/ub/ - Überhengst

Horoscope? More like whores cope. Lmao gottem.

Is it normal for people who were sexually abused as children to feel disgusted with themselves whenever they try to do anything sexual or get into anything sexual?
Asking because ny parents raped me as a child and I had more than a few horny gropey old hags for teachers over the years.

>>6269
I suppose. Even adult victims can experience similar feelings.

>>6270
I met someone who was also raped as a child by that someone's parents and we talked a lot. Turns out that whole "It's a coin flip whether I am feeling asexual or hypersexual or relatively normal today" thing is a common symptom of being molested as a kid. I thought it was just a personality trait I have, and I've hated myself for it for a long time. When I am feeling hypersexual my coping mechanism is to try and ignore it. Looking at beautiful but unsexy pictures, listening to music to try and make myself feel any other emotion, focusing on my work, anything else. Trying to distract myself. Before nofap my coping mechanism was cooming buckets over big titty anime bitches until my genitals are sore and those disgusting urges were washed away to be replaced with shame and disgust and I could function for the rest of the day or actually get some sleep at night. I had a vibrating sucking fleshlight and a horse vagina fleshlight that fits my size better but didn't vibrate or suck, and I bought those wearable cock things for men on impulse, one horse and one wolf with a fat knot, but I don't think I'll ever have the confidence to mention them to my girl and ask if she wants to see if they work. I don't want to be a coomer any more. I am trying to live a life without sin. No degeneracy allowed. But now that I know that trait was the result of trauma I should probably stop hating myself for it. At least now I feel better about those times I told my girl I was too tired for sex because I exercised too hard. I don't know if I can tell my girl I was raped as a kid. Women usually think less of men after they know they're vulnerable people sometimes. But my girl's smarter than that and kinder too. But I don't want to risk losing her. I wish I could convince her to do more with her big brain. She's easily the most intelligent person I've ever met. If I wasn't ashamed of myself for liking ponies and fantasy shit I'd ask her for help with writing ponies and fantasy shit and then I'd probably have some of the best writing on the planet. You should read what she writes, she uses all sorts of great words and she's created tons of tragic fucked up characters. She doesn't make me feel embarassed for liking this shit, by the way, because she doesn't know how deep I've gone into it. I feel embarassed for liking it because it's not as perfect as her. I want to present myself as a perfect person, but unlike my whore retard parents I don't lie about myself or deny my mistakes. I enjoy self-improvement. Making mistakes means finding new opportunities to grow and learn and improve. Time separates the master from the novice, and the fact that the master has failed more times than the novice has tried. But whenever my girl sees me playing Fire Emblem (I am playing the whole series out of order. I had higher hopes before this started. I'm glad I had FE Tactics on the GBA as a kid instead of this) I skip the dialogue and cutscenes so she doesn't see any of the hyper-tropey cliche dialogue and hornybait characters with bad dialogue. Jesus fucking christ the harder these characters fellate the blank slate protagonist the more I want to sink into my own shadow and cringe so hard I compress myself and all of reality into a multiverse obliterating singularity. Doki doki bitcherwhore club is less embarassing than this because at least that game called horny VN novels inherently fake and inspired their fanbase to write happy endings for girls designed to parody VN tropes, take cliches to their logical conclusion including the cliche of fucking with the fourth wall for fake depth, and never truly find happiness.

I can't say this in the writing thread but I think the real problem is that this project is fundamentally a bad idea. Like trying to write a Pokemon Mystery Dungeon fic about rape. When people play a fire emblem fangame they expect more fire emblem, not something different in tone and gameplay. Mature topics involving the real world are too complicated for kids aged 40 who say "oh my god Splatoon and Sonic Adventure 2 and Fire Emblem are the darkest things ever. Did you know Splatoon takes place in a post apocalyptic future after the fall of mankind, Shadow watched Maria die, and Hanneman's sister got fucking molested and forced to bear several children? People are, like, dead, and sometimes raped!" That target audience just isn't ready for a darker concept like "countless women and men and kids were raped across europe this week in the real world, most people will never know their names, and the perpetrators have the jewish system's power enabling them and protecting them, and Marth isn't real". They just aren't ready to hear that sentence.

You know what sucks about being raped as a child? A lot of things. I was raped as a child. And teen and preteen. But one thing that pisses me off is that whenever I feel like talking about it, I think... what if someone likes hearing me talk about it? What if I talk to another person who gets my guard down by saying all the right things and telling me what I never knew I wanted to hear only for him to start fucking with me? What if someone wants to hear more details about how my mom used to suck me off and jack me off until it started to hurt, sometimes in front of my dad, and how my parents made me dance naked for them, because they're perverts who enjoy reading about this sort of thing? What if I'm being manipulated again?

I love Devil May Cry and I love naming the hardest difficulty in my games "X must die".
Dagdar Must Die, Dorcas Must Die, Pikachu Must Perish, it's always hilarious.
But if I name a difficulty mode Critical Brain Trauma, that's CBT.
And that's fucking hilarious.

>>6281
Lmao nice.
It's really deep how Kill La Kill set up Satsuki as the antagonist at first, before we met the reason why she was that way. She wants to dominate her school, make an army, separate people by class, get the best at the top and empowered over all others, war with other schools and conquer places ruled by other things like money aka comically worthless fiat currency(Takarada's fun bucks), sort people by their strength, perpetuate the dominance heirarchy, all so that she can defeat her mother.
Her mother embodies dominance and takes Satsuki's shit up to 11 to say "This is where this leads, and this is where the system takes the people it grooms". Her goal isn't just to take over some land or kill a few people. It's to take over the world, absorb it with her parasitic Life Fibers, rob everyone of their individuality. Her system is a system of soulless inhuman obedience and inhumans fanatically loyal to her. She's a fucking Jew pedophile, she rapes her own daughter and everything, discarding her other daughter for seemingly being useless to her parasitic cause, and she's got a genetically engineered test tube baby with mental problems.
Nudist Beach are cannon fodder for much of the story because they refuse to use the primary means to obtain power and further evolution in this world: Life Fibers. They're nudists, but when they want to be more of a threat they wear something like those DTRs.
Ryuko relies on her own strength at first, and her own dogged determination so mighty she won't think twice about sacrificing blood to get stronger or cutting her clothes to blind a foe, but the bonds she makes, the friends she makes, this unity, it's a force that can overcome anything, make allies out of old enemies once you understand them and their point of view. Even give you epic anime powerups and the strength necessary to face down the "absolute dominance" of the jew and intimidate it with a glare.
The author probably thought he was saying something deep about what jews say fascism is, fassho aka fashion is like fascism maaaaaaan, hurr durr dominance heirarchies are inherently unjust, let's get naked together because free love can beat the system, et cetera a la resetera.
It's a lovely thought, this idea that villains are just misunderstood people doing what they think is right and doing their best in their situation, but it would take deprogramming experts running camps to cure leftists of all the lies they've ever believed, and their vile reasons for choosing to believe obvious lies and work full-time for free to uphold them aren't something you can just magic away.
But it makes for a fun lighthearted story.

So, how much did you play honkai?
I've been slow at it as usual. But I gotta say, this is suprisingly good, probably the best thing chinks have put out. I know it eventually goes to shit tho. Unless it was in fact, retconned hard later on. But am not getting my hopes up.

The story is nevertheless pretty solid up to this point. Do recommend checking it out. Although with reasonable expectations.

>ID didn't changed this time
Noice.

Good news, my wife grew her hair out for me and she let me braid her hair! I don't know the proper terms but I braided her hair down like she's got big floppy bunny ears over her regular ears. It's extremely cute.

Also lmao I got a gay message from a friend

>Your favourite vtuber claims to be a socially awkward girl who cant show her face but can finally show her true self now that she is anonymous, and after all that "Vtubing is empowering women and I want to be a hero to all the shy girls out there just like me" talk
>turns out before this she was a beautiful egirl who sold nudes and selfies without a hint of shame or shyness before she noticed being a mostly fully clothed anime oppai loli or oppai milf who talks about cock playing minecraft became more profitable
>every fucking time

I am glad I dont care about vtubers any more. Caring about all this celebrity shit seems exhausting. It's hard enough keeping track of all the family members and other people in the lives of all the people I like now. She hates when I mix up her family members or forget which one is which but in my defense she has a lot of them. I'm going to give her more some day. I think remembering things about those ones will be easier.

>>6284
I haven't played Honkai Impact yet but I've been playing a lot of Rivals Of Aether while working on my newest ROA OC. Testing some weapon ideas out for my stylish fighting game idea.

>>6287
Oh I see. Am talking more about the story than anything else btw.
>>6286
>I am glad I dont care about vtubers any more.
Great. Caring about e-celebs or actual celebs in general is retarded. There are some fun highlights clips. But actually sitting through one of their streams is an utter waste of time.

[YouTube] Sharkaton - The Last Stand (Gawr Gura Sabaton Mashup) [Embed]

>Wife
You mean, fiancee?

>Triple Hitler dubs.
That's it. You must oblige now.

>>6288
Yeah, her.
I'll look into that Honkai Impact story and tell you what I think about it. Might also play it if there is no excessive grind or gacha.
I started playing a Pokemon Ballslocke randomized nuzlocke but then I stopped because the game was slow shit and after spending so much time with Pokemon Pink going back to slow canon Pokemon is suffering even with the game at 400% speed or more and the fastest text speed hacked in. The added "1 faint is one death and one lost team slot" rule never matters if you just never die.

I'm making good progress on my sonic game and I designed a pretty cool opening segment for my next Pokemon game with a small local rental Pokemon tournament and just a little backstory before the villains show up and do evil deeds. The gamecube games certainly have their issues but if the grind was reduced Shadow Pokemon would be a great way to ensure certain powerful pokemon can be caught at a level relevant to the current challenges without needing to make wild areas full of countless pokemon per route. Though I'd probably recode it so the shadow Pokemon is given to you when you win and can't be caught in the middle of the fight. Or code battles so the winner gets to take one Pokemon from the loser. Battles like that in Pokemon Pink were fun as hell.

I wish there was an open source Pokemonlike engine. It could be made in Linux, then it could run on a ton of shit and if it could load content packs in a row like how Fallout NV loaded mods, making that dream Pokemon game with all regions would be as easy as assigning teams to recreate different regions and then loading each one into the same mod folder of your project. No need to deal with RPG Maker's size limits, inability to compile games over a certain size, other technical limitations, lag, and shit system where if you import maps into a new project every warp gets fucked up. Every staircase, every cave ladder, every door, every teleporter, they all send you to the wrong places because they're using numbers that were incremented by however many maps were already in your project file. All the best hack patches could be recreated in that engine as patches for this engine. And making new content would be faster and easier. No need for old dodgy sites with broken links to get incomplete sets of external hacking tools. Nobody would need to use fucking ruby. The Open Pokemon engine could come with its own tools for making the files it recognizes as pokemon, maps with NPCs, battles, and so on. People could pass around files and copypasted code for their rivals and NPCs, the engine could be programmed to understand Pokemon Showdown team builder code to save time, combining the fakemon from two separate projects into one game would be easy, it would be epic.

Hell, you could even use the engine for entirely different games. And if the engine has netplay, we have our Pokemon Showdown killer with more Other Metagames and custom banlists than PS and PSlikes ever would. And a Union Room inspired by Guilty Gear or Thems Fighting Herds lobbies plus lobbyless ranked and unranked matchmaking queues. I love when games let me talk to people in lobbies and rooms and run around challenging people or whatever while also waiting in a universal matchmaking queue.

Right now if you want to make pokemon game content your choices with essentials and romhacking have downsides a fully open source linux engine wouldn't. Romhacking is a bitch prone to corrupting and essentials has too many technical limitations and doesn't run on original hardware or anything like it. But the Steam Deck can run linux, other consoles can run Linux, most handheld fake GBAs or whatever can probably run linux. The RetroPi might even be able to run OpenPokemon. Or maybe it would need a ARM port first.

In an early version of Pokemon Pink there was going to be a letter to my dead little sister but I deleted it because the internet probably wouldn't appreciate it.

Mega Man Rock N Roll ended with this letter to the creator's dead dad and it made me want to cry.

