Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting? Who should I do therapy with? Can I trust my entire life's story with anyone who's not on this site?
Maybe if I tell you my life's story, you can give me life advice.
I was raised by abusive lefty parents who hated their smart white son and often tried to push me towards trannyism. Never fell for it.
First I was sent to a shit primary school. A few kids bullied me there and teachers punished me whenever I fought back. I was a fat angry kid who could punch hard when pushed, and they liked attacking me and then running away. But when we fought properly I'd kick their asses. One time I kicked their asses hard enough to make them stop bothering me.
When I graduated from this school I was sent to the special school of a catholic school, and made the personal property of one old bitch there who hated autistic kids. Around that era I got interested in Game Maker and pokemon romhacking but that interest never amounted to anything, though I did have a USB full of GBA roms and romhacking tools and the fact that I was able to code at such a young age when not all kids were learning that should have shown somebody that I had more to offer the world than shitty schools thought I should.
Thanks to that school, my schedule looked like this: Enter a side building, wait for the day to end, sometimes get insulted by the teachers if they felt like abusing me, usually get to eat lunch at lunchtime but sometimes they wouldn't let me (and it didn't matter whether I brought a packed lunch to school or brought money for the school cafeteria) and eventually go home to a house with parents that, when told the right words by my boomer bullies, would freak out and abuse me at home too. Rarely I'd get to join in a classroom... but class clowns would act up until I'd get blamed for it and sent out.
If I had a tape recorder or decent phone, I could have gathered evidence of the shit said/done to me (audio files of verbal abuse, pics of bruises, etc) and posted it online. But I was never allowed anything like that, because my parents feared I might use it on them. One day at school the art teacher bumped me with her car while backing up into a crowd of kids, I was fine but pissed off and the art teacher shrieked and blame-slinged feministically at me until I lost my patience and started barking back, then she put me in front of the headmaster and I told him about the abusive staff members and called him terrible at his job, so he kicked me out.
Then I was sent to a worthless "speshul" school where a few teachers abused me and the students usually watched in confusion when they weren't joining in. Whenever I trusted an adult enough to tell him or her what happened at home, that adult decided to call child protective services, who sent the same fucking boomer woman over to warn my parents that I was talking about what went on at home again. I couldn't get away from my family until I became the problem of Adult Protective Services, where the slightly less retarded and lazy people go.
A woman my age at the autistics-only youth club I attended got mad at me over retarded internet roleplaying nonsense-drama that didn't even involve me, and she lied about me to the cops and accused me of abusing her, even went to some clinic to fake signs of a concussion she didn't have because she's a spoilt bitch who knows how to play her rich parents like fiddles, she was a low-functioning sociopath woman with histrionic personality disorder and every retarded boomer's sympathy. She lied and got away with it, because the cops weren't interested in this case after she cartoonishly fucked up and started gloating about physically assaulting me without realizing it hurt her case. But even though I said to the managers of the youth club and the friends I knew there "If what she said about me was true I'd be in jail so you know she's lying" they couldn't believe me because they were dumb. There was one weird creepy fucker I used to talk to online because his "woe is me, asian school life is sooo hard" shit kind of reminded me of me at the time, but he got severe TDS and stopped being a person once he stopped viewing me as a person so I'm glad I didn't tell him anything sensitive or identifiable that could fuck me over later in life.
Anyway when I went to college, I was lied to and exploited by the staff until I dropped out. They even tricked me into taking a worthless course that turned out to be the dump where they dump the autistic kids and give them a useless fake newspaper to write. I wish I dropped out sooner, trying to live on barely fucking anything is hard enough when your mom took govt money meant for you, but it's harder when you're forced to spend most of your cash on train rides between your college and shitty home every two weeks and all your cunt government can offer is a discount pass. Now that I'm living alone, I've got a free bus pass I can barely use. Government priorities, am I right?
I am an autistic man, I'm 24 years old, I'll be 25 next year, and I've spent so much of my life as property of someone else that I find it hard to notice when I'm hungry or tired and remember that I should eat or sleep without someone or a phone alarm telling me to. I shower every night before bed but sometimes I miss meals, it's what helped me go from obese fatty to only-slightly-overweight. I don't think I know what it feels like to be loved by someone else. Learning makes me happy and I love documentaries but when I tried an online free learning site it reminded me of school and I couldn't do it. Sometimes I talk to people and act charming like those "Charisma on command" youtube vids told me so they'll like me, but I've never given anyone my full backstory before. The only woman in my life I ever kissed was that bitch who falsely accused me and got away with it. I want to say I have no interest in modern women but I still feel the urge to wank to them. But I don't wank any more because of nofap.
There were some replies here but I didnt get to read them in time. What did they say?
Talking to a therapist won't hurt as I see it. If you select to see one, make sure to get an psychiatrists and not a psychologists as the psychologists can only do talk and not prescribe any medicine that might be beneficial. Sometimes using medicine for a short while (subjective to needs) can be helpful and enough. It was for me. It can take some time for medicine to work and give new outlook on life, so expect half a year to a year with probably adjusting before seeing/feeling a change. Change will be gradual too.
I know a lot say you should not take anti-depressive medicine or the like, but I don't see it as a particular bad thing as it can help. This is also why I think looking for a psychiatrists and not a psychologists is key. Because it takes a while for the therapist to get to know your situation and what might help, and then discovering, if you chose to go to an psychologists, there is nothing he/she can do except offer more talk can be a downer.
Some of the things i wrote were a bit too personal, basically detailing my experience with schools and how much i hated it, it brought back some memories i don't want shared.
I'll rewrite a certain segment i wrote.
Don't keep crying over old tears, it only brings you down further and is probably what those twisted twats want you to feel like, don't let them win over yourself but instead use those old wounds to strengthen yourself, use them as a baseline for how nothing can hurt you emotionally as hard as it hit before, don't let those scars bite back at you from the past, i know you can't forget what has happened to you and neither can i forget how cruel others have been.
Focus on something else to get your mind away from self history, walking in the woods always made me feel calm and being around ponies has been a good stress relief, it's nice to be with something that isn't a human yet is still sociable, i don't think i can emotionally live without them at this point as they give my life meaning.>>3153
I never enjoyed telling others about my past except with tulpas, psychology only made things worse for me mentally and i hated how the only thing they could offer were questions, i was looking for a friend but i came to the wrong place.
I avoid prescribed anti depressants because i would rather use my own mind altering medicines than them, maybe they would work but the things i use at the moment suffice, i don't see any drugs as bad but rather the people who take them and in what way they use them on themselves, it depends upon how the person uses it rather than the drug itself since a drug is nothing more than a drug, it serves whatever purpose it has for the user but it is the user himself who decides how they use it.
Therapy is 90% just getting stuff off your chest and prompts to make you self reflect. I say its better to introspect on your own, but there's no real harm in it. You're basically doing that here now.
I think the more important thing would be setting up your mind, body and surroundings so you feel happy. Introspection helps with that.
>>3155>Therapy is 90% just getting stuff off your chest and prompts to make you self reflect.
Whenever i attempted to self reflect it didn't work as good as talking to my thought forms about personal experiences, yes it is mainly about letting out emotion but it never satisfies me enough to warrant me feeling better.>I say its better to introspect on your own, but there's no real harm in it.
I agree, introspection within my head was more in depth and personalized than any form of therapy i underwent, i couldn't trust the therapists at all since i knew they would diagnose my mental health with a label which i didn't like if i told them everything.>You're basically doing that here now.
Yes, i am and have been for a while due to a couple factors, OP has for a longer time than i have though but doesn't really understand why he is doing it, i have a purpose for what i write and so does he even if he doesn't know it.>I think the more important thing would be setting up your mind, body and surroundings so you feel happy.
Magical workings are the most mentally meditating and effective form of mental help but can also be a detriment if done wrong.>Introspection helps with that.
It does and i recommend it.
Society is poisoned. It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be. We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity. We are expected to live lies and support lies. Politicians paid by the music industry are trying to attach jail sentences to DMCA copystrikes but they are still less reviled by normies than anyone the tv calls a nazi. We are expected to be perfect enough to keep this broken machine working even though this machine was redesigned to hate us and kill us and drain us dry. Men are poisoned from birth in body and food and nonsense ideas forced on us by hollywood and boomer parents and school. When I try speaking to fellow christians they turn out to be cucked satanist liberal scum who refuse to recognize that laziness and PC lies won't save anyone. Nobody can appease satan or its synagogue. They are pure evil and I wish I could save people. But so many people don't want to listen to reason.
So many second hand ideas swirl in my head. I wish I could flush all the lies away. I wish I could speak to a wise all knowing mentor figure who is a thousand times my age and knows the future even though I know those dont exist. I wish I could talk to God and ask him all the questions man could ever ask.
I don't even know what I want from myself any more. I have unrealistic expectations for myself. I expect myself to be fine after everything that's happened. And that's unrealistic. People have broken from going through half the shit I went through and there are people out there who survived lives ten times as bad as mine.
Sometimes I wonder if a live spent accomplishing nothing and hiding in fantasy would make me happier than a life spent trying and failing. These are normal human feelings, right?
>>3157>Society is poisoned.
A venom has always lingered around the serpent sanctuaries, wherever there is houses there are rats and if there are no measures to get rid of them they will only feed from other peoples work, society has always been the victim of snakes and will continue to be that way until a potent antitoxin has been created to null the effects of street vipers, until then we have snakes creating carnage wherever they please because they can.>It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be.
No one knows what they want, they only follow what they think they desire, men can't escape from themselves which most can't deal with so they use methods of cope, men can be whatever they want to be but live in fear of others from a young age which influences their thought.>We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity.
The heroism of men has been reduced to a fantasy stereotype of super hero characters, nothing now is expected of men other than to submit to false help and hope, to accept being walked over by those who they are told are better than themselves.>We are expected to live lies and support lies.
The narrowness of education has imposed superficial lies about the sexes upon impressionable children which has resulted in them living a life of lies where they hate themselves for existing, the 'men' of today have trouble living with themselves instead of actually living.>Politicians paid by the music industry are trying to attach jail sentences to DMCA copystrikes but they are still less reviled by normies than anyone the tv calls a nazi.
While orthodox Jews and Muslims abduct girls with the help of police, get offered bail out of jail when caught and given a soft sentence as opposed to a guy in England carrying a steak knife or fishing without a license, they are offered a discount on life because they are not native which is a clear example the state does not care about the lives of it's own people.>We are expected to be perfect enough to keep this broken machine working even though this machine was redesigned to hate us and kill us and drain us dry.
Not everything is picture perfect as people are led to believe, the government is nothing more than secret slave masters who use people for profit then discard them like a used condom, humans have little meaning to the state other than as potential profit or pleasure, their livelihood is not the concern of them but rather the service they are forced to serve and anyone who rebels is locked up in a dog cage built for men.>Men are poisoned from birth in body and food and nonsense ideas forced on us by hollywood and boomer parents and school.
There is so much soy or chemicals inside food to dampen the bodies of boys so that they are feminized and thus more accepting to things imposed upon them without their choice, they are told it's okay to have a different opinion and have choices but when they voice their thoughts or do something that is deemed wrong they are treat no better than a dog, the sole purpose of government funded education and entertainment is for brainwashing.>When I try speaking to fellow christians they turn out to be cucked satanist liberal scum who refuse to recognize that laziness and PC lies won't save anyone.
Christians are nothing more than sheep, they follow whatever is the most kindest or nicest thing they are told to mindlessly obey to, it is the religion of submission and stupid sin that belongs in the bin, it isn't worth being good for god if there is no benefit for the person who willingly gives them self to an invisible man, it's better to better yourself instead of doing it for someone else who isn't you.>Nobody can appease satan or its synagogue.
It's a waste of time trying to make peace with someone who was born to create chaos, the Jews are the embodiment of the 'devil' and definitely haven't strayed from being demons due to genetics, they can't stop themselves from doing what they were born to do nor can they stray from ever riding Satan's sleigh, the ride certainly hasn't ended for the Jews and they will continue to do what their ancestors did since they derive from the same Satanic stock of Sodom.>They are pure evil and I wish I could save people.
They are inherently immoral and nothing can change that, they were bred to inflict the worst possible amount of oppression on those who aren't them and were taught that from birth.>But so many people don't want to listen to reason.
You must try different methods of mental warfare on those you wish to apply doubt of the masters upon, a dog does not willingly go against his owner without a reason, give them a good point that logically suites the illogical and they will secede to follow you, humans are animals which means the standard rules of pressure and release also applies to them since they are apes so you can create a question that goes against their train of thought in a way that brings their train to a stop, most will not go down easily in their realm of logic since they are obedient to though so observe for the ones who are the least likely to be loyal to lies then you will have a chance of instilling your will if you are confident to do so, be patient as it is a learning process for both you and whoever is your subject.>So many second hand ideas swirl in my head.
Same, i have lots of creativity but limit myself because i don't know what i truly want so i ignore my artistic ability, it is the result of a creative imagination which is more of a gift than a curse, i don't want to be normal and i know that it's best to think outside the box than to keep yourself close minded, by thinking of what you can do to create something new you are letting those thoughts run free which is good to see since not many people can look at things from a philosophical angle with an open mind.
I appreciate you for doing what you want.
Talking things out doesn't necessarily have to be talking. Consider getting a journal.
A pen an paper journal, and write in it. The tactility of using a pen instead of a keyboard to write can sometimes help. Getting your thoughts out and fully written down can tell that part of your mind that's stressed about those thoughts that you've worked through the problems as much as you can. You'll find that you worry about those things less.
You also don't have to only write stuff that bothers you. You can write down the nice things that happen in the day. If you've had a decent meal, a good workout, an interesting dream, et cetera.
>I wish I could flush all the lies away.
It's not that easy to simply end it all, suicide is the weak man's option and while down in the dumps everyone questions their existence, no one is exempt from this life of toil and strife but we are still here to live in fear, it doesn't make sense why everyone is so horrible but sometimes there isn't a good reason for why things happen and existence doesn't need an excuse to keep being bad or to do good, there is no answer to the questions we want to ask ourselves and you will never find it no matter how far you go for that knowledge, it will not come to you unless you accept that pain is temporary and necessary, it is worthless crying over your ineptness or a situation out of your control, the world is full of shit and it's hard to flush when there is no handle on life.
>I wish I could speak to a wise all knowing mentor figure who is a thousand times my age and knows the future even though I know those dont exist.
I am not that person and you will never find one, they are just men with experience in thought who have practice with their psyche, there are no gods other than what we are capable of knowing which is confined to our human intelligence, i know nothing and neither does anyone else, it's all mind games that do not mean anything other than to get part of a wider answer, i'm not old nor am i wise, i just spend my time doing what i like to do and that is the same with everyone else.
>I wish I could talk to God and ask him all the questions man could ever ask.
Why? What would you gain from asking some guy in the sky why people live and die for apparently no definitive reason other than to merely exist? I don't care because i have no good questions that matter in the grand scheme of life, i wouldn't trust him and his answers if he wasn't myself as his answers would only make sense to him because he is only an extension of man.
We all wish for something but it only comes true if you make it actual through the will of your inner self, inside yourself you are a man and you know what men are able to do but you only need to listen to yourself instead of relying on the hearsay of others, their words do not apply to you and your life.
>I don't even know what I want from myself any more.
Neither do i, nor does it matter whether i exist or not but i do, i do exist and i am here writing to you while on my surf across the web, i am thinking of responses to your responses while i exist but i do not know why i do these things at all, although it doesn't matter why since i am enjoying it so i put aside my other wants because i feel it is necessary to give you something from me, my words on a screen may mean nothing to you and neither do they have a meaning to me because i don't care about their meaning since the answer is not for me to know.
>I have unrealistic expectations for myself.
So do i, i want all the mares i could ever get my hands on but i know i will not be their master since it i am not meant for that role, i expect myself to stop myself yet i cannot since i am guided by my desire which is stronger than my opinions or biases, i expected to be a better person than i have turned out to be, i had so many opportunities i missed out on but yet i still take the path i know since it is all i know.
>I expect myself to be fine after everything that's happened.
You have expected things that have not come, you have been let down so many times by others that you expect nothing from them, you only expect betrayal which is logical given your vast amount of bad experiences at the hands of those you thought you trusted, your calls were so many times ignored that you have grown accustomed to being the subject of hate, i will give it to you that you are definitely persistent, you haven't given up yet at the hope that someone is there for you somewhere, you are still looking for someone to trust since you never had anyone trustworthy throughout your whole life, you are looking for that affection you missed out on.
I trusted people i shouldn't have and was punished for being a fool so much so that i figured it's best to keep away from those i don't know since i have come to fear people more than my eventual death, it is only logical.
>And that's unrealistic.
You will eventually feel like you are in a good position but you have to fight for it, the struggle of life is a fight and i have fought all my life against people along with myself, it is a game we are eventually going to lose at some point but we must fight like men if we are to become strong, even if we are only a shell of what are supposedly men, we mustn't give up for everything we have been through for everything we have fought for would be in vain.
>People have broken from going through half the shit I went through and there are people out there who survived lives ten times as bad as mine.
I have never handled stress from other people very well, i break like a twig when faced with something i'm told to do, i do not follow orders very well and never have done so i make my own rules because i can't follow others, the school told me what to do and think so i struck out against them for treating me like their pet which i was punished for, it didn't work though since i didn't listen to their word or care about what they had to say, they didn't care about me so i didn't care about them.
>Sometimes I wonder if a live spent accomplishing nothing and hiding in fantasy would make me happier than a life spent trying and failing.
It doesn't matter whatsoever what you do with yourself but if you do what you enjoy the most then you will have a life of love, the words or thoughts of others cannot affect you other than what you let yourself do to you, your fantasy or enjoyment is subject to you, no one else.
>These are normal human feelings, right?
There are anomalies in every man's emotions, no man can feel the same about the same as another of his kind, do what your human brain enjoys the most instead of doing what other people like.
I already have tried that, the most i could do was write about my dreams for a few days until i got bored of writing about a manifestation of my sleeping mind, it doesn't matter to me how much good or bad i do in a single day since it will always be something different the next, call me crazy for not caring about myself but i hate writing about the little things i do throughout the day, i don't care about what i do and neither do i consider it worthy to write down because it doesn't interest me.
Part of writing and being thankful is a psychological reward for the subconscious mind.
You made yourself a nice lunch, it was really tasty. Thanks. You might not remember, but your subconscious will note down this victory and strive to have that kind of victory again. Maybe bigger or better.<You wrote down your dreams, it was something. Thanks. Your subconscious will lean a bit more where you remember it.<You write down the interesting things. Thanks for helping me spot it. Your subconscious will be on the look out for those neat things.<You accomplished your goal today. No matter what it is. Thanks. Your subconscious will help you achieve any and all goals you put forth.
These little steps add up, it's training and it's extracting enjoyment, contentment, or at least engagement from day to day life. It builds history you can rely on.<Remember that one time we pulled through? Let's that again.<Remember that weird experience? Let's use this specific part for this purpose.
Then someones asking retorical questions you get replies.>"Where did I leave my keys?"<flash of thought, table plate>"Thanks."
The metastructure remembers that, and will strive for that goal.
Although it didn't necessarily have to be writing, but a physical testament to these things can be useful.
You seem to lack patience and focus. These arent practices that are going to work overnight, and progress will always be slower than one would prefer. Theres no magic bullet/cure.>I already tried that
For how long? A few days? Get real.
I don't care about writing down what i do throughout my life, i would rather not go through with the process instead of doing it, i have the tools at my disposal but i will do it when i'm ready or when i feel like it, if i do something like writing about my dreams or something i did then i can't bring myself to continue the cycle for more than a couple days otherwise i get frustrated quickly, whenever i have written about them i like it but easily lose interest after repeating the same action with a completely different dream.
I have seen certain things while asleep that directly tell me what is going to happen throughout the week but the dissection of what the hell went on in my head is often too in depth to detail in full, my dreams are complex so it's easier to just not write about them because i often have 4 or 5 dreams per night, i have the choice of not writing them.
Yes i'm very impatient and i hate focusing on a certain task if i don't feel right about doing it, i get bored so i move onto something else or get frustrated and destroy what i have done so it's better not to push myself.
Sounds like boredom and frustration are self defense mechanisms geared toward justifying for you what you do and dont want to do, which seems to include (but is not limited to) pushing yourself.
You are right, thank you.
I can't get over it, i have tried and tried, it has plagued my life, limited all my capabilities and i hate how childish i am when i make a mistake while i was enjoying something like drawing or writing, it has led to me hating what i thought would have been nice to do so many times, i like art but know i would get flustered over something that shouldn't matter so i don't because i know that it would be gone at the fault of my hands.
You need to find someone irl who has been in your shoes and has successfully made the changes you hope to make.
It's as if this behavior has been engraved into my psyche, it's a part of who i am and i despise it, my father suffers the same mental hardship so maybe i should seek him out and ask him, he is the one who knows since he is the one who has dealt with this longer, he has done things at the fault of himself that he regrets like i have regretted...
Anyways thanks again.
I understand to an extent.
And the doing what is right with gut instincts is really important and it is vital, but also verifying them for outside manipulations. In my experience gut feelings are true.
Writing (or any action undertaken) shouldn't have to feel frictional and harsh.
The point isn't dissecting dreams, just key elements or a word or two a distinction that it happened.
Arts also happen to be excellent for subconscious communications.
My experience when the urge for self destructive practices (or feelings) emerge I brutally deconstruct those urges to find out why and what reason. If it's magic related and the answer is magic, that's a bit tricky.
At least as much information I can unearth or require.
When all else fails save and make a copy or two (if possible). Then do as you wish upon the copy that isn't related. Or switch to a new frustration art piece that explores the feeling.>>3157>Society is poisoned. It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be. We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity.
That's the point. They want to grind away at the fabric of your being.>>3147
With that said the most important thing is to reinforce and discover, and know yourself.>>3171
I would recomend Jocko Wilink, while he isn't perfect he does have good advice for self control and discipline. Mostly the other cohosts expanding and detailing. Do it or Don't do it
A martial art might also help.>>3172
This is very useful.
I would suggest for the time being picking one tiny itty bitty thing you know you could easily do that would help you.
I'm talking instead of reading thirty books a day, read a sentence a day. Something that is easily done you would laugh at doing, and contributing to do it. Maybe more at times, but at least meeting that minimum your goals will be accomplished.
I don't think you really get what I was saying.
Write. Writing = thinking. Just write whatever comes to mind. Aim to fill up a page of writing on a regular basis. If writing out all the details of a complex dream is too much to do, then sketch out the dream in general terms.
Your goal is to train your mind to regularly work through ideas and see them through to the end. The self-reflection and mood alteration (from focusing on good things that happen) are almost incidental compared to this. You're trying to build up good mental habits. Good mental habits are a critical foundational skill to have for just about everything else you do in life.
>>3174>I understand to an extent.
Maybe you do, i wouldn't put it on you.>And the doing what is right with gut instincts is really important and it is vital, but also verifying them for outside manipulations.
Forcing something that shouldn't be pressured is a good way to create an explosion, your body will tell you when it's ready for whatever you plan to do with it.>In my experience gut feelings are true.
Always get an upset stomach when i know somethings amiss or i'm in danger, the gut rumbles and you know what's gonna happen.>Writing (or any action undertaken) shouldn't have to feel frictional and harsh.
That's why i don't write often, if the time isn't right to write i won't.>The point isn't dissecting dreams, just key elements or a word or two a distinction that it happened.
Like an anchor to the memory.>Arts also happen to be excellent for subconscious communications.
Shame i haven't had that happen to me yet, i have had direct subconscious links where something is explicitly shown either just before falling asleep or waking up where i actually see what i am going to see sometime in the future, although i have practiced asking myself.>My experience when the urge for self destructive practices (or feelings) emerge I brutally deconstruct those urges to find out why and what reason.
Usually results in me hurting myself somehow, it has a reason but it derives from my self harshness towards me, when questioning becomes part of the equation it only furthers me to being furious so instead i drop what is ultimately causing it.>When all else fails save and make a copy or two (if possible).
Doesn't always work, i have ideas for drawings but suppress them because every time i have tried putting my thoughts to form it goes the way i didn't want it to go, i can't stand having to constantly make changes to match my errors because i know i'm just gonna make more so i don't give a fuck about drawing anymore, it's tedious.>A martial art might also help.
Forget it, it's not for me neither are any other arts, i am not an artist in anything.>>3175
Sorry to break it to you but it isn't in my interest to write, i have no reason to train my mind to do nothing for the supposed sake of something good, my goal is not to write because i dislike even writing sentences or letters to people so it would be pointless to do it, i am not a writer.
>>3176>Sorry to break it to you but it isn't in my interest to write
It's not about which one of your existing interests you should continue to indulge in, it's about helping you fix your brain. It's about rebuilding the fundamental structure and routines to properly organize the world you perceive such that you can deal with hardships in a more mature way.
I'm sorry, but if this is the kind of response you're having, then I honestly don't think therapy would help you. The minute you would be asked to do some sort of exercises to help you, you'd resist and give up immediately. No-one can really force you to rebuild yourself, you have to do it on your own. At least not until things get bad enough for you to be committed against your will. Even so, it'd be hard going to have your caretakers holding your hand and trying to force you to do these exercises. I think most institutions that used to do this (if they ever did) would have swapped to just drugging you up to the point where you weren't a problem anymore.
