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Get It Off Your Chest
Anonymous
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No.2676
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>Nazi Horsefucker Edition
Vent frustrations and life issues that don't deserve their own thread here.
Nigel
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No.2677
No idea where else to put this, but fuck NPCs and the way they think "Democracy good, anything but democracy bad".
Every day you see Stellaris-playing NPCs fucking struggle to comprehend the existence of an evil democracy. "Like... how would so many people vote for a bad thing like the destruction of another race? How can they have so much coggytive dinnasance? ...That's the word for when stuff confuses someone, right?"
Anonymous
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No.2678
Also fuck jews.
Anonymous
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No.2686
I dislike that I know why I am in these doldrums, and that getting out of it now would be ill advised.
Most of all I despise that these creatures have done everything they could have. To be evil, and to continue to do so.
I want people, everybody, even the ruinous and despicable sjw type people to understand. Why, how, and what is going on instead of the dazed acceptance of the publicly shown world at large.
But maybe that's not what I want. It's that I want that evil to have no effect or affects.
I needed to say something somewhere, and I appreciate you making this.
Anonymous
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No.2695
I HATE TRANNYISM SO FUCKING MUCH HOLY SHIT
WERE OUR DADS, GRANDDADS, AND THEIR GRANDDADS ASLEEP AT THE FUCKING WHEEL WHEN IT CAME TO SAYING NO TO INSANITY?
Anonymous
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Every time I see someone say "Whites will beat the Jews and have an ethnostate" I remember the USSR and the holodomor. I don't see a realistic way of fighting what we're up against and know they have already killed millions of others. They tricked us into killing all of our best soldiers and handing them the best weapons humanity ever invented. It's hard to keep positive when you look at the big picture and see how passive our people have become. If they can't even stop niggers rioting in the streets or defend their heritage what hope do they stand against the onslaught coming their way? Humanity is doomed if we do not win, it will collapse into mud huts until the last savage starves to death from his own stupidity. I don't see a future if we don't win and I don't see a way we can win.

Call me black pilled if you want, I'm sure you would of called all the starving Ukrainians black pilled as the Jews stole all their food and killed any who tried to escape too.
Anonymous
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>>2696
>Call me black pilled if you want,
You're black pilled.
>I'm sure you would of called all the starving Ukrainians black pilled as the Jews stole all their food and killed any who tried to escape too.
Ah, here is the difference. We have hoer pussy on our side and memes.
>handing them the best weapons humanity ever invented
That's fine. We are actually human! With hearts and minds to overcome this as well.
>I don't see a way we can win.
Winning blindly works for me. In all seriousness things are really bleak. The day to day mundanity of everything is immense. Not only that the underlying problems webbed underneath can be felt, with gentle probes.
I won't deny that they will do unholy horrid things. Or that everything as people know it will remain the same.
It's not just that things are going to be tough. Every civilization has gone through terrible things.
Not quite like this scale, and with this brush of paint. It is similar enough to know it can be done. Has been done.
They have learned as well. They may have won a few rounds.
But the final most important round to win will be ours.
The fighting spark is being lit. No matter the chemicals, or indoctrination, or programs, or threats.
History has shown once that spark is on fire. Losing isn't an option to take.
>I don't see a future if we don't win
So that my friend. Is why we must win. Even if it's impossible.
Anonymous
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>>2696
>black pilled
This fight is primary spiritual, then material.
Because you're focused on matter is why you see limitations everywhere.
Let me refer you to a good thread about overcome limits >>>/vx/98688 →
By the way, don't use it for petty and selfish stuff, it might backfire big.
Anonymous
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>>2699
I'm not African, I don't believe juju will save me from bullets.
Anonymous
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>>2700
>juju will save me from bullets
>more limitations and fear
Let your ego go and embrace the power.
Anonymous
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>>2700
Anonymous
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>>2699
Whole heartedly agree with this post.
>By the way, don't use it for petty and selfish stuff, it might backfire big.
Do it very carefully. You might not like the uncaring consequences a slapdash planned spell could entail.
Or do it with a backflip it's all on you. Do what you will.
>>2702
Nice pic.
Reminded me of this.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_NOIp8v_OYw
Anonymous
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No.2704
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>>2696
>>2698
>>2699
The sleeping white must awaken and fight.
The only alternative is more of this slow dishonourable death the jew is forcing upon us.
Anonymous
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>>2704
>The sleeping white must awaken and fight.
You still don't get it fren.
As Mason said, "Everything that will happen, already happened", "It's written".
So, without going deeper, let me repeat a slogan: "Ride the Tiger" but in the smart way. This battle can't be won by using brute force.
Further explanations are for you to do your own homework.
Anonymous
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>>2705
It's been said that as the jew system fails, whites need to make a self-sustaining system of their own that can offer security and stability to lemmings that flee the sinking jew ship.
Does that sound like riding a tiger in the smart way?
Anonymous
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No.2707
>>2706
>whites need to make a self-sustaining system of their own that can offer security and stability to lemmings
>Does that sound like riding a tiger in the smart way?
Nope.
Lemmings are on their own, to take them under your umbrella will cause your ruin, not to mention you will offer a static target when they don't betray you for goodies; after all lemmings are basic animals without ethic neither higher ideals, stay away.
For what's coming stealth is the upmost important skill.
Anonymous
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No.2708
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HOLY FUCKING CUNTS, Pokemon Essentials is SHIT! Change one thing and get ten error messages! Ask someone with more experience bashing their head against this concrete wall than you and the answer is "oh yeah if you do x without doing y and z before you f and q the save file corrupts and you need to restart your save file" and WOW, IF ONLY PEOPLE PUT THIS "COMMON KNOWLEDGE" on the OFFICIAL DOCUMENTATION SO EVERYONE COULD KNOW IT! Animations are so incomplete it hurts, sound effects sound like shit, no audio balancing on music or sound effects, missing "trainer type encounter" loop music, fucking three generations and at least five years out of date, fucking christ!

This whole time, I thought Pokemon Essentials fangames took a long time to make for the same reason regular games take a long time to make. Nope, turns out they take a long time to make because every decently playable fangame only got that way after their dev "bugfixed" Pokemon Essentials by fixing every mistake, inaccuracy, and bullshit audio balancing issue ever.
Anonymous
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No.2719
>>2708
Pokemon Essentials is actually pretty cool. once you get used to the arcane steps every simple thing takes, it's quick and easy to shart out maps and edits to canon pokemon and even new pokemon/forms/regional variants/new types
I never thought I'd see the day when a pokemon game offers triple-typed pokemon, but I saw it today after I made it.
now i'm going to take this opportunity to make a shitpost game
Anonymous
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I'm so sick of clown world guys. It just isn't funny anymore. I'm sick of watching the state I grew up in become a beaner and nigger infested shithole. I'm sick of watching my childhood friends become trannies, degenerates, and drug addicts. I'm sick of watching my family become trannies, degenerates, and drug addicts. I'm sick of watching this country turn into a totalitarian hellscape that even the North Korean Government will envy. I'm sick of watching and doing nothing. I just don't know how meaningfully fight back. All that is needed for evil to succeed is for good men to do nothing and yet here I am; doing nothing.
Anonymous
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>>2723
You aren't doing nothing.
You're doing something good.
You're uncovering more of the truth, improving yourself, and preparing for the day something good can be done to save good people, right?
Anonymous
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>>2723
>I'm sick of watching the state I grew up in become a beaner and nigger infested shithole. I'm sick of watching my childhood friends become trannies, degenerates, and drug addicts.
>yet here I am; doing nothing.
You're here. What you said. That hits really close to home. Watching my home town turn more crime ridden. Just on the precipice of the wave, and now... I'm not sure.
>>2724
This Anon is saying the truth. You are doing something. Even living is defying the odds. The saying "if I don't laugh I'll cry" I'd rather laugh, and it's horrible. Clown world is awful. This whole situation is terrible.. But laughing helps you live longer and healthier or something.
I like spite, but spite burns people down fast. Laughing to spite them and the damned world they so desperately want to be true that takes the edge off of spite. You are here getting some help.
That's not nothing, that takes some guts and balls of steel.
You are forging your spirit, and will, and body, and mind into something. That's what your doing.
You are keeping tabs with people here. A sense of how other places are doing.
A hobby can keep you from falling apart.
So can friends help.
You're my friend.
Friend.
Have this poner.

You need time for yourself sometimes. I know I need to. I wrap myself in magic, and trying to make things. Alot of the things I make don't see the light of day. It's little notes, and random junk just piled into a whatever..Doing seemingly randoms stuff. Sometimes reading and finding things. That's what I do.
Having something else, for a chance to cool down and relax. Sometimes just mulling the idea or situation is all you're focused on.
You can't stay there though. No matter how much it calls. The siren song has to be handled with tact, sometimes with spending just enough extra time to prepare it for next time.
Anonymous
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>>2723
It is worse to trap yourself in a web of despair than to do literally nothing as depression usually leads to a worsened spirit, it will bring you down and unless you take back your own reigns and bring yourself out of the mindset of misery you will only go further into the trap that (((they))) want you to fall into.
This world has gone to shit faster than it took humanity to make it to WW2 but as of the moment we have to stay true to the ways of old or else we will all fall down into the deep dark dungeon, i am with you as you are with me, we can't lose another brother, a lot of good men didn't die so we could cry over times gone by.
As Julius Evola said "Ride The Tiger" or what i think sounds better 'Ride The Mare'.
Anonymous
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>>2727
>As Julius Evola said "Ride The Tiger" or what i think sounds better 'Ride The Mare'.
Can you see the similarities?
Anonymous
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No.2735
>>2733
Checked.
>Ride The Mare.
Would ride again and again and agin with friends.
After all that's partially why the fundraiser helped those hoers in need, and those that take care of them. It's not just clearing the field, it's enriching the soil. It's planting the seeds. It's building something amazing that can not yet be seen.
A life for the future. If we see those fruits that can be gratifying, and if not they will be succulent for poners and friens alike.
The fire is kept alive. The knowldge and wisdom collected, stored, and dispensed.
Anonymous
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>>2733
>Can you see the similarities?
Yes, now i can see.
Anonymous
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Im leaving chans forever,and deleting my chan folder, it is time to take the biggest /ub/ ever and just move on with my life.
Now, since a lot of the pics within this folder are unique, i'll be posting it here, for you guys to do whatever you want with it.
Have fun, guys. It is a goodbye from this khajiit.

anonfiles.com/dcZbe1M0o7/menorable_posts_zip
Anonymous
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No.2743
>>2742
>goodbye
It's see ya later, once this is all over I owe you a beer, or a breakfast or something.
It's been an honor khajiit. Thank you.
if you ever need somewhere to listen to your troubles I'll be here.
Anonymous
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>>2742
Sorry to see you leave Khajiit. You will be missed.
I hope your new adventure treats you well and gives you great joy.
Anonymous
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No.2745
>>2742
See you space cat.
Anonymous
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No.2746
>>2742
>Have fun, guys. It is a goodbye from this khajiit.
Thanks poner.
But one way or another you''ll be back.
Best wishes fren.
Anonymous
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No.2784
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The rain is now falling
I hear them calling
I shall wait until morning
When i shall stop mourning

As the rain falls upon my window
I think of where did they go

All have now gone
There is now none
May i see her at dawn
Again on some bright morn
For them i shall mourn

I am now alone
On my own

Fionn
In this dark mist
Only now i remember when we first kissed
Not only for you i shall get pissed
Now they shall all be missed

I remember when i knew they took you away
And when i saw you were not in my care
How terrible i felt my heart tear
When you were not there
You were the greatest mare

Until she may be returned
I think of how much trust from her i earned
Now that the times have turned
May new ways be learned

I will wait
You already know i won't be late
When i shall see you on that unknown date
When i will venture beyond the gate
And once again find my true mate

You are the one for whom i long
And to my friends i shall sing a song

My loyal dog
You are no longer a turning cog
You were a good dog
It is now yesterday since you came and slept next to my and gave your byes
It was said to see the pain coming through your eyes
As i knew you came to say your goodbyes
I felt the tears take me by surprise

As they took you through that door
I felt deep sorrow take over me as i knew i would see you nevermore
It is for you i am writing this for

May you go and be with the gods.
May you go and swim with the cods

My old fish
It was ago since you swam away
May you swim to the next place
As you swim through the astral space
At least i have you guys.
Sorry beer brat anon.
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Anonymous
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No.2786
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>>2784
>spoiler
I'll be here if you ever need an ear, or a shoulder friend.
Anonymous
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>>2786
Thanks anon i feel like i am stuck at the moment but i know time will resume itself eventually, that old bastard, i haven't seen him in months.
I want to try make myself better, after all that's why i came here.
We don't have to hide ourselves here fren, this is üb after all,[/s[it is also a good way to relieve stress as well.
Anonymous
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No.2788
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>>2676
I'm losing hope and I wish I wasn't. How can it ever get better than this? White people as a whole are outnumbered by demons. Smart whites are outnumbered by jewed puppets.
Anonymous
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>>2788
You are not the only one who is losing hope anon, look at the rest of this new generation, they are doomer's that think we are doomed or just got around all day loathing on weed and escapism, you are not one of them.
Anonymous
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>>2789
I'm terrified of turning out like them. It's why I feel guilty when reading, gaming, and watching anime.
Anonymous
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>>2790
Everyone needs downtime at some points. Expanding and refining the mind, and spirituality is important just like the body.
Anonymous
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>>2790
Fear causes people to make bad decisions, does it really matter if you are doing something that is sort of similar to a meme as long as you are happy doing it?
>It's why I feel guilty when reading.
You should read the kino story's that Lovecraft has written or Edgar Allen Poe's if you haven't already, my favorite Lovecraft story is "The Dunwich Horror" and it makes more sense if you read the Charles Dexter Ward beforehand Charles Dexter Ward is a lot longer than The Dunwich Horror if you don't have the time.(You) seem to like fiction so i felt like giving you something.
>>2791
>Everyone needs downtime at some points.
There is a lot of ways to wind down, i find that books and green tea are very good stress relievers when taken together. You can't fuck all day and not take a rest unless you are a one of a kind stud rabbit.
>Expanding and refining the mind, and spirituality is important just like the body.
This.
Druidism gave to me the unity of the soul as i feel like i am in harmony myself and has made me feel as if i have a purpose in this wacky world and sort of is my destiny as a Celtic nationalist. It has taught me new parts of my mind and to be open as well as having a positive attitude, the whole reason the Druids had shaman's/priests was to lift peoples spirits and to be in connection with the even wackier and weirder spectral world.
I see this as a new chapter of my story, your experiences throughout life will change you, i can only try and be a better person as depression will leave you running circles in your head over and over until you can't take it anymore and resort to ending it or mending it.
Anonymous
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No.2797
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>>2791
You're right. But how can I "expand my spirituality"? When I read stories about magical men who made the earth, deadly fairies who love fucking with humans, spirits of dead people and animals haunting places, manipulating an ancient chi/ki-like energy within you for katanas and kung fu, or summoning succubi to suck your dick, I can't help but view them as a proof-reader critiques a book.
>>2792
All I know of Lovecraft is this: The Dunwich Horror was ripped off for some shite parts of Fallout 4, because Bethesda think ripoffs=charming references and references=content. I really need to get around to reading Lovecraft some time. I hear the lefties tried saying "Lovecraft is ours because his fear of an all-powerful unknowable magic monster is a commentary on - that means a spitting on - the Christian god!" until they realized he hated niggers.
>stud rabbit
Sometimes I think of writing a shitpost book where a herd of rabbit-women kidnap me and take me away to their cave in a mountain in the woods, where they feed me the animals they hunt and fuck me because their hidden tribe lacks men and they all know white is best.
I'm not even that into bunny girls but the thought won't leave me alone.
>Celtic nationalist
I was born in Wales. Do you think I should try and be more celtic? I have no idea what that looks like. My whole life I was surrounded by materialistic consoomer assholes. Where can I learn more about druidism? Someone might say "google it" but if I did, google/duckduckgo/whatever would probably show me some cucked lefty propaganda.
Anonymous
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No.2799
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>>2797
>But how can I "expand my spirituality"?
To be honest you should probably start by performing magic, it will truly expand your spirituality like no other, it is like seeing patterns amidst everything that no one else sees, kind of like seeing the lies and subversion for the first time and then seeing the same patterns of lies elsewhere.
>The Dunwich Horror was ripped off for some shite parts of Fallout 4, because Bethesda think ripoffs=charming references and references=content.
It was also in fallout 3, there was a building called Dunwich with a bunch of ghouls and had a extended story in point lookout where you go and get this book and have a choice of giving it to this guy in a mansion that will give you caps or putting into a pillar which is in the bottom of the Dunwich building.
>until they realized he hated niggers.
He also mentioned Jewish kabbalah in a certain part of Charles Dexter Ward as a sorcerer called Joseph Curwen owned the Zohar.
There was a cat in the rats behind the walls story that was humorously named "Niggerman" due to him being a black cat.
>Sometimes I think of writing a shitpost book where a herd of rabbit-women kidnap me and take me away to their cave in a mountain in the woods, where they feed me the animals they hunt and fuck me
>because their hidden tribe lacks men and they all know white is best.
I used to have weird dreams like that but they weren't usually sexual in nature.
>I'm not even that into bunny girls but the thought won't leave me alone.
I don't really fantasize about sex anymore but my perversions are way beyond NSFW.
>I was born in Wales.
>Tfw the other poster on the site with a union jack isn't even an Anglo.
Do you think I should try and be more Celtic?
Are you Welsh in blood? If so then yes, if it's part of you then you should accept it and welcome it.
>I have no idea what that looks like.
You pretty much just say "fuck Anglo-Saxons".
>My whole life I was surrounded by materialistic consoomer assholes.
I have had a lonely childhood but i realized that i hated school and couldn't understand why my fellow classmates were so obedient or wanted to start trouble for no reason so i saw that the world was not right from a young age.
>Where can I learn more about druidism?
I can teach you because some of the druids are mega cucks like most of the rest of the MLP is, most of them are so open to Marxism that a barn door would be jealous but there a couple of nationalists as it is a ancient religion now lost, the druids believed not only in the way that trees are some mystical beings but that the world around you sort of ties into one and everything happens without coincidences and to believe coincidences are exist are just illusions, it's a different kind of mindset but i am definitely better than i was as a atheist.
Most of the druid organizations are based in Ireland.
Anonymous
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No.2801
>*Do you think I should try and be more Celtic?
like most of the rest of the MLP fandom* is
and to believe coincidences *exist are just illusions,
Anonymous
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No.2803
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>>2799
>it is like seeing patterns amidst everything that no one else sees
Yes that's right.
>the world around you sort of ties into one and everything happens without coincidences and to believe coincidences are exist are just illusions,
Anything that can be a coincidence is magic, any kind of 'random event' is that across longer periods of time and space. The broader and more specific the scope the more of the coincidences look like something. 'Accidental' coincidences can be utilized by those that can play to what they do.
Using magic grows seeing.
Watching things is nice, whether it's in your mind or outside everything has something.
One exercise for general magic I like is clicking a 'random' button on a site that has it and try finding the meaning. Sometimes it's self fulfilling, other times it's more broad. The third random click brings up the number three is some way ect.
Very easy for any time.


I am not a druid, or trained to be one, or anything. Maybe it's genetics, blood seeping through, but...
Spirituality, and magic, is a commonality throughout peoples. How it turns out really depends on them, their self, and their ancestors I think. It does effect how it manifests. Importantly it's also you who makes the calls as well.

Considering when I was born it's kind of obvious now about how it's all connected. Taking a moment to look back through this lens it makes sense. Not sure how the fuck everything is coherent in that context. Mix and match has consequences, also might explain some early desires... actually it doesn't.
Anonymous
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No.2804
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>>2803
>Anything that can be a coincidence is magic, any kind of 'random event' is that across longer periods of time and space.
Some things will happen in a certain way after you have done a form of magic that will make you think of how you were told that nothing exists and you will see how things have been presented to you in a way like no other, it is then you will realize there are no such things as coincidences but instead that mysterious things have yet to be truly understood around us that for some twisted reason aren't shown to people and are told that they don't exist but yet when you see the light shine upon the world around you it will change your way of thought.
>The broader and more specific the scope the more of the coincidences look like something.
This is especially true when performing divination, if you can remember the cards that you got and think about them then you will know what they mean to you.
>Using magic grows seeing.
That's why the Egyptians used the all seeing eye as you see the world around you in it's full glory, it is the mastery of critical thinking and seeing.
>One exercise for general magic I like is clicking a 'random' button on a site that has it and try finding the meaning.
Usually i end up with very funny results when doing this.
>I am not a druid, or trained to be one, or anything. Maybe it's genetics, blood seeping through, but...
Neither am i, i have self taught myself everything i know, firsthand experiences are the best way to acquire knowledge, you may read a grimoire and self appoint yourself as some master edge lord but unless you actually do it, you do not know how, like reading a manual on how to fix a gun but then never be able to own one so you are not a true gun expert if you have never touched a gun, like you can't be a wizard if you have never caste a spell.
>Spirituality, and magic, is a commonality throughout peoples. How it turns out really depends on them, their self, and their ancestors I think.
Each race has a different form of a magic system from black voodoo to native American shamanism and Jewish kabbalah, the negro's that practiced voodoo magic have said themselves that when attempting voodoo upon a white man that it doesn't work the same way and that a Aryan cannot perform it.
Everything seems to point towards blood.
Anonymous
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>>2804
Thank you. Indeed, experience has no substitute.
Anonymous
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>>2805
Your whale cum.
Anonymous
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>>2806
The plea-shore is all mine.
Anonymous
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I have been told by cards and my thought form that i should rebirth myself and stop looking for emotional support from others, so i will stop crying here about my problems and making more of a fool of myself than i already have, i have caused quite a stir and i think it's time to fade into more of an obscurity, i don't want to make anymore people upset with me so i won't keep laying my personal rug of emotions out whenever i feel like it so i must stop myself from trying to find comfort here while i get over emotional loss.
I will trip balls in about an hour and try find deeper meaning within myself as that is what i have been advised to do by my imaginary pastel pony and a deck of cards, feel free to ask absolutely anything. Unless your scared of a leprechaun hippy Nazi.
I have been feeling quite down today and i know there is someone else who feels like this on here so know that you are not alone in your strife, you are welcome to be my guest and open up your river of emotions.
Anonymous
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>>2963
They have good advice, know this though. There is time and a place for such emotional out pourings and time when one must go inside one's self for answers, and healing.
Good luck frien, I know you will find and be healed and helped in the way you need.