I remember spending time with my dead little sister before she died. I don't have any good memories of my pervert parents or the shit places they forced me into. But I remember liking my sister on the days when she decided to be my sister first and my parents daughter second, having a good time with me instead of reporting everything to her parents hoping for a reward. I remember times when I'd swipe food from the kitchen downstairs and eat it with my sister in her room. Or my room. Times when she'd cry on my shoulder and times when I'd cry on hers. Biting into a block of cheese like it was an apple. Eating biscuits. We'd talk about all the places we would visit together some day and all the things we would do when we were old enough to run away together and get real jobs and live somewhere better. I remember these books about faraway places, sometimes fake ones. Pictures, text, descriptions of food... whether it made a real country or some made up place full of fairies and elves sound amazing didnt matter. It wasn't where we lived, a hellish pit of shit surrounded by pointlessly cruel assholes. We'd read the books together. We'd read other books together. She'd make all these lists of places we could go and trace maps onto her notebook and draw lines everywhere for our travel route and forget which direction went what way sometimes. We'd play video games and she'd ask me to take over during the harder parts. She had nightmares about Orxon in Ratchet and Clank and the Elephant's Graveyard in Kingdom Hearts and that fat sack of bugs from Nightmare Before Christmas who sounded like a nigger. She mained Zelda in smash bros melee. In smash I mained Samus, and I'd throw matches sometimes if I felt she was improving and deserved this win. She got scared of Slenderman so I put together a shit game where you can shoot him and oogie boogie and playing it made her feel better.

I remember making this shit Super Mario World knockoff featuring her and I as playable characters, she wanted her character to have infinite double jumps so the game would be a cakewalk if you played as her. We hadnt played a single kirby game at that point so we didnt know a game had already beaten us to that punch. I gave my character a sword and Spindash because Sonic and Mega Man are cool. I remember Sonic Adventure 2 and Sonic Heroes races with my sister. I remember taking turns playing a Sonic Heroes level and seeing who can beat it faster, she'd pick Team Rose and I'd pick team sonic or team dark as a handicap. She loved the bobsled races in Heroes. And Sonic Riders, too. And Spyro, especially the speedways. She was autistic but my parents didnt want her diagnosed like I was. We came up with a symbol language for our notes in case anyone broke into our house and stole our notebooks and ripped us off. Don't look at me like that, we were kids.

I wish I had racing games she could play but I didnt have a lot of games or a wide selection of them. It depended on whatever we found in the second hand store or preowned bargain bin. Hard to believe we seriously found Melee and SA2 and a cheap gamecube in the bargain bin but back then dipshits chose second hand stores over online auctions. If mom ever caught us eating I said my sister didnt eat anything and I was eating everything and trying to tempt her into misbehaving, that way my parents only attacked me instead of her. I remember my sister going from having a crush on Tails The Fox and Aang to having a crush on Shadow The Hedgehog and Zuko. She had this notebook she took from school and hid under her bed and filled with doodles. Kingdom Hearts OCs, Naruto OCs, Fakemon, all sorts of stuff. Even fanfiction she didnt want to put online for fear of getting hate mail. Sometimes she'd throw these paper plates around her room with Axel's chakram designs drawn on them. She was a kid. She was my kid sister. I miss her.

But my parents got to her, broke her down, gaslit her while I wasn't there. Made her feel guilty about being a jobless child in education just because my parents were wasteful wiggers who cant handle money responsibly. Blamed me for how they had to move once they couldnt steal my benefit money any more, even though they sabotaged my life by forcing me to spend extra years in a useless daycare school for retards full of abusers who hated me for not being retarded just so my parents could get extra money from the govt meant for me. My parents made her give up on all her hopes and dreams and get a job sweeping the hair off some muslim barber's floor. My parents made her resent who she used to be and embrace being theirs. Now she tells herself it's childish to dream and I'm "just a dumb disabled lying kid who never grew up" for teaching himself everything, escaping his abusers, creating video games and animations, having a career with the possibility of upwards mobility, and succeeding despite the best efforts of everyone in my IRL life I've ever met. She could have left too. Nobody ever threatened her life and forced her to say "My dumb disabled oversensitive brother is lying and my parents are good people" every time someone asked me about my bruises. My parents didnt have blackmail material on her. It was just easier for her to be theirs than it was for her to be her own person. And no matter how hard I try to move on, I still miss her.

I still miss those good moments when she wasn't helping my parents abuse me and reporting everything I did to them hoping they'd reward her for saying something after they hurt me. My sister chose to be an awful person to me. And she chose to give up on her potential. But I miss her. I can't make myself hate her even though that would make everything feel simpler. I still miss her.

>>6290
>Might also play it if there is no excessive grind or gacha.
Don't have to worry about that. Each mission has predefined characters, half the time you get a bunch to choose from.
Your actual Valkyries which you upgrade and shit, are not really allowed in the main story.
They are in the first chapters, but it's pretty much irrelevant given the weaker enemies early on.

>>6291
That is a very upsetting story and I'm sorry that happened to you and your sister. Being able to mourn for her is important, so if you word the letter sufficiently vaguely I think you should include it. Don't care about what others think about you, care about what's truly important to you.

Also, the thread has moved past bump limit so you might want to consider a continuation thread.

I've read all of your posts on the matter. Sorry for not commenting on what happened. I just feel like I don't have anything of value to add.
But I should've said something at least.
Am sorry for what happened fren. Despite your flaws, you are a good goy Anon. You guys deserved better.
>>6293
>Also, the thread has moved past bump limit so you might want to consider a continuation thread.
There's nothing wrong with that idea. But I think he continued past bump limit this long thanks to the claims of Narcissism.

>ID finally changes
Why live?

>>6295
>>6293
I don't want my thread to pop up on the front page whenever I post in it. It should only be viewed by people who want to come here.
Also I recently had a taxi driver from Poland who was still learning english. While waiting for the taxi some guy in a town hall invited me into the warmth and I helped them set up TVs and game consoles for a youth club, they had a PS2 and I told them about Free MC Boot and a list of multiplayer games the kids might like. Guilty Gear was on the list. Their collection of ps2 games wasnt great, but it will become infinite as soon as they download and install it. The old man works full time then comes home for barely half an hour before going out for charity stuff.
I love helping out charity stuff like this. Did I ever tell you about that time I baked a meat pie for a church near here that was feeding the homeless? In the moment when baking that pie I felt "This isn't enough. What am I thinking? I'm pissing in the rain here and pretending I'm part of the storm. This isnt enough. Nobody will care. I'm not helping enough". But I brought that nice hot pie to the church and seeing these people, knowing I helped them, it felt right. I think I'll make this a regular thing. There were so many homeless people. And old people who didnt look homeless, talking to each other or a family member or two. They were here because this is warm and their homes are not.
Those fucking Jews... I will never forgive them. Even if they turned everything around and decided to be a force for good in the world, we will know they only did it out of fear of the white man awakening, and when they think the white man is asleep they are happy to rape his wife and rape his daughter and cut his sons cock off and freeze his granny and poison everyone until they pull the pfizer pirrouette like they're searching for God in their final moments.

>>6297
Anyway the taxi shows up and phones me and I got into the taxi. He doesn't speak english very well. And there's no shame in that because he's white. He's clearly trying.
"Its okay. English is a hard language. I tried learning Japanese. It was too hard for me."
"Japanese?"
"Yeah. I liked anime when I was younger. Japanese cartoons like Naruto."
"Never heard of it."
"One Piece, Code Geass, Death Note, Pokemon..."
"No. No pokemon. I dont play games. No more, its stupid. I play game... jump game, old game. Long ago. No more."
"Was it Donkey Kong?"
"No, its go right game. Go right three days, not done. I tell my kids, no game. Watch tv. Polish comedian. Football. Factory. Youtube. Science blow shit up show. Car show, top gear. Watch anything else."
"Was the game Sonic? Mario?"
"Mario! Mahrio? Marryo? Him. I play... three days. Three days and not done. Videogames are stupid. I'm 58! I had boat! I fish boat! I have kids! Waste of time."
"Yeah. I watch this youtuber who plays online games designed to steal real money from players."
"...Steal?!"
"Yeah." I said a line about MMORPGs he didnt get, then I realized my mistake so I talked simpler. "Imagine a car racing game. The racers get points they can spend on buying new cars. The winner gets more points. You dont get paid real money for racing. But you have to pay real money to get the best cars. Otherwise you cant win. Its not even close. Like a ferrari or formula one racecar racing a bike."
He laughs. "A bike!"
"Yeah. Everyone else buys the best cars to win. They cheat like that. And if you dont cheat like them, you lose."
"Do they get money back?"
"No."
"Thats shit. Thats stealing. Shit game. Poker but you always lose."
Poker but you always lose. What a great way to view these games!
"Yeah, exactly. You pay to get in the casino, you pay to win, but whether you win or lose you cant make any real money back. The online games are like that but you are knights with swords who fight dragons. And to get the best swords, you need to spend money or play for 100 hours."
"100 hours! 100 hours... its too much."
"Yeah. You play for 100 hours to become a stronger knight. Then you fight the same dragons over and over. Five men, or ten men, or fourty men, all working together to kill one dragon twice a night, every night. Takes two hours every time. All for the small chance that you might find a better sword this time, and maybe get to keep it."
"Hundred hours..." he repeated, thinking to himself. "Fuck."

I agree. We also talked about how the tv license is a scam.
At first trying to talk simply felt awkward. I sounded like a guy trying hard not to swear. But felt natural over time. Car arrives home, I pay, I get out. I come home and say hi to someone, still speaking simply, I ask how her day was, she assumes the worst and hugs me because why else would I be talking so unusually? God she really cares about me a lot. I try not to cry in her arms. Even after all this time, affection is something new and beautiful. She laughed when I told her I was just still stuck in simple speak mode because I was talking to a guy still learning english.
I know a guy who said learning Toki Pona helped him think clearer. When he feels stressed, he switches his brain and thinks in that simple language where there is no rarity scale.
That language is too simple. It feels incomplete.
You don't hear "Gargantuan tree" in that language and think "Did he just say gargantuan? Nobody says gargantuan. Rare word. Four fucking syllables of effort there. Must be bigger than a big one, to justify the use of that word". Not in that language.
If it's good for him, good for him. But Toki Pona seems retarded to me. If you're making a conlang it should be a better form of english for faster communication and densely packing more info into books while minimizing opportunities for miscommunication. Not just making up random rules for no reason to make your fictional world feel more like Tolkien's or trying to create a language so simple even niggers can speak most of it. Translate an english novel into TP and important shit is lost in translation.
Not just a regional dialect cultural thing that can be localized like how Japanese media with "Idiots from Osaka" are given redneck or brooklyn accents in the english dub, or Phoenix Wright was moved to America from Japan and Nine Tales Vale, Los Angeles is said to be full of Japanese immigrants.
Some other old guy talked to me today while waiting for his wife to buy him a panini. Coronation chicken with cheese and pickles. He hates the BBC license fee and refuses to pay it. He likes Lord of the rings and hates the new show. You love to see it, folks. But when he said his wife carries the money in case of muggers, that was cringe. Should carry something the cops dont want you to have, conceal it well, and act natural so you never get searched. That's how you keep your wife safe.

Literature teacher: The curtains are blue because they represent the inner turmoil of the passionate dolour of the soul's crosswaved langitude and longitude of longing
Literature writer: The curtains are blue because the curtains are fucking blue

This is a mediocre anti intellectual meme when misused. Here's a better one.

Critic: Sonic wears nothing but shoes and socks because the creators are perverts.
Creator: Can't spell blue streaker without blue streak lmao. But for real he's naked because it makes him easier to draw.

BTW, I am talking about Honkai Impact 3rd. Not the newer title.

Do you know of any other instance of this concept? Variations are fine as well.
>Character is OP after "x" happened to him
>Using his powers slowly corrodes his body and mind.
>He's tipical shonen MC, so he'll use them anyways to do the heroic thing.
>Fren doesn't likes this at all
>Story tricks you into believing he's gonna make it.
>There's an emotional turnaround where nothing but his sheer will, allows him to resist the corruption.
>It seems like he has tamed those powers and will force its way through all the shit.
>"Will burn this shithole to the ground"
>Turns out this isn't the typical shonen story
>After being healthy and strong just a few chapter back.
>He's now suddenly fucked beyond comprehension and won't be able to save jackshit.
>On second thought, there were signs all along.
>This forces fren to make a decision and/or change entirely.
Afterwards. The story is now driven by this fren. And the audience is left thinking.
>He couldn't make it in the end.
>But this other guy, he's different.
>Could he finally pull it off?

Am Carlos BTW. In case you somehow haven't noticed yet.

>>6304
I don't recall ever seeing that. I heard Attack On Titan does make one of the characters become a cunt but I haven't finished it yet.
It sounds like an amazing idea if done well.
I hear one of the older pre-GBA Fire Emblems kills off all your characters and replaces them with their kids after a while. Haven't played that one yet. Hooray for beating FE games out of order.

