/ub/ - Überhengst

>>5868
Sorry for taking that long Anon. I read your reply the day you posted it, but I had to sort out something important. God knows I hate having to take these long pauses.
>Babysitter
Sorry to hear that Anon. I honestly don't think my own childhood was as rough as you guys'. Seen that bread. But I am relieved to see that everything about you indicates you don't need my pity.
>In all honesty, I cant say that my aversion to authority isnt a result of those experiences
>and there is plausibly an element of conditioning involved in which path lne gravitates toward.
This. Obviously my own views on the subject can't be exactly objective; for they were most certainly influenced by a traumatic event. Which is kinda what has been bothering me. Am usually very good at disposing from emotions and feels when making a call. Which includes developing my worldview. But this is the one that's beaten me. Religion has always been my neglected arm at that, but I'll make sure to change that.
>You know how Jordan Peterson absolutely insists that parents not let their child become an outcast by age 4 or thats it for them? Yeah, he ain't lying.
Yeah, it’s tough. But I assume you’ve been able to improve enough to hold youtself. The good news is that it’s perfectly possible to do so.
>Anon27
I do remember him, not the discussion tho. I'll make sure to check it out, thanks Anon.

This has been very constructive, thanks. You are surprisingly chill when you try it. (No bully)
I hope I can count of ya if I have another inquiry in the future.

Deleted cuz original clip was heavily buffering.

>>5871
>But I assume you’ve been able to improve enough to hold youtself
Certainly, and in recent years Ive bee able to provide a situation for a handful of people spoiler alert, ALL the guys who work with me have deep-rooted scars that otherwise render them undesirable to normalfags. This is why Im so unreservedly proud of what I/we have been able to accomplish, because left to the devices of the aggregate, all of us would remain zero solvency, zero upward mobility, corporate wage slaves with a good chance of suicide,statistically speaking.
The discussion with Anon took place during a Rabbit stream (Passion of the Christ, fittingly), but his ass is still kicking around if you know how to getin touch with him. A pity he left imo, but he's all about his business (no criticism) so no fakt in that.
>You're surprisingly chill
Shhh, I have a reputation to uphold. I default to tough love, but I also mirror the apparent disposition of my interlocutor; Im wholesome to wholesome ppl and toxic to toxic ppl (to steal the line from Nux).
Feel free to stop back by here, or the pub; these are both my threads ^_~

>>5873
>Certainly, and in recent years Ive bee able to provide a situation for a handful of people
Yeah, and I can congratulate you on that; as it does sound like an actual contribution. Btw, I meant no offense when I called it a white plantation. It's just the type of humor am into. It's actually a pretty neat business you are running.
>Rabbit stream
Oh, guess that's why I missed it.

>Feel free to stop back by here, or the pub; these are both my threads ^_~
I will, thanks. Am "Carlos" here, If it wasn't obvious already. Oh, and the clip isn't hentai either.

>>5872
It's great that DMC is reaching a wider audience but isn't this repeat of the "rickroll" meme just an excuse to show someone much of or even most of a porn animation before the cutaway? Doesn't seem like much of a bait and switch if the bait is something pornographic that would be hard if not impossible to put on youtube.

>>5875
Thank you for your input, anon of a specific geography and bent that shall remain nameless. I know its hard reading into subtlety and all, but anon's video post is quite on topic and relevant to the discussion, in its own right.
Yours,... well,... is consistent with your other posts, though I credit that you've grown less obnoxious than you have observably been.
Still, if you have nothing to say, you're best suited to saying nothing.

Let's not revive the saga please
>>5875
Will get back to you in a moment.

>>5877
Be quick about it, then

>Two hours later.
Never change paco.
>>5875
"Get back at you" was not the phrase I was looking for heheh. Am still ESL ye know?
>>>/ub/5879 →

>>5878
No need to worry.

Mares are marvelous!
This is mostly a reiteration of what I have posted in this place during the past, anyways, I felt like typing some stuff because it is somewhat relieving in a way.
In solitude from girls during my youth and an absence of education in the teenage stage has resulted in my urges being led down a path of deviancy, within the passing of time, it has degenerated into a insatiable obsession and a frantic fixation. In the personal perspective of my eyes and thought, equines are a logical sexual substitute for this perverse predicament of modern women in the western world.
My views, or rather, my Weltanschauung on the relationship I had and currently have with mares and filly's, is that it's more a want than a need and has become a kind of erotic addiction but I admit I glory in the bestial deed greater than I ever would in masturbation. In reflection of my acts, it is superior to using my hands and due to being in daily contact with a pony I have been doing nofap for more or less 8 weeks without really trying since the outlet I have right now is more pleasurably rewarding than touching myself, thus it is a larger hit of dopamine. But I digress.
I seem to be under the spell of love with a filly at the moment and the emotions I undergo around her when I'm alone are intense, she gives me a type of motivation and purpose to do things. Everyday I question if what I am doing with this pony is in some way beneficial to me or her, if it is worth it, then I recount all the times I ejaculated inside that young womb and all the hours of happiness I have had from those orgasms. On the other hand of my self interrogations. I see the taboos and wrong-think that normies perceive upon this kind of interspecies romance. I consider the dishonor of being degraded to what I am now, the dread regarding being shamed for having a clandestine affair with mares.
There is something so enticing about those pretty ponies...