If you need to speak...
This is thread is here specifically for that.

I would suggest this for anyone that wants a short read to be free. Times will be getting more turbulent. It's a nice place to start if nowhere else is available.
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/298661
It's worthwhile for what it is, but a summary. Become the Arthurian legend, for yourself.
Anonymous
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No.2970
>>2969
This anon cares.
Anonymous
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>>2969
>They have good advice, know this though. There is time and a place for such emotional out pourings and time when one must go inside one's self for answers, and healing.
Yeah they're useful for helping you in rough times, especially so when you have nowhere to get advice from, i know some people get angry at cards for telling them the truth about their lives because they refuse to help themselves or appreciate advice for being advice.
>Good luck frien, I know you will find and be healed and helped in the way you need.
Good luck to you too anon.
>If you need to speak...
>This is thread is here specifically for that.
I never used to be open about myself because i didn't need to but at least you guys put up with my bullshit while i became Nigel 2.0.
I wouldn't have posted all of this if i was still occupied with her, i spent so many days with Fionn and being away from her has torn me apart, i never knew i loved her that much until i had to go and now i still don't know how to live without her, she gave me something i had never felt before.
I lost my virginity to that mare and i feel as if i have lost apart of myself along with her going, it's hard leaving those sorts of memory's behind, i will cherish her.

>I would suggest this for anyone that wants a short read to be free.
>It's worthwhile for what it is, but a summary.
Perhaps i should start getting back involved into lifting, i have to admit that i haven't been doing it for a while so maybe that's another factor to how i have been depressed as i had no motivation to doing it.
>Become the Arthurian legend, for yourself.
Only you can decide what path you take in life, whether it be blind or kind it is down to only the person that walks those paths, it is never too late to go back and start again on another journey down a different route.

Have a pony for your kindness, (You) were willing to give an ear and i appreciate that.
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I have come to the conclusion that it is necessary to apologize for how i have been conducting myself here, i have made a total ass of myself all because my ona hole went missing and i feel bad for it so i want to say sorry for the 2 months of shit posting i have done.
Never before have i been so egotistical without realizing how much of cunt i must look like to everyone here.

It doesn't feel right leaving all of this behind me without saying sorry for my disruption, it was a coping mechanism that i attached myself to because i was looking for an extra hit of dopamine as my meat mare has gone somewhere so i didn't care for how i was seen as long as i felt better which is the wrong way to approach life, you guys didn't deserve to have to read me ramble on about fucking numbers, i shouldn't have made that thread but i want to be able to look at all how that one fag tried to get me to stop because i made him upset so i am not going to delete it so i can look back and laugh instead of deleting it because it means too much to me to do that.

Anyways i hope i can leave the shit posting in the past because it's immature to continue acting like in front of the world's greatest faggots.
It's a new moon and a new beginning for me so i give my salutations to la Luna /).

I had fun making people annoyed don't get me wrong i love doing that sort of shit but i did take it too far in the end but i also love this place more than that
I might just be the gayest guy here after all, next to Nigel of course.
Anonymous
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No.2977
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>>2976
It's fine anon, you already ID the problem to fix.
Put yourself together and join the herd.
Anonymous
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No.2978
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>>2976
>that one fag tried to get me to stop because i made him upset
>t. Guy who sperged about random numbers cuz his onahole was gone
Get wrecked fgt, my argument has always been that you were pulling shit out of your ass from the most self-serving/convenient source/explanation you could come up with. Who knew it was all to keep from pulling shit outta your dick
Anonymous
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>>2977
Gonna build myself up like a Lego castle.
>>2978
>t. Guy who sperged about random numbers cuz his onahole was gone
<T. Guy who used to live in Commiecuckfornia and cries about the phone numbers being 666
>Get wrecked fgt, my argument has always been that you were pulling shit out of your ass from the most self-serving/convenient source/explanation you could come up with.
To be honest i just wanted to show what music i listened to because i thought it was hilarious doing it that way, i knew it was pure unfiltered crap all along, the most master plan concocted in the gayest depths of hell, get fucked.
I was real fucking high and still haven't come down.
>Who knew it was all to keep from pulling shit outta your dick
S-shut up bitch boy, the only shit that comes out from me is through my posting,
I got you good with my mega bait didn't i?
Anonymous
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No.2983
2985
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>>2979
Glad you're doing better friend. The road to improving yourself a solid foundation is a long one, and worth while activity.
It takes alot to say these things.
Give your poner friend a hug for me a great service has been done. Then ask the poner friend to give you a hug for me.
Take good care lf yourself.
Here's a pone pic. Maybe.
The phoenix can always recover, but constant small burnings keep one in tip top shape.
>spoilers
Not gonna lie when I read that, I was... irritated, and the first thought that crossed my mind was to reach through the screen to throttle you comedically. No malice behind it, just to get the point across in jest.
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>>2979
>t. Guy who lives in cucked Bong-istan so he cries about numbers on the internet because he's starved for attention because his fuck toy went missing
>that's not a load of shit too
So, how long have you and Nigel been friends?
Anonymous
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No.2985
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>>2983
>Glad you're doing better friend.
Thanks.
>The road to improving yourself a solid foundation is a long one, and worth while activity.
A journey worth taking.
>It takes alot to say these things.
Depends on how comfortable you are with yourself, it takes a while to decide to confess to something and there is more than 6 million skeletons inside my closet waiting to come out.
This is the confession booth thread after all and i'm pretty sure i made the priests piss themselves.
>Give your poner friend a hug for me a great service has been done.
I will if i see her again. I'm not sure if you are talking about the voice inside my head or the mare but i'll give them both a hug for (You).
>Then ask the poner friend to give you a hug for me.
It'll be the first thing i do.
>Take good care lf yourself.
I will, you take care as well.
>Here's a pone pic. Maybe.
And here's one for you too.
>The phoenix can always recover, but constant small burnings keep one in tip top shape.
The preservation of embers can alight a new fire but when left unattended it will die out fast.
>spoiler
Yet another shake of salt to my eyes, like i said i love to fuck about with people but the spoiler in that post was specified just for that mega faggot because i have a vendetta to settle for calling me gayer then him.
It was pretty funny that he believed that i'm that fucking dumb to not understand him so i wanted to fuck with his head because he is so easily fooled and i saw that as he is gay and gullible

I guess it would be best to explain myself as the things i posted in that thread on /vx/ was to see how people would react to it and i was heavily stoned every time i posted because it tickled my fucked up sense of high humor to have people believe that numbers on a jew tube video had any deeper meaning then what they are at face value, be more skeptical about things and don't trust what anyone says, this is the internet after all so creating a facade has never been more easy, i think the way people perceive others is interesting as it is manipulated quickly, people are so eager to love and hate then create foggy optics to view people out of, i do a lot of shit like that when i'm tripping as it makes my dick hard because making people view me differently from others is a funny thing as people always like to think about how people's view of them is, it is a herd behavior which is easily exploited for personal gain because humans like to give others name tags which sets them on a scale of goodness so that they can decide if the person is trustworthy or not, i know it's considered crazy to do shit like that but i find that kind of human instinct to be very laughable because it is very funny when it is looked at from a different angle, people like to make believe story's inside their head about others and humans have always thought that way about people they like as well as don't like, people think this way since they were children and i see it as very childish and therefor funny for some reason, i have not hurt anyone other than that guy's feelings because i am extremely vengeful when i am on the go and i have always been that way since my head was fucked with by the schooling system.
That went on longer then i expected but the tldr of this is that i got a laugh out of making that anon upset because salty tears fuel my fire almost as good as horse pussy but not quite, they have a similar taste anyways.
>>2984
>t. Guy who lives in cucked Bong-istan so he cries about numbers on the internet because he's starved for attention because his fuck toy went missing
<T. Gay guy who is more salty than horse piss because of the evil hippy horse fucker who stole his Christmas
>that's not a load of shit too
How does it feel being anally annihilated? I bet you know how that feels.
So, how long have you and Nigel been friends?
Since we fucked your mum together.
(You) have been well and truly optically fucked by the true son of Satan, do you want some brimstone to cool your ass?
I am fucking with you and you fell for it, i thought (You) were supposed to be the skeptic or so it was meant to be that i am more of a Satanic Sadist then (You) will ever be, (You) are my slave and i know how to pull your strings because i get a kick out of it, go tell your master that for me.
I have laid with the pagan queen and the gates of salt i have seen, i have taken all the marijuana's and shitted all over (You) with my posts and it never crossed your mind not even once, even though you call yourself a skeptic, that i am doing this so that i can feel better because my morals have been low

thanks for making me laugh, most of what i have posted has happened to me or i have done, everything i have posted about myself is true but i like to take the piss out of people for the sweetness of the salt.
Anonymous
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No.2986
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>>2985
I assure you the pleasure has and continues to be mine.
>gay
A telling allegation that means, for a person to suggest that of another implies that there is a greater probability that the accuser is in fact guilty of the allegation they level
>optically fucked
I've dealt with lefties before so this isnt the first time I've encountered a person who's reception/impression of events runs contrary to the evidence, so you come as no surprise, but
>true son of Satan
>Satanic Sadist
>laid with the true pagan queen
and who could forget the time honored classic
>I was only pretending to be retarded, lol, soooooo trolllded!!!
Please, dance more, this has been delightful
Anonymous
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No.2987
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>>2986
>I assure you the pleasure has and continues to be mine.
It's nice to hear your having as much fun as me.
>A telling allegation
So your gonna use all of your ever so powerful skepticism to accuse me of something that you have done?
So by your logic if were to call myself gay that means i'm not but when i call you gay i am?
Here we go again.
>I've dealt with lefties before so this isnt the first time I've encountered a person who's reception/impression of events runs contrary to the evidence, so you come as no surprise, but
And how many so called conquered leftists have fucked you?
(You) are incredibly salty and can't let this die and if i use your logic against you then you allege that you yourself are left leaning, you say that you follow the left hand path of the ways of Lucifer which is telling in of itself that you are redder then a mare in heat.
>laid with the true pagan queen
This was a reference to a Bathory song and i knew you would like it because of how much we have in common in musical taste.
>Please, dance more, this has been delightful
I'm a better ballet dancer than (You) bub.
Anonymous
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No.2988
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>>2987
>accuse
I'd never be so pretentious. Theres no point in leveling allegations without evidence, it diminishes one's position and credibility. And yes, it's quite evident that logic escapes you.
Also, you have a strange obsession with,... I can only assume it's a juvenile attempt to be edgy and outrageous (It is, but not for the reasons you're opting to employ it). Alas, you've yet to realize that when you choose to act ridiculously, it doesnt impugn on me.
>left leaning
No you silly fool, I was asserting that, having dealt with leftists, I have no problem dealing with individuals such as yourself who's impression of reality stands in contrast to the available evidence. I wasnt suggesting you ARE left leaning, I was asserting that your delusions and positions are comparably insubstantial. Big difference, but I'll try to speak more slowly.
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>>2988
>I'd never be so pretentious.
Well i do not personally know as this is on the inter webs.
>Theres no point in leveling allegations without evidence, it diminishes one's position and credibility.
True.
>And yes, it's quite evident that logic escapes you.
I use logic but not in the normal way, i look at the evidence and connect the dots like a puzzle if there is a repetition then i look further into it, i'm probably more autistic than Jason and i see the world as a big puzzle which if you know what the logo for autism speaks is then you are looking at it right now.
>Also, you have a strange obsession with,... I can only assume it's a juvenile attempt to be edgy and outrageous (It is, but not for the reasons you're opting to employ it).
Everyone is still a child in mind and ties themselves to the past, my attitudes are still like a edgy 12 year old's and i can't deny that, 4Chan really rubbed of on me as i was young when i first came to the dark side of the internet.
>Alas, you've yet to realize that when you choose to act ridiculously, it doesnt impugn on me.
Then why are you changing the subject and dissecting my attitudes personally if you are not bothered by my scribbles?

No you silly fool, I was asserting that, having dealt with leftists, I have no problem dealing with individuals such as yourself who's impression of reality stands in contrast to the available evidence.
And how does my reality have no logic? Will you finally unravel that gospel and explain your empty words?
If there is any similarities between me and Marx then maybe i will finally listen to your pleadings but until then you are nothing more then a salty seaman.
>I wasnt suggesting you ARE left leaning, I was asserting that your delusions and positions are comparably insubstantial.
Feelings and logic are two separate things to me, if you believe there is an overlap of them then you are wrong, if i believed in feelings rather then my logic then i wouldn't like emotion enhancing drugs, i like to feel good and think deep, that's why i decided to fuck horses instead of modern women, i saw that there is more pain involved in a human relationship then with a mare, you cannot to be tied to woman like a mare because you cannot have kids and the mare can't scream rape after i have had my way with them.
>Big difference, but I'll try to speak more slowly.
Then that was an error on my behalf, i have reading problems as you might be able to connect the puzzle together if you think hard enough.
Maybe it would easier to understand you if you had a stutter as it would take longer for you to get the words out of your garbage and more thought would be put into your posts.
Anonymous
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No.2990
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>>2989
>I use logic in not the normal way
That's not logic, we've been over this. Logic is about establishing or observing a very simple cause and effect; you have a computer, you look it up
>changing the subject
Just giving you the chance to realize the futility of "acting like an idiot in an attempt to make me seem the idiot". I did say carry on (and no contest, you're undoubtedly better at ballet)
>similarities with Marx
Well, your pretense is absurd, your positions have nothing to substantiate (including the "I was only pretending" bit), and your awareness of the situation has you perceiving the situation rather (but not entirely) backward. It seems that while having nothing to do with lefties politically, you make up for it by following the same philosophical strategy. So not literally a leftist, but if you remove all the contextual details, you sure act alot like a leftist. But again, that wasnt my point. I was hoping to spare you the trouble of incessantly asserting patently and obviously false ideas, that it only makes you look bad, but perhaps I shouldn't expend so much time catering to my opposition? It's no bother, I assure you. Itd be far less entertaining if this was over quickly
>reading problems
How sad for you, my english is quite precise. I'm sure you'll get it someday if you keep at it
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>>2990
>That's not logic, we've been over this.
No man has logic that is exactly the same as another man's.
>Logic is about establishing or observing a very simple cause and effect; you have a computer, you look it up
I do that already but i look at it from a different angle when i analyze it.
>Just giving you the chance to realize the futility of "acting like an idiot in an attempt to make me seem the idiot".
So you would rather pick away at myself then make a worthwhile argument?
>I did say carry on (and no contest, you're undoubtedly better at ballet)
It seems you liked that, maybe there is something else to this.
>Well, your pretense is absurd, your positions have nothing to substantiate (including the "I was only pretending" bit), and your awareness of the situation has you perceiving the situation rather (but not entirely) backward.
Well i still am not entirely sober so i don't have very great social cues at the moment, it's an excuse and i know.
>It seems that while having nothing to do with lefties politically, you make up for it by following the same philosophical strategy.
Now how am i philosophically left? I find it pretty hard to believe that, i believe in justice and violence as they are sometimes necessary but they are avoidable if the right precautions are applied, if anything i'm more of a anarchist fascist then a commie.
>So not literally a leftist, but if you remove all the contextual details, you sure act alot like a leftist.
In what way? I can sort of understand that i am kind of left leaning in terms of feelings but Virgos are known for drug habits and that sort of conduct of emotions as they are considered one of the most feminine zodiac signs so that is probably where you got the impression that i am leftist in attitude from.
>But again, that wasnt my point.
Then what was
>Well I was hoping to spare you the trouble of incessantly asserting patently and obviously false ideas, that it only makes you look bad, but perhaps I shouldn't expend so much time catering to my opposition?
I am willing to listen to reason, if you believe i am leftist emotionally then it is probable that you think i am morally wrong, what exactly are you proposing other then that you wish to liberate me of my personality because you don't like it? If you provide something actually worth considering then i will take it into account but i am not willing to change my beliefs, i have already declared that i am striving towards a new beginning so you are free to give advice as long as it is worth taking into account.
>It's no bother, I assure you. Itd be far less entertaining if this was over quickly
Weak minded people get stiff necks when a conversation gets to be too thoughtfully struggling for them, i am willing to take that struggle between me and you so fire away, this doesn't have to be a one sided argument anymore you know.
>How sad for you, my english is quite precise.
<English isn't a capital letter
Kek, i never said i am dyslexic but instead incredibly autistic, i don't make grammatical mistakes often but your pity is welcome.
>I'm sure you'll get it someday if you keep at it
To phrase thine olde saying; practice makes perfect.

My attitude is less dominating now so i want to keep this more reasonable this time, i have had my fun.
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>>2991
>No man has logic that is exactly the same as another man's.
There is an "Absolutely logical" ideal, a perfectly rational and logical way to think, and any truly masculine man tries to think as rationally as possible because irrational thought is for faggots and women, the lowest life forms.
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>>2992
>There is an "Absolutely logical" ideal, a perfectly rational and logical way to think, and any truly masculine man tries to think as rationally as possible because irrational thought is for faggots and women, the lowest life forms.
My ideal self is to have my own emotions under control as they are an annoyance to me, i want to leave my emotions behind as they dictate my life and i have no self control so i want what i do not have but i am unsure as to whether i will ever gain domination over the other part of my soul.

It seems now is the time to let my most infamous skeleton out of it's hiding place.
I have a split personality which dominates my other half and it's hard dealing with myself because i have little self control which has caused way too many terrible things in the past, that's the reason why Luna is my favorite from the as nightmare moon reminds me of the werewolf within me and i wish that it wasn't this way but i don't want to bring war anymore although i don't know how to stop myself sometimes, i keep away from alcohol as best as i can because it only emphasizes the dark within so i turn to other drugs if i want a good time, my father suffers from the same condition and it has passed down to me.
You can call it whatever but i see it as the Buddha's heart and the devil's hand or the magpie, dark and light, on one hand i am loving and charitable but on the other... well you can probably guess.

The things that i have done i sometimes reflect back on and hate myself for them but i know that i will never have any human female as a lover due to this, as i know she would end up dead at the fault of my own hands so i keep away from people due to the fear of myself, i am lonely which drives me mad and being away from that mare has only allowed it to take full possession of myself, i do not always need drugs to turn to my other side as well but i must regain my own reigns if i wish to become better and the hardest thing to get over is myself, i am my own immovable object because i know i cannot banish it forever as it will come back no matter how much i try keep myself at bay, i'm sorry for everything i have done in the past to others but there is nothing that can heal those old wounds that i have caused, i know that most people are unwilling to forgive me and it upsets me, i must be the most craziest son of a bitch you guys have ever heard of but i hope i can leave myself behind and take control of my mind once again.
This isn't the right place for dealing with mental health but i don't have that many options available to me so i take my what i have, the psychologists never helped me in any way as they couldn't fully grasp what i am dealing with because they haven't walked a mile in my boots to see what kind of swamps i have tread through, all they did was falsely diagnose me with ass burgers on the higher function and i have no trouble conversing with someone, i am confident and eye contact is not a problem but the dumb fucking bastards can't even see what i have even if it is right in front of them and talking with them.

