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Get It Off Your Chest
Anonymous
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>Nazi Horsefucker Edition
Vent frustrations and life issues that don't deserve their own thread here.
274 replies and 127 files omitted.
Anonymous
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No.4414
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Life is pretty great all things considered. Should go out and experience it.
>Numbers Go Here
It's also in diminishing returns it's been a while. Running negative for myself due to a combination of outside circumstances. Having a dummy that goes on the same jig everytime gets old. Yet some amount of attention has to be there because it still is someone who'll ruin the fun and games.
I'll even play devil's advocate if I need to, to fill that spot.
>Numbers Go Here
Rules and regulations isn't the game here, the implied interests of Anons sure, it's getting up in the morning with a smile instead of a sigh and a slog.

Anonymous
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>>4414
Dark and mysterious, numberless numbers. Who could possibly be the perpetrator of the posts?
Only time will tell in this thread of the damned!
Anonymous
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>>4415
Anonymous
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>>4416
Never forget, never forgive.
Anonymous
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>>4329
>>4339
Be killing your self. Anon did nothing wrong. He does not need you to be poisoning the well of his mind with unkind words. This is not friendship,Juden.
>>4336
>>4326
Do not letting him fuck with you anon. He is retard.
Anonymous
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>>4418
But, I apprrciate his perspective. He's not wrong, nor was he any harsher on myself than Ive been. Its important to be brutally honest with yourself, ESPECIALLY when you fuck up. I know we're all on about ponies and shit, but sometimes you gotta be brutal; its not deviant to do so and I wouldnt tell him or anyone ITT (specifically) to kill themselves.
Anonymous
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Perfectionism is a form of masturbation in which narcissistic faggots paralyze themselves with their fear of making mistakes and looking foolish, and then scare themselves into doing nothing besides saying "At least I'm not fucking up right now".
But they are fucking up. They're failing to reach their true potential, if they have any.
Anonymous
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>>4420
fuck lmao didnt mean to send that

anyway whenever I feel that old sin creeping up on me, I shitpost. I produce some low-effort art and shit it into the world and I don't care who sees it. Sometimes I produce low-effort art for fun, not for therapy, so it wouldn't be right to say that's the only reason I make low-effort art in addition to high-effort art. Sometimes bad jokes don't need high quality art.
Anonymous
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>>4418
>Be killing your self.
Seems literacy isn't your strong suit, fella, hehehe.
>Anon did nothing wrong.
And neither did Hitler.
>He does not need you to be poisoning the well of his mind with unkind words.
The harsh reality is something to not be scared of, as opposed to the sloth of a lazy life where death is a primary fear and effort is forgotten or disregarded entirely in feeble mindedness.
Telling someone upfront what their faults are is ego breaking and so is either accepted as criticism or an intimidation, not everyone is perfect but they can aspire to be better than to wallow in their own despair and pity. Surely you should understand the reasoning behind such directly worded merits, otherwise assuming you might not be so good at words, you may have misinterpreted my purposes and intentions.
>This is not friendship,Juden.
Then what is it nigger?
Adversarial rivalry? Harsh critique? Denouncing allies?

>He is retard.
Judging by your demeanor, you appear to be as thick as 3 bricks. Comprehension of the situation is a bit hard eh?
>>4419
>But, I apprrciate his perspective.
Thanks.
>He's not wrong, nor was he any harsher on myself than Ive been.
More often than most times, oneself can be the own worst enemy possible.
>Its important to be brutally honest with yourself, ESPECIALLY when you fuck up.
To live by denial of failure is to exist within the entrapment of egotistical self delusions, mistakes will be made but they can be corrected given enough time.
>I know we're all on about ponies and shit, but sometimes you gotta be brutal;
Practicality supersedes emotional morality. Death is a part of life, after all, we're all on our way there so we might as well make the most the most out of it whilst we're here instead of making matters worse for ourselves and others.
Ponies are something truly magical, indeed they are uniquely special.
>its not deviant to do so and I wouldnt tell him or anyone ITT (specifically) to kill themselves.
I personally agree with your statement, anon.
Anonymous
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I don't enjoy anything anymore. I used to take a lot of enjoyment in pony and all of the shit surrounding it but it's kinda just become stale for me, I still enjoy it but the spark of discovering something new is dead. I try to distract myself with anything really, exercise, vidya, writing or whatever but nothing works. At the end of the day it all just seems completely pointless to even pay attention to or do at all.

