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Should I get therapy?
Anonymous
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Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting? Who should I do therapy with? Can I trust my entire life's story with anyone who's not on this site?
Maybe if I tell you my life's story, you can give me life advice.

I was raised by abusive lefty parents who hated their smart white son and often tried to push me towards trannyism. Never fell for it.
First I was sent to a shit primary school. A few kids bullied me there and teachers punished me whenever I fought back. I was a fat angry kid who could punch hard when pushed, and they liked attacking me and then running away. But when we fought properly I'd kick their asses. One time I kicked their asses hard enough to make them stop bothering me.
When I graduated from this school I was sent to the special school of a catholic school, and made the personal property of one old bitch there who hated autistic kids. Around that era I got interested in Game Maker and pokemon romhacking but that interest never amounted to anything, though I did have a USB full of GBA roms and romhacking tools and the fact that I was able to code at such a young age when not all kids were learning that should have shown somebody that I had more to offer the world than shitty schools thought I should.
Thanks to that school, my schedule looked like this: Enter a side building, wait for the day to end, sometimes get insulted by the teachers if they felt like abusing me, usually get to eat lunch at lunchtime but sometimes they wouldn't let me (and it didn't matter whether I brought a packed lunch to school or brought money for the school cafeteria) and eventually go home to a house with parents that, when told the right words by my boomer bullies, would freak out and abuse me at home too. Rarely I'd get to join in a classroom... but class clowns would act up until I'd get blamed for it and sent out.
If I had a tape recorder or decent phone, I could have gathered evidence of the shit said/done to me (audio files of verbal abuse, pics of bruises, etc) and posted it online. But I was never allowed anything like that, because my parents feared I might use it on them. One day at school the art teacher bumped me with her car while backing up into a crowd of kids, I was fine but pissed off and the art teacher shrieked and blame-slinged feministically at me until I lost my patience and started barking back, then she put me in front of the headmaster and I told him about the abusive staff members and called him terrible at his job, so he kicked me out.
Then I was sent to a worthless "speshul" school where a few teachers abused me and the students usually watched in confusion when they weren't joining in. Whenever I trusted an adult enough to tell him or her what happened at home, that adult decided to call child protective services, who sent the same fucking boomer woman over to warn my parents that I was talking about what went on at home again. I couldn't get away from my family until I became the problem of Adult Protective Services, where the slightly less retarded and lazy people go.
A woman my age at the autistics-only youth club I attended got mad at me over retarded internet roleplaying nonsense-drama that didn't even involve me, and she lied about me to the cops and accused me of abusing her, even went to some clinic to fake signs of a concussion she didn't have because she's a spoilt bitch who knows how to play her rich parents like fiddles, she was a low-functioning sociopath woman with histrionic personality disorder and every retarded boomer's sympathy. She lied and got away with it, because the cops weren't interested in this case after she cartoonishly fucked up and started gloating about physically assaulting me without realizing it hurt her case. But even though I said to the managers of the youth club and the friends I knew there "If what she said about me was true I'd be in jail so you know she's lying" they couldn't believe me because they were dumb. There was one weird creepy fucker I used to talk to online because his "woe is me, asian school life is sooo hard" shit kind of reminded me of me at the time, but he got severe TDS and stopped being a person once he stopped viewing me as a person so I'm glad I didn't tell him anything sensitive or identifiable that could fuck me over later in life.
Anyway when I went to college, I was lied to and exploited by the staff until I dropped out. They even tricked me into taking a worthless course that turned out to be the dump where they dump the autistic kids and give them a useless fake newspaper to write. I wish I dropped out sooner, trying to live on barely fucking anything is hard enough when your mom took govt money meant for you, but it's harder when you're forced to spend most of your cash on train rides between your college and shitty home every two weeks and all your cunt government can offer is a discount pass. Now that I'm living alone, I've got a free bus pass I can barely use. Government priorities, am I right?

