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Get It Off Your Chest
Anonymous
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No.2676
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>Nazi Horsefucker Edition
Vent frustrations and life issues that don't deserve their own thread here.
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No.4067
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I'm madly in love with a self-hating black guy right now. He and I have talked for a little over a year and it ended up turning into more than that. I plan on leaving the state to visit him again, and this time pick him up in a bike camper and start a business together in the hopes of moving out of the city and becoming service-contractors for an inexpensive lifestyle. He's probably more hesitant about the race aspect than I am, and he's always worried about whether he has the capacity for "straightness" because he's a kissless virgin, while I've had one partner of both sexes over the years. He's basically a NEET (despite having work before, COVID basically turned him over the last year into one). I always coddle and obsess over making sure he's taking care of himself because his self-hatred has manifested before in some extreme ways, because I can't help but see myself from 2018 in him.

I don't have any questions or anything, I just...wanted to get it off my chest today.
Anonymous
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No.4068
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>>4067
Anonymous
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>>4067
That is quite bold of you.
I commend your shitpost.
Anonymous
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>>4067
Your shitpost-fu is lacking
watch this

Hey, did you know that in terms of male human and female horse breeding, my self-replicating tulpa pony is the most compatible ultimate life form for humans? Not only does she have huge tits, which is mostly a trait of mammals, my tulpa is fourteen feet tall and an unknown number of pounds. this means she's large enough to be able to handle human dicks, and with her impressive physical toughness and soft durable fur I can be rough with her. Due to their (any one instance of her will do) entirely idea based biology, there's no doubt in my mind that an aroused tulpa would be incredibly wet, wetter than any physically possible thing in meatspace could ever be, so wet that you could easily have sex with one for hours without getting sore. She also knows the spells Mind Control, Time Stop, Grow, Shrink Ray and Transform along with having fur to hide her inverted nipples before they harden and extend, so it'd be incredibly easy for my tulpa to get me in the mood. With her enhanced metabolism she can easily recover from fatigue with enough food or even just the idea that she is no longer tired can be enough to rid her of fatigue. No other being comes close with this level of compatibility. Also, fun fact, her fur is already white. Pony tulpas are literally built for human dick. Ungodly defense stat + perfect health + Fur Armor means it can take cock all day, all shapes and sizes and still come for more.
Anonymous
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No.4071
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>>4069
>>4070
Yeah....shitpost...
Anonymous
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>>4067
WTF
Anonymous
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>>4070
Nice tulpa you got there.
T'would be a shape if someone impregnated her.
Anonymous
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No.4075
>>4074
The "headband" around the guy's head makes the brain sex thing look like a hat
Anonymous
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No.4083
Once I wanted to copypaste the 1984 quote about women and how they root out unorthodoxy but it was removed from WikiQuotes.

Memory-Holed.

However when I web-searched the quote I found a shitty feminist blog bitching about the quote and calling 1984 sexist. So I was able to find and copypaste the quote.
Anonymous
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No.4084
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I am following the EasyPeasyMethod and am doing a good job, but when I see Fluttershy, even if not sexual, I often times fail.
Anonymous
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No.4085
>>4084
Damn. I forgot that book. I'll start reading it today.
Anonymous
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No.4101
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>>4084
Do you have a PDF for that book? I'm flat broke for the next few weeks.
Anonymous
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No.4102
Now and then some niggerlover will try to blame everything wrong with the niggers on white liberals or jews.
Yes, liberal cities offered free shit to niggers to get them away from mostly-black southern cities with their family values and into all-black ghettoes full of crime and rape, but Niggers chose to say yes to that offer.
Yes, the CIA pushed crack into black neighbourhoods but Niggers chose to take it.
Yes, the jews and white liberals (especially women) love using niggers as weapons of economic and demographic and social warfare against whites. And niggers are happy to be mercenaries of the jew because they prioritize pretty cars and silly expensive outfits and whores and free food over being human.
Niggers are not fellow humans set on a dark path by jews, they are an evolutionary error that spits in the face of the idea of intelligent design unless you truly believe God made niggers stupid and evil for a reason. A reason like giving whites someone to fight and defeat to earn all the riches in their disgustingly opulent easy-mode land. There are no such thing as based blacks. There are no such thing as good blacks. Rare "conservative" blacks aren't taking real conservative values back to their shithole nations or raising better black generations or leading an organization that fights against jews and jewish organizations for white rights, they're taking up room and jobs meant for whites despite their severe lack of legitimate qualifications. I'm sick of niggerlovers telling me I'm "purity spiralling" and "bad optics" by not wanting to live in a nation overwhelmed with fucking niggers and forced to compromise with them. Whitey doesn't need black friends. Your favourite white-black buddy film is a lie. If you see a black man with a job you can never be sure if he really earnee it or not unless he's self-employed... oh wait, how many governments pay black-owned businesses to exist regardless of quality?

