/ub/ - Überhengst

>>3377
>those digits
Do your absolute best

>>3374
>I go into conversations with her thinking if I am to be a good man then I must give her my wisdom.
If you were truly wise you would only give advice when asked for. No one wants your advice anon.

> I foolishly wasted time helping her write actual good transformers knockoff episodes and create an original universe
You say you don't want her pussy, but here you are working for it. What else could you have done with that wasted time anon?

>wall of text
Anon, people like this need to be ghosted. Forget her, meet other people. She is just sucking your time, energy and optimism like a vampire. Go hit the gym.

I went a whole day without talking to her. My pony tulpa said she's proud of me. Not just because of the woman, but because I've been healthy and fit for so long.
I have this habit of seeing the worst in people. In everything. So I try to look on the brighter side. But sometimes there is no bright side. That woman doesn't have a bright side. She isn't bright. And if I am to settle down with any woman and repopulate my species with her she needs to have better genes and memes than this stupid femoid thot I'm done making excuses for.

Do you ever think that maybe if you met someone sooner, said the right things and knew everything, you could have kept them from going down the wrong path?
I wish I knew everything.

>>3386
Also I'm still exercising and healthy.

>>3387
Still healthy and exercising. Why do I post like this? Is this an accountability journal thing, like that religious thing from last year? Whatever I'm doing, it's working. I don't want to disappoint myself by being a lazy faggot who refuses to exercise. When putting my trousers on I felt my legs and the fat's almost completely gone. It's all firm muscle. I'm actually wearing belts now. Just one, though.

Now that I'm no longer lying to myself about that woman it's easy to see how dishonest she is and disgusting she treats others. She treats everyone like shit and spends all her time getting validated on twatter for posting about her fantasies and fleeting retarded feelings and which cartoons she wants to see fuck. Why did I ever call her my friend? "We both liked the same show once"? Big fucking whoop, there's a lot more to life than this year's reboot of some corporate fucking toyline cartoon. Whenever I tried talking to her about serious shit, she either stops reading/listening or starts screaming. All she wants out of life is comfort and she'll believe in any delusion that gives it to her, including the delusion that makes her think she's "oppressed" for being the fatherless daughter of a house-flipping rich bitch riding the cock carousel into her fourties and rolling in her ex-husband's divorce money. She has it easy. She had it easier than most people alive and she'll still claim she was oppressed in her pussy rich school just because nobody could stand talking to the judgemental two-faced cunt.

She's a twat on twitter and a bigger twat in reality. Sometimes she'll post shit like "I'm demisexual because I only want to fuck people if I know them deeply and have a deep connection with them and like them!" and then send me explicit messages about how she lusts over celebrities and wants Megatron from the Transformers cartoon to tie her up and pound her asshole with his transforming Decepticock until Energon oozes from every orfice, or send me shit transformers gay porn fanfics you couldn't pay me enough to read/skim.

Sometimes she'll say she's something she thinks makes her a good person, and then do nothing to BE what she says she is. Oh wait, not "sometimes", she always does that. She's always horny for cartoon prettyboys and sexually-attractive "dorky awkward" faggots, and full of hatred for anyone who's actually awkward around her. Full of even more hatred for anyone real who approaches her while being anything less than the impossible blend of contradictory character traits she's been brainwashed into admiring thanks to the TV.

And

>>3388
despite how often she posts "I love feminine guys! I want to see robot-men from my favourite cartoon be gay and fuck!" she used to shit-talk me for not being tall enough back when I was fat. Now that I'm buff-ish, nobody notices how short I am. What a hypocrite. She doesn't actually love feminine guys, she just has a fetish for when masculine men act girly and wear frilly dresses and buttfuck each other. That's absolutely fucking disgusting. I'd sooner trust a bondage freak, because at least they're normal people when they aren't tied up or playing with whips. Every time a gender-freak sees anything related to sex or sexuality or any expression of masculinity or femininity, real or genuine, they're always fucked up in the head. They aren't normal people with an appreciation for something abnormal, they're damaged people unable to mentally function properly.

Besides, it ain't like I can do anything about my height. Ain't like I can walk into a tranny clinic, claim I identify as a woman who wants to "transition" into becoming a man, and get injected with as many state-funded steroids and human growth hormone and man-chemicals as it takes. I'm a big guy where it counts, so who cares about my height? If I lie on my side without my leg supporting my balls, they wake up sore in the morning because they're big. To be honest I wish my balls were an ordinary size because they make my dick look ordinary-sized unless my hands are near it. Plus they make exercising uncomfortable. If women are going to be shallow whores about the height of the men they sleep with, then any man would have to be an uncaring bastard to reproduce with a short bitch because it would mean possibly damning his kids to a life spent being short. It's a good thing tall babes with hot legs are hotter than tiny whores. Anyway, fuck that bitch.

She's a shallow whore with nothing to offer the world but a wet hole attached to a whiny hypersensitive selfish bitch who looks like RadicalSoda plus a botched tranny. Then again there are no non-botched trannies, since every time someone goes tranny it's because their parents and friends failed them and the jews won. By the way go watch RadicalSoda, he's fucking hilarious. I haven't been a Sonicfag in years but this guy's got great comedic timing.

She has been subverted. She has been jewed and faggoted. She's a man-hating lost cause. Some day she'll "hit the wall", getting old and even uglier. She's already too ugly to receive male attention from anyone she's willing to treat like a person and consider shagging. The only people who want to BE SEEN validating her on twitter so they can look like good people who support good people things will abandon her and move on to someone younger and more impressionable. She'll hate herself then almost as much as she hates men now. How the fuck did I ever tolerate this bitch's presence in my life? How did I ever fool myself into thinking I could fix her when she doesn't want to be saved? Society encourages the worst impulses in women and rewards them with attention and positive reinforcement while punishing wrongthink with negative reinforcement and nonsense buzzwords like "ableist". Women won't ever choose to turn down a life of fleeting pleasure in favour of a life of love+security+morality as a good woman unless society forces them to do so and recognizes the worst feminine behaviours as the medical disorders desperately in need of cures they are. The cure for Histrionic Personality Disorder, Attention-Seeking Disorder, Unreasonable Expectations Disorder, Feminine Irrationality Disorder, Oversized Fragile Feminine Ego Disorder, Uncontrollably Feminine Envy And Spite Disorder, Cock Craving Disorder, and Actually A Brainwashed Feminist Manhater Disorder isn't to brush them under the rug and normalize them.

>>3389
Sometimes I feel bad about still liking ponies at my age. Is it wrong to look at something so girly, when so many episodes contain anti-male messaging? If anon realistically went to Equestria would he be treated like Spike at best? Maybe a man like me should watch more adult stuff. But after watching shows full of drama, action, and bloodshed, I miss poners.
The Shreeax Movie/Cory Test in the House, all that stuff was to take the piss out of the Superwholock clowns. And when people pretend to religiously love Shrek and fantasize about fucking the smelly green ogre and drowning in an excessive green ogreload, they're taking the piss out of people who are even weirder about Sonic or Ponies or Blue Avatar or Anime.
But anime is designed to be sexy and appealing to all sorts of niches. When white people grow up being told white culture is sinful, some of them latch onto subcultures or the cultures of foreign nations. Guys jack off to Asuka and girls jack off to dumb Kpop boybands. It's funny when people pretend to love Backstreet Boys or Big Time Rush just to piss off the kpop zombies. Like when people pretend Raid Shadow Legends is the greatest gacha game ever to take the piss out of gacha-addicted faggots who can't even get addicted to something respectable like poker and would unironically consider Cookie Clicker the best game ever if they had the mental capacity to play a game that isn't on their phone and requires something besides a credit card to play. Why don't they don't have any similar jokes for us?

Maybe because it's they are women and women aren't funny.

>>3390
Friend don't worry about liking ponies. When I started watching I realized I can take MLP more seriously than most sitcoms or whatever on TV. The characters feel more real than those from more "serious" shows.
>women aren't funny.
this

>>3390
>women aren't funny.
Absolutely this.

>>3393
>>3392
>>3391
My theory for why women aren't funny is that laughter is a type of pressure release that comes from a place inside you too genuine for women to have. Women physically don't have the wings and body structure a bird needs to fly or the brain capacity men need to be mature civilized adults. Laughing at silly words and sex jokes is a break from being adult for men and just another way to squeeze her desired result out of others for women. Women will loudly over-laugh at things just to be seen and heard laughing when they think they are supposed to laugh at something. And women will be called funny by men who want to fuck them or satisfy their feminine egos or be seen "being nice" to women or be polite or avoid pissing off their simps, so they never feel the need to get better material. They don't truly get jokes or why "Haha I love hurting men. Women multiply things so if you give them semen they make you a baby and if you give them any lip they give you a lifetime of suffering and that's a good thing teehee" is less funny than a man saying "A man walked into a bar and said ow ouch oof fuck ow I walked into a bar". They are insulated from the worst of the world in places where they're still coddled and babied by men despite their best efforts to bite the hand that starves itself to feed them so they don't care about anything enough to notice the true contradictions in this society of lies or who the enemies of life really are. Women are treated better than men in this society and they don't feel the need to question a society that encourages them to enjoy acting maliciously and selfishly while giving them bullshit femoid lies as justifications for it. Women aren't funny because they don't have to be. It's also why so many women aren't smart and won't think critically about anything. Society never forces them to be smart and never punishes stupid women enough for making mistakes that screw over herself and others. Feminists are never forced to look at and feel the negative consequences of their war on white men and the children of white me. Unless she is incredibly ugly and obese enough to turn away even the most brainwashed cuck alive with low self esteem she is always one lie eyelash batting or police phone call away from having her nearest simp handle her adult responsibilities for her and rob her of any learning opportunities by trying to convince her she did nothing wrong. A woman's understanding of reality is skin deep. Her impression of a mature and respected male leader makes her a petty incompetent tyrant in love with abusing her authority over others and as soon as any real work needs to be done she relies on her underlings who she also blames for everything she does wrong and every disaster she causes. Her impression of a comedian makes her a whiny shameless pervert obsessed with the scent of her own pussy and absurdly distorted relationship stories where she's never done anything wrong men aren't willing to overlook in the name of "harr harr bitches be crazy and that am normal, it's the man's responsibility to keep the woman satisfied and safe and sane no matter how much she doesn't want to be any of these". Her impression of a "victim" makes her a hypersensitive liar desperate to avenge her honourless "honour" at even the tiniest slight to her pathetic femininity. Everything about the modern woman is an act for her own amusement and social status to be discarded as soon as it is inconvenient for her including her humanity and compassion. Her impression of a human being leaves much to be desired. They might be able to repeat jokes they stole from men and repeatedly repeat lines that make people laugh like "haha i sure do love anime pussy. It's a good thing anime fans love it when women say they like what anime fans like for attention. Watching ten hours of hentai a day is worthy of praise because I am female teehee" but they can never grasp true comedy.