Hey, do you think it would be funny if Sonichu ended up in a Sonic fangame?
You could play the game as Sonichu.
Or kick Sonichu's ass as someone else.
Even another Sonichu.
It might be the first ever video game to feature Sonichu.
Or the first one to feature Sonichu without being more shitpost than game.
Sonichu might be a secret character you need a cheatcode to unlock.
Or an early game boss.
Or the final boss.
Or a playable character whose face on the character select screen just stares at you.
It could be funny to put Sonichu in here or it could get people to write this off as a gay stupid shitpost game for perverts and troons.

Sonichu is a stupid and lazy character concept.
And the author is a faggot troon manbaby so desperate for pussy he fetishizes femininity and resents his own lack of masculinity.
Parents who overfeed and under-exercise their dogs and kids are abusers.
Sonichu is a shit story in universe and out. Chris was just a faggot and in retrospect he's less funny now that we live in a pozzed society full of leftoids just as insane as him or worse and consoomer culture idealizes money-wasting retards like him.
Name something overpriced he bought. Someone else spent more on Soy Trek or Soy Wars. The Star Wars Galactic Space Cruise Hotel Experience or whatever it's called offers absurdly overpriced drinks meant to exploit this class of untermensch manchildren. Name something retarded he believes about reincarnation and other dimensions, would a hypnopony tulpa believer or new age boomer hippy laugh at it or call it wise? He's a troon but so are countless others and at least he doesn't work at schools pushing troonism on kids. He raped his retarded mother but so did tons of other faggots. Name something offensive he said about gays or blacks or jews or women- Actually let's skip this one, I don't like blacks and jews because they hate me. Gays and women are pushing it, if they want to be my friend they should abandon feminism and lbgtqgroomerism and recognize the existential threat islam poses to their way of life and ours. Anyway he's a cuck and I'd say he's from a lost generation driven to madness if that same generation didnt have people raised on completely different pieces of media and exposed to completely different cultures and influenced in completely different ways.
Look past the amateurish art and source inspiration (to be fair you can taste Berserk influence in Soul Calibur which might not exist if Mortal Kombat wasn't as shit as it is, Star Trek was pitched as Wagon Trail but in space, everything is inspired by something else in one way or another) and the author's disgusting narcissism and nothing is left. Nothing interesting is done with the characters or setting. These are not characters, they are plastic figures in a playset for Chris to fuck with. Sonic and Eggman don't even go on big brain political rants. CWCville is an exercise in masturbation and a boring setting for a story. I made my old unicorn character a retarded niggerfaggot because it's what audiences seemed to like at the time and he was going to grow into less of a niggerfaggot while getting even more OP so audiences will in theory think he is even cooler. Now I know more about writing so I know that was doomed to fail. Fundamentally flawed. The people I knew who praised it, what were they thinking? Was I intimidating? Were they afraid I would get violent if they told me how my story could be improved? I'm not like that at all. Did I seem like a fragile child who would break and give up on writing forever if I got one negative review? That's not me. Or were their standards so low that my work was "good enough by fimfiction standards" and therefore not offensively bad in a way that starts interesting discussions? Did they call it good without reading it? I'll never know.

>>6305
>Hooray for beating FE games out of order.
Is it like YS? Where you can play each game as a standalone title? Even tho it is the same ongoing story.
>Hey, do you think it would be funny if Sonichu ended up in a Sonic fangame?
I'd say, go for it. Just don't advertise it or throw it at the player right away.

My ID is jumping around again.

>>6306
Fire Emblem has 15ish games but they usually aren't direct sequels. They like reusing concepts and weapon names and shoutouts and continents but usually things are only sequels if they have a protag with the same name as the last one, like Ike's games.
Playing FE Awakening doesn't require understanding who Marth from Smash Bros and FE1/its DS remake Shadow Dragon is but longtime series fans might like how Awakening is set 1000 years after FE1 and involves new countries on the first game's old continents.
3 Houses fans might chuckle at how Edelgard is like the 10th take on "the big conqueror character who usually wears red and might hate the gods". Basically Walhart's daughter without actually being his daughter. But a more sympathetic exploration of the idea this time, as she has legitimate reasons for hating her shit society's nobles and gods and caste system and holy bloodlines.
The games don't even develop in complexity in a linear fashion. 3 Houses overcomplicated things but its balancing often felt like a joke and the systems felt like tech demos for ideas that could be refined several sequels later.

>>6306
Also because of the way my engine is designed if a character is in this game it will be visible as soon as you open the character select menu.
Unless I hide him behind a secret input like "Go to Sonic and press down twice" and after you beat him in the story mode the game tells you this secret.
Though I could put him on the character select menu roster in one of the corners? I made player 1 and 2's cursors start in the two upper corners with their cursors on Sonic and Shadow respectively.

It's weird to remember the days when people said "I can't believe Sonic and Batman have friends now. Tails and Robin are stupid kids who make things less mature and dark and edgy and turn their franchises into dumb gay baby shit. I hate them" and "Nintendo jumped the fucking shark with Gold and Silver. Apricorn balls? Dive Balls? I already have a ball that's more effective on water types, it's also more effective on everyone else and it's called an Ultra Ball" because now Gold Silver and Crystal are overhyped games looked back on with nostalgia and Tails was so great it took 30 years for them to fuck him up. And how many Robins are there in Batman's bat army trying to recapture the magic of the original? Four? Six? Ten?

The worst part about sprite art is having to compress detail into a small space because this results in losing detail and a simpler character design.
This isn't Xrd, I can't hide a bunch of engrish text on the clothes of random characters.
Also my characters have to be short.
I prefer tall fit women. But tall characters in fighting games suck because they get hit by shit average-sized characters can low profile under.
And this fucking catgirl who says "It's teleporting time" and teleports everywhere needs to be a TINY FUCKING MIDGET for gameplay purposes.
I just did a morb meme in 2022. Digging up a dead old meme like this is truly morb-id.

At one point I was trying to make the most perfect Sonic game possible within the confines of my resources and design limitations. Like I'm trying to fix the franchise and retcon this and explain away that. But that was stupid. Stupid fanfiction writers that seeks to dump stupid headcanons on the audience instead of telling a story. And that story, that humanity inside the animal characters, that's what stories are truly about, not how many sick backflips the characters can do. This Sonic game is going to be something for me that I made for fun, and if others like it too, that's great. I'm experimenting with ideas and game mechanics. Boldly experimenting. No game has ever made its meter and burst and controls work quite like this. I'm not trying to perfect things here, I'm trying to have fun. The Sonic franchise is a lot of concepts, it means different things to different people. Sega could hire this man to create the perfect 3D sonic game with Mania-perfect 2D levels where all the special stages are kaizo stuff and there's a level maker and you lose 10 rings each time you take damage so the level design can afford to be tougher while special stages deplete your rings over time for extra challenge without forcing you to play a homoniggering testicleraping minigame for faggays but somebody would still call it imperfect for not being their dream Sonic game, which has... I don't know, 90 hours of randomly generated dungeon crawler RPG and Sonally romance and a high school setting. Or a customizable avatar with romance options and child soldiers you can recruit into your army of weirdos. Or a portal gun. Somebody out there wants portal gun sonic. And that someone is me, portal gun sonic would be fucking epic, portals conserve momentum so if a speedy thing goes in a speedy thing comes out, and Sonic is the ultimate speedy thing, give him a portal gun in a good 2D or 3D game with momentum and his levels can do so much more with their concepts.

And do you know what else that game should have? A difficulty choice at the start. Easy/Normal. Except Easy changes nothing about the game. It just adds laughtracks to the story cutscenes.

>>6322
*stupid fanfiction writING, fuck me.

Is there a point to any of this? I may never get to save another person again. All the hours of scripting, art, studying, coding, learning, exercise, socializing, is it worth it? My girl yelled at me for forgetting to eat again today. She wasn't pissed for failing at something I promised I'd try harder to keep an eye on. She felt bad for me.
26.
Almost Christmas.
Soon I will be 27.
Soon I will be 30. Then 40, then 50, then 60.
Possibly.
My country is being destroyed and my people are being molested by reptilian jew goblins in the government and banks and three letter agencies and so much more. They control everything and I risk my life every time I visit this site and say I wish I lived in a white christian ethnostate without any fragile aggressive rape apes or jewish pedophiles grooming our kids. Sometimes I post here about media opinions I can't post about anywhere else. Where else can I call fallout equestria or Sonic Frontiers or the new Pokemon game shit? My parents molested me as a child and got away with it because my little sister lied in their defense. And I still can't bring myself to hate her. I'd hate the three of them if they worked together to molest anyone else. What's wrong with me? What makes me unable to care about myself?

I used to enjoy talking about politics. But I feel like there is nothing left to discuss. No more debates left to be had. WalkAway happened. All the facts are out there. Basic fucking math debunks the biggest lie we are taught. The remaining leftists would rather serve child rapists for profit or fun than do the pragmatic thing and keep their heads down and quietly wait on the sidelines to see who wins. They are all pure evil and they deserve something worse than they would do to us for fun if given the chance. Every last one. There is no middle ground between rapist jews and their white victims. No compromise. No third option. The world really is a simple black and white place, and white men entertain themselves with stories where things are not so obvious. Where genocide is not necessary and merely killing the warlord in charge of the barbarians/mothership in charge of the aliens/AI in charge of the robots/leader in charge of the terrorist cell is enough. When people complain to me that they can't say "Paki shop" I feel like exploding. They rape our fucking children and invade our lands and overthrow our governments without facing any meaningful resistance your biggest concern is what they and their jew allies will allow you to call them? Does everything the enemy did to us mean nothing to these people? And that guy who knows about the WEF but can't stop distracting himself with aliens... Why does he bother arguing with people about the WEF if he is only going to sit around and say "Things will get worse and we are all fucked"? No wonder nobody wants to hear his redpills. Nobody wants to believe they are on the losing side of the conflict and tactics must adapt.

>>6325
Dude, you are wasting your time, the bronies turned this place into utter desolation.
I don't know what is wrong with them but suddenly they begun to malfuction bad. Vaccinated perhaps?

>>6324
>>6325
Damn nigga. I gotta say, your spirit is undoubtedly stronger than pretty much everyone I've seen on this site. It's kinda shitty seeing you all black-pilled.
That said, I've honestly lost all faith long ago. I don't really think it will ever get better. But that doesn't mean I'd stop trying. None of this shit can have even the tiniest emotional impact on me, not anymore.
Even if things are hopeless. A man needs to push onwards. Do everything you can possibly do. Even the Lord has been compelled by sheer human will and perseverance.

>>6326
The longer you spend discussing FIM and not fanfiction, the fandom, other fan media, headcanons, theories, analysiseses, or anything else unrelated to FIM, the more likely you are to talk about a bad episode or bad character. Or misused or mishandled character. Discussion of bad official FIM stuff is ruined by cunts who say "Fuck you, shut up, I like it that way, you're the problem, official FIM has done nothing wrong, the official FIM content you like is worth less than nigger semen, I hate you, your standards are too high, how dare you focus on the negatives and not exclusively focus on the positives instead, how dare you disagree with me, you don't belong here, I hope your entire family gets molested you piece of fucking shit". It rejects discussion and the premise of critique. Prevents growth. Stifles learning. Makes the discussion all about the cunts and their feelings. Shuts conversations down. It's draining. I stopped talking about Sonic on Sonic forums and Pokemon on Pokemon forums because I got sick of that type yelling that shit at me. Why do they have to make their shit taste my problem? Can't those kids let adults discuss kids media in peace without anyone calling me names over media opinions? It's always weird to encounter someone in an unexpected context who offers an opinion like "New dub Vegeta is shit, fuck funimation, I miss the ocean dub Vegeta" that's forbidden on mainstream sites.

Sonic was never good.

Sonic was good*.

