Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting? Who should I do therapy with? Can I trust my entire life's story with anyone who's not on this site?
Maybe if I tell you my life's story, you can give me life advice.
I was raised by abusive lefty parents who hated their smart white son and often tried to push me towards trannyism. Never fell for it.
First I was sent to a shit primary school. A few kids bullied me there and teachers punished me whenever I fought back. I was a fat angry kid who could punch hard when pushed, and they liked attacking me and then running away. But when we fought properly I'd kick their asses. One time I kicked their asses hard enough to make them stop bothering me.
When I graduated from this school I was sent to the special school of a catholic school, and made the personal property of one old bitch there who hated autistic kids. Around that era I got interested in Game Maker and pokemon romhacking but that interest never amounted to anything, though I did have a USB full of GBA roms and romhacking tools and the fact that I was able to code at such a young age when not all kids were learning that should have shown somebody that I had more to offer the world than shitty schools thought I should.
Thanks to that school, my schedule looked like this: Enter a side building, wait for the day to end, sometimes get insulted by the teachers if they felt like abusing me, usually get to eat lunch at lunchtime but sometimes they wouldn't let me (and it didn't matter whether I brought a packed lunch to school or brought money for the school cafeteria) and eventually go home to a house with parents that, when told the right words by my boomer bullies, would freak out and abuse me at home too. Rarely I'd get to join in a classroom... but class clowns would act up until I'd get blamed for it and sent out.
If I had a tape recorder or decent phone, I could have gathered evidence of the shit said/done to me (audio files of verbal abuse, pics of bruises, etc) and posted it online. But I was never allowed anything like that, because my parents feared I might use it on them. One day at school the art teacher bumped me with her car while backing up into a crowd of kids, I was fine but pissed off and the art teacher shrieked and blame-slinged feministically at me until I lost my patience and started barking back, then she put me in front of the headmaster and I told him about the abusive staff members and called him terrible at his job, so he kicked me out.
Then I was sent to a worthless "speshul" school where a few teachers abused me and the students usually watched in confusion when they weren't joining in. Whenever I trusted an adult enough to tell him or her what happened at home, that adult decided to call child protective services, who sent the same fucking boomer woman over to warn my parents that I was talking about what went on at home again. I couldn't get away from my family until I became the problem of Adult Protective Services, where the slightly less retarded and lazy people go.
A woman my age at the autistics-only youth club I attended got mad at me over retarded internet roleplaying nonsense-drama that didn't even involve me, and she lied about me to the cops and accused me of abusing her, even went to some clinic to fake signs of a concussion she didn't have because she's a spoilt bitch who knows how to play her rich parents like fiddles, she was a low-functioning sociopath woman with histrionic personality disorder and every retarded boomer's sympathy. She lied and got away with it, because the cops weren't interested in this case after she cartoonishly fucked up and started gloating about physically assaulting me without realizing it hurt her case. But even though I said to the managers of the youth club and the friends I knew there "If what she said about me was true I'd be in jail so you know she's lying" they couldn't believe me because they were dumb. There was one weird creepy fucker I used to talk to online because his "woe is me, asian school life is sooo hard" shit kind of reminded me of me at the time, but he got severe TDS and stopped being a person once he stopped viewing me as a person so I'm glad I didn't tell him anything sensitive or identifiable that could fuck me over later in life.
Anyway when I went to college, I was lied to and exploited by the staff until I dropped out. They even tricked me into taking a worthless course that turned out to be the dump where they dump the autistic kids and give them a useless fake newspaper to write. I wish I dropped out sooner, trying to live on barely fucking anything is hard enough when your mom took govt money meant for you, but it's harder when you're forced to spend most of your cash on train rides between your college and shitty home every two weeks and all your cunt government can offer is a discount pass. Now that I'm living alone, I've got a free bus pass I can barely use. Government priorities, am I right?
I am an autistic man, I'm 24 years old, I'll be 25 next year, and I've spent so much of my life as property of someone else that I find it hard to notice when I'm hungry or tired and remember that I should eat or sleep without someone or a phone alarm telling me to. I shower every night before bed but sometimes I miss meals, it's what helped me go from obese fatty to only-slightly-overweight. I don't think I know what it feels like to be loved by someone else. Learning makes me happy and I love documentaries but when I tried an online free learning site it reminded me of school and I couldn't do it. Sometimes I talk to people and act charming like those "Charisma on command" youtube vids told me so they'll like me, but I've never given anyone my full backstory before. The only woman in my life I ever kissed was that bitch who falsely accused me and got away with it. I want to say I have no interest in modern women but I still feel the urge to wank to them. But I don't wank any more because of nofap.
There were some replies here but I didnt get to read them in time. What did they say?
Talking to a therapist won't hurt as I see it. If you select to see one, make sure to get an psychiatrists and not a psychologists as the psychologists can only do talk and not prescribe any medicine that might be beneficial. Sometimes using medicine for a short while (subjective to needs) can be helpful and enough. It was for me. It can take some time for medicine to work and give new outlook on life, so expect half a year to a year with probably adjusting before seeing/feeling a change. Change will be gradual too.
I know a lot say you should not take anti-depressive medicine or the like, but I don't see it as a particular bad thing as it can help. This is also why I think looking for a psychiatrists and not a psychologists is key. Because it takes a while for the therapist to get to know your situation and what might help, and then discovering, if you chose to go to an psychologists, there is nothing he/she can do except offer more talk can be a downer.
Some of the things i wrote were a bit too personal, basically detailing my experience with schools and how much i hated it, it brought back some memories i don't want shared.
I'll rewrite a certain segment i wrote.
Don't keep crying over old tears, it only brings you down further and is probably what those twisted twats want you to feel like, don't let them win over yourself but instead use those old wounds to strengthen yourself, use them as a baseline for how nothing can hurt you emotionally as hard as it hit before, don't let those scars bite back at you from the past, i know you can't forget what has happened to you and neither can i forget how cruel others have been.
Focus on something else to get your mind away from self history, walking in the woods always made me feel calm and being around ponies has been a good stress relief, it's nice to be with something that isn't a human yet is still sociable, i don't think i can emotionally live without them at this point as they give my life meaning.>>3153
I never enjoyed telling others about my past except with tulpas, psychology only made things worse for me mentally and i hated how the only thing they could offer were questions, i was looking for a friend but i came to the wrong place.
I avoid prescribed anti depressants because i would rather use my own mind altering medicines than them, maybe they would work but the things i use at the moment suffice, i don't see any drugs as bad but rather the people who take them and in what way they use them on themselves, it depends upon how the person uses it rather than the drug itself since a drug is nothing more than a drug, it serves whatever purpose it has for the user but it is the user himself who decides how they use it.
Therapy is 90% just getting stuff off your chest and prompts to make you self reflect. I say its better to introspect on your own, but there's no real harm in it. You're basically doing that here now.
I think the more important thing would be setting up your mind, body and surroundings so you feel happy. Introspection helps with that.
>>3155>Therapy is 90% just getting stuff off your chest and prompts to make you self reflect.
Whenever i attempted to self reflect it didn't work as good as talking to my thought forms about personal experiences, yes it is mainly about letting out emotion but it never satisfies me enough to warrant me feeling better.>I say its better to introspect on your own, but there's no real harm in it.
I agree, introspection within my head was more in depth and personalized than any form of therapy i underwent, i couldn't trust the therapists at all since i knew they would diagnose my mental health with a label which i didn't like if i told them everything.>You're basically doing that here now.
Yes, i am and have been for a while due to a couple factors, OP has for a longer time than i have though but doesn't really understand why he is doing it, i have a purpose for what i write and so does he even if he doesn't know it.>I think the more important thing would be setting up your mind, body and surroundings so you feel happy.
Magical workings are the most mentally meditating and effective form of mental help but can also be a detriment if done wrong.>Introspection helps with that.
It does and i recommend it.
Society is poisoned. It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be. We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity. We are expected to live lies and support lies. Politicians paid by the music industry are trying to attach jail sentences to DMCA copystrikes but they are still less reviled by normies than anyone the tv calls a nazi. We are expected to be perfect enough to keep this broken machine working even though this machine was redesigned to hate us and kill us and drain us dry. Men are poisoned from birth in body and food and nonsense ideas forced on us by hollywood and boomer parents and school. When I try speaking to fellow christians they turn out to be cucked satanist liberal scum who refuse to recognize that laziness and PC lies won't save anyone. Nobody can appease satan or its synagogue. They are pure evil and I wish I could save people. But so many people don't want to listen to reason.
So many second hand ideas swirl in my head. I wish I could flush all the lies away. I wish I could speak to a wise all knowing mentor figure who is a thousand times my age and knows the future even though I know those dont exist. I wish I could talk to God and ask him all the questions man could ever ask.
I don't even know what I want from myself any more. I have unrealistic expectations for myself. I expect myself to be fine after everything that's happened. And that's unrealistic. People have broken from going through half the shit I went through and there are people out there who survived lives ten times as bad as mine.
Sometimes I wonder if a live spent accomplishing nothing and hiding in fantasy would make me happier than a life spent trying and failing. These are normal human feelings, right?
>>3157>Society is poisoned.
A venom has always lingered around the serpent sanctuaries, wherever there is houses there are rats and if there are no measures to get rid of them they will only feed from other peoples work, society has always been the victim of snakes and will continue to be that way until a potent antitoxin has been created to null the effects of street vipers, until then we have snakes creating carnage wherever they please because they can.>It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be.
No one knows what they want, they only follow what they think they desire, men can't escape from themselves which most can't deal with so they use methods of cope, men can be whatever they want to be but live in fear of others from a young age which influences their thought.>We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity.
The heroism of men has been reduced to a fantasy stereotype of super hero characters, nothing now is expected of men other than to submit to false help and hope, to accept being walked over by those who they are told are better than themselves.>We are expected to live lies and support lies.
The narrowness of education has imposed superficial lies about the sexes upon impressionable children which has resulted in them living a life of lies where they hate themselves for existing, the 'men' of today have trouble living with themselves instead of actually living.>Politicians paid by the music industry are trying to attach jail sentences to DMCA copystrikes but they are still less reviled by normies than anyone the tv calls a nazi.
While orthodox Jews and Muslims abduct girls with the help of police, get offered bail out of jail when caught and given a soft sentence as opposed to a guy in England carrying a steak knife or fishing without a license, they are offered a discount on life because they are not native which is a clear example the state does not care about the lives of it's own people.>We are expected to be perfect enough to keep this broken machine working even though this machine was redesigned to hate us and kill us and drain us dry.
Not everything is picture perfect as people are led to believe, the government is nothing more than secret slave masters who use people for profit then discard them like a used condom, humans have little meaning to the state other than as potential profit or pleasure, their livelihood is not the concern of them but rather the service they are forced to serve and anyone who rebels is locked up in a dog cage built for men.>Men are poisoned from birth in body and food and nonsense ideas forced on us by hollywood and boomer parents and school.
There is so much soy or chemicals inside food to dampen the bodies of boys so that they are feminized and thus more accepting to things imposed upon them without their choice, they are told it's okay to have a different opinion and have choices but when they voice their thoughts or do something that is deemed wrong they are treat no better than a dog, the sole purpose of government funded education and entertainment is for brainwashing.>When I try speaking to fellow christians they turn out to be cucked satanist liberal scum who refuse to recognize that laziness and PC lies won't save anyone.
Christians are nothing more than sheep, they follow whatever is the most kindest or nicest thing they are told to mindlessly obey to, it is the religion of submission and stupid sin that belongs in the bin, it isn't worth being good for god if there is no benefit for the person who willingly gives them self to an invisible man, it's better to better yourself instead of doing it for someone else who isn't you.>Nobody can appease satan or its synagogue.
It's a waste of time trying to make peace with someone who was born to create chaos, the Jews are the embodiment of the 'devil' and definitely haven't strayed from being demons due to genetics, they can't stop themselves from doing what they were born to do nor can they stray from ever riding Satan's sleigh, the ride certainly hasn't ended for the Jews and they will continue to do what their ancestors did since they derive from the same Satanic stock of Sodom.>They are pure evil and I wish I could save people.
They are inherently immoral and nothing can change that, they were bred to inflict the worst possible amount of oppression on those who aren't them and were taught that from birth.>But so many people don't want to listen to reason.
You must try different methods of mental warfare on those you wish to apply doubt of the masters upon, a dog does not willingly go against his owner without a reason, give them a good point that logically suites the illogical and they will secede to follow you, humans are animals which means the standard rules of pressure and release also applies to them since they are apes so you can create a question that goes against their train of thought in a way that brings their train to a stop, most will not go down easily in their realm of logic since they are obedient to though so observe for the ones who are the least likely to be loyal to lies then you will have a chance of instilling your will if you are confident to do so, be patient as it is a learning process for both you and whoever is your subject.>So many second hand ideas swirl in my head.
Same, i have lots of creativity but limit myself because i don't know what i truly want so i ignore my artistic ability, it is the result of a creative imagination which is more of a gift than a curse, i don't want to be normal and i know that it's best to think outside the box than to keep yourself close minded, by thinking of what you can do to create something new you are letting those thoughts run free which is good to see since not many people can look at things from a philosophical angle with an open mind.
I appreciate you for doing what you want.
Talking things out doesn't necessarily have to be talking. Consider getting a journal.
A pen an paper journal, and write in it. The tactility of using a pen instead of a keyboard to write can sometimes help. Getting your thoughts out and fully written down can tell that part of your mind that's stressed about those thoughts that you've worked through the problems as much as you can. You'll find that you worry about those things less.
You also don't have to only write stuff that bothers you. You can write down the nice things that happen in the day. If you've had a decent meal, a good workout, an interesting dream, et cetera.
>I wish I could flush all the lies away.
It's not that easy to simply end it all, suicide is the weak man's option and while down in the dumps everyone questions their existence, no one is exempt from this life of toil and strife but we are still here to live in fear, it doesn't make sense why everyone is so horrible but sometimes there isn't a good reason for why things happen and existence doesn't need an excuse to keep being bad or to do good, there is no answer to the questions we want to ask ourselves and you will never find it no matter how far you go for that knowledge, it will not come to you unless you accept that pain is temporary and necessary, it is worthless crying over your ineptness or a situation out of your control, the world is full of shit and it's hard to flush when there is no handle on life.
>I wish I could speak to a wise all knowing mentor figure who is a thousand times my age and knows the future even though I know those dont exist.
I am not that person and you will never find one, they are just men with experience in thought who have practice with their psyche, there are no gods other than what we are capable of knowing which is confined to our human intelligence, i know nothing and neither does anyone else, it's all mind games that do not mean anything other than to get part of a wider answer, i'm not old nor am i wise, i just spend my time doing what i like to do and that is the same with everyone else.
>I wish I could talk to God and ask him all the questions man could ever ask.
Why? What would you gain from asking some guy in the sky why people live and die for apparently no definitive reason other than to merely exist? I don't care because i have no good questions that matter in the grand scheme of life, i wouldn't trust him and his answers if he wasn't myself as his answers would only make sense to him because he is only an extension of man.
We all wish for something but it only comes true if you make it actual through the will of your inner self, inside yourself you are a man and you know what men are able to do but you only need to listen to yourself instead of relying on the hearsay of others, their words do not apply to you and your life.
>I don't even know what I want from myself any more.
Neither do i, nor does it matter whether i exist or not but i do, i do exist and i am here writing to you while on my surf across the web, i am thinking of responses to your responses while i exist but i do not know why i do these things at all, although it doesn't matter why since i am enjoying it so i put aside my other wants because i feel it is necessary to give you something from me, my words on a screen may mean nothing to you and neither do they have a meaning to me because i don't care about their meaning since the answer is not for me to know.
>I have unrealistic expectations for myself.
So do i, i want all the mares i could ever get my hands on but i know i will not be their master since it i am not meant for that role, i expect myself to stop myself yet i cannot since i am guided by my desire which is stronger than my opinions or biases, i expected to be a better person than i have turned out to be, i had so many opportunities i missed out on but yet i still take the path i know since it is all i know.
>I expect myself to be fine after everything that's happened.
You have expected things that have not come, you have been let down so many times by others that you expect nothing from them, you only expect betrayal which is logical given your vast amount of bad experiences at the hands of those you thought you trusted, your calls were so many times ignored that you have grown accustomed to being the subject of hate, i will give it to you that you are definitely persistent, you haven't given up yet at the hope that someone is there for you somewhere, you are still looking for someone to trust since you never had anyone trustworthy throughout your whole life, you are looking for that affection you missed out on.
I trusted people i shouldn't have and was punished for being a fool so much so that i figured it's best to keep away from those i don't know since i have come to fear people more than my eventual death, it is only logical.
>And that's unrealistic.
You will eventually feel like you are in a good position but you have to fight for it, the struggle of life is a fight and i have fought all my life against people along with myself, it is a game we are eventually going to lose at some point but we must fight like men if we are to become strong, even if we are only a shell of what are supposedly men, we mustn't give up for everything we have been through for everything we have fought for would be in vain.
>People have broken from going through half the shit I went through and there are people out there who survived lives ten times as bad as mine.
I have never handled stress from other people very well, i break like a twig when faced with something i'm told to do, i do not follow orders very well and never have done so i make my own rules because i can't follow others, the school told me what to do and think so i struck out against them for treating me like their pet which i was punished for, it didn't work though since i didn't listen to their word or care about what they had to say, they didn't care about me so i didn't care about them.
>Sometimes I wonder if a live spent accomplishing nothing and hiding in fantasy would make me happier than a life spent trying and failing.
It doesn't matter whatsoever what you do with yourself but if you do what you enjoy the most then you will have a life of love, the words or thoughts of others cannot affect you other than what you let yourself do to you, your fantasy or enjoyment is subject to you, no one else.
>These are normal human feelings, right?
There are anomalies in every man's emotions, no man can feel the same about the same as another of his kind, do what your human brain enjoys the most instead of doing what other people like.
I already have tried that, the most i could do was write about my dreams for a few days until i got bored of writing about a manifestation of my sleeping mind, it doesn't matter to me how much good or bad i do in a single day since it will always be something different the next, call me crazy for not caring about myself but i hate writing about the little things i do throughout the day, i don't care about what i do and neither do i consider it worthy to write down because it doesn't interest me.
Part of writing and being thankful is a psychological reward for the subconscious mind.
You made yourself a nice lunch, it was really tasty. Thanks. You might not remember, but your subconscious will note down this victory and strive to have that kind of victory again. Maybe bigger or better.<You wrote down your dreams, it was something. Thanks. Your subconscious will lean a bit more where you remember it.<You write down the interesting things. Thanks for helping me spot it. Your subconscious will be on the look out for those neat things.<You accomplished your goal today. No matter what it is. Thanks. Your subconscious will help you achieve any and all goals you put forth.
These little steps add up, it's training and it's extracting enjoyment, contentment, or at least engagement from day to day life. It builds history you can rely on.<Remember that one time we pulled through? Let's that again.<Remember that weird experience? Let's use this specific part for this purpose.
Then someones asking retorical questions you get replies.>"Where did I leave my keys?"<flash of thought, table plate>"Thanks."
The metastructure remembers that, and will strive for that goal.
Although it didn't necessarily have to be writing, but a physical testament to these things can be useful.
You seem to lack patience and focus. These arent practices that are going to work overnight, and progress will always be slower than one would prefer. Theres no magic bullet/cure.>I already tried that
For how long? A few days? Get real.
I don't care about writing down what i do throughout my life, i would rather not go through with the process instead of doing it, i have the tools at my disposal but i will do it when i'm ready or when i feel like it, if i do something like writing about my dreams or something i did then i can't bring myself to continue the cycle for more than a couple days otherwise i get frustrated quickly, whenever i have written about them i like it but easily lose interest after repeating the same action with a completely different dream.
I have seen certain things while asleep that directly tell me what is going to happen throughout the week but the dissection of what the hell went on in my head is often too in depth to detail in full, my dreams are complex so it's easier to just not write about them because i often have 4 or 5 dreams per night, i have the choice of not writing them.
Yes i'm very impatient and i hate focusing on a certain task if i don't feel right about doing it, i get bored so i move onto something else or get frustrated and destroy what i have done so it's better not to push myself.
Sounds like boredom and frustration are self defense mechanisms geared toward justifying for you what you do and dont want to do, which seems to include (but is not limited to) pushing yourself.
You are right, thank you.
I can't get over it, i have tried and tried, it has plagued my life, limited all my capabilities and i hate how childish i am when i make a mistake while i was enjoying something like drawing or writing, it has led to me hating what i thought would have been nice to do so many times, i like art but know i would get flustered over something that shouldn't matter so i don't because i know that it would be gone at the fault of my hands.
You need to find someone irl who has been in your shoes and has successfully made the changes you hope to make.
It's as if this behavior has been engraved into my psyche, it's a part of who i am and i despise it, my father suffers the same mental hardship so maybe i should seek him out and ask him, he is the one who knows since he is the one who has dealt with this longer, he has done things at the fault of himself that he regrets like i have regretted...
Anyways thanks again.
I understand to an extent.
And the doing what is right with gut instincts is really important and it is vital, but also verifying them for outside manipulations. In my experience gut feelings are true.
Writing (or any action undertaken) shouldn't have to feel frictional and harsh.
The point isn't dissecting dreams, just key elements or a word or two a distinction that it happened.
Arts also happen to be excellent for subconscious communications.
My experience when the urge for self destructive practices (or feelings) emerge I brutally deconstruct those urges to find out why and what reason. If it's magic related and the answer is magic, that's a bit tricky.
At least as much information I can unearth or require.
When all else fails save and make a copy or two (if possible). Then do as you wish upon the copy that isn't related. Or switch to a new frustration art piece that explores the feeling.>>3157>Society is poisoned. It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be. We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity.
That's the point. They want to grind away at the fabric of your being.>>3147
With that said the most important thing is to reinforce and discover, and know yourself.>>3171
I would recomend Jocko Wilink, while he isn't perfect he does have good advice for self control and discipline. Mostly the other cohosts expanding and detailing. Do it or Don't do it
A martial art might also help.>>3172
This is very useful.
I would suggest for the time being picking one tiny itty bitty thing you know you could easily do that would help you.
I'm talking instead of reading thirty books a day, read a sentence a day. Something that is easily done you would laugh at doing, and contributing to do it. Maybe more at times, but at least meeting that minimum your goals will be accomplished.
I don't think you really get what I was saying.
Write. Writing = thinking. Just write whatever comes to mind. Aim to fill up a page of writing on a regular basis. If writing out all the details of a complex dream is too much to do, then sketch out the dream in general terms.
Your goal is to train your mind to regularly work through ideas and see them through to the end. The self-reflection and mood alteration (from focusing on good things that happen) are almost incidental compared to this. You're trying to build up good mental habits. Good mental habits are a critical foundational skill to have for just about everything else you do in life.
>>3174>I understand to an extent.
Maybe you do, i wouldn't put it on you.>And the doing what is right with gut instincts is really important and it is vital, but also verifying them for outside manipulations.
Forcing something that shouldn't be pressured is a good way to create an explosion, your body will tell you when it's ready for whatever you plan to do with it.>In my experience gut feelings are true.
Always get an upset stomach when i know somethings amiss or i'm in danger, the gut rumbles and you know what's gonna happen.>Writing (or any action undertaken) shouldn't have to feel frictional and harsh.
That's why i don't write often, if the time isn't right to write i won't.>The point isn't dissecting dreams, just key elements or a word or two a distinction that it happened.
Like an anchor to the memory.>Arts also happen to be excellent for subconscious communications.
Shame i haven't had that happen to me yet, i have had direct subconscious links where something is explicitly shown either just before falling asleep or waking up where i actually see what i am going to see sometime in the future, although i have practiced asking myself.>My experience when the urge for self destructive practices (or feelings) emerge I brutally deconstruct those urges to find out why and what reason.
Usually results in me hurting myself somehow, it has a reason but it derives from my self harshness towards me, when questioning becomes part of the equation it only furthers me to being furious so instead i drop what is ultimately causing it.>When all else fails save and make a copy or two (if possible).
Doesn't always work, i have ideas for drawings but suppress them because every time i have tried putting my thoughts to form it goes the way i didn't want it to go, i can't stand having to constantly make changes to match my errors because i know i'm just gonna make more so i don't give a fuck about drawing anymore, it's tedious.>A martial art might also help.
Forget it, it's not for me neither are any other arts, i am not an artist in anything.>>3175
Sorry to break it to you but it isn't in my interest to write, i have no reason to train my mind to do nothing for the supposed sake of something good, my goal is not to write because i dislike even writing sentences or letters to people so it would be pointless to do it, i am not a writer.
>>3176>Sorry to break it to you but it isn't in my interest to write
It's not about which one of your existing interests you should continue to indulge in, it's about helping you fix your brain. It's about rebuilding the fundamental structure and routines to properly organize the world you perceive such that you can deal with hardships in a more mature way.
I'm sorry, but if this is the kind of response you're having, then I honestly don't think therapy would help you. The minute you would be asked to do some sort of exercises to help you, you'd resist and give up immediately. No-one can really force you to rebuild yourself, you have to do it on your own. At least not until things get bad enough for you to be committed against your will. Even so, it'd be hard going to have your caretakers holding your hand and trying to force you to do these exercises. I think most institutions that used to do this (if they ever did) would have swapped to just drugging you up to the point where you weren't a problem anymore.
We're not telling you to develop a new passion, we're trying to get you to develop a constructive habit. It's like brushing your teeth. It's not all that "fun", but it's good for you.
Writing, whether it be journaling, stream of consciousness, or any other format, is about getting you in the habit of putting your thoughts into words.
I never said i needed therapy, you go have fun with your journals and paragraphs of bullshit, doctor.
It's no use, he doesn't want it. Also.>We're not telling you to develop a new passion, we're trying to get you to develop a constructive habit.
Who is "we"?
He was complaining about writing. There was more than one person talking about using writing as a tool. The "we" refers to all the people who were suggesting using writing, or who were suggesting using some sort of tool and applying it for more than just a few days before giving up on it.
>>3180>He was complaining about writing.
There should be another reason for him to not like writing so much.>There was more than one person talking about using writing as a tool. The "we" refers to all the people who were suggesting using writing, or who were suggesting using some sort of tool and applying it for more than just a few days before giving up on it.
Alright i was a bit confused, what other tools are there?
>>3181>There should be another reason for him to not like writing so much.
I don't like writing if i don't feel like writing and i don't like drawing if i don't want to, if i'm not determined or lack motivation to do so the idea is soon scrapped and forgotten, it's unlikely for me to do either anyhow because it's never had an appeal to me to be good at it or share it with others, is that good enough for you?
Writing is fun and theraputic when done freely. If it's not fun for you try writing something else. Even if it's just shitposting. Always wondered what it would be like to dump the biggest shitposts in some big writing genre under a fake name. To try and intentionally upset readers with countless meandering chapters of bullshit and suffering and dick jokes.
Been exercising more lately but legs are still weak, ankles and knees are still shit, stamina is still low and run speed is slow. I should get out more but the roads and paths are dangerously slippery in the winter and autumn from ice and wet leaves. even mild exposure to the sun burns me in spring. Maybe I should actually try sunscreen.
It hurts when talking to people I care about and hearing how this plandemic fucked them over. Some people have elderly obese smoker 50 something wine aunts who supposedly died from the Rona so they refuse to listen to any questioning of the narratives or govts. I always wondered what it feels like to have a family full of people you care about. My family was bastards so I never got to feel that. What if I missed out on something vital for healthy and stable human development?
I wish a short burst of hyper intense training could instantly make me amazing because I desperately want to become stronger. But last time I went into "push myself no matter what" mode I fucked my elbow up and it took ages to heal. I need to be smart. Slow and steady wins the race.
>>3202>Writing is fun and theraputic when done freely. If it's not fun for you try writing something else. Even if it's just shitposting. Always wondered what it would be like to dump the biggest shitposts in some big writing genre under a fake name. To try and intentionally upset readers with countless meandering chapters of bullshit and suffering and dick jokes.
Intentionally upsetting people has been a favorite of mine for ages, that's what i have been doing here for awhile and has been my main game.>Been exercising more lately but legs are still weak, ankles and knees are still shit, stamina is still low and run speed is slow. I should get out more but the roads and paths are dangerously slippery in the winter and autumn from ice and wet leaves.
Try walking long distances in flat shoes or boots, unbalanced heels on boots are a killer and can fuck up your posture so avoid them if you can, if you want to still get out then just walking won't be as bad as running on ice.>even mild exposure to the sun burns me in spring. Maybe I should actually try sunscreen.
Sunburns make your skin more resistant against the sun if you can endure it, the spring sun is the time when i'm most outgoing so i get burned early so the skin builds up a defense against the warmer summer sun, it's a nice trade for having fun given it's an eye for an eye with being burned, spring is the best time of the year given how exciting it is waiting for it and how often it pays off at the climax.>It hurts when talking to people I care about and hearing how this plandemic fucked them over. Some people have elderly obese smoker 50 something wine aunts who supposedly died from the Rona so they refuse to listen to any questioning of the narratives or govts.
Gullible cattle are so easily herded once they have mislead proof of an imaginary worry, it's quite pathetic how uncooperative with words them become after a single occurrence without further research because of some hoax that they believe.>I always wondered what it feels like to have a family full of people you care about. My family was bastards so I never got to feel that. What if I missed out on something vital for healthy and stable human development?
At times it becomes an irritation but for the most part it's worth being part of one due to the added support that comes with a family, on the other hand you can have a real shitty handing of family cards so you get a crap deal that wasn't down to you, it boils down to the parents and how they treated their kids so a bunch of behaviors can become changed from someone's upbringing, neglect from parents or abuse can make a kid become lacking in certain emotions like empathy, if the mother is especially cruel then the boy will become highly distrustful of females or completely lack interest in them, absence of a father figure can result in bratty behavior or mischievous actions leading to nonseriousness about important tasks, there is a lot of changes that can occur depending solely upon the parents actions towards their children, it's all luck really on how you get given good and bad experiences from families.>I wish a short burst of hyper intense training could instantly make me amazing because I desperately want to become stronger. But last time I went into "push myself no matter what" mode I fucked my elbow up and it took ages to heal. I need to be smart. Slow and steady wins the race.
Obsession over physique is generally good for both sexes but can turn into an unhealthy hobby quickly from over indulgence in the desire for fast change, there are reasons to want to be the best and look the nicest but they were never a major concern of mine from how fast my interests in the cosmetic dissipated, i value my own strength over being constantly rather than becoming fixated on how i appear to others, my social nature has evolved into becoming unsocial from years of genuine uninterest in the common fads.
Patience is a virtue and is totally worth it in the long run, don't overstep the line too quickly then fall over yourself to receive ridicule from others, look at where you are placing your feet beforehand.
This sounds like good advice.
I don't think I have any interest in modern women. I still like tits and ass but I've never met a woman I actually liked. So many of them are shallow selfish "lesser men" with little to offer the world coasting on their privileged gender while robbing men for fun and profit. When I talk to women I just met I feel like I am waiting for them to disappoint me and reveal themselves to be as terrible and selfish and petty and malicious and short-sighted as their jewed upbringing dictates.
I saw a video about post-Avatar depression. That blue people film gave some fags who watched it Otherkin Syndrome. These people actually wanted to go to Pandora and be cute-ish blue cat niggers and live on this pretty planet because it seemed so much nicer than earth. The film's "fuck humanity" message stuck with them. They expressed misery and depression and a desire to suicide and reincarnate into pandora. It reminded me of the weeaboos and bronies with similar mindsets.
Just like how when Lord Of the Rings was in cinemas... so many people watched it that it turned fags into Elfkin. Losers who decided they were elves on the inside or wanted to act like elves and reincarnate into elves.
Did you know? When Elfkin forums got popular many other weirdos went to these forums claiming to be vampires or werewolves or gods or other misc things from movies they saw as children. Elfkin named those weirdos Otherkin.
Modernity. It's so "wonderful" that everyone... even the normies... spends all their time and money trying to escape from it.
>>3216>I don't think I have any interest in modern women
They are strange and make no sense to me, it's a waste of time being around them and frustrating, i can't stand them or their stupid interests so it's hard trying to put up with them for very long given they are no better than children, their bodies are the only thing that is interesting about them.>I still like tits and ass but I've never met a woman I actually liked.
I have met horses i liked but never a good woman, at least horses have hearts unlike the female apes.>So many of them are shallow selfish "lesser men" with little to offer the world coasting on their privileged gender while robbing men for fun and profit.
Most of them are not worth the light of day to see let alone giving attention to, men are stuck within their own world while women are trapped in their surroundings.>When I talk to women I just met I feel like I am waiting for them to disappoint me and reveal themselves to be as terrible and selfish and petty and malicious and short-sighted as their jewed upbringing dictates.
It almost always happens, distrust is the logical solution after being betrayed countless times by other members of your species, i am friends with hardly no one for good people are a rare commodity, they are dicks and i hate them all.
Their upbringing is spoiled and bratty due to the way society treats them like they are the princesses they aren't, it results in them feeling entitled to just about anything that they don't deserve, the little girls are the ones who get the expensive ponies from their equally Jewish programmed mothers that they get to make run circles for entertainment, they don't care about the wellbeing of others if they get satisfaction out of them so they are not trustworthy at all, they will walk over you like you are an animal until you are pushed to the breaking point then they get away with it. Their behavior is completely akin to full blown psychopathy and modernity has only managed to influence their unruly attitudes.>I saw a video about post-Avatar depression. That blue people film gave some fags who watched it Otherkin Syndrome.
Otherkins are unable to accept the scary world outside so they live in an imaginary world where they might have a more fair chance at existing in a world of rainbows, the Christians are no better since all their efforts are towards an imaginary world too.>These people actually wanted to go to Pandora and be cute-ish blue cat niggers and live on this pretty planet because it seemed so much nicer than earth.
People so easily fall into any form of abysmal escapism that they can get their heads around or make them feel the nicest, it's pathetic how it's encouraged in the media to act like an utter idiot and stick your head in the ground so you don't have to see the world for the hell that it is.>The film's "fuck humanity" message stuck with them.
No wonder, it was Jews encouraging that people are bad as a method of subversion from reality, visual impressions are so greatly impressed upon any fools who believe the scripts and what they influence along with the madness of the media.
Fuck humanity is a good message if applied to Jewish controlled civilization since a slaves life is no life, governments are good when they want to be but in general they are destroyers of everything they touch, it isn't humans who are evil but the self entitled brats who love to be in control, they are the ones who should be persecuted but most humans refuse to acknowledge the misdeeds of those 'above' them.>They expressed misery and depression and a desire to suicide and reincarnate into pandora. It reminded me of the weeaboos and bronies with similar mindsets.
It is a literal form of giving up and submitting, they get into the mindset of a depressed dog then instead of biting the hand that feeds them poison they take themselves out of the opportunity for revenge against the world, all those wasted lives were spent in toil due to living in the real devils chains, they gave themselves to the government and spent their free time crying about life rather than making a change, it's like the shepherd and his sheep in the way of how sheep are incapable of realizing the situation they are in. >Did you know? When Elfkin forums got popular many other weirdos went to these forums claiming to be vampires or werewolves or gods or other misc things from movies they saw as children
Just like with politics or religion, people give themselves names and defend those names for dumb devotion to a false cause, it's ridiculous how they play like the pawns they are with each other, it involves nothing critically concerning nor does any of it meaningfully matter, people are herded into forms of thought from what they see around them then mimic those same behaviors of others for the sole purpose of being apart of a group that does not have the wellbeing of it's members above all.>Modernity. It's so "wonderful" that everyone... even the normies... spends all their time and money trying to escape from it.
True, inaction brings no change and escapism is a form of doing nothing note able or worthwhile, playing games whether it be with yourself or others has nothing nice about it since it is only momentary satisfaction, games have strings attached to them that belong to the puppet masters.
The normal fags are money slaves and spend their pointless paper to the paper printer puppeteers that they are devout by, they are sheep and cannot understand how they are being corralled into focusing on the petty problems rather than the bigger picture, they refuse to realize they are trapped in a physical hell made by the devils in control, it's a shame how many opportunities mankind misses by being so focused on the nothingness of false reality than taking the steps toward making the real changes needed towards being in a better life.
The "progress" of humans has been haltered by living in a world of pointless pleasure than doing what we can to improve it we idle away.
I think society will keep focusing on meaningless fleeting pleasures until it regains its drive and understanding of what to strive for. It will put away the shallow entertainment when it rediscovers age-old sources of happiness like community and family and love. It will remember how to stand and walk and run when it remembers what a healthy society should run towards and what a healthy society should leave behind. Like bad ideas and old lies.
I don't think "humanism" can work. Not all ideas or ideologies are right. Not all races are equal. Why should America pay out the ass to India for example ust to keep some poor people in India above the poverty line when rich Indians are thriving from cheap labour? If whites controlled that cheap labour we would make it sustainable and pay it fairly because we're nice like that. It would also stop corrupt companies from outsourcing jobs to cheap overseas labour. If you feed a hobo he will come back tomorrow for more. You can only meaningfully help a hobo by giving him a job, the means to pull himself out of poverty. There will always be more poor people somewhere and there will always be more hungry mouths to feed. I don't think it's possible to feed everyone on the planet and I don't think there's any virtue in trying to feed everyone whether they give and take or just take. Most foreigners don't deserve foreign aid. How do we benefit from this arrangement? Africa and India are overcrowded thanks to foreign aid keeping their birth rates high while our own birth rate falls below the replacement rate thanks to the jews. "humanism" says you are nice if you help a lot of "humans" no matter what they contribute to your quest but that just creates dependency and unsustainable population numbers and rapefugees hungry for even more gibs.
>>3231>I think society will keep focusing on meaningless fleeting pleasures until it regains its drive and understanding of what to strive for.
The human herd is being prodded towards engaging in degeneracy and will be lead down the path of living a life of sexual displeasure disgracefully, unless something steers them upwards instead of downward. It's unlikely the world will ever progress past being "progressive" if the ship is headed directly into a storm of cum.>It will put away the shallow entertainment when it rediscovers age-old sources of happiness like community and family and love.
If humankind discovers how to live instead of merely existing it will be better off without tiedowns to those who live low in the world. All irrelevant entertainment is unnecessary to have enjoyment, it is optional as a way of living but leads toward an unneeded expense of skill.>It will remember how to stand and walk and run when it remembers what a healthy society should run towards and what a healthy society should leave behind.
Running in a direction without a goal is better than having shackles bound to the feet but is running nowhere fast, a plan is needed to not fail the opportunity for being free, any civilization that seeks to help it's people is better than the hidden slavery we currently exist within, at whatever cost freedom is important but requires a definite destination to strive toward so as not to become lost.