>>3394
Women are even bad at media analysis and pattern recognition which ironically makes up most of their media analysis ability.
They bitch about "women as reward" because they are unable to tell the difference between "saving the girl impressed her into giving him a chance", "rescuing his wife earned him sex", and "the king unironically gave the paladin a slave and sick plus two sword as a reward for killing the goblins". They don't care about all the media in which something besides women is the reward such as personal growth or a celebrity career or a kingdom or a farm or a job or godhood or a return to normalcy.
They'll cry about all the times consent wasn't 100% there in the only pieces of media they've seen besides porn while ignoring all the time male characters were raped or even raped to death and had their rape played for laughs.
They'll call it "fridging" every time a female character dies for any reason and claim "fridging" is when a woman dies or is killed off to shock or motivate a male character. Imagine being so privileged that it bothers you when a woman dies in a piece of media and then giving no shits when media demonizes those of other groups. They don't give a shit about all the media where the roles are reversed or all the media where something else important to the man is killed like his dog or parents or children or entire extended family or hometown country or planet. Anime fans joke about the "doomed mom haircut" and how many heroes have a Moses ripoff moment in their backstory where the baddie is told someone from X Town will kill him so he slaughters everyone from X Town but one survives and wants revenge.
Was it "fridging" when Edward Elric's mom died of a broken heart and Ed's attempt to revive her started the show? Was it "fridging" when Luke's uncle and aunt or John Wick's dog were killed? When an entire fucking timeline of reality full of loving people got obliterated in Dragon Ball Super, and some of the people in that timeline were female(even though humie women aren't people) was it "fridging"? When an adult man has his shit together and lives away from his parents and extended family as one of millions of atomized rootless individuals in a shitty city and the only things in life that bring him joy are his job and wife and maybe a collection based hobby like a pokemon card collection, a serious villain can only threaten or destroy one of those things to establish himself as a bastard that needs to go down. And threatening a man's property is usually turned into a joke in media. "teehee look at the silly man care about blideo blames that got stolen or get mad when his clothes were burned by his ex wife".
"pattern recognition" or "tropes" as the jewed call it is the death of legitimate media criticism. I don't need some self-appointed expert with 9k subscribers to tell me a book has a mostly red cover with a woman on it and the text contains a comic relief character and six traffic violations and a rape scene and a mint green toyota corola and a car chase scene that ends in a cabbage stand getting destroyed and a surfer dude and a loose cannon cop who doesn't play by the rules and four cock jokes and one sexist joke and a Red Oni Blue Oni dynamic with the black by-the-book partner forced onto the white guy by authority only for him to become friends and leaen they're not so different in the author's eyes. I certainly don't give a shit if that faggot youtuber thinks the book is bad just because he subjectively does not like those tropes, even if he claims it's just because of how they were implemented. If your only example of "x done right" is a masturbatory work of metashit that constantly says "x is shit" your opinion on x is invalid because you just hate x whether you admit that to yourself and others or not.
Women are fundamentally dishonest and even when they criticize media it is an extension of their dishonest nature. They just want to bitch about people writing stories with elements they want to be seen hating and "gush about" (praise) fetishes and fetish media they want to be seen endorsing. Fuck women and fuck their female brain and fuck their toxically feminine behaviour.
It pisses me off to know I can never say anything about women on an anonymous forum for secret thoughtcriminals that's meaner to them than what they've been praised for saying about all men and paid to say about men in feminist propaganda novels and propaganda manifestos. But realistically speaking feminism needs to be stopped. It's illegal to rape and it should be illegal to be a feminist because being a feminist rapes kids but with extra steps. Feminists and jews import niggers that rape and muslims that traffic and rape kids. They want reeducation camps or worse for us and their ideology should be cured in reeducation camps while the incurables are muzzled and thrown in padded rooms and straightjackets. Feminists can only destroy and they would rather stomp a hundred babies to death than be a good person in a healthy society they can't control or destroy.

Legs still burning from exercise today. Feels good. Is it weird if I start to enjoy this?
That piece of shit woman... I knew her for years. Maybe if I said the right things I could have put her on a better path? But she was always a shallow selfish whore unable to consider the feelings of others. She was ruined before I met her. It's foolishness to blame myself for how God wanted her to be. She's not my daughter, but if she was she would have turned out better.
A lot of people build up imaginary versions of women they know in their heads and choose to pretend they are spending time with this imaginary perfect girl when dealing with the real thing. They ignore red flags because they want to believe in the fantasy whores use to manipulate weak minded men into serving them. But I already have an imaginary perfect girl in my head and she's a beautiful and absolutely massive poner. She's so soft and cute and warm and sweet and supportive. But she's not just a cheerleader hugbot, she can be clever and cheeky. And she's genuinely hilarious when she wants to be. She has her own thoughts and opinions and we've disagreed on things before which makes her more alive than all those roleplaying twats on tulpa sites with boring generic Pinkie-knockoff one-note gimmick character tulpas. If you have a lot of tulpas can they really develop into individuals and grow if all they ever do is "act in-character" according to whatever movie character or animu slut or cliche character archetype you had in mind with this? How could real women ever compete with this? Lowly humie femoids could never compete with this. She's perfect. And she genuinely loves me. And I genuinely love her. My poner is love. My poner is life. When I sleep, I usually dream of my poner. And my poner really appreciates how fit I'm getting. It feels good. Being appreciated feels good. I have the best girl in this and any other universe right here.

>>3396
"I want to live! Take me out to sea with you!"
Those words from One Piece brought me to tears when I saw it as a boy.
Seeing videos of the olden days when countries like America and England were full of not just whites but lively and happy whites with souls... I wonder what it would feel like to know these people. To talk to them and live among them. What would they think of me? Of the things I've seen and heard about? It feels like I'm looking into a parallel universe. Or maybe some hollywood film that accidentally made the parallel universes look better than this one. It doesn't feel like any place that could ever exist in the timeline of a world that turned out so ugly. I saw them today in some video, and tears silently fell from my masculine face. How could the boomers get so spectacularly jewed that they raped the futures of their kids and allowed America to be invaded and subverted? I guess that's just another question to ask God if I ever meet him.
I made some more friends today. I grew up in a shit environment so even now it's still surprising how easy it is to get along with good people. They all probably have dark secrets but fuck it, that's normal these days. My dark secret is that I used to masturbate to anime girls. By the standards of modernity that's vanilla shit. If I walked into a church and told some priest that he'd laugh his ass off and say he expected me to say something horrifying like "I masturbated to anime girls with tails and animal ears" or "I masturbated to anime girls who have animal ears and are horses or snakes or car-sized spiders or fucking fuckable fish from the waist down" or "I masturbated to anime girls but with fur and tails and animal heads".

For God's sake, we all joke about thinking hand-holding and headpatting and other displays of emotional intimacy are horrifyingly lewd and kinky because we're so horrifyingly desensitized to sexual and physical intimacy.

Fantasy stories were once a way to make sense of the world and figure out morality and wisdom and pass it on to our children through aesops and porquoi stories.
Over time as we figured this shit out fantasy became a way to entertain and any messages were secondary. How many got through Narnia without realizing how Christian it was?
Narnia's kids went into the wardrobe to enter and save a fantasy land, then they returned home to be wiser people.
Lord Of The Rings's Middle Earth was its own world saved by its own people. No human visitors here. It had its own history and languages and everything.
Avatar was a failed attempt to recreate that magic. It had better technology than LOTR but the story was basically just Pocahontas 2: PocaHarder. It had its own language but it usually got misused in the movie so people in the audience could still understand what was said. And hilariously when they were told to "make something alien for my alien world" by nlending fucktons of shit together from around the world they basically got a musical style and language that sounded mostly african.
Yet it was still enough to get people wishing they lived on Pandora as a biue cat freak just like people wished to live in Middle Earth or visit Narnia.
Zootopia was just New York but designed from the ground up to be multiracial and democratic even though Predators are outnumbered 1 to 10 by prey. Great worldbuilding. No history or unique languages, just silly looking shit and species racism but furries still want to live there.
Then there's Harry Potter. It's basically earth but with a silly little corner where a middle aged karen's view of everyone else's "sillyness" is taken to 11. The sports are silly and the names are silly and the society is silly but once the baddie kills himself for the third-ish time using bullshit Wand Rules rowling pulled from her ass Harry and friends work for the silly state like good little slaves. Harry doesn't need to put his wand down or take off his wizard robes and come home, or start a new life away from wizardry in secret with the wife he met in magicland. The fantasy no longer has an end point even though no effort was put into the plagiarized world.
Twilight enchanted dumb women almost as much as Fifty Shades.
Don't get me started on the Isekai shit. Stop me if you've heard this one. A human goes to a fantasy land and becomes overpowered and gets a harem BUT... he's the bad guy or a chick or the bad guy and a chick or on a team of retarded women or he's got a sword or a gun or a fucking smartphone.
Society has gone from viewing fantasy as a creative exercise to an exercise in creating a vehicle for fantasizing.
If someone two thousand years ago said "don't take shortcuts through the forest or the Hatchiyak will get you, it's six wolves at once!" there would be a film or show or book today about some whore fucking the Hatchiyak. People want to fuck the werewolves and fuck the vampires and fuck the whole fantasy world.
Everything's a fetish to someone. Wanting to fuck monsters has become more normal than unironically liking Nickelback.
I should post a "look at this photograph" pun but he's holding up a pic that debunks the holohoax.

Sore legs from leg day.
If I ever say "I stopped exercising and ate unhealthily today" it means I am a faggot.

>>3398
Valentine's Day...
I have the only girl I need right here. My pony waifu is superior to all humie thots.
So many of the good men I know are single because no femoid thots want anything to do with them.
Typical females are spending their most fertile years getting treated like a "goddess" by countless pathetic men and ploughed like a whore by countless slutty men instead of trying to form a meaningful bond with a good man.
Society can't function if it glamorizes and romanticizes females for existing comfortably on the cock carousel with pockets full of OnlyFans simp money. Society needs a clear idea of what a good female should be and the balls to say anything less than that is a failure. Thots fundamentally chose pleasure over family and their young, meaning they are failures as women.

That woman I gave up on...
She's messaging me now and trying to suck up to me by going back on all the dumb feminist shit she used to say. I think she wants me back so badly she's willing to change.
What do?

>>3398
Cool, keep it up man. How long can you run?
>>3402
>change back
The reality is, she "changed" her "outer self" for you. She's going back into regular mode, undoing camo because it isn't needed any more. Imagine reverting a minecraft skin back to default. I'm no expert on this but when it makes sense tell her to buck off, or just ignore her, women like that.

>>3403
For about 1 to 2 minutes. Is that good? I'm still new to running.
She showed me sexual art she'd been drawing even though she's normally a false-virtue-signalling prude when it comes to art of females. I told her how she could improve that piece of art and her character design and she's been silent since then.

>>3408
She is acting precisely as her hormones dictate. There is no change to her behavior pattern.