We're not telling you to develop a new passion, we're trying to get you to develop a constructive habit. It's like brushing your teeth. It's not all that "fun", but it's good for you.
Writing, whether it be journaling, stream of consciousness, or any other format, is about getting you in the habit of putting your thoughts into words.
I never said i needed therapy, you go have fun with your journals and paragraphs of bullshit, doctor.
It's no use, he doesn't want it. Also.>We're not telling you to develop a new passion, we're trying to get you to develop a constructive habit.
Who is "we"?
He was complaining about writing. There was more than one person talking about using writing as a tool. The "we" refers to all the people who were suggesting using writing, or who were suggesting using some sort of tool and applying it for more than just a few days before giving up on it.
>>3180>He was complaining about writing.
There should be another reason for him to not like writing so much.>There was more than one person talking about using writing as a tool. The "we" refers to all the people who were suggesting using writing, or who were suggesting using some sort of tool and applying it for more than just a few days before giving up on it.
Alright i was a bit confused, what other tools are there?
>>3181>There should be another reason for him to not like writing so much.
I don't like writing if i don't feel like writing and i don't like drawing if i don't want to, if i'm not determined or lack motivation to do so the idea is soon scrapped and forgotten, it's unlikely for me to do either anyhow because it's never had an appeal to me to be good at it or share it with others, is that good enough for you?
Writing is fun and theraputic when done freely. If it's not fun for you try writing something else. Even if it's just shitposting. Always wondered what it would be like to dump the biggest shitposts in some big writing genre under a fake name. To try and intentionally upset readers with countless meandering chapters of bullshit and suffering and dick jokes.
Been exercising more lately but legs are still weak, ankles and knees are still shit, stamina is still low and run speed is slow. I should get out more but the roads and paths are dangerously slippery in the winter and autumn from ice and wet leaves. even mild exposure to the sun burns me in spring. Maybe I should actually try sunscreen.
It hurts when talking to people I care about and hearing how this plandemic fucked them over. Some people have elderly obese smoker 50 something wine aunts who supposedly died from the Rona so they refuse to listen to any questioning of the narratives or govts. I always wondered what it feels like to have a family full of people you care about. My family was bastards so I never got to feel that. What if I missed out on something vital for healthy and stable human development?
I wish a short burst of hyper intense training could instantly make me amazing because I desperately want to become stronger. But last time I went into "push myself no matter what" mode I fucked my elbow up and it took ages to heal. I need to be smart. Slow and steady wins the race.
>>3202>Writing is fun and theraputic when done freely. If it's not fun for you try writing something else. Even if it's just shitposting. Always wondered what it would be like to dump the biggest shitposts in some big writing genre under a fake name. To try and intentionally upset readers with countless meandering chapters of bullshit and suffering and dick jokes.
Intentionally upsetting people has been a favorite of mine for ages, that's what i have been doing here for awhile and has been my main game.>Been exercising more lately but legs are still weak, ankles and knees are still shit, stamina is still low and run speed is slow. I should get out more but the roads and paths are dangerously slippery in the winter and autumn from ice and wet leaves.
Try walking long distances in flat shoes or boots, unbalanced heels on boots are a killer and can fuck up your posture so avoid them if you can, if you want to still get out then just walking won't be as bad as running on ice.>even mild exposure to the sun burns me in spring. Maybe I should actually try sunscreen.
Sunburns make your skin more resistant against the sun if you can endure it, the spring sun is the time when i'm most outgoing so i get burned early so the skin builds up a defense against the warmer summer sun, it's a nice trade for having fun given it's an eye for an eye with being burned, spring is the best time of the year given how exciting it is waiting for it and how often it pays off at the climax.>It hurts when talking to people I care about and hearing how this plandemic fucked them over. Some people have elderly obese smoker 50 something wine aunts who supposedly died from the Rona so they refuse to listen to any questioning of the narratives or govts.
Gullible cattle are so easily herded once they have mislead proof of an imaginary worry, it's quite pathetic how uncooperative with words them become after a single occurrence without further research because of some hoax that they believe.>I always wondered what it feels like to have a family full of people you care about. My family was bastards so I never got to feel that. What if I missed out on something vital for healthy and stable human development?
At times it becomes an irritation but for the most part it's worth being part of one due to the added support that comes with a family, on the other hand you can have a real shitty handing of family cards so you get a crap deal that wasn't down to you, it boils down to the parents and how they treated their kids so a bunch of behaviors can become changed from someone's upbringing, neglect from parents or abuse can make a kid become lacking in certain emotions like empathy, if the mother is especially cruel then the boy will become highly distrustful of females or completely lack interest in them, absence of a father figure can result in bratty behavior or mischievous actions leading to nonseriousness about important tasks, there is a lot of changes that can occur depending solely upon the parents actions towards their children, it's all luck really on how you get given good and bad experiences from families.>I wish a short burst of hyper intense training could instantly make me amazing because I desperately want to become stronger. But last time I went into "push myself no matter what" mode I fucked my elbow up and it took ages to heal. I need to be smart. Slow and steady wins the race.
Obsession over physique is generally good for both sexes but can turn into an unhealthy hobby quickly from over indulgence in the desire for fast change, there are reasons to want to be the best and look the nicest but they were never a major concern of mine from how fast my interests in the cosmetic dissipated, i value my own strength over being constantly rather than becoming fixated on how i appear to others, my social nature has evolved into becoming unsocial from years of genuine uninterest in the common fads.
Patience is a virtue and is totally worth it in the long run, don't overstep the line too quickly then fall over yourself to receive ridicule from others, look at where you are placing your feet beforehand.
This sounds like good advice.
I don't think I have any interest in modern women. I still like tits and ass but I've never met a woman I actually liked. So many of them are shallow selfish "lesser men" with little to offer the world coasting on their privileged gender while robbing men for fun and profit. When I talk to women I just met I feel like I am waiting for them to disappoint me and reveal themselves to be as terrible and selfish and petty and malicious and short-sighted as their jewed upbringing dictates.
I saw a video about post-Avatar depression. That blue people film gave some fags who watched it Otherkin Syndrome. These people actually wanted to go to Pandora and be cute-ish blue cat niggers and live on this pretty planet because it seemed so much nicer than earth. The film's "fuck humanity" message stuck with them. They expressed misery and depression and a desire to suicide and reincarnate into pandora. It reminded me of the weeaboos and bronies with similar mindsets.
Just like how when Lord Of the Rings was in cinemas... so many people watched it that it turned fags into Elfkin. Losers who decided they were elves on the inside or wanted to act like elves and reincarnate into elves.
Did you know? When Elfkin forums got popular many other weirdos went to these forums claiming to be vampires or werewolves or gods or other misc things from movies they saw as children. Elfkin named those weirdos Otherkin.
Modernity. It's so "wonderful" that everyone... even the normies... spends all their time and money trying to escape from it.
>>3216>I don't think I have any interest in modern women
They are strange and make no sense to me, it's a waste of time being around them and frustrating, i can't stand them or their stupid interests so it's hard trying to put up with them for very long given they are no better than children, their bodies are the only thing that is interesting about them.>I still like tits and ass but I've never met a woman I actually liked.
I have met horses i liked but never a good woman, at least horses have hearts unlike the female apes.>So many of them are shallow selfish "lesser men" with little to offer the world coasting on their privileged gender while robbing men for fun and profit.
Most of them are not worth the light of day to see let alone giving attention to, men are stuck within their own world while women are trapped in their surroundings.>When I talk to women I just met I feel like I am waiting for them to disappoint me and reveal themselves to be as terrible and selfish and petty and malicious and short-sighted as their jewed upbringing dictates.
It almost always happens, distrust is the logical solution after being betrayed countless times by other members of your species, i am friends with hardly no one for good people are a rare commodity, they are dicks and i hate them all.
Their upbringing is spoiled and bratty due to the way society treats them like they are the princesses they aren't, it results in them feeling entitled to just about anything that they don't deserve, the little girls are the ones who get the expensive ponies from their equally Jewish programmed mothers that they get to make run circles for entertainment, they don't care about the wellbeing of others if they get satisfaction out of them so they are not trustworthy at all, they will walk over you like you are an animal until you are pushed to the breaking point then they get away with it. Their behavior is completely akin to full blown psychopathy and modernity has only managed to influence their unruly attitudes.>I saw a video about post-Avatar depression. That blue people film gave some fags who watched it Otherkin Syndrome.
Otherkins are unable to accept the scary world outside so they live in an imaginary world where they might have a more fair chance at existing in a world of rainbows, the Christians are no better since all their efforts are towards an imaginary world too.>These people actually wanted to go to Pandora and be cute-ish blue cat niggers and live on this pretty planet because it seemed so much nicer than earth.
People so easily fall into any form of abysmal escapism that they can get their heads around or make them feel the nicest, it's pathetic how it's encouraged in the media to act like an utter idiot and stick your head in the ground so you don't have to see the world for the hell that it is.>The film's "fuck humanity" message stuck with them.
No wonder, it was Jews encouraging that people are bad as a method of subversion from reality, visual impressions are so greatly impressed upon any fools who believe the scripts and what they influence along with the madness of the media.
Fuck humanity is a good message if applied to Jewish controlled civilization since a slaves life is no life, governments are good when they want to be but in general they are destroyers of everything they touch, it isn't humans who are evil but the self entitled brats who love to be in control, they are the ones who should be persecuted but most humans refuse to acknowledge the misdeeds of those 'above' them.>They expressed misery and depression and a desire to suicide and reincarnate into pandora. It reminded me of the weeaboos and bronies with similar mindsets.
It is a literal form of giving up and submitting, they get into the mindset of a depressed dog then instead of biting the hand that feeds them poison they take themselves out of the opportunity for revenge against the world, all those wasted lives were spent in toil due to living in the real devils chains, they gave themselves to the government and spent their free time crying about life rather than making a change, it's like the shepherd and his sheep in the way of how sheep are incapable of realizing the situation they are in. >Did you know? When Elfkin forums got popular many other weirdos went to these forums claiming to be vampires or werewolves or gods or other misc things from movies they saw as children
Just like with politics or religion, people give themselves names and defend those names for dumb devotion to a false cause, it's ridiculous how they play like the pawns they are with each other, it involves nothing critically concerning nor does any of it meaningfully matter, people are herded into forms of thought from what they see around them then mimic those same behaviors of others for the sole purpose of being apart of a group that does not have the wellbeing of it's members above all.>Modernity. It's so "wonderful" that everyone... even the normies... spends all their time and money trying to escape from it.
True, inaction brings no change and escapism is a form of doing nothing note able or worthwhile, playing games whether it be with yourself or others has nothing nice about it since it is only momentary satisfaction, games have strings attached to them that belong to the puppet masters.
The normal fags are money slaves and spend their pointless paper to the paper printer puppeteers that they are devout by, they are sheep and cannot understand how they are being corralled into focusing on the petty problems rather than the bigger picture, they refuse to realize they are trapped in a physical hell made by the devils in control, it's a shame how many opportunities mankind misses by being so focused on the nothingness of false reality than taking the steps toward making the real changes needed towards being in a better life.
The "progress" of humans has been haltered by living in a world of pointless pleasure than doing what we can to improve it we idle away.
I think society will keep focusing on meaningless fleeting pleasures until it regains its drive and understanding of what to strive for. It will put away the shallow entertainment when it rediscovers age-old sources of happiness like community and family and love. It will remember how to stand and walk and run when it remembers what a healthy society should run towards and what a healthy society should leave behind. Like bad ideas and old lies.
I don't think "humanism" can work. Not all ideas or ideologies are right. Not all races are equal. Why should America pay out the ass to India for example ust to keep some poor people in India above the poverty line when rich Indians are thriving from cheap labour? If whites controlled that cheap labour we would make it sustainable and pay it fairly because we're nice like that. It would also stop corrupt companies from outsourcing jobs to cheap overseas labour. If you feed a hobo he will come back tomorrow for more. You can only meaningfully help a hobo by giving him a job, the means to pull himself out of poverty. There will always be more poor people somewhere and there will always be more hungry mouths to feed. I don't think it's possible to feed everyone on the planet and I don't think there's any virtue in trying to feed everyone whether they give and take or just take. Most foreigners don't deserve foreign aid. How do we benefit from this arrangement? Africa and India are overcrowded thanks to foreign aid keeping their birth rates high while our own birth rate falls below the replacement rate thanks to the jews. "humanism" says you are nice if you help a lot of "humans" no matter what they contribute to your quest but that just creates dependency and unsustainable population numbers and rapefugees hungry for even more gibs.
>>3231>I think society will keep focusing on meaningless fleeting pleasures until it regains its drive and understanding of what to strive for.
The human herd is being prodded towards engaging in degeneracy and will be lead down the path of living a life of sexual displeasure disgracefully, unless something steers them upwards instead of downward. It's unlikely the world will ever progress past being "progressive" if the ship is headed directly into a storm of cum.>It will put away the shallow entertainment when it rediscovers age-old sources of happiness like community and family and love.
If humankind discovers how to live instead of merely existing it will be better off without tiedowns to those who live low in the world. All irrelevant entertainment is unnecessary to have enjoyment, it is optional as a way of living but leads toward an unneeded expense of skill.>It will remember how to stand and walk and run when it remembers what a healthy society should run towards and what a healthy society should leave behind.
Running in a direction without a goal is better than having shackles bound to the feet but is running nowhere fast, a plan is needed to not fail the opportunity for being free, any civilization that seeks to help it's people is better than the hidden slavery we currently exist within, at whatever cost freedom is important but requires a definite destination to strive toward so as not to become lost.
What is a complete optimal society? What flaws within laws are the most irritating towards achieving structural success? What commodities are really needed in life?>I don't think "humanism" can work.
Neither do I, it relies upon giving rather than making which is destined to doom. How can someone give to another foreigner without expecting to get anything in return while maintaining his success? It is hilarious how people defend an order of disorder while getting nothing in return, they are being used no better than dogs if they serve the masters of disasters.>Not all ideas or ideologies are right. Not all races are equal.
Every single being is different, nothing is subject to not being exempt from dissimilarities as there is not a thing that is equal, it is a complete lie to state that life is fair to all.
Every thought should not be taught but rather learned, it is a waste of time teaching another man's ideas when your own is more important to you, it should be taken from a viewpoint of how to improve than as never to move the structure of the idea of the ideology, life is always moving and to rely on outdated techniques of thought is to be living in the past rather than the present, time has proven that following another man without a plan soon leads to failure, doing what doesn't work is plainly not going to work.>Why should America pay out the ass to India for example ust to keep some poor people in India above the poverty line when rich Indians are thriving from cheap labour?
It shouldn't give anything to nobody other than the people it is supposed to serve, America serves Israel like a dog puppet nation and should be severed from the ability to give unconditional support to those who do not care about the state of the states, if you kill the point of supply for someone then they will be forced to look somewhere else for food, destroying every bit of money made by the fed will benefit the world, by killing those those who wish to get rid of us we are preserving ourselves but the method of doing it is most important so as not to attack blindly. The walls of the white house aren't indestructible nor is the money they make.>If whites controlled that cheap labour we would make it sustainable and pay it fairly because we're nice like that.
Is the wellbeing of lesser races really in the horoscope of humanity? A person should first be deserving of that support in order to be worth helping. People may be nice but sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind.>It would also stop corrupt companies from outsourcing jobs to cheap overseas labour.
The people who do the labor are necessary to complete manual tasks but profit should not be made from them to someone who doesn't do the work, capitalism is easily exploited and creates monopolies that are left to run rampant on their own accord without correction.>You can only meaningfully help a hobo by giving him a job, the means to pull himself out of poverty.
Poverty should be worked out of rather than helped out of, one should be able to help himself to then receive support from others. A drug dealer helps habit rather than offering fundamental support, a soup kitchen only gives food than the opportunity for jobs.>There will always be more poor people somewhere and there will always be more hungry mouths to feed.
Pitying the poor is akin to being depressed over dogs, it's a food fight that never wins.>I don't think it's possible to feed everyone on the planet and I don't think there's any virtue in trying to feed everyone whether they give and take or just take.
Helping everyone in the world is a fantasy that people believe they can do.>Most foreigners don't deserve foreign aid.
A bullet is cheaper than the amount of chicken a nigger will eat in his life. >How do we benefit from this arrangement?
There are no benefits to government 'benefits', the profit is not for people but for money, the only person who benefits is the money maker.>Africa and India are overcrowded thanks to foreign aid keeping their birth rates high while our own birth rate falls below the replacement rate thanks to the jews.
The Jews work to destabilize the world into disarray, they care about only what profit they can make from people.>"humanism" says you are nice if you help a lot of "humans" no matter what they contribute to your quest but that just creates dependency and unsustainable population numbers and rapefugees hungry for even more gibs.
It is false generosity that is made to look good so that charities can make money out of misleading people, it's all for money.
>feel depressed when working
>exhausted, spend leisure time on mindless timewasting shit
>regret it later
>feel insufficient as a man
How do you break the cycle?
>>3275>How do you break the cycle?
You have to begin anew, one cycle stops and another starts, plan out what you have at your disposal then look at the options as to what you can try, then make it or break it by stepping into fresh waters, in or out of the comfort zone.
The cycle (ride) never ends, you can only change yourself.
Avast you may do things that bring no satisfaction while asking yourself whether there is more to life yet continue doing the same repetitive tasks, there is a world outside and it does exist while you decide if you should stay inside.
I am glad to have known and been alongside the few that I have had happiness with, the cycle of friendship ends and another one begins until there is nothing left to love, then a different type of cycle takes ahold of the previous predominant one. Depending on the way the last story ended the new habits can be greatly affected, due to extreme euphoria or crippling depression, one may start doing things abnormal to the typical character of the individual or doing a task more often from an influx of negative or positive stimuli, thus leading to a type of crutch if unhappy emotions are clouding the head or an extreme obsession to something that offers emotional or mental support, positivity is usually accomplished through being surrounded with what makes one happy, if you can somehow manage to find something you greatly enjoy, nourish it and be happy for being happy that you are enjoying something, revel in the opportunity for positivity for there is no sense in being sad over something you devoutly do like or love.Vril would be the go to guy to ask, wherever he is.
That makes sense, thank you.
I do need a new cycle. A new road to a new me. I thought changing my diet and raising my exercise intensity and cutting fapping and aimless streaming/gooming out of my life would magically make me a new man overnight. Maybe it's going to take time for that to show results, and for the "I miss unhealthy drinks/cooming/gaming" urges to go away.
Keeping up with politics is an addicting rush of anger. Sometimes I refresh webpages because I'm desperate for more. It's like a drug and I should probably cut it out of my life too, or limit my news intake to once a week. I want to save people. But for now I can't save anybody.
I greatly enjoy art and animating. I greatly enjoy good anime, even though it's so hard to find and the only way to find it is to watch episodes of a load of bad animes that only sound like something I'd like at first before they waste their interesting premise and turn out to be shit. I should draw more. I will draw more.Haven't thought about him in a long time. I checked if he's still alive and he's shilling his Hyperdimension Neptunia fanfics on reddit. Despite everything I hope he has fun and I hope things turn out alright for him.
Glad you still like watching those Japanese 2D picture pornos and drawing swastikas, my interest in art and shows is long gone, it has been replaced by more intimate and intense emotions.
My habits and cycles are dwindling further into the abyss day by day, I have given up on improving myself while my infamousness has only grown alongside my perversions and I have found that this pit of depressive deterioration is a hole that has been gnawing at my soul for a long time, it lingers like a noxious gas cloud that has seeped into my surroundings which continues to haunt my actions like a growing hatred that only waxes in loathe.Not exactly what I expected but at least he is still running his cycles, albeit in a dissimilar way.
Please don't give up on improving yourself. How will your life improve if you don't do your part to improve it? Losing weight didn't magically cure my depression overnight but it did help me immensely by letting me think to myself "I succeeded and that is proof that I can succeed. My weight loss goals have been met! I am responsible for my own physical and mental health. Calling myself a short fat faggot won't make me taller or buffer" whenever the dark thoughts start coming back.
Ask yourself why your old hobbies don't feel as great, and if you need to kick things up a notch. Once I went through a "Video games don't feel as fun as they used to and TV is boring" phase but then realized I only felt that way when playing mediocre games and dull TV. I was watching/playing these just because I had them, not because I actively liked them or felt any kind of challenge from them.. I'd grown as a man and I needed art that can mentally stimulate me. I needed opportunities to be creative when being productive and opportunities to be creative when playing games. As a child any respite from the outside world and any way to pass the time was a rare treat, I'd play through any shit game just because it was there and I'd beaten my best games over and over, but once you become an adult and have control over your own free time there's nothing wrong with raising your standards and going for the good shit. Even if the good shit means speedrunning an old classic.
I don't know if this advice will help you, but it helped a friend of mine who needed to hear that last bit before he could admit to himself he was sick to death of mediocre time-wasting cliche-ridden billion-hour JRPGs and wanted to try something for hardcore gamers that want to learn things and improve at a game while playing it. I taught him fighting games and he's gotten pretty good at Marvel VS Capcom 3 and Doom Eternal. It's hard to remember when he played these games like a game journalist, now that he's good at them. His Vergil actually kicks my Vergil's ass now, and it feels good to have a rival to compete with to better ourselves.once he posted about cycles, now he posts about waifu computers and gaming console girls with computing cycles
Look anon, let me be clear with you that I am free to punish myself as I please and success is not important to me whatsoever, I have no hobbies but only habits that bring me satisfaction which is all that I really want, telling myself lies is only half the cake and games aren't enjoyable anymore when all I am doing is playing the same shit over and over as games are only mentally challenging, the challenge for me is getting mares to willingly suck my dick without forcing them, which is more stimulating and harder than any copy pasted mortal combat, to rob a stallion of his brides is my hobby and getting away with it is why I still love it, I don't give a damn about riding horses or any other 'normal' hobby most people have, that same old crap doesn't interest me and it's more fun fooling around with ponies despite what everyone tells me, lifting weights is something anyone, even women can do, diets are just as easy if you care so much about the way you look to others.
None of it really matters and whatever I do is down to what I decide, no matter how many words you throw at me I will not submit and do what someone told me to do, I do not care how many virtual trophies you have in Minecraft or your reputation within a gay group, I have done nothing what anyone told me to do in this thread or on this board and I'm just fine the way I am living.
Have a nice day, you colossal cunt.
Yours truly, horse fucking faggot.
PS:I meant everything, except the colossal cunt part, you really should stop worrying about helping people who don't need it, honestly it's pretty god damn gay and you are bound to be fucked over eventually out of supposed 'good' will, I can just as easily toy with your emotions and so can anyone else, so don't give them, or let them, have the opportunity to spit in your face, don't set yourself up to fail if you don't have a plan to help people, don't get sad over why gamers aren't buying your gospel about evil Jews, help whoever you can and tell those who are willing to trust you about (((them))) but don't expect those internet normal fags to instantly believe you because you were the one who told them. Keep doing what you are right now while you are motivated, you have made good progress and I'm sure you will get what you deserve eventually, I got what I wanted after enough searching and I am happy enough where I currently am, the snow is a nice addition and I like waiting for spring, for reasons.By the way, I'm not a person who needs help desperately and telling me something like "How will your life improve if you don't do your part to improve it?" is not gonna win me over to start playing fighting games, I hate them with a passion, also another thing.Vril is a nerdy, filthy, faggot E-girl chaser that runs cycles for sluts.
You're right, and I'm sorry if what I said overstepped boundaries. I have no right to give life advice or tell anyone else how to live their lives.
And now that you mention it, there's someone who doesn't use this site. I think I'm being manipulated by this person. It's like I only exist for this person when he needs my help with something, and he rarely if ever listens to the advice I give.
How common is it for someone whose life is a mess to try and make himself feel better by giving life advice to others? Over the years I saw a lot of people try to give life advice to others even though they needed to take their own advice but didn't.I probably shouldn't diss the guy behind his back but he did the same to others. It's weird how Vril tried so hard to look like he belonged here with the avatarfag-flag and "Name myself after something that seems Based And Redpilled(TM) to me" bullshit but his actions here were so childish and petty. Reminds me of the bullshit I saw idiots do to other idiots on anime roleplaying forums back when I was a preteen. Everything revolved around power and trying to manipulate perceptions with that guy, and it was tiresome. He repeated lines like a NPC. "Welcome to Corneria! Welcome to Corneria! Muh cycles! Muh cycles!". Why was he even here? It's not like he had something to say about ponies that could only be said here like "I didn't like the diversity six" or "This popular fanfic actually sucks dick and here's why" or anything like that. Did he ever disagree with "The Herd" you'll see on mainstream brony sites and their corporation-worshipping normie-tier coombrained faggot opinions?All he ever had to say about politics was the same few pseudointellectual memes about baselessly guessing at the future through the 'mystical power' of cycles AKA fictional-world thinking. "Oh no, we must be in the bad cycle now! But things will surely get better because cycles!". Give me a fucking break, the real world doesn't work like a book where things can only get so bad before the author decides it's time to fix shit with the plot-armoured protagonist. Besides, wasn't "Vril" the name of some german psychic chick society? Or was it the name of some "subterranean master race", or a UFO some UFO-lovers think Hitler had, or some kind of energy-being? Or did he get the name from some alt-history fantasy novel about some fictional race with a stratified caste system? I forget, but I think the flag came from that last one. Fuck caste systems, they're gay. Anyway, good to see he's found some other fandom to try and ingratiate himself into. Maybe if he learns to draw, someone will pay him to draw PS2-chan with a pair of K-cup breasts or something.
