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Get It Off Your Chest
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>Nazi Horsefucker Edition
Vent frustrations and life issues that don't deserve their own thread here.
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>>2963
They have good advice, know this though. There is time and a place for such emotional out pourings and time when one must go inside one's self for answers, and healing.
Good luck frien, I know you will find and be healed and helped in the way you need.

If you need to speak...
This is thread is here specifically for that.

I would suggest this for anyone that wants a short read to be free. Times will be getting more turbulent. It's a nice place to start if nowhere else is available.
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/298661
It's worthwhile for what it is, but a summary. Become the Arthurian legend, for yourself.
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>>2969
This anon cares.
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>>2969
>They have good advice, know this though. There is time and a place for such emotional out pourings and time when one must go inside one's self for answers, and healing.
Yeah they're useful for helping you in rough times, especially so when you have nowhere to get advice from, i know some people get angry at cards for telling them the truth about their lives because they refuse to help themselves or appreciate advice for being advice.
>Good luck frien, I know you will find and be healed and helped in the way you need.
Good luck to you too anon.
>If you need to speak...
>This is thread is here specifically for that.
I never used to be open about myself because i didn't need to but at least you guys put up with my bullshit while i became Nigel 2.0.
I wouldn't have posted all of this if i was still occupied with her, i spent so many days with Fionn and being away from her has torn me apart, i never knew i loved her that much until i had to go and now i still don't know how to live without her, she gave me something i had never felt before.
I lost my virginity to that mare and i feel as if i have lost apart of myself along with her going, it's hard leaving those sorts of memory's behind, i will cherish her.

>I would suggest this for anyone that wants a short read to be free.
>It's worthwhile for what it is, but a summary.
Perhaps i should start getting back involved into lifting, i have to admit that i haven't been doing it for a while so maybe that's another factor to how i have been depressed as i had no motivation to doing it.
>Become the Arthurian legend, for yourself.
Only you can decide what path you take in life, whether it be blind or kind it is down to only the person that walks those paths, it is never too late to go back and start again on another journey down a different route.

Have a pony for your kindness, (You) were willing to give an ear and i appreciate that.
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I have come to the conclusion that it is necessary to apologize for how i have been conducting myself here, i have made a total ass of myself all because my ona hole went missing and i feel bad for it so i want to say sorry for the 2 months of shit posting i have done.
Never before have i been so egotistical without realizing how much of cunt i must look like to everyone here.

It doesn't feel right leaving all of this behind me without saying sorry for my disruption, it was a coping mechanism that i attached myself to because i was looking for an extra hit of dopamine as my meat mare has gone somewhere so i didn't care for how i was seen as long as i felt better which is the wrong way to approach life, you guys didn't deserve to have to read me ramble on about fucking numbers, i shouldn't have made that thread but i want to be able to look at all how that one fag tried to get me to stop because i made him upset so i am not going to delete it so i can look back and laugh instead of deleting it because it means too much to me to do that.

Anyways i hope i can leave the shit posting in the past because it's immature to continue acting like in front of the world's greatest faggots.
It's a new moon and a new beginning for me so i give my salutations to la Luna /).

I had fun making people annoyed don't get me wrong i love doing that sort of shit but i did take it too far in the end but i also love this place more than that
I might just be the gayest guy here after all, next to Nigel of course.
Anonymous
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>>2976
It's fine anon, you already ID the problem to fix.
Put yourself together and join the herd.
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>>2976
>that one fag tried to get me to stop because i made him upset
>t. Guy who sperged about random numbers cuz his onahole was gone
Get wrecked fgt, my argument has always been that you were pulling shit out of your ass from the most self-serving/convenient source/explanation you could come up with. Who knew it was all to keep from pulling shit outta your dick
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>>2977
Gonna build myself up like a Lego castle.
>>2978
>t. Guy who sperged about random numbers cuz his onahole was gone
<T. Guy who used to live in Commiecuckfornia and cries about the phone numbers being 666
>Get wrecked fgt, my argument has always been that you were pulling shit out of your ass from the most self-serving/convenient source/explanation you could come up with.
To be honest i just wanted to show what music i listened to because i thought it was hilarious doing it that way, i knew it was pure unfiltered crap all along, the most master plan concocted in the gayest depths of hell, get fucked.
I was real fucking high and still haven't come down.
>Who knew it was all to keep from pulling shit outta your dick
S-shut up bitch boy, the only shit that comes out from me is through my posting,
I got you good with my mega bait didn't i?
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>>2979
Glad you're doing better friend. The road to improving yourself a solid foundation is a long one, and worth while activity.
It takes alot to say these things.
Give your poner friend a hug for me a great service has been done. Then ask the poner friend to give you a hug for me.
Take good care lf yourself.
Here's a pone pic. Maybe.
The phoenix can always recover, but constant small burnings keep one in tip top shape.
>spoilers
Not gonna lie when I read that, I was... irritated, and the first thought that crossed my mind was to reach through the screen to throttle you comedically. No malice behind it, just to get the point across in jest.
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>>2979
>t. Guy who lives in cucked Bong-istan so he cries about numbers on the internet because he's starved for attention because his fuck toy went missing
>that's not a load of shit too
So, how long have you and Nigel been friends?
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>>2983
>Glad you're doing better friend.
Thanks.
>The road to improving yourself a solid foundation is a long one, and worth while activity.
A journey worth taking.
>It takes alot to say these things.
Depends on how comfortable you are with yourself, it takes a while to decide to confess to something and there is more than 6 million skeletons inside my closet waiting to come out.
This is the confession booth thread after all and i'm pretty sure i made the priests piss themselves.
>Give your poner friend a hug for me a great service has been done.
I will if i see her again. I'm not sure if you are talking about the voice inside my head or the mare but i'll give them both a hug for (You).
>Then ask the poner friend to give you a hug for me.
It'll be the first thing i do.
>Take good care lf yourself.
I will, you take care as well.
>Here's a pone pic. Maybe.
And here's one for you too.
>The phoenix can always recover, but constant small burnings keep one in tip top shape.
The preservation of embers can alight a new fire but when left unattended it will die out fast.
>spoiler
Yet another shake of salt to my eyes, like i said i love to fuck about with people but the spoiler in that post was specified just for that mega faggot because i have a vendetta to settle for calling me gayer then him.
It was pretty funny that he believed that i'm that fucking dumb to not understand him so i wanted to fuck with his head because he is so easily fooled and i saw that as he is gay and gullible

I guess it would be best to explain myself as the things i posted in that thread on /vx/ was to see how people would react to it and i was heavily stoned every time i posted because it tickled my fucked up sense of high humor to have people believe that numbers on a jew tube video had any deeper meaning then what they are at face value, be more skeptical about things and don't trust what anyone says, this is the internet after all so creating a facade has never been more easy, i think the way people perceive others is interesting as it is manipulated quickly, people are so eager to love and hate then create foggy optics to view people out of, i do a lot of shit like that when i'm tripping as it makes my dick hard because making people view me differently from others is a funny thing as people always like to think about how people's view of them is, it is a herd behavior which is easily exploited for personal gain because humans like to give others name tags which sets them on a scale of goodness so that they can decide if the person is trustworthy or not, i know it's considered crazy to do shit like that but i find that kind of human instinct to be very laughable because it is very funny when it is looked at from a different angle, people like to make believe story's inside their head about others and humans have always thought that way about people they like as well as don't like, people think this way since they were children and i see it as very childish and therefor funny for some reason, i have not hurt anyone other than that guy's feelings because i am extremely vengeful when i am on the go and i have always been that way since my head was fucked with by the schooling system.
That went on longer then i expected but the tldr of this is that i got a laugh out of making that anon upset because salty tears fuel my fire almost as good as horse pussy but not quite, they have a similar taste anyways.
>>2984
>t. Guy who lives in cucked Bong-istan so he cries about numbers on the internet because he's starved for attention because his fuck toy went missing
<T. Gay guy who is more salty than horse piss because of the evil hippy horse fucker who stole his Christmas
>that's not a load of shit too
How does it feel being anally annihilated? I bet you know how that feels.
So, how long have you and Nigel been friends?
Since we fucked your mum together.
(You) have been well and truly optically fucked by the true son of Satan, do you want some brimstone to cool your ass?
I am fucking with you and you fell for it, i thought (You) were supposed to be the skeptic or so it was meant to be that i am more of a Satanic Sadist then (You) will ever be, (You) are my slave and i know how to pull your strings because i get a kick out of it, go tell your master that for me.
I have laid with the pagan queen and the gates of salt i have seen, i have taken all the marijuana's and shitted all over (You) with my posts and it never crossed your mind not even once, even though you call yourself a skeptic, that i am doing this so that i can feel better because my morals have been low

