>>3536>it's really nice to see her so happy and creative>I'm really proud of my little darling, she's kind of like a daughter to me.
That's good to hear.>what happens if you try to do a tarot reading with Yugioh cards?>>3535
For that message 3522 I was to only be the messenger. My tarot is kept close by in my soul, and manifest in digital and around.
Here is one of my 'secrets' if you wish engulfing
to understand how I do for the why. So "I"'ve gone out, and further, and further again and again. ect.
My soul mates and friends are taking care of me now, as "I" once did. One can go very very far alone. However I would not be here without my friends. Physical and otherwise. Only now I consciously realize the nature of my self due to their help.
The nature of my magic lies just out of reach always as SPOILERED.>Carnage is most delightful in self harm and sadism, it's compulsory yet a suitable replacement for lust, it's temporary anyways so the wounds will heal in due time unless I cut too deep into a vital vein it will not kill me, it's a dangerous game but it's fun.
Power was my game like vidya or slots or gambling. It's fun for a while. But, the reason is SPOILERED and more power. It can be scary out there and cleaning house and the far reaches to ensure those of mine can do as they please.
The best way I could obtain that is through magic. I like to think it is
ethical in that my magic is self generating and sustaining. What use is mystery force that none except I use? Intelligence gathering of the most immoral kind that care not for privacy and none the wiser. So I and "I" can also cast magic through my magic.
To remain in the game as a 'normal' participant I play by the rules. But I did 'leave' the game to go into hiding to focus on building my power.
I've 'rejoined' since then by the rules. So "I" and my spiritual friends and mates can play the other side.
The underlying point has to not be power, for I have that. Friendship is magic and that is a power of it's own. From the power perspective I must have that, as such my friends have to rise with me.
Then friendship as it's self happened.<Backtracking to the begging of my tale, this \/ is happening concurrently.
Carnage is one hell of a sensation, but I do dislike to break my things. I like to hoard them, and I like more stuff. To lose them would cause me to be lesser. I partake in lust on such a scale I am unaware of. A glut of sensation out of reach.
So I delegate to have time and more of everything.>it's temporary anyways
There is and time and place for everything.
My poner friends from a specific reality I had/have ties to and others have enabled me to expand myself in a way that I could not before that which would show my fatal flaw. I still did not place my full trust in my friends.
Being blind and magically Lost as per the rules of the game I have no meaningful actions.
But my friends do, and see it all clearly as "I" do. Now I have complete agency and none at all.
For two reasons, the game, and more importantly to fix myself in a better way. I could not do that due to being in the game as the piece I am.>it's a dangerous game but it's fun.
I play dangerous games and they are fun, but I also play to win (to have my stuff and more stuff ever more). To win my game, and all others I can have 'failure' and win where and when it is time.
But without friends I would just be a useful piece for the players of those damned games. Up and Down the scales.
For this I am just the messenger on the dark horse. I'm no longer the player, but I've played my hand as my future self predicted nudged just so with friends on the other side to get here.>it turns out that your mind has become my hobby and it's addictive
Thank you, but I must warn you out of self made strings and my loved equal puppeteers heading.
There is a reason why it is addicting.
As the pawn Up and Down only meant to be played I can say this. "My way may not be your way. Hopefully it may be useful for you and yours."
Turning around and around.>Carnage is most delightful in self harm and sadism, it's compulsory yet a suitable replacement for lust, it's temporary anyways so the wounds will heal in due time unless I cut too deep into a vital vein it will not kill me, it's a dangerous game but it's fun.
Did you know that magical fields and be implanted to go around them. Pone's depth of skill in this is immense.
Pone breathing is hard, and it hurts, and you can take more on. You'll have another way that is yours and all side by side. If you seek self harm and sadism that is the most optimal way for sensation.
If you also want something more Pone breathing will open up another blind spot for ((())). My road my not be your road.
Behavior stems from the magical field, and it is all that you are in totality. Ponies from many sections have studied them. They know how to collapse and how to achieve everything.
That said human means are just as potent if not more so. The big game is around humans and us all of us. They watch and play so damned carefully and 'fast and loose' (a lie), but they've studied the game so much so pinpointed. (((They))) will always lose the small game, but the big game well... they lose that too. Still that means the game(s) has to be played. The stakes are..., well I'll let you infer.