*if you only play perfect games like Sonic 2, 3+K, Advance 1, and Mania at their best (dont buy segas shitty rereleases) while swearing to overlook all flaws and missteps and glitches and jank if you play anything else with some good parts and some shit parts like Sonic Adventure 1/2/Heroes/Battle/Shadow The Hedgehog/06/Unleashed/Advance 2 and 3 and the Rush games. And find the OVA somehow. And ignore Generations and Colours and Lost World and Forces for being pure shit. And ignore the TV shows that don't appeal to you based on what you do and dont want out of animated Sonic media. SatAM is babys first dark war media for kids, AOSTH is silly wannabe loony tunes complete with crossdressing and weird fetishes and HOW THE FUCK DID THEY GET JOHN LONG JOHNSON BALDRY IN THIS, Sonic Underground exists unfortunately, the Toei Junio Sonic OVA was fucking awesome and that hat was so cool Ken Penders stole it, Sonic X is a bit of low budget slice of life fun until they adapt Adventure 1 and 2 and then run out of ideas and go to space to save the plant princess, and Sonic Boom is comedy gold. It's supposed to be an action show but the writers know they don't have the budget for good action and comedy is the best thing you can do with a setting as inherently limited as Sonic Boom Island, sixish characters, and barely four locations. It even does a CWC episode for crying out loud. Funniest shit ever, we should watch that one on movie night some day.

Mario is a cereal box mascot. Sonic has countless imitators because he wants to be more than Mario's imitator. Sonic has more potential than Mario ever will. But people lose faith in the franchise and character because every time Sonic Team tries and fails it refuses to learn from the failure. The latest reinvention of the Sonic identity was Sonic: Breath of the Shadow of the Neon Genesis Colossus Revengeancelion. Before that it was a racing game and gunless rail shooter hybrid called Automated Boost Sonic. Before that it was an automated semi 3D game called Automated Adventure Sonic. How fucking hard is it to program a fucking blue sphere in red sneakers to roll down green hills with actual physics? Get blue spheres? How about you get blue spheres, SEGA, and go outside and touch grass and roll blue spheres down grassy green hills so you can learn how physics work and stop being decades behind the times?
>>6327
I have crippling depression. I fight it every day. If I ever seem like someone who has everything together, it means I am winning. But I will never kill myself. If it seems like I did it means I was suicided for finding information that could lead to Hillary Clinton's arrest. That's a joke, there's no point looking because nothing short of a pipe bomb or sniper or heavily armed mob ready to start with gunning down ZOGbots will ever end the tyranny of enemy politicians. I fucking hated talking to this one guy... let's call him friend C. He was a libtard cuck. His life was nicer than mine. Had it easier than me. But he was addicted to making shit up and smiling about it. If he was ever losing an argument he would threaten to kill himself. And if I told him to stop pulling that shit every time he feels pressured to tell the truth and admit fault people nearby would look at me like I'm the monster. They didn't know. Didn't know he would just talk like that for fun and pretend he was more than another soft leftist zog worshipper coomer with an empty council house full of dildos and an overpriced laptop the taxpayer paid for full of man on man porn and furry porn and discord kittens he sent nudes to. If I ever sold nudes it would be for tremendous sums of money, not power over a discord server. And I won't sell my nudes. Fags like him might masturbate to them and that might hurt my chances of getting into heaven. My huge cock might be worth a lot (it leans a little to the left. Only thing about me that does) but I will never be a whore. He posed in embarassing girlyboy fashion and tried hard to appear harmless and nonthreatening for personal gain despite also wearing the aesthetics of violence and insanity whenever he felt like it and ditching either persona when inconvenient for him. Talking to him was like talking to an AI that can't remember to stay in character or who it is supposed to be. Except instead of forgetting which body part belongs to who or how many tails we have, he forgot which personality trait he is supposed to emulate in this social game he turned everything into. Niggerfaggotballsfagfucknigcunt.

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My zipper's open
My cock's what I'm choking
I've even forsaken my race
For now is the season
To discard all reason
And nut on Rainbow Dash's face
A glorious ass
But I'm not just crass
Her mane is what I long to feel
(I really like her mane!)
Human puss I spite
As my dick stands upright
The only thing I know for real
There will be nut! Shed!
In that video Dash is giving head
Rainbow will be! Bred!
I'll ride upon that feathered back
Because mounting's all that's left I can take
OH NO THERE WILL BE NUT! SHED!
IT'S THE ONLY THING I'VE EVER BLOWN!
Losing all my dignity
Fearing I might not succeed
I'll fuck the horse in front of me
I must fill R.D. with seed
As we're fucking at this deadly height
Over Ponyville, it's raining white!

That faggot jew tried so fucking hard to appear harmless and appealing to women when he wasn't trying fucking hard to appear dangerous and exciting and interesting to men. One second he claims he juggles knives for fun and killed someone with a chainsaw once. The next he claims he could talk his way out of a rape gang trying to take his money by trying to appeal to their emotions or offering to buy them a pint and have a good time. Fucking faggoted white negro. Fuck. I'm over that guy and I'm glad we stopped talking but writing shit he said into this work means looking back at the shit he said to me. Pisses me off all over again.

Maybe if I was better at arguing I could have fixed him?

No. No, that kind of thinking is poison. He is over 25 and he isn't disabled, just a lazy faggot on benefits who jacks off to skinny shotacon boys with tiny tiny doodled dicks and ugly fursonas raping each other with fat dog cocks. Fucking pervert. It is not my responsibility to fix or save anyone, especially a degenerate who does not want to be saved. He has less value than a fart in the wind. His only contribution to this earth is an object lesson in what not to be. His inauthenticity masks the lack of anything worth talking about beneath all the lies. He's just a lazy pervert obsessed with pleasure and lies.

I don't have the right to feel like the good I do is meaningless. I wouldn't have the heart to look an old person or disabled person or poor person or some mix of the three right in the eyes and say "I feel as though I am nothing and what I do to help you is meaningless". I couldn't say that to any of the people I've fed. So why do I keep hearing it in my own mind? Sure, if I help one in a hundred, I'm not helping 99 others. But if I sit on my hands and feel my ass grow fatter, I'm not helping anybody.

No matter how good or bad my Fire Emblem game turns out it can't be worse than the two romhacks I played today.

What felt like a whole hour of useless lore infodumping irrelevant to the current events and the characters filled my screen before I eventually got to play as the game's protagonists, nigger Chrom and girl Robin. Everything currently relevant about the setting and current events could have been summed up here, with the characters saying shit like "Woah, why is this nation attacking? I thought those fucks were our allies! That bastard King Dharkonian must be behind this! Why would they attack when they normally make so much money selling fruit to the Northerners?" or whatever. In the moment, in what is supposed to be an action-filled prologue even though the characters take too many lines to say what can be expressed in few words to preserve a sense of tension, what matters is "Survive" and "Fill the audience with reasons to give a shit about the survival of the heroes", not "Blah blah blah magical all-powerful runes blah, there are many countries and here are the names of four and their gimmicks and "this country spent money on research which was very wise", fuuuuuck me. We could have been introduced to the specialties of each country when we fight it for the first time or see a unique unit from it.

And then another one making the same mistakes but worse. Blah blah blah, this world once had dragons, they turned into humans, some bred with real humans and some didn't, there are clans with names, and then we get shitty sprites and "We had better kidnap some of our enemies and torture them for info. I know what Dragons are like. They are proud and would rather kill themselves than give up info. But these Dragons are faggots. They will probably tell us everything". And then there's a shitly designed second map where the fucking enemies flee behind terrain I can't cross while infinitely respawning filler guys die to my two overpowered Jeigens. If I said the first map felt randomly generated it would be an insult to random map generators everywhere. When I saw map 2 start with an absurdly OP enemy within striking distance of all my guys I checked for a Talk command with each character until I found the one that recruited him. I wonder if he'll die in a cutscene to deprive me of this absurdly OP guy so I don't solo the whole game with him?

Fire Emblem Awakening didn't do this. You help a blue-haired lord slay an obviously evil wizard, then you betray the lord. That's map 0, a tutorial for moving your guys and attacking foes. You awaken in a field in the past, saved by the lord, who recruits your amnesiac cultist-cloak-wearing ass into the military and makes you its tactician. Map one, filthy bandits from Plegia are attacking innocent civilians, kill their asses. Map two, your time-travelling daughter from the future saves your blue-haired husbando's little sister from zombie monsters you later learn are the fault of Plegia and their satanic dragon god Grima. Map 3, trading items between units, weapon triangle, and introduces the idea of the Shepherds, and creates forwards story momentum by telling you we're going north to get aid from the snownigger khans. Map 4, it's snowy and you learn barbequeing armourfags deals Super Effective damage as you learn about chokepoints and Pair Ups and gain a pegasus knight. Next map, fight your daughter from the future who fights just like Chrom, simple combat room map to suit the story focus, then you're saving a girl from the Plegian Mad King Gangrel holding her hostage and about to kill her, then you're defending Chrom's big sister Emmeryn from a Plegian assault led by the evil wizard you killed at the start, he survives because of a mysterious force, then there's filler where your new better second Pegasus Knight says "I'm the only survivor, I still hear the screams of my fallen comrades!", then there's the climax of Emmeryn's arc.

You could even say that this is where Emmeryn... PEAKED! Ha-ha!

But yeah the mission to rush in and save her with your Pegasi riders is foiled by enemy anti-air archers (this is established earlier) and then Emmeryn tries out the japanese national sport of skydiving without a parachute. Chrom gets pissed, kills his way through enemies in the rain as sad music plays, you kill your way to Gangrel and kill him, story pauses. Then there's filler about Valmese fags, then you return to killing Plegian scum and prevent them from awakening Grima. Then Future Grima from the bad future where he won shows up and you kill him, Gangrel's bitch Aversa, and the dark wizard Validar. Happy end, game over. The narrative focus is almost always on infusing this story with forward momentum, with mystery, with setups and payoffs. It's hardly shakespeare but it had the sense to not frontload this tale with narrators narrating their fucking purpose as fourth-wall-breaking narrators to your face before awkwardly infodumping all the shit in the author's worldbuilding documents like a CERTAIN shit game I played today.

Eirika's Fire Emblem? FE hackers sure love the GBA games so let's look at how Eirika's one handled things. There's a bit of loredumping at the start but what matters is the Princess fleeing from baddies at first and she has to fight them but based gigachad Seth is there to solo the game for her if necessary.

Thank you, Fire Emblem community. Thank you for the reminder that Pokemon fangames and Fire Emblem fangames are subject to the same curse that plagues most fanmade media made by fans for fans.

You need a diverse pallet full of ideas from more than one source. Draw all your ideas from one well and they become stagnant. To make a great Pokemon game, you need to know of RPGs better than Pokemon, strategy games better than FE, and characters and stories better than the writing in both.

>>6335
For the record I had units who could have crossed the thickets like the flier girl but if they were dead and the cowardly enemies chose to hide behind that wall the map would fucking softlock.
Second map in the fucking game. Christ.

If RPGs are a joke, Pokemon is the punchline.

Early morning sex is so good and pure. No exhaustion from the day. No caring about what time it is. No checking the time before you fuck. You feel loved for the whole day when you're done cuddling with wife and helping her clean up. Porn stories end after the jizz or fade to black because they don't like that part. But I like showering with her.

I know it's a bit early to think about my new years resolution but I think I want to stop blogposting and spend more time being creative. Can this homosexual blogposting thread be deleted? It is full of personally identifiable information I probably should not have said, and I even admitted my parents molested me and several teachers I had in my life groped me. I don't want every stranger to know something so personal and private.

Christmas was nice this year. Attended a party with one of her friends. Left at 3pm because everyone else was leaving at 3pm. What kind of lame ass party ends at 3pm? We should have stayed there until 3am the next day getting drunk doing each other and drugs! Haha just kidding. I'm not a degenerate. No drugs for me. It was not an orgy with drugs. I would never go to a place like that. Instead it was a wholesome friendly party with friends. I played video games with new friends I made there and my girl bragged to all of her friends about how amazing I am! That surprised me! I don't know why. She loves me and praises me a lot. She praises me a lot when I do good. She really thinks the world of me. I'm not used to it. She sees the good in me even when I can't. I would die to protect her. I would kill to protect her. It always feels weird when someone has something nice to say about me. She talked about the amazing game I am making from scratch. Art, code, music, character design, animation, hitboxes, all of it. I am single handedly doing all of this. And I was playtesting my game with these people at this party because I brought it with me. Some people spend their lives improving at just one of these fields. They went to college to learn this shit from the best of the best and improve what they have been doing for decades. And here I am teaching myself to do literally everything so I can do it all. When you put it like that holy shit, I guess I do sound pretty amazing. I have no illusions about the quality of my work but it's good to know even people who have never picked up a controller before can quickly learn my game and git gud. The industry has a lot of issues with that. With teaching, and being teachable.

Also my roommates grew up and aren't colossal faggots any more. Now they are cool. They got based and dropped all their bad habits and they work out with me. I feel bad about calling them faggots now.

"Stupid fighting game selling clerk made me late! That trilobite didn't know a 6P from a DP! Heh. DP. Heh. More fighting game humor."