What is a complete optimal society? What flaws within laws are the most irritating towards achieving structural success? What commodities are really needed in life?>I don't think "humanism" can work.
Neither do I, it relies upon giving rather than making which is destined to doom. How can someone give to another foreigner without expecting to get anything in return while maintaining his success? It is hilarious how people defend an order of disorder while getting nothing in return, they are being used no better than dogs if they serve the masters of disasters.>Not all ideas or ideologies are right. Not all races are equal.
Every single being is different, nothing is subject to not being exempt from dissimilarities as there is not a thing that is equal, it is a complete lie to state that life is fair to all.
Every thought should not be taught but rather learned, it is a waste of time teaching another man's ideas when your own is more important to you, it should be taken from a viewpoint of how to improve than as never to move the structure of the idea of the ideology, life is always moving and to rely on outdated techniques of thought is to be living in the past rather than the present, time has proven that following another man without a plan soon leads to failure, doing what doesn't work is plainly not going to work.>Why should America pay out the ass to India for example ust to keep some poor people in India above the poverty line when rich Indians are thriving from cheap labour?
It shouldn't give anything to nobody other than the people it is supposed to serve, America serves Israel like a dog puppet nation and should be severed from the ability to give unconditional support to those who do not care about the state of the states, if you kill the point of supply for someone then they will be forced to look somewhere else for food, destroying every bit of money made by the fed will benefit the world, by killing those those who wish to get rid of us we are preserving ourselves but the method of doing it is most important so as not to attack blindly. The walls of the white house aren't indestructible nor is the money they make.>If whites controlled that cheap labour we would make it sustainable and pay it fairly because we're nice like that.
Is the wellbeing of lesser races really in the horoscope of humanity? A person should first be deserving of that support in order to be worth helping. People may be nice but sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind.>It would also stop corrupt companies from outsourcing jobs to cheap overseas labour.
The people who do the labor are necessary to complete manual tasks but profit should not be made from them to someone who doesn't do the work, capitalism is easily exploited and creates monopolies that are left to run rampant on their own accord without correction.>You can only meaningfully help a hobo by giving him a job, the means to pull himself out of poverty.
Poverty should be worked out of rather than helped out of, one should be able to help himself to then receive support from others. A drug dealer helps habit rather than offering fundamental support, a soup kitchen only gives food than the opportunity for jobs.>There will always be more poor people somewhere and there will always be more hungry mouths to feed.
Pitying the poor is akin to being depressed over dogs, it's a food fight that never wins.>I don't think it's possible to feed everyone on the planet and I don't think there's any virtue in trying to feed everyone whether they give and take or just take.
Helping everyone in the world is a fantasy that people believe they can do.>Most foreigners don't deserve foreign aid.
A bullet is cheaper than the amount of chicken a nigger will eat in his life. >How do we benefit from this arrangement?
There are no benefits to government 'benefits', the profit is not for people but for money, the only person who benefits is the money maker.>Africa and India are overcrowded thanks to foreign aid keeping their birth rates high while our own birth rate falls below the replacement rate thanks to the jews.
The Jews work to destabilize the world into disarray, they care about only what profit they can make from people.>"humanism" says you are nice if you help a lot of "humans" no matter what they contribute to your quest but that just creates dependency and unsustainable population numbers and rapefugees hungry for even more gibs.
It is false generosity that is made to look good so that charities can make money out of misleading people, it's all for money.
>feel depressed when working
>exhausted, spend leisure time on mindless timewasting shit
>regret it later
>feel insufficient as a man
How do you break the cycle?
>>3275>How do you break the cycle?
You have to begin anew, one cycle stops and another starts, plan out what you have at your disposal then look at the options as to what you can try, then make it or break it by stepping into fresh waters, in or out of the comfort zone.
The cycle (ride) never ends, you can only change yourself.
Avast you may do things that bring no satisfaction while asking yourself whether there is more to life yet continue doing the same repetitive tasks, there is a world outside and it does exist while you decide if you should stay inside.
I am glad to have known and been alongside the few that I have had happiness with, the cycle of friendship ends and another one begins until there is nothing left to love, then a different type of cycle takes ahold of the previous predominant one. Depending on the way the last story ended the new habits can be greatly affected, due to extreme euphoria or crippling depression, one may start doing things abnormal to the typical character of the individual or doing a task more often from an influx of negative or positive stimuli, thus leading to a type of crutch if unhappy emotions are clouding the head or an extreme obsession to something that offers emotional or mental support, positivity is usually accomplished through being surrounded with what makes one happy, if you can somehow manage to find something you greatly enjoy, nourish it and be happy for being happy that you are enjoying something, revel in the opportunity for positivity for there is no sense in being sad over something you devoutly do like or love.Vril would be the go to guy to ask, wherever he is.
That makes sense, thank you.
I do need a new cycle. A new road to a new me. I thought changing my diet and raising my exercise intensity and cutting fapping and aimless streaming/gooming out of my life would magically make me a new man overnight. Maybe it's going to take time for that to show results, and for the "I miss unhealthy drinks/cooming/gaming" urges to go away.
Keeping up with politics is an addicting rush of anger. Sometimes I refresh webpages because I'm desperate for more. It's like a drug and I should probably cut it out of my life too, or limit my news intake to once a week. I want to save people. But for now I can't save anybody.
I greatly enjoy art and animating. I greatly enjoy good anime, even though it's so hard to find and the only way to find it is to watch episodes of a load of bad animes that only sound like something I'd like at first before they waste their interesting premise and turn out to be shit. I should draw more. I will draw more.Haven't thought about him in a long time. I checked if he's still alive and he's shilling his Hyperdimension Neptunia fanfics on reddit. Despite everything I hope he has fun and I hope things turn out alright for him.
Glad you still like watching those Japanese 2D picture pornos and drawing swastikas, my interest in art and shows is long gone, it has been replaced by more intimate and intense emotions.
My habits and cycles are dwindling further into the abyss day by day, I have given up on improving myself while my infamousness has only grown alongside my perversions and I have found that this pit of depressive deterioration is a hole that has been gnawing at my soul for a long time, it lingers like a noxious gas cloud that has seeped into my surroundings which continues to haunt my actions like a growing hatred that only waxes in loathe.Not exactly what I expected but at least he is still running his cycles, albeit in a dissimilar way.
Please don't give up on improving yourself. How will your life improve if you don't do your part to improve it? Losing weight didn't magically cure my depression overnight but it did help me immensely by letting me think to myself "I succeeded and that is proof that I can succeed. My weight loss goals have been met! I am responsible for my own physical and mental health. Calling myself a short fat faggot won't make me taller or buffer" whenever the dark thoughts start coming back.
Ask yourself why your old hobbies don't feel as great, and if you need to kick things up a notch. Once I went through a "Video games don't feel as fun as they used to and TV is boring" phase but then realized I only felt that way when playing mediocre games and dull TV. I was watching/playing these just because I had them, not because I actively liked them or felt any kind of challenge from them.. I'd grown as a man and I needed art that can mentally stimulate me. I needed opportunities to be creative when being productive and opportunities to be creative when playing games. As a child any respite from the outside world and any way to pass the time was a rare treat, I'd play through any shit game just because it was there and I'd beaten my best games over and over, but once you become an adult and have control over your own free time there's nothing wrong with raising your standards and going for the good shit. Even if the good shit means speedrunning an old classic.
I don't know if this advice will help you, but it helped a friend of mine who needed to hear that last bit before he could admit to himself he was sick to death of mediocre time-wasting cliche-ridden billion-hour JRPGs and wanted to try something for hardcore gamers that want to learn things and improve at a game while playing it. I taught him fighting games and he's gotten pretty good at Marvel VS Capcom 3 and Doom Eternal. It's hard to remember when he played these games like a game journalist, now that he's good at them. His Vergil actually kicks my Vergil's ass now, and it feels good to have a rival to compete with to better ourselves.once he posted about cycles, now he posts about waifu computers and gaming console girls with computing cycles
Look anon, let me be clear with you that I am free to punish myself as I please and success is not important to me whatsoever, I have no hobbies but only habits that bring me satisfaction which is all that I really want, telling myself lies is only half the cake and games aren't enjoyable anymore when all I am doing is playing the same shit over and over as games are only mentally challenging, the challenge for me is getting mares to willingly suck my dick without forcing them, which is more stimulating and harder than any copy pasted mortal combat, to rob a stallion of his brides is my hobby and getting away with it is why I still love it, I don't give a damn about riding horses or any other 'normal' hobby most people have, that same old crap doesn't interest me and it's more fun fooling around with ponies despite what everyone tells me, lifting weights is something anyone, even women can do, diets are just as easy if you care so much about the way you look to others.
None of it really matters and whatever I do is down to what I decide, no matter how many words you throw at me I will not submit and do what someone told me to do, I do not care how many virtual trophies you have in Minecraft or your reputation within a gay group, I have done nothing what anyone told me to do in this thread or on this board and I'm just fine the way I am living.
Have a nice day, you colossal cunt.
Yours truly, horse fucking faggot.
PS:I meant everything, except the colossal cunt part, you really should stop worrying about helping people who don't need it, honestly it's pretty god damn gay and you are bound to be fucked over eventually out of supposed 'good' will, I can just as easily toy with your emotions and so can anyone else, so don't give them, or let them, have the opportunity to spit in your face, don't set yourself up to fail if you don't have a plan to help people, don't get sad over why gamers aren't buying your gospel about evil Jews, help whoever you can and tell those who are willing to trust you about (((them))) but don't expect those internet normal fags to instantly believe you because you were the one who told them. Keep doing what you are right now while you are motivated, you have made good progress and I'm sure you will get what you deserve eventually, I got what I wanted after enough searching and I am happy enough where I currently am, the snow is a nice addition and I like waiting for spring, for reasons.By the way, I'm not a person who needs help desperately and telling me something like "How will your life improve if you don't do your part to improve it?" is not gonna win me over to start playing fighting games, I hate them with a passion, also another thing.Vril is a nerdy, filthy, faggot E-girl chaser that runs cycles for sluts.
You're right, and I'm sorry if what I said overstepped boundaries. I have no right to give life advice or tell anyone else how to live their lives.
And now that you mention it, there's someone who doesn't use this site. I think I'm being manipulated by this person. It's like I only exist for this person when he needs my help with something, and he rarely if ever listens to the advice I give.
How common is it for someone whose life is a mess to try and make himself feel better by giving life advice to others? Over the years I saw a lot of people try to give life advice to others even though they needed to take their own advice but didn't.I probably shouldn't diss the guy behind his back but he did the same to others. It's weird how Vril tried so hard to look like he belonged here with the avatarfag-flag and "Name myself after something that seems Based And Redpilled(TM) to me" bullshit but his actions here were so childish and petty. Reminds me of the bullshit I saw idiots do to other idiots on anime roleplaying forums back when I was a preteen. Everything revolved around power and trying to manipulate perceptions with that guy, and it was tiresome. He repeated lines like a NPC. "Welcome to Corneria! Welcome to Corneria! Muh cycles! Muh cycles!". Why was he even here? It's not like he had something to say about ponies that could only be said here like "I didn't like the diversity six" or "This popular fanfic actually sucks dick and here's why" or anything like that. Did he ever disagree with "The Herd" you'll see on mainstream brony sites and their corporation-worshipping normie-tier coombrained faggot opinions?All he ever had to say about politics was the same few pseudointellectual memes about baselessly guessing at the future through the 'mystical power' of cycles AKA fictional-world thinking. "Oh no, we must be in the bad cycle now! But things will surely get better because cycles!". Give me a fucking break, the real world doesn't work like a book where things can only get so bad before the author decides it's time to fix shit with the plot-armoured protagonist. Besides, wasn't "Vril" the name of some german psychic chick society? Or was it the name of some "subterranean master race", or a UFO some UFO-lovers think Hitler had, or some kind of energy-being? Or did he get the name from some alt-history fantasy novel about some fictional race with a stratified caste system? I forget, but I think the flag came from that last one. Fuck caste systems, they're gay. Anyway, good to see he's found some other fandom to try and ingratiate himself into. Maybe if he learns to draw, someone will pay him to draw PS2-chan with a pair of K-cup breasts or something.
I don't have anything major to report on my own life.
Still eating healthily, still avoiding porn and masturbation. Only drinking water or fruit juice or fruit smoothies or protein shake.
I cooked lasagne today for the first time, it turned out great!
Fridge is pretty empty, need to get more meat soon but cupboard is fine.
One friend told me he got the new Flu Jab. I don't trust vaccines and I'm not sure if he'd understand "Vaccines bad" if I tried explaining it to him. But I want to try anyway. Where should I start?
Also that's me. Why did my ID change?
>>3291>You're right, and I'm sorry if what I said overstepped boundaries.
It's alright, my reaction was more unprecedented than accordingly appropriate.>I have no right to give life advice or tell anyone else how to live their lives.
Maybe if you had children then your teachings would mean more to them than me or anyone else.>And now that you mention it, there's someone who doesn't use this site.
I guess he doesn't like pony pussy.>I think I'm being manipulated by this person.
Does this guy give you the impression that he doesn't like you?>It's like I only exist for this person when he needs my help with something, and he rarely if ever listens to the advice I give.
You know there is more in life to see and experience, you don't have to be bound to what people tell you or want you to do, leave him if you truly feel there is no friendship, if he is no fun then what are you getting out of this deal other than being his slave? If he doesn't appreciate you or spend time talking with you then is he really just using you or he is a false friend? What good has he done for you as opposed to the bad?>How common is it for someone whose life is a mess to try and make himself feel better by giving life advice to others?
Probably uncommon I suppose, advising someone is hard and if done incorrectly can end in mistrust or misinterpretation of the help.>Over the years I saw a lot of people try to give life advice to others even though they needed to take their own advice but didn't.
The helpless are not able to control their impulses, they cannot be able to have worthwhile wisdom if they have a negative outlook on themselves, it's better to leave people to their own devices than intrude.>SpoilerHe has always been a Reddit fag gamer girl console cunt licker and uses books as a shield for his white knighting, he is a nondeified book worshiper that lives in science, all he ever wrote about was numbers and frankly even I was tired of it.The word Vril is symbolized with a German idea of power or energy that exists in everything which can be manipulated in some way to change route to the favored desire, there's a bunch more shit behind it but I suggest you lurk moar and find out for yourself.>I don't have anything major to report on my own life.
Some interesting things have been happening around me recently but it is partially my own doings, sometimes slowness can stagnate into boredom so I try avoiding the situation entirely so as to avoid feeling lonely, I have begun to hate playing games by myself as it has started to feel lonely.>Still eating healthily, still avoiding porn and masturbation.
Well you're doing better than me at the moment but that's pretty easy to do anyways.>Only drinking water or fruit juice or fruit smoothies or protein shake.
Oats are good for you and lower cholesterol, porridge is nice with some form of sweetener.>I cooked lasagne today for the first time, it turned out great!
Well done, I recommend homemade shepherds pie if you liked the lasagna, it has vegetables mixed with mince meat and herbs with a layer of mashed potatoes above with cheese on top, goes good with gravy.>Fridge is pretty empty, need to get more meat soon but cupboard is fine.
Pork loin and sirloin steak are nice cuts of meat.>One friend told me he got the new Flu Jab.
He's fucked.>I don't trust vaccines and I'm not sure if he'd understand "Vaccines bad" if I tried explaining it to him.
Someone who has already given their bodies to the system must trust them, if you have enough trust in each other as he does the government then he might believe you but you would have to be closer friends to be able to convince him, although I don't him personally so only you would know.>But I want to try anyway.
It's your funeral.>Where should I start?
Think about him in an analyzing manner, wonder about if he is oblivious to the world around him, what he does on a daily basis, his routines and passions, come to a conclusion that meets the situation you are in.>>3292
>>3291>everybody:>(you):>Man fuck that Vril guy amirite?
Literally who cares? Besides, you of all people have no grounds to be bitching about other posters, particularly ones who havent been identifiably seen in over a year
Makes sense, sorry about that. I'll stop.>>3294>loneliness
I've been there. Playing games with others helps make it go away, but only games where there's communication and a meaningful connection between the players. Team games like League are terrible for this, but have you ever tried Ratz Instagib 2.0?
Next time I go shopping, I'll buy what I need for shepherd's pie.
>>3296>I've been there.
We all have at some point.>Playing games with others helps make it go away, but only games where there's communication and a meaningful connection between the players.
Don't get me wrong I still like games, it's just that there are more interesting or better things to spend time on, team games only often work well with friends yet fall apart without precise communication, well organized groups can steamroll any game they want but must have some knowledge of the game beforehand, a group of speed runners will be faster than just 1 guy trying to get lucky with RNG.>Team games like League are terrible for this, but have you ever tried Ratz Instagib 2.0?
Heard about it a while ago but wasn't interested enough to look into it.>Next time I go shopping, I'll buy what I need for shepherd's pie.
Good luck with it, personally I prefer it to lasagna.
Shepherds Pie is amazing!
And surprisingly simple to cook. I wish my fucktarded boomer parents knew how to cook and cared enough to try. Maybe I'd be healthier now if I got to eat something besides noodles and microwaved random crap growing up. I'm still healthy now though. I don't even miss sugary shite any more.
I told some friends I cherished them and one guy asked if I was alright. I think I'm making good progress towards being fine, and I can't wait to see how it feels.
Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent. Some were just annoying cunts and some were really dumb, selfish, oblivious, and immature. Does anyone alive have fond memories of their parents? Someone probably does, somewhere. But I don't think I know anyone who does.
Saw that BlackPilled video on Die Hard and why it's jew propaganda. How did so many people watch that film without noticing how shit the mom was? Leaving your kids alone on Christmas with an illegal alien so you can try to impress your crackhead peers at a party and get so drunk the baby feels it and work your ass off to make a Japanese businessman rich... Insane. But the film pretends it's normal.
And for some kid out there, that probably is normal.
This planet's so fucked up.
I always hated tortured similes that rely on media references. Say "It was long like a summer's day", not "It was long like the distance between Tattooine and Daygoba" for fuck's sake. Not everything needs to be a fucking reference. But sometimes I think of those characters who come from a destroyed future and are willing to die to prevent that future, even if changing the future for the better means they fade away like an old memory. I know there are people out there who had it worse than me. I met some of them. I'm glad my life so far wasn't worse than it was, and I'm glad I woke up to justice in time. Real justice, not those jew lies. I think improving myself and my life makes me feel happy. I'm not sure, but I think this is what happiness feels like.
>>3300>Shepherds Pie is amazing!
Nice to get some feedback on a dish I recommended, really I didn't half expect you to do it, thanks for going ahead and trying it though.>And surprisingly simple to cook.
Sometimes simplicity is more satisfying rather than going all out, you don't have to break a leg to please yourself.
There are lots of foods to indulge in, the world is your oyster to try whatever suits your palate pleasantly.>I wish my fucktarded boomer parents knew how to cook and cared enough to try.
So many kids have become accustomed to the laziness of sloth style fake food, some families rarely know the treat of meals made with love and it's disheartening, like Léon Degrelle said, the family structure is being torn apart.>Maybe I'd be healthier now if I got to eat something besides noodles and microwaved random crap growing up.
I remember trying those microwaved lasagnas and hating it, the taste is like plastic with a mix of horsemeat.>I'm still healthy now though.
That's alright, you can still fix yourself through appropriate care and appreciation of your success.>I don't even miss sugary shite any more.
Empty sugars are really pointless other than to aid in making you obese.>I told some friends I cherished them and one guy asked if I was alright.
People are prone to be sympathetic to another's discomfort, they will feel sorry for the soul that had it's childhood corrupted.>I think I'm making good progress towards being fine, and I can't wait to see how it feels.
Good luck with that, there is one thing I will warn you against and that is don't exceed your mental or physical limits, you are bound to be disappointed if you put too much trust in the future.>Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent.
There are people who meet someone who have enough similarities in conjunction with one another that leads to attraction which may prove to work out or not, the dating culture should cease to exist due to it's inadequacy at creating children, the way natural attractivity works does not base from that of complete and utter opposites, the incompatibility of men or women who have nothing in accordance within interests has proven to be ineffective at providing long term relationships. I would get better on with a crazy horse girl that matched my insanity than some typical bimbo bitch.>Some were just annoying cunts and some were really dumb, selfish, oblivious, and immature.
There are certain people who were born to be dicks and assholes. >Does anyone alive have fond memories of their parents? Someone probably does, somewhere. But I don't think I know anyone who does.
Yes there are good times, as well as bad, I've had good and bad times with my parents.>Shit movies made by Hollywood Jews.
They are poison to the brain and should be taken as jokes, There are good and bad movies which Jews almost always have made to be objectively terrible at what flicks should strive for, the ordinary shows are garbage and are not that of the quality from the past, the modernity of television favors quantity over quality while having the ability of 'copyrighting' whatever they desire.>And for some kid out there, that probably is normal.
Kids are innocent to the mercy of those older than them, they have no choice to do what they really want to.>This planet's so fucked up.
Yes, it is. We are truly living in an era of chaos.>Not everything needs to be a fucking reference.
They should keep more to themselves and encourage creativity more within the multitude of arts.>But sometimes I think of those characters who come from a destroyed future and are willing to die to prevent that future, even if changing the future for the better means they fade away like an old memory.
Men have become weak, the modern man does not bask in glory beyond that he achieves within a game nor do they engage in any worthwhile challenges to their very being, a man should take risks to do what they desire than wasting away in these modern caves. The boys are being castrated and feminized to be faggots by outside influences beyond their understanding, these normal lives are all meaningless and boring when there are no sacrifices to be made. No one really wants to have something to die for anymore and these mundane lives do not make a man mighty.>I'm glad my life so far wasn't worse than it was, and I'm glad I woke up to justice in time. Real justice, not those jew lies.
You definitely made the right choice, at least you have some degree of wisdom.>I think improving myself and my life makes me feel happy. I'm not sure, but I think this is what happiness feels like.
It's always a pleasure to learn and experience new things every once in while, as long as it's worth doing.
>>3300>Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent.
Well stories about good parents is fewer, and the normal and good times seem to be buried. It's personal and to some degree feels like bragging.Well my grandparents those who were alive had their moments with their children, my parents ect., that qualified for that sometimes. As the grandchild it was different as the good kid, they were nice and caring if different motives.
Frankly my parents are awesome considering everything. Sure there are moments when I disagree or looking back would have adjusted things, but as people they are decent. Wouldn't trade them for anything. They aren't perfect but I love them all the same, and the feeling is mutual.
It's a miracle considering some of the wacky shit that happened with them and around them and their siblings. It makes a person thankful for what they have, and the hardships others went through.
I love you guys. I really do. Those jew bastards are warring with us constantly and you'd think we'd all talk like perpetually-scowling angry people since that's how the TV usually depicts war vets when it isn't playing the shell-shocked ones for sympathy/tragedy. But here we are, and here there is real positivity. Here there is good advice from wise masculine men. This genuine culture focused on self-improvement is good for the soul. It warms my heart to know our souls are not dead.
Watched a painfully generic action movie online with friends today but I forgot its name. The film was full of gay jew shit and I took a piss break halfway through, but I'm proud of myself for hiding my power level yet swiftly and unobtrusively using one-liners and "Is she seriously...?" questions to help others notice and laugh at the most obvious and simplest-to-understand parts of propaganda.
One girl whined "They fridged her!" when a woman died in the film.
I asked her "Was it fridging when the hero's parents died in every kid's movie ever? Was John Wick's dog fridged?"
That shut her up but I don't know if it made her think or not. If a movie wasn't on she'd probably bitch loudly for a while without really saying anything.
They insist "Fridge-ing" is when a female character is killed off for the plot or for a male character's motivation. They insist depicting the killing/harming of women is responsible for real women being harmed, because they need something to blame for what's caused by the way they import rapefugees who love to rape poor women and steal/traffic daughters and randomly attack whites who are sometimes women. They also insist Frigde-ing is only fine when feminist writers do it, because it's just a power-grab. They want to spread lies and censor artists and feel like they have the power to "Sanitize fiction" and mold it to their shitty mary-sue-loving power-tripping standards. "Oy vey, a real stronk womyn can never struggle or die, don't you know? Oy vey, won't someone please forget about the men starving on the streets outside our windows and think of the fictional women?"
Feminists love pointing at fiction made by feminist jews as evidence that the world's anti woman. Because if films show Jason Vorehes and Nightmare Clawhands (bad guys) killing men and women and fans/critics cry for the women while the men they kill rarely if ever get mentioned by fans or critics, then surely it means society's normalized violence against women riiight?
It's just normal for a film to kill characters off, especially once they've outlived their usefulness. It's normal for characters to die in service of the plot or another character's motivation. It was good writing when The Empire killed Luke Skywalker's parents and burned his farm down. Made him extra-motivated and removed his ability to back out of saving the galaxy.
Sometimes a baddie will kidnap/kill an adult male character's girlfriend/wife to piss him off but that's because doing the same to the male character's ageing parents or pet puppy or box of old collector's item dolls just wouldn't have the same impact. Films have killed men to shock/motivate women, killed kids to shock/motivate parents, and killed parents to shock/motivate children. Was it fridge-ing when the Shark from Jaws ate all those people or Darth Vader blew up a planet to shock the audience and motivate the heroes to stop the baddies? When nameless masses fled from disasters or perished in them, was that "fridge-ing"?
If you only watch films with gay characters and only the horror movies where everyone but one character dies so therefore the gays probably die you're obviously a faggot desperate to have something to complain about.
And don't get me started on how many animes give the hero dead or missing parents. Or how many times, in anything ever, the master teacher guy dies!
Someone with more free time than me could probably go through a bunch of movies and animes and compare the number of dead parents and dead husbands and dead teachers and dead kids and dead pets to dead wives/girlfriends. But it wouldn't change the mind of a feminist. At bet you can get them to shut up for a while, but they'll always be weaponized karens until society turns against this behaviour and stops elevating women above men so hard that some men actually end up wanting to be stepped on and treated like shit by women.
I thought about making a thread where we post movie names and then discuss if they're jewish pozzed propaganda or not and why. But for everyone to discuss those jew films we would need to see them. Watching all those propaganda films might fuck someone's head up. Though taking the piss out of them could be fun.
A normie friend said he hates the new Star Trek and misses the old Star Treks, which he watched as a kid. So I thought about Star Trek, I heard it turned many into "Futurist" libtards convinced the future will let them be as cool as Kirk and Picard combined times four in a universe of flying cars and friendly aliens and Replicators that give you everything for free and no money or jobs. Going through that show episode by episode together and talking about why this episode was dumb wrong gay jewish propaganda, or written so bad it was accidentally anti-black instead of pro-black, or childish commie bullshit could be fun and interesting.
>I love you guys.
No homo, right?
>I really do.
Whatever, I love you too, you massive faggot.
I get what you're on about, I agree with why you don't like the Jews and their movies or the gullible women who love those shit shows made by kikes, I agree with you on all that bullshit too. Why do I agree with you? Because you give a reason with an answer to why it's wrong.
I want to let you know that you are welcome to write about whatever you want to, you are not doing anything wrong by complaining about walking vaginas saying some stupid shit, I don't really have much to write about movies and anime, nor do I really give a shit about star wars or star trek, I like being here with you, I'm not too interested about what you are into but that is my preference, you are free to write what pleases you and I won't complain too much, unless you write something dumb or I get flustered over ponies, we don't have much to complain about and I'm glad you like it here with me, you don't really know me but I think we have a lot in common, except you're a bigger faggot.
I'm not a fan of thriving from conflict or being argumentative, I'm here to have fun and be a dickhead sometimes, we can be friends while we're here together, so long as we both respect one another I think we'll get along fine. there isn't a whole lot that I have against you so it's cool but time will tell what will happen.
Is it possible to bruise your elbows by exercising too hard? I think I did that and can't extend my arms fully.
>>3307>Is it possible to bruise your elbows by exercising too hard?
Yes, when you are training hard with heavy weights there can be a point where your body will require rest, if your arms are still hurting then you should just let them heal for a while.>I think I did that and can't extend my arms fully.
There is a certain amount of strain for all bones and if you have been working hard on those joints then maybe you could have hurt them.
Arms are recovering nicely.
About a week or two ago I really fucked one of my feet up.
Came down too hard on it when running, bruising the heel. Also got infected skin and the muscles/nerves in my foot practically fucking dissolved from the swelling. Couldn't wiggle or separate my toes or pull them closer together or bend my foot towards my legs. Was stuck in bed for many days. I remember turning up 5 hour music mixes and trying to drift away from the pain. Painkillers didn't take it all away. I thought I would never walk again. Every so often I would feel this weird twitching sensation along a line inside my foot as though I was a puppet and that puppet-string necessary for foot movement was reconnecting itself.
But I got better. I did physical therapy myself, stretching and exercising my foot. Learned to walk with crutches and one foot fast. Walked on both feet with crutches, and eventually stopped needing crutches.
Now the foot only hurts when I walk on it for the first time every day or after a long rest, but the pain goes away after about a minute of walking. Will that eventually go away?
>Arms are recovering nicely.
Alright then, hope you take it easy while you recover.
>About a week or two ago I really fucked one of my feet up.
At least you didn't lose it or break it.
>Came down too hard on it when running, bruising the heel.
Bruises heal, eventually, it's the pain that you can't run away from.
>Also got infected skin and the muscles/nerves in my foot practically fucking dissolved from the swelling.
At first when you get an injury it hurts like a bitch but over time it gets better.
>Couldn't wiggle or separate my toes or pull them closer together or bend my foot towards my legs.
Once you can do circles with your foot without it hurting then it will be fine but for the moment keep yourself out of danger while you let your wounds heal accordingly to your body's recovering rate, you will know when you are alright to start beginning new projects at the correct timing.
>Was stuck in bed for many days.
It gets boring sometimes when stuck in between 4 walls.
>I remember turning up 5 hour music mixes and trying to drift away from the pain.
Distractions can help you forget about the pain but it's easier to just accept and work around it, don't let it bother you too much given it's only temporary.
>Painkillers didn't take it all away.
Strong pain reducing drugs can't get rid of the struggles you have to face later or in the moment, there are some things that cannot be avoided and you must look back on this experience while taking some form of wisdom away from it, the future promises to brighter if you can see the light at the end of road while ignoring the darkness surrounding you, you fucked your foot up and walked away from it with a mark to remind you of your errors.
>I thought I would never walk again.
You were overreacting a bit too much but your worries shall soon come to an end, you have endurance to withstand it for now and pain is a part of life as torture is temporary and all the 9 circles of hell you have to endure are there for you to be tested to your limits.
>Every so often I would feel this weird twitching sensation along a line inside my foot as though I was a puppet and that puppet-string necessary for foot movement was reconnecting itself.
Well that must be your nerves or the other bones in the heel, the biology and anatomy of our bodies is weirdly complex.
>But I got better.
The rain will clear soon and sun will shine down on you, all you have to do is be patient.
>I did physical therapy myself, stretching and exercising my foot. Learned to walk with crutches and one foot fast. Walked on both feet with crutches, and eventually stopped needing crutches.
This must be new to you to have to be bed bound in chains, it broke down your views and you must learn to get past this situation for yourself.
>Now the foot only hurts when I walk on it for the first time every day or after a long rest, but the pain goes away after about a minute of walking. Will that eventually go away?
Yes, it will, ride the pain train till you can't no longer, withstand the storm over your head and you will see freedom some point soon, everyone is subject to some form of injury that slows them down until they get back to their feet, get back up from where you have fallen and face your fears with your head high till death do you part, stand up and be strong in the face of fate.
A few days ago, some woman artist normie said she wanted to collab with me on a game where I do all the work and all she does is draw things plus I have to use her characters exactly how she wants.
I expected her to flake out at the earliest opportunity. So I said "Okay, let's make a fighting game. Here's a list of what you'll need to draw. I'll program everything, you just draw the following animations..." and she went quiet after a list of the basic stand/walk/crouching/crouched/blocking/crouched blocking/jumping animations. For one out of eight characters. I didn't even mention attack animations because I didn't think we'd get far enough into this project for anyone to even consider that. Whenever I tried reaching her she "left me on read" as the kids say/do.
And right now, after multiple days of childish silence, I got a message where she says "I don't want to work together on this project cos I don't want to make a game"
Women, am I right? Can't rely on them for anything, not even if this was her idea from the start.
I'm glad I didn't actually put in any work while waiting for her to fulfill a promise for once. She's flaked out of artist collabs before. I expected her to be a total girl about this and that's what she was. That's all she was. I'm not upset about this and I don't want to sound like I'm upset and denying it. I expected this completely. I didn't expect her to blow my expectations out of the water but I feel like I wish I did. We're only friends because we like the same kinds of shows. I wish I knew what it's like to think the world of someone. I wish she had passion and drive and creativity. I wish she actually tried at life instead of lazily drifting through it and expecting the best (im)possible result every time. There are a lot of people I respect but she isn't one of them. I wish I knew what magic words and correct dialogue option I could say that would get her to start getting her shit together.
>>3315>A few days ago, some woman artist normie said she wanted to collab with me on a game where I do all the work and all she does is draw things plus I have to use her characters exactly how she wants.
Not that surprising, you present yourself as being knowledgeable of coding so obviously you are going to attract people trying to take advantage of you.>Lol women.
Haha, yes, haha, ho ho, he he ha, he ha ho, very funny.>I expected her to flake out at the earliest opportunity. So I said "Okay, let's make a fighting game. Here's a list of what you'll need to draw. I'll program everything, you just draw the following animations..." and she went quiet after a list of the basic stand/walk/crouching/crouched/blocking/crouched blocking/jumping animations. For one out of eight characters. I didn't even mention attack animations because I didn't think we'd get far enough into this project for anyone to even consider that. Whenever I tried reaching her she "left me on read" as the kids say/do.
It's evident that she makes promises she can't keep, you gave her the chance to work together with you and she failed to go through with the plan, it's probable that she may be acting out of emotion towards you, rather than even attempting to do it she backs out when called to do work.>And right now, after multiple days of childish silence, I got a message where she says "I don't want to work together on this project cos I don't want to make a game"
It is a half faced lie, she is prioritizing desires above teamwork and that will be her doom if she cannot learn to work around problems, she might specifically not want to be your partner also as a way of avoiding you, she has emotional fantasies of being an artist yet cannot gather the courage to do something beyond her capability.>Women, am I right? Can't rely on them for anything, not even if this was her idea from the start.
It is a tendency of theirs to be opposed to success when faced with big scary decisions that surpass their expectations, modern women are little girls trapped in a mad world.>I'm glad I didn't actually put in any work while waiting for her to fulfill a promise for once. She's flaked out of artist collabs before. I expected her to be a total girl about this and that's what she was. That's all she was. I'm not upset about this and I don't want to sound like I'm upset and denying it.
You have been let down for the millionth time by those you know you shouldn't trust, all your actions and behaviors were planned from the moment you met this woman, it was her actions that told you everything that needed knowing.>I expected this completely.
Naturally, we both would have done the same.>I didn't expect her to blow my expectations out of the water but I feel like I wish I did. We're only friends because we like the same kinds of shows.
Putting trust into someone (especially the opposite sex) is betting against the devil.>I wish I knew what it's like to think the world of someone. I wish she had passion and drive and creativity. I wish she actually tried at life instead of lazily drifting through it and expecting the best (im)possible result every time.
Your hopes of others exist within the walls of your imagination, hate to break it to you, but these wishes are wasted, the creations of the mind are nothing without actions to fulfill dreams.>There are a lot of people I respect but she isn't one of them.
That is agreeable.>I wish I knew what magic words and correct dialogue option I could say that would get her to start getting her shit together.
Find out what fuels her fears, she shies and cowers from the tasks, burdens and expectations that she has been faced with in the past, she is afraid of losing so her preferred choice is to never to put herself in that situation where there is a daunt of disaster of being the loser, her habit is to run from danger rather than owing up to it, the threat of her social integrity is in danger when threatened by a challenge that scares her ability to feel good in ignorance of her skill.
You're unnervingly right about this woman.
She has no father figure and a petty overemotional boomer mother who is terrible at communicating and worse at treating others like people to talk to and reason with instead of whining at them about unrelated shit when dissatisfied with them and hoping they guess what's making her butthurt.
She was going to art college to learn animation but she failed a end of year test twice and had to redo the year twice in a row. but her mom somehow convinced her to take a year off from college and learning animation to spend doing housework and getting a job. This... this year. In this economy. In the middle of the World Government's Cockdown and World War Three against whites. She's white but ashamed to be white thanks to her stupid boomer mother and feminist brainwashers. Shitty boomers probably go to super hell when they die. Dante's Inferno left that circle out because it was too shocking for audiences at the time.
This girl draws like Steven Universe fucked Isabelle the dog and the baby has rounded rectangles disease. She says she's "studying cuteness like Sanrio" but if she isn't tracing the calarts toonboom style or FIM poners she can't draw. Or animate. Jesus what has this girl been doing for years at college besides whining to me via text about how she wishes she had a social life and a billion dicks in her ass. Is it weird to be glad that she's too scared to go to parties because it means there's no chance of bad shit happening there?
Anyway this lazy scared girl, let's call her Joan. She's being groomed by feminists metaphorically speaking, they are brainwashing her and every time I show her evidence that feminists are wrong or evil she clams up and stops thinking. Her mom is easily able to guilt her into doing whatever she wants but she feels no shame at anything unless an adult tells her to. Also she is terrified of upsetting the perpetually upset twitter tards and refuses to believe "you should not give a fuck about them" is good advice. They also influenced her art by making her afraid of big tiddy and drawing hot babes. If she has to draw boobs she makes them pointy and curved the wrong way.
She keeps trying to mentally regress into a toddler state 24/7 and as someone who is sexually into age play and hypnotism this disgusts me because she's doing it wrong. That was a joke, hypnotism is gay and age play disgusts me unless wanting to impregnate anime milfs counts. That's the only acceptable form of it. Anyway she's weird. but maybe if we met in person she could temporarily age regress on purpose and then I could pat her head and call her the bravest little princess or whatever the fuck dads are supposed to do to make sure their kids turn out right? Is that what girls like her are into? Would that help her? Is this something I can do over the phone?
If she was a character in a visual novel there would be a sidequest where you fix all her problems by telling her fucking obvious advice until she decides to listen to it. And maybe getting her away from her mom and into a healthier environment. My imaginary girlfriend thinks this woman is an idiot and time I spend talking to Joan instead of exercising or meditating or eating healthily or working is a waste of time. But I wish I knew how to talk Joan out of being like this and into being completely mentally healthy just like me. That is also a joke because I don't think I can call myself healthy yet. I am still recovering from a lifetime of bad influences and still trying to grow into a proper intelligent, wise, heroic man.