Just in general I'm fucked up, for a lot of very deep-rooted reasons and they've warped me in ways I can't change even though I know it's wrong. If I were to talk about all of them I'd need a lot longer than 6000 characters as I typically don't talk about shit that bothers me or that has happened in my life. I learned not to a long time ago from lived experience - even though not doing so has gotten me in deep shit more than once. It's all I know.

My emotions wander from apathetic, to angry, to pissed off. I haven't truly been 'happy' in years now and I honestly can't remember what being happy felt like to begin with. I have a vague idea but can't quite really summon the words to describe it. I'm just a ball of apathy and anger towards certain (((people))), their enablers and whoever else is on my personal shit-list.

TL;DR
I'm dead inside.
Anonymous
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>>4475
>I'm dead inside.
Not quite.
That foggy mind is sign of a idle poner.
A busy mind + a busy body is the ancient remedy for most ills.
Anonymous
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No.4477
>>4475
If you were truly dead inside you wouldn't see any reason to tell us about it. There's hope for you, lift weights to get your blood pumping and find a positive constructive hobby to enjoy/skill to learn.
Anonymous
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>>4475
Why not be happy?
Go down into the hole of the dead be reborn by and against chaos to fight malevolence suffering greatly, yet pluvk out your remaining eye so the dead culture/traditions can finally see then rise together to rule together.
Be manifested as Both Watcher and All That Was for All That Is.
"You can rewire yourself quite completely by placing negative things in a positive context and the degree to which you can do that is quite remarkable." Jordan B. Peterson
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F3n5qtj89QE

You will suffer, choose how.
There is one more aspect to the Watcher and the Old (yet now can see) They Live.
In the depths of the dead they have nothing to live for, that lies in the living. To climb out of the death you must live that is a journey. To Live is where Malevolence always prowls.

The Old has no eyes but it has power and is among the living. Malevolence will strike the Old at the best opportunity to fell it.
The one who comes forth from this has Eyes seeing the dead, the living, the Malevolence, the corruption, the scattered Old.

To transform and remake yourself is to kill who you were that's part of sacrifice. It's extremely painful in large chunks. A constant eating away and renewal is less so.
Distraction from what?
People need Purpose. That comes with Responsibilities and then the fruits of their labor.
You have to take and extract happiness whenever and where ever you can find it. The meaning though lasts longer and can fortify you in remembrance.
Anonymous
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>>4475
On a far lesser scale years ago nothing was funny for me. Enjoyment denied. So I watched cartoons hoping for something that would light that inner spark.
Instead I found something mind numbing, in idiocy. It was stupid.
Despair, Anger, Resignation, Apathy, Curiosity, Testing, Application, Contentment.
Now that I'm me now I'd like to think I harnessed the infested Malevolence ('forcing' it to the edge) and the Old traditions by forcing them to see the dumb fuckery and the slightest silver lining.
That show wasn't My Little Pony.
One thing I've noticed of myself now-a-days is that raw primal monster unleashes the positive emotions in mania. Always there, just now it knows the wider world and of bigger fish. Of where it can tred with its leash and when. Then on the edge of that thin line it plays with devilish glee.
It knows who/what it could do, yet chained in such a way that it would rather rest than be a force to drive forward.
The only reason why is because I didn't see that before. That conceptulization to talk/communicate (First came the Word) and see.
You know as a childish kid I remember once when playing a game in school a thought occurred that if others got sick they wouldn't be able to play, that the temporary game (in this instance) is never worth the long term costs. That maybe incidentally at the time emulating a plague bearer was a fucking dumb idea.
Align your goals because they are one and the same what matters is how it's communicated across.