>343 replies
What a shit company, ain't it? Some kike gets fired and is replaced by some ape nigger.

Man is literally just a fucking animal after all. There is fundamentally no fucking difference. Human consciousness is nothing but a glorified orgy of chemical substances from which no higher value can be derived. Science was right all along and everything else was a gigantic cope. Only practical and material reality truly matter. All phenomena that might've ever hinted towards the other direction was a byproduct of the same meaningless chemical orgy.
Remove the "human" factor, and you can still achieve the same or better.
Only the animal purpose of self-preservation justifies our continuous existence.
To think that so much of it, or rather, everything was resting in such a weak foundation for so long.
Whomever is stupid enough to even bother anymore?

>>6172
Ah, but the details matter. Alphabet glowies will say"ah everyone is the same, because we do these things in these ways and we get the same results." In the same breath they exclaim as well "yet, if they are irregular, abnormal, different somehow not the same these things that are tried and true don't work."
In chemical orgy there not yet remains a more eldritch spread than humanity and the various breeds. Doubtful such an orgy arises in such a rapid manner with the exquisite physical interactions at play which may at some strange eon be different from this point of time.
Yet.... There is a vast gulf of all knowledge and what the smallest iota there is now.
On a different vein although similar, if it's all meaningless that means you can supply meaning. Such a bizarre happenstance with an organic cocktail by many measures cease to be decide to be contrite instead.
What is real? Once people find the right ingredients could it be possible to feel, be, exist, know, learn anything? Possibly, but does that change anything?
Not really, a bundle of chemicals making more chemicals using other chemicals.
What it boils down to is this simple yet effective idea.
Enjoy mare.
In absence of spiritual highs?
Enjoy mare.
In the infinite of what may be more?
Enjoy mare.
With the option of not enjoying mare and enjoying mare.
Enyjoy mare.
Severed with a side of horse pussy and pony donut.

>>6172
From one chemical amalgam to another. You are loved.

>>6172
Good. Embrace materialism and laugh at hysterical fags and women who believe in supernatural shit.
>>6173
This.

>>6176
YWNBAF

>>6177
Your training on disrupting chans won't work here, kike.
Just saying.

>>6178
Cool story, schizo.

>>6173
>>6174
Nice to see you alive and well too. I wish this was the first time I've come to this conclusion. The abyss is right there however much people refuse to see it, it won't chase it away. I imagine if things continue down this trend more anons will soon follow.
Even (you)

>>6180
You have to go beyond the abyss. For that you need spirituality or psychosis or paranoia or something else, along with preparation, causation, caution and luck. I found horse pussy after and by crossing.
I recommend having her with you.
Being invisible, untouchable, infinite and more to safe guard yourself. Yet also here else that trip yields lackluster results.

The end goal, no A Goal is knowing that the abyss ends, because in strange eons even death may die.
Going further and further you'll find that barriers, and things, and whatever else again are small.
A hazard, but no matter their presentation there is a reason why they have not done as I have or expanded in their own ways.
I would suggest a unity of self. Of absolute trust and love.
The bullshit /x/ crap happening in about eight years (2030) if true opens some wack ass nastier shit upon the world.
The barrier thins, they plan to rip open a gaping wound. The entrance for all beings from elsewhere/elsewhen/whatever.
Guess who's schizo alliance is waiting in wait, having a functioning border customs area.
That's right, Ponies. Letting in pone and actual friens.
So as always with /x/ predictions it's wait till it happens but nothing ever happens.

I hate the niggers so fucking much I think I'm going to have a fucking seizure every time I see one of those cunts saying anti white shit. Can rage give you a seizure?

>>6199
Well, Valentinian died whilst he angrily yelled at the Germaniggers.

I fucking hate niggers and other invaders with a passion. Every time I think "Oh it ain't that bad" the next thing I see online are countless of recent videos of niggers and muslims stealing, fighting, and all other kinds of criminal activities these invaders specialize in. Point that problem out and you are a "rAciSt". And I fucking hate them cluttering the streets with their army of children that will try to fully replace us one day. And also fuck kikes.