I don't have anything major to report on my own life.
Still eating healthily, still avoiding porn and masturbation. Only drinking water or fruit juice or fruit smoothies or protein shake.
I cooked lasagne today for the first time, it turned out great!
Fridge is pretty empty, need to get more meat soon but cupboard is fine.
One friend told me he got the new Flu Jab. I don't trust vaccines and I'm not sure if he'd understand "Vaccines bad" if I tried explaining it to him. But I want to try anyway. Where should I start?
Also that's me. Why did my ID change?
>>3291>You're right, and I'm sorry if what I said overstepped boundaries.
It's alright, my reaction was more unprecedented than accordingly appropriate.>I have no right to give life advice or tell anyone else how to live their lives.
Maybe if you had children then your teachings would mean more to them than me or anyone else.>And now that you mention it, there's someone who doesn't use this site.
I guess he doesn't like pony pussy.>I think I'm being manipulated by this person.
Does this guy give you the impression that he doesn't like you?>It's like I only exist for this person when he needs my help with something, and he rarely if ever listens to the advice I give.
You know there is more in life to see and experience, you don't have to be bound to what people tell you or want you to do, leave him if you truly feel there is no friendship, if he is no fun then what are you getting out of this deal other than being his slave? If he doesn't appreciate you or spend time talking with you then is he really just using you or he is a false friend? What good has he done for you as opposed to the bad?>How common is it for someone whose life is a mess to try and make himself feel better by giving life advice to others?
Probably uncommon I suppose, advising someone is hard and if done incorrectly can end in mistrust or misinterpretation of the help.>Over the years I saw a lot of people try to give life advice to others even though they needed to take their own advice but didn't.
The helpless are not able to control their impulses, they cannot be able to have worthwhile wisdom if they have a negative outlook on themselves, it's better to leave people to their own devices than intrude.>SpoilerHe has always been a Reddit fag gamer girl console cunt licker and uses books as a shield for his white knighting, he is a nondeified book worshiper that lives in science, all he ever wrote about was numbers and frankly even I was tired of it.The word Vril is symbolized with a German idea of power or energy that exists in everything which can be manipulated in some way to change route to the favored desire, there's a bunch more shit behind it but I suggest you lurk moar and find out for yourself.>I don't have anything major to report on my own life.
Some interesting things have been happening around me recently but it is partially my own doings, sometimes slowness can stagnate into boredom so I try avoiding the situation entirely so as to avoid feeling lonely, I have begun to hate playing games by myself as it has started to feel lonely.>Still eating healthily, still avoiding porn and masturbation.
Well you're doing better than me at the moment but that's pretty easy to do anyways.>Only drinking water or fruit juice or fruit smoothies or protein shake.
Oats are good for you and lower cholesterol, porridge is nice with some form of sweetener.>I cooked lasagne today for the first time, it turned out great!
Well done, I recommend homemade shepherds pie if you liked the lasagna, it has vegetables mixed with mince meat and herbs with a layer of mashed potatoes above with cheese on top, goes good with gravy.>Fridge is pretty empty, need to get more meat soon but cupboard is fine.
Pork loin and sirloin steak are nice cuts of meat.>One friend told me he got the new Flu Jab.
He's fucked.>I don't trust vaccines and I'm not sure if he'd understand "Vaccines bad" if I tried explaining it to him.
Someone who has already given their bodies to the system must trust them, if you have enough trust in each other as he does the government then he might believe you but you would have to be closer friends to be able to convince him, although I don't him personally so only you would know.>But I want to try anyway.
It's your funeral.>Where should I start?
Think about him in an analyzing manner, wonder about if he is oblivious to the world around him, what he does on a daily basis, his routines and passions, come to a conclusion that meets the situation you are in.>>3292
>>3291>everybody:>(you):>Man fuck that Vril guy amirite?
Literally who cares? Besides, you of all people have no grounds to be bitching about other posters, particularly ones who havent been identifiably seen in over a year
Makes sense, sorry about that. I'll stop.>>3294>loneliness
I've been there. Playing games with others helps make it go away, but only games where there's communication and a meaningful connection between the players. Team games like League are terrible for this, but have you ever tried Ratz Instagib 2.0?
Next time I go shopping, I'll buy what I need for shepherd's pie.
>>3296>I've been there.
We all have at some point.>Playing games with others helps make it go away, but only games where there's communication and a meaningful connection between the players.
Don't get me wrong I still like games, it's just that there are more interesting or better things to spend time on, team games only often work well with friends yet fall apart without precise communication, well organized groups can steamroll any game they want but must have some knowledge of the game beforehand, a group of speed runners will be faster than just 1 guy trying to get lucky with RNG.>Team games like League are terrible for this, but have you ever tried Ratz Instagib 2.0?
Heard about it a while ago but wasn't interested enough to look into it.>Next time I go shopping, I'll buy what I need for shepherd's pie.
Good luck with it, personally I prefer it to lasagna.
Shepherds Pie is amazing!
And surprisingly simple to cook. I wish my fucktarded boomer parents knew how to cook and cared enough to try. Maybe I'd be healthier now if I got to eat something besides noodles and microwaved random crap growing up. I'm still healthy now though. I don't even miss sugary shite any more.
I told some friends I cherished them and one guy asked if I was alright. I think I'm making good progress towards being fine, and I can't wait to see how it feels.
Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent. Some were just annoying cunts and some were really dumb, selfish, oblivious, and immature. Does anyone alive have fond memories of their parents? Someone probably does, somewhere. But I don't think I know anyone who does.
Saw that BlackPilled video on Die Hard and why it's jew propaganda. How did so many people watch that film without noticing how shit the mom was? Leaving your kids alone on Christmas with an illegal alien so you can try to impress your crackhead peers at a party and get so drunk the baby feels it and work your ass off to make a Japanese businessman rich... Insane. But the film pretends it's normal.
And for some kid out there, that probably is normal.
This planet's so fucked up.
I always hated tortured similes that rely on media references. Say "It was long like a summer's day", not "It was long like the distance between Tattooine and Daygoba" for fuck's sake. Not everything needs to be a fucking reference. But sometimes I think of those characters who come from a destroyed future and are willing to die to prevent that future, even if changing the future for the better means they fade away like an old memory. I know there are people out there who had it worse than me. I met some of them. I'm glad my life so far wasn't worse than it was, and I'm glad I woke up to justice in time. Real justice, not those jew lies. I think improving myself and my life makes me feel happy. I'm not sure, but I think this is what happiness feels like.
>>3300>Shepherds Pie is amazing!
Nice to get some feedback on a dish I recommended, really I didn't half expect you to do it, thanks for going ahead and trying it though.>And surprisingly simple to cook.
Sometimes simplicity is more satisfying rather than going all out, you don't have to break a leg to please yourself.
There are lots of foods to indulge in, the world is your oyster to try whatever suits your palate pleasantly.>I wish my fucktarded boomer parents knew how to cook and cared enough to try.
So many kids have become accustomed to the laziness of sloth style fake food, some families rarely know the treat of meals made with love and it's disheartening, like Léon Degrelle said, the family structure is being torn apart.>Maybe I'd be healthier now if I got to eat something besides noodles and microwaved random crap growing up.
I remember trying those microwaved lasagnas and hating it, the taste is like plastic with a mix of horsemeat.>I'm still healthy now though.
That's alright, you can still fix yourself through appropriate care and appreciation of your success.>I don't even miss sugary shite any more.
Empty sugars are really pointless other than to aid in making you obese.>I told some friends I cherished them and one guy asked if I was alright.
People are prone to be sympathetic to another's discomfort, they will feel sorry for the soul that had it's childhood corrupted.>I think I'm making good progress towards being fine, and I can't wait to see how it feels.
Good luck with that, there is one thing I will warn you against and that is don't exceed your mental or physical limits, you are bound to be disappointed if you put too much trust in the future.>Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent.
There are people who meet someone who have enough similarities in conjunction with one another that leads to attraction which may prove to work out or not, the dating culture should cease to exist due to it's inadequacy at creating children, the way natural attractivity works does not base from that of complete and utter opposites, the incompatibility of men or women who have nothing in accordance within interests has proven to be ineffective at providing long term relationships. I would get better on with a crazy horse girl that matched my insanity than some typical bimbo bitch.>Some were just annoying cunts and some were really dumb, selfish, oblivious, and immature.
There are certain people who were born to be dicks and assholes. >Does anyone alive have fond memories of their parents? Someone probably does, somewhere. But I don't think I know anyone who does.
Yes there are good times, as well as bad, I've had good and bad times with my parents.>Shit movies made by Hollywood Jews.
They are poison to the brain and should be taken as jokes, There are good and bad movies which Jews almost always have made to be objectively terrible at what flicks should strive for, the ordinary shows are garbage and are not that of the quality from the past, the modernity of television favors quantity over quality while having the ability of 'copyrighting' whatever they desire.>And for some kid out there, that probably is normal.
Kids are innocent to the mercy of those older than them, they have no choice to do what they really want to.>This planet's so fucked up.
Yes, it is. We are truly living in an era of chaos.>Not everything needs to be a fucking reference.
They should keep more to themselves and encourage creativity more within the multitude of arts.>But sometimes I think of those characters who come from a destroyed future and are willing to die to prevent that future, even if changing the future for the better means they fade away like an old memory.
Men have become weak, the modern man does not bask in glory beyond that he achieves within a game nor do they engage in any worthwhile challenges to their very being, a man should take risks to do what they desire than wasting away in these modern caves. The boys are being castrated and feminized to be faggots by outside influences beyond their understanding, these normal lives are all meaningless and boring when there are no sacrifices to be made. No one really wants to have something to die for anymore and these mundane lives do not make a man mighty.>I'm glad my life so far wasn't worse than it was, and I'm glad I woke up to justice in time. Real justice, not those jew lies.
You definitely made the right choice, at least you have some degree of wisdom.>I think improving myself and my life makes me feel happy. I'm not sure, but I think this is what happiness feels like.
It's always a pleasure to learn and experience new things every once in while, as long as it's worth doing.
>>3300>Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent.
Well stories about good parents is fewer, and the normal and good times seem to be buried. It's personal and to some degree feels like bragging.Well my grandparents those who were alive had their moments with their children, my parents ect., that qualified for that sometimes. As the grandchild it was different as the good kid, they were nice and caring if different motives.
Frankly my parents are awesome considering everything. Sure there are moments when I disagree or looking back would have adjusted things, but as people they are decent. Wouldn't trade them for anything. They aren't perfect but I love them all the same, and the feeling is mutual.
It's a miracle considering some of the wacky shit that happened with them and around them and their siblings. It makes a person thankful for what they have, and the hardships others went through.
I love you guys. I really do. Those jew bastards are warring with us constantly and you'd think we'd all talk like perpetually-scowling angry people since that's how the TV usually depicts war vets when it isn't playing the shell-shocked ones for sympathy/tragedy. But here we are, and here there is real positivity. Here there is good advice from wise masculine men. This genuine culture focused on self-improvement is good for the soul. It warms my heart to know our souls are not dead.
Watched a painfully generic action movie online with friends today but I forgot its name. The film was full of gay jew shit and I took a piss break halfway through, but I'm proud of myself for hiding my power level yet swiftly and unobtrusively using one-liners and "Is she seriously...?" questions to help others notice and laugh at the most obvious and simplest-to-understand parts of propaganda.
One girl whined "They fridged her!" when a woman died in the film.
I asked her "Was it fridging when the hero's parents died in every kid's movie ever? Was John Wick's dog fridged?"
That shut her up but I don't know if it made her think or not. If a movie wasn't on she'd probably bitch loudly for a while without really saying anything.
They insist "Fridge-ing" is when a female character is killed off for the plot or for a male character's motivation. They insist depicting the killing/harming of women is responsible for real women being harmed, because they need something to blame for what's caused by the way they import rapefugees who love to rape poor women and steal/traffic daughters and randomly attack whites who are sometimes women. They also insist Frigde-ing is only fine when feminist writers do it, because it's just a power-grab. They want to spread lies and censor artists and feel like they have the power to "Sanitize fiction" and mold it to their shitty mary-sue-loving power-tripping standards. "Oy vey, a real stronk womyn can never struggle or die, don't you know? Oy vey, won't someone please forget about the men starving on the streets outside our windows and think of the fictional women?"
Feminists love pointing at fiction made by feminist jews as evidence that the world's anti woman. Because if films show Jason Vorehes and Nightmare Clawhands (bad guys) killing men and women and fans/critics cry for the women while the men they kill rarely if ever get mentioned by fans or critics, then surely it means society's normalized violence against women riiight?
It's just normal for a film to kill characters off, especially once they've outlived their usefulness. It's normal for characters to die in service of the plot or another character's motivation. It was good writing when The Empire killed Luke Skywalker's parents and burned his farm down. Made him extra-motivated and removed his ability to back out of saving the galaxy.
Sometimes a baddie will kidnap/kill an adult male character's girlfriend/wife to piss him off but that's because doing the same to the male character's ageing parents or pet puppy or box of old collector's item dolls just wouldn't have the same impact. Films have killed men to shock/motivate women, killed kids to shock/motivate parents, and killed parents to shock/motivate children. Was it fridge-ing when the Shark from Jaws ate all those people or Darth Vader blew up a planet to shock the audience and motivate the heroes to stop the baddies? When nameless masses fled from disasters or perished in them, was that "fridge-ing"?
If you only watch films with gay characters and only the horror movies where everyone but one character dies so therefore the gays probably die you're obviously a faggot desperate to have something to complain about.
And don't get me started on how many animes give the hero dead or missing parents. Or how many times, in anything ever, the master teacher guy dies!
Someone with more free time than me could probably go through a bunch of movies and animes and compare the number of dead parents and dead husbands and dead teachers and dead kids and dead pets to dead wives/girlfriends. But it wouldn't change the mind of a feminist. At bet you can get them to shut up for a while, but they'll always be weaponized karens until society turns against this behaviour and stops elevating women above men so hard that some men actually end up wanting to be stepped on and treated like shit by women.
I thought about making a thread where we post movie names and then discuss if they're jewish pozzed propaganda or not and why. But for everyone to discuss those jew films we would need to see them. Watching all those propaganda films might fuck someone's head up. Though taking the piss out of them could be fun.
A normie friend said he hates the new Star Trek and misses the old Star Treks, which he watched as a kid. So I thought about Star Trek, I heard it turned many into "Futurist" libtards convinced the future will let them be as cool as Kirk and Picard combined times four in a universe of flying cars and friendly aliens and Replicators that give you everything for free and no money or jobs. Going through that show episode by episode together and talking about why this episode was dumb wrong gay jewish propaganda, or written so bad it was accidentally anti-black instead of pro-black, or childish commie bullshit could be fun and interesting.
>I love you guys.
No homo, right?
>I really do.
Whatever, I love you too, you massive faggot.
I get what you're on about, I agree with why you don't like the Jews and their movies or the gullible women who love those shit shows made by kikes, I agree with you on all that bullshit too. Why do I agree with you? Because you give a reason with an answer to why it's wrong.
I want to let you know that you are welcome to write about whatever you want to, you are not doing anything wrong by complaining about walking vaginas saying some stupid shit, I don't really have much to write about movies and anime, nor do I really give a shit about star wars or star trek, I like being here with you, I'm not too interested about what you are into but that is my preference, you are free to write what pleases you and I won't complain too much, unless you write something dumb or I get flustered over ponies, we don't have much to complain about and I'm glad you like it here with me, you don't really know me but I think we have a lot in common, except you're a bigger faggot.
I'm not a fan of thriving from conflict or being argumentative, I'm here to have fun and be a dickhead sometimes, we can be friends while we're here together, so long as we both respect one another I think we'll get along fine. there isn't a whole lot that I have against you so it's cool but time will tell what will happen.
Is it possible to bruise your elbows by exercising too hard? I think I did that and can't extend my arms fully.
>>3307>Is it possible to bruise your elbows by exercising too hard?
Yes, when you are training hard with heavy weights there can be a point where your body will require rest, if your arms are still hurting then you should just let them heal for a while.>I think I did that and can't extend my arms fully.
There is a certain amount of strain for all bones and if you have been working hard on those joints then maybe you could have hurt them.
Arms are recovering nicely.
About a week or two ago I really fucked one of my feet up.
Came down too hard on it when running, bruising the heel. Also got infected skin and the muscles/nerves in my foot practically fucking dissolved from the swelling. Couldn't wiggle or separate my toes or pull them closer together or bend my foot towards my legs. Was stuck in bed for many days. I remember turning up 5 hour music mixes and trying to drift away from the pain. Painkillers didn't take it all away. I thought I would never walk again. Every so often I would feel this weird twitching sensation along a line inside my foot as though I was a puppet and that puppet-string necessary for foot movement was reconnecting itself.
But I got better. I did physical therapy myself, stretching and exercising my foot. Learned to walk with crutches and one foot fast. Walked on both feet with crutches, and eventually stopped needing crutches.
Now the foot only hurts when I walk on it for the first time every day or after a long rest, but the pain goes away after about a minute of walking. Will that eventually go away?
>Arms are recovering nicely.
Alright then, hope you take it easy while you recover.
>About a week or two ago I really fucked one of my feet up.
At least you didn't lose it or break it.
>Came down too hard on it when running, bruising the heel.
Bruises heal, eventually, it's the pain that you can't run away from.
>Also got infected skin and the muscles/nerves in my foot practically fucking dissolved from the swelling.
At first when you get an injury it hurts like a bitch but over time it gets better.
>Couldn't wiggle or separate my toes or pull them closer together or bend my foot towards my legs.
Once you can do circles with your foot without it hurting then it will be fine but for the moment keep yourself out of danger while you let your wounds heal accordingly to your body's recovering rate, you will know when you are alright to start beginning new projects at the correct timing.
>Was stuck in bed for many days.
It gets boring sometimes when stuck in between 4 walls.
>I remember turning up 5 hour music mixes and trying to drift away from the pain.
Distractions can help you forget about the pain but it's easier to just accept and work around it, don't let it bother you too much given it's only temporary.
>Painkillers didn't take it all away.
Strong pain reducing drugs can't get rid of the struggles you have to face later or in the moment, there are some things that cannot be avoided and you must look back on this experience while taking some form of wisdom away from it, the future promises to brighter if you can see the light at the end of road while ignoring the darkness surrounding you, you fucked your foot up and walked away from it with a mark to remind you of your errors.
>I thought I would never walk again.
You were overreacting a bit too much but your worries shall soon come to an end, you have endurance to withstand it for now and pain is a part of life as torture is temporary and all the 9 circles of hell you have to endure are there for you to be tested to your limits.
>Every so often I would feel this weird twitching sensation along a line inside my foot as though I was a puppet and that puppet-string necessary for foot movement was reconnecting itself.
Well that must be your nerves or the other bones in the heel, the biology and anatomy of our bodies is weirdly complex.
>But I got better.
The rain will clear soon and sun will shine down on you, all you have to do is be patient.
>I did physical therapy myself, stretching and exercising my foot. Learned to walk with crutches and one foot fast. Walked on both feet with crutches, and eventually stopped needing crutches.
This must be new to you to have to be bed bound in chains, it broke down your views and you must learn to get past this situation for yourself.
>Now the foot only hurts when I walk on it for the first time every day or after a long rest, but the pain goes away after about a minute of walking. Will that eventually go away?
Yes, it will, ride the pain train till you can't no longer, withstand the storm over your head and you will see freedom some point soon, everyone is subject to some form of injury that slows them down until they get back to their feet, get back up from where you have fallen and face your fears with your head high till death do you part, stand up and be strong in the face of fate.
A few days ago, some woman artist normie said she wanted to collab with me on a game where I do all the work and all she does is draw things plus I have to use her characters exactly how she wants.
I expected her to flake out at the earliest opportunity. So I said "Okay, let's make a fighting game. Here's a list of what you'll need to draw. I'll program everything, you just draw the following animations..." and she went quiet after a list of the basic stand/walk/crouching/crouched/blocking/crouched blocking/jumping animations. For one out of eight characters. I didn't even mention attack animations because I didn't think we'd get far enough into this project for anyone to even consider that. Whenever I tried reaching her she "left me on read" as the kids say/do.
And right now, after multiple days of childish silence, I got a message where she says "I don't want to work together on this project cos I don't want to make a game"
Women, am I right? Can't rely on them for anything, not even if this was her idea from the start.
I'm glad I didn't actually put in any work while waiting for her to fulfill a promise for once. She's flaked out of artist collabs before. I expected her to be a total girl about this and that's what she was. That's all she was. I'm not upset about this and I don't want to sound like I'm upset and denying it. I expected this completely. I didn't expect her to blow my expectations out of the water but I feel like I wish I did. We're only friends because we like the same kinds of shows. I wish I knew what it's like to think the world of someone. I wish she had passion and drive and creativity. I wish she actually tried at life instead of lazily drifting through it and expecting the best (im)possible result every time. There are a lot of people I respect but she isn't one of them. I wish I knew what magic words and correct dialogue option I could say that would get her to start getting her shit together.
>>3315>A few days ago, some woman artist normie said she wanted to collab with me on a game where I do all the work and all she does is draw things plus I have to use her characters exactly how she wants.
Not that surprising, you present yourself as being knowledgeable of coding so obviously you are going to attract people trying to take advantage of you.>Lol women.
Haha, yes, haha, ho ho, he he ha, he ha ho, very funny.>I expected her to flake out at the earliest opportunity. So I said "Okay, let's make a fighting game. Here's a list of what you'll need to draw. I'll program everything, you just draw the following animations..." and she went quiet after a list of the basic stand/walk/crouching/crouched/blocking/crouched blocking/jumping animations. For one out of eight characters. I didn't even mention attack animations because I didn't think we'd get far enough into this project for anyone to even consider that. Whenever I tried reaching her she "left me on read" as the kids say/do.
It's evident that she makes promises she can't keep, you gave her the chance to work together with you and she failed to go through with the plan, it's probable that she may be acting out of emotion towards you, rather than even attempting to do it she backs out when called to do work.>And right now, after multiple days of childish silence, I got a message where she says "I don't want to work together on this project cos I don't want to make a game"
It is a half faced lie, she is prioritizing desires above teamwork and that will be her doom if she cannot learn to work around problems, she might specifically not want to be your partner also as a way of avoiding you, she has emotional fantasies of being an artist yet cannot gather the courage to do something beyond her capability.>Women, am I right? Can't rely on them for anything, not even if this was her idea from the start.
It is a tendency of theirs to be opposed to success when faced with big scary decisions that surpass their expectations, modern women are little girls trapped in a mad world.>I'm glad I didn't actually put in any work while waiting for her to fulfill a promise for once. She's flaked out of artist collabs before. I expected her to be a total girl about this and that's what she was. That's all she was. I'm not upset about this and I don't want to sound like I'm upset and denying it.
You have been let down for the millionth time by those you know you shouldn't trust, all your actions and behaviors were planned from the moment you met this woman, it was her actions that told you everything that needed knowing.>I expected this completely.
Naturally, we both would have done the same.>I didn't expect her to blow my expectations out of the water but I feel like I wish I did. We're only friends because we like the same kinds of shows.
Putting trust into someone (especially the opposite sex) is betting against the devil.>I wish I knew what it's like to think the world of someone. I wish she had passion and drive and creativity. I wish she actually tried at life instead of lazily drifting through it and expecting the best (im)possible result every time.
Your hopes of others exist within the walls of your imagination, hate to break it to you, but these wishes are wasted, the creations of the mind are nothing without actions to fulfill dreams.>There are a lot of people I respect but she isn't one of them.
That is agreeable.>I wish I knew what magic words and correct dialogue option I could say that would get her to start getting her shit together.
Find out what fuels her fears, she shies and cowers from the tasks, burdens and expectations that she has been faced with in the past, she is afraid of losing so her preferred choice is to never to put herself in that situation where there is a daunt of disaster of being the loser, her habit is to run from danger rather than owing up to it, the threat of her social integrity is in danger when threatened by a challenge that scares her ability to feel good in ignorance of her skill.
You're unnervingly right about this woman.
She has no father figure and a petty overemotional boomer mother who is terrible at communicating and worse at treating others like people to talk to and reason with instead of whining at them about unrelated shit when dissatisfied with them and hoping they guess what's making her butthurt.
She was going to art college to learn animation but she failed a end of year test twice and had to redo the year twice in a row. but her mom somehow convinced her to take a year off from college and learning animation to spend doing housework and getting a job. This... this year. In this economy. In the middle of the World Government's Cockdown and World War Three against whites. She's white but ashamed to be white thanks to her stupid boomer mother and feminist brainwashers. Shitty boomers probably go to super hell when they die. Dante's Inferno left that circle out because it was too shocking for audiences at the time.