thanks for making me laugh, most of what i have posted has happened to me or i have done, everything i have posted about myself is true but i like to take the piss out of people for the sweetness of the salt.
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>>2985
I assure you the pleasure has and continues to be mine.
>gay
A telling allegation that means, for a person to suggest that of another implies that there is a greater probability that the accuser is in fact guilty of the allegation they level
>optically fucked
I've dealt with lefties before so this isnt the first time I've encountered a person who's reception/impression of events runs contrary to the evidence, so you come as no surprise, but
>true son of Satan
>Satanic Sadist
>laid with the true pagan queen
and who could forget the time honored classic
>I was only pretending to be retarded, lol, soooooo trolllded!!!
Please, dance more, this has been delightful
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>>2986
>I assure you the pleasure has and continues to be mine.
It's nice to hear your having as much fun as me.
>A telling allegation
So your gonna use all of your ever so powerful skepticism to accuse me of something that you have done?
So by your logic if were to call myself gay that means i'm not but when i call you gay i am?
Here we go again.
>I've dealt with lefties before so this isnt the first time I've encountered a person who's reception/impression of events runs contrary to the evidence, so you come as no surprise, but
And how many so called conquered leftists have fucked you?
(You) are incredibly salty and can't let this die and if i use your logic against you then you allege that you yourself are left leaning, you say that you follow the left hand path of the ways of Lucifer which is telling in of itself that you are redder then a mare in heat.
>laid with the true pagan queen
This was a reference to a Bathory song and i knew you would like it because of how much we have in common in musical taste.
>Please, dance more, this has been delightful
I'm a better ballet dancer than (You) bub.
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>>2987
>accuse
I'd never be so pretentious. Theres no point in leveling allegations without evidence, it diminishes one's position and credibility. And yes, it's quite evident that logic escapes you.
Also, you have a strange obsession with,... I can only assume it's a juvenile attempt to be edgy and outrageous (It is, but not for the reasons you're opting to employ it). Alas, you've yet to realize that when you choose to act ridiculously, it doesnt impugn on me.
>left leaning
No you silly fool, I was asserting that, having dealt with leftists, I have no problem dealing with individuals such as yourself who's impression of reality stands in contrast to the available evidence. I wasnt suggesting you ARE left leaning, I was asserting that your delusions and positions are comparably insubstantial. Big difference, but I'll try to speak more slowly.
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>>2988
>I'd never be so pretentious.
Well i do not personally know as this is on the inter webs.
>Theres no point in leveling allegations without evidence, it diminishes one's position and credibility.
True.
>And yes, it's quite evident that logic escapes you.
I use logic but not in the normal way, i look at the evidence and connect the dots like a puzzle if there is a repetition then i look further into it, i'm probably more autistic than Jason and i see the world as a big puzzle which if you know what the logo for autism speaks is then you are looking at it right now.
>Also, you have a strange obsession with,... I can only assume it's a juvenile attempt to be edgy and outrageous (It is, but not for the reasons you're opting to employ it).
Everyone is still a child in mind and ties themselves to the past, my attitudes are still like a edgy 12 year old's and i can't deny that, 4Chan really rubbed of on me as i was young when i first came to the dark side of the internet.
>Alas, you've yet to realize that when you choose to act ridiculously, it doesnt impugn on me.
Then why are you changing the subject and dissecting my attitudes personally if you are not bothered by my scribbles?

No you silly fool, I was asserting that, having dealt with leftists, I have no problem dealing with individuals such as yourself who's impression of reality stands in contrast to the available evidence.
And how does my reality have no logic? Will you finally unravel that gospel and explain your empty words?
If there is any similarities between me and Marx then maybe i will finally listen to your pleadings but until then you are nothing more then a salty seaman.
>I wasnt suggesting you ARE left leaning, I was asserting that your delusions and positions are comparably insubstantial.
Feelings and logic are two separate things to me, if you believe there is an overlap of them then you are wrong, if i believed in feelings rather then my logic then i wouldn't like emotion enhancing drugs, i like to feel good and think deep, that's why i decided to fuck horses instead of modern women, i saw that there is more pain involved in a human relationship then with a mare, you cannot to be tied to woman like a mare because you cannot have kids and the mare can't scream rape after i have had my way with them.
>Big difference, but I'll try to speak more slowly.
Then that was an error on my behalf, i have reading problems as you might be able to connect the puzzle together if you think hard enough.
Maybe it would easier to understand you if you had a stutter as it would take longer for you to get the words out of your garbage and more thought would be put into your posts.
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>>2989
>I use logic in not the normal way
That's not logic, we've been over this. Logic is about establishing or observing a very simple cause and effect; you have a computer, you look it up
>changing the subject
Just giving you the chance to realize the futility of "acting like an idiot in an attempt to make me seem the idiot". I did say carry on (and no contest, you're undoubtedly better at ballet)
>similarities with Marx
Well, your pretense is absurd, your positions have nothing to substantiate (including the "I was only pretending" bit), and your awareness of the situation has you perceiving the situation rather (but not entirely) backward. It seems that while having nothing to do with lefties politically, you make up for it by following the same philosophical strategy. So not literally a leftist, but if you remove all the contextual details, you sure act alot like a leftist. But again, that wasnt my point. I was hoping to spare you the trouble of incessantly asserting patently and obviously false ideas, that it only makes you look bad, but perhaps I shouldn't expend so much time catering to my opposition? It's no bother, I assure you. Itd be far less entertaining if this was over quickly
>reading problems
How sad for you, my english is quite precise. I'm sure you'll get it someday if you keep at it
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>>2990
>That's not logic, we've been over this.
No man has logic that is exactly the same as another man's.
>Logic is about establishing or observing a very simple cause and effect; you have a computer, you look it up
I do that already but i look at it from a different angle when i analyze it.
>Just giving you the chance to realize the futility of "acting like an idiot in an attempt to make me seem the idiot".
So you would rather pick away at myself then make a worthwhile argument?
>I did say carry on (and no contest, you're undoubtedly better at ballet)
It seems you liked that, maybe there is something else to this.
>Well, your pretense is absurd, your positions have nothing to substantiate (including the "I was only pretending" bit), and your awareness of the situation has you perceiving the situation rather (but not entirely) backward.
Well i still am not entirely sober so i don't have very great social cues at the moment, it's an excuse and i know.
>It seems that while having nothing to do with lefties politically, you make up for it by following the same philosophical strategy.
Now how am i philosophically left? I find it pretty hard to believe that, i believe in justice and violence as they are sometimes necessary but they are avoidable if the right precautions are applied, if anything i'm more of a anarchist fascist then a commie.
>So not literally a leftist, but if you remove all the contextual details, you sure act alot like a leftist.
In what way? I can sort of understand that i am kind of left leaning in terms of feelings but Virgos are known for drug habits and that sort of conduct of emotions as they are considered one of the most feminine zodiac signs so that is probably where you got the impression that i am leftist in attitude from.
>But again, that wasnt my point.
Then what was
>Well I was hoping to spare you the trouble of incessantly asserting patently and obviously false ideas, that it only makes you look bad, but perhaps I shouldn't expend so much time catering to my opposition?
I am willing to listen to reason, if you believe i am leftist emotionally then it is probable that you think i am morally wrong, what exactly are you proposing other then that you wish to liberate me of my personality because you don't like it? If you provide something actually worth considering then i will take it into account but i am not willing to change my beliefs, i have already declared that i am striving towards a new beginning so you are free to give advice as long as it is worth taking into account.
>It's no bother, I assure you. Itd be far less entertaining if this was over quickly
Weak minded people get stiff necks when a conversation gets to be too thoughtfully struggling for them, i am willing to take that struggle between me and you so fire away, this doesn't have to be a one sided argument anymore you know.
>How sad for you, my english is quite precise.
<English isn't a capital letter
Kek, i never said i am dyslexic but instead incredibly autistic, i don't make grammatical mistakes often but your pity is welcome.
>I'm sure you'll get it someday if you keep at it
To phrase thine olde saying; practice makes perfect.