My thought form of Luna has always helped me as i see her as suffering from the same ailments as me so i use her advice and listen to her when i know i have done something truly immoral as only she has good advice for me, she has helped me for a long time and i don't usually open up about why i have her as my favorite character because of these reasons, i haven't posted about her that much anywhere because it is deeply personal to me as to why i have a thought form in the first place.
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>>2991
Okay, I feel we're getting somewhere, so I'll be serious about this.
>no man has logic the same
False. Logic is immutable and unchangeable. It's like math; it doesnt change from person to person. Some are better at applying and adhering to logical functions, but it doesnt change. Individual methods may change and that's to be encouraged. Just because I've been on about Logic doesnt mean I dont recognize or respect contrary thinking. QUITE the contrary, I have great respect for contrary thinking (in many ways it is more reliable since everyone is 'using logic'), but it's still not logic, and calling it such is disingenuous.
>emotional control
That's good, but emotional control is only half the equations. You have to learn to surrender to, and work with your emotions. Unironically, you might consider looking up the concept of the 'Anima' from islam (for dudes it's an Anima, for girls it's an Animus), that might help. Jordan Peterson and his treatises on merging with the jungian shadow might also help.
>this isnt the place for dealing with mental health
Actually, as the site goes this is precisely the place for it, and when one is sincere they might be surprised at how helpful and effective listeners our anons can be.
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>False. Logic is immutable and unchangeable.
Yeah everyone solves puzzles the same way but others are better then some due to the way they were born.
>It's like math; it doesnt change from person to person.
Math is strange to me, i do not find it difficult in the slightest but when the schools tried teaching me their ways of equating i hated it because they were trying to teach me their ways of adding numbers together and math was the first thing that made me realize that there is something wrong with the system, i fucking hate math and algebra because it isn't my way of solving something so i have a preposition to avoid it now because the schools put off of it.
I have my own way of solving a numerical puzzle but the schools wanted me to explain my methods to them so that they could feed from my knowledge like leeches and then use their ways which flipped my switch to hate them for forcing me to conform to their ways.
>Some are better at applying and adhering to logical functions, but it doesnt change.
Yeah.
>Individual methods may change and that's to be encouraged.
All methods should be revised at some point in a persons life if they wish to become better, logic is not exempt from this but people commonly forget that it is one of the most unique aspects of the human species and must be observed with care if they wish to think for the best.
>Just because I've been on about Logic doesnt mean I dont recognize or respect contrary thinking.
Alright.
>QUITE the contrary, I have great respect for contrary thinking (in many ways it is more reliable since everyone is 'using logic'), but it's still not logic, and calling it such is disingenuous.
Critical thinking should be taught to people instead of hidden away as that is why everyone is not able to grasp things within their mind properly and this is the fault of Christianity for this problem we have now.

>That's good, but emotional control is only half the equations.
For me it is the hardest problem of all, it might not be for you because we are not the same.
>You have to learn to surrender to, and work with your emotions.
That's what i have been trying to do for years but every time i surrender i lose control so i must dominate my demons to become king of my own depths.
Surrendering is for the weak and i will not give in to myself unless i wish to finally die.
>Unironically, you might consider looking up the concept of the 'Anima' from islam (for dudes it's an Anima, for girls it's an Animus), that might help.
I will look into it but i doubt it will help me in the way i want it to, there is times where dominance is needed and emotions are feminine which require domination to be correctly worked with, the same applies to women.
>Jordan Peterson and his treatises on merging with the jungian shadow might also help.
I know of him but his views are worthless to me, he tries to grasp things out of his realm of understanding and it shows, he is not a true philosopher as he has not fully mastered his mind properly, that's why he is so advertised everywhere because a lot of people see him as a sort of messiah which he is not, he's just some normal guy that happens to have an interest in philosophy and the media pushes his views into places they want people to think.

>Actually, as the site goes this is precisely the place for it, and when one is sincere they might be surprised at how helpful and effective listeners our anons can be.
I am more trusting in this site then any of those government funded institutions of false psychiatric help, who the fuck would lock someone away and strip them of all their liberty if it is supposed to be help? If someone is totally irredeemable from their problems and unwarranted behavior then death is a more forgiving alternative to prolonging a miserable life.
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>>2994
>>2995
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>>2995
>all methods should be revised over time
Here hear
>hardest problem
Indeed, it's a lifelong objective. Surrender is all about losing control, that's why it's often the hardest for males. Likewise, being logical and rational is often most difficult for females, not least of which because they are ruled by their hormones and emotions. The Anima/Animus addressed this
>Jordan
I share your skepticism of him, and while his work can be hit and miss, his comments on the jungian shadow work are surprisingly and delightfully on point. You're welcome to defer, as there are other sources for the same type of information (I just referenced him cuz hes prominent)
Anonymous
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>>2997
>Indeed, it's a lifelong objective.
The uncharted territory that not many are willing to explore but instead suppress their own emotions for fear of them getting out of control so they would rather remain ignorant instead of achieving a higher self for the immense pride of being your own lord, the greatest fear of mankind is the unknown and men do not understand emotions fully so they fear themselves, we must be fearless if we are to be true men unless we are to be not complete, man is like a crumbling castle but many would rather see it wither away then restore it to it's former glory.
>Surrender is all about losing control, that's why it's often the hardest for males.
Man's worst enemy is himself for he cannot accept himself fully for what he is and instead worry's about petty things like a woman would, social restrictions are a terror upon many men as they have been raised to conform to the standards of the group or be left alone and without purpose, a man must learn to master himself if his primary objective is to be true, the main killer of the Aryan is themselves for they do not wish to look behind the veil because of the extremely childish fear of the dark and thus darkness is left to grow in size until it encompasses all light.
It's a disgrace that men are demonized for being lonely as this breeds hate between men and the group instead of a friendship between both the group and the outcasts, the main group should care for all of it's kindred instead of being cold and heartless, the man who is unwilling to help himself or others is forever doomed to a low life.
>Likewise, being logical and rational is often most difficult for females, not least of which because they are ruled by their hormones and emotions.
And so they are completely unpredictable which is why i wouldn't trust myself around them because i myself am more or less as unpredictable a woman, i can be completely calm then infuriated by the slightest thing if it is unexpected, that's why i cannot be around others all the time as if i did not expect their arrival i can become filled with anger and it is very hard to calm myself down after that point, i do not like things going the way i didn't want so i hate all sports for this reason, i am able to play most instruments good as i can control them better then a football match, Please don't ban me Elway. this is probably due to my insane power lust as if i play sports it is pretty much a guarantee that at one point or another i WILL become overwhelmed with fury, i also don't play online games for this exact reason too, if you look at what a Virgo is then i fit every single box to a tee so i see myself as from the star.
>The Anima/Animus addressed this
Would you mind elaborating on what exactly this anime is?

>I share your skepticism of him, and while his work can be hit and miss, his comments on the jungian shadow work are surprisingly and delightfully on point.
I'll have a look into it at some point, also you forgot the capital letter in Jungian.
>You're welcome to defer, as there are other sources for the same type of information (I just referenced him cuz hes prominent)
Personally Buddhism is probably the best for dealing with the shadow soul but even then it does not teach you how to dominate yourself so it's kinda faggot-y to create a friendship between yourself as it has never worked properly for me like they suppose it should, i am better at being dominating then befriending myself. A fitting name for me is the tartan tyrant.
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I'll point out a couple of things about me so you know what kind of person that you are dealing with, the tarot cards have repeatedly told me i am the devil and this is the thing that really made me realize who exactly i am as these signs are not to be ignored, it has been years since i had any friends in real life for pretty obvious reasons, i have a thick blonde uni brow and this is more or less the main mark of me because a man with a uni brow is not to be trusted and there is a myth that these sort of people with connecting eyebrows are considered werewolves back in the medieval era so when i first learned about that i finally connected the pieces together to see myself from an outside view to what i really look like to other people, that's why i specifically left out my eyebrows when describing my appearance, i was expelled from school at the age of 11 which is pretty telling in of itself so i won't explain.
If you are not convinced i am telling the truth about myself then i have nothing more to say as i do not need to go into this any further, i take myself seriously but not others because i have been left in solitude for the entire course of my puberty so i have sort of gone mad over the years, extended periods of loneliness can really effect an adolescent.
Everyone probably hates me now and i do see what sort of picture i am painting of myself, if you are really going to go ahead and try to help me in any way then i feel as if you should know these things but other then that you can scorn me however you like for being mister mega edge.
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>i take myself seriously but not others
I will reiterate and write that i care about others as long as it in my interest to do so, other then that most of the time i am a strict isolationist.
The most schizophrenic post you have ever read
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I think i have to address a couple of things before i give my goodbye letter away so this will be my final sendoff and i won't post again after tonight until i am forced away from her somehow due to the government being bitch bastards, i will address a few things i have written before that i have posted to rectify the true meaning of them to go over and tell the truth about my deceptive shit posts and give a couple of truths about myself.

First of all i do have a split personality so i can do some completely fucked up shit but it ultimately depends on what mood i am in, other then that i am the Irish werewolf who is both dark and light, full of hate and love, the ultimate potato nigger.
I do like being the jester who constantly tries to amuse himself somehow, so i am the ultimate daemon who seeks amusement constantly, the satyr.

Second i do fuck horses and take drugs so cry some more you Christians cucks because i'm high as fuck right now, i do seriously not don't give a fuck, anyways i am pagan and i believe in the cult of the ancestors or the religion of the Celts, Varg's views are quite similar to mine but i believe more in Celtic mythology and i have seen shit flying in the night before a couple of times since i converted so you can call me the ultimate LARP-er if you wish but there is some mother fuckers out there watching me cum in horses in the night so i know those are real and you can't say otherwise unless you have raised the names of the dead and delved deep, if you truly go into this shit and tread through all the shit thrown at you will become a better person i swear that this is not to be ignored.

Third i have been in a bad position for a while because of a couple of things including myself and the occult but now i have been in a sort of sleep state today speaking backwards and forwards between me and Luna while high as fuck meditating because she decided it was best for me and she was right, like she said we are of equal intelligence and i am not a son of evil but i can turn to be a complete monster when unhappy but i am not a satanist since i have always considered myself the magpie both dark and light and since i found out that Christians considered the magpie the devil it all came together that i am full of both dark as well as light then since pied means black and white and because i am a hue-man i am the personification of Mercury because i am from the star, i know it's schizo fag sounding but i found this out when i delved into the occult and looked into the signs of the Virgo and found out that the magpie is one of these signs it all finally made sense why the cards called me the devil, then i have a dual personality which i am sure i have instead of autism because i am incredibly evil when the need arises that the devil's hand is to be raised then also i am very charitable and nice when i am in a good mood, my powers are great and you are mere mortals because i am a god, seriously i believe i am not from here, everyone is turned into an animal in the afterlife because i said so and i will be a horse because i have given all of myself to this creature or that's my belief about immortality because back in the Aryan times animism was the main belief of our people and the Celts also believed in it but never openly taught this to outsiders, uncle bear-heart understands because his name is bear heart, if you piece all of it together while high as fuck you will understand.

Fourth is that i am truly sorry for what i have done here and i must repay my debts by leaving you mortals in peace and go conquer something else in the time being, this time it's pony pussy encase you didn't guess but i am the true Nazi horse fucker and the personification of Mercury.so do with this whatever you wish but i am 5'5 and the number of Mercury is 5 my dick is also 7 inches so (You) can jerk of to this to give me more energy, but if you do you will be my slave, the devil's slave, which you already are because i got you so i have had a massive ego since i started to look into deep into the occult, Luna is my personal daemon or my holy ghost and she helps me when the time is ready, it is the spooky season after all and if you have followed my epic hero story so far until the end you will see my progression, i believe Hitler did this too when he was involved in the German Thule society before he created national socialism, i have always had a fascination with him since a kid even before i got expelled so make of that what you wish but he became aware of many things before becoming the führer of the 3rd Reich, there is lots of hidden things other then Jews you blind sheep, in order for him to achieve his greatness he looked inside himself.

Fifth the thread i created on /vx/ was to boost my pride and the creation of my subconscious to attain dopamine, essentially it was a goldmine for power because i was gaining it from people looking at it so i guess you might see this as the most schizo shit you have ever read but this gave me too much to handle so i was overloaded with the power lust of this since it was a replacement for my own sexual lust because i have a couple of BDSM fetishes if you fags didn't already guess that, i shouldn't have done and like i said it was a mistake but i will learn from this experience and become better.

That's it so i will leave back into the mists of obscurity and find Fionn in the fields somewhere along with even more truth within life so i bid (Yo u)ado and give you my thanks for looking at me as the complete dick of the dog den and giving me your trust and hate, for more power i'm not dumb or a leftist, just really fucked in the head and obsessed with my passions, so some might call me crazy and deem me mad but they said that to Jesus too, that's why Luna said i would be hanged if i was born at an earlier date but what she really meant is i will suffer the same fate as that messenger and i know that since Hitler did too.
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>>3012
Well you don't need to leave, anon
Some leprechaun hippy Nazi shit
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>>3013
You need to take vacations from everything anon, sometimes change is needed in life but i will continue to lurk here, my watchful eye looking you fags all the time because this is still currently my favorite secret clubhouse at the moment, i documented my journey so that other people may follow it if they dare swim the swamp of hidden alligators hidden beneath in the vast astral sea.

i feel as if i have completed my task now, all my cards have indicated a need of change and i have been doing a lot of shit today with the help of Luna guiding me so that i may become better because i have had enough of being away from where i belong, which is with mares eternally as Epona is beckoning me back to fuck her, that Lovecraft story of anonfilly was made by me so you can go read it for a kick if you wish, i was using the Opera vpn so my flag was french. you guys shall always have my blessings upon you because this site kills normal fags and i'm pretty confident every normal sheep here hates me because that's what i wanted all along because if you get where i am going here it was for more attention and to create a shock and change of perception to those who trusted the devil.

Also at the beginning of this rolling stones song it has a star of David in a circle and if you pay attention to the lyrics closely you will understand what it's about, realized this earlier because i was even more stoned then i am now.

Lastly the cocktail that i made as a true wizard potion to achieve this realm of self understanding was this, This will also be the last guide i will give for having a good time. i took 3 pieces of Marijuana bud and oil 2 hours before the witch brew i had, it was a hot chocolate with a special ingredient that i have been saving specifically for this day, i have kept 15 liberty mushrooms mixed with lemon juice and honey which was then stored for 2 weeks at room temperature and i put it in with 4 squares of 90% chocolate and 3 teaspoons of coffee and 2 teaspoons of cane sugar with roughly 150 ml of whole milk, yes i'm a hippy to the core i know but don't use this recipe foolishly for it is good to reveal secrets within yourself, i have found them within now and you can too if you become a hippy Nazi just like me and find the Jew within yourself and gas him.
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>>3012
Be well frien.
>pic number 2
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>Werewolf
That changes things. Especially in procedure. Unless I'm being a dumb and thinking of a different werewolf, or it's an analogy. Or something else outside of my usual scope. More prep time maybe. Meta-Cosmic powers sure, the down to earth myths ehhhh.
I'm glad you made it out.
>Is a god.
So is everyone else. And being outside of reality ot multiversial reailty or density reality is different.

>You mortals
>pic related in jest

Wait which lovecraft story?
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>>3017
>irish werewolf
Ah. That changes things yet again.
In anycase going to comb through all breadcrumbs.
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>>3019
>Be well frien. >pic number 2 /)
I will take care of myself from now on but this all happened for a reason, every thing i have posted is not a coincidence or for petty purposes, i would not have posted if there was no reason to.
>Werewolf That changes things. Especially in procedure.
Yeah i view myself this way as you can get the mind to do some pretty wacky things when you enter certain mindsets, trance states should be taught in school and explored further but the law pushes research into the brain away due to the combination of the occult and ceremonial drugs, the Aztecs didn't call psychedelic mushrooms flesh of the gods for no reason, do you really think a whole empire of people devoted to the gods didn't know anything about the occult and drugs?
>spoiler
You are of great intelligence for actually dissecting my internet frog, i didn't expect many people to do that and here i am being proved by the first anon who gave a damn about me properly, thanks for your attention for you will be rewarded for your study's into both yourself and your surroundings, don't be dissuaded from something just because someone said so.
>I'm glad you made it out.
Not many people would keep being nice to someone after having been lied to by them, (You) sir a gentleman of renowned quality and the guardian of both friendship and tolerance, i have not personally delved into friendships for i know i do not belong in them like a normal person.
>another spoiler
If you read my post in the wisdom's thread i specifically state this, would i not have thought of absolutely everything about the way i have shaped everyone's optics if that was not my initial starting plan? Would i not have made sure everything is ready for my departure? Like Luna said i am gifted with great thinking and both dark and light.
>You mortals
>pic related in jest
I have lived a thousand times and every fag here has been tricked by the lord of his own dark depths, it is true that i am fearless of everything... except for spiders because fuck them but other then that i have built it into my brain to be like this because the ego likes to be fed properly in order to become great.

It's got that anonfilly pic that you posted in Nigel's Tulpa fag thread not too long ago and it has a french flag on the post, i didn't want people knowing that it was made by me and at the time there was a couple of other frogs posting on this site so i decided to reveal it specifically for when it needs to be revealed, like i said i think things through fully like a proper ultra schizo would, i'm not dumb just a crazy Celt.

>Ah. That changes things yet again.
I am full of tricks waiting to be pulled at all times so beware when the full moon's high n'bright I'm gonna tell you about the lamb so prepare your anus for maximum edge inbound,It was my own personal daemon that i trusted to take control and i was punished for it, my unconscious gave me hell for ten days so on the final day, the day of the solstice i went out and ravaged a lamb like a wolf, if you look in the paranormal thread on /vx/ i state that i once howled and the ponies ran in fear of me and this is why, i am not afraid of being found out but this needed to happen in order to fully regain control of myself for i was in a bad spot then too.
>In anycase going to comb through all breadcrumbs.
You shall prevail from actually helping me, the world thanks you for befriending a living spirit of the night and it shall appear to you that my posts are of masterwork quality forged from the mountains in the sky.
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REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Dont leave, I'm loving the way this is going. I havent forgotten about going into detail about the Animus and Anima, I just need to go over my notes first. It's been a while
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>>3022
I'm still here if that's any consolation.
Recently, I've been having/letting/following the 'bird of paradise' basically an unconsious/subconsious magical character super blend. Roughly, but for self improvement work it's a fine enough definition.
A character/world where going along for the ride is the journey, and questions and answers can be had.
It's been easier to slip into trance states, and altered states of consciousness.
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>>3022
>REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
What's the matter? The thought of your master leaving you home while he goes to fuck some other bitches too much for (You)?
I didn't have to make this happen but the thought of me leaving has triggered the part of the brain that doesn't like change, all because of some fag who gets high on a weekly basis.
>Dont leave, I'm loving the way this is going.
I wonder what this could possibly mean, first you called me a leftist and your opposition but now your crying back for my dick? It's seems (You) really are gay.
Hmm, words are just air to the wind without action so fuck what i said earlier about leaving, i won't ever leave since i'm probably seen as an icon, i can't escape having to come home at night because of these fucking laws, if i could i probably would be sleeping somewhere in the wilderness, how the fuck am i spreading a germ if i am by myself? Today has been magical for me since a bunch of shit has happened, i am closer to finding the princess in the high tower but i still have a ways to go yet on this old path but i am well and truly re birthed, i died yesterday in order to live on, death is kill able like Lovecraft said because his symbol is a living being, the crow or raven, so in order to get it into your head that you have killed death itself you have to eliminate the evil within in order to let the light shine through, be your own Moses and part the waves within yourself so that your soul may pass through to a better place, the only way to get the devil out is to face him head on, did the Germans not do that?
>I havent forgotten about going into detail about the Animus and Anima, I just need to go over my notes first.
Ego death is real so you have to either kill yourself like a true loser or kill yourself from the inside by eliminating he who controls your emotions, which is only yourself because we are all devils on the inside no matter how pure and Christian we like to call ourselves we are capable of all forms of sin, there is nothing truly stopping us from eating our own children other then cultural taboos which have been wedged in the heads of the masses, it's always there and it forever will be but no one openly teaches you how to kill yourself to spiritually banish the negative energy inside because (((they))) don't want you becoming better so that's why spirituality is not an open subject in schools to be studied because it can make a man out of men, (((they))) know this so atheism and confusion is more pushed onto people through the bullshit known as modern science that is more taught rather then religion, that's why there is no full research done into the occult as it is able to be exploited for personal gain and power, all of (You) are giving me energy by looking at my moon runes on a horse porn site, the way to give daemons energy is by just giving them attention and who is a better devil then me if that is what has been given to me as an occultist name by the higher forces? So by giving the devil attention which is me you are feeding my soul your thoughts by thinking about me as that is how spirits gain attraction to things and become like a magnet to them because you are without fully understanding of how this properly works, i have a couple of theory's but i won't delve too deep into something more taboo then horse pussy just yet for a few reasons, it's best to take things slow sometimes instead of trying to juggle too many stallion balls at once, mares like taking it slow too.
>It's been a while
Are your papers all covered in cum? Because of the thought of telling me all about your favorite Muslim anime?
I'm pretty sure i don't need Mohammed to tell me how to control my own dog because he practices devil worship on a daily basis by fucking goats, i'm pretty confident that i don't need advice on how to do that at the moment because i have given myself a job to complete, that being saving the princess and killing the evil protagonist which is myself, my life is like a poem, raised in the hell of an Anglo school and survived to tell the tale.