It doesn't feel right for me to talk about someone behind their back like this. But if I want good advice that can help me solve this person's problems I need to be honest. I don't hate this person, I just can't think of anything positive to say about her even though I want to say nice things about her to balance things out.
Joan's mom is an annoying cunt but she doesn't seem evil like my mom was. My mom enjoyed hurting others. But this boomer tard just seems like she's used to having everything go her way without putting in much effort. She certainly never gave Joan life advice for better or worse.
I know that I don't need to solve this person's problems, and I shouldn't hurt myself trying since I don't owe her anything. But I still want to try and fix her.
I'd say your first move should be to be ho est with yourself about why you give a damn. By all indications you seem to have all incentive to tell her to kick rocks. And yet you do not.>But I still want to try and fix herWhy?
Are you certified to administer as a counselor, therapist, or psychologist? Are things going so well for you - all your ducks in a row, all your goals and projects that warrant your actual diligence are complete or overwhelmingly completed - that you have an abundance of time to commit to this wamen?
Be honest. No rationalizations or excuses allowed. Your behavior toward this rapidly and increasingly worthless wamen is a symptom of something else. Put off facing it at your peril.
I will be honest with you even if this sounds weird.
I like the idea of helping others. I think it would be nice for me if she got her shit together and became someone I can talk to intellectually without her retreating into her metaphorical pillow fort whenever things start scaring her. Some of my friends are getting their shit together because I inspired them and gave them entry-level redpills. It feels nice to talk to them about getting your shit together and how shit we used to be.
I know I shouldn't sacrifice my own wellbeing for hers so I won't. I am not a qualified quackdoctor paid to do that. If I try and fix her and she doesn't listen I won't beat myself up over it or hate her, I'll just stop trying to help her and stop feeling bad for her. I'll be able to tell myself I did the right thing even if it doesn't work out. I don't simp for her and I don't want sex with her. So I don't have some stupid fantasy where I solve all her problems and then get to bone her or marry her and have ten kids. She is unappealing. I can name three people I know IRL I'd rather be with. I'm not driven by lust or desperation. I'm driven by the thought that a good person should try to help others if he can do so without compromising his ability to help more people. If she can't be helped by me or anyone then that knowledge will give me closure. But right now I can't stop myself from thinking that maybe I could help her if I just knew what to say.
Did this sound too harsh/mean/weird?
Whenever I wrote down something that sounded nice like "I want to help her because I feel bad for her and think it would be nice to see her happy for once" I deleted it and replaced it with something that sounded less sappy.
>>3319>You're unnervingly right about this woman.
These types of women are predictable and they share cloned characteristics, they are programmed to think a certain way. Wouldn't it be funny if those were lucky guesses I made like some kind of magician?>Backstory
She's a bad artist that has been lead down a red road by left-tits who are manipulating her, nothing eye catching.>Anyway she's weird.
Sounds funny coming from you.>but maybe if we met in person she could temporarily age regress on purpose and then I could pat her head and call her the bravest little princess or whatever the fuck dads are supposed to do to make sure their kids turn out right?
Genuinely try to give her ideas for drawing and help her draw while praising her work, even if it looks like a 5 year old drew it, keep advising her on paying closer detail to being slower with her lines and circles, if you try mentoring her art style too quickly or continuously criticizing her 'art' it may remind her of her father, just try being genuine and friendly while going with the flow of the moment, if she's alright with being close to you then making a move to persuading her actions will be easier, getting a lost woman to listen to your ideas might work but it has to be slowly as you will have to learn her and how to step carefully into her comfort zone, if you can give enough support she has potential to listen to what you have to tell her, if you can wedge your way into being that fallback pillow for her to come crying to, then you have a chance, when you have yourself the pillar that she holds onto then you will be able to do what you want, she is lacking in embracement by her father as he has never been there for her to coming crying to, be the giver of affection that soothes her sobbing then she will be utterly at your mercy, give her what she craves to her by simply being there for her to cry on or for her to open up to, either way she will eventually begin to see you as a role model while the intimacy deepens, keep this up while being her teddy bear to cry onto, she is mostly innocent in heart as her immature thoughts are that of a confused girl without any parental guidance, she is afraid of what she doesn't know and if you can explain to her in a comforting manner that you want to help her then she may accept your advances towards you being there to support her, these daddy deprived women are looking for a father figure who is there for them to listen to them talk when they are frightened with moral decisions, don't come on too strong and she will decide to choose you, when you are in the right circumstance and if you play your cards right.>How do red pill feminist?
Sounds like a tough challenge, the spell is broken if you can get close enough to her that she'll trust you more than her twitter followers, good luck with that, if your primary goal is to 'help' make Joe Anne bend to your command then you need to make yourself a trustworthy friend or her boyfriend, she might trust you that bit better if there is a closer bond between you both, which means your influence over her thoughts will be stronger, she is likely to be a man hater and if so will be harder to get her to do what you want since she has told herself to not listen to advice from the opposite sex, get to be around her a bit more often to learn her patterns and behaviors, let's say you have known her for about a year or perhaps less, over time that trust will slowly build up until she is more accepting to your wants (assuming she doesn't try to get away from you) then she will begin to listen to you if you give her some affection rather than forcing yourself onto her, spend time with her and get to be her friend then maybe she will believe you are trying to help, situations will come together in a way where you are the one for her, don't push yourself too much in her face or she might get scared that you are a danger to her wellbeing and interests.>>3320>>3324>>3326>>3327
You are nervous about what she may think about your actions and thought process, this is in anticipation of the desired outcome and is fairly ordinary, you are lying to yourself if you claim to be completely uninterested in her, you wouldn't have brought this woman here if she wasn't on your mind, there is something about her that intrigues you, am I wrong to suggest that she reminds you of your own upbringing?
You are under the assumption that she can be dissuaded because she is sitting in a similar situation like you have previously been, look at what are her influences and deduct whether she is savable from them, remember that this is is a gradual process of learning how to befriend and comfort this woman so she falls into your arms without forcing it, you must be willing to be dedicated to her for you to have any impact on her thoughts or feelings, if you are in the back of her head then you are not going to be a grand subject of question to her, let alone be of any importance, don't worry too much and you will be fine with her.
This sounds like good advice, but up until now I was always told men who try to become the "shoulder women cry on" just end up stuck in that role forever as "beta male cuck orbiters" who get "friendzoned". Supposedly she sees you as the boring safe backup option while she runs around trying all the dangerous criminal crackhead/buff chad dick expecting sex with her to turn them into her ideal husbands. Also supposedly she starts seeing you as an object who'll always be there no matter how she treats you, because she assumes you enjoy her interactions as much as she does and you enjoy wiping her tears as much as she enjoys having them wiped away.
Are you sure I won't end up like that? I'm open to the idea that I was lied to about women because this technique's actually super effective. But so many losers get cucked by being too nice and supportive and unconditionally loving towards women that view dedicated and loving men as a boring safe option to settle for after turning fourty if he hasn't found a better option. How do i avoid that fate?
Joan already comes to me when she needs a shoulder to cry on or some advice. Is this good?
When it comes to our backgrounds, she was neglected by a lazy whore mother who didn't care how her habits and behaviours affected her daughter, but I was actively abused by two lying narcissistic parents who enjoyed hurting me and tormenting me and spreading lies about me. Child protective services aided and abetting them, this obese whore showed up to my parents house whenever kid-me trusted someone enough to talk to them about my home life and answer questions like "Why do your eyes look so tired?" and "Where did those bruises come from?" honestly. And because I'm disabled I wasn't allowed to move out on my own, and my parents stole my money so I couldn't just sneak out one night with a pocket full of cash and a dream. I couldn't get away until I became the problem of adult protective services, who finally helped me get away from my parents.
Joan doesn't take important things seriously or put effort into achieving any goals she sets for herself or has set for her. And she wastes too much time worrying about nonsensical bullshit like "I'm worried the 10ish year age gap between the gay simpsons characters I'm writing fanfiction lemons about is too big! And I'm worried there are toxic power dynamics going on!". Both are adults, who gives a fuck? It's gay bullshit about the fucking simpsons, who gives a fuck?! If you write faggots as abusive cunts, women get off on it even more! Probably. Women loved Fifty Shades of Grey for being degenerate bullshit just like gayness. So if you combined gay with fifty sharts of gay you'd get the secret to the money of dumb women everywhere.
Also it annoys me that she blindly listens to her whiny mom, who just says random bullshit whenever she's upset even if it makes Joan cry for hours. She wastes hours every day watching trashy normie tv shows that don't help her art or relate to art, such as The Jeremy Kyle Show. When she's not watching shit like that she's watching the same 3 Cartoon Network cartoons from her childhood over and over. It's very rare that she makes art, and I don't know when she practices art or if she ever does. She did go through a "I want to bone Jack Skellington and Sans Undertale" phase but that ended and now she's in a "I fetishize gay men and want to see them fuck and I love how much easy positive feedback I get for posting this on twitter" phase.
How can I introduce her to new things? I have a lot of animes I want to show her but she's been brainwashed into thinking all anime is pedo shit that's morally wrong for having big tiddies and fanservice.
This ignorant slut couldn't sit through episode one of cowboy bebop. She said Tea Gardener from Yugioh dresses like a slut when I showed her yugioh! Pic related, it's Tea from Yugioh.
Joan also said she hated books when I tried introducing her to some good ones. At least she never read Harry Potter, right?
If she's going to write stories that are actually good for once she needs a wider "Pallete" of ideas in her head to draw from when designing original stories/animations/characters/cartoon ideas that are actually original. Everything she writes still feels like a fanfic for something else with most of the names changed because she still hasn't figured out how to put original spins on ideas she's seen before.
There's so much obvious shit she just doesn't get. And when I try to help her she just ignores any piece of advice she doesn't like hearing.
Also she's stuck in the "Feel depressed and empty, try to fill the void with distractions, fail, repeat" cycle. How do I get her out of that?
>>3326>I like the idea of helping others.
Of course you do. Everyone does. But, rattle this around wit ur tea at 4:00.
Are you willing to take responsibility for being both incapable to provide the 'help' you envision AND the repercussions? Seriously.
I'll let Jordan Peterson say it, cuz it clearly not listening.
"Set your house in perfect order before you criticize the world"
Is your house even in order, let one perfect order? Cuz until then, what business do you have? Who elected you to so graciously sprinkle your opinions upon people? The fucking nerve of this bong!.
You could have avoided this by being honest. I told you no rationalizations, but u didnt lisyen.
You want to save ppl cuz then you're absolved of saving yourself. Fix yourself.
But my house seems to be in order now. I have a healthy daily schedule full of good habits and I work on my projects at a sustainable rate, I sleep regularly, I exercise and eat healthily, I don't feel like an empty shell any more, I found God and the light and love of God and Jesus Christ, I have no contact with my abusive parents, and I don't blame myself for how they treated me. I nutted in my sleep last night but my nofap streak is still strong. I even got myself heavier weights and a standing punchbag for more health and more varied exercise. Punching the fuck out of it feels good. I cook my own high quality meals. I have a circle of friends I unironically care about and it feels good to be a good influence on them. But at the same time I avoid being too preachy/political with them. I save that talk for when it's needed instead of saying that stuff constantly like some sitcom character gimmick. Sure I could be buffer and richer and I still don't have a car but as far as things go I think I'm doing pretty well.
>>3329>There's so much obvious shit she just doesn't get. And when I try to help her she just ignores any piece of advice she doesn't like hearing.
She sounds perfect for you then
Not at all, I'm looking forward to you getting a taste of your own medicine. Nice quads tho
Anon, without going into too much detail, there are places you can work through this kind of stuff alongside or without therapy. I haven't read most of this thread but the little I've glanced at makes me think you might be able to benefit from this. It'll be there if and when you need it, and this isn't your typical AA-style meeting, where the only objective is appears to be not to drink; this program is specifically to help work through issues like these and have them stop affecting people's lives well into adulthood. Nor is ACA reserved for children of alcoholics. It's for anyone that comes from a broken home.https://adultchildren.org/literature/laundry-list/
I won't be able to help you work through any of the particular issues you've mentioned thus far but I'd be happy to answer any questions you might have about the program itself.
Why do you think that works?
The friend zone is where you get placed on a scale set by a woman on how valuable of an asset you are to her, if to her you're worth keeping around then you will be used as a tool for whatever she wants, usually they see you as desperate and a reliability that craves attention so they put you on a pedestal of attractiveness.>Are you sure I won't end up like that?
Depends on how you present yourself, you are the one who puts your feet into dangerous territory. No, I'm not sure but women are deceitful so take care.>How do I get her out of that?
It is ultimately down to her, forcing someone to change themselves because you told them to works only in specific situations, where there are lines of respect and understanding between one another, the mutual care flourishes while cooperation becomes second nature. Make a move and see what happens but be prepared for consequences that will be brought after the action has been taken, concoct a plan and fulfill it while developing psychological strategies to enact perfectly according to the subjects own patterned psyche, organize your decisions carefully, if you fail to grasp or understand the magnitude of what you are planning then you should go back to the drawing board.
Talking to w*men is a mistake, always. They are your enemy, and will never know brotherhood.
I don't mean that as doubt or an insult, I'm open to trying it. But what about it makes you think it'll work? Has it worked on people you know before?>>3337
Makes sense. Don't worry, I don't fantasize about fucking her and having ten or more kids. I'm perfectly fine with my pony waifu tulpa, since if I ever had kids with a real woman it would just divorce-rape me and leave me homeless and treat my kids like shit.>>3338
True, women are shit parasites. At best, they're shit in ways that are harmless to you and those you care about, and it's easy enough to go along with the delusions the female brain relies upon. At usually, they're actively harmful to themselves or others for no good reason, and they get away with it because this jewed society sees lying feminist conquerors and lying jewish conquerors as victims of their male white slaves. They can't be in charge because all they know is blame-shifting and delegating their responsibilities onto people they're supposed to help/organize/lead. And they only make good workers when they think a man in charge won't let them get away with it. I've met a lot of women in my life and I've never met a good one in my life. I've met men in bad situations who do the best with what little they have, and I've met women born with so much more who had it all handed to them and threw it all away because of their childish whims.
Sometimes I wonder what it was like in the era before women were allowed to be such cancerous jewed parasites that they ended up poisoning civilization.
I wouldn't be comfortable expressing my opinion on that, sorry anon. As they say though, "it works if you work it, and you're worth it." ;)
Alright, I'll look into it.>everyone
I got a new metal water bottle, but when drinking water from it you can REALLY taste the metal.
Is that normal, or did I buy a shit water bottle I should stop drinking from immediately?
Normally my water containers are plastic.
Glass bottles, anon. I like to buy 1 large Voss bottle and reuse it, for precisely the issue of metal or plastic leeching into it. Clean it with vinegar, Voss has shit quality controls per independent consumer study groups. You may want to make a neoprene cover for it if you do.
>>3339>Don't worry, I don't fantasize about fucking her and having ten or more kids.
She wouldn't make a good mother, she can't take responsibility for her own actions so her kids would be even worse under her blind guidance.>I'm perfectly fine with my pony waifu tulpa,
That's good enough, not as much stress or danger.>since if I ever had kids with a real woman it would just divorce-rape me and leave me homeless and treat my kids like shit.
Most women are complete psycho bitches, it's disheartening seeing their behaviors in action, horse girls are fucking nuts, and that's coming from me.
Horse girls are so fucking creepy because their love of horses isn't genuine. They just get off on dominating and commanding such a massive beast that could easily kill them if it hadn't been dog-trained into learning helplessness. It's always the obnoxiously rich girls whose daddy actually bought them ten horses and an unproductive farm for their birthday too. Then they have the gall to act like touching animals and seeing dirt now and then makes them special like they're fucking cowboys or something when they're really no better than any other hedonistic worthless bitch. And they have those stupid fucking ukuleles and nasally pitchy voices and shitty fucking hair styles that try to look messy and effortless and punk but was more expensive than a working class family struggling to make ends meet in a society damaged by feminism spends on food in a week. Is there anything more fake and commodified than the punk "subculture"? Govt-approved anarchy pins and anti-capitalist Che Guava shirts for just two hundred dollars plus one-day Amazon shipping, spend your money on the worst look possible here! "oh my god, liking bands shilled on MTV makes me so underground and simultaneously Scene and Emo and Goffik and Punk!".
Their taste in everything is shit and everything they do is a delusion or a signal like their shitty piercings and stupidly expensive pre-ripped jeans and scummy power-mad self-fetishizing abusive personality. I wish horses had magnetic fields that would send their piercings flying out of their bodies. They expect to be able to treat men worse than their needy pet horses too. If you date a horse girl she will at best love you forth after her daddy's money, your money, her horses, and you in that order. Yes I once met a horse girl and I will unironically hate them all until I meet one that treats animals and people with respect and could actually survive without her delusions and material pleasures and typical narcissistic histrionic female ego.
Maybe women just shouldn't be allowed nice things. Maybe if women were forced to go to church and be nuns in nun clothes until they're of a marriageable age and couldn't own land or children and had to be good mothers to their men or pro nuns or maids to good mothers, society would be better off. Rare one-in-ten-million good women who turn out good despite society's bad influences can't possibly be worth all the bad ones raping every man's wallet and future through taxes and govt abuse. Women shouldn't be able to vote. Even restricting their voting rights to "married women with kids only" would be a huge step up. I know it's impossible to truly ban and burn all copies of something in the information age but if anything should be forced underground it's all those disgusting romantic comedies that teach impressionable young girls it's okay to be a piece of shit because you'll be rewarded with a beautiful celebrity man once he's gotten over all the issues that prevent him from being a lazy narcissistic cunt's dream lover. Maybe women would turn out better if they couldn't watch shit like Mama Mia during their formative years and had to watch anime like normal people.
Should I not post stuff like this about women, and focus on self-improvement talk?
Today I ate healthily, exercised, avoided masturbation, and made progress on my personal projects. Watching an anime called "How Heavy Are the Dumbbells You Lift?" gave me exercise advice but I'm not sure if it's right or not.
It said to drink protein shakes shortly after exercising, so I did. Feels good.
A gym bro friend of mine insists the "Grenade" protein bars/protein shakes are the best. I'll try the bars some time but I prefer to make my own protein shakes. That way, I always know what goes into them.
Today was a good day.
Some of them can be nice but not all of them, there are always exceptions, the ones that are well natured round out to be better than most other women, the true good stable girls are hardworking and are helpful, they are pure and innocent whereas the egoists are the opposites, they are a set example of those women who think they are everything and use their wealth as a method of power to enact their desires of control, they take advantage of everything living around them and see that animals belong below their feet as a result of their superiority complex.>Anarchist punk pansies
Kek, they are delusional jokers that believe freedom will save them from the ineptitude of ignorance, they are static and boring to be around while they spout about themselves or how miserable their lives are on repeat, they value feelings above logic and their whole life is based around that emotional worldview.>>3347>Should I not post stuff like this about women, and focus on self-improvement talk?
It's your choice, no one is exactly forcing you, worrying about your moon runes on a how to brush horse hair site is fairly ridiculous, there is no difference as the point of this is making you feel and think better, you worry a lot about your public perception and that's why it's so funny because you take everything so seriously that you write or read.>Today I ate healthily, exercised, avoided masturbation, and made progress on my personal projects.
That was yesterday, what happens today is a different story, a simple life is usually the most fulfilling, though that is not the case for some.>Watching an anime called "How Heavy Are the Dumbbells You Lift?" gave me exercise advice but I'm not sure if it's right or not.
If you actually want to learn then you must investigate and study the possibilities, using a Chinese cartoon about heavy bells as your primary source of learning is open to being exploited by foreign media, experiment with new tactics and styles to find the one that works best for you.>It said to drink protein shakes shortly after exercising, so I did. Feels good.
Ok, that's your decision to try what people tell you.>A gym bro friend of mine insists the "Grenade" protein bars/protein shakes are the best.
Look for yourself, examine what are the numbers and ingredients then compare them with competing brands, explore your plethora of options rather than focusing on a single subject.
You ask for appreciation and recognition while questioning if you are allowed to make your own choices, of course YOU can make decisions for yourself, when you were a kid you probably always asked if you were allowed to have fun while expecting a denial every time, you have been engraved with a pattern of thought from your father, so you still act quite immaturely since that is your programmed behavior.>I'll try the bars some time but I prefer to make my own protein shakes. That way, I always know what goes into them.
That's alright, you can see with your own eyes of what to choose since you have the choice of doing bad or good to your body and mind, your intake of foods and education both affect how you act or think.>Today was a good day.
You completed the tasks that you set for yourself, success creates satisfaction, you made a victory and there was enjoyment in doing so.
Forget your past, focus on improving yourself for the future. If you need to, move somewhere else so you can start fresh and be a new person.
This might sound odd but I love that we can call the site silly things.
On lesser forums and in lesser fandoms you have to suck dick saying shit like "This is the greatest forum on the internet" and "This fandom will cause world peace through shared love for Lucario" but here we call this place things like a mongolian horse whispering forum for fun and everyone's fine with it.>>3349
That's a good idea. Sometimes I consider changing my name so I will sound cooler and won't have my bastard father's last name.>everyone
Another good day of exercise and eating healthily. Salad's good with meat. It's annoying when people brag about being unhealthy because you need to resist the urge to say something like "Exercise for once holy shit". One friend was surprised that I know people who do stuff when I talked about the weird shit I'm proofreading for a writer friend in a nonspoilery way, surprised guy said I'm like the protagonist from Persona 5 because he has a guy for everything. Thanks mate but my friend circle sadly doesn't include a back alley doctor, an airsoft gun guy, a politician, or a tarotino able to unironically use actual magic. It does have someone who got into retarded twitter beef for no reason with a fandom I didn't know existed so there's that. I'm glad I'm not on twitter. My advice to him was to take a month vacation from twitter. And he said he'd do that! Suck my cock Fuckerberg. I increased the weight intensity for my bench presses and squats. Felt good about myself. Saw someone put a foam plate on the back of his legs while lying on his back and raise them towards his chest while bending them so his knees squished the foam over and over. Is that some hardcore thing for pros? One guy I know does cosplay and makes some sick foam swords. I showed him Satsuki Kiriyuin's sword and asked how much it would cost. He said a low number, I said deal. I drew the design on paper from all major angles with measurements and offered to email him a simple 3d model and pictures of the blade but he said no to that part. It took months for some reason but today he gave me the greatest sword he's ever made. He took some liberties with the design. It's a rectangular block of wood with no taper and a rounded tip, along with a shattered splintery handle with cord tied around the handle to tie it to another unbroken handle with a diamond pommel and blocky crossguard. It comes pre-cracked and pre-dented, too. Guess testing this blade must have gotten rough. But hey, every good swordsman knows if your sword hasn't broken during testing you need to try harder until it breaks in half and you repair the fucking thing with string. Loose string that slides down the two hilts. Everyone knows that just means more air gets in your sword and nothing's faster than air so it'll help your sword go faster. The hilt is broken in such a way that any pressure or recoil to the blade bends the blade from the hilt and into your forefingers with extra leverage while stabbing into the palm with an uneven splintered surface. Or vice versa if you swing the sword backwards. There is also no sheath so you can't jack the sword off like Vergil from Devil May Cry or do his Iaido weeb shit. You can't even end them rightly with a good pommel toss because the pommel is part of the handle. And the blade's half-handle makes the main handle too wide to properly grip so you can't even strike someone with the pommel. If you held the sword by the wooden blade and tried rhe old Mordhau the crossguard would bend thanks to the unique and innovative pre-broken handle. You could only hurt someone by holding the blade and slapping someone with the blade before it transitions into broken hilt and pommel. I think that it could be used in home defense if you tossed it into the hands of an intruder and then swung a baseball bat at him, hoping he grabs the sword and tries to block it with the shit sword only to lose his hand. This is the greatest sword he's ever made because everything that ever looked nice was plastic with foam in the middle and foam is softer than bronze. But hey, at least it was free. I asked what happened to the sword and he said he's never tried making a prop from wood before. I thanked him anyway because hey, it's free. I showed it to an artist friend who collects swords and draws anime girls and he asked a load of questions about the sword. I answered them truthfully and he couldn't stop laughing. I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" and he said "disabled".
*foam with plastic in the middle.
A thin plastic rod is engulfed by square foam chunks. Cement is used to glue the chunks together. A belt sander is used to grind away at the sword and make it look like a sharp thin blade even though it's harmless foam. Then it is painted blue. Then it is painted metal. Then the hilt is painted brown like leather. And that's today's episode of How It's Made.
I don't know why he made this one out of wood. I didn't think he had anything for wood but there's a thin line cut into the wood on one side of the crossguard like it's touched a sawblade that went in deeper than it was supposed to.
I tried to make the sword description funny with that "foam is softer than bronze so it's an inferior sword material and air can get into your sword to make it faster" talk. How'd I do?
I'd recommend having a more legible post structure, and topical ideas that merit the words used. (Normally I leave out the implied why say that in the first place) Because I would like to see easily identifiable points for faster reading.
Otherwise it's good to hear you're doing good.
Thought 1>Another good day of exercise and eating healthily. Salad's good with meat.
Yes. Delicious food is nice, and so is improvement.
Thought 1 tangent>It's annoying when people brag about being unhealthy because you need to resist the urge to say something like "Exercise for once holy shit".
You need to reallocate your fucks given to yourself and those who matter most to you. If and possibly when you do have the wisdom, knowledge, power, opportunity, and the right set of actions then affecting others is a good possibility. Otherwise it is highly circumstantial and limited, by the ability and foreknowledge of the situation.<tldr: give fewer fucks
I figure I should mention this the lead up and the pay off for this new topic is nothing. This is a new topic and by conventional writing standards it would be a separate paragraph or even essay entirely.
Thought 2>One friend was surprised that I know people who do stuff when I talked about the weird shit I'm proofreading for a writer friend in a nonspoilery way,
Thought 2 supporting detail>surprised guy said I'm like the protagonist from Persona 5
Thought 2 explaination>because he has a guy for everything.
Thought 2 clarification 'joke'>Thanks mate but my friend circle sadly doesn't include a back alley doctor, an airsoft gun guy, a politician, or a tarotino able to unironically use actual magic.
Thought 2 tangent, Persona 5 has a tweeting person>It does have someone who got into retarded twitter beef for no reason with a fandom I didn't know existed so there's that.
Thought 2 tangent's tangent. Technically sorta kinda but... it's uber related of sorts...>I'm glad I'm not on twitter.
Topic has now split again.
Thought 3>My advice to him was to take a month vacation from twitter.
Thought 3 outcome>And he said he'd do that!
Thought 3 tangent joke>Suck my cock Fuckerberg.<...
Complete topic shift
Thought 4>I increased the weight intensity for my bench presses and squats.
Thought 4 personal observation of effects>Felt good about myself.
Thought 4 tangent at the gym of sorts>Saw someone put a foam plate on the back of his legs while lying on his back and raise them towards his chest while bending them so his knees squished the foam over and over.
Tangent 4 Question>Is that some hardcore thing for pros? <even though search engines and video content are suspect innocent questions such as what the fuck is the foam thing is okay to seek.<but by the evidence the guy probably just wanted more leg resistance.
My tangent not about the foam thing. More about exercise. (Normally this would go by point the main point.)
Posture is important.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EREvdCaxZHo&t=166>Foam and the sword saga and the question at hand.<Why though? Why go through all of that here and now?>/a/ the sword is pain post
Sarcasm is an exercise in creativity and misunderstandings for the internet era to get it just right with proper intonation.>tldr free junk isn't free you're the product
Testing new material such as wood is not the same as foam.
As for usability he worked with foam for the looks rather than function. Or it was to make a thing and end the project quickly without the main source of income, the plastic and foam cosplay stuff, from being impacted.>I tried to make the sword description funny with that
-the post here->talk. How'd I do?
There's no brevity, levity is in a ditch that climbs out at the end and no time for natural pauses. If there is it would be better said aloud and with demonstration. It could use some work.<Sorry baseball fans
I got a free sword from someone who does sick foam and plastic cosplay swords. Pic related for the anime sword it is based on.
I got exactly what I payed for after a few months, and it's wood.
It has everything you could ask for in anime, held together by shear willpower, guts, and string. Angular and raw like a 2x4.
The blade is to proper UK lumber standards and is safe to slice toast with, and the baseball league.
Like morning wood, but with more cracks and dents you could shake at. It strikes out there, but the twin handles side by side give the classic experience of sliding to first base, on a construction field.
First is the splinters, second is the double wide suprise, third is an out of phase guard, and the in-field string binds it all up. If you make it home it's broke in twain from the abuse. Getting the homerun once would be cake with everything going for it.
No charge at all. It's one of a kind. Best of all if it were an...
So I showed this to an artist friend who collects swords and draws anime girls and he asked a load of questions about the sword. I answered them truthfully and he couldn't stop laughing. I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" and he said "disabled".
Hanging either on a wall might be difficult, but it would make an impression.
>>3358>I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" and he said "disabled".
I coulda editeds more for flow and punchiness<. I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?" He replies "disabled".
Or maybe<I asked him "what would this look like as an anime girl?"<"disabled".
When I said "but it does have a twitter-using idiot" i meant my friend circle not the game.
Sorry about the length, I'll shorten them from now on.
I was going to ask artist fren to draw it as an anime girl but I forgot to to that. I asked this morning and he said "no its too ugly". Thats ok.
>>3360>I'll shorten them from now on
Sure you will
Today I saw two cucked fags in blm shirts in public during my walk. Avoided them casually.
I still ate healthily and exercised today but it got me thinking about this society.
I wish I didn't have to hide my true self. I wish I lived in a noncucked country. Brainwashed people are everywhere. I wonder how it feels to, in person, just walk into a church and be a good part of a good christian community without lesbian jew pastors screeching "all hail diversity, jesus would have hated Boris and Brexit". Does it feel good to sing a song about jesus with others and know the person beside you trusts you absolutely and would die for you just as you would die for him?
The boomers sold us and our future out to the enemy for profit, because the jew told them to. How is it possible for them to be so stupid and evil?
I wish there was an ending to this story where aliens float down to earth one day and congratulate white men for surviving this long on a planet where everything inferior evolved to prey upon them by any means necessary. Then the aliens press a button on their spaceship that ends this experiment and erases all enemies and upgrades white women into obedient kind poners, giving them souls and brains in the process.
Do you think people will rise up one day to fight the corrupt governments of the world and their """peaceful""" third world war on us?
>>3355>This might sound odd but I love that we can call the site silly things.
So do I, this is my favorite witch hunting Christian hangout.>On lesser forums and in lesser fandoms you have to suck dick saying shit like "This is the greatest forum on the internet" and "This fandom will cause world peace through shared love for Lucario" but here we call this place things like a mongolian horse whispering forum for fun and everyone's fine with it.
It's part of channel culture, the internet is now one of the few places in the world with a sense of humor.>>3362>Today I saw two cucked fags in blm shirts in public during my walk. Avoided them casually.
Baffled that you didn't take their number.>I still ate healthily and exercised today but it got me thinking about this society.
Pondering why it's a big joke?>I wish I didn't have to hide my true self.
Secrets are best kept than spread, gossip gets around quick and it can screw you over.>I wish I lived in a noncucked country.
This island has gone to hell.>Brainwashed people are everywhere.
They are dead in the head, given a script to obey.>I wonder how it feels to, in person, just walk into a church and be a good part of a good christian community without lesbian jew pastors screeching "all hail diversity, jesus would have hated Boris and Brexit".
The influx of Negros and Jews have brought with them a slew of subversion, infecting every area and walk of life so that their thoughts are imposed upon you. To me the church is a reminder of death, the twisting tower with it's deafening bells, a constant haunt of the past and of graves, a symbol of authority.>Does it feel good to sing a song about jesus with others and know the person beside you trusts you absolutely and would die for you just as you would die for him?
It's a form of bonding and connecting with people of a similar mentality, singsongs should be buoyant and happy. Not many people are as devoted to their friends or family anymore.>The boomers sold us and our future out to the enemy for profit, because the jew told them to.
Without Jews the world we exist within would be much different.>How is it possible for them to be so stupid and evil?
They were sidetracked with their own desires, drunk and drugged they did not see the danger in the temptation of those numerous lies, people are gullible and trust too easily.>I wish there was an ending to this story where aliens float down to earth one day and congratulate white men for surviving this long on a planet where everything inferior evolved to prey upon them by any means necessary. Then the aliens press a button on their spaceship that ends this experiment and erases all enemies and upgrades white women into obedient kind poners, giving them souls and brains in the process.
This scenario would be better than the current one. Keep dreaming on.>Do you think people will rise up one day to fight the corrupt governments of the world and their """peaceful""" third world war on us?
Time will tell eventually, there is definitely something on the horizon though, people generally prefer to not get themselves hurt if it isn't in their interest to do so. Many, many people are so shortsighted and impressionable.
The church seems like something that could have worked if it tried harder. Christianity survived being thrown to the lions. It survived Jesus's death. But it couldn't stop itself from thinking if it welcomed subversive elements with open arms, they would give up their poisonous ways and be good. That's just not in the nature of scorpions.
Real churches look good, and their bells are alright if you aren't too close to them. At least they have bells instead of that obnoxious islamic call to prayer. Imagine needing some faggot to yell "Pray to your god now!" before you actually do. Imagine being that faggot who stands up for everyone and yells "Pray now!" first. Islam's a religion of power-craving scorpions and poisoned sheep who can't be saved.
>>3355>Sometimes I consider changing my name so I will sound cooler and won't have my bastard father's last name.
I have moved twice, each time leaving all friends behind and starting over. It worked really well for me, I learned a lot. Get a job where you have to deal with people, you get to practice being social on someone else's dime, though it's kind of wierd right now with everyone in masks... Start doing phone tech support if you need to start really small, at least you will gain some skills talking.
Another day of health and alright fortune
I had this idea for a thread called "Glitches in the matrix" or "Leftists behaving badly" or something like that. A thread full of short clips displaying things like animalistic niggers committing crimes, feminists saying "kill all men" and getting cheered by other feminists and generally not even trying to hide their hatred of men, jews gloating evilly about their crimes, lefties openly celebrating white genocide, and so on.
A place to post these short perception-changing videos that shatter a normie's faith in what he's been told to think. The shorter and easier for someone new to all this politics stuff to understand, the better. Because so far when redpilling normies these videos have the most impact on their preconceived notions, opening them up to deeper thought and longer videos/discussions.
Another day of taking care of my body and getting fitter even though this world's going to shit. Focus on what I can control, that's what the advice said.
My alt-history-obsessed friend showed me a ridiculous video that claimed America's going to be isolationist for the next 80 years and "Trump was an isolationist backlash that closed immigration" and France will become a superpower when America's not looking because "France is so stable".
Was the video's creator having a fucking stroke? France will either cast off its jewish chains and cast out its islamic invaders or become another forward-operating base in the EU's islamic one-sided ethnic war on peace.
The video also claimed declining white birth rates are "just a myth that rely on hispanic birth rates remaining constant also most hispanics marry whites so they'll become whiter over time so there".
If pure water is mixed with mud, how pure is that water? "But the mud will be purer-" it says a lot that you prioritize the mud over the vital life-giving water's quality and wellbeing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J3g_ZAx6o64
There are so many demons out there who want the death of the white race and will tell any lie to help it happen. Do they even realize how shit the world would be without us? Some races go to the moon and some races can't understand high school maths without some politician trying to rewrite maths so 2+2=5 but only when they say it is. Most of that lot is able to fail despite our best efforts and some of us are able to prosper despite their best efforts. They're parasites, treasonous parasites. Gradually, I began to hate them.
Stiff elbows again, exercised too hard. Aside from that, perfect health. A friend gave me some Grenade energy drink. It didn't feel like it was an energy drink. But I didn't feel tired later either. I've felt the maddening kick of unhealthy energy drinks before so I expected this one to be even stronger since it's supposedly bealthy. I felt some energy from it but it was weak. Maybe the extreme amounts of energy is what makes red bull and the like so unhealthy. But that's not all I wanted to talk about today.
So basically, there's this girl, and um...
I met her when we were both teenagers and total fucking losers. I was still less of a loser because I had an excuse to be a loser while she didn't. We talked a lot and grew closer but when I told her I loved her she said she wasn't willing to settle for me because she, like all whores, thinks she is entitled to some inherently contradictory fantasy man who crawls out of the screen to satisfy all her fantasies at once. I would have been settling for her since she couldn't take care of herself like an adult then or now. If I had dated her I would probably be a miserable cuck under her heel now, so I am glad I don't have to put up with her. We're both over 23 now but every time I talk to this person it reminds me of how far I've come because there used to be a time when I found this bitch appealing. When I didn't know any less cunty women this woman's cuntitude seemed average for a woman, but now I know better. Sure they aren't the brightest bulbs but holy fucking shit this woman is dumb. This greedy, selfish, entitled twat makes me understand why so many men give up on women and satisfy their need for human intimacy exclusively by going on dates with stuffed animals or Jackie Chan/Pinkie Pie/Keanu Reeves tulpas. I go into conversations with her thinking if I am to be a good man then I must give her my wisdom. But what good is wisdom to a spoiled brat determined to throw away every opportunity presented to her? It's like she's trying to speedrun bad life decisions to spite God. She just shows me disgusting gay transformers fanart instead of actually making anything meaningful like the retarded Transformers knockoff she wants to make. I foolishly wasted time helping her write actual good transformers knockoff episodes and create an original universe but she has this habit of writing pure cringe and putting herself above others and scrapping anything someone smarter than her helped her with. She doesn't really want to be a creator, she just wants to be praised for saying she's one on twitter. The dumb cunt goes into "depressive episodes" aka sad moods for a few hours whenever she goes on twitter to show off her fictional faggot shipping fanart for that precious attention and dopamine hit and doesn't get it. She's been so brainwashed by the feminists that a game of "Hitler or Feminist?" didn't even phase her. She unironically says shit like "I want to tackle toxic masculinity in my writing" and then writes a story where rapey evil space nazis invade earth and also there are cutesy animal plus dolls like if Isabelle fucked Retsuko and Sanrio and they pilot goant robots to shoot nazis for not playing with dollies. Then she spits on bronies and Thomas The Tank Engine fans (turns out they exist) for liking kiddy products even though this bitch defines herself by the corporate media she liked as a child and can't go a day without wasting hours on trashy reality TV or watching Powderpuff Girls reruns. Recently she cackled feministically on twitter at the Thomas femboys, filled with glee over how much she thinks these men would hate the show. When criticized she pulled stupid lying defenses like "I just think it's not that bad" and "bbbut the simple 2d shapes move really well" and only deleted her tweet once some kid said "autistic people love Thomas therefore your anti Thomas tweet is ableist". That made her delete her tweet and fucking grovel in a cliche apology where she nonsensically says she didn't mean to upset anyone but thinks its best to be blunt with her opinions. Yeah, your opinion that you think being childish is only okay when you do it. The cunt leaves me on read unless what I say encourages her to reply and she thinks nothing of lying to my face. Or antagonizing others and then trying to drag me into stupid internet drama I want nothing to do with. Or making vague posts at me and forcing me to waste time trying to Phoenix Wright information out of this fucking cartoon character. Wait no I shouldn't call her a cartoon character, it would offend my adorable cartoon pony tulpa. Did I mention the bitch hates my tulpa but can't understand what tulpas are even though I tried explaining it to her? This fucking bitch, she's a spiteful cunt when she has no reason to be and she unironically idolizes the CWC-but-worse clown of a man who calls himself "Lily Orchard". There are better things I could do with my life like exercise or talk to people who don't make me disgusted with the very idea of life itself or go on imaginary dates with my imaginary horse waifu tulpa or look at sick anime fight scenes or work on my projects or argue on a brazillian equine sodomy subreddit over which fuckable cartoon horse would be the best lay. I am incredibly popular and handsome and confident now that I'm a man, I have a shitton of friends and they genuinely fucking like me. But dealing with
her outbursts and drama is annoying and trying to get and keep her inferior female attention span reminds me of the shit I used to put up with when I was desperate and looking for friends in stupid places. I would have to be genuinely fucking disabled to think it is a good idea to continue to speak to her. She is a fool and I should forget all about her. She's used to being treated like the daughter of an overly lenient dad who can't make her grow up and I don't think it's possible to salvage this relationship or the person she wants to become. She doesn't respect me even though people more qualified and intelligent than her do, and some of the people who respect me are women so it's not a sex thing. I'm not paid enough to be called a toxic white man by some feminist clown who says shit like "I'm just a dumb white girl" on twitter when sucking off Burn Loot Murder. The only question is whether I should tell her to her face she's a pointlessly spiteful immature tard who's making a mess of her life for no reason, even if it means she calls me a meanie and blocks me, or if I should avoid burning that bridge by just talking to her way less and treating her like a casual aquaintance instead of someone I feel like I could and should save.
