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Should I get therapy?
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Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting? Who should I do therapy with? Can I trust my entire life's story with anyone who's not on this site?
Maybe if I tell you my life's story, you can give me life advice.

I was raised by abusive lefty parents who hated their smart white son and often tried to push me towards trannyism. Never fell for it.
First I was sent to a shit primary school. A few kids bullied me there and teachers punished me whenever I fought back. I was a fat angry kid who could punch hard when pushed, and they liked attacking me and then running away. But when we fought properly I'd kick their asses. One time I kicked their asses hard enough to make them stop bothering me.
When I graduated from this school I was sent to the special school of a catholic school, and made the personal property of one old bitch there who hated autistic kids. Around that era I got interested in Game Maker and pokemon romhacking but that interest never amounted to anything, though I did have a USB full of GBA roms and romhacking tools and the fact that I was able to code at such a young age when not all kids were learning that should have shown somebody that I had more to offer the world than shitty schools thought I should.
Thanks to that school, my schedule looked like this: Enter a side building, wait for the day to end, sometimes get insulted by the teachers if they felt like abusing me, usually get to eat lunch at lunchtime but sometimes they wouldn't let me (and it didn't matter whether I brought a packed lunch to school or brought money for the school cafeteria) and eventually go home to a house with parents that, when told the right words by my boomer bullies, would freak out and abuse me at home too. Rarely I'd get to join in a classroom... but class clowns would act up until I'd get blamed for it and sent out.
If I had a tape recorder or decent phone, I could have gathered evidence of the shit said/done to me (audio files of verbal abuse, pics of bruises, etc) and posted it online. But I was never allowed anything like that, because my parents feared I might use it on them. One day at school the art teacher bumped me with her car while backing up into a crowd of kids, I was fine but pissed off and the art teacher shrieked and blame-slinged feministically at me until I lost my patience and started barking back, then she put me in front of the headmaster and I told him about the abusive staff members and called him terrible at his job, so he kicked me out.
Then I was sent to a worthless "speshul" school where a few teachers abused me and the students usually watched in confusion when they weren't joining in. Whenever I trusted an adult enough to tell him or her what happened at home, that adult decided to call child protective services, who sent the same fucking boomer woman over to warn my parents that I was talking about what went on at home again. I couldn't get away from my family until I became the problem of Adult Protective Services, where the slightly less retarded and lazy people go.
A woman my age at the autistics-only youth club I attended got mad at me over retarded internet roleplaying nonsense-drama that didn't even involve me, and she lied about me to the cops and accused me of abusing her, even went to some clinic to fake signs of a concussion she didn't have because she's a spoilt bitch who knows how to play her rich parents like fiddles, she was a low-functioning sociopath woman with histrionic personality disorder and every retarded boomer's sympathy. She lied and got away with it, because the cops weren't interested in this case after she cartoonishly fucked up and started gloating about physically assaulting me without realizing it hurt her case. But even though I said to the managers of the youth club and the friends I knew there "If what she said about me was true I'd be in jail so you know she's lying" they couldn't believe me because they were dumb. There was one weird creepy fucker I used to talk to online because his "woe is me, asian school life is sooo hard" shit kind of reminded me of me at the time, but he got severe TDS and stopped being a person once he stopped viewing me as a person so I'm glad I didn't tell him anything sensitive or identifiable that could fuck me over later in life.
Anyway when I went to college, I was lied to and exploited by the staff until I dropped out. They even tricked me into taking a worthless course that turned out to be the dump where they dump the autistic kids and give them a useless fake newspaper to write. I wish I dropped out sooner, trying to live on barely fucking anything is hard enough when your mom took govt money meant for you, but it's harder when you're forced to spend most of your cash on train rides between your college and shitty home every two weeks and all your cunt government can offer is a discount pass. Now that I'm living alone, I've got a free bus pass I can barely use. Government priorities, am I right?

I am an autistic man, I'm 24 years old, I'll be 25 next year, and I've spent so much of my life as property of someone else that I find it hard to notice when I'm hungry or tired and remember that I should eat or sleep without someone or a phone alarm telling me to. I shower every night before bed but sometimes I miss meals, it's what helped me go from obese fatty to only-slightly-overweight. I don't think I know what it feels like to be loved by someone else. Learning makes me happy and I love documentaries but when I tried an online free learning site it reminded me of school and I couldn't do it. Sometimes I talk to people and act charming like those "Charisma on command" youtube vids told me so they'll like me, but I've never given anyone my full backstory before. The only woman in my life I ever kissed was that bitch who falsely accused me and got away with it. I want to say I have no interest in modern women but I still feel the urge to wank to them. But I don't wank any more because of nofap.
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A friend showed me this video about "Planet Fitness gym" while saying "Hey you're into fitness right? Check out these idiots doing it wrong"

and jesus christ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V40s9deHg1A&ab_channel=PewDiePie