The inner monster understands it all but reveling in spite shrugging off the blows finishing it after the hunt (of which it's futile moments where filled with horror) is something it (at least mine) lives for. Living in joy and happiness and meaning will spite (((them))).
It's healthier which means you are more ready for the hunt which it will enjoy.
Your in a better mental state because being happy increases your intelligence and creativity, once it understands the implications that what you could have access to if properly cared for it will help you.
Your job is to hold those chains and the cage and awareness and the direction to be the leader and on the ground unit holding the thing which will and can destroy everything including yourself.
The inner monster concept of power is one of the languages it holds, so to emotions, and images, and words. Actions however is what it enjoys mentally or made manifest.
It can turn on you, but that's part of its charm.
The tarot Devil card holds chains, that is the improper order, yet many fall prey to that illness. You must hold those chains over it because that is its job, it's task, it's sole purpose to do as you command. It's always unequal of master to slave, but it revels in it either way.
It will exist inside of you. (The Jungian Shadow, the Monster, why? A singular part (of the HERO) to get and survive the chaos to get the treasures!)
Like the immune system it can fuck you up hard if it thinks you're the enemy, in its proper functions invaders die and you are more than well. To destroy.

You also need the regenerative aspect to tend and heal to gather and place things into categories or boxes or baskets. To create.
The limits placed on the monster which is yourself defines an operating area for which the 'inner' area of that 'civil' operation can create freely barring snakes lurking (which the monster can hunt).
See what awakens the vicious grin and ask why. It'll be informative.
The wolves you feed will be the ones who win.
Remember these five. Vampire, Werewolf, Billionaire, Pirate, Surgeon.
Your goal is to master the set that enables to win every set ever afterwards.

So actually feeling happy see what flickers the tiny titillation. Like fire it needs fuel, air and heat. When all is right it bursts forth like over filling cups if that is what you let it do.
Change is painful inherently because you burn who and what you were. Killing neural connections and forging new ones.
Faking it till you make it is possible, because everything has to start somewhere. Keeping in mind what really matters to you.
Anonymous
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No.4502
Hey is that Omori fan still here?
He'd probably like this https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=GnjcRQI6a6Q
Anonymous
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>Be me
>It Christmas! All the Christmas things are doing all the things!
>Younger brother gibes gift, Jordan Peterson: 12 Rules
>knows I liek cuz I keep telling him
>literally audio-book chapters while we're driving
>want him to clean his room
I know Im being a sperg about this and I appreciate its an opportunity to further our relationship, and thats probably the real intent behind the gift.
I also appreciate that he's listening.
This post is merely to satisfy the frustration I felt in not being able to hand it back and say "No, you read it."
Anonymous
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I fucking hate non-castizo spics
Anonymous
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>>4641
You can talk to him about it after listening to an audiobook of it in the car together, get him to understand what's in the book and how he can apply it to his life.
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I did my absolute best, i've tried everything, i've abandoned everything i ever enjoyed, and it might not be enough, not even close.
But i am not worried, i do not feel concerned nor nervious, why should i?, a man can only do its best.
For a while now, i've decided not to worry anymore, even if i could end up dying all alone in a shithole town, what gives?, just do your best, give it your best try and never give up, you may always think you could have done something better, but things are easy to spot in hindsight, learn from it and improve, but don't be too harsh on yourself, simply do your absolute best, and make sure you can't blame yourself, at least because you didn't tried hard enough.