>>6181
I've spend my entire life trying to go beyond the abyss. Yet, when I thought I've finally find peace. There was nothing there. There has never been anything there.
This human need to latch onto something. To have a purpose and an objective. It might as well be a more sophisticated manifestation of the animal instinct for self-preservation. It achieves the same objective. You do your damn best to keep going, just to see what's on the other side. But then again, there was nothing.

<"creativity! The only true white religion!"
Funny how that one turned out.
But hey! Atleast you built your own cock cage. You should be proud of yourself!
That faggot must be twisting on his own grave rn. If not, I might even pay his rotten remains a visit.
I wasn't kidding. Effort of futility, or maybe the timing is right. Are these even my own thoughts?
Regardless, this bloodlust is unlike anything I've ever experienced. Yet it feels as tho I could actually quench it if I tried.

>>6203
Hmmm... Very interesting. So, cartoon horse pussy doesn't help at all? You should consider suicide.

I have horrible secret that I'd never dare tell anyone irl and I'm posting here since no one will read all this shit: I'm hopelessly addicted to cartoon mares. I think about them all day everyday to the point that I question my sanity. I never thought that I could be autistic, yet I'm blessed with what could only be called an autistic obsession with mares and their superior mare butts and kind mare hearts. Driving to town for groceries? Mare butts. Mind droning while working? Smooching cute mares. I daydream about courting mares all day.
I realized it was advanced when an attractive former friend that I hadn't seen in a year randomly called and told me that she was back in town and wanted to catch up. She was always flirty and we've made out before, so I'd probably have decent chances. Two years ago I would've leapt at the possible romantic opportunity. Not anymore. I lied and said I was sick. I was slightly perturbed at the notion that she might distract me from my 2d pony waifus. Genuinely offended. I've also completely abandoned all of my past friendships and have effectively ghosted them all. It felt bad turning my back on them at first, especially when the phone would keep ringing and ringing. It probably sounds gay, but I felt guilty as if I had abandoned them all somehow. Eventually the calls became less frequent before stopping altogether. The guilt dissipated over time.
That's when I knew for sure that I was a lost cause.
I have stopped taking jobs the require me to leave home for anything other than materials. My income has dropped and I'm getting by on what little I still make. I hardly work at all anymore.
I'm such a far-gone degenerate that I haven't been interested at all in women whatsoever in a while. I beat off thinking of the only two women I've ever had sex with, and I imagine them instead as mares. My heart beats only for the mare. In my isolation, I've developed impossible sexual and romantic standards to the point that I'd rather vacantly stare into screens with mares on them rather than pursue actual relationships anymore. Human females can never compare. I will die a non-reproductive genetic dead end. I cope by telling myself that at least my siblings have all reproduced in abundance, so at least my family has done their part to maintain the birthrates, if it even matters anymore. I don't even want to have anything to do with my family since that would draw me away for my newly hermetic lifestyle. I still think of them from time to time and I hope everything works out for them and their families. I hope they don't think about me. They would never understand and they're better off forgetting about me. I keep hoping that our shared memories will fade over time.
The cherry on top is that I actually feel happier in some ways now and have gradually come to resent the idea of normalcy. I just want to be left alone and live a quiet, solitudinarian lifestyle for the rest of my days with very little interpersonal emotional burdens..
If you actually read that massive wall of mental illness, then thanks for hearing me confess into oblivion. If not, then congratulations; you're better off mot reading my wankfest.
Mares. Smooching mares. Romancing mares. Mare butt.

>>6204
Red-skins found their poison on alcohol. Take your hors bussy if you will. Embrace your meaningless existence and drown yourself with instant gratification. Whomever told you having a "higher purpose" was anything else than a cope, was an absolute nigger unwilling to get a grip on reality.

>>6206
What if DNA and evolution exist because man was meant to evolve more, and do whatever it takes to keep those with inferior genes like jews and niggers from sabotaging true humans?

>>6208
>keep those with inferior genes like jews and niggers from sabotaging true humans?
It's done a shitty job so far. I can't think of even a single aspect of life that Jews and niggers haven't pissed on.

>>6208
If anything. /cyb/-shit is at least theoretically the easiest, most realistic way to eliminate the consequences from degeneracy and social-parasitism. Without getting rid of the degeneracy itself. A lot of the biggest points certain poners hold onto, will be proven irrelevant if that's the case.
Think of picrel but expanded far beyond economics.

>>6210
What do you mean?
>>6209
Human leaders decided at some point the most important thing was quantity, not quality, so they chose helping niggers and sandniggers overpopulate the world over helping the best whites have more children or creating a system where the highest qualitu eggs and sperm can be bought by the state and frozen for future generations and their perfected test tube babies. Humanity just needs to stop lying to itself. Not all humans are human. Some humans are more human than others. Niggers and sandniggers don't deserve our help, our mercy, or our tolerance. No enemy faction does.