I expected the idiots who exercise incorrectly on machines that display clear instructions.
But women workers bitching at men for grunting a little while lifting 200 and karening "Sorry isn't good enough" at him when he apologizes?
Bullshit on the walls like "No judgement!" along with an alarm to slam whenever someone's too masculine and sounds too masculine when exercising, and the alarm's got anti-man speech on it that insults any man who came here to lift?
Some fat fuck woman refusing service to a man for having a water bottle she considers too big, pointedly ignoring him when he uses manlogic and manfacts that no lowly femoid could understand, and then calling the fucking cops on him when he doesn't do what she wants and go away? The man in that video isn't pissed at the woman, he's genuinely stu
Women who get to attack men and smash shit without anyone calling the cops because they don't want her getting arrested and suffering the consequences of her actions? It wouldn't surprise me if she's pissed at them for not having her favourite "healthy" snack bar flavour today, or something equally trivial.
Some feminized cunt stamping on the weight a man half his age is lifting and shoving him for "ego lifting" (duckduckgo says it's when you go to the gym solely to be seen lifting heavy weights while grunting "too much" or focus more on lifting heavy weights than exercising properly with them)
Ladies and gentlemen, take a look at what happens when your gym is run by women and its policies are determined by women. Anti-masculine policies for what is already a gender-neutral health-improving pasttime because the unfit karens in charge sometimes tell themselves it'll help attract idiots who feel "intimidated" (envious) around big men who visit the gym for a reason. This is society when it puts making wimminfolk comfy over trying to provide the best possible service and compete with your competitors. I'm fucking glad I got my home gym together. Sure it's just freeweights and one bench but at least I'll never have to deal with these fucking karens.
Women. What a fucking joke. At real gyms you'll see fit hardcore women who want to be strong like men, and at shit gyms like this you'll see women who want men to be weak like them.
Also, have you ever noticed how often immature women will pointedly ignore you and try to physically signal things to you like "I'm not interested in what you have to say to me" where a more mature person would either fucking say what they're thinking or recognize what situation they're in and try to act more mature than a typical entitled woman with power, and then when those signals don't work they'll escalate to calling their pet "alpha" over (typically the state and its enforcers) to get their way and restore their oh-so-vital emotional state to a positive one?
Most women are fucking pathetic.
It's illegal for kids to prank-call the cops. It's illegal to call the cops for non-emergencies in most countries, since cops are supposed to be stopping/punishing bad guys instead of dealing with incredibly minor domestic disputes only a woman could get butthurt about, right? So why the hell do women feel so fucking comfortable going full karen and calling the cops on the slightest fucking slights, or even completely imaginary problems? Oh, right, it's because in this femininely irrational and destructively gynocentric society the safety of men is put below the feelings of femoids.
Giving women power, any form of power, is like giving date rape drugs to serial rapists. They're going to abuse what they're given if they think they can get away with it. If there's no legal punishment or societal shame for women who treat the world as sexual playgrounds and women who are addicted to abusing their power over others they'll only get worse as today's bad female behaviour becomes the next generation's normal.
What the fuck was mankind thinking when he gave up control of his society to the jews and females? Did he give it all up willingly thinking it would all go back to normal once, some day about hundred years from now, everything got so bad that "Muh great awakening" would happen and he'd get to smugly grin from the Old Folks' Home at the feminists who lose their privileges while retaining basic human rights and get to go back to being beloved and excellently-treated housewives doted upon by loyal and self-sacrificing men? Fuck that, women are evil. They're just fundamentally evil pack animals and women worth anything on their own merits are the exception, not the rule.
Anonymous
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I keep telling myself I dislike women now and I'm sick of their shit but how do I stop myself from longing for them?
Thinking about the perfect trad qt wife or chad supportive fun tomboy gf I could have had if the jews didn't abort/feministize her hurts.
Anonymous
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Oh also i am still fit and exercising daily. Walking long distances with a heavy backpack or weighted vest does a body good.
Anonymous
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>>3462
>The Post
Stop that. That's how the gay infects some people. Yes, haha, the gay as of its some sort of illness one can contract. Twisting yourself up to fulfill your desires no matter the cost does happen. So if they can't be a female...
You do long for women, and you long for the right sort of woman that is the right match for you, and you both. Don't bemoan the fact they make it hard, seek what is here and now.
You long for a waifu martial woman. This is something correctable now while it's easier. This distinction is important for your subconscious.
Make sure you know what you do truly want, and it has to be put into a positive word set. That is what will happen, so be exact, truthful and careful.
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>>3464
I don't understand what you mean. But when I think of what a good woman would be, those I know IRL are shit so all I can think of are anime characters. But instead of just naming characters with traits I like I'll say what I like.
I like it when women are kind, considerate, supportive, and sweet. I like long hair and a fit body with huge boobs and a great ass and long legs. I didn't see kindness towards me growing up so any of that stuff really gets to me, probably more than it should. I also like the "tomboy gf" kind of women who are capable, fit, positively masculine, confident and fun to be around. It would be great if she had the same good hobbies as me so we'd have something in common but that's not necessary. Smart women are appealing but only if they are actually smart, ledditor "i memorized 6 languages and everything science books said so that means I need to be an argumentative prick who can never let any man get the last word in or be right or else I feel bad about myself and I literally cannot handle even a single second of discomfort of any kind or be okay unless I feel like everyone's eyes are on me and nobody else" bitches are annoying. I want a huge family with more than seven children so she'd have to be okay with that too, and if she had any sort of dream or goal in life it would be great if it didn't conflict with being a good mother. I like it when women are uncomplicated and straightforward and honest with themselves and me, and I hate it when they try to fuck with my head or lie to me or use me or blame me for cancerous toxically-feminine behaviour that's destructive to themselves and others. I don't want to call myself a furry because I'm not exclusively attracted to animal-people and I don't talk in that stupid "uwu i wuv ur widdle paws" language. But animal-eared girls and monster girls are really fucking appealing. Maybe it's because more body parts like wings or horns or tails means more woman to love, maybe it appeals to the natural desire in man to own an animal and learn how it works and be a good pet owner, maybe it's because once you get to know an animal you know what to expect from them and what they like(headpats)/dislike(touching their tail) while women tend to be stupid and mindless and overemotional cripplingly irrational creatures not even God could figure out, I don't know. Maybe a psychologist could project some psychobabble onto me to explain my desire to fuck Twilight Sparkle/Rainbow Dash/Pinkie Pie from FIM or Centorea/Rachnera/Suu from Monster Musume.
Back when I used animufag forums I was often called boring for liking "boring" one-note sweet waifus rather than the aggressive and unreasonably violent or chokingly clingy and psychotically possessive or obnoxiously haughty and bratty or borderline retarded bitches they said they liked more. But liking "interesting" characters who treat others like shit and create situatuons that are entertaining to watch isn't the same as actually thinking they'd make good wife and child-raising material. Sometimes they'd call me a "bandwagoner" for liking commonly accepted likeable female characters like Winry or Hinata.
I know that realistically I'd never get a genetically engineered catgirl gd. I'll never get to play with a catgirl's ears just like I'll never get to massage a sports tomboy gf's shoulders after a long day exercising together. I'll probably never meet a woman who's actually as smart as she thinks she is, or a woman able to see through and reject jewish propaganda and embrace being a good wife and mother even if it means turning down the lifetime of alimony and fleeting pleasures the jews promise race-traitor women. Men these days call good women "unicorns" because they're rare enough to be mythical.
Don't get me wrong, I know I'd need to be amazing if I wanted to impress and get any chance to talk to and potentially bond with an actually-amazing woman. I'm still exercising. I'm still reading and learning and getting shit done. I'll probably never meet a woman who's absolute perfection but something close enough to that ideal would be great.
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>>3464
Is what I said wrong? Would it have been more positive if I said "I will meet an amazing woman!" instead of "I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her"? Aside from spending ten hours a day searching different dating apps and hobby forums for people who claim to be female and don't seem completely awful, I don't know how I'd meet someone like that.
Anonymous
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tldr you want to marry not just meet the one who loves you and vise versa
>>3467
>>3465
How you say stuff is important. Especially to get what you want.
>I keep telling myself I dislike women now
This bit right there, keeping racist expectations is good but the mind will bend and twist and complain till what you say to it comes true.
>I'm sick of their shit
Good to list the good and the bad. >>3465
That works, while there is quite a bit more focus on the negative (which is good to know, and is necessary) the positive traints that are desirable should be expanded if need be.
>how do I stop myself from longing for them?
Stoicism, or mastery over the mind and emotions, or meditation works.
But that's not the point, that longing has to be redirected away from cunts and towards good wife material.
>Would it have been more positive if I said "I will meet an amazing woman!" instead of "I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her"?
Also making a perfect person isn't great either. So that line I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her is true and real, but the wording is imprecise because the brain without alot of training and effort REMOVES NEGATIVES FROM YOUR WORDS.
<I guess it would be nice if a completely-awful woman existed and I met her
That would be shitty.
So
<My wife, who is kind, considerate, supportive, and sweet, capable, fit, positively masculine, positive feminine as well, confident and fun to be around and genuinely smart that would also be at least great friend martial as well, also having the same goals and morality I possess, with our desires that align perfectly, we will have lots of our biological children more numerous than seven, understandable and straightforward and honest with themselves and me, has self control has emotional resiliency, communicates perfectly with me, is at least a good person that woman exists and we're happily married with our long lives.
Or even We are happily married together.
The whole past tense in a present tense (sorta) word structure means that is has happened. For the mind that means it's concrete even if it technically isn't now, (the mind doesn't understand the future normally) it knows the past and will make moves to accomplish that goal. So meeting may be the first step the last end goal is the final destination. So meeting is separate from having the wife.
That's why learning as much about everything and becoming the best you can be helps as it is steps to have that goal to manifest.
Yes, the (((fucks))) have made it harder. It is still possible so you can do it.
Anonymous
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>>3468
If I tell myself I am already married to the perfect waifu will I eventually meet her?
Anonymous
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I have a stupid friend who feels bad about having no gf but when I say "Its ok bro women are shit" he doesn't listen
what do?
Anonymous
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>>3476
This guy's different from the stupid friends I've complained about so far. Up until now I didn't realize he was stupid.
I swear I like my friends, even the ones I haven't talked about yet. But talking about their good points would compromise anonymity.
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I have no idea where to put this but media's boner for halfbreed characters (especially halfbreed protagonists) always bugged me.
It seems damn near every hero is only half normal human and half something else. Could be half god or half monster or half animal or anything like that.
Whenever race is a vital part of the story, superpowers almost never come from the (white) human half of the character unless the author pussies out and claims it's a general "humanity is special! Humanity fuck yeah!" thing even though everything good or cool you can praise about humanity mainly applies to whites.
And even when the story's got superpowers that don't come from race, there's usually a stat buff somewhere in the most important characters thanks to nonhuman heritage.
And if you aren't sure how to make a character exotic but not too exotic, mixing a familiar and unfamiliar race is a common trick for some reason.

I get many of the reasons why it's so common.
Besides the jewish "it subtly promotes racemixing and the idea that a half human half beast would be just as good as or better than a full human" subversion.
Making the hero half human makes him or her relatable and the magic monster half adds superpowers and potential plot importance.
If the hero's the result of a union between two magical diametrically-opposed creatures that's just inherently cool. Like being both vampire and werewolf or both angel and demon.
Combining two superpowered monsters/aliens/gods/whatever lets you give the character even more superpowers and specialness and importance.
It also makes writing the character's arc easy: First he doesn't know how to be a synthesis of two different or even completely opposed things and he feels torn between two worlds and nobody really gets him and he might even struggle with the urges or social stigmas of one or both races but then he figures it out.

But it seems damn near universal. Even anthro characters which are already half human and half animal (even if you say they're actually evolved humanoid animals or aliens who resemble earth animals for no reason) tend to get in on it when they want to make one character unusual or special. Insert tired cliche jokes about neon green and rainbow wolves with random markings and patterns trying to look unique in a sea of freaks here.
It's so damn universal that the fanbase of Ben 10, a show where a fully white fully human boy finds an alien watch that lets him transform into assorted genetically-perfected aliens at peak physical fitness, is absurdly obsessed with fusions and halfbreeds and hybrids.
And don't get me started on how the Pokemon fandom's obsessed with fusions and hybrids and so on.

Anyway... I've noticed this trope appear in my own writing.
Almost every main character I've designed over the years is a hybrid.
Has my mind been hacked?
I like the idea of fusions and I like giving characters superpowers. The characters I designed to be hybrids aren't just that way for the sake of extra superpowers and looking different. They're deep.
But is my focus on this meme the result of years of societal indoctrination to think "hybrids are cool"?
Anonymous
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oh wait i forgot they retconned Ben to have Anodite ancestry.
Are you still only half-human if your ancestor is a magical creature that lacks DNA?
that one faggot desperate to yell at me and pretend he's talking to me, if he read that sentence, would scream "It's not retconning it was always there you're just too dumb to get it like I do! To be fair you have to have a high IQ to understand ben 10 and appreciate Kishimoto's borderline fetish for the Uchiha and how his unique ninja world lost fucking all of its appeal in its escalating quest to become DBZ".
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Hope this helps
https://youtu.be/lbN5wX9C7S4
Anonymous
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>>3503
Thank you fren

Lately I've been thinking about very old friends from my "hardcore brony" days... Why can't I take them on this mountain climb with me? Back when I was an escapism-obsessed coombrained fag I knew many other people like that. But I've grown and they haven't. They get mad when I talk about Peterson or exercising or the progress I've made and we have nothing to talk about except whatever bad show they've watched this week. I don't know how to help them. But maybe I should stop with the wannabe-hero shit and focus on myself.

How do you solve the "I am afraid of being alone but being charismatic with friends takes effort" problem?
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>>3525
You're welcome. I've got two quotes for you.
"Its better to be alone than to be among poor company"
And
"Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy, and not everyone who pulls you out of shit is your friend."
T. 'That guy' who is still talking shit in other threads
Anonymous
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>>3528
Makes sense. I'll keep these quotes in mind.
Anonymous
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Still exercising, now increasing vest weight when jogging.
I should get more plants for my room. I feel lightheaded and sleepy after a few hours here.
any suggestions?