Golly, it must suck dealing with outbursts and drama and inferior attention spans>should I tell her to her face
Tell who? You're still listening to this bint? You HAVENT cut the cord?>that last sentence.
I know she'll probably call me something worse than a meanie, that was a joke.
I don't know how to stop myself from feeling like I could and should talk her into growing up.
Do your absolute best
>>3374>I go into conversations with her thinking if I am to be a good man then I must give her my wisdom.
If you were truly wise you would only give advice when asked for. No one wants your advice anon.> I foolishly wasted time helping her write actual good transformers knockoff episodes and create an original universe
You say you don't want her pussy, but here you are working for it. What else could you have done with that wasted time anon?>wall of text
Anon, people like this need to be ghosted. Forget her, meet other people. She is just sucking your time, energy and optimism like a vampire. Go hit the gym.
I went a whole day without talking to her. My pony tulpa said she's proud of me. Not just because of the woman, but because I've been healthy and fit for so long.
I have this habit of seeing the worst in people. In everything. So I try to look on the brighter side. But sometimes there is no bright side. That woman doesn't have a bright side. She isn't bright. And if I am to settle down with any woman and repopulate my species with her she needs to have better genes and memes than this stupid femoid thot I'm done making excuses for.
Do you ever think that maybe if you met someone sooner, said the right things and knew everything, you could have kept them from going down the wrong path?
I wish I knew everything.
Also I'm still exercising and healthy.
Still healthy and exercising. Why do I post like this? Is this an accountability journal thing, like that religious thing from last year? Whatever I'm doing, it's working. I don't want to disappoint myself by being a lazy faggot who refuses to exercise. When putting my trousers on I felt my legs and the fat's almost completely gone. It's all firm muscle. I'm actually wearing belts now. Just one, though.
Now that I'm no longer lying to myself about that woman it's easy to see how dishonest she is and disgusting she treats others. She treats everyone like shit and spends all her time getting validated on twatter for posting about her fantasies and fleeting retarded feelings and which cartoons she wants to see fuck. Why did I ever call her my friend? "We both liked the same show once"? Big fucking whoop, there's a lot more to life than this year's reboot of some corporate fucking toyline cartoon. Whenever I tried talking to her about serious shit, she either stops reading/listening or starts screaming. All she wants out of life is comfort and she'll believe in any delusion that gives it to her, including the delusion that makes her think she's "oppressed" for being the fatherless daughter of a house-flipping rich bitch riding the cock carousel into her fourties and rolling in her ex-husband's divorce money. She has it easy. She had it easier than most people alive and she'll still claim she was oppressed in her pussy rich school just because nobody could stand talking to the judgemental two-faced cunt.
She's a twat on twitter and a bigger twat in reality. Sometimes she'll post shit like "I'm demisexual because I only want to fuck people if I know them deeply and have a deep connection with them and like them!" and then send me explicit messages about how she lusts over celebrities and wants Megatron from the Transformers cartoon to tie her up and pound her asshole with his transforming Decepticock until Energon oozes from every orfice, or send me shit transformers gay porn fanfics you couldn't pay me enough to read/skim.
Sometimes she'll say she's something she thinks makes her a good person, and then do nothing to BE what she says she is. Oh wait, not "sometimes", she always does that. She's always horny for cartoon prettyboys and sexually-attractive "dorky awkward" faggots, and full of hatred for anyone who's actually awkward around her. Full of even more hatred for anyone real who approaches her while being anything less than the impossible blend of contradictory character traits she's been brainwashed into admiring thanks to the TV.
despite how often she posts "I love feminine guys! I want to see robot-men from my favourite cartoon be gay and fuck!" she used to shit-talk me for not being tall enough back when I was fat. Now that I'm buff-ish, nobody notices how short I am. What a hypocrite. She doesn't actually love feminine guys, she just has a fetish for when masculine men act girly and wear frilly dresses and buttfuck each other. That's absolutely fucking disgusting. I'd sooner trust a bondage freak, because at least they're normal people when they aren't tied up or playing with whips. Every time a gender-freak sees anything related to sex or sexuality or any expression of masculinity or femininity, real or genuine, they're always fucked up in the head. They aren't normal people with an appreciation for something abnormal, they're damaged people unable to mentally function properly.
Besides, it ain't like I can do anything about my height. Ain't like I can walk into a tranny clinic, claim I identify as a woman who wants to "transition" into becoming a man, and get injected with as many state-funded steroids and human growth hormone and man-chemicals as it takes. I'm a big guy where it counts, so who cares about my height? If I lie on my side without my leg supporting my balls, they wake up sore in the morning because they're big. To be honest I wish my balls were an ordinary size because they make my dick look ordinary-sized unless my hands are near it. Plus they make exercising uncomfortable. If women are going to be shallow whores about the height of the men they sleep with, then any man would have to be an uncaring bastard to reproduce with a short bitch because it would mean possibly damning his kids to a life spent being short. It's a good thing tall babes with hot legs are hotter than tiny whores. Anyway, fuck that bitch.
She's a shallow whore with nothing to offer the world but a wet hole attached to a whiny hypersensitive selfish bitch who looks like RadicalSoda plus a botched tranny. Then again there are no non-botched trannies, since every time someone goes tranny it's because their parents and friends failed them and the jews won. By the way go watch RadicalSoda, he's fucking hilarious. I haven't been a Sonicfag in years but this guy's got great comedic timing.
She has been subverted. She has been jewed and faggoted. She's a man-hating lost cause. Some day she'll "hit the wall", getting old and even uglier. She's already too ugly to receive male attention from anyone she's willing to treat like a person and consider shagging. The only people who want to BE SEEN validating her on twitter so they can look like good people who support good people things will abandon her and move on to someone younger and more impressionable. She'll hate herself then almost as much as she hates men now. How the fuck did I ever tolerate this bitch's presence in my life? How did I ever fool myself into thinking I could fix her when she doesn't want to be saved? Society encourages the worst impulses in women and rewards them with attention and positive reinforcement while punishing wrongthink with negative reinforcement and nonsense buzzwords like "ableist". Women won't ever choose to turn down a life of fleeting pleasure in favour of a life of love+security+morality as a good woman unless society forces them to do so and recognizes the worst feminine behaviours as the medical disorders desperately in need of cures they are. The cure for Histrionic Personality Disorder, Attention-Seeking Disorder, Unreasonable Expectations Disorder, Feminine Irrationality Disorder, Oversized Fragile Feminine Ego Disorder, Uncontrollably Feminine Envy And Spite Disorder, Cock Craving Disorder, and Actually A Brainwashed Feminist Manhater Disorder isn't to brush them under the rug and normalize them.
Sometimes I feel bad about still liking ponies at my age. Is it wrong to look at something so girly, when so many episodes contain anti-male messaging? If anon realistically went to Equestria would he be treated like Spike at best? Maybe a man like me should watch more adult stuff. But after watching shows full of drama, action, and bloodshed, I miss poners.
The Shreeax Movie/Cory Test in the House, all that stuff was to take the piss out of the Superwholock clowns. And when people pretend to religiously love Shrek and fantasize about fucking the smelly green ogre and drowning in an excessive green ogreload, they're taking the piss out of people who are even weirder about Sonic or Ponies or Blue Avatar or Anime.
But anime is designed to be sexy and appealing to all sorts of niches. When white people grow up being told white culture is sinful, some of them latch onto subcultures or the cultures of foreign nations. Guys jack off to Asuka and girls jack off to dumb Kpop boybands. It's funny when people pretend to love Backstreet Boys or Big Time Rush just to piss off the kpop zombies. Like when people pretend Raid Shadow Legends is the greatest gacha game ever to take the piss out of gacha-addicted faggots who can't even get addicted to something respectable like poker and would unironically consider Cookie Clicker the best game ever if they had the mental capacity to play a game that isn't on their phone and requires something besides a credit card to play. Why don't they don't have any similar jokes for us?
Maybe because it's they are women and women aren't funny.
Friend don't worry about liking ponies. When I started watching I realized I can take MLP more seriously than most sitcoms or whatever on TV. The characters feel more real than those from more "serious" shows.>women aren't funny.
>>3390>women aren't funny.
My theory for why women aren't funny is that laughter is a type of pressure release that comes from a place inside you too genuine for women to have. Women physically don't have the wings and body structure a bird needs to fly or the brain capacity men need to be mature civilized adults. Laughing at silly words and sex jokes is a break from being adult for men and just another way to squeeze her desired result out of others for women. Women will loudly over-laugh at things just to be seen and heard laughing when they think they are supposed to laugh at something. And women will be called funny by men who want to fuck them or satisfy their feminine egos or be seen "being nice" to women or be polite or avoid pissing off their simps, so they never feel the need to get better material. They don't truly get jokes or why "Haha I love hurting men. Women multiply things so if you give them semen they make you a baby and if you give them any lip they give you a lifetime of suffering and that's a good thing teehee" is less funny than a man saying "A man walked into a bar and said ow ouch oof fuck ow I walked into a bar". They are insulated from the worst of the world in places where they're still coddled and babied by men despite their best efforts to bite the hand that starves itself to feed them so they don't care about anything enough to notice the true contradictions in this society of lies or who the enemies of life really are. Women are treated better than men in this society and they don't feel the need to question a society that encourages them to enjoy acting maliciously and selfishly while giving them bullshit femoid lies as justifications for it. Women aren't funny because they don't have to be. It's also why so many women aren't smart and won't think critically about anything. Society never forces them to be smart and never punishes stupid women enough for making mistakes that screw over herself and others. Feminists are never forced to look at and feel the negative consequences of their war on white men and the children of white me. Unless she is incredibly ugly and obese enough to turn away even the most brainwashed cuck alive with low self esteem she is always one lie eyelash batting or police phone call away from having her nearest simp handle her adult responsibilities for her and rob her of any learning opportunities by trying to convince her she did nothing wrong. A woman's understanding of reality is skin deep. Her impression of a mature and respected male leader makes her a petty incompetent tyrant in love with abusing her authority over others and as soon as any real work needs to be done she relies on her underlings who she also blames for everything she does wrong and every disaster she causes. Her impression of a comedian makes her a whiny shameless pervert obsessed with the scent of her own pussy and absurdly distorted relationship stories where she's never done anything wrong men aren't willing to overlook in the name of "harr harr bitches be crazy and that am normal, it's the man's responsibility to keep the woman satisfied and safe and sane no matter how much she doesn't want to be any of these". Her impression of a "victim" makes her a hypersensitive liar desperate to avenge her honourless "honour" at even the tiniest slight to her pathetic femininity. Everything about the modern woman is an act for her own amusement and social status to be discarded as soon as it is inconvenient for her including her humanity and compassion. Her impression of a human being leaves much to be desired. They might be able to repeat jokes they stole from men and repeatedly repeat lines that make people laugh like "haha i sure do love anime pussy. It's a good thing anime fans love it when women say they like what anime fans like for attention. Watching ten hours of hentai a day is worthy of praise because I am female teehee" but they can never grasp true comedy.
Women are even bad at media analysis and pattern recognition which ironically makes up most of their media analysis ability.
They bitch about "women as reward" because they are unable to tell the difference between "saving the girl impressed her into giving him a chance", "rescuing his wife earned him sex", and "the king unironically gave the paladin a slave and sick plus two sword as a reward for killing the goblins". They don't care about all the media in which something besides women is the reward such as personal growth or a celebrity career or a kingdom or a farm or a job or godhood or a return to normalcy.
They'll cry about all the times consent wasn't 100% there in the only pieces of media they've seen besides porn while ignoring all the time male characters were raped or even raped to death and had their rape played for laughs.
They'll call it "fridging" every time a female character dies for any reason and claim "fridging" is when a woman dies or is killed off to shock or motivate a male character. Imagine being so privileged that it bothers you when a woman dies in a piece of media and then giving no shits when media demonizes those of other groups. They don't give a shit about all the media where the roles are reversed or all the media where something else important to the man is killed like his dog or parents or children or entire extended family or hometown country or planet. Anime fans joke about the "doomed mom haircut" and how many heroes have a Moses ripoff moment in their backstory where the baddie is told someone from X Town will kill him so he slaughters everyone from X Town but one survives and wants revenge.
Was it "fridging" when Edward Elric's mom died of a broken heart and Ed's attempt to revive her started the show? Was it "fridging" when Luke's uncle and aunt or John Wick's dog were killed? When an entire fucking timeline of reality full of loving people got obliterated in Dragon Ball Super, and some of the people in that timeline were female(even though humie women aren't people) was it "fridging"? When an adult man has his shit together and lives away from his parents and extended family as one of millions of atomized rootless individuals in a shitty city and the only things in life that bring him joy are his job and wife and maybe a collection based hobby like a pokemon card collection, a serious villain can only threaten or destroy one of those things to establish himself as a bastard that needs to go down. And threatening a man's property is usually turned into a joke in media. "teehee look at the silly man care about blideo blames that got stolen or get mad when his clothes were burned by his ex wife".
"pattern recognition" or "tropes" as the jewed call it is the death of legitimate media criticism. I don't need some self-appointed expert with 9k subscribers to tell me a book has a mostly red cover with a woman on it and the text contains a comic relief character and six traffic violations and a rape scene and a mint green toyota corola and a car chase scene that ends in a cabbage stand getting destroyed and a surfer dude and a loose cannon cop who doesn't play by the rules and four cock jokes and one sexist joke and a Red Oni Blue Oni dynamic with the black by-the-book partner forced onto the white guy by authority only for him to become friends and leaen they're not so different in the author's eyes. I certainly don't give a shit if that faggot youtuber thinks the book is bad just because he subjectively does not like those tropes, even if he claims it's just because of how they were implemented. If your only example of "x done right" is a masturbatory work of metashit that constantly says "x is shit" your opinion on x is invalid because you just hate x whether you admit that to yourself and others or not.
Women are fundamentally dishonest and even when they criticize media it is an extension of their dishonest nature. They just want to bitch about people writing stories with elements they want to be seen hating and "gush about" (praise) fetishes and fetish media they want to be seen endorsing. Fuck women and fuck their female brain and fuck their toxically feminine behaviour.
It pisses me off to know I can never say anything about women on an anonymous forum for secret thoughtcriminals that's meaner to them than what they've been praised for saying about all men and paid to say about men in feminist propaganda novels and propaganda manifestos. But realistically speaking feminism needs to be stopped. It's illegal to rape and it should be illegal to be a feminist because being a feminist rapes kids but with extra steps. Feminists and jews import niggers that rape and muslims that traffic and rape kids. They want reeducation camps or worse for us and their ideology should be cured in reeducation camps while the incurables are muzzled and thrown in padded rooms and straightjackets. Feminists can only destroy and they would rather stomp a hundred babies to death than be a good person in a healthy society they can't control or destroy.
Legs still burning from exercise today. Feels good. Is it weird if I start to enjoy this?
That piece of shit woman... I knew her for years. Maybe if I said the right things I could have put her on a better path? But she was always a shallow selfish whore unable to consider the feelings of others. She was ruined before I met her. It's foolishness to blame myself for how God wanted her to be. She's not my daughter, but if she was she would have turned out better.
A lot of people build up imaginary versions of women they know in their heads and choose to pretend they are spending time with this imaginary perfect girl when dealing with the real thing. They ignore red flags because they want to believe in the fantasy whores use to manipulate weak minded men into serving them. But I already have an imaginary perfect girl in my head and she's a beautiful and absolutely massive poner. She's so soft and cute and warm and sweet and supportive. But she's not just a cheerleader hugbot, she can be clever and cheeky. And she's genuinely hilarious when she wants to be. She has her own thoughts and opinions and we've disagreed on things before which makes her more alive than all those roleplaying twats on tulpa sites with boring generic Pinkie-knockoff one-note gimmick character tulpas. If you have a lot of tulpas can they really develop into individuals and grow if all they ever do is "act in-character" according to whatever movie character or animu slut or cliche character archetype you had in mind with this? How could real women ever compete with this? Lowly humie femoids could never compete with this. She's perfect. And she genuinely loves me. And I genuinely love her. My poner is love. My poner is life. When I sleep, I usually dream of my poner. And my poner really appreciates how fit I'm getting. It feels good. Being appreciated feels good. I have the best girl in this and any other universe right here.
"I want to live! Take me out to sea with you!"
Those words from One Piece brought me to tears when I saw it as a boy.
Seeing videos of the olden days when countries like America and England were full of not just whites but lively and happy whites with souls... I wonder what it would feel like to know these people. To talk to them and live among them. What would they think of me? Of the things I've seen and heard about? It feels like I'm looking into a parallel universe. Or maybe some hollywood film that accidentally made the parallel universes look better than this one. It doesn't feel like any place that could ever exist in the timeline of a world that turned out so ugly. I saw them today in some video, and tears silently fell from my masculine face. How could the boomers get so spectacularly jewed that they raped the futures of their kids and allowed America to be invaded and subverted? I guess that's just another question to ask God if I ever meet him.
I made some more friends today. I grew up in a shit environment so even now it's still surprising how easy it is to get along with good people. They all probably have dark secrets but fuck it, that's normal these days. My dark secret is that I used to masturbate to anime girls. By the standards of modernity that's vanilla shit. If I walked into a church and told some priest that he'd laugh his ass off and say he expected me to say something horrifying like "I masturbated to anime girls with tails and animal ears" or "I masturbated to anime girls who have animal ears and are horses or snakes or car-sized spiders or fucking fuckable fish from the waist down" or "I masturbated to anime girls but with fur and tails and animal heads".
For God's sake, we all joke about thinking hand-holding and headpatting and other displays of emotional intimacy are horrifyingly lewd and kinky because we're so horrifyingly desensitized to sexual and physical intimacy.
Fantasy stories were once a way to make sense of the world and figure out morality and wisdom and pass it on to our children through aesops and porquoi stories.
Over time as we figured this shit out fantasy became a way to entertain and any messages were secondary. How many got through Narnia without realizing how Christian it was?
Narnia's kids went into the wardrobe to enter and save a fantasy land, then they returned home to be wiser people.
Lord Of The Rings's Middle Earth was its own world saved by its own people. No human visitors here. It had its own history and languages and everything.
Avatar was a failed attempt to recreate that magic. It had better technology than LOTR but the story was basically just Pocahontas 2: PocaHarder. It had its own language but it usually got misused in the movie so people in the audience could still understand what was said. And hilariously when they were told to "make something alien for my alien world" by nlending fucktons of shit together from around the world they basically got a musical style and language that sounded mostly african.
Yet it was still enough to get people wishing they lived on Pandora as a biue cat freak just like people wished to live in Middle Earth or visit Narnia.
Zootopia was just New York but designed from the ground up to be multiracial and democratic even though Predators are outnumbered 1 to 10 by prey. Great worldbuilding. No history or unique languages, just silly looking shit and species racism but furries still want to live there.
Then there's Harry Potter. It's basically earth but with a silly little corner where a middle aged karen's view of everyone else's "sillyness" is taken to 11. The sports are silly and the names are silly and the society is silly but once the baddie kills himself for the third-ish time using bullshit Wand Rules rowling pulled from her ass Harry and friends work for the silly state like good little slaves. Harry doesn't need to put his wand down or take off his wizard robes and come home, or start a new life away from wizardry in secret with the wife he met in magicland. The fantasy no longer has an end point even though no effort was put into the plagiarized world.
Twilight enchanted dumb women almost as much as Fifty Shades.
Don't get me started on the Isekai shit. Stop me if you've heard this one. A human goes to a fantasy land and becomes overpowered and gets a harem BUT... he's the bad guy or a chick or the bad guy and a chick or on a team of retarded women or he's got a sword or a gun or a fucking smartphone.
Society has gone from viewing fantasy as a creative exercise to an exercise in creating a vehicle for fantasizing.
If someone two thousand years ago said "don't take shortcuts through the forest or the Hatchiyak will get you, it's six wolves at once!" there would be a film or show or book today about some whore fucking the Hatchiyak. People want to fuck the werewolves and fuck the vampires and fuck the whole fantasy world.
Everything's a fetish to someone. Wanting to fuck monsters has become more normal than unironically liking Nickelback.
I should post a "look at this photograph" pun but he's holding up a pic that debunks the holohoax.
Sore legs from leg day.
If I ever say "I stopped exercising and ate unhealthily today" it means I am a faggot.
I have the only girl I need right here. My pony waifu is superior to all humie thots.
So many of the good men I know are single because no femoid thots want anything to do with them.
Typical females are spending their most fertile years getting treated like a "goddess" by countless pathetic men and ploughed like a whore by countless slutty men instead of trying to form a meaningful bond with a good man.
Society can't function if it glamorizes and romanticizes females for existing comfortably on the cock carousel with pockets full of OnlyFans simp money. Society needs a clear idea of what a good female should be and the balls to say anything less than that is a failure. Thots fundamentally chose pleasure over family and their young, meaning they are failures as women.
That woman I gave up on...
She's messaging me now and trying to suck up to me by going back on all the dumb feminist shit she used to say. I think she wants me back so badly she's willing to change.
Cool, keep it up man. How long can you run?>>3402>change back
The reality is, she "changed" her "outer self" for you. She's going back into regular mode, undoing camo because it isn't needed any more. Imagine reverting a minecraft skin back to default. I'm no expert on this but when it makes sense tell her to buck off, or just ignore her, women like that.
For about 1 to 2 minutes. Is that good? I'm still new to running.
She showed me sexual art she'd been drawing even though she's normally a false-virtue-signalling prude when it comes to art of females. I told her how she could improve that piece of art and her character design and she's been silent since then.
She is acting precisely as her hormones dictate. There is no change to her behavior pattern.
She wants me
This is probably because she failed to get any romantic messages on valentine's.
btw I need to get a better meal plan. What's a good balance of fruit/veg and meats and sometimes spaghetti ball of nays?
She's gone dark again. She's refusing to communicate with me or respond to anything I say. Keeping quiet until I say something she wants to reply to or she feels the urge to talk to me again. Her manipulative tactics would probably cause immense psychological distress to a weak little boy terrified that he'd said or done something to upset her and "make her" act this way.
But I know she is a cunt. And I do not enjoy her presence. So the lack of it doesn't bother me.
Maybe I should stop wanting to fix her. Maybe I should stop helping her with her godawful and swiftly abandoned "passion project" shitty webcomic ideas since she is never willing to put on her big girl panties and work hard to get shit finished. Maybe if a woman's spoiled from the start by her homewrecking divorcethief mother she can't ever psychologically adjust to life as an adult in the real world.
I know she is stupid and choosing to endlessly repeat the bad behaviours school and her mother taught her.
Maybe I'm the fool for thinking I can just magically cure all of that with a few clever dialogue option choices.
This woman is the dumbest woman I know and that's saying something because I have met a lot of dumb women.
Also, I'm still fit. Getting fitter. I've ordered more weight for my barbells so I can lift even heavier weights now. I want to become buffer.
Went a whole day without talking to her. That'll show her.
Also still exercising. I can do 22 pushups now
Keep up the good food, maximize the brain power and broadening of horizons, and strengthening the body and will.>pic
Be the master of your own mental culture. With that you can adjust things for you to harvest magnitudes.>>3422>Maybe I'm the fool for thinking I can just magically cure all of that with a few clever dialogue option choices.
Yes. Technically that is an option, but that requires a social finesse and velvet glove (with an exactness and strength that can shift) and to know exactly where and how to maximize your message in the right way. Now extrapolate that to every person that 'needs' to be fixed.>That'll show her.
If someone is truly seriously a detriment in many aspects it may be good to just cut everything off. So who cares, scrub the mind energy away and repurpose it to your means.
I will say my attachment and longevity for relationships is poor so take this with a grain of salt.>On the nature of the (1 standard deviation, aka normal fags) human Female essence.
To be forever sensitive and effected by everything.
It's like sand, it gets everywhere. It can be either soothing, helpful, irritating, or deadly if handled wrong.
Like a dog.Imagine a boat, on a lake. The boat is her and the reality system, the lake is the unconscious, subconscious, and conscious absorbing all the info. It's just sort of dumped into the lake, and that makes waves.
The water splashes at the boat, and expects the boat to act like water. A boat can do that absorbing the energy, providing tranquility and clarity into the depths of the lake. Water isn't smart, but it can get anywhere and everywhere.
The secret to having her getting shit done is a healthy amount of dog treats. By that I mean social stimulation and really giving subtle praise. Akin to a giving a puzzle box they naturally want to solve it.
But, this isn't Your loyal best friend kind of dog, that happens to be someehat like playdoh. This is a stray dog, cat hybrid left in an ally to eat garbage. Possibly with enough diseases to give high end antibiotics a scare.
So handle appropriately. But keep in mind in the above situation you're the Terminator with an iron will and an interior of gold and steel.
Thank you. I can feel my mind and body growing stronger.
What kind of "Puzzle boxes" should I give to her?
>>3433>What kind of "Puzzle boxes" should I give to her?>give to her?
Nonono. You must always be an island unto yourself. Never ever reward bad behavior.<More on that later.>What kind of "Puzzle boxes"
Imagine an open world adventure. Everything is normal, except one day the sky turns red for no reason and everything else is the same.
Mysteries, and Curiosity.
This is a rabbit trail to a solid conclusion that is obvious to a logical stable mind, but the closest most obvious solution must obviously be false. So in theory going from the solid conclusion and take at least three steps sideways that has multiple meanings and paths which are all true.
>>3434><More on that later.
On second thought the story doesn't apply. Long and short girl makes threats, guy continues as normal, girl breaks down as threats are meaningless and apologies, guy accepts continues as normal. Still isn't actually the guy's problem.
The time frame is about three years? Ish. Of sorts.
Jimmies still remain unrustled.
Right the whole point. You are the solid rock, if you are perfectly solid and have conquered yourself with love and kindness (ect.) nothing is out of reach. Because you can build upon yourself reliably up and beyond to do what you're heart, mind, and soul requires and desires.
Bending, and adjusting and being flexible still means you are rock solid.
Their waves shall break on the shores, yet everything important will be secure and ready for their functions.
The point being you've satisfied yourself and improved to a point where you know yourself fully and completely and honestly to know the world as you know it, as it is, and as others view it, and how they really view it.
You're right. I am the rock. The handsome, manly, powerful rock.
What puzzles shall challenge her with?
Important part<You provide structure, a wire frame, a direction. When you stop the comments amd complements the project STOPS. Spaced appropriately of course, but the inner drive isn't there for them they might want to do something, but can't, because they don't have an engine.
They'll do whatever with your proud smile, and a word or two. Every once in a while like a lottery or gatcha, or lootboxes, a suprise for them.>>3436
What do you want her to do? Mind you, the sources I'm pulling from is for significant other, not a random hoe. Also not in a work setting, but I think it could work maybe.
Anyway it boils down to two things more or less. Spot the object, and Social deductions, and Implications.
See their whole world is everything around them (this is for the average normalish woman). They have a shape they prefer 'internally' but it will always fold, stretch, squish, and deform. So they seek out those who can hold them in their preferred shape or good enough. At the very minimum they (normal tier) want something with hardness and no cracks.
Deforming their preferred shape is possible to suit yourself, but they have to coaxed into thinking it's their idea. Or else they will start a bitchiness meltdown, where a backstab will happen.
Little comments and side remarks, not often. In the spouce example a man may comment that they haven't seen them wear earings lately. The wife would ponder that statment. Soon enough she'll try dressing up, and making herself presentable. If the man surprises with ear rings, 'they would match your eyes'. She'll try to wear them.
You also have the reigns on their creative side (ie the lake of junk that is always there just submerged). A comment about giving painting a try, or weaving, or writing, or whatever. They make stuff that is of their nature, which is fluid.
First keep in mind they are mentally teenagers more or less.
You provide structure, a wire frame, a direction. When you stop the comments amd complements the project STOPS. Spaced appropriately of course, but the inner drive isn't there for them they might want to do something, but can't, because they don't have an engine.
They'll do whatever with your proud smile, and a word or two. Every once in a while like a lottery or gatcha, or lootboxes, a suprise for them.
When we first met, I thought she was creative because she made more then than she does now. Plus I had low standards for art quality. It would be great if she could become a great artist and animator and stop wasting all her time on twitter.
She says she's started taking anti-depressants that are supposedly making her vomit, giving her headaches, and increasing her "Anxiety". But she was told these symptoms and bad feels will go away in two weeks once her brain adjusts to taking them, then aaaaaaaall her bad feels will go away.
God I fucking hate that word. That anti-word.
It's not an english word, it's an anti-english word.
It's a worthless newspeak term.
Humans use words to communicate ideas, no matter their language. Oppai means boobs. Bonjour means hello. Anxiety means NOTHING AND EVERYTHING AND WHATEVER THE FUCK WHOEVER'S SAYING IT WANTS IT TO MEAN, which makes it WORTHLESS a word.
Go ahead, take anything anyone's ever said about Anxiety and replace it with the term BadFeel.
Because that's what the word is.
A synonym for BadFeel.
"This music gives me Anxiety/BadFeel so I don't like it"
"I can't go outside, I have anxiety/BadFeel so I need to stay curled up in bed all day drowning my brain in comfort porn"
It is the end of intellectual discussion about your thoughts and feelings.
A faulty argument against the idea of personal responsibility.
The word itself and the ideas behind it discourage you from looking at your feelings and problems and figuring out what you can solve.
The word encourages you to throw up your hands, muddy the waters and ignore the causes of your problems, absolve yourself of the responsibility to handle your shit like an adult, and cry "I have Anxiety!".
I don't think she can be saved. Not if she's willing to drug herself on twitter-fumes and homosexual Transformers character fetishization and nostalgic cartoon comfort porn all day, and turn to actual drugs when she develops too much tolerance to those things.
I want to save her. I swear to God, I want to save her. But is it possible? Is she truly determined to throw her individuality away to join the lefty collective? Is she truly determined to medicate her potential out of herself?
Alright as a person with an interest in psychology, anti-depressants fuck you up. Kills the creative side, but in exchange the person isn't drowning in negative stress chemicals and hormones.
Depending on how the body reacts to that drug.
Birth control pills fuck up brain chemistry as well so... something to keep in mind.
Any possible negative sensation is increased, but in the end it's either take the drugs, kill your self, or buck up and enjoy the suffering.
Positive affects are deadened. Depending on the severity.
So no, 'simply' telling someone to pull up the bootstraps and fix themselves in that position would probably lead to suicide.
Since she's a woman it would probably also be a failed suicide. To be honest depressed people are vulnerable.
Because of the prior information she may be ineloquent to the limited sensation and word bank she derives her world from.<
Of heresay and half recollected rumors that may or may not be true. Exercise, good food, and sunlight helps. I mean that is usually a recommendation regardless.
I talked to her but she's ghosting me again. She's so tiresome that way. I wonder how many days it will take her to get over herself and reply.
I don't think she can be saved. I've known her for years but she has never listened to me once unless I was telling her what she wanted to hear.
Maybe if I was always cool she would have respected me from day one?
Weights finally arrived. Time to lift heavier shit.
Is this a discussion thread or a Facebook blog?
Making a completely new thread every time I have a question about women or exercising seemed like a space-filling waste plus this seems like a good accountability thing a self help site told me to do. If I say "today I was a faggot who did not exercise" I get called a faggot.
But I should probably stop the daily "I exercised today and nothing interesting happened" posts and only post when there's something important to say or ask, right?
A friend showed me this video about "Planet Fitness gym" while saying "Hey you're into fitness right? Check out these idiots doing it wrong"
and jesus christ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V40s9deHg1A&ab_channel=PewDiePie
I expected the idiots who exercise incorrectly on machines that display clear instructions.
But women workers bitching at men for grunting a little while lifting 200 and karening "Sorry isn't good enough" at him when he apologizes?
Bullshit on the walls like "No judgement!" along with an alarm to slam whenever someone's too masculine and sounds too masculine when exercising, and the alarm's got anti-man speech on it that insults any man who came here to lift?
Some fat fuck woman refusing service to a man for having a water bottle she considers too big, pointedly ignoring him when he uses manlogic and manfacts that no lowly femoid could understand, and then calling the fucking cops on him when he doesn't do what she wants and go away? The man in that video isn't pissed at the woman, he's genuinely stu
Women who get to attack men and smash shit without anyone calling the cops because they don't want her getting arrested and suffering the consequences of her actions? It wouldn't surprise me if she's pissed at them for not having her favourite "healthy" snack bar flavour today, or something equally trivial.
Some feminized cunt stamping on the weight a man half his age is lifting and shoving him for "ego lifting" (duckduckgo says it's when you go to the gym solely to be seen lifting heavy weights while grunting "too much" or focus more on lifting heavy weights than exercising properly with them)
Ladies and gentlemen, take a look at what happens when your gym is run by women and its policies are determined by women. Anti-masculine policies for what is already a gender-neutral health-improving pasttime because the unfit karens in charge sometimes tell themselves it'll help attract idiots who feel "intimidated" (envious) around big men who visit the gym for a reason. This is society when it puts making wimminfolk comfy over trying to provide the best possible service and compete with your competitors. I'm fucking glad I got my home gym together. Sure it's just freeweights and one bench but at least I'll never have to deal with these fucking karens.
Women. What a fucking joke. At real gyms you'll see fit hardcore women who want to be strong like men, and at shit gyms like this you'll see women who want men to be weak like them.
Also, have you ever noticed how often immature women will pointedly ignore you and try to physically signal things to you like "I'm not interested in what you have to say to me" where a more mature person would either fucking say what they're thinking or recognize what situation they're in and try to act more mature than a typical entitled woman with power, and then when those signals don't work they'll escalate to calling their pet "alpha" over (typically the state and its enforcers) to get their way and restore their oh-so-vital emotional state to a positive one?
Most women are fucking pathetic.
It's illegal for kids to prank-call the cops. It's illegal to call the cops for non-emergencies in most countries, since cops are supposed to be stopping/punishing bad guys instead of dealing with incredibly minor domestic disputes only a woman could get butthurt about, right? So why the hell do women feel so fucking comfortable going full karen and calling the cops on the slightest fucking slights, or even completely imaginary problems? Oh, right, it's because in this femininely irrational and destructively gynocentric society the safety of men is put below the feelings of femoids.
Giving women power, any form of power, is like giving date rape drugs to serial rapists. They're going to abuse what they're given if they think they can get away with it. If there's no legal punishment or societal shame for women who treat the world as sexual playgrounds and women who are addicted to abusing their power over others they'll only get worse as today's bad female behaviour becomes the next generation's normal.
What the fuck was mankind thinking when he gave up control of his society to the jews and females? Did he give it all up willingly thinking it would all go back to normal once, some day about hundred years from now, everything got so bad that "Muh great awakening" would happen and he'd get to smugly grin from the Old Folks' Home at the feminists who lose their privileges while retaining basic human rights and get to go back to being beloved and excellently-treated housewives doted upon by loyal and self-sacrificing men? Fuck that, women are evil. They're just fundamentally evil pack animals and women worth anything on their own merits are the exception, not the rule.
I keep telling myself I dislike women now and I'm sick of their shit but how do I stop myself from longing for them?
Thinking about the perfect trad qt wife or chad supportive fun tomboy gf I could have had if the jews didn't abort/feministize her hurts.
Oh also i am still fit and exercising daily. Walking long distances with a heavy backpack or weighted vest does a body good.
Stop that. That's how the gay infects some people. Yes, haha, the gay as of its some sort of illness one can contract. Twisting yourself up to fulfill your desires no matter the cost does happen. So if they can't be a female...
You do long for women, and you long for the right sort of woman that is the right match for you, and you both. Don't bemoan the fact they make it hard, seek what is here and now.
You long for a waifu martial woman. This is something correctable now while it's easier. This distinction is important for your subconscious.
Make sure you know what you do truly want, and it has to be put into a positive word set. That is what will happen, so be exact, truthful and careful.
I don't understand what you mean. But when I think of what a good woman would be, those I know IRL are shit so all I can think of are anime characters. But instead of just naming characters with traits I like I'll say what I like.