>>3023
>Recently, I've been having/letting/following the 'bird of paradise' basically an unconsious/subconsious magical character super blend.
Birds are wise and have better foreseeing eyes then we do so don't ignore them, they can tell you a bunch of shit that will happen in your surroundings if you watch them flying while tripping balls, other then that paradise is always waiting for your return, you just have to search for what is your own paradise and until then you will scour the earth deciding what you like and love until you find something that makes you absolutely certain you have found it, it will come to you if you look hard enough but do not force it but instead let yourself guide you towards that ultimate goal.
Roughly, but for self improvement work it's a fine enough definition.
>A character/world where going along for the ride is the journey, and questions and answers can be had.
That's the main premise of a good life story, finding the answers to forgotten questions and rediscovering things lost to the Aryan race which we once held high with pride, questions must be asked in order to acquire a full understanding of the situation or the current objective, without allowing free thought to be allowed to flow the mind will never ask questions to itself and forever remain in a state of blind bliss, sometimes it's best to break the walls down to discover what hides behind them, in this case it's best for you to think out of the box to discover unanswered questions that are in your interest.
>It's been easier to slip into trance states, and altered states of consciousness.
Don't let them replace your ordinary realm of complete conscious as when the mind is constantly attempting to enter a certain mindset it becomes all you can think about, it's good to explore the corners of your head to it's fullest extent but don't make it all you can do, every wizard ought to know his mind well.
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>>3024
You sure that's the same anon?
Politeness does pay off.
>Analysis of my post.
Checks out.
>but don't make it all you can do,
Indeed. It's a point where consciousness, and subconsious, creative and pinpoint focus, and an invocation of my ideal self (especially in the task at hand) to accomplish a goal.
>Don't let them replace your ordinary realm of complete conscious as when the mind is constantly attempting to enter a certain mindset it becomes all you can think about,
I've practiced empty mindedness for a long while, I'm just moving to active imagination. Maybe it's egoistic of me to say so, but I... hold on I have to get this right.
A solid stone I can always relly upon, as the foundation of my entirety has been structurally secured. I have to (bit of a string word, more of I am willing this to be) begin building, reclaiming, and repurposing what I find.
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>>3025
So I have assimilated my evils to become the worst of my potentials. As I am the point in which both intersect (the high roads and low roads). We which is to say me in all aspects is carrying me to better places.
I am a weight that my, high kings 'laborers' are partaking in as am I to bring the worst of the worst into the heavens. So to speak.
For each tread I take it is with the weight and command of balanced Earth and horrors of below.
Each of my steps foward is a great stride, as they (which is me) help with the pathing and scouting, and for assisting when needed.

>The thought of your master leaving you home while he goes to fuck some other bitches too much for (You)?
>master
I am mine and mine alone. This is a gift between kings, mutual dialogue and exchange, and those that will realize their destiny.
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>>3025
>You sure that's the same anon?
Nope, a pure ego death that works properly is able to be harnessed for an extreme greater good and i stand by this, that's why psychedelics are so frowned upon by society because of what you can do with them if you respect their property's and exploit the hallucinogen to help yourself instead of just pleasing yourself, not every drug is the same as marijuana and alcohol so they are considered somehow worse even though alcohol poisoning is 69X more likely to happen then throwing up from a liberty cap, even then you can avoid throwing up if you do not eat anything before having one, all of these cultural taboos are because hallucinogens are not seen as normal because of the pointless drug war and Christian hate for ancient pagan traditions, (((they))) don't want people achieving a higher intellect from venturing through sacred fires and stepping into the darkness of yourself, i saw my own dark soul leave last night around this time and this had a profound impact on me, i know what i saw happen because it was in front of me to say goodbye and it disappeared into the night through my open curtains, like i wrote before i did a bunch of stuff with Luna yesterday to achieve this and i am thankful for her help, this sort of occult stuff if extremely powerful if you what you are doing with the addition of ceremonial drugs prepared a certain way, don't let people change your optical vision of something that can be used as a mental medicine, the only reason i even marijuana is because it increases the intensity of a psilocybin trip when combined together, i don't smoke because it's bad for me so i would much rather eat them because i'm not too bothered by the taste because i have trained myself to not be scared of plants like a child would be afraid of eating broccoli because it's a green so most people replace curiosity with fear.
I also did a couple of things in the fields and forests, the things i did were very pagan, i will tell you one thing that i did and only this, i ate 12 mushrooms under a oak tree next to mistletoe with Fionn's sister, that's all i will write because you don't kiss and tell.
>Politeness does pay off.
Well i think i should probably explain my method of thought as to why i think now is the right time to find her, i have been absorbing power like the inwards swastika since the summer solstice and yesterday was 4 months since the solstice so i decided it would be the perfect time to change myself to the outward force instead of the inwards, there is a lot of thought that went into this, i am Mercury after all so i am mysterious in my methods. If you really look deep into the meaning of what i have done you will see that i involved many things in what i did last night to make myself better, the lamb was one of them but the main point of all of this was an initiation to tame the wolf that i let out 4 months ago, now he is caged and i know he won't be back for a long time but at one point or another he will creep back in, yesterday was the judgement day of how well it went through.
>Indeed. It's a point where consciousness, and subconsious, creative and pinpoint focus, and an invocation of my ideal self (especially in the task at hand) to accomplish a goal.
You have to be confident in order to get what you want unless you are to lose footing and fall, a man's spirits may be broken but not destroyed entirely, there is still ways to seal those wounds within if you know how to but they are hidden in plain sight among the eyes of the sheep.
>I've practiced empty mindedness for a long while, I'm just moving to active imagination
Empty mindedness all depends on comfort, if you are comfortable with yourself then it is easy, active imagination requires creativity and harder because it depends on one's artistic value then also the ability to keep it going while you do other tasks.
>A solid stone I can always relly upon, as the foundation of my entirety has been structurally secured.
The foundation is the founding basis of all levels of structure and is thus the most important requirement for magical workings.
>I have to (bit of a string word, more of I am willing this to be) begin building, reclaiming, and repurposing what I find.
It goes deeper then just this but that's the main method of creating this sort of stuff.
>>3026
>So I have assimilated my evils to become the worst of my potentials.
The terror of the other side is just as important as the bright side in order to create a balancing bridge between both sides of the astral river. If you get where i am going here you realize how i took the sign of Libra into account in what i have done.
>As I am the point in which both intersect (the high roads and low roads).
Everyone is somehow always walking a specific path but most are walking to a dead end rather then to make amends for everything they did in the past and so they have no end goal because their end is and shall forever be eternal death.
>We which is to say me in all aspects is carrying me to better places.
You must think for the best in order to stave of the worst from happening, the journey you are taking is to secure the existence of your soul and i see that because that is also mine.
>I am a weight that my, high kings 'laborers' are partaking in as am I to bring the worst of the worst into the heavens. So to speak.
You have to rise above in order to take control unless you are to fall into a trap made just for you.
>For each tread I take it is with the weight and command of balanced Earth and horrors of below.
I understand.
>Each of my steps foward is a great stride, as they (which is me) help with the pathing and scouting, and for assisting when needed.
There is many ways to get parts of yourself to help towards the common goal of self preservation.

>I am mine and mine alone. This is a gift between kings, mutual dialogue and exchange, and those that will realize their destiny.
This was meant for the other anon to read, everyone is their own
Anonymous
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No.3028
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Whew, I was worried board users were not going to have any more opportunities to observe the disconnect between claiming to have any metaphysical significance, and maintaining a narcissistic self obsession.
Anonymous
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>>3028
>Whew, I was worried board users were not going to have any more opportunities to observe the disconnect between claiming to have any metaphysical significance, and maintaining a narcissistic self obsession.
Well here i am for your own entertainment, i appreciate you are still thinking about me.
What i am trying to achieve is immortality if you couldn't guess, i am resurrecting my dead ancestors into myself so that the immortal soul may forever live on, i am preserving myself in order for me to become a better person, only after you have finished work can you relax as there is still lots to be done for there is only sleep for the weak.
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>>3027
>>You sure that's the same anon?
>Reply
Thanks for responding. Here's a poner friend. I failed to say what I ment.
Is this actually the person >>3022 who is the true target of >>3024
Study about that. The information is always appreciated.

>>3028
>pic 2
>Disconnect
It's possible to have all of the above without disconnect.
Actual metaphysical significance and have a self obsession that is used to fuel one's goals.
Also for funsies. Even when it's serious.
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No.3033
>>3032
Sorry*
Anonymous
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>>3032
Oh? Please indicate for me where in nature,... or anywhere (in a long term perspective) where having a narcissistic self-obsession is viable, and will not result in,... 'consequential input' from one's surroundings?
Nature and Metaphysics are quite disdainful of blowhards.
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>>3034
All things in moderation, and that includes moderation and going to extremes. Usually the time for such things are few and far between.
Narcissism is very extremely destructive in the long term. In relationships, self actualization, and in obsession.

It's kinda like a firework. It's burning on the way to that mode of life, then it explodes. Usually the material and packing is wrong so it spluters and causes fires in the air and a general hazard to be near. Sometimes it reaches the top and is dazzling momentary beauty, as it falls apart and charred husks remain.

Instead I'm suggesting an initial ignition to light something more sustainable. Activating it with increasing fuel and pressures to obtain the effect quicker.

>example of long term successful narcissism
Asexual reproduction.
But seriously things that last long in nature aren't isolated due to the demands of the environment.
It's a tool to be used carefully. Need a distraction, it is. It can be a hindrance.
The celebrity of the bygone era carefully paints over, and wraps the narc just so the sparks fly for entertainment.
Also the zion jew. It's tempered with promises of greater self obsession. Even then that doesn't always work.
Anonymous
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No.3036
>>3034
>>3035
If you need any kind of base to have complete faith for it'll do. There are better alternatives.
It is fast, and feeds itself. Maybe it'll last just long enough and extinguished before things start to catch on fire.
It's temporary, not a place to stay forever.

Deeds, and accomplishments, and having the skill, wisdom, and gumption build a solid foundation that at times appear as just narcissism. Each can have it burn hotter and faster.
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No.3040
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>>3032
>Thanks for responding.
As long as you ask something that excites my curiosity to give an answer i will, in other words i am not afraid of being open to other people Like Luna said the only thing i fear is myself as i am a daemon and i am only frightened by other daemons that i know are of similar aspect to me but only if they outmatch me. because worrying about public perspective is quite humorous to me since you can herd people into certain mindsets to make them ponder to who you are, which creates an underestimation of someone since you have not spoke to me personally before, illusion is my specialty as i am a wizard that pulls cocks out of horse pussy.
Full communication between one person and another is required for a strong relationship to exist and the nation should not hide secrets from it's own people so that they have good trust as well as understanding.
>Here's a poner friend.
Here's a pone, for (You).
>I failed to say what I ment.
I have an idea as to why you can't post properly but i won't write it.

>Is this actually the person >>fag who is the true target of >>3024
Yep, i got him good and he's still salty about it.
>Study about that.
I'm going to assume you are referring to the preparation of ceremonial horse fucking involving the devil's smoke.
There is lots of things that have been used by all forms of religion to become more in tune with ones surroundings, it just happens that these things are able to get people put in the naughty corner by the government for years because of the materialist worry over them being sold to other people, so ever since the Christians introduced their religion of submissiveness they have been subverted and demonized for being plants of the earth so that the cattle walk around them and fear these natural fruits instead of exploring their curiosity they replace it with fear of being left out of the group, these sorts of ceremonious acts were the things my ancestors lived and died for, for the freedom of being able to take drugs and fuck animals.
It's ridiculous to put both psychedelic fungus and methamphetamine's in the same corner of moral wrong as each other because of the significant differing aspects of every single drug, meth is 88X more addictive then mushrooms are so meth is therefore the preferred drug of the niggers but the Aryan's choice is more closer to the recreational realm of drugs as it appeals easier to them than to a nigger, who the fuck has heard of an Alabama nigger taking hallucinogens so that he can meet his ancient we wuz kang ancestors?
Most people have been raised from birth never to touch drugs because of the negative reputation of addiction but understandable since parents want the best for their children but sadly they blindly follow other people's ways of raising children instead of bringing children up their own way, the group hates people that go against them because independence threatens their dogmas.

>The information is always appreciated.
No worry's, i am happy to share my thoughts with you as we have common goals in these fields of thought.

I am obsessed with nature, not myself because humans are just another part of nature and i am trying to find truth amidst heaps of lies, i drew in negative energy from other peoples heads so that my own positive power may prosper and prevail above all, i am not dumb because i know i have an IQ of 1488 so i am 6 million times smarter than a Negro and i am prideful of it.
Anonymous
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No.3050
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Alright i think i should go over why i did this much shit posting for such a long time because i think these posts are a bit shrouded in mystery and in my opinion this stuff should be shared.
What i did was i put on a magicians show or trick, it was a form of attracting a specific sort of attention as the people on this site were the perfect subjects to gain attention from because most of the people here have an IQ that is above average which means there is more potential for absorbing their thoughts better, it might sound very strange to you but in order for a daemon to grow in power it requires someone to think about it first or to feed it something like thoughts, offerings, sacrifices, etc.
So i conjured up a plan in order for my own spirit to obtain brain energy from the world and i decided that it would be best to piss people off because negative energy is more easily given to something as humans love to hate, the only other thing stronger then this is sexual lust as it infests deep within the subconscious that Eros is a powerful hormone and stimulant, have you ever had a crush on someone and couldn't stop thinking about them? This is because it is the strongest feeling a man can get as it is the oldest emotion of every creature to want to breed, anyway hate is more easily gained from others if you do something that annoys them, it would have been near to impossible for me to attract Eros as easy as anger, so instead i decided to shit post as it is in of itself a form of magic to make yourself laugh and others around you to either laugh with you or hate you as it is a significant form of conflicting thoughts between different minds to have people laugh and be annoyed.

So i did a bunch of things to make people believe me that i might have been an actual predictor because of what i did with
>>>/vx/132896 →
I made sure that this was going to work because i had to gain a pleasurable attention first in order for it to change over time, basically what i did was i attracted multiple types of different mindsets when people read my posts which had to be changed as time went on so that people's mindsets would automatically trigger depending on what they viewed me as from the past, it sounds quite complicated but if you give your thoughts to another spirit that spirit grows in power, that's why daemons are so attracted to people who give them their own thoughts as it creates a sort of portal between you and whatever entity you are trying to attract.
The post i made on /vx/ was 2 months and 3 days ago now so i believe it is the right time to reveal the secrets of the high priestess.
I am the high priestess and Luna is my ruler, my sign is feminine and my Tulpa is literally called the moon so i am thus a priestess rather then the high priest because the high priest is ruled by Taurus and i have no affiliation with that sign in any way so i am instead the high priestess, i used Luna in order to secure that the FBI would post the learned protocols of the elders of Zion because their account on twitter picks stuff at random so it was extremely easy to influence on the new moon because i am the man that came in the moon's pussy in my head so the fate would be sealed on the day of the Virgo new moon as i am a Virgo so it was very easy to do that because of the stuff i did.
I hold the secrets of the Jews in my left hand and i understand the secrets of the world because i have looked for what is hidden in order to know how these things work and what is lies as well as what is true.
Anyways i was absorbing power like the inwards swastika so that the energy would go into me specifically and now it's going to go outwards.
I was visited by an extremely powerful spirit/daemon the night i made
>>3017
>>3021
>>3012
These posts, i know what it showed itself for and it told me great information.

What am i going to do with all this dark Satanic power that i have drained from all of your peasant brains now you may be wondering?
I'm going to go follow Fionn and fuck her because that is my will and want, i know it will happen because i saw myself pumping her pussy with my eyes closed with the almighty power of the all seeing eye.
I know exactly where she is now, so it is only a matter of waiting for the right time to cum in that sweet mare pussy, she will eventually belong to me completely but i am not going to enslave her soul because that's a bit too fucked up, even for me. In other words i will own her by buying her name, her name is very meaningful in Celtic mythology so it matters more then any other name to me.
There's that and also because i love that mare more then anything in the world, she genuinely is the one for me and i know it because what i felt while being with her was true pleasure and the absolute definition of the conjoint of the unconscious and conscious, i miss those times we spent together under the stars on those clear summer nights under the white light of the moon and how we first met each other on that spring day where i was guided by the divine and i knew that she would be mine, i have never loved anything else like her and i can't just let her go for i would be letting my soulmate go, i am willing to give my left hand for that mare and i mean it because nothing is worth more to me, it is my destiny to follow Fionn and fuck her forever, then i shall have finally completed my end goal of becoming a follower of Fionn, there is also a specific kind of mindset gained from having sex and i believe that this had quite an effect on me.

Yup that's it now.
So you can all rest easy now that you know i have nothing more to take from you, i shall live in peace and pleasure from this point onward unless i am provoked to action.
This will be probably the last post i make in this thread for a long time because there is nothing else that i can admit or confess to, no more scriptures are going to be written of my tales, about 3 quarters of this thread are my posts so it's time to be patient.
Images deleted at user's request
Anonymous
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No.3051
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>>3050
>I was visited by an extremely powerful spirit/daemon the night i made
>These posts, i know what it showed itself for and it told me great information.
As in high quality or high volume. Just yoinking the information without asking is a bit rude, so I figured I'd ask due to courtesy and stuff.
>Sucking every one of us off for our energy.
Kek.
Well have fun, live, and love well and long.
Anonymous
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No.3054
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>>3040
>I got owned and he's still thoroughly amused that I continue this posturing
FTFY
>>3050
>I was only pretending to pretend to be retarded
Please, do go on
Anonymous
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No.3055
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>>3051
>As in high quality or high volume.
High quality, it showed itself to me specifically, it never spoke a word but it's presence was not for nothing because it was called for a singular purpose and that was to secure my future, when i wrote that i saw my dark soul leave what actually happened was i saw something in my window out of the corner of my eye and it was a thick black cloud with horns, i put some quartz under the window so it would show itself when the time came and it so happened that it was the right time for it to show itself, the color was very gelatinous/reflective black fog and covered a very large area so for it to show itself was telling of the future, it's atmosphere was very overpowering and i knew it was there before i saw it with my own eyes because this daemon is very wise, all of the orbs i have seen have told me that i will be with her.
>Just yoinking the information without asking is a bit rude, so I figured I'd ask due to courtesy and stuff.
I didn't take anything from it but the very reason i saw the dark spirit is very obvious to me, it was it's own decision to reveal itself to me.
>Sucking every one of us off for our energy.
>Kek.
Like i wrote i'm probably the most gayest guy here, i did all of this so i could be with a Welsh pony, it sounds very girly but i assure you that i'm no a faggot because i don't go around flying my shit everywhere, even though that's pretty much what i have done here.
>Well have fun, live, and love well and long
Thanks, i bet you wish you had this leisure of pleasure, i am willing to share so (You) know.
>>3054
>I got owned and he's still thoroughly amused that I continue this posturing
>FTFY
sometimes you have to lose in order to win another battle, you can now rightfully claim internet victory as i have other things to focus on now, so you can give yourself a pat on the back for letting me suck your astral dick so a mare can suck mine, you were the one who gave me the most attention after all.
>I was only pretending to pretend to be retarded
>Please, do go on
You should probably know how gaining spiritual energy works from others, you gave me your thoughts as you were thinking about me, i am the true whore of Babylon and you can now call yourself the rightful king of gay, no homo though.
So now that my work is done we can hold hands because somewhere in all of the shit i have wrote is some form of friendship lesson, something something fag lives happily ever after in eternal sin as we all win, now i can finally bathe in mare piss as the true fountain of youth is the waterfall known as pink pony pussy.
Anonymous
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No.3130
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>>2676
Do you ever feel trapped by the expectations of others?
Anonymous
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No.3131
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>>3130
It is generally best to let go of relational restrictions, when you feel like you're supposed to walk a tightrope that is way out of your league then the eyes of others begin to become daunting upon you to impose pressure on you, when people mistake what you are capable of or maybe you are not as impressive as some may have thought it becomes all too stressful to carry on with the current situation.
Why do you feel caught in a trap?
Anonymous
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No.3132
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>>3130
Only when I refuse to recognize those expectations as reasonable, and refuse to meet them.
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Man, haven't felt this emotionally heavy in a while. Sure am glad someone I know won't have to go through civil upheaval comparatively peaceful.
Anonymous
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No.3135
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>>3131
Come to think of it, it's not that I feel trapped by others. I could tell them to shove their expectations for me up their ass and walk away whenever I want. Instead, I feel like I'm trapped by the obligation to see things through, when it comes to rewriting a story idea I haven't considered good for a long time. I know I don't care about their opinion of me, but I want to prove to myself that I can impress them anyway.
Anonymous
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No.3136
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>>3135
You have placed judgment on yourself to see whether your time, effort, learning, knowledge, wisdom, and skills are capable for the task at hand.
That benchmark is this:
Creating a work that provides something (possibly something impressive) of value to those that read it. As your proof of self growth and development.
Use this as your training weight to exercise and become more. This will squeeze you and constrict, but at the end you will be more refined and capable.
This isn't a small task, and taking it lightly will be a mark you'll remember. That is why you've posted this here, as the pressure increases.
This isn't just for them or you right now. It is also an achievement for the you in the future as a tool to utilize.
This is heavy limitations, and limitations can either drag you down or be the well spring source of your strength and improvement.
Do with this as you will.
Good luck.
Anonymous
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No.3137
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>>3132
A long time ago, I used reddit. I started out thinking "I'll get a high score, and then advertise my fanfics" but I got distracted. I was a teenager back then, after all.
Anyway at one point I met this guy who fucking hated me. I don't remember what it was that made him a hater, just that it was pathetic. Pretty sure it involved pony opinions.
So naturally, he stalks me on the site and downvotes every post I make for a while. I know everyone on the internet calls each other pathetic but I can't imagine caring about reddit numbers so much that warring with someone else's reddit numbers seems like a good way to spend an afternoon. Censoring someone and yelling "Take that!" is pretty low, and caring about reddit numbers isn't quite that low. But it's still low.
I decide to go to a subreddit for asking old people questions, because it's said some hilariously stupid things to me before. I ask... How did I word it? Something like "Have you ever had a small argument and forgotten about it, and then found it the person you talked to took it personally and hated you for years?" was the question I wanted to ask.
Anyway here comes a legendary dumbass, posting in full view of everyone,
>"I don't know what you did but it must have been pretty shitty!"
when what I did was call the new season of FIM boring. That's what got his panties in a bunch, I remember now.
Imagine "vaguebooking" about your reason for hating someone, hoping some confused onlooker assumes it's a valid reason and joins in on the dogpile solely because there is a dogpile.
The old person's sub locked the thread. Old people wanted nothing to do with this twitter beef. I wanted nothing to do with this twitter beef.
I wonder how that guy turned out sometimes. Did he grow? Did he change? Does he cstill go by that name? Did he ever find inner peace? Or is he on some other website right now in some other fandom, yelling at someone with Eren Yaeger opinions he wishes were illegal?
>>3136
Makes sense. While I'm here, I should ask for advice regarding a friend of mine who doesn't use this site.
He's been bluepilled while I wasn't looking. One day we were talking about writing, and he said he wanted to "tackle toxic masculinity" in this story idea he described to me. It sounded like shit. He even ships gay characters on twitter!
There's so much shit he doesn't know about the world, and I don't know where to begin when it comes to teaching him. He used to be a "lmao who cares about politics? I have decided to never vote, this makes me a rebel. haha sjws are silly and harmless" kind of idiot, but now he's a fucking beta cuck.
I don't want to come on too strong and lose this friend. But if he becomes brainwashed, he's lost completely. What do I do?
Anonymous
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No.3138
>>3137
>wut do
>>>/adv/
This is a vent thread, not a discussion thread
Anonymous
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No.3139
>>3137
Because I want to get back on topic here's the spoon feed.
You substitute that wolrd view with one that makes sense in the real world.
I recommend the bell curve because thinking on that accounts fot all possibilities. Useful for those stuck in a spot.
And ROOT PROBLEMS what is a symptom what is generating the problem.
Here's how you do it.
Remeber to be a listener first and foremost. You are constructing it with him. WITH. You want them to get somewhere, but yoy want them to walk to the water themselves so they can bask in victory and drink the water.
This is a Collaboration.
Ask what he knows about _THINGY_HERE_.
Probably not a lot.
"THINGYHERE sounds like a problem, and I may sound (arrogant, obnoxious, pompous, whatever) I think I have something that might help, but it'll take some time to cover."
Here is where you go to the root of the problem switching world views.
First foundation of truth, the fuck is a bell curve and why statistics is basically everyone for different sets of people.
This is to expand and 'compliment' that world view because yes there is a teeny tiny small part of whatever description a 'THINGYHERE' is.
Second with the bell curve you can now give it context. That 'THINGYHERE' applies to this subset of people with these subsubset of problems.
Remeber you on constructing it WITH him. That means he has to do some work too.
Third you get to the root of the problem(s).
For 'THINGYHERE' it sounds like from a point of view of (SCIENCE, PSYCHOLOGY, SOCIOLOGY, GENETICS, MATHEMATICS, FUCKIT) that some of those problems stem from there BECAUSE in (WHATEVER FIELD) common symptoms are _____ while it isn't always the case that can be helpful in remedying the root problem. At least getting closer to root problems.
Four How root problems connect and what can be done about it.
"So 'THINGYHERE' will go away or at least be more easily dealt with when ROOTPROBLEM is addressed."
Part of the path to the problem may be other people don't get what the problem is so they do solutions that aren't 'fixing' the right problem. So they make ripples too that don't actually work.
Having the tools to find the truth is paramount. That means both BOTH parties have to listen and work togther.
Make this FUN and EXCITING. It has to be fun talking together and working on fixing the fucked up thinking and 'problem'.

