and spelled-out
I'd still rate it a positive on steam and happily get OneShot 2: Shoot One Harder if it came out.
I decided to nerf my character.
He had this move... How do I describe it?
You'd do it, and a big sky beam would cover the entire vertical space while he invincibly slid forwards for a distance determined by the button you pressed.
Sound waves would also damage foes in front of you.
These sound waves would also reflect enemy projectiles.
Did I mention you could extend the duration of this move by mashing?
And it was a Special.
A fucking Input Special
Not a Super.
Not even a Charge Move
A Special move you execute with a simple input for no cost.
Doing this move just fucking turned the game off for several seconds.
Either you did your own thing charging meter manually via a dedicated charge move or whiffing normals into specials, or you politely waited to my character to stop being invincible.
It was just too good of a move. It invalidated too many options the opponent had. And too many options I had. It was so good, there was never a reason to fuck around with his big brain gimmicks.
My big brain gimmicks will be absolute.
How do I talk to my retarded cringe friend who constantly talks in edgelord wannabe speak, babbling about inner darkness and his struggles against his dark half interspersed with TFS references and normie media/nigger rapper quotes?
How do I help him get over this?
Is there some magic video that makes him stop trying to sound like a japanese cartoon character nobody over the age of twelve would like?