>>6227
>Quantity not Quality
They want slaves, not people.
People are too unruly, too dangerous, too overqualified.
If you replace them (those 'leaders') with someone else there would more than likely be a large positive change.
A thinking and actualized action doing population is essential for freedom having people.
That's why they import, because they'll use them as the means to remove those they don't like.
Those most likely to overthrow tyranny would possibly be those who have done so in the past.
If they have the option they'll remove the genetics and population that made it so.
Importing, breeding, mixing, mental conditioning, exporting, ect.
They distribute production across the world so any nation can't rebel.
They want synthetic meat so there will never be a 'self-sufficient' group ever, livestock would be removed from general consumption.
A weak slave class makes it harder to rebel.
A weak slave class needs tools to do jobs. That requires oversight to operate those tools.
That's what they want strong algorithms for is behavior oversight at all times.
They want to be able to pull the plug at any time resistance appears in any way.
Even if not short sighted cucked 'leaders' take the given benefits of obeying this farce.
Low IQ criminal class is a problem, but they're used as the meat shields for those who actually run that damming show.
A slave class will never speak, that's the defining characteristic. Communication and aligned goals.

Jews are flooding ConsumeProduct.win with jewish shills reading from the same script.
The trolls post pedoshit to make the site look unappealing to outsiders.
They say "if the age of consent and marriage was lowered, white girls would marry white men and be good wives instead of sleeping around and becoming feminists".
What a load of obviously wrong bullshit.
Women do not get smarter or stupider as they age. They are always stupid selfish little girls mentally. Let them marry at 14 or 12 or 10 and they will marry people their age and divorce them for money. If they do not marry older people for money or divorce them for their money.
Letting women have access to the marriage divorce alimony scam pipeline earlier will not do anything to make marriage a better deal for white men.
No matter the age of consent, Men will still have no power over their families, their children, and their wives compared to the state.
Reducing the age of legal marriage is obviously a horrible idea.
Hell, there isn't even any point fighting for it since there are already tons of places where little girls can marry with the consent of the parents. This entire line of "debate" is solely jewish pilpul.
Only pedos obsessed with the fantasy of raping little girls at 10 or cucks obsessed with the fantasy of forcibly marrying their 10 year old girls off to superior men who can raise them properly genuinely want this.

Pedos belong in woodchippers. Only Jews trying to make it look like "we groom too" disagree.

I've been forced to "coexist" with these hominids for far too long. It's honestly, so fucking tiresome. No one should be forced to make compromises. And weight their options in a maze of drooling, pack animals.
Am genuinely fucking done with these people. I've been done with it, even when I was still a commie.
There are some honest to god. Decent, great people here. But holy fuck man.

Secretly I am very insecure

This thread would be better if it has no IDs.

Everyday I stray further and further away from 3DPD and closer to my pony waifu.
Wish I could just take a pill that would delete all my monkey urges

Fashion is a stupid concept.
You can wear a particular style of fashion. Steampunk, goth, tribal oogabooga bone and loincloth bullshit, whatever.
And then there are retarded women who say they are "into fashion".
That should be as useless as saying "I like art" or "I like movies".
And prompt questions like "What kind?"
But no.
"I like fashion" is code for "My hobby is wasting my man's money and the money of my exes and my money (from my thousands of guilt tripped gaslit male simps and a do nothing make-work middle management job that would not exist or would have gone to a far more qualified man if not for feminism) on whatever pretty clothes I see in the stores today". Whatver she's told is trendy or trending.
They fucked up the word fashion so much they use aesthetic to mean fashions.
And when they're too normie for even the most basic easily imitated styles they just pretend their stupid normie-hipster NPC garb is fashionable.
Fuck fashion. It's jewish subversion. The jew tells women to dress like whores, dress like college whores, dress like karens, dress like college karens, dress like Twilight sparkly vampire whores if Twilight is trending (you are now reminded stephanie mayo's Twilight existed once and was made popular by trend chasing horny femsheep), anything but what normal people wore in a civilized pre-jew society.

Every night I get shit faced to escape from life in hellworld CA. I tried to leave and failed miserably. I am in debt, debt which I dumb vast amounts of my piss poor paycheck into only to see it climb right back up when I have a surprise expense. $400 speeding ticket for staying at 55 for one too many miles on a road called "Coast Highway," clothing damage forcing me to spend $50 a pop just to get uniform outfits, car troubles, all this in only 4 months.

No matter how hard I try something comes up and pushes my card right back to the ceiling. And sure alcohol costs money, but damnit I live in a hovel working a shit job with no friends that live within a six hour drive. And now I've gone and alienated my friend with my drunken anger about all this. I just want out of here. I just want to fix things for a decent paycheck. I wanna have a place all my own. The privacy to socialize over voice chat without being shut down. The freedom to do something, anything that I don't hate for a living. Enough income to start actually making money via investments, instead of making under $20k a year after tax from nothing but wages.