This girl draws like Steven Universe fucked Isabelle the dog and the baby has rounded rectangles disease. She says she's "studying cuteness like Sanrio" but if she isn't tracing the calarts toonboom style or FIM poners she can't draw. Or animate. Jesus what has this girl been doing for years at college besides whining to me via text about how she wishes she had a social life and a billion dicks in her ass. Is it weird to be glad that she's too scared to go to parties because it means there's no chance of bad shit happening there?
Anyway this lazy scared girl, let's call her Joan. She's being groomed by feminists metaphorically speaking, they are brainwashing her and every time I show her evidence that feminists are wrong or evil she clams up and stops thinking. Her mom is easily able to guilt her into doing whatever she wants but she feels no shame at anything unless an adult tells her to. Also she is terrified of upsetting the perpetually upset twitter tards and refuses to believe "you should not give a fuck about them" is good advice. They also influenced her art by making her afraid of big tiddy and drawing hot babes. If she has to draw boobs she makes them pointy and curved the wrong way.
She keeps trying to mentally regress into a toddler state 24/7 and as someone who is sexually into age play and hypnotism this disgusts me because she's doing it wrong. That was a joke, hypnotism is gay and age play disgusts me unless wanting to impregnate anime milfs counts. That's the only acceptable form of it. Anyway she's weird. but maybe if we met in person she could temporarily age regress on purpose and then I could pat her head and call her the bravest little princess or whatever the fuck dads are supposed to do to make sure their kids turn out right? Is that what girls like her are into? Would that help her? Is this something I can do over the phone?
If she was a character in a visual novel there would be a sidequest where you fix all her problems by telling her fucking obvious advice until she decides to listen to it. And maybe getting her away from her mom and into a healthier environment. My imaginary girlfriend thinks this woman is an idiot and time I spend talking to Joan instead of exercising or meditating or eating healthily or working is a waste of time. But I wish I knew how to talk Joan out of being like this and into being completely mentally healthy just like me. That is also a joke because I don't think I can call myself healthy yet. I am still recovering from a lifetime of bad influences and still trying to grow into a proper intelligent, wise, heroic man.
It doesn't feel right for me to talk about someone behind their back like this. But if I want good advice that can help me solve this person's problems I need to be honest. I don't hate this person, I just can't think of anything positive to say about her even though I want to say nice things about her to balance things out.
Joan's mom is an annoying cunt but she doesn't seem evil like my mom was. My mom enjoyed hurting others. But this boomer tard just seems like she's used to having everything go her way without putting in much effort. She certainly never gave Joan life advice for better or worse.
I know that I don't need to solve this person's problems, and I shouldn't hurt myself trying since I don't owe her anything. But I still want to try and fix her.
I'd say your first move should be to be ho est with yourself about why you give a damn. By all indications you seem to have all incentive to tell her to kick rocks. And yet you do not.>But I still want to try and fix herWhy?
Are you certified to administer as a counselor, therapist, or psychologist? Are things going so well for you - all your ducks in a row, all your goals and projects that warrant your actual diligence are complete or overwhelmingly completed - that you have an abundance of time to commit to this wamen?
Be honest. No rationalizations or excuses allowed. Your behavior toward this rapidly and increasingly worthless wamen is a symptom of something else. Put off facing it at your peril.
I will be honest with you even if this sounds weird.
I like the idea of helping others. I think it would be nice for me if she got her shit together and became someone I can talk to intellectually without her retreating into her metaphorical pillow fort whenever things start scaring her. Some of my friends are getting their shit together because I inspired them and gave them entry-level redpills. It feels nice to talk to them about getting your shit together and how shit we used to be.
I know I shouldn't sacrifice my own wellbeing for hers so I won't. I am not a qualified quackdoctor paid to do that. If I try and fix her and she doesn't listen I won't beat myself up over it or hate her, I'll just stop trying to help her and stop feeling bad for her. I'll be able to tell myself I did the right thing even if it doesn't work out. I don't simp for her and I don't want sex with her. So I don't have some stupid fantasy where I solve all her problems and then get to bone her or marry her and have ten kids. She is unappealing. I can name three people I know IRL I'd rather be with. I'm not driven by lust or desperation. I'm driven by the thought that a good person should try to help others if he can do so without compromising his ability to help more people. If she can't be helped by me or anyone then that knowledge will give me closure. But right now I can't stop myself from thinking that maybe I could help her if I just knew what to say.
Did this sound too harsh/mean/weird?
Whenever I wrote down something that sounded nice like "I want to help her because I feel bad for her and think it would be nice to see her happy for once" I deleted it and replaced it with something that sounded less sappy.
>>3319>You're unnervingly right about this woman.
These types of women are predictable and they share cloned characteristics, they are programmed to think a certain way. Wouldn't it be funny if those were lucky guesses I made like some kind of magician?>Backstory
She's a bad artist that has been lead down a red road by left-tits who are manipulating her, nothing eye catching.>Anyway she's weird.
Sounds funny coming from you.>but maybe if we met in person she could temporarily age regress on purpose and then I could pat her head and call her the bravest little princess or whatever the fuck dads are supposed to do to make sure their kids turn out right?
Genuinely try to give her ideas for drawing and help her draw while praising her work, even if it looks like a 5 year old drew it, keep advising her on paying closer detail to being slower with her lines and circles, if you try mentoring her art style too quickly or continuously criticizing her 'art' it may remind her of her father, just try being genuine and friendly while going with the flow of the moment, if she's alright with being close to you then making a move to persuading her actions will be easier, getting a lost woman to listen to your ideas might work but it has to be slowly as you will have to learn her and how to step carefully into her comfort zone, if you can give enough support she has potential to listen to what you have to tell her, if you can wedge your way into being that fallback pillow for her to come crying to, then you have a chance, when you have yourself the pillar that she holds onto then you will be able to do what you want, she is lacking in embracement by her father as he has never been there for her to coming crying to, be the giver of affection that soothes her sobbing then she will be utterly at your mercy, give her what she craves to her by simply being there for her to cry on or for her to open up to, either way she will eventually begin to see you as a role model while the intimacy deepens, keep this up while being her teddy bear to cry onto, she is mostly innocent in heart as her immature thoughts are that of a confused girl without any parental guidance, she is afraid of what she doesn't know and if you can explain to her in a comforting manner that you want to help her then she may accept your advances towards you being there to support her, these daddy deprived women are looking for a father figure who is there for them to listen to them talk when they are frightened with moral decisions, don't come on too strong and she will decide to choose you, when you are in the right circumstance and if you play your cards right.>How do red pill feminist?
Sounds like a tough challenge, the spell is broken if you can get close enough to her that she'll trust you more than her twitter followers, good luck with that, if your primary goal is to 'help' make Joe Anne bend to your command then you need to make yourself a trustworthy friend or her boyfriend, she might trust you that bit better if there is a closer bond between you both, which means your influence over her thoughts will be stronger, she is likely to be a man hater and if so will be harder to get her to do what you want since she has told herself to not listen to advice from the opposite sex, get to be around her a bit more often to learn her patterns and behaviors, let's say you have known her for about a year or perhaps less, over time that trust will slowly build up until she is more accepting to your wants (assuming she doesn't try to get away from you) then she will begin to listen to you if you give her some affection rather than forcing yourself onto her, spend time with her and get to be her friend then maybe she will believe you are trying to help, situations will come together in a way where you are the one for her, don't push yourself too much in her face or she might get scared that you are a danger to her wellbeing and interests.>>3320>>3324>>3326>>3327
You are nervous about what she may think about your actions and thought process, this is in anticipation of the desired outcome and is fairly ordinary, you are lying to yourself if you claim to be completely uninterested in her, you wouldn't have brought this woman here if she wasn't on your mind, there is something about her that intrigues you, am I wrong to suggest that she reminds you of your own upbringing?
You are under the assumption that she can be dissuaded because she is sitting in a similar situation like you have previously been, look at what are her influences and deduct whether she is savable from them, remember that this is is a gradual process of learning how to befriend and comfort this woman so she falls into your arms without forcing it, you must be willing to be dedicated to her for you to have any impact on her thoughts or feelings, if you are in the back of her head then you are not going to be a grand subject of question to her, let alone be of any importance, don't worry too much and you will be fine with her.
This sounds like good advice, but up until now I was always told men who try to become the "shoulder women cry on" just end up stuck in that role forever as "beta male cuck orbiters" who get "friendzoned". Supposedly she sees you as the boring safe backup option while she runs around trying all the dangerous criminal crackhead/buff chad dick expecting sex with her to turn them into her ideal husbands. Also supposedly she starts seeing you as an object who'll always be there no matter how she treats you, because she assumes you enjoy her interactions as much as she does and you enjoy wiping her tears as much as she enjoys having them wiped away.
Are you sure I won't end up like that? I'm open to the idea that I was lied to about women because this technique's actually super effective. But so many losers get cucked by being too nice and supportive and unconditionally loving towards women that view dedicated and loving men as a boring safe option to settle for after turning fourty if he hasn't found a better option. How do i avoid that fate?
Joan already comes to me when she needs a shoulder to cry on or some advice. Is this good?
When it comes to our backgrounds, she was neglected by a lazy whore mother who didn't care how her habits and behaviours affected her daughter, but I was actively abused by two lying narcissistic parents who enjoyed hurting me and tormenting me and spreading lies about me. Child protective services aided and abetting them, this obese whore showed up to my parents house whenever kid-me trusted someone enough to talk to them about my home life and answer questions like "Why do your eyes look so tired?" and "Where did those bruises come from?" honestly. And because I'm disabled I wasn't allowed to move out on my own, and my parents stole my money so I couldn't just sneak out one night with a pocket full of cash and a dream. I couldn't get away until I became the problem of adult protective services, who finally helped me get away from my parents.
Joan doesn't take important things seriously or put effort into achieving any goals she sets for herself or has set for her. And she wastes too much time worrying about nonsensical bullshit like "I'm worried the 10ish year age gap between the gay simpsons characters I'm writing fanfiction lemons about is too big! And I'm worried there are toxic power dynamics going on!". Both are adults, who gives a fuck? It's gay bullshit about the fucking simpsons, who gives a fuck?! If you write faggots as abusive cunts, women get off on it even more! Probably. Women loved Fifty Shades of Grey for being degenerate bullshit just like gayness. So if you combined gay with fifty sharts of gay you'd get the secret to the money of dumb women everywhere.
Also it annoys me that she blindly listens to her whiny mom, who just says random bullshit whenever she's upset even if it makes Joan cry for hours. She wastes hours every day watching trashy normie tv shows that don't help her art or relate to art, such as The Jeremy Kyle Show. When she's not watching shit like that she's watching the same 3 Cartoon Network cartoons from her childhood over and over. It's very rare that she makes art, and I don't know when she practices art or if she ever does. She did go through a "I want to bone Jack Skellington and Sans Undertale" phase but that ended and now she's in a "I fetishize gay men and want to see them fuck and I love how much easy positive feedback I get for posting this on twitter" phase.
How can I introduce her to new things? I have a lot of animes I want to show her but she's been brainwashed into thinking all anime is pedo shit that's morally wrong for having big tiddies and fanservice.
This ignorant slut couldn't sit through episode one of cowboy bebop. She said Tea Gardener from Yugioh dresses like a slut when I showed her yugioh! Pic related, it's Tea from Yugioh.
Joan also said she hated books when I tried introducing her to some good ones. At least she never read Harry Potter, right?
If she's going to write stories that are actually good for once she needs a wider "Pallete" of ideas in her head to draw from when designing original stories/animations/characters/cartoon ideas that are actually original. Everything she writes still feels like a fanfic for something else with most of the names changed because she still hasn't figured out how to put original spins on ideas she's seen before.
There's so much obvious shit she just doesn't get. And when I try to help her she just ignores any piece of advice she doesn't like hearing.
Also she's stuck in the "Feel depressed and empty, try to fill the void with distractions, fail, repeat" cycle. How do I get her out of that?
>>3326>I like the idea of helping others.
Of course you do. Everyone does. But, rattle this around wit ur tea at 4:00.
Are you willing to take responsibility for being both incapable to provide the 'help' you envision AND the repercussions? Seriously.
I'll let Jordan Peterson say it, cuz it clearly not listening.
"Set your house in perfect order before you criticize the world"
Is your house even in order, let one perfect order? Cuz until then, what business do you have? Who elected you to so graciously sprinkle your opinions upon people? The fucking nerve of this bong!.
You could have avoided this by being honest. I told you no rationalizations, but u didnt lisyen.
You want to save ppl cuz then you're absolved of saving yourself. Fix yourself.
But my house seems to be in order now. I have a healthy daily schedule full of good habits and I work on my projects at a sustainable rate, I sleep regularly, I exercise and eat healthily, I don't feel like an empty shell any more, I found God and the light and love of God and Jesus Christ, I have no contact with my abusive parents, and I don't blame myself for how they treated me. I nutted in my sleep last night but my nofap streak is still strong. I even got myself heavier weights and a standing punchbag for more health and more varied exercise. Punching the fuck out of it feels good. I cook my own high quality meals. I have a circle of friends I unironically care about and it feels good to be a good influence on them. But at the same time I avoid being too preachy/political with them. I save that talk for when it's needed instead of saying that stuff constantly like some sitcom character gimmick. Sure I could be buffer and richer and I still don't have a car but as far as things go I think I'm doing pretty well.
>>3329>There's so much obvious shit she just doesn't get. And when I try to help her she just ignores any piece of advice she doesn't like hearing.
She sounds perfect for you then
Not at all, I'm looking forward to you getting a taste of your own medicine. Nice quads tho
Anon, without going into too much detail, there are places you can work through this kind of stuff alongside or without therapy. I haven't read most of this thread but the little I've glanced at makes me think you might be able to benefit from this. It'll be there if and when you need it, and this isn't your typical AA-style meeting, where the only objective is appears to be not to drink; this program is specifically to help work through issues like these and have them stop affecting people's lives well into adulthood. Nor is ACA reserved for children of alcoholics. It's for anyone that comes from a broken home.https://adultchildren.org/literature/laundry-list/
I won't be able to help you work through any of the particular issues you've mentioned thus far but I'd be happy to answer any questions you might have about the program itself.
Why do you think that works?
The friend zone is where you get placed on a scale set by a woman on how valuable of an asset you are to her, if to her you're worth keeping around then you will be used as a tool for whatever she wants, usually they see you as desperate and a reliability that craves attention so they put you on a pedestal of attractiveness.>Are you sure I won't end up like that?
Depends on how you present yourself, you are the one who puts your feet into dangerous territory. No, I'm not sure but women are deceitful so take care.>How do I get her out of that?
It is ultimately down to her, forcing someone to change themselves because you told them to works only in specific situations, where there are lines of respect and understanding between one another, the mutual care flourishes while cooperation becomes second nature. Make a move and see what happens but be prepared for consequences that will be brought after the action has been taken, concoct a plan and fulfill it while developing psychological strategies to enact perfectly according to the subjects own patterned psyche, organize your decisions carefully, if you fail to grasp or understand the magnitude of what you are planning then you should go back to the drawing board.
Talking to w*men is a mistake, always. They are your enemy, and will never know brotherhood.
I don't mean that as doubt or an insult, I'm open to trying it. But what about it makes you think it'll work? Has it worked on people you know before?>>3337
Makes sense. Don't worry, I don't fantasize about fucking her and having ten or more kids. I'm perfectly fine with my pony waifu tulpa, since if I ever had kids with a real woman it would just divorce-rape me and leave me homeless and treat my kids like shit.>>3338
True, women are shit parasites. At best, they're shit in ways that are harmless to you and those you care about, and it's easy enough to go along with the delusions the female brain relies upon. At usually, they're actively harmful to themselves or others for no good reason, and they get away with it because this jewed society sees lying feminist conquerors and lying jewish conquerors as victims of their male white slaves. They can't be in charge because all they know is blame-shifting and delegating their responsibilities onto people they're supposed to help/organize/lead. And they only make good workers when they think a man in charge won't let them get away with it. I've met a lot of women in my life and I've never met a good one in my life. I've met men in bad situations who do the best with what little they have, and I've met women born with so much more who had it all handed to them and threw it all away because of their childish whims.
Sometimes I wonder what it was like in the era before women were allowed to be such cancerous jewed parasites that they ended up poisoning civilization.
I wouldn't be comfortable expressing my opinion on that, sorry anon. As they say though, "it works if you work it, and you're worth it." ;)
Alright, I'll look into it.>everyone
I got a new metal water bottle, but when drinking water from it you can REALLY taste the metal.
Is that normal, or did I buy a shit water bottle I should stop drinking from immediately?
Normally my water containers are plastic.
Glass bottles, anon. I like to buy 1 large Voss bottle and reuse it, for precisely the issue of metal or plastic leeching into it. Clean it with vinegar, Voss has shit quality controls per independent consumer study groups. You may want to make a neoprene cover for it if you do.
>>3339>Don't worry, I don't fantasize about fucking her and having ten or more kids.
She wouldn't make a good mother, she can't take responsibility for her own actions so her kids would be even worse under her blind guidance.>I'm perfectly fine with my pony waifu tulpa,
That's good enough, not as much stress or danger.>since if I ever had kids with a real woman it would just divorce-rape me and leave me homeless and treat my kids like shit.
Most women are complete psycho bitches, it's disheartening seeing their behaviors in action, horse girls are fucking nuts, and that's coming from me.
Horse girls are so fucking creepy because their love of horses isn't genuine. They just get off on dominating and commanding such a massive beast that could easily kill them if it hadn't been dog-trained into learning helplessness. It's always the obnoxiously rich girls whose daddy actually bought them ten horses and an unproductive farm for their birthday too. Then they have the gall to act like touching animals and seeing dirt now and then makes them special like they're fucking cowboys or something when they're really no better than any other hedonistic worthless bitch. And they have those stupid fucking ukuleles and nasally pitchy voices and shitty fucking hair styles that try to look messy and effortless and punk but was more expensive than a working class family struggling to make ends meet in a society damaged by feminism spends on food in a week. Is there anything more fake and commodified than the punk "subculture"? Govt-approved anarchy pins and anti-capitalist Che Guava shirts for just two hundred dollars plus one-day Amazon shipping, spend your money on the worst look possible here! "oh my god, liking bands shilled on MTV makes me so underground and simultaneously Scene and Emo and Goffik and Punk!".
Their taste in everything is shit and everything they do is a delusion or a signal like their shitty piercings and stupidly expensive pre-ripped jeans and scummy power-mad self-fetishizing abusive personality. I wish horses had magnetic fields that would send their piercings flying out of their bodies. They expect to be able to treat men worse than their needy pet horses too. If you date a horse girl she will at best love you forth after her daddy's money, your money, her horses, and you in that order. Yes I once met a horse girl and I will unironically hate them all until I meet one that treats animals and people with respect and could actually survive without her delusions and material pleasures and typical narcissistic histrionic female ego.
Maybe women just shouldn't be allowed nice things. Maybe if women were forced to go to church and be nuns in nun clothes until they're of a marriageable age and couldn't own land or children and had to be good mothers to their men or pro nuns or maids to good mothers, society would be better off. Rare one-in-ten-million good women who turn out good despite society's bad influences can't possibly be worth all the bad ones raping every man's wallet and future through taxes and govt abuse. Women shouldn't be able to vote. Even restricting their voting rights to "married women with kids only" would be a huge step up. I know it's impossible to truly ban and burn all copies of something in the information age but if anything should be forced underground it's all those disgusting romantic comedies that teach impressionable young girls it's okay to be a piece of shit because you'll be rewarded with a beautiful celebrity man once he's gotten over all the issues that prevent him from being a lazy narcissistic cunt's dream lover. Maybe women would turn out better if they couldn't watch shit like Mama Mia during their formative years and had to watch anime like normal people.
Should I not post stuff like this about women, and focus on self-improvement talk?
Today I ate healthily, exercised, avoided masturbation, and made progress on my personal projects. Watching an anime called "How Heavy Are the Dumbbells You Lift?" gave me exercise advice but I'm not sure if it's right or not.
It said to drink protein shakes shortly after exercising, so I did. Feels good.
A gym bro friend of mine insists the "Grenade" protein bars/protein shakes are the best. I'll try the bars some time but I prefer to make my own protein shakes. That way, I always know what goes into them.
Today was a good day.
Some of them can be nice but not all of them, there are always exceptions, the ones that are well natured round out to be better than most other women, the true good stable girls are hardworking and are helpful, they are pure and innocent whereas the egoists are the opposites, they are a set example of those women who think they are everything and use their wealth as a method of power to enact their desires of control, they take advantage of everything living around them and see that animals belong below their feet as a result of their superiority complex.>Anarchist punk pansies
Kek, they are delusional jokers that believe freedom will save them from the ineptitude of ignorance, they are static and boring to be around while they spout about themselves or how miserable their lives are on repeat, they value feelings above logic and their whole life is based around that emotional worldview.>>3347>Should I not post stuff like this about women, and focus on self-improvement talk?
It's your choice, no one is exactly forcing you, worrying about your moon runes on a how to brush horse hair site is fairly ridiculous, there is no difference as the point of this is making you feel and think better, you worry a lot about your public perception and that's why it's so funny because you take everything so seriously that you write or read.>Today I ate healthily, exercised, avoided masturbation, and made progress on my personal projects.
That was yesterday, what happens today is a different story, a simple life is usually the most fulfilling, though that is not the case for some.>Watching an anime called "How Heavy Are the Dumbbells You Lift?" gave me exercise advice but I'm not sure if it's right or not.
If you actually want to learn then you must investigate and study the possibilities, using a Chinese cartoon about heavy bells as your primary source of learning is open to being exploited by foreign media, experiment with new tactics and styles to find the one that works best for you.>It said to drink protein shakes shortly after exercising, so I did. Feels good.
Ok, that's your decision to try what people tell you.>A gym bro friend of mine insists the "Grenade" protein bars/protein shakes are the best.
Look for yourself, examine what are the numbers and ingredients then compare them with competing brands, explore your plethora of options rather than focusing on a single subject.
You ask for appreciation and recognition while questioning if you are allowed to make your own choices, of course YOU can make decisions for yourself, when you were a kid you probably always asked if you were allowed to have fun while expecting a denial every time, you have been engraved with a pattern of thought from your father, so you still act quite immaturely since that is your programmed behavior.>I'll try the bars some time but I prefer to make my own protein shakes. That way, I always know what goes into them.
That's alright, you can see with your own eyes of what to choose since you have the choice of doing bad or good to your body and mind, your intake of foods and education both affect how you act or think.>Today was a good day.
You completed the tasks that you set for yourself, success creates satisfaction, you made a victory and there was enjoyment in doing so.
Forget your past, focus on improving yourself for the future. If you need to, move somewhere else so you can start fresh and be a new person.
This might sound odd but I love that we can call the site silly things.
On lesser forums and in lesser fandoms you have to suck dick saying shit like "This is the greatest forum on the internet" and "This fandom will cause world peace through shared love for Lucario" but here we call this place things like a mongolian horse whispering forum for fun and everyone's fine with it.>>3349
That's a good idea. Sometimes I consider changing my name so I will sound cooler and won't have my bastard father's last name.>everyone
Another good day of exercise and eating healthily. Salad's good with meat. It's annoying when people brag about being unhealthy because you need to resist the urge to say something like "Exercise for once holy shit". One friend was surprised that I know people who do stuff when I talked about the weird shit I'm proofreading for a writer friend in a nonspoilery way, surprised guy said I'm like the protagonist from Persona 5 because he has a guy for everything. Thanks mate but my friend circle sadly doesn't include a back alley doctor, an airsoft gun guy, a politician, or a tarotino able to unironically use actual magic. It does have someone who got into retarded twitter beef for no reason with a fandom I didn't know existed so there's that. I'm glad I'm not on twitter. My advice to him was to take a month vacation from twitter. And he said he'd do that! Suck my cock Fuckerberg. I increased the weight intensity for my bench presses and squats. Felt good about myself. Saw someone put a foam plate on the back of his legs while lying on his back and raise them towards his chest while bending them so his knees squished the foam over and over. Is that some hardcore thing for pros? One guy I know does cosplay and makes some sick foam swords. I showed him Satsuki Kiriyuin's sword and asked how much it would cost. He said a low number, I said deal. I drew the design on paper from all major angles with measurements and offered to email him a simple 3d model and pictures of the blade but he said no to that part. It took months for some reason but today he gave me the greatest sword he's ever made. He took some liberties with the design. It's a rectangular block of wood with no taper and a rounded tip, along with a shattered splintery handle with cord tied around the handle to tie it to another unbroken handle with a diamond pommel and blocky crossguard. It comes pre-cracked and pre-dented, too. Guess testing this blade must have gotten rough. But hey, every good swordsman knows if your sword hasn't broken during testing you need to try harder until it breaks in half and you repair the fucking thing with string. Loose string that slides down the two hilts. Everyone knows that just means more air gets in your sword and nothing's faster than air so it'll help your sword go faster. The hilt is broken in such a way that any pressure or recoil to the blade bends the blade from the hilt and into your forefingers with extra leverage while stabbing into the palm with an uneven splintered surface. Or vice versa if you swing the sword backwards. There is also no sheath so you can't jack the sword off like Vergil from Devil May Cry or do his Iaido weeb shit. You can't even end them rightly with a good pommel toss because the pommel is part of the handle. And the blade's half-handle makes the main handle too wide to properly grip so you can't even strike someone with the pommel. If you held the sword by the wooden blade and tried rhe old Mordhau the crossguard would bend thanks to the unique and innovative pre-broken handle. You could only hurt someone by holding the blade and slapping someone with the blade before it transitions into broken hilt and pommel. I think that it could be used in home defense if you tossed it into the hands of an intruder and then swung a baseball bat at him, hoping he grabs the sword and tries to block it with the shit sword only to lose his hand. This is the greatest sword he's ever made because everything that ever looked nice was plastic with foam in the middle and foam is softer than bronze. But hey, at least it was free. I asked what happened to the sword and he said he's never tried making a prop from wood before. I thanked him anyway because hey, it's free. I showed it to an artist friend who collects swords and draws anime girls and he asked a load of questions about the sword. I answered them truthfully and he couldn't stop laughing. I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" and he said "disabled".