Designed a speedrunner tech into my Rivals Of Aether OC: back aerial gives a great decaying momentum boost. Platform cancel your back aerial or jump cancel it on hit to cancel bair and fit more bairs into your movement to accelerate your speed beyond its usual limits.
Another tech: Preserved Invulnerability Neutral Grounded Aerial Schmoovenent dashes, or PINGASdashes. Jump cancel your rolls to preserve up to 7 frames of invincibility and challenge your foes for aerial supremacy.

Time for another daily dose of tragic backstory. I should admit my parents were always terrible people. And I should admit what kind of person my sister was. Looking back, I really don't know why God wants humans to romanticize people and ignore all the bad parts of them and all the bad moments.

My parents used to encourage my sister to lie about me to them.

If she ever whined "he's hitting me!" or "He called me names!" I would be punished and she would be rewarded. My parents framed it as "making her feel better". It certainly made her feel better. All she had to do was play the victim or threaten to do it and she would get what she wanted. But they enjoyed how it put the seed into her head, the seed of the idea that lying for fun and personal gain is fun and always okay.

When she was around 10ish to 12ish and my parents started sexually grooming her with porn more often, encouraging her to watch porn videos with them, tv shows full of sex like crime dramas (looking at you, Castle) and Legend Of The Seeker and The Almighty Johnsons, reading erotic Sherlock and Avengers and Loki x Thor fanfictions with her, she started getting ideas from this. And the Kingdom Hearts sex fics where Axel and Roxas fucked or Sora and Riku fucked. What is it with women and gays? Why do they project their anal paraphilia onto men who are incredibly straight or too underage to know what sex is? Fucking weirdos, the lot of them, and they've always been this fucked up. When men were writing Star Wars fanfics autistically spergulating all over how the reality bending fuckery of the Dilithium Crystals might allow something as scientifically impossible as faster than light travel, the women were writing about Kirk and Spock buttfucking each other into sex slavery. All that porn damaged my sister.

After her forced sexual awakening from her parents, my sister's new favourite lies to yell were "He touched my boob!" or "He raped me and used a beer bottle as a condom!" or "He farted on me until I passed out!" or whatever other disgusting thing happened in her most recently read disgusting "lemon" smutfic. They used to use terms like "lemon" to say "this is porn" while getting around the anti porn filters. My parents gave her a fucking laptop when she was too young for one. She had one and the boy four years older than her casually making basic video games as if it's nothing and teaching himself via youtube whenever he had a limited amount of time with the family computer his father preferred to waste on World of Warcraft and Farmville and easy mode Command And Conquer didnt get shit.

That doesn't seem real, does it? That doesn't seem believable, does it? If these parents really thought I was hurting their favourite kid in any way, why am I still alive? That's the thing. They never asked themselves whether what she says is believable or not before deciding to give her a bowl of ice cream for lying and faking tears. They encouraged her to lie without even asking herself if what she claims is believable or not. A fucking beer bottle... Have you ever seen a beer bottle? If you can fit your penis inside an opening that tiny you need to see a doctor. Plus it's fucking glass. It would make a terrible condom. And the flat round end... i can't imagine it fitting inside women in the first place, let alone allowing them to enjoy it. She is fucking retarded. My sister is legitimately fucking retarded because that's what her parents want their daughter to be. I feel bad for her. I feel bad for her because I know what my parents did to her. I wish there was something I could do to help her. But she doesn't want my help, she wants their conditional approval. She doesn't want to cry on my shoulder about what it was like, she'd rather pretend everything in that house was perfect except me. As if I'm the demon and they're the angels. What a joke.

There is a parallel universe where I had a laptop, a phone, and a music player full of podcasts and downloaded mp3s of youtube tutorials growing up. And instead of wasting time replaying the same few videogames over and over and wasting a decade in dogshit fake schools and a worthless pozzed college out to scam me and waste my time, I was homeschooled and I could actually put all of that time into something constructive for a man's development like reading the best books in western literature, learning all sorts of valuable skills, practicing my valuable skills, becoming more by the age of 16 than I am right now at 26. My sister was never molested and neither was I. My sister was never groomed. She followed her dream and made that Kingdom Hearts ripoff and then started making way better shit after growing up and learning more and finding new interests. But I can't let that kind of thinking get me down. Yeah, my life would have been happier if my father died of cancer. The same is true of my mother. My sister would be better off if my parents were dead. But you can't change the past. I have to keep moving forward. I've got people counting on me now. I can't let them down. He who has a why to live can bear any how.

Someone jewish probably thinks I'm being an unreasonable prude by saying shows like Castle and The Almighty Johnsons and Legend Of The Seeker is inappropriate for underaged girls. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH SEX IS IN THESE SHOWS? A LOT OF DISGUSTING FETISHY SEX. DON'T LET YOUR KIDS WATCH IT. Sometimes Castle's murder of the week involves fetish clubs or horny perverts or prostitutes or the A-plot about the murder will be unhorny for once and the B-plot about Castle and Bitchett's muh feelings will be horny instead. I wanted to eat downstairs so I wouldn't have to watch them with my family. And so that retarded pedo father of mine wouldn't stare at me, his food going cold, his TV show ignored, and whine and shout and niggernoise every time he thought I was eating too quickly or too slowly. He was a white nigger addicted to hating his child, so he didn't actually have a preference when it came to how quickly I ate, he just enjoyed the sound of his own voice. I wasn't allowed to eat where I wanted, but it's probably for the best that I could stay in the living room and keep an eye on my parents around my sister. But I couldn't always do that and that was when the most grooming happened, when I wasn't around for my disgusted or horrified reaction to make my sister question "hey, maybe this isn't normal? Maybe my parents aren't cool and open-minded? maybe they're fucking perverts?".

Did I ever tell you the cupcake story? I once had a cupcake, dad went apeshit because he deserves to be beaten to death in prison for being a pedophile and he isn't a person, he said I was eating the cake too slowly and that was his excuse for beating his son. And in that moment, my adrenaline up, my mind in survival mode as I weigh my options, I lunge across the room and put my cupcake on my mother's crossed leg, because I instinctively know even as I'm plotting out routes around the room that tire him out and lead him on a merry chase around the place but keep him away from my sister and leave me with an escape route to the front door or downstairs where the knives are, when food is the farthest fucking thing from my mind, I instinctively know the safest place for that cupcake is perched right atop my mother's leg because there is no way in hell that sociopathic narcissistic pedophile would ever stand up and defend me from that violent irrational pedophile. I lunge across the room like there's a sword in my hand magnetized to her knee and I place the cupcake right there before pulling back wondering what the fuck I was thinking and the weekly chase begins. As a kid I would often think about fighting back against my pedo parents but I knew fighting back seriously would have to end with me dead or my attackers dead. I even had a knife hidden in my room just in case my parents ever trapped me in my bedroom where there is no escape route before coming at me, but I wish I did murder my parents when I was younger, because if I killed them in time, my sister wouldn't have been groomed and gaslit as much. Do children who are also rape victims get short sentences or no sentences for fighting back against pedophiles trying to rape or murder their child? What if they're teenagers protecting their little sister from murderous pedophiles? I was unable to protect my little sister from pedophiles when I was a kid, does this make me a failure? If cops and child protective services in the UK were worth anything they would not have been useless. Hell, they were worse than useless. If I trusted someone enough to tell them where the bruises came from the bitch social worker assigned me would visit my house and fucking warn my parents about it and leave! I couldn't get away from that house until I became Adult Protective Service's problem. I wish I could sue the bitch responsible for that. If I ever get doxxed I hope the liberals assume beating my pedo parents to death will make me miserable and cause me to spontaneously like niggers. Then again if a nigger did it, I would, for the first time in my life, have a reason to like a nigger. Do men who were raped by their fathers look down on men who were jacked off and sucked off by their pedo mothers when they were kids because "it could have been worse, it could have been gay" or do they have empathy for all kinds of raped people? IDK, I don't think I've ever spoken to a raped person. I think the way the system failed me and fucked me over to try and make me dependent on it might be where my mistrust in authority and distrust for corrupt authority stems from. Then again I already disliked corrupt authority before I was raped and beaten as a kid. Maybe everyone sufficiently human naturally distrusts authority and dislikes corrupt authority, and that's why the NPCs fucking love bootlicking for satanic pedophiles and jackbooted cops who love protecting child-raping islamic/nigger gangs. NPCs are fake people, you can tell because they don't have souls, they just fake emotions to stay in the good graces of whatever seems to be the "in crowd" after sufficient gaslighting and mainstream media manipulation. If we were in charge they would be calling the cops on illegals, not on innocents. They serve the dominant authority without truly questioning anything and the dominant authority must change before their minds will.

Also fuck Rivals of Aether, I've tried not to say "fuck rivals of aether" for as long as possible and create timers and workarounds wherever possible but fuck Rivals of Aether for not letting me program my OC to be able to perform dash attacks in mid-air even though I've programmed the move to be air-OK and my code for accessing this move from an aerial state with a unique command looks perfectly fine. I'll probably need to make dash attack the second part of my forward aerial and code it to be automatically skipped if I don't hold A when inputting forward aerial, and instantly skipped to if I do. Or maybe I just won't bother, this bitch already has enough speed and mobility as it is.

My new year's resolution is to MAKE ONE GAME PER MONTH LETS FUCKING GO

PLUS AT LEAST TWO BONUS GAMES

BECAUSE THE ZERO PUNCTUATION GUY DID TWELVE

I WILL DO FOURTEEN

FOURTEEN IS A BETTER NUMBER BECAUSE IT IS BIGGER

PERFECTIONISM IS A SYMPTOM OF BEING A FUCKING PUSSY AND I NEED TO GET OVER MYSELF AND RELEASE FINISHED PRODUCTS EVEN IF I MAKE MISTAKES

GOTTA LEARN TO TAKE A HIT SOME TIME, COWBOY

LET'S MAKE FAILURE MYYY FRIEEEND

Just saw a video by a guy who thinks Dora The Explorer should be in Nickolodeon All Star Braw and get a gimmick where she can spawn Swiper, who approaches when you aren't looking at him and steals your most recently used move. So she wants to set Swiper up on one side of you and attack you from the other.

That gimmick is too weak. I'd use my shittiest move and jump straight into Swiper, losing something I don't mind losing, then resume kicking Dora's ass. Or just keep Dora in front of me at all times. Or just hit Swiper if that's an option and he doesn't become intangible while hiding or isn't fully intangible all the time.

A character like that needs a biggr deal for their gimmick. Maybe she can make a photograph do the move Swiper stole? Maybe it disables an entire button. Baiken in guilty gear was sick when she could do that. That might put her on par with Clairen's parry based anti-projectile field. Then you're either giving up your attack button or your special button. Wait, does Nick ASB have other buttons like Strong or Heavy or Smash or whatever? I don't FUCKING FINALLY THE DOWNLOAD IS COMPLETE

Someone called me a woman today and I laughed it off.
It dawned on me that because I don't give a shit about pronouns and I'm fine with either pronouns this technically makes me nonbinary.
Neat. Nonbinary, autistic, bisexual, ADHD... and you'd never guess by talking to me because there's more to my personality than the adjectives. I have hobbies besides gaming and anime. I experience media besides one cartoon and two movie franchises.
The UK spends billions on paying the illegal immigrants here to eat and breed. How much money could we save if they were all sent home? Just send them all home, a pig born in a stable won't magically become a horse. How much money could be spent on charity programs that benefits billions of foreigners in their countries of origin, without any need for some to come here while leaving others behind? People are struggling to heat their homes and afford food and afford to keep working, and as things get worse, more people become willing to hear criticism of the government responsible for this crisis.
We shouldn't be importing the greediest horniest third worlders with no background checks and nothing to lose. We should be paying white companies and white charities to build and maintain shit in africa the africans couldn't maintain to save their lives. Or just leaving them alone after we kick them out and make them leave us alone. Trillions were wasted on africa. We'll never become space colonizers with thieving rapists colonizing our lands and yelling "Coloniza!" in our ear like it's their version of "nigger".