Gnight poners, see you on the other side
Anonymous
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>>5070
See you when you wake. Ensure you have some care for yourself as well, and that can be a tall order at times. It's important though.
Anonymous
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I rented a small upstairs apartment with no ac years ago and I had to cool it down with a window fan. Y'know, the kind with two fans in the frame; one blew air outwards while the other blew inwards.
My bed was next to that window and I would try to aim my nut at the exhaust fan, hoping that it would spray a foul mist of hot cum into the alleyway and onto the trees out there.
I only stopped after accidentally nailing the bull dyke that lived downstairs as she walked her dog. I had no idea she was down there in the alley and she couldn't have heard me fap over the sound of my music and the fans. I heard her loudly say "what the fuck" as I quickly got up to take a shower. I peaked out my blinds and saw her draw her hand to her forehead at the base of her hairline in confusion. I just took a shower and hoped to God my secret cum technique had not been discovered. I never meant to hit anyone.
Our apartment complex had a shared laundromat and she was still friendly and never said anything when we crossed paths, but she started to give me weird looks of contemplation. I still wonder if she ever figured out about the accidental aerial facial she received.

I've never told anyone about this since it's so embarrassing.
Anonymous
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No.5075
>>5073
>Nutting on a dyke
That's based dude. nothing to be embarrassed about.
Anonymous
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>>5073
Stealth of 100, she never knew what hit her.
Once a few years ago there was a cat in my garden at night and because my bedroom is above it and i sometimes took a piss out of my window since it was more fun than doing it in the toilet, i decided it would be perfect to do a golden shower on a pussy. The feline was situated below my window at a angle that couldn't be better and it had no idea what warm waterfalls would be unleashed upon it or that i was looming ominously a few metres above it, ready to rain hell down onto the nocturnal predator, i began the assault of urine on the cat and immediately it screamed in utter shock as well as terror then bolted off into the darkness while i continued my stream. I don't know if the owner might have smelled my piss off of it the next day but then again i don't really care.
Anonymous
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>>5071
>Pic 3
Anonymous
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>>5077
Poor Kitty
Anonymous
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>>5080
It deserved the punishment for treading on my property. The cat had it coming for awhile since it kept hanging around my garden.
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I really, really, really hope i am wrong here.
But i have the feeling certain anon might take a step further in minecraft one of these days.
And i really don't want to feel like i've contributed to it; Cuz he's not exactly a bad dood, he's just...deranged af
Anonymous
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I'm sick, it looks like intoxication.
- muscular weakness
- last night I've got shivers and I woke up at least 20 times
- dizziness
Now I'm getting better, but my autism is dead.
Anonymous
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I vomited this morning. I wonder what caused it.
Anonymous
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>>5780
Your body is getting rid of toxicity.
Anonymous
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>>5780
Too much semen
Anonymous
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>>5782
I knew it... the dark side of nofap nobody talks about. ...lol jk
>>5781
Makes sense. But what toxic thing could I have eaten? I only eat fresh meat and veg. Or rice. Sometimes frozen veg if running low on fresh veg. The water purifier boils water and filters it through activated charcoal, and while it smells like shit after use because I live somewhere with shit water nothing foul in the water should be able to survive that water cooking.
>Jesse. Jesse we need to cook water, Jesse.
Anonymous
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>>5783
probably cancer
Anonymous
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>>5784
What cancer causes one session of vomiting and a day's worth of diarrhea? I feel fine now anyway. Whatever sickness got into me has been thoroughly and intensely ejected.
Anonymous
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>>5786
All kidding aside, its beginning to sound like food-borne contamination
Anonymous
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>>5787
I blame the chicken and pasta I ate before this started. Must not have cooked the chicken enough. Cooked it for the proper time and the meat thermometer said it was fine. Guess that was just some bad chicken.
Anonymous
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>>5788
Checked.
Eh, it wont be your last random/inexplicable vomit. Git gud.
Anonymous
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>>5788
You always gotta be careful with chicken, crazy eights. Especially since store-bought cock can very easily be a mixed bag depending on where you get it from.
You can get great cocks from rising guys like me via Tractor Supply every fall/winter. Give 'em enough attention and you'll have great, godly mouthfulls of cock for free that won't make you sick if you clean it right.
Just make sure to keep a cock around to keep your hens laying eggs, teighty teights.
You could also consider raising ducks, but they stink like (You)s.
Anonymous
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I wish my landlord wasn't a faggoted karen. She says "No pets on the property. No dogs, cats, or chickens". I tried saying "Chickens aren't pets, they're food. I'll keep them outside at all times. I won't even give them grandma names." But no, she just hates fun.
Why are chickens given grandma names anyway?
Anonymous
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No.5793
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>>5792
>landlady
Why don't you get a job and buy at least a small piece of land?
>grandma names
I have no idea what you're talking about. I've never referred to any livestock by name except for a favorite cow that wasn't even mine. Daphne was a big, slobbering sweetheart that birthed many calves and was beloved by everyone in the tri-county area that was worth a fuck, excepting subhuman carpetbaggers that will be pig food someday. Probably did more for the White race than you ever will. You would do well to honor her, faggot.
Daphne is not a "granny" name and you will love and respect the righteous Aryan cow.
Anonymous
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>>5793
>just get land
You know land isn't cheap and neither are houses, let alone in driving distance of sustainable jobs, right? Most people who don't own land wish they could, and that's probably the case for Anon here.
Anonymous
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>>5794
>Most people who don't own land wish they could
In the States the federal government grabbed huge portions of land to itself. Americans have the land, only the government is on the way.
Anonymous
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No.5796
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>>5795
That in addition to the fact that bankers (Jews) control the real estate market, and are more interested in buying up housing for corporations to rent instead of making that housing available for consumers to buy.
Anonymous
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>>5796
If you looked, you might find an amenable anon who might share their land, if that was of interest to you
Anonymous
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>>5794
You can get arable land for $1250/acre if you know literally anyone in a rural area. The problem is covering legal and zoning bullshit for sectioning off land or otherwise not having enough money to buy in bulk. It could be even cheaper if you want a starter lot in a tiny town.
Travel shouldn't be a problem for white collar wiz kids that can work remotely or for a blue collar guy worth a fuck that wasn't raised by a single mother and knows basic vehicle maintenance.
>>5795
This issue warrants its own thread. Billionaires and kikes should be executed en masse, French Revolution style.
>>5797
Not gonna happen. Said anon would either get murdered by one of his own /pol/tard serfs or black bagged by feds. No one really wants Ram Ranch IRl but with sperg wars. Plus, I'm committed to being a degenerate horsefucker. Only cute mares (redundant, I know) allowed.