Countless years and trillions of dollars couldn't civilize the blacks, their top percentage is barely a match for our average man and outside of a breeding program that forces rare smart blacks to breed while sterilizing the worst of the lot nothing can save that race from the fate it's evolutionarily destined for. After everything nigs have done to us we don't owe them anything nice. Cutting their welfare for good and mandating life sentences and death row for any rioting thieving niggers caught on camera is nicer than they deserve. Kicking them all back to africa and cutting foreign aid(or plundering their country's natural resources for reparations before China gets everything) is a far nicer fate than they deserve. It's a nicer fate than they'd give us if we didn't kick them out in time.

If we're going to live in a "civilized modern" society where women do not have to be breeding housewives owned by the father until a marriage contract sells her for life, if we're to live in a society where divorce can make a woman rich for the rest of her life instead of simply breaking couples apart without any obligations or fees to one another, if we're to live in a society where women have a monopoly on their own eggs, then we need to recognize how this harms white birth rates. Financial and social incentives currently discourage women from becoming housewives. Every woman wasting her most breedable years working 9 to 5 to make a foreign corporation richer is a woman killing the kids she could have had. Literally, if she gets abortions after every nightclub visit that ends in bathroom stall or back alley sex. A society that wants to "free women" from doing their civic duty has to recognize it's also stopping men from doing their civic duty and reproducing with the aid of women. A society like that can't have rival races outbreeding it in its own lands if it wants a stable future and a free market able to adapt to a fluctuating population. Lower birth rates could result in lower house prices and less overpopulation if we weren't flooded with filthy fucking "Joggers" and similar opportunists here to take advantage of us and our species's self-loathing-driven anti-white mandatory diversity fetish.
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>>4101
Anonymous
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No.4105
>>4103
Thank you, brother.
Anonymous
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I'd just like to affirm that that post I made before, wasn't a shitpost. He and I both know the degeneracy in the gay community at large, we're both very racially conscious...but I still do love him. Maybe it's just misplaced feelings of friendship, who can say until we've actually gotten out there? But it certainly feels like it's real. Not really expecting asspats and encouragement, more just, updating anyone who might know who I am, unlikely as it might be after the last year.