I like it when women are kind, considerate, supportive, and sweet. I like long hair and a fit body with huge boobs and a great ass and long legs. I didn't see kindness towards me growing up so any of that stuff really gets to me, probably more than it should. I also like the "tomboy gf" kind of women who are capable, fit, positively masculine, confident and fun to be around. It would be great if she had the same good hobbies as me so we'd have something in common but that's not necessary. Smart women are appealing but only if they are actually smart, ledditor "i memorized 6 languages and everything science books said so that means I need to be an argumentative prick who can never let any man get the last word in or be right or else I feel bad about myself and I literally cannot handle even a single second of discomfort of any kind or be okay unless I feel like everyone's eyes are on me and nobody else" bitches are annoying. I want a huge family with more than seven children so she'd have to be okay with that too, and if she had any sort of dream or goal in life it would be great if it didn't conflict with being a good mother. I like it when women are uncomplicated and straightforward and honest with themselves and me, and I hate it when they try to fuck with my head or lie to me or use me or blame me for cancerous toxically-feminine behaviour that's destructive to themselves and others. I don't want to call myself a furry because I'm not exclusively attracted to animal-people and I don't talk in that stupid "uwu i wuv ur widdle paws" language. But animal-eared girls and monster girls are really fucking appealing. Maybe it's because more body parts like wings or horns or tails means more woman to love, maybe it appeals to the natural desire in man to own an animal and learn how it works and be a good pet owner, maybe it's because once you get to know an animal you know what to expect from them and what they like(headpats)/dislike(touching their tail) while women tend to be stupid and mindless and overemotional cripplingly irrational creatures not even God could figure out, I don't know. Maybe a psychologist could project some psychobabble onto me to explain my desire to fuck Twilight Sparkle/Rainbow Dash/Pinkie Pie from FIM or Centorea/Rachnera/Suu from Monster Musume.
Back when I used animufag forums I was often called boring for liking "boring" one-note sweet waifus rather than the aggressive and unreasonably violent or chokingly clingy and psychotically possessive or obnoxiously haughty and bratty or borderline retarded bitches they said they liked more. But liking "interesting" characters who treat others like shit and create situatuons that are entertaining to watch isn't the same as actually thinking they'd make good wife and child-raising material. Sometimes they'd call me a "bandwagoner" for liking commonly accepted likeable female characters like Winry or Hinata.
I know that realistically I'd never get a genetically engineered catgirl gd. I'll never get to play with a catgirl's ears just like I'll never get to massage a sports tomboy gf's shoulders after a long day exercising together. I'll probably never meet a woman who's actually as smart as she thinks she is, or a woman able to see through and reject jewish propaganda and embrace being a good wife and mother even if it means turning down the lifetime of alimony and fleeting pleasures the jews promise race-traitor women. Men these days call good women "unicorns" because they're rare enough to be mythical.
Don't get me wrong, I know I'd need to be amazing if I wanted to impress and get any chance to talk to and potentially bond with an actually-amazing woman. I'm still exercising. I'm still reading and learning and getting shit done. I'll probably never meet a woman who's absolute perfection but something close enough to that ideal would be great.
Is what I said wrong? Would it have been more positive if I said "I will meet an amazing woman!" instead of "I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her"? Aside from spending ten hours a day searching different dating apps and hobby forums for people who claim to be female and don't seem completely awful, I don't know how I'd meet someone like that.
tldr you want to marry not just meet the one who loves you and vise versa>>3467>>3465
How you say stuff is important. Especially to get what you want.>I keep telling myself I dislike women now
This bit right there, keeping racist expectations is good but the mind will bend and twist and complain till what you say to it comes true.>I'm sick of their shit
Good to list the good and the bad. >>3465
That works, while there is quite a bit more focus on the negative (which is good to know, and is necessary) the positive traints that are desirable should be expanded if need be.>how do I stop myself from longing for them?
Stoicism, or mastery over the mind and emotions, or meditation works.
But that's not the point, that longing has to be redirected away from cunts and towards good wife material.>Would it have been more positive if I said "I will meet an amazing woman!" instead of "I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her"?
Also making a perfect person isn't great either. So that line I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her
is true and real, but the wording is imprecise because the brain without alot of training and effort REMOVES NEGATIVES FROM YOUR WORDS.<I guess it would be nice if a completely-awful woman existed and I met her
That would be shitty.
So<My wife, who is kind, considerate, supportive, and sweet, capable, fit, positively masculine, positive feminine as well, confident and fun to be around and genuinely smart that would also be at least great friend martial as well, also having the same goals and morality I possess, with our desires that align perfectly, we will have lots of our biological children more numerous than seven, understandable and straightforward and honest with themselves and me, has self control has emotional resiliency, communicates perfectly with me, is at least a good person that woman exists and we're happily married with our long lives.
Or even We are happily married together.
The whole past tense in a present tense (sorta) word structure means that is has happened. For the mind that means it's concrete even if it technically isn't now, (the mind doesn't understand the future normally) it knows the past and will make moves to accomplish that goal. So meeting may be the first step the last end goal is the final destination. So meeting is separate from having the wife.
That's why learning as much about everything and becoming the best you can be helps as it is steps to have that goal to manifest.
Yes, the (((fucks))) have made it harder. It is still possible so you can do it.
If I tell myself I am already married to the perfect waifu will I eventually meet her?
I have a stupid friend who feels bad about having no gf but when I say "Its ok bro women are shit" he doesn't listen
This guy's different from the stupid friends I've complained about so far. Up until now I didn't realize he was stupid.
I swear I like my friends, even the ones I haven't talked about yet. But talking about their good points would compromise anonymity.
I have no idea where to put this but media's boner for halfbreed characters (especially halfbreed protagonists) always bugged me.
It seems damn near every hero is only half normal human and half something else. Could be half god or half monster or half animal or anything like that.
Whenever race is a vital part of the story, superpowers almost never come from the (white) human half of the character unless the author pussies out and claims it's a general "humanity is special! Humanity fuck yeah!" thing even though everything good or cool you can praise about humanity mainly applies to whites.
And even when the story's got superpowers that don't come from race, there's usually a stat buff somewhere in the most important characters thanks to nonhuman heritage.
And if you aren't sure how to make a character exotic but not too exotic, mixing a familiar and unfamiliar race is a common trick for some reason.
I get many of the reasons why it's so common.
Besides the jewish "it subtly promotes racemixing and the idea that a half human half beast would be just as good as or better than a full human" subversion.
Making the hero half human makes him or her relatable and the magic monster half adds superpowers and potential plot importance.
If the hero's the result of a union between two magical diametrically-opposed creatures that's just inherently cool. Like being both vampire and werewolf or both angel and demon.
Combining two superpowered monsters/aliens/gods/whatever lets you give the character even more superpowers and specialness and importance.
It also makes writing the character's arc easy: First he doesn't know how to be a synthesis of two different or even completely opposed things and he feels torn between two worlds and nobody really gets him and he might even struggle with the urges or social stigmas of one or both races but then he figures it out.
But it seems damn near universal. Even anthro characters which are already half human and half animal (even if you say they're actually evolved humanoid animals or aliens who resemble earth animals for no reason) tend to get in on it when they want to make one character unusual or special. Insert tired cliche jokes about neon green and rainbow wolves with random markings and patterns trying to look unique in a sea of freaks here.
It's so damn universal that the fanbase of Ben 10, a show where a fully white fully human boy finds an alien watch that lets him transform into assorted genetically-perfected aliens at peak physical fitness, is absurdly obsessed with fusions and halfbreeds and hybrids.
And don't get me started on how the Pokemon fandom's obsessed with fusions and hybrids and so on.
Anyway... I've noticed this trope appear in my own writing.
Almost every main character I've designed over the years is a hybrid.
Has my mind been hacked?
I like the idea of fusions and I like giving characters superpowers. The characters I designed to be hybrids aren't just that way for the sake of extra superpowers and looking different. They're deep.
But is my focus on this meme the result of years of societal indoctrination to think "hybrids are cool"?
oh wait i forgot they retconned Ben to have Anodite ancestry.
Are you still only half-human if your ancestor is a magical creature that lacks DNA?
that one faggot desperate to yell at me and pretend he's talking to me, if he read that sentence, would scream "It's not retconning it was always there you're just too dumb to get it like I do! To be fair you have to have a high IQ to understand ben 10 and appreciate Kishimoto's borderline fetish for the Uchiha and how his unique ninja world lost fucking all of its appeal in its escalating quest to become DBZ".
Thank you fren
Lately I've been thinking about very old friends from my "hardcore brony" days... Why can't I take them on this mountain climb with me? Back when I was an escapism-obsessed coombrained fag I knew many other people like that. But I've grown and they haven't. They get mad when I talk about Peterson or exercising or the progress I've made and we have nothing to talk about except whatever bad show they've watched this week. I don't know how to help them. But maybe I should stop with the wannabe-hero shit and focus on myself.
How do you solve the "I am afraid of being alone but being charismatic with friends takes effort" problem?
You're welcome. I've got two quotes for you.
"Its better to be alone than to be among poor company"
"Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy, and not everyone who pulls you out of shit is your friend."T. 'That guy' who is still talking shit in other threads
Makes sense. I'll keep these quotes in mind.
Still exercising, now increasing vest weight when jogging.
I should get more plants for my room. I feel lightheaded and sleepy after a few hours here.
How do you deal with the reluctance to start new things due to fear that you'll get too obsessed with them?
Also man it feels GOOD to realize I finally officially give no shits about that bitch I stopped talking to.
I am my own man now. No more slave collar around my heart with a chain wrapped around that bitch's finger.
She is not my burden to carry. She is not my responsibility. She cannot be saved. If I want to ever help people I need to recognize when it's time to move on.
Man it's weird to think Betty Boop was considered a sex icon once. She's tiny and meh-tier compared to some cartoon cute girls (i was about to write cuties but that fucking jew movie ruined the word) I could name. Imagine old people on an anime forum arguing over whether Betty Boop or the woman from Popeye is a better waifu. Haha, the thought of old people arguing over cartoons seems as anachronistic as the thought of roman soldiers playing yugioh.
I want to cum inside rainbow dash unironically. And Twilight. And Pinkie. I've written so many date scenario fanfics to cope with my longing creatively. These girls are so perfect once you ignore all the episodes in which they are retarded or jokes or retarded jokes. Do these urges make me pathetic or does my nofap streak and creative writing coping mechanism mean I'm doing good?
Climbing aloe. It's really easy to keep, and has lots of medicinal properties, whether ingested or used topically
Thank you. I'll get some.
How do you deal with the reluctance to get into new things due to fear that they'll swallow you whole and make you obsessed with them?
An addictive personality has ran through my family lines for generations. I remember stories from my grandmother about shit my grandfather did when he was alive. For every single person in my family tree, they have their own obsession or are actively searching for one after their old obsession got boring.
You're a fucking genius, this climbing aloe is great. I've got it in my window and I love it.
Its wonderful as an aftershave. Pluck one 'leaf' and squeeze the gel out.
>>3562Also, dont forget to name it,... if you're into that sort of thing. Additionally, you'll want to re-pot it every few years. As long as it doesnt freeze, it will bounce back after any adversity, including drought forgetting to water it for weeks
Re-pot? How do I do that properly?
Also should I keep the plastic sleeves that came with these plants or throw them away? Some of those sleeves are starting to look kind of greenish.
Dont worry, it's easy. When the time comes, the root structure will become a densely packed mass of dirt and roots interwoven and shit. You just get a larger pot, fill it with dirt, leaving a recess in the approximate size/shape of the root structure, slide it out of the old pot and stick it in the hole. Sprinkle a little topsoil on the top, put some water in it, and that's it>plastic sleeves
No idea what those are, prolly should get rid of em
Are you sure? The plastic sleeves help keep water in the plant pots and keep soil from falling out of them.
>>3568>are you sure
No, but if you keep them be careful not to over-water the plant, since it will be retaining more water that way
Opening up about my life makes me feel a little better, so I'll say more stuff.
My father was a stupid, violent, aggressive prick who secretly loathed everyone and had a mediocre impression of a "Jolly fat guy" he used whenever he wanted to blend in with normal people
His understanding of the world around him was incredibly shallow
his political views were laughably simplistic
He trusted the TV news and he was an addict with multiple addictions
He seemed to think being a grumpy violent bastard made him manlier than me.
He grew up as one of four boys with a whiny whore mother and a missing father figure, and it shows.
He imitates her bitchiness without even realizing it. He smoked around me as a baby and did the same around my dead sister, he smoked while my mom was pregnant, he smoked from the age of fourteen until he got cancer somewhere around his 40s and was forced to stop with the aid of nicotine patches and similar shit. I have athsma and it's a miracle I don't have cancer.
He drank heavily and loved to invent reasons to scream at me, smack me around, and take away what few joys a shut-in child with sabotaged self-confidence like me had. I remember this one time when I was around eight, he sent me up alone to the roof of the house because he wanted me to... I forget what exactly, but I had to put tiles on the roof and I remember how pissed off he got at me for not already knowing the perfect way to get the job done. He didn't tell me the perfect way. He just ordered me up there, yelled at me for not already knowing how to do one of his jobs for him, and whined until he eventually gave up on delegating the task like a woman and decided to do it himself. He got genuinely fucking pissed at me for not giving a shit about football and not being what he thought a man should be.
But he never taught me how to fight or avoid fights
Never taught me how to exercise
Never taught me how to fix cars
Never did anything to inspire me
Never passed on any wise sayings
Never helped with anything, and enjoyed getting in the way and making himself a nuisance
Loved dismissing anything I had to say, even when I was right. Screamed harder if I turned out to be right
He taught me at an early age to stay quiet when a power-tripping big kid with more power than he deserves screams at you, which prepared me for life at school
Because of course, someone this pathetic wouldn't ever bother homeschooling his kids
Even though he had no job+obligations
He gave me shit for not going outside much even though there was nothing for me out there, my parents made no effort to get me into youth clubs, my parents made every effort to embarass me by telling nonsense stories to other parents for sympathy points even though it meant everyone thought a quiet beaten puppy like myself was actually a tantrum-throwing plate-breaking brat and bed-wetting loser at home, and my father gave me shit for not spending days outside even though there were bullies my age and bullies older than me and other chavs outside.
We did not grow up in a good neighbourhood. It did not have nice people in it.
Whenever I tried to think of a good male role model, the first things to pop into my head were Uncle Iroh from Avatar and Grandpa Max from Ben 10, not my own father. That fat bastard was everything I didn't want to become. When I feel tempted to break my diet and eat some candy I think of that fat fucker and the disgust keeps me on the right path.
He met my mother in a factory but pussied out when something broke near him and he got scared(it couldn't have killed him but "traumatized" people get more cash), and he got benefits for a while. Then he got a job as a taxi driver for a while because his friend told him there was fucktons of money in taxi driving, more than he was making doing nothing. He made some money and told everyone else and eventually there were too many taxi drivers and taxi companies. And too many taxi companies were owned by women who loved to show extreme favoritism when it came to who got jobs assigned to them and who didn't
He whined to me but put up with incompetent aggressive women-bosses and their shame-tactics for years b4 going solo
When you eat yourself into obesity at an early age
remain fat forever
and spend a couple of hours a day sitting around in a car or driving it and spend the rest of your life in bed or sitting on an expensive reclining leather chair playing world of warcraft and Mafia Wars (a facebook game) on your overpriced scam of a laptop
you'll eventually fuck up your legs so bad that you'll seem perfectly fine and have no problem walking your dog or walking to the bar and back but the government will still pay you to do nothing because you whined about huwt widdle weggies that are fine when cameras aren't rolling
He was a greedy piece of shit, and lazy.
When he was told kids who stay in High School longer get paid by the government for it, he made sure that was my fate for a few years even though I went to a speshul school for retards that gave no qualifications because I'm "autistic" just like every other human on the planet with at least one out of 9999999 personality quirks/subjective traits/abilities/disabilities according to a quack doctor.
Early on in my life I showed signs that I was a smart kid. I liked reading books, especially adult books. But if my dad caught me reading his collection of shitty escapist fantasy novels instead of the incredibly thin picture-book versions of disney movies, I'd get in trouble for not acting like he believed a boy should. Same went for when I traded Smarties Meltdown for the PS2 for an Action Replay and used cheat codes, when I hacked Pokemon games as a kid for fun, when I downloaded and learned Game Maker as a kid for sonic fangames...
A smart greedy cunt would monetize kid-me but a dumb greedy cunt would instead sabotage his life and then bitch at him for not having a rent-paying MinWage job even though my benefits got them more than minimum wage.
What a prick.
My potatoes finally started penetrating themselves so I buried all 14 of them in a planter full of soil.
How often should I water these potatoes if I want optimal potato farming productivity?
Another dumb fuck I know got the vaccine. I showed him funny memes and facts and articles and videos and they all went over his head. The memes made him laugh but he didn't think deeply about the meme's joke about the absurdity of this situation.
When I think of my birth father I think of what I don't want to become: a fat useless lump of lard reliant on gubimint gibs and brainwashed by the state to love it, addicted to smoking and drinking and gambling and the most pathetic types of games imaginable. He used to give me shit about having no gf but he had no dating advice. Just expected my life to be easier than his despite his best efforts. The very thought of him is like a portable picture of a fatass that inspires you to lift harder and jog faster. It's like that for me anyway. I've been called a cynic these days but I'm usually right to see the worst in people instead of ignoring it. If someone ever shows something good in them I see that too. I'm not religiously cynical. I wouldn't ignore good shit just to feel right about the bad. Ignoring bad shit makes me a retard who gets exploited.
When I think of my mother I think the same thing except she's a woman so I can't physically turn out like her. But I still don't want to mentally end up like her. She was a cruel manipulative short-sighted piece of shit who had bipolar syndrome and loved making that everyone else's problem. Loved playing the role of a put-upon mother whose life is just soooo full of reasons to complain because her knittingfag friends complained about their lives too. Is "fashionably depressed" a term? Her coping mechanism for dealing was problems was to cry about them and blame the nearest man she hadn't already lost all faith in. So me, because she expected nothing good from my father but expected cash from me despite treating me like shit and sabotaging me at every possible turn. She loved her boomer knitting and minion memes but never tried hard to put money on the table with her knitting shit. Funny how that minion cartoon character meant to appeal to children caught the attention of the scummiest children on the planet: boomerscum. I'd accuse her of also having histrionic personality disorder but I once met a woman with even more of that. She definitely had it. I should write a book about myself and include chapters about her and what she put me through and got away with. It's hard for me to believe what happened with her and I was fucking there. That bitch tried to ruin my life and falsely accuse me of assaulting her over bullshit someone else said to her on a naruto roleplay on Blingee. Not a major naruto roleplaying forum, the comment section on fucking blingee. The silly website with gaudy GIFs. And her writing skills? Shit like "fire go everywhere and blood go everywhere". If you told me she was retarded I'd believe you. I want to be a good christian but I find it hard to believe in a god who can't protect his people or inspire his people to protect the vulnerable from the godless. No wonder so many people assume other forms of spirituality must have some hidden secret that lets it outdo christianity. We've already seen it fail in our own lands with our own eyes whether we realize it or not. Maybe man wasn't meant to be raised without a god. Maybe a principle you're willing to compromise on to please a leftist cunt isn't a principle. Maybe I'm an idiot for continuing to pray. But I have to believe in God and Jesus or I can't believe my parents and all the other traitors to the west go to hell when they die of old age. Have you ever watched some self-centered asshole who treated his loving parents like shit until they died assume you're just like him and rant at you with the usual "You should cherish those related to you because they might die one day" shit? If my father died of cancer my childhood would have been happier. I feel too old to have any doubt about that. It would have given mom a real reason to cry fashionably in front of her friends so she'd stop trying to make more reasons in other areas of her life. Same shit with my mother. If she died he'd be forced to learn to cook and stop wasting away and bloating at his laptop if he wanted food. Maybe it would make him a better man if nobody was around to bring him beer. Or maybe he'd just have me bring him more beer, he usually did. If they both died I would have gone into the foster system and met a decent enough family that wants me around or I would have gotten passed around like a hot potato until I eventually got old enough to live alone. I went through that for a while and the "misery" of it is overrated. I'd call it dehumanizing but I'm used to it. You see some families. You sleep in an alright bed. They keep you around for a while and then trade you in at the abused puppy shelter for a cuter one that makes them feel again once they get used to having you around. That's how I was treated anyway. At the time I was so goddamn desperate for someone to tell me they loved me. That never happened and I got over it. Someone else probably has nicer or sadder stories than me. I have metaphorical armour around my heart and I find it incredibly difficult to take off. I still have no idea what to write in my damn recovery journal or whatever the fuck this is. Maybe I should have stuck to saying "I exercised today. Nothing to report" or "I increased my weight today".
speaking of which I increased my weights today. Better a real weighted vest than a backpack with weights.
It means a lot to me that you let me say this here. There are no lefty cucks trying to demoralize me. Nobody's putting on a tough guy act/trying to intentionally push my buttons to feel like "le trolle mastermind". Nobody's simping for the women I mention now and then and whiteknighting for them. It's probably hard to believe anyone would do that if you've never seen a simp do that. But thank you for keeping this place free of leftist shills. I'm healthier now than I've ever been.
Just got done reading this thread and wanted to commend you on making it this far. If there's one thing that separates you from other people, it's your temerity. This and your growing self-awareness are the foundations upon which you shall build your new life.
As a fellow tulpafag I can't help but grin when I think of how well you and your pony get along. She sounds like a wonderful mate and I'm glad you have one another.
Please do not stop praying. It's tempting to see God as a great vindicator Who will visit wrath on sinners, yet we must also be aware of our own iniquity and induce others to Him through forgiveness and patience.
None of our suffering shall be in vain. If we steel ourselves for the persecution ahead and rely on Him, our fruitfulness and purpose as individuals will intersect and magnify in ways we could never dream of.
God bless you both.
Thank you. My tulpa girl doesn't enjoy talking to others any more but she's doing great, I make sure to give her time to be creative at least once a week and I let her help with my main projects.
Today a friend of mine showed me a weird video on his phone where this fat fucking landwhale of a woman with a disgustingly round face and an ass ruined by blubber slaps the shit out of one of those armless male MMA dummies meant for people who know what they're doing. She struggles to knock him over but when she does the camera jumpcuts to get him upright again. She slaps the rubber dummy guy, bites his nose and ear, turns to the camera like she's trying to pose, spits on him, spits on her hand and then slaps him, kicks him over from behind then stamps on his head, slaps him a bunch of times, breathes on the fucker weirdly, runs into him and struggles to shove him over with a wimpy tackle, grabs him from behind and screams while shaking him then drops him to let him fall over...I could take about a minute of this shit before I stopped the video.
My friend found it hilarious and thought the fetishy video uploaded by a bitch with mistress in the username was actually some "internet tough guy" antics.
but to me it seemed like some bizarre fetish shit because this video was ten minutes long and she uploaded at least four of these according to his recommended feed, probably more, and it had too damn many views. I don't know if some freaks wank to fatasses fetishistically catfighting with mannequins for bdsm humiliation bullshit while saying "god i wish that were me" in the comment section but I don't want to know so I didn't look. Degeneracy is weird. But to seem like a non-prude I put on a "Oh holy shit hahaha that was the funniest worst shit ever! I can feel my brain cells commiting sudoku!" act.
This reminds me of the time I went to SawCon
Still exercising multiple times a day.
saw a white dude in a shop with two badly behaved brown kids who ignored their dad until he threatened to not let them watch tv today. Then they screamed and feigned crying until he sighed and gave up on that. The kids grinned and bounced around and laughed at how easy it was to dupe their white father by making a scene. I'd guess they were somewhere around eight to ten.
Giving your kids white-as-fuck names like Lucas and Kevin won't give them souls.
Shit like this makes racemixing look bad.
meanwhile it's media that pretends a half human half elf or half human half demon or whatever would be superior to both its parents that tries its hardest to make racemixing look good.
Sometimes I fear that I'm too quick to judge others. How do I fix this?
>>3621>I'm too quick to judge others
You're right, I'm actually projecting onto myself because I think you're too quick to judge me.
Kidding, just kidding. Your response is silly and I don't know how to respond to it constructively.
Then again, this is pretty funny.
Here I am, self-reflecting and saying "Maybe I'm too quick to judge others".
And you just run in, shouting "No, YOU'RE too quick to judge others!"
Did you make sure you understood what I said before replying to it?
it's like something out of a cartoon.
I do not blame your pony for not talking. For the reasons you described above, I've found the tulpa community to be an exercise in misanthropy.
Have you considered tactful rejection of these videos? I realise some will misconstrue this behaviour as uninviting, yet like the food we eat, what we visually consume affects us indirectly.>>3621
Human beings are inherently judgemental creatures as our endocrinology is primed to separate and compartmentalise that which is foreign. I believe our judgemental nature can be harnessed for objective reasoning, yet this requires self-control and insight most are not used to.
I imagine you meditate frequently, so I suggest asking yourself why you feel so judgemental and identify how this takes place (if at all.) From there you can dig a bit deeper and trace this concern to your upbringing while catalouging self-counseling and de-escalation techniques. You can always ask your tulpa for help too, as they are beheld to psychological clarity by their very nature.
Do note that I am not asking you to act like a castrated sheep so much as outlining the importance of a calm and grounded demeanour. Such will not only make the world more bearable to live in, it too shall emphasise the importance of your ideals and Faith.
Thanks for the advice, it helped. I think I've got a better head on my shoulders now.
My tulpa believes fully hating humanity would be cringe since she's seen so many weirdos (like famous tranny Chatoyance, writer of The Conversion Bureau) do that. Besides I'm a human and she likes me. She sometimes misses talking to people daily like she did when she was young but also doesn't miss what massive faggots a ton of them were. Animufags just here to think about Yuyuko and Yakiko and Yakko's tits don't make for good conversation when their tulpas are one-note meme characters running on incredibly limited hardware. And you wouldn't believe how territorial and aggressive some of them got over whose waifu was developing mentally faster or who was doing more interesting shit in their mental world.
Isn't this "reality shifting" stuff weird? Escapism is such a popular pasttime around the world that the kids and teens are telling each other how to imagine the pain away and fantasize about boning Bakugo to dream the pain away. I don't think the generations that built first world countries had this problem. But escapism is getting bigger as the world gets worse. As VR gets cheaper and more common do you think we'll see more people fully retreat from reality into VR games and fake-relationship AI programs? We really do live in interesting times.
btw still exercising. I took a 3 day break from politics. Had a few moments of relapse where shit got political but overall I focused on my own life and walked around. I should get a treadmill.
Increasing weight. Exercising harder. Turning shit up to 11 on my abs.
Now and then I'll notice myself touching my own body without realizing it, as if even my subconscious mind can't believe how quickly I've improved and how quickly I've lost weight. I wish I owned weights my whole life! They're so convenient. You can use them whenever you have free time and get buff quicker. I eat healthy, I exercise, and it's a healthy source of pride in oneself and one's appearance. No wonder the jews want us all to be obese faggots. Being fat was depressing. Being this fit feels good. Knowing I've earned this body feels good. I'm tempted to get sleeveless shirts to show my arms off but I'm saving money.
The sad truth is that most of the individuals touted as beacons of wisdom and direction in the community are the same dishonest and abusive people who mistreated their tulpas and peers for a dopamine hit. Rather than seeing tulpas as spiritual guides or those who illuminate our highest aspirations of self, the concept is subverted to enable another layer of delusion, megalomania and hedonism, all of which is firmly rooted in the highest levels of theory and practise. This is unsurprising given the materialistic school of thought that occupies most parts of the subculture.
I'm assuming you're asking rhetorical questions, but I don't believe this escapism to be unusual. When cheap and plentiful resources exist in an unjust civilisation, people are given to odd modes of thought and decadence as there is no credible authority or shared common narrative to make their lives and service to each other meaningful. On the other hand there is no struggle to rally behind or any semblance of a family unit for others to confide in during times of mounting hardship, so others retreat into mediums where they believe they maintain some measure of control and security. It's an illusion meant to satisfy those with no real drive to improve or pursue independence while binding them to an exploitative and increasingly authoritarian system.>>3645
Great job on keeping faithful to your routine. I'm glad you're discovering your potential and exerting yourself. The only caveat I should mention is that we oughtn't be too proud of our bodies - rather than focusing on the finer details of our appearance, we should exercise to be healthy, discilpined and strong. If one's mortal coil is a temple where the Holy Spirit dwells, should it not be a place of humility and in good repair?
I wish you and your pone many happy and productive days. May the Lord bless and protect you both.
I have this friend but he's a dumbass and whenever the conversation gets political he whines. Even when he's the reason why it got political by bringing up shit like Fentanyl Floyd or whatever bullshit the TV told him about the Kung Flu or asking me questions with answers that end up political. "why does this show suck?" he asks sometimes, as if he doesn't expect the answer to be "because the jews who made it pump it full of so much anti white propaganda you've subconsciously noticed it". But he's ghosted me for so long that I'm starting to wonder if he's still alive. Should I ask someone we both know to check up on him? I wouldn't want to drag some third person into bullshit that's between that guy and his obsession with feeling neutral and "above it all".
Also, it's funny that Nigger is the magic word that breaks leftists and blacks and jews. It's a taboo because it's a word of rebellion. Saying this word and realizing it's ok to be sick of niggers feels liberating because it frees you from the mental prison of thinking your thoughts need to be govt-approved. You're rejecting euphemism-treadmill terms like black people and coloured folk and african american and choosing for yourself how you address creatures that feel entitled to be addressed however you want. It's a funny sounding word. Doesn't it derive from Nigerian? Or the latin word for black, niger? If so, it's funny that calling someone a nigger is basically calling them black. Truly the ultimate insult, since not even the niggers want to be niggers. Judging all niggers by the fictional brownish characters played by rapey hollywood actors on TV would be like judging all wild animals by cartoon critters or the tamed caged beasts you see at the Zoo instead of the wild african animals you can see attacking children and small animals on fucked up websites. Which wild african animals am I talking about? Doesn't matter since both hurt innocents and both belong in zoos. Libertarianism is a dead meme with no idea how to stop communist jewery and egalitarianism is just like supposedly-good liberalism: the self-destructive pursuit of impossible goals in the name of never compromising on once-valid ideals taken to the point of absurdity and robbed of all sense of priority, self-preservation, and reason. The NatSoc wants his race to eat well, and the "good" liberal happily puts the bellies of other races before his own and his own belly before both. The Libertarian pretends an anarchocapitalist nation of pot-growing weed-smoking illegal-immigrant mixed faggots will have any kind of moral clarity because admitting some good must be done for the good of all feels like compromising to the commies and their bullshit "greater good".
Me: hmm if I'm in the level design stage I should look at arcitecturehttps://youtu.be/rrpOPSj9OMc
BEHOLD A 100K PER NIGHT HOTEL ROOM THAT USES RAINBOWS OF PILLS AND BUTTERFLIES AS DECORATIONS. And weird stickers on glass walls.
and then there's this faggothttps://youtu.be/_H2xmRseiDw
"I hate waste and I'm saving the environment and third world" says a faggot who bought plastic flowers for his absurdly sized foyer. It's like something made in The Sims as a joke with the money cheat. And his staff rooms are hilariously tiny.
I think I'm looking in the wrong places. What kind of arcitecture am I supposed to look at? If I half ass the world design with "artistic" monochromatic white blocks or spikes on a dark background I will get to spend more time on cool shit like guns and explosions.
Then look at good shit! Listen to history great works things that are actually beautiful.
Behold landscapes and the people who mold them. The living quarters and the challenges they face.>I think I'm looking in the wrong places
Yes.>If I half ass the world design
You get a shitty playground.
It doesn't have to be perfect, hell it doesn't even have to be real. It does have to encourage the players to play.
Look at games which have such level design look toward what makes the map fun.
Such as Doom or Metroid or Devil Daggers or Mario, or anything really.
The World must be at the very minimum good enough.>"artistic" monochromatic white blocks or spikes on a dark background
Every has to tie in together.
Why bother looking toward faggotry for inspiration of that kind?
Look toward the greatness of man and the potential that could be experienced.
Level design has to be bound with mechanics and lore (that's optional for some games).
The base mechanics must be a joy to use in every instance. Extrapolate that to every part.
Look toward ancient architecture, look toward game design, look toward the human spirit!
It's all there to see in its grandness and joy! As well as the petty despicableness.
They have to want to keep playing or else the exercise is just that an exercise. Useful, but not yet a game among great titles.
Everyone does have to gain experience somewhere.
Before, at the very beginning Extra Credits had good advice. Take it with a grain of salt and be wary for they too have been infected.
Look toward game design, and why it matters. The subtle suggestions.
Even look toward other media. Pictures, paintings, music, stories (expecially stories), movies, the experiences, everything.
You need at least a baseline to know where to look. Or a string to follow toward a goal.
Finding out what inspired Castlevania, what it was inspired by.
Folk lore and more!
Why do you look where the fags dwell when people who care are everywhere just bellow the surface (sometimes deeper) if you dig and search?
You have to have that skill to obtain what you desire. Or compensate with multitudes of time and effort spent recreating the wheel without a hint.
Everything relates to eachother. Build those logistical connections within and without to try holding wisdom in the woven basket.
You're right, thank you.
I was thinking about cartoons and how they shaped the perceptions and childhoods of so many people. Shittons of old cartoons had divershitty/anti-waycist episodes that are cringe, but idiots who grew up on them yet are disgusted by the propaganda today would point to ten year old propaganda as an example of how to do it subtly since they consider what they grew up with "normal".
How many kids fell in love with Callie Briggs, Starfire and Raven, Gadget Hackwrench, Android 16, Ty Lee, Winry Rockbell, Gwen Tennyson, Sam Manson, Kallen/C2, Kim Possible and Shego, Misty/May/Dawn/Serena, and ended up fucked up in the head as a result? The world may never know. Scott Pilgrim ruined a whole generation of women but the lack of reward given to good men in a demoralized society that sabotaged its youth means many men have a fucked up idea of what being number 1 means and won't try to achieve it.
Still exercising, still healthy. Decided to start making healthy sandwiches out of vegetables.
It's always bugged me that the occultist neo-religious sometimes-paganist sometimes-satanist "Your magic willpower can change reality!" guys never visibly reap the benefits of their supposed magical willpower. You'd think these guys would be the kind of guys that are 999% motivated, the greatest bodybuilders and most well-read true intellectuals who never waste time on silly things and live every second as optimally as possible. But instead they just seem like regular people, aside from their insistence that praying to themselves and their own willpower helped them quit smoking and drinking therefore everyone must drop jesus and praise demons/Thor. I'm open to the possibility that there might be more to reality than what our human senses can sense since the jews hate God+Jesus and keep pushing the idea that we're nothing but meat, beasts, and at best space dust. But in my head when I think of some spiritual guru genius guy, I think of someone whose life was transformed for the better by learning the truth to the point where he's reached superhuman peaks. Maybe that's stupid, the result of decades of conditioning from media.
>>3684>result of decades of conditioning from media.
Yes, and no.>[those] guys never visibly reap the benefits of their supposed magical willpower
So analogy time.
Because they try to lift a 10 ton truck with a plastic straw and nothing else.
Others go and fix up the car and drive it up a ramp and makes it do stuff.
And some call in a tow truck. With some have a jack.
Others use a winch and intricate knowledge.
Some just fuck up the car.
Many more get knifed while doing stuff.
More still give up and just wonder about.
Most (mostly meaning most) who are outspoken about the supposed benefit of a certain nameless deity yet cannot prove the evidence as being better are to be taken with a pinch of snake salt. It is best to observe rather than partake in the deed, as it is easier to lie than to be honest.
As commonly enough they tend to be the ones promoting an 'agenda' of sorts, a tool or puppet to manipulate others but are being manipulated themselves, despite their knowledge (lack thereof) of the delusion or not.
It is often for them to be under the spell of a psychosis, being unable to distinguish fantasy from reality. There again, reality does not always have to make complete sense, neither does the human mind.
Indeed. Still waters run very deep.
You're right. Btw, still exercising. Increased weight in my weighted vest.
I don't care about this since it's not much of a loss, but turns out I've been banned from some unimportant ben 10 fanfic's discord fanserver for being "far-right".
I asked specifically what I said that got me banned since I don't remember it and haven't used it in months, maybe a year or two. I got the tard's personal definition of far-right in response because I didn't actually do anything wrong, I was just considered an undesirable.
I don't remember much about the server at all but I remember how that server had a handful of annoying commies who'd say commie shit and then cry "Wah no politics this is a media server!" when debunked. Or cry other assorted jew-tier lies to try and dupe retards with no reading comprehension and a desire to jump on the bandwagon someone else's fight creates to look moral. If some faggots are having a slapfight and it's your job to tell them "Shut the fuck up" or "This one's right, the other one's retarded, now shut up" you gain nothing. But if you believe the one with the more tempting lie about how the other one's some eeevil little bastard, suddenly you gain something. You get to feel like you're a hero for once, by taking the wrong side in an argument you don't feel obligated to read in full before passing judgement on it. Discord moderators, am I right? At least when they're doing this they're not grooming little boys and calling them "femboy transgenders" or grooming little girls and calling them "kitten".
If everyone on the planet was intelligent enough to see through basic lies and understand real science, or smarter, the world would be a better place. Maybe if everyone had to have at least a certain level of intelligence to be considered human, we'd be better off as a species.
Then again, it's not like dumbasses asked God to be born dumb. We can't prove God made them that way because they'd do more damage if they were smart. Besides, culling the bottom percentages of humanity is the kind of thing only a fictional villain would want to do in some cliche sci-fi novel that wants to pretend eugenics is the ultimate unthinkable evil, rather than rape or murder or the slow and ever-accelerating intellectual and societal rot caused by idiots and the leftists that use them for their own benefit. Besides, giving the government the power to decide the legal minimum IQ would get that power abused.
Rich retards would bribe government officials to have their children spared, while having too many kids would become a point of pride for the rich bastards that can afford countless bribes so they can pretend they have a high-IQ bloodline when they don't, the bar would be set high enough to fuck over normal people yet ignored whenever it would inconvenience a race the ruling class likes more, the IQ test would have a load of "moral score" or "emotional intelligence" bullshit added to it to cull sane people and spare overemotional leftist retards and sociopaths from the govt culling since they're both more useful to corrupt govts than humans are, a sex slave market would probably be created out of retards and average people not deemed special enough for the elites... This sort of thing would make a neat alt-history or dystopian sci-fi concept but the only valid government's the kind that keeps its dick out of the asses of its people and protects the asses of its people.
I've been thinking about how so many people I know are obsessed with media to the point where they get into daily internet slapfights across all sorts of jewish social media platforms, complete with slander and harassment and harassing friends to try and get them to disavow "thoughtcriminals", all over fucking cartoon characters.
Sometimes they try and get me involved in their drama. Some of them get butthurt at me for not wanting to dedicate hours of my life to joining these slap-fights, as if I'm the bad guy for having dialogue to write and levels to code and bouncy boobies to animate. A life this filled with conflict seems like a massive drag, and conflict over what, the opinion children and teens and childlike adults dare have over cartoon characters? When did 1984 sjw fear-tactics become the norm for playground-tier arguments over the sex lives of moving doodles voiced by middle-aged japanese women?
