Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting? Who should I do therapy with? Can I trust my entire life's story with anyone who's not on this site?
Maybe if I tell you my life's story, you can give me life advice.
I was raised by abusive lefty parents who hated their smart white son and often tried to push me towards trannyism. Never fell for it.
First I was sent to a shit primary school. A few kids bullied me there and teachers punished me whenever I fought back. I was a fat angry kid who could punch hard when pushed, and they liked attacking me and then running away. But when we fought properly I'd kick their asses. One time I kicked their asses hard enough to make them stop bothering me.
When I graduated from this school I was sent to the special school of a catholic school, and made the personal property of one old bitch there who hated autistic kids. Around that era I got interested in Game Maker and pokemon romhacking but that interest never amounted to anything, though I did have a USB full of GBA roms and romhacking tools and the fact that I was able to code at such a young age when not all kids were learning that should have shown somebody that I had more to offer the world than shitty schools thought I should.
Thanks to that school, my schedule looked like this: Enter a side building, wait for the day to end, sometimes get insulted by the teachers if they felt like abusing me, usually get to eat lunch at lunchtime but sometimes they wouldn't let me (and it didn't matter whether I brought a packed lunch to school or brought money for the school cafeteria) and eventually go home to a house with parents that, when told the right words by my boomer bullies, would freak out and abuse me at home too. Rarely I'd get to join in a classroom... but class clowns would act up until I'd get blamed for it and sent out.
If I had a tape recorder or decent phone, I could have gathered evidence of the shit said/done to me (audio files of verbal abuse, pics of bruises, etc) and posted it online. But I was never allowed anything like that, because my parents feared I might use it on them. One day at school the art teacher bumped me with her car while backing up into a crowd of kids, I was fine but pissed off and the art teacher shrieked and blame-slinged feministically at me until I lost my patience and started barking back, then she put me in front of the headmaster and I told him about the abusive staff members and called him terrible at his job, so he kicked me out.
Then I was sent to a worthless "speshul" school where a few teachers abused me and the students usually watched in confusion when they weren't joining in. Whenever I trusted an adult enough to tell him or her what happened at home, that adult decided to call child protective services, who sent the same fucking boomer woman over to warn my parents that I was talking about what went on at home again. I couldn't get away from my family until I became the problem of Adult Protective Services, where the slightly less retarded and lazy people go.
A woman my age at the autistics-only youth club I attended got mad at me over retarded internet roleplaying nonsense-drama that didn't even involve me, and she lied about me to the cops and accused me of abusing her, even went to some clinic to fake signs of a concussion she didn't have because she's a spoilt bitch who knows how to play her rich parents like fiddles, she was a low-functioning sociopath woman with histrionic personality disorder and every retarded boomer's sympathy. She lied and got away with it, because the cops weren't interested in this case after she cartoonishly fucked up and started gloating about physically assaulting me without realizing it hurt her case. But even though I said to the managers of the youth club and the friends I knew there "If what she said about me was true I'd be in jail so you know she's lying" they couldn't believe me because they were dumb. There was one weird creepy fucker I used to talk to online because his "woe is me, asian school life is sooo hard" shit kind of reminded me of me at the time, but he got severe TDS and stopped being a person once he stopped viewing me as a person so I'm glad I didn't tell him anything sensitive or identifiable that could fuck me over later in life.
Anyway when I went to college, I was lied to and exploited by the staff until I dropped out. They even tricked me into taking a worthless course that turned out to be the dump where they dump the autistic kids and give them a useless fake newspaper to write. I wish I dropped out sooner, trying to live on barely fucking anything is hard enough when your mom took govt money meant for you, but it's harder when you're forced to spend most of your cash on train rides between your college and shitty home every two weeks and all your cunt government can offer is a discount pass. Now that I'm living alone, I've got a free bus pass I can barely use. Government priorities, am I right?
I am an autistic man, I'm 24 years old, I'll be 25 next year, and I've spent so much of my life as property of someone else that I find it hard to notice when I'm hungry or tired and remember that I should eat or sleep without someone or a phone alarm telling me to. I shower every night before bed but sometimes I miss meals, it's what helped me go from obese fatty to only-slightly-overweight. I don't think I know what it feels like to be loved by someone else. Learning makes me happy and I love documentaries but when I tried an online free learning site it reminded me of school and I couldn't do it. Sometimes I talk to people and act charming like those "Charisma on command" youtube vids told me so they'll like me, but I've never given anyone my full backstory before. The only woman in my life I ever kissed was that bitch who falsely accused me and got away with it. I want to say I have no interest in modern women but I still feel the urge to wank to them. But I don't wank any more because of nofap.
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Look anon, let me be clear with you that I am free to punish myself as I please and success is not important to me whatsoever, I have no hobbies but only habits that bring me satisfaction which is all that I really want, telling myself lies is only half the cake and games aren't enjoyable anymore when all I am doing is playing the same shit over and over as games are only mentally challenging, the challenge for me is getting mares to willingly suck my dick without forcing them, which is more stimulating and harder than any copy pasted mortal combat, to rob a stallion of his brides is my hobby and getting away with it is why I still love it, I don't give a damn about riding horses or any other 'normal' hobby most people have, that same old crap doesn't interest me and it's more fun fooling around with ponies despite what everyone tells me, lifting weights is something anyone, even women can do, diets are just as easy if you care so much about the way you look to others.
None of it really matters and whatever I do is down to what I decide, no matter how many words you throw at me I will not submit and do what someone told me to do, I do not care how many virtual trophies you have in Minecraft or your reputation within a gay group, I have done nothing what anyone told me to do in this thread or on this board and I'm just fine the way I am living.
Have a nice day, you colossal cunt.
Yours truly, horse fucking faggot.
PS:I meant everything, except the colossal cunt part, you really should stop worrying about helping people who don't need it, honestly it's pretty god damn gay and you are bound to be fucked over eventually out of supposed 'good' will, I can just as easily toy with your emotions and so can anyone else, so don't give them, or let them, have the opportunity to spit in your face, don't set yourself up to fail if you don't have a plan to help people, don't get sad over why gamers aren't buying your gospel about evil Jews, help whoever you can and tell those who are willing to trust you about (((them))) but don't expect those internet normal fags to instantly believe you because you were the one who told them. Keep doing what you are right now while you are motivated, you have made good progress and I'm sure you will get what you deserve eventually, I got what I wanted after enough searching and I am happy enough where I currently am, the snow is a nice addition and I like waiting for spring, for reasons.By the way, I'm not a person who needs help desperately and telling me something like "How will your life improve if you don't do your part to improve it?" is not gonna win me over to start playing fighting games, I hate them with a passion, also another thing.Vril is a nerdy, filthy, faggot E-girl chaser that runs cycles for sluts.
You're right, and I'm sorry if what I said overstepped boundaries. I have no right to give life advice or tell anyone else how to live their lives.
And now that you mention it, there's someone who doesn't use this site. I think I'm being manipulated by this person. It's like I only exist for this person when he needs my help with something, and he rarely if ever listens to the advice I give.
How common is it for someone whose life is a mess to try and make himself feel better by giving life advice to others? Over the years I saw a lot of people try to give life advice to others even though they needed to take their own advice but didn't.I probably shouldn't diss the guy behind his back but he did the same to others. It's weird how Vril tried so hard to look like he belonged here with the avatarfag-flag and "Name myself after something that seems Based And Redpilled(TM) to me" bullshit but his actions here were so childish and petty. Reminds me of the bullshit I saw idiots do to other idiots on anime roleplaying forums back when I was a preteen. Everything revolved around power and trying to manipulate perceptions with that guy, and it was tiresome. He repeated lines like a NPC. "Welcome to Corneria! Welcome to Corneria! Muh cycles! Muh cycles!". Why was he even here? It's not like he had something to say about ponies that could only be said here like "I didn't like the diversity six" or "This popular fanfic actually sucks dick and here's why" or anything like that. Did he ever disagree with "The Herd" you'll see on mainstream brony sites and their corporation-worshipping normie-tier coombrained faggot opinions?All he ever had to say about politics was the same few pseudointellectual memes about baselessly guessing at the future through the 'mystical power' of cycles AKA fictional-world thinking. "Oh no, we must be in the bad cycle now! But things will surely get better because cycles!". Give me a fucking break, the real world doesn't work like a book where things can only get so bad before the author decides it's time to fix shit with the plot-armoured protagonist. Besides, wasn't "Vril" the name of some german psychic chick society? Or was it the name of some "subterranean master race", or a UFO some UFO-lovers think Hitler had, or some kind of energy-being? Or did he get the name from some alt-history fantasy novel about some fictional race with a stratified caste system? I forget, but I think the flag came from that last one. Fuck caste systems, they're gay. Anyway, good to see he's found some other fandom to try and ingratiate himself into. Maybe if he learns to draw, someone will pay him to draw PS2-chan with a pair of K-cup breasts or something.
I don't have anything major to report on my own life.
Still eating healthily, still avoiding porn and masturbation. Only drinking water or fruit juice or fruit smoothies or protein shake.
I cooked lasagne today for the first time, it turned out great!
Fridge is pretty empty, need to get more meat soon but cupboard is fine.
One friend told me he got the new Flu Jab. I don't trust vaccines and I'm not sure if he'd understand "Vaccines bad" if I tried explaining it to him. But I want to try anyway. Where should I start?
Also that's me. Why did my ID change?
>>3291>You're right, and I'm sorry if what I said overstepped boundaries.
It's alright, my reaction was more unprecedented than accordingly appropriate.>I have no right to give life advice or tell anyone else how to live their lives.
Maybe if you had children then your teachings would mean more to them than me or anyone else.>And now that you mention it, there's someone who doesn't use this site.
I guess he doesn't like pony pussy.>I think I'm being manipulated by this person.
Does this guy give you the impression that he doesn't like you?>It's like I only exist for this person when he needs my help with something, and he rarely if ever listens to the advice I give.
You know there is more in life to see and experience, you don't have to be bound to what people tell you or want you to do, leave him if you truly feel there is no friendship, if he is no fun then what are you getting out of this deal other than being his slave? If he doesn't appreciate you or spend time talking with you then is he really just using you or he is a false friend? What good has he done for you as opposed to the bad?>How common is it for someone whose life is a mess to try and make himself feel better by giving life advice to others?
Probably uncommon I suppose, advising someone is hard and if done incorrectly can end in mistrust or misinterpretation of the help.>Over the years I saw a lot of people try to give life advice to others even though they needed to take their own advice but didn't.
The helpless are not able to control their impulses, they cannot be able to have worthwhile wisdom if they have a negative outlook on themselves, it's better to leave people to their own devices than intrude.>SpoilerHe has always been a Reddit fag gamer girl console cunt licker and uses books as a shield for his white knighting, he is a nondeified book worshiper that lives in science, all he ever wrote about was numbers and frankly even I was tired of it.The word Vril is symbolized with a German idea of power or energy that exists in everything which can be manipulated in some way to change route to the favored desire, there's a bunch more shit behind it but I suggest you lurk moar and find out for yourself.>I don't have anything major to report on my own life.
Some interesting things have been happening around me recently but it is partially my own doings, sometimes slowness can stagnate into boredom so I try avoiding the situation entirely so as to avoid feeling lonely, I have begun to hate playing games by myself as it has started to feel lonely.>Still eating healthily, still avoiding porn and masturbation.
Well you're doing better than me at the moment but that's pretty easy to do anyways.>Only drinking water or fruit juice or fruit smoothies or protein shake.
Oats are good for you and lower cholesterol, porridge is nice with some form of sweetener.>I cooked lasagne today for the first time, it turned out great!
Well done, I recommend homemade shepherds pie if you liked the lasagna, it has vegetables mixed with mince meat and herbs with a layer of mashed potatoes above with cheese on top, goes good with gravy.>Fridge is pretty empty, need to get more meat soon but cupboard is fine.
Pork loin and sirloin steak are nice cuts of meat.>One friend told me he got the new Flu Jab.
He's fucked.>I don't trust vaccines and I'm not sure if he'd understand "Vaccines bad" if I tried explaining it to him.
Someone who has already given their bodies to the system must trust them, if you have enough trust in each other as he does the government then he might believe you but you would have to be closer friends to be able to convince him, although I don't him personally so only you would know.>But I want to try anyway.
It's your funeral.>Where should I start?
Think about him in an analyzing manner, wonder about if he is oblivious to the world around him, what he does on a daily basis, his routines and passions, come to a conclusion that meets the situation you are in.>>3292
>>3291>everybody:>(you):>Man fuck that Vril guy amirite?
Literally who cares? Besides, you of all people have no grounds to be bitching about other posters, particularly ones who havent been identifiably seen in over a year
Makes sense, sorry about that. I'll stop.>>3294>loneliness
I've been there. Playing games with others helps make it go away, but only games where there's communication and a meaningful connection between the players. Team games like League are terrible for this, but have you ever tried Ratz Instagib 2.0?
Next time I go shopping, I'll buy what I need for shepherd's pie.
>>3296>I've been there.
We all have at some point.>Playing games with others helps make it go away, but only games where there's communication and a meaningful connection between the players.
Don't get me wrong I still like games, it's just that there are more interesting or better things to spend time on, team games only often work well with friends yet fall apart without precise communication, well organized groups can steamroll any game they want but must have some knowledge of the game beforehand, a group of speed runners will be faster than just 1 guy trying to get lucky with RNG.>Team games like League are terrible for this, but have you ever tried Ratz Instagib 2.0?
Heard about it a while ago but wasn't interested enough to look into it.>Next time I go shopping, I'll buy what I need for shepherd's pie.
Good luck with it, personally I prefer it to lasagna.
Shepherds Pie is amazing!
And surprisingly simple to cook. I wish my fucktarded boomer parents knew how to cook and cared enough to try. Maybe I'd be healthier now if I got to eat something besides noodles and microwaved random crap growing up. I'm still healthy now though. I don't even miss sugary shite any more.
I told some friends I cherished them and one guy asked if I was alright. I think I'm making good progress towards being fine, and I can't wait to see how it feels.
Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent. Some were just annoying cunts and some were really dumb, selfish, oblivious, and immature. Does anyone alive have fond memories of their parents? Someone probably does, somewhere. But I don't think I know anyone who does.
Saw that BlackPilled video on Die Hard and why it's jew propaganda. How did so many people watch that film without noticing how shit the mom was? Leaving your kids alone on Christmas with an illegal alien so you can try to impress your crackhead peers at a party and get so drunk the baby feels it and work your ass off to make a Japanese businessman rich... Insane. But the film pretends it's normal.
And for some kid out there, that probably is normal.
This planet's so fucked up.
I always hated tortured similes that rely on media references. Say "It was long like a summer's day", not "It was long like the distance between Tattooine and Daygoba" for fuck's sake. Not everything needs to be a fucking reference. But sometimes I think of those characters who come from a destroyed future and are willing to die to prevent that future, even if changing the future for the better means they fade away like an old memory. I know there are people out there who had it worse than me. I met some of them. I'm glad my life so far wasn't worse than it was, and I'm glad I woke up to justice in time. Real justice, not those jew lies. I think improving myself and my life makes me feel happy. I'm not sure, but I think this is what happiness feels like.
>>3300>Shepherds Pie is amazing!
Nice to get some feedback on a dish I recommended, really I didn't half expect you to do it, thanks for going ahead and trying it though.>And surprisingly simple to cook.
Sometimes simplicity is more satisfying rather than going all out, you don't have to break a leg to please yourself.
There are lots of foods to indulge in, the world is your oyster to try whatever suits your palate pleasantly.>I wish my fucktarded boomer parents knew how to cook and cared enough to try.
So many kids have become accustomed to the laziness of sloth style fake food, some families rarely know the treat of meals made with love and it's disheartening, like Léon Degrelle said, the family structure is being torn apart.>Maybe I'd be healthier now if I got to eat something besides noodles and microwaved random crap growing up.
I remember trying those microwaved lasagnas and hating it, the taste is like plastic with a mix of horsemeat.>I'm still healthy now though.
That's alright, you can still fix yourself through appropriate care and appreciation of your success.>I don't even miss sugary shite any more.
Empty sugars are really pointless other than to aid in making you obese.>I told some friends I cherished them and one guy asked if I was alright.
People are prone to be sympathetic to another's discomfort, they will feel sorry for the soul that had it's childhood corrupted.>I think I'm making good progress towards being fine, and I can't wait to see how it feels.
Good luck with that, there is one thing I will warn you against and that is don't exceed your mental or physical limits, you are bound to be disappointed if you put too much trust in the future.>Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent.
There are people who meet someone who have enough similarities in conjunction with one another that leads to attraction which may prove to work out or not, the dating culture should cease to exist due to it's inadequacy at creating children, the way natural attractivity works does not base from that of complete and utter opposites, the incompatibility of men or women who have nothing in accordance within interests has proven to be ineffective at providing long term relationships. I would get better on with a crazy horse girl that matched my insanity than some typical bimbo bitch.>Some were just annoying cunts and some were really dumb, selfish, oblivious, and immature.
There are certain people who were born to be dicks and assholes. >Does anyone alive have fond memories of their parents? Someone probably does, somewhere. But I don't think I know anyone who does.
Yes there are good times, as well as bad, I've had good and bad times with my parents.>Shit movies made by Hollywood Jews.
They are poison to the brain and should be taken as jokes, There are good and bad movies which Jews almost always have made to be objectively terrible at what flicks should strive for, the ordinary shows are garbage and are not that of the quality from the past, the modernity of television favors quantity over quality while having the ability of 'copyrighting' whatever they desire.>And for some kid out there, that probably is normal.
Kids are innocent to the mercy of those older than them, they have no choice to do what they really want to.>This planet's so fucked up.
Yes, it is. We are truly living in an era of chaos.>Not everything needs to be a fucking reference.
They should keep more to themselves and encourage creativity more within the multitude of arts.>But sometimes I think of those characters who come from a destroyed future and are willing to die to prevent that future, even if changing the future for the better means they fade away like an old memory.
Men have become weak, the modern man does not bask in glory beyond that he achieves within a game nor do they engage in any worthwhile challenges to their very being, a man should take risks to do what they desire than wasting away in these modern caves. The boys are being castrated and feminized to be faggots by outside influences beyond their understanding, these normal lives are all meaningless and boring when there are no sacrifices to be made. No one really wants to have something to die for anymore and these mundane lives do not make a man mighty.>I'm glad my life so far wasn't worse than it was, and I'm glad I woke up to justice in time. Real justice, not those jew lies.
You definitely made the right choice, at least you have some degree of wisdom.>I think improving myself and my life makes me feel happy. I'm not sure, but I think this is what happiness feels like.
It's always a pleasure to learn and experience new things every once in while, as long as it's worth doing.
>>3300>Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent.
Well stories about good parents is fewer, and the normal and good times seem to be buried. It's personal and to some degree feels like bragging.Well my grandparents those who were alive had their moments with their children, my parents ect., that qualified for that sometimes. As the grandchild it was different as the good kid, they were nice and caring if different motives.
Frankly my parents are awesome considering everything. Sure there are moments when I disagree or looking back would have adjusted things, but as people they are decent. Wouldn't trade them for anything. They aren't perfect but I love them all the same, and the feeling is mutual.
It's a miracle considering some of the wacky shit that happened with them and around them and their siblings. It makes a person thankful for what they have, and the hardships others went through.
I love you guys. I really do. Those jew bastards are warring with us constantly and you'd think we'd all talk like perpetually-scowling angry people since that's how the TV usually depicts war vets when it isn't playing the shell-shocked ones for sympathy/tragedy. But here we are, and here there is real positivity. Here there is good advice from wise masculine men. This genuine culture focused on self-improvement is good for the soul. It warms my heart to know our souls are not dead.
Watched a painfully generic action movie online with friends today but I forgot its name. The film was full of gay jew shit and I took a piss break halfway through, but I'm proud of myself for hiding my power level yet swiftly and unobtrusively using one-liners and "Is she seriously...?" questions to help others notice and laugh at the most obvious and simplest-to-understand parts of propaganda.
One girl whined "They fridged her!" when a woman died in the film.
I asked her "Was it fridging when the hero's parents died in every kid's movie ever? Was John Wick's dog fridged?"
That shut her up but I don't know if it made her think or not. If a movie wasn't on she'd probably bitch loudly for a while without really saying anything.
They insist "Fridge-ing" is when a female character is killed off for the plot or for a male character's motivation. They insist depicting the killing/harming of women is responsible for real women being harmed, because they need something to blame for what's caused by the way they import rapefugees who love to rape poor women and steal/traffic daughters and randomly attack whites who are sometimes women. They also insist Frigde-ing is only fine when feminist writers do it, because it's just a power-grab. They want to spread lies and censor artists and feel like they have the power to "Sanitize fiction" and mold it to their shitty mary-sue-loving power-tripping standards. "Oy vey, a real stronk womyn can never struggle or die, don't you know? Oy vey, won't someone please forget about the men starving on the streets outside our windows and think of the fictional women?"
Feminists love pointing at fiction made by feminist jews as evidence that the world's anti woman. Because if films show Jason Vorehes and Nightmare Clawhands (bad guys) killing men and women and fans/critics cry for the women while the men they kill rarely if ever get mentioned by fans or critics, then surely it means society's normalized violence against women riiight?
It's just normal for a film to kill characters off, especially once they've outlived their usefulness. It's normal for characters to die in service of the plot or another character's motivation. It was good writing when The Empire killed Luke Skywalker's parents and burned his farm down. Made him extra-motivated and removed his ability to back out of saving the galaxy.
Sometimes a baddie will kidnap/kill an adult male character's girlfriend/wife to piss him off but that's because doing the same to the male character's ageing parents or pet puppy or box of old collector's item dolls just wouldn't have the same impact. Films have killed men to shock/motivate women, killed kids to shock/motivate parents, and killed parents to shock/motivate children. Was it fridge-ing when the Shark from Jaws ate all those people or Darth Vader blew up a planet to shock the audience and motivate the heroes to stop the baddies? When nameless masses fled from disasters or perished in them, was that "fridge-ing"?