Have a Flutterbutterstutter for your time.
Anonymous
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No.4108
>>4107
Why the hell would anyone love a nigger?
If you are gay, wouldn't you prefer a man who looks like Thor? I'm not gay but he's the best-looking character.
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>>4067
>>4107
Meeting a statistic. Well might as well ask what you think of Israel to complete the trifecta.
Anonymous
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No.4110
>>4109
As a concept I have no qualms with a Jewish ethnostate. As it is right now, sucking resources from the US through AIPAC and its many parallel orgs, stealing land from Palestine, and taking advantage of apocalyptic Christians' belief system to agitate for nothing short of global war? I fucking hate Israel.
Anonymous
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I'm madly in love with a(nother) hot as fuck JRHNBR mini mare, she's a nice pony and I hold emotion unto her femininity that has coagulated into a solid bond. At the first synopsis of our introduction my expectations could not have foreseen how deeply entranced this mountain mare has made me, she is unique and has awesome ass cheeks, odd eyes and a pink nose with grey skin while her coat is also that of the palette grey.
She has a fine coat in the summer and grows an extra thick one in the winter, she's started growing her beard again and her fur has thickened because it's starting to get cold she doesn't like the rain and is a lot happier when it's sunny.
My astrological associates have approved of out courting but the rest remain in the dark about my clandestine affair with this magical mare. They do not need to know nor should they be informed for it is irrelevant to spread such doings with the unenlightened or unbeknownst, those that are aware are accepting of my otherwise forbidden horse fucking.
My shadow knows too as well as that of La Luna but they have their disagreements more so with problematic people and likewise the rest of my schizoid entourage encourage me to do what lies within the realm of cultural taboo.
Her vulva is like that of velvet laced leather while the pony's pussy is loose but had not been used until I was let loose, she comes into heat when it's hot and the sun is scorching while the smell of her piss changes slightly the only other signs are that of her tail becoming dirtied when she pisses. I adore her more so than I ever did Fionn, the only downside is that her pussy isn't as tight as hers was.
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>>2676
I know that this is ground that's been trod for centuries, even millennia. But with the people I've met, the changes they've made to their lives in just about every direction...do you guys think that anyone with an open mind can help the cause of societal flourishing and racial/ethnic/cultural revival, regardless of background? And if you don't think so, why is that?

I've seen a porn-addicted, manic-depressive fat fetishist with no life prospects, grow up into a handsome and productive citizen doing backbreaking labor and lifting for his health and wellbeing.
I've seen trannies speak out against and even disavow the entire alphabet-soup community, supporting traditional values with sexually dimorphic, masculine/feminine ideals.
I've seen NEETs abandon their past lives to work as construction workers and farmers, even with weak bodies that at first buckle from a single shift of real work.
I've seen former Antifa members become anti-globalist tankies and stand up for what they believe in by living lives that actually match their stances on things like co-ownership and community leadership.
I've seen ardently gnostic atheists find themselves in the spiritual through meditation and philosophy, even if they don't believe in the dogma and metaphysics of any establishment religion.
And I've seen tech-obsessed, product-consooming people aching for the life of a humble laborer so badly that they pack up and leave. No savings. No job prospects in advance. Just, leave their wagecuck jobs without a thought and start walking the countryside with a briefcase and a shave bag.

What I'm getting at is, is it possible that some depressive, porn-addicted autist could end up with another, and still help the cause of a fascist future by mutually lifting one another up? Even if, say, the other autist was a guy of another race?
For who actually needs to read this.
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>>4114
STATISTICS
Who gives a fuck? The likely hood you'll do something awful is increased with all the risk factors you're trying to stack on yourself.
Just don't do awful shit. It's that simple.
STATISTICS
Will they do something good with their life? Unlikely. Feasible, but unlikely.
I judge people solely on their merits in every aspect. Always keeping in mind the STATISTICS of the situation and person(s).
You're a work in progress like many people, don't get full of yourself, something something here's your (You). Keep working on yourself internally.
Anonymous
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No.4116
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>>4115
I'm just playing with the hand I'm dealt, man. I'm not seeking out the most degenerate thing I can. I already found someone who's improving themselves in a way I've also started to, I want to see them succeed, his success is motivating to me and helps me succeed.