Doesn't anyone else want a quiet life any more? I've had debates over gun rights that seem more respectful and respectable on the surface(either those who are anti-gun shouldn't have their opinion enforced or protected by law enforcement, or being a nazi should be legal and legally protected, pick one) than any of this shit-flinging nonsense over fucking Ben 10 lore or who Sonic The Hedgehog should have shagged.
Maybe it's a sign that I'm maturing and have improved my life, since I genuinely have better things to do than worry over what faggots think about my waifoo or husbandou or whatever. But I also feel like I'm drifting away from the people who have "media madness" consume their lives. Like I'm growing up and they're staying the same age, with the same shallow interest in the same shallow interests and same repetitive NPC dialogue lines whenever I press A on them. The DBZ fan will say tomorrow what he says today unless there's something happening in that tiny little bubble of aimless nerd culture that changes his programmed dialogue lines. "nerd like android 21. android 21 have the big boobas. majins r so kewl. oh em jee, wouldn't it be kewl if they made another DBZ that was just like DBZ but with android 21 in it? android 21 is so sexy. i suddenly like vore because she turns people into candy and eats them. i'm basically a blank sheet of paper and jews write whatever they want on me. btw i wish sega made another sonic game thats just like sonic advenchur 2 but more! just more, you know, like star wars. more. no i wont play fangames or indie games like sonic but better. i am a loyal corporate whore."
Jesus fuck nigel, at least offer a tl;dr
Glad to hear about the gains. I'll read the rest when I'm bored, but jesus christ a tl;dr please?
im getting buff. Weight up.
Today i learned i was banned from some dicksword server for being "far right"
but that is fine because they are a load of faggots
maybe if the world had less retards there would be less of an incentive for evil individuals to mislead and misuse them for personal and political gain, but I wouldn't trust any government that would actually want to cull healthy citizens.
Nerdniggers obsess over media so fucking much that it makes up their entire identity and a handful of my friends make me sad because every fucking day they're typing their hearts out in some twitter or discord or tumblr war over whether Ben Tennyson should have ploughed stretchy alien pussy or wasted his life with that stupid selfish cunt Julie or that obnoxious fucking creator's-pet Kai or whatever the writers decide to do with that joke Charmcaster this season.
jsus fucking christ I know I talk a lot about media but I tend to have something to say about it. A man analyzes bioshock and undertale, a slave cooms for it and obsesses over its characters without learning anything. I couldn't imagine just sitting around occupying your time with assorted distractions like internet arguments over the sex lives or moral values of fictional characters until it's time to suck up whatever slop the corpos feed you then get into shouting matches where you try and rationalize away a bad show's shitness. NIGGERS SHIT INTO THEIR OWN MOUTHS. FUCK.
Ben 10 is a toy franchise with a cartoon that was good for a while. If it's the biggest deal in your life, find God. My Little Pony Friendship Is Magic is better anyway. At least Twilight didn't have to re-learn "friends are important" every four episodes from season one to fifteen or more. I want to cum inside Twilight Sparkle but you won't see me writing a new essay every week to "defend her honour" just because some faggy tween's calling her every bad word she/her/it knows.
Maybe it's weird for a man my age to talk like he's becoming an old man. But I don't think I'm becoming an old man. I feel like I'm becoming a real man. A man who sees things clearer every day. Must be the healthy food, or perhaps the exercise. Maybe planting real-ass food made me level up as a man. Maybe a combination of all three. I'm used to thinking in meters and centimeters. Feet? I use a calculator to turn it into meters. And inches? Whenever someone gives me a measurement in inches I imagine my dick and how many of those copies of my dick are equivalent to whatever's being measured in inches, and that's because meters and centimeters are the superior way to measure shit and everyone fucking knows it. Inchniggers just pretend to hate meters because they love feet too much.
Tldr the enlightenment was a misnomer, denying God and the value of his teachings leaves you vulnerable to subversion. Without an argument as solid as "because God" all you're left with are feelings to back up moral arguments whenever the rational loss-minimization optimization mindset gives you an answer that feels icky. I know this sort of talk's a meme in the warhammer 40k community but it's true: An open mind is an unguarded fortress.
Do you ever think people would like christianity more if it had its own kung fu and alternative medicine practices? Bullshit stretches and lies about magic and silly cures for issues with more scientific fixes... Maybe that would appeal more to normies. Then again, aside from the occasional self-serving faith-healer scam artist who'd imitate any religion if it was big, Christianity doesn't have alternative medicine because it helped birth real medicine and science and rationality and whatnot. Christianity is the greatest religion in the world. Sekai fucking ichi. We are number one.
it's always bugged me that Neon Genesis Evangelion wants to be this story that says "fuck escapism" but the author's made his story so divorced from reality that it can only be taken as a fantasy. Eva isn't the story of a boy who grows over time. It's a story that says "it would actually suck to be thrust into the pilot seat of a giant robot and forced to battle monsters while surrounded by weird women with mental disorders". I appreciate its deep writing and symbolism. The author clearly knew his shit when it came to mecha anime and storytelling. Asuka represents the headstrong angry woman who mostly hates everyone and Rei pisses on the Yamato Nadeshiko archetype and that drunk chick is kind of a loser, and this is legitimately smart writing. He clearly has a message he wants to give the audience. But he doesn't know how to get that message across to the audience in a way that matters because it's basically just "lmao stop being depressed". A man doesn't just spontaneously get bitches and healthy relationships the second he takes his sony walkman/ipod headphones off and decides to "embrace reality uwu". It's not that easy for men these days. Dancing in a giant robot is as much of a fantasy as meeting several hot bitches that would be perfect if not for personality flaws some horny dudes are into after a lifetime of simping over fictional characters. Losers choose escapism because it's easy and they think they will never be sufficiently rewarded for a life of struggle and pain and growth. Anime figurines can't divorce you to become millionaires while stealing your kids and leaving you homeless. Feminists turned marriage into a mockery of itself and jews turned women into mockeries of women. They wouldn't have undue levels of power and influence if it wasn't for divershitty hires and govt programs meant to make life even easier for wamen. And what does society get out of it? When society pays women to be mothers they get mothers and children. When society pays women to be men and makes stealing jobs from men too easy all they get are jobless men and inferior imitations of men. Eva's creator might think there's a problem with japanese men these days and men in general but he's a coward for failing to look deeper into why not all boys want to sacrifice themselves for a system designed to rob and sabotage them. If he made another season of Evangelion that calls out the jewish lies subtly, he could make a significant impact on the world. If he made another season of Eva that subtly pokes holes in feminist lies... even including entry-level redpills about birth rates and privileged projecting feminism's hypocrisies in something with such a massive audience would help his country and other countries that love Eva. He could do yet another evangelion rewrite rebuild thing except this time Shinji grows a pair and teaches Rei how to smile and enjoy life while Asuka realizes she'll become a bitter drunk cat lady unless she loosens up and treats others better. He probably won't. I guess I'll always see the eva franchise as a massive missed opportunity. The guy gets how to deconstruct mecha anime and media cliches he doesn't like but he doesn't understand the issues the youth are facing well enough to say anything smarter than what you'd expect to hear from the average boomer who thinks "lmao try harder" is the best advice anyone can give.
Increasing the weight on my weighted vest.
Sometimes I talk about my friends here, but I don't wax lyrical about how awesome some of them are because I don't think anyone would want to read that. I love and cherish these fuckers but this isn't some teenage girl's diary. It would be bad for opsec if I deeply explained everything that makes my closest friends great people, since anyone could formulate a list of my friends and figure out who I am by guessing it's the person I don't have many nice things to say about.
Decided to try some new stronger protein shake.
Hilariously, I hear some guy recently entered a female only 2v2 Mortal Kombat tournament using his girlfriend's account and apologized after he was found out. Everyone, especially the people he fucking annihilated, is pissed at him for "trying to cheat them women out of a bag". I thought they loved letting men compete in women's sports? You'd think esports would be a place where men and women can compete evenly if you forgot men are smarter and more focused than women, while the only natural edge they could possibly claim is better rote memorization skills and marxist ego-stroking instead of marxist sabotage. Maybe that's why women love tekken so much, everyone has over 200 moves and most are hidden behind assorted bullshit strings and which button does what is reversed depending on what side of the foe you're on and some attacks can only be dodged by sidestepping to a certain side that changes if you're on the other side of the foe. Give me a set of punches and kicks plus some tricky specials that change depending on final button pressed plus a fun gimmick and a simple universal mechanic with multiple uses any day of the week.
>>3707>Hilariously, I hear some guy recently entered a female only 2v2 Mortal Kombat tournament using his girlfriend's account and apologized after he was found out.
I know, right? Mortal Kombat's a shit fighting game series, too. The animation's so bad, even people who know nothing of animation can understand why the moves look weird/weak/unnatural. I hear Mortal Kombat animates using motion-capture footage that's sped up or slowed down to fit the gameplay, without an expert animator's hand to emphasize certain key poses to make the motion look better. While Arc System Works are the kings of using 3D to resemble hand-drawn 2D sprites and amazingly beautiful animes, Netherrealm Studios are clowns who turned trashy animation and the 3d mocap crutch into a gimmick fanboys will call "charming" and "their signature style".
Imagine some faggot who constantly rants about the awful fetishy DND game he's in, regularly, while ignoring any "Get out of that group and find one where the players aren't lactating eight-tittied minotauresses with octuplets for fuck's sake" advice...
but it turns out there is no DND game and he's actually not the sane man from his story. he's the real degenerate writing about hyper pregnancy inflation porn for hours to the applauding crowd of a horde of dnd-obsessed nerdtards desperate to hear stories about nerds nerdier and less socially capable than them.
if some freak used the "My DND campaign is the worst! Please listen to my story and advise me and praise me and reassure me and validate me!" story hook to get a bunch of idiots to read and comment on his fucked-up fetish fiction, would that be fucked up or what?
A tomboy GF is rhe ultimate ideal because femininity (hysteria, sensitivity, fetishized weakness, ego) was so effortlessly weaponized against white males. A tomboy GF is the ultimate thing for a man because it combines the body of a woman with the goodness of a man. She won't be too much of a wuss to endure the mythical "pain" of childbirth more than once. She won't betray you or your family for some impulsive quick thrill and your wallet. Tomboy is superior. I'm sure a traditional housewife would be great if they still existed but the closest thing to perfection these days is the tomboy. Female is inferior. Female has failed the white man and betrayed him. Long live tomboy supremacy, may it grow in popularity with each day, may it rise up and replace this dead neoculture's broken idea of what a woman should be.
Oh Nigel, no one cares for these things.
You care enough to reply and let me know how you currently feel about me :3
btw exercise bike obtained
Jesus this exercise bike is hardcore. Worth every damn penny.
It's always pissed me off when demoralized cucks try to deny the superiority of space travel/space habitats on the baseless grounds that it would be difficult and not benefit people currently alive. How does that old saying go again, the one from a wise civilization that eventually collapsed but was pretty based before it collapsed into degeneracy and forgot its own wisdom? That quote about how society is great when old men plant trees so that young people may bask in their shade. Mankind's future belongs in the stars. Without space travel we're just idiots moving matter around on a single planet that could easily become our gravestone. Would it really be such a tragedy in the doomer's mind if jobs were created by companies that wanted to colonize space or go bankrupt trying? I'm sure those working for the industries that supply those space companies with resources for cash would be happy no matter how things go. Those cowardly doomer cucks should take their defeatist attitudes to hospitals and try saying their "lets just give up my fellow white males" shit around terminally ill patients with a slim chance of recovery. They'd get their asses kicked for it. They only talk that way because the thought of space naturally gives the white man hope that his science can answer life's questions and solve its greatest problems, problems leftism can only worsen. That talk spits in the eye of every forefather who fought and bled and broke a fucking sweat so the comfortably numb doomandgloomposter can masturbatorially brandish his cynical corporate-mandated defeatism like he thinks it's something to be proud of. Whites can into space. One planet is not enough. And we'll never get into space if we shoot ourselves in the foot slaving away for jewish slavemasters while pretending we are equal to literal niggers. "Equality" is a lie meant to discourage greatness. "Liberalism" is a leftist weapon meant to dismantle the aspects of functional civilizations that let them enjoy the benefits of Liberty and Plenty and Truth and other thing the ravenous weaponized useless eaters loathe.
The lack of free will is a myth that comforts faggots by letting them tell themselves they'd be better people if they lived in better times that gave them more opportunities to be good people and fewer opportunities to be cunts or lazy faggots or lazy faggoted cunts.
Sometimes my hands wander to my hips and gut as if even they doubt the radical transformation of my physique for the better. Is this normal?
It's normal. Feeling your body change for the better can be cathartic.
You're right, thank you.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ROJ0-r3zyck
This cringefest helped me come to terms with the crappy fanfics I wrote as a child/teenager.
I feel like I've healed something I didn't realize needed healing until now. If it wasn't for those crappy fanfics, I never would have improved as much as I've improved now. Does Picasso feel guilt and shame over the first doodles and paintings he ever made before he got famous? What about Van Goth and Monet and some other art guy?
Today nofap got me some bitches on my dick. Well, one. I was resting after walking and jogging on a football pitch when a dog ran up to me and sniffed my crotch. For multiple seconds, even when I moved away or stroked the dog's head while guarding my dick and balls with one hand. I even got up and turned around and tried walking away. The dog followed my crotch and wouldn't stop sniffing it. I didn't like it. I'm not actually a furry I just like big tits. The dog's wet nose made marks on my trouser legs. I'm glad I guarded my dick and balls before it touched anything of mine because this would feel weirder if that happened. Anyway the owner saw this and started walking over, after 10 seconds of this he eventually finished walking here and called the dog away, pulling her by her collar as she continued turning towards me, sniffing at me, even trying to run at me. I smiled politely and said "She's friendly, isn't she?" and he glared at me before walking away faster. Maybe this was embarassing for him too? Maybe I said the wrong thing. Maybe he trained this behaviour into his dog unintentionally (dog likes resting head on legs when it wants pat pats and doesn't understand what a dick is) or intentionally (vomits internally). I had no idea what to do in that situation besides guard my dick for fear of it going from sniffing to biting or licking. I'm glad it didn't lick or bite. It was surprising. I didn't wake up this morning and expect a literal dog to smell the unspent semen within me and seek my wild stallion out like a missile. Would I technically still be a virgin if that thing licked me through my trousers or would I count as a sexual harassment victim? Do those laws even apply to dogs? An owner is responsible if their dog bites someone, does the same apply to humping their leg and other canine shit? If I put on some cologne I'd assume it was that but I never use perfume or cologne or deooderant except for fancy occassions that normally never happen. Normally dogs don't seek me out like that and I had no food in my pocket so all I can think to blame is nofap. I wasn't feeling any urges before or during or after the event because I was thinking about jackets. Even now I still feel like that was something too weird to actually happen, like some unlikely degenerate anime fanservice scene. Then again I've never actually seen dog related fanservice in anime unless anthro dog girls count. There was one hot buff wolf chick in There was that "turn yourself in, man" joke from an anime I forgot the name of. I know eating dogs is legal in china but I hope fucking dogs is illegal in japan. Mares are cute, but dogs are not for sexual.
Also I forgot to tell you this but I've been walking a lot and walking/jogging/sprinting down a football field. Good exercise. My weighted vest makes it even more intense. Being healthy is good. No wonder the jews want us mining or paying for dopamine in shitty grind games like Gayshit Impact instead of exercising.
Your faithful student, Nigel D. Narutofag.
Hilarious. You don't often see dogs doing that unless they have done it before, the guys body language would have said it all and the way he reacted is a dead give away to the reason why he ran with his tail between his legs. A bit too friendly ay?
Then again the bitch could probably have smelt your dick cheese a mile off, or perhaps some stains from one of your recent wet dreams. Semen has a strong odor and dogs have good noses, so she might have been able to pick that scent up from you, or she could be in heat. Then again I'm no bitch expert nor enthusiast.
Lmao bruh I have to clean myself well daily or I get skin problems. It must have been the dog because it couldn't have been me.
I get a lot of dandruff. She must have been a horny bitch and you lucked out on a first class ticket to a canine blowjob but declined it without much thought until afterwards.
I know I'm on a nazi site right now so this might be controfursial (hehe) but I'm not actually a furry.
Your penchant for furry/futa images begs to differ
Some furry art is well drawn. Some anime art is well drawn. And futa is the only way to make yuri less gay.
Pray tell, how does more penises = less gay?
Less or more gay than women grinding their frontholes together?
If your media preferences lead you to choose between furry futa and lesbian fronthole rubbing, you're a faggot and should kys
When I borrowed Persona 5 from a friend and tried playing through it, the game's focus on getting as much as possible out of your limited time as deadlines inexorably marched towards you kept reminding me that I am wasting my time playing Persona 5, an overhyped weebshit RPG for babies who will only call P5 a masterpiece if they have literally never read a book in their lives besides Harry Potter at most.
Don't be gay when I'm winning a humorous argument over the pointless semantics of fictional beings.
Your points have been casually/effortlesssly refuted for a week. When were you 'winning'?
Why are you being gay in my thread?
Is it homosexual to touch a woman's ass?
Is it homosexual to fuck a woman's ass?
If women had wings, and a culture that says winged females should be the one grooming male wings, would it be homosexual to groom her wings?
What if women naturally had penises of their own?
Then women could penetrate other women without being gay about it.
Maybe, theoretically, I'm just fucking with you because I know you're a screeching shell of a former human so obsessed with me you'll latch on to anything, anything at all... as long as you think it makes me imperfect.
Think, clown, think. You desperately want to turn everything into a competition so you can feel like you're winning something for once. Even though you lack the balls and drive for self improvement necessary to have a thread of your own like this.
You're not doing any favours by screeching at me in every single thread on this website. You're a mad dog and you bark when commanded. You say you're not the spiteful cowardly redditor hclegend? Alright, stop talking like him and stop acting like him.
The shit show just doesn't fucking end. Nigel's spine and masculinity wars with the indoctrination. So the only thing in his tool box to work with ONLINE is moaning about shit, because being a silent pussy does jack shit.
Fuck you, the thread was just fine and dandy in the nigel thread bring it up there because fuck you'll have all the ducks in a row.
>>308640 >>308638 >>308637
There is a perfectly fine thread. That's all on topic.
>>312565 >Just one post and you're done, I'd recommend it be somewhere else, and for future reference just keep tabs on where all of them are for easier cleanup. Actual glowing shill fucks heors pussy. See post by admin.
>>312569 >The entomology of the various mental pathologies belong elsewhere, the garbage can thread for one off topics would be appropriate.
>>312575 >I understand the fury and rage coupled with duty for your fellow man to rise above from where he once was. As with many of my messages I'm taking an extraordinarily long time to make sure this isn't simply a rant of just repeatedly saying double nigger.
I'm sure you can guys can guess which pics are totally not posted atm.
So instead have this nice calming pone.
No, youre clearly being gay in your own thread. No help needed.
No, you're being gay in my thread.
And then you say "No you" and then I say "No you" and you keep this up forever.
That's how conversations with you usually go, hclegend/vril. If you don't just plug your ears and go "La la la I'm not listening and you haven't made an argument yet so make an argument I'm willing to listen to la la la"
Jesus fucking christ, you're a Jew.
Why would I bother? The evidence is incontravertable that A. You deliberately engage in precisely the null effort posting and flagrant accusations you accuse others of and B. You lack the articulation to make an actually coherent argument.
Tl;dr Youre only making this worse for yourself
This war must be lonely for you. I can't imagine spending years of my life harassing one website and constantly gaslighting its users in the hope that someone believes your lies. But you can, because it's what you do.
You enter a thread and attack me while you still feel anonymous despite your posting style. You abandon the thread and move on if enough people tire of your antics and tell you to fuck off. And then you start the cycle again in a new thread where you can feel anonymous.
Wouldn't it be funny if there was one special word I'd hidden in posts directed towards you now and then so I could search for that word and find all the threads you've pulled this in over the years? Then I could direct people to that post every time you show up, for the benefit of newfags who don't know why a snarling rabid mutt in the corner best ignored by everyone is hallucinating vividly and crying shit like "You're mad! And butthurt! And a redditor! Not me, you! It's you who never changes! Yooou!".
>>3995>You're mad! And butthurt! And a redditor! Not me, you! It's you who never changes! Yooou!
Well its not wrong
Watched some documentaries with the boys today. Was a good time.
Today I also criticized someone claiming to be Ninjas for the staff's handling of the hclegend problem, even though I'm not sure if that really was a mod/amin/whatever or not. I wonder if this will get me permabanned. If it does, I wonder if hclegend will move on to attacking other users or simply go back to reddit. I'll never understand why hclegend has been allowed to slander and harass me on this site for years in so many threads, and I'll never understand why his recent self-own in a certain other thread got censored. It was hilarious. Maybe it was deleted because anyone who saw it would never take hclegend seriously again. More than once I've thought about requesting a custom flag so hclegend won't lash out at random brits on the off chance that they're me, but this is supposed to be an anonymous site. Then again hclegend loves attacking me out of nowhere and claiming not to be hclegend until he can't any more, only ceasing his attacks in one thread if he feels he's wearing out his welcome in that thread. Then he abandons that thread only to attack me and cry "nigel" at me again in the next thread hoping his anonymity will shield him from the reputation his words and deeds earn him. That narcissist is sad. However if I was given something unique like a british flag with an orange fox in the middle while hclegend is given something that suits his pro-LGBTQ pro-tranny anti-SuperStraight reddit posts https://archive.is/N0cqB
like a rainbow fag flag, anonymity would be removed from both of us. Everyone would know to ignore hclegend posts and never reply to hclegend posters. If staff don't want to warn hclegend to knock his antics off, giving us both flags would be a good way to make his usual antics easier for the users of this site to reliably ignore.
Man you are acting like a paranoid schizophrenic. Go to doctor Goldstein and tell him you think everyone who disagrees with you is the same guy that has been gang stalking you for years. Also ninjas isn’t a mod.
btw I've raised the weight level on my chest press and weighted vest. It's a shame ankle and wrist weights don't work IRL but it's a good thing weighted vests work.
>>3147>Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting?
Depends, some people enjoy it and others don't because of personalities and the source of stresses.
If I can recommend anything it would be Equine Therapy, talking to people can be boresome and uninteresting compared to the sensuality of feel and emotion. That's if you're interested in Equus Caballus and their behavior patterns.
Institutional psychiatric therapy can be unpleasant at times and it may be discomforting to partake in the expression of feelings to someone you should or should not trust or perhaps don't enjoy being around, the building itself can be discomforting when the rooms are small and you are around people that are (most of the time) in it solely for money. Psychiatrists in general are judgmental and suspicious of classifications and diagnoses that are affiliated with the patients they deal with.
There tends to be more of a nerve racking sense of claustrophobia when being in those brick buildings than as opposed to standing in fields amongst the wild grasses and stone walls lined with barbed wire.
Horses and ponies can be more friendly than the majority of people are, the bond that forms between these two species is one of the attraction of polar opposites, predator and prey. The domestic nature of these four hoofed equines is temperamental and euphoric within interspecies relationships involving humans and horses, it's exciting for some and scary for others.
I love ponies to the moon and back, adorable and cuddly, more fluffy than teddy bears when they grow their winter coats, pones are more therapeutic than therapists are.
My cunt landlord decided to sell my house. I hate renting.
Guys if your dick and especially foreskin is swollen after sex is that a sign of STDs?
You should probably see a doctor.
From a Ginger Catholic Irish Girl that only speaks Geálgé.
That'll cost you 3.5 whole Bitcoins to the father.
It's just skin irritation. Turns out my cock and balls are fine.
Éirinn go Brách. Agus mo ghrádh d'am sneachta
Yeah, I can't believe I actually had sex either. A hot babe started talking to me flirting with me and I panicked.
by the way a friend got sick of "Far Cry 5" for the PS4 and offered it to me for a tenner. I don't even keep my consoles plugged in any more but it might be interesting to see how a modern game plays since I spend so much time with older games or games similar to what I'm making.
So far this game is irritating.
At first the game demonizes the idea of religious white militants buying up farmland and making a state of their own. The interview style opener even makes a point of calling them DIFFERENT, RELIGIOUS, MILITANT. In fucking montana where everyone for miles would be better armed and more religious than these walking mockeries of what atheists think christians are. Some guy comes in to betray their trust and record them for a documentary demonizing them and gets caught, wow. Maybe Sneed has psychic powers and maybe he can smell the soy on this faggot from here.
"Maybe we shouldn't fuck with them. Maybe we should leave well enough alone" suggests one fedboy here to violate the laws of this land.
"We have laws for a reason" insist the fedboy cunts as these "holy" knights of DC or whatever come to fuck with what Seed fans willingly built. These fedboys gave themselves an arrest warrant for the leader of these people, and if it was a wild west murder warrant it would be just as meaningless. Swedes can't arrest Canadians for violating Swedish law on Canadian territory. Right?
And it gets dumber. We walk through a sp0000ky path full of angry armed whites. A cop grumbles that people don't respect the badge. "maybe they'll respect my 9mm" says some fedboy teammate as he invades foreign soil surrounded by whites armed with baseball bats and shotguns and other weapons. Christ I didn't expect this game to give me so much to talk about every few seconds. During the opening cutscene I had to pause it to write this out as things I wanted to comment on piled up faster than I could type them.
Wow how spooky the american church is singing amazing grace. Now he's ranting about how enemies want him arrested and his nation and people and religion destroyed.
Now they say he kidnapped? Neat. Fedboys did worse.
Seed looks like a weird cuck with stupid hair. He keeps blabbering weird pseudoreligious shit so he'll sound crazy when he says "the enemy wants us gone".
Lmao a cutscene and QTE. "press X to arrest the father". Why does this damn OST keep trying to make Amazing Grace sound spooky and haunting? Was "ring around the rosies" copyrighted or something?
"Sometimes the best thing to do is walk away" says the game... did I miss some alternate ending where if Snake waits long enough he doesn't shoot Quiet and fucks off? Does walking away instantly end the game all about fighting these fantasy whites and their all-american state?
Wow so many people are fucking with this copter. Wouldnt surprise me if it was sabotaged. This is stupid. The feds sent a few guys to arrest the leader of a tribe to either humiliate them and make an example of the leader back in weimerica or start a firefight and get "justification" for an all out war. Now Seedy McSeed survived the chopper crash and has the feds radio whore on his side and he's yelling about how "nobody will stand in his way"? I thought he just wanted to live here away from sin and eliminate any sinners in his land however he wanted.
I think Ubisoft made this... they also put out Watch Dogs Legion which demonized brexit and whites while blaming problems caused by jews on whites and capitalism, right?
I hate unskippable cutscenes. This game let me choose between man and woman. Why wont it let me join the Seedclave?
Tiny FOV is suffering.
my friend just got downed. I revive him now we're fuck it. This game is cancer. This is a PC game poorly ported to consoles not a console FPS designed to help players tolerate the anti-futurism and anti-ergonomics of a disgusting fucking shit console. Fuck this I'm out. Disconnecting PS4 and putting it back in the closet. Time to lift some fucking weights.
Man... there was a time when my response to a bad game would be "I don't care how long it takes me. I will beat this game. I am an epic gamer used to a lack of choice".
But fuck that. I have choice now. I am a man. I'm not a boy trapped in a cupboard under the chairs forced to choose one of a few repetitive meaningless timewasters. I don't have to choose between my overused crash-prone copies of the ratchet series or smarties meltdown or TLOS or other shit games still with their low price and preowned stickers. I am a man. I can choose to go to places the jewrona cant shut down. I can climb a medium sized mountain. I can exercise. I can grow as a man instead of wasting my time with some pointless baby shoot game that solely exists because jewish marketing executives thought taking the dull formula they "perfected" and applying it to an anti-white copaganda story of a "heroic" fedboy teaming up with a local american violent "resistance" group to eliminate a religious minority of white pseudochristians would help turn more dipshit barely-whites against the best interests of their betters. I love the way my body feels after hardcore exercise. I need more. I am a man. A man with big pecs and no beer belly. My knees and ankles are fine when I stand thanks to how fit I have become. I am a man and I don't have anything to prove to a piece of jewish media meant to target my worst vice (gaming) and use it against my race. My worst vice used to be masturbation but then I stopped wanking. Gaming is the jew's third favourite type of media after TV and comic books. Good games can be fun or good stories or both but shit games... well, I just touched one and it made me feel so dirty I exercised with rage right after putting the console away and throwing the disc away. I have to be better than this. My game has to be better than this. I will never achieve my dreams if I waste time pretending to be who I was before I grew. Fuck nostalgia for gaming and fuck shitty games. I'm not the AVGN. Nobody's paying me to play shitty games and yell ass and fuck. I fucked an ass recently. I am a fucking man!
A woman bought me a drink but it was so sugary it burned my tongue.
I don't remember getting sugar burns as a kid. But now I'm in my mid-twenties and sugar burns me.
What the fuck?
Is this because I've spent so long being a fit man who only eats meat, fruit, vegetables, and protein shakes? Has my body just forgotten how to deal with sugar?
A friend of mine with ADHD turned his life around for the better and started actually completing adult tasks like "clean room daily" with the help of a phone app that fills EXP bars and makes videogame levelup sounds whenever he does tasks he sets for himself.
Sometimes he sets "do nothing for 2 seconds" tasks for himself because he wants to hear the congratulatory sounds and get that dopamine.
I have met other people classed under the term of Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder before, there was one in my junior school which happened to be inside my year that I knew but he always got in trouble one way or another, the majority of the time it was either being disruptive inside class or shouting at the teacher, other than that it was getting into fights with kids.
I remember inviting him to my house one day and punched him when he came through the gate, he proceeded to tell my mother but his dad couldn't come for him because he was doing something that I cannot remember, then afterwards we played some games in my bedroom until his father came to pick him up. After that night he never called me names again and told his friends not to mess with me, so they didn't. That and I beat the rest of them up or confronted them, I hated them with fury. As the years went past he evolved into bullying fat bastards in high school while I was plagued by my own mental demons that haunted me through those corridors and classes. >>4065>I fucked an ass recently.
I Didn't know you were into donkey mares, anon.
I guess that makes us two.
Lol that's not what I meant by fucking ass but good joke
This might sound weird but every ADHD kid I met as a kid had four things in common
1) Single-mom household, or the dad was an irrelevant cuck or an ignored quiet hard-worker forced to barely be a presence in his kid's life by his job
2) Spongebob is his only positive male role model and smiling through the pain is his coping mechanism
3) Eats too much sugar and drinks too much artificial orange, same goes for his obese alcoholic smoker mom who usually ate herself into diabetes too
4) As he grows older and gets a healthy diet figures out coping mechanisms despite the best efforts of any adult paid to hover around him or any schoolteacher or "professional", you end up wondering why he was misdiagnosed with "too much youthful energy for our tastes and/or for some mysterious reason he isn't taking any interest in dull hyper-easy ultra-slow condescending timewasting lowest-common-denominator lessons" disease
I've never met someone permanently fucked up by ADHD. They probably exist out there. It probably sucks for them. I hope they wouldn't think less of me for saying I've met people diagnosed with ADHD as a kid who got better later in life because it was just their pathologized normal childishness.
The kid who has ADHD had a dad that took steroids but never went to the gym and a mother who was abusive to her son while drunk, he was with his dad the majority of his upbringing but went to his mother's every once in a while which he proclaimed to dread. Funnily enough, she was also a heavy smoker too.
This one time I was in class with him and we were looking at a map so I pointed out the country called Niger to him which he found highly amusing due to the resemblance of the word nigger, so he then laughingly showed the female teacher the map and the country which he said was called nigger, upon which the woman recoiled in shock and hastily looked at what he was pointing at within the middle of Africa, her response was that it's name is Niger (nigh-jer) and not that. He then turned to me and laughed which by this point I was laughing too.
Now that's a formative memory! I remember this one time a school guy (i can't really call him a friend) gave me a USB with a pokemon Emerald rom for me to hack, I told him what I can do, he said "make Birch give me a Rayquaza at the start" so I did.
And also renamed Professor Birch to Professor Bitch and gave his lab the smoky/misty white weather and had him talk about weed a lot. I also cranked up the encounter rate to 100% in a few routes, filled them with Hypno, renamed him Rapeno(because he kidnaps a kid on one of the islands and he has a big jew nose), and drew dicks with the grass in a ton of areas using AdvanceMap. I also added an Eevee Hall area to Oldale town, a building where one room with a talking Eevee explains the place. There are doors leading to a bunch of hallways where you can EV train each stat. A feature that would be super cool and convenient for any kid who understood EV training. My sense of humor back then was in dickland where weed is hilarious. Anyway the reward I bartered for was that I got to keep the USB. Was my first ever USB and provided a good place to store files i didnt want my parents noticing on the family PC. It didnt have a lot of space but I still have it in my collection. Maybe if I got more PC time as a kid and took Game Maker more seriously I could have made a profit back then, had some savings for when I escaped.
I was never interested in Nintendo or Sega, my usual preference was the play station 1 and the original Xbox. I played games that my mother got me and most of them were above the age rating that was way above mine, in some cases double.
What I played were the classics, my main favorites were Crash Bandicoot, Halo Combat Evolved, some Scooby Doo games and the Spider man ones. My usual choice was the Xbox over the play station due to it's plethora of variety, I liked Jaws on the PS1 and the Spider man which were about it.
As I grew into my teenage years I got a Xbox 360 from my brother that I still have and play on occasions, never cared for the PS3 or 2. The games I liked were Call of Duty World at War, Halo 3, Fallout 3, The Orange Box and the good games that were released following the late 2000's into the 2010's were, Call of Duty Black Ops, Fallout New Vegas, Portal 2, Aliens Vs Predator, Skyrim. Had a computer but it was shit.
The only PS1 games I had were Spyro 1, 2, 3, and inherited scratched copies of Everybody's Golf, Alundra, and the last two Final Fantasy discs.
PS2 wise I had a collection of "whatever had cheap stickers when it was around christmas or my birthday". I remember good games like the Ratchet And Clank series and I remember shovelware like Smarties Meltdown. When the Wii came out the adverts made my parents want it so they bought it and plugged it into the tv downstairs and barely ever allowed me to use it. They wouldnt let me take it upstairs either. We had "zack and wiki quest for barbaros's treasure", more like crappy wiki quest for the answer to this shitty puzzle. Also smash bros brawl, wii sports, mario kart, and LOZ skyward sword but no wii motion plus. I ended up trading with someone I knew for a gamecube and Pokemon Colosseum, Sonic Adventure 1 and 2, smash melee, and Pokemon XD GOD. That might be the dumbest name ever. Just call it Colosseum 2: Rise of Shadow Lugia or something. The wii did gamecube games but the wii I had was for downstairs use only and being downstairs was risky around my bastard parents. Never knew when one would blow up at me over nothing. Now that I live alone I still check the game stores for preowned deals but I hate how gaming's full of overpriced overhyped AAA garbage now and I try not to spend money on gaming any more anyway. Most cheap preowned discs are still pricier than something on a steam sale. Or something pirateable, not that I would ever pirate anything ha ha wink wink. But seriously fuck AAA gaming. The indie gaming scene's better. Can you believe Crazy Taxi's creators copyrighted the game mechanic of the arrow that points to where you should drive, which drove GTA to make the Minimap that became standard for most games? Imagine if Nintendo could copyright the mechanics of all their old NES games. There would be no nintendo clones in the indie gaming scene which would suck since some include better ideas that make them better than their inspirations. I play a lot of Fallout New Vegas, I also played Skyrim and it sucked but it's great with mods replacing all the bad content. If you liked Skyrim check out FNV because it's better.
Never played Spyro before or Final Fantasy either, let alone Ratchet and Clank. They never motivated my interests.
The fucking wee, what a load of shite. Played it ages ago but hated it due to the awkward controls and bodily movements required for it, most of the games on it were excessively bland or sports themed. Liked Mortal Kombat but wasn't heavily excited about it as such with some others which put me off the rest of the fighting replicas that followed it, haven't played a single Street Fighter or Super Smash Brothers to this day.
In my former days pirating games or copying discs was the way to go, I still have a copied disc of Halo 3 somewhere and a crappy Need for Speed too. Also, I haven't ever completed a single Pokémon game before and won't be anytime soon, in my prepubescent pathology of logic it didn't make much sense to fight these Japanese monsters against each other, so I decided not to go out of my way to play it.
Tried some tabletop games when I was younger but the process always frustrated me in strategy and decision, so that I wouldn't participate in the pointless delusions of them with other kids and teachers for it was more of a nuisance than a pastime. Fucking monopoly, fucking checkers, fucking backgammon. They will forever be avoided when possible.
Gambling is a waste of time and effort, I care not for the profit nor the thrill of such nonsense and so it is meaningless to me. Blackjack, roulette, slot machines. They are designed for the purpose of greed and competition, for which my interest wanes within the squabbles of petty rivalry over villainous victory. My passions lie not within the illusions of gambling games, more so to my awareness that my passions are illusions in of themselves and so are many others but they are not for the same reasons as such for the indirect gain of some corporate casino.>If you liked Skyrim check out FNV because it's better.
Hahaha, throughout all my hours of nonchalantly playing both I refused to complete the main quest of the the 5th elder scrolls, while on the other hand I was by far further intrigued by the distracting side quests and locations within it, the caves and (sex) dungeons were where all my time went within, levelling up the werewolf skills were fairly nifty. Fallout New Vegas was great at first but after 800 hours went past ever so slowly the excitement stagnated into a repetitive cycle of doing the same thing again and again but with a slightly altered arsenal as well as apparel. I did just about everything in that game, except side with the New California Republic because they're a bunch of faggots.
You're missing out if you've never experienced the Spyro trilogy on the PS1 or Guilty Gear Xrd Rev0.
download them now. Even if you have to pirate them. Get rev2 and then the rev0 mod as seen on Youtube. Potemkin with a working airdash is love, Potemkin with a working airdash is life. Most games bore me these days but fighting games have limitless potential for self expression, creativity, and depth in every fight. Against a person. NPC battles are lame.
Got paid good cash to help a hoarder friend move some heavy objects around and throw out broken trash he's held on to for far too long. I would have done it for free but he insisted on paying me. Must be all that self help shit paying off, he can tell my time is valuable now. He can smell the infinite male aura around me, because greek letters like alpha and beta are too beta for an infinity-sign male like me. Feels good.
Speaking of feeling good, THESE FUCKING MUSCLES. I don't think I'm a masochist but goddamn these burn so good. I've lifted heavier weights before but you use more muscles at once when lifting oddly shaped heavy shit and carrying it around. Including muscles they probably don't make exercises for.
Why did my ID change?