*foam with plastic in the middle.
A thin plastic rod is engulfed by square foam chunks. Cement is used to glue the chunks together. A belt sander is used to grind away at the sword and make it look like a sharp thin blade even though it's harmless foam. Then it is painted blue. Then it is painted metal. Then the hilt is painted brown like leather. And that's today's episode of How It's Made.
I don't know why he made this one out of wood. I didn't think he had anything for wood but there's a thin line cut into the wood on one side of the crossguard like it's touched a sawblade that went in deeper than it was supposed to.
I tried to make the sword description funny with that "foam is softer than bronze so it's an inferior sword material and air can get into your sword to make it faster" talk. How'd I do?
I'd recommend having a more legible post structure, and topical ideas that merit the words used. (Normally I leave out the implied why say that in the first place) Because I would like to see easily identifiable points for faster reading.
Otherwise it's good to hear you're doing good.
Thought 1>Another good day of exercise and eating healthily. Salad's good with meat.
Yes. Delicious food is nice, and so is improvement.
Thought 1 tangent>It's annoying when people brag about being unhealthy because you need to resist the urge to say something like "Exercise for once holy shit".
You need to reallocate your fucks given to yourself and those who matter most to you. If and possibly when you do have the wisdom, knowledge, power, opportunity, and the right set of actions then affecting others is a good possibility. Otherwise it is highly circumstantial and limited, by the ability and foreknowledge of the situation.<tldr: give fewer fucks
I figure I should mention this the lead up and the pay off for this new topic is nothing. This is a new topic and by conventional writing standards it would be a separate paragraph or even essay entirely.
Thought 2>One friend was surprised that I know people who do stuff when I talked about the weird shit I'm proofreading for a writer friend in a nonspoilery way,
Thought 2 supporting detail>surprised guy said I'm like the protagonist from Persona 5
Thought 2 explaination>because he has a guy for everything.
Thought 2 clarification 'joke'>Thanks mate but my friend circle sadly doesn't include a back alley doctor, an airsoft gun guy, a politician, or a tarotino able to unironically use actual magic.
Thought 2 tangent, Persona 5 has a tweeting person>It does have someone who got into retarded twitter beef for no reason with a fandom I didn't know existed so there's that.
Thought 2 tangent's tangent. Technically sorta kinda but... it's uber related of sorts...>I'm glad I'm not on twitter.
Topic has now split again.
Thought 3>My advice to him was to take a month vacation from twitter.
Thought 3 outcome>And he said he'd do that!
Thought 3 tangent joke>Suck my cock Fuckerberg.<...
Complete topic shift
Thought 4>I increased the weight intensity for my bench presses and squats.
Thought 4 personal observation of effects>Felt good about myself.
Thought 4 tangent at the gym of sorts>Saw someone put a foam plate on the back of his legs while lying on his back and raise them towards his chest while bending them so his knees squished the foam over and over.
Tangent 4 Question>Is that some hardcore thing for pros? <even though search engines and video content are suspect innocent questions such as what the fuck is the foam thing is okay to seek.<but by the evidence the guy probably just wanted more leg resistance.
My tangent not about the foam thing. More about exercise. (Normally this would go by point the main point.)
Posture is important.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EREvdCaxZHo&t=166>Foam and the sword saga and the question at hand.<Why though? Why go through all of that here and now?>/a/ the sword is pain post
Sarcasm is an exercise in creativity and misunderstandings for the internet era to get it just right with proper intonation.>tldr free junk isn't free you're the product
Testing new material such as wood is not the same as foam.
As for usability he worked with foam for the looks rather than function. Or it was to make a thing and end the project quickly without the main source of income, the plastic and foam cosplay stuff, from being impacted.>I tried to make the sword description funny with that
-the post here->talk. How'd I do?
There's no brevity, levity is in a ditch that climbs out at the end and no time for natural pauses. If there is it would be better said aloud and with demonstration. It could use some work.<Sorry baseball fans
I got a free sword from someone who does sick foam and plastic cosplay swords. Pic related for the anime sword it is based on.
I got exactly what I payed for after a few months, and it's wood.
It has everything you could ask for in anime, held together by shear willpower, guts, and string. Angular and raw like a 2x4.
The blade is to proper UK lumber standards and is safe to slice toast with, and the baseball league.
Like morning wood, but with more cracks and dents you could shake at. It strikes out there, but the twin handles side by side give the classic experience of sliding to first base, on a construction field.
First is the splinters, second is the double wide suprise, third is an out of phase guard, and the in-field string binds it all up. If you make it home it's broke in twain from the abuse. Getting the homerun once would be cake with everything going for it.
No charge at all. It's one of a kind. Best of all if it were an...
So I showed this to an artist friend who collects swords and draws anime girls and he asked a load of questions about the sword. I answered them truthfully and he couldn't stop laughing. I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" and he said "disabled".
Hanging either on a wall might be difficult, but it would make an impression.
>>3358>I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" and he said "disabled".
I coulda editeds more for flow and punchiness<. I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" He replies "disabled".
Or maybe<I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?"<"disabled".
When I said "but it does have a twitter-using idiot" i meant my friend circle not the game.
Sorry about the length, I'll shorten them from now on.
I was going to ask artist fren to draw it as an anime girl but I forgot to to that. I asked this morning and he said "no its too ugly". Thats ok.
>>3360>I'll shorten them from now on
Sure you will
Today I saw two cucked fags in blm shirts in public during my walk. Avoided them casually.
I still ate healthily and exercised today but it got me thinking about this society.
I wish I didn't have to hide my true self. I wish I lived in a noncucked country. Brainwashed people are everywhere. I wonder how it feels to, in person, just walk into a church and be a good part of a good christian community without lesbian jew pastors screeching "all hail diversity, jesus would have hated Boris and Brexit". Does it feel good to sing a song about jesus with others and know the person beside you trusts you absolutely and would die for you just as you would die for him?
The boomers sold us and our future out to the enemy for profit, because the jew told them to. How is it possible for them to be so stupid and evil?
I wish there was an ending to this story where aliens float down to earth one day and congratulate white men for surviving this long on a planet where everything inferior evolved to prey upon them by any means necessary. Then the aliens press a button on their spaceship that ends this experiment and erases all enemies and upgrades white women into obedient kind poners, giving them souls and brains in the process.
Do you think people will rise up one day to fight the corrupt governments of the world and their """peaceful""" third world war on us?
>>3355>This might sound odd but I love that we can call the site silly things.
So do I, this is my favorite witch hunting Christian hangout.>On lesser forums and in lesser fandoms you have to suck dick saying shit like "This is the greatest forum on the internet" and "This fandom will cause world peace through shared love for Lucario" but here we call this place things like a mongolian horse whispering forum for fun and everyone's fine with it.
It's part of channel culture, the internet is now one of the few places in the world with a sense of humor.>>3362>Today I saw two cucked fags in blm shirts in public during my walk. Avoided them casually.
Baffled that you didn't take their number.>I still ate healthily and exercised today but it got me thinking about this society.
Pondering why it's a big joke?>I wish I didn't have to hide my true self.
Secrets are best kept than spread, gossip gets around quick and it can screw you over.>I wish I lived in a noncucked country.
This island has gone to hell.>Brainwashed people are everywhere.
They are dead in the head, given a script to obey.>I wonder how it feels to, in person, just walk into a church and be a good part of a good christian community without lesbian jew pastors screeching "all hail diversity, jesus would have hated Boris and Brexit".
The influx of Negros and Jews have brought with them a slew of subversion, infecting every area and walk of life so that their thoughts are imposed upon you. To me the church is a reminder of death, the twisting tower with it's deafening bells, a constant haunt of the past and of graves, a symbol of authority.>Does it feel good to sing a song about jesus with others and know the person beside you trusts you absolutely and would die for you just as you would die for him?
It's a form of bonding and connecting with people of a similar mentality, singsongs should be buoyant and happy. Not many people are as devoted to their friends or family anymore.>The boomers sold us and our future out to the enemy for profit, because the jew told them to.
Without Jews the world we exist within would be much different.>How is it possible for them to be so stupid and evil?
They were sidetracked with their own desires, drunk and drugged they did not see the danger in the temptation of those numerous lies, people are gullible and trust too easily.>I wish there was an ending to this story where aliens float down to earth one day and congratulate white men for surviving this long on a planet where everything inferior evolved to prey upon them by any means necessary. Then the aliens press a button on their spaceship that ends this experiment and erases all enemies and upgrades white women into obedient kind poners, giving them souls and brains in the process.
This scenario would be better than the current one. Keep dreaming on.>Do you think people will rise up one day to fight the corrupt governments of the world and their """peaceful""" third world war on us?
Time will tell eventually, there is definitely something on the horizon though, people generally prefer to not get themselves hurt if it isn't in their interest to do so. Many, many people are so shortsighted and impressionable.
The church seems like something that could have worked if it tried harder. Christianity survived being thrown to the lions. It survived Jesus's death. But it couldn't stop itself from thinking if it welcomed subversive elements with open arms, they would give up their poisonous ways and be good. That's just not in the nature of scorpions.
Real churches look good, and their bells are alright if you aren't too close to them. At least they have bells instead of that obnoxious islamic call to prayer. Imagine needing some faggot to yell "Pray to your god now!" before you actually do. Imagine being that faggot who stands up for everyone and yells "Pray now!" first. Islam's a religion of power-craving scorpions and poisoned sheep who can't be saved.
>>3355>Sometimes I consider changing my name so I will sound cooler and won't have my bastard father's last name.
I have moved twice, each time leaving all friends behind and starting over. It worked really well for me, I learned a lot. Get a job where you have to deal with people, you get to practice being social on someone else's dime, though it's kind of wierd right now with everyone in masks... Start doing phone tech support if you need to start really small, at least you will gain some skills talking.
Another day of health and alright fortune
I had this idea for a thread called "Glitches in the matrix" or "Leftists behaving badly" or something like that. A thread full of short clips displaying things like animalistic niggers committing crimes, feminists saying "kill all men" and getting cheered by other feminists and generally not even trying to hide their hatred of men, jews gloating evilly about their crimes, lefties openly celebrating white genocide, and so on.
A place to post these short perception-changing videos that shatter a normie's faith in what he's been told to think. The shorter and easier for someone new to all this politics stuff to understand, the better. Because so far when redpilling normies these videos have the most impact on their preconceived notions, opening them up to deeper thought and longer videos/discussions.
Another day of taking care of my body and getting fitter even though this world's going to shit. Focus on what I can control, that's what the advice said.
My alt-history-obsessed friend showed me a ridiculous video that claimed America's going to be isolationist for the next 80 years and "Trump was an isolationist backlash that closed immigration" and France will become a superpower when America's not looking because "France is so stable".
Was the video's creator having a fucking stroke? France will either cast off its jewish chains and cast out its islamic invaders or become another forward-operating base in the EU's islamic one-sided ethnic war on peace.
The video also claimed declining white birth rates are "just a myth that rely on hispanic birth rates remaining constant also most hispanics marry whites so they'll become whiter over time so there".
If pure water is mixed with mud, how pure is that water? "But the mud will be purer-" it says a lot that you prioritize the mud over the vital life-giving water's quality and wellbeing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J3g_ZAx6o64
There are so many demons out there who want the death of the white race and will tell any lie to help it happen. Do they even realize how shit the world would be without us? Some races go to the moon and some races can't understand high school maths without some politician trying to rewrite maths so 2+2=5 but only when they say it is. Most of that lot is able to fail despite our best efforts and some of us are able to prosper despite their best efforts. They're parasites, treasonous parasites. Gradually, I began to hate them.
Stiff elbows again, exercised too hard. Aside from that, perfect health. A friend gave me some Grenade energy drink. It didn't feel like it was an energy drink. But I didn't feel tired later either. I've felt the maddening kick of unhealthy energy drinks before so I expected this one to be even stronger since it's supposedly bealthy. I felt some energy from it but it was weak. Maybe the extreme amounts of energy is what makes red bull and the like so unhealthy. But that's not all I wanted to talk about today.
So basically, there's this girl, and um...
I met her when we were both teenagers and total fucking losers. I was still less of a loser because I had an excuse to be a loser while she didn't. We talked a lot and grew closer but when I told her I loved her she said she wasn't willing to settle for me because she, like all whores, thinks she is entitled to some inherently contradictory fantasy man who crawls out of the screen to satisfy all her fantasies at once. I would have been settling for her since she couldn't take care of herself like an adult then or now. If I had dated her I would probably be a miserable cuck under her heel now, so I am glad I don't have to put up with her. We're both over 23 now but every time I talk to this person it reminds me of how far I've come because there used to be a time when I found this bitch appealing. When I didn't know any less cunty women this woman's cuntitude seemed average for a woman, but now I know better. Sure they aren't the brightest bulbs but holy fucking shit this woman is dumb. This greedy, selfish, entitled twat makes me understand why so many men give up on women and satisfy their need for human intimacy exclusively by going on dates with stuffed animals or Jackie Chan/Pinkie Pie/Keanu Reeves tulpas. I go into conversations with her thinking if I am to be a good man then I must give her my wisdom. But what good is wisdom to a spoiled brat determined to throw away every opportunity presented to her? It's like she's trying to speedrun bad life decisions to spite God. She just shows me disgusting gay transformers fanart instead of actually making anything meaningful like the retarded Transformers knockoff she wants to make. I foolishly wasted time helping her write actual good transformers knockoff episodes and create an original universe but she has this habit of writing pure cringe and putting herself above others and scrapping anything someone smarter than her helped her with. She doesn't really want to be a creator, she just wants to be praised for saying she's one on twitter. The dumb cunt goes into "depressive episodes" aka sad moods for a few hours whenever she goes on twitter to show off her fictional faggot shipping fanart for that precious attention and dopamine hit and doesn't get it. She's been so brainwashed by the feminists that a game of "Hitler or Feminist?" didn't even phase her. She unironically says shit like "I want to tackle toxic masculinity in my writing" and then writes a story where rapey evil space nazis invade earth and also there are cutesy animal plus dolls like if Isabelle fucked Retsuko and Sanrio and they pilot goant robots to shoot nazis for not playing with dollies. Then she spits on bronies and Thomas The Tank Engine fans (turns out they exist) for liking kiddy products even though this bitch defines herself by the corporate media she liked as a child and can't go a day without wasting hours on trashy reality TV or watching Powderpuff Girls reruns. Recently she cackled feministically on twitter at the Thomas femboys, filled with glee over how much she thinks these men would hate the show. When criticized she pulled stupid lying defenses like "I just think it's not that bad" and "bbbut the simple 2d shapes move really well" and only deleted her tweet once some kid said "autistic people love Thomas therefore your anti Thomas tweet is ableist". That made her delete her tweet and fucking grovel in a cliche apology where she nonsensically says she didn't mean to upset anyone but thinks its best to be blunt with her opinions. Yeah, your opinion that you think being childish is only okay when you do it. The cunt leaves me on read unless what I say encourages her to reply and she thinks nothing of lying to my face. Or antagonizing others and then trying to drag me into stupid internet drama I want nothing to do with. Or making vague posts at me and forcing me to waste time trying to Phoenix Wright information out of this fucking cartoon character. Wait no I shouldn't call her a cartoon character, it would offend my adorable cartoon pony tulpa. Did I mention the bitch hates my tulpa but can't understand what tulpas are even though I tried explaining it to her? This fucking bitch, she's a spiteful cunt when she has no reason to be and she unironically idolizes the CWC-but-worse clown of a man who calls himself "Lily Orchard". There are better things I could do with my life like exercise or talk to people who don't make me disgusted with the very idea of life itself or go on imaginary dates with my imaginary horse waifu tulpa or look at sick anime fight scenes or work on my projects or argue on a brazillian equine sodomy subreddit over which fuckable cartoon horse would be the best lay. I am incredibly popular and handsome and confident now that I'm a man, I have a shitton of friends and they genuinely fucking like me. But dealing with
her outbursts and drama is annoying and trying to get and keep her inferior female attention span reminds me of the shit I used to put up with when I was desperate and looking for friends in stupid places. I would have to be genuinely fucking disabled to think it is a good idea to continue to speak to her. She is a fool and I should forget all about her. She's used to being treated like the daughter of an overly lenient dad who can't make her grow up and I don't think it's possible to salvage this relationship or the person she wants to become. She doesn't respect me even though people more qualified and intelligent than her do, and some of the people who respect me are women so it's not a sex thing. I'm not paid enough to be called a toxic white man by some feminist clown who says shit like "I'm just a dumb white girl" on twitter when sucking off Burn Loot Murder. The only question is whether I should tell her to her face she's a pointlessly spiteful immature tard who's making a mess of her life for no reason, even if it means she calls me a meanie and blocks me, or if I should avoid burning that bridge by just talking to her way less and treating her like a casual aquaintance instead of someone I feel like I could and should save.
Golly, it must suck dealing with outbursts and drama and inferior attention spans>should I tell her to her face
Tell who? You're still listening to this bint? You HAVENT cut the cord?>that last sentence.
I know she'll probably call me something worse than a meanie, that was a joke.
I don't know how to stop myself from feeling like I could and should talk her into growing up.
Do your absolute best
>>3374>I go into conversations with her thinking if I am to be a good man then I must give her my wisdom.
If you were truly wise you would only give advice when asked for. No one wants your advice anon.> I foolishly wasted time helping her write actual good transformers knockoff episodes and create an original universe
You say you don't want her pussy, but here you are working for it. What else could you have done with that wasted time anon?>wall of text
Anon, people like this need to be ghosted. Forget her, meet other people. She is just sucking your time, energy and optimism like a vampire. Go hit the gym.
I went a whole day without talking to her. My pony tulpa said she's proud of me. Not just because of the woman, but because I've been healthy and fit for so long.
I have this habit of seeing the worst in people. In everything. So I try to look on the brighter side. But sometimes there is no bright side. That woman doesn't have a bright side. She isn't bright. And if I am to settle down with any woman and repopulate my species with her she needs to have better genes and memes than this stupid femoid thot I'm done making excuses for.
Do you ever think that maybe if you met someone sooner, said the right things and knew everything, you could have kept them from going down the wrong path?
I wish I knew everything.
Also I'm still exercising and healthy.
Still healthy and exercising. Why do I post like this? Is this an accountability journal thing, like that religious thing from last year? Whatever I'm doing, it's working. I don't want to disappoint myself by being a lazy faggot who refuses to exercise. When putting my trousers on I felt my legs and the fat's almost completely gone. It's all firm muscle. I'm actually wearing belts now. Just one, though.
Now that I'm no longer lying to myself about that woman it's easy to see how dishonest she is and disgusting she treats others. She treats everyone like shit and spends all her time getting validated on twatter for posting about her fantasies and fleeting retarded feelings and which cartoons she wants to see fuck. Why did I ever call her my friend? "We both liked the same show once"? Big fucking whoop, there's a lot more to life than this year's reboot of some corporate fucking toyline cartoon. Whenever I tried talking to her about serious shit, she either stops reading/listening or starts screaming. All she wants out of life is comfort and she'll believe in any delusion that gives it to her, including the delusion that makes her think she's "oppressed" for being the fatherless daughter of a house-flipping rich bitch riding the cock carousel into her fourties and rolling in her ex-husband's divorce money. She has it easy. She had it easier than most people alive and she'll still claim she was oppressed in her pussy rich school just because nobody could stand talking to the judgemental two-faced cunt.
She's a twat on twitter and a bigger twat in reality. Sometimes she'll post shit like "I'm demisexual because I only want to fuck people if I know them deeply and have a deep connection with them and like them!" and then send me explicit messages about how she lusts over celebrities and wants Megatron from the Transformers cartoon to tie her up and pound her asshole with his transforming Decepticock until Energon oozes from every orfice, or send me shit transformers gay porn fanfics you couldn't pay me enough to read/skim.
Sometimes she'll say she's something she thinks makes her a good person, and then do nothing to BE what she says she is. Oh wait, not "sometimes", she always does that. She's always horny for cartoon prettyboys and sexually-attractive "dorky awkward" faggots, and full of hatred for anyone who's actually awkward around her. Full of even more hatred for anyone real who approaches her while being anything less than the impossible blend of contradictory character traits she's been brainwashed into admiring thanks to the TV.
despite how often she posts "I love feminine guys! I want to see robot-men from my favourite cartoon be gay and fuck!" she used to shit-talk me for not being tall enough back when I was fat. Now that I'm buff-ish, nobody notices how short I am. What a hypocrite. She doesn't actually love feminine guys, she just has a fetish for when masculine men act girly and wear frilly dresses and buttfuck each other. That's absolutely fucking disgusting. I'd sooner trust a bondage freak, because at least they're normal people when they aren't tied up or playing with whips. Every time a gender-freak sees anything related to sex or sexuality or any expression of masculinity or femininity, real or genuine, they're always fucked up in the head. They aren't normal people with an appreciation for something abnormal, they're damaged people unable to mentally function properly.
Besides, it ain't like I can do anything about my height. Ain't like I can walk into a tranny clinic, claim I identify as a woman who wants to "transition" into becoming a man, and get injected with as many state-funded steroids and human growth hormone and man-chemicals as it takes. I'm a big guy where it counts, so who cares about my height? If I lie on my side without my leg supporting my balls, they wake up sore in the morning because they're big. To be honest I wish my balls were an ordinary size because they make my dick look ordinary-sized unless my hands are near it. Plus they make exercising uncomfortable. If women are going to be shallow whores about the height of the men they sleep with, then any man would have to be an uncaring bastard to reproduce with a short bitch because it would mean possibly damning his kids to a life spent being short. It's a good thing tall babes with hot legs are hotter than tiny whores. Anyway, fuck that bitch.
She's a shallow whore with nothing to offer the world but a wet hole attached to a whiny hypersensitive selfish bitch who looks like RadicalSoda plus a botched tranny. Then again there are no non-botched trannies, since every time someone goes tranny it's because their parents and friends failed them and the jews won. By the way go watch RadicalSoda, he's fucking hilarious. I haven't been a Sonicfag in years but this guy's got great comedic timing.
She has been subverted. She has been jewed and faggoted. She's a man-hating lost cause. Some day she'll "hit the wall", getting old and even uglier. She's already too ugly to receive male attention from anyone she's willing to treat like a person and consider shagging. The only people who want to BE SEEN validating her on twitter so they can look like good people who support good people things will abandon her and move on to someone younger and more impressionable. She'll hate herself then almost as much as she hates men now. How the fuck did I ever tolerate this bitch's presence in my life? How did I ever fool myself into thinking I could fix her when she doesn't want to be saved? Society encourages the worst impulses in women and rewards them with attention and positive reinforcement while punishing wrongthink with negative reinforcement and nonsense buzzwords like "ableist". Women won't ever choose to turn down a life of fleeting pleasure in favour of a life of love+security+morality as a good woman unless society forces them to do so and recognizes the worst feminine behaviours as the medical disorders desperately in need of cures they are. The cure for Histrionic Personality Disorder, Attention-Seeking Disorder, Unreasonable Expectations Disorder, Feminine Irrationality Disorder, Oversized Fragile Feminine Ego Disorder, Uncontrollably Feminine Envy And Spite Disorder, Cock Craving Disorder, and Actually A Brainwashed Feminist Manhater Disorder isn't to brush them under the rug and normalize them.
Sometimes I feel bad about still liking ponies at my age. Is it wrong to look at something so girly, when so many episodes contain anti-male messaging? If anon realistically went to Equestria would he be treated like Spike at best? Maybe a man like me should watch more adult stuff. But after watching shows full of drama, action, and bloodshed, I miss poners.
The Shreeax Movie/Cory Test in the House, all that stuff was to take the piss out of the Superwholock clowns. And when people pretend to religiously love Shrek and fantasize about fucking the smelly green ogre and drowning in an excessive green ogreload, they're taking the piss out of people who are even weirder about Sonic or Ponies or Blue Avatar or Anime.