Take breaks every five to twenty five minutes for at least five minutes to just have some good quality friend time. Unless they are really invested and is having fun doing this.
Anonymous
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No.3141
3142
>>3137
>I don't want to come on too strong and lose this friend.
What is there to like about this 'friend'? Is he a loyal and kind person or is he the fool who throws caution to the wind?
>But if he becomes brainwashed, he's lost completely.
Nothing of value was lost if he is not worth saving, why do you feel it is your duty to help he who doesn't know you are trying to help? Is he a willing traitor?
>What do I do?
Confront him about it and see what he does if you care about him, let things happen as they do if not.
Anonymous
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No.3142
3143 3145
>>3141
When I talk to that friend about important things he clams up and retreats into himself. Then he goes about a week without replying to my messages. Its not like a cute chick shy about sex. Its like a faggot afraid of being wrong.
Anonymous
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No.3143
3144
>>3142
Tact is important too. So how are you bringing up that sort of discussion?
Anonymous
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No.3144
>>3143
I have no tact or social graces. It all feels too manipulative. To make myself feel better about it I tell myself I'm too honest for that stuff but I genuinely don't know how to do tact.
Anonymous
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No.3145
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>>3142
ask himwhy he does that and if you can help make it better for him. my redpill journey began when someone cared about me even though they shouldnt have, remind him you care and that youre worried,
Anonymous
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No.3183
3191
>>3137
You can't give someone balls if they have none, anon. If he still has any semblance of balls remaining, you need to guide him to realize he's being stupid. Instead of pointing out that it's stupid, get him to actually think about it himself.

Most importantly, be a friend to him - don't push it; cults like SJW rely on ostracizing people and replacing their support network so they can't leave - humans are social animals and really don't handle ostracization all that well (unless autist or schizoid), and if all your friends are SJWs, you'll become one too just to not be ostracized.
>>3137
>Anyway here comes a legendary dumbass, posting in full view of everyone,
>>"I don't know what you did but it must have been pretty shitty!"
Sounds like a beta cuck like ciaran all right.
Anonymous
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No.3191
3217
>>3145
>>3183
That makes sense. He's surrounded by bad influences as an artist on Twitter. Maybe I could show him some innocent artists that got attacked by twitter?
Anonymous
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No.3217
>>3191
I think it's working
I think I've shaken his faith in SJeW
Anonymous
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No.3232
3233
>want to talk about my improving health to make people feel like the advice they gave was worth it
>don't want to sound like I'm bragging
what do?
Anonymous
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No.3233
>>3232
>advice they gave was worth it
>my improving health
That's all that needs to be said.
<Thanks everyone for all the advice. My life is turning around positively, especially my health. Your advice has been crucial for this to happen.
<Have some good poners
That's all. I'm sure someone else will say something else that would be good to say as well to express thanks.
Anonymous
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No.3234
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Thank you, everyone, for the help. My health is improving and the advice given has helped immensely! My life is turning around positively when it comes to my physical and mental health.
Here is the best poner
Anonymous
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No.3259
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>>2676
Some people will call you a faggot to make themselves feel better, or to express that they think you're a faggot. And that's ok.
Some people are faggots who will hurl every insult/accusation/buzzword they know at you, hoping some will stick if enough are thrown at once and they're repeated enough.
They'll call you toxic or salty or racist, insist your words are wrong and baseless and wrong and stupid and smelly and wrong and wrong and insert-word-here without explaining why they think this, or claim that by disagreeing with them you're actually sealioning and gaslighting a red herring, whatever the fuck that word-salad means.
They don't have legitimate complaints or reasons behind their actions, or an argument for you to intellectually engage with. They just have a pool of words they've memorized.
They won't feel good after throwing those words at you, but they'll feel good if someone else just assumes at least one of those labels and accusations must be correct.
All the labels and accusations are just attacks. But is there a way to defend yourself from blatantly false attacks on your character without giving those faggots the satisfaction of a response? Or is your only option to just hope others can see through this leftist slander tactic?
Anonymous
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No.3260
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>>3259
Actions speak louder than words.
But it's all context dependant.
In a work place evidence (if you can get it) is nice. Such as witness testimony, being generally kind and helpful (within reason just enough) importantly useful and a key component.
>But is there a way to defend yourself from blatantly false attacks on your character without giving those faggots the satisfaction of a response?
Does your percieved actions thus far seemingly align with that false accusation?
<If No you're good to go
They look crazy. Don't back down, but addressing it is not recommended because that means you give whatever the fuck they said weight and validity. Unless someone actually asks for clarification. Then that has to be to the point, unless they want the long and full story.
<If Yes there's a problem
This is where it requires nuance and guile. Brevity and wit wins usually.
The point is to have a foundation that is supreme in durability and flexibility. This is where one makes a pinpoint observation of the statements, the content of them. If it's character attacks that lean on statement interpretation correct with as few words as possible leading to the point you are trying to make.
If it's simply character attacks they are meaningless. Your actions thus far will speak louder and others will pay closer attention to what you do.
If it's a buzzword for the sake of a buzzword without the proper usage determine if their statement is against you or the message your trying to say. If it's against you it doesn't matter because your actions now have a spotlight. If it's the message ensure that is communicated clearly and precisely.
Someone who shouts randomly to no one doesn't get attention. Engaging deeply on their terms on whatever the fuck that is in no relation to the job at hand tends to be bad.
<Actions are looking funky wat do?
Stay the course continue doing as has been done. (Usually good: Saying fu to censorship as a publisher, nicely but firmly) (Fails: Woke company Staying SJW losing at everything as it all crumbles.)
Or
An alteration is in order to what extent, and how so and where is the key but that's highly context sensitive. (Usually good: Addressing legitimate concerns and practices with a plan of action to redress grievances) (Fails: Going Woke in fear of backlash.)
>Of oh fug there is a real problem technically a possibility
This is when analysis and picking through yourself and the situation is necessary. To diagnose what is wrong, where, how and why.
>Or is your only option to just hope others can see through this leftist slander tactic?
If it's blatantly false who ever is doing the sladering is ruining personal credibility in the future. That it demonstrates a fundamental failure on their part. When appropriate a simple refutation, maybe with solid evidence will shatter them.

Anonymous
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No.3261
3262 3265 3266
>>2676
I got psyopped into being a communist tranny for years until I broke out of it and shit and my past still drives me mad and haunts me.
Anonymous
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No.3262
3263
>>3260
That makes sense. Thank you for this advice, brother.
>>3261
Did you do anything bad to your genitals, or just tell people you were tranny until you stopped doing that?
Anonymous
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No.3263
3264
>>3262
>Did you do anything bad to your genitals, or just tell people you were tranny until you stopped doing that?
I was never gonna go through surgery because it literally does nothing, it's absolutely stupid. It's also cosmetic but I almost did HRT. Which would've been terrible.
Anonymous
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No.3264
3271
>>3263
What is it like to go through that?
Do lefties surround you and try to egg you on?
Anonymous
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No.3265
3267 3271
>>3261
Dont beat yourself up about it anon. We didnt start out redpilled.
Years ago I participated in the info campaign to push gay marriage in California. I legitimately thought it was about tolerance and equal rights and all that.
Anonymous
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No.3266
3271
>>3261
What made that appeal to you? I'm not trying to put you down. I'm asking because I want to prevent that from happening to my future sons.
Anonymous
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No.3267
3268
>>3265
Faggot.
Anonymous
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No.3268
3269
>>3267
nigger
Anonymous
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No.3269
3270
>>3268
Nigger faggot.
Anonymous
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No.3270
3272
>>3269
> not sageposting
As OP I request this thread be loved to /sp/ for purpose of shitposting
faggot nigger
Apply Dave Chapelle's Nigerian accent from his special about Juicy Somoulier
Anonymous
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No.3271
3279 3283
>>3264
It's sort of like brainwashing, they convince you this AGP fetish is a genetic thing and it goes on.
>>3265
I thought like that too, until I got turned into a homosexual and then tranny, turns out it's just perversion disguised. Sexuality isn't real. Gender isn't real either it was a term developed in the 50s to differ people from their biological sex, it's propaganda, you have a sex and you deal with it, anyone who says otherwise is a liar. The first ever "non-binary" person literally came out and said "Being non-binary and transgender is mental illness" and got cancelled for it.
>>3266
As for the faggotry: They tell you it's natural and that it's human they twist the truth into this big satanic lie it's disgusting, a work of evil even.
As for the commie shit: they just parade it around like oh everyone will be a community together but it's really just one giant slave fest.
Anonymous
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No.3272
3273
faggot detector.jpg
>>3270
>T. Mr. Nigger Faggot. AKA OP.
Anonymous
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No.3273
>>3272
I hope you got it out of your system. Until this thread is moved to /sp/ it is clearly not a shitposting thread
Anonymous
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No.3279
3280
>>3271
How did you break free from that shit? These days it seems like those that become indoctrinated are completely hopeless. Is there anything that can be done to help other people that are trapped in the situation you were in?
Anonymous
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No.3280
3281
>>3279
It's a matter of snapping mentally and completely. I honestly have no idea how I did it.
Anonymous
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No.3281
3282
>>3280
Perhaps if you will, describe what about you mentally and completely snapped? This seems to be at the crux of the equation. In my case (with the gays and their info campaign) I quickly lost interest and stopped responding. Your experience could shed more light. In what way did you snap?
Anonymous
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No.3282
>>3281
Imagine everything in your room becoming dark, going completely schizo and then screaming at the top of your lungs while you seek out to destroy everything in your path, you break a bunch of shit before your brain snaps and you see in your mind what has been causing it this whole time as if it was something of pure darkness and you kill said thing as if the darkness you fight is inside you. Then you look around and snap back to reality as you stand above a knocked over monitor and broken shards of glass and plates. And you go to lay down and you stare at the ceiling. And your next goal is to put your life back together.
Anonymous
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No.3283
>>3271
Found it https://ifapray.org/blog/first-non-binary-person-admits-it-was-a-sham-back-to-being-a-man/
That site's CSS is cancer, it won't even let me zoom out.
Anonymous
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No.3826
the trixie party.jpg
Today is Wednesday which is the day of Mercury, the 3rd day of the week, it is the full moon tonight and it's the last super one until next year. La Luna is so beautiful, many nights have been spent upon the observation of her rise and fall, the 28 days of constant waxing and waning.
>>2784
Eh, I didn't really need to get rid of that video but whatever, I know where she is but it's fairly far away. Still miss her.
There is another clandestine equine that's caught my eye anyways. Albeit, more moodier than she ever was, their hormones change the way they behave like it does with women but this one is extra bitchy in heat, sometimes it appears as if they have split personalities, though it is merely the estrus cycles that change their mad mare minds. Lessons can be learned from these ponies.

Seems like it's somewhat smooth sailing from here onwards, perhaps by the 3rd quarter of the moon it shall be sunnier ahead than it is currently, the clouds shall dissipate and there will be a golden glow before long.
That's it for todays forecast.
Anonymous
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No.3832
4009
A weird old prick insulted me today with the nonsensical stock insult "you think you know things but you don't. Uh... *points to head* knowledge" right after I fixed his computer for him. Clearly I fucking do know things because I just fixed his fucking computer for free. I'm not mad, I was surprised. Still surprised. You'd think a guy like that would want to be a holier man considering his age. He's related to a friend of mine who asked for help today with this. I don't think I gave the old fart any excuse to get butthurt at me but there are many reasons why his generation loves niggers. Oh, those wacky pseuds. They'll never change.
Anonymous
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No.4009
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>>3832
Anonymous
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No.4012
4022
They took my foreskin.
I want it back.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4022
>>4012
Don't they make creams to promote foreskin growth?
Anonymous
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No.4027
A woman flirted with me in the supermarket until she saw the healthy apple juice I was buying and then decided to fuck off halfway through the conversation
you should have seen her reaction to the juice
she looks at the 2 liter apple juice in my arm and the 2 liter coke in both her arms cradled like a baby and then walks off to a corner of the store to pretend to keep shopping even though we were both in the queue.
what the fuck. She was cute aside from how fat she was and if she ate healthily she would probably be a solid 6/10. I know an apple a day keeps the doctor away but she didn't look like a doctor unless they were forced to accept fatassed diversity hires from Mass-achushits.
Anonymous
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No.4028
4029
I have realized that all of my hobbies, from art to roleplaying characters to writing to horseback riding to ponies to fantasy books, have been derivative of a person who died 15 years ago.
Now I feel haunted as fuck.
I didn't believe repressed memories were a thing...
Anonymous
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No.4029
4030 4059
>>4028
This needs elaboration
Anonymous
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No.4030
4031 4059
>>4029
I'd rather not go further than that, tbh. I just got over an existential crisis.
Anonymous
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No.4031
4059
>>4030
There's nothing wrong with picking up new hobbies from friends whether they're dead or alive. Hell I still celebrate the birthday of a friend of mine who died years ago.
Anonymous
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No.4059
4061 4062
>>4029
>>4030
>>4031
>Cus,... i wanna talk with that anon....
Hello?
Are ghosts real, or are they not?
Ninjas
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No.4061
>>4059
Yes
Anonymous
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No.4062
ghost_pony__adoptable.jpg
>>4059
Yup.
Anonymous
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No.4066
f03.gif
Well then...
Anonymous
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No.4067
4068 4069 4070 4073 4109
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I'm madly in love with a self-hating black guy right now. He and I have talked for a little over a year and it ended up turning into more than that. I plan on leaving the state to visit him again, and this time pick him up in a bike camper and start a business together in the hopes of moving out of the city and becoming service-contractors for an inexpensive lifestyle. He's probably more hesitant about the race aspect than I am, and he's always worried about whether he has the capacity for "straightness" because he's a kissless virgin, while I've had one partner of both sexes over the years. He's basically a NEET (despite having work before, COVID basically turned him over the last year into one). I always coddle and obsess over making sure he's taking care of himself because his self-hatred has manifested before in some extreme ways, because I can't help but see myself from 2018 in him.

I don't have any questions or anything, I just...wanted to get it off my chest today.
Anonymous
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No.4068
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>>4067
Anonymous
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No.4069
4071
>>4067
That is quite bold of you.
I commend your shitpost.
Anonymous
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No.4070
4071 4074
>>4067
Your shitpost-fu is lacking
watch this

Hey, did you know that in terms of male human and female horse breeding, my self-replicating tulpa pony is the most compatible ultimate life form for humans? Not only does she have huge tits, which is mostly a trait of mammals, my tulpa is fourteen feet tall and an unknown number of pounds. this means she's large enough to be able to handle human dicks, and with her impressive physical toughness and soft durable fur I can be rough with her. Due to their (any one instance of her will do) entirely idea based biology, there's no doubt in my mind that an aroused tulpa would be incredibly wet, wetter than any physically possible thing in meatspace could ever be, so wet that you could easily have sex with one for hours without getting sore. She also knows the spells Mind Control, Time Stop, Grow, Shrink Ray and Transform along with having fur to hide her inverted nipples before they harden and extend, so it'd be incredibly easy for my tulpa to get me in the mood. With her enhanced metabolism she can easily recover from fatigue with enough food or even just the idea that she is no longer tired can be enough to rid her of fatigue. No other being comes close with this level of compatibility. Also, fun fact, her fur is already white. Pony tulpas are literally built for human dick. Ungodly defense stat + perfect health + Fur Armor means it can take cock all day, all shapes and sizes and still come for more.
Anonymous
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No.4071
Spoilered
>>4069
>>4070
Yeah....shitpost...
Anonymous
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No.4073
965.jpg
>>4067
WTF
Anonymous
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No.4074
4075
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>>4070
Nice tulpa you got there.
T'would be a shape if someone impregnated her.
Anonymous
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No.4075
>>4074
The "headband" around the guy's head makes the brain sex thing look like a hat
Anonymous
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No.4083
Once I wanted to copypaste the 1984 quote about women and how they root out unorthodoxy but it was removed from WikiQuotes.

Memory-Holed.