I no longer have a Play Station 1 or 2 anymore I played on it ages ago so I haven't in around 10 years. I still have my original Xcocks though which I still play monthly although not weekly nor daily, my favorite on it is Gaylo Cumbat Erected. (Halo)
Thence, there is no possibility to play (S)Spyro at my current position.>>4265
I did 2x10 reps on the bench press with 58 kg earlier then did 20 pushups afterwards. Then ate the forbidden fruits henceforth wards after.
What does your daily routine look like?>>4266>>4267
Sometimes it does when you change your location or use a VPN.
>>4268>Sometimes it does when you change your location or use a VPN.
Oh no it's changed, whatever am I going to do without my numbers and letters.
Oh thanks it's back I almost started sweating.
Oh hells bells it's gone again, buggers.
Hey imagine if they made a Kamen Rider series called Kamen Side. Geddit like Kumin side? Ha ha, semen. Anyway that Duckstation emulator is great for PS1 games. Unless your PC and phone are weaker than a PS1 it should be fine.
I exercise different muscle groups to failure at different points in the day, and take a protein bar after each exercise. Plus two "all in one" vitamin and mineral supplements a day. The box says to take from one to three a day. 2 in the morning sounds like a good compromise.
Ahhh, the joys of ejaculation. It's always better without needing hands and using a meat hole instead.
I have not heard of the Gayman Spider series before, perhaps you are referencing Spooder man?>I exercise different muscle groups to failure at different points in the day, and take a protein bar after each exercise.
I like to do different things for each given day of the week. although it is only 3 or 4 days maximum that I do them. usually I have a mixture of instant coffee and 97% cocoa powder with boiled organic unhomogenized whole milk after a session.
How has your day been today?
Mine has been rather exciting, I got to see my favorite mare today and took her for some ballroom ballet on the high road. She has been up and down in emotions and so have I, for our bond is beyond spirit or soul and surpasses what I have chanted upon with will and intent. Now my goal is complete and harmony is achieved, the only matter that concerns myself at the present is how long will it last?
My day was great, but fuck Windows. Every so often it will start choking to death on nothing and when I check Task Manager some random weirdly named process I can't disable is to blame. I go online to learn more about the process and turns out it's just more shit windows uses to slow the pc down for no reason.
My piece of shit PC uses Windows. I hate it but Game Maker will only turn on if Steam is active. I need an OS that can run steam. And preferably also run emulators for games.
Sounds like linux is for you.
Check out manjaro linux. Good shit.
Can it do everything Windows can do? I've heard some games/emulators/programs dont play nice with linux and some emulators have inferior linux ports.
Audacity, paint dot net, inkscape, gimp, open office, Handbrake VGMtrans, VLC, do these work on linux/have linux-friendly replacements?
Try it yourself and see.
Granted, many games won't work properly, or won't work at all, because they have been written specifically to use Micros$oft DirectX technology.
>>4276>how long will it last?
No longer may it continue, for she has passed on into infinity.
Although her hair shall forever be within my plethora of memorabilia, the memories I have of that mare will stay with me until the day I die.
Lest I forget.
Finished moving. My new house is such a shithole but instead of bitching I've been a manly man fixing shit.
Needed wifi extenders. Living room tv on wall was mounted before a usb or HDMI could be inserted inside it, so I stuck a HDMI switcher up there to make switching HDMI easier in the future. Cleaning the oven to an acceptable degree took too damn long, fucking thing looked like its previous owners had never cleaned it, fucking burned food in the fucking shit cancering fuck.
and the baking trays were so filthy I trashed them and bought new ones. I ain't eating fucked up chicken from a dirty oven.
Toilet seat is broken on one hinge and while the toilet is normal sized it uses an improperly small seat. WHO THE FUCK owned this house before us?
Two wifi extenders, not one but fucking two, are needed to get the wifi around this tiny house. I have one wifi extender extending the normal signal of another closer to my router. God I hope people were kidding when they said 5G causes cancer, good thing I'm unvaxed or that could be dangerous.
I put my stuff in boxes but unpacking that stuff and finding room for it in a smaller room takes time. I'll need better storage, I'm stacking chests of drawers atop heavier chests of drawers to fit everything in and I don't own a lot of things.
Some women have enough clothes in their house to open a store. I've certainly seen my fair share of women's bedrooms like that. Okay well one or two. Still counts. Psychologically it feels weird to be in such girly places but at the same time it also feels like I am taking my masculinity into them to dominate them absolutely. I don't care if her posters and stuffed animals and pricey figurines seem to stare. They can watch. I am man. Confidence oozes from man. Man is man. Where the fuck was I going with this? Why do women decorate their spaces to be so girly anyway? It's not like anyone's going to smell the neon faggot hues and random signs and flags and weirdly jokeless unicornic demotivational posters from outside and decide to fuck her. Nobody's going to see her bedroom unless she's bringing them not just to her house but to her bedroom. If they said yes instead of "I'm gay" or "I'm busy" or "I'm taken and my girlfriend goes to another canada" they're going to fuck unless one of them changes their mind. And an ugly messy hyperfeminine room just screams "I have poor impulse control and financial skills". At least the ones I saw did anyway. Maybe better ones exist out there. Do you think if a smart woman existed she would hate women too? Or would she feel some weird vagineous loyalty to them and refuse to admit every woman she ever met was dumber than the most average man she ever met?
Anyway fuck my new house. But I can make this work. I could build some shelves myself for more storage space.
It's a good thing this new place is cheaper. Fuck, I can't wait until my indie game makes me rich enough to afford a house with room for things. At least my roommates are good people.
Played some fighting games with the lads, all hail Retropi master race, Street Fighter 2 is retarded. As Ken I loat to an overpowered Vega and who thought "the losing player should be rendered helpless for a few seconds to piss his player off" would be a good game mechanic? What game punishes the loser?
Weird how they went in the opposite direction with "reduce the impact of skill to level the playing field between man and nigger" and "reward the loser for losing because muh cumbaks muh epic win montages muh evo moments muh sponsors who say they want unpredictable matches with a rotating cast of who's randomly selected to be top tier now".
Also played the sega version of mortal kombat hacked to have all characters yet for some reason the game seemed to only have 3ish buttons. I chose Centauro and kicked everyones ass except when they picked Hammmer Skull Helmet fag. I am not a Mortal Kombat main.
Jojo's HTTF was more fun for a bunch of casual newfags like us. I main Dio and Hol Horse and Jotaro but that doesn't mean I'm actually good with them. I've probably played less than an hour with this game. I should try a combo tutorial some day.
Fighting games are fun. I should make one. I have the experience, I made that mugen abomination a while back with a frame3 jab and frame 1 overheads/lows on light. Just fucking approaching you is a 50/50 mixup. Of course his movelist was a mess. Half his shit was FUCKING
I know lets give him all sorts of moves that already exist haha im so good at videogames.
I really had no idea what I was doing back then. I don't even know what kind of character he was supposed to be beyond the vague title of "rushdown but with good tools for big brain smart men who can keep track of their many tools and inputs". Monkey brain just see numbers and like giving unicorn better numbers. Big buttons equal neuron activation. Timestop for a mandatory jojo reference plus Guilty Gear style instakills...
they were a cancerous combo.
If I ever have meter (and I start with 1k out of 10k meter because jojos) and you're not intangible or invincible I just win the match
If I ever make a mugen character again I need to make sure my guy can't Instant Kill while time is stopped Personally I love and hate DBFZ style autocombos these days, I should give my guy some of those.
There isn't enough room to set up my exercise equipment so I'm making do with freeweights and a weighted vest. I miss my bench already but I haven't found room for that yet.
I've changed and grown so much.
I bet the old me would have cried in a corner of this room instead of solving problems like a man and making the most of it.
This stupid OC of mine...
Feels like a different person made him
How can he represent me now, and be his own character?
Agonizing over questions like "SICK METAL ARM? Y/N" and "is a four-way hybrid too much?" is missing the point
Before I can design his tools I must design his hands (fuck battle saddles) and the rest of him
Forget updating, time to reinvent.
>>4296>Living room tv
I sympathize and congratulate you. You go poner!!!
Except one little detail.
Audacity, inkscape, gimp, open office, VGMtrans, and VLC work natively. They're all open source, and generally anything open source supports linux. Notepad++ is an exception, but Notepadqq is a 1:1 replacement
paint dot net is proprietary and doesnt work, but its outperformed by gimp or krita anyway
Don't worry, no connection to any electric-jew aerials.
Fuck TV, Netflix, and more. I'm not watching copaganda police-chases or soap-opera bitches. A good TV is like a good monitor: Just a monitor for gaming and torrented stuff.
Also the only games I play these days are games similar to what I'm going to make. Back in the day I'd either replay the same nostalgic old gems over and over or force myself through stupid unfun grindy crap. But now I'm a game developer who can appreciate the artistic merits of games when it comes to their gameplay and stories.
Fighting games are the best thing for me to play because DMC-Likes are basically single-person fighting games except you're OP as hell and enemies have specific challenges for you. Chun Li has more than 10 moves but you can always expect a Hell Caina to act like a Hell Caina. Until you deal with other challenges in the room and get around to fucking its shit sideways with your chainsaw motorcycle. Then it's a punching bag suspended over ten feet in the air eating shit until the sheer mass of shit it's consumed drags it back to hell.
I think we've come full circle as a species.
People once called beat-em-ups and fighting games the same thing because grandma boomer can't tell a Pikachu apart from a Digimon or a Street Fighter apart from Streets Of Rage.
Then there were 3D beat-em-ups and hack-and-slashes, or "action games" if you're annoying
platformers count as "action" games. god, genres are weird.
anyway "Character action games" are just good beat-em-ups/hack-and-slashes.
it's weird how we call them "beat em ups" if there's more unarmed combat than armed (finding pipes and baseball bats with your floor chicken doesn't count apparently) and "hack and slashes" if you use swords. Like how your movie is a western if it has a cowboy and sci-fi if it has a raygun. Defining genre through the iconography present, not some inherently different quirk of gameplay that separates "The modern FPS" from the "Doom Clone". Even though we used to call FPS games Doom Clones. But now old-Doom and Quake and the rest have their own inspired-bys along with the new Dooms. Nobody's going to mistake Ultrakill for Destiny because Ultrakill is good.
Real video game genres define themselves by how you interact with the media, not what iconography is present. A Soulslike could throw out the miserable tone and it would still be a soulslike if it had the same combat. a MetroidVania-style interconnected map is a bonus, not something a Soulslike needs to be a Dark Souls clone.
Doesn't matter if Spyro teams up with a raygun-toting monkey in a cowboy level, it's still a platformer.
Some twat once proposed "Spectacle Fighter" as a new name for DMC-likes, but fuck that. That name's a better fit for fighting games that automate too much for the casual audience. like the Naruto Ultimate Ninja Storm games. Sure you'll always look cool zooming around doing stylish autocombos but mentally very little is going on.
"Stylish Action" would be a better name for DMC-likes, because the Style Meter encourages you to play well. Stylish Action games should reward the player for getting a high style meter, too. Mine will.
Thank you! I shall make the switch soon.
Have any of you seen this? https://youtu.be/IfS02WjRU8g
"No time for false mother's day"
It just gets better.
And then "Strategy is key to my success" - Balrog. The boxer. The throwloop gorilla nigger.
And when it comes to the gameplay it's surprisingly accurate. They don't know what we call their tricks these days but they knew these tricks existed. And the voice actors are hilarious. I wonder what voice they'd give to a character like Cammy or Juri if they didn't have proper voice actors to imitate these days.
Them's Fightin' Herds is the only fighting game I've played. The quips are rather fun in that too.
If you've never played Jojo's Bizarre Adventure HTTF you're missing out. Check out MAME and Fightcade, you don't need to know anything about the show to understand what the superpowered ghost-summoners are saying and doing but it helps. They put an incredible amount of soul and effort into this game. It's not some NUNS4 shit where characters just have projectiles and punches/kicks and cutscene-starting attacks and everyone plays the same. They really tried their asses off with this game even with whatever budget limits created all those clones. Even simple characters like Jotaro have style.
There's this character called Alessi who turns you into a child, growing more confident and aggressive until you've returned to normal. He's basically a grappler but he can play keepaway too. And instead of having an overpowered grab like most grapplers, he turns you into a child and then it's up to his player to deal huge damage while you're nerfed. They perfectly translated who and what Alessi is into a fighting game. And if the artist never canonically drew your character as a child you're turned into some funny easter-egg show reference, like how Rubber Soul turns into some background fatass seen during his fight.
What other fighting game has anything that creative? Sure the vampire from darkstalkers had Midnight Bliss where he grabs you and makes you a woman then succs. But this isn't some cutscene, this is gameplay. Kind of like the mummy from Darkstalkers whose grab transforms you into something weak. Only better because it suits the character better.
I decided to do the stupid rick and morty copyapsta meme but about my OC. I don't know how my bros helping me beta test this guy put up with it. The more creativity I enable in his moveset the more degeneracy I uncover with him. I swear I will figure out how to disable his infinites or die trying. Maybe Niggeryuki the Bootleg Blade has the solution. Anyway meme time.
To be fair, you have to have a very high IQ to play my OC. The setplay is extremely subtle, and without a solid grasp of roman cancels most of his overheads will go over a typical player's head. There's also my OC's materialistic outlook, which is deftly woven into his characterisation- his 169% original moveset draws heavily from Sol Badguy, for instance. The Sunny mains understand this stuff; they have the intellectual capacity to truly appreciate Tandem setplay and stance dancing into 1-frame spammable advancing waveshine cancelled lows turned unblockable by high-hitting reverse edge cartoon anvils with wacky SFX on hit, to realise that my OC's not just sexy - He says something meaningful about LIFE. As a consequence people who dislike losing 100% of their health for guessing wrong once in an endless inescapable stream of 5+-way mixups truly ARE idiots- of course they wouldn't appreciate, for instance, the brilliance in mashing 3L, which itself is a cryptic reference to Fox's WaveShine from Super Smash Bros. I'm smirking right now just imagining one of those addlepated simpletons scratching their heads in confusion as the Sunrise main's genius dashing command grab into timestop into 200% damage unfolds itself on their monitors. What fools... how I pity them. And yes, by the way, I DO have a tattoo of Sunny's totally-not-a-Cutie-Mark. And no, you cannot see it. It's for my tulpa harem's eyes only- and even then they have to demonstrate that they're within 1 Ultimate Gohan level of my own (preferably lower) beforehand.
Today I was moved by an incredible show of kindness from a good friend. It is always good to stick up for your friends, because that's how you prove your friendship is more than just a convenient association and make lifelong friends out of acquaintances.
Dear princess Celestia,
today I learned that friendship is really cool.
Your faithful student,
Hard work is hard and rewarding as a man. I look at the shelves I built for myself and smile.
"I built that".
I am an engineer. I made my own shelves.
The Engineer is Engi-here.
...that reminds me. Tf2 has better characters than Overwatch.
Everyone in Overwatch is a shallow product meant to sell toys. Nobody has a deep personality.
Spy and Soldier and Scout and the rest might seem like one-note memes but they have depth.
When Engineer says his "The engineer is engi-here" quote and chuckles at his dumb joke, it's deep characterization. He really is the type to actually fucking say that and find it a little funny. While Overwatch characters just yell corny cliche lines full of tryhard corporate pandering gamerspeak.
also gameplay-wise the characters are just easy mode versions of TF2 characters usually. The Soldier's job is to rocket jump high and rain down rockets. Overwatch's Soldier is an egyptian(?) black woman in bird-themed power armour who can slowly fly up and rain a shitton of rockets down with the press of a button.
Scout must be fast and dangerous to survive. Tracer can teleport around and undo positioning mistakes while using better guns than him.
And the tanks have 10x more health than Heavy or more for crying out loud!
Overwatch? More like... Don'twatch!
Had a based thought today
Once I heard a myth about a man who survived inside a whale by being resourceful and never giving up. So what if whales don't work that way? Never let truth get in the way of a good myth that sings the praises of a good value. Based myths say it's good to be awesome and smart while never giving up. Based myths say it's good to be a good person. A story doesn't have to be 100% realistic, it just needs to be good. And a good message helps.
Meanwhile shit myths are Pourquoi stories. A dumb man asked the village's wisest man a question. And like any primitive wise man, he doesn't know the answer and that won't stop him from making some bullshit up.
Why does the sun set red?
>Uh... the sun is embarassed when it runs away from the earth.
Why do some things sink when some things float?
>Poseidon likes some things more than others.
Why does meat make you fart?
>Uh... once a wizard shrunk a man down and vore happened and he... uh... sorry i lost interest in the story. Also can you bring me a change of pants? Hehehe if I have my way I will insert my degenerate furry fetishes into as many of your myths as possible. My coom will echo unto eternity.
How do I get a girlfriend?
>Throw car batteries into the ocean until the goddess of car batteries and love is satisfied. She's the only woman you'll ever satisfy.
Pourquoi-worshipping dipshits who think the ocean is made of the tears of the last demon left and only one left alive by their religion's protagonist after a near-total genocide of demons... It doesn't matter if they think swimming and making boats is holy or heretical aka based or cringe, they didn't invent the world's greatest boats. People motivated by stories of greatness understood reality for what it is, not for what the village elder says it is, and they made the best boats. And planes. And everything else ever. Except dynamite vests. Muslims made that. Also some primitive cultures invented stone and wood swords and then never invented anything else so because we pity them we pretend we didn't invent the same things but better 3000 years ago before moving on to iron and bronze and steel swords that could eat primitive tools for lunch and shit better ones out into the rivers primitives drink from.
Years ago I played some shit matches with incompetent teammates where there were more engineers than any other class in the match, the enemies had medics and heavy's everywhere along with soldiers so they fucked us up in the intelligence room of 2 fort then stole all the shit.>>4346
Myths are nothing more than fiction, stories surrounded in barbarity and glory. They are meant to represent tribal examples, now the shock and awe is centered around the excitement of digital illusions.
Friend cried a lot today because the clot shot took his own mother from him. Never met the woman but seeing him hurt like this hurt more than words can describe. I felt things then, but now I feel exhausted. A global conspiracy's raping the planet and it's killing people. She spent the final years of her life cooped inside, overwhelmed by fear, a slave of the television until its fashionable faucist jab took her life. That's no way to spend your final days. The enormity of it all is so... enormous. That was a person. And now she's gone. And everyone who knew her refuses to admit it's the vaccine that killed her, not kung flu. These idiot friends of hers are trying not to think about her passing because it threatens their religion. They're openly putting their faith in the death jabs over this person's life. Fear's overwhelming them so much, they can't process loss like this man could. They didn't feel a goddamn thing, not one of them, except this man I talked with today. I've tried to focus on my own life, made some nice sandwiches today, pretended everything's fine. Delusions on a planet-wide scale are distancing us from each other and reality. No wonder we're all fucking insane to some degree. This world's on a downward spiral. In a world gone mad, you'd have to be a little crazy to avoid losing it completely. And now... now we're all just expected to carry on like nothing is really happening. Just keep on pretending we're fine on a world we're pretending is fine. How are we supposed to handle this? If there's some secret trick I want to hear it. Does it ever get any easier?
Life feels surreal. I'm going through the motions and pretending to be fine but I can't stop thinking about the enemy. My tulpa waifu used to offer hilarious snarky commentary on my life, and she still does that but I can tell this mad world is pissing her off too. We can't think of anything funny to say about the madness any more. The enemy's insanity has become as familiar as gravity and there are no more funny observations to notice or contradictions to reveal. The enemy is just evil and saying dumb bullshit to confuse retarded cunts into joining team evil or being shit members of team good.
>>4354>I can't stop thinking about the enemy.
They've gone through all the material and it's just reruns of their acts it's what they've always done and it's nothing new, sometimes they put a 'new' coat of paint on their evil.
It makes exposing them smoother because of their enthrallment with evil that they know. Every trick, operation, act, and deed all categorized the thing is they need actual people to do their dirty work and to generate new things.
Point being is that there is a time and place to worry and obsess, but their evil ought to be relegated to plans of action then that's that.
Because they are boring and evil every joke is timeless, those jokes can be well worn, same with comments, same with it all. If you know what they want and what lengths they'll go to what's left is just what you want to do with that foreknowledge.
Sun Tsu said that more or less. All that's left is knowing yourself and occasionally brushing up on the enemy.<Control<Domination<Fear<Destruction <Hate <Predictable <Control<Distraction<Action<Control
The state they operate in is akin to bugs and a bit like programs. Their choices are limited by their very structural mode of being.
The paranormal factor plays into it, for this conversation what matters is that they've created 'chess pieces
' that anyone can move around the board.
Sometimes my ID changes at this location and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I'm relying on wifi extenders.
Maybe the strange quirks and tastes we develop are coping mechanisms?
If men dissatisfied with western women naturally look to fiction and their own capacity to create it would explain why so many furries are either hyper based horsefuckers who want to cum inside rainbow dash and raise good families in Equestria or perverted leftist cancercreatures who fantasize about worlds of unbridled (hehe horse pun) degeneracy and perversion where even they can get laid by tasteless whores: their ideal women.
It's strange how some fetishes are exaggerations of what's normal while others are entirely abnormal by design.
There is art with tremendous breasts and asses of excessive size, wide child-birthing hips, impossible hip to waist ratios, pregnancy taken to the next level to produce ten healthy kids or more, hand-holding, revealing clothing, consensual straight sex in the missionary position between conventionally attractive morally upright characters that ends in him unleashing two thousand gigaliters of semen inflating her to herald her incoming guaranteed pregnancy. Your favourite female fictional character or someone's OC chick is ploughed by a self-insert character, a floating anonymous dick, or a fit conventionally attractive male.
But no matter how impossibly exaggerated everything might become, it's still sex. Normal healthy body parts (and maybe also wings/horns/tails/extra limbs) are present. The exaggerated characters are engaging in traditional sexual activities in bedrooms. And maybe degenerate places like bars and strip clubs. Maybe even in forests.
And then, there's inherently disgusting shit that makes no sense like facials/shit/piss/feet/necrophilia/BDSM/the perversion of traditionally childish aesthetics and activities/gore/obesity. I'll never understand how anyone can like that. It's completely alien to me, like a foreign cultute too divorced from my own to be comprehensible.
Could anyone here with a hoof fetish explain that to me?
>>4358>Maybe the strange quirks and tastes we develop are coping mechanisms?
They are perversions that originate within the development of puberty or raised upon by adolescent curiosity. >If men dissatisfied with western women naturally look to fiction and their own capacity to create it would explain why so many furries are either hyper based horsefuckers who want to cum inside rainbow dash and raise good families in Equestria or perverted leftist cancercreatures who fantasize about worlds of unbridled (hehe horse pun) degeneracy and perversion where even they can get laid by tasteless whores: their ideal women.
The madness of this modernity is unparalleled, gays run rampant and all manners of lunatics are free to roam as they please. So many debauch deviants such as myself
are unhindered in fulfilling their deepest and darkest desires.>It's strange how some fetishes are exaggerations of what's normal while others are entirely abnormal by design.
Fetishes stem from fixations upon certain areas of sexual subjectivity that can be by definition arousing and then some are by fundamental values uninteresting, the matter lies in the mind as to what one decides they find pleasing or not, it is down to personal preference.>There is art with tremendous breasts and asses of excessive size, wide child-birthing hips, impossible hip to waist ratios,
These are rather plainly common as to what excites most people to erotic stupor. Boobs and bottoms are primitive perversities and so are rendered acceptable in normality.>pregnancy taken to the next level to produce ten healthy kids or more,
That is more along the lines of dog and cat rates of fertility and so could only plausibly be achieved by genetic manipulation of female eggs and sperm cells, a woman is the hostess of impregnation so she could have multiple premature fetuses inside her at once if there were to be several umbilical cords to feed them and the woman was to be exceedingly tall so she could have a larger womb to accommodate double digit infants inside her. >hand-holding, revealing clothing,
Eh, patrician tastes. Holding hands with a woman is more friendly than intimate, clothes are only worn because they are a part of the standard culture so nakedness is by far more revealing and natural.>consensual straight sex in the missionary position between conventionally attractive morally upright characters that ends in him unleashing two thousand gigaliters of semen inflating her to herald her incoming guaranteed pregnancy.
Gay. That's the most blandest procreative act possible, changing sex positions intermittently over the span of time with a girl you are going to have a family with will surely bring ecstatic excitement to both parties due to the variability. Foreplay is open to many options prior to the ritual of ejaculation, sometimes it can be very fun to do kinky shit so the pleasure increases during vaginal intercourse.>Your favourite female fictional character or someone's OC chick is ploughed by a self-insert character, a floating anonymous dick, or a fit conventionally attractive male.
Meh, suit yourself but that's honestly pretty boring.>But no matter how impossibly exaggerated everything might become, it's still sex.
To a practical extent, yes.>Normal healthy body parts (and maybe also wings/horns/tails/extra limbs) are present.
And so is the genitalia.>The exaggerated characters are engaging in traditional sexual activities in bedrooms.
Set and setting can have a lot to impact upon the experience, envision the scenario of sex on the beach (fuck the cocktail) or even in the polar opposite of on the ice, in a field or stables, in the snow and underwater. There are many places to go and women to fuck other than in the sleeping chambers.>And maybe degenerate places like bars and strip clubs.
Doing the dirty in a bar's public bathroom is just lazy, a strip club makes more sense if they were just hookers instead of strippers and pole dancers.>Maybe even in forests.
Now you're speaking my language, to hear the rush of a summer stream whilst pounding a bitch from behind against one of the many trees.
Bliss.>And then, there's inherently disgusting shit that makes no sense like facials
I understand the notion of swallowing semen more than facials, for there is a minor amount of nutrition in doing so. Handjobs with oils are alright but a good blowjob beats it (get it?) by a longshot.>shit
Depends, mine is bearable with some type of fruit juice to mask the taste, if not then it's horrible. Pony piss is salty and grassy but varies from mare to mare too, it's a lot better than a woman's.>feet
Fuck those things.>necrophilia
Maybe if you're into necromancy.>BDSM
Yes and no, most of it is pointless unless it's to do with leather.>the perversion of traditionally childish aesthetics and activities
Oh hell yeah, glory and guts. Sinew, pulmonary systems, organs. Blood is a effective lubricant if it's only my own.>obesity.
Nah.>I'll never understand how anyone can like that.
I sort of agree with you. Some forms of fetishes are a definite no go while others are invigorating.>It's completely alien to me, like a foreign cultute too divorced from my own to be comprehensible.
Placing oneself into another's shoes can be quite difficult, it's a concern to do with psychology are the majority of far fetched fetishes I believe. >Could anyone here with a hoof fetish explain that to me?
Hooves are sensually pleasing to touch but the frog is not when it is hard, soft frogs are enjoyable although. There is a reason why Equine pediatrists enjoy their job.
Huh. Well, you do you as long as you're not hurting anyone good.
Have you ever noticed how often jewish media pushes Inflation? It was in Space Jam 1 and 2. It's almost always in kids media. If someone isn't swelling up due to bicycle pump bullshit or blowing air into their thumbs or failing to blow up a balloon they're swelling due to a drug or allergic reaction.
>>4361>That is more along the lines of dog and cat rates of fertility
I recall reading that up to 10 kids is fairly common in many muslim households
Must be easy for them when they've got housewives they're legally allowed to punish, potentially multiple wives, and no jews fucking with their food prices or economy by brainwashing women into wanting to choose careers over kids.
Still they don't have 10 kids at once, the wife's just put through back to back pregnancies.
Ah huh, kek. >Well, you do you as long as you're not hurting anyone good.
Fine, although some people do need to be hurt for the greater good. As you already know by now (((who))).>Have you ever noticed how often jewish media pushes Inflation?
I fucking hate it, the producers of Hollywood are filthy cunts and belong in the oven.>It was in Space Jam 1 and 2.
I watched the first. I've never liked Disney or the Looney Toons altogether, the musicals are incredibly obnoxious.>It's almost always in kids media.
It's an experiment to sexualize impressionable children, the most vulnerable to subversion and indoctrination as well as brainwashing.>If someone isn't swelling up due to bicycle pump bullshit or blowing air into their thumbs or failing to blow up a balloon they're swelling due to a drug or allergic reaction.
Idiotic plausibility's that don't make logical sense, the process of this is more gruesome if it were to be real for the body would explode in a red mist because of the skin and muscle constriction of that inflated size.>>4363
At one point in the past Europe had such birthrates but now it has diminished and withered.
Everyone's heard the old jokes.>I asked my dad what he did for fun before the internet and he said he watched TV. I asked his dad what he did for fun before TV and he said "I don't know, I'll go and ask my twelve brothers and sisters!"
I blame the "Green" bullshit, all those lies about how whites need to lower their birth rates for the good of the planet...
Meanwhile it's "totally fine" to keep funding more worthless births in sub-90IQ African shitholes because "they use fewer resources", and it's "totally fine" to import them here or consume incalculable resources sending more resources over there to babysit arguments against evolution that only know violence and lies and can't maintain a functional society without whites around to do all the work and all the thinking...
And then because there aren't enough young people working to pay the retirement costs of the elderly, "Future lawyers doctors and teachers" were imported to "culturally enrich" us aka demographically transform us for the worse. Niggers were imported to replace whites and steal their opportunities and economic power and kill whites with police protection. Niggers were imported and paid to reproduce so they can have more kids than whites. Feminists brainwashed women into being hysterical sociopathic narcissistic baby-murdering retards who choose their life on easy mode and their privileged careers over being a functioning female member of society aka a housewife.
Whether the thought of exterminating all blacks down to the last man and woman and child turns your stomach or turns you on, the fact remains... If whites want to secure a future for themselves and their white children they need to stop those trying to take their future away. Kicking all blacks out of America(and sentencing those who refuse to leave to death) for now is the fastest and safest option. Jews deserve prison camps with trials and executions but blacks are too numerous to bother with camps. Bringing them here was a war crime and keeping them here is homicide via negligence. Our based ways are superior, we will produce more high-quality men and women than our enemies when blacks are gone. Any future plans for a worldwide crusade to purge enemies everywhere else will become very possible when we're not facing extinction in "Our" own home.
Hurt myself exercising, tried too hard today. Rested it off, felt better with time.
I should load retropi on my old PC that's just gathering dust.
or maybe my new one considering how slow and shit it's become at this point. Fuck windows.
have I been overburdening this device over the years? Its two hard drives are currently completely empty. Mostly. Ok I have 100gb of games installed including mugen. I'll uninstall them when I beat them. Also holy shit I forgot how much I fucking hate mugen and working with mugen's code. Btw body recovered from exercise injury. Time to exercise more.
>>4382>Btw body recovered from exercise injury. Time to exercise more
Glad to know.
A "based" website with one cucked jewlover moderator banned me (it only takes one pozzed cunt with power to ruin a whole site) so I've lost that source of social interaction.
I kind of wish I had a more interesting life to talk about full of exciting adventures. But at the same time I'm glad things are quiet. I am a simple man working on myself and my projects. I've never liked the spotlight, I only desire a quiet life, and making my dream games will make me happy.
>>4368>Everyone's heard the old jokes.
Hearing jokes is different to telling them, it requires an effort of charisma or else it falls apart when the body language doesn't reflect the emitted vocals.>I blame the "Green" bullshit, all those lies about how whites need to lower their birth rates for the good of the planet...
Incompetence at the highest echelons of power. Large families are no longer supported by the ministries themselves.>Meanwhile it's "totally fine" to keep funding more worthless births in sub-90IQ African shitholes because "they use fewer resources", and it's "totally fine" to import them here or consume incalculable resources sending more resources over there to babysit arguments against evolution that only know violence and lies and can't maintain a functional society without whites around to do all the work and all the thinking...
Expendable apes, leave them to dwindle in their sun scorched savannas. Dumb darks.>And then because there aren't enough young people working to pay the retirement costs of the elderly, "Future lawyers doctors and teachers" were imported to "culturally enrich" us aka demographically transform us for the worse.
The rates of unemployment are at an all time high of sloth and laziness, most of the elderly are being paid to sit inside their homes and watch the terrible television until they rot away to a skeleton.>Niggers were imported to replace whites and steal their opportunities and economic power and kill whites with police protection.
It is extinction by pacifism, the willing march to the genetic graveyard. The imported numpty Negro's have mixed their blood with the careless naïve and so have created abominations, even so that my own freak of a half caste half brother is nothing more than a death and dumb bogeyed retard because my foolish father was a greater degenerate than I.>Niggers were imported and paid to reproduce so they can have more kids than whites.
And so were the inbred Indians when they were delivered here.>Feminists brainwashed women into being hysterical sociopathic narcissistic baby-murdering retards who choose their life on easy mode and their privileged careers over being a functioning female member of society aka a housewife.
The natural feminine role has been superseded by corporate need for greed, so that they spend more time working than finding potential partners. This online dating culture has otherwise ruined the potential for face to face relationships, while the pubs are becoming redundant areas for meeting young women for most of them are too bothered with work, college and university. They appall me such that the only redeemable qualities most have are their physical bodies rather than their meaningless mentalities.>Whether the thought of exterminating all blacks down to the last man and woman and child turns your stomach or turns you on, the fact remains...
Kill them all! Kids and mothers blood on the wall. Burned bodies and sizzled screams, barbecue blacks, hack them up then eat their remains and gnaw the marrow, massacre men and butcher bitches. Ha Ha! >If whites want to secure a future for themselves and their white children they need to stop those trying to take their future away.
By the elimination of opposition, the emancipation of the nation. Discard these democratic dictators, rid me of flaws and disorders, deluded laws and obedient orders no more. Freed from faggots.>Kicking all blacks out of America(and sentencing those who refuse to leave to death) for now is the fastest and safest option.
Certainly, prioritize the main targets first and foremost.>Jews deserve prison camps with trials and executions but blacks are too numerous to bother with camps.
Camps are too time consuming, it's easier to euthanize by bullet while gas requires chemical preparation beforehand and gunpowder is far faster to produce.>Bringing them here was a war crime and keeping them here is homicide via negligence.
What is happening is an orchestra of planned invasions, fulfilled by the docility of modernity.>Our based ways are superior, we will produce more high-quality men and women than our enemies when blacks are gone.
The underline meaning of European ethnicity has lost it's integrity in the eyes of elites, the preservation of our cultural heritage is a hereditary birthright that is bonded unto blonde bloodlines.>Any future plans for a worldwide crusade to purge enemies everywhere else will become very possible when we're not facing extinction in "Our" own home.
Correction unneeded. Wipe the lesser from a world as illustrious as this, for they do not deserve a slice of the world's wonderful pie.>>4385
How unique are your identification numbers. mon ami?
>>4393>How unique are your identification numbers. mon ami?
If you have to know... then let me show you.
Look at the (you)
Ah hah! Not required to know but thanks anyways.
Triple six, triple K. Fuck that triple H though, he's a pussy wrestler.
I forgot how exhausting parties are. One guy brought his PS4 and no games, forgot he deleted everything to make room for fucking AssCreed and GTAV and expexted us to just watch him fuck everything up in these single player games for the entirety of the party. Thank fuck for retropi, plugged that into the party host's bedroom tv and we played fighting games while the faggot played AssCreed Odyssey on his own in the living room. Being the gamer chad who saved a failing party feels good.
>>4410>I forgot how exhausting parties are.
Any party groups with more than 4 or 5 people is always stressful to be around, sociability is hard when it's divided between such numbers because attention has to be frequently diverted amongst the crowd.>One guy brought his PS4 and no games, forgot he deleted everything to make room for fucking AssCreed and GTAV and expexted us to just watch him fuck everything up in these single player games for the entirety of the party.
Sounds inconsiderate of him, the newer consoles with their multi millionaire games companies are a waste of technology. Machines designed to eat up peoples money and time, no objectively intriguing story premises to be truly learned from.>Thank fuck for retropi, plugged that into the party host's bedroom tv and we played fighting games while the faggot played AssCreed Odyssey on his own in the living room.
Sometimes the energetic entertainment of squabbling gaming competition can be the epitome of emotional enjoyment, other times can be debilitatingly depressing when the people around are sore losers and so ruins the fun among everyone else.>Being the gamer chad who saved a failing party feels good.
To be the star of the limelight and all appreciative attention is focused upon oneself is a sensation of leading pride. Although group activities are mostly only intriguing when partaken within good company, as opposed to others that you share no common ground with.
I was at a new store, buying eggs without a mask. I asked a chubby woman in the store's uniform, "Where are the eggs?"
And she takes me there while flirting with me, asking me what I'll use the eggs for, I tell her I'll eat them, she's internally screaming while staring at me like I'm the hottest motherfucker she's seen all day, and I say thank you and walk to the cashier with the eggs.
Women are weird.
True. Women ain't shit but hoes and tricks, and the trick is that they say we live in a society when really we're slaves in a gynocentric matriarchal jewocracy.
I haven't seen Squid Game but nobody's shutting up about it IRL. Is it more jewish subversion?
Always found it funny how when YIIK got attacked by SJWs, he tried going to gamers and saying "Fuck SJWs" but they weren't impressed with his game either. Gamers don't hate SJWs because they're arbitrarily opposed, gamers hate SJWs because SJWs are pure evil and on a quest to conquer everything, even entertainment.
On the surface YIIK looks pozzed as hell. Gay-ass characters with gay-ass appearances and turbo gay personality traits. Even the main hero's designed to look like an obnoxious self-insert.
Below the surface it's an intentionally unfun game designed to be unpleasant. Making it a bad game by definition.
If this is also art, this piece of art and the choices made involving its development (and how its best ending is locked to a developer-only youtube account) seem to say "Fuck gamers, they're puppets playing into artificial narratives where they get to be the hero. But if the devs don't let gamers get the secret ending where they're the hero, only the devs can unlock that ending".
The hero's a whiny twat but he only grows out of that in the developer-only ending, so there is no growth in the version of the game players get to experience. I guess you could call this "ARG Shenanigans" but a piece of media's quality should be there even without any external pieces of media. We should be able to enjoy a game without relying on information or content in the enclosed instruction book and movie and ARG puzzle bullshit and TV series and mobile game spinoff and prequel and three sequels and youtube-only four-episode series of animated shorts. All that extra shit can enhance media but it shouldn't be required to enjoy the media.
Meanwhile because the game makes the stupid hipster protagonist a cunt everyone who plays the game will hate, actual hipster cunts hate it for holding a mirror to their faces and making them shriek "Ugly!".