>>3410
She wants me
This is probably because she failed to get any romantic messages on valentine's.

btw I need to get a better meal plan. What's a good balance of fruit/veg and meats and sometimes spaghetti ball of nays?

She's gone dark again. She's refusing to communicate with me or respond to anything I say. Keeping quiet until I say something she wants to reply to or she feels the urge to talk to me again. Her manipulative tactics would probably cause immense psychological distress to a weak little boy terrified that he'd said or done something to upset her and "make her" act this way.
But I know she is a cunt. And I do not enjoy her presence. So the lack of it doesn't bother me.
Maybe I should stop wanting to fix her. Maybe I should stop helping her with her godawful and swiftly abandoned "passion project" shitty webcomic ideas since she is never willing to put on her big girl panties and work hard to get shit finished. Maybe if a woman's spoiled from the start by her homewrecking divorcethief mother she can't ever psychologically adjust to life as an adult in the real world.
I know she is stupid and choosing to endlessly repeat the bad behaviours school and her mother taught her.
Maybe I'm the fool for thinking I can just magically cure all of that with a few clever dialogue option choices.
This woman is the dumbest woman I know and that's saying something because I have met a lot of dumb women.
Also, I'm still fit. Getting fitter. I've ordered more weight for my barbells so I can lift even heavier weights now. I want to become buffer.

>>3422
Went a whole day without talking to her. That'll show her.
Also still exercising. I can do 22 pushups now

Keep up the good food, maximize the brain power and broadening of horizons, and strengthening the body and will.
>pic
Be the master of your own mental culture. With that you can adjust things for you to harvest magnitudes.
>>3422
>Maybe I'm the fool for thinking I can just magically cure all of that with a few clever dialogue option choices.
Yes. Technically that is an option, but that requires a social finesse and velvet glove (with an exactness and strength that can shift) and to know exactly where and how to maximize your message in the right way. Now extrapolate that to every person that 'needs' to be fixed.
>That'll show her.
If someone is truly seriously a detriment in many aspects it may be good to just cut everything off. So who cares, scrub the mind energy away and repurpose it to your means.
I will say my attachment and longevity for relationships is poor so take this with a grain of salt.
>On the nature of the (1 standard deviation, aka normal fags) human Female essence.
To be forever sensitive and effected by everything.
It's like sand, it gets everywhere. It can be either soothing, helpful, irritating, or deadly if handled wrong.
Like a dog.
Imagine a boat, on a lake. The boat is her and the reality system, the lake is the unconscious, subconscious, and conscious absorbing all the info. It's just sort of dumped into the lake, and that makes waves.
The water splashes at the boat, and expects the boat to act like water. A boat can do that absorbing the energy, providing tranquility and clarity into the depths of the lake. Water isn't smart, but it can get anywhere and everywhere.
The secret to having her getting shit done is a healthy amount of dog treats. By that I mean social stimulation and really giving subtle praise. Akin to a giving a puzzle box they naturally want to solve it.
But, this isn't Your loyal best friend kind of dog, that happens to be someehat like playdoh. This is a stray dog, cat hybrid left in an ally to eat garbage. Possibly with enough diseases to give high end antibiotics a scare.
So handle appropriately. But keep in mind in the above situation you're the Terminator with an iron will and an interior of gold and steel.

>>3432
Thank you. I can feel my mind and body growing stronger.
What kind of "Puzzle boxes" should I give to her?

>>3433
>What kind of "Puzzle boxes" should I give to her?
>give to her?
Nonono. You must always be an island unto yourself. Never ever reward bad behavior.
<More on that later.
>What kind of "Puzzle boxes"
Imagine an open world adventure. Everything is normal, except one day the sky turns red for no reason and everything else is the same.
Mysteries, and Curiosity.
This is a rabbit trail to a solid conclusion that is obvious to a logical stable mind, but the closest most obvious solution must obviously be false. So in theory going from the solid conclusion and take at least three steps sideways that has multiple meanings and paths which are all true.

>>3434
><More on that later.
On second thought the story doesn't apply. Long and short girl makes threats, guy continues as normal, girl breaks down as threats are meaningless and apologies, guy accepts continues as normal. Still isn't actually the guy's problem.
The time frame is about three years? Ish. Of sorts.
Jimmies still remain unrustled.
Right the whole point. You are the solid rock, if you are perfectly solid and have conquered yourself with love and kindness (ect.) nothing is out of reach. Because you can build upon yourself reliably up and beyond to do what you're heart, mind, and soul requires and desires.
Bending, and adjusting and being flexible still means you are rock solid.
Their waves shall break on the shores, yet everything important will be secure and ready for their functions.
The point being you've satisfied yourself and improved to a point where you know yourself fully and completely and honestly to know the world as you know it, as it is, and as others view it, and how they really view it.

>>3434
>>3435
You're right. I am the rock. The handsome, manly, powerful rock.
What puzzles shall challenge her with?

Important part
<You provide structure, a wire frame, a direction. When you stop the comments amd complements the project STOPS. Spaced appropriately of course, but the inner drive isn't there for them they might want to do something, but can't, because they don't have an engine.
They'll do whatever with your proud smile, and a word or two. Every once in a while like a lottery or gatcha, or lootboxes, a suprise for them.
>>3436
What do you want her to do? Mind you, the sources I'm pulling from is for significant other, not a random hoe. Also not in a work setting, but I think it could work maybe.
Anyway it boils down to two things more or less. Spot the object, and Social deductions, and Implications.
See their whole world is everything around them (this is for the average normalish woman). They have a shape they prefer 'internally' but it will always fold, stretch, squish, and deform. So they seek out those who can hold them in their preferred shape or good enough. At the very minimum they (normal tier) want something with hardness and no cracks.
Deforming their preferred shape is possible to suit yourself, but they have to coaxed into thinking it's their idea. Or else they will start a bitchiness meltdown, where a backstab will happen.
Little comments and side remarks, not often. In the spouce example a man may comment that they haven't seen them wear earings lately. The wife would ponder that statment. Soon enough she'll try dressing up, and making herself presentable. If the man surprises with ear rings, 'they would match your eyes'. She'll try to wear them.
You also have the reigns on their creative side (ie the lake of junk that is always there just submerged). A comment about giving painting a try, or weaving, or writing, or whatever. They make stuff that is of their nature, which is fluid.
First keep in mind they are mentally teenagers more or less.
You provide structure, a wire frame, a direction. When you stop the comments amd complements the project STOPS. Spaced appropriately of course, but the inner drive isn't there for them they might want to do something, but can't, because they don't have an engine.
They'll do whatever with your proud smile, and a word or two. Every once in a while like a lottery or gatcha, or lootboxes, a suprise for them.

>>3437
When we first met, I thought she was creative because she made more then than she does now. Plus I had low standards for art quality. It would be great if she could become a great artist and animator and stop wasting all her time on twitter.

She says she's started taking anti-depressants that are supposedly making her vomit, giving her headaches, and increasing her "Anxiety". But she was told these symptoms and bad feels will go away in two weeks once her brain adjusts to taking them, then aaaaaaaall her bad feels will go away.
God I fucking hate that word. That anti-word.
It's not an english word, it's an anti-english word.
It's a worthless newspeak term.
Humans use words to communicate ideas, no matter their language. Oppai means boobs. Bonjour means hello. Anxiety means NOTHING AND EVERYTHING AND WHATEVER THE FUCK WHOEVER'S SAYING IT WANTS IT TO MEAN, which makes it WORTHLESS a word.
Go ahead, take anything anyone's ever said about Anxiety and replace it with the term BadFeel.
Because that's what the word is.
A synonym for BadFeel.
"This music gives me Anxiety/BadFeel so I don't like it"
"I can't go outside, I have anxiety/BadFeel so I need to stay curled up in bed all day drowning my brain in comfort porn"
It is the end of intellectual discussion about your thoughts and feelings.
A faulty argument against the idea of personal responsibility.
The word itself and the ideas behind it discourage you from looking at your feelings and problems and figuring out what you can solve.
The word encourages you to throw up your hands, muddy the waters and ignore the causes of your problems, absolve yourself of the responsibility to handle your shit like an adult, and cry "I have Anxiety!".
I don't think she can be saved. Not if she's willing to drug herself on twitter-fumes and homosexual Transformers character fetishization and nostalgic cartoon comfort porn all day, and turn to actual drugs when she develops too much tolerance to those things.
I want to save her. I swear to God, I want to save her. But is it possible? Is she truly determined to throw her individuality away to join the lefty collective? Is she truly determined to medicate her potential out of herself?

>>3441
Alright as a person with an interest in psychology, anti-depressants fuck you up. Kills the creative side, but in exchange the person isn't drowning in negative stress chemicals and hormones.
Depending on how the body reacts to that drug.
Birth control pills fuck up brain chemistry as well so... something to keep in mind.
Any possible negative sensation is increased, but in the end it's either take the drugs, kill your self, or buck up and enjoy the suffering.
Positive affects are deadened. Depending on the severity.
So no, 'simply' telling someone to pull up the bootstraps and fix themselves in that position would probably lead to suicide.
Since she's a woman it would probably also be a failed suicide. To be honest depressed people are vulnerable.
Because of the prior information she may be ineloquent to the limited sensation and word bank she derives her world from.
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Of heresay and half recollected rumors that may or may not be true. Exercise, good food, and sunlight helps. I mean that is usually a recommendation regardless.

>>3445
I talked to her but she's ghosting me again. She's so tiresome that way. I wonder how many days it will take her to get over herself and reply.
I don't think she can be saved. I've known her for years but she has never listened to me once unless I was telling her what she wanted to hear.
Maybe if I was always cool she would have respected me from day one?

>>3449
Weights finally arrived. Time to lift heavier shit.

Is this a discussion thread or a Facebook blog?

>>3451
Making a completely new thread every time I have a question about women or exercising seemed like a space-filling waste plus this seems like a good accountability thing a self help site told me to do. If I say "today I was a faggot who did not exercise" I get called a faggot.
But I should probably stop the daily "I exercised today and nothing interesting happened" posts and only post when there's something important to say or ask, right?