>>6406
Can't really help you but I wish you all the love Anon.

>>6406
>Alcoholic loser that posts gay femboy shit unsolicited
Most well-adjusted and successful /mlpol/ user.

>>6406
How much free time do you have in a day to spend on things that could make you money online, like art?

>>2676
I'm going to dump KDE for Xfce.
I will be off-line a few hours.

>>6409
No spare time, no money. Made $810 this payday, and more than half of it is just for the ticket. Then interest payment of $120, then $55 for a gas fillup. I'd be stupid to toss my credit card bill money into investments that won't even give returns before I actually pay my debt.
>>6408
You're not wrong on any of those points. I got failure genes.

>>6419
Same here.

>>6419
Same. Having a human woman in your life to fuck and love really makes you feel different about what you used to masturbate to. The disgusting stuff just disgusts me. And the normal stuff like a huge ass or huge horse pussy or huge tits... Yep, those sure are sex things. Big ones. Don't care. It makes me wonder if this is how an asexual feels every time they see anything sexual.

It is horrendously feminine to whine about a problem instead of trying to do something to fix it like a man would. There's a forum where gays sit around waiting for posts to be made, then the gays whine about how they don't like the posts being made.

>>6426
I don't know what exactly I'm supposed to do but keep working my dead end retail job until I gather just enough money to get out of there. I can't make it go any faster, and I can't just whip up the money to get out of this. Even if I had the money to get an education set up for myself right this instant, that's a lot of time and energy on its own.

I'm doing as much as I can do as it is. Not much more can be done with negative funds.

>>6436
You can't make meaningful bits by working, you need to trade stuff instead.
1- Find out what is needed
2- Procure it
3- Cash it.

>>6437
>procure it
With?

>>6438
My neighbor sells fancy ashtrays and even bed blankets on line. You don't need a ton of money to start, the trick is to find A niche market and exploit it.

>>6441
I am currently at just enough money for my ticket and am only holding onto it in case I need gas before next payday. I literally don't have the money to buy anything online.

>>6442
Sorry, I explain myself in the wrong way and I mentioned online stuff as an example.
Personally I don't do any online commerce, I don't know how to do it and I'm not interested in partaking with any jewish third party payment system. That said, the point is to hold your horses before "to buy" anything. To go out and buy stuff without experience is recipe for disaster. However doing dry runs in Craiglist to test the waters, that means to publish X merchandise and see how it goes without to actually to have the merchandise; if somebody calls, just said you already sold it. Investigating the market is part of the success, also you may learn that 50% of the calls are just other hustlers doing exactly the same than you. Another 10/15% are dangerous swindlers trying to cheat you by baiting you with good offers but with some catch like if you "deliver" out of the State and accept checks or other non-cash payment payments.
Make the survey without to risk anything anon and remember, as at bricks and mortar stores, many potential customers are just testing you and looking for "THE DEAL".

>>6443
Another thing, most people who are for real interested in your hypothetical merchandise will call you, if they text you is a very bad signal.

>>6443
Also, and I'm saying this by experience, use your pony senses, if you are tight with money you don't need to buy anything, get functional free stuff and resell it, for example a refrigerator or furniture. Many people has to move and try to sell used stuff but fail, then they have to get rid of it one way or another, so, that's another potential avenue for revenue. Trust Celestia and your pony intuition.

>>6447
What?

>>6436
Wasn't talking about you. You're doing your best and I respect that. The sooner you get out of that shithole, the better.

I HATE THE JEWS AND JOOMERS SO FUCKING MUCH IT MOTIVATES ME TO PUSH MY BODY TO THE POINT OF RISKING IT

>>6436
I just posted a thread thinking about your trouble and how to proceed. I hope it'll help.
>>>/vx/166509 →

>>6441
>>6443
>>6444
>>6446
The gains from fridge-flipping and copper salvaging would be slower than my paycheck would be even if I were only part-time, and I'm making minimum wage. I'm not looking to attempt and fail another get rich quick scheme or spend just as much effort as a fulltime job to become an Amazon merchant. I appreciate that you offered other ideas but really, the middleman route is not too helpful.

>>6458
>I just posted a thread thinking about your troubles and how to proceed
Oh thanks. Lately things have been a little less dreary and things might be looking up soon--
>it's a /vx/ thread
Picrel.

>>6459
>The gains from fridge-flipping and copper salvaging would be slower than my paycheck would be even if I were only part-time
Sure, but they might be a life-saver if you are broke and without resources as you stated it, or at least is what I understood. I'm glad you were exaggerating.

>>6461
I mean I've got a job, it's just that I'm paying a debt off and can't really afford any overhead for that stuff unless I want to pay more in interest.

>>6462
Having you considered prostitution or traveling abroad to sell a kidney?