How do you deal with the reluctance to start new things due to fear that you'll get too obsessed with them?

Also man it feels GOOD to realize I finally officially give no shits about that bitch I stopped talking to.
I am my own man now. No more slave collar around my heart with a chain wrapped around that bitch's finger.
She is not my burden to carry. She is not my responsibility. She cannot be saved. If I want to ever help people I need to recognize when it's time to move on.
Man it's weird to think Betty Boop was considered a sex icon once. She's tiny and meh-tier compared to some cartoon cute girls (i was about to write cuties but that fucking jew movie ruined the word) I could name. Imagine old people on an anime forum arguing over whether Betty Boop or the woman from Popeye is a better waifu. Haha, the thought of old people arguing over cartoons seems as anachronistic as the thought of roman soldiers playing yugioh.
I want to cum inside rainbow dash unironically. And Twilight. And Pinkie. I've written so many date scenario fanfics to cope with my longing creatively. These girls are so perfect once you ignore all the episodes in which they are retarded or jokes or retarded jokes. Do these urges make me pathetic or does my nofap streak and creative writing coping mechanism mean I'm doing good?
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>>3532
Climbing aloe. It's really easy to keep, and has lots of medicinal properties, whether ingested or used topically
Anonymous
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>>3533
Thank you. I'll get some.
How do you deal with the reluctance to get into new things due to fear that they'll swallow you whole and make you obsessed with them?
Anonymous
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An addictive personality has ran through my family lines for generations. I remember stories from my grandmother about shit my grandfather did when he was alive. For every single person in my family tree, they have their own obsession or are actively searching for one after their old obsession got boring.
Anonymous
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>>3533
You're a fucking genius, this climbing aloe is great. I've got it in my window and I love it.
Anonymous
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>>3562
Its wonderful as an aftershave. Pluck one 'leaf' and squeeze the gel out.
Anonymous
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>>3562
Also, dont forget to name it,... if you're into that sort of thing. Additionally, you'll want to re-pot it every few years. As long as it doesnt freeze, it will bounce back after any adversity, including drought forgetting to water it for weeks
Anonymous
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>>3564
Re-pot? How do I do that properly?
Also should I keep the plastic sleeves that came with these plants or throw them away? Some of those sleeves are starting to look kind of greenish.
Anonymous
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>>3565
Dont worry, it's easy. When the time comes, the root structure will become a densely packed mass of dirt and roots interwoven and shit. You just get a larger pot, fill it with dirt, leaving a recess in the approximate size/shape of the root structure, slide it out of the old pot and stick it in the hole. Sprinkle a little topsoil on the top, put some water in it, and that's it
>plastic sleeves
No idea what those are, prolly should get rid of em
Anonymous
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>>3567
Are you sure? The plastic sleeves help keep water in the plant pots and keep soil from falling out of them.
Anonymous
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>>3568
>are you sure
No, but if you keep them be careful not to over-water the plant, since it will be retaining more water that way
Anonymous
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>>3570
Thank you.

Opening up about my life makes me feel a little better, so I'll say more stuff.
My father was a stupid, violent, aggressive prick who secretly loathed everyone and had a mediocre impression of a "Jolly fat guy" he used whenever he wanted to blend in with normal people
His understanding of the world around him was incredibly shallow
his political views were laughably simplistic
He trusted the TV news and he was an addict with multiple addictions
Fucking NPC.
He seemed to think being a grumpy violent bastard made him manlier than me.
He grew up as one of four boys with a whiny whore mother and a missing father figure, and it shows.
He imitates her bitchiness without even realizing it. He smoked around me as a baby and did the same around my dead sister, he smoked while my mom was pregnant, he smoked from the age of fourteen until he got cancer somewhere around his 40s and was forced to stop with the aid of nicotine patches and similar shit. I have athsma and it's a miracle I don't have cancer.
He drank heavily and loved to invent reasons to scream at me, smack me around, and take away what few joys a shut-in child with sabotaged self-confidence like me had. I remember this one time when I was around eight, he sent me up alone to the roof of the house because he wanted me to... I forget what exactly, but I had to put tiles on the roof and I remember how pissed off he got at me for not already knowing the perfect way to get the job done. He didn't tell me the perfect way. He just ordered me up there, yelled at me for not already knowing how to do one of his jobs for him, and whined until he eventually gave up on delegating the task like a woman and decided to do it himself. He got genuinely fucking pissed at me for not giving a shit about football and not being what he thought a man should be.
But he never taught me how to fight or avoid fights
Never taught me how to exercise
Never taught me how to fix cars
Never did anything to inspire me
Never passed on any wise sayings
Never helped with anything, and enjoyed getting in the way and making himself a nuisance
Loved dismissing anything I had to say, even when I was right. Screamed harder if I turned out to be right
He taught me at an early age to stay quiet when a power-tripping big kid with more power than he deserves screams at you, which prepared me for life at school
Because of course, someone this pathetic wouldn't ever bother homeschooling his kids
Even though he had no job+obligations
He gave me shit for not going outside much even though there was nothing for me out there, my parents made no effort to get me into youth clubs, my parents made every effort to embarass me by telling nonsense stories to other parents for sympathy points even though it meant everyone thought a quiet beaten puppy like myself was actually a tantrum-throwing plate-breaking brat and bed-wetting loser at home, and my father gave me shit for not spending days outside even though there were bullies my age and bullies older than me and other chavs outside.
We did not grow up in a good neighbourhood. It did not have nice people in it.
Whenever I tried to think of a good male role model, the first things to pop into my head were Uncle Iroh from Avatar and Grandpa Max from Ben 10, not my own father. That fat bastard was everything I didn't want to become. When I feel tempted to break my diet and eat some candy I think of that fat fucker and the disgust keeps me on the right path.
He met my mother in a factory but pussied out when something broke near him and he got scared(it couldn't have killed him but "traumatized" people get more cash), and he got benefits for a while. Then he got a job as a taxi driver for a while because his friend told him there was fucktons of money in taxi driving, more than he was making doing nothing. He made some money and told everyone else and eventually there were too many taxi drivers and taxi companies. And too many taxi companies were owned by women who loved to show extreme favoritism when it came to who got jobs assigned to them and who didn't
He whined to me but put up with incompetent aggressive women-bosses and their shame-tactics for years b4 going solo

When you eat yourself into obesity at an early age
remain fat forever
and spend a couple of hours a day sitting around in a car or driving it and spend the rest of your life in bed or sitting on an expensive reclining leather chair playing world of warcraft and Mafia Wars (a facebook game) on your overpriced scam of a laptop
you'll eventually fuck up your legs so bad that you'll seem perfectly fine and have no problem walking your dog or walking to the bar and back but the government will still pay you to do nothing because you whined about huwt widdle weggies that are fine when cameras aren't rolling

He was a greedy piece of shit, and lazy.
When he was told kids who stay in High School longer get paid by the government for it, he made sure that was my fate for a few years even though I went to a speshul school for retards that gave no qualifications because I'm "autistic" just like every other human on the planet with at least one out of 9999999 personality quirks/subjective traits/abilities/disabilities according to a quack doctor.

Early on in my life I showed signs that I was a smart kid. I liked reading books, especially adult books. But if my dad caught me reading his collection of shitty escapist fantasy novels instead of the incredibly thin picture-book versions of disney movies, I'd get in trouble for not acting like he believed a boy should. Same went for when I traded Smarties Meltdown for the PS2 for an Action Replay and used cheat codes, when I hacked Pokemon games as a kid for fun, when I downloaded and learned Game Maker as a kid for sonic fangames...
A smart greedy cunt would monetize kid-me but a dumb greedy cunt would instead sabotage his life and then bitch at him for not having a rent-paying MinWage job even though my benefits got them more than minimum wage.

What a prick.
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My potatoes finally started penetrating themselves so I buried all 14 of them in a planter full of soil.
How often should I water these potatoes if I want optimal potato farming productivity?
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Another dumb fuck I know got the vaccine. I showed him funny memes and facts and articles and videos and they all went over his head. The memes made him laugh but he didn't think deeply about the meme's joke about the absurdity of this situation.

When I think of my birth father I think of what I don't want to become: a fat useless lump of lard reliant on gubimint gibs and brainwashed by the state to love it, addicted to smoking and drinking and gambling and the most pathetic types of games imaginable. He used to give me shit about having no gf but he had no dating advice. Just expected my life to be easier than his despite his best efforts. The very thought of him is like a portable picture of a fatass that inspires you to lift harder and jog faster. It's like that for me anyway. I've been called a cynic these days but I'm usually right to see the worst in people instead of ignoring it. If someone ever shows something good in them I see that too. I'm not religiously cynical. I wouldn't ignore good shit just to feel right about the bad. Ignoring bad shit makes me a retard who gets exploited.