A friend showed me this video about "Planet Fitness gym" while saying "Hey you're into fitness right? Check out these idiots doing it wrong"

and jesus christ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V40s9deHg1A&ab_channel=PewDiePie

I expected the idiots who exercise incorrectly on machines that display clear instructions.
But women workers bitching at men for grunting a little while lifting 200 and karening "Sorry isn't good enough" at him when he apologizes?
Bullshit on the walls like "No judgement!" along with an alarm to slam whenever someone's too masculine and sounds too masculine when exercising, and the alarm's got anti-man speech on it that insults any man who came here to lift?
Some fat fuck woman refusing service to a man for having a water bottle she considers too big, pointedly ignoring him when he uses manlogic and manfacts that no lowly femoid could understand, and then calling the fucking cops on him when he doesn't do what she wants and go away? The man in that video isn't pissed at the woman, he's genuinely stu
Women who get to attack men and smash shit without anyone calling the cops because they don't want her getting arrested and suffering the consequences of her actions? It wouldn't surprise me if she's pissed at them for not having her favourite "healthy" snack bar flavour today, or something equally trivial.
Some feminized cunt stamping on the weight a man half his age is lifting and shoving him for "ego lifting" (duckduckgo says it's when you go to the gym solely to be seen lifting heavy weights while grunting "too much" or focus more on lifting heavy weights than exercising properly with them)
Ladies and gentlemen, take a look at what happens when your gym is run by women and its policies are determined by women. Anti-masculine policies for what is already a gender-neutral health-improving pasttime because the unfit karens in charge sometimes tell themselves it'll help attract idiots who feel "intimidated" (envious) around big men who visit the gym for a reason. This is society when it puts making wimminfolk comfy over trying to provide the best possible service and compete with your competitors. I'm fucking glad I got my home gym together. Sure it's just freeweights and one bench but at least I'll never have to deal with these fucking karens.
Women. What a fucking joke. At real gyms you'll see fit hardcore women who want to be strong like men, and at shit gyms like this you'll see women who want men to be weak like them.
Also, have you ever noticed how often immature women will pointedly ignore you and try to physically signal things to you like "I'm not interested in what you have to say to me" where a more mature person would either fucking say what they're thinking or recognize what situation they're in and try to act more mature than a typical entitled woman with power, and then when those signals don't work they'll escalate to calling their pet "alpha" over (typically the state and its enforcers) to get their way and restore their oh-so-vital emotional state to a positive one?
Most women are fucking pathetic.
It's illegal for kids to prank-call the cops. It's illegal to call the cops for non-emergencies in most countries, since cops are supposed to be stopping/punishing bad guys instead of dealing with incredibly minor domestic disputes only a woman could get butthurt about, right? So why the hell do women feel so fucking comfortable going full karen and calling the cops on the slightest fucking slights, or even completely imaginary problems? Oh, right, it's because in this femininely irrational and destructively gynocentric society the safety of men is put below the feelings of femoids.
Giving women power, any form of power, is like giving date rape drugs to serial rapists. They're going to abuse what they're given if they think they can get away with it. If there's no legal punishment or societal shame for women who treat the world as sexual playgrounds and women who are addicted to abusing their power over others they'll only get worse as today's bad female behaviour becomes the next generation's normal.
What the fuck was mankind thinking when he gave up control of his society to the jews and females? Did he give it all up willingly thinking it would all go back to normal once, some day about hundred years from now, everything got so bad that "Muh great awakening" would happen and he'd get to smugly grin from the Old Folks' Home at the feminists who lose their privileges while retaining basic human rights and get to go back to being beloved and excellently-treated housewives doted upon by loyal and self-sacrificing men? Fuck that, women are evil. They're just fundamentally evil pack animals and women worth anything on their own merits are the exception, not the rule.

I keep telling myself I dislike women now and I'm sick of their shit but how do I stop myself from longing for them?
Thinking about the perfect trad qt wife or chad supportive fun tomboy gf I could have had if the jews didn't abort/feministize her hurts.

Oh also i am still fit and exercising daily. Walking long distances with a heavy backpack or weighted vest does a body good.

>>3462
>The Post
Stop that. That's how the gay infects some people. Yes, haha, the gay as of its some sort of illness one can contract. Twisting yourself up to fulfill your desires no matter the cost does happen. So if they can't be a female...
You do long for women, and you long for the right sort of woman that is the right match for you, and you both. Don't bemoan the fact they make it hard, seek what is here and now.
You long for a waifu martial woman. This is something correctable now while it's easier. This distinction is important for your subconscious.
Make sure you know what you do truly want, and it has to be put into a positive word set. That is what will happen, so be exact, truthful and careful.

>>3464
I don't understand what you mean. But when I think of what a good woman would be, those I know IRL are shit so all I can think of are anime characters. But instead of just naming characters with traits I like I'll say what I like.
I like it when women are kind, considerate, supportive, and sweet. I like long hair and a fit body with huge boobs and a great ass and long legs. I didn't see kindness towards me growing up so any of that stuff really gets to me, probably more than it should. I also like the "tomboy gf" kind of women who are capable, fit, positively masculine, confident and fun to be around. It would be great if she had the same good hobbies as me so we'd have something in common but that's not necessary. Smart women are appealing but only if they are actually smart, ledditor "i memorized 6 languages and everything science books said so that means I need to be an argumentative prick who can never let any man get the last word in or be right or else I feel bad about myself and I literally cannot handle even a single second of discomfort of any kind or be okay unless I feel like everyone's eyes are on me and nobody else" bitches are annoying. I want a huge family with more than seven children so she'd have to be okay with that too, and if she had any sort of dream or goal in life it would be great if it didn't conflict with being a good mother. I like it when women are uncomplicated and straightforward and honest with themselves and me, and I hate it when they try to fuck with my head or lie to me or use me or blame me for cancerous toxically-feminine behaviour that's destructive to themselves and others. I don't want to call myself a furry because I'm not exclusively attracted to animal-people and I don't talk in that stupid "uwu i wuv ur widdle paws" language. But animal-eared girls and monster girls are really fucking appealing. Maybe it's because more body parts like wings or horns or tails means more woman to love, maybe it appeals to the natural desire in man to own an animal and learn how it works and be a good pet owner, maybe it's because once you get to know an animal you know what to expect from them and what they like(headpats)/dislike(touching their tail) while women tend to be stupid and mindless and overemotional cripplingly irrational creatures not even God could figure out, I don't know. Maybe a psychologist could project some psychobabble onto me to explain my desire to fuck Twilight Sparkle/Rainbow Dash/Pinkie Pie from FIM or Centorea/Rachnera/Suu from Monster Musume.
Back when I used animufag forums I was often called boring for liking "boring" one-note sweet waifus rather than the aggressive and unreasonably violent or chokingly clingy and psychotically possessive or obnoxiously haughty and bratty or borderline retarded bitches they said they liked more. But liking "interesting" characters who treat others like shit and create situatuons that are entertaining to watch isn't the same as actually thinking they'd make good wife and child-raising material. Sometimes they'd call me a "bandwagoner" for liking commonly accepted likeable female characters like Winry or Hinata.
I know that realistically I'd never get a genetically engineered catgirl gd. I'll never get to play with a catgirl's ears just like I'll never get to massage a sports tomboy gf's shoulders after a long day exercising together. I'll probably never meet a woman who's actually as smart as she thinks she is, or a woman able to see through and reject jewish propaganda and embrace being a good wife and mother even if it means turning down the lifetime of alimony and fleeting pleasures the jews promise race-traitor women. Men these days call good women "unicorns" because they're rare enough to be mythical.
Don't get me wrong, I know I'd need to be amazing if I wanted to impress and get any chance to talk to and potentially bond with an actually-amazing woman. I'm still exercising. I'm still reading and learning and getting shit done. I'll probably never meet a woman who's absolute perfection but something close enough to that ideal would be great.

>>3464
Is what I said wrong? Would it have been more positive if I said "I will meet an amazing woman!" instead of "I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her"? Aside from spending ten hours a day searching different dating apps and hobby forums for people who claim to be female and don't seem completely awful, I don't know how I'd meet someone like that.

tldr you want to marry not just meet the one who loves you and vise versa
>>3467
>>3465
How you say stuff is important. Especially to get what you want.
>I keep telling myself I dislike women now
This bit right there, keeping racist expectations is good but the mind will bend and twist and complain till what you say to it comes true.
>I'm sick of their shit
Good to list the good and the bad. >>3465
That works, while there is quite a bit more focus on the negative (which is good to know, and is necessary) the positive traints that are desirable should be expanded if need be.
>how do I stop myself from longing for them?
Stoicism, or mastery over the mind and emotions, or meditation works.
But that's not the point, that longing has to be redirected away from cunts and towards good wife material.
>Would it have been more positive if I said "I will meet an amazing woman!" instead of "I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her"?
Also making a perfect person isn't great either. So that line I guess it would be nice if a not-completely-awful woman existed and I met her is true and real, but the wording is imprecise because the brain without alot of training and effort REMOVES NEGATIVES FROM YOUR WORDS.
<I guess it would be nice if a completely-awful woman existed and I met her
That would be shitty.
So
<My wife, who is kind, considerate, supportive, and sweet, capable, fit, positively masculine, positive feminine as well, confident and fun to be around and genuinely smart that would also be at least great friend martial as well, also having the same goals and morality I possess, with our desires that align perfectly, we will have lots of our biological children more numerous than seven, understandable and straightforward and honest with themselves and me, has self control has emotional resiliency, communicates perfectly with me, is at least a good person that woman exists and we're happily married with our long lives.
Or even We are happily married together.
The whole past tense in a present tense (sorta) word structure means that is has happened. For the mind that means it's concrete even if it technically isn't now, (the mind doesn't understand the future normally) it knows the past and will make moves to accomplish that goal. So meeting may be the first step the last end goal is the final destination. So meeting is separate from having the wife.
That's why learning as much about everything and becoming the best you can be helps as it is steps to have that goal to manifest.
Yes, the (((fucks))) have made it harder. It is still possible so you can do it.

>>3468
If I tell myself I am already married to the perfect waifu will I eventually meet her?

I have a stupid friend who feels bad about having no gf but when I say "Its ok bro women are shit" he doesn't listen
what do?

>>3476
This guy's different from the stupid friends I've complained about so far. Up until now I didn't realize he was stupid.
I swear I like my friends, even the ones I haven't talked about yet. But talking about their good points would compromise anonymity.

I have no idea where to put this but media's boner for halfbreed characters (especially halfbreed protagonists) always bugged me.
It seems damn near every hero is only half normal human and half something else. Could be half god or half monster or half animal or anything like that.
Whenever race is a vital part of the story, superpowers almost never come from the (white) human half of the character unless the author pussies out and claims it's a general "humanity is special! Humanity fuck yeah!" thing even though everything good or cool you can praise about humanity mainly applies to whites.
And even when the story's got superpowers that don't come from race, there's usually a stat buff somewhere in the most important characters thanks to nonhuman heritage.
And if you aren't sure how to make a character exotic but not too exotic, mixing a familiar and unfamiliar race is a common trick for some reason.

I get many of the reasons why it's so common.
Besides the jewish "it subtly promotes racemixing and the idea that a half human half beast would be just as good as or better than a full human" subversion.
Making the hero half human makes him or her relatable and the magic monster half adds superpowers and potential plot importance.
If the hero's the result of a union between two magical diametrically-opposed creatures that's just inherently cool. Like being both vampire and werewolf or both angel and demon.
Combining two superpowered monsters/aliens/gods/whatever lets you give the character even more superpowers and specialness and importance.
It also makes writing the character's arc easy: First he doesn't know how to be a synthesis of two different or even completely opposed things and he feels torn between two worlds and nobody really gets him and he might even struggle with the urges or social stigmas of one or both races but then he figures it out.