>>6461
Do those hentai leak sites pay in bounties more than purchasing the porn costs?

Talking game design with a consoomer is like telling a little boy there should be less low quality filler padding out the episodes of his favourite anime and ruining the pacing. The boy doesn't understand quality or value, he just wants more. He doesn't care if half of an episode is standing around while the camera pans and the other half is reaction shots and unnecessary explanations of shit a child could figure out and recaps of shit that happened five minutes ago(or worse, recaps that change what happened entirely like in that retarded Glass Onion movie). The fanboy consoomer doesn't understand what separates meaningful gameplay with interesting worthwhile decision making from mindless tedium best automated or streamlined or cut entirely. If you gave him Street Fighter 2 except every attack deals 0.01% of its usual damage and the jouney from one fight to another lasted 6 to 8 hours depending on distance but you could mash A to speed up the journey he would be happy. If you gave him Mario 64 except every leap into a painting portal requires you to climb a pole in a white void for 7 real world minutes and dodge a randomly spawned falling fireball now and then otherwise you get kicked back into the start of the game and lose one random star he would enjoy the game just as much, maybe more because the game would take longer to beat. For that guy art isn't something to appreciate, it's a distraction that occupys time and is better if it takes longer. He'd never touch grass to see it move. Throw grenades at grass to see if it ignites. Drive a car onto grass all to see if the grass reacts. He'd never dodge attacks and prolong combat for a bit intentionally to enjoy the dynamic music and how it changes during combat. Never fuck with a NPC or drive a car around normally obeying traffic laws. He'd never make his own fun in a videogame or explore his depths. And because he cannot tell quality content from repetitive mind numbing filler he cannot truly appreciate the good for what it is.

>>6203
Wait, what was that about a cock cage?

>>>/mlpol/359563 →
If you feel as if you've been wronged, forgive and pray for those who have wronged you.
Do that first. Take God into your heart and pray.
That is the only way to heal. To prevent hatred from spreading to keep love, holiness and God in your heart.

This goes for everyone. What is in your heart becomes what happens in the future.
When you are wronged forgive and pray for them as if they were you who are fully cherished.
Ideally pray for everyone, as in everyone everyone ever. Even those that are dead and even those angels and demons. Praying to God.
Pray for those yet to be, and pray for your 'enemies'. Yes even (((them))).
God will command you to do as he wishes and God loves you. Penance and Justice will be had by God. So pray.
That's how everything gets better.
This is a trial for you to be who God has in store.
Your keep your heart which is your soul pure to fight for what is right in there matters immensely. It is the battle.
The most intense conflict is changing your heart so guard your heart from evil.
Do what God commands. That means the best thing for you to do always.

The news have slowed down and the ones apparently noteworthy are not so.
I don't know what to do.
I am toying with the idea of giving my C++ book a new reading.

>>6558
>forgive and pray for those who fail you
Doesn't really do much when your parents, teachers, bosses, friends, and statesmen all failed you.

I have still given up in case any of you horsefuckers were wondering. Three months unemployed.

>>6730
>I have still given up in case any of you horsefuckers were wondering. Three months unemployed.
I know, I know, lecturing won't do any good, but I think you should leave your comfort zone and shake your life a bit. If you know what I mean.

>>6731
Nigger I went homeless and drove cross country. I think my comfort zone has been shaken hard enough.

You're right, lecturing won't do any good. You're all niggers.

>>6732
If an illiterate mestizo can pay his rent, drink on weekends, and fuck a prostitute once in a while while sending money back to Mexico..............
Just a zigger saying. Let that think.

>>6733
* sink in

>>6732
Sorry anon but some horsefucker has to give you reality.
You have to try something else because till now whatever you did, didn't work.

I actually own a pocket pussy and I don't care if I ever have sex again. I'm also an emotionally broken manchild, could you tell?

>>6730
>Everybody has failed me and continues to fail.
All the more reason to forgive and pray. That's partly the point is that they did and continue to fail.

>>6740
I'm can testify, that's QT.
Death to Trixie.

I am frustrated with the state of online sexual media, and I fucking hate all sides because of it- except maybe the artists.

The so-called-"coomers" (that word is literally a forced meme, by the way) are fucking annoying because they're always around, always making braindead comments. Yet, not only are these idiots so fucking persistant at existing, they are so fucking easy to copy that bots are basically indistinguishable from them. Annoying, but among my least-hated.

No-fappers on the other hand? Fucking hell. It doesn't fucking matter what you try to show them that sex or masturbation isn't that bad. They're so fucking ashamed of themselves that they fucking strangle their inhibitions, blaming the result of a problem for it's cause. But fuck me, when you point this shit out of them they either go into two flavors: absolute denial, or they rage on you like a fucking SJW. Shit, no fappers do the exact same shit that anti-horny religionfags and hates-attractive-female-body SJWs: They piss and moan about tits and ass.