When I think of my mother I think the same thing except she's a woman so I can't physically turn out like her. But I still don't want to mentally end up like her. She was a cruel manipulative short-sighted piece of shit who had bipolar syndrome and loved making that everyone else's problem. Loved playing the role of a put-upon mother whose life is just soooo full of reasons to complain because her knittingfag friends complained about their lives too. Is "fashionably depressed" a term? Her coping mechanism for dealing was problems was to cry about them and blame the nearest man she hadn't already lost all faith in. So me, because she expected nothing good from my father but expected cash from me despite treating me like shit and sabotaging me at every possible turn. She loved her boomer knitting and minion memes but never tried hard to put money on the table with her knitting shit. Funny how that minion cartoon character meant to appeal to children caught the attention of the scummiest children on the planet: boomerscum. I'd accuse her of also having histrionic personality disorder but I once met a woman with even more of that. She definitely had it. I should write a book about myself and include chapters about her and what she put me through and got away with. It's hard for me to believe what happened with her and I was fucking there. That bitch tried to ruin my life and falsely accuse me of assaulting her over bullshit someone else said to her on a naruto roleplay on Blingee. Not a major naruto roleplaying forum, the comment section on fucking blingee. The silly website with gaudy GIFs. And her writing skills? Shit like "fire go everywhere and blood go everywhere". If you told me she was retarded I'd believe you. I want to be a good christian but I find it hard to believe in a god who can't protect his people or inspire his people to protect the vulnerable from the godless. No wonder so many people assume other forms of spirituality must have some hidden secret that lets it outdo christianity. We've already seen it fail in our own lands with our own eyes whether we realize it or not. Maybe man wasn't meant to be raised without a god. Maybe a principle you're willing to compromise on to please a leftist cunt isn't a principle. Maybe I'm an idiot for continuing to pray. But I have to believe in God and Jesus or I can't believe my parents and all the other traitors to the west go to hell when they die of old age. Have you ever watched some self-centered asshole who treated his loving parents like shit until they died assume you're just like him and rant at you with the usual "You should cherish those related to you because they might die one day" shit? If my father died of cancer my childhood would have been happier. I feel too old to have any doubt about that. It would have given mom a real reason to cry fashionably in front of her friends so she'd stop trying to make more reasons in other areas of her life. Same shit with my mother. If she died he'd be forced to learn to cook and stop wasting away and bloating at his laptop if he wanted food. Maybe it would make him a better man if nobody was around to bring him beer. Or maybe he'd just have me bring him more beer, he usually did. If they both died I would have gone into the foster system and met a decent enough family that wants me around or I would have gotten passed around like a hot potato until I eventually got old enough to live alone. I went through that for a while and the "misery" of it is overrated. I'd call it dehumanizing but I'm used to it. You see some families. You sleep in an alright bed. They keep you around for a while and then trade you in at the abused puppy shelter for a cuter one that makes them feel again once they get used to having you around. That's how I was treated anyway. At the time I was so goddamn desperate for someone to tell me they loved me. That never happened and I got over it. Someone else probably has nicer or sadder stories than me. I have metaphorical armour around my heart and I find it incredibly difficult to take off. I still have no idea what to write in my damn recovery journal or whatever the fuck this is. Maybe I should have stuck to saying "I exercised today. Nothing to report" or "I increased my weight today".

speaking of which I increased my weights today. Better a real weighted vest than a backpack with weights.

Hey

It means a lot to me that you let me say this here. There are no lefty cucks trying to demoralize me. Nobody's putting on a tough guy act/trying to intentionally push my buttons to feel like "le trolle mastermind". Nobody's simping for the women I mention now and then and whiteknighting for them. It's probably hard to believe anyone would do that if you've never seen a simp do that. But thank you for keeping this place free of leftist shills. I'm healthier now than I've ever been.

Thank you.
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>>3582

Just got done reading this thread and wanted to commend you on making it this far. If there's one thing that separates you from other people, it's your temerity. This and your growing self-awareness are the foundations upon which you shall build your new life.

As a fellow tulpafag I can't help but grin when I think of how well you and your pony get along. She sounds like a wonderful mate and I'm glad you have one another.

Please do not stop praying. It's tempting to see God as a great vindicator Who will visit wrath on sinners, yet we must also be aware of our own iniquity and induce others to Him through forgiveness and patience.

None of our suffering shall be in vain. If we steel ourselves for the persecution ahead and rely on Him, our fruitfulness and purpose as individuals will intersect and magnify in ways we could never dream of.

God bless you both.
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>>3616
Thank you. My tulpa girl doesn't enjoy talking to others any more but she's doing great, I make sure to give her time to be creative at least once a week and I let her help with my main projects.

Today a friend of mine showed me a weird video on his phone where this fat fucking landwhale of a woman with a disgustingly round face and an ass ruined by blubber slaps the shit out of one of those armless male MMA dummies meant for people who know what they're doing. She struggles to knock him over but when she does the camera jumpcuts to get him upright again. She slaps the rubber dummy guy, bites his nose and ear, turns to the camera like she's trying to pose, spits on him, spits on her hand and then slaps him, kicks him over from behind then stamps on his head, slaps him a bunch of times, breathes on the fucker weirdly, runs into him and struggles to shove him over with a wimpy tackle, grabs him from behind and screams while shaking him then drops him to let him fall over...I could take about a minute of this shit before I stopped the video.

My friend found it hilarious and thought the fetishy video uploaded by a bitch with mistress in the username was actually some "internet tough guy" antics.

but to me it seemed like some bizarre fetish shit because this video was ten minutes long and she uploaded at least four of these according to his recommended feed, probably more, and it had too damn many views. I don't know if some freaks wank to fatasses fetishistically catfighting with mannequins for bdsm humiliation bullshit while saying "god i wish that were me" in the comment section but I don't want to know so I didn't look. Degeneracy is weird. But to seem like a non-prude I put on a "Oh holy shit hahaha that was the funniest worst shit ever! I can feel my brain cells commiting sudoku!" act.
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>>3617
Not really
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>>3618
This reminds me of the time I went to SawCon
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No.3620
Still exercising multiple times a day.
saw a white dude in a shop with two badly behaved brown kids who ignored their dad until he threatened to not let them watch tv today. Then they screamed and feigned crying until he sighed and gave up on that. The kids grinned and bounced around and laughed at how easy it was to dupe their white father by making a scene. I'd guess they were somewhere around eight to ten.
Giving your kids white-as-fuck names like Lucas and Kevin won't give them souls.
Shit like this makes racemixing look bad.
meanwhile it's media that pretends a half human half elf or half human half demon or whatever would be superior to both its parents that tries its hardest to make racemixing look good.
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Sometimes I fear that I'm too quick to judge others. How do I fix this?
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>>3621
>I'm too quick to judge others
Projecting much?
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No.3623
>>3622
You're right, I'm actually projecting onto myself because I think you're too quick to judge me.
Kidding, just kidding. Your response is silly and I don't know how to respond to it constructively.
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>>3622
Then again, this is pretty funny.
Here I am, self-reflecting and saying "Maybe I'm too quick to judge others".
And you just run in, shouting "No, YOU'RE too quick to judge others!"
Did you make sure you understood what I said before replying to it?
it's like something out of a cartoon.
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>>3624
Self-self-reflecting much?
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>>3625
Ironic
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>>3617

I do not blame your pony for not talking. For the reasons you described above, I've found the tulpa community to be an exercise in misanthropy.

Have you considered tactful rejection of these videos? I realise some will misconstrue this behaviour as uninviting, yet like the food we eat, what we visually consume affects us indirectly.

>>3621

Human beings are inherently judgemental creatures as our endocrinology is primed to separate and compartmentalise that which is foreign. I believe our judgemental nature can be harnessed for objective reasoning, yet this requires self-control and insight most are not used to.

I imagine you meditate frequently, so I suggest asking yourself why you feel so judgemental and identify how this takes place (if at all.) From there you can dig a bit deeper and trace this concern to your upbringing while catalouging self-counseling and de-escalation techniques. You can always ask your tulpa for help too, as they are beheld to psychological clarity by their very nature.

Do note that I am not asking you to act like a castrated sheep so much as outlining the importance of a calm and grounded demeanour. Such will not only make the world more bearable to live in, it too shall emphasise the importance of your ideals and Faith.
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No.3632
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>>3627
Thanks for the advice, it helped. I think I've got a better head on my shoulders now.
My tulpa believes fully hating humanity would be cringe since she's seen so many weirdos (like famous tranny Chatoyance, writer of The Conversion Bureau) do that. Besides I'm a human and she likes me. She sometimes misses talking to people daily like she did when she was young but also doesn't miss what massive faggots a ton of them were. Animufags just here to think about Yuyuko and Yakiko and Yakko's tits don't make for good conversation when their tulpas are one-note meme characters running on incredibly limited hardware. And you wouldn't believe how territorial and aggressive some of them got over whose waifu was developing mentally faster or who was doing more interesting shit in their mental world.
Isn't this "reality shifting" stuff weird? Escapism is such a popular pasttime around the world that the kids and teens are telling each other how to imagine the pain away and fantasize about boning Bakugo to dream the pain away. I don't think the generations that built first world countries had this problem. But escapism is getting bigger as the world gets worse. As VR gets cheaper and more common do you think we'll see more people fully retreat from reality into VR games and fake-relationship AI programs? We really do live in interesting times.

btw still exercising. I took a 3 day break from politics. Had a few moments of relapse where shit got political but overall I focused on my own life and walked around. I should get a treadmill.
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Increasing weight. Exercising harder. Turning shit up to 11 on my abs.

Now and then I'll notice myself touching my own body without realizing it, as if even my subconscious mind can't believe how quickly I've improved and how quickly I've lost weight. I wish I owned weights my whole life! They're so convenient. You can use them whenever you have free time and get buff quicker. I eat healthy, I exercise, and it's a healthy source of pride in oneself and one's appearance. No wonder the jews want us all to be obese faggots. Being fat was depressing. Being this fit feels good. Knowing I've earned this body feels good. I'm tempted to get sleeveless shirts to show my arms off but I'm saving money.
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>>3632

The sad truth is that most of the individuals touted as beacons of wisdom and direction in the community are the same dishonest and abusive people who mistreated their tulpas and peers for a dopamine hit. Rather than seeing tulpas as spiritual guides or those who illuminate our highest aspirations of self, the concept is subverted to enable another layer of delusion, megalomania and hedonism, all of which is firmly rooted in the highest levels of theory and practise. This is unsurprising given the materialistic school of thought that occupies most parts of the subculture.