But it seems damn near universal. Even anthro characters which are already half human and half animal (even if you say they're actually evolved humanoid animals or aliens who resemble earth animals for no reason) tend to get in on it when they want to make one character unusual or special. Insert tired cliche jokes about neon green and rainbow wolves with random markings and patterns trying to look unique in a sea of freaks here.
It's so damn universal that the fanbase of Ben 10, a show where a fully white fully human boy finds an alien watch that lets him transform into assorted genetically-perfected aliens at peak physical fitness, is absurdly obsessed with fusions and halfbreeds and hybrids.
And don't get me started on how the Pokemon fandom's obsessed with fusions and hybrids and so on.

Anyway... I've noticed this trope appear in my own writing.
Almost every main character I've designed over the years is a hybrid.
Has my mind been hacked?
I like the idea of fusions and I like giving characters superpowers. The characters I designed to be hybrids aren't just that way for the sake of extra superpowers and looking different. They're deep.
But is my focus on this meme the result of years of societal indoctrination to think "hybrids are cool"?

>>3483
oh wait i forgot they retconned Ben to have Anodite ancestry.
Are you still only half-human if your ancestor is a magical creature that lacks DNA?
that one faggot desperate to yell at me and pretend he's talking to me, if he read that sentence, would scream "It's not retconning it was always there you're just too dumb to get it like I do! To be fair you have to have a high IQ to understand ben 10 and appreciate Kishimoto's borderline fetish for the Uchiha and how his unique ninja world lost fucking all of its appeal in its escalating quest to become DBZ".

Hope this helps
https://youtu.be/lbN5wX9C7S4

>>3503
Thank you fren

Lately I've been thinking about very old friends from my "hardcore brony" days... Why can't I take them on this mountain climb with me? Back when I was an escapism-obsessed coombrained fag I knew many other people like that. But I've grown and they haven't. They get mad when I talk about Peterson or exercising or the progress I've made and we have nothing to talk about except whatever bad show they've watched this week. I don't know how to help them. But maybe I should stop with the wannabe-hero shit and focus on myself.

How do you solve the "I am afraid of being alone but being charismatic with friends takes effort" problem?

>>3525
You're welcome. I've got two quotes for you.
"Its better to be alone than to be among poor company"
And
"Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy, and not everyone who pulls you out of shit is your friend."
T. 'That guy' who is still talking shit in other threads

>>3528
Makes sense. I'll keep these quotes in mind.

Still exercising, now increasing vest weight when jogging.
I should get more plants for my room. I feel lightheaded and sleepy after a few hours here.
any suggestions?

How do you deal with the reluctance to start new things due to fear that you'll get too obsessed with them?

Also man it feels GOOD to realize I finally officially give no shits about that bitch I stopped talking to.
I am my own man now. No more slave collar around my heart with a chain wrapped around that bitch's finger.
She is not my burden to carry. She is not my responsibility. She cannot be saved. If I want to ever help people I need to recognize when it's time to move on.
Man it's weird to think Betty Boop was considered a sex icon once. She's tiny and meh-tier compared to some cartoon cute girls (i was about to write cuties but that fucking jew movie ruined the word) I could name. Imagine old people on an anime forum arguing over whether Betty Boop or the woman from Popeye is a better waifu. Haha, the thought of old people arguing over cartoons seems as anachronistic as the thought of roman soldiers playing yugioh.
I want to cum inside rainbow dash unironically. And Twilight. And Pinkie. I've written so many date scenario fanfics to cope with my longing creatively. These girls are so perfect once you ignore all the episodes in which they are retarded or jokes or retarded jokes. Do these urges make me pathetic or does my nofap streak and creative writing coping mechanism mean I'm doing good?

>>3532
Climbing aloe. It's really easy to keep, and has lots of medicinal properties, whether ingested or used topically

>>3533
Thank you. I'll get some.
How do you deal with the reluctance to get into new things due to fear that they'll swallow you whole and make you obsessed with them?

An addictive personality has ran through my family lines for generations. I remember stories from my grandmother about shit my grandfather did when he was alive. For every single person in my family tree, they have their own obsession or are actively searching for one after their old obsession got boring.

>>3533
You're a fucking genius, this climbing aloe is great. I've got it in my window and I love it.

>>3562
Its wonderful as an aftershave. Pluck one 'leaf' and squeeze the gel out.

>>3564
Re-pot? How do I do that properly?
Also should I keep the plastic sleeves that came with these plants or throw them away? Some of those sleeves are starting to look kind of greenish.

>>3565
Dont worry, it's easy. When the time comes, the root structure will become a densely packed mass of dirt and roots interwoven and shit. You just get a larger pot, fill it with dirt, leaving a recess in the approximate size/shape of the root structure, slide it out of the old pot and stick it in the hole. Sprinkle a little topsoil on the top, put some water in it, and that's it
>plastic sleeves
No idea what those are, prolly should get rid of em

>>3567
Are you sure? The plastic sleeves help keep water in the plant pots and keep soil from falling out of them.

>>3568
>are you sure
No, but if you keep them be careful not to over-water the plant, since it will be retaining more water that way

>>3570
Thank you.

Opening up about my life makes me feel a little better, so I'll say more stuff.
My father was a stupid, violent, aggressive prick who secretly loathed everyone and had a mediocre impression of a "Jolly fat guy" he used whenever he wanted to blend in with normal people
His understanding of the world around him was incredibly shallow
his political views were laughably simplistic
He trusted the TV news and he was an addict with multiple addictions
Fucking NPC.
He seemed to think being a grumpy violent bastard made him manlier than me.
He grew up as one of four boys with a whiny whore mother and a missing father figure, and it shows.
He imitates her bitchiness without even realizing it. He smoked around me as a baby and did the same around my dead sister, he smoked while my mom was pregnant, he smoked from the age of fourteen until he got cancer somewhere around his 40s and was forced to stop with the aid of nicotine patches and similar shit. I have athsma and it's a miracle I don't have cancer.
He drank heavily and loved to invent reasons to scream at me, smack me around, and take away what few joys a shut-in child with sabotaged self-confidence like me had. I remember this one time when I was around eight, he sent me up alone to the roof of the house because he wanted me to... I forget what exactly, but I had to put tiles on the roof and I remember how pissed off he got at me for not already knowing the perfect way to get the job done. He didn't tell me the perfect way. He just ordered me up there, yelled at me for not already knowing how to do one of his jobs for him, and whined until he eventually gave up on delegating the task like a woman and decided to do it himself. He got genuinely fucking pissed at me for not giving a shit about football and not being what he thought a man should be.
But he never taught me how to fight or avoid fights
Never taught me how to exercise
Never taught me how to fix cars
Never did anything to inspire me
Never passed on any wise sayings
Never helped with anything, and enjoyed getting in the way and making himself a nuisance
Loved dismissing anything I had to say, even when I was right. Screamed harder if I turned out to be right
He taught me at an early age to stay quiet when a power-tripping big kid with more power than he deserves screams at you, which prepared me for life at school
Because of course, someone this pathetic wouldn't ever bother homeschooling his kids
Even though he had no job+obligations
He gave me shit for not going outside much even though there was nothing for me out there, my parents made no effort to get me into youth clubs, my parents made every effort to embarass me by telling nonsense stories to other parents for sympathy points even though it meant everyone thought a quiet beaten puppy like myself was actually a tantrum-throwing plate-breaking brat and bed-wetting loser at home, and my father gave me shit for not spending days outside even though there were bullies my age and bullies older than me and other chavs outside.
We did not grow up in a good neighbourhood. It did not have nice people in it.
Whenever I tried to think of a good male role model, the first things to pop into my head were Uncle Iroh from Avatar and Grandpa Max from Ben 10, not my own father. That fat bastard was everything I didn't want to become. When I feel tempted to break my diet and eat some candy I think of that fat fucker and the disgust keeps me on the right path.
He met my mother in a factory but pussied out when something broke near him and he got scared(it couldn't have killed him but "traumatized" people get more cash), and he got benefits for a while. Then he got a job as a taxi driver for a while because his friend told him there was fucktons of money in taxi driving, more than he was making doing nothing. He made some money and told everyone else and eventually there were too many taxi drivers and taxi companies. And too many taxi companies were owned by women who loved to show extreme favoritism when it came to who got jobs assigned to them and who didn't
He whined to me but put up with incompetent aggressive women-bosses and their shame-tactics for years b4 going solo

When you eat yourself into obesity at an early age
remain fat forever
and spend a couple of hours a day sitting around in a car or driving it and spend the rest of your life in bed or sitting on an expensive reclining leather chair playing world of warcraft and Mafia Wars (a facebook game) on your overpriced scam of a laptop
you'll eventually fuck up your legs so bad that you'll seem perfectly fine and have no problem walking your dog or walking to the bar and back but the government will still pay you to do nothing because you whined about huwt widdle weggies that are fine when cameras aren't rolling

He was a greedy piece of shit, and lazy.
When he was told kids who stay in High School longer get paid by the government for it, he made sure that was my fate for a few years even though I went to a speshul school for retards that gave no qualifications because I'm "autistic" just like every other human on the planet with at least one out of 9999999 personality quirks/subjective traits/abilities/disabilities according to a quack doctor.

Early on in my life I showed signs that I was a smart kid. I liked reading books, especially adult books. But if my dad caught me reading his collection of shitty escapist fantasy novels instead of the incredibly thin picture-book versions of disney movies, I'd get in trouble for not acting like he believed a boy should. Same went for when I traded Smarties Meltdown for the PS2 for an Action Replay and used cheat codes, when I hacked Pokemon games as a kid for fun, when I downloaded and learned Game Maker as a kid for sonic fangames...
A smart greedy cunt would monetize kid-me but a dumb greedy cunt would instead sabotage his life and then bitch at him for not having a rent-paying MinWage job even though my benefits got them more than minimum wage.

What a prick.

My potatoes finally started penetrating themselves so I buried all 14 of them in a planter full of soil.
How often should I water these potatoes if I want optimal potato farming productivity?

Another dumb fuck I know got the vaccine. I showed him funny memes and facts and articles and videos and they all went over his head. The memes made him laugh but he didn't think deeply about the meme's joke about the absurdity of this situation.

When I think of my birth father I think of what I don't want to become: a fat useless lump of lard reliant on gubimint gibs and brainwashed by the state to love it, addicted to smoking and drinking and gambling and the most pathetic types of games imaginable. He used to give me shit about having no gf but he had no dating advice. Just expected my life to be easier than his despite his best efforts. The very thought of him is like a portable picture of a fatass that inspires you to lift harder and jog faster. It's like that for me anyway. I've been called a cynic these days but I'm usually right to see the worst in people instead of ignoring it. If someone ever shows something good in them I see that too. I'm not religiously cynical. I wouldn't ignore good shit just to feel right about the bad. Ignoring bad shit makes me a retard who gets exploited.