I am an autistic man, I'm 24 years old, I'll be 25 next year, and I've spent so much of my life as property of someone else that I find it hard to notice when I'm hungry or tired and remember that I should eat or sleep without someone or a phone alarm telling me to. I shower every night before bed but sometimes I miss meals, it's what helped me go from obese fatty to only-slightly-overweight. I don't think I know what it feels like to be loved by someone else. Learning makes me happy and I love documentaries but when I tried an online free learning site it reminded me of school and I couldn't do it. Sometimes I talk to people and act charming like those "Charisma on command" youtube vids told me so they'll like me, but I've never given anyone my full backstory before. The only woman in my life I ever kissed was that bitch who falsely accused me and got away with it. I want to say I have no interest in modern women but I still feel the urge to wank to them. But I don't wank any more because of nofap.
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Anonymous
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Horoscope? More like whores cope. Lmao gottem.
Anonymous
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Is it normal for people who were sexually abused as children to feel disgusted with themselves whenever they try to do anything sexual or get into anything sexual?
Asking because ny parents raped me as a child and I had more than a few horny gropey old hags for teachers over the years.
Anonymous
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>>6269
I suppose. Even adult victims can experience similar feelings.
Anonymous
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>>6270
I met someone who was also raped as a child by that someone's parents and we talked a lot. Turns out that whole "It's a coin flip whether I am feeling asexual or hypersexual or relatively normal today" thing is a common symptom of being molested as a kid. I thought it was just a personality trait I have, and I've hated myself for it for a long time. When I am feeling hypersexual my coping mechanism is to try and ignore it. Looking at beautiful but unsexy pictures, listening to music to try and make myself feel any other emotion, focusing on my work, anything else. Trying to distract myself. Before nofap my coping mechanism was cooming buckets over big titty anime bitches until my genitals are sore and those disgusting urges were washed away to be replaced with shame and disgust and I could function for the rest of the day or actually get some sleep at night. I had a vibrating sucking fleshlight and a horse vagina fleshlight that fits my size better but didn't vibrate or suck, and I bought those wearable cock things for men on impulse, one horse and one wolf with a fat knot, but I don't think I'll ever have the confidence to mention them to my girl and ask if she wants to see if they work. I don't want to be a coomer any more. I am trying to live a life without sin. No degeneracy allowed. But now that I know that trait was the result of trauma I should probably stop hating myself for it. At least now I feel better about those times I told my girl I was too tired for sex because I exercised too hard. I don't know if I can tell my girl I was raped as a kid. Women usually think less of men after they know they're vulnerable people sometimes. But my girl's smarter than that and kinder too. But I don't want to risk losing her. I wish I could convince her to do more with her big brain. She's easily the most intelligent person I've ever met. If I wasn't ashamed of myself for liking ponies and fantasy shit I'd ask her for help with writing ponies and fantasy shit and then I'd probably have some of the best writing on the planet. You should read what she writes, she uses all sorts of great words and she's created tons of tragic fucked up characters. She doesn't make me feel embarassed for liking this shit, by the way, because she doesn't know how deep I've gone into it. I feel embarassed for liking it because it's not as perfect as her. I want to present myself as a perfect person, but unlike my whore retard parents I don't lie about myself or deny my mistakes. I enjoy self-improvement. Making mistakes means finding new opportunities to grow and learn and improve. Time separates the master from the novice, and the fact that the master has failed more times than the novice has tried. But whenever my girl sees me playing Fire Emblem (I am playing the whole series out of order. I had higher hopes before this started. I'm glad I had FE Tactics on the GBA as a kid instead of this) I skip the dialogue and cutscenes so she doesn't see any of the hyper-tropey cliche dialogue and hornybait characters with bad dialogue. Jesus fucking christ the harder these characters fellate the blank slate protagonist the more I want to sink into my own shadow and cringe so hard I compress myself and all of reality into a multiverse obliterating singularity. Doki doki bitcherwhore club is less embarassing than this because at least that game called horny VN novels inherently fake and inspired their fanbase to write happy endings for girls designed to parody VN tropes, take cliches to their logical conclusion including the cliche of fucking with the fourth wall for fake depth, and never truly find happiness.
Anonymous
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I can't say this in the writing thread but I think the real problem is that this project is fundamentally a bad idea. Like trying to write a Pokemon Mystery Dungeon fic about rape. When people play a fire emblem fangame they expect more fire emblem, not something different in tone and gameplay. Mature topics involving the real world are too complicated for kids aged 40 who say "oh my god Splatoon and Sonic Adventure 2 and Fire Emblem are the darkest things ever. Did you know Splatoon takes place in a post apocalyptic future after the fall of mankind, Shadow watched Maria die, and Hanneman's sister got fucking molested and forced to bear several children? People are, like, dead, and sometimes raped!" That target audience just isn't ready for a darker concept like "countless women and men and kids were raped across europe this week in the real world, most people will never know their names, and the perpetrators have the jewish system's power enabling them and protecting them, and Marth isn't real". They just aren't ready to hear that sentence.
Anonymous
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You know what sucks about being raped as a child? A lot of things. I was raped as a child. And teen and preteen. But one thing that pisses me off is that whenever I feel like talking about it, I think... what if someone likes hearing me talk about it? What if I talk to another person who gets my guard down by saying all the right things and telling me what I never knew I wanted to hear only for him to start fucking with me? What if someone wants to hear more details about how my mom used to suck me off and jack me off until it started to hurt, sometimes in front of my dad, and how my parents made me dance naked for them, because they're perverts who enjoy reading about this sort of thing? What if I'm being manipulated again?
Anonymous
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I love Devil May Cry and I love naming the hardest difficulty in my games "X must die".
Dagdar Must Die, Dorcas Must Die, Pikachu Must Perish, it's always hilarious.
But if I name a difficulty mode Critical Brain Trauma, that's CBT.
And that's fucking hilarious.
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>>6280
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8qONIlpBSac
Anonymous
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>>6281
Lmao nice.
It's really deep how Kill La Kill set up Satsuki as the antagonist at first, before we met the reason why she was that way. She wants to dominate her school, make an army, separate people by class, get the best at the top and empowered over all others, war with other schools and conquer places ruled by other things like money aka comically worthless fiat currency(Takarada's fun bucks), sort people by their strength, perpetuate the dominance heirarchy, all so that she can defeat her mother.
Her mother embodies dominance and takes Satsuki's shit up to 11 to say "This is where this leads, and this is where the system takes the people it grooms". Her goal isn't just to take over some land or kill a few people. It's to take over the world, absorb it with her parasitic Life Fibers, rob everyone of their individuality. Her system is a system of soulless inhuman obedience and inhumans fanatically loyal to her. She's a fucking Jew pedophile, she rapes her own daughter and everything, discarding her other daughter for seemingly being useless to her parasitic cause, and she's got a genetically engineered test tube baby with mental problems.
Nudist Beach are cannon fodder for much of the story because they refuse to use the primary means to obtain power and further evolution in this world: Life Fibers. They're nudists, but when they want to be more of a threat they wear something like those DTRs.
Ryuko relies on her own strength at first, and her own dogged determination so mighty she won't think twice about sacrificing blood to get stronger or cutting her clothes to blind a foe, but the bonds she makes, the friends she makes, this unity, it's a force that can overcome anything, make allies out of old enemies once you understand them and their point of view. Even give you epic anime powerups and the strength necessary to face down the "absolute dominance" of the jew and intimidate it with a glare.
The author probably thought he was saying something deep about what jews say fascism is, fassho aka fashion is like fascism maaaaaaan, hurr durr dominance heirarchies are inherently unjust, let's get naked together because free love can beat the system, et cetera a la resetera.
It's a lovely thought, this idea that villains are just misunderstood people doing what they think is right and doing their best in their situation, but it would take deprogramming experts running camps to cure leftists of all the lies they've ever believed, and their vile reasons for choosing to believe obvious lies and work full-time for free to uphold them aren't something you can just magic away.
But it makes for a fun lighthearted story.
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So, how much did you play honkai?
I've been slow at it as usual. But I gotta say, this is suprisingly good, probably the best thing chinks have put out. I know it eventually goes to shit tho. Unless it was in fact, retconned hard later on. But am not getting my hopes up.