I'm assuming you're asking rhetorical questions, but I don't believe this escapism to be unusual. When cheap and plentiful resources exist in an unjust civilisation, people are given to odd modes of thought and decadence as there is no credible authority or shared common narrative to make their lives and service to each other meaningful. On the other hand there is no struggle to rally behind or any semblance of a family unit for others to confide in during times of mounting hardship, so others retreat into mediums where they believe they maintain some measure of control and security. It's an illusion meant to satisfy those with no real drive to improve or pursue independence while binding them to an exploitative and increasingly authoritarian system.

>>3645

Great job on keeping faithful to your routine. I'm glad you're discovering your potential and exerting yourself. The only caveat I should mention is that we oughtn't be too proud of our bodies - rather than focusing on the finer details of our appearance, we should exercise to be healthy, discilpined and strong. If one's mortal coil is a temple where the Holy Spirit dwells, should it not be a place of humility and in good repair?

I wish you and your pone many happy and productive days. May the Lord bless and protect you both.
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No.3659
I have this friend but he's a dumbass and whenever the conversation gets political he whines. Even when he's the reason why it got political by bringing up shit like Fentanyl Floyd or whatever bullshit the TV told him about the Kung Flu or asking me questions with answers that end up political. "why does this show suck?" he asks sometimes, as if he doesn't expect the answer to be "because the jews who made it pump it full of so much anti white propaganda you've subconsciously noticed it". But he's ghosted me for so long that I'm starting to wonder if he's still alive. Should I ask someone we both know to check up on him? I wouldn't want to drag some third person into bullshit that's between that guy and his obsession with feeling neutral and "above it all".

Also, it's funny that Nigger is the magic word that breaks leftists and blacks and jews. It's a taboo because it's a word of rebellion. Saying this word and realizing it's ok to be sick of niggers feels liberating because it frees you from the mental prison of thinking your thoughts need to be govt-approved. You're rejecting euphemism-treadmill terms like black people and coloured folk and african american and choosing for yourself how you address creatures that feel entitled to be addressed however you want. It's a funny sounding word. Doesn't it derive from Nigerian? Or the latin word for black, niger? If so, it's funny that calling someone a nigger is basically calling them black. Truly the ultimate insult, since not even the niggers want to be niggers. Judging all niggers by the fictional brownish characters played by rapey hollywood actors on TV would be like judging all wild animals by cartoon critters or the tamed caged beasts you see at the Zoo instead of the wild african animals you can see attacking children and small animals on fucked up websites. Which wild african animals am I talking about? Doesn't matter since both hurt innocents and both belong in zoos. Libertarianism is a dead meme with no idea how to stop communist jewery and egalitarianism is just like supposedly-good liberalism: the self-destructive pursuit of impossible goals in the name of never compromising on once-valid ideals taken to the point of absurdity and robbed of all sense of priority, self-preservation, and reason. The NatSoc wants his race to eat well, and the "good" liberal happily puts the bellies of other races before his own and his own belly before both. The Libertarian pretends an anarchocapitalist nation of pot-growing weed-smoking illegal-immigrant mixed faggots will have any kind of moral clarity because admitting some good must be done for the good of all feels like compromising to the commies and their bullshit "greater good".
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Me: hmm if I'm in the level design stage I should look at arcitecture
https://youtu.be/rrpOPSj9OMc
BEHOLD A 100K PER NIGHT HOTEL ROOM THAT USES RAINBOWS OF PILLS AND BUTTERFLIES AS DECORATIONS. And weird stickers on glass walls.
and then there's this faggot
https://youtu.be/_H2xmRseiDw
"I hate waste and I'm saving the environment and third world" says a faggot who bought plastic flowers for his absurdly sized foyer. It's like something made in The Sims as a joke with the money cheat. And his staff rooms are hilariously tiny.

I think I'm looking in the wrong places. What kind of arcitecture am I supposed to look at? If I half ass the world design with "artistic" monochromatic white blocks or spikes on a dark background I will get to spend more time on cool shit like guns and explosions.
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>>3660
Then look at good shit! Listen to history great works things that are actually beautiful.
Behold landscapes and the people who mold them. The living quarters and the challenges they face.

>I think I'm looking in the wrong places
Yes.
>If I half ass the world design
You get a shitty playground.
It doesn't have to be perfect, hell it doesn't even have to be real. It does have to encourage the players to play.
Look at games which have such level design look toward what makes the map fun.
Such as Doom or Metroid or Devil Daggers or Mario, or anything really.
The World must be at the very minimum good enough.
>"artistic" monochromatic white blocks or spikes on a dark background
Every has to tie in together.
Why bother looking toward faggotry for inspiration of that kind?
Look toward the greatness of man and the potential that could be experienced.
Level design has to be bound with mechanics and lore (that's optional for some games).
The base mechanics must be a joy to use in every instance. Extrapolate that to every part.
Look toward ancient architecture, look toward game design, look toward the human spirit!
It's all there to see in its grandness and joy! As well as the petty despicableness.
They have to want to keep playing or else the exercise is just that an exercise. Useful, but not yet a game among great titles.
Everyone does have to gain experience somewhere.
Before, at the very beginning Extra Credits had good advice. Take it with a grain of salt and be wary for they too have been infected.
Look toward game design, and why it matters. The subtle suggestions.
Even look toward other media. Pictures, paintings, music, stories (expecially stories), movies, the experiences, everything.
You need at least a baseline to know where to look. Or a string to follow toward a goal.
Finding out what inspired Castlevania, what it was inspired by.
Folk lore and more!
Why do you look where the fags dwell when people who care are everywhere just bellow the surface (sometimes deeper) if you dig and search?
You have to have that skill to obtain what you desire. Or compensate with multitudes of time and effort spent recreating the wheel without a hint.

Everything relates to eachother. Build those logistical connections within and without to try holding wisdom in the woven basket.
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>>3661
You're right, thank you.
I was thinking about cartoons and how they shaped the perceptions and childhoods of so many people. Shittons of old cartoons had divershitty/anti-waycist episodes that are cringe, but idiots who grew up on them yet are disgusted by the propaganda today would point to ten year old propaganda as an example of how to do it subtly since they consider what they grew up with "normal".
How many kids fell in love with Callie Briggs, Starfire and Raven, Gadget Hackwrench, Android 16, Ty Lee, Winry Rockbell, Gwen Tennyson, Sam Manson, Kallen/C2, Kim Possible and Shego, Misty/May/Dawn/Serena, and ended up fucked up in the head as a result? The world may never know. Scott Pilgrim ruined a whole generation of women but the lack of reward given to good men in a demoralized society that sabotaged its youth means many men have a fucked up idea of what being number 1 means and won't try to achieve it.
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Still exercising, still healthy. Decided to start making healthy sandwiches out of vegetables.

It's always bugged me that the occultist neo-religious sometimes-paganist sometimes-satanist "Your magic willpower can change reality!" guys never visibly reap the benefits of their supposed magical willpower. You'd think these guys would be the kind of guys that are 999% motivated, the greatest bodybuilders and most well-read true intellectuals who never waste time on silly things and live every second as optimally as possible. But instead they just seem like regular people, aside from their insistence that praying to themselves and their own willpower helped them quit smoking and drinking therefore everyone must drop jesus and praise demons/Thor. I'm open to the possibility that there might be more to reality than what our human senses can sense since the jews hate God+Jesus and keep pushing the idea that we're nothing but meat, beasts, and at best space dust. But in my head when I think of some spiritual guru genius guy, I think of someone whose life was transformed for the better by learning the truth to the point where he's reached superhuman peaks. Maybe that's stupid, the result of decades of conditioning from media.
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>>3684
>result of decades of conditioning from media.
Yes, and no.
>[those] guys never visibly reap the benefits of their supposed magical willpower
So analogy time.
Because they try to lift a 10 ton truck with a plastic straw and nothing else.
Others go and fix up the car and drive it up a ramp and makes it do stuff.
And some call in a tow truck. With some have a jack.
Others use a winch and intricate knowledge.
Some just fuck up the car.
Many more get knifed while doing stuff.
More still give up and just wonder about.
Ect.
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>>3684
Most (mostly meaning most) who are outspoken about the supposed benefit of a certain nameless deity yet cannot prove the evidence as being better are to be taken with a pinch of snake salt. It is best to observe rather than partake in the deed, as it is easier to lie than to be honest.
As commonly enough they tend to be the ones promoting an 'agenda' of sorts, a tool or puppet to manipulate others but are being manipulated themselves, despite their knowledge (lack thereof) of the delusion or not.
It is often for them to be under the spell of a psychosis, being unable to distinguish fantasy from reality. There again, reality does not always have to make complete sense, neither does the human mind.
Indeed. Still waters run very deep.
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>>3686
You're right. Btw, still exercising. Increased weight in my weighted vest.