When I think of my mother I think the same thing except she's a woman so I can't physically turn out like her. But I still don't want to mentally end up like her. She was a cruel manipulative short-sighted piece of shit who had bipolar syndrome and loved making that everyone else's problem. Loved playing the role of a put-upon mother whose life is just soooo full of reasons to complain because her knittingfag friends complained about their lives too. Is "fashionably depressed" a term? Her coping mechanism for dealing was problems was to cry about them and blame the nearest man she hadn't already lost all faith in. So me, because she expected nothing good from my father but expected cash from me despite treating me like shit and sabotaging me at every possible turn. She loved her boomer knitting and minion memes but never tried hard to put money on the table with her knitting shit. Funny how that minion cartoon character meant to appeal to children caught the attention of the scummiest children on the planet: boomerscum. I'd accuse her of also having histrionic personality disorder but I once met a woman with even more of that. She definitely had it. I should write a book about myself and include chapters about her and what she put me through and got away with. It's hard for me to believe what happened with her and I was fucking there. That bitch tried to ruin my life and falsely accuse me of assaulting her over bullshit someone else said to her on a naruto roleplay on Blingee. Not a major naruto roleplaying forum, the comment section on fucking blingee. The silly website with gaudy GIFs. And her writing skills? Shit like "fire go everywhere and blood go everywhere". If you told me she was retarded I'd believe you. I want to be a good christian but I find it hard to believe in a god who can't protect his people or inspire his people to protect the vulnerable from the godless. No wonder so many people assume other forms of spirituality must have some hidden secret that lets it outdo christianity. We've already seen it fail in our own lands with our own eyes whether we realize it or not. Maybe man wasn't meant to be raised without a god. Maybe a principle you're willing to compromise on to please a leftist cunt isn't a principle. Maybe I'm an idiot for continuing to pray. But I have to believe in God and Jesus or I can't believe my parents and all the other traitors to the west go to hell when they die of old age. Have you ever watched some self-centered asshole who treated his loving parents like shit until they died assume you're just like him and rant at you with the usual "You should cherish those related to you because they might die one day" shit? If my father died of cancer my childhood would have been happier. I feel too old to have any doubt about that. It would have given mom a real reason to cry fashionably in front of her friends so she'd stop trying to make more reasons in other areas of her life. Same shit with my mother. If she died he'd be forced to learn to cook and stop wasting away and bloating at his laptop if he wanted food. Maybe it would make him a better man if nobody was around to bring him beer. Or maybe he'd just have me bring him more beer, he usually did. If they both died I would have gone into the foster system and met a decent enough family that wants me around or I would have gotten passed around like a hot potato until I eventually got old enough to live alone. I went through that for a while and the "misery" of it is overrated. I'd call it dehumanizing but I'm used to it. You see some families. You sleep in an alright bed. They keep you around for a while and then trade you in at the abused puppy shelter for a cuter one that makes them feel again once they get used to having you around. That's how I was treated anyway. At the time I was so goddamn desperate for someone to tell me they loved me. That never happened and I got over it. Someone else probably has nicer or sadder stories than me. I have metaphorical armour around my heart and I find it incredibly difficult to take off. I still have no idea what to write in my damn recovery journal or whatever the fuck this is. Maybe I should have stuck to saying "I exercised today. Nothing to report" or "I increased my weight today".

speaking of which I increased my weights today. Better a real weighted vest than a backpack with weights.

Hey

It means a lot to me that you let me say this here. There are no lefty cucks trying to demoralize me. Nobody's putting on a tough guy act/trying to intentionally push my buttons to feel like "le trolle mastermind". Nobody's simping for the women I mention now and then and whiteknighting for them. It's probably hard to believe anyone would do that if you've never seen a simp do that. But thank you for keeping this place free of leftist shills. I'm healthier now than I've ever been.

Thank you.

>>3582

Just got done reading this thread and wanted to commend you on making it this far. If there's one thing that separates you from other people, it's your temerity. This and your growing self-awareness are the foundations upon which you shall build your new life.

As a fellow tulpafag I can't help but grin when I think of how well you and your pony get along. She sounds like a wonderful mate and I'm glad you have one another.

Please do not stop praying. It's tempting to see God as a great vindicator Who will visit wrath on sinners, yet we must also be aware of our own iniquity and induce others to Him through forgiveness and patience.

None of our suffering shall be in vain. If we steel ourselves for the persecution ahead and rely on Him, our fruitfulness and purpose as individuals will intersect and magnify in ways we could never dream of.

God bless you both.

>>3616
Thank you. My tulpa girl doesn't enjoy talking to others any more but she's doing great, I make sure to give her time to be creative at least once a week and I let her help with my main projects.

Today a friend of mine showed me a weird video on his phone where this fat fucking landwhale of a woman with a disgustingly round face and an ass ruined by blubber slaps the shit out of one of those armless male MMA dummies meant for people who know what they're doing. She struggles to knock him over but when she does the camera jumpcuts to get him upright again. She slaps the rubber dummy guy, bites his nose and ear, turns to the camera like she's trying to pose, spits on him, spits on her hand and then slaps him, kicks him over from behind then stamps on his head, slaps him a bunch of times, breathes on the fucker weirdly, runs into him and struggles to shove him over with a wimpy tackle, grabs him from behind and screams while shaking him then drops him to let him fall over...I could take about a minute of this shit before I stopped the video.

My friend found it hilarious and thought the fetishy video uploaded by a bitch with mistress in the username was actually some "internet tough guy" antics.

but to me it seemed like some bizarre fetish shit because this video was ten minutes long and she uploaded at least four of these according to his recommended feed, probably more, and it had too damn many views. I don't know if some freaks wank to fatasses fetishistically catfighting with mannequins for bdsm humiliation bullshit while saying "god i wish that were me" in the comment section but I don't want to know so I didn't look. Degeneracy is weird. But to seem like a non-prude I put on a "Oh holy shit hahaha that was the funniest worst shit ever! I can feel my brain cells commiting sudoku!" act.

>>3618
This reminds me of the time I went to SawCon

Still exercising multiple times a day.
saw a white dude in a shop with two badly behaved brown kids who ignored their dad until he threatened to not let them watch tv today. Then they screamed and feigned crying until he sighed and gave up on that. The kids grinned and bounced around and laughed at how easy it was to dupe their white father by making a scene. I'd guess they were somewhere around eight to ten.
Giving your kids white-as-fuck names like Lucas and Kevin won't give them souls.
Shit like this makes racemixing look bad.
meanwhile it's media that pretends a half human half elf or half human half demon or whatever would be superior to both its parents that tries its hardest to make racemixing look good.

Sometimes I fear that I'm too quick to judge others. How do I fix this?

>>3621
>I'm too quick to judge others
Projecting much?

>>3622
You're right, I'm actually projecting onto myself because I think you're too quick to judge me.
Kidding, just kidding. Your response is silly and I don't know how to respond to it constructively.

>>3622
Then again, this is pretty funny.
Here I am, self-reflecting and saying "Maybe I'm too quick to judge others".
And you just run in, shouting "No, YOU'RE too quick to judge others!"
Did you make sure you understood what I said before replying to it?
it's like something out of a cartoon.

>>3624
Self-self-reflecting much?

>>3625
Ironic

>>3617

I do not blame your pony for not talking. For the reasons you described above, I've found the tulpa community to be an exercise in misanthropy.

Have you considered tactful rejection of these videos? I realise some will misconstrue this behaviour as uninviting, yet like the food we eat, what we visually consume affects us indirectly.

>>3621

Human beings are inherently judgemental creatures as our endocrinology is primed to separate and compartmentalise that which is foreign. I believe our judgemental nature can be harnessed for objective reasoning, yet this requires self-control and insight most are not used to.

I imagine you meditate frequently, so I suggest asking yourself why you feel so judgemental and identify how this takes place (if at all.) From there you can dig a bit deeper and trace this concern to your upbringing while catalouging self-counseling and de-escalation techniques. You can always ask your tulpa for help too, as they are beheld to psychological clarity by their very nature.

Do note that I am not asking you to act like a castrated sheep so much as outlining the importance of a calm and grounded demeanour. Such will not only make the world more bearable to live in, it too shall emphasise the importance of your ideals and Faith.

>>3627
Thanks for the advice, it helped. I think I've got a better head on my shoulders now.
My tulpa believes fully hating humanity would be cringe since she's seen so many weirdos (like famous tranny Chatoyance, writer of The Conversion Bureau) do that. Besides I'm a human and she likes me. She sometimes misses talking to people daily like she did when she was young but also doesn't miss what massive faggots a ton of them were. Animufags just here to think about Yuyuko and Yakiko and Yakko's tits don't make for good conversation when their tulpas are one-note meme characters running on incredibly limited hardware. And you wouldn't believe how territorial and aggressive some of them got over whose waifu was developing mentally faster or who was doing more interesting shit in their mental world.
Isn't this "reality shifting" stuff weird? Escapism is such a popular pasttime around the world that the kids and teens are telling each other how to imagine the pain away and fantasize about boning Bakugo to dream the pain away. I don't think the generations that built first world countries had this problem. But escapism is getting bigger as the world gets worse. As VR gets cheaper and more common do you think we'll see more people fully retreat from reality into VR games and fake-relationship AI programs? We really do live in interesting times.

btw still exercising. I took a 3 day break from politics. Had a few moments of relapse where shit got political but overall I focused on my own life and walked around. I should get a treadmill.

Increasing weight. Exercising harder. Turning shit up to 11 on my abs.

Now and then I'll notice myself touching my own body without realizing it, as if even my subconscious mind can't believe how quickly I've improved and how quickly I've lost weight. I wish I owned weights my whole life! They're so convenient. You can use them whenever you have free time and get buff quicker. I eat healthy, I exercise, and it's a healthy source of pride in oneself and one's appearance. No wonder the jews want us all to be obese faggots. Being fat was depressing. Being this fit feels good. Knowing I've earned this body feels good. I'm tempted to get sleeveless shirts to show my arms off but I'm saving money.

>>3632

The sad truth is that most of the individuals touted as beacons of wisdom and direction in the community are the same dishonest and abusive people who mistreated their tulpas and peers for a dopamine hit. Rather than seeing tulpas as spiritual guides or those who illuminate our highest aspirations of self, the concept is subverted to enable another layer of delusion, megalomania and hedonism, all of which is firmly rooted in the highest levels of theory and practise. This is unsurprising given the materialistic school of thought that occupies most parts of the subculture.

I'm assuming you're asking rhetorical questions, but I don't believe this escapism to be unusual. When cheap and plentiful resources exist in an unjust civilisation, people are given to odd modes of thought and decadence as there is no credible authority or shared common narrative to make their lives and service to each other meaningful. On the other hand there is no struggle to rally behind or any semblance of a family unit for others to confide in during times of mounting hardship, so others retreat into mediums where they believe they maintain some measure of control and security. It's an illusion meant to satisfy those with no real drive to improve or pursue independence while binding them to an exploitative and increasingly authoritarian system.