However when I web-searched the quote I found a shitty feminist blog bitching about the quote and calling 1984 sexist. So I was able to find and copypaste the quote.
Anonymous
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No.4084
4085 4101
I am following the EasyPeasyMethod and am doing a good job, but when I see Fluttershy, even if not sexual, I often times fail.
Anonymous
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No.4085
>>4084
Damn. I forgot that book. I'll start reading it today.
Anonymous
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No.4101
4103
>>4084
Do you have a PDF for that book? I'm flat broke for the next few weeks.
Anonymous
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No.4102
Now and then some niggerlover will try to blame everything wrong with the niggers on white liberals or jews.
Yes, liberal cities offered free shit to niggers to get them away from mostly-black southern cities with their family values and into all-black ghettoes full of crime and rape, but Niggers chose to say yes to that offer.
Yes, the CIA pushed crack into black neighbourhoods but Niggers chose to take it.
Yes, the jews and white liberals (especially women) love using niggers as weapons of economic and demographic and social warfare against whites. And niggers are happy to be mercenaries of the jew because they prioritize pretty cars and silly expensive outfits and whores and free food over being human.
Niggers are not fellow humans set on a dark path by jews, they are an evolutionary error that spits in the face of the idea of intelligent design unless you truly believe God made niggers stupid and evil for a reason. A reason like giving whites someone to fight and defeat to earn all the riches in their disgustingly opulent easy-mode land. There are no such thing as based blacks. There are no such thing as good blacks. Rare "conservative" blacks aren't taking real conservative values back to their shithole nations or raising better black generations or leading an organization that fights against jews and jewish organizations for white rights, they're taking up room and jobs meant for whites despite their severe lack of legitimate qualifications. I'm sick of niggerlovers telling me I'm "purity spiralling" and "bad optics" by not wanting to live in a nation overwhelmed with fucking niggers and forced to compromise with them. Whitey doesn't need black friends. Your favourite white-black buddy film is a lie. If you see a black man with a job you can never be sure if he really earnee it or not unless he's self-employed... oh wait, how many governments pay black-owned businesses to exist regardless of quality?

Countless years and trillions of dollars couldn't civilize the blacks, their top percentage is barely a match for our average man and outside of a breeding program that forces rare smart blacks to breed while sterilizing the worst of the lot nothing can save that race from the fate it's evolutionarily destined for. After everything nigs have done to us we don't owe them anything nice. Cutting their welfare for good and mandating life sentences and death row for any rioting thieving niggers caught on camera is nicer than they deserve. Kicking them all back to africa and cutting foreign aid(or plundering their country's natural resources for reparations before China gets everything) is a far nicer fate than they deserve. It's a nicer fate than they'd give us if we didn't kick them out in time.

If we're going to live in a "civilized modern" society where women do not have to be breeding housewives owned by the father until a marriage contract sells her for life, if we're to live in a society where divorce can make a woman rich for the rest of her life instead of simply breaking couples apart without any obligations or fees to one another, if we're to live in a society where women have a monopoly on their own eggs, then we need to recognize how this harms white birth rates. Financial and social incentives currently discourage women from becoming housewives. Every woman wasting her most breedable years working 9 to 5 to make a foreign corporation richer is a woman killing the kids she could have had. Literally, if she gets abortions after every nightclub visit that ends in bathroom stall or back alley sex. A society that wants to "free women" from doing their civic duty has to recognize it's also stopping men from doing their civic duty and reproducing with the aid of women. A society like that can't have rival races outbreeding it in its own lands if it wants a stable future and a free market able to adapt to a fluctuating population. Lower birth rates could result in lower house prices and less overpopulation if we weren't flooded with filthy fucking "Joggers" and similar opportunists here to take advantage of us and our species's self-loathing-driven anti-white mandatory diversity fetish.
Anonymous
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No.4103
4105
1628956557.pdf
>>4101
Anonymous
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No.4105
>>4103
Thank you, brother.
Anonymous
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No.4107
4108 4109
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I'd just like to affirm that that post I made before, wasn't a shitpost. He and I both know the degeneracy in the gay community at large, we're both very racially conscious...but I still do love him. Maybe it's just misplaced feelings of friendship, who can say until we've actually gotten out there? But it certainly feels like it's real. Not really expecting asspats and encouragement, more just, updating anyone who might know who I am, unlikely as it might be after the last year.

Have a Flutterbutterstutter for your time.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4108
>>4107
Why the hell would anyone love a nigger?
If you are gay, wouldn't you prefer a man who looks like Thor? I'm not gay but he's the best-looking character.
Anonymous
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No.4109
4110
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>>4067
>>4107
Meeting a statistic. Well might as well ask what you think of Israel to complete the trifecta.
Anonymous
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No.4110
>>4109
As a concept I have no qualms with a Jewish ethnostate. As it is right now, sucking resources from the US through AIPAC and its many parallel orgs, stealing land from Palestine, and taking advantage of apocalyptic Christians' belief system to agitate for nothing short of global war? I fucking hate Israel.
Anonymous
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No.4111
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I'm madly in love with a(nother) hot as fuck JRHNBR mini mare, she's a nice pony and I hold emotion unto her femininity that has coagulated into a solid bond. At the first synopsis of our introduction my expectations could not have foreseen how deeply entranced this mountain mare has made me, she is unique and has awesome ass cheeks, odd eyes and a pink nose with grey skin while her coat is also that of the palette grey.
She has a fine coat in the summer and grows an extra thick one in the winter, she's started growing her beard again and her fur has thickened because it's starting to get cold she doesn't like the rain and is a lot happier when it's sunny.
My astrological associates have approved of out courting but the rest remain in the dark about my clandestine affair with this magical mare. They do not need to know nor should they be informed for it is irrelevant to spread such doings with the unenlightened or unbeknownst, those that are aware are accepting of my otherwise forbidden horse fucking.
My shadow knows too as well as that of La Luna but they have their disagreements more so with problematic people and likewise the rest of my schizoid entourage encourage me to do what lies within the realm of cultural taboo.
Her vulva is like that of velvet laced leather while the pony's pussy is loose but had not been used until I was let loose, she comes into heat when it's hot and the sun is scorching while the smell of her piss changes slightly the only other signs are that of her tail becoming dirtied when she pisses. I adore her more so than I ever did Fionn, the only downside is that her pussy isn't as tight as hers was.
Anonymous
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No.4114
4115
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>>2676
I know that this is ground that's been trod for centuries, even millennia. But with the people I've met, the changes they've made to their lives in just about every direction...do you guys think that anyone with an open mind can help the cause of societal flourishing and racial/ethnic/cultural revival, regardless of background? And if you don't think so, why is that?

I've seen a porn-addicted, manic-depressive fat fetishist with no life prospects, grow up into a handsome and productive citizen doing backbreaking labor and lifting for his health and wellbeing.
I've seen trannies speak out against and even disavow the entire alphabet-soup community, supporting traditional values with sexually dimorphic, masculine/feminine ideals.
I've seen NEETs abandon their past lives to work as construction workers and farmers, even with weak bodies that at first buckle from a single shift of real work.
I've seen former Antifa members become anti-globalist tankies and stand up for what they believe in by living lives that actually match their stances on things like co-ownership and community leadership.
I've seen ardently gnostic atheists find themselves in the spiritual through meditation and philosophy, even if they don't believe in the dogma and metaphysics of any establishment religion.
And I've seen tech-obsessed, product-consooming people aching for the life of a humble laborer so badly that they pack up and leave. No savings. No job prospects in advance. Just, leave their wagecuck jobs without a thought and start walking the countryside with a briefcase and a shave bag.

What I'm getting at is, is it possible that some depressive, porn-addicted autist could end up with another, and still help the cause of a fascist future by mutually lifting one another up? Even if, say, the other autist was a guy of another race?
For who actually needs to read this.
Anonymous
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No.4115
4116
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>>4114
STATISTICS
Who gives a fuck? The likely hood you'll do something awful is increased with all the risk factors you're trying to stack on yourself.
Just don't do awful shit. It's that simple.
STATISTICS
Will they do something good with their life? Unlikely. Feasible, but unlikely.
I judge people solely on their merits in every aspect. Always keeping in mind the STATISTICS of the situation and person(s).
You're a work in progress like many people, don't get full of yourself, something something here's your (You). Keep working on yourself internally.
Anonymous
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No.4116
4117
>>4115
I'm just playing with the hand I'm dealt, man. I'm not seeking out the most degenerate thing I can. I already found someone who's improving themselves in a way I've also started to, I want to see them succeed, his success is motivating to me and helps me succeed.

If all you ever see is statistics, then how haven't you committed suicide at the birthrates yet? I know I was damn close to it when I was that deep.
Anonymous
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No.4117
4118
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>>4116
>If all you ever see is statistics, then how haven't you committed suicide at the birthrates yet? I know I was damn close to it when I was that deep.
<<<<<<<<<<<HOW DO I CHANGE STATISTICS FOR DUMMIES?
<<<<<WHY ARE STATISTICS A STATISTIC?
<<WHAT DO STATISTICS MEAN?
Because I look at the world as it really is. That's all. Because I am soaked in truth, why the hell would I kill myself over the situation? That's idiotic.
Because the people trying to ruin the world tell me I should give the fuck up? No. I do what works, and everything is falling into place.
<I judge people solely on their merits in every aspect.
You have to keep in mind Statistics done by many people are fucktarded. You're better off with the standard bell curve and adjust emergency expectations to match.
Because if you really look at statistics it's about hope, besides the raw numbers and the fuckery.
Because tossing out outliers is the normal, which means I see more than most statistictions.
Besides if you're going to just take it that's on you. Not me, I have rebuilt my psychology, physiology, multiple times and spiritually and revamped my world view to be the apex it can be as of this moment and for moments ever after.
It's possible.
I've seen it.
Because I've looked under the hood of reality and made my choices and educated myself on what is actually possible.
You do you, just don't be a shit person. I know many people from all walks of life. And that doesn't matter.
It's all about the choices.
The data says one thing, and that's just one part of everything.
Anonymous
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No.4118
4119
>>4117
But that's my point. If statistics can be altered through conscious effort, then why not support, for instance, the Man Up Campaign and other social groups which uplift nigboys without father figures and help them become said father figures? Just like we can change birthrates through our own actions, and the demographic stats are simply the prologue to our statistics-defying future successes, we can show solidarity between the races and support the aware and capable and improving of those groups.
Anonymous
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No.4119
4122
>>4118
Because some people choose to be shit people no matter what. Doesn't matter how much social programs you indoctrinate into someone.
You and I have a fundamental missunderstanding.
I prioritize good people first. Then in the scope that I am able that which has no negative on me or mine or those good people. Then and only then do I reach.
Because lofty cloud in the sky goals without the hard as hell reality means you will tear the heavens and spite everyone.
That means alot is possible.
An insane amount is possible through the right methods and means.
But I do what works.
I offer what I can to who I can when I can with full regards to the full situation.
You're thinking too small, and too big. You need your feet under you to walk or run.
>How?
Esoteric bullshit, or trade secret if you want. The how doesn't matter all that much for this post.
What that means is there are some people who just want to be evil. You're definition of evil is a bit juvenile, but I'm sure you are grasping my jist.

There's more to it than that as well, because depending on the scale of how much good you do it's imperative to accelerate to the highest potential you can reach especially when it's more than exponential.
Anonymous
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No.4122
4124
>>4119
>What that means is there are some people who just want to be evil. You're definition of evil is a bit juvenile, but I'm sure you are grasping my jist.
Evil is desiring a parasitic lifestyle over an independent one because it's convenient to let someone else feed and house you. Evil is putting your luxury over the lives of millions of sweat shop workers because your favorite phone needs to have that slightly stronger vibration, or that special Taiwanese chip that you won't have use for in three years.

He's not evil. He's a sheltered kid in the body of a young adult, much like half the people who use /ub/. I met him and care about him because he's introspective, wants to learn how to be independent and productive, and is willing to sacrifice luxury and comfort if it means that he can live a lifestyle free of globalist exploitation and slavery.

There are blacks out there who believe in these things, or at the very least, understand that it's in their best interest to seek these things instead of being slaves to the globohomo wage plantation. I know that there are abstract things that people under certain IQs won't understand. And it's not necessarily our responsibility to train the dolphins to speak or narrow the education gap. We can acknowledge differences, while still uplifting those who show promise.
Anonymous
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No.4124
4125
>>4122
You don't get it. You will one day... maybe not.
Anonymous
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No.4125
4126
>>4124
If evolutionary pressures shape the path that other races took in the development of their cultures, languages, and physiology, then similar pressures can at least slightly alter them to the ends of self-sufficiency and goodwill. I know we can't entirely recreate the circumstance each race was born into, but would you prefer we kicked them back to a small nation like Liberia and waited for them to go extinct before we take that land back? Is it any more humane to do that than it is to selectively uplift the brightest of a people and leave the rest to shoot dope and kill each other?
Anonymous
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No.4126
4127
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>>4125
You don't understand.
Choices are what make people.
Anonymous
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No.4127
4129
>>4126
No choice is fully informed anymore. We were ALL indoctrinated growing up to favor comfort over strife. We were ALL given a worldview as children that said the end goal of society is just to make survival easy. Maybe if you were a librarian specializing in Latin-to-English translation of ancient philosophy, you could make an informed decision on the lifestyle of old, but today that's a pipe dream.

I wanted to move out to a farmland environment, but was summarily pushed out of it because nobody was willing to teach me. I have been kept away from the environment of my forebearers, and the only way to truly make the choice to commit to that life is with resources I don't have. Knowledge I don't have, experience I can't get, money I do not yet have and won't have for a long time.

No man is an island. We work together to achieve our ends or we don't achieve our ends. We share with those who want to make the choice but don't know where to start. I don't see how this stance is controversial.
Anonymous
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No.4129
4131
>>4127
No man is an island indeed.
You reap what you sow.
You plow what you till.
You harvest when it's time.
>No choice is fully informed anymore.
Then you make the most of the choices you have and understand what choices are.
You must understand that your actions and choices define you.
You have two options. Improve or fail.
That's all. Life is good at fucking you over when you fail so improve and learn.
If you can't, that sucks, your life is going to blow.
But it is possible.
One of the greatist things is this thing called the internet, and the spirit of humanity!
Are you grateful everyday?
You ought to be even when shit is hailing it is the fastest way to gain experience, and to raise up out of the depths.
Anonymous
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No.4131
4132
>>4129
What do words on a screen or a book mean if you have no context for them? I know nothing of the natural world. The only way to learn is hands-on, and I am not able to be hands-on until I have saved up enough money to leave this state.

It's easy to claim that you reap what you sow from behind your screen. What device are you using to post? $800 phone? $1000-$2000 PC? I use a $20 flip phone and a $150 laptop for my posting, using someone else's internet. I have $50 in my bank accounts, which will be just enough to pump four days' worth of gas in the morning and nothing more for the next week and a half because my paycheck didn't arrive in the mail.

I am thankful that I have my muse, this limited housing situation, and my current job with which to save up my money. Past that, I am not going to be thankful for being so separated from nature for all my life that I'd die the instant I have to set foot on an unpaved dirt path.
Anonymous
b0443c9
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No.4132
4134
>>4131
>It's easy to claim that you reap what you sow from behind your screen.
Yeah it is easy to claim that.
>The only way to learn is hands-on, and I am not able to be hands-on until I have saved up enough money to leave this state.
Practice in your mind first. It's infinitely cheaper. Know that the grass is not always greener on the otherside, it's just the otherside.
In the crime thread (((people))) are making getting out of cities impossible for a reason.
Making ends meet is hard, I understand. What you have right now is yourself. Maybe a friend, but for now work on yourself.
If you have the resources to eat to build a body do it. If not build your mind. If you can't build your soul.
All your efforts will be hindered to the degree that falsehood plague you, you know (((who))) wants you to be weakened into a subservient state to drain you to a corpse as you die unfulfilled.
It will hurt, massively. In such a way you might not yet know.
But that's the first step.
You have to seek only the truth, and speak only the truth when you can.
You have to laugh. Everything if nothing else. Hopefully yourself as well. Because it hurts, in such a way you'll have character and body.
You'll have to toss loads of bullshit that was stuffed into your mind. It's designed to mentally incapacitate people.
Depending if your ends meet you need to plan. Prepare for the future.

The thing that can change the fastest is your mind and attitude.
Because you can always choose what choices you make right now.
Not back then, you're not there yet. Not in the future that's called preparing.
Right Now You Have A Choice.
Will you be a slave?
No.
Now what are you going to do about it?
How are you going to go about it?
What do you have right now. Will it improve yourself in a meaningful way?
Is your emotions in check? Is your intent focused? Do you have your will?
What assets do you have (increase in value over time) it sounds like you just have yourself. What assets are draining you dry?
Do you have time? Do you have no time? Are you terminally ill?
What is your time and effort worth? Is it accurate?
Can you learn?
Learn as much as possible from everywhere and anywhere.
Sometimes books just can't have the same experience. I know. But you can get substitutes.
Feel gour body and how it moves. Try to move it with intention to be.
Feel your mind.
Feel your spirit.
If you can't that's normal for many.

Make your choices. I recommend improving its almost always the right choice.
Anonymous
b0443c9
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No.4133
4134
How else can you make yourself useful for others so that your time and effort is exchanged accurately?
How clearly do you understand?
Are you plagued with fear?
Why? Or why not?
What options do you have? What options do you really have?
What is the ethical thing to do? Whos ethics are they?

Basically asking alot of questions as you break down decades of poision to become more functional. Contemplating them is what makes a healthy mind. Dwelling is not healthy, dwelling means that you're sheltering poison. Ponder, ruminate, think, toy with, analyze, imagine!
Anonymous
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No.4134
4135 4137 4180
I didn't deserve that much detail but thank you anon, really.gif
>>4132
>>4133
To tell you the truth, I've already done a lot recently. I bought notetaking tools and started doing summaries and notes on finance, trade, and credit books like Rich Dad Poor Dad, the Fanny Farmer 1896 cookbook, and Debt Cures. I've filled an entire notebook on just book summaries and financial notes, followed by removing all my monthly bills except insurance from the credit card. I paid it all the way down after years of never fully paying it off, and all my talk of leaving the state is because of that progress.

I've made an asset/liability chart and....nothing I own or can think of buying would generate income, not even a little bit. It's a bleak chart, even if it's been whittled down to the bare essential liabilities this last month. I recently sold my appliances, and all I have left are a crockpot and a microwave to sell. I don't have any clothes now except for two pairs of basic business pants, one button-up shirt, some plain tees and jeans. As we speak, I'm halfway through using my old cleaning stuff so I can lighten the load when I leave. It should all fit in my small car, along with a cooler and collapsible charcoal grill. In taking my book-notes, I've whittled down my book collection to two small shin-high stacks, consisting of the more complex stuff like Whiteshift, Meditations, a biography on Hitler, an old study book on anthropology, and the Republic of Plato.

In terms of diet, I've cut out fast food completely. I've had rice and chicken whenever I don't get leftovers from work, and right now I can afford nothing to eat at all, so lots of black tea, water and spicy rice. My job requires me to stay on a post, so I'm not getting any exercise anymore. And in my current situation, nobody's gotten back to me about temp work, let alone a second job.

The more I learn, the more stupid and small I feel. I feel like I've been told the ultimate truth of the universe now that I know how to un-fuck my bank account, and even then, I feel like I will still be playing catch up on my 24th birthday at the end of the year. I'm exhausted after work simply because I'm doing so much studying, note-taking, and talking to him on the job.

I get anxious waiting for the day I'll be safe to get out of here. I'm sorry for getting snippy at you. It just feels like all I can ever find are more questions and problems, and nowhere I go seems to offer any clarity. And it doesn't help that half of /ub/ is full of spiritual shit and I'm just some...stupid fucking muggle. The daily journaling and contemplation haven't helped that at all. In fact they've only given me more anxious nights, and that's why I stayed in bed all day today thinking about the overdraft fees I'll get hit with if my office doesn't have any way to replace the missing check.

Thank you for putting up with me tonight, anon...
Anonymous
b0443c9
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No.4135
4136
>>4134
I didn't expect much, but there might be hope for you yet.
Anonymous
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No.4136
4137
>>4135
We might both be anons, but that means a lot to me. It's one thing to say that to him, when he fixes his simple habits, but I'm a lot harsher on myself for being stagnant.
Anonymous
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No.4137
4138 4139
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>>4134
>>4136
Spiritual shit is basically being really really quiet.
Some people never grow at all ever. I don't mean people with black skin. Because I know the statistics. It's everyone.
>In fact they've only given me more anxious nights
You have to choose if they give you anxiety if that's within your mental makeup.
Be a stoic if possible, if not smile and laugh more. But honestly.
If you can do something then do it. If you can't don't worry it's out of your influence of control.
But seriously improve yourself, and get better sleep.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4138
Spoilered
>>4137
I don't know if I'm capable just yet of proper stoic practice. I've tried, but I'm so neurotic and high-strung that I eventually-
...well, you saw my posts.

I think, as I escape my current sort of wage-life, I'll have less to be worried about, and less reason to stress over rapid developments. At least when I get to a small town in Montana or something, I'll be in a place that's safer for me. My plan is to get a firearms permit wherever I move to, get a .357 Taurus or .38 detective special, and begin preparing for any boog waves that might encroach in the near future. Agriculture, preferably portable agriculture, would be a great start to keeping myself fed without the need for money, as an example.