If you only watch films with gay characters and only the horror movies where everyone but one character dies so therefore the gays probably die you're obviously a faggot desperate to have something to complain about.
And don't get me started on how many animes give the hero dead or missing parents. Or how many times, in anything ever, the master teacher guy dies!
Someone with more free time than me could probably go through a bunch of movies and animes and compare the number of dead parents and dead husbands and dead teachers and dead kids and dead pets to dead wives/girlfriends. But it wouldn't change the mind of a feminist. At bet you can get them to shut up for a while, but they'll always be weaponized karens until society turns against this behaviour and stops elevating women above men so hard that some men actually end up wanting to be stepped on and treated like shit by women.
I thought about making a thread where we post movie names and then discuss if they're jewish pozzed propaganda or not and why. But for everyone to discuss those jew films we would need to see them. Watching all those propaganda films might fuck someone's head up. Though taking the piss out of them could be fun.
A normie friend said he hates the new Star Trek and misses the old Star Treks, which he watched as a kid. So I thought about Star Trek, I heard it turned many into "Futurist" libtards convinced the future will let them be as cool as Kirk and Picard combined times four in a universe of flying cars and friendly aliens and Replicators that give you everything for free and no money or jobs. Going through that show episode by episode together and talking about why this episode was dumb wrong gay jewish propaganda, or written so bad it was accidentally anti-black instead of pro-black, or childish commie bullshit could be fun and interesting.
>I love you guys.
No homo, right?
>I really do.
Whatever, I love you too, you massive faggot.
I get what you're on about, I agree with why you don't like the Jews and their movies or the gullible women who love those shit shows made by kikes, I agree with you on all that bullshit too. Why do I agree with you? Because you give a reason with an answer to why it's wrong.
I want to let you know that you are welcome to write about whatever you want to, you are not doing anything wrong by complaining about walking vaginas saying some stupid shit, I don't really have much to write about movies and anime, nor do I really give a shit about star wars or star trek, I like being here with you, I'm not too interested about what you are into but that is my preference, you are free to write what pleases you and I won't complain too much, unless you write something dumb or I get flustered over ponies, we don't have much to complain about and I'm glad you like it here with me, you don't really know me but I think we have a lot in common, except you're a bigger faggot.
I'm not a fan of thriving from conflict or being argumentative, I'm here to have fun and be a dickhead sometimes, we can be friends while we're here together, so long as we both respect one another I think we'll get along fine. there isn't a whole lot that I have against you so it's cool but time will tell what will happen.
Is it possible to bruise your elbows by exercising too hard? I think I did that and can't extend my arms fully.
>>3307>Is it possible to bruise your elbows by exercising too hard?
Yes, when you are training hard with heavy weights there can be a point where your body will require rest, if your arms are still hurting then you should just let them heal for a while.>I think I did that and can't extend my arms fully.
There is a certain amount of strain for all bones and if you have been working hard on those joints then maybe you could have hurt them.
Arms are recovering nicely.
About a week or two ago I really fucked one of my feet up.
Came down too hard on it when running, bruising the heel. Also got infected skin and the muscles/nerves in my foot practically fucking dissolved from the swelling. Couldn't wiggle or separate my toes or pull them closer together or bend my foot towards my legs. Was stuck in bed for many days. I remember turning up 5 hour music mixes and trying to drift away from the pain. Painkillers didn't take it all away. I thought I would never walk again. Every so often I would feel this weird twitching sensation along a line inside my foot as though I was a puppet and that puppet-string necessary for foot movement was reconnecting itself.
But I got better. I did physical therapy myself, stretching and exercising my foot. Learned to walk with crutches and one foot fast. Walked on both feet with crutches, and eventually stopped needing crutches.
Now the foot only hurts when I walk on it for the first time every day or after a long rest, but the pain goes away after about a minute of walking. Will that eventually go away?
>Arms are recovering nicely.
Alright then, hope you take it easy while you recover.
>About a week or two ago I really fucked one of my feet up.
At least you didn't lose it or break it.
>Came down too hard on it when running, bruising the heel.
Bruises heal, eventually, it's the pain that you can't run away from.
>Also got infected skin and the muscles/nerves in my foot practically fucking dissolved from the swelling.
At first when you get an injury it hurts like a bitch but over time it gets better.
>Couldn't wiggle or separate my toes or pull them closer together or bend my foot towards my legs.
Once you can do circles with your foot without it hurting then it will be fine but for the moment keep yourself out of danger while you let your wounds heal accordingly to your body's recovering rate, you will know when you are alright to start beginning new projects at the correct timing.
>Was stuck in bed for many days.
It gets boring sometimes when stuck in between 4 walls.
>I remember turning up 5 hour music mixes and trying to drift away from the pain.
Distractions can help you forget about the pain but it's easier to just accept and work around it, don't let it bother you too much given it's only temporary.
>Painkillers didn't take it all away.
Strong pain reducing drugs can't get rid of the struggles you have to face later or in the moment, there are some things that cannot be avoided and you must look back on this experience while taking some form of wisdom away from it, the future promises to brighter if you can see the light at the end of road while ignoring the darkness surrounding you, you fucked your foot up and walked away from it with a mark to remind you of your errors.
>I thought I would never walk again.
You were overreacting a bit too much but your worries shall soon come to an end, you have endurance to withstand it for now and pain is a part of life as torture is temporary and all the 9 circles of hell you have to endure are there for you to be tested to your limits.
>Every so often I would feel this weird twitching sensation along a line inside my foot as though I was a puppet and that puppet-string necessary for foot movement was reconnecting itself.
Well that must be your nerves or the other bones in the heel, the biology and anatomy of our bodies is weirdly complex.
>But I got better.
The rain will clear soon and sun will shine down on you, all you have to do is be patient.
>I did physical therapy myself, stretching and exercising my foot. Learned to walk with crutches and one foot fast. Walked on both feet with crutches, and eventually stopped needing crutches.
This must be new to you to have to be bed bound in chains, it broke down your views and you must learn to get past this situation for yourself.
>Now the foot only hurts when I walk on it for the first time every day or after a long rest, but the pain goes away after about a minute of walking. Will that eventually go away?
Yes, it will, ride the pain train till you can't no longer, withstand the storm over your head and you will see freedom some point soon, everyone is subject to some form of injury that slows them down until they get back to their feet, get back up from where you have fallen and face your fears with your head high till death do you part, stand up and be strong in the face of fate.
A few days ago, some woman artist normie said she wanted to collab with me on a game where I do all the work and all she does is draw things plus I have to use her characters exactly how she wants.
I expected her to flake out at the earliest opportunity. So I said "Okay, let's make a fighting game. Here's a list of what you'll need to draw. I'll program everything, you just draw the following animations..." and she went quiet after a list of the basic stand/walk/crouching/crouched/blocking/crouched blocking/jumping animations. For one out of eight characters. I didn't even mention attack animations because I didn't think we'd get far enough into this project for anyone to even consider that. Whenever I tried reaching her she "left me on read" as the kids say/do.
And right now, after multiple days of childish silence, I got a message where she says "I don't want to work together on this project cos I don't want to make a game"
Women, am I right? Can't rely on them for anything, not even if this was her idea from the start.
I'm glad I didn't actually put in any work while waiting for her to fulfill a promise for once. She's flaked out of artist collabs before. I expected her to be a total girl about this and that's what she was. That's all she was. I'm not upset about this and I don't want to sound like I'm upset and denying it. I expected this completely. I didn't expect her to blow my expectations out of the water but I feel like I wish I did. We're only friends because we like the same kinds of shows. I wish I knew what it's like to think the world of someone. I wish she had passion and drive and creativity. I wish she actually tried at life instead of lazily drifting through it and expecting the best (im)possible result every time. There are a lot of people I respect but she isn't one of them. I wish I knew what magic words and correct dialogue option I could say that would get her to start getting her shit together.
>>3315>A few days ago, some woman artist normie said she wanted to collab with me on a game where I do all the work and all she does is draw things plus I have to use her characters exactly how she wants.
Not that surprising, you present yourself as being knowledgeable of coding so obviously you are going to attract people trying to take advantage of you.>Lol women.
Haha, yes, haha, ho ho, he he ha, he ha ho, very funny.>I expected her to flake out at the earliest opportunity. So I said "Okay, let's make a fighting game. Here's a list of what you'll need to draw. I'll program everything, you just draw the following animations..." and she went quiet after a list of the basic stand/walk/crouching/crouched/blocking/crouched blocking/jumping animations. For one out of eight characters. I didn't even mention attack animations because I didn't think we'd get far enough into this project for anyone to even consider that. Whenever I tried reaching her she "left me on read" as the kids say/do.
It's evident that she makes promises she can't keep, you gave her the chance to work together with you and she failed to go through with the plan, it's probable that she may be acting out of emotion towards you, rather than even attempting to do it she backs out when called to do work.>And right now, after multiple days of childish silence, I got a message where she says "I don't want to work together on this project cos I don't want to make a game"
It is a half faced lie, she is prioritizing desires above teamwork and that will be her doom if she cannot learn to work around problems, she might specifically not want to be your partner also as a way of avoiding you, she has emotional fantasies of being an artist yet cannot gather the courage to do something beyond her capability.>Women, am I right? Can't rely on them for anything, not even if this was her idea from the start.
It is a tendency of theirs to be opposed to success when faced with big scary decisions that surpass their expectations, modern women are little girls trapped in a mad world.>I'm glad I didn't actually put in any work while waiting for her to fulfill a promise for once. She's flaked out of artist collabs before. I expected her to be a total girl about this and that's what she was. That's all she was. I'm not upset about this and I don't want to sound like I'm upset and denying it.
You have been let down for the millionth time by those you know you shouldn't trust, all your actions and behaviors were planned from the moment you met this woman, it was her actions that told you everything that needed knowing.>I expected this completely.
Naturally, we both would have done the same.>I didn't expect her to blow my expectations out of the water but I feel like I wish I did. We're only friends because we like the same kinds of shows.
Putting trust into someone (especially the opposite sex) is betting against the devil.>I wish I knew what it's like to think the world of someone. I wish she had passion and drive and creativity. I wish she actually tried at life instead of lazily drifting through it and expecting the best (im)possible result every time.
Your hopes of others exist within the walls of your imagination, hate to break it to you, but these wishes are wasted, the creations of the mind are nothing without actions to fulfill dreams.>There are a lot of people I respect but she isn't one of them.
That is agreeable.>I wish I knew what magic words and correct dialogue option I could say that would get her to start getting her shit together.
Find out what fuels her fears, she shies and cowers from the tasks, burdens and expectations that she has been faced with in the past, she is afraid of losing so her preferred choice is to never to put herself in that situation where there is a daunt of disaster of being the loser, her habit is to run from danger rather than owing up to it, the threat of her social integrity is in danger when threatened by a challenge that scares her ability to feel good in ignorance of her skill.
You're unnervingly right about this woman.
She has no father figure and a petty overemotional boomer mother who is terrible at communicating and worse at treating others like people to talk to and reason with instead of whining at them about unrelated shit when dissatisfied with them and hoping they guess what's making her butthurt.
She was going to art college to learn animation but she failed a end of year test twice and had to redo the year twice in a row. but her mom somehow convinced her to take a year off from college and learning animation to spend doing housework and getting a job. This... this year. In this economy. In the middle of the World Government's Cockdown and World War Three against whites. She's white but ashamed to be white thanks to her stupid boomer mother and feminist brainwashers. Shitty boomers probably go to super hell when they die. Dante's Inferno left that circle out because it was too shocking for audiences at the time.
This girl draws like Steven Universe fucked Isabelle the dog and the baby has rounded rectangles disease. She says she's "studying cuteness like Sanrio" but if she isn't tracing the calarts toonboom style or FIM poners she can't draw. Or animate. Jesus what has this girl been doing for years at college besides whining to me via text about how she wishes she had a social life and a billion dicks in her ass. Is it weird to be glad that she's too scared to go to parties because it means there's no chance of bad shit happening there?
Anyway this lazy scared girl, let's call her Joan. She's being groomed by feminists metaphorically speaking, they are brainwashing her and every time I show her evidence that feminists are wrong or evil she clams up and stops thinking. Her mom is easily able to guilt her into doing whatever she wants but she feels no shame at anything unless an adult tells her to. Also she is terrified of upsetting the perpetually upset twitter tards and refuses to believe "you should not give a fuck about them" is good advice. They also influenced her art by making her afraid of big tiddy and drawing hot babes. If she has to draw boobs she makes them pointy and curved the wrong way.
She keeps trying to mentally regress into a toddler state 24/7 and as someone who is sexually into age play and hypnotism this disgusts me because she's doing it wrong. That was a joke, hypnotism is gay and age play disgusts me unless wanting to impregnate anime milfs counts. That's the only acceptable form of it. Anyway she's weird. but maybe if we met in person she could temporarily age regress on purpose and then I could pat her head and call her the bravest little princess or whatever the fuck dads are supposed to do to make sure their kids turn out right? Is that what girls like her are into? Would that help her? Is this something I can do over the phone?
If she was a character in a visual novel there would be a sidequest where you fix all her problems by telling her fucking obvious advice until she decides to listen to it. And maybe getting her away from her mom and into a healthier environment. My imaginary girlfriend thinks this woman is an idiot and time I spend talking to Joan instead of exercising or meditating or eating healthily or working is a waste of time. But I wish I knew how to talk Joan out of being like this and into being completely mentally healthy just like me. That is also a joke because I don't think I can call myself healthy yet. I am still recovering from a lifetime of bad influences and still trying to grow into a proper intelligent, wise, heroic man.
It doesn't feel right for me to talk about someone behind their back like this. But if I want good advice that can help me solve this person's problems I need to be honest. I don't hate this person, I just can't think of anything positive to say about her even though I want to say nice things about her to balance things out.
Joan's mom is an annoying cunt but she doesn't seem evil like my mom was. My mom enjoyed hurting others. But this boomer tard just seems like she's used to having everything go her way without putting in much effort. She certainly never gave Joan life advice for better or worse.
I know that I don't need to solve this person's problems, and I shouldn't hurt myself trying since I don't owe her anything. But I still want to try and fix her.
I'd say your first move should be to be ho est with yourself about why you give a damn. By all indications you seem to have all incentive to tell her to kick rocks. And yet you do not.>But I still want to try and fix herWhy?
Are you certified to administer as a counselor, therapist, or psychologist? Are things going so well for you - all your ducks in a row, all your goals and projects that warrant your actual diligence are complete or overwhelmingly completed - that you have an abundance of time to commit to this wamen?
Be honest. No rationalizations or excuses allowed. Your behavior toward this rapidly and increasingly worthless wamen is a symptom of something else. Put off facing it at your peril.
I will be honest with you even if this sounds weird.
I like the idea of helping others. I think it would be nice for me if she got her shit together and became someone I can talk to intellectually without her retreating into her metaphorical pillow fort whenever things start scaring her. Some of my friends are getting their shit together because I inspired them and gave them entry-level redpills. It feels nice to talk to them about getting your shit together and how shit we used to be.
I know I shouldn't sacrifice my own wellbeing for hers so I won't. I am not a qualified quackdoctor paid to do that. If I try and fix her and she doesn't listen I won't beat myself up over it or hate her, I'll just stop trying to help her and stop feeling bad for her. I'll be able to tell myself I did the right thing even if it doesn't work out. I don't simp for her and I don't want sex with her. So I don't have some stupid fantasy where I solve all her problems and then get to bone her or marry her and have ten kids. She is unappealing. I can name three people I know IRL I'd rather be with. I'm not driven by lust or desperation. I'm driven by the thought that a good person should try to help others if he can do so without compromising his ability to help more people. If she can't be helped by me or anyone then that knowledge will give me closure. But right now I can't stop myself from thinking that maybe I could help her if I just knew what to say.
Did this sound too harsh/mean/weird?
Whenever I wrote down something that sounded nice like "I want to help her because I feel bad for her and think it would be nice to see her happy for once" I deleted it and replaced it with something that sounded less sappy.
>>3319>You're unnervingly right about this woman.
These types of women are predictable and they share cloned characteristics, they are programmed to think a certain way. Wouldn't it be funny if those were lucky guesses I made like some kind of magician?>Backstory
She's a bad artist that has been lead down a red road by left-tits who are manipulating her, nothing eye catching.>Anyway she's weird.
Sounds funny coming from you.>but maybe if we met in person she could temporarily age regress on purpose and then I could pat her head and call her the bravest little princess or whatever the fuck dads are supposed to do to make sure their kids turn out right?
Genuinely try to give her ideas for drawing and help her draw while praising her work, even if it looks like a 5 year old drew it, keep advising her on paying closer detail to being slower with her lines and circles, if you try mentoring her art style too quickly or continuously criticizing her 'art' it may remind her of her father, just try being genuine and friendly while going with the flow of the moment, if she's alright with being close to you then making a move to persuading her actions will be easier, getting a lost woman to listen to your ideas might work but it has to be slowly as you will have to learn her and how to step carefully into her comfort zone, if you can give enough support she has potential to listen to what you have to tell her, if you can wedge your way into being that fallback pillow for her to come crying to, then you have a chance, when you have yourself the pillar that she holds onto then you will be able to do what you want, she is lacking in embracement by her father as he has never been there for her to coming crying to, be the giver of affection that soothes her sobbing then she will be utterly at your mercy, give her what she craves to her by simply being there for her to cry on or for her to open up to, either way she will eventually begin to see you as a role model while the intimacy deepens, keep this up while being her teddy bear to cry onto, she is mostly innocent in heart as her immature thoughts are that of a confused girl without any parental guidance, she is afraid of what she doesn't know and if you can explain to her in a comforting manner that you want to help her then she may accept your advances towards you being there to support her, these daddy deprived women are looking for a father figure who is there for them to listen to them talk when they are frightened with moral decisions, don't come on too strong and she will decide to choose you, when you are in the right circumstance and if you play your cards right.>How do red pill feminist?
Sounds like a tough challenge, the spell is broken if you can get close enough to her that she'll trust you more than her twitter followers, good luck with that, if your primary goal is to 'help' make Joe Anne bend to your command then you need to make yourself a trustworthy friend or her boyfriend, she might trust you that bit better if there is a closer bond between you both, which means your influence over her thoughts will be stronger, she is likely to be a man hater and if so will be harder to get her to do what you want since she has told herself to not listen to advice from the opposite sex, get to be around her a bit more often to learn her patterns and behaviors, let's say you have known her for about a year or perhaps less, over time that trust will slowly build up until she is more accepting to your wants (assuming she doesn't try to get away from you) then she will begin to listen to you if you give her some affection rather than forcing yourself onto her, spend time with her and get to be her friend then maybe she will believe you are trying to help, situations will come together in a way where you are the one for her, don't push yourself too much in her face or she might get scared that you are a danger to her wellbeing and interests.>>3320>>3324>>3326>>3327
You are nervous about what she may think about your actions and thought process, this is in anticipation of the desired outcome and is fairly ordinary, you are lying to yourself if you claim to be completely uninterested in her, you wouldn't have brought this woman here if she wasn't on your mind, there is something about her that intrigues you, am I wrong to suggest that she reminds you of your own upbringing?
You are under the assumption that she can be dissuaded because she is sitting in a similar situation like you have previously been, look at what are her influences and deduct whether she is savable from them, remember that this is is a gradual process of learning how to befriend and comfort this woman so she falls into your arms without forcing it, you must be willing to be dedicated to her for you to have any impact on her thoughts or feelings, if you are in the back of her head then you are not going to be a grand subject of question to her, let alone be of any importance, don't worry too much and you will be fine with her.
This sounds like good advice, but up until now I was always told men who try to become the "shoulder women cry on" just end up stuck in that role forever as "beta male cuck orbiters" who get "friendzoned". Supposedly she sees you as the boring safe backup option while she runs around trying all the dangerous criminal crackhead/buff chad dick expecting sex with her to turn them into her ideal husbands. Also supposedly she starts seeing you as an object who'll always be there no matter how she treats you, because she assumes you enjoy her interactions as much as she does and you enjoy wiping her tears as much as she enjoys having them wiped away.
Are you sure I won't end up like that? I'm open to the idea that I was lied to about women because this technique's actually super effective. But so many losers get cucked by being too nice and supportive and unconditionally loving towards women that view dedicated and loving men as a boring safe option to settle for after turning fourty if he hasn't found a better option. How do i avoid that fate?
Joan already comes to me when she needs a shoulder to cry on or some advice. Is this good?
When it comes to our backgrounds, she was neglected by a lazy whore mother who didn't care how her habits and behaviours affected her daughter, but I was actively abused by two lying narcissistic parents who enjoyed hurting me and tormenting me and spreading lies about me. Child protective services aided and abetting them, this obese whore showed up to my parents house whenever kid-me trusted someone enough to talk to them about my home life and answer questions like "Why do your eyes look so tired?" and "Where did those bruises come from?" honestly. And because I'm disabled I wasn't allowed to move out on my own, and my parents stole my money so I couldn't just sneak out one night with a pocket full of cash and a dream. I couldn't get away until I became the problem of adult protective services, who finally helped me get away from my parents.
Joan doesn't take important things seriously or put effort into achieving any goals she sets for herself or has set for her. And she wastes too much time worrying about nonsensical bullshit like "I'm worried the 10ish year age gap between the gay simpsons characters I'm writing fanfiction lemons about is too big! And I'm worried there are toxic power dynamics going on!". Both are adults, who gives a fuck? It's gay bullshit about the fucking simpsons, who gives a fuck?! If you write faggots as abusive cunts, women get off on it even more! Probably. Women loved Fifty Shades of Grey for being degenerate bullshit just like gayness. So if you combined gay with fifty sharts of gay you'd get the secret to the money of dumb women everywhere.