>>3645

Great job on keeping faithful to your routine. I'm glad you're discovering your potential and exerting yourself. The only caveat I should mention is that we oughtn't be too proud of our bodies - rather than focusing on the finer details of our appearance, we should exercise to be healthy, discilpined and strong. If one's mortal coil is a temple where the Holy Spirit dwells, should it not be a place of humility and in good repair?

I wish you and your pone many happy and productive days. May the Lord bless and protect you both.

I have this friend but he's a dumbass and whenever the conversation gets political he whines. Even when he's the reason why it got political by bringing up shit like Fentanyl Floyd or whatever bullshit the TV told him about the Kung Flu or asking me questions with answers that end up political. "why does this show suck?" he asks sometimes, as if he doesn't expect the answer to be "because the jews who made it pump it full of so much anti white propaganda you've subconsciously noticed it". But he's ghosted me for so long that I'm starting to wonder if he's still alive. Should I ask someone we both know to check up on him? I wouldn't want to drag some third person into bullshit that's between that guy and his obsession with feeling neutral and "above it all".

Also, it's funny that Nigger is the magic word that breaks leftists and blacks and jews. It's a taboo because it's a word of rebellion. Saying this word and realizing it's ok to be sick of niggers feels liberating because it frees you from the mental prison of thinking your thoughts need to be govt-approved. You're rejecting euphemism-treadmill terms like black people and coloured folk and african american and choosing for yourself how you address creatures that feel entitled to be addressed however you want. It's a funny sounding word. Doesn't it derive from Nigerian? Or the latin word for black, niger? If so, it's funny that calling someone a nigger is basically calling them black. Truly the ultimate insult, since not even the niggers want to be niggers. Judging all niggers by the fictional brownish characters played by rapey hollywood actors on TV would be like judging all wild animals by cartoon critters or the tamed caged beasts you see at the Zoo instead of the wild african animals you can see attacking children and small animals on fucked up websites. Which wild african animals am I talking about? Doesn't matter since both hurt innocents and both belong in zoos. Libertarianism is a dead meme with no idea how to stop communist jewery and egalitarianism is just like supposedly-good liberalism: the self-destructive pursuit of impossible goals in the name of never compromising on once-valid ideals taken to the point of absurdity and robbed of all sense of priority, self-preservation, and reason. The NatSoc wants his race to eat well, and the "good" liberal happily puts the bellies of other races before his own and his own belly before both. The Libertarian pretends an anarchocapitalist nation of pot-growing weed-smoking illegal-immigrant mixed faggots will have any kind of moral clarity because admitting some good must be done for the good of all feels like compromising to the commies and their bullshit "greater good".

Me: hmm if I'm in the level design stage I should look at arcitecture
https://youtu.be/rrpOPSj9OMc
BEHOLD A 100K PER NIGHT HOTEL ROOM THAT USES RAINBOWS OF PILLS AND BUTTERFLIES AS DECORATIONS. And weird stickers on glass walls.
and then there's this faggot
https://youtu.be/_H2xmRseiDw
"I hate waste and I'm saving the environment and third world" says a faggot who bought plastic flowers for his absurdly sized foyer. It's like something made in The Sims as a joke with the money cheat. And his staff rooms are hilariously tiny.

I think I'm looking in the wrong places. What kind of arcitecture am I supposed to look at? If I half ass the world design with "artistic" monochromatic white blocks or spikes on a dark background I will get to spend more time on cool shit like guns and explosions.

>>3660
Then look at good shit! Listen to history great works things that are actually beautiful.
Behold landscapes and the people who mold them. The living quarters and the challenges they face.

>I think I'm looking in the wrong places
Yes.
>If I half ass the world design
You get a shitty playground.
It doesn't have to be perfect, hell it doesn't even have to be real. It does have to encourage the players to play.
Look at games which have such level design look toward what makes the map fun.
Such as Doom or Metroid or Devil Daggers or Mario, or anything really.
The World must be at the very minimum good enough.
>"artistic" monochromatic white blocks or spikes on a dark background
Every has to tie in together.
Why bother looking toward faggotry for inspiration of that kind?
Look toward the greatness of man and the potential that could be experienced.
Level design has to be bound with mechanics and lore (that's optional for some games).
The base mechanics must be a joy to use in every instance. Extrapolate that to every part.
Look toward ancient architecture, look toward game design, look toward the human spirit!
It's all there to see in its grandness and joy! As well as the petty despicableness.
They have to want to keep playing or else the exercise is just that an exercise. Useful, but not yet a game among great titles.
Everyone does have to gain experience somewhere.
Before, at the very beginning Extra Credits had good advice. Take it with a grain of salt and be wary for they too have been infected.
Look toward game design, and why it matters. The subtle suggestions.
Even look toward other media. Pictures, paintings, music, stories (expecially stories), movies, the experiences, everything.
You need at least a baseline to know where to look. Or a string to follow toward a goal.
Finding out what inspired Castlevania, what it was inspired by.
Folk lore and more!
Why do you look where the fags dwell when people who care are everywhere just bellow the surface (sometimes deeper) if you dig and search?
You have to have that skill to obtain what you desire. Or compensate with multitudes of time and effort spent recreating the wheel without a hint.

Everything relates to eachother. Build those logistical connections within and without to try holding wisdom in the woven basket.

>>3661
You're right, thank you.
I was thinking about cartoons and how they shaped the perceptions and childhoods of so many people. Shittons of old cartoons had divershitty/anti-waycist episodes that are cringe, but idiots who grew up on them yet are disgusted by the propaganda today would point to ten year old propaganda as an example of how to do it subtly since they consider what they grew up with "normal".
How many kids fell in love with Callie Briggs, Starfire and Raven, Gadget Hackwrench, Android 16, Ty Lee, Winry Rockbell, Gwen Tennyson, Sam Manson, Kallen/C2, Kim Possible and Shego, Misty/May/Dawn/Serena, and ended up fucked up in the head as a result? The world may never know. Scott Pilgrim ruined a whole generation of women but the lack of reward given to good men in a demoralized society that sabotaged its youth means many men have a fucked up idea of what being number 1 means and won't try to achieve it.

Still exercising, still healthy. Decided to start making healthy sandwiches out of vegetables.

It's always bugged me that the occultist neo-religious sometimes-paganist sometimes-satanist "Your magic willpower can change reality!" guys never visibly reap the benefits of their supposed magical willpower. You'd think these guys would be the kind of guys that are 999% motivated, the greatest bodybuilders and most well-read true intellectuals who never waste time on silly things and live every second as optimally as possible. But instead they just seem like regular people, aside from their insistence that praying to themselves and their own willpower helped them quit smoking and drinking therefore everyone must drop jesus and praise demons/Thor. I'm open to the possibility that there might be more to reality than what our human senses can sense since the jews hate God+Jesus and keep pushing the idea that we're nothing but meat, beasts, and at best space dust. But in my head when I think of some spiritual guru genius guy, I think of someone whose life was transformed for the better by learning the truth to the point where he's reached superhuman peaks. Maybe that's stupid, the result of decades of conditioning from media.

>>3684
>result of decades of conditioning from media.
Yes, and no.
>[those] guys never visibly reap the benefits of their supposed magical willpower
So analogy time.
Because they try to lift a 10 ton truck with a plastic straw and nothing else.
Others go and fix up the car and drive it up a ramp and makes it do stuff.
And some call in a tow truck. With some have a jack.
Others use a winch and intricate knowledge.
Some just fuck up the car.
Many more get knifed while doing stuff.
More still give up and just wonder about.
Ect.

>>3684
Most (mostly meaning most) who are outspoken about the supposed benefit of a certain nameless deity yet cannot prove the evidence as being better are to be taken with a pinch of snake salt. It is best to observe rather than partake in the deed, as it is easier to lie than to be honest.
As commonly enough they tend to be the ones promoting an 'agenda' of sorts, a tool or puppet to manipulate others but are being manipulated themselves, despite their knowledge (lack thereof) of the delusion or not.
It is often for them to be under the spell of a psychosis, being unable to distinguish fantasy from reality. There again, reality does not always have to make complete sense, neither does the human mind.
Indeed. Still waters run very deep.

>>3685
>>3686
You're right. Btw, still exercising. Increased weight in my weighted vest.

I don't care about this since it's not much of a loss, but turns out I've been banned from some unimportant ben 10 fanfic's discord fanserver for being "far-right".
I asked specifically what I said that got me banned since I don't remember it and haven't used it in months, maybe a year or two. I got the tard's personal definition of far-right in response because I didn't actually do anything wrong, I was just considered an undesirable.
I don't remember much about the server at all but I remember how that server had a handful of annoying commies who'd say commie shit and then cry "Wah no politics this is a media server!" when debunked. Or cry other assorted jew-tier lies to try and dupe retards with no reading comprehension and a desire to jump on the bandwagon someone else's fight creates to look moral. If some faggots are having a slapfight and it's your job to tell them "Shut the fuck up" or "This one's right, the other one's retarded, now shut up" you gain nothing. But if you believe the one with the more tempting lie about how the other one's some eeevil little bastard, suddenly you gain something. You get to feel like you're a hero for once, by taking the wrong side in an argument you don't feel obligated to read in full before passing judgement on it. Discord moderators, am I right? At least when they're doing this they're not grooming little boys and calling them "femboy transgenders" or grooming little girls and calling them "kitten".
If everyone on the planet was intelligent enough to see through basic lies and understand real science, or smarter, the world would be a better place. Maybe if everyone had to have at least a certain level of intelligence to be considered human, we'd be better off as a species.
Then again, it's not like dumbasses asked God to be born dumb. We can't prove God made them that way because they'd do more damage if they were smart. Besides, culling the bottom percentages of humanity is the kind of thing only a fictional villain would want to do in some cliche sci-fi novel that wants to pretend eugenics is the ultimate unthinkable evil, rather than rape or murder or the slow and ever-accelerating intellectual and societal rot caused by idiots and the leftists that use them for their own benefit. Besides, giving the government the power to decide the legal minimum IQ would get that power abused.
Rich retards would bribe government officials to have their children spared, while having too many kids would become a point of pride for the rich bastards that can afford countless bribes so they can pretend they have a high-IQ bloodline when they don't, the bar would be set high enough to fuck over normal people yet ignored whenever it would inconvenience a race the ruling class likes more, the IQ test would have a load of "moral score" or "emotional intelligence" bullshit added to it to cull sane people and spare overemotional leftist retards and sociopaths from the govt culling since they're both more useful to corrupt govts than humans are, a sex slave market would probably be created out of retards and average people not deemed special enough for the elites... This sort of thing would make a neat alt-history or dystopian sci-fi concept but the only valid government's the kind that keeps its dick out of the asses of its people and protects the asses of its people.