Lol I'm fucking stupid. I told someone I had multiple dates and later realized that was the wrong word and these are not dates. I agreed to do one hobby with one person, one hobby with another person later, one hobby with a different person at a different place and time, but they are not dates in the romantic sense and that's probably the first thing people think of when they hear the word dates. I have a busy schedule and many people who care about me. I am not cheating on my girl or dating multiple people. I do not want to fuck any of the people I talked to today or ran with or visited the gym with, male or female. I visited a book club one friend was a part of and it was full of old people. I fought the urge to bring up my degenerate poetry and based literature and I won. I hid my power level and I seemed very normal and my girl said she was proud of me. I visited a new church to see if it is full of degenerates or based people, it seems ok but I'm going to keep bringing food to the other one because it's full of freezing old people taking a break from freezing. Obama. Fuck Obama. Obama did this and the rest of the fucking Jews. Fucking evil secret jewish satanist pedophile cabal. I should do a ram ranch parody but it's epstein island and voiced by an AI. I'm doing a thing in my pixel art for my ROA OC where my character wears glasses now so her head can be smaller. When her head was too big she was clipping out of her own hitbox and it looked terrible. Someone asked me where the pokemon game I wanted to make years ago is. It's done, and its name is Pokemon Pink. Scope creep killed InfraRed and UltraViolet, it had WAY too many features and ideas best saved for an indie game with the creative freedom of a new IP, so I scaled things back and made Pokemon Pink. Then I scaled things up a little for Rapid Red. I might make another with new shit but I'm bored with Pokemon now. My autistic hyperfixation has shifted back to fighting games so I need to finish my industry redefining revolutionary fighting game idea that will push the genre forwards and break new ground before I get bored again and I get a new autistic hyperfixation that requires learning new skills and techniques I may never use again in my life.

12 hours straight of working on animations for game. Big titty bitch with sword go speeeen.

She saw some video that made her want us to photoshop each other under a time limit and then show each other our work.
I said ok.
She didn't really change anything on my face. Just made me look like I had makeup on my skin to lighten it. But not my eyes or lips, that would be gay.
I wish I knew this before I shopped her.
Was this supposed to be a romantic "I wouldn't change a thing about you" kind of gesture?
I thought the goal was to see how much we could change under a time limit.
And I'm not very good at this. I don't even have photoshop. So I kind of... uh... went overboard. I sampled flesh from her face to turn her trousers into thigh highs, hue shifted random parts of her clothes to get more colours on them, changed her hair and eye colour, made her way taller than me, I added seven belts with belt buckles edited to be gold and other accessories photoshopped in from other pictures, gave her wings and cute animal ears, cranked her breasts and ass up to 11 and kept going, copypasted her so there were three of her in different poses together...
Thank God she laughed. She could have taken that really poorly but she didn't. I think I would laugh if someone did the male equivalent to me. Photoshopping me into... what, the Pillar Men? Gigachad? Some girly korean boyband guy(some chicks dig those for some reason)? A vtuber? Ha! Me, a Vtuber. That'll be the day. They'd hate me as a vtuber. I'm socially awkward, untalented, and extremely unattractive. And I sound gayer than a bag full of nigger penises. Even if I drew my model to be sexy I wouldn't know what to do with it.

Here's a fucked up game idea.

You're the new transfer student at a school full of sexy nonhumans. It's anime fanservice central. All the cliches.

One day you wake up for just long enough to realize you're being kept comatose by a steady stream of drugs in a VR helmet that puppets your body as you do slave labor for a living while your consciousness is in anime titty land. A nearby guy, the only other guy in the setting, is watching political videos on his phone, letting you know what's really going on in the real world outside your sex fantasy.

You're sent back to dreamland and you can either keep it to yourself and forget about it and spend time with your anime girlfriend harem in a world where you are the only man everything revolves around, or you let the girls know. If you let them know this might all be fake, comfortably familiar spooky fan-service bullshit happens. You and the anime girls use your amazing power to kill the goddess of nightmares because that moment of the real world was totally just a nightmare, the anime goddess who shows up suddenly said so. You get a bad ending where you tell yourself everything is fine. But if you consistently reject the anime girls and their dates you eventually wake up in the real world where you can help the fight against (((communists))).

In order to earn the happy ending, the only ending that matters (and has the only real story-based Steam Achievement in the game attached to it besides bullshit achievements for shit like hours played and hours spent looking at anime tits) you have to give up the numbing drug that is pretty fictional lies and focus on making the real world a better place. You have to put the figurines and sex toys away. You have to accept that fighting power IRL is harder than the media makes it look. You have to accept that the media will constantly lie about you. And you have to accept this challenge anyway even though it is so much harder than telling a cliche anime girl you love her and you're ready to watch her stab Death or Lies or the fundamentally subhuman untermensch's urge to be governed by tyranny in the face.

An art friend told me he tried creating Stable Diffusion furry porn and got nightmare fuel. Too many dicks on one body growing out of the wrong places. Some real body horror Slanesh (Warhammer 40K horny god) shit.
I told him there's an audience for that kind of shit.
He was even more disgusted.
Humans are disgusting.
This world can be so disgusting.
But when I hold my girl close I know there is beauty in this world. Something worth sticking around for. Something worth protecting.
I miss who my sister was before my parents brainwashed her. But she's dead. She didn't even try to contact me on christmas. Even if only to try and verbally abuse me with "you left our house because you dont care about us, why do you hate mummy so much you monster? Why won't you come home and be my brother again just like old times?" shit like in christmas of 2021. Christmas of 2022, she was silent. I checked her facebook, she's still alive. I hate using that site. She seems fine looking at what she posts, but everyone seems fine on social media if that's part of the marketable brandlike assumed identity that gets them clicks and engagement.
You know... before the brainwashing she always wanted Axel to be playable in a mainline Kingdom Hearts with his chakrams. Even better than the mission mode in 358/2 Days.
What a stupid name. It's called 358 over 2 days because 358 days pass in this game but only 2 matter to the overall plot. They did their best with what they had available on the tiny console and reused assets, even making all Organization 13 members and extras like Sora/Donald/Goofy/Mickey Mouse playable in Mission Mode when half of Org 13 fucking died in the first 10 seconds of the game and only about 3 characters really needed to be physically present in the game let alone playable in it.
Roxas is the protag, Xion is a Roxas copy with his exact moves, Axel is a teammate sometimes. They could have gotten away with stopping there, maybe putting Saix in as he was fought as a boss, but no, they put soul into this when it wasn't even remotely necessary.
They should have made missions about fighting "dark phantom projections" of the dead Org 13 members. Those boss battles would be fun. Their code was in the game. Reuse it in the main plot, contrive an excuse, blame experimental failed data from the replica program.
Or they should have given Organization 13 something important to do for a month, maybe a year, something before half the members die at Castle Oblivion while Roxas is still a shell with barely any personality.
Sometimes I think of putting stuff my sister designed into my game, letting the best of her old ideas live on in something. Would she like that? The old her would. Before she became obsessed with being what her mother wants before being herself.
I'm fine with her growing up and finding new hobbies and interests. That's part of being human. It's respectable. What I can't respect is her spitting in my face by helping mom gaslight me. That time women at the youth club next to that kid's playground with burned stuff saw my bruises and called the cops for the first time in my life happened. That time I was underaged and went to the doctors because mom saw scabbed over cuts on my boy dick from her sharp nails and she chose to pretend she had nothing to do with this and she chose to believe I seemingly caught something and had to be taken to the hospital and the doctor gave me cream happened. All those times my parents hurt me happened. All those times my parents hurt my sister happened. All those times she cried into my shoulder begging me not to turn out like my parents happened. What does she gain from pretending otherwise? Even if I had no emotional connection to this and I wasn't me and I was reading a book about characters I didn't like doing this to each other I would say "That's fucked up. What's wrong with her? The author is a faggot for making characters act irrationally for the sake of melodrama. It nakes no sense for her to be this way".

Some thot asked me to do a kink tier list and then called me judgemental for putting everything in "fuck no" tier except for cute stuff like cuddling and normal stuff like kissing and vanilla sex. I like being healthy and normal, thanks. It feels nice. I got off the coomer treadmill. No more. Not even any breast expansion. Perfectly normal, me. I'm so normal, I'm second guessing my choice to give my OC a cool mechanical arm after getting creepy PMs about it from an art discord.

I've tried hard to sound cool and manly on this site but I probably ended up sounding like a retarded violent faggot.

I used to be more of a faggot. Tomorrow I will be less of a faggot. I want to say that every day. I want to be stronger than I was yesterday. More than I was yesterday. I want to never stop improving.

One of the most successful people I know confessed to me that he was a burned-out gifted kid at 10, 20, even mid 20s. He thought because his life was sabotaged early on, it was okay for him to fail, that it was someone else's fault and responsibility, that it was over for him and okay for him to give up. Then he decided to turn his life around. The fit guy showed me a pic of how he used to look and I said "Nice photoshop" because it looked so different. He said thanks and showed me a video compiling his monthly progress update videos over the years. The transformation rate was... inhuman. Almost supernatural. I half expected him to say "just kidding that was all AI and I was fit my whole life" afterwards. I think we're gonna make it. It's never too late.

I wrote Silver as such a faggot when I tried making him closer to what people seemed to like in characters popular with women. To make him sexy I should have made him more like me. I don't consider myself sexy but my girl does. Every time she calls me her handsome little prince I feel that if I had a tail it would wrap itself around me to hide my blushing face from her. She said she loves how honest I am. She said she loves how kind I am. She said she loves how affectionate I am. She said she loves how driven I am. She's so kind. She deserves someone better than me. But she loves me. So I have to be the someone who is better than me. Better than who I was yesterday.

Looking back I think it was my fault that my relationships with women kept going bad.

Except for the two naruto obsessed girls, those two were just fundamentally awful people at the time. And it had nothing to do with their shit takes about the embarassingly edgy cartoon for kids, they treated everyone like shit and got away with it. I'd like to believe they turned into better people over the years. But I don't think society would ever force them to do that by taking away their privileges and power over others and making them play by the same rules as everyone else. I doubt society would ever force them out of their delusions and into the real world before they hit 30 or 40. They might even hit 50 or 60 and think they're still oppressed by the patriarchy or whatever.

If I knew more about people back then, maybe things would have been different. I would have better relationships with the good girls and no relationship with those two awful ones. But my girl is best girl. I am socially inept. I am not good at lying convincingly or manipulating people or noticing when others are lying or manipulating me. There was one moment in my life that made me think "that consistent characterization needs to go in one of my books".

I confess to someone I am not good at social interaction. Not good at lying, manipulating, hiding my true feelings, gaslighting, or anything else people do to each other for fun. She asks me if I'm good at listening and caring. I say yeah, who isn't. She says I'd be surprised. She asks if social interaction is, to me, just a game of lies and bullshit. I confess that's all I've ever seen from people towards me or each other, and I can't stand it. She says that's sad. I said... yeah. I expected her to call me a sad fucking retard. But no. She just seemed sad. I wondered if she was disappointed in me for not having anything funny or sexy or exciting to say. But she was... sad. Because I was sad. She didn't even have to be, but she was. It's like she wished things were better for me. People my age these days... nothing is sacred to them. They will casually drop hitler and 9/11 jokes in the most unexpected of places. Some people think they don't care about anyone or anything. But they do care.

It took me a while to realize a girl was flirting with me because after all these years I didn't think anyone could ever actually love me or even like me. She thought I was playing hard to get and being cute. I didn't think it was possible that anyone would want to see more of me without wanting something from me. I thought a relationship was when you find a girl you're willing to suffer for and hope she appreciates you for it even if she doesn't have to. I didn't think it was possible for a woman to honestly care about me and want the best for me. Sure there was probably a chance that she was flirting and in the moment I thought there was a chance she was flirting with me but I wouldn't want to ruin the situation and risk misreading the situation and assuming she liked me. What if she thought I was a pervert for being a male human willing to believe someone might flirt with me, and never wanted to see me again? What if she was disgusted at me for ever showing availability or interest in her? What if she thought I was taken or gay and would be disgusted if she found out I'm bisexual? I'm glad she stopped being subtle about her love for me. I wear armour around my soul. It's not there by choice. It takes a lot of force before I can feel anything through it. Like there's a bottle somewhere in my body that used to be full of tears before I lost them. Takes a lot to squeeze anything out. There is a heart in here, still beating. Just not as hard as it used to. But she makes me feel like I could heal.

>>6417
Fuck, I said that wrong.

In the moment when I was talking to her about how I'm not good at social interaction I was there with her. Physically and mentally I was with her. She doesn't even mind that I'm still bad at it. She wants me to express myself kindly and honestly and communicate with her openly. And I don't have to guess with her and she never gets mad at me if I guess wrong as long as I ask if that's what she means if I am unsure. Sometimes I confuse her if I guess wrong. But she never gets angry.

It was much later, when I was alone, when I thought "That moment was perfect, it belongs in a story."