I don't care about this since it's not much of a loss, but turns out I've been banned from some unimportant ben 10 fanfic's discord fanserver for being "far-right".
I asked specifically what I said that got me banned since I don't remember it and haven't used it in months, maybe a year or two. I got the tard's personal definition of far-right in response because I didn't actually do anything wrong, I was just considered an undesirable.
I don't remember much about the server at all but I remember how that server had a handful of annoying commies who'd say commie shit and then cry "Wah no politics this is a media server!" when debunked. Or cry other assorted jew-tier lies to try and dupe retards with no reading comprehension and a desire to jump on the bandwagon someone else's fight creates to look moral. If some faggots are having a slapfight and it's your job to tell them "Shut the fuck up" or "This one's right, the other one's retarded, now shut up" you gain nothing. But if you believe the one with the more tempting lie about how the other one's some eeevil little bastard, suddenly you gain something. You get to feel like you're a hero for once, by taking the wrong side in an argument you don't feel obligated to read in full before passing judgement on it. Discord moderators, am I right? At least when they're doing this they're not grooming little boys and calling them "femboy transgenders" or grooming little girls and calling them "kitten".
If everyone on the planet was intelligent enough to see through basic lies and understand real science, or smarter, the world would be a better place. Maybe if everyone had to have at least a certain level of intelligence to be considered human, we'd be better off as a species.
Then again, it's not like dumbasses asked God to be born dumb. We can't prove God made them that way because they'd do more damage if they were smart. Besides, culling the bottom percentages of humanity is the kind of thing only a fictional villain would want to do in some cliche sci-fi novel that wants to pretend eugenics is the ultimate unthinkable evil, rather than rape or murder or the slow and ever-accelerating intellectual and societal rot caused by idiots and the leftists that use them for their own benefit. Besides, giving the government the power to decide the legal minimum IQ would get that power abused.
Rich retards would bribe government officials to have their children spared, while having too many kids would become a point of pride for the rich bastards that can afford countless bribes so they can pretend they have a high-IQ bloodline when they don't, the bar would be set high enough to fuck over normal people yet ignored whenever it would inconvenience a race the ruling class likes more, the IQ test would have a load of "moral score" or "emotional intelligence" bullshit added to it to cull sane people and spare overemotional leftist retards and sociopaths from the govt culling since they're both more useful to corrupt govts than humans are, a sex slave market would probably be created out of retards and average people not deemed special enough for the elites... This sort of thing would make a neat alt-history or dystopian sci-fi concept but the only valid government's the kind that keeps its dick out of the asses of its people and protects the asses of its people.

Anyway

I've been thinking about how so many people I know are obsessed with media to the point where they get into daily internet slapfights across all sorts of jewish social media platforms, complete with slander and harassment and harassing friends to try and get them to disavow "thoughtcriminals", all over fucking cartoon characters.
Sometimes they try and get me involved in their drama. Some of them get butthurt at me for not wanting to dedicate hours of my life to joining these slap-fights, as if I'm the bad guy for having dialogue to write and levels to code and bouncy boobies to animate. A life this filled with conflict seems like a massive drag, and conflict over what, the opinion children and teens and childlike adults dare have over cartoon characters? When did 1984 sjw fear-tactics become the norm for playground-tier arguments over the sex lives of moving doodles voiced by middle-aged japanese women?
Doesn't anyone else want a quiet life any more? I've had debates over gun rights that seem more respectful and respectable on the surface(either those who are anti-gun shouldn't have their opinion enforced or protected by law enforcement, or being a nazi should be legal and legally protected, pick one) than any of this shit-flinging nonsense over fucking Ben 10 lore or who Sonic The Hedgehog should have shagged.
Maybe it's a sign that I'm maturing and have improved my life, since I genuinely have better things to do than worry over what faggots think about my waifoo or husbandou or whatever. But I also feel like I'm drifting away from the people who have "media madness" consume their lives. Like I'm growing up and they're staying the same age, with the same shallow interest in the same shallow interests and same repetitive NPC dialogue lines whenever I press A on them. The DBZ fan will say tomorrow what he says today unless there's something happening in that tiny little bubble of aimless nerd culture that changes his programmed dialogue lines. "nerd like android 21. android 21 have the big boobas. majins r so kewl. oh em jee, wouldn't it be kewl if they made another DBZ that was just like DBZ but with android 21 in it? android 21 is so sexy. i suddenly like vore because she turns people into candy and eats them. i'm basically a blank sheet of paper and jews write whatever they want on me. btw i wish sega made another sonic game thats just like sonic advenchur 2 but more! just more, you know, like star wars. more. no i wont play fangames or indie games like sonic but better. i am a loyal corporate whore."
fags.
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>>3691
Jesus fuck nigel, at least offer a tl;dr
Glad to hear about the gains. I'll read the rest when I'm bored, but jesus christ a tl;dr please?
Anonymous
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No.3693
3694
>>3692
Ok

tldr

im getting buff. Weight up.

Today i learned i was banned from some dicksword server for being "far right"

but that is fine because they are a load of faggots

maybe if the world had less retards there would be less of an incentive for evil individuals to mislead and misuse them for personal and political gain, but I wouldn't trust any government that would actually want to cull healthy citizens.

Nerdniggers obsess over media so fucking much that it makes up their entire identity and a handful of my friends make me sad because every fucking day they're typing their hearts out in some twitter or discord or tumblr war over whether Ben Tennyson should have ploughed stretchy alien pussy or wasted his life with that stupid selfish cunt Julie or that obnoxious fucking creator's-pet Kai or whatever the writers decide to do with that joke Charmcaster this season.

jsus fucking christ I know I talk a lot about media but I tend to have something to say about it. A man analyzes bioshock and undertale, a slave cooms for it and obsesses over its characters without learning anything. I couldn't imagine just sitting around occupying your time with assorted distractions like internet arguments over the sex lives or moral values of fictional characters until it's time to suck up whatever slop the corpos feed you then get into shouting matches where you try and rationalize away a bad show's shitness. NIGGERS SHIT INTO THEIR OWN MOUTHS. FUCK.

Ben 10 is a toy franchise with a cartoon that was good for a while. If it's the biggest deal in your life, find God. My Little Pony Friendship Is Magic is better anyway. At least Twilight didn't have to re-learn "friends are important" every four episodes from season one to fifteen or more. I want to cum inside Twilight Sparkle but you won't see me writing a new essay every week to "defend her honour" just because some faggy tween's calling her every bad word she/her/it knows.

Maybe it's weird for a man my age to talk like he's becoming an old man. But I don't think I'm becoming an old man. I feel like I'm becoming a real man. A man who sees things clearer every day. Must be the healthy food, or perhaps the exercise. Maybe planting real-ass food made me level up as a man. Maybe a combination of all three. I'm used to thinking in meters and centimeters. Feet? I use a calculator to turn it into meters. And inches? Whenever someone gives me a measurement in inches I imagine my dick and how many of those copies of my dick are equivalent to whatever's being measured in inches, and that's because meters and centimeters are the superior way to measure shit and everyone fucking knows it. Inchniggers just pretend to hate meters because they love feet too much.

Tldr the enlightenment was a misnomer, denying God and the value of his teachings leaves you vulnerable to subversion. Without an argument as solid as "because God" all you're left with are feelings to back up moral arguments whenever the rational loss-minimization optimization mindset gives you an answer that feels icky. I know this sort of talk's a meme in the warhammer 40k community but it's true: An open mind is an unguarded fortress.

Do you ever think people would like christianity more if it had its own kung fu and alternative medicine practices? Bullshit stretches and lies about magic and silly cures for issues with more scientific fixes... Maybe that would appeal more to normies. Then again, aside from the occasional self-serving faith-healer scam artist who'd imitate any religion if it was big, Christianity doesn't have alternative medicine because it helped birth real medicine and science and rationality and whatnot. Christianity is the greatest religion in the world. Sekai fucking ichi. We are number one.
Anonymous
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No.3694
>>3693
Oh also

it's always bugged me that Neon Genesis Evangelion wants to be this story that says "fuck escapism" but the author's made his story so divorced from reality that it can only be taken as a fantasy. Eva isn't the story of a boy who grows over time. It's a story that says "it would actually suck to be thrust into the pilot seat of a giant robot and forced to battle monsters while surrounded by weird women with mental disorders". I appreciate its deep writing and symbolism. The author clearly knew his shit when it came to mecha anime and storytelling. Asuka represents the headstrong angry woman who mostly hates everyone and Rei pisses on the Yamato Nadeshiko archetype and that drunk chick is kind of a loser, and this is legitimately smart writing. He clearly has a message he wants to give the audience. But he doesn't know how to get that message across to the audience in a way that matters because it's basically just "lmao stop being depressed". A man doesn't just spontaneously get bitches and healthy relationships the second he takes his sony walkman/ipod headphones off and decides to "embrace reality uwu". It's not that easy for men these days. Dancing in a giant robot is as much of a fantasy as meeting several hot bitches that would be perfect if not for personality flaws some horny dudes are into after a lifetime of simping over fictional characters. Losers choose escapism because it's easy and they think they will never be sufficiently rewarded for a life of struggle and pain and growth. Anime figurines can't divorce you to become millionaires while stealing your kids and leaving you homeless. Feminists turned marriage into a mockery of itself and jews turned women into mockeries of women. They wouldn't have undue levels of power and influence if it wasn't for divershitty hires and govt programs meant to make life even easier for wamen. And what does society get out of it? When society pays women to be mothers they get mothers and children. When society pays women to be men and makes stealing jobs from men too easy all they get are jobless men and inferior imitations of men. Eva's creator might think there's a problem with japanese men these days and men in general but he's a coward for failing to look deeper into why not all boys want to sacrifice themselves for a system designed to rob and sabotage them. If he made another season of Evangelion that calls out the jewish lies subtly, he could make a significant impact on the world. If he made another season of Eva that subtly pokes holes in feminist lies... even including entry-level redpills about birth rates and privileged projecting feminism's hypocrisies in something with such a massive audience would help his country and other countries that love Eva. He could do yet another evangelion rewrite rebuild thing except this time Shinji grows a pair and teaches Rei how to smile and enjoy life while Asuka realizes she'll become a bitter drunk cat lady unless she loosens up and treats others better. He probably won't. I guess I'll always see the eva franchise as a massive missed opportunity. The guy gets how to deconstruct mecha anime and media cliches he doesn't like but he doesn't understand the issues the youth are facing well enough to say anything smarter than what you'd expect to hear from the average boomer who thinks "lmao try harder" is the best advice anyone can give.
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No.3696
Increasing the weight on my weighted vest.