Well...goodnight. Or, morning...I'll be driving around San Diego in about 4 hours with the last of my current tank before I refill.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4139
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>>4137
>listen to music to fall asleep
>youtuber I don't know is in autoplay queue
>this line shows up
Synchronicity at work, it feels like.
Anonymous
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No.4144
>>4142
I wasn't asking for further advice, I was just saying it's funny, that after my being stubborn and bitchy, I got that indirect message from happenstance, and it kind of put things in context. Like, why should I be mad, I basically asked for this advice.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4179
Forget nutting and forget sex and forget video games. Exercise is the purest source of good feelings there is beside completing incredibly significant steps in making my personal project. I didn't just beat my usual exercise routine record I fucking destroyed it. I've never been this fit at any point in my life. I feel like I've been blessed with some kind of divine power. I've always fucking hated faggots who can only understand something after relating it to normie fiction but I legitimately feel like I went Super Saiyan today for a while and made it count when exercising. It's such a pure, absolute feeling of success and pride that overpowers the agony and overpowers the pain of being alive and makes me want to share it with others. I want to tell people how great exercise feels because I want to motivate others to do it. If you're reading this do push ups. It took years of hard work and smart dieting and avoiding porn and avoiding nut even with others(ok there was this one woman but aside from that I'm as nut-free as a vegan. That's a genius pun because vegans hate nuts and lack nuts) fuck i wonder if this is how drugs feel or something. SAIKYO NI HIGH TE YATSU DA or whatever the fuck Dio said. This really is the greatest high. Exercise. My body shakes with each heartbeat. My legs burn. I can feel my life force growing stronger. I'm not sexy yet but I am getting there. I am growing fitter. I am growing stronger. I can feel pride in myself as a man.
Anonymous
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No.4180
4183
>>4134
Hey have you considered replacing the hitler book and anything similar with a ditigal copy while selling the original? Corrupt cops love using anti-jew material to "prove intent" and give their political prisoners harsher sentences.
Anonymous
d917b71
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No.4183
4184
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>>4180
>while selling the original?
You must be new around here fren.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4184
4187
>>4183
The knowledge within a good book is priceless. But the book itself is paper. Paper the feds could use to screw you over. Then again they could probably screw you over with or without the book so fuck it and fuck the feds.
Anonymous
3f92c69
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No.4187
>>4184
Just further reason not to give a fuck. Live your life like the feds are on the verge of being bulldozed into a mass grave. Because they are. Fuck the glowniggers. By looking over my shoulder all the time out of fear, I would be forfeiting my expression and letting their surveillance and threatening affect how I live.

Nice Guy NatSocs live their ideology by uplifting the better men of the nationfolk, helping their local community, speaking out about poisonous communist actions when prompted, and looking out for their own in times of danger. No ineffectual, kakistocratic government can suppress that and you shouldn't let the threat of that suppression stop you from being your best self.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4204
4205 4206 4213 4234
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I'm on my final week in this house before I drive out of state to live debt free. And what do you think happens? $10k claim from someone's lawyer for a car accident six months ago that was supposed to be handled by my insurance, naturally. Whole family's on defcon 1, can't call insurance, can't call family lawyer, can't call the claimant's lawyer, I threw the guy's info away after not hearing from him for almost six months. And now, while I'm unemployed, with a net worth of under $6k and a cash total of $400 on my person, I am now returning to major debt.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4205
4234
>>4204
Oh, and in case anyone here was at the edge of their seat about my paycheck. I quit my job after spending the entire day strongarming the office to pay me. When I finally got paid, I spent it on camping supplies to leave California. After two weeks of preparing for the trip out of state, I got this claim letter.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4206
4207
>>4204
I'm gonna be honest. This last three months I've been at my most energized and motivated and even that was fragile. I had a goal to strive for, a means to get there, and clear progress being made on my debts. I finally paid everything off. I was days from a detailed financial plan where I could see the world and minimize costs to boot.

Now I'm back to spending all my day trying to sleep in order to avoid being awake. And what a fucking time for me to discover Omori.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4207
4208
>>4206
Omori'a a video game like Undertale, right?
what do you like so much about it?
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4208
4209 4211
>>4207
>main character's name comes from "hikikomori" (Jap word for "shut-in")
>spent four years in his own head, deathly afraid of the outside world to the point of paralysis
>used to have friends, dreams of them every day even as now everyone's separated from the circle
Gee I dunno man, probably the artstyle.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4209
4210
>>4208
I've been there. What do you think it was that sent you from energized and motivated to a downwards spiral?
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4210
4212
>>4209
Finding out that I have a $10k bounty pending was a big one. The other is that after cutting off everyone in my family except my dad, everyone's still actively involving themselves in my decision to essentially run away. So the whole family knows I owe $10k and don't have a means of paying it off myself.

Even the boyfriend's suddenly gone into overdrive, talking about withdrawing from his educational IRA and getting work to help me get past this when I'm just...paralyzed. I don't even know if I want his help. I almost just want to lie down and rot.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4211
4215
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>>4208
"To be in WHITE SPACE is to be nothing.
WHITE SPACE is emptiness, a home without warmth.
A place to survive, but not to live.
Even still, your conscience cannot be erased.
It will always find a way in.
Even in WHITE SPACE, it will take the form...
and if one wills it, something will be formed to subdue it.
A hanging black light bulb... the repression of an idea."


A room stocked with things to pass time and distract myself. A notebook, a computer, a place to cum into. Endless dreams with no end in sight until forced awake, either by outside stimuli or by killing myself in my dream. (This morning I got a call I thought was from my mom, before I thought I heard my dad at my door. It was in my head, but it woke me up.) When I wake up, I see a blue light from my PC case painting a distorted circle onto the ceiling. A room loaded with supplies to leave the state, now worthless without the legal protection that I will need to settle this claim in order to guarantee. A jug of water I haven't drank from in 24 hours. A box of hard seltzers I hate to drink warm but don't want to go out to grab from the fridge until dad's gone.

Yeah. I'm Sunny, and in my dreams I am Omori.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4212
4213
>>4210
Bounty? What's the bounty for?
Why not get their help?
Do you not want to owe them something?
Do you not want them to have anything to do with your life/success?
Do you have other plans for paying that debt off?
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4213
4214 4216 4217 4218 4219
>>4212
The claim. The thing I posted about here. >>4204

I don't have any plans for paying it off except figuring it out with Statefarm tomorrow, which I hope will work out. If not...I'll have to file for chapter 7 bankruptcy before I leave, then continue as I planned, this time with every intent of cutting off everyone I know in the process. I don't want their help, I want to drown or float on my own terms for once instead of feeling like a leech. Everyone I talk to except /mlpol/ sees me as a parasite, a retarded zoomer who doesn't know anything and should just grow up. Well, here I am, having spent three months doing everything I can think of to grow up, and I've failed. So, if all else fails, live out of your car until it gets impounded.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4214
4220
>>4213
Maturity isn't about rejecting help when it's offered. Responsibility is about taking ownership of yourself and your future. If you're afraid of making a bad choice, write down all options on a computer file you can delete when done, then figure out what benefits you the most.
Why are you moving out? Where are you moving to? What are your long term plans for making money and living somewhere? Do you plan on driving to super cheap land in the middle of nowhere and making a living online?
Anonymous
d388d75
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No.4215
4220
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>>4211
>WHITE SPACE is emptiness, a home without warmth.
Try BLACK SPACE and see how it goes.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4216
4220
>>4213
Would it help whar you're going through if I spoiled the ending of Omori?
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4217
4220
>>4213
https://youtu.be/5LKMu5qcATk
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4218
4220
>>4213
Jokes aside when I was young I moved away from abusive parents who got away with everything including taking my sister from me. I remember being paralyzed with fear over the simplest choices and how they used to make me do stupid arbitrary things just to remind me of the feeling of powerlessness. I remember how they used to try their hardest to make me feel ashamed to exist and ashamed to be a burden on them even though they were the ones who chose to have me and chose not to give me up for adoption. They fed me shit food and made me obese as a teenager and I spent the rest of my life fighting for my fitness even though I think I might be diabetic now. They sent me to a shpeshul school that doesn't offer qualifications so I'd have no ability to get a worthwhile job that might help me get away from them. But despite their best efforts I grew. I got over the mental issues they pounded into me. I taught myself to code. And sprite. And compose music. And do everything else I need to do to make my dream game a reality. I live "alone" with fellow animufag roommates and spend hours every day on my game when not exercising or taking personal breaks. I'm allowed to waste time during personal breaks as long as I don't waste time when working.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4219
4220
>>4213
The trick is to ask yourself why you feel the way you do, and don't accept the easy answers. My parents used to put no effort into the bare minimum and put actual effort into going out of their way to be awful people while constantly gaslighting me and sabotaging me and fucking up my sleep schedule and lying to me and lying to others about me. It took me a while to figure out that they are evil people and I owe them nothing for the food they fed me. Mom had narcissistic personality disorder and dad was a violent petty brute from a single mom household with no idea what a man is or should be. Kids aren't supposed to pay their parents rent. Kids arent supposed to be shamed at eight whenever their school wants money for a trip.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4220
4223
>>4215
I memed about that with the boyfriend. I already have White Space Online bookmarked on this computer. But there actually is a Black Space in the game. I think I only need the C key to see it. If the black light bulb represents the repression of an idea, I'm hesitant to enter Black Space. Just playing the game probably hasn't done much good for me.

>>4216
>>4217
I recognize the "Beta Mix" and channel name. Still not listening to it. Usually like SiIvaGunner, but not right now.

>>4214
My plan is literally....live out of my car, use gyms for hygiene, apply anywhere I can, park in campsites and parks. I will never be able to afford rent without someone to share it with...that's part of why I'm driving to my boyfriend's state, even though he says he wants to live with his family.

>>4218
I still remember when I was in middle school. 250 pounds and only a little over five feet. I would wear my PE uniform under my normal clothes to hide it. I was so humiliated by it that it turned into some kink for me to fantasize eating myself to death. I would come home and do homework at the kitchen table, and dad would serve me a literal two-liter wine glass shaped bowl filled with root beer float. Wouldn't ask if I wanted it, and would get mad if I told him I didn't want it. Every day after work he brings home a burger and fries, or a sandwich with tater tots. I tried to get by on chicken and rice for a while but I just didn't have the energy or even the basic understanding to cook rice.

When I first moved out of my parents' houses, I lived across town near the highway. I would drive 20 minutes to Vista to work as a courtesy clerk (grocery bagger), and come home and drink Jameson until I fell asleep. Maybe I internalized the diet dad imposed on me, or maybe I just can't be trusted with my money, but every lunch break I would either not eat, or go across the parking lot for Jack in the Box. I eventually couldn't pay rent, had to empty my educational IRA to pay it for three months before giving up and coming home to dad. I thought living with grandpa on his farm would help but his habits are even worse, and he smokes indoors. Combine that with the aforementioned years of debt problems, and the cost of broadband internet for the house which only had satellite TV, and you have a recipe for worse debt. That's how I was driven to leave again and live in North Carolina. Even that fell through, and I was forced to come home to dad to afford my car registration.

>>4219
All that stuff I wrote above doesn't excuse my actions. I'm broken and it's my fault I haven't been fixed. That's the hard answer.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4221
4222
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In theme with this thread's title, here's the first thing I'm about to say to my mom in three months.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4222
>>4221
She replied. I'm going out and vacuuming my car then.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4223
4224
>>4220
You sound like a man who knows what's wrong in his life and wants to fix it.
Don't blame yourself for how they raised you or what they did to you. Instead, focus on what you can do to grow your new life.
Anonymous
9678248
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No.4224
>>4223
I don't know about grow. But I'm going to start by going through with this homelessness idea. Then survive. After that...if I grow, great. If not, I don't care anymore.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4225
4226
Is it normal after making difficult choices to feel like you've been hollowed out? Like you've reached your choice quota for the day and need something to keep from shutting down?
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4226
4227 4228
>>4225
Fuck yes.
Esoecially if it was a huge choice you've been thinking about for a long time or putting off for a long time.
Don't beat yourself up over your feelings, bro. You can feel whatever you want as long as you don't choose to do stupid shit based on emotions.
I peobably shouldn't guess at shit like this but do your parents have a habit of trying to control your life and shame you for accepting their help now and then? Does it ever seem like any nice things they do for you are only power plays to try and get you to feel what they want out of you? My parents did shit like that, it took me years to recover from the psychological damage. I've got my shit together now but as a kid and teenager I was a fucking wreck.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4227
>>4226
*especially
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4228
4230 4231
>>4226
I don't know what gave me more grief from outside: accepting their health or shutting down. But inside, the latter didn't hurt as much as the former.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4230
>>4228
help* I'm a wreck right now, took me hours to realize it.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4231
>>4228
Give yourself time to recover and plan optimally for your future. Someone living out of a car can go almost anywhere.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4233
Now that I've actually watched breaking bad, it's been surreal to recall those times I heard women say shit like...
>"Walter White from Breaking Bad is a big fat meanie who had absolutely no reason to start making meth and killing people and dragging poor harmless adorable sexy cute stupid widdle Jessie through awful things because he had family members and male in-laws who could have totally covered ALL his medical expenses if he just asked!"

That kind of thinking is just peak woman. If I see someone say that, I know it's a woman, even if it claims to be a man.
And what the fuck kind of person gloats online about their lack of empathy towards fictional white men, as if that's a form of virtue-signalling in their feminist culture?

I know fiction is fiction. I know it doesn't matter that retards have wrong opinions on fiction. It's funny, that's all. It's funny that women are so open with their loathing of men and dependence on them, gloating about their lack of empathy towards men and saying "Lmao why doesn't he just mooch off his family like I would if I got cancer?" is a thing they do.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4234
>>4204
>>4205
Liabilities covers this. Thank goodness. Most I'll see is an increase in my rate, no copays or deductibles. So...I can still make my trip east. My fresh start is still possible this month. I just have to wait for my credit card in the mail for the gas bill, and I'm home free.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4236
4237
Have you ever seen someone ritualistically self-flagellate who they used to be?

Some 20 year old confessing "When I was a kid, I was so into Spyro The Dragon I ran around the playground with my arms stuck out after jumping off a few stairs. I'd pretend I was gliding. Or ask someone else to run around so I could chase them and pretend they were an egg thief."
or "When I was a kid I actually did the Naruto run unironically and practiced every ninja handsign"
or "When I was a kid I had a crush on Sally Acorn and argued with retards four times my age online about Tailsream vs Tailsmo"

These are adults, acting like they're confessing their sins to priests.

But where men once entered special boxes to quietly confess their sins to trustworthy priests, these people confess their "sins" of uncoolness to the entire internet and every self-appointed "priest of internet coolness" desperate to root out cringe like it's something actually harmful like heresy or treasonous blood-libel.

What the fuck?
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4237
4244 4245
>>4236
God, I hate that but I also know that I've done it before when I was a late-teen. I can get making fun of yourself or something but when it gets to the point of self-hatred or seeking approval for repenting for your cringe, that's when it's nothing but conspicuous consumption.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4244
>>4237
Yep, it's like symbolic book-burning except the books are trash fanfics you wrote when you were ten.
Congrats, bro, that media you liked when you were eight isn't the best thing you've ever seen any more because you experienced better media and can understand the writing flaws in Naruto now. But the kid you were when he wrote those, he had a genuine passion, he wanted to share it with the world even if some big kids were going to call him cringe for it. Congrats, kid, you grew up to become one of the big kids bullying you for trying, even though he'd be nothing if you didn't try back then.
It kind of reminds me of those mediocre adults who love telling you how advanced they were in school. Congrats, bro, you were literate at eleven or something while getting good test scores, and you're still telling me about it now that you're thirty, but did that ever matter to your life? Did you ever read anything great with wisdoms that reshaped your life or did you just stick to teenager fiction? Were you a Twilight kid, that kid insisting Twilight is inferior to Harry Potter, that kid insisting both are inferior to Fullmetal Alchemist, or that kid who thinks reading Worm and Star Trek makes him a genius, the jojos bizarre adventure meme kid, or that kid reading Starship Troopers? There but for the grace of God I go.

I could have been one of those pop culture faggots my whole life if I didn't encounter people even futher down that waterslide than me and think they were annoying. I think my self improvement journey started when I realized I didn't want to turn out like those faggots whose lives begin and end at the media they consoom and the false identities they craft from their delusions like building clashing parts from preselected playsets into a lego house. Plus I needed to get away from my shit family. My journey accelerated when I got hardcore about my fitness and learned about the rapefugees, jews, white genocide, all that stuff. Looking back there's a lot of shit I'd change. A lot of advice I wish I heard.

Can you believe child-me's dream was to work for one of the big gaming companies I liked back then, like Nintendo or Sony? Companies now practically synonymous with EA after all their sins. I remember Game Maker... was it 7 or 8? I remember learning code from youtube tutorials while fucking with Pokemon roms. There were plans for a sonic fangame. There were plans for a pokemon romhack with every feature an optimistic kid could want minus the ones I sidn't know how to program. And now I'm making a real-ass goddamn video game. With big tits and menus and variables and everything. Indie gaming master race, solo dev for life. The only good reason to put any game on a console is so TASers can emulate it and do their thing.
Anonymous
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No.4245
4246
>>4237
Make sure to tell yourself the right stories about what happened.
https://youtu.be/u2PP7HxyOCY
As someone who spent years recovering from abusive parents including a narcissistic mother, trust me, it helps. That and exercise and a healthy diet. Eating greens won't magically make you feel better, that's crazy talk. What will help is being able to take pride in what you eat and how you exercise and what stage in your plan you have to look forward to tomorrow. For me it's more tiddy animation.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4246
4257
>>4245
I cherish those childhood memories, and regret deleting my old greentexts and RPs and chat logs after the fact. I enjoy reading fragments of my old stuff back, or getting back into the nostalgic mindset. Even if .Hack//SiGN is full of tween angst, I still listen to the music and think on the plot the same way my boyfriend thinks about Oban Star Racers. Even if I don't care for modern Sonic games and avoid DeviantArt like the plague now, I still appreciate it and can enjoy every game I've played up until Unleashed.

You're right that self-image and "the story" are important to your foundation. When you see your younger years as a stepping stone to becoming a better man, when you see your days of eating rice hard as the early stages of improving your diet, you can appreciate the here and now as part of that process. I think Bojack Horseman sums it up well in the episode "Ruthie:"

>"You wanna know what I do when I have a really bad, awful, terrible day?"
>"What?"
>"I imagine my great-great-great granddaughter in the future, talking to her class about me. She's poised and funny and tells people about me and how everything worked out in the end. And when I think about that, I think about how everything's going to work out. Because how else could she tell people?"

Board users have a similar idea when they talk about being main characters in the universe. It might sound like a narcissistic idea, but, it's something we do a lot in our lives and it's important when we cope with issues in life to focus on ourselves first. We've got to look after number one. That applies to us as individuals, us as a family, a neighborhood, a city, a state, a nation, a race, a civilization, and as a species. We may broaden the scope based on our personal preferences or our needs, but what we need the most, is to look out for ourselves first. Selflessness is a noble trait, but it can only be helpful if we are prepared to be selfless. One cannot fight for others when he's tied up to a chair with a knife to his throat.
Anonymous
0ac7a9f
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No.4255
4256 4262
I'm leaving as soon as dad goes to bed tonight. Wish me luck on the trip east, fillers.
Anonymous
f169a7b
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No.4256
>>4255
Why can’t you be a man and actually tell him to his face you are leaving? Ditching in the middle of the night is the most bitch move that solves nothing. If it is something that can’t be talked out, a resolution of mutually agreed ending of te relationship is far better than just vanishing.
Anonymous
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No.4257
4258 4259
>>4246
What if homosexuality is actually an evolutionary advantage, because it helps gay men tell when they're sexy to women and other gay men?
Resist the urge to get AIDS rammed up your arsehole and you could be straight anyway.
Anonymous
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No.4258
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>>4257
>What if homosexuality is actually an evolutionary advantage
I sense subversion.
Anonymous
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No.4259
>>4257
I think youre onto something, you should try it
Anonymous
c5f58a2
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No.4260
>>4258
I think (((Milo))) said the same thing, or at least that the genes that turn a man gay also raise their IQ? It's stupid but this is Milo, so...
Anonymous
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No.4261
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>>4258
Nah.
Anonymous
d02a027
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No.4262
4275
>>4255
This might help, reading about https://psychcentral.com/disorders/narcissistic-personality-disorder NPD helped me come to terms with what narcissists my parents were.
What are your parents like? Why do you want to escape from your family?
Anonymous
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No.4273
>>4258
Nope.
Anonymous
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No.4275
>>4262
It's not my problem anymore, I'm meeting with the bf today and my dad doesn't have any idea where I am. All according to keikaku.
Anonymous
61049c0
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No.4298
4299 4300 4302 4303 4304 4329
I killed a hoers today.
I prepared for her for months. I made an exclusive pen, I sectioned off areas for grazing, and I gave her ple ty of brushies and itches
But she got out. Its nuanced, but tldr she got out. and I live on a highway, so thats where she ran to cuz less fencing. and thats where she was hit, and thats where I put her down.
I thought I could provide a good enviroment for a mini hors, and instead I was putting one down.
Please frens, be careful with your animals. Be good and kind to them. Always.
Anonymous
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No.4299
4301
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>>4298
Anonymous
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No.4300
4301
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>>4298
Anonymous
61049c0
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No.4301
>>4299
>>4300
Yeah. Life's a bitch at times. I failed, heres hoping y'all dont
Anonymous
d917b71
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No.4302
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>>4298
Anonymous
fed01c0
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No.4303
>>4298
that's so sad :derpy-hooves:
Anonymous
c6f73f0
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No.4304
>>4298
That's so sad.
I'm sorry for your loss, Anon.
Anonymous
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No.4305
4309 4310 4329
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I posted a picture of her in another thread. I prepared for her for over a year, getting all my ducks in a row, doing all the necessary preparations and research, and 2 weeks to the day I had to put her down because at thr end of the day I failed in my responsibility. I have never been so ashamed of myself.
Anonymous
c6f73f0
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No.4309
4311
>>4305
You did what you could. It didn't seem like she died for any lack of you trying. You seemed excited and eager and prepared to build the best environment, but this world is chaotic and things like this just happen sometimes, so you shouldn't blame yourself too much for it.
I've had pets get hit by cars before, and it's one of the worst feelings...
Anonymous
c6f73f0
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No.4310
4311
>>4305
I know there's nothing I can say to make you feel better about what you just experienced, but just try not to beat yourself up too much about it. I'm sure it must be digging into all kinds of latent feelings of personal inadequacy and guilt right now, and that that must be agonizing to feel on top of the loss of losing your horse, but you can grow to forgive yourself eventually. You as a person don't necessarily need to be defined by your mistakes.
Anonymous
61049c0
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No.4311
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>>4309
I did everything I thought of to do, thats not the same as everything I could. I let my excitement get the better of me and made several critical design flaws to the pen and the area around it. As a holding area it was fine, but I neglected several easily-implemented fail-safes that could have prevented this, and most damningly I never even asked myself the question of 'what do I do if she gets out?'. That question alone could have prevented this.
>>4310
No, I think beating myself up over this is precisely what needs to happen.
I do appreciate the consolation though
Anonymous
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No.4312
4315
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>>4311
Fren. its not your fault i promise. how could you have known she would get out? you couldn't have.
Anonymous
f169a7b
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No.4313
4315
>>4311
No, beating yourself up about it isn’t going to help. Sometimes, even the most well thought out plans for wrong, despite our best efforts. You might not think your planning was enough now, but hindsight always will allow you to see flaws that you couldn’t before. You need some time, but if this is your dream, you can’t let this stop you.