But anime is designed to be sexy and appealing to all sorts of niches. When white people grow up being told white culture is sinful, some of them latch onto subcultures or the cultures of foreign nations. Guys jack off to Asuka and girls jack off to dumb Kpop boybands. It's funny when people pretend to love Backstreet Boys or Big Time Rush just to piss off the kpop zombies. Like when people pretend Raid Shadow Legends is the greatest gacha game ever to take the piss out of gacha-addicted faggots who can't even get addicted to something respectable like poker and would unironically consider Cookie Clicker the best game ever if they had the mental capacity to play a game that isn't on their phone and requires something besides a credit card to play. Why don't they don't have any similar jokes for us?
Maybe because it's they are women and women aren't funny.
Friend don't worry about liking ponies. When I started watching I realized I can take MLP more seriously than most sitcoms or whatever on TV. The characters feel more real than those from more "serious" shows.>women aren't funny.
>>3390>women aren't funny.
My theory for why women aren't funny is that laughter is a type of pressure release that comes from a place inside you too genuine for women to have. Women physically don't have the wings and body structure a bird needs to fly or the brain capacity men need to be mature civilized adults. Laughing at silly words and sex jokes is a break from being adult for men and just another way to squeeze her desired result out of others for women. Women will loudly over-laugh at things just to be seen and heard laughing when they think they are supposed to laugh at something. And women will be called funny by men who want to fuck them or satisfy their feminine egos or be seen "being nice" to women or be polite or avoid pissing off their simps, so they never feel the need to get better material. They don't truly get jokes or why "Haha I love hurting men. Women multiply things so if you give them semen they make you a baby and if you give them any lip they give you a lifetime of suffering and that's a good thing teehee" is less funny than a man saying "A man walked into a bar and said ow ouch oof fuck ow I walked into a bar". They are insulated from the worst of the world in places where they're still coddled and babied by men despite their best efforts to bite the hand that starves itself to feed them so they don't care about anything enough to notice the true contradictions in this society of lies or who the enemies of life really are. Women are treated better than men in this society and they don't feel the need to question a society that encourages them to enjoy acting maliciously and selfishly while giving them bullshit femoid lies as justifications for it. Women aren't funny because they don't have to be. It's also why so many women aren't smart and won't think critically about anything. Society never forces them to be smart and never punishes stupid women enough for making mistakes that screw over herself and others. Feminists are never forced to look at and feel the negative consequences of their war on white men and the children of white me. Unless she is incredibly ugly and obese enough to turn away even the most brainwashed cuck alive with low self esteem she is always one lie eyelash batting or police phone call away from having her nearest simp handle her adult responsibilities for her and rob her of any learning opportunities by trying to convince her she did nothing wrong. A woman's understanding of reality is skin deep. Her impression of a mature and respected male leader makes her a petty incompetent tyrant in love with abusing her authority over others and as soon as any real work needs to be done she relies on her underlings who she also blames for everything she does wrong and every disaster she causes. Her impression of a comedian makes her a whiny shameless pervert obsessed with the scent of her own pussy and absurdly distorted relationship stories where she's never done anything wrong men aren't willing to overlook in the name of "harr harr bitches be crazy and that am normal, it's the man's responsibility to keep the woman satisfied and safe and sane no matter how much she doesn't want to be any of these". Her impression of a "victim" makes her a hypersensitive liar desperate to avenge her honourless "honour" at even the tiniest slight to her pathetic femininity. Everything about the modern woman is an act for her own amusement and social status to be discarded as soon as it is inconvenient for her including her humanity and compassion. Her impression of a human being leaves much to be desired. They might be able to repeat jokes they stole from men and repeatedly repeat lines that make people laugh like "haha i sure do love anime pussy. It's a good thing anime fans love it when women say they like what anime fans like for attention. Watching ten hours of hentai a day is worthy of praise because I am female teehee" but they can never grasp true comedy.
Women are even bad at media analysis and pattern recognition which ironically makes up most of their media analysis ability.
They bitch about "women as reward" because they are unable to tell the difference between "saving the girl impressed her into giving him a chance", "rescuing his wife earned him sex", and "the king unironically gave the paladin a slave and sick plus two sword as a reward for killing the goblins". They don't care about all the media in which something besides women is the reward such as personal growth or a celebrity career or a kingdom or a farm or a job or godhood or a return to normalcy.
They'll cry about all the times consent wasn't 100% there in the only pieces of media they've seen besides porn while ignoring all the time male characters were raped or even raped to death and had their rape played for laughs.
They'll call it "fridging" every time a female character dies for any reason and claim "fridging" is when a woman dies or is killed off to shock or motivate a male character. Imagine being so privileged that it bothers you when a woman dies in a piece of media and then giving no shits when media demonizes those of other groups. They don't give a shit about all the media where the roles are reversed or all the media where something else important to the man is killed like his dog or parents or children or entire extended family or hometown country or planet. Anime fans joke about the "doomed mom haircut" and how many heroes have a Moses ripoff moment in their backstory where the baddie is told someone from X Town will kill him so he slaughters everyone from X Town but one survives and wants revenge.
Was it "fridging" when Edward Elric's mom died of a broken heart and Ed's attempt to revive her started the show? Was it "fridging" when Luke's uncle and aunt or John Wick's dog were killed? When an entire fucking timeline of reality full of loving people got obliterated in Dragon Ball Super, and some of the people in that timeline were female(even though humie women aren't people) was it "fridging"? When an adult man has his shit together and lives away from his parents and extended family as one of millions of atomized rootless individuals in a shitty city and the only things in life that bring him joy are his job and wife and maybe a collection based hobby like a pokemon card collection, a serious villain can only threaten or destroy one of those things to establish himself as a bastard that needs to go down. And threatening a man's property is usually turned into a joke in media. "teehee look at the silly man care about blideo blames that got stolen or get mad when his clothes were burned by his ex wife".
"pattern recognition" or "tropes" as the jewed call it is the death of legitimate media criticism. I don't need some self-appointed expert with 9k subscribers to tell me a book has a mostly red cover with a woman on it and the text contains a comic relief character and six traffic violations and a rape scene and a mint green toyota corola and a car chase scene that ends in a cabbage stand getting destroyed and a surfer dude and a loose cannon cop who doesn't play by the rules and four cock jokes and one sexist joke and a Red Oni Blue Oni dynamic with the black by-the-book partner forced onto the white guy by authority only for him to become friends and leaen they're not so different in the author's eyes. I certainly don't give a shit if that faggot youtuber thinks the book is bad just because he subjectively does not like those tropes, even if he claims it's just because of how they were implemented. If your only example of "x done right" is a masturbatory work of metashit that constantly says "x is shit" your opinion on x is invalid because you just hate x whether you admit that to yourself and others or not.
Women are fundamentally dishonest and even when they criticize media it is an extension of their dishonest nature. They just want to bitch about people writing stories with elements they want to be seen hating and "gush about" (praise) fetishes and fetish media they want to be seen endorsing. Fuck women and fuck their female brain and fuck their toxically feminine behaviour.
It pisses me off to know I can never say anything about women on an anonymous forum for secret thoughtcriminals that's meaner to them than what they've been praised for saying about all men and paid to say about men in feminist propaganda novels and propaganda manifestos. But realistically speaking feminism needs to be stopped. It's illegal to rape and it should be illegal to be a feminist because being a feminist rapes kids but with extra steps. Feminists and jews import niggers that rape and muslims that traffic and rape kids. They want reeducation camps or worse for us and their ideology should be cured in reeducation camps while the incurables are muzzled and thrown in padded rooms and straightjackets. Feminists can only destroy and they would rather stomp a hundred babies to death than be a good person in a healthy society they can't control or destroy.
Legs still burning from exercise today. Feels good. Is it weird if I start to enjoy this?
That piece of shit woman... I knew her for years. Maybe if I said the right things I could have put her on a better path? But she was always a shallow selfish whore unable to consider the feelings of others. She was ruined before I met her. It's foolishness to blame myself for how God wanted her to be. She's not my daughter, but if she was she would have turned out better.
A lot of people build up imaginary versions of women they know in their heads and choose to pretend they are spending time with this imaginary perfect girl when dealing with the real thing. They ignore red flags because they want to believe in the fantasy whores use to manipulate weak minded men into serving them. But I already have an imaginary perfect girl in my head and she's a beautiful and absolutely massive poner. She's so soft and cute and warm and sweet and supportive. But she's not just a cheerleader hugbot, she can be clever and cheeky. And she's genuinely hilarious when she wants to be. She has her own thoughts and opinions and we've disagreed on things before which makes her more alive than all those roleplaying twats on tulpa sites with boring generic Pinkie-knockoff one-note gimmick character tulpas. If you have a lot of tulpas can they really develop into individuals and grow if all they ever do is "act in-character" according to whatever movie character or animu slut or cliche character archetype you had in mind with this? How could real women ever compete with this? Lowly humie femoids could never compete with this. She's perfect. And she genuinely loves me. And I genuinely love her. My poner is love. My poner is life. When I sleep, I usually dream of my poner. And my poner really appreciates how fit I'm getting. It feels good. Being appreciated feels good. I have the best girl in this and any other universe right here.
"I want to live! Take me out to sea with you!"
Those words from One Piece brought me to tears when I saw it as a boy.
Seeing videos of the olden days when countries like America and England were full of not just whites but lively and happy whites with souls... I wonder what it would feel like to know these people. To talk to them and live among them. What would they think of me? Of the things I've seen and heard about? It feels like I'm looking into a parallel universe. Or maybe some hollywood film that accidentally made the parallel universes look better than this one. It doesn't feel like any place that could ever exist in the timeline of a world that turned out so ugly. I saw them today in some video, and tears silently fell from my masculine face. How could the boomers get so spectacularly jewed that they raped the futures of their kids and allowed America to be invaded and subverted? I guess that's just another question to ask God if I ever meet him.
I made some more friends today. I grew up in a shit environment so even now it's still surprising how easy it is to get along with good people. They all probably have dark secrets but fuck it, that's normal these days. My dark secret is that I used to masturbate to anime girls. By the standards of modernity that's vanilla shit. If I walked into a church and told some priest that he'd laugh his ass off and say he expected me to say something horrifying like "I masturbated to anime girls with tails and animal ears" or "I masturbated to anime girls who have animal ears and are horses or snakes or car-sized spiders or fucking fuckable fish from the waist down" or "I masturbated to anime girls but with fur and tails and animal heads".
For God's sake, we all joke about thinking hand-holding and headpatting and other displays of emotional intimacy are horrifyingly lewd and kinky because we're so horrifyingly desensitized to sexual and physical intimacy.
Fantasy stories were once a way to make sense of the world and figure out morality and wisdom and pass it on to our children through aesops and porquoi stories.
Over time as we figured this shit out fantasy became a way to entertain and any messages were secondary. How many got through Narnia without realizing how Christian it was?
Narnia's kids went into the wardrobe to enter and save a fantasy land, then they returned home to be wiser people.
Lord Of The Rings's Middle Earth was its own world saved by its own people. No human visitors here. It had its own history and languages and everything.
Avatar was a failed attempt to recreate that magic. It had better technology than LOTR but the story was basically just Pocahontas 2: PocaHarder. It had its own language but it usually got misused in the movie so people in the audience could still understand what was said. And hilariously when they were told to "make something alien for my alien world" by nlending fucktons of shit together from around the world they basically got a musical style and language that sounded mostly african.
Yet it was still enough to get people wishing they lived on Pandora as a biue cat freak just like people wished to live in Middle Earth or visit Narnia.
Zootopia was just New York but designed from the ground up to be multiracial and democratic even though Predators are outnumbered 1 to 10 by prey. Great worldbuilding. No history or unique languages, just silly looking shit and species racism but furries still want to live there.
Then there's Harry Potter. It's basically earth but with a silly little corner where a middle aged karen's view of everyone else's "sillyness" is taken to 11. The sports are silly and the names are silly and the society is silly but once the baddie kills himself for the third-ish time using bullshit Wand Rules rowling pulled from her ass Harry and friends work for the silly state like good little slaves. Harry doesn't need to put his wand down or take off his wizard robes and come home, or start a new life away from wizardry in secret with the wife he met in magicland. The fantasy no longer has an end point even though no effort was put into the plagiarized world.
Twilight enchanted dumb women almost as much as Fifty Shades.
Don't get me started on the Isekai shit. Stop me if you've heard this one. A human goes to a fantasy land and becomes overpowered and gets a harem BUT... he's the bad guy or a chick or the bad guy and a chick or on a team of retarded women or he's got a sword or a gun or a fucking smartphone.
Society has gone from viewing fantasy as a creative exercise to an exercise in creating a vehicle for fantasizing.
If someone two thousand years ago said "don't take shortcuts through the forest or the Hatchiyak will get you, it's six wolves at once!" there would be a film or show or book today about some whore fucking the Hatchiyak. People want to fuck the werewolves and fuck the vampires and fuck the whole fantasy world.
Everything's a fetish to someone. Wanting to fuck monsters has become more normal than unironically liking Nickelback.
I should post a "look at this photograph" pun but he's holding up a pic that debunks the holohoax.
Sore legs from leg day.
If I ever say "I stopped exercising and ate unhealthily today" it means I am a faggot.
I have the only girl I need right here. My pony waifu is superior to all humie thots.
So many of the good men I know are single because no femoid thots want anything to do with them.
Typical females are spending their most fertile years getting treated like a "goddess" by countless pathetic men and ploughed like a whore by countless slutty men instead of trying to form a meaningful bond with a good man.
Society can't function if it glamorizes and romanticizes females for existing comfortably on the cock carousel with pockets full of OnlyFans simp money. Society needs a clear idea of what a good female should be and the balls to say anything less than that is a failure. Thots fundamentally chose pleasure over family and their young, meaning they are failures as women.
That woman I gave up on...
She's messaging me now and trying to suck up to me by going back on all the dumb feminist shit she used to say. I think she wants me back so badly she's willing to change.
Cool, keep it up man. How long can you run?>>3402>change back
The reality is, she "changed" her "outer self" for you. She's going back into regular mode, undoing camo because it isn't needed any more. Imagine reverting a minecraft skin back to default. I'm no expert on this but when it makes sense tell her to buck off, or just ignore her, women like that.
For about 1 to 2 minutes. Is that good? I'm still new to running.
She showed me sexual art she'd been drawing even though she's normally a false-virtue-signalling prude when it comes to art of females. I told her how she could improve that piece of art and her character design and she's been silent since then.
She is acting precisely as her hormones dictate. There is no change to her behavior pattern.
She wants me
This is probably because she failed to get any romantic messages on valentine's.
btw I need to get a better meal plan. What's a good balance of fruit/veg and meats and sometimes spaghetti ball of nays?
She's gone dark again. She's refusing to communicate with me or respond to anything I say. Keeping quiet until I say something she wants to reply to or she feels the urge to talk to me again. Her manipulative tactics would probably cause immense psychological distress to a weak little boy terrified that he'd said or done something to upset her and "make her" act this way.
But I know she is a cunt. And I do not enjoy her presence. So the lack of it doesn't bother me.
Maybe I should stop wanting to fix her. Maybe I should stop helping her with her godawful and swiftly abandoned "passion project" shitty webcomic ideas since she is never willing to put on her big girl panties and work hard to get shit finished. Maybe if a woman's spoiled from the start by her homewrecking divorcethief mother she can't ever psychologically adjust to life as an adult in the real world.
I know she is stupid and choosing to endlessly repeat the bad behaviours school and her mother taught her.
Maybe I'm the fool for thinking I can just magically cure all of that with a few clever dialogue option choices.
This woman is the dumbest woman I know and that's saying something because I have met a lot of dumb women.
Also, I'm still fit. Getting fitter. I've ordered more weight for my barbells so I can lift even heavier weights now. I want to become buffer.
Went a whole day without talking to her. That'll show her.
Also still exercising. I can do 22 pushups now
Keep up the good food, maximize the brain power and broadening of horizons, and strengthening the body and will.>pic
Be the master of your own mental culture. With that you can adjust things for you to harvest magnitudes.>>3422>Maybe I'm the fool for thinking I can just magically cure all of that with a few clever dialogue option choices.
Yes. Technically that is an option, but that requires a social finesse and velvet glove (with an exactness and strength that can shift) and to know exactly where and how to maximize your message in the right way. Now extrapolate that to every person that 'needs' to be fixed.>That'll show her.
If someone is truly seriously a detriment in many aspects it may be good to just cut everything off. So who cares, scrub the mind energy away and repurpose it to your means.
I will say my attachment and longevity for relationships is poor so take this with a grain of salt.>On the nature of the (1 standard deviation, aka normal fags) human Female essence.
To be forever sensitive and effected by everything.
It's like sand, it gets everywhere. It can be either soothing, helpful, irritating, or deadly if handled wrong.
Like a dog.Imagine a boat, on a lake. The boat is her and the reality system, the lake is the unconscious, subconscious, and conscious absorbing all the info. It's just sort of dumped into the lake, and that makes waves.
The water splashes at the boat, and expects the boat to act like water. A boat can do that absorbing the energy, providing tranquility and clarity into the depths of the lake. Water isn't smart, but it can get anywhere and everywhere.
The secret to having her getting shit done is a healthy amount of dog treats. By that I mean social stimulation and really giving subtle praise. Akin to a giving a puzzle box they naturally want to solve it.
But, this isn't Your loyal best friend kind of dog, that happens to be someehat like playdoh. This is a stray dog, cat hybrid left in an ally to eat garbage. Possibly with enough diseases to give high end antibiotics a scare.
So handle appropriately. But keep in mind in the above situation you're the Terminator with an iron will and an interior of gold and steel.
Thank you. I can feel my mind and body growing stronger.
What kind of "Puzzle boxes" should I give to her?
>>3433>What kind of "Puzzle boxes" should I give to her?>give to her?
Nonono. You must always be an island unto yourself. Never ever reward bad behavior.<More on that later.>What kind of "Puzzle boxes"
Imagine an open world adventure. Everything is normal, except one day the sky turns red for no reason and everything else is the same.
Mysteries, and Curiosity.
This is a rabbit trail to a solid conclusion that is obvious to a logical stable mind, but the closest most obvious solution must obviously be false. So in theory going from the solid conclusion and take at least three steps sideways that has multiple meanings and paths which are all true.
>>3434><More on that later.
On second thought the story doesn't apply. Long and short girl makes threats, guy continues as normal, girl breaks down as threats are meaningless and apologies, guy accepts continues as normal. Still isn't actually the guy's problem.
The time frame is about three years? Ish. Of sorts.
Jimmies still remain unrustled.
Right the whole point. You are the solid rock, if you are perfectly solid and have conquered yourself with love and kindness (ect.) nothing is out of reach. Because you can build upon yourself reliably up and beyond to do what you're heart, mind, and soul requires and desires.
Bending, and adjusting and being flexible still means you are rock solid.
Their waves shall break on the shores, yet everything important will be secure and ready for their functions.
The point being you've satisfied yourself and improved to a point where you know yourself fully and completely and honestly to know the world as you know it, as it is, and as others view it, and how they really view it.
You're right. I am the rock. The handsome, manly, powerful rock.
What puzzles shall challenge her with?
Important part<You provide structure, a wire frame, a direction. When you stop the comments amd complements the project STOPS. Spaced appropriately of course, but the inner drive isn't there for them they might want to do something, but can't, because they don't have an engine.
They'll do whatever with your proud smile, and a word or two. Every once in a while like a lottery or gatcha, or lootboxes, a suprise for them.>>3436
What do you want her to do? Mind you, the sources I'm pulling from is for significant other, not a random hoe. Also not in a work setting, but I think it could work maybe.
Anyway it boils down to two things more or less. Spot the object, and Social deductions, and Implications.
See their whole world is everything around them (this is for the average normalish woman). They have a shape they prefer 'internally' but it will always fold, stretch, squish, and deform. So they seek out those who can hold them in their preferred shape or good enough. At the very minimum they (normal tier) want something with hardness and no cracks.
Deforming their preferred shape is possible to suit yourself, but they have to coaxed into thinking it's their idea. Or else they will start a bitchiness meltdown, where a backstab will happen.
Little comments and side remarks, not often. In the spouce example a man may comment that they haven't seen them wear earings lately. The wife would ponder that statment. Soon enough she'll try dressing up, and making herself presentable. If the man surprises with ear rings, 'they would match your eyes'. She'll try to wear them.
You also have the reigns on their creative side (ie the lake of junk that is always there just submerged). A comment about giving painting a try, or weaving, or writing, or whatever. They make stuff that is of their nature, which is fluid.
First keep in mind they are mentally teenagers more or less.
You provide structure, a wire frame, a direction. When you stop the comments amd complements the project STOPS. Spaced appropriately of course, but the inner drive isn't there for them they might want to do something, but can't, because they don't have an engine.
They'll do whatever with your proud smile, and a word or two. Every once in a while like a lottery or gatcha, or lootboxes, a suprise for them.
When we first met, I thought she was creative because she made more then than she does now. Plus I had low standards for art quality. It would be great if she could become a great artist and animator and stop wasting all her time on twitter.
She says she's started taking anti-depressants that are supposedly making her vomit, giving her headaches, and increasing her "Anxiety". But she was told these symptoms and bad feels will go away in two weeks once her brain adjusts to taking them, then aaaaaaaall her bad feels will go away.
God I fucking hate that word. That anti-word.
It's not an english word, it's an anti-english word.
It's a worthless newspeak term.
Humans use words to communicate ideas, no matter their language. Oppai means boobs. Bonjour means hello. Anxiety means NOTHING AND EVERYTHING AND WHATEVER THE FUCK WHOEVER'S SAYING IT WANTS IT TO MEAN, which makes it WORTHLESS a word.
Go ahead, take anything anyone's ever said about Anxiety and replace it with the term BadFeel.
Because that's what the word is.
A synonym for BadFeel.
"This music gives me Anxiety/BadFeel so I don't like it"
"I can't go outside, I have anxiety/BadFeel so I need to stay curled up in bed all day drowning my brain in comfort porn"
It is the end of intellectual discussion about your thoughts and feelings.
A faulty argument against the idea of personal responsibility.
The word itself and the ideas behind it discourage you from looking at your feelings and problems and figuring out what you can solve.
The word encourages you to throw up your hands, muddy the waters and ignore the causes of your problems, absolve yourself of the responsibility to handle your shit like an adult, and cry "I have Anxiety!".
I don't think she can be saved. Not if she's willing to drug herself on twitter-fumes and homosexual Transformers character fetishization and nostalgic cartoon comfort porn all day, and turn to actual drugs when she develops too much tolerance to those things.
I want to save her. I swear to God, I want to save her. But is it possible? Is she truly determined to throw her individuality away to join the lefty collective? Is she truly determined to medicate her potential out of herself?
Alright as a person with an interest in psychology, anti-depressants fuck you up. Kills the creative side, but in exchange the person isn't drowning in negative stress chemicals and hormones.
Depending on how the body reacts to that drug.
Birth control pills fuck up brain chemistry as well so... something to keep in mind.
Any possible negative sensation is increased, but in the end it's either take the drugs, kill your self, or buck up and enjoy the suffering.
Positive affects are deadened. Depending on the severity.
So no, 'simply' telling someone to pull up the bootstraps and fix themselves in that position would probably lead to suicide.
Since she's a woman it would probably also be a failed suicide. To be honest depressed people are vulnerable.
Because of the prior information she may be ineloquent to the limited sensation and word bank she derives her world from.<
Of heresay and half recollected rumors that may or may not be true. Exercise, good food, and sunlight helps. I mean that is usually a recommendation regardless.
I talked to her but she's ghosting me again. She's so tiresome that way. I wonder how many days it will take her to get over herself and reply.
I don't think she can be saved. I've known her for years but she has never listened to me once unless I was telling her what she wanted to hear.
Maybe if I was always cool she would have respected me from day one?
Weights finally arrived. Time to lift heavier shit.
Is this a discussion thread or a Facebook blog?
Making a completely new thread every time I have a question about women or exercising seemed like a space-filling waste plus this seems like a good accountability thing a self help site told me to do. If I say "today I was a faggot who did not exercise" I get called a faggot.
But I should probably stop the daily "I exercised today and nothing interesting happened" posts and only post when there's something important to say or ask, right?
A friend showed me this video about "Planet Fitness gym" while saying "Hey you're into fitness right? Check out these idiots doing it wrong"
and jesus christ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V40s9deHg1A&ab_channel=PewDiePie
I expected the idiots who exercise incorrectly on machines that display clear instructions.
But women workers bitching at men for grunting a little while lifting 200 and karening "Sorry isn't good enough" at him when he apologizes?
Bullshit on the walls like "No judgement!" along with an alarm to slam whenever someone's too masculine and sounds too masculine when exercising, and the alarm's got anti-man speech on it that insults any man who came here to lift?
Some fat fuck woman refusing service to a man for having a water bottle she considers too big, pointedly ignoring him when he uses manlogic and manfacts that no lowly femoid could understand, and then calling the fucking cops on him when he doesn't do what she wants and go away? The man in that video isn't pissed at the woman, he's genuinely stu
Women who get to attack men and smash shit without anyone calling the cops because they don't want her getting arrested and suffering the consequences of her actions? It wouldn't surprise me if she's pissed at them for not having her favourite "healthy" snack bar flavour today, or something equally trivial.