Also it annoys me that she blindly listens to her whiny mom, who just says random bullshit whenever she's upset even if it makes Joan cry for hours. She wastes hours every day watching trashy normie tv shows that don't help her art or relate to art, such as The Jeremy Kyle Show. When she's not watching shit like that she's watching the same 3 Cartoon Network cartoons from her childhood over and over. It's very rare that she makes art, and I don't know when she practices art or if she ever does. She did go through a "I want to bone Jack Skellington and Sans Undertale" phase but that ended and now she's in a "I fetishize gay men and want to see them fuck and I love how much easy positive feedback I get for posting this on twitter" phase.
How can I introduce her to new things? I have a lot of animes I want to show her but she's been brainwashed into thinking all anime is pedo shit that's morally wrong for having big tiddies and fanservice.
This ignorant slut couldn't sit through episode one of cowboy bebop. She said Tea Gardener from Yugioh dresses like a slut when I showed her yugioh! Pic related, it's Tea from Yugioh.
Joan also said she hated books when I tried introducing her to some good ones. At least she never read Harry Potter, right?
If she's going to write stories that are actually good for once she needs a wider "Pallete" of ideas in her head to draw from when designing original stories/animations/characters/cartoon ideas that are actually original. Everything she writes still feels like a fanfic for something else with most of the names changed because she still hasn't figured out how to put original spins on ideas she's seen before.
There's so much obvious shit she just doesn't get. And when I try to help her she just ignores any piece of advice she doesn't like hearing.
Also she's stuck in the "Feel depressed and empty, try to fill the void with distractions, fail, repeat" cycle. How do I get her out of that?
>>3326>I like the idea of helping others.
Of course you do. Everyone does. But, rattle this around wit ur tea at 4:00.
Are you willing to take responsibility for being both incapable to provide the 'help' you envision AND the repercussions? Seriously.
I'll let Jordan Peterson say it, cuz it clearly not listening.
"Set your house in perfect order before you criticize the world"
Is your house even in order, let one perfect order? Cuz until then, what business do you have? Who elected you to so graciously sprinkle your opinions upon people? The fucking nerve of this bong!.
You could have avoided this by being honest. I told you no rationalizations, but u didnt lisyen.
You want to save ppl cuz then you're absolved of saving yourself. Fix yourself.
But my house seems to be in order now. I have a healthy daily schedule full of good habits and I work on my projects at a sustainable rate, I sleep regularly, I exercise and eat healthily, I don't feel like an empty shell any more, I found God and the light and love of God and Jesus Christ, I have no contact with my abusive parents, and I don't blame myself for how they treated me. I nutted in my sleep last night but my nofap streak is still strong. I even got myself heavier weights and a standing punchbag for more health and more varied exercise. Punching the fuck out of it feels good. I cook my own high quality meals. I have a circle of friends I unironically care about and it feels good to be a good influence on them. But at the same time I avoid being too preachy/political with them. I save that talk for when it's needed instead of saying that stuff constantly like some sitcom character gimmick. Sure I could be buffer and richer and I still don't have a car but as far as things go I think I'm doing pretty well.
>>3329>There's so much obvious shit she just doesn't get. And when I try to help her she just ignores any piece of advice she doesn't like hearing.
She sounds perfect for you then
Not at all, I'm looking forward to you getting a taste of your own medicine. Nice quads tho
Anon, without going into too much detail, there are places you can work through this kind of stuff alongside or without therapy. I haven't read most of this thread but the little I've glanced at makes me think you might be able to benefit from this. It'll be there if and when you need it, and this isn't your typical AA-style meeting, where the only objective is appears to be not to drink; this program is specifically to help work through issues like these and have them stop affecting people's lives well into adulthood. Nor is ACA reserved for children of alcoholics. It's for anyone that comes from a broken home.https://adultchildren.org/literature/laundry-list/
I won't be able to help you work through any of the particular issues you've mentioned thus far but I'd be happy to answer any questions you might have about the program itself.
Why do you think that works?
The friend zone is where you get placed on a scale set by a woman on how valuable of an asset you are to her, if to her you're worth keeping around then you will be used as a tool for whatever she wants, usually they see you as desperate and a reliability that craves attention so they put you on a pedestal of attractiveness.>Are you sure I won't end up like that?
Depends on how you present yourself, you are the one who puts your feet into dangerous territory. No, I'm not sure but women are deceitful so take care.>How do I get her out of that?
It is ultimately down to her, forcing someone to change themselves because you told them to works only in specific situations, where there are lines of respect and understanding between one another, the mutual care flourishes while cooperation becomes second nature. Make a move and see what happens but be prepared for consequences that will be brought after the action has been taken, concoct a plan and fulfill it while developing psychological strategies to enact perfectly according to the subjects own patterned psyche, organize your decisions carefully, if you fail to grasp or understand the magnitude of what you are planning then you should go back to the drawing board.
Talking to w*men is a mistake, always. They are your enemy, and will never know brotherhood.
I don't mean that as doubt or an insult, I'm open to trying it. But what about it makes you think it'll work? Has it worked on people you know before?>>3337
Makes sense. Don't worry, I don't fantasize about fucking her and having ten or more kids. I'm perfectly fine with my pony waifu tulpa, since if I ever had kids with a real woman it would just divorce-rape me and leave me homeless and treat my kids like shit.>>3338
True, women are shit parasites. At best, they're shit in ways that are harmless to you and those you care about, and it's easy enough to go along with the delusions the female brain relies upon. At usually, they're actively harmful to themselves or others for no good reason, and they get away with it because this jewed society sees lying feminist conquerors and lying jewish conquerors as victims of their male white slaves. They can't be in charge because all they know is blame-shifting and delegating their responsibilities onto people they're supposed to help/organize/lead. And they only make good workers when they think a man in charge won't let them get away with it. I've met a lot of women in my life and I've never met a good one in my life. I've met men in bad situations who do the best with what little they have, and I've met women born with so much more who had it all handed to them and threw it all away because of their childish whims.
Sometimes I wonder what it was like in the era before women were allowed to be such cancerous jewed parasites that they ended up poisoning civilization.
I wouldn't be comfortable expressing my opinion on that, sorry anon. As they say though, "it works if you work it, and you're worth it." ;)
Alright, I'll look into it.>everyone
I got a new metal water bottle, but when drinking water from it you can REALLY taste the metal.
Is that normal, or did I buy a shit water bottle I should stop drinking from immediately?
Normally my water containers are plastic.
Glass bottles, anon. I like to buy 1 large Voss bottle and reuse it, for precisely the issue of metal or plastic leeching into it. Clean it with vinegar, Voss has shit quality controls per independent consumer study groups. You may want to make a neoprene cover for it if you do.
>>3339>Don't worry, I don't fantasize about fucking her and having ten or more kids.
She wouldn't make a good mother, she can't take responsibility for her own actions so her kids would be even worse under her blind guidance.>I'm perfectly fine with my pony waifu tulpa,
That's good enough, not as much stress or danger.>since if I ever had kids with a real woman it would just divorce-rape me and leave me homeless and treat my kids like shit.
Most women are complete psycho bitches, it's disheartening seeing their behaviors in action, horse girls are fucking nuts, and that's coming from me.
Horse girls are so fucking creepy because their love of horses isn't genuine. They just get off on dominating and commanding such a massive beast that could easily kill them if it hadn't been dog-trained into learning helplessness. It's always the obnoxiously rich girls whose daddy actually bought them ten horses and an unproductive farm for their birthday too. Then they have the gall to act like touching animals and seeing dirt now and then makes them special like they're fucking cowboys or something when they're really no better than any other hedonistic worthless bitch. And they have those stupid fucking ukuleles and nasally pitchy voices and shitty fucking hair styles that try to look messy and effortless and punk but was more expensive than a working class family struggling to make ends meet in a society damaged by feminism spends on food in a week. Is there anything more fake and commodified than the punk "subculture"? Govt-approved anarchy pins and anti-capitalist Che Guava shirts for just two hundred dollars plus one-day Amazon shipping, spend your money on the worst look possible here! "oh my god, liking bands shilled on MTV makes me so underground and simultaneously Scene and Emo and Goffik and Punk!".
Their taste in everything is shit and everything they do is a delusion or a signal like their shitty piercings and stupidly expensive pre-ripped jeans and scummy power-mad self-fetishizing abusive personality. I wish horses had magnetic fields that would send their piercings flying out of their bodies. They expect to be able to treat men worse than their needy pet horses too. If you date a horse girl she will at best love you forth after her daddy's money, your money, her horses, and you in that order. Yes I once met a horse girl and I will unironically hate them all until I meet one that treats animals and people with respect and could actually survive without her delusions and material pleasures and typical narcissistic histrionic female ego.
Maybe women just shouldn't be allowed nice things. Maybe if women were forced to go to church and be nuns in nun clothes until they're of a marriageable age and couldn't own land or children and had to be good mothers to their men or pro nuns or maids to good mothers, society would be better off. Rare one-in-ten-million good women who turn out good despite society's bad influences can't possibly be worth all the bad ones raping every man's wallet and future through taxes and govt abuse. Women shouldn't be able to vote. Even restricting their voting rights to "married women with kids only" would be a huge step up. I know it's impossible to truly ban and burn all copies of something in the information age but if anything should be forced underground it's all those disgusting romantic comedies that teach impressionable young girls it's okay to be a piece of shit because you'll be rewarded with a beautiful celebrity man once he's gotten over all the issues that prevent him from being a lazy narcissistic cunt's dream lover. Maybe women would turn out better if they couldn't watch shit like Mama Mia during their formative years and had to watch anime like normal people.
Should I not post stuff like this about women, and focus on self-improvement talk?
Today I ate healthily, exercised, avoided masturbation, and made progress on my personal projects. Watching an anime called "How Heavy Are the Dumbbells You Lift?" gave me exercise advice but I'm not sure if it's right or not.
It said to drink protein shakes shortly after exercising, so I did. Feels good.
A gym bro friend of mine insists the "Grenade" protein bars/protein shakes are the best. I'll try the bars some time but I prefer to make my own protein shakes. That way, I always know what goes into them.
Today was a good day.
Some of them can be nice but not all of them, there are always exceptions, the ones that are well natured round out to be better than most other women, the true good stable girls are hardworking and are helpful, they are pure and innocent whereas the egoists are the opposites, they are a set example of those women who think they are everything and use their wealth as a method of power to enact their desires of control, they take advantage of everything living around them and see that animals belong below their feet as a result of their superiority complex.>Anarchist punk pansies
Kek, they are delusional jokers that believe freedom will save them from the ineptitude of ignorance, they are static and boring to be around while they spout about themselves or how miserable their lives are on repeat, they value feelings above logic and their whole life is based around that emotional worldview.>>3347>Should I not post stuff like this about women, and focus on self-improvement talk?
It's your choice, no one is exactly forcing you, worrying about your moon runes on a how to brush horse hair site is fairly ridiculous, there is no difference as the point of this is making you feel and think better, you worry a lot about your public perception and that's why it's so funny because you take everything so seriously that you write or read.>Today I ate healthily, exercised, avoided masturbation, and made progress on my personal projects.
That was yesterday, what happens today is a different story, a simple life is usually the most fulfilling, though that is not the case for some.>Watching an anime called "How Heavy Are the Dumbbells You Lift?" gave me exercise advice but I'm not sure if it's right or not.
If you actually want to learn then you must investigate and study the possibilities, using a Chinese cartoon about heavy bells as your primary source of learning is open to being exploited by foreign media, experiment with new tactics and styles to find the one that works best for you.>It said to drink protein shakes shortly after exercising, so I did. Feels good.
Ok, that's your decision to try what people tell you.>A gym bro friend of mine insists the "Grenade" protein bars/protein shakes are the best.
Look for yourself, examine what are the numbers and ingredients then compare them with competing brands, explore your plethora of options rather than focusing on a single subject.
You ask for appreciation and recognition while questioning if you are allowed to make your own choices, of course YOU can make decisions for yourself, when you were a kid you probably always asked if you were allowed to have fun while expecting a denial every time, you have been engraved with a pattern of thought from your father, so you still act quite immaturely since that is your programmed behavior.>I'll try the bars some time but I prefer to make my own protein shakes. That way, I always know what goes into them.
That's alright, you can see with your own eyes of what to choose since you have the choice of doing bad or good to your body and mind, your intake of foods and education both affect how you act or think.>Today was a good day.
You completed the tasks that you set for yourself, success creates satisfaction, you made a victory and there was enjoyment in doing so.
Forget your past, focus on improving yourself for the future. If you need to, move somewhere else so you can start fresh and be a new person.
This might sound odd but I love that we can call the site silly things.
On lesser forums and in lesser fandoms you have to suck dick saying shit like "This is the greatest forum on the internet" and "This fandom will cause world peace through shared love for Lucario" but here we call this place things like a mongolian horse whispering forum for fun and everyone's fine with it.>>3349
That's a good idea. Sometimes I consider changing my name so I will sound cooler and won't have my bastard father's last name.>everyone
Another good day of exercise and eating healthily. Salad's good with meat. It's annoying when people brag about being unhealthy because you need to resist the urge to say something like "Exercise for once holy shit". One friend was surprised that I know people who do stuff when I talked about the weird shit I'm proofreading for a writer friend in a nonspoilery way, surprised guy said I'm like the protagonist from Persona 5 because he has a guy for everything. Thanks mate but my friend circle sadly doesn't include a back alley doctor, an airsoft gun guy, a politician, or a tarotino able to unironically use actual magic. It does have someone who got into retarded twitter beef for no reason with a fandom I didn't know existed so there's that. I'm glad I'm not on twitter. My advice to him was to take a month vacation from twitter. And he said he'd do that! Suck my cock Fuckerberg. I increased the weight intensity for my bench presses and squats. Felt good about myself. Saw someone put a foam plate on the back of his legs while lying on his back and raise them towards his chest while bending them so his knees squished the foam over and over. Is that some hardcore thing for pros? One guy I know does cosplay and makes some sick foam swords. I showed him Satsuki Kiriyuin's sword and asked how much it would cost. He said a low number, I said deal. I drew the design on paper from all major angles with measurements and offered to email him a simple 3d model and pictures of the blade but he said no to that part. It took months for some reason but today he gave me the greatest sword he's ever made. He took some liberties with the design. It's a rectangular block of wood with no taper and a rounded tip, along with a shattered splintery handle with cord tied around the handle to tie it to another unbroken handle with a diamond pommel and blocky crossguard. It comes pre-cracked and pre-dented, too. Guess testing this blade must have gotten rough. But hey, every good swordsman knows if your sword hasn't broken during testing you need to try harder until it breaks in half and you repair the fucking thing with string. Loose string that slides down the two hilts. Everyone knows that just means more air gets in your sword and nothing's faster than air so it'll help your sword go faster. The hilt is broken in such a way that any pressure or recoil to the blade bends the blade from the hilt and into your forefingers with extra leverage while stabbing into the palm with an uneven splintered surface. Or vice versa if you swing the sword backwards. There is also no sheath so you can't jack the sword off like Vergil from Devil May Cry or do his Iaido weeb shit. You can't even end them rightly with a good pommel toss because the pommel is part of the handle. And the blade's half-handle makes the main handle too wide to properly grip so you can't even strike someone with the pommel. If you held the sword by the wooden blade and tried rhe old Mordhau the crossguard would bend thanks to the unique and innovative pre-broken handle. You could only hurt someone by holding the blade and slapping someone with the blade before it transitions into broken hilt and pommel. I think that it could be used in home defense if you tossed it into the hands of an intruder and then swung a baseball bat at him, hoping he grabs the sword and tries to block it with the shit sword only to lose his hand. This is the greatest sword he's ever made because everything that ever looked nice was plastic with foam in the middle and foam is softer than bronze. But hey, at least it was free. I asked what happened to the sword and he said he's never tried making a prop from wood before. I thanked him anyway because hey, it's free. I showed it to an artist friend who collects swords and draws anime girls and he asked a load of questions about the sword. I answered them truthfully and he couldn't stop laughing. I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" and he said "disabled".
*foam with plastic in the middle.
A thin plastic rod is engulfed by square foam chunks. Cement is used to glue the chunks together. A belt sander is used to grind away at the sword and make it look like a sharp thin blade even though it's harmless foam. Then it is painted blue. Then it is painted metal. Then the hilt is painted brown like leather. And that's today's episode of How It's Made.
I don't know why he made this one out of wood. I didn't think he had anything for wood but there's a thin line cut into the wood on one side of the crossguard like it's touched a sawblade that went in deeper than it was supposed to.
I tried to make the sword description funny with that "foam is softer than bronze so it's an inferior sword material and air can get into your sword to make it faster" talk. How'd I do?
I'd recommend having a more legible post structure, and topical ideas that merit the words used. (Normally I leave out the implied why say that in the first place) Because I would like to see easily identifiable points for faster reading.
Otherwise it's good to hear you're doing good.
Thought 1>Another good day of exercise and eating healthily. Salad's good with meat.
Yes. Delicious food is nice, and so is improvement.
Thought 1 tangent>It's annoying when people brag about being unhealthy because you need to resist the urge to say something like "Exercise for once holy shit".
You need to reallocate your fucks given to yourself and those who matter most to you. If and possibly when you do have the wisdom, knowledge, power, opportunity, and the right set of actions then affecting others is a good possibility. Otherwise it is highly circumstantial and limited, by the ability and foreknowledge of the situation.<tldr: give fewer fucks
I figure I should mention this the lead up and the pay off for this new topic is nothing. This is a new topic and by conventional writing standards it would be a separate paragraph or even essay entirely.
Thought 2>One friend was surprised that I know people who do stuff when I talked about the weird shit I'm proofreading for a writer friend in a nonspoilery way,
Thought 2 supporting detail>surprised guy said I'm like the protagonist from Persona 5
Thought 2 explaination>because he has a guy for everything.
Thought 2 clarification 'joke'>Thanks mate but my friend circle sadly doesn't include a back alley doctor, an airsoft gun guy, a politician, or a tarotino able to unironically use actual magic.
Thought 2 tangent, Persona 5 has a tweeting person>It does have someone who got into retarded twitter beef for no reason with a fandom I didn't know existed so there's that.
Thought 2 tangent's tangent. Technically sorta kinda but... it's uber related of sorts...>I'm glad I'm not on twitter.
Topic has now split again.
Thought 3>My advice to him was to take a month vacation from twitter.
Thought 3 outcome>And he said he'd do that!
Thought 3 tangent joke>Suck my cock Fuckerberg.<...
Complete topic shift
Thought 4>I increased the weight intensity for my bench presses and squats.
Thought 4 personal observation of effects>Felt good about myself.
Thought 4 tangent at the gym of sorts>Saw someone put a foam plate on the back of his legs while lying on his back and raise them towards his chest while bending them so his knees squished the foam over and over.
Tangent 4 Question>Is that some hardcore thing for pros? <even though search engines and video content are suspect innocent questions such as what the fuck is the foam thing is okay to seek.<but by the evidence the guy probably just wanted more leg resistance.
My tangent not about the foam thing. More about exercise. (Normally this would go by point the main point.)
Posture is important.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EREvdCaxZHo&t=166>Foam and the sword saga and the question at hand.<Why though? Why go through all of that here and now?>/a/ the sword is pain post
Sarcasm is an exercise in creativity and misunderstandings for the internet era to get it just right with proper intonation.>tldr free junk isn't free you're the product
Testing new material such as wood is not the same as foam.
As for usability he worked with foam for the looks rather than function. Or it was to make a thing and end the project quickly without the main source of income, the plastic and foam cosplay stuff, from being impacted.>I tried to make the sword description funny with that
-the post here->talk. How'd I do?
There's no brevity, levity is in a ditch that climbs out at the end and no time for natural pauses. If there is it would be better said aloud and with demonstration. It could use some work.<Sorry baseball fans
I got a free sword from someone who does sick foam and plastic cosplay swords. Pic related for the anime sword it is based on.
I got exactly what I payed for after a few months, and it's wood.
It has everything you could ask for in anime, held together by shear willpower, guts, and string. Angular and raw like a 2x4.
The blade is to proper UK lumber standards and is safe to slice toast with, and the baseball league.
Like morning wood, but with more cracks and dents you could shake at. It strikes out there, but the twin handles side by side give the classic experience of sliding to first base, on a construction field.
First is the splinters, second is the double wide suprise, third is an out of phase guard, and the in-field string binds it all up. If you make it home it's broke in twain from the abuse. Getting the homerun once would be cake with everything going for it.
No charge at all. It's one of a kind. Best of all if it were an...
So I showed this to an artist friend who collects swords and draws anime girls and he asked a load of questions about the sword. I answered them truthfully and he couldn't stop laughing. I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" and he said "disabled".
Hanging either on a wall might be difficult, but it would make an impression.
>>3358>I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" and he said "disabled".
I coulda editeds more for flow and punchiness<. I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" He replies "disabled".
Or maybe<I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?"<"disabled".
When I said "but it does have a twitter-using idiot" i meant my friend circle not the game.
Sorry about the length, I'll shorten them from now on.
I was going to ask artist fren to draw it as an anime girl but I forgot to to that. I asked this morning and he said "no its too ugly". Thats ok.
>>3360>I'll shorten them from now on
Sure you will
Today I saw two cucked fags in blm shirts in public during my walk. Avoided them casually.
I still ate healthily and exercised today but it got me thinking about this society.
I wish I didn't have to hide my true self. I wish I lived in a noncucked country. Brainwashed people are everywhere. I wonder how it feels to, in person, just walk into a church and be a good part of a good christian community without lesbian jew pastors screeching "all hail diversity, jesus would have hated Boris and Brexit". Does it feel good to sing a song about jesus with others and know the person beside you trusts you absolutely and would die for you just as you would die for him?
The boomers sold us and our future out to the enemy for profit, because the jew told them to. How is it possible for them to be so stupid and evil?
I wish there was an ending to this story where aliens float down to earth one day and congratulate white men for surviving this long on a planet where everything inferior evolved to prey upon them by any means necessary. Then the aliens press a button on their spaceship that ends this experiment and erases all enemies and upgrades white women into obedient kind poners, giving them souls and brains in the process.