The story is nevertheless pretty solid up to this point. Do recommend checking it out. Although with reasonable expectations.
Anonymous
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>ID didn't changed this time
Noice.
Anonymous
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Good news, my wife grew her hair out for me and she let me braid her hair! I don't know the proper terms but I braided her hair down like she's got big floppy bunny ears over her regular ears. It's extremely cute.

Also lmao I got a gay message from a friend

>Your favourite vtuber claims to be a socially awkward girl who cant show her face but can finally show her true self now that she is anonymous, and after all that "Vtubing is empowering women and I want to be a hero to all the shy girls out there just like me" talk
>turns out before this she was a beautiful egirl who sold nudes and selfies without a hint of shame or shyness before she noticed being a mostly fully clothed anime oppai loli or oppai milf who talks about cock playing minecraft became more profitable
>every fucking time

I am glad I dont care about vtubers any more. Caring about all this celebrity shit seems exhausting. It's hard enough keeping track of all the family members and other people in the lives of all the people I like now. She hates when I mix up her family members or forget which one is which but in my defense she has a lot of them. I'm going to give her more some day. I think remembering things about those ones will be easier.
Anonymous
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>>6284
I haven't played Honkai Impact yet but I've been playing a lot of Rivals Of Aether while working on my newest ROA OC. Testing some weapon ideas out for my stylish fighting game idea.
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>>6287
Oh I see. Am talking more about the story than anything else btw.
>>6286
>I am glad I dont care about vtubers any more.
Great. Caring about e-celebs or actual celebs in general is retarded. There are some fun highlights clips. But actually sitting through one of their streams is an utter waste of time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_U6PpATICLo

>Wife
You mean, fiancee?
Anonymous
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>Triple Hitler dubs.
That's it. You must oblige now.
Anonymous
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>>6288
Yeah, her.
I'll look into that Honkai Impact story and tell you what I think about it. Might also play it if there is no excessive grind or gacha.
I started playing a Pokemon Ballslocke randomized nuzlocke but then I stopped because the game was slow shit and after spending so much time with Pokemon Pink going back to slow canon Pokemon is suffering even with the game at 400% speed or more and the fastest text speed hacked in. The added "1 faint is one death and one lost team slot" rule never matters if you just never die.