My attitude is less dominating now so i want to keep this more reasonable this time, i have had my fun.
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>>2991
>No man has logic that is exactly the same as another man's.
There is an "Absolutely logical" ideal, a perfectly rational and logical way to think, and any truly masculine man tries to think as rationally as possible because irrational thought is for faggots and women, the lowest life forms.
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>>2992
>There is an "Absolutely logical" ideal, a perfectly rational and logical way to think, and any truly masculine man tries to think as rationally as possible because irrational thought is for faggots and women, the lowest life forms.
My ideal self is to have my own emotions under control as they are an annoyance to me, i want to leave my emotions behind as they dictate my life and i have no self control so i want what i do not have but i am unsure as to whether i will ever gain domination over the other part of my soul.

It seems now is the time to let my most infamous skeleton out of it's hiding place.
I have a split personality which dominates my other half and it's hard dealing with myself because i have little self control which has caused way too many terrible things in the past, that's the reason why Luna is my favorite from the as nightmare moon reminds me of the werewolf within me and i wish that it wasn't this way but i don't want to bring war anymore although i don't know how to stop myself sometimes, i keep away from alcohol as best as i can because it only emphasizes the dark within so i turn to other drugs if i want a good time, my father suffers from the same condition and it has passed down to me.
You can call it whatever but i see it as the Buddha's heart and the devil's hand or the magpie, dark and light, on one hand i am loving and charitable but on the other... well you can probably guess.

The things that i have done i sometimes reflect back on and hate myself for them but i know that i will never have any human female as a lover due to this, as i know she would end up dead at the fault of my own hands so i keep away from people due to the fear of myself, i am lonely which drives me mad and being away from that mare has only allowed it to take full possession of myself, i do not always need drugs to turn to my other side as well but i must regain my own reigns if i wish to become better and the hardest thing to get over is myself, i am my own immovable object because i know i cannot banish it forever as it will come back no matter how much i try keep myself at bay, i'm sorry for everything i have done in the past to others but there is nothing that can heal those old wounds that i have caused, i know that most people are unwilling to forgive me and it upsets me, i must be the most craziest son of a bitch you guys have ever heard of but i hope i can leave myself behind and take control of my mind once again.
This isn't the right place for dealing with mental health but i don't have that many options available to me so i take my what i have, the psychologists never helped me in any way as they couldn't fully grasp what i am dealing with because they haven't walked a mile in my boots to see what kind of swamps i have tread through, all they did was falsely diagnose me with ass burgers on the higher function and i have no trouble conversing with someone, i am confident and eye contact is not a problem but the dumb fucking bastards can't even see what i have even if it is right in front of them and talking with them.

My thought form of Luna has always helped me as i see her as suffering from the same ailments as me so i use her advice and listen to her when i know i have done something truly immoral as only she has good advice for me, she has helped me for a long time and i don't usually open up about why i have her as my favorite character because of these reasons, i haven't posted about her that much anywhere because it is deeply personal to me as to why i have a thought form in the first place.
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>>2991
Okay, I feel we're getting somewhere, so I'll be serious about this.
>no man has logic the same
False. Logic is immutable and unchangeable. It's like math; it doesnt change from person to person. Some are better at applying and adhering to logical functions, but it doesnt change. Individual methods may change and that's to be encouraged. Just because I've been on about Logic doesnt mean I dont recognize or respect contrary thinking. QUITE the contrary, I have great respect for contrary thinking (in many ways it is more reliable since everyone is 'using logic'), but it's still not logic, and calling it such is disingenuous.
>emotional control
That's good, but emotional control is only half the equations. You have to learn to surrender to, and work with your emotions. Unironically, you might consider looking up the concept of the 'Anima' from islam (for dudes it's an Anima, for girls it's an Animus), that might help. Jordan Peterson and his treatises on merging with the jungian shadow might also help.
>this isnt the place for dealing with mental health
Actually, as the site goes this is precisely the place for it, and when one is sincere they might be surprised at how helpful and effective listeners our anons can be.
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>False. Logic is immutable and unchangeable.
Yeah everyone solves puzzles the same way but others are better then some due to the way they were born.
>It's like math; it doesnt change from person to person.
Math is strange to me, i do not find it difficult in the slightest but when the schools tried teaching me their ways of equating i hated it because they were trying to teach me their ways of adding numbers together and math was the first thing that made me realize that there is something wrong with the system, i fucking hate math and algebra because it isn't my way of solving something so i have a preposition to avoid it now because the schools put off of it.
I have my own way of solving a numerical puzzle but the schools wanted me to explain my methods to them so that they could feed from my knowledge like leeches and then use their ways which flipped my switch to hate them for forcing me to conform to their ways.
>Some are better at applying and adhering to logical functions, but it doesnt change.
Yeah.
>Individual methods may change and that's to be encouraged.
All methods should be revised at some point in a persons life if they wish to become better, logic is not exempt from this but people commonly forget that it is one of the most unique aspects of the human species and must be observed with care if they wish to think for the best.
>Just because I've been on about Logic doesnt mean I dont recognize or respect contrary thinking.
Alright.
>QUITE the contrary, I have great respect for contrary thinking (in many ways it is more reliable since everyone is 'using logic'), but it's still not logic, and calling it such is disingenuous.
Critical thinking should be taught to people instead of hidden away as that is why everyone is not able to grasp things within their mind properly and this is the fault of Christianity for this problem we have now.

>That's good, but emotional control is only half the equations.
For me it is the hardest problem of all, it might not be for you because we are not the same.
>You have to learn to surrender to, and work with your emotions.
That's what i have been trying to do for years but every time i surrender i lose control so i must dominate my demons to become king of my own depths.
Surrendering is for the weak and i will not give in to myself unless i wish to finally die.
>Unironically, you might consider looking up the concept of the 'Anima' from islam (for dudes it's an Anima, for girls it's an Animus), that might help.
I will look into it but i doubt it will help me in the way i want it to, there is times where dominance is needed and emotions are feminine which require domination to be correctly worked with, the same applies to women.
>Jordan Peterson and his treatises on merging with the jungian shadow might also help.
I know of him but his views are worthless to me, he tries to grasp things out of his realm of understanding and it shows, he is not a true philosopher as he has not fully mastered his mind properly, that's why he is so advertised everywhere because a lot of people see him as a sort of messiah which he is not, he's just some normal guy that happens to have an interest in philosophy and the media pushes his views into places they want people to think.

>Actually, as the site goes this is precisely the place for it, and when one is sincere they might be surprised at how helpful and effective listeners our anons can be.
I am more trusting in this site then any of those government funded institutions of false psychiatric help, who the fuck would lock someone away and strip them of all their liberty if it is supposed to be help? If someone is totally irredeemable from their problems and unwarranted behavior then death is a more forgiving alternative to prolonging a miserable life.
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>>2995
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>>2995
>all methods should be revised over time
Here hear
>hardest problem
Indeed, it's a lifelong objective. Surrender is all about losing control, that's why it's often the hardest for males. Likewise, being logical and rational is often most difficult for females, not least of which because they are ruled by their hormones and emotions. The Anima/Animus addressed this
>Jordan
I share your skepticism of him, and while his work can be hit and miss, his comments on the jungian shadow work are surprisingly and delightfully on point. You're welcome to defer, as there are other sources for the same type of information (I just referenced him cuz hes prominent)
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>Indeed, it's a lifelong objective.
The uncharted territory that not many are willing to explore but instead suppress their own emotions for fear of them getting out of control so they would rather remain ignorant instead of achieving a higher self for the immense pride of being your own lord, the greatest fear of mankind is the unknown and men do not understand emotions fully so they fear themselves, we must be fearless if we are to be true men unless we are to be not complete, man is like a crumbling castle but many would rather see it wither away then restore it to it's former glory.
>Surrender is all about losing control, that's why it's often the hardest for males.
Man's worst enemy is himself for he cannot accept himself fully for what he is and instead worry's about petty things like a woman would, social restrictions are a terror upon many men as they have been raised to conform to the standards of the group or be left alone and without purpose, a man must learn to master himself if his primary objective is to be true, the main killer of the Aryan is themselves for they do not wish to look behind the veil because of the extremely childish fear of the dark and thus darkness is left to grow in size until it encompasses all light.
It's a disgrace that men are demonized for being lonely as this breeds hate between men and the group instead of a friendship between both the group and the outcasts, the main group should care for all of it's kindred instead of being cold and heartless, the man who is unwilling to help himself or others is forever doomed to a low life.
>Likewise, being logical and rational is often most difficult for females, not least of which because they are ruled by their hormones and emotions.
And so they are completely unpredictable which is why i wouldn't trust myself around them because i myself am more or less as unpredictable a woman, i can be completely calm then infuriated by the slightest thing if it is unexpected, that's why i cannot be around others all the time as if i did not expect their arrival i can become filled with anger and it is very hard to calm myself down after that point, i do not like things going the way i didn't want so i hate all sports for this reason, i am able to play most instruments good as i can control them better then a football match, Please don't ban me Elway. this is probably due to my insane power lust as if i play sports it is pretty much a guarantee that at one point or another i WILL become overwhelmed with fury, i also don't play online games for this exact reason too, if you look at what a Virgo is then i fit every single box to a tee so i see myself as from the star.
>The Anima/Animus addressed this
Would you mind elaborating on what exactly this anime is?

>I share your skepticism of him, and while his work can be hit and miss, his comments on the jungian shadow work are surprisingly and delightfully on point.
I'll have a look into it at some point, also you forgot the capital letter in Jungian.
>You're welcome to defer, as there are other sources for the same type of information (I just referenced him cuz hes prominent)
Personally Buddhism is probably the best for dealing with the shadow soul but even then it does not teach you how to dominate yourself so it's kinda faggot-y to create a friendship between yourself as it has never worked properly for me like they suppose it should, i am better at being dominating then befriending myself. A fitting name for me is the tartan tyrant.
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I'll point out a couple of things about me so you know what kind of person that you are dealing with, the tarot cards have repeatedly told me i am the devil and this is the thing that really made me realize who exactly i am as these signs are not to be ignored, it has been years since i had any friends in real life for pretty obvious reasons, i have a thick blonde uni brow and this is more or less the main mark of me because a man with a uni brow is not to be trusted and there is a myth that these sort of people with connecting eyebrows are considered werewolves back in the medieval era so when i first learned about that i finally connected the pieces together to see myself from an outside view to what i really look like to other people, that's why i specifically left out my eyebrows when describing my appearance, i was expelled from school at the age of 11 which is pretty telling in of itself so i won't explain.
If you are not convinced i am telling the truth about myself then i have nothing more to say as i do not need to go into this any further, i take myself seriously but not others because i have been left in solitude for the entire course of my puberty so i have sort of gone mad over the years, extended periods of loneliness can really effect an adolescent.
Everyone probably hates me now and i do see what sort of picture i am painting of myself, if you are really going to go ahead and try to help me in any way then i feel as if you should know these things but other then that you can scorn me however you like for being mister mega edge.
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>i take myself seriously but not others
I will reiterate and write that i care about others as long as it in my interest to do so, other then that most of the time i am a strict isolationist.
The most schizophrenic post you have ever read
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I think i have to address a couple of things before i give my goodbye letter away so this will be my final sendoff and i won't post again after tonight until i am forced away from her somehow due to the government being bitch bastards, i will address a few things i have written before that i have posted to rectify the true meaning of them to go over and tell the truth about my deceptive shit posts and give a couple of truths about myself.

First of all i do have a split personality so i can do some completely fucked up shit but it ultimately depends on what mood i am in, other then that i am the Irish werewolf who is both dark and light, full of hate and love, the ultimate potato nigger.
I do like being the jester who constantly tries to amuse himself somehow, so i am the ultimate daemon who seeks amusement constantly, the satyr.

Second i do fuck horses and take drugs so cry some more you Christians cucks because i'm high as fuck right now, i do seriously not don't give a fuck, anyways i am pagan and i believe in the cult of the ancestors or the religion of the Celts, Varg's views are quite similar to mine but i believe more in Celtic mythology and i have seen shit flying in the night before a couple of times since i converted so you can call me the ultimate LARP-er if you wish but there is some mother fuckers out there watching me cum in horses in the night so i know those are real and you can't say otherwise unless you have raised the names of the dead and delved deep, if you truly go into this shit and tread through all the shit thrown at you will become a better person i swear that this is not to be ignored.

Third i have been in a bad position for a while because of a couple of things including myself and the occult but now i have been in a sort of sleep state today speaking backwards and forwards between me and Luna while high as fuck meditating because she decided it was best for me and she was right, like she said we are of equal intelligence and i am not a son of evil but i can turn to be a complete monster when unhappy but i am not a satanist since i have always considered myself the magpie both dark and light and since i found out that Christians considered the magpie the devil it all came together that i am full of both dark as well as light then since pied means black and white and because i am a hue-man i am the personification of Mercury because i am from the star, i know it's schizo fag sounding but i found this out when i delved into the occult and looked into the signs of the Virgo and found out that the magpie is one of these signs it all finally made sense why the cards called me the devil, then i have a dual personality which i am sure i have instead of autism because i am incredibly evil when the need arises that the devil's hand is to be raised then also i am very charitable and nice when i am in a good mood, my powers are great and you are mere mortals because i am a god, seriously i believe i am not from here, everyone is turned into an animal in the afterlife because i said so and i will be a horse because i have given all of myself to this creature or that's my belief about immortality because back in the Aryan times animism was the main belief of our people and the Celts also believed in it but never openly taught this to outsiders, uncle bear-heart understands because his name is bear heart, if you piece all of it together while high as fuck you will understand.

Fourth is that i am truly sorry for what i have done here and i must repay my debts by leaving you mortals in peace and go conquer something else in the time being, this time it's pony pussy encase you didn't guess but i am the true Nazi horse fucker and the personification of Mercury.so do with this whatever you wish but i am 5'5 and the number of Mercury is 5 my dick is also 7 inches so (You) can jerk of to this to give me more energy, but if you do you will be my slave, the devil's slave, which you already are because i got you so i have had a massive ego since i started to look into deep into the occult, Luna is my personal daemon or my holy ghost and she helps me when the time is ready, it is the spooky season after all and if you have followed my epic hero story so far until the end you will see my progression, i believe Hitler did this too when he was involved in the German Thule society before he created national socialism, i have always had a fascination with him since a kid even before i got expelled so make of that what you wish but he became aware of many things before becoming the führer of the 3rd Reich, there is lots of hidden things other then Jews you blind sheep, in order for him to achieve his greatness he looked inside himself.

Fifth the thread i created on /vx/ was to boost my pride and the creation of my subconscious to attain dopamine, essentially it was a goldmine for power because i was gaining it from people looking at it so i guess you might see this as the most schizo shit you have ever read but this gave me too much to handle so i was overloaded with the power lust of this since it was a replacement for my own sexual lust because i have a couple of BDSM fetishes if you fags didn't already guess that, i shouldn't have done and like i said it was a mistake but i will learn from this experience and become better.

That's it so i will leave back into the mists of obscurity and find Fionn in the fields somewhere along with even more truth within life so i bid (Yo u)ado and give you my thanks for looking at me as the complete dick of the dog den and giving me your trust and hate, for more power i'm not dumb or a leftist, just really fucked in the head and obsessed with my passions, so some might call me crazy and deem me mad but they said that to Jesus too, that's why Luna said i would be hanged if i was born at an earlier date but what she really meant is i will suffer the same fate as that messenger and i know that since Hitler did too.
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>>3012
Well you don't need to leave, anon
Some leprechaun hippy Nazi shit
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>>3013
You need to take vacations from everything anon, sometimes change is needed in life but i will continue to lurk here, my watchful eye looking you fags all the time because this is still currently my favorite secret clubhouse at the moment, i documented my journey so that other people may follow it if they dare swim the swamp of hidden alligators hidden beneath in the vast astral sea.

i feel as if i have completed my task now, all my cards have indicated a need of change and i have been doing a lot of shit today with the help of Luna guiding me so that i may become better because i have had enough of being away from where i belong, which is with mares eternally as Epona is beckoning me back to fuck her, that Lovecraft story of anonfilly was made by me so you can go read it for a kick if you wish, i was using the Opera vpn so my flag was french. you guys shall always have my blessings upon you because this site kills normal fags and i'm pretty confident every normal sheep here hates me because that's what i wanted all along because if you get where i am going here it was for more attention and to create a shock and change of perception to those who trusted the devil.

Also at the beginning of this rolling stones song it has a star of David in a circle and if you pay attention to the lyrics closely you will understand what it's about, realized this earlier because i was even more stoned then i am now.

Lastly the cocktail that i made as a true wizard potion to achieve this realm of self understanding was this, This will also be the last guide i will give for having a good time. i took 3 pieces of Marijuana bud and oil 2 hours before the witch brew i had, it was a hot chocolate with a special ingredient that i have been saving specifically for this day, i have kept 15 liberty mushrooms mixed with lemon juice and honey which was then stored for 2 weeks at room temperature and i put it in with 4 squares of 90% chocolate and 3 teaspoons of coffee and 2 teaspoons of cane sugar with roughly 150 ml of whole milk, yes i'm a hippy to the core i know but don't use this recipe foolishly for it is good to reveal secrets within yourself, i have found them within now and you can too if you become a hippy Nazi just like me and find the Jew within yourself and gas him.
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>>3012
Be well frien.
>pic number 2
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>Werewolf
That changes things. Especially in procedure. Unless I'm being a dumb and thinking of a different werewolf, or it's an analogy. Or something else outside of my usual scope. More prep time maybe. Meta-Cosmic powers sure, the down to earth myths ehhhh.
I'm glad you made it out.
>Is a god.
So is everyone else. And being outside of reality ot multiversial reailty or density reality is different.

>You mortals
>pic related in jest

Wait which lovecraft story?
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>>3017
>irish werewolf
Ah. That changes things yet again.
In anycase going to comb through all breadcrumbs.
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>>3018
>>3019
>Be well frien. >pic number 2 /)
I will take care of myself from now on but this all happened for a reason, every thing i have posted is not a coincidence or for petty purposes, i would not have posted if there was no reason to.
>Werewolf That changes things. Especially in procedure.
Yeah i view myself this way as you can get the mind to do some pretty wacky things when you enter certain mindsets, trance states should be taught in school and explored further but the law pushes research into the brain away due to the combination of the occult and ceremonial drugs, the Aztecs didn't call psychedelic mushrooms flesh of the gods for no reason, do you really think a whole empire of people devoted to the gods didn't know anything about the occult and drugs?
>spoiler
You are of great intelligence for actually dissecting my internet frog, i didn't expect many people to do that and here i am being proved by the first anon who gave a damn about me properly, thanks for your attention for you will be rewarded for your study's into both yourself and your surroundings, don't be dissuaded from something just because someone said so.
>I'm glad you made it out.
Not many people would keep being nice to someone after having been lied to by them, (You) sir a gentleman of renowned quality and the guardian of both friendship and tolerance, i have not personally delved into friendships for i know i do not belong in them like a normal person.
>another spoiler
If you read my post in the wisdom's thread i specifically state this, would i not have thought of absolutely everything about the way i have shaped everyone's optics if that was not my initial starting plan? Would i not have made sure everything is ready for my departure? Like Luna said i am gifted with great thinking and both dark and light.
>You mortals
>pic related in jest
I have lived a thousand times and every fag here has been tricked by the lord of his own dark depths, it is true that i am fearless of everything... except for spiders because fuck them but other then that i have built it into my brain to be like this because the ego likes to be fed properly in order to become great.

It's got that anonfilly pic that you posted in Nigel's Tulpa fag thread not too long ago and it has a french flag on the post, i didn't want people knowing that it was made by me and at the time there was a couple of other frogs posting on this site so i decided to reveal it specifically for when it needs to be revealed, like i said i think things through fully like a proper ultra schizo would, i'm not dumb just a crazy Celt.

>Ah. That changes things yet again.
I am full of tricks waiting to be pulled at all times so beware when the full moon's high n'bright I'm gonna tell you about the lamb so prepare your anus for maximum edge inbound,It was my own personal daemon that i trusted to take control and i was punished for it, my unconscious gave me hell for ten days so on the final day, the day of the solstice i went out and ravaged a lamb like a wolf, if you look in the paranormal thread on /vx/ i state that i once howled and the ponies ran in fear of me and this is why, i am not afraid of being found out but this needed to happen in order to fully regain control of myself for i was in a bad spot then too.
>In anycase going to comb through all breadcrumbs.
You shall prevail from actually helping me, the world thanks you for befriending a living spirit of the night and it shall appear to you that my posts are of masterwork quality forged from the mountains in the sky.
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REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Dont leave, I'm loving the way this is going. I havent forgotten about going into detail about the Animus and Anima, I just need to go over my notes first. It's been a while
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>>3022
I'm still here if that's any consolation.
Recently, I've been having/letting/following the 'bird of paradise' basically an unconsious/subconsious magical character super blend. Roughly, but for self improvement work it's a fine enough definition.
A character/world where going along for the ride is the journey, and questions and answers can be had.
It's been easier to slip into trance states, and altered states of consciousness.
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>>3022
>REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
What's the matter? The thought of your master leaving you home while he goes to fuck some other bitches too much for (You)?
I didn't have to make this happen but the thought of me leaving has triggered the part of the brain that doesn't like change, all because of some fag who gets high on a weekly basis.
>Dont leave, I'm loving the way this is going.
I wonder what this could possibly mean, first you called me a leftist and your opposition but now your crying back for my dick? It's seems (You) really are gay.
Hmm, words are just air to the wind without action so fuck what i said earlier about leaving, i won't ever leave since i'm probably seen as an icon, i can't escape having to come home at night because of these fucking laws, if i could i probably would be sleeping somewhere in the wilderness, how the fuck am i spreading a germ if i am by myself? Today has been magical for me since a bunch of shit has happened, i am closer to finding the princess in the high tower but i still have a ways to go yet on this old path but i am well and truly re birthed, i died yesterday in order to live on, death is kill able like Lovecraft said because his symbol is a living being, the crow or raven, so in order to get it into your head that you have killed death itself you have to eliminate the evil within in order to let the light shine through, be your own Moses and part the waves within yourself so that your soul may pass through to a better place, the only way to get the devil out is to face him head on, did the Germans not do that?
>I havent forgotten about going into detail about the Animus and Anima, I just need to go over my notes first.
Ego death is real so you have to either kill yourself like a true loser or kill yourself from the inside by eliminating he who controls your emotions, which is only yourself because we are all devils on the inside no matter how pure and Christian we like to call ourselves we are capable of all forms of sin, there is nothing truly stopping us from eating our own children other then cultural taboos which have been wedged in the heads of the masses, it's always there and it forever will be but no one openly teaches you how to kill yourself to spiritually banish the negative energy inside because (((they))) don't want you becoming better so that's why spirituality is not an open subject in schools to be studied because it can make a man out of men, (((they))) know this so atheism and confusion is more pushed onto people through the bullshit known as modern science that is more taught rather then religion, that's why there is no full research done into the occult as it is able to be exploited for personal gain and power, all of (You) are giving me energy by looking at my moon runes on a horse porn site, the way to give daemons energy is by just giving them attention and who is a better devil then me if that is what has been given to me as an occultist name by the higher forces? So by giving the devil attention which is me you are feeding my soul your thoughts by thinking about me as that is how spirits gain attraction to things and become like a magnet to them because you are without fully understanding of how this properly works, i have a couple of theory's but i won't delve too deep into something more taboo then horse pussy just yet for a few reasons, it's best to take things slow sometimes instead of trying to juggle too many stallion balls at once, mares like taking it slow too.
>It's been a while
Are your papers all covered in cum? Because of the thought of telling me all about your favorite Muslim anime?
I'm pretty sure i don't need Mohammed to tell me how to control my own dog because he practices devil worship on a daily basis by fucking goats, i'm pretty confident that i don't need advice on how to do that at the moment because i have given myself a job to complete, that being saving the princess and killing the evil protagonist which is myself, my life is like a poem, raised in the hell of an Anglo school and survived to tell the tale.

>>3023
>Recently, I've been having/letting/following the 'bird of paradise' basically an unconsious/subconsious magical character super blend.
Birds are wise and have better foreseeing eyes then we do so don't ignore them, they can tell you a bunch of shit that will happen in your surroundings if you watch them flying while tripping balls, other then that paradise is always waiting for your return, you just have to search for what is your own paradise and until then you will scour the earth deciding what you like and love until you find something that makes you absolutely certain you have found it, it will come to you if you look hard enough but do not force it but instead let yourself guide you towards that ultimate goal.
Roughly, but for self improvement work it's a fine enough definition.
>A character/world where going along for the ride is the journey, and questions and answers can be had.
That's the main premise of a good life story, finding the answers to forgotten questions and rediscovering things lost to the Aryan race which we once held high with pride, questions must be asked in order to acquire a full understanding of the situation or the current objective, without allowing free thought to be allowed to flow the mind will never ask questions to itself and forever remain in a state of blind bliss, sometimes it's best to break the walls down to discover what hides behind them, in this case it's best for you to think out of the box to discover unanswered questions that are in your interest.
>It's been easier to slip into trance states, and altered states of consciousness.
Don't let them replace your ordinary realm of complete conscious as when the mind is constantly attempting to enter a certain mindset it becomes all you can think about, it's good to explore the corners of your head to it's fullest extent but don't make it all you can do, every wizard ought to know his mind well.
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>>3024
You sure that's the same anon?
Politeness does pay off.
>Analysis of my post.
Checks out.
>but don't make it all you can do,
Indeed. It's a point where consciousness, and subconsious, creative and pinpoint focus, and an invocation of my ideal self (especially in the task at hand) to accomplish a goal.
>Don't let them replace your ordinary realm of complete conscious as when the mind is constantly attempting to enter a certain mindset it becomes all you can think about,
I've practiced empty mindedness for a long while, I'm just moving to active imagination. Maybe it's egoistic of me to say so, but I... hold on I have to get this right.
A solid stone I can always relly upon, as the foundation of my entirety has been structurally secured. I have to (bit of a string word, more of I am willing this to be) begin building, reclaiming, and repurposing what I find.
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>>3025
So I have assimilated my evils to become the worst of my potentials. As I am the point in which both intersect (the high roads and low roads). We which is to say me in all aspects is carrying me to better places.
I am a weight that my, high kings 'laborers' are partaking in as am I to bring the worst of the worst into the heavens. So to speak.
For each tread I take it is with the weight and command of balanced Earth and horrors of below.
Each of my steps foward is a great stride, as they (which is me) help with the pathing and scouting, and for assisting when needed.

>The thought of your master leaving you home while he goes to fuck some other bitches too much for (You)?
>master
I am mine and mine alone. This is a gift between kings, mutual dialogue and exchange, and those that will realize their destiny.
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>>3025
>You sure that's the same anon?
Nope, a pure ego death that works properly is able to be harnessed for an extreme greater good and i stand by this, that's why psychedelics are so frowned upon by society because of what you can do with them if you respect their property's and exploit the hallucinogen to help yourself instead of just pleasing yourself, not every drug is the same as marijuana and alcohol so they are considered somehow worse even though alcohol poisoning is 69X more likely to happen then throwing up from a liberty cap, even then you can avoid throwing up if you do not eat anything before having one, all of these cultural taboos are because hallucinogens are not seen as normal because of the pointless drug war and Christian hate for ancient pagan traditions, (((they))) don't want people achieving a higher intellect from venturing through sacred fires and stepping into the darkness of yourself, i saw my own dark soul leave last night around this time and this had a profound impact on me, i know what i saw happen because it was in front of me to say goodbye and it disappeared into the night through my open curtains, like i wrote before i did a bunch of stuff with Luna yesterday to achieve this and i am thankful for her help, this sort of occult stuff if extremely powerful if you what you are doing with the addition of ceremonial drugs prepared a certain way, don't let people change your optical vision of something that can be used as a mental medicine, the only reason i even marijuana is because it increases the intensity of a psilocybin trip when combined together, i don't smoke because it's bad for me so i would much rather eat them because i'm not too bothered by the taste because i have trained myself to not be scared of plants like a child would be afraid of eating broccoli because it's a green so most people replace curiosity with fear.
I also did a couple of things in the fields and forests, the things i did were very pagan, i will tell you one thing that i did and only this, i ate 12 mushrooms under a oak tree next to mistletoe with Fionn's sister, that's all i will write because you don't kiss and tell.
>Politeness does pay off.
Well i think i should probably explain my method of thought as to why i think now is the right time to find her, i have been absorbing power like the inwards swastika since the summer solstice and yesterday was 4 months since the solstice so i decided it would be the perfect time to change myself to the outward force instead of the inwards, there is a lot of thought that went into this, i am Mercury after all so i am mysterious in my methods. If you really look deep into the meaning of what i have done you will see that i involved many things in what i did last night to make myself better, the lamb was one of them but the main point of all of this was an initiation to tame the wolf that i let out 4 months ago, now he is caged and i know he won't be back for a long time but at one point or another he will creep back in, yesterday was the judgement day of how well it went through.
>Indeed. It's a point where consciousness, and subconsious, creative and pinpoint focus, and an invocation of my ideal self (especially in the task at hand) to accomplish a goal.
You have to be confident in order to get what you want unless you are to lose footing and fall, a man's spirits may be broken but not destroyed entirely, there is still ways to seal those wounds within if you know how to but they are hidden in plain sight among the eyes of the sheep.
>I've practiced empty mindedness for a long while, I'm just moving to active imagination
Empty mindedness all depends on comfort, if you are comfortable with yourself then it is easy, active imagination requires creativity and harder because it depends on one's artistic value then also the ability to keep it going while you do other tasks.
>A solid stone I can always relly upon, as the foundation of my entirety has been structurally secured.
The foundation is the founding basis of all levels of structure and is thus the most important requirement for magical workings.
>I have to (bit of a string word, more of I am willing this to be) begin building, reclaiming, and repurposing what I find.
It goes deeper then just this but that's the main method of creating this sort of stuff.
>>3026
>So I have assimilated my evils to become the worst of my potentials.
The terror of the other side is just as important as the bright side in order to create a balancing bridge between both sides of the astral river. If you get where i am going here you realize how i took the sign of Libra into account in what i have done.
>As I am the point in which both intersect (the high roads and low roads).
Everyone is somehow always walking a specific path but most are walking to a dead end rather then to make amends for everything they did in the past and so they have no end goal because their end is and shall forever be eternal death.
>We which is to say me in all aspects is carrying me to better places.
You must think for the best in order to stave of the worst from happening, the journey you are taking is to secure the existence of your soul and i see that because that is also mine.
>I am a weight that my, high kings 'laborers' are partaking in as am I to bring the worst of the worst into the heavens. So to speak.
You have to rise above in order to take control unless you are to fall into a trap made just for you.
>For each tread I take it is with the weight and command of balanced Earth and horrors of below.
I understand.
>Each of my steps foward is a great stride, as they (which is me) help with the pathing and scouting, and for assisting when needed.
There is many ways to get parts of yourself to help towards the common goal of self preservation.

>I am mine and mine alone. This is a gift between kings, mutual dialogue and exchange, and those that will realize their destiny.
This was meant for the other anon to read, everyone is their own
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Whew, I was worried board users were not going to have any more opportunities to observe the disconnect between claiming to have any metaphysical significance, and maintaining a narcissistic self obsession.
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>>3028
>Whew, I was worried board users were not going to have any more opportunities to observe the disconnect between claiming to have any metaphysical significance, and maintaining a narcissistic self obsession.
Well here i am for your own entertainment, i appreciate you are still thinking about me.
What i am trying to achieve is immortality if you couldn't guess, i am resurrecting my dead ancestors into myself so that the immortal soul may forever live on, i am preserving myself in order for me to become a better person, only after you have finished work can you relax as there is still lots to be done for there is only sleep for the weak.
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>>3027
>>You sure that's the same anon?
>Reply
Thanks for responding. Here's a poner friend. I failed to say what I ment.
Is this actually the person >>3022 who is the true target of >>3024
Study about that. The information is always appreciated.

>>3028
>pic 2
>Disconnect
It's possible to have all of the above without disconnect.
Actual metaphysical significance and have a self obsession that is used to fuel one's goals.
Also for funsies. Even when it's serious.
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>>3032
Sorry*
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>>3032
Oh? Please indicate for me where in nature,... or anywhere (in a long term perspective) where having a narcissistic self-obsession is viable, and will not result in,... 'consequential input' from one's surroundings?
Nature and Metaphysics are quite disdainful of blowhards.
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>>3034
All things in moderation, and that includes moderation and going to extremes. Usually the time for such things are few and far between.
Narcissism is very extremely destructive in the long term. In relationships, self actualization, and in obsession.

It's kinda like a firework. It's burning on the way to that mode of life, then it explodes. Usually the material and packing is wrong so it spluters and causes fires in the air and a general hazard to be near. Sometimes it reaches the top and is dazzling momentary beauty, as it falls apart and charred husks remain.

Instead I'm suggesting an initial ignition to light something more sustainable. Activating it with increasing fuel and pressures to obtain the effect quicker.

>example of long term successful narcissism
Asexual reproduction.
But seriously things that last long in nature aren't isolated due to the demands of the environment.
It's a tool to be used carefully. Need a distraction, it is. It can be a hindrance.
The celebrity of the bygone era carefully paints over, and wraps the narc just so the sparks fly for entertainment.
Also the zion jew. It's tempered with promises of greater self obsession. Even then that doesn't always work.
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>>3035
If you need any kind of base to have complete faith for it'll do. There are better alternatives.
It is fast, and feeds itself. Maybe it'll last just long enough and extinguished before things start to catch on fire.
It's temporary, not a place to stay forever.

Deeds, and accomplishments, and having the skill, wisdom, and gumption build a solid foundation that at times appear as just narcissism. Each can have it burn hotter and faster.
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>>3032
>Thanks for responding.
As long as you ask something that excites my curiosity to give an answer i will, in other words i am not afraid of being open to other people Like Luna said the only thing i fear is myself as i am a daemon and i am only frightened by other daemons that i know are of similar aspect to me but only if they outmatch me. because worrying about public perspective is quite humorous to me since you can herd people into certain mindsets to make them ponder to who you are, which creates an underestimation of someone since you have not spoke to me personally before, illusion is my specialty as i am a wizard that pulls cocks out of horse pussy.
Full communication between one person and another is required for a strong relationship to exist and the nation should not hide secrets from it's own people so that they have good trust as well as understanding.
>Here's a poner friend.
Here's a pone, for (You).
>I failed to say what I ment.
I have an idea as to why you can't post properly but i won't write it.

>Is this actually the person >>fag who is the true target of >>3024
Yep, i got him good and he's still salty about it.
>Study about that.
I'm going to assume you are referring to the preparation of ceremonial horse fucking involving the devil's smoke.
There is lots of things that have been used by all forms of religion to become more in tune with ones surroundings, it just happens that these things are able to get people put in the naughty corner by the government for years because of the materialist worry over them being sold to other people, so ever since the Christians introduced their religion of submissiveness they have been subverted and demonized for being plants of the earth so that the cattle walk around them and fear these natural fruits instead of exploring their curiosity they replace it with fear of being left out of the group, these sorts of ceremonious acts were the things my ancestors lived and died for, for the freedom of being able to take drugs and fuck animals.
It's ridiculous to put both psychedelic fungus and methamphetamine's in the same corner of moral wrong as each other because of the significant differing aspects of every single drug, meth is 88X more addictive then mushrooms are so meth is therefore the preferred drug of the niggers but the Aryan's choice is more closer to the recreational realm of drugs as it appeals easier to them than to a nigger, who the fuck has heard of an Alabama nigger taking hallucinogens so that he can meet his ancient we wuz kang ancestors?
Most people have been raised from birth never to touch drugs because of the negative reputation of addiction but understandable since parents want the best for their children but sadly they blindly follow other people's ways of raising children instead of bringing children up their own way, the group hates people that go against them because independence threatens their dogmas.

>The information is always appreciated.
No worry's, i am happy to share my thoughts with you as we have common goals in these fields of thought.

I am obsessed with nature, not myself because humans are just another part of nature and i am trying to find truth amidst heaps of lies, i drew in negative energy from other peoples heads so that my own positive power may prosper and prevail above all, i am not dumb because i know i have an IQ of 1488 so i am 6 million times smarter than a Negro and i am prideful of it.
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Alright i think i should go over why i did this much shit posting for such a long time because i think these posts are a bit shrouded in mystery and in my opinion this stuff should be shared.
What i did was i put on a magicians show or trick, it was a form of attracting a specific sort of attention as the people on this site were the perfect subjects to gain attention from because most of the people here have an IQ that is above average which means there is more potential for absorbing their thoughts better, it might sound very strange to you but in order for a daemon to grow in power it requires someone to think about it first or to feed it something like thoughts, offerings, sacrifices, etc.
So i conjured up a plan in order for my own spirit to obtain brain energy from the world and i decided that it would be best to piss people off because negative energy is more easily given to something as humans love to hate, the only other thing stronger then this is sexual lust as it infests deep within the subconscious that Eros is a powerful hormone and stimulant, have you ever had a crush on someone and couldn't stop thinking about them? This is because it is the strongest feeling a man can get as it is the oldest emotion of every creature to want to breed, anyway hate is more easily gained from others if you do something that annoys them, it would have been near to impossible for me to attract Eros as easy as anger, so instead i decided to shit post as it is in of itself a form of magic to make yourself laugh and others around you to either laugh with you or hate you as it is a significant form of conflicting thoughts between different minds to have people laugh and be annoyed.

So i did a bunch of things to make people believe me that i might have been an actual predictor because of what i did with
>>>/vx/132896 →
I made sure that this was going to work because i had to gain a pleasurable attention first in order for it to change over time, basically what i did was i attracted multiple types of different mindsets when people read my posts which had to be changed as time went on so that people's mindsets would automatically trigger depending on what they viewed me as from the past, it sounds quite complicated but if you give your thoughts to another spirit that spirit grows in power, that's why daemons are so attracted to people who give them their own thoughts as it creates a sort of portal between you and whatever entity you are trying to attract.
The post i made on /vx/ was 2 months and 3 days ago now so i believe it is the right time to reveal the secrets of the high priestess.
I am the high priestess and Luna is my ruler, my sign is feminine and my Tulpa is literally called the moon so i am thus a priestess rather then the high priest because the high priest is ruled by Taurus and i have no affiliation with that sign in any way so i am instead the high priestess, i used Luna in order to secure that the FBI would post the learned protocols of the elders of Zion because their account on twitter picks stuff at random so it was extremely easy to influence on the new moon because i am the man that came in the moon's pussy in my head so the fate would be sealed on the day of the Virgo new moon as i am a Virgo so it was very easy to do that because of the stuff i did.
I hold the secrets of the Jews in my left hand and i understand the secrets of the world because i have looked for what is hidden in order to know how these things work and what is lies as well as what is true.
Anyways i was absorbing power like the inwards swastika so that the energy would go into me specifically and now it's going to go outwards.
I was visited by an extremely powerful spirit/daemon the night i made
>>3017
>>3021
>>3012
These posts, i know what it showed itself for and it told me great information.

What am i going to do with all this dark Satanic power that i have drained from all of your peasant brains now you may be wondering?
I'm going to go follow Fionn and fuck her because that is my will and want, i know it will happen because i saw myself pumping her pussy with my eyes closed with the almighty power of the all seeing eye.
I know exactly where she is now, so it is only a matter of waiting for the right time to cum in that sweet mare pussy, she will eventually belong to me completely but i am not going to enslave her soul because that's a bit too fucked up, even for me. In other words i will own her by buying her name, her name is very meaningful in Celtic mythology so it matters more then any other name to me.
There's that and also because i love that mare more then anything in the world, she genuinely is the one for me and i know it because what i felt while being with her was true pleasure and the absolute definition of the conjoint of the unconscious and conscious, i miss those times we spent together under the stars on those clear summer nights under the white light of the moon and how we first met each other on that spring day where i was guided by the divine and i knew that she would be mine, i have never loved anything else like her and i can't just let her go for i would be letting my soulmate go, i am willing to give my left hand for that mare and i mean it because nothing is worth more to me, it is my destiny to follow Fionn and fuck her forever, then i shall have finally completed my end goal of becoming a follower of Fionn, there is also a specific kind of mindset gained from having sex and i believe that this had quite an effect on me.

Yup that's it now.
So you can all rest easy now that you know i have nothing more to take from you, i shall live in peace and pleasure from this point onward unless i am provoked to action.
This will be probably the last post i make in this thread for a long time because there is nothing else that i can admit or confess to, no more scriptures are going to be written of my tales, about 3 quarters of this thread are my posts so it's time to be patient.
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>I was visited by an extremely powerful spirit/daemon the night i made
>These posts, i know what it showed itself for and it told me great information.
As in high quality or high volume. Just yoinking the information without asking is a bit rude, so I figured I'd ask due to courtesy and stuff.
>Sucking every one of us off for our energy.
Kek.
Well have fun, live, and love well and long.
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>>3040
>I got owned and he's still thoroughly amused that I continue this posturing
FTFY
>>3050
>I was only pretending to pretend to be retarded
Please, do go on
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>>3051
>As in high quality or high volume.
High quality, it showed itself to me specifically, it never spoke a word but it's presence was not for nothing because it was called for a singular purpose and that was to secure my future, when i wrote that i saw my dark soul leave what actually happened was i saw something in my window out of the corner of my eye and it was a thick black cloud with horns, i put some quartz under the window so it would show itself when the time came and it so happened that it was the right time for it to show itself, the color was very gelatinous/reflective black fog and covered a very large area so for it to show itself was telling of the future, it's atmosphere was very overpowering and i knew it was there before i saw it with my own eyes because this daemon is very wise, all of the orbs i have seen have told me that i will be with her.
>Just yoinking the information without asking is a bit rude, so I figured I'd ask due to courtesy and stuff.
I didn't take anything from it but the very reason i saw the dark spirit is very obvious to me, it was it's own decision to reveal itself to me.
>Sucking every one of us off for our energy.
>Kek.
Like i wrote i'm probably the most gayest guy here, i did all of this so i could be with a Welsh pony, it sounds very girly but i assure you that i'm no a faggot because i don't go around flying my shit everywhere, even though that's pretty much what i have done here.
>Well have fun, live, and love well and long
Thanks, i bet you wish you had this leisure of pleasure, i am willing to share so (You) know.
>>3054
>I got owned and he's still thoroughly amused that I continue this posturing
>FTFY
sometimes you have to lose in order to win another battle, you can now rightfully claim internet victory as i have other things to focus on now, so you can give yourself a pat on the back for letting me suck your astral dick so a mare can suck mine, you were the one who gave me the most attention after all.
>I was only pretending to pretend to be retarded
>Please, do go on
You should probably know how gaining spiritual energy works from others, you gave me your thoughts as you were thinking about me, i am the true whore of Babylon and you can now call yourself the rightful king of gay, no homo though.
So now that my work is done we can hold hands because somewhere in all of the shit i have wrote is some form of friendship lesson, something something fag lives happily ever after in eternal sin as we all win, now i can finally bathe in mare piss as the true fountain of youth is the waterfall known as pink pony pussy.