Do you think people will rise up one day to fight the corrupt governments of the world and their """peaceful""" third world war on us?
>>3355>This might sound odd but I love that we can call the site silly things.
So do I, this is my favorite witch hunting Christian hangout.>On lesser forums and in lesser fandoms you have to suck dick saying shit like "This is the greatest forum on the internet" and "This fandom will cause world peace through shared love for Lucario" but here we call this place things like a mongolian horse whispering forum for fun and everyone's fine with it.
It's part of channel culture, the internet is now one of the few places in the world with a sense of humor.>>3362>Today I saw two cucked fags in blm shirts in public during my walk. Avoided them casually.
Baffled that you didn't take their number.>I still ate healthily and exercised today but it got me thinking about this society.
Pondering why it's a big joke?>I wish I didn't have to hide my true self.
Secrets are best kept than spread, gossip gets around quick and it can screw you over.>I wish I lived in a noncucked country.
This island has gone to hell.>Brainwashed people are everywhere.
They are dead in the head, given a script to obey.>I wonder how it feels to, in person, just walk into a church and be a good part of a good christian community without lesbian jew pastors screeching "all hail diversity, jesus would have hated Boris and Brexit".
The influx of Negros and Jews have brought with them a slew of subversion, infecting every area and walk of life so that their thoughts are imposed upon you. To me the church is a reminder of death, the twisting tower with it's deafening bells, a constant haunt of the past and of graves, a symbol of authority.>Does it feel good to sing a song about jesus with others and know the person beside you trusts you absolutely and would die for you just as you would die for him?
It's a form of bonding and connecting with people of a similar mentality, singsongs should be buoyant and happy. Not many people are as devoted to their friends or family anymore.>The boomers sold us and our future out to the enemy for profit, because the jew told them to.
Without Jews the world we exist within would be much different.>How is it possible for them to be so stupid and evil?
They were sidetracked with their own desires, drunk and drugged they did not see the danger in the temptation of those numerous lies, people are gullible and trust too easily.>I wish there was an ending to this story where aliens float down to earth one day and congratulate white men for surviving this long on a planet where everything inferior evolved to prey upon them by any means necessary. Then the aliens press a button on their spaceship that ends this experiment and erases all enemies and upgrades white women into obedient kind poners, giving them souls and brains in the process.
This scenario would be better than the current one. Keep dreaming on.>Do you think people will rise up one day to fight the corrupt governments of the world and their """peaceful""" third world war on us?
Time will tell eventually, there is definitely something on the horizon though, people generally prefer to not get themselves hurt if it isn't in their interest to do so. Many, many people are so shortsighted and impressionable.
The church seems like something that could have worked if it tried harder. Christianity survived being thrown to the lions. It survived Jesus's death. But it couldn't stop itself from thinking if it welcomed subversive elements with open arms, they would give up their poisonous ways and be good. That's just not in the nature of scorpions.
Real churches look good, and their bells are alright if you aren't too close to them. At least they have bells instead of that obnoxious islamic call to prayer. Imagine needing some faggot to yell "Pray to your god now!" before you actually do. Imagine being that faggot who stands up for everyone and yells "Pray now!" first. Islam's a religion of power-craving scorpions and poisoned sheep who can't be saved.
>>3355>Sometimes I consider changing my name so I will sound cooler and won't have my bastard father's last name.
I have moved twice, each time leaving all friends behind and starting over. It worked really well for me, I learned a lot. Get a job where you have to deal with people, you get to practice being social on someone else's dime, though it's kind of wierd right now with everyone in masks... Start doing phone tech support if you need to start really small, at least you will gain some skills talking.
Another day of health and alright fortune
I had this idea for a thread called "Glitches in the matrix" or "Leftists behaving badly" or something like that. A thread full of short clips displaying things like animalistic niggers committing crimes, feminists saying "kill all men" and getting cheered by other feminists and generally not even trying to hide their hatred of men, jews gloating evilly about their crimes, lefties openly celebrating white genocide, and so on.
A place to post these short perception-changing videos that shatter a normie's faith in what he's been told to think. The shorter and easier for someone new to all this politics stuff to understand, the better. Because so far when redpilling normies these videos have the most impact on their preconceived notions, opening them up to deeper thought and longer videos/discussions.
Another day of taking care of my body and getting fitter even though this world's going to shit. Focus on what I can control, that's what the advice said.
My alt-history-obsessed friend showed me a ridiculous video that claimed America's going to be isolationist for the next 80 years and "Trump was an isolationist backlash that closed immigration" and France will become a superpower when America's not looking because "France is so stable".
Was the video's creator having a fucking stroke? France will either cast off its jewish chains and cast out its islamic invaders or become another forward-operating base in the EU's islamic one-sided ethnic war on peace.
The video also claimed declining white birth rates are "just a myth that rely on hispanic birth rates remaining constant also most hispanics marry whites so they'll become whiter over time so there".
If pure water is mixed with mud, how pure is that water? "But the mud will be purer-" it says a lot that you prioritize the mud over the vital life-giving water's quality and wellbeing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J3g_ZAx6o64
There are so many demons out there who want the death of the white race and will tell any lie to help it happen. Do they even realize how shit the world would be without us? Some races go to the moon and some races can't understand high school maths without some politician trying to rewrite maths so 2+2=5 but only when they say it is. Most of that lot is able to fail despite our best efforts and some of us are able to prosper despite their best efforts. They're parasites, treasonous parasites. Gradually, I began to hate them.
Stiff elbows again, exercised too hard. Aside from that, perfect health. A friend gave me some Grenade energy drink. It didn't feel like it was an energy drink. But I didn't feel tired later either. I've felt the maddening kick of unhealthy energy drinks before so I expected this one to be even stronger since it's supposedly bealthy. I felt some energy from it but it was weak. Maybe the extreme amounts of energy is what makes red bull and the like so unhealthy. But that's not all I wanted to talk about today.
So basically, there's this girl, and um...
I met her when we were both teenagers and total fucking losers. I was still less of a loser because I had an excuse to be a loser while she didn't. We talked a lot and grew closer but when I told her I loved her she said she wasn't willing to settle for me because she, like all whores, thinks she is entitled to some inherently contradictory fantasy man who crawls out of the screen to satisfy all her fantasies at once. I would have been settling for her since she couldn't take care of herself like an adult then or now. If I had dated her I would probably be a miserable cuck under her heel now, so I am glad I don't have to put up with her. We're both over 23 now but every time I talk to this person it reminds me of how far I've come because there used to be a time when I found this bitch appealing. When I didn't know any less cunty women this woman's cuntitude seemed average for a woman, but now I know better. Sure they aren't the brightest bulbs but holy fucking shit this woman is dumb. This greedy, selfish, entitled twat makes me understand why so many men give up on women and satisfy their need for human intimacy exclusively by going on dates with stuffed animals or Jackie Chan/Pinkie Pie/Keanu Reeves tulpas. I go into conversations with her thinking if I am to be a good man then I must give her my wisdom. But what good is wisdom to a spoiled brat determined to throw away every opportunity presented to her? It's like she's trying to speedrun bad life decisions to spite God. She just shows me disgusting gay transformers fanart instead of actually making anything meaningful like the retarded Transformers knockoff she wants to make. I foolishly wasted time helping her write actual good transformers knockoff episodes and create an original universe but she has this habit of writing pure cringe and putting herself above others and scrapping anything someone smarter than her helped her with. She doesn't really want to be a creator, she just wants to be praised for saying she's one on twitter. The dumb cunt goes into "depressive episodes" aka sad moods for a few hours whenever she goes on twitter to show off her fictional faggot shipping fanart for that precious attention and dopamine hit and doesn't get it. She's been so brainwashed by the feminists that a game of "Hitler or Feminist?" didn't even phase her. She unironically says shit like "I want to tackle toxic masculinity in my writing" and then writes a story where rapey evil space nazis invade earth and also there are cutesy animal plus dolls like if Isabelle fucked Retsuko and Sanrio and they pilot goant robots to shoot nazis for not playing with dollies. Then she spits on bronies and Thomas The Tank Engine fans (turns out they exist) for liking kiddy products even though this bitch defines herself by the corporate media she liked as a child and can't go a day without wasting hours on trashy reality TV or watching Powderpuff Girls reruns. Recently she cackled feministically on twitter at the Thomas femboys, filled with glee over how much she thinks these men would hate the show. When criticized she pulled stupid lying defenses like "I just think it's not that bad" and "bbbut the simple 2d shapes move really well" and only deleted her tweet once some kid said "autistic people love Thomas therefore your anti Thomas tweet is ableist". That made her delete her tweet and fucking grovel in a cliche apology where she nonsensically says she didn't mean to upset anyone but thinks its best to be blunt with her opinions. Yeah, your opinion that you think being childish is only okay when you do it. The cunt leaves me on read unless what I say encourages her to reply and she thinks nothing of lying to my face. Or antagonizing others and then trying to drag me into stupid internet drama I want nothing to do with. Or making vague posts at me and forcing me to waste time trying to Phoenix Wright information out of this fucking cartoon character. Wait no I shouldn't call her a cartoon character, it would offend my adorable cartoon pony tulpa. Did I mention the bitch hates my tulpa but can't understand what tulpas are even though I tried explaining it to her? This fucking bitch, she's a spiteful cunt when she has no reason to be and she unironically idolizes the CWC-but-worse clown of a man who calls himself "Lily Orchard". There are better things I could do with my life like exercise or talk to people who don't make me disgusted with the very idea of life itself or go on imaginary dates with my imaginary horse waifu tulpa or look at sick anime fight scenes or work on my projects or argue on a brazillian equine sodomy subreddit over which fuckable cartoon horse would be the best lay. I am incredibly popular and handsome and confident now that I'm a man, I have a shitton of friends and they genuinely fucking like me. But dealing with
her outbursts and drama is annoying and trying to get and keep her inferior female attention span reminds me of the shit I used to put up with when I was desperate and looking for friends in stupid places. I would have to be genuinely fucking disabled to think it is a good idea to continue to speak to her. She is a fool and I should forget all about her. She's used to being treated like the daughter of an overly lenient dad who can't make her grow up and I don't think it's possible to salvage this relationship or the person she wants to become. She doesn't respect me even though people more qualified and intelligent than her do, and some of the people who respect me are women so it's not a sex thing. I'm not paid enough to be called a toxic white man by some feminist clown who says shit like "I'm just a dumb white girl" on twitter when sucking off Burn Loot Murder. The only question is whether I should tell her to her face she's a pointlessly spiteful immature tard who's making a mess of her life for no reason, even if it means she calls me a meanie and blocks me, or if I should avoid burning that bridge by just talking to her way less and treating her like a casual aquaintance instead of someone I feel like I could and should save.
Golly, it must suck dealing with outbursts and drama and inferior attention spans>should I tell her to her face
Tell who? You're still listening to this bint? You HAVENT cut the cord?>that last sentence.
I know she'll probably call me something worse than a meanie, that was a joke.
I don't know how to stop myself from feeling like I could and should talk her into growing up.
Do your absolute best
>>3374>I go into conversations with her thinking if I am to be a good man then I must give her my wisdom.
If you were truly wise you would only give advice when asked for. No one wants your advice anon.> I foolishly wasted time helping her write actual good transformers knockoff episodes and create an original universe
You say you don't want her pussy, but here you are working for it. What else could you have done with that wasted time anon?>wall of text
Anon, people like this need to be ghosted. Forget her, meet other people. She is just sucking your time, energy and optimism like a vampire. Go hit the gym.
I went a whole day without talking to her. My pony tulpa said she's proud of me. Not just because of the woman, but because I've been healthy and fit for so long.
I have this habit of seeing the worst in people. In everything. So I try to look on the brighter side. But sometimes there is no bright side. That woman doesn't have a bright side. She isn't bright. And if I am to settle down with any woman and repopulate my species with her she needs to have better genes and memes than this stupid femoid thot I'm done making excuses for.
Do you ever think that maybe if you met someone sooner, said the right things and knew everything, you could have kept them from going down the wrong path?
I wish I knew everything.
Also I'm still exercising and healthy.
Still healthy and exercising. Why do I post like this? Is this an accountability journal thing, like that religious thing from last year? Whatever I'm doing, it's working. I don't want to disappoint myself by being a lazy faggot who refuses to exercise. When putting my trousers on I felt my legs and the fat's almost completely gone. It's all firm muscle. I'm actually wearing belts now. Just one, though.
Now that I'm no longer lying to myself about that woman it's easy to see how dishonest she is and disgusting she treats others. She treats everyone like shit and spends all her time getting validated on twatter for posting about her fantasies and fleeting retarded feelings and which cartoons she wants to see fuck. Why did I ever call her my friend? "We both liked the same show once"? Big fucking whoop, there's a lot more to life than this year's reboot of some corporate fucking toyline cartoon. Whenever I tried talking to her about serious shit, she either stops reading/listening or starts screaming. All she wants out of life is comfort and she'll believe in any delusion that gives it to her, including the delusion that makes her think she's "oppressed" for being the fatherless daughter of a house-flipping rich bitch riding the cock carousel into her fourties and rolling in her ex-husband's divorce money. She has it easy. She had it easier than most people alive and she'll still claim she was oppressed in her pussy rich school just because nobody could stand talking to the judgemental two-faced cunt.
She's a twat on twitter and a bigger twat in reality. Sometimes she'll post shit like "I'm demisexual because I only want to fuck people if I know them deeply and have a deep connection with them and like them!" and then send me explicit messages about how she lusts over celebrities and wants Megatron from the Transformers cartoon to tie her up and pound her asshole with his transforming Decepticock until Energon oozes from every orfice, or send me shit transformers gay porn fanfics you couldn't pay me enough to read/skim.
Sometimes she'll say she's something she thinks makes her a good person, and then do nothing to BE what she says she is. Oh wait, not "sometimes", she always does that. She's always horny for cartoon prettyboys and sexually-attractive "dorky awkward" faggots, and full of hatred for anyone who's actually awkward around her. Full of even more hatred for anyone real who approaches her while being anything less than the impossible blend of contradictory character traits she's been brainwashed into admiring thanks to the TV.
despite how often she posts "I love feminine guys! I want to see robot-men from my favourite cartoon be gay and fuck!" she used to shit-talk me for not being tall enough back when I was fat. Now that I'm buff-ish, nobody notices how short I am. What a hypocrite. She doesn't actually love feminine guys, she just has a fetish for when masculine men act girly and wear frilly dresses and buttfuck each other. That's absolutely fucking disgusting. I'd sooner trust a bondage freak, because at least they're normal people when they aren't tied up or playing with whips. Every time a gender-freak sees anything related to sex or sexuality or any expression of masculinity or femininity, real or genuine, they're always fucked up in the head. They aren't normal people with an appreciation for something abnormal, they're damaged people unable to mentally function properly.
Besides, it ain't like I can do anything about my height. Ain't like I can walk into a tranny clinic, claim I identify as a woman who wants to "transition" into becoming a man, and get injected with as many state-funded steroids and human growth hormone and man-chemicals as it takes. I'm a big guy where it counts, so who cares about my height? If I lie on my side without my leg supporting my balls, they wake up sore in the morning because they're big. To be honest I wish my balls were an ordinary size because they make my dick look ordinary-sized unless my hands are near it. Plus they make exercising uncomfortable. If women are going to be shallow whores about the height of the men they sleep with, then any man would have to be an uncaring bastard to reproduce with a short bitch because it would mean possibly damning his kids to a life spent being short. It's a good thing tall babes with hot legs are hotter than tiny whores. Anyway, fuck that bitch.
She's a shallow whore with nothing to offer the world but a wet hole attached to a whiny hypersensitive selfish bitch who looks like RadicalSoda plus a botched tranny. Then again there are no non-botched trannies, since every time someone goes tranny it's because their parents and friends failed them and the jews won. By the way go watch RadicalSoda, he's fucking hilarious. I haven't been a Sonicfag in years but this guy's got great comedic timing.
She has been subverted. She has been jewed and faggoted. She's a man-hating lost cause. Some day she'll "hit the wall", getting old and even uglier. She's already too ugly to receive male attention from anyone she's willing to treat like a person and consider shagging. The only people who want to BE SEEN validating her on twitter so they can look like good people who support good people things will abandon her and move on to someone younger and more impressionable. She'll hate herself then almost as much as she hates men now. How the fuck did I ever tolerate this bitch's presence in my life? How did I ever fool myself into thinking I could fix her when she doesn't want to be saved? Society encourages the worst impulses in women and rewards them with attention and positive reinforcement while punishing wrongthink with negative reinforcement and nonsense buzzwords like "ableist". Women won't ever choose to turn down a life of fleeting pleasure in favour of a life of love+security+morality as a good woman unless society forces them to do so and recognizes the worst feminine behaviours as the medical disorders desperately in need of cures they are. The cure for Histrionic Personality Disorder, Attention-Seeking Disorder, Unreasonable Expectations Disorder, Feminine Irrationality Disorder, Oversized Fragile Feminine Ego Disorder, Uncontrollably Feminine Envy And Spite Disorder, Cock Craving Disorder, and Actually A Brainwashed Feminist Manhater Disorder isn't to brush them under the rug and normalize them.
Sometimes I feel bad about still liking ponies at my age. Is it wrong to look at something so girly, when so many episodes contain anti-male messaging? If anon realistically went to Equestria would he be treated like Spike at best? Maybe a man like me should watch more adult stuff. But after watching shows full of drama, action, and bloodshed, I miss poners.
The Shreeax Movie/Cory Test in the House, all that stuff was to take the piss out of the Superwholock clowns. And when people pretend to religiously love Shrek and fantasize about fucking the smelly green ogre and drowning in an excessive green ogreload, they're taking the piss out of people who are even weirder about Sonic or Ponies or Blue Avatar or Anime.
But anime is designed to be sexy and appealing to all sorts of niches. When white people grow up being told white culture is sinful, some of them latch onto subcultures or the cultures of foreign nations. Guys jack off to Asuka and girls jack off to dumb Kpop boybands. It's funny when people pretend to love Backstreet Boys or Big Time Rush just to piss off the kpop zombies. Like when people pretend Raid Shadow Legends is the greatest gacha game ever to take the piss out of gacha-addicted faggots who can't even get addicted to something respectable like poker and would unironically consider Cookie Clicker the best game ever if they had the mental capacity to play a game that isn't on their phone and requires something besides a credit card to play. Why don't they don't have any similar jokes for us?
Maybe because it's they are women and women aren't funny.
Friend don't worry about liking ponies. When I started watching I realized I can take MLP more seriously than most sitcoms or whatever on TV. The characters feel more real than those from more "serious" shows.>women aren't funny.
>>3390>women aren't funny.
My theory for why women aren't funny is that laughter is a type of pressure release that comes from a place inside you too genuine for women to have. Women physically don't have the wings and body structure a bird needs to fly or the brain capacity men need to be mature civilized adults. Laughing at silly words and sex jokes is a break from being adult for men and just another way to squeeze her desired result out of others for women. Women will loudly over-laugh at things just to be seen and heard laughing when they think they are supposed to laugh at something. And women will be called funny by men who want to fuck them or satisfy their feminine egos or be seen "being nice" to women or be polite or avoid pissing off their simps, so they never feel the need to get better material. They don't truly get jokes or why "Haha I love hurting men. Women multiply things so if you give them semen they make you a baby and if you give them any lip they give you a lifetime of suffering and that's a good thing teehee" is less funny than a man saying "A man walked into a bar and said ow ouch oof fuck ow I walked into a bar". They are insulated from the worst of the world in places where they're still coddled and babied by men despite their best efforts to bite the hand that starves itself to feed them so they don't care about anything enough to notice the true contradictions in this society of lies or who the enemies of life really are. Women are treated better than men in this society and they don't feel the need to question a society that encourages them to enjoy acting maliciously and selfishly while giving them bullshit femoid lies as justifications for it. Women aren't funny because they don't have to be. It's also why so many women aren't smart and won't think critically about anything. Society never forces them to be smart and never punishes stupid women enough for making mistakes that screw over herself and others. Feminists are never forced to look at and feel the negative consequences of their war on white men and the children of white me. Unless she is incredibly ugly and obese enough to turn away even the most brainwashed cuck alive with low self esteem she is always one lie eyelash batting or police phone call away from having her nearest simp handle her adult responsibilities for her and rob her of any learning opportunities by trying to convince her she did nothing wrong. A woman's understanding of reality is skin deep. Her impression of a mature and respected male leader makes her a petty incompetent tyrant in love with abusing her authority over others and as soon as any real work needs to be done she relies on her underlings who she also blames for everything she does wrong and every disaster she causes. Her impression of a comedian makes her a whiny shameless pervert obsessed with the scent of her own pussy and absurdly distorted relationship stories where she's never done anything wrong men aren't willing to overlook in the name of "harr harr bitches be crazy and that am normal, it's the man's responsibility to keep the woman satisfied and safe and sane no matter how much she doesn't want to be any of these". Her impression of a "victim" makes her a hypersensitive liar desperate to avenge her honourless "honour" at even the tiniest slight to her pathetic femininity. Everything about the modern woman is an act for her own amusement and social status to be discarded as soon as it is inconvenient for her including her humanity and compassion. Her impression of a human being leaves much to be desired. They might be able to repeat jokes they stole from men and repeatedly repeat lines that make people laugh like "haha i sure do love anime pussy. It's a good thing anime fans love it when women say they like what anime fans like for attention. Watching ten hours of hentai a day is worthy of praise because I am female teehee" but they can never grasp true comedy.
Women are even bad at media analysis and pattern recognition which ironically makes up most of their media analysis ability.
They bitch about "women as reward" because they are unable to tell the difference between "saving the girl impressed her into giving him a chance", "rescuing his wife earned him sex", and "the king unironically gave the paladin a slave and sick plus two sword as a reward for killing the goblins". They don't care about all the media in which something besides women is the reward such as personal growth or a celebrity career or a kingdom or a farm or a job or godhood or a return to normalcy.