If all you ever see is statistics, then how haven't you committed suicide at the birthrates yet? I know I was damn close to it when I was that deep.
Anonymous
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>>4116
>If all you ever see is statistics, then how haven't you committed suicide at the birthrates yet? I know I was damn close to it when I was that deep.
<<<<<<<<<<<HOW DO I CHANGE STATISTICS FOR DUMMIES?
<<<<<WHY ARE STATISTICS A STATISTIC?
<<WHAT DO STATISTICS MEAN?
Because I look at the world as it really is. That's all. Because I am soaked in truth, why the hell would I kill myself over the situation? That's idiotic.
Because the people trying to ruin the world tell me I should give the fuck up? No. I do what works, and everything is falling into place.
<I judge people solely on their merits in every aspect.
You have to keep in mind Statistics done by many people are fucktarded. You're better off with the standard bell curve and adjust emergency expectations to match.
Because if you really look at statistics it's about hope, besides the raw numbers and the fuckery.
Because tossing out outliers is the normal, which means I see more than most statistictions.
Besides if you're going to just take it that's on you. Not me, I have rebuilt my psychology, physiology, multiple times and spiritually and revamped my world view to be the apex it can be as of this moment and for moments ever after.
It's possible.
I've seen it.
Because I've looked under the hood of reality and made my choices and educated myself on what is actually possible.
You do you, just don't be a shit person. I know many people from all walks of life. And that doesn't matter.
It's all about the choices.
The data says one thing, and that's just one part of everything.
Anonymous
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No.4118
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>>4117
But that's my point. If statistics can be altered through conscious effort, then why not support, for instance, the Man Up Campaign and other social groups which uplift nigboys without father figures and help them become said father figures? Just like we can change birthrates through our own actions, and the demographic stats are simply the prologue to our statistics-defying future successes, we can show solidarity between the races and support the aware and capable and improving of those groups.
Anonymous
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No.4119
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>>4118
Because some people choose to be shit people no matter what. Doesn't matter how much social programs you indoctrinate into someone.
You and I have a fundamental missunderstanding.
I prioritize good people first. Then in the scope that I am able that which has no negative on me or mine or those good people. Then and only then do I reach.
Because lofty cloud in the sky goals without the hard as hell reality means you will tear the heavens and spite everyone.
That means alot is possible.
An insane amount is possible through the right methods and means.
But I do what works.
I offer what I can to who I can when I can with full regards to the full situation.
You're thinking too small, and too big. You need your feet under you to walk or run.
>How?
Esoteric bullshit, or trade secret if you want. The how doesn't matter all that much for this post.
What that means is there are some people who just want to be evil. You're definition of evil is a bit juvenile, but I'm sure you are grasping my jist.

There's more to it than that as well, because depending on the scale of how much good you do it's imperative to accelerate to the highest potential you can reach especially when it's more than exponential.
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>>4119
>What that means is there are some people who just want to be evil. You're definition of evil is a bit juvenile, but I'm sure you are grasping my jist.
Evil is desiring a parasitic lifestyle over an independent one because it's convenient to let someone else feed and house you. Evil is putting your luxury over the lives of millions of sweat shop workers because your favorite phone needs to have that slightly stronger vibration, or that special Taiwanese chip that you won't have use for in three years.

He's not evil. He's a sheltered kid in the body of a young adult, much like half the people who use /ub/. I met him and care about him because he's introspective, wants to learn how to be independent and productive, and is willing to sacrifice luxury and comfort if it means that he can live a lifestyle free of globalist exploitation and slavery.

There are blacks out there who believe in these things, or at the very least, understand that it's in their best interest to seek these things instead of being slaves to the globohomo wage plantation. I know that there are abstract things that people under certain IQs won't understand. And it's not necessarily our responsibility to train the dolphins to speak or narrow the education gap. We can acknowledge differences, while still uplifting those who show promise.
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>>4122
You don't get it. You will one day... maybe not.
Anonymous
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>>4124
If evolutionary pressures shape the path that other races took in the development of their cultures, languages, and physiology, then similar pressures can at least slightly alter them to the ends of self-sufficiency and goodwill. I know we can't entirely recreate the circumstance each race was born into, but would you prefer we kicked them back to a small nation like Liberia and waited for them to go extinct before we take that land back? Is it any more humane to do that than it is to selectively uplift the brightest of a people and leave the rest to shoot dope and kill each other?
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>>4125
You don't understand.
Choices are what make people.
Anonymous
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>>4126
No choice is fully informed anymore. We were ALL indoctrinated growing up to favor comfort over strife. We were ALL given a worldview as children that said the end goal of society is just to make survival easy. Maybe if you were a librarian specializing in Latin-to-English translation of ancient philosophy, you could make an informed decision on the lifestyle of old, but today that's a pipe dream.