Sup, nigga. Just wanted to say that am glad you're doing alright. I truly wish the best for you. It's probably cringe and gay from me to say it, but whatever.
I might not post, but am still lurking the thread.

You still have a long way to go, most of us do. But it's fine to acknowledge and be proud of the progress made.

Making a great fighting game took longer than expected but the Rivals character turned out great. It's possible that I may have gone too far in some places. But when she gets her second verse, she's like poetry, she rhymes.

THE FUCKING JEWS MADE US AFRAID TO FEEL HUMAN AND SHOW OUR HUMANITY AND REACT LIKE A HUMAN INSTEAD OF A FUCKING CHARACTER

Man if someone downloaded pokemon essentials and produced a game in 7 days or less by making it as generic and by the book as possible and told the internet "I spent six years on this" do you think people would be able to tell the difference?

>>6476
>developing games
>writing stories
Why even bother anymore? You could have the biggest epiphany of your lifetime one day. Only to wake up the very next day with hundreds of targeted ads right on your face.
>"Check it out! A million different versions of the story you were thinking about writing yesterday! Have fun!"
It's alright. It's paradise for a perpetual consoomer. I don't expect you to understand it.

My girl showed me a ASMR video with Megumin where she learns healing magic. That's pretty out of character. Explosions can be relaxing and funny. They just have to sound right.
Or you could say the party spots something edible far away and Megumin uses explosion on something very far away and collapses.
>Loud magic sfx, monologue
>quietexplosion.mp3.
The listener picks Megumin up and carries her to the food. Or to whatever other faraway thing she blew up. The important thing is... Megumin talks and praises the guy carrying her. Maybe boredly makes mouth sounds that just happen to be relaxing. "Is this bugging you? No? Okay, I'll keep going. ...what do you mean you like it? Don't make this weird!". I don't know. I'm no expert in this shit. But my girl might be thinking of becoming one. Seems she talks about it a lot. I wouldn't mind that. Her doing asmr. Though I hope it isn't a step on a slippery slope to going full onlyfans. Also if she uses youtube I hope Vshojo never fucks with her. I heard they backstabbed Nuxtaku because he was directing attention to smaller indie vtubers, Vshojo's competition, and produced a video warning people about some scammer impersonating Vshojo. I know, how dare he do a good thing. No wonder it triggered them. This is old news but she just heard about it. Women can be such catty little backstabbers. Glad my girl isn't like that.
>>6486
Jessie what the fuck are you saying? Pokemon isn't a story, it's a premise.
People still talk about Pokemon Mystery Dungeon 1 and 2's story because it tried harder than any other pokemon game I played.
Kid wakes up, goes to lab, gets a starter, grinds, runs down samey dirt roads, fights the 13 strongest guys in the land and some kid rival and the Regional CEO of villainy... This is the outline for a story.
It's the kind of shit you could make in seven days if you wanted it to be formulaic and dull.
Then again most pokemon fangames never make it past a few gyms because of scope creep and feature creep. You need something to brag about to get attention in an overcrowded market, and because RPGs are fuckin shit slow games inherently unless they're less RPGish than usual like Undertale or Kingdom Hearts playing a pokemon game is a huge time investment so most fangame players dont want to risk playing a shit game that never gets finished.

>>6489
If you were sore enough to spam the overboard after I insulted your robowaifu, you are going to have to face me on the AI question.

>>6490
What's the question you want to ask? Please say it openly so there is no room for misinterpretation.

Somebody asked me why I haven't bought a Switch game yet.
It's because I haven't bought a Switch.
Because I haven't seen it on sale at a price I'm willing to pay.
And none of its games so far have really made me want to buy the switch just for one game alone.
At 26 I'm a bit too old to be in Nintendo's target audience anyway.
And the fans who pay for Nintendo shit never sound satisfied, whether they criticize the company or commit objectively evil acts like defending Nintendo's abusive behaviour.
The thought of paying 80 bucks for a game that can be five or ten or even 20 years old or even 40 years old doesn't appeal to me, whether I can get that game cheaper somewhere else or not.
Even if I was rich (and I am definitely not. Money is tight. Buying food each week is pain. I do not have the cash to spend on any kind of luxuries) I would not want to buy the Nintendo Switch.
The best Nintendo Switch is called the Steam Deck.
Maybe being poor is what gives people perspective on the value of money.
If mommy buys all the food in your house, and you get your money for free, your money is just an arbitrary number to throw at new toys and clothes and games and anything else that catches your eye. You don't need to exercise your brain by calculating the money in your account left over vs what you want to buy vs rent and other things you need money for. Money is a suggestion and spending it costs nothing. Waste it all and your only punishment is that mommy might yell at you and call you a faggot and you might need to wait another week before you get more unearned money.
Forcing kids to work is obviously wrong. But if tell your kids "wait until next week and you'll get money" instead of "clean the floor and you get money" you're psychologically damaging them. You're teaching them money is something that comes from on high to those who wait. You're not teaching them to value it. To earn it.

21st century comedy: Pingas
*CROWD LAUGHS*
21st century comedy: I R potatoez!
*CROWD LAUGHS*
21st century comedy: Sus!
*CROWD LAUGHS*
Feminists: My vagina smells like a barn animal.
*NOBODY LAUGHS*

I am loved.

I've been fucking retarded for too long. Putting stuff off for tomorrow and telling myself I'm going to do it later. Today I'm going to ask my woman to marry me.

>>6524
*CROWD LAUGHS*

Every time I try to sound cool I sound like a faggot. Because it's dishonest. Society is broken and retarded and fake and gay. If you are what society says to be, you are also not what society says to be, because society is fake and gay and contradictory. Society is just retarded. And every time I try to act how I think society wants I end up seeming retarded because society is a lie. My woman loves me. Not the mask I wear. Not any identity I constructed out of things I thought she might like. It's okay to have severe autism. Masking it to act normal means acting like the average person and what is the average person? Exactly. Normal is just the polite term for average. The average person laughs when you fall and throws shit at hobos and graffitis "fuck off" on walls where kids can see and votes for jewish pedophiles and plays damage control for rapey nigger barbarians and muslim pedophiles and buys funko pops and loves soytoons and hollywood trash and drinks booze and does drugs and weighs 300 to 600 pounds and kicks puppies. Goodness is rare and the average person is not good. The average time spends more time in niggerjew tv land than in reality with other people so our society and experiences are shaped by lies. Gen Z humor is random because when we grew up watching cartoons obsessed with referencing the 90s and anything older we didn't get the references so we laughed at the randomness instead. Retarded tv shows for normies make everyone communicate ineffectively and say retarded shit instead of revealing their true feelings. When I try to act cool she tells me to stop acting and tells me to be myself, so I stop. When I try to sound tough or sexy it comes out wrong. Being myself makes her happy. She is proud of me. And I really would shoot any niggers who try to rape her. I won't let anyone hurt her. She laughs at my jokes when they aren't retarded. And she doesn't hate me for being autistic. One time we ate in a restaurant and it was loud and overcrowded and she could tell I was in pain and she said it was okay for me to put my headphones on even though it meant I had to lip read her to talk to her. She likes me. She likes the cool stuff I do. She likes watching me when I work even though I only feel comfortable being watched coding or playtesting or making music or other stuff. If anyone watched me when I draw they might think I'm a disgusting degenerate pervert for drawing boobies on my female characters. After all that is a normal expression of human sexuality and artistic expression and humans can be weird about that stuff. Normally when I draw boobs I ask her to look away. But I trust my woman and next time I draw boobs I will tell her it's okay if she wants to look.

She said it was too early for me to ask her to marry me but she didn't say no and she didn't say she hated me and never wanted to see me again so I think that means she wanted to say yes but she was shy and not ready to say yes yet. Feels weird to think she can be shy about things too. Normally I'm the shy one. I'm in a stable relationship and I'm in love. This love is real. I thought I knew love when I liked a cartoon character a lot. Ha ha ha... the text limit would get in the way of writing enough "ha"s. Maybe if I was a better man years ago I could have handled those relationships better. When I talked to her best friend she called me a retard for proposing way too soon. I hope she doesn't think I'm a perverted masochist for telling her it's okay to call me retarded whenever she wants. I'm not weird.

Also our fucking microwave is broken. Sparking and releasing a vile smell. It smells worse than my water filter after it's burned the niggerness out of our water supply and that's saying something. I need to replace that piece of shit microwave next payday. Fucking jews. Fucking chinese jews. Jewnese. Chijews. Chews. I wish there was a nazi country. Even if I couldn't move there yet I would want to buy a nazi microwave to support white families and get a better microwave. Even if the microwave was swastika shaped and a little pop up hitler model popped up when the microwave was done to give a hitler salute and yell hitler stuff it would be fine. It would be even better. Haha, imagine a nazi clock but the bird is hitler yelling about jews. Instead of coo-coo it's jew-jew. The door opens and we hear INTERNATIONAL CLIQUE and closes. The door opens and we hear GRADUALLY I BEGAN TO HATE THEM and closes.

Tell whoever's responsible for the sorry state of Brave Browser on Android he's a nigger.

I embrace my humanity, Jojo.

The latest version of the writing thread is dying on page 4 with no posts in it except glim's. Joke threads get more activity. Fucking seb threads get more activity. The writing thread might keep on fading away forever if I don't draw attention to it somehow.

It brings me no joy to say this. Hell, I feel bad about the dead thread. I know I shouldn't, but I do.

I should probably single handedly keep it active by checking on it numerous times per day, replying to any new posts quickly, trying to spark new discussion where there wouldn't normally be any. But I'm too busy to keep doing that. And my girl is giving me better writing advice than I ever thought possible. Turns out some women read a lot of books. I always thought they just watched a lot of TV but some of them really do read a lot of books and most of them are good books.

I never thought the thread would just go belly-up like that without me around. Jesus.

Maybe I would draw a lot of attention to the thread if I said "Mwahahaha I am glad that foolish circlejerk of foolish fools has fizzled out and died without me to thanklessly single handedly keep it afloat! Those pseudointellectual AVGN CinemaSins wannabes can suck it! There is more to literary criticism than calling the blue curtains shitty and fetishistic! Anyone can take that same attitude to the greatest of stories and invent things to complain about! You have to ask yourself if you're criticizing media to help creators or just bashing media to hear yourself speak, and if it's the latter you have to make peace with the fact that this is an inherently masturbatory activity motivated by the pursuit of self validation and some people won't find any value in that! If you give criticism in a way that makes the object of criticism not want to listen, that criticism has failed!" but I don't talk like that.

Though talking like that would probably get a few people to try reviving the thread out of spite for me. I wouldn't care about their reasons for doing so, and maybe if they read books once in a while they'd discover something in life that can become more important to them than me like literature. I could try to use reverse psychology. But that's too manipulative and manipulation is evil. If I say "I am glad that thread I hate is dead" those who hate me might want to keep the thread alive. But what would they fill it with? More useless "fuck you nigel"posting? I can't see any of them actually trying to better themselves as writers in my absence or even post about writing at all in my absence, because nobody did that in my absence.

Then again the threads were never really about real books or writers, they were about pony fanfiction. Pony is a tiny niche, fanfiction is a tinier niche, mlpol is a tinier niche, fanfiction that would theoretically appeal to right wing fans of a nine season kids show with ten good episodes is a tinier niche, and it's traditionally right-wing to not give a shit about fiction.

I kept trying to get writing advice in that thread, but I never got any useful writing advice more advanced than "read better books". So I kept posting. Then I got a girl. Suddenly I don't care about validation any more. I thought I already didn't care about validation from others. But now I really don't care about validation from others. The world could despise me and I wouldn't care.

Part of me wants to delete this post and see how far back the writing thread can fall on its own without me. Part of me considers making threads to intentionally hasten its trip to page 10. Part of me considers making a writing thread of my own. But... nah. I don't give a shit either way any more.

Maybe if that thread had a constructive and engaging prompt to write about as some kind of thread topic of the week instead of a borderline unreadable "fuck you nigel" disclaimer more people would want to post? That's probably driven away a few people. The feeling that this thread is motivated by spite first, ego second, and anything genuine third. Go, go and tear down those false idols of straw and paper, hate them and call their authors faggots, attack the universally beloved stories, if by universally beloved you mean they were big deals for a while in a fandom that died fast when the show got bad and the biggest sites became unbearable to use. Bashing bad pony stories that were written years ago is a lot easier than helping someone write a good story today. Bashing obviously bad derivative pony fiction is easier than bashing bad children's novels like Harry Potter, and bashing bad children's novels is easier than bashing good(ish) children's novels like the Percy Jackson series.