They'll cry about all the times consent wasn't 100% there in the only pieces of media they've seen besides porn while ignoring all the time male characters were raped or even raped to death and had their rape played for laughs.
They'll call it "fridging" every time a female character dies for any reason and claim "fridging" is when a woman dies or is killed off to shock or motivate a male character. Imagine being so privileged that it bothers you when a woman dies in a piece of media and then giving no shits when media demonizes those of other groups. They don't give a shit about all the media where the roles are reversed or all the media where something else important to the man is killed like his dog or parents or children or entire extended family or hometown country or planet. Anime fans joke about the "doomed mom haircut" and how many heroes have a Moses ripoff moment in their backstory where the baddie is told someone from X Town will kill him so he slaughters everyone from X Town but one survives and wants revenge.
Was it "fridging" when Edward Elric's mom died of a broken heart and Ed's attempt to revive her started the show? Was it "fridging" when Luke's uncle and aunt or John Wick's dog were killed? When an entire fucking timeline of reality full of loving people got obliterated in Dragon Ball Super, and some of the people in that timeline were female(even though humie women aren't people) was it "fridging"? When an adult man has his shit together and lives away from his parents and extended family as one of millions of atomized rootless individuals in a shitty city and the only things in life that bring him joy are his job and wife and maybe a collection based hobby like a pokemon card collection, a serious villain can only threaten or destroy one of those things to establish himself as a bastard that needs to go down. And threatening a man's property is usually turned into a joke in media. "teehee look at the silly man care about blideo blames that got stolen or get mad when his clothes were burned by his ex wife".
"pattern recognition" or "tropes" as the jewed call it is the death of legitimate media criticism. I don't need some self-appointed expert with 9k subscribers to tell me a book has a mostly red cover with a woman on it and the text contains a comic relief character and six traffic violations and a rape scene and a mint green toyota corola and a car chase scene that ends in a cabbage stand getting destroyed and a surfer dude and a loose cannon cop who doesn't play by the rules and four cock jokes and one sexist joke and a Red Oni Blue Oni dynamic with the black by-the-book partner forced onto the white guy by authority only for him to become friends and leaen they're not so different in the author's eyes. I certainly don't give a shit if that faggot youtuber thinks the book is bad just because he subjectively does not like those tropes, even if he claims it's just because of how they were implemented. If your only example of "x done right" is a masturbatory work of metashit that constantly says "x is shit" your opinion on x is invalid because you just hate x whether you admit that to yourself and others or not.
Women are fundamentally dishonest and even when they criticize media it is an extension of their dishonest nature. They just want to bitch about people writing stories with elements they want to be seen hating and "gush about" (praise) fetishes and fetish media they want to be seen endorsing. Fuck women and fuck their female brain and fuck their toxically feminine behaviour.
It pisses me off to know I can never say anything about women on an anonymous forum for secret thoughtcriminals that's meaner to them than what they've been praised for saying about all men and paid to say about men in feminist propaganda novels and propaganda manifestos. But realistically speaking feminism needs to be stopped. It's illegal to rape and it should be illegal to be a feminist because being a feminist rapes kids but with extra steps. Feminists and jews import niggers that rape and muslims that traffic and rape kids. They want reeducation camps or worse for us and their ideology should be cured in reeducation camps while the incurables are muzzled and thrown in padded rooms and straightjackets. Feminists can only destroy and they would rather stomp a hundred babies to death than be a good person in a healthy society they can't control or destroy.
Legs still burning from exercise today. Feels good. Is it weird if I start to enjoy this?
That piece of shit woman... I knew her for years. Maybe if I said the right things I could have put her on a better path? But she was always a shallow selfish whore unable to consider the feelings of others. She was ruined before I met her. It's foolishness to blame myself for how God wanted her to be. She's not my daughter, but if she was she would have turned out better.
A lot of people build up imaginary versions of women they know in their heads and choose to pretend they are spending time with this imaginary perfect girl when dealing with the real thing. They ignore red flags because they want to believe in the fantasy whores use to manipulate weak minded men into serving them. But I already have an imaginary perfect girl in my head and she's a beautiful and absolutely massive poner. She's so soft and cute and warm and sweet and supportive. But she's not just a cheerleader hugbot, she can be clever and cheeky. And she's genuinely hilarious when she wants to be. She has her own thoughts and opinions and we've disagreed on things before which makes her more alive than all those roleplaying twats on tulpa sites with boring generic Pinkie-knockoff one-note gimmick character tulpas. If you have a lot of tulpas can they really develop into individuals and grow if all they ever do is "act in-character" according to whatever movie character or animu slut or cliche character archetype you had in mind with this? How could real women ever compete with this? Lowly humie femoids could never compete with this. She's perfect. And she genuinely loves me. And I genuinely love her. My poner is love. My poner is life. When I sleep, I usually dream of my poner. And my poner really appreciates how fit I'm getting. It feels good. Being appreciated feels good. I have the best girl in this and any other universe right here.
"I want to live! Take me out to sea with you!"
Those words from One Piece brought me to tears when I saw it as a boy.
Seeing videos of the olden days when countries like America and England were full of not just whites but lively and happy whites with souls... I wonder what it would feel like to know these people. To talk to them and live among them. What would they think of me? Of the things I've seen and heard about? It feels like I'm looking into a parallel universe. Or maybe some hollywood film that accidentally made the parallel universes look better than this one. It doesn't feel like any place that could ever exist in the timeline of a world that turned out so ugly. I saw them today in some video, and tears silently fell from my masculine face. How could the boomers get so spectacularly jewed that they raped the futures of their kids and allowed America to be invaded and subverted? I guess that's just another question to ask God if I ever meet him.
I made some more friends today. I grew up in a shit environment so even now it's still surprising how easy it is to get along with good people. They all probably have dark secrets but fuck it, that's normal these days. My dark secret is that I used to masturbate to anime girls. By the standards of modernity that's vanilla shit. If I walked into a church and told some priest that he'd laugh his ass off and say he expected me to say something horrifying like "I masturbated to anime girls with tails and animal ears" or "I masturbated to anime girls who have animal ears and are horses or snakes or car-sized spiders or fucking fuckable fish from the waist down" or "I masturbated to anime girls but with fur and tails and animal heads".
For God's sake, we all joke about thinking hand-holding and headpatting and other displays of emotional intimacy are horrifyingly lewd and kinky because we're so horrifyingly desensitized to sexual and physical intimacy.
Fantasy stories were once a way to make sense of the world and figure out morality and wisdom and pass it on to our children through aesops and porquoi stories.
Over time as we figured this shit out fantasy became a way to entertain and any messages were secondary. How many got through Narnia without realizing how Christian it was?
Narnia's kids went into the wardrobe to enter and save a fantasy land, then they returned home to be wiser people.
Lord Of The Rings's Middle Earth was its own world saved by its own people. No human visitors here. It had its own history and languages and everything.
Avatar was a failed attempt to recreate that magic. It had better technology than LOTR but the story was basically just Pocahontas 2: PocaHarder. It had its own language but it usually got misused in the movie so people in the audience could still understand what was said. And hilariously when they were told to "make something alien for my alien world" by nlending fucktons of shit together from around the world they basically got a musical style and language that sounded mostly african.
Yet it was still enough to get people wishing they lived on Pandora as a biue cat freak just like people wished to live in Middle Earth or visit Narnia.
Zootopia was just New York but designed from the ground up to be multiracial and democratic even though Predators are outnumbered 1 to 10 by prey. Great worldbuilding. No history or unique languages, just silly looking shit and species racism but furries still want to live there.
Then there's Harry Potter. It's basically earth but with a silly little corner where a middle aged karen's view of everyone else's "sillyness" is taken to 11. The sports are silly and the names are silly and the society is silly but once the baddie kills himself for the third-ish time using bullshit Wand Rules rowling pulled from her ass Harry and friends work for the silly state like good little slaves. Harry doesn't need to put his wand down or take off his wizard robes and come home, or start a new life away from wizardry in secret with the wife he met in magicland. The fantasy no longer has an end point even though no effort was put into the plagiarized world.
Twilight enchanted dumb women almost as much as Fifty Shades.
Don't get me started on the Isekai shit. Stop me if you've heard this one. A human goes to a fantasy land and becomes overpowered and gets a harem BUT... he's the bad guy or a chick or the bad guy and a chick or on a team of retarded women or he's got a sword or a gun or a fucking smartphone.
Society has gone from viewing fantasy as a creative exercise to an exercise in creating a vehicle for fantasizing.
If someone two thousand years ago said "don't take shortcuts through the forest or the Hatchiyak will get you, it's six wolves at once!" there would be a film or show or book today about some whore fucking the Hatchiyak. People want to fuck the werewolves and fuck the vampires and fuck the whole fantasy world.
Everything's a fetish to someone. Wanting to fuck monsters has become more normal than unironically liking Nickelback.
I should post a "look at this photograph" pun but he's holding up a pic that debunks the holohoax.
Sore legs from leg day.
If I ever say "I stopped exercising and ate unhealthily today" it means I am a faggot.
I have the only girl I need right here. My pony waifu is superior to all humie thots.
So many of the good men I know are single because no femoid thots want anything to do with them.
Typical females are spending their most fertile years getting treated like a "goddess" by countless pathetic men and ploughed like a whore by countless slutty men instead of trying to form a meaningful bond with a good man.
Society can't function if it glamorizes and romanticizes females for existing comfortably on the cock carousel with pockets full of OnlyFans simp money. Society needs a clear idea of what a good female should be and the balls to say anything less than that is a failure. Thots fundamentally chose pleasure over family and their young, meaning they are failures as women.
That woman I gave up on...
She's messaging me now and trying to suck up to me by going back on all the dumb feminist shit she used to say. I think she wants me back so badly she's willing to change.
Cool, keep it up man. How long can you run?>>3402>change back
The reality is, she "changed" her "outer self" for you. She's going back into regular mode, undoing camo because it isn't needed any more. Imagine reverting a minecraft skin back to default. I'm no expert on this but when it makes sense tell her to buck off, or just ignore her, women like that.
For about 1 to 2 minutes. Is that good? I'm still new to running.
She showed me sexual art she'd been drawing even though she's normally a false-virtue-signalling prude when it comes to art of females. I told her how she could improve that piece of art and her character design and she's been silent since then.
She is acting precisely as her hormones dictate. There is no change to her behavior pattern.
She wants me
This is probably because she failed to get any romantic messages on valentine's.
btw I need to get a better meal plan. What's a good balance of fruit/veg and meats and sometimes spaghetti ball of nays?
She's gone dark again. She's refusing to communicate with me or respond to anything I say. Keeping quiet until I say something she wants to reply to or she feels the urge to talk to me again. Her manipulative tactics would probably cause immense psychological distress to a weak little boy terrified that he'd said or done something to upset her and "make her" act this way.
But I know she is a cunt. And I do not enjoy her presence. So the lack of it doesn't bother me.
Maybe I should stop wanting to fix her. Maybe I should stop helping her with her godawful and swiftly abandoned "passion project" shitty webcomic ideas since she is never willing to put on her big girl panties and work hard to get shit finished. Maybe if a woman's spoiled from the start by her homewrecking divorcethief mother she can't ever psychologically adjust to life as an adult in the real world.
I know she is stupid and choosing to endlessly repeat the bad behaviours school and her mother taught her.
Maybe I'm the fool for thinking I can just magically cure all of that with a few clever dialogue option choices.
This woman is the dumbest woman I know and that's saying something because I have met a lot of dumb women.
Also, I'm still fit. Getting fitter. I've ordered more weight for my barbells so I can lift even heavier weights now. I want to become buffer.
Went a whole day without talking to her. That'll show her.
Also still exercising. I can do 22 pushups now
Keep up the good food, maximize the brain power and broadening of horizons, and strengthening the body and will.>pic
Be the master of your own mental culture. With that you can adjust things for you to harvest magnitudes.>>3422>Maybe I'm the fool for thinking I can just magically cure all of that with a few clever dialogue option choices.
Yes. Technically that is an option, but that requires a social finesse and velvet glove (with an exactness and strength that can shift) and to know exactly where and how to maximize your message in the right way. Now extrapolate that to every person that 'needs' to be fixed.>That'll show her.
If someone is truly seriously a detriment in many aspects it may be good to just cut everything off. So who cares, scrub the mind energy away and repurpose it to your means.
I will say my attachment and longevity for relationships is poor so take this with a grain of salt.>On the nature of the (1 standard deviation, aka normal fags) human Female essence.
To be forever sensitive and effected by everything.
It's like sand, it gets everywhere. It can be either soothing, helpful, irritating, or deadly if handled wrong.
Like a dog.Imagine a boat, on a lake. The boat is her and the reality system, the lake is the unconscious, subconscious, and conscious absorbing all the info. It's just sort of dumped into the lake, and that makes waves.
The water splashes at the boat, and expects the boat to act like water. A boat can do that absorbing the energy, providing tranquility and clarity into the depths of the lake. Water isn't smart, but it can get anywhere and everywhere.
The secret to having her getting shit done is a healthy amount of dog treats. By that I mean social stimulation and really giving subtle praise. Akin to a giving a puzzle box they naturally want to solve it.
But, this isn't Your loyal best friend kind of dog, that happens to be someehat like playdoh. This is a stray dog, cat hybrid left in an ally to eat garbage. Possibly with enough diseases to give high end antibiotics a scare.
So handle appropriately. But keep in mind in the above situation you're the Terminator with an iron will and an interior of gold and steel.
Thank you. I can feel my mind and body growing stronger.
What kind of "Puzzle boxes" should I give to her?
>>3433>What kind of "Puzzle boxes" should I give to her?>give to her?
Nonono. You must always be an island unto yourself. Never ever reward bad behavior.<More on that later.>What kind of "Puzzle boxes"
Imagine an open world adventure. Everything is normal, except one day the sky turns red for no reason and everything else is the same.
Mysteries, and Curiosity.
This is a rabbit trail to a solid conclusion that is obvious to a logical stable mind, but the closest most obvious solution must obviously be false. So in theory going from the solid conclusion and take at least three steps sideways that has multiple meanings and paths which are all true.
>>3434><More on that later.
On second thought the story doesn't apply. Long and short girl makes threats, guy continues as normal, girl breaks down as threats are meaningless and apologies, guy accepts continues as normal. Still isn't actually the guy's problem.
The time frame is about three years? Ish. Of sorts.
Jimmies still remain unrustled.
Right the whole point. You are the solid rock, if you are perfectly solid and have conquered yourself with love and kindness (ect.) nothing is out of reach. Because you can build upon yourself reliably up and beyond to do what you're heart, mind, and soul requires and desires.
Bending, and adjusting and being flexible still means you are rock solid.
Their waves shall break on the shores, yet everything important will be secure and ready for their functions.
The point being you've satisfied yourself and improved to a point where you know yourself fully and completely and honestly to know the world as you know it, as it is, and as others view it, and how they really view it.
You're right. I am the rock. The handsome, manly, powerful rock.
What puzzles shall challenge her with?
Important part<You provide structure, a wire frame, a direction. When you stop the comments amd complements the project STOPS. Spaced appropriately of course, but the inner drive isn't there for them they might want to do something, but can't, because they don't have an engine.
They'll do whatever with your proud smile, and a word or two. Every once in a while like a lottery or gatcha, or lootboxes, a suprise for them.>>3436
What do you want her to do? Mind you, the sources I'm pulling from is for significant other, not a random hoe. Also not in a work setting, but I think it could work maybe.
Anyway it boils down to two things more or less. Spot the object, and Social deductions, and Implications.
See their whole world is everything around them (this is for the average normalish woman). They have a shape they prefer 'internally' but it will always fold, stretch, squish, and deform. So they seek out those who can hold them in their preferred shape or good enough. At the very minimum they (normal tier) want something with hardness and no cracks.
Deforming their preferred shape is possible to suit yourself, but they have to coaxed into thinking it's their idea. Or else they will start a bitchiness meltdown, where a backstab will happen.
Little comments and side remarks, not often. In the spouce example a man may comment that they haven't seen them wear earings lately. The wife would ponder that statment. Soon enough she'll try dressing up, and making herself presentable. If the man surprises with ear rings, 'they would match your eyes'. She'll try to wear them.
You also have the reigns on their creative side (ie the lake of junk that is always there just submerged). A comment about giving painting a try, or weaving, or writing, or whatever. They make stuff that is of their nature, which is fluid.
First keep in mind they are mentally teenagers more or less.
You provide structure, a wire frame, a direction. When you stop the comments amd complements the project STOPS. Spaced appropriately of course, but the inner drive isn't there for them they might want to do something, but can't, because they don't have an engine.
They'll do whatever with your proud smile, and a word or two. Every once in a while like a lottery or gatcha, or lootboxes, a suprise for them.
When we first met, I thought she was creative because she made more then than she does now. Plus I had low standards for art quality. It would be great if she could become a great artist and animator and stop wasting all her time on twitter.
She says she's started taking anti-depressants that are supposedly making her vomit, giving her headaches, and increasing her "Anxiety". But she was told these symptoms and bad feels will go away in two weeks once her brain adjusts to taking them, then aaaaaaaall her bad feels will go away.
God I fucking hate that word. That anti-word.
It's not an english word, it's an anti-english word.
It's a worthless newspeak term.
Humans use words to communicate ideas, no matter their language. Oppai means boobs. Bonjour means hello. Anxiety means NOTHING AND EVERYTHING AND WHATEVER THE FUCK WHOEVER'S SAYING IT WANTS IT TO MEAN, which makes it WORTHLESS a word.
Go ahead, take anything anyone's ever said about Anxiety and replace it with the term BadFeel.
Because that's what the word is.
A synonym for BadFeel.
"This music gives me Anxiety/BadFeel so I don't like it"
"I can't go outside, I have anxiety/BadFeel so I need to stay curled up in bed all day drowning my brain in comfort porn"
It is the end of intellectual discussion about your thoughts and feelings.
A faulty argument against the idea of personal responsibility.
The word itself and the ideas behind it discourage you from looking at your feelings and problems and figuring out what you can solve.
The word encourages you to throw up your hands, muddy the waters and ignore the causes of your problems, absolve yourself of the responsibility to handle your shit like an adult, and cry "I have Anxiety!".
I don't think she can be saved. Not if she's willing to drug herself on twitter-fumes and homosexual Transformers character fetishization and nostalgic cartoon comfort porn all day, and turn to actual drugs when she develops too much tolerance to those things.
I want to save her. I swear to God, I want to save her. But is it possible? Is she truly determined to throw her individuality away to join the lefty collective? Is she truly determined to medicate her potential out of herself?
Alright as a person with an interest in psychology, anti-depressants fuck you up. Kills the creative side, but in exchange the person isn't drowning in negative stress chemicals and hormones.
Depending on how the body reacts to that drug.
Birth control pills fuck up brain chemistry as well so... something to keep in mind.
Any possible negative sensation is increased, but in the end it's either take the drugs, kill your self, or buck up and enjoy the suffering.
Positive affects are deadened. Depending on the severity.
So no, 'simply' telling someone to pull up the bootstraps and fix themselves in that position would probably lead to suicide.
Since she's a woman it would probably also be a failed suicide. To be honest depressed people are vulnerable.
Because of the prior information she may be ineloquent to the limited sensation and word bank she derives her world from.<
Of heresay and half recollected rumors that may or may not be true. Exercise, good food, and sunlight helps. I mean that is usually a recommendation regardless.
I talked to her but she's ghosting me again. She's so tiresome that way. I wonder how many days it will take her to get over herself and reply.
I don't think she can be saved. I've known her for years but she has never listened to me once unless I was telling her what she wanted to hear.
Maybe if I was always cool she would have respected me from day one?
Weights finally arrived. Time to lift heavier shit.
Is this a discussion thread or a Facebook blog?
Making a completely new thread every time I have a question about women or exercising seemed like a space-filling waste plus this seems like a good accountability thing a self help site told me to do. If I say "today I was a faggot who did not exercise" I get called a faggot.
But I should probably stop the daily "I exercised today and nothing interesting happened" posts and only post when there's something important to say or ask, right?
A friend showed me this video about "Planet Fitness gym" while saying "Hey you're into fitness right? Check out these idiots doing it wrong"
and jesus christ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V40s9deHg1A&ab_channel=PewDiePie
I expected the idiots who exercise incorrectly on machines that display clear instructions.
But women workers bitching at men for grunting a little while lifting 200 and karening "Sorry isn't good enough" at him when he apologizes?
Bullshit on the walls like "No judgement!" along with an alarm to slam whenever someone's too masculine and sounds too masculine when exercising, and the alarm's got anti-man speech on it that insults any man who came here to lift?
Some fat fuck woman refusing service to a man for having a water bottle she considers too big, pointedly ignoring him when he uses manlogic and manfacts that no lowly femoid could understand, and then calling the fucking cops on him when he doesn't do what she wants and go away? The man in that video isn't pissed at the woman, he's genuinely stu
Women who get to attack men and smash shit without anyone calling the cops because they don't want her getting arrested and suffering the consequences of her actions? It wouldn't surprise me if she's pissed at them for not having her favourite "healthy" snack bar flavour today, or something equally trivial.
Some feminized cunt stamping on the weight a man half his age is lifting and shoving him for "ego lifting" (duckduckgo says it's when you go to the gym solely to be seen lifting heavy weights while grunting "too much" or focus more on lifting heavy weights than exercising properly with them)
Ladies and gentlemen, take a look at what happens when your gym is run by women and its policies are determined by women. Anti-masculine policies for what is already a gender-neutral health-improving pasttime because the unfit karens in charge sometimes tell themselves it'll help attract idiots who feel "intimidated" (envious) around big men who visit the gym for a reason. This is society when it puts making wimminfolk comfy over trying to provide the best possible service and compete with your competitors. I'm fucking glad I got my home gym together. Sure it's just freeweights and one bench but at least I'll never have to deal with these fucking karens.
Women. What a fucking joke. At real gyms you'll see fit hardcore women who want to be strong like men, and at shit gyms like this you'll see women who want men to be weak like them.