Some feminized cunt stamping on the weight a man half his age is lifting and shoving him for "ego lifting" (duckduckgo says it's when you go to the gym solely to be seen lifting heavy weights while grunting "too much" or focus more on lifting heavy weights than exercising properly with them)
Ladies and gentlemen, take a look at what happens when your gym is run by women and its policies are determined by women. Anti-masculine policies for what is already a gender-neutral health-improving pasttime because the unfit karens in charge sometimes tell themselves it'll help attract idiots who feel "intimidated" (envious) around big men who visit the gym for a reason. This is society when it puts making wimminfolk comfy over trying to provide the best possible service and compete with your competitors. I'm fucking glad I got my home gym together. Sure it's just freeweights and one bench but at least I'll never have to deal with these fucking karens.
Women. What a fucking joke. At real gyms you'll see fit hardcore women who want to be strong like men, and at shit gyms like this you'll see women who want men to be weak like them.
Also, have you ever noticed how often immature women will pointedly ignore you and try to physically signal things to you like "I'm not interested in what you have to say to me" where a more mature person would either fucking say what they're thinking or recognize what situation they're in and try to act more mature than a typical entitled woman with power, and then when those signals don't work they'll escalate to calling their pet "alpha" over (typically the state and its enforcers) to get their way and restore their oh-so-vital emotional state to a positive one?
Most women are fucking pathetic.
It's illegal for kids to prank-call the cops. It's illegal to call the cops for non-emergencies in most countries, since cops are supposed to be stopping/punishing bad guys instead of dealing with incredibly minor domestic disputes only a woman could get butthurt about, right? So why the hell do women feel so fucking comfortable going full karen and calling the cops on the slightest fucking slights, or even completely imaginary problems? Oh, right, it's because in this femininely irrational and destructively gynocentric society the safety of men is put below the feelings of femoids.
Giving women power, any form of power, is like giving date rape drugs to serial rapists. They're going to abuse what they're given if they think they can get away with it. If there's no legal punishment or societal shame for women who treat the world as sexual playgrounds and women who are addicted to abusing their power over others they'll only get worse as today's bad female behaviour becomes the next generation's normal.
What the fuck was mankind thinking when he gave up control of his society to the jews and females? Did he give it all up willingly thinking it would all go back to normal once, some day about hundred years from now, everything got so bad that "Muh great awakening" would happen and he'd get to smugly grin from the Old Folks' Home at the feminists who lose their privileges while retaining basic human rights and get to go back to being beloved and excellently-treated housewives doted upon by loyal and self-sacrificing men? Fuck that, women are evil. They're just fundamentally evil pack animals and women worth anything on their own merits are the exception, not the rule.
I keep telling myself I dislike women now and I'm sick of their shit but how do I stop myself from longing for them?
Thinking about the perfect trad qt wife or chad supportive fun tomboy gf I could have had if the jews didn't abort/feministize her hurts.
Oh also i am still fit and exercising daily. Walking long distances with a heavy backpack or weighted vest does a body good.
Stop that. That's how the gay infects some people. Yes, haha, the gay as of its some sort of illness one can contract. Twisting yourself up to fulfill your desires no matter the cost does happen. So if they can't be a female...
You do long for women, and you long for the right sort of woman that is the right match for you, and you both. Don't bemoan the fact they make it hard, seek what is here and now.
You long for a waifu martial woman. This is something correctable now while it's easier. This distinction is important for your subconscious.
Make sure you know what you do truly want, and it has to be put into a positive word set. That is what will happen, so be exact, truthful and careful.
I don't understand what you mean. But when I think of what a good woman would be, those I know IRL are shit so all I can think of are anime characters. But instead of just naming characters with traits I like I'll say what I like.
I like it when women are kind, considerate, supportive, and sweet. I like long hair and a fit body with huge boobs and a great ass and long legs. I didn't see kindness towards me growing up so any of that stuff really gets to me, probably more than it should. I also like the "tomboy gf" kind of women who are capable, fit, positively masculine, confident and fun to be around. It would be great if she had the same good hobbies as me so we'd have something in common but that's not necessary. Smart women are appealing but only if they are actually smart, ledditor "i memorized 6 languages and everything science books said so that means I need to be an argumentative prick who can never let any man get the last word in or be right or else I feel bad about myself and I literally cannot handle even a single second of discomfort of any kind or be okay unless I feel like everyone's eyes are on me and nobody else" bitches are annoying. I want a huge family with more than seven children so she'd have to be okay with that too, and if she had any sort of dream or goal in life it would be great if it didn't conflict with being a good mother. I like it when women are uncomplicated and straightforward and honest with themselves and me, and I hate it when they try to fuck with my head or lie to me or use me or blame me for cancerous toxically-feminine behaviour that's destructive to themselves and others. I don't want to call myself a furry because I'm not exclusively attracted to animal-people and I don't talk in that stupid "uwu i wuv ur widdle paws" language. But animal-eared girls and monster girls are really fucking appealing. Maybe it's because more body parts like wings or horns or tails means more woman to love, maybe it appeals to the natural desire in man to own an animal and learn how it works and be a good pet owner, maybe it's because once you get to know an animal you know what to expect from them and what they like(headpats)/dislike(touching their tail) while women tend to be stupid and mindless and overemotional cripplingly irrational creatures not even God could figure out, I don't know. Maybe a psychologist could project some psychobabble onto me to explain my desire to fuck Twilight Sparkle/Rainbow Dash/Pinkie Pie from FIM or Centorea/Rachnera/Suu from Monster Musume.
Back when I used animufag forums I was often called boring for liking "boring" one-note sweet waifus rather than the aggressive and unreasonably violent or chokingly clingy and psychotically possessive or obnoxiously haughty and bratty or borderline retarded bitches they said they liked more. But liking "interesting" characters who treat others like shit and create situatuons that are entertaining to watch isn't the same as actually thinking they'd make good wife and child-raising material. Sometimes they'd call me a "bandwagoner" for liking commonly accepted likeable female characters like Winry or Hinata.
I know that realistically I'd never get a genetically engineered catgirl gd. I'll never get to play with a catgirl's ears just like I'll never get to massage a sports tomboy gf's shoulders after a long day exercising together. I'll probably never meet a woman who's actually as smart as she thinks she is, or a woman able to see through and reject jewish propaganda and embrace being a good wife and mother even if it means turning down the lifetime of alimony and fleeting pleasures the jews promise race-traitor women. Men these days call good women "unicorns" because they're rare enough to be mythical.
Don't get me wrong, I know I'd need to be amazing if I wanted to impress and get any chance to talk to and potentially bond with an actually-amazing woman. I'm still exercising. I'm still reading and learning and getting shit done. I'll probably never meet a woman who's absolute perfection but something close enough to that ideal would be great.
Is what I said wrong? Would it have been more positive if I said "I will meet an amazing woman!" instead of "I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her"? Aside from spending ten hours a day searching different dating apps and hobby forums for people who claim to be female and don't seem completely awful, I don't know how I'd meet someone like that.
tldr you want to marry not just meet the one who loves you and vise versa>>3467>>3465
How you say stuff is important. Especially to get what you want.>I keep telling myself I dislike women now
This bit right there, keeping racist expectations is good but the mind will bend and twist and complain till what you say to it comes true.>I'm sick of their shit
Good to list the good and the bad. >>3465
That works, while there is quite a bit more focus on the negative (which is good to know, and is necessary) the positive traints that are desirable should be expanded if need be.>how do I stop myself from longing for them?
Stoicism, or mastery over the mind and emotions, or meditation works.
But that's not the point, that longing has to be redirected away from cunts and towards good wife material.>Would it have been more positive if I said "I will meet an amazing woman!" instead of "I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her"?
Also making a perfect person isn't great either. So that line I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her
is true and real, but the wording is imprecise because the brain without alot of training and effort REMOVES NEGATIVES FROM YOUR WORDS.<I guess it would be nice if a completely-awful woman existed and I met her
That would be shitty.
So<My wife, who is kind, considerate, supportive, and sweet, capable, fit, positively masculine, positive feminine as well, confident and fun to be around and genuinely smart that would also be at least great friend martial as well, also having the same goals and morality I possess, with our desires that align perfectly, we will have lots of our biological children more numerous than seven, understandable and straightforward and honest with themselves and me, has self control has emotional resiliency, communicates perfectly with me, is at least a good person that woman exists and we're happily married with our long lives.
Or even We are happily married together.
The whole past tense in a present tense (sorta) word structure means that is has happened. For the mind that means it's concrete even if it technically isn't now, (the mind doesn't understand the future normally) it knows the past and will make moves to accomplish that goal. So meeting may be the first step the last end goal is the final destination. So meeting is separate from having the wife.
That's why learning as much about everything and becoming the best you can be helps as it is steps to have that goal to manifest.
Yes, the (((fucks))) have made it harder. It is still possible so you can do it.
If I tell myself I am already married to the perfect waifu will I eventually meet her?
I have a stupid friend who feels bad about having no gf but when I say "Its ok bro women are shit" he doesn't listen
This guy's different from the stupid friends I've complained about so far. Up until now I didn't realize he was stupid.
I swear I like my friends, even the ones I haven't talked about yet. But talking about their good points would compromise anonymity.
I have no idea where to put this but media's boner for halfbreed characters (especially halfbreed protagonists) always bugged me.
It seems damn near every hero is only half normal human and half something else. Could be half god or half monster or half animal or anything like that.
Whenever race is a vital part of the story, superpowers almost never come from the (white) human half of the character unless the author pussies out and claims it's a general "humanity is special! Humanity fuck yeah!" thing even though everything good or cool you can praise about humanity mainly applies to whites.
And even when the story's got superpowers that don't come from race, there's usually a stat buff somewhere in the most important characters thanks to nonhuman heritage.
And if you aren't sure how to make a character exotic but not too exotic, mixing a familiar and unfamiliar race is a common trick for some reason.
I get many of the reasons why it's so common.
Besides the jewish "it subtly promotes racemixing and the idea that a half human half beast would be just as good as or better than a full human" subversion.
Making the hero half human makes him or her relatable and the magic monster half adds superpowers and potential plot importance.
If the hero's the result of a union between two magical diametrically-opposed creatures that's just inherently cool. Like being both vampire and werewolf or both angel and demon.
Combining two superpowered monsters/aliens/gods/whatever lets you give the character even more superpowers and specialness and importance.
It also makes writing the character's arc easy: First he doesn't know how to be a synthesis of two different or even completely opposed things and he feels torn between two worlds and nobody really gets him and he might even struggle with the urges or social stigmas of one or both races but then he figures it out.
But it seems damn near universal. Even anthro characters which are already half human and half animal (even if you say they're actually evolved humanoid animals or aliens who resemble earth animals for no reason) tend to get in on it when they want to make one character unusual or special. Insert tired cliche jokes about neon green and rainbow wolves with random markings and patterns trying to look unique in a sea of freaks here.
It's so damn universal that the fanbase of Ben 10, a show where a fully white fully human boy finds an alien watch that lets him transform into assorted genetically-perfected aliens at peak physical fitness, is absurdly obsessed with fusions and halfbreeds and hybrids.
And don't get me started on how the Pokemon fandom's obsessed with fusions and hybrids and so on.
Anyway... I've noticed this trope appear in my own writing.
Almost every main character I've designed over the years is a hybrid.
Has my mind been hacked?
I like the idea of fusions and I like giving characters superpowers. The characters I designed to be hybrids aren't just that way for the sake of extra superpowers and looking different. They're deep.
But is my focus on this meme the result of years of societal indoctrination to think "hybrids are cool"?
oh wait i forgot they retconned Ben to have Anodite ancestry.
Are you still only half-human if your ancestor is a magical creature that lacks DNA?
that one faggot desperate to yell at me and pretend he's talking to me, if he read that sentence, would scream "It's not retconning it was always there you're just too dumb to get it like I do! To be fair you have to have a high IQ to understand ben 10 and appreciate Kishimoto's borderline fetish for the Uchiha and how his unique ninja world lost fucking all of its appeal in its escalating quest to become DBZ".
Thank you fren
Lately I've been thinking about very old friends from my "hardcore brony" days... Why can't I take them on this mountain climb with me? Back when I was an escapism-obsessed coombrained fag I knew many other people like that. But I've grown and they haven't. They get mad when I talk about Peterson or exercising or the progress I've made and we have nothing to talk about except whatever bad show they've watched this week. I don't know how to help them. But maybe I should stop with the wannabe-hero shit and focus on myself.
How do you solve the "I am afraid of being alone but being charismatic with friends takes effort" problem?
You're welcome. I've got two quotes for you.
"Its better to be alone than to be among poor company"
"Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy, and not everyone who pulls you out of shit is your friend."T. 'That guy' who is still talking shit in other threads
Makes sense. I'll keep these quotes in mind.
Still exercising, now increasing vest weight when jogging.
I should get more plants for my room. I feel lightheaded and sleepy after a few hours here.
How do you deal with the reluctance to start new things due to fear that you'll get too obsessed with them?
Also man it feels GOOD to realize I finally officially give no shits about that bitch I stopped talking to.
I am my own man now. No more slave collar around my heart with a chain wrapped around that bitch's finger.
She is not my burden to carry. She is not my responsibility. She cannot be saved. If I want to ever help people I need to recognize when it's time to move on.
Man it's weird to think Betty Boop was considered a sex icon once. She's tiny and meh-tier compared to some cartoon cute girls (i was about to write cuties but that fucking jew movie ruined the word) I could name. Imagine old people on an anime forum arguing over whether Betty Boop or the woman from Popeye is a better waifu. Haha, the thought of old people arguing over cartoons seems as anachronistic as the thought of roman soldiers playing yugioh.
I want to cum inside rainbow dash unironically. And Twilight. And Pinkie. I've written so many date scenario fanfics to cope with my longing creatively. These girls are so perfect once you ignore all the episodes in which they are retarded or jokes or retarded jokes. Do these urges make me pathetic or does my nofap streak and creative writing coping mechanism mean I'm doing good?
Climbing aloe. It's really easy to keep, and has lots of medicinal properties, whether ingested or used topically
Thank you. I'll get some.
How do you deal with the reluctance to get into new things due to fear that they'll swallow you whole and make you obsessed with them?
An addictive personality has ran through my family lines for generations. I remember stories from my grandmother about shit my grandfather did when he was alive. For every single person in my family tree, they have their own obsession or are actively searching for one after their old obsession got boring.
You're a fucking genius, this climbing aloe is great. I've got it in my window and I love it.
Its wonderful as an aftershave. Pluck one 'leaf' and squeeze the gel out.
>>3562Also, dont forget to name it,... if you're into that sort of thing. Additionally, you'll want to re-pot it every few years. As long as it doesnt freeze, it will bounce back after any adversity, including drought forgetting to water it for weeks
Re-pot? How do I do that properly?
Also should I keep the plastic sleeves that came with these plants or throw them away? Some of those sleeves are starting to look kind of greenish.
Dont worry, it's easy. When the time comes, the root structure will become a densely packed mass of dirt and roots interwoven and shit. You just get a larger pot, fill it with dirt, leaving a recess in the approximate size/shape of the root structure, slide it out of the old pot and stick it in the hole. Sprinkle a little topsoil on the top, put some water in it, and that's it>plastic sleeves
No idea what those are, prolly should get rid of em
Are you sure? The plastic sleeves help keep water in the plant pots and keep soil from falling out of them.
>>3568>are you sure
No, but if you keep them be careful not to over-water the plant, since it will be retaining more water that way
Opening up about my life makes me feel a little better, so I'll say more stuff.
My father was a stupid, violent, aggressive prick who secretly loathed everyone and had a mediocre impression of a "Jolly fat guy" he used whenever he wanted to blend in with normal people
His understanding of the world around him was incredibly shallow
his political views were laughably simplistic
He trusted the TV news and he was an addict with multiple addictions
He seemed to think being a grumpy violent bastard made him manlier than me.
He grew up as one of four boys with a whiny whore mother and a missing father figure, and it shows.
He imitates her bitchiness without even realizing it. He smoked around me as a baby and did the same around my dead sister, he smoked while my mom was pregnant, he smoked from the age of fourteen until he got cancer somewhere around his 40s and was forced to stop with the aid of nicotine patches and similar shit. I have athsma and it's a miracle I don't have cancer.
He drank heavily and loved to invent reasons to scream at me, smack me around, and take away what few joys a shut-in child with sabotaged self-confidence like me had. I remember this one time when I was around eight, he sent me up alone to the roof of the house because he wanted me to... I forget what exactly, but I had to put tiles on the roof and I remember how pissed off he got at me for not already knowing the perfect way to get the job done. He didn't tell me the perfect way. He just ordered me up there, yelled at me for not already knowing how to do one of his jobs for him, and whined until he eventually gave up on delegating the task like a woman and decided to do it himself. He got genuinely fucking pissed at me for not giving a shit about football and not being what he thought a man should be.
But he never taught me how to fight or avoid fights
Never taught me how to exercise
Never taught me how to fix cars
Never did anything to inspire me
Never passed on any wise sayings
Never helped with anything, and enjoyed getting in the way and making himself a nuisance
Loved dismissing anything I had to say, even when I was right. Screamed harder if I turned out to be right
He taught me at an early age to stay quiet when a power-tripping big kid with more power than he deserves screams at you, which prepared me for life at school
Because of course, someone this pathetic wouldn't ever bother homeschooling his kids
Even though he had no job+obligations
He gave me shit for not going outside much even though there was nothing for me out there, my parents made no effort to get me into youth clubs, my parents made every effort to embarass me by telling nonsense stories to other parents for sympathy points even though it meant everyone thought a quiet beaten puppy like myself was actually a tantrum-throwing plate-breaking brat and bed-wetting loser at home, and my father gave me shit for not spending days outside even though there were bullies my age and bullies older than me and other chavs outside.
We did not grow up in a good neighbourhood. It did not have nice people in it.
Whenever I tried to think of a good male role model, the first things to pop into my head were Uncle Iroh from Avatar and Grandpa Max from Ben 10, not my own father. That fat bastard was everything I didn't want to become. When I feel tempted to break my diet and eat some candy I think of that fat fucker and the disgust keeps me on the right path.
He met my mother in a factory but pussied out when something broke near him and he got scared(it couldn't have killed him but "traumatized" people get more cash), and he got benefits for a while. Then he got a job as a taxi driver for a while because his friend told him there was fucktons of money in taxi driving, more than he was making doing nothing. He made some money and told everyone else and eventually there were too many taxi drivers and taxi companies. And too many taxi companies were owned by women who loved to show extreme favoritism when it came to who got jobs assigned to them and who didn't
He whined to me but put up with incompetent aggressive women-bosses and their shame-tactics for years b4 going solo
When you eat yourself into obesity at an early age
remain fat forever
and spend a couple of hours a day sitting around in a car or driving it and spend the rest of your life in bed or sitting on an expensive reclining leather chair playing world of warcraft and Mafia Wars (a facebook game) on your overpriced scam of a laptop
you'll eventually fuck up your legs so bad that you'll seem perfectly fine and have no problem walking your dog or walking to the bar and back but the government will still pay you to do nothing because you whined about huwt widdle weggies that are fine when cameras aren't rolling
He was a greedy piece of shit, and lazy.
When he was told kids who stay in High School longer get paid by the government for it, he made sure that was my fate for a few years even though I went to a speshul school for retards that gave no qualifications because I'm "autistic" just like every other human on the planet with at least one out of 9999999 personality quirks/subjective traits/abilities/disabilities according to a quack doctor.
Early on in my life I showed signs that I was a smart kid. I liked reading books, especially adult books. But if my dad caught me reading his collection of shitty escapist fantasy novels instead of the incredibly thin picture-book versions of disney movies, I'd get in trouble for not acting like he believed a boy should. Same went for when I traded Smarties Meltdown for the PS2 for an Action Replay and used cheat codes, when I hacked Pokemon games as a kid for fun, when I downloaded and learned Game Maker as a kid for sonic fangames...
A smart greedy cunt would monetize kid-me but a dumb greedy cunt would instead sabotage his life and then bitch at him for not having a rent-paying MinWage job even though my benefits got them more than minimum wage.
What a prick.
My potatoes finally started penetrating themselves so I buried all 14 of them in a planter full of soil.
How often should I water these potatoes if I want optimal potato farming productivity?
Another dumb fuck I know got the vaccine. I showed him funny memes and facts and articles and videos and they all went over his head. The memes made him laugh but he didn't think deeply about the meme's joke about the absurdity of this situation.
When I think of my birth father I think of what I don't want to become: a fat useless lump of lard reliant on gubimint gibs and brainwashed by the state to love it, addicted to smoking and drinking and gambling and the most pathetic types of games imaginable. He used to give me shit about having no gf but he had no dating advice. Just expected my life to be easier than his despite his best efforts. The very thought of him is like a portable picture of a fatass that inspires you to lift harder and jog faster. It's like that for me anyway. I've been called a cynic these days but I'm usually right to see the worst in people instead of ignoring it. If someone ever shows something good in them I see that too. I'm not religiously cynical. I wouldn't ignore good shit just to feel right about the bad. Ignoring bad shit makes me a retard who gets exploited.
When I think of my mother I think the same thing except she's a woman so I can't physically turn out like her. But I still don't want to mentally end up like her. She was a cruel manipulative short-sighted piece of shit who had bipolar syndrome and loved making that everyone else's problem. Loved playing the role of a put-upon mother whose life is just soooo full of reasons to complain because her knittingfag friends complained about their lives too. Is "fashionably depressed" a term? Her coping mechanism for dealing was problems was to cry about them and blame the nearest man she hadn't already lost all faith in. So me, because she expected nothing good from my father but expected cash from me despite treating me like shit and sabotaging me at every possible turn. She loved her boomer knitting and minion memes but never tried hard to put money on the table with her knitting shit. Funny how that minion cartoon character meant to appeal to children caught the attention of the scummiest children on the planet: boomerscum. I'd accuse her of also having histrionic personality disorder but I once met a woman with even more of that. She definitely had it. I should write a book about myself and include chapters about her and what she put me through and got away with. It's hard for me to believe what happened with her and I was fucking there. That bitch tried to ruin my life and falsely accuse me of assaulting her over bullshit someone else said to her on a naruto roleplay on Blingee. Not a major naruto roleplaying forum, the comment section on fucking blingee. The silly website with gaudy GIFs. And her writing skills? Shit like "fire go everywhere and blood go everywhere". If you told me she was retarded I'd believe you. I want to be a good christian but I find it hard to believe in a god who can't protect his people or inspire his people to protect the vulnerable from the godless. No wonder so many people assume other forms of spirituality must have some hidden secret that lets it outdo christianity. We've already seen it fail in our own lands with our own eyes whether we realize it or not. Maybe man wasn't meant to be raised without a god. Maybe a principle you're willing to compromise on to please a leftist cunt isn't a principle. Maybe I'm an idiot for continuing to pray. But I have to believe in God and Jesus or I can't believe my parents and all the other traitors to the west go to hell when they die of old age. Have you ever watched some self-centered asshole who treated his loving parents like shit until they died assume you're just like him and rant at you with the usual "You should cherish those related to you because they might die one day" shit? If my father died of cancer my childhood would have been happier. I feel too old to have any doubt about that. It would have given mom a real reason to cry fashionably in front of her friends so she'd stop trying to make more reasons in other areas of her life. Same shit with my mother. If she died he'd be forced to learn to cook and stop wasting away and bloating at his laptop if he wanted food. Maybe it would make him a better man if nobody was around to bring him beer. Or maybe he'd just have me bring him more beer, he usually did. If they both died I would have gone into the foster system and met a decent enough family that wants me around or I would have gotten passed around like a hot potato until I eventually got old enough to live alone. I went through that for a while and the "misery" of it is overrated. I'd call it dehumanizing but I'm used to it. You see some families. You sleep in an alright bed. They keep you around for a while and then trade you in at the abused puppy shelter for a cuter one that makes them feel again once they get used to having you around. That's how I was treated anyway. At the time I was so goddamn desperate for someone to tell me they loved me. That never happened and I got over it. Someone else probably has nicer or sadder stories than me. I have metaphorical armour around my heart and I find it incredibly difficult to take off. I still have no idea what to write in my damn recovery journal or whatever the fuck this is. Maybe I should have stuck to saying "I exercised today. Nothing to report" or "I increased my weight today".
speaking of which I increased my weights today. Better a real weighted vest than a backpack with weights.
It means a lot to me that you let me say this here. There are no lefty cucks trying to demoralize me. Nobody's putting on a tough guy act/trying to intentionally push my buttons to feel like "le trolle mastermind". Nobody's simping for the women I mention now and then and whiteknighting for them. It's probably hard to believe anyone would do that if you've never seen a simp do that. But thank you for keeping this place free of leftist shills. I'm healthier now than I've ever been.
Just got done reading this thread and wanted to commend you on making it this far. If there's one thing that separates you from other people, it's your temerity. This and your growing self-awareness are the foundations upon which you shall build your new life.
As a fellow tulpafag I can't help but grin when I think of how well you and your pony get along. She sounds like a wonderful mate and I'm glad you have one another.
Please do not stop praying. It's tempting to see God as a great vindicator Who will visit wrath on sinners, yet we must also be aware of our own iniquity and induce others to Him through forgiveness and patience.