I wanted to move out to a farmland environment, but was summarily pushed out of it because nobody was willing to teach me. I have been kept away from the environment of my forebearers, and the only way to truly make the choice to commit to that life is with resources I don't have. Knowledge I don't have, experience I can't get, money I do not yet have and won't have for a long time.

No man is an island. We work together to achieve our ends or we don't achieve our ends. We share with those who want to make the choice but don't know where to start. I don't see how this stance is controversial.
Anonymous
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No.4129
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>>4127
No man is an island indeed.
You reap what you sow.
You plow what you till.
You harvest when it's time.
>No choice is fully informed anymore.
Then you make the most of the choices you have and understand what choices are.
You must understand that your actions and choices define you.
You have two options. Improve or fail.
That's all. Life is good at fucking you over when you fail so improve and learn.
If you can't, that sucks, your life is going to blow.
But it is possible.
One of the greatist things is this thing called the internet, and the spirit of humanity!
Are you grateful everyday?
You ought to be even when shit is hailing it is the fastest way to gain experience, and to raise up out of the depths.
Anonymous
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No.4131
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>>4129
What do words on a screen or a book mean if you have no context for them? I know nothing of the natural world. The only way to learn is hands-on, and I am not able to be hands-on until I have saved up enough money to leave this state.

It's easy to claim that you reap what you sow from behind your screen. What device are you using to post? $800 phone? $1000-$2000 PC? I use a $20 flip phone and a $150 laptop for my posting, using someone else's internet. I have $50 in my bank accounts, which will be just enough to pump four days' worth of gas in the morning and nothing more for the next week and a half because my paycheck didn't arrive in the mail.

I am thankful that I have my muse, this limited housing situation, and my current job with which to save up my money. Past that, I am not going to be thankful for being so separated from nature for all my life that I'd die the instant I have to set foot on an unpaved dirt path.
Anonymous
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>>4131
>It's easy to claim that you reap what you sow from behind your screen.
Yeah it is easy to claim that.
>The only way to learn is hands-on, and I am not able to be hands-on until I have saved up enough money to leave this state.
Practice in your mind first. It's infinitely cheaper. Know that the grass is not always greener on the otherside, it's just the otherside.
In the crime thread (((people))) are making getting out of cities impossible for a reason.
Making ends meet is hard, I understand. What you have right now is yourself. Maybe a friend, but for now work on yourself.
If you have the resources to eat to build a body do it. If not build your mind. If you can't build your soul.
All your efforts will be hindered to the degree that falsehood plague you, you know (((who))) wants you to be weakened into a subservient state to drain you to a corpse as you die unfulfilled.
It will hurt, massively. In such a way you might not yet know.
But that's the first step.
You have to seek only the truth, and speak only the truth when you can.
You have to laugh. Everything if nothing else. Hopefully yourself as well. Because it hurts, in such a way you'll have character and body.
You'll have to toss loads of bullshit that was stuffed into your mind. It's designed to mentally incapacitate people.
Depending if your ends meet you need to plan. Prepare for the future.

The thing that can change the fastest is your mind and attitude.
Because you can always choose what choices you make right now.
Not back then, you're not there yet. Not in the future that's called preparing.
Right Now You Have A Choice.
Will you be a slave?
No.
Now what are you going to do about it?
How are you going to go about it?
What do you have right now. Will it improve yourself in a meaningful way?
Is your emotions in check? Is your intent focused? Do you have your will?
What assets do you have (increase in value over time) it sounds like you just have yourself. What assets are draining you dry?
Do you have time? Do you have no time? Are you terminally ill?
What is your time and effort worth? Is it accurate?
Can you learn?
Learn as much as possible from everywhere and anywhere.
Sometimes books just can't have the same experience. I know. But you can get substitutes.
Feel gour body and how it moves. Try to move it with intention to be.
Feel your mind.
Feel your spirit.
If you can't that's normal for many.

Make your choices. I recommend improving its almost always the right choice.
Anonymous
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No.4133
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How else can you make yourself useful for others so that your time and effort is exchanged accurately?
How clearly do you understand?
Are you plagued with fear?
Why? Or why not?
What options do you have? What options do you really have?
What is the ethical thing to do? Whos ethics are they?