The developer referenced the real vanishing of an asian woman and the IRL speculation on her kidnapping or something, in a game where everything that happens is bullshit intended to give the protagonist shit to do. His universe really does revolve around him like he thinks it does. I guess you could call that insulting to the real asian woman, but the dev wanted this to say "White people don't care when nonwhites disappear" even though that's complete bullshit. Hell, he only heard about the disappearance in the first place because of the whites talking about it. It's always weird when SJWs with blatant fetishes for African/African-American/Native-American culture and fetishes for black rapists try to act like they think there must be something wrong with any white guy who likes Asians or includes them in his work in any significant way. They'll shoehorn blacks into King Arthur because of their fetish for replacing whites and taking part in the great replacement, then they'll blabber lies about the importance and necessity of divershitty when it benefits them, then they'll insist some white guy's a pervert for putting asians (especially cute asian girls) in his shit.
The left have cuck fetishes, the left rapes kids with the aid of islamists they import and protect and enable, the left have black fetishes, and because weebs aren't africa fetishists like the left, they hate weebs. The Japanese know body pillows of hot anime babes sell better than SJW Marvel capeshit. A weeb with a katana's technically still exercising, making him fitter than a feminist.
It's like Asians are only "Diverse" to the left and therefore deserving of special privileges when they can't compete in any asian country or an affirmative-action antiwhite country like America and due to their failure and entitlement, feel like they have to become professional narcissistic "Activists" in the war on whites to get ahead. Fucking weird. Then again, that one black politician got attacked by a white leftist woman in a gorilla mask and that wasn't called a hate crime because leftists only give privileges to actively anti-white and passively anti-white enemy combatants.
The only meaningful choice the player can make in the version of the game players got their hands on is to end the game, but Stanley Parable(Nonlinearity is a false idol, for a game to offer you freedom it has to anticipate your choices and falls apart if you do anything legitimately or seemingly unexpected like pulling the plug, the storyteller needs the listener, morality plays like the baby fire game suck ass, artsy games that get too far up their own ass forget to be good games, nonlinear games will inherently have linear paths even if there are a lot of them) Undertale(don't get me started, but Undertale seems to insist the best way to experience media is to use your free time and game-fucking superpowers like resetting to experience it fully in the best way possible and appreciate the developer's product as intended because you'll only learn Frisk's name if you act like Frisk and be the nicest guy possible like he would even if it means dying many times trying to Pacifist the game, because being a "get through enough of the game, fuck the story just kill enemies, then move on to the next without experiencing the best and depeest parts" kind of guy makes you Chara) beat YIIK to that punch long ago.
YIIK isn't really clever or deep, but it could have been really clever if it started off like a shit game and then challenged the player to stop treating it like a video game and start breaking it. The wimpy whiny twat hero starts saying "I have no idea why I did that, why did it work?" and "I guessed the password correctly, haha lucky" and "What the FUCK is going on why did the final villain just drop dead" as he stops being the protagonist of his doomed-to-failure story while the player takes his hero role and earns it. Using knowledge gained via save scumming, editing an easily-accessed fake save file, killing an invincible boss by deleting fake character files DDLC style, the player character chooses to give this doomed tale a happy ending.
Hehe design doc calls for asynchronous time storage system that violates the finality of a 2d fighting game
Coding makes my two brain cells copulate
I hope this is the right place for this sort of advice...
I designed a fighting game character with a lot of abilities and when playtesting him in my head I discovered using certain moves in a certain way means the game never ends.
The timer never runs out. Nobody loses health. The round never ends unless you unplug the PC and forfeit. Even if you pressed a button that made your character pull out a gun and blow his own brains out it wouldn't help. My guy's technique is absolute. He spends meter to prolong a match and has moves that give him too much meter.
The "Funbro" strategy that made Smogon think of the Endless Battle Clause ain't got shit on this.
I have three ways I can fix this... hyper-infinite?
A normal infinite combo in fighting games combos the foe to death. This combos the game to undeath potentially forever. A bot could do this forever as long as no power outages happen.
Either I limit how many times he can use a certain awesome and incredibly unique move that took way too fucking long to get right to just once per round, maybe even once per match
or I remove his meter-building move entirely
or I program his Stalling move and all other supers and EX specials to work on separate meters, so you can't stall the game out by building meter while stalling then spending meter to stall more.
Some of these options are easier than others. I guess it comes down to how much effort I want to put into this but every second spent on this is a second taken away from my main indie game.
By the way, stalling is just one of my move's many amazing uses. But because it's so good for comebacks, maybe it should be a "once per round" thing you always have access to until it is used. After all if it costs 3 bars of meter who the hell would ever fire BIG FUCKIN LASER when this genius play is always on the table? Then again if you could use it multiple times in a match would that harm its hype factor? This is the kind of move that, if used in a real fighting game tournament, would make the whole crowd scream and cheer and jump for joy and lose their goddamn minds in a hype overload. It's so fucking cool. Maybe it should be overused? This one move has limitless implications on balance and combos and more. It turns every option in my hand into a good one. even the option to do fuck all. I can literally press the button and do fuck all and still end up in a better position. I don't just take the advantage or take advantage of the advantage state, I take advantage of the code to take the opponent's life bar away, take the opponent's will to live away, even take the opponent's win away. Name any strong character in fighting game history. You can name a character with broken overpowered moves that take the opponent's health and meter and lives away. But... You can't name a character who can do that. Nobody can violate the game itself like this. I didn't stop time. I fucked time.
Oh hey my id changed
That stupid woman microwaved rice in a foiled packet, it sparked and burned the packet and the rice, all she had to do was turn the microwave off or unplug it but she stood there yelping with her hands up like the microwave was a niggerloving cop with a gun. Didn't even think to call for help, just expressed shock at a problem until I wondered what the noise was and came over. Goddamn women. Nothing matters to them but their feelings.
a man walks into a bar and says "Can I have the menu please?"
and the bartender says "Sure, I'm done fucking them".
See the joke is that menu please sounds like menu please
also I'm amazed at how hard and intelligently I've been working lately.
Fellow based geniuses, why is Animal Crossing so popular with faggots whose lives have turned into such absolute messes that they considered "I did adulting stuff today like cleaning my room" a colossal and hyper-rare achievement?
Is it because the game is so easy, dull, tedious, mind-numbing, and repetitive that the sunk cost fallacy makes you afraid to admit your 800 hours with the game were wasted just like the 2+ hours you'll spend with it tomorrow and the next day and the next and the next?
If I want to experience the sensation of "No thoughts, head empty" I throw myself into a hardcore video game I'm good at and experience the flow state. I experience Ultra Instinct. I rip and tear in Doom Eternal Only Faster. I experience enough dopamine to kill an elephant every time I Heavenly Potemkin Buster someone. I play my own game's endless mode and ignore the placeholder graphics and fight until I die.
But I guess that's not an option for some people. So they choose to grind away at mundane insanities in worship of companies that sell repackaged nostalgiacoom back to the consoomers.
why does my ID keep changing
Cuz even your ID wants to dissociate XDDD
I'm doing no nut november but I haven't nutted in months.
So to partake in the spirit of NNN, I'm taking a month-long break from all forms of sexual media.
Anon is hoarding power and that's awesome.
Getting fucking ripped and highly productive helped my self-confidence, masculinity, and self-image more than any pussy-ass therapist could have.
Besides, the therapists probably would have spent the whole time trying to blame child-me for what the bitchy out-of-control females in my life did to me as a kid.
Anything to keep a white man sad and paying for his therapy sessions.
Maybe No Nut November should be upgraded into No Sin November. No nutting, but also no porn, degenerate media, fast food, processed meat, no unhealthy shit of any kind. Mandatory exercise and mandatory positive productivity.
Who's definition of 'sin' are we using, and why isnt it yours?
the list of sinful activities I mentioned...
I choose to avoid them for the month.
Disagree with my list's choices?
I didn't see any point in listing sinful things I already don't do.
>>4532>no unhealthy shit of any kind
Good luck making that bar. Also, unhealthy according to whom?
If you ever look at a hot babe and think "I want her to step on me, choke me, crush my testes, inflict violence upon me", you're a faggot.
Women are supposed to have that reaction to men.
Women are supposed to crave pain, not inflict it.
>>4469>By the way, stalling is just one of my move's many amazing uses. But because it's so good for comebacks, maybe it should be a "once per round" thing you always have access to until it is used. After all if it costs 3 bars of meter who the hell would ever fire BIG FUCKIN LASER when this genius play is always on the table? Then again if you could use it multiple times in a match would that harm its hype factor? This is the kind of move that, if used in a real fighting game tournament, would make the whole crowd scream and cheer and jump for joy and lose their goddamn minds in a hype overload. It's so fucking cool. Maybe it should be overused? This one move has limitless implications on balance and combos and more. It turns every option in my hand into a good one. even the option to do fuck all. I can literally press the button and do fuck all and still end up in a better position. I don't just take the advantage or take advantage of the advantage state, I take advantage of the code to take the opponent's life bar away, take the opponent's will to live away, even take the opponent's win away. Name any strong character in fighting game history. You can name a character with broken overpowered moves that take the opponent's health and meter and lives away. But... You can't name a character who can do that. Nobody can violate the game itself like this. I didn't stop time. I fucked time.
Reminds me of how it's possible to use inputs to reprogram games like Pokemon Yellow. I don't see why it isn't possible with Mugen with enough time and know-how.>>4498>Fellow based geniuses, why is Animal Crossing so popular with faggots whose lives have turned into such absolute messes that they considered "I did adulting stuff today like cleaning my room" a colossal and hyper-rare achievement?
Because for a chronic procrastinator, doing chores in a cutesy, colorful game where even the chores are designed to be fun is satisfying. It gives you the illusion or excuse of "accomplishment" without having to do icky, unfun things like clear your closet out of cobwebs. Inertia is quite powerful: if you're used to physical, tedious chores you won't hesitate to get to them if you're not lazy; if you tend to spend most of your waking hours sitting down staring at a screen you'll put off anything that's not strictly necessary. This is why exercise is important.>>4535
How did you guess how it works? Also I am OP. My ID changed again.
Also that Animal Crossing stuff makes sense.
And fuck modern movies. Saw the Angry Birds movie and it's got annoying feminist cringe scene where the white male red bird tries doing everything himself and needs the girl one's help but won't admit it. Stupid feminist propaganda. Shit like this encourages women to think they're qualified on things they know nothing about and any man who says "please stop you are not a qualified electrician" is just patriarching.
You know what's an underrated teaching tool in fighting games?
Playing with another person, in training mode.
Infinite health at minimum, perhaps even savestates and visible hitboxes and game speed adjustments, maybe even LUA scripting if you're really fancy.
You're not trying to "Win" against the other player or expect them to grasp a concept they just heard for the first time while under pressure, you're trying to teach them how to win, how to deal with common situations, and it can take as long as it takes.
It reminded me of that training scene in The Matrix.
I even quoted the "Stop trying to hit me, and hit me!" line.
I did this with a friend recently who's new to fighting games and I was shocked at how quickly it helped him learn enough of the basics to make our matches fun for both of us. It's definitely better than just going into a VS match and holding back for the illusion of back-and-forth momentum while telling him how to walk and expecting him to dance.
At least it has a good take on immigration, which I think beats out one little feminist moment.
Do you think the bit where the guy "decided he wasn't ready for commitment and left her at the altar" was pozzed?
It seems like propaganda to shame men who back out of marriage at the last second or don't feel like commiting to a woman when a healthy relationship doesn't need a contract restricting your rights and permanently financially enslaving you to her to keep it together. The focus is on her feels and his random nonsensical no-reason-provided moment of "lmao nope marriage sux" but this is used as her retarded obligatory freudian excuse.
Ever notice how in fiction, good is the default state of practically all beings not explicitly declared "pure evil and evil in nature" and any deviancy from this requires an excuse in the form of a tragic backstory or goal or ideology?
I think I've met a good woman. I hope this turns out better than the last times.
>>4563>I think I've met a good woman
There's not such a thing. Either you have the upper hand and rule over the beast, or you are a cuck. Can't be any other way.
Anyway, it is hardwired in women's brain to try to flip the game and dominate men by any mean necessary, and if it is not, she will play the submissive good woman to keep leeching you for as long as possible. You are warned.
See: >>1566 →
But this one likes it when I dominate her.
Sure, as long as she can leech you, you will be the one.
By general rule, it is only a matter the time for anyone to run into monetary troubles, or another cuck with more money than you to show up. Both scenarios will mean the beginning of the end of any relationship.
You can't change how women are hardwired.
You were right. She turned out to be a huge bitch.
>>4563>>4568>>4570>I think I've met a good woman.>I hope this turns out better than the last times.>But this one likes it when I dominate her.>You were right. <She turned out to be a huge bitch.
Villainous whores, classical. What was there to be expected? HA! Nothing less nor more!
I'm glad nothing bad will happen as a result of that failed relationship. We're just going to pretend we never met each other. And then never look or speak to each other again. The game has themes, I... guess? But most people are just there to BUY A PIXELIZER. Collect trading cards. Immunetocriticismimmunetocriticism super fighting robot you tried to leave my rangers alone. You said you'd kill them. O o o o what
what a trick
are we looking at the next skid mcmarx here
umbris is another world that gets cucked
Women are fucked in the head.
Remember Attack On Titan?
There's this scene where the hero guy Eren just became a cool monster called a "Titan" and saved everyone's asses from the bad Titans.
He's chained up and on trial and the cunty humans are afraid of him.
So this thirty something beyblade midget with OCD strolls up to him and kicks him in the gut and says "See? This little bitch is harmless".
Just kidding, he kicked more than once. He kicked way too many times. And not just in the gut. Eren lost teeth. Sure he can grow those back but still.
It was written to be a shocking moment.
I get that. It worked.
And it made women all over the world flood their designer skinnyjeans.
You would not believe how many horny insane bitches were drawing and writing porn of these two boning. All because this shocking moment of tiny man on taller helpless(by choice, he could have turned Titan from any injury if he wanted violence) chained teenager violence turned them on.
Later the murder midget gets more character development and screentime but this was the moment that made women want him to fuck them and fuck Eren.
Reminds me of Reylo.
Bad boy dangerous man (with a stupid-ass face and petulant feminine manchild soyboy attitude and random infantile Vader fetish) on the scaaary alluring cool "nazi" side they're told to hate and fear, even though the only glimpse of Empire policies we ever get are "they want to be in charge... oh and smugglers are common".
And bland generic grey Ma-Rey Sue who's just sooooo perfect despite being bad at acting and so painfully bland-looking she's unpleasant to look at...
No wonder women got so horny for it.
Women legitimately want to be dominated. It's in their nature. Even ones who claim to not want domination change their minds the second they see what they percieve as a worthy master. I'll change my mind on this the second I see a woman who's a genuine libertarian even when it comes to the rights of those beside herself and niggers and jews. Shit women want to be made to submit and feel there is no other option. Because when they have options they get picky and egotistical and irrational and whiny and bratty and flakey and way too eager to rob one man of semen and cash and kids before moving on to the next and the next and the next. I have never seen a woman who didn't want to be stepped on by somebody, be it a fictitious man or the fictitious public persona of a fake Celebrity. It's in the nature of women and the most feminine men out there failed by their boomer fathers and raised by their feminist boomer mothers to be as female as possible. Women want to be dominated and they started shit-testing men just as their jews taught them for being far too pozzed to give feminists the pumishments they deserved for being war criminals in the war on boys, men, and civilization.
I forgot to specify this but Eren is in human form during the court scene. He was in human form when they arrested him too. So the scene looks like a dude kicking a helpless defenceless dude when he's down. I get that it was supposed to look like that, and make characters in-universe feel bad for Eren. The hilarious part is how horny it made women for the guy kicking the crap out of the hero.
I bet if these fucks watched Jojo's Bizzare Adventure they'd walk away from it wanting to fuck Steely Dan and Alessi.
I have transcended DP with a tool so disgusting I actually feel hesitant to put it in the game.
That would sound weird to a non-gamer...
Many fighting games have a "dragon punch", an invincible reversal that fulfills the same role as classic Ryu's Shoryuken: getting you out of a bad situation invincibly if used at the perfect time.
What if it was metal?
I decided to make it metal.
I always hated how a Shoryuken leaves you in the air when it's done. So punishable. How about a grounded Shoryuken you can extend by mashing?
Thus, guitar shredding to shred the foe's healthbar.
Skidaddle skidoodle I control the neutral.
Fuck marvel's sky beams, mine's bigger.
*crosses up behind you and in front of you at the same time*
nothing personell kid
*breaks time and space*
>>4574>Women are fucked in the head.
Obviously they are, the purpose of women is to continue our bloodlines through procreation and to ensure the future of children as the 14 words reference but when that primal purpose is perverted we get sluts and whores who revel in shameless acts of debauchery.>Women legitimately want to be dominated. It's in their nature.
Of course, as do most other mammals want to dominate and submit to each other, we too have this underline desire to impregnate females and procreate as women should want to be mothers for males.>Even ones who claim to not want domination change their minds the second they see what they percieve as a worthy master.
Actions speak louder than words, it is thoughts which give rise to deliberate acts and not literal syllables. They are creatures of femininity and emotion rather than logical thought or reasoning.>I'll change my mind on this the second I see a woman who's a genuine libertarian even when it comes to the rights of those beside herself and niggers and jews.
Good luck on that one, 'cause you're gonna need it.>Shit women want to be made to submit and feel there is no other option. Because when they have options they get picky and egotistical and irrational and whiny and bratty and flakey and way too eager to rob one man of semen and cash and kids before moving on to the next and the next and the next. I have never seen a woman who didn't want to be stepped on by somebody, be it a fictitious man or the fictitious public persona of a fake Celebrity. It's in the nature of women and the most feminine men out there failed by their boomer fathers and raised by their feminist boomer mothers to be as female as possible. Women want to be dominated and they started shit-testing men just as their jews taught them for being far too pozzed to give feminists the pumishments they deserved for being war criminals in the war on boys, men, and civilization.
There are some good girls out there that hate niggers and the government but you'll only find one in a blue moon, I have lost the majority of my trust within the general populace of humanity which includes the vastness of normal's and roasties alike. They are almost alien to me although I can analyze their intentions and motives through study of their body language or vocabulary, I'd love to have a family but not right now in the present although it seems like a ideal end goal to me as long as I can associate my bond towards a potential partner.Still I have yet to find a decent girl, let alone fuck one or even a kiss. Albeit I'm not a virgin by the ordinary means of intercourse with human females, through dark and degenerate deviation has this been bestowed upon me which I do not regret.>Therapy
I've always been lonely and without friends, though I still remain active tending to my responsibilities and duties. Some women can be talked to easier than others as with men too but communication is not as preferable to being mutable, such as my inherent recluse behavior permits me to socialize, I may discuss the necessities of business better than personal affairs due to the evasion of my hidden intentions.
I have tried therapy in the past but the communication and self reflection is more of a stress than a reliefTL;DR
I'm distrustful of women akin to men, though I have other passions which serve to keep me occupied and focused while at the same time make me happy even if they're completely fucked
and stop me from steeping back into that pit of deep depression and utter loneliness which I no longer dread.
Mostly off-topic and not necessarily directed at you in particular:
Women really aren't worth worrying about. I've had two long term relationships and a few flings. It gets exhausting after a while. It seems like a lot of virgins get hung up on their situation and feel a sense of dread due to their virginity, but I promise you that same dread comes back once you've lost it and haven't had sex in a while. The only plus is that you stop caring after x amount of time since your curiosity has long since been sated and going without is significantly easier.
Mares will always be superior because they're a romantic fantasy like most of us were conditioned to believe was reality since childhood only to be disillusioned by actual modern women and their true nature.
Tl;dr: I've have had sexual+romantic relationships and I'd genuinely rather think about mares before ever bothering with any real woman. The thought of cuddling a mare is superior to fucking some lame bitch.
Don't beat yourselves up, virgins. You're really not missing out on anything that great.
>>4589>Mostly off-topic and not necessarily directed at you in particular:
Understood.>Women really aren't worth worrying about.
About that much and more was previously gathered from contemplation, that and comparisons from others experiences.>I've had two long term relationships and a few flings. It gets exhausting after a while.
That's what I fear about those kinds of situations with them, the aftermath of the initial infatuation would drive me to inevitable insanity resulting in multiple mad methods of escape which would potentially threaten both myself and whoever else involved.>It seems like a lot of virgins get hung up on their situation and feel a sense of dread due to their virginity, but I promise you that same dread comes back once you've lost it and haven't had sex in a while.
It always returns, for it is the loathsome lust which pervades and invades the psyche, it must be kept at bay and under supervision lest it grow into a unavoidable annoyance which increases the tallying of days gone by since the last intercourse. Virginity is a mental delusion while pointless sex is an emotional illusion, once that fleshy hole has been penetrated and the goal is complete it does queer things to one's mind in relation to dopamine and the potential acquiring of addiction.>The only plus is that you stop caring after x amount of time since your curiosity has long since been sated and going without is significantly easier.
Knowing the sensation satisfies the phallus and makes it a remembrance as opposed to being unbeknownst about velvet-like vagina.>Mares will always be superior because they're a romantic fantasy like most of us were conditioned to believe was reality since childhood only to be disillusioned by actual modern women and their true nature.
A pony female with the intelligence and vocals of a human, mixed habits of horses and humans with a social dynamic of both, the compassion of peak feminine values with loyalty to her mate. Semper fidelis equus.
If only it were reality... >I've have had sexual+romantic relationships and I'd genuinely rather think about mares before ever bothering with any real woman.I think about mares 24/7, they burn in my brain and are fixed within this labyrinth of thoughts. My thought form(s) is supportive of the ponies which I obsess upon.>The thought of cuddling a mare is superior to fucking some lame bitch.
I agree wholeheartedly.
>>4594>That's what I fear about those kinds of situations with them, the aftermath of the initial infatuation would drive me to inevitable insanity resulting in multiple mad methods of escape which would potentially threaten both myself and whoever else involved.
The onset of infatuation is powerful when you're relatively new to relationships, but it's something that quickly plateaus into a tedious emotional tug of war that will drain you over time. The worst part is that you might not realize it at any phase until it's too far gone. It's always good to handle IRL relationships with a fair deal of analytical distance, if you can be bothered by it. There are good girls out there worth loving, but they're increasingly scarce. Don't get attached.>Knowing the sensation satisfies the phallus and makes it a remembrance as opposed to being unbeknownst about velvet-like vagina.
Maybe, but it doesn't matter if your memories of coitus are plain. Virgins could always consider seeking out prostitutes to sate their curiosity and carnal urges. Hell, I've fucked hookers when I had money to burn and I couldn't be bothered with trying to romance some local meth head in my town. It's not some ascendent thing.
Not directed at you in particular, but others who may read this.
My point is that virgins would realize how irrelevant sex is to overall happiness if they could see the forest 'fore the trees.>I think about mares 24/7, they burn in my brain and are fixed within this labyrinth of thoughts. My thought form(s) is supportive of the ponies which I obsess upon.
Likewise, friend. We are united in our autism. I have always tried to use it as a vehicle for self-improvement. You're definitely more intelligent than me, just direct your autism effectively to succeed in life.
It took me ten years to find the answer to something I forgot in two seconds
>>4595>The onset of infatuation is powerful when you're relatively new to relationships, but it's something that quickly plateaus into a tedious emotional tug of war that will drain you over time.
So can be said for affairs with human females but I assure it changes when applied in context to cross species intimacies, I have found that it rather does not wane over time but enlarges into a bond without the nuisances of language or the nagging of voices which turn into vicious vices once heard on repeat. The annoyance of perpetual whining is enough to spark fury and vigorous rage, for this would be my reaction to the perceived agitator who emits verbal stress and I know it.>The worst part is that you might not realize it at any phase until it's too far gone.
Perhaps this notion of realization which you reference does not occur to me in a manner that brings about regrets but that's my personal perspective so it's not the same as what yours may be, I could give an analysis of my current strange sexual status but due to it's closeted and convoluted concealment I choose not to even if it's occasionally hinted, so it's best left to guesswork to whomever has any idea of what it could be.>It's always good to handle IRL relationships with a fair deal of analytical distance, if you can be bothered by it.
As such a masked and devised spoken tactic is more persuasive than that of true honesty could ever be from my standpoint, manipulation is not fun to perform and neither is playing with someone's emotions, for I would much prefer to let my inner instinctual intents fully loose than make mind games with a woman who I'm practically using to further my lusts.
Recognize patterns in one's behaviors and body language along with facial expressions, to analyze them from a position where judgments may be made towards their potentiality as a mate.>There are good girls out there worth loving, but they're increasingly scarce. Don't get attached.
A furthering ideal of the past. The most likely to be found which meet the criteria of breed able tend to be in rural areas compared to that of the densely populated places, for obvious reasons.>Maybe, but it doesn't matter if your memories of coitus are plain.
Ah, not if the first copulation is immeasurably beyond any normal means of the act which most experience, it then leaves a lasting impression that is unforgettable when it exceeds all expectations of the ordinary. >Virgins could always consider seeking out prostitutes to sate their curiosity and carnal urges.
It is an option that is rarely considered, there are plenty more choices that appeal to different tastes and cater to deeper desires. They're the frequently used sluts who exist to calm the cravings and lustful longings.>Hell, I've fucked hookers when I had money to burn and I couldn't be bothered with trying to romance some local meth head in my town.
How American indeed, the pinnacles of liberty.>Likewise, friend. We are united in our autism.
How about a confederacy of ass burgers?>I have always tried to use it as a vehicle for self-improvement.
If that's the purpose you have chosen to use it for then so be it, anon.>You're definitely more intelligent than me, just direct your autism effectively to succeed in life.
I appreciate your flattery. Efficiency is not my strong suit nor what makes me somewhat successful in what I do for a habitual hobby, it's the ability to comprehend others mindsets and manners while maintaining respect for what they want but prioritizing my own needs first and foremost without worrying about others unless they are my direct affiliates.
It's been nice to vent some words on a Slovakian sex site with you.
OneShot was disappointing
I was told it is "like undertale" and got my hopes up too high
The game's ARG shit was really fun
But the writing was a bit too on the nose and spelled-out
I'd still rate it a positive on steam and happily get OneShot 2: Shoot One Harder if it came out.
I decided to nerf my character.
He had this move... How do I describe it?
You'd do it, and a big sky beam would cover the entire vertical space while he invincibly slid forwards for a distance determined by the button you pressed.
Sound waves would also damage foes in front of you.
These sound waves would also reflect enemy projectiles.
Did I mention you could extend the duration of this move by mashing?
And it was a Special.
A fucking Input Special
Not a Super.
Not even a Charge Move
A Special move you execute with a simple input for no cost.
Doing this move just fucking turned the game off for several seconds.
Either you did your own thing charging meter manually via a dedicated charge move or whiffing normals into specials, or you politely waited to my character to stop being invincible.
It was just too good of a move. It invalidated too many options the opponent had. And too many options I had. It was so good, there was never a reason to fuck around with his big brain gimmicks.
My big brain gimmicks will be absolute.
How do I talk to my retarded cringe friend who constantly talks in edgelord wannabe speak, babbling about inner darkness and his struggles against his dark half interspersed with TFS references and normie media/nigger rapper quotes?
How do I help him get over this?
Is there some magic video that makes him stop trying to sound like a japanese cartoon character nobody over the age of twelve would like?
I'm surprised that one guy didn't take this opportunity to yell "hurr durr that sounds like u becoz ur a poopyhead".
Maybe his family is forcing him to try and get a job and that's taking time away from refreshing this site daily waiting for an opportunity to bitch and moan at me embarassingly.
Evidently I live rent free
How many years has it been since you started with this bullshit for the love of...
Fuck it, maybe if you feel like you win this one you'll be less inclined to keep at this
Neat my ID changed again.
Want to hear a funny story?
one time when I was under sixteen at school a woman shoved me into a swimming pool when I wasn't looking and then fell in after me. I swam away screaming because I didn't fucking know this bitch. Bitch who fell in after me claims I held her underwater and attacked her and tried to drown her even though an entire room of people saw otherwise. The teachers try gaslighting and isolating me into confessing and it doesn't work. Only when the cops are called do we finally get to see camera footage proving me to be the honest one, but the spiteful old hag got away with this of course. Not even a fine for wasting police time. Imagine a world where women cops are forced to punish the karens who try wielding police force like a club to get their way, or a world where physically punishing women like that is legal and necessary. This gynocracy is corrupt.
I think too many people blurt out "I HAVE THIS GREAT IDEA FOR A GAME" then they say some dumb easy vague bullshit
and they want praise for that
because if it actually existed they would be first in line to buy it
but they dont feel like learning to code and animate and figuring out how this "idea" (fantasy) of theirs would function and making the damn thing compromise with reality to be feasible on a budget so they just sort of fantasize in a corner about a fantasy where they already made this.
Then they tell people about their beloved idea if they want to be praised. And then reject criticism of it like "shave off a tiny percentage of your dream game for the minimum viable product and sell that then use the cash to hire smarter people to make your dream game for you so you get all the glory and a good profit for minimum effort at maximum speed" or "listen bro you need to prepare to Thems Fighting Herds this shit because your billion dollar fanfic is going to get C+D'd faster than Epstein's slaves got Cocked+Dicked by libtards and jews" or "nobody buys a transformers game for the forced stealth section please reconsider the hours of mandatory instant game over stealth I know you wont ever actually make it but please fantasize about something less gay" or "stop bitching about unpaid VAs being lazy and having shit mics and just use text cutscenes like a visual novel you fucking double nigger you dont have the budget or team for fucking any of this and your Applejack voice actor sounds like shit and keeps being a cunt to your Tails The Fox voice actor so just use one girl for everything so your product can have as few females involved as possible or 15.ai this shit" or "You are literally designing this in the most expensive way possible oh god oh fuck none if this is functional and it would be a nightmare to code oh sweet jesus you're mismanaging your time and effort budget this is bad you dont have a design document you have a 8 year old's collage of his favourite things made with a glue stick and safety scissors. I know you just fantasize to fucking stroke yourself off but this is giving me a fucking stroke".
I know a guy who just circlejerks in his discord server full of hyped sycophants about the game he's tooootally working on guys.
A project of mine is almost complete and that feels good. It's a step on my quest. And that friend's telling me I need to spend more ENTIRE YEARS on my project because "a good game has at least 2 years spent on it". No. bitch this project was always designed to be small and achievable. It is a step on my goal. not the endgame. It is a step. Steps dont have to take years. My quest does not end here. There are more mountains to climb and more tiddies to draw.
They say the graveyard is the richest place of all, as that is where you will find the richest treasure trove of ideas that never went anywhere.
But I saved at least one good idea from that graveyard.
And I got to draw a big tiddy scientist waifu.
I like putting big tits on my characters because small tits remind me of my dead little sister.
Sometimes I vent about the annoying habits of my friends but I still love and respect them.
I did it lads
I fucking made it
There were those who thought I was never gonna make it but I made it
There are no more coding problems left to solve. Everything is perfect. Now I can upload the first game of many.
Why my id change
Congratulations, JSON Jason.
Is your refridgerator running?
Then it must be a person, right?
Hahaha, that's my joke for making fun of AI fetishists who think a machine could imitate a human well enough to fundamentally be one.
Rude, Ill have you know my Girlfriend is An AI
You ever meet a gamer that makes you think "Oh, so that's who lowest common denominator predatory exploitation devices are made for and why these megacorps still make them" or "you're why so much of the art of game design focuses on protecting people of your intellectual caliber from yourselves so you don't ruin the game for yourselves and then blame the developers" or "Surely this fag's only disagreeing with me on a topic I'm so obviously right about just to fuck with me and because he craves social interaction and surely nobody could honestly believe the stupid shit he is saying"?
This is retarded and I'm sick of being a faggot so I'm going to do something straight.
Instead of bitching about gay idiot retards in faggot servers I should just stop wasting time with them. So I will. I'm in too many of these fucking things anyway. It's fucking homosexual to argue with some mobile-goomer who loves paying to win and grinding and inaccessibility and inconsiderate design almost as much as he loves cock. Candy crush and progress quest makes him cum and I don't want that faggot anywhere near me. It's a waste of time to interact with him. If grinding is "fun" for him human logic cannot reach his button bashing ape brain thanks to its hijacked reward center. And that's coming from a motherfucking grappler main. We joke about eating paint but mobile gamers eat chinese govt-backed megacorp cum flavoured with the half digested dog those commies ate for second breakfast while anally sodomizing themselves with their thieving whore mothers credit cards once they waste their "monthly tugboat" on the only thing imaginable that could possibly be a bigger scam than money NFTs. A real man respects an honest day's hard work and has no need to simulate it. A real man can outthink real and digital enemies without needing to overlevel his starter like a retarded child relying on raw power to steamroll an easy game like pokemon that's still too complex for him to understand. It's a waste of time to argue with circlejerkers over the validity of Quality Of Life improvements standard in all sorts of better games made for bigger brains. Instead of trying to win an argument about my game's design with a nigger over unfinished shit I should start getting my cock sucked for making my game by releasing it. I am growing as a man. I am sure the me from years ago would have kept this argument going for way too long instead of recognizing its futility. No more distractions. No more bitching about my problems when I should just solve them.
Progress report: my friends playtesting the game cant beat Professor Bigtits.
But they're not doing it right.
They steamrolled the 64 gym leaders and expected to steamroll her with the same lame tactics.
Should I make the battle easier or ignore this feedback?
Maybe give her two teams, for an easy mode and hard mode?
Did you try to vary up AI difficulty/tactics for the other 64 gym leaders?
Yeah. A lot of gym leaders didn't even have full teams of 6 so I picked good pokemon of their type.
Man. Nothing nakes you imtimately familiar with all the downsides of your childhood favourite game series like trying to make it. There are so many things I want to redo from scratch.
gen 5 broke mon sprites up into pieces on flash puppets and animated them via code to move and squash and stretch and rotate them. So a sleeping pokemon could have its eye swapped for a closed one easily.
but the front and back facing divide is gay. Just doubling the work. Set the camera in a 2v2 fighting game style position damn it. Then add scripts to move mons over to hit the foe during the move animations. Autoplay the running anim that already exists for all mons.
also fuck all pokemon moves.
Some are objectively better than others and choosing them is a no brainer. Interesting moves are rare. Balancing moves by RNG failure chance is homosexual.
I should remake all moves.
It seems odd when Charizard is told to perform Fire Punch and Mega Kick and Bite and Slash but does the same visual animation for each one. And how does a Wooper without arms learn Ice Punch?
Moves with vague attack names bypass this problem. Any water pokemon can perform Wind Strike or Blazing Blow no matter what body parts it has. Any pokemon can have its own physical and special attack animation that suits such a vaguely named attack. How the pokemon performs Lightning Strike or Ice III or Kacrackga is up to the pokemon.
Every type should have physical and special variants of the following moves: 120bp lowPP power move, 80bp mediocre pp attack move, and with the same middling number of PP: 60bp plus 1 priority move, and 40bp plus 2 priority move. And maybe a 30bp crap move for the pokemon to start out with and swiftly replace when levelling up.
Then add some normal type moves for raising and lowering stats.
And maybe some entry hazard setters, plus abilities to make those when sent out.
Remove random critical hits and flinch-hax and crit-hax and status inflicting moves from the game and replace that shit with "supereffective hits with this type inflict the type's unique status effect"
then give every type its own status effect that lowers all of a foes stats.
And then "supereffective STAB hits inflict x8 bonus Technical Damage plus flinches the mon if he hasnt already moved". Or maybe inflicts a Downed status effect with a unique animation that goes away the next time the downed mon tries to make a move then gets up automatically upon missing one turn.
That sounds good to me right now.
pokemon's bullshit abilities and moves and unbalanced mon design means making a rebalanced pokemon might not be fully possible. But I will do my best. And I will get better. Any mistakes are learning opportunities.
I feel the urge to prolong the game's release date by an unknown amount of time to add a new feature I thought of.
But the game as planned is basically done. It just needs more polish.
I guess you only get one shot to make a good first impression...
But this new feature might not even work.
But this feature will impress people who might not have been impressed by the rest of the game.
I met a woman and I think I like her. I think I really, really like her.
And that's why their rights must be restricted and they have to be legally considered "property".
My guitar teacher asked me to finger G Minor, so I did. Then he asked me to finger A minor, and I said "But I don't want to do a Biden impression, my Trump impression is better!"
Old EA: challenge everything
new EA: charge for everything
I know this faggot who can only function maturely when at least one person is treating him like an authority. However when his authority feels challenged he stops treating the objects of his ire like people and starts trying to piss them off. You know, to punish them. Starts berating and browbeating them to try and feel like a big guy. Even pretends to agree with people who've been wrongfully repeating the same obvious lies about you for years if that will piss you off. Like a housewife who's trying to get a rise out of you to validate herself no matter what she has to yell. And that makes it hard for me to respect him at all. He's always got to be in control. Even if it gets tiresome. There were good times when he was less of a faggot. I'd like to go back to those times. But the way he acts during the bad times makes me wonder how I can get him to snap out of whatever took control of him and metaphorically shrank his cock and balls.
For the record I know the obvious right answer is to avoid dealing with this faggot. I've already called him a faggot to his face. I'm wondering what others think the right answer is.
Did you listen?
Did you fully understand why?
Life is a social construct around 40% can trans-cend
Undertale and Deltarune comics are sometimes funny and sometimes lame.
But those comics where Metaton Neo claims the similar-looking Spamton Neo "stole his gender" are unintentionally hilarious as it's a freudian slip on the artist's part that accidentally admits their definition of "Gender" is just a codeword for "Aesthetic" whenever they aren't using it interchangeably with sex or as a codeword for "what the brain believes its sex is".
When the trannies say sex is a social construct they are lying. When they say gender is a social construct it would be more accurate to say gender is their own social construct, their own lie designed to conflate clearly different things, and no amount of drugs and surgery and hypnosis and training and aesthetic appropiration will ever turn a failed man into a beautiful breedable woman. Maybe if failed men put that much effort into being better men they'd stop feeling the urge to play dress-up as anything but themselves.
Yes Satan, you should get therapy
Hey guys, did you know that in terms of water-based Pokemon, Vaporeon can learn Mist in Yellow, but only under a very specific circumstance? In Yellow, Vaporeon is meant to learn both Haze and Mist at level 42. However, the programming at the time is so bad it's impossible for a Pokémon to learn two moves at the same level. As a result, Vaporeon will only learn Haze and not Mist. Pokémon who leveled up using the Daycare do not have this restriction though. If Vaporeon reaches level 42 while in the Daycare, it will learn both Haze and Mist.
Faggot: Based? Based on what?
me: Get with the times, Granddad. What's next? Are you going to ask what LOL means?
What? You mean AOL right?
Seeing the inside of an Asian woman's house recently (don't ask why) and admiring all the trophies and awards on the wall made me think of Lilkirbs memes about putting achievement signifiers on his wall. I decided to do that too but on my computer desktop because my tiny room's walls are cupboard and shelves hell.