Also, have you ever noticed how often immature women will pointedly ignore you and try to physically signal things to you like "I'm not interested in what you have to say to me" where a more mature person would either fucking say what they're thinking or recognize what situation they're in and try to act more mature than a typical entitled woman with power, and then when those signals don't work they'll escalate to calling their pet "alpha" over (typically the state and its enforcers) to get their way and restore their oh-so-vital emotional state to a positive one?
Most women are fucking pathetic.
It's illegal for kids to prank-call the cops. It's illegal to call the cops for non-emergencies in most countries, since cops are supposed to be stopping/punishing bad guys instead of dealing with incredibly minor domestic disputes only a woman could get butthurt about, right? So why the hell do women feel so fucking comfortable going full karen and calling the cops on the slightest fucking slights, or even completely imaginary problems? Oh, right, it's because in this femininely irrational and destructively gynocentric society the safety of men is put below the feelings of femoids.
Giving women power, any form of power, is like giving date rape drugs to serial rapists. They're going to abuse what they're given if they think they can get away with it. If there's no legal punishment or societal shame for women who treat the world as sexual playgrounds and women who are addicted to abusing their power over others they'll only get worse as today's bad female behaviour becomes the next generation's normal.
What the fuck was mankind thinking when he gave up control of his society to the jews and females? Did he give it all up willingly thinking it would all go back to normal once, some day about hundred years from now, everything got so bad that "Muh great awakening" would happen and he'd get to smugly grin from the Old Folks' Home at the feminists who lose their privileges while retaining basic human rights and get to go back to being beloved and excellently-treated housewives doted upon by loyal and self-sacrificing men? Fuck that, women are evil. They're just fundamentally evil pack animals and women worth anything on their own merits are the exception, not the rule.
I keep telling myself I dislike women now and I'm sick of their shit but how do I stop myself from longing for them?
Thinking about the perfect trad qt wife or chad supportive fun tomboy gf I could have had if the jews didn't abort/feministize her hurts.
Oh also i am still fit and exercising daily. Walking long distances with a heavy backpack or weighted vest does a body good.
Stop that. That's how the gay infects some people. Yes, haha, the gay as of its some sort of illness one can contract. Twisting yourself up to fulfill your desires no matter the cost does happen. So if they can't be a female...
You do long for women, and you long for the right sort of woman that is the right match for you, and you both. Don't bemoan the fact they make it hard, seek what is here and now.
You long for a waifu martial woman. This is something correctable now while it's easier. This distinction is important for your subconscious.
Make sure you know what you do truly want, and it has to be put into a positive word set. That is what will happen, so be exact, truthful and careful.
I don't understand what you mean. But when I think of what a good woman would be, those I know IRL are shit so all I can think of are anime characters. But instead of just naming characters with traits I like I'll say what I like.
I like it when women are kind, considerate, supportive, and sweet. I like long hair and a fit body with huge boobs and a great ass and long legs. I didn't see kindness towards me growing up so any of that stuff really gets to me, probably more than it should. I also like the "tomboy gf" kind of women who are capable, fit, positively masculine, confident and fun to be around. It would be great if she had the same good hobbies as me so we'd have something in common but that's not necessary. Smart women are appealing but only if they are actually smart, ledditor "i memorized 6 languages and everything science books said so that means I need to be an argumentative prick who can never let any man get the last word in or be right or else I feel bad about myself and I literally cannot handle even a single second of discomfort of any kind or be okay unless I feel like everyone's eyes are on me and nobody else" bitches are annoying. I want a huge family with more than seven children so she'd have to be okay with that too, and if she had any sort of dream or goal in life it would be great if it didn't conflict with being a good mother. I like it when women are uncomplicated and straightforward and honest with themselves and me, and I hate it when they try to fuck with my head or lie to me or use me or blame me for cancerous toxically-feminine behaviour that's destructive to themselves and others. I don't want to call myself a furry because I'm not exclusively attracted to animal-people and I don't talk in that stupid "uwu i wuv ur widdle paws" language. But animal-eared girls and monster girls are really fucking appealing. Maybe it's because more body parts like wings or horns or tails means more woman to love, maybe it appeals to the natural desire in man to own an animal and learn how it works and be a good pet owner, maybe it's because once you get to know an animal you know what to expect from them and what they like(headpats)/dislike(touching their tail) while women tend to be stupid and mindless and overemotional cripplingly irrational creatures not even God could figure out, I don't know. Maybe a psychologist could project some psychobabble onto me to explain my desire to fuck Twilight Sparkle/Rainbow Dash/Pinkie Pie from FIM or Centorea/Rachnera/Suu from Monster Musume.
Back when I used animufag forums I was often called boring for liking "boring" one-note sweet waifus rather than the aggressive and unreasonably violent or chokingly clingy and psychotically possessive or obnoxiously haughty and bratty or borderline retarded bitches they said they liked more. But liking "interesting" characters who treat others like shit and create situatuons that are entertaining to watch isn't the same as actually thinking they'd make good wife and child-raising material. Sometimes they'd call me a "bandwagoner" for liking commonly accepted likeable female characters like Winry or Hinata.
I know that realistically I'd never get a genetically engineered catgirl gd. I'll never get to play with a catgirl's ears just like I'll never get to massage a sports tomboy gf's shoulders after a long day exercising together. I'll probably never meet a woman who's actually as smart as she thinks she is, or a woman able to see through and reject jewish propaganda and embrace being a good wife and mother even if it means turning down the lifetime of alimony and fleeting pleasures the jews promise race-traitor women. Men these days call good women "unicorns" because they're rare enough to be mythical.
Don't get me wrong, I know I'd need to be amazing if I wanted to impress and get any chance to talk to and potentially bond with an actually-amazing woman. I'm still exercising. I'm still reading and learning and getting shit done. I'll probably never meet a woman who's absolute perfection but something close enough to that ideal would be great.
Is what I said wrong? Would it have been more positive if I said "I will meet an amazing woman!" instead of "I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her"? Aside from spending ten hours a day searching different dating apps and hobby forums for people who claim to be female and don't seem completely awful, I don't know how I'd meet someone like that.
tldr you want to marry not just meet the one who loves you and vise versa>>3467>>3465
How you say stuff is important. Especially to get what you want.>I keep telling myself I dislike women now
This bit right there, keeping racist expectations is good but the mind will bend and twist and complain till what you say to it comes true.>I'm sick of their shit
Good to list the good and the bad. >>3465
That works, while there is quite a bit more focus on the negative (which is good to know, and is necessary) the positive traints that are desirable should be expanded if need be.>how do I stop myself from longing for them?
Stoicism, or mastery over the mind and emotions, or meditation works.
But that's not the point, that longing has to be redirected away from cunts and towards good wife material.>Would it have been more positive if I said "I will meet an amazing woman!" instead of "I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her"?
Also making a perfect person isn't great either. So that line I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her
is true and real, but the wording is imprecise because the brain without alot of training and effort REMOVES NEGATIVES FROM YOUR WORDS.<I guess it would be nice if a completely-awful woman existed and I met her
That would be shitty.
So<My wife, who is kind, considerate, supportive, and sweet, capable, fit, positively masculine, positive feminine as well, confident and fun to be around and genuinely smart that would also be at least great friend martial as well, also having the same goals and morality I possess, with our desires that align perfectly, we will have lots of our biological children more numerous than seven, understandable and straightforward and honest with themselves and me, has self control has emotional resiliency, communicates perfectly with me, is at least a good person that woman exists and we're happily married with our long lives.
Or even We are happily married together.
The whole past tense in a present tense (sorta) word structure means that is has happened. For the mind that means it's concrete even if it technically isn't now, (the mind doesn't understand the future normally) it knows the past and will make moves to accomplish that goal. So meeting may be the first step the last end goal is the final destination. So meeting is separate from having the wife.
That's why learning as much about everything and becoming the best you can be helps as it is steps to have that goal to manifest.
Yes, the (((fucks))) have made it harder. It is still possible so you can do it.
If I tell myself I am already married to the perfect waifu will I eventually meet her?
I have a stupid friend who feels bad about having no gf but when I say "Its ok bro women are shit" he doesn't listen
This guy's different from the stupid friends I've complained about so far. Up until now I didn't realize he was stupid.
I swear I like my friends, even the ones I haven't talked about yet. But talking about their good points would compromise anonymity.
I have no idea where to put this but media's boner for halfbreed characters (especially halfbreed protagonists) always bugged me.
It seems damn near every hero is only half normal human and half something else. Could be half god or half monster or half animal or anything like that.
Whenever race is a vital part of the story, superpowers almost never come from the (white) human half of the character unless the author pussies out and claims it's a general "humanity is special! Humanity fuck yeah!" thing even though everything good or cool you can praise about humanity mainly applies to whites.
And even when the story's got superpowers that don't come from race, there's usually a stat buff somewhere in the most important characters thanks to nonhuman heritage.
And if you aren't sure how to make a character exotic but not too exotic, mixing a familiar and unfamiliar race is a common trick for some reason.
I get many of the reasons why it's so common.
Besides the jewish "it subtly promotes racemixing and the idea that a half human half beast would be just as good as or better than a full human" subversion.
Making the hero half human makes him or her relatable and the magic monster half adds superpowers and potential plot importance.
If the hero's the result of a union between two magical diametrically-opposed creatures that's just inherently cool. Like being both vampire and werewolf or both angel and demon.
Combining two superpowered monsters/aliens/gods/whatever lets you give the character even more superpowers and specialness and importance.
It also makes writing the character's arc easy: First he doesn't know how to be a synthesis of two different or even completely opposed things and he feels torn between two worlds and nobody really gets him and he might even struggle with the urges or social stigmas of one or both races but then he figures it out.
But it seems damn near universal. Even anthro characters which are already half human and half animal (even if you say they're actually evolved humanoid animals or aliens who resemble earth animals for no reason) tend to get in on it when they want to make one character unusual or special. Insert tired cliche jokes about neon green and rainbow wolves with random markings and patterns trying to look unique in a sea of freaks here.
It's so damn universal that the fanbase of Ben 10, a show where a fully white fully human boy finds an alien watch that lets him transform into assorted genetically-perfected aliens at peak physical fitness, is absurdly obsessed with fusions and halfbreeds and hybrids.
And don't get me started on how the Pokemon fandom's obsessed with fusions and hybrids and so on.
Anyway... I've noticed this trope appear in my own writing.
Almost every main character I've designed over the years is a hybrid.
Has my mind been hacked?
I like the idea of fusions and I like giving characters superpowers. The characters I designed to be hybrids aren't just that way for the sake of extra superpowers and looking different. They're deep.
But is my focus on this meme the result of years of societal indoctrination to think "hybrids are cool"?
oh wait i forgot they retconned Ben to have Anodite ancestry.
Are you still only half-human if your ancestor is a magical creature that lacks DNA?
that one faggot desperate to yell at me and pretend he's talking to me, if he read that sentence, would scream "It's not retconning it was always there you're just too dumb to get it like I do! To be fair you have to have a high IQ to understand ben 10 and appreciate Kishimoto's borderline fetish for the Uchiha and how his unique ninja world lost fucking all of its appeal in its escalating quest to become DBZ".
Thank you fren
Lately I've been thinking about very old friends from my "hardcore brony" days... Why can't I take them on this mountain climb with me? Back when I was an escapism-obsessed coombrained fag I knew many other people like that. But I've grown and they haven't. They get mad when I talk about Peterson or exercising or the progress I've made and we have nothing to talk about except whatever bad show they've watched this week. I don't know how to help them. But maybe I should stop with the wannabe-hero shit and focus on myself.
How do you solve the "I am afraid of being alone but being charismatic with friends takes effort" problem?
You're welcome. I've got two quotes for you.
"Its better to be alone than to be among poor company"
"Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy, and not everyone who pulls you out of shit is your friend."T. 'That guy' who is still talking shit in other threads
Makes sense. I'll keep these quotes in mind.
Still exercising, now increasing vest weight when jogging.
I should get more plants for my room. I feel lightheaded and sleepy after a few hours here.
How do you deal with the reluctance to start new things due to fear that you'll get too obsessed with them?
Also man it feels GOOD to realize I finally officially give no shits about that bitch I stopped talking to.
I am my own man now. No more slave collar around my heart with a chain wrapped around that bitch's finger.
She is not my burden to carry. She is not my responsibility. She cannot be saved. If I want to ever help people I need to recognize when it's time to move on.
Man it's weird to think Betty Boop was considered a sex icon once. She's tiny and meh-tier compared to some cartoon cute girls (i was about to write cuties but that fucking jew movie ruined the word) I could name. Imagine old people on an anime forum arguing over whether Betty Boop or the woman from Popeye is a better waifu. Haha, the thought of old people arguing over cartoons seems as anachronistic as the thought of roman soldiers playing yugioh.
I want to cum inside rainbow dash unironically. And Twilight. And Pinkie. I've written so many date scenario fanfics to cope with my longing creatively. These girls are so perfect once you ignore all the episodes in which they are retarded or jokes or retarded jokes. Do these urges make me pathetic or does my nofap streak and creative writing coping mechanism mean I'm doing good?
Climbing aloe. It's really easy to keep, and has lots of medicinal properties, whether ingested or used topically
Thank you. I'll get some.
How do you deal with the reluctance to get into new things due to fear that they'll swallow you whole and make you obsessed with them?
An addictive personality has ran through my family lines for generations. I remember stories from my grandmother about shit my grandfather did when he was alive. For every single person in my family tree, they have their own obsession or are actively searching for one after their old obsession got boring.
You're a fucking genius, this climbing aloe is great. I've got it in my window and I love it.
Its wonderful as an aftershave. Pluck one 'leaf' and squeeze the gel out.
>>3562Also, dont forget to name it,... if you're into that sort of thing. Additionally, you'll want to re-pot it every few years. As long as it doesnt freeze, it will bounce back after any adversity, including drought forgetting to water it for weeks
Re-pot? How do I do that properly?
Also should I keep the plastic sleeves that came with these plants or throw them away? Some of those sleeves are starting to look kind of greenish.
Dont worry, it's easy. When the time comes, the root structure will become a densely packed mass of dirt and roots interwoven and shit. You just get a larger pot, fill it with dirt, leaving a recess in the approximate size/shape of the root structure, slide it out of the old pot and stick it in the hole. Sprinkle a little topsoil on the top, put some water in it, and that's it>plastic sleeves
No idea what those are, prolly should get rid of em
Are you sure? The plastic sleeves help keep water in the plant pots and keep soil from falling out of them.
>>3568>are you sure
No, but if you keep them be careful not to over-water the plant, since it will be retaining more water that way
Opening up about my life makes me feel a little better, so I'll say more stuff.
My father was a stupid, violent, aggressive prick who secretly loathed everyone and had a mediocre impression of a "Jolly fat guy" he used whenever he wanted to blend in with normal people
His understanding of the world around him was incredibly shallow
his political views were laughably simplistic
He trusted the TV news and he was an addict with multiple addictions
He seemed to think being a grumpy violent bastard made him manlier than me.
He grew up as one of four boys with a whiny whore mother and a missing father figure, and it shows.
He imitates her bitchiness without even realizing it. He smoked around me as a baby and did the same around my dead sister, he smoked while my mom was pregnant, he smoked from the age of fourteen until he got cancer somewhere around his 40s and was forced to stop with the aid of nicotine patches and similar shit. I have athsma and it's a miracle I don't have cancer.
He drank heavily and loved to invent reasons to scream at me, smack me around, and take away what few joys a shut-in child with sabotaged self-confidence like me had. I remember this one time when I was around eight, he sent me up alone to the roof of the house because he wanted me to... I forget what exactly, but I had to put tiles on the roof and I remember how pissed off he got at me for not already knowing the perfect way to get the job done. He didn't tell me the perfect way. He just ordered me up there, yelled at me for not already knowing how to do one of his jobs for him, and whined until he eventually gave up on delegating the task like a woman and decided to do it himself. He got genuinely fucking pissed at me for not giving a shit about football and not being what he thought a man should be.
But he never taught me how to fight or avoid fights
Never taught me how to exercise
Never taught me how to fix cars
Never did anything to inspire me
Never passed on any wise sayings
Never helped with anything, and enjoyed getting in the way and making himself a nuisance
Loved dismissing anything I had to say, even when I was right. Screamed harder if I turned out to be right
He taught me at an early age to stay quiet when a power-tripping big kid with more power than he deserves screams at you, which prepared me for life at school
Because of course, someone this pathetic wouldn't ever bother homeschooling his kids
Even though he had no job+obligations
He gave me shit for not going outside much even though there was nothing for me out there, my parents made no effort to get me into youth clubs, my parents made every effort to embarass me by telling nonsense stories to other parents for sympathy points even though it meant everyone thought a quiet beaten puppy like myself was actually a tantrum-throwing plate-breaking brat and bed-wetting loser at home, and my father gave me shit for not spending days outside even though there were bullies my age and bullies older than me and other chavs outside.
We did not grow up in a good neighbourhood. It did not have nice people in it.
Whenever I tried to think of a good male role model, the first things to pop into my head were Uncle Iroh from Avatar and Grandpa Max from Ben 10, not my own father. That fat bastard was everything I didn't want to become. When I feel tempted to break my diet and eat some candy I think of that fat fucker and the disgust keeps me on the right path.
He met my mother in a factory but pussied out when something broke near him and he got scared(it couldn't have killed him but "traumatized" people get more cash), and he got benefits for a while. Then he got a job as a taxi driver for a while because his friend told him there was fucktons of money in taxi driving, more than he was making doing nothing. He made some money and told everyone else and eventually there were too many taxi drivers and taxi companies. And too many taxi companies were owned by women who loved to show extreme favoritism when it came to who got jobs assigned to them and who didn't
He whined to me but put up with incompetent aggressive women-bosses and their shame-tactics for years b4 going solo
When you eat yourself into obesity at an early age
remain fat forever
and spend a couple of hours a day sitting around in a car or driving it and spend the rest of your life in bed or sitting on an expensive reclining leather chair playing world of warcraft and Mafia Wars (a facebook game) on your overpriced scam of a laptop
you'll eventually fuck up your legs so bad that you'll seem perfectly fine and have no problem walking your dog or walking to the bar and back but the government will still pay you to do nothing because you whined about huwt widdle weggies that are fine when cameras aren't rolling
He was a greedy piece of shit, and lazy.
When he was told kids who stay in High School longer get paid by the government for it, he made sure that was my fate for a few years even though I went to a speshul school for retards that gave no qualifications because I'm "autistic" just like every other human on the planet with at least one out of 9999999 personality quirks/subjective traits/abilities/disabilities according to a quack doctor.
Early on in my life I showed signs that I was a smart kid. I liked reading books, especially adult books. But if my dad caught me reading his collection of shitty escapist fantasy novels instead of the incredibly thin picture-book versions of disney movies, I'd get in trouble for not acting like he believed a boy should. Same went for when I traded Smarties Meltdown for the PS2 for an Action Replay and used cheat codes, when I hacked Pokemon games as a kid for fun, when I downloaded and learned Game Maker as a kid for sonic fangames...
A smart greedy cunt would monetize kid-me but a dumb greedy cunt would instead sabotage his life and then bitch at him for not having a rent-paying MinWage job even though my benefits got them more than minimum wage.
What a prick.
My potatoes finally started penetrating themselves so I buried all 14 of them in a planter full of soil.
How often should I water these potatoes if I want optimal potato farming productivity?
Another dumb fuck I know got the vaccine. I showed him funny memes and facts and articles and videos and they all went over his head. The memes made him laugh but he didn't think deeply about the meme's joke about the absurdity of this situation.
When I think of my birth father I think of what I don't want to become: a fat useless lump of lard reliant on gubimint gibs and brainwashed by the state to love it, addicted to smoking and drinking and gambling and the most pathetic types of games imaginable. He used to give me shit about having no gf but he had no dating advice. Just expected my life to be easier than his despite his best efforts. The very thought of him is like a portable picture of a fatass that inspires you to lift harder and jog faster. It's like that for me anyway. I've been called a cynic these days but I'm usually right to see the worst in people instead of ignoring it. If someone ever shows something good in them I see that too. I'm not religiously cynical. I wouldn't ignore good shit just to feel right about the bad. Ignoring bad shit makes me a retard who gets exploited.
When I think of my mother I think the same thing except she's a woman so I can't physically turn out like her. But I still don't want to mentally end up like her. She was a cruel manipulative short-sighted piece of shit who had bipolar syndrome and loved making that everyone else's problem. Loved playing the role of a put-upon mother whose life is just soooo full of reasons to complain because her knittingfag friends complained about their lives too. Is "fashionably depressed" a term? Her coping mechanism for dealing was problems was to cry about them and blame the nearest man she hadn't already lost all faith in. So me, because she expected nothing good from my father but expected cash from me despite treating me like shit and sabotaging me at every possible turn. She loved her boomer knitting and minion memes but never tried hard to put money on the table with her knitting shit. Funny how that minion cartoon character meant to appeal to children caught the attention of the scummiest children on the planet: boomerscum. I'd accuse her of also having histrionic personality disorder but I once met a woman with even more of that. She definitely had it. I should write a book about myself and include chapters about her and what she put me through and got away with. It's hard for me to believe what happened with her and I was fucking there. That bitch tried to ruin my life and falsely accuse me of assaulting her over bullshit someone else said to her on a naruto roleplay on Blingee. Not a major naruto roleplaying forum, the comment section on fucking blingee. The silly website with gaudy GIFs. And her writing skills? Shit like "fire go everywhere and blood go everywhere". If you told me she was retarded I'd believe you. I want to be a good christian but I find it hard to believe in a god who can't protect his people or inspire his people to protect the vulnerable from the godless. No wonder so many people assume other forms of spirituality must have some hidden secret that lets it outdo christianity. We've already seen it fail in our own lands with our own eyes whether we realize it or not. Maybe man wasn't meant to be raised without a god. Maybe a principle you're willing to compromise on to please a leftist cunt isn't a principle. Maybe I'm an idiot for continuing to pray. But I have to believe in God and Jesus or I can't believe my parents and all the other traitors to the west go to hell when they die of old age. Have you ever watched some self-centered asshole who treated his loving parents like shit until they died assume you're just like him and rant at you with the usual "You should cherish those related to you because they might die one day" shit? If my father died of cancer my childhood would have been happier. I feel too old to have any doubt about that. It would have given mom a real reason to cry fashionably in front of her friends so she'd stop trying to make more reasons in other areas of her life. Same shit with my mother. If she died he'd be forced to learn to cook and stop wasting away and bloating at his laptop if he wanted food. Maybe it would make him a better man if nobody was around to bring him beer. Or maybe he'd just have me bring him more beer, he usually did. If they both died I would have gone into the foster system and met a decent enough family that wants me around or I would have gotten passed around like a hot potato until I eventually got old enough to live alone. I went through that for a while and the "misery" of it is overrated. I'd call it dehumanizing but I'm used to it. You see some families. You sleep in an alright bed. They keep you around for a while and then trade you in at the abused puppy shelter for a cuter one that makes them feel again once they get used to having you around. That's how I was treated anyway. At the time I was so goddamn desperate for someone to tell me they loved me. That never happened and I got over it. Someone else probably has nicer or sadder stories than me. I have metaphorical armour around my heart and I find it incredibly difficult to take off. I still have no idea what to write in my damn recovery journal or whatever the fuck this is. Maybe I should have stuck to saying "I exercised today. Nothing to report" or "I increased my weight today".
speaking of which I increased my weights today. Better a real weighted vest than a backpack with weights.