Basically asking alot of questions as you break down decades of poision to become more functional. Contemplating them is what makes a healthy mind. Dwelling is not healthy, dwelling means that you're sheltering poison. Ponder, ruminate, think, toy with, analyze, imagine!
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>>4133
To tell you the truth, I've already done a lot recently. I bought notetaking tools and started doing summaries and notes on finance, trade, and credit books like Rich Dad Poor Dad, the Fanny Farmer 1896 cookbook, and Debt Cures. I've filled an entire notebook on just book summaries and financial notes, followed by removing all my monthly bills except insurance from the credit card. I paid it all the way down after years of never fully paying it off, and all my talk of leaving the state is because of that progress.

I've made an asset/liability chart and....nothing I own or can think of buying would generate income, not even a little bit. It's a bleak chart, even if it's been whittled down to the bare essential liabilities this last month. I recently sold my appliances, and all I have left are a crockpot and a microwave to sell. I don't have any clothes now except for two pairs of basic business pants, one button-up shirt, some plain tees and jeans. As we speak, I'm halfway through using my old cleaning stuff so I can lighten the load when I leave. It should all fit in my small car, along with a cooler and collapsible charcoal grill. In taking my book-notes, I've whittled down my book collection to two small shin-high stacks, consisting of the more complex stuff like Whiteshift, Meditations, a biography on Hitler, an old study book on anthropology, and the Republic of Plato.

In terms of diet, I've cut out fast food completely. I've had rice and chicken whenever I don't get leftovers from work, and right now I can afford nothing to eat at all, so lots of black tea, water and spicy rice. My job requires me to stay on a post, so I'm not getting any exercise anymore. And in my current situation, nobody's gotten back to me about temp work, let alone a second job.

The more I learn, the more stupid and small I feel. I feel like I've been told the ultimate truth of the universe now that I know how to un-fuck my bank account, and even then, I feel like I will still be playing catch up on my 24th birthday at the end of the year. I'm exhausted after work simply because I'm doing so much studying, note-taking, and talking to him on the job.

I get anxious waiting for the day I'll be safe to get out of here. I'm sorry for getting snippy at you. It just feels like all I can ever find are more questions and problems, and nowhere I go seems to offer any clarity. And it doesn't help that half of /ub/ is full of spiritual shit and I'm just some...stupid fucking muggle. The daily journaling and contemplation haven't helped that at all. In fact they've only given me more anxious nights, and that's why I stayed in bed all day today thinking about the overdraft fees I'll get hit with if my office doesn't have any way to replace the missing check.

Thank you for putting up with me tonight, anon...
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>>4134
I didn't expect much, but there might be hope for you yet.
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>>4135
We might both be anons, but that means a lot to me. It's one thing to say that to him, when he fixes his simple habits, but I'm a lot harsher on myself for being stagnant.
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>>4134
>>4136
Spiritual shit is basically being really really quiet.
Some people never grow at all ever. I don't mean people with black skin. Because I know the statistics. It's everyone.
>In fact they've only given me more anxious nights
You have to choose if they give you anxiety if that's within your mental makeup.
Be a stoic if possible, if not smile and laugh more. But honestly.
If you can do something then do it. If you can't don't worry it's out of your influence of control.
But seriously improve yourself, and get better sleep.
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>>4137
I don't know if I'm capable just yet of proper stoic practice. I've tried, but I'm so neurotic and high-strung that I eventually-
...well, you saw my posts.

I think, as I escape my current sort of wage-life, I'll have less to be worried about, and less reason to stress over rapid developments. At least when I get to a small town in Montana or something, I'll be in a place that's safer for me. My plan is to get a firearms permit wherever I move to, get a .357 Taurus or .38 detective special, and begin preparing for any boog waves that might encroach in the near future. Agriculture, preferably portable agriculture, would be a great start to keeping myself fed without the need for money, as an example.