Sometimes I talk about my friends here, but I don't wax lyrical about how awesome some of them are because I don't think anyone would want to read that. I love and cherish these fuckers but this isn't some teenage girl's diary. It would be bad for opsec if I deeply explained everything that makes my closest friends great people, since anyone could formulate a list of my friends and figure out who I am by guessing it's the person I don't have many nice things to say about.
Anonymous
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No.3707
3713
Decided to try some new stronger protein shake.

Hilariously, I hear some guy recently entered a female only 2v2 Mortal Kombat tournament using his girlfriend's account and apologized after he was found out. Everyone, especially the people he fucking annihilated, is pissed at him for "trying to cheat them women out of a bag". I thought they loved letting men compete in women's sports? You'd think esports would be a place where men and women can compete evenly if you forgot men are smarter and more focused than women, while the only natural edge they could possibly claim is better rote memorization skills and marxist ego-stroking instead of marxist sabotage. Maybe that's why women love tekken so much, everyone has over 200 moves and most are hidden behind assorted bullshit strings and which button does what is reversed depending on what side of the foe you're on and some attacks can only be dodged by sidestepping to a certain side that changes if you're on the other side of the foe. Give me a set of punches and kicks plus some tricky specials that change depending on final button pressed plus a fun gimmick and a simple universal mechanic with multiple uses any day of the week.
Anonymous
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No.3713
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>>3707
>Hilariously, I hear some guy recently entered a female only 2v2 Mortal Kombat tournament using his girlfriend's account and apologized after he was found out.
Anonymous
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>>3713
I know, right? Mortal Kombat's a shit fighting game series, too. The animation's so bad, even people who know nothing of animation can understand why the moves look weird/weak/unnatural. I hear Mortal Kombat animates using motion-capture footage that's sped up or slowed down to fit the gameplay, without an expert animator's hand to emphasize certain key poses to make the motion look better. While Arc System Works are the kings of using 3D to resemble hand-drawn 2D sprites and amazingly beautiful animes, Netherrealm Studios are clowns who turned trashy animation and the 3d mocap crutch into a gimmick fanboys will call "charming" and "their signature style".

Imagine some faggot who constantly rants about the awful fetishy DND game he's in, regularly, while ignoring any "Get out of that group and find one where the players aren't lactating eight-tittied minotauresses with octuplets for fuck's sake" advice...
but it turns out there is no DND game and he's actually not the sane man from his story. he's the real degenerate writing about hyper pregnancy inflation porn for hours to the applauding crowd of a horde of dnd-obsessed nerdtards desperate to hear stories about nerds nerdier and less socially capable than them.
if some freak used the "My DND campaign is the worst! Please listen to my story and advise me and praise me and reassure me and validate me!" story hook to get a bunch of idiots to read and comment on his fucked-up fetish fiction, would that be fucked up or what?
Anonymous
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No.3740
3741
A tomboy GF is rhe ultimate ideal because femininity (hysteria, sensitivity, fetishized weakness, ego) was so effortlessly weaponized against white males. A tomboy GF is the ultimate thing for a man because it combines the body of a woman with the goodness of a man. She won't be too much of a wuss to endure the mythical "pain" of childbirth more than once. She won't betray you or your family for some impulsive quick thrill and your wallet. Tomboy is superior. I'm sure a traditional housewife would be great if they still existed but the closest thing to perfection these days is the tomboy. Female is inferior. Female has failed the white man and betrayed him. Long live tomboy supremacy, may it grow in popularity with each day, may it rise up and replace this dead neoculture's broken idea of what a woman should be.
Anonymous
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No.3741
3833
>>3737
>>3740
Oh Nigel, no one cares for these things.
Anonymous
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No.3833
>>3741
You care enough to reply and let me know how you currently feel about me :3

btw exercise bike obtained
Anonymous
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No.3834
Jesus this exercise bike is hardcore. Worth every damn penny.

It's always pissed me off when demoralized cucks try to deny the superiority of space travel/space habitats on the baseless grounds that it would be difficult and not benefit people currently alive. How does that old saying go again, the one from a wise civilization that eventually collapsed but was pretty based before it collapsed into degeneracy and forgot its own wisdom? That quote about how society is great when old men plant trees so that young people may bask in their shade. Mankind's future belongs in the stars. Without space travel we're just idiots moving matter around on a single planet that could easily become our gravestone. Would it really be such a tragedy in the doomer's mind if jobs were created by companies that wanted to colonize space or go bankrupt trying? I'm sure those working for the industries that supply those space companies with resources for cash would be happy no matter how things go. Those cowardly doomer cucks should take their defeatist attitudes to hospitals and try saying their "lets just give up my fellow white males" shit around terminally ill patients with a slim chance of recovery. They'd get their asses kicked for it. They only talk that way because the thought of space naturally gives the white man hope that his science can answer life's questions and solve its greatest problems, problems leftism can only worsen. That talk spits in the eye of every forefather who fought and bled and broke a fucking sweat so the comfortably numb doomandgloomposter can masturbatorially brandish his cynical corporate-mandated defeatism like he thinks it's something to be proud of. Whites can into space. One planet is not enough. And we'll never get into space if we shoot ourselves in the foot slaving away for jewish slavemasters while pretending we are equal to literal niggers. "Equality" is a lie meant to discourage greatness. "Liberalism" is a leftist weapon meant to dismantle the aspects of functional civilizations that let them enjoy the benefits of Liberty and Plenty and Truth and other thing the ravenous weaponized useless eaters loathe.
Anonymous
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No.3836
The lack of free will is a myth that comforts faggots by letting them tell themselves they'd be better people if they lived in better times that gave them more opportunities to be good people and fewer opportunities to be cunts or lazy faggots or lazy faggoted cunts.
Anonymous
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No.3858
3859
Sometimes my hands wander to my hips and gut as if even they doubt the radical transformation of my physique for the better. Is this normal?
Anonymous
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No.3859
3870
>>3858
It's normal. Feeling your body change for the better can be cathartic.
Anonymous
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No.3870
>>3859
You're right, thank you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ROJ0-r3zyck
This cringefest helped me come to terms with the crappy fanfics I wrote as a child/teenager.
I feel like I've healed something I didn't realize needed healing until now. If it wasn't for those crappy fanfics, I never would have improved as much as I've improved now. Does Picasso feel guilt and shame over the first doodles and paintings he ever made before he got famous? What about Van Goth and Monet and some other art guy?
Anonymous
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No.3907
3916
Dear diary

Today nofap got me some bitches on my dick. Well, one. I was resting after walking and jogging on a football pitch when a dog ran up to me and sniffed my crotch. For multiple seconds, even when I moved away or stroked the dog's head while guarding my dick and balls with one hand. I even got up and turned around and tried walking away. The dog followed my crotch and wouldn't stop sniffing it. I didn't like it. I'm not actually a furry I just like big tits. The dog's wet nose made marks on my trouser legs. I'm glad I guarded my dick and balls before it touched anything of mine because this would feel weirder if that happened. Anyway the owner saw this and started walking over, after 10 seconds of this he eventually finished walking here and called the dog away, pulling her by her collar as she continued turning towards me, sniffing at me, even trying to run at me. I smiled politely and said "She's friendly, isn't she?" and he glared at me before walking away faster. Maybe this was embarassing for him too? Maybe I said the wrong thing. Maybe he trained this behaviour into his dog unintentionally (dog likes resting head on legs when it wants pat pats and doesn't understand what a dick is) or intentionally (vomits internally). I had no idea what to do in that situation besides guard my dick for fear of it going from sniffing to biting or licking. I'm glad it didn't lick or bite. It was surprising. I didn't wake up this morning and expect a literal dog to smell the unspent semen within me and seek my wild stallion out like a missile. Would I technically still be a virgin if that thing licked me through my trousers or would I count as a sexual harassment victim? Do those laws even apply to dogs? An owner is responsible if their dog bites someone, does the same apply to humping their leg and other canine shit? If I put on some cologne I'd assume it was that but I never use perfume or cologne or deooderant except for fancy occassions that normally never happen. Normally dogs don't seek me out like that and I had no food in my pocket so all I can think to blame is nofap. I wasn't feeling any urges before or during or after the event because I was thinking about jackets. Even now I still feel like that was something too weird to actually happen, like some unlikely degenerate anime fanservice scene. Then again I've never actually seen dog related fanservice in anime unless anthro dog girls count. There was one hot buff wolf chick in There was that "turn yourself in, man" joke from an anime I forgot the name of. I know eating dogs is legal in china but I hope fucking dogs is illegal in japan. Mares are cute, but dogs are not for sexual.

Also I forgot to tell you this but I've been walking a lot and walking/jogging/sprinting down a football field. Good exercise. My weighted vest makes it even more intense. Being healthy is good. No wonder the jews want us mining or paying for dopamine in shitty grind games like Gayshit Impact instead of exercising.