In closing, cartoon equine vagina.
Anonymous
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>>5779
I'm getting better and my autistic levels little by little are returning to normal.
Anonymous
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>>5798
>Said anon would either get murdered by one of his own /pol/tard serfs or black bagged by feds
Either attempt would be hilarious, Ill let you know in such a case
Anonymous
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No.5814
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If faggot roommate isn't watching copaganda on tv he's watching Netflix jew fantasies about blacks being enslaved by whites and mistreated. It's loud, it's obnoxious, it's divorced from reality. It's another shameless display of his failure as a man. He feels guilty for being a spoiled rich bastard now and then and if he doesn't feel like acting feminine and shopping his woes away, comforting his habit of purchasing overpriced clothes by telling himself second hand purchases of overpriced clothes makes them a good deal and not a massive waste of money, he watches something to make the world feel safe and reasonable and orderly, like tv shows where the cops hurt unruly poors, or """true stories""" of fictional white people long ago acting almost as badly as the BLMafia niggers today. If only I had any say in who my chicken-hating cunt landlord chose to be my roommates.
Anonymous
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No.5815
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>>5814
I hate your roomie, too. He sounds like an over socialized fagazoid. You know what you have to do, Anon.
Bleach+Ammonia=Mustard Gas. Make it look like he somehow accidentally locked himself in the bathroom while cleaning it.
Anonymous
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No.5816
>>5815
Lmao no.