No facts will dissuade them, no logic will set them straight, they will literally ignore common-fucking sense because someone said "it's better for you". Nofap has two fucking threads on every single self-help or fitness board, but the moment there is ANY FUCKING DISCOURSE, it's like you committed a crime against christ himself. Fuck the nofappers. They are fucking worse than every single fucking hornyposter out there, and have no fucking flexibilty, because they don't want to admit that THE FUCKING CAUSE OF THEIR SUFFERING IS LITERALLY OUTSIDE OF THE THING THEY BLAME! fuck. besides, most sex-related self-help is just quack-science with biases just as bad as politically-funded-"research".

And I'm not giving a pass to porn makers or porn websites. Fuck mainstream porn, fuck it's shitty fucking interfaces, and fuck how they are fucking miles behind boorus, shit up search results with absolute fucking garbage, and they never fucking include exclusion-queries in their sites, ever. Fuck the monopolists, their shitty tactics, and fuck the abuse they do.

As far as E-Thots go? I don't engage. They somewhat annoy me because of insufferable nofappers who get on their fucking high-horse about them. Fuck them for encouraging the fucking sanctimony of Nofappers, and the fucking faggots who get all pissy because you don't hate e-thots exactly as much as they do. Jesus fucking christ.

Jacking off isn't that bad. If you're doing it all the time because you're bored and hate yourself, then the problem isn't that you're jacking off.

>>7030
>Jacking off isn't that bad. If you're doing it all the time because you're bored and hate yourself, then the problem isn't that you're jacking off.
This board has an special thread for you fren >>1401 →
No matter how you spin it, touching your willy makes you weak and a loser.

>>7031
Do you actually want to hear another side of the story? Or do you already have your mind made up?

>>7031
Where do you think you are?

>>7032
>Do you actually want to hear another side of the story?
There is only one side, the rest are only excuses for self-indulgence.
Let's face it. You are a degenerate unable to control your lust.
Sexual sublimation through lifting makes wonders in case you didn't know it.

>>7034
You can have my clop when you pry it out of my cold, dead fingers.

>>7035
>out of my cold, dead fingers
Hooves. KEK

>>7036
Potato, potat-Oh..

>>7037
Lift poner. No-Fap October just begun.

>>7038
>Lift
I can do both

>>7034
>There is only one side, the rest are only excuses for self-indulgence.

Thank you for proving my point. Now go fuck off back to the nofap thread you posted you sexual vegan.

>>7041
>sexual vegan
KEK

I hate flutterzoo so much, it drains me of energy. I hate that shit so much I have to admit that I go into a state of coping and seething whenever I just think about it. I'm serious, this is not a copypasta. I can feel my heart pounding heavier upon thinking about Fluttershy having sex with an animal. The same goes for anyone drawing that shit and then selling said shit for money. Yeah I get it, "haha she has many animal friends that means she must also be bred by them and stuf!! haha imagine Harrys bear penis inside of her omfg I'm gonna coom to that Idea!!! I need to commision someone to draw that for me!!!!!! Glad I have 100$ of my pocket money put aside for that purpose!!! I'll spend that all on one artist drawing her get plowed by a wolf or something!!!! uwu owo also I'm GAY!!!"
It is understandable that people would get to these conclusions because of their coom-damaged brains, and it is part of it all, but that same, lame ass old joke was played out so much over the past decade that I just can't bear this no more. I love her a lot but it's infuriating to see that shit get tossed around because there is someone DAILY publishing some art, well or not-so-well drawn, of her getting railed by an animal! Then that crap gets maybe 300 upvotes on derpibooru and gets reposted into every platform imaginable, even months or even a year after publication.
I'm furious, but I can't explain why. Why exactly this? Why can it be her friends or even Big Mac but not an animal? I have no idea why I care about that so much, but not about when other ponies do that. I strongly dislike Discord and would gladly never see him again in any media at all, but even when it's him I don't feel such rage. I hate furfags like any other anon, but this goes way beyond that. Perhaps it's god punishing me with this rage, rightfully so. I don't know what to do, I feel a deep connection to her and I can't stand this.
These pictures and thoughts haunt me, even the non-explicit ones. Ridicule me all you will but you'll never cause as much pain as does the thought of flutterzoo. They will all be punished in the end.

>>7574
You just need to distance yourself from porn memes, m8. None of it is real. Fluttershy is a fictional character, and Flutterzoo is non-canon, which makes it double-fictional. It's just a stupid meme. People come to that conclusion because they're degenerate coomers, they think it's funny, or because they want to troll people like you.
Just let it go, knowing that you're waifu isn't affected by non-canon cockdickery.