What would anyone even do with that story? Complain about the jokes intended for children because they are not as funny as the jokes intended for children in Spongebob Squarepants? Call it inauthentic that nobody gets raped in this story a man wrote for his son and Medusa isn't ripping out people's spines like in the original Greek myths? I don't think anyone would benefit in the long run from this.

But if Brandon Sanderson analyzed Percy Jackson, I think a lot of people would learn a lot from it. That man has confidence and success. He puts his work on youtube where anyone can see it. He does lectures and uploads those too. He has thousands of subscribers. He's better than countless writers and faster than anyone better than him. He's the coolest. I wish he criticized bad my little pony friendship is magic fanfiction on a forum full of men roleplaying as little girl ponies and goblin dragons when they aren't complaining about this week's war crime committed by jews and niggers and libtards. He could help his millions of fans write better pornography featuring comfort characters from a decade old children's show. Then again why the fuck would successful people want to do this when they have money to make? I have people counting on me now. Can't afford to waste time. Can't waste time. Brb working on stuff. I'll make my loved one proud.

>>6539
What in the actual fuck.

Many types of people play fighting games. I'm sick of one certain type. There's one type of person who plays fighting games and he's really, really dumb. It's all about the ego for him. He wants to be seen playing something complicated to look smart. He wants to be the big fish in the small pond. Then he immediately looks for ways to optimize the second player out of the game, because the second player is "randomness" and if he "randomly" Shoryukens or Instant Blocks instead of blocking normally, this "randomness" gets in the way of winning consistently. The sight of an unblockable setup makes him nut, but they're only fair when he can do them. If someone makes him block in Street Fighter 2 that's bullshit but if he can make someone block mixups for ten seconds straight in Blazblue that's fair and balanced. He loves making others guess coin flips for their lives but if someone makes him guess a coin flip and he loses a round in which he lost a coin flip that's bullshit. He loves his niche games but when his game gets popular, people who are better at fighting games than him kick his ass and ruin his fun and push him to another franchise, preferably another obscure game with few players and little chance of anyone discovering anything new. If he beats you his argument wins and if you beat him it didn't count because he said so. Bullshit execution requirements are good if they gatekeep out people better than him who don't feel like putting in the time to overcome that barrier and high execution characters deserve unblockable TODs because they're a character for the elite few who earned it, but if execution requirements put up a barrier between him and people better than him who already overcame that barrier the barrier is suddenly bullshit and everything needs a macro and execution requirements don't belong in fighting games because they get in the way of consistency. If you want to know something you're a faggot for not already knowing it. If he wants to know something everyone else is a faggot for not telling him. Obscure knowledge checks are only fair when they help him, and when they harm him they're bullshit.

You can't respect the opinions of someone like that because he lacks opinions and thoughts. He feels, and then he contrives excuses to justify what he feels with grown up words. If he beats you because of blatantly unfair bullshit it's a skill issue and if you beat him the game despite the bullshit or with the exact same bullshit suddenly it is bullshit. He's a fucking kike and the fighting game community would be better off without them.

It's incredible how easily you got mindraped. I was trying to bait you out of your den.
I never intended to rewire you like that. Maybe there's some merit to the niggelbot theory.

Anyways. You don't show the bullies when you are sore. What a nigger.

Could you imagine if I had a Naruto tattoo, and a Pokemon tattoo, and a MLP tattoo? Signs of a man who thought he would never grow up and discover more important things in life like loving my wife and hating the government.

What's the opposite of a fetish?

A Hsitef?

I have a hsitef for masks now. The sight of them fucking disgusts me. Take your arabian harem slave veil off. You are not a Mortal Kombat whore, take your mask off. You are not protecting anyone, you are creating a moist wet and wild interracial bacteria homo orgy on your mouth and nose. If I see those fucking blueish bits of paper on your face held to your ears with elastic you're a niggerfaggot and you'd be better off with underwear over your mouth. I heard one tard actually say she thought those masks on a man, especially when dangling from your face by one ear, revealing your mouth, was sensual and forbidden and sexy. Jesus fucking christ nobody tell this woman about legs or she'd fucking implode. Normally I'm not judgemental with women because I expect them to have fetishes that could make a sewer rat puke but this one was something else. Masks are a symbol of societal decay and idiocy now. A fucking NPC marker. A commie tattoo on the face. Only cool Fallout mod and Cybergoth type masks get a pass but only because those big bulky masks could (or look like they could) protect you from hazardous shit in the air hence why basically nobody wore them during the scamdemic. NPCs were told it was enough to take a free piece of paper with elastic and put it on and inject their body with poisons and gene therapy... and they chose this over wearing real masks with replaceable filters. Gay paper masks are for homo nigger faggots brainwashed by jews.

hehe

>be watching Great Expectations
>guy calls Pip a retard for fucking up his maths
>pip's new gf is a fucking nigger
>nope.jpg

Noped right out of there and changed the channel.

It's more jarring than seeing cardboard buildings sway in the breeze, recognizing a famous actor in a movie, seeing an actor struggle not to laugh during his own death scene, seeing a modern gun in a cowboy movie 200 years out of place, or even seeing Godzilla take his mascot costume head off to headbutt King Kong.

All that money, all that effort, wasted because the niggers wanted to RP as white people in a white people movie.

Writing thread's at page four again but I don't feel like bumping it. It's probably been to page four and past page four a bunch of times while I wasn't looking. If I was a younger man I'd probably check on it daily but who's got time for that? I've got masculine responsibilities now like constructing things. I bought wood. I bought a lot of wood and used a saw to cut it how it should be. I put nails in it. They should prescribe DIY gardening to trannies, it'll turn them all into men, except the women, because women can never be men. Everything is ready. I'm going to get buckets next payday. I'm going to get a lot of buckets and dirt. Good dirt. I'll fill the buckets with good dirt and grow some plants. Damn good plants. Tomatoes and potatoes. Berries. I'd have chickens for their eggs if my landlord would allow it. Society is jewed for telling men they can't farm properly. I wish I could grow bananas and oranges, but the jewish weather won't allow for that. Satan's a faggot for fucking the planet up so whites got the shittiest land and niggers got to squander the best land. Satan's a faggot too. God truly sends his hardest battles to his strongest warriors. Mud huts offer no value to the earth. There will never be a wakanda. White fantasies are "We will kill dragons and demons, and we can build a civilization that will explore and colonize space". Nigger fantasies are "We will kill and we can build a civilization". I'm beginning to feel like a plant god, plant god. Jews are raping the white race with their fraud, their fraud. Growing plants just like a fucking plant god, plant god. They said I fuck like a robot so call me plant god. I'm nostalgic for Eminem's old raps because they are some of the first raps I heard and learned (Maybe that's why I always hated nigger rap... Eminem raps better but if he was black he'd be a shit rapper) but if he did any of the evil shit Nintendo does I'd hate him. Has he done any evil shit I never heard about? Nintendo fans are soyboy beta cucks with tiny jews inside their brains raping them. Nintendo fans view Nintendo's fuckups as an opportunity to show their loyalty and devotion to the corporation. Cyberpunk 20whatever was a good game full of glitches and gay shit but it was better than Pokemon Scarredcock and Bitchlet, so why was CD Project Red hurt by Cyberpunk while Nintendo got a free pass? Simple. Cyberpunk was marketed towards adults, and their standards are just a little bit higher than soyboys on the Sintendo plantation. Video game publishers are not your friends. Book publishers are not your friends. Gamers? More like gay-mers. Nobody simps for fucking children's book publishers just for publishing some of the books people grew up with, so what excuse do gamers with a hard R have? I tried to write a short simple story but I took it too seriously and made it overcomplicated. My target audience would never get this. I'll save those overcomplicated ideas for later and write a different simple short story.

If I made a Fire Emblem parody and pretended I wasn't doing that on purpose do you think anyone would notice?

Haters gonna hate

Debuggitng games is tiresome but rewarding work. Watching a site you used to like descend into cliquey jewishness is sad. If you told me the clique is full of jewish woman I would believe you based on their behaviour. They feel entitled to demand the removal of whoever they don't like, no matter how they behave and how they treat others. Wouldn't surprise me if some of their members controlled discord servers for coordinating these off topic circlejerks. Would explain the sudden spikes in activity whenever I show up.

>>6617
>oy vey, everyone hates me and it's everyone's fault but mine
yeah, clearly we're the ones who are acting like kikes here.

>>6619
I don't care what you or your friends think of me and I never will.

>>6622
Nor would anyone expect you to. Nobody who has had any extended interaction with you would expect much of anything from you at this point, least of all any sort of genuine self-reflection or sincere effort at improvement. Whenever anyone criticizes you for anything you never evaluate or correct your own behavior. You rationalize; you get defensive. You assume that everyone who gets annoyed with you or criticizes you must be part of some organized group of bullies trying to bring you down, because the possibility that people simply find your obnoxious behavior obnoxious is just too much for you to process.

I mean, take a look at this thread ffs. 1000 posts in here, almost all of them yours, almost every post a gigantic wall of text. The bump limit is like 600 posts. And what is written in here, that was so important that you had to record it for posterity? Rants about Nintendo Switch and Pokemon and Cyberpunk 2077 and every other video game you have an opinion on. Massive walls of cope-and-seethe about how gay the writing thread is now because the anons there finally got tired of putting up with your nonsense and yeeted you out. In other words, nothing but typical Nigel bullshit. I have never in my life encountered someone who had so much to say about absolutely nothing.

Here is the reality you don't want to face: there is no organized group on this site trying to bully you. You are simply an obnoxious, irritating sperg that nobody can stand because you have nothing interesting to say and yet you never shut up. You can't stay on topic to save your life, your posts are 99% incoherent nonsense, you post stupid unfunny memes about niche topics that only you understand, your criticisms offer no meaningful insight beyond calling everything you dislike "gay" simply because you dislike it, your jokes aren't funny, you have no apparent interest in anything besides video games and disposable garbage entertainment written for children, you can't converse intelligently on any subject, including the video games and disposable garbage media you enjoy, and despite all of this, you are constantly putting down other people for being interested in disposable garbage media written for children your current stalker-level obsession with Chatoyance is the most current example of this behavior. Everything you post to this site is garbage, your personality is repellant to nearly everyone, and I feel quite confident in stating that this entire community finds not one redeeming virtue in any word you've ever written. To put it simply, (You) are a terrible poster, and you need to piss off and find some other place to post your endless stream of bullshit.

Even if there were some super-sekrit Nigel-haters club lurking in the shadows somewhere, they wouldn't need to organize themselves or follow you around. "Bullying Nigel" is simply a matter of waiting for you to post something stupid, which you do on an almost daily basis with no provocation whatsoever, and then making fun of whatever stupid thing you posted.

But why am I wasting my time writing all of this out? You don't care what I or my friends think about you, and you never will, right? I'll just shut up, and let you go back to writing another 1000 posts about how little you care.

>>6624
You're so hyper-focused on me, you forget how you treat me, and then wonder why I don't respect you. It can't be a you problem, of course. No, you think how you feel about me has to be my problem. And you cannot handle the fact that I just don't care about your feelings because I don't respect you. There was a period where I played nice, and it lasted too long. You got used to seeing yourself as the altruistic victims tirelessly struggling against me. You never stopped to ask yourself why I am your obsession. It doesn't matter to you whether you are one anonymous coward, one anonymous coward with a few VPNs and IPs to post from, or a few anonymous cowards in a discord server. The truth isn't decided upon by committee. I don't care what narcissistic histrionic dysgenic masturbation addicts think of me or my capability to produce the art and games and fanfics I make for fun. I don't owe you people anything. Valuable critics are in this to help creators, not to feel validated and respected and listened to. Anyone can be a critic in the social media age. It's easy. If you don't know why I don't value you or your opinions, start asking yourself if it's how you present those opinions, or if those opinions are anything I should care about in the first place. You don't respect me as a person, and you don't respect my time, so why should I respect you as an authority, anonymous cowardly stranger? It would please me greatly if you'd make a pouty speech about how you're done trying to help me, because your idea of helping someone is gaslighting them and guilt-slinging at them because they're an easy target and you want them to care about you. I don't care if you tell yourself you're the hero of this story, because I want no part in your story. On another site somebody insulted me for working on so many projects at once, and I laughed because as far as I'm aware that anonymous stranger is working on sweet fuck all. But anyway, back to you. If Hitler was alive today I don't think he would respect masturbation addicts hell bent on micromanaging chatrooms for what was meant to be a feminist cartoon for children about little girls.