It means a lot to me that you let me say this here. There are no lefty cucks trying to demoralize me. Nobody's putting on a tough guy act/trying to intentionally push my buttons to feel like "le trolle mastermind". Nobody's simping for the women I mention now and then and whiteknighting for them. It's probably hard to believe anyone would do that if you've never seen a simp do that. But thank you for keeping this place free of leftist shills. I'm healthier now than I've ever been.
Just got done reading this thread and wanted to commend you on making it this far. If there's one thing that separates you from other people, it's your temerity. This and your growing self-awareness are the foundations upon which you shall build your new life.
As a fellow tulpafag I can't help but grin when I think of how well you and your pony get along. She sounds like a wonderful mate and I'm glad you have one another.
Please do not stop praying. It's tempting to see God as a great vindicator Who will visit wrath on sinners, yet we must also be aware of our own iniquity and induce others to Him through forgiveness and patience.
None of our suffering shall be in vain. If we steel ourselves for the persecution ahead and rely on Him, our fruitfulness and purpose as individuals will intersect and magnify in ways we could never dream of.
God bless you both.
Thank you. My tulpa girl doesn't enjoy talking to others any more but she's doing great, I make sure to give her time to be creative at least once a week and I let her help with my main projects.
Today a friend of mine showed me a weird video on his phone where this fat fucking landwhale of a woman with a disgustingly round face and an ass ruined by blubber slaps the shit out of one of those armless male MMA dummies meant for people who know what they're doing. She struggles to knock him over but when she does the camera jumpcuts to get him upright again. She slaps the rubber dummy guy, bites his nose and ear, turns to the camera like she's trying to pose, spits on him, spits on her hand and then slaps him, kicks him over from behind then stamps on his head, slaps him a bunch of times, breathes on the fucker weirdly, runs into him and struggles to shove him over with a wimpy tackle, grabs him from behind and screams while shaking him then drops him to let him fall over...I could take about a minute of this shit before I stopped the video.
My friend found it hilarious and thought the fetishy video uploaded by a bitch with mistress in the username was actually some "internet tough guy" antics.
but to me it seemed like some bizarre fetish shit because this video was ten minutes long and she uploaded at least four of these according to his recommended feed, probably more, and it had too damn many views. I don't know if some freaks wank to fatasses fetishistically catfighting with mannequins for bdsm humiliation bullshit while saying "god i wish that were me" in the comment section but I don't want to know so I didn't look. Degeneracy is weird. But to seem like a non-prude I put on a "Oh holy shit hahaha that was the funniest worst shit ever! I can feel my brain cells commiting sudoku!" act.
This reminds me of the time I went to SawCon
Still exercising multiple times a day.
saw a white dude in a shop with two badly behaved brown kids who ignored their dad until he threatened to not let them watch tv today. Then they screamed and feigned crying until he sighed and gave up on that. The kids grinned and bounced around and laughed at how easy it was to dupe their white father by making a scene. I'd guess they were somewhere around eight to ten.
Giving your kids white-as-fuck names like Lucas and Kevin won't give them souls.
Shit like this makes racemixing look bad.
meanwhile it's media that pretends a half human half elf or half human half demon or whatever would be superior to both its parents that tries its hardest to make racemixing look good.
Sometimes I fear that I'm too quick to judge others. How do I fix this?
>>3621>I'm too quick to judge others
You're right, I'm actually projecting onto myself because I think you're too quick to judge me.
Kidding, just kidding. Your response is silly and I don't know how to respond to it constructively.
Then again, this is pretty funny.
Here I am, self-reflecting and saying "Maybe I'm too quick to judge others".
And you just run in, shouting "No, YOU'RE too quick to judge others!"
Did you make sure you understood what I said before replying to it?
it's like something out of a cartoon.
I do not blame your pony for not talking. For the reasons you described above, I've found the tulpa community to be an exercise in misanthropy.
Have you considered tactful rejection of these videos? I realise some will misconstrue this behaviour as uninviting, yet like the food we eat, what we visually consume affects us indirectly.>>3621
Human beings are inherently judgemental creatures as our endocrinology is primed to separate and compartmentalise that which is foreign. I believe our judgemental nature can be harnessed for objective reasoning, yet this requires self-control and insight most are not used to.
I imagine you meditate frequently, so I suggest asking yourself why you feel so judgemental and identify how this takes place (if at all.) From there you can dig a bit deeper and trace this concern to your upbringing while catalouging self-counseling and de-escalation techniques. You can always ask your tulpa for help too, as they are beheld to psychological clarity by their very nature.
Do note that I am not asking you to act like a castrated sheep so much as outlining the importance of a calm and grounded demeanour. Such will not only make the world more bearable to live in, it too shall emphasise the importance of your ideals and Faith.
Thanks for the advice, it helped. I think I've got a better head on my shoulders now.
My tulpa believes fully hating humanity would be cringe since she's seen so many weirdos (like famous tranny Chatoyance, writer of The Conversion Bureau) do that. Besides I'm a human and she likes me. She sometimes misses talking to people daily like she did when she was young but also doesn't miss what massive faggots a ton of them were. Animufags just here to think about Yuyuko and Yakiko and Yakko's tits don't make for good conversation when their tulpas are one-note meme characters running on incredibly limited hardware. And you wouldn't believe how territorial and aggressive some of them got over whose waifu was developing mentally faster or who was doing more interesting shit in their mental world.
Isn't this "reality shifting" stuff weird? Escapism is such a popular pasttime around the world that the kids and teens are telling each other how to imagine the pain away and fantasize about boning Bakugo to dream the pain away. I don't think the generations that built first world countries had this problem. But escapism is getting bigger as the world gets worse. As VR gets cheaper and more common do you think we'll see more people fully retreat from reality into VR games and fake-relationship AI programs? We really do live in interesting times.
btw still exercising. I took a 3 day break from politics. Had a few moments of relapse where shit got political but overall I focused on my own life and walked around. I should get a treadmill.
Increasing weight. Exercising harder. Turning shit up to 11 on my abs.
Now and then I'll notice myself touching my own body without realizing it, as if even my subconscious mind can't believe how quickly I've improved and how quickly I've lost weight. I wish I owned weights my whole life! They're so convenient. You can use them whenever you have free time and get buff quicker. I eat healthy, I exercise, and it's a healthy source of pride in oneself and one's appearance. No wonder the jews want us all to be obese faggots. Being fat was depressing. Being this fit feels good. Knowing I've earned this body feels good. I'm tempted to get sleeveless shirts to show my arms off but I'm saving money.
The sad truth is that most of the individuals touted as beacons of wisdom and direction in the community are the same dishonest and abusive people who mistreated their tulpas and peers for a dopamine hit. Rather than seeing tulpas as spiritual guides or those who illuminate our highest aspirations of self, the concept is subverted to enable another layer of delusion, megalomania and hedonism, all of which is firmly rooted in the highest levels of theory and practise. This is unsurprising given the materialistic school of thought that occupies most parts of the subculture.
I'm assuming you're asking rhetorical questions, but I don't believe this escapism to be unusual. When cheap and plentiful resources exist in an unjust civilisation, people are given to odd modes of thought and decadence as there is no credible authority or shared common narrative to make their lives and service to each other meaningful. On the other hand there is no struggle to rally behind or any semblance of a family unit for others to confide in during times of mounting hardship, so others retreat into mediums where they believe they maintain some measure of control and security. It's an illusion meant to satisfy those with no real drive to improve or pursue independence while binding them to an exploitative and increasingly authoritarian system.>>3645
Great job on keeping faithful to your routine. I'm glad you're discovering your potential and exerting yourself. The only caveat I should mention is that we oughtn't be too proud of our bodies - rather than focusing on the finer details of our appearance, we should exercise to be healthy, discilpined and strong. If one's mortal coil is a temple where the Holy Spirit dwells, should it not be a place of humility and in good repair?
I wish you and your pone many happy and productive days. May the Lord bless and protect you both.
I have this friend but he's a dumbass and whenever the conversation gets political he whines. Even when he's the reason why it got political by bringing up shit like Fentanyl Floyd or whatever bullshit the TV told him about the Kung Flu or asking me questions with answers that end up political. "why does this show suck?" he asks sometimes, as if he doesn't expect the answer to be "because the jews who made it pump it full of so much anti white propaganda you've subconsciously noticed it". But he's ghosted me for so long that I'm starting to wonder if he's still alive. Should I ask someone we both know to check up on him? I wouldn't want to drag some third person into bullshit that's between that guy and his obsession with feeling neutral and "above it all".
Also, it's funny that Nigger is the magic word that breaks leftists and blacks and jews. It's a taboo because it's a word of rebellion. Saying this word and realizing it's ok to be sick of niggers feels liberating because it frees you from the mental prison of thinking your thoughts need to be govt-approved. You're rejecting euphemism-treadmill terms like black people and coloured folk and african american and choosing for yourself how you address creatures that feel entitled to be addressed however you want. It's a funny sounding word. Doesn't it derive from Nigerian? Or the latin word for black, niger? If so, it's funny that calling someone a nigger is basically calling them black. Truly the ultimate insult, since not even the niggers want to be niggers. Judging all niggers by the fictional brownish characters played by rapey hollywood actors on TV would be like judging all wild animals by cartoon critters or the tamed caged beasts you see at the Zoo instead of the wild african animals you can see attacking children and small animals on fucked up websites. Which wild african animals am I talking about? Doesn't matter since both hurt innocents and both belong in zoos. Libertarianism is a dead meme with no idea how to stop communist jewery and egalitarianism is just like supposedly-good liberalism: the self-destructive pursuit of impossible goals in the name of never compromising on once-valid ideals taken to the point of absurdity and robbed of all sense of priority, self-preservation, and reason. The NatSoc wants his race to eat well, and the "good" liberal happily puts the bellies of other races before his own and his own belly before both. The Libertarian pretends an anarchocapitalist nation of pot-growing weed-smoking illegal-immigrant mixed faggots will have any kind of moral clarity because admitting some good must be done for the good of all feels like compromising to the commies and their bullshit "greater good".
Me: hmm if I'm in the level design stage I should look at arcitecturehttps://youtu.be/rrpOPSj9OMc
BEHOLD A 100K PER NIGHT HOTEL ROOM THAT USES RAINBOWS OF PILLS AND BUTTERFLIES AS DECORATIONS. And weird stickers on glass walls.
and then there's this faggothttps://youtu.be/_H2xmRseiDw
"I hate waste and I'm saving the environment and third world" says a faggot who bought plastic flowers for his absurdly sized foyer. It's like something made in The Sims as a joke with the money cheat. And his staff rooms are hilariously tiny.
I think I'm looking in the wrong places. What kind of arcitecture am I supposed to look at? If I half ass the world design with "artistic" monochromatic white blocks or spikes on a dark background I will get to spend more time on cool shit like guns and explosions.
Then look at good shit! Listen to history great works things that are actually beautiful.
Behold landscapes and the people who mold them. The living quarters and the challenges they face.>I think I'm looking in the wrong places
Yes.>If I half ass the world design
You get a shitty playground.
It doesn't have to be perfect, hell it doesn't even have to be real. It does have to encourage the players to play.
Look at games which have such level design look toward what makes the map fun.
Such as Doom or Metroid or Devil Daggers or Mario, or anything really.
The World must be at the very minimum good enough.>"artistic" monochromatic white blocks or spikes on a dark background
Every has to tie in together.
Why bother looking toward faggotry for inspiration of that kind?
Look toward the greatness of man and the potential that could be experienced.
Level design has to be bound with mechanics and lore (that's optional for some games).
The base mechanics must be a joy to use in every instance. Extrapolate that to every part.
Look toward ancient architecture, look toward game design, look toward the human spirit!
It's all there to see in its grandness and joy! As well as the petty despicableness.
They have to want to keep playing or else the exercise is just that an exercise. Useful, but not yet a game among great titles.
Everyone does have to gain experience somewhere.
Before, at the very beginning Extra Credits had good advice. Take it with a grain of salt and be wary for they too have been infected.
Look toward game design, and why it matters. The subtle suggestions.
Even look toward other media. Pictures, paintings, music, stories (expecially stories), movies, the experiences, everything.
You need at least a baseline to know where to look. Or a string to follow toward a goal.
Finding out what inspired Castlevania, what it was inspired by.
Folk lore and more!
Why do you look where the fags dwell when people who care are everywhere just bellow the surface (sometimes deeper) if you dig and search?
You have to have that skill to obtain what you desire. Or compensate with multitudes of time and effort spent recreating the wheel without a hint.
Everything relates to eachother. Build those logistical connections within and without to try holding wisdom in the woven basket.
You're right, thank you.
I was thinking about cartoons and how they shaped the perceptions and childhoods of so many people. Shittons of old cartoons had divershitty/anti-waycist episodes that are cringe, but idiots who grew up on them yet are disgusted by the propaganda today would point to ten year old propaganda as an example of how to do it subtly since they consider what they grew up with "normal".
How many kids fell in love with Callie Briggs, Starfire and Raven, Gadget Hackwrench, Android 16, Ty Lee, Winry Rockbell, Gwen Tennyson, Sam Manson, Kallen/C2, Kim Possible and Shego, Misty/May/Dawn/Serena, and ended up fucked up in the head as a result? The world may never know. Scott Pilgrim ruined a whole generation of women but the lack of reward given to good men in a demoralized society that sabotaged its youth means many men have a fucked up idea of what being number 1 means and won't try to achieve it.
Still exercising, still healthy. Decided to start making healthy sandwiches out of vegetables.
It's always bugged me that the occultist neo-religious sometimes-paganist sometimes-satanist "Your magic willpower can change reality!" guys never visibly reap the benefits of their supposed magical willpower. You'd think these guys would be the kind of guys that are 999% motivated, the greatest bodybuilders and most well-read true intellectuals who never waste time on silly things and live every second as optimally as possible. But instead they just seem like regular people, aside from their insistence that praying to themselves and their own willpower helped them quit smoking and drinking therefore everyone must drop jesus and praise demons/Thor. I'm open to the possibility that there might be more to reality than what our human senses can sense since the jews hate God+Jesus and keep pushing the idea that we're nothing but meat, beasts, and at best space dust. But in my head when I think of some spiritual guru genius guy, I think of someone whose life was transformed for the better by learning the truth to the point where he's reached superhuman peaks. Maybe that's stupid, the result of decades of conditioning from media.
>>3684>result of decades of conditioning from media.
Yes, and no.>[those] guys never visibly reap the benefits of their supposed magical willpower
So analogy time.
Because they try to lift a 10 ton truck with a plastic straw and nothing else.
Others go and fix up the car and drive it up a ramp and makes it do stuff.
And some call in a tow truck. With some have a jack.
Others use a winch and intricate knowledge.
Some just fuck up the car.
Many more get knifed while doing stuff.
More still give up and just wonder about.
Most (mostly meaning most) who are outspoken about the supposed benefit of a certain nameless deity yet cannot prove the evidence as being better are to be taken with a pinch of snake salt. It is best to observe rather than partake in the deed, as it is easier to lie than to be honest.
As commonly enough they tend to be the ones promoting an 'agenda' of sorts, a tool or puppet to manipulate others but are being manipulated themselves, despite their knowledge (lack thereof) of the delusion or not.
It is often for them to be under the spell of a psychosis, being unable to distinguish fantasy from reality. There again, reality does not always have to make complete sense, neither does the human mind.
Indeed. Still waters run very deep.
You're right. Btw, still exercising. Increased weight in my weighted vest.
I don't care about this since it's not much of a loss, but turns out I've been banned from some unimportant ben 10 fanfic's discord fanserver for being "far-right".
I asked specifically what I said that got me banned since I don't remember it and haven't used it in months, maybe a year or two. I got the tard's personal definition of far-right in response because I didn't actually do anything wrong, I was just considered an undesirable.
I don't remember much about the server at all but I remember how that server had a handful of annoying commies who'd say commie shit and then cry "Wah no politics this is a media server!" when debunked. Or cry other assorted jew-tier lies to try and dupe retards with no reading comprehension and a desire to jump on the bandwagon someone else's fight creates to look moral. If some faggots are having a slapfight and it's your job to tell them "Shut the fuck up" or "This one's right, the other one's retarded, now shut up" you gain nothing. But if you believe the one with the more tempting lie about how the other one's some eeevil little bastard, suddenly you gain something. You get to feel like you're a hero for once, by taking the wrong side in an argument you don't feel obligated to read in full before passing judgement on it. Discord moderators, am I right? At least when they're doing this they're not grooming little boys and calling them "femboy transgenders" or grooming little girls and calling them "kitten".
If everyone on the planet was intelligent enough to see through basic lies and understand real science, or smarter, the world would be a better place. Maybe if everyone had to have at least a certain level of intelligence to be considered human, we'd be better off as a species.
Then again, it's not like dumbasses asked God to be born dumb. We can't prove God made them that way because they'd do more damage if they were smart. Besides, culling the bottom percentages of humanity is the kind of thing only a fictional villain would want to do in some cliche sci-fi novel that wants to pretend eugenics is the ultimate unthinkable evil, rather than rape or murder or the slow and ever-accelerating intellectual and societal rot caused by idiots and the leftists that use them for their own benefit. Besides, giving the government the power to decide the legal minimum IQ would get that power abused.
Rich retards would bribe government officials to have their children spared, while having too many kids would become a point of pride for the rich bastards that can afford countless bribes so they can pretend they have a high-IQ bloodline when they don't, the bar would be set high enough to fuck over normal people yet ignored whenever it would inconvenience a race the ruling class likes more, the IQ test would have a load of "moral score" or "emotional intelligence" bullshit added to it to cull sane people and spare overemotional leftist retards and sociopaths from the govt culling since they're both more useful to corrupt govts than humans are, a sex slave market would probably be created out of retards and average people not deemed special enough for the elites... This sort of thing would make a neat alt-history or dystopian sci-fi concept but the only valid government's the kind that keeps its dick out of the asses of its people and protects the asses of its people.
I've been thinking about how so many people I know are obsessed with media to the point where they get into daily internet slapfights across all sorts of jewish social media platforms, complete with slander and harassment and harassing friends to try and get them to disavow "thoughtcriminals", all over fucking cartoon characters.
Sometimes they try and get me involved in their drama. Some of them get butthurt at me for not wanting to dedicate hours of my life to joining these slap-fights, as if I'm the bad guy for having dialogue to write and levels to code and bouncy boobies to animate. A life this filled with conflict seems like a massive drag, and conflict over what, the opinion children and teens and childlike adults dare have over cartoon characters? When did 1984 sjw fear-tactics become the norm for playground-tier arguments over the sex lives of moving doodles voiced by middle-aged japanese women?
Doesn't anyone else want a quiet life any more? I've had debates over gun rights that seem more respectful and respectable on the surface(either those who are anti-gun shouldn't have their opinion enforced or protected by law enforcement, or being a nazi should be legal and legally protected, pick one) than any of this shit-flinging nonsense over fucking Ben 10 lore or who Sonic The Hedgehog should have shagged.
Maybe it's a sign that I'm maturing and have improved my life, since I genuinely have better things to do than worry over what faggots think about my waifoo or husbandou or whatever. But I also feel like I'm drifting away from the people who have "media madness" consume their lives. Like I'm growing up and they're staying the same age, with the same shallow interest in the same shallow interests and same repetitive NPC dialogue lines whenever I press A on them. The DBZ fan will say tomorrow what he says today unless there's something happening in that tiny little bubble of aimless nerd culture that changes his programmed dialogue lines. "nerd like android 21. android 21 have the big boobas. majins r so kewl. oh em jee, wouldn't it be kewl if they made another DBZ that was just like DBZ but with android 21 in it? android 21 is so sexy. i suddenly like vore because she turns people into candy and eats them. i'm basically a blank sheet of paper and jews write whatever they want on me. btw i wish sega made another sonic game thats just like sonic advenchur 2 but more! just more, you know, like star wars. more. no i wont play fangames or indie games like sonic but better. i am a loyal corporate whore."
Jesus fuck nigel, at least offer a tl;dr
Glad to hear about the gains. I'll read the rest when I'm bored, but jesus christ a tl;dr please?
im getting buff. Weight up.
Today i learned i was banned from some dicksword server for being "far right"
but that is fine because they are a load of faggots
maybe if the world had less retards there would be less of an incentive for evil individuals to mislead and misuse them for personal and political gain, but I wouldn't trust any government that would actually want to cull healthy citizens.