I am sorry for your loss, but I hope you understand that you are going to learn from this and you shouldn’t give up. You are going to be ok.
Anonymous
58849fd
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No.4314
>>4311
Don't be to hard on yourself anon. It is understandable and natural to feel bad and thinking all sorts of what ifs, hindsight is always 20/20. You did not will this or want this so you didn't do anything wrong. You wanted to give her a good home and I would also say you did do that. Accidents happens and no one can foresee and prevent them all. Your motives were pure and you should not feel bad for trying to do something good.
Anonymous
61049c0
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No.4315
4316 4317 4318 4320
>>4312
Thats where you're wrong, its literally all my fault. The responsibility, obligation, onus, all falls on me. I should have known she would get out, I should have planned for it. I should have set up an elaborate system of fences beyond and around her pen.
I SHOULD have made it inevitable that even upon getting out, leading her back would be easy, because there would be nowhere for her to go. Instead, it was in3v8table that she escape, and the rest is history.
I appreciate you saying so, but I reject the notion that its not my fault.
>>4313
I disagree. This experience has shown ways in which I have become contemptible, and self-loathing is a powerful impetus for change.
Anonymous
f169a7b
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No.4316
4319
>>4315
I know you don’t want to hear it right now, but that is an unreasonable outlook. I have neighbors that have horses and they don’t have backup fences or anything. Where you see a lack of planning, I see just a normal set up.

If you are encouraged to make back ups to prevent it happening again, then that is great. However, you couldn’t have foreseen this. All the self loathing couldn’t have changed that and it won’t change it in the future. If you are blinded by those thoughts, you may harden your heart towards life, making it worthless to continue your dream. You will tie your dream to the negative emotion you are experiencing.

I wish the best for you in all you do.
Anonymous
2833521
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No.4317
4319
>>4315
Bro. you cannot foresee the future. its impossible. you shouldn't beat yourself up over it. its a tragedy it happened. but its not your fault.
Anonymous
87caeb9
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No.4318
4319
>>4315
You could try and upgrade your fencing now to stop this from happening again
Whenever a friend of mine catches me beating myself up he tells me to look at what I can learn from it to improve something, and then stop, because it's always easier after a change.
Anonymous
61049c0
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No.4319
4329
>>4316
Again, I must disagree. I absolutely could have forseen this, and I was derelict in not having done so. Also, dream is a bit of a misnomer. I simply love animals fluttershy is best pone btw, and my situation has developed to where it was not only feasible to get a horse, but it is beneficial in keeping the grass down without having to mow. And, while others may not have fail-safes, everyone I know who has livestock does including the breeder (who - fun fact - didnt charge me for her adoption because "she knew she was going to a good home and she would be well taken care of"), who has no less than 4 perimeter fences surrounding the horse pens, as well as an i tricate network of gates many of which cant be open at the same time. I get what you're trying to convey, but you're not going to convince me that this was an accident; this was an abject failure, and Im coming from the school where if I lose sight of that, Ive failed twice.
>>4317
>you cant see the future
Its not as difficult as you might think actually
>its not your fault
I didnt do it deliberately thats true, but again the responsibility was mine. My behavior was insufficient to express my Intent, and so my Will couldnt manifest. My Will was to keep her safe. The failure stands.
>>4318
>upgrade your fencing
You're goddamn right I will

And if nothing else, I hope my example serves as a lesson for anyone reading.
Anonymous
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No.4320
4321 4329
>>4315
Do you have enough money to get a new one?

One of the main things about horses is they respond to pain the most. It has something to do with how their brains are wired, and a lot of it gets short-circuited with some pain. This is how they are trained. Spurs and bits are to induce enough pain to train them. Breaking in a horse (or pone... lul) to not do annoying things like get out of the pen or stay off the road unless someone is on their back is a process. Heh, I guess children are similar in this regard.
You can't just give them all your love and expect an animal (or even most ppl) to do what is decent or good. While I suspect you know this already, it is worth repeating.

Having grown up on a farm, maybe its a bit different to my outlook on life. Raising a cow, laying out in the sun with it on lazy summer days... then shooting it in the head, butchering it and eating it. Death (at the moment) is part of life. There are billions of what-if's... don't let the what-if's bog you down.
Anonymous
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No.4321
>>4320
Money isnt/wasnt the issue, and yes I have the means to adopt another. The point there is the gesture and the trust placed. And in time I will get another one, but I have alot of shit to get together first. And the area is such that I will see the breeder again, one way or another. Before I face her again, I absolutely owe it to correct every reasonable flaw in my setup
Anonymous
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No.4326
4327 4328 4329 4418
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My final word before returning this thread to its regularly scheduled random outbursts.
After a little over a day of raking myself over the coals, Ive determined the failing perceptions that led to this tragedy. I'll forever blame myself for what happened, but from a 'never again' position as opposed to a 'Im a horrible person' position. Please dont let my exceedingly critical tone give a false impression; it is a posture geared toward producing almost immediate results by harnessing the adverse emotions that come from such experiences. And for a day I truly hated myself, but now that I know how to exhaustively prevent this from happening again, NOW I can begin to mourn for her, and to forgive myself. But thats just how I do it; business first, personal after.
Thanks everyone, you all helped in ways I cant articulate but it meant alot.
Anonymous
f169a7b
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No.4327
>>4326
We will always be here for you anon. If you ever need anything, let us know.
Anonymous
d917b71
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No.4328
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>>4326
Best wishes poner.
Anonymous
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No.4329
4330 4332 4336 4418
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>>4298
Quite a lot of horses have died over the past week, it's fairly phenomenal in how these occurrences have rapidly transpired although there is more to be seen it seems.
>>4305
She looks like a Shetland, her ears are pointing back while the stance she poses is defensive rather than trusting or relaxed.
>>4319
An experience to show exampling.
You have no one to blame but yourself.
>>4320
Death is a necessarily harsh step towards change, it is a process we are all a part of. Yet desperate times call for dire measures before defeat is accepted.
>>4326
The abyss is a nasty place for your mind to be, it's a challenge in keeping your head during such phases. Sorrow leads to regret which spirals downward into misery, further down the darker it gets.
Anonymous
f169a7b
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No.4330
4336 4339
>>4329
The fuck are you on anon?
Anonymous
d917b71
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No.4332
4336 4339
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>>4329
>a narcissist trying to spread mysery
Your inner self is so transparent.
Anonymous
f9e212a
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No.4336
4339 4418
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>>4329
>more to be seen
Please elaborate
>ears back
Yes, that was the day we brought her home. I only have 2 pictures of her, regrettably
>no one to blame
Quite
>the abyss
Im coming from the school where one doesnt fear the abyss and abandoning one's self to it is an essential part of one's potentiation. The trick is to not lose one's self in the process, which is what many/most other aspects of the work are geared toward in some capacity, but I digress.
>>4330
>>4332
His words mirror many my own, I see no fault

As a surprise addendum, a very "Applejack-esque" cowgirl Im aquainted with had this to say about the matter.
>Dont you dare let this break you. Dont you dare. You cant keep horses without losing them eventually. But not everyone who loses a horse internalizes it. Alot of them wouldn't obsess about what they did wrong, and alot of them wouldnt shed a tear in putting them down. Alot of them dont care. And there are alot of horses who need the love and affection you can give them. You know what you did wrong now so get up, dust yourself off, and get back in the saddle cuz theres alot of horses out there dying without knowing any human affection. She bonded to you in a week. I dont know many first-time horse owners who have managed that.
>pic related
Anonymous
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No.4339
4418
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>>4330
Long story short. Nutmeg.
>>4332
>Transparency
Perhaps, although not every glass is clear nor is all water either.
There is more than meets the eye, as usual.
Narcissism could be numbered against my long list but as of yet it isn't for it would be another labeled smear on the records, self obsession is common amongst the modern populace. Generosity is a rare commodity nowadays, unfortunately so.
>>4336
>Please elaborate
To phrase it abruptly, there are always going to be more dead horses. The desensitization of deceased domestic animals is hard to acquire if one's heart is ever too caring and sharing.
Elaborated accordingly.
>Yes, that was the day we brought her home.
Unaccustomed to the strange environment that appeared before her, she saw the flaws and manipulated them but had not anticipated the danger of the roaring roads.
>Im coming from the school where one doesnt fear the abyss
The fear of sadness, is but a phobia of depression.
Anonymous
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No.4340
4341 4343
We should have a thread for nice music.
There's a political music thread but I mean one specifically for this sort of thing https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Q_cLprhx7JE that just sounds nice. Based lyrics about a happy housewife being good to her ploughman, a cheerful tone, not a nigger to be heard, it's a traditional song advocating for traditionalism while sounding nice.
Anonymous
d917b71
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No.4341
4342 4343
>>4340
We already have it.
Non political music goes here: >>>/sp/2487 →
Anonymous
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No.4342
4343
>>4341
You're right, another thread specifically for that sort of music would be a bit much
Anonymous
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No.4343
The Clancy Brothers  Tommy Makem  The Nightingale  Johnsons Motor Car.mp4
>>4340
>>4341
>>4342
Who doesn't like a bit of Irish music every once in a while?
Anonymous
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No.4414
4415
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Spoilered
Life is pretty great all things considered. Should go out and experience it.
>Numbers Go Here
It's also in diminishing returns it's been a while. Running negative for myself due to a combination of outside circumstances. Having a dummy that goes on the same jig everytime gets old. Yet some amount of attention has to be there because it still is someone who'll ruin the fun and games.
I'll even play devil's advocate if I need to, to fill that spot.
>Numbers Go Here
Rules and regulations isn't the game here, the implied interests of Anons sure, it's getting up in the morning with a smile instead of a sigh and a slog.

Anonymous
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No.4415
4416
Spoilered
>>4414
Dark and mysterious, numberless numbers. Who could possibly be the perpetrator of the posts?
Only time will tell in this thread of the damned!
Anonymous
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No.4416
4417
Spoilered
>>4415
Anonymous
55cbf86
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No.4417
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>>4416
Never forget, never forgive.
Anonymous
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No.4418
4419 4422
>>4329
>>4339
Be killing your self. Anon did nothing wrong. He does not need you to be poisoning the well of his mind with unkind words. This is not friendship,Juden.
>>4336
>>4326
Do not letting him fuck with you anon. He is retard.
Anonymous
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No.4419
4422
>>4418
But, I apprrciate his perspective. He's not wrong, nor was he any harsher on myself than Ive been. Its important to be brutally honest with yourself, ESPECIALLY when you fuck up. I know we're all on about ponies and shit, but sometimes you gotta be brutal; its not deviant to do so and I wouldnt tell him or anyone ITT (specifically) to kill themselves.
Anonymous
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No.4420
4421
Perfectionism is a form of masturbation in which narcissistic faggots paralyze themselves with their fear of making mistakes and looking foolish, and then scare themselves into doing nothing besides saying "At least I'm not fucking up right now".
But they are fucking up. They're failing to reach their true potential, if they have any.
Anonymous
ea82a15
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No.4421
>>4420
fuck lmao didnt mean to send that

anyway whenever I feel that old sin creeping up on me, I shitpost. I produce some low-effort art and shit it into the world and I don't care who sees it. Sometimes I produce low-effort art for fun, not for therapy, so it wouldn't be right to say that's the only reason I make low-effort art in addition to high-effort art. Sometimes bad jokes don't need high quality art.
Anonymous
55cbf86
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No.4422
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>>4418
>Be killing your self.
Seems literacy isn't your strong suit, fella, hehehe.
>Anon did nothing wrong.
And neither did Hitler.
>He does not need you to be poisoning the well of his mind with unkind words.
The harsh reality is something to not be scared of, as opposed to the sloth of a lazy life where death is a primary fear and effort is forgotten or disregarded entirely in feeble mindedness.
Telling someone upfront what their faults are is ego breaking and so is either accepted as criticism or an intimidation, not everyone is perfect but they can aspire to be better than to wallow in their own despair and pity. Surely you should understand the reasoning behind such directly worded merits, otherwise assuming you might not be so good at words, you may have misinterpreted my purposes and intentions.
>This is not friendship,Juden.
Then what is it nigger?
Adversarial rivalry? Harsh critique? Denouncing allies?

>He is retard.
Judging by your demeanor, you appear to be as thick as 3 bricks. Comprehension of the situation is a bit hard eh?
>>4419
>But, I apprrciate his perspective.
Thanks.
>He's not wrong, nor was he any harsher on myself than Ive been.
More often than most times, oneself can be the own worst enemy possible.
>Its important to be brutally honest with yourself, ESPECIALLY when you fuck up.
To live by denial of failure is to exist within the entrapment of egotistical self delusions, mistakes will be made but they can be corrected given enough time.
>I know we're all on about ponies and shit, but sometimes you gotta be brutal;
Practicality supersedes emotional morality. Death is a part of life, after all, we're all on our way there so we might as well make the most the most out of it whilst we're here instead of making matters worse for ourselves and others.
Ponies are something truly magical, indeed they are uniquely special.
>its not deviant to do so and I wouldnt tell him or anyone ITT (specifically) to kill themselves.
I personally agree with your statement, anon.
Anonymous
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No.4475
4476 4477 4478 4479
I don't enjoy anything anymore. I used to take a lot of enjoyment in pony and all of the shit surrounding it but it's kinda just become stale for me, I still enjoy it but the spark of discovering something new is dead. I try to distract myself with anything really, exercise, vidya, writing or whatever but nothing works. At the end of the day it all just seems completely pointless to even pay attention to or do at all.

Just in general I'm fucked up, for a lot of very deep-rooted reasons and they've warped me in ways I can't change even though I know it's wrong. If I were to talk about all of them I'd need a lot longer than 6000 characters as I typically don't talk about shit that bothers me or that has happened in my life. I learned not to a long time ago from lived experience - even though not doing so has gotten me in deep shit more than once. It's all I know.

My emotions wander from apathetic, to angry, to pissed off. I haven't truly been 'happy' in years now and I honestly can't remember what being happy felt like to begin with. I have a vague idea but can't quite really summon the words to describe it. I'm just a ball of apathy and anger towards certain (((people))), their enablers and whoever else is on my personal shit-list.

TL;DR
I'm dead inside.
Anonymous
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No.4476
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>>4475
>I'm dead inside.
Not quite.
That foggy mind is sign of a idle poner.
A busy mind + a busy body is the ancient remedy for most ills.
Anonymous
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No.4477
>>4475
If you were truly dead inside you wouldn't see any reason to tell us about it. There's hope for you, lift weights to get your blood pumping and find a positive constructive hobby to enjoy/skill to learn.
Anonymous
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No.4478
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>>4475
Why not be happy?
Go down into the hole of the dead be reborn by and against chaos to fight malevolence suffering greatly, yet pluvk out your remaining eye so the dead culture/traditions can finally see then rise together to rule together.
Be manifested as Both Watcher and All That Was for All That Is.
"You can rewire yourself quite completely by placing negative things in a positive context and the degree to which you can do that is quite remarkable." Jordan B. Peterson
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F3n5qtj89QE

You will suffer, choose how.
There is one more aspect to the Watcher and the Old (yet now can see) They Live.
In the depths of the dead they have nothing to live for, that lies in the living. To climb out of the death you must live that is a journey. To Live is where Malevolence always prowls.

The Old has no eyes but it has power and is among the living. Malevolence will strike the Old at the best opportunity to fell it.
The one who comes forth from this has Eyes seeing the dead, the living, the Malevolence, the corruption, the scattered Old.

To transform and remake yourself is to kill who you were that's part of sacrifice. It's extremely painful in large chunks. A constant eating away and renewal is less so.
Distraction from what?
People need Purpose. That comes with Responsibilities and then the fruits of their labor.
You have to take and extract happiness whenever and where ever you can find it. The meaning though lasts longer and can fortify you in remembrance.
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On a far lesser scale years ago nothing was funny for me. Enjoyment denied. So I watched cartoons hoping for something that would light that inner spark.
Instead I found something mind numbing, in idiocy. It was stupid.
Despair, Anger, Resignation, Apathy, Curiosity, Testing, Application, Contentment.
Now that I'm me now I'd like to think I harnessed the infested Malevolence ('forcing' it to the edge) and the Old traditions by forcing them to see the dumb fuckery and the slightest silver lining.
That show wasn't My Little Pony.
One thing I've noticed of myself now-a-days is that raw primal monster unleashes the positive emotions in mania. Always there, just now it knows the wider world and of bigger fish. Of where it can tred with its leash and when. Then on the edge of that thin line it plays with devilish glee.
It knows who/what it could do, yet chained in such a way that it would rather rest than be a force to drive forward.
The only reason why is because I didn't see that before. That conceptulization to talk/communicate (First came the Word) and see.
You know as a childish kid I remember once when playing a game in school a thought occurred that if others got sick they wouldn't be able to play, that the temporary game (in this instance) is never worth the long term costs. That maybe incidentally at the time emulating a plague bearer was a fucking dumb idea.
Align your goals because they are one and the same what matters is how it's communicated across.

The inner monster understands it all but reveling in spite shrugging off the blows finishing it after the hunt (of which it's futile moments where filled with horror) is something it (at least mine) lives for. Living in joy and happiness and meaning will spite (((them))).
It's healthier which means you are more ready for the hunt which it will enjoy.
Your in a better mental state because being happy increases your intelligence and creativity, once it understands the implications that what you could have access to if properly cared for it will help you.
Your job is to hold those chains and the cage and awareness and the direction to be the leader and on the ground unit holding the thing which will and can destroy everything including yourself.
The inner monster concept of power is one of the languages it holds, so to emotions, and images, and words. Actions however is what it enjoys mentally or made manifest.
It can turn on you, but that's part of its charm.
The tarot Devil card holds chains, that is the improper order, yet many fall prey to that illness. You must hold those chains over it because that is its job, it's task, it's sole purpose to do as you command. It's always unequal of master to slave, but it revels in it either way.
It will exist inside of you. (The Jungian Shadow, the Monster, why? A singular part (of the HERO) to get and survive the chaos to get the treasures!)
Like the immune system it can fuck you up hard if it thinks you're the enemy, in its proper functions invaders die and you are more than well. To destroy.

You also need the regenerative aspect to tend and heal to gather and place things into categories or boxes or baskets. To create.
The limits placed on the monster which is yourself defines an operating area for which the 'inner' area of that 'civil' operation can create freely barring snakes lurking (which the monster can hunt).
See what awakens the vicious grin and ask why. It'll be informative.
The wolves you feed will be the ones who win.
Remember these five. Vampire, Werewolf, Billionaire, Pirate, Surgeon.
Your goal is to master the set that enables to win every set ever afterwards.

So actually feeling happy see what flickers the tiny titillation. Like fire it needs fuel, air and heat. When all is right it bursts forth like over filling cups if that is what you let it do.
Change is painful inherently because you burn who and what you were. Killing neural connections and forging new ones.
Faking it till you make it is possible, because everything has to start somewhere. Keeping in mind what really matters to you.
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Hey is that Omori fan still here?
He'd probably like this https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=GnjcRQI6a6Q