Your faithful student, Nigel D. Narutofag.
Anonymous
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No.3916
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>>3907
Hilarious. You don't often see dogs doing that unless they have done it before, the guys body language would have said it all and the way he reacted is a dead give away to the reason why he ran with his tail between his legs. A bit too friendly ay?
Then again the bitch could probably have smelt your dick cheese a mile off, or perhaps some stains from one of your recent wet dreams. Semen has a strong odor and dogs have good noses, so she might have been able to pick that scent up from you, or she could be in heat. Then again I'm no bitch expert nor enthusiast.
Anonymous
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No.3930
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>>3916
Lmao bruh I have to clean myself well daily or I get skin problems. It must have been the dog because it couldn't have been me.
Anonymous
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No.3974
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>>3930
I get a lot of dandruff. She must have been a horny bitch and you lucked out on a first class ticket to a canine blowjob but declined it without much thought until afterwards.
Anonymous
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No.3975
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>>3974
I know I'm on a nazi site right now so this might be controfursial (hehe) but I'm not actually a furry.
Anonymous
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No.3976
3977
>>3975
Your penchant for furry/futa images begs to differ
Anonymous
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No.3977
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>>3976
Some furry art is well drawn. Some anime art is well drawn. And futa is the only way to make yuri less gay.
Anonymous
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No.3978
3979
>>3977
Pray tell, how does more penises = less gay?
Anonymous
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No.3979
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>>3978
Less or more gay than women grinding their frontholes together?
Anonymous
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No.3980
>>3975
Neither am I.
Anonymous
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No.3981
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>>3979
If your media preferences lead you to choose between furry futa and lesbian fronthole rubbing, you're a faggot and should kys
Anonymous
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No.3984
When I borrowed Persona 5 from a friend and tried playing through it, the game's focus on getting as much as possible out of your limited time as deadlines inexorably marched towards you kept reminding me that I am wasting my time playing Persona 5, an overhyped weebshit RPG for babies who will only call P5 a masterpiece if they have literally never read a book in their lives besides Harry Potter at most.
Anonymous
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No.3985
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>>3981
Don't be gay when I'm winning a humorous argument over the pointless semantics of fictional beings.
Anonymous
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No.3986
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>>3985
Your points have been casually/effortlesssly refuted for a week. When were you 'winning'?
Anonymous
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No.3987
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>>3986
Why are you being gay in my thread?
Is it homosexual to touch a woman's ass?
Is it homosexual to fuck a woman's ass?
If women had wings, and a culture that says winged females should be the one grooming male wings, would it be homosexual to groom her wings?
What if women naturally had penises of their own?
Then women could penetrate other women without being gay about it.
Theoretically.
Maybe, theoretically, I'm just fucking with you because I know you're a screeching shell of a former human so obsessed with me you'll latch on to anything, anything at all... as long as you think it makes me imperfect.
Think, clown, think. You desperately want to turn everything into a competition so you can feel like you're winning something for once. Even though you lack the balls and drive for self improvement necessary to have a thread of your own like this.
You're not doing any favours by screeching at me in every single thread on this website. You're a mad dog and you bark when commanded. You say you're not the spiteful cowardly redditor hclegend? Alright, stop talking like him and stop acting like him.
Anonymous
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No.3989
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>>312678
>>312674
The shit show just doesn't fucking end. Nigel's spine and masculinity wars with the indoctrination. So the only thing in his tool box to work with ONLINE is moaning about shit, because being a silent pussy does jack shit.
>>312674
Fuck you, the thread was just fine and dandy in the nigel thread bring it up there because fuck you'll have all the ducks in a row.
>>308510
>>308640 >>308638 >>308637
>>312383
There is a perfectly fine thread. That's all on topic.

>>312565 >Just one post and you're done, I'd recommend it be somewhere else, and for future reference just keep tabs on where all of them are for easier cleanup. Actual glowing shill fucks heors pussy. See post by admin.
>>312569 >The entomology of the various mental pathologies belong elsewhere, the garbage can thread for one off topics would be appropriate.
>>312575 >I understand the fury and rage coupled with duty for your fellow man to rise above from where he once was. As with many of my messages I'm taking an extraordinarily long time to make sure this isn't simply a rant of just repeatedly saying double nigger.
-GGGGGERS!

I'm sure you can guys can guess which pics are totally not posted atm.
So instead have this nice calming pone.
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No.3990
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>>3987
No, youre clearly being gay in your own thread. No help needed.
Anonymous
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No.3992
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>>3990
No, you're being gay in my thread.
And then you say "No you" and then I say "No you" and you keep this up forever.
That's how conversations with you usually go, hclegend/vril. If you don't just plug your ears and go "La la la I'm not listening and you haven't made an argument yet so make an argument I'm willing to listen to la la la"
Jesus fucking christ, you're a Jew.
Anonymous
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No.3993
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>>3990
>>3992
Anonymous
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>>3992
>No u
Why would I bother? The evidence is incontravertable that A. You deliberately engage in precisely the null effort posting and flagrant accusations you accuse others of and B. You lack the articulation to make an actually coherent argument.
Tl;dr Youre only making this worse for yourself
Anonymous
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>>3994
This war must be lonely for you. I can't imagine spending years of my life harassing one website and constantly gaslighting its users in the hope that someone believes your lies. But you can, because it's what you do.
You enter a thread and attack me while you still feel anonymous despite your posting style. You abandon the thread and move on if enough people tire of your antics and tell you to fuck off. And then you start the cycle again in a new thread where you can feel anonymous.
Wouldn't it be funny if there was one special word I'd hidden in posts directed towards you now and then so I could search for that word and find all the threads you've pulled this in over the years? Then I could direct people to that post every time you show up, for the benefit of newfags who don't know why a snarling rabid mutt in the corner best ignored by everyone is hallucinating vividly and crying shit like "You're mad! And butthurt! And a redditor! Not me, you! It's you who never changes! Yooou!".
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>>3995
>You're mad! And butthurt! And a redditor! Not me, you! It's you who never changes! Yooou!
Well its not wrong
Anonymous
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No.3997
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Watched some documentaries with the boys today. Was a good time.

Today I also criticized someone claiming to be Ninjas for the staff's handling of the hclegend problem, even though I'm not sure if that really was a mod/amin/whatever or not. I wonder if this will get me permabanned. If it does, I wonder if hclegend will move on to attacking other users or simply go back to reddit. I'll never understand why hclegend has been allowed to slander and harass me on this site for years in so many threads, and I'll never understand why his recent self-own in a certain other thread got censored. It was hilarious. Maybe it was deleted because anyone who saw it would never take hclegend seriously again. More than once I've thought about requesting a custom flag so hclegend won't lash out at random brits on the off chance that they're me, but this is supposed to be an anonymous site. Then again hclegend loves attacking me out of nowhere and claiming not to be hclegend until he can't any more, only ceasing his attacks in one thread if he feels he's wearing out his welcome in that thread. Then he abandons that thread only to attack me and cry "nigel" at me again in the next thread hoping his anonymity will shield him from the reputation his words and deeds earn him. That narcissist is sad. However if I was given something unique like a british flag with an orange fox in the middle while hclegend is given something that suits his pro-LGBTQ pro-tranny anti-SuperStraight reddit posts https://archive.is/N0cqB like a rainbow fag flag, anonymity would be removed from both of us. Everyone would know to ignore hclegend posts and never reply to hclegend posters. If staff don't want to warn hclegend to knock his antics off, giving us both flags would be a good way to make his usual antics easier for the users of this site to reliably ignore.
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>>3997
Man you are acting like a paranoid schizophrenic. Go to doctor Goldstein and tell him you think everyone who disagrees with you is the same guy that has been gang stalking you for years. Also ninjas isn’t a mod.
Anonymous
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>the joke
>>3998

btw I've raised the weight level on my chest press and weighted vest. It's a shame ankle and wrist weights don't work IRL but it's a good thing weighted vests work.
Anonymous
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>>3147
>Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting?
Depends, some people enjoy it and others don't because of personalities and the source of stresses.
If I can recommend anything it would be Equine Therapy, talking to people can be boresome and uninteresting compared to the sensuality of feel and emotion. That's if you're interested in Equus Caballus and their behavior patterns.
Institutional psychiatric therapy can be unpleasant at times and it may be discomforting to partake in the expression of feelings to someone you should or should not trust or perhaps don't enjoy being around, the building itself can be discomforting when the rooms are small and you are around people that are (most of the time) in it solely for money. Psychiatrists in general are judgmental and suspicious of classifications and diagnoses that are affiliated with the patients they deal with.
There tends to be more of a nerve racking sense of claustrophobia when being in those brick buildings than as opposed to standing in fields amongst the wild grasses and stone walls lined with barbed wire.
Horses and ponies can be more friendly than the majority of people are, the bond that forms between these two species is one of the attraction of polar opposites, predator and prey. The domestic nature of these four hoofed equines is temperamental and euphoric within interspecies relationships involving humans and horses, it's exciting for some and scary for others.
I love ponies to the moon and back, adorable and cuddly, more fluffy than teddy bears when they grow their winter coats, pones are more therapeutic than therapists are.
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My cunt landlord decided to sell my house. I hate renting.
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4052
Guys if your dick and especially foreskin is swollen after sex is that a sign of STDs?
Anonymous
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>>4051
Yes.
You should probably see a doctor.
Anonymous
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From a Ginger Catholic Irish Girl that only speaks Geálgé.

That'll cost you 3.5 whole Bitcoins to the father.
Anonymous
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It's just skin irritation. Turns out my cock and balls are fine.

:apogee:
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>>4053
Éirinn go Brách. Agus mo ghrádh d'am sneachta