>>7574
>it's infuriating to see that shit get tossed around because there is someone DAILY publishing some art, well or not-so-well drawn, of her getting railed by an animal!
Consider blacklisting the tags on boorus and other places you get art.

>>7575
>>7576
You're absolutely right. I'm trying not to get trolled by that rubbish but it activates neurons, the bad kind. I will blacklist tags right away.
>Fluttershy is a fictional character
she's real to me

>>7574
It's soft wired of a normal response.
In essence you're viewing it as a disrespect of your lively pony.
>>7575
>waifu isn't affected
This is true.
I could go on about the multiverse and theoretical fictional creation/tapping, but in the end it's the same.
They can't touch your waifu.
>>7577
>blacklist tags
It's the best response.
I think last night I posted some shitposts, but deleted them.
Anyway I recommend a degree of separation, good communication, and chilling with the Holy Ghost.
He's putting the one building me and my relationships up.
I'm serious take it to Jesus the woes the hurts the rage everything and He'll talk with you and He does stuff.
He's got the plan everything that works for you.
You're loved, and He obsesses over you letting Him have full access He'll go the extra distance. If you want to do it yourself you can and He'll let you, but in my experience it's always better to hand everything to Him.
He'll go infront and fight the battles, and by yourside being THE Friend, and behind covering from backstabbing, and within building you as you really are.
Rest in Him and experience His joy and know He is with you in all ways.

>>7578
>In essence you're viewing it as a disrespect of your lively pony.
Yes, I think, also in combination with a hate for zoophiles and zoosadists. I tend to always make these issues appear bigger than they really are. Well they are huge issues but you know what I mean.
>They can't touch your waifu.
I know, not that I coudln't control myself or anything, but that terrible feeling overshadowed everything else in my head. At least I could express my anger by chopping away at a tree stump to free it and move it away to get chipped later. After a while I felt refreshed! Before I finish a prayer to Epona I thank her for taking care of all the ponies, explicitly Flutters who is the dearest to me. (I see the many qualities of God to be in separate bodies, and so I address them either by their greek or roman names. I do that subconciously, and direct prayers to a specific quality. Maybe it doesn't make sense but, it does to me.)
>shitposts
I was probably asleep.
>separation, good communication, and chilling with the Holy Ghost.
I have struggled with these, I have yet to find the holy ghost. I have yet to understand the idea behind this. I have yet to read the bible too. Friend I believe too that Jesus would accept me, in a way he may have, but have I? I will spiritually delve into this and find out. You know, I feel changed already, let go of a lot of inner tension, in a way, maybe on my way to rebirth? Would he accept my personal philosophy? Perhaps watching the anime and reading the manga would help.
Sorry for the typos and grammar and whatever, I'm exhausted and my hands are tired. Pic semi-related, because everything we love wouldn't be possible without love.

>>7581 (me)
Me here again. I just can't let go of this, this is always creeping in every corner of my thought. I see Fluttershy trough Epona, and pray to Epona to take care of her. Nothing can happen to her. Even when people exert energy at trying to hurt her, or trying to make her their slave. When I see Fluttershy I think of her and what she means to me. It's unreasonable from me, as someone who does not want to hinder any artistic freedom, but even then, I believe energy should be spent on projects that are to everyones benefit. Spreading happiness, awareness of mares fit into that category. I'm just a lunatic who takes expression of twisted imagination personally, it is my fault. I'm not reasonable, even less so than my love I have for Fluttershy. When I need her the most, she is always out there, somewhere in my heart.
I know no one cares, I just can't let this rest.

Broke out crying during workout. I will change just for you even if it doesn't make a difference. What do I do so I could be with you?
>>7585
thank you

>>7581 (me)
>Jesus would accept me, in a way he may have, but have I?
He has. I was praying in the evening before going to bed, wishing for this evil to leave my body, and suddenly I jumped up. I stood up instantly and I thanked Jesus and thanked him over and over and Fluttershy over and over for forgiving me for all that I have done, tears of joy flowing down my cheek. He has forgiven me.
With that, in my sub-conscious, I have forgiven myself. I knew this the instant I was fully standing. Thinking back to these memories I have, bullying the other children and causing them harm, thoughts that have kept me up at night had no effect any longer.
I have had long-standing issues with cooming, but now Jesus helps me to keep away these evil thoughts, devilish ideas, and it has never been easier. Even the impulse to curse is strongly weakened, now it's just a habit I need to break.
I feel that Fluttershy led me to this point, and I have her as an angel in my heart, leading on. I don't feel those feelings anymore towards flutterzoo and the other terrible sinks of energy, though I still grieve for all innocent animals to be hurt or killed in the name of the devil.
I had no idea it would be now, or that it would be so sudden, but I finally found Jesus, and I am changed. It is important to me that I experienced this this way, growing up an atheist, growing closer to God, but now after this experience I am ready to be his slave.