Anyway

I've been thinking about how so many people I know are obsessed with media to the point where they get into daily internet slapfights across all sorts of jewish social media platforms, complete with slander and harassment and harassing friends to try and get them to disavow "thoughtcriminals", all over fucking cartoon characters.
Sometimes they try and get me involved in their drama. Some of them get butthurt at me for not wanting to dedicate hours of my life to joining these slap-fights, as if I'm the bad guy for having dialogue to write and levels to code and bouncy boobies to animate. A life this filled with conflict seems like a massive drag, and conflict over what, the opinion children and teens and childlike adults dare have over cartoon characters? When did 1984 sjw fear-tactics become the norm for playground-tier arguments over the sex lives of moving doodles voiced by middle-aged japanese women?
Doesn't anyone else want a quiet life any more? I've had debates over gun rights that seem more respectful and respectable on the surface(either those who are anti-gun shouldn't have their opinion enforced or protected by law enforcement, or being a nazi should be legal and legally protected, pick one) than any of this shit-flinging nonsense over fucking Ben 10 lore or who Sonic The Hedgehog should have shagged.
Maybe it's a sign that I'm maturing and have improved my life, since I genuinely have better things to do than worry over what faggots think about my waifoo or husbandou or whatever. But I also feel like I'm drifting away from the people who have "media madness" consume their lives. Like I'm growing up and they're staying the same age, with the same shallow interest in the same shallow interests and same repetitive NPC dialogue lines whenever I press A on them. The DBZ fan will say tomorrow what he says today unless there's something happening in that tiny little bubble of aimless nerd culture that changes his programmed dialogue lines. "nerd like android 21. android 21 have the big boobas. majins r so kewl. oh em jee, wouldn't it be kewl if they made another DBZ that was just like DBZ but with android 21 in it? android 21 is so sexy. i suddenly like vore because she turns people into candy and eats them. i'm basically a blank sheet of paper and jews write whatever they want on me. btw i wish sega made another sonic game thats just like sonic advenchur 2 but more! just more, you know, like star wars. more. no i wont play fangames or indie games like sonic but better. i am a loyal corporate whore."
fags.

>>3691
Jesus fuck nigel, at least offer a tl;dr
Glad to hear about the gains. I'll read the rest when I'm bored, but jesus christ a tl;dr please?

>>3692
Ok

tldr

im getting buff. Weight up.

Today i learned i was banned from some dicksword server for being "far right"

but that is fine because they are a load of faggots

maybe if the world had less retards there would be less of an incentive for evil individuals to mislead and misuse them for personal and political gain, but I wouldn't trust any government that would actually want to cull healthy citizens.

Nerdniggers obsess over media so fucking much that it makes up their entire identity and a handful of my friends make me sad because every fucking day they're typing their hearts out in some twitter or discord or tumblr war over whether Ben Tennyson should have ploughed stretchy alien pussy or wasted his life with that stupid selfish cunt Julie or that obnoxious fucking creator's-pet Kai or whatever the writers decide to do with that joke Charmcaster this season.

jsus fucking christ I know I talk a lot about media but I tend to have something to say about it. A man analyzes bioshock and undertale, a slave cooms for it and obsesses over its characters without learning anything. I couldn't imagine just sitting around occupying your time with assorted distractions like internet arguments over the sex lives or moral values of fictional characters until it's time to suck up whatever slop the corpos feed you then get into shouting matches where you try and rationalize away a bad show's shitness. NIGGERS SHIT INTO THEIR OWN MOUTHS. FUCK.

Ben 10 is a toy franchise with a cartoon that was good for a while. If it's the biggest deal in your life, find God. My Little Pony Friendship Is Magic is better anyway. At least Twilight didn't have to re-learn "friends are important" every four episodes from season one to fifteen or more. I want to cum inside Twilight Sparkle but you won't see me writing a new essay every week to "defend her honour" just because some faggy tween's calling her every bad word she/her/it knows.

Maybe it's weird for a man my age to talk like he's becoming an old man. But I don't think I'm becoming an old man. I feel like I'm becoming a real man. A man who sees things clearer every day. Must be the healthy food, or perhaps the exercise. Maybe planting real-ass food made me level up as a man. Maybe a combination of all three. I'm used to thinking in meters and centimeters. Feet? I use a calculator to turn it into meters. And inches? Whenever someone gives me a measurement in inches I imagine my dick and how many of those copies of my dick are equivalent to whatever's being measured in inches, and that's because meters and centimeters are the superior way to measure shit and everyone fucking knows it. Inchniggers just pretend to hate meters because they love feet too much.

Tldr the enlightenment was a misnomer, denying God and the value of his teachings leaves you vulnerable to subversion. Without an argument as solid as "because God" all you're left with are feelings to back up moral arguments whenever the rational loss-minimization optimization mindset gives you an answer that feels icky. I know this sort of talk's a meme in the warhammer 40k community but it's true: An open mind is an unguarded fortress.

Do you ever think people would like christianity more if it had its own kung fu and alternative medicine practices? Bullshit stretches and lies about magic and silly cures for issues with more scientific fixes... Maybe that would appeal more to normies. Then again, aside from the occasional self-serving faith-healer scam artist who'd imitate any religion if it was big, Christianity doesn't have alternative medicine because it helped birth real medicine and science and rationality and whatnot. Christianity is the greatest religion in the world. Sekai fucking ichi. We are number one.

>>3693
Oh also

it's always bugged me that Neon Genesis Evangelion wants to be this story that says "fuck escapism" but the author's made his story so divorced from reality that it can only be taken as a fantasy. Eva isn't the story of a boy who grows over time. It's a story that says "it would actually suck to be thrust into the pilot seat of a giant robot and forced to battle monsters while surrounded by weird women with mental disorders". I appreciate its deep writing and symbolism. The author clearly knew his shit when it came to mecha anime and storytelling. Asuka represents the headstrong angry woman who mostly hates everyone and Rei pisses on the Yamato Nadeshiko archetype and that drunk chick is kind of a loser, and this is legitimately smart writing. He clearly has a message he wants to give the audience. But he doesn't know how to get that message across to the audience in a way that matters because it's basically just "lmao stop being depressed". A man doesn't just spontaneously get bitches and healthy relationships the second he takes his sony walkman/ipod headphones off and decides to "embrace reality uwu". It's not that easy for men these days. Dancing in a giant robot is as much of a fantasy as meeting several hot bitches that would be perfect if not for personality flaws some horny dudes are into after a lifetime of simping over fictional characters. Losers choose escapism because it's easy and they think they will never be sufficiently rewarded for a life of struggle and pain and growth. Anime figurines can't divorce you to become millionaires while stealing your kids and leaving you homeless. Feminists turned marriage into a mockery of itself and jews turned women into mockeries of women. They wouldn't have undue levels of power and influence if it wasn't for divershitty hires and govt programs meant to make life even easier for wamen. And what does society get out of it? When society pays women to be mothers they get mothers and children. When society pays women to be men and makes stealing jobs from men too easy all they get are jobless men and inferior imitations of men. Eva's creator might think there's a problem with japanese men these days and men in general but he's a coward for failing to look deeper into why not all boys want to sacrifice themselves for a system designed to rob and sabotage them. If he made another season of Evangelion that calls out the jewish lies subtly, he could make a significant impact on the world. If he made another season of Eva that subtly pokes holes in feminist lies... even including entry-level redpills about birth rates and privileged projecting feminism's hypocrisies in something with such a massive audience would help his country and other countries that love Eva. He could do yet another evangelion rewrite rebuild thing except this time Shinji grows a pair and teaches Rei how to smile and enjoy life while Asuka realizes she'll become a bitter drunk cat lady unless she loosens up and treats others better. He probably won't. I guess I'll always see the eva franchise as a massive missed opportunity. The guy gets how to deconstruct mecha anime and media cliches he doesn't like but he doesn't understand the issues the youth are facing well enough to say anything smarter than what you'd expect to hear from the average boomer who thinks "lmao try harder" is the best advice anyone can give.

Increasing the weight on my weighted vest.

Sometimes I talk about my friends here, but I don't wax lyrical about how awesome some of them are because I don't think anyone would want to read that. I love and cherish these fuckers but this isn't some teenage girl's diary. It would be bad for opsec if I deeply explained everything that makes my closest friends great people, since anyone could formulate a list of my friends and figure out who I am by guessing it's the person I don't have many nice things to say about.

Decided to try some new stronger protein shake.

Hilariously, I hear some guy recently entered a female only 2v2 Mortal Kombat tournament using his girlfriend's account and apologized after he was found out. Everyone, especially the people he fucking annihilated, is pissed at him for "trying to cheat them women out of a bag". I thought they loved letting men compete in women's sports? You'd think esports would be a place where men and women can compete evenly if you forgot men are smarter and more focused than women, while the only natural edge they could possibly claim is better rote memorization skills and marxist ego-stroking instead of marxist sabotage. Maybe that's why women love tekken so much, everyone has over 200 moves and most are hidden behind assorted bullshit strings and which button does what is reversed depending on what side of the foe you're on and some attacks can only be dodged by sidestepping to a certain side that changes if you're on the other side of the foe. Give me a set of punches and kicks plus some tricky specials that change depending on final button pressed plus a fun gimmick and a simple universal mechanic with multiple uses any day of the week.

>>3713
I know, right? Mortal Kombat's a shit fighting game series, too. The animation's so bad, even people who know nothing of animation can understand why the moves look weird/weak/unnatural. I hear Mortal Kombat animates using motion-capture footage that's sped up or slowed down to fit the gameplay, without an expert animator's hand to emphasize certain key poses to make the motion look better. While Arc System Works are the kings of using 3D to resemble hand-drawn 2D sprites and amazingly beautiful animes, Netherrealm Studios are clowns who turned trashy animation and the 3d mocap crutch into a gimmick fanboys will call "charming" and "their signature style".

Imagine some faggot who constantly rants about the awful fetishy DND game he's in, regularly, while ignoring any "Get out of that group and find one where the players aren't lactating eight-tittied minotauresses with octuplets for fuck's sake" advice...
but it turns out there is no DND game and he's actually not the sane man from his story. he's the real degenerate writing about hyper pregnancy inflation porn for hours to the applauding crowd of a horde of dnd-obsessed nerdtards desperate to hear stories about nerds nerdier and less socially capable than them.
if some freak used the "My DND campaign is the worst! Please listen to my story and advise me and praise me and reassure me and validate me!" story hook to get a bunch of idiots to read and comment on his fucked-up fetish fiction, would that be fucked up or what?

A tomboy GF is rhe ultimate ideal because femininity (hysteria, sensitivity, fetishized weakness, ego) was so effortlessly weaponized against white males. A tomboy GF is the ultimate thing for a man because it combines the body of a woman with the goodness of a man. She won't be too much of a wuss to endure the mythical "pain" of childbirth more than once. She won't betray you or your family for some impulsive quick thrill and your wallet. Tomboy is superior. I'm sure a traditional housewife would be great if they still existed but the closest thing to perfection these days is the tomboy. Female is inferior. Female has failed the white man and betrayed him. Long live tomboy supremacy, may it grow in popularity with each day, may it rise up and replace this dead neoculture's broken idea of what a woman should be.

>>3737
>>3740
Oh Nigel, no one cares for these things.

>>3741
You care enough to reply and let me know how you currently feel about me :3

btw exercise bike obtained