Nerdniggers obsess over media so fucking much that it makes up their entire identity and a handful of my friends make me sad because every fucking day they're typing their hearts out in some twitter or discord or tumblr war over whether Ben Tennyson should have ploughed stretchy alien pussy or wasted his life with that stupid selfish cunt Julie or that obnoxious fucking creator's-pet Kai or whatever the writers decide to do with that joke Charmcaster this season.
jsus fucking christ I know I talk a lot about media but I tend to have something to say about it. A man analyzes bioshock and undertale, a slave cooms for it and obsesses over its characters without learning anything. I couldn't imagine just sitting around occupying your time with assorted distractions like internet arguments over the sex lives or moral values of fictional characters until it's time to suck up whatever slop the corpos feed you then get into shouting matches where you try and rationalize away a bad show's shitness. NIGGERS SHIT INTO THEIR OWN MOUTHS. FUCK.
Ben 10 is a toy franchise with a cartoon that was good for a while. If it's the biggest deal in your life, find God. My Little Pony Friendship Is Magic is better anyway. At least Twilight didn't have to re-learn "friends are important" every four episodes from season one to fifteen or more. I want to cum inside Twilight Sparkle but you won't see me writing a new essay every week to "defend her honour" just because some faggy tween's calling her every bad word she/her/it knows.
Maybe it's weird for a man my age to talk like he's becoming an old man. But I don't think I'm becoming an old man. I feel like I'm becoming a real man. A man who sees things clearer every day. Must be the healthy food, or perhaps the exercise. Maybe planting real-ass food made me level up as a man. Maybe a combination of all three. I'm used to thinking in meters and centimeters. Feet? I use a calculator to turn it into meters. And inches? Whenever someone gives me a measurement in inches I imagine my dick and how many of those copies of my dick are equivalent to whatever's being measured in inches, and that's because meters and centimeters are the superior way to measure shit and everyone fucking knows it. Inchniggers just pretend to hate meters because they love feet too much.
Tldr the enlightenment was a misnomer, denying God and the value of his teachings leaves you vulnerable to subversion. Without an argument as solid as "because God" all you're left with are feelings to back up moral arguments whenever the rational loss-minimization optimization mindset gives you an answer that feels icky. I know this sort of talk's a meme in the warhammer 40k community but it's true: An open mind is an unguarded fortress.
Do you ever think people would like christianity more if it had its own kung fu and alternative medicine practices? Bullshit stretches and lies about magic and silly cures for issues with more scientific fixes... Maybe that would appeal more to normies. Then again, aside from the occasional self-serving faith-healer scam artist who'd imitate any religion if it was big, Christianity doesn't have alternative medicine because it helped birth real medicine and science and rationality and whatnot. Christianity is the greatest religion in the world. Sekai fucking ichi. We are number one.
it's always bugged me that Neon Genesis Evangelion wants to be this story that says "fuck escapism" but the author's made his story so divorced from reality that it can only be taken as a fantasy. Eva isn't the story of a boy who grows over time. It's a story that says "it would actually suck to be thrust into the pilot seat of a giant robot and forced to battle monsters while surrounded by weird women with mental disorders". I appreciate its deep writing and symbolism. The author clearly knew his shit when it came to mecha anime and storytelling. Asuka represents the headstrong angry woman who mostly hates everyone and Rei pisses on the Yamato Nadeshiko archetype and that drunk chick is kind of a loser, and this is legitimately smart writing. He clearly has a message he wants to give the audience. But he doesn't know how to get that message across to the audience in a way that matters because it's basically just "lmao stop being depressed". A man doesn't just spontaneously get bitches and healthy relationships the second he takes his sony walkman/ipod headphones off and decides to "embrace reality uwu". It's not that easy for men these days. Dancing in a giant robot is as much of a fantasy as meeting several hot bitches that would be perfect if not for personality flaws some horny dudes are into after a lifetime of simping over fictional characters. Losers choose escapism because it's easy and they think they will never be sufficiently rewarded for a life of struggle and pain and growth. Anime figurines can't divorce you to become millionaires while stealing your kids and leaving you homeless. Feminists turned marriage into a mockery of itself and jews turned women into mockeries of women. They wouldn't have undue levels of power and influence if it wasn't for divershitty hires and govt programs meant to make life even easier for wamen. And what does society get out of it? When society pays women to be mothers they get mothers and children. When society pays women to be men and makes stealing jobs from men too easy all they get are jobless men and inferior imitations of men. Eva's creator might think there's a problem with japanese men these days and men in general but he's a coward for failing to look deeper into why not all boys want to sacrifice themselves for a system designed to rob and sabotage them. If he made another season of Evangelion that calls out the jewish lies subtly, he could make a significant impact on the world. If he made another season of Eva that subtly pokes holes in feminist lies... even including entry-level redpills about birth rates and privileged projecting feminism's hypocrisies in something with such a massive audience would help his country and other countries that love Eva. He could do yet another evangelion rewrite rebuild thing except this time Shinji grows a pair and teaches Rei how to smile and enjoy life while Asuka realizes she'll become a bitter drunk cat lady unless she loosens up and treats others better. He probably won't. I guess I'll always see the eva franchise as a massive missed opportunity. The guy gets how to deconstruct mecha anime and media cliches he doesn't like but he doesn't understand the issues the youth are facing well enough to say anything smarter than what you'd expect to hear from the average boomer who thinks "lmao try harder" is the best advice anyone can give.
Increasing the weight on my weighted vest.
Sometimes I talk about my friends here, but I don't wax lyrical about how awesome some of them are because I don't think anyone would want to read that. I love and cherish these fuckers but this isn't some teenage girl's diary. It would be bad for opsec if I deeply explained everything that makes my closest friends great people, since anyone could formulate a list of my friends and figure out who I am by guessing it's the person I don't have many nice things to say about.
Decided to try some new stronger protein shake.
Hilariously, I hear some guy recently entered a female only 2v2 Mortal Kombat tournament using his girlfriend's account and apologized after he was found out. Everyone, especially the people he fucking annihilated, is pissed at him for "trying to cheat them women out of a bag". I thought they loved letting men compete in women's sports? You'd think esports would be a place where men and women can compete evenly if you forgot men are smarter and more focused than women, while the only natural edge they could possibly claim is better rote memorization skills and marxist ego-stroking instead of marxist sabotage. Maybe that's why women love tekken so much, everyone has over 200 moves and most are hidden behind assorted bullshit strings and which button does what is reversed depending on what side of the foe you're on and some attacks can only be dodged by sidestepping to a certain side that changes if you're on the other side of the foe. Give me a set of punches and kicks plus some tricky specials that change depending on final button pressed plus a fun gimmick and a simple universal mechanic with multiple uses any day of the week.
>>3707>Hilariously, I hear some guy recently entered a female only 2v2 Mortal Kombat tournament using his girlfriend's account and apologized after he was found out.
I know, right? Mortal Kombat's a shit fighting game series, too. The animation's so bad, even people who know nothing of animation can understand why the moves look weird/weak/unnatural. I hear Mortal Kombat animates using motion-capture footage that's sped up or slowed down to fit the gameplay, without an expert animator's hand to emphasize certain key poses to make the motion look better. While Arc System Works are the kings of using 3D to resemble hand-drawn 2D sprites and amazingly beautiful animes, Netherrealm Studios are clowns who turned trashy animation and the 3d mocap crutch into a gimmick fanboys will call "charming" and "their signature style".
Imagine some faggot who constantly rants about the awful fetishy DND game he's in, regularly, while ignoring any "Get out of that group and find one where the players aren't lactating eight-tittied minotauresses with octuplets for fuck's sake" advice...
but it turns out there is no DND game and he's actually not the sane man from his story. he's the real degenerate writing about hyper pregnancy inflation porn for hours to the applauding crowd of a horde of dnd-obsessed nerdtards desperate to hear stories about nerds nerdier and less socially capable than them.
if some freak used the "My DND campaign is the worst! Please listen to my story and advise me and praise me and reassure me and validate me!" story hook to get a bunch of idiots to read and comment on his fucked-up fetish fiction, would that be fucked up or what?
A tomboy GF is rhe ultimate ideal because femininity (hysteria, sensitivity, fetishized weakness, ego) was so effortlessly weaponized against white males. A tomboy GF is the ultimate thing for a man because it combines the body of a woman with the goodness of a man. She won't be too much of a wuss to endure the mythical "pain" of childbirth more than once. She won't betray you or your family for some impulsive quick thrill and your wallet. Tomboy is superior. I'm sure a traditional housewife would be great if they still existed but the closest thing to perfection these days is the tomboy. Female is inferior. Female has failed the white man and betrayed him. Long live tomboy supremacy, may it grow in popularity with each day, may it rise up and replace this dead neoculture's broken idea of what a woman should be.
Oh Nigel, no one cares for these things.
You care enough to reply and let me know how you currently feel about me :3
btw exercise bike obtained
Jesus this exercise bike is hardcore. Worth every damn penny.
It's always pissed me off when demoralized cucks try to deny the superiority of space travel/space habitats on the baseless grounds that it would be difficult and not benefit people currently alive. How does that old saying go again, the one from a wise civilization that eventually collapsed but was pretty based before it collapsed into degeneracy and forgot its own wisdom? That quote about how society is great when old men plant trees so that young people may bask in their shade. Mankind's future belongs in the stars. Without space travel we're just idiots moving matter around on a single planet that could easily become our gravestone. Would it really be such a tragedy in the doomer's mind if jobs were created by companies that wanted to colonize space or go bankrupt trying? I'm sure those working for the industries that supply those space companies with resources for cash would be happy no matter how things go. Those cowardly doomer cucks should take their defeatist attitudes to hospitals and try saying their "lets just give up my fellow white males" shit around terminally ill patients with a slim chance of recovery. They'd get their asses kicked for it. They only talk that way because the thought of space naturally gives the white man hope that his science can answer life's questions and solve its greatest problems, problems leftism can only worsen. That talk spits in the eye of every forefather who fought and bled and broke a fucking sweat so the comfortably numb doomandgloomposter can masturbatorially brandish his cynical corporate-mandated defeatism like he thinks it's something to be proud of. Whites can into space. One planet is not enough. And we'll never get into space if we shoot ourselves in the foot slaving away for jewish slavemasters while pretending we are equal to literal niggers. "Equality" is a lie meant to discourage greatness. "Liberalism" is a leftist weapon meant to dismantle the aspects of functional civilizations that let them enjoy the benefits of Liberty and Plenty and Truth and other thing the ravenous weaponized useless eaters loathe.
The lack of free will is a myth that comforts faggots by letting them tell themselves they'd be better people if they lived in better times that gave them more opportunities to be good people and fewer opportunities to be cunts or lazy faggots or lazy faggoted cunts.
Sometimes my hands wander to my hips and gut as if even they doubt the radical transformation of my physique for the better. Is this normal?
It's normal. Feeling your body change for the better can be cathartic.
You're right, thank you.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ROJ0-r3zyck
This cringefest helped me come to terms with the crappy fanfics I wrote as a child/teenager.
I feel like I've healed something I didn't realize needed healing until now. If it wasn't for those crappy fanfics, I never would have improved as much as I've improved now. Does Picasso feel guilt and shame over the first doodles and paintings he ever made before he got famous? What about Van Goth and Monet and some other art guy?
Today nofap got me some bitches on my dick. Well, one. I was resting after walking and jogging on a football pitch when a dog ran up to me and sniffed my crotch. For multiple seconds, even when I moved away or stroked the dog's head while guarding my dick and balls with one hand. I even got up and turned around and tried walking away. The dog followed my crotch and wouldn't stop sniffing it. I didn't like it. I'm not actually a furry I just like big tits. The dog's wet nose made marks on my trouser legs. I'm glad I guarded my dick and balls before it touched anything of mine because this would feel weirder if that happened. Anyway the owner saw this and started walking over, after 10 seconds of this he eventually finished walking here and called the dog away, pulling her by her collar as she continued turning towards me, sniffing at me, even trying to run at me. I smiled politely and said "She's friendly, isn't she?" and he glared at me before walking away faster. Maybe this was embarassing for him too? Maybe I said the wrong thing. Maybe he trained this behaviour into his dog unintentionally (dog likes resting head on legs when it wants pat pats and doesn't understand what a dick is) or intentionally (vomits internally). I had no idea what to do in that situation besides guard my dick for fear of it going from sniffing to biting or licking. I'm glad it didn't lick or bite. It was surprising. I didn't wake up this morning and expect a literal dog to smell the unspent semen within me and seek my wild stallion out like a missile. Would I technically still be a virgin if that thing licked me through my trousers or would I count as a sexual harassment victim? Do those laws even apply to dogs? An owner is responsible if their dog bites someone, does the same apply to humping their leg and other canine shit? If I put on some cologne I'd assume it was that but I never use perfume or cologne or deooderant except for fancy occassions that normally never happen. Normally dogs don't seek me out like that and I had no food in my pocket so all I can think to blame is nofap. I wasn't feeling any urges before or during or after the event because I was thinking about jackets. Even now I still feel like that was something too weird to actually happen, like some unlikely degenerate anime fanservice scene. Then again I've never actually seen dog related fanservice in anime unless anthro dog girls count. There was one hot buff wolf chick in There was that "turn yourself in, man" joke from an anime I forgot the name of. I know eating dogs is legal in china but I hope fucking dogs is illegal in japan. Mares are cute, but dogs are not for sexual.
Also I forgot to tell you this but I've been walking a lot and walking/jogging/sprinting down a football field. Good exercise. My weighted vest makes it even more intense. Being healthy is good. No wonder the jews want us mining or paying for dopamine in shitty grind games like Gayshit Impact instead of exercising.
Your faithful student, Nigel D. Narutofag.
Hilarious. You don't often see dogs doing that unless they have done it before, the guys body language would have said it all and the way he reacted is a dead give away to the reason why he ran with his tail between his legs. A bit too friendly ay?
Then again the bitch could probably have smelt your dick cheese a mile off, or perhaps some stains from one of your recent wet dreams. Semen has a strong odor and dogs have good noses, so she might have been able to pick that scent up from you, or she could be in heat. Then again I'm no bitch expert nor enthusiast.
Lmao bruh I have to clean myself well daily or I get skin problems. It must have been the dog because it couldn't have been me.
I get a lot of dandruff. She must have been a horny bitch and you lucked out on a first class ticket to a canine blowjob but declined it without much thought until afterwards.
I know I'm on a nazi site right now so this might be controfursial (hehe) but I'm not actually a furry.
Your penchant for furry/futa images begs to differ
Some furry art is well drawn. Some anime art is well drawn. And futa is the only way to make yuri less gay.
Pray tell, how does more penises = less gay?
Less or more gay than women grinding their frontholes together?
If your media preferences lead you to choose between furry futa and lesbian fronthole rubbing, you're a faggot and should kys
When I borrowed Persona 5 from a friend and tried playing through it, the game's focus on getting as much as possible out of your limited time as deadlines inexorably marched towards you kept reminding me that I am wasting my time playing Persona 5, an overhyped weebshit RPG for babies who will only call P5 a masterpiece if they have literally never read a book in their lives besides Harry Potter at most.
Don't be gay when I'm winning a humorous argument over the pointless semantics of fictional beings.
Your points have been casually/effortlesssly refuted for a week. When were you 'winning'?
Why are you being gay in my thread?
Is it homosexual to touch a woman's ass?
Is it homosexual to fuck a woman's ass?
If women had wings, and a culture that says winged females should be the one grooming male wings, would it be homosexual to groom her wings?
What if women naturally had penises of their own?
Then women could penetrate other women without being gay about it.
Maybe, theoretically, I'm just fucking with you because I know you're a screeching shell of a former human so obsessed with me you'll latch on to anything, anything at all... as long as you think it makes me imperfect.
Think, clown, think. You desperately want to turn everything into a competition so you can feel like you're winning something for once. Even though you lack the balls and drive for self improvement necessary to have a thread of your own like this.
You're not doing any favours by screeching at me in every single thread on this website. You're a mad dog and you bark when commanded. You say you're not the spiteful cowardly redditor hclegend? Alright, stop talking like him and stop acting like him.
The shit show just doesn't fucking end. Nigel's spine and masculinity wars with the indoctrination. So the only thing in his tool box to work with ONLINE is moaning about shit, because being a silent pussy does jack shit.
Fuck you, the thread was just fine and dandy in the nigel thread bring it up there because fuck you'll have all the ducks in a row.
>>308640 >>308638 >>308637
There is a perfectly fine thread. That's all on topic.
>>312565 >Just one post and you're done, I'd recommend it be somewhere else, and for future reference just keep tabs on where all of them are for easier cleanup. Actual glowing shill fucks heors pussy. See post by admin.
>>312569 >The entomology of the various mental pathologies belong elsewhere, the garbage can thread for one off topics would be appropriate.
>>312575 >I understand the fury and rage coupled with duty for your fellow man to rise above from where he once was. As with many of my messages I'm taking an extraordinarily long time to make sure this isn't simply a rant of just repeatedly saying double nigger.
I'm sure you can guys can guess which pics are totally not posted atm.
So instead have this nice calming pone.
No, youre clearly being gay in your own thread. No help needed.
No, you're being gay in my thread.
And then you say "No you" and then I say "No you" and you keep this up forever.
That's how conversations with you usually go, hclegend/vril. If you don't just plug your ears and go "La la la I'm not listening and you haven't made an argument yet so make an argument I'm willing to listen to la la la"
Jesus fucking christ, you're a Jew.
Why would I bother? The evidence is incontravertable that A. You deliberately engage in precisely the null effort posting and flagrant accusations you accuse others of and B. You lack the articulation to make an actually coherent argument.
Tl;dr Youre only making this worse for yourself
This war must be lonely for you. I can't imagine spending years of my life harassing one website and constantly gaslighting its users in the hope that someone believes your lies. But you can, because it's what you do.
You enter a thread and attack me while you still feel anonymous despite your posting style. You abandon the thread and move on if enough people tire of your antics and tell you to fuck off. And then you start the cycle again in a new thread where you can feel anonymous.
Wouldn't it be funny if there was one special word I'd hidden in posts directed towards you now and then so I could search for that word and find all the threads you've pulled this in over the years? Then I could direct people to that post every time you show up, for the benefit of newfags who don't know why a snarling rabid mutt in the corner best ignored by everyone is hallucinating vividly and crying shit like "You're mad! And butthurt! And a redditor! Not me, you! It's you who never changes! Yooou!".
>>3995>You're mad! And butthurt! And a redditor! Not me, you! It's you who never changes! Yooou!
Well its not wrong
Watched some documentaries with the boys today. Was a good time.
Today I also criticized someone claiming to be Ninjas for the staff's handling of the hclegend problem, even though I'm not sure if that really was a mod/amin/whatever or not. I wonder if this will get me permabanned. If it does, I wonder if hclegend will move on to attacking other users or simply go back to reddit. I'll never understand why hclegend has been allowed to slander and harass me on this site for years in so many threads, and I'll never understand why his recent self-own in a certain other thread got censored. It was hilarious. Maybe it was deleted because anyone who saw it would never take hclegend seriously again. More than once I've thought about requesting a custom flag so hclegend won't lash out at random brits on the off chance that they're me, but this is supposed to be an anonymous site. Then again hclegend loves attacking me out of nowhere and claiming not to be hclegend until he can't any more, only ceasing his attacks in one thread if he feels he's wearing out his welcome in that thread. Then he abandons that thread only to attack me and cry "nigel" at me again in the next thread hoping his anonymity will shield him from the reputation his words and deeds earn him. That narcissist is sad. However if I was given something unique like a british flag with an orange fox in the middle while hclegend is given something that suits his pro-LGBTQ pro-tranny anti-SuperStraight reddit posts https://archive.is/N0cqB
like a rainbow fag flag, anonymity would be removed from both of us. Everyone would know to ignore hclegend posts and never reply to hclegend posters. If staff don't want to warn hclegend to knock his antics off, giving us both flags would be a good way to make his usual antics easier for the users of this site to reliably ignore.
Man you are acting like a paranoid schizophrenic. Go to doctor Goldstein and tell him you think everyone who disagrees with you is the same guy that has been gang stalking you for years. Also ninjas isn’t a mod.
btw I've raised the weight level on my chest press and weighted vest. It's a shame ankle and wrist weights don't work IRL but it's a good thing weighted vests work.
>>3147>Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting?
Depends, some people enjoy it and others don't because of personalities and the source of stresses.
If I can recommend anything it would be Equine Therapy, talking to people can be boresome and uninteresting compared to the sensuality of feel and emotion. That's if you're interested in Equus Caballus and their behavior patterns.
Institutional psychiatric therapy can be unpleasant at times and it may be discomforting to partake in the expression of feelings to someone you should or should not trust or perhaps don't enjoy being around, the building itself can be discomforting when the rooms are small and you are around people that are (most of the time) in it solely for money. Psychiatrists in general are judgmental and suspicious of classifications and diagnoses that are affiliated with the patients they deal with.
There tends to be more of a nerve racking sense of claustrophobia when being in those brick buildings than as opposed to standing in fields amongst the wild grasses and stone walls lined with barbed wire.
Horses and ponies can be more friendly than the majority of people are, the bond that forms between these two species is one of the attraction of polar opposites, predator and prey. The domestic nature of these four hoofed equines is temperamental and euphoric within interspecies relationships involving humans and horses, it's exciting for some and scary for others.
I love ponies to the moon and back, adorable and cuddly, more fluffy than teddy bears when they grow their winter coats, pones are more therapeutic than therapists are.
My cunt landlord decided to sell my house. I hate renting.
Guys if your dick and especially foreskin is swollen after sex is that a sign of STDs?
You should probably see a doctor.
From a Ginger Catholic Irish Girl that only speaks Geálgé.
That'll cost you 3.5 whole Bitcoins to the father.
It's just skin irritation. Turns out my cock and balls are fine.
Éirinn go Brách. Agus mo ghrádh d'am sneachta