None of our suffering shall be in vain. If we steel ourselves for the persecution ahead and rely on Him, our fruitfulness and purpose as individuals will intersect and magnify in ways we could never dream of.
God bless you both.
Thank you. My tulpa girl doesn't enjoy talking to others any more but she's doing great, I make sure to give her time to be creative at least once a week and I let her help with my main projects.
Today a friend of mine showed me a weird video on his phone where this fat fucking landwhale of a woman with a disgustingly round face and an ass ruined by blubber slaps the shit out of one of those armless male MMA dummies meant for people who know what they're doing. She struggles to knock him over but when she does the camera jumpcuts to get him upright again. She slaps the rubber dummy guy, bites his nose and ear, turns to the camera like she's trying to pose, spits on him, spits on her hand and then slaps him, kicks him over from behind then stamps on his head, slaps him a bunch of times, breathes on the fucker weirdly, runs into him and struggles to shove him over with a wimpy tackle, grabs him from behind and screams while shaking him then drops him to let him fall over...I could take about a minute of this shit before I stopped the video.
My friend found it hilarious and thought the fetishy video uploaded by a bitch with mistress in the username was actually some "internet tough guy" antics.
but to me it seemed like some bizarre fetish shit because this video was ten minutes long and she uploaded at least four of these according to his recommended feed, probably more, and it had too damn many views. I don't know if some freaks wank to fatasses fetishistically catfighting with mannequins for bdsm humiliation bullshit while saying "god i wish that were me" in the comment section but I don't want to know so I didn't look. Degeneracy is weird. But to seem like a non-prude I put on a "Oh holy shit hahaha that was the funniest worst shit ever! I can feel my brain cells commiting sudoku!" act.
This reminds me of the time I went to SawCon
Still exercising multiple times a day.
saw a white dude in a shop with two badly behaved brown kids who ignored their dad until he threatened to not let them watch tv today. Then they screamed and feigned crying until he sighed and gave up on that. The kids grinned and bounced around and laughed at how easy it was to dupe their white father by making a scene. I'd guess they were somewhere around eight to ten.
Giving your kids white-as-fuck names like Lucas and Kevin won't give them souls.
Shit like this makes racemixing look bad.
meanwhile it's media that pretends a half human half elf or half human half demon or whatever would be superior to both its parents that tries its hardest to make racemixing look good.
Sometimes I fear that I'm too quick to judge others. How do I fix this?
>>3621>I'm too quick to judge others
You're right, I'm actually projecting onto myself because I think you're too quick to judge me.
Kidding, just kidding. Your response is silly and I don't know how to respond to it constructively.
Then again, this is pretty funny.
Here I am, self-reflecting and saying "Maybe I'm too quick to judge others".
And you just run in, shouting "No, YOU'RE too quick to judge others!"
Did you make sure you understood what I said before replying to it?
it's like something out of a cartoon.
I do not blame your pony for not talking. For the reasons you described above, I've found the tulpa community to be an exercise in misanthropy.
Have you considered tactful rejection of these videos? I realise some will misconstrue this behaviour as uninviting, yet like the food we eat, what we visually consume affects us indirectly.>>3621
Human beings are inherently judgemental creatures as our endocrinology is primed to separate and compartmentalise that which is foreign. I believe our judgemental nature can be harnessed for objective reasoning, yet this requires self-control and insight most are not used to.
I imagine you meditate frequently, so I suggest asking yourself why you feel so judgemental and identify how this takes place (if at all.) From there you can dig a bit deeper and trace this concern to your upbringing while catalouging self-counseling and de-escalation techniques. You can always ask your tulpa for help too, as they are beheld to psychological clarity by their very nature.
Do note that I am not asking you to act like a castrated sheep so much as outlining the importance of a calm and grounded demeanour. Such will not only make the world more bearable to live in, it too shall emphasise the importance of your ideals and Faith.
Thanks for the advice, it helped. I think I've got a better head on my shoulders now.
My tulpa believes fully hating humanity would be cringe since she's seen so many weirdos (like famous tranny Chatoyance, writer of The Conversion Bureau) do that. Besides I'm a human and she likes me. She sometimes misses talking to people daily like she did when she was young but also doesn't miss what massive faggots a ton of them were. Animufags just here to think about Yuyuko and Yakiko and Yakko's tits don't make for good conversation when their tulpas are one-note meme characters running on incredibly limited hardware. And you wouldn't believe how territorial and aggressive some of them got over whose waifu was developing mentally faster or who was doing more interesting shit in their mental world.
Isn't this "reality shifting" stuff weird? Escapism is such a popular pasttime around the world that the kids and teens are telling each other how to imagine the pain away and fantasize about boning Bakugo to dream the pain away. I don't think the generations that built first world countries had this problem. But escapism is getting bigger as the world gets worse. As VR gets cheaper and more common do you think we'll see more people fully retreat from reality into VR games and fake-relationship AI programs? We really do live in interesting times.
btw still exercising. I took a 3 day break from politics. Had a few moments of relapse where shit got political but overall I focused on my own life and walked around. I should get a treadmill.
Increasing weight. Exercising harder. Turning shit up to 11 on my abs.
Now and then I'll notice myself touching my own body without realizing it, as if even my subconscious mind can't believe how quickly I've improved and how quickly I've lost weight. I wish I owned weights my whole life! They're so convenient. You can use them whenever you have free time and get buff quicker. I eat healthy, I exercise, and it's a healthy source of pride in oneself and one's appearance. No wonder the jews want us all to be obese faggots. Being fat was depressing. Being this fit feels good. Knowing I've earned this body feels good. I'm tempted to get sleeveless shirts to show my arms off but I'm saving money.
The sad truth is that most of the individuals touted as beacons of wisdom and direction in the community are the same dishonest and abusive people who mistreated their tulpas and peers for a dopamine hit. Rather than seeing tulpas as spiritual guides or those who illuminate our highest aspirations of self, the concept is subverted to enable another layer of delusion, megalomania and hedonism, all of which is firmly rooted in the highest levels of theory and practise. This is unsurprising given the materialistic school of thought that occupies most parts of the subculture.
I'm assuming you're asking rhetorical questions, but I don't believe this escapism to be unusual. When cheap and plentiful resources exist in an unjust civilisation, people are given to odd modes of thought and decadence as there is no credible authority or shared common narrative to make their lives and service to each other meaningful. On the other hand there is no struggle to rally behind or any semblance of a family unit for others to confide in during times of mounting hardship, so others retreat into mediums where they believe they maintain some measure of control and security. It's an illusion meant to satisfy those with no real drive to improve or pursue independence while binding them to an exploitative and increasingly authoritarian system.>>3645
Great job on keeping faithful to your routine. I'm glad you're discovering your potential and exerting yourself. The only caveat I should mention is that we oughtn't be too proud of our bodies - rather than focusing on the finer details of our appearance, we should exercise to be healthy, discilpined and strong. If one's mortal coil is a temple where the Holy Spirit dwells, should it not be a place of humility and in good repair?
I wish you and your pone many happy and productive days. May the Lord bless and protect you both.
I have this friend but he's a dumbass and whenever the conversation gets political he whines. Even when he's the reason why it got political by bringing up shit like Fentanyl Floyd or whatever bullshit the TV told him about the Kung Flu or asking me questions with answers that end up political. "why does this show suck?" he asks sometimes, as if he doesn't expect the answer to be "because the jews who made it pump it full of so much anti white propaganda you've subconsciously noticed it". But he's ghosted me for so long that I'm starting to wonder if he's still alive. Should I ask someone we both know to check up on him? I wouldn't want to drag some third person into bullshit that's between that guy and his obsession with feeling neutral and "above it all".
Also, it's funny that Nigger is the magic word that breaks leftists and blacks and jews. It's a taboo because it's a word of rebellion. Saying this word and realizing it's ok to be sick of niggers feels liberating because it frees you from the mental prison of thinking your thoughts need to be govt-approved. You're rejecting euphemism-treadmill terms like black people and coloured folk and african american and choosing for yourself how you address creatures that feel entitled to be addressed however you want. It's a funny sounding word. Doesn't it derive from Nigerian? Or the latin word for black, niger? If so, it's funny that calling someone a nigger is basically calling them black. Truly the ultimate insult, since not even the niggers want to be niggers. Judging all niggers by the fictional brownish characters played by rapey hollywood actors on TV would be like judging all wild animals by cartoon critters or the tamed caged beasts you see at the Zoo instead of the wild african animals you can see attacking children and small animals on fucked up websites. Which wild african animals am I talking about? Doesn't matter since both hurt innocents and both belong in zoos. Libertarianism is a dead meme with no idea how to stop communist jewery and egalitarianism is just like supposedly-good liberalism: the self-destructive pursuit of impossible goals in the name of never compromising on once-valid ideals taken to the point of absurdity and robbed of all sense of priority, self-preservation, and reason. The NatSoc wants his race to eat well, and the "good" liberal happily puts the bellies of other races before his own and his own belly before both. The Libertarian pretends an anarchocapitalist nation of pot-growing weed-smoking illegal-immigrant mixed faggots will have any kind of moral clarity because admitting some good must be done for the good of all feels like compromising to the commies and their bullshit "greater good".
Me: hmm if I'm in the level design stage I should look at arcitecturehttps://youtu.be/rrpOPSj9OMc
BEHOLD A 100K PER NIGHT HOTEL ROOM THAT USES RAINBOWS OF PILLS AND BUTTERFLIES AS DECORATIONS. And weird stickers on glass walls.
and then there's this faggothttps://youtu.be/_H2xmRseiDw
"I hate waste and I'm saving the environment and third world" says a faggot who bought plastic flowers for his absurdly sized foyer. It's like something made in The Sims as a joke with the money cheat. And his staff rooms are hilariously tiny.
I think I'm looking in the wrong places. What kind of arcitecture am I supposed to look at? If I half ass the world design with "artistic" monochromatic white blocks or spikes on a dark background I will get to spend more time on cool shit like guns and explosions.
Then look at good shit! Listen to history great works things that are actually beautiful.
Behold landscapes and the people who mold them. The living quarters and the challenges they face.>I think I'm looking in the wrong places
Yes.>If I half ass the world design
You get a shitty playground.
It doesn't have to be perfect, hell it doesn't even have to be real. It does have to encourage the players to play.
Look at games which have such level design look toward what makes the map fun.
Such as Doom or Metroid or Devil Daggers or Mario, or anything really.
The World must be at the very minimum good enough.>"artistic" monochromatic white blocks or spikes on a dark background
Every has to tie in together.
Why bother looking toward faggotry for inspiration of that kind?
Look toward the greatness of man and the potential that could be experienced.
Level design has to be bound with mechanics and lore (that's optional for some games).
The base mechanics must be a joy to use in every instance. Extrapolate that to every part.
Look toward ancient architecture, look toward game design, look toward the human spirit!
It's all there to see in its grandness and joy! As well as the petty despicableness.
They have to want to keep playing or else the exercise is just that an exercise. Useful, but not yet a game among great titles.
Everyone does have to gain experience somewhere.
Before, at the very beginning Extra Credits had good advice. Take it with a grain of salt and be wary for they too have been infected.
Look toward game design, and why it matters. The subtle suggestions.
Even look toward other media. Pictures, paintings, music, stories (expecially stories), movies, the experiences, everything.
You need at least a baseline to know where to look. Or a string to follow toward a goal.
Finding out what inspired Castlevania, what it was inspired by.
Folk lore and more!
Why do you look where the fags dwell when people who care are everywhere just bellow the surface (sometimes deeper) if you dig and search?
You have to have that skill to obtain what you desire. Or compensate with multitudes of time and effort spent recreating the wheel without a hint.
Everything relates to eachother. Build those logistical connections within and without to try holding wisdom in the woven basket.
You're right, thank you.
I was thinking about cartoons and how they shaped the perceptions and childhoods of so many people. Shittons of old cartoons had divershitty/anti-waycist episodes that are cringe, but idiots who grew up on them yet are disgusted by the propaganda today would point to ten year old propaganda as an example of how to do it subtly since they consider what they grew up with "normal".
How many kids fell in love with Callie Briggs, Starfire and Raven, Gadget Hackwrench, Android 16, Ty Lee, Winry Rockbell, Gwen Tennyson, Sam Manson, Kallen/C2, Kim Possible and Shego, Misty/May/Dawn/Serena, and ended up fucked up in the head as a result? The world may never know. Scott Pilgrim ruined a whole generation of women but the lack of reward given to good men in a demoralized society that sabotaged its youth means many men have a fucked up idea of what being number 1 means and won't try to achieve it.
Still exercising, still healthy. Decided to start making healthy sandwiches out of vegetables.
It's always bugged me that the occultist neo-religious sometimes-paganist sometimes-satanist "Your magic willpower can change reality!" guys never visibly reap the benefits of their supposed magical willpower. You'd think these guys would be the kind of guys that are 999% motivated, the greatest bodybuilders and most well-read true intellectuals who never waste time on silly things and live every second as optimally as possible. But instead they just seem like regular people, aside from their insistence that praying to themselves and their own willpower helped them quit smoking and drinking therefore everyone must drop jesus and praise demons/Thor. I'm open to the possibility that there might be more to reality than what our human senses can sense since the jews hate God+Jesus and keep pushing the idea that we're nothing but meat, beasts, and at best space dust. But in my head when I think of some spiritual guru genius guy, I think of someone whose life was transformed for the better by learning the truth to the point where he's reached superhuman peaks. Maybe that's stupid, the result of decades of conditioning from media.
>>3684>result of decades of conditioning from media.
Yes, and no.>[those] guys never visibly reap the benefits of their supposed magical willpower
So analogy time.
Because they try to lift a 10 ton truck with a plastic straw and nothing else.
Others go and fix up the car and drive it up a ramp and makes it do stuff.
And some call in a tow truck. With some have a jack.
Others use a winch and intricate knowledge.
Some just fuck up the car.
Many more get knifed while doing stuff.
More still give up and just wonder about.
Most (mostly meaning most) who are outspoken about the supposed benefit of a certain nameless deity yet cannot prove the evidence as being better are to be taken with a pinch of snake salt. It is best to observe rather than partake in the deed, as it is easier to lie than to be honest.
As commonly enough they tend to be the ones promoting an 'agenda' of sorts, a tool or puppet to manipulate others but are being manipulated themselves, despite their knowledge (lack thereof) of the delusion or not.
It is often for them to be under the spell of a psychosis, being unable to distinguish fantasy from reality. There again, reality does not always have to make complete sense, neither does the human mind.
Indeed. Still waters run very deep.
You're right. Btw, still exercising. Increased weight in my weighted vest.
I don't care about this since it's not much of a loss, but turns out I've been banned from some unimportant ben 10 fanfic's discord fanserver for being "far-right".
I asked specifically what I said that got me banned since I don't remember it and haven't used it in months, maybe a year or two. I got the tard's personal definition of far-right in response because I didn't actually do anything wrong, I was just considered an undesirable.
I don't remember much about the server at all but I remember how that server had a handful of annoying commies who'd say commie shit and then cry "Wah no politics this is a media server!" when debunked. Or cry other assorted jew-tier lies to try and dupe retards with no reading comprehension and a desire to jump on the bandwagon someone else's fight creates to look moral. If some faggots are having a slapfight and it's your job to tell them "Shut the fuck up" or "This one's right, the other one's retarded, now shut up" you gain nothing. But if you believe the one with the more tempting lie about how the other one's some eeevil little bastard, suddenly you gain something. You get to feel like you're a hero for once, by taking the wrong side in an argument you don't feel obligated to read in full before passing judgement on it. Discord moderators, am I right? At least when they're doing this they're not grooming little boys and calling them "femboy transgenders" or grooming little girls and calling them "kitten".
If everyone on the planet was intelligent enough to see through basic lies and understand real science, or smarter, the world would be a better place. Maybe if everyone had to have at least a certain level of intelligence to be considered human, we'd be better off as a species.
Then again, it's not like dumbasses asked God to be born dumb. We can't prove God made them that way because they'd do more damage if they were smart. Besides, culling the bottom percentages of humanity is the kind of thing only a fictional villain would want to do in some cliche sci-fi novel that wants to pretend eugenics is the ultimate unthinkable evil, rather than rape or murder or the slow and ever-accelerating intellectual and societal rot caused by idiots and the leftists that use them for their own benefit. Besides, giving the government the power to decide the legal minimum IQ would get that power abused.
Rich retards would bribe government officials to have their children spared, while having too many kids would become a point of pride for the rich bastards that can afford countless bribes so they can pretend they have a high-IQ bloodline when they don't, the bar would be set high enough to fuck over normal people yet ignored whenever it would inconvenience a race the ruling class likes more, the IQ test would have a load of "moral score" or "emotional intelligence" bullshit added to it to cull sane people and spare overemotional leftist retards and sociopaths from the govt culling since they're both more useful to corrupt govts than humans are, a sex slave market would probably be created out of retards and average people not deemed special enough for the elites... This sort of thing would make a neat alt-history or dystopian sci-fi concept but the only valid government's the kind that keeps its dick out of the asses of its people and protects the asses of its people.
I've been thinking about how so many people I know are obsessed with media to the point where they get into daily internet slapfights across all sorts of jewish social media platforms, complete with slander and harassment and harassing friends to try and get them to disavow "thoughtcriminals", all over fucking cartoon characters.
Sometimes they try and get me involved in their drama. Some of them get butthurt at me for not wanting to dedicate hours of my life to joining these slap-fights, as if I'm the bad guy for having dialogue to write and levels to code and bouncy boobies to animate. A life this filled with conflict seems like a massive drag, and conflict over what, the opinion children and teens and childlike adults dare have over cartoon characters? When did 1984 sjw fear-tactics become the norm for playground-tier arguments over the sex lives of moving doodles voiced by middle-aged japanese women?
Doesn't anyone else want a quiet life any more? I've had debates over gun rights that seem more respectful and respectable on the surface(either those who are anti-gun shouldn't have their opinion enforced or protected by law enforcement, or being a nazi should be legal and legally protected, pick one) than any of this shit-flinging nonsense over fucking Ben 10 lore or who Sonic The Hedgehog should have shagged.
Maybe it's a sign that I'm maturing and have improved my life, since I genuinely have better things to do than worry over what faggots think about my waifoo or husbandou or whatever. But I also feel like I'm drifting away from the people who have "media madness" consume their lives. Like I'm growing up and they're staying the same age, with the same shallow interest in the same shallow interests and same repetitive NPC dialogue lines whenever I press A on them. The DBZ fan will say tomorrow what he says today unless there's something happening in that tiny little bubble of aimless nerd culture that changes his programmed dialogue lines. "nerd like android 21. android 21 have the big boobas. majins r so kewl. oh em jee, wouldn't it be kewl if they made another DBZ that was just like DBZ but with android 21 in it? android 21 is so sexy. i suddenly like vore because she turns people into candy and eats them. i'm basically a blank sheet of paper and jews write whatever they want on me. btw i wish sega made another sonic game thats just like sonic advenchur 2 but more! just more, you know, like star wars. more. no i wont play fangames or indie games like sonic but better. i am a loyal corporate whore."
Jesus fuck nigel, at least offer a tl;dr
Glad to hear about the gains. I'll read the rest when I'm bored, but jesus christ a tl;dr please?
im getting buff. Weight up.
Today i learned i was banned from some dicksword server for being "far right"
but that is fine because they are a load of faggots
maybe if the world had less retards there would be less of an incentive for evil individuals to mislead and misuse them for personal and political gain, but I wouldn't trust any government that would actually want to cull healthy citizens.
Nerdniggers obsess over media so fucking much that it makes up their entire identity and a handful of my friends make me sad because every fucking day they're typing their hearts out in some twitter or discord or tumblr war over whether Ben Tennyson should have ploughed stretchy alien pussy or wasted his life with that stupid selfish cunt Julie or that obnoxious fucking creator's-pet Kai or whatever the writers decide to do with that joke Charmcaster this season.
jsus fucking christ I know I talk a lot about media but I tend to have something to say about it. A man analyzes bioshock and undertale, a slave cooms for it and obsesses over its characters without learning anything. I couldn't imagine just sitting around occupying your time with assorted distractions like internet arguments over the sex lives or moral values of fictional characters until it's time to suck up whatever slop the corpos feed you then get into shouting matches where you try and rationalize away a bad show's shitness. NIGGERS SHIT INTO THEIR OWN MOUTHS. FUCK.
Ben 10 is a toy franchise with a cartoon that was good for a while. If it's the biggest deal in your life, find God. My Little Pony Friendship Is Magic is better anyway. At least Twilight didn't have to re-learn "friends are important" every four episodes from season one to fifteen or more. I want to cum inside Twilight Sparkle but you won't see me writing a new essay every week to "defend her honour" just because some faggy tween's calling her every bad word she/her/it knows.
Maybe it's weird for a man my age to talk like he's becoming an old man. But I don't think I'm becoming an old man. I feel like I'm becoming a real man. A man who sees things clearer every day. Must be the healthy food, or perhaps the exercise. Maybe planting real-ass food made me level up as a man. Maybe a combination of all three. I'm used to thinking in meters and centimeters. Feet? I use a calculator to turn it into meters. And inches? Whenever someone gives me a measurement in inches I imagine my dick and how many of those copies of my dick are equivalent to whatever's being measured in inches, and that's because meters and centimeters are the superior way to measure shit and everyone fucking knows it. Inchniggers just pretend to hate meters because they love feet too much.
Tldr the enlightenment was a misnomer, denying God and the value of his teachings leaves you vulnerable to subversion. Without an argument as solid as "because God" all you're left with are feelings to back up moral arguments whenever the rational loss-minimization optimization mindset gives you an answer that feels icky. I know this sort of talk's a meme in the warhammer 40k community but it's true: An open mind is an unguarded fortress.
Do you ever think people would like christianity more if it had its own kung fu and alternative medicine practices? Bullshit stretches and lies about magic and silly cures for issues with more scientific fixes... Maybe that would appeal more to normies. Then again, aside from the occasional self-serving faith-healer scam artist who'd imitate any religion if it was big, Christianity doesn't have alternative medicine because it helped birth real medicine and science and rationality and whatnot. Christianity is the greatest religion in the world. Sekai fucking ichi. We are number one.
it's always bugged me that Neon Genesis Evangelion wants to be this story that says "fuck escapism" but the author's made his story so divorced from reality that it can only be taken as a fantasy. Eva isn't the story of a boy who grows over time. It's a story that says "it would actually suck to be thrust into the pilot seat of a giant robot and forced to battle monsters while surrounded by weird women with mental disorders". I appreciate its deep writing and symbolism. The author clearly knew his shit when it came to mecha anime and storytelling. Asuka represents the headstrong angry woman who mostly hates everyone and Rei pisses on the Yamato Nadeshiko archetype and that drunk chick is kind of a loser, and this is legitimately smart writing. He clearly has a message he wants to give the audience. But he doesn't know how to get that message across to the audience in a way that matters because it's basically just "lmao stop being depressed". A man doesn't just spontaneously get bitches and healthy relationships the second he takes his sony walkman/ipod headphones off and decides to "embrace reality uwu". It's not that easy for men these days. Dancing in a giant robot is as much of a fantasy as meeting several hot bitches that would be perfect if not for personality flaws some horny dudes are into after a lifetime of simping over fictional characters. Losers choose escapism because it's easy and they think they will never be sufficiently rewarded for a life of struggle and pain and growth. Anime figurines can't divorce you to become millionaires while stealing your kids and leaving you homeless. Feminists turned marriage into a mockery of itself and jews turned women into mockeries of women. They wouldn't have undue levels of power and influence if it wasn't for divershitty hires and govt programs meant to make life even easier for wamen. And what does society get out of it? When society pays women to be mothers they get mothers and children. When society pays women to be men and makes stealing jobs from men too easy all they get are jobless men and inferior imitations of men. Eva's creator might think there's a problem with japanese men these days and men in general but he's a coward for failing to look deeper into why not all boys want to sacrifice themselves for a system designed to rob and sabotage them. If he made another season of Evangelion that calls out the jewish lies subtly, he could make a significant impact on the world. If he made another season of Eva that subtly pokes holes in feminist lies... even including entry-level redpills about birth rates and privileged projecting feminism's hypocrisies in something with such a massive audience would help his country and other countries that love Eva. He could do yet another evangelion rewrite rebuild thing except this time Shinji grows a pair and teaches Rei how to smile and enjoy life while Asuka realizes she'll become a bitter drunk cat lady unless she loosens up and treats others better. He probably won't. I guess I'll always see the eva franchise as a massive missed opportunity. The guy gets how to deconstruct mecha anime and media cliches he doesn't like but he doesn't understand the issues the youth are facing well enough to say anything smarter than what you'd expect to hear from the average boomer who thinks "lmao try harder" is the best advice anyone can give.
Increasing the weight on my weighted vest.
Sometimes I talk about my friends here, but I don't wax lyrical about how awesome some of them are because I don't think anyone would want to read that. I love and cherish these fuckers but this isn't some teenage girl's diary. It would be bad for opsec if I deeply explained everything that makes my closest friends great people, since anyone could formulate a list of my friends and figure out who I am by guessing it's the person I don't have many nice things to say about.