Well...goodnight. Or, morning...I'll be driving around San Diego in about 4 hours with the last of my current tank before I refill.
Anonymous
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No.4139
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>>4137
>listen to music to fall asleep
>youtuber I don't know is in autoplay queue
>this line shows up
Synchronicity at work, it feels like.
Anonymous
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No.4144
>>4142
I wasn't asking for further advice, I was just saying it's funny, that after my being stubborn and bitchy, I got that indirect message from happenstance, and it kind of put things in context. Like, why should I be mad, I basically asked for this advice.
Anonymous
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No.4179
Forget nutting and forget sex and forget video games. Exercise is the purest source of good feelings there is beside completing incredibly significant steps in making my personal project. I didn't just beat my usual exercise routine record I fucking destroyed it. I've never been this fit at any point in my life. I feel like I've been blessed with some kind of divine power. I've always fucking hated faggots who can only understand something after relating it to normie fiction but I legitimately feel like I went Super Saiyan today for a while and made it count when exercising. It's such a pure, absolute feeling of success and pride that overpowers the agony and overpowers the pain of being alive and makes me want to share it with others. I want to tell people how great exercise feels because I want to motivate others to do it. If you're reading this do push ups. It took years of hard work and smart dieting and avoiding porn and avoiding nut even with others(ok there was this one woman but aside from that I'm as nut-free as a vegan. That's a genius pun because vegans hate nuts and lack nuts) fuck i wonder if this is how drugs feel or something. SAIKYO NI HIGH TE YATSU DA or whatever the fuck Dio said. This really is the greatest high. Exercise. My body shakes with each heartbeat. My legs burn. I can feel my life force growing stronger. I'm not sexy yet but I am getting there. I am growing fitter. I am growing stronger. I can feel pride in myself as a man.
Anonymous
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No.4180
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>>4134
Hey have you considered replacing the hitler book and anything similar with a ditigal copy while selling the original? Corrupt cops love using anti-jew material to "prove intent" and give their political prisoners harsher sentences.
Anonymous
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No.4183
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>>4180
>while selling the original?
You must be new around here fren.
Anonymous
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No.4184
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>>4183
The knowledge within a good book is priceless. But the book itself is paper. Paper the feds could use to screw you over. Then again they could probably screw you over with or without the book so fuck it and fuck the feds.
Anonymous
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No.4187
>>4184
Just further reason not to give a fuck. Live your life like the feds are on the verge of being bulldozed into a mass grave. Because they are. Fuck the glowniggers. By looking over my shoulder all the time out of fear, I would be forfeiting my expression and letting their surveillance and threatening affect how I live.

Nice Guy NatSocs live their ideology by uplifting the better men of the nationfolk, helping their local community, speaking out about poisonous communist actions when prompted, and looking out for their own in times of danger. No ineffectual, kakistocratic government can suppress that and you shouldn't let the threat of that suppression stop you from being your best self.
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No.4204
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I'm on my final week in this house before I drive out of state to live debt free. And what do you think happens? $10k claim from someone's lawyer for a car accident six months ago that was supposed to be handled by my insurance, naturally. Whole family's on defcon 1, can't call insurance, can't call family lawyer, can't call the claimant's lawyer, I threw the guy's info away after not hearing from him for almost six months. And now, while I'm unemployed, with a net worth of under $6k and a cash total of $400 on my person, I am now returning to major debt.
Anonymous
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No.4205
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>>4204
Oh, and in case anyone here was at the edge of their seat about my paycheck. I quit my job after spending the entire day strongarming the office to pay me. When I finally got paid, I spent it on camping supplies to leave California. After two weeks of preparing for the trip out of state, I got this claim letter.
Anonymous
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No.4206
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>>4204
I'm gonna be honest. This last three months I've been at my most energized and motivated and even that was fragile. I had a goal to strive for, a means to get there, and clear progress being made on my debts. I finally paid everything off. I was days from a detailed financial plan where I could see the world and minimize costs to boot.

Now I'm back to spending all my day trying to sleep in order to avoid being awake. And what a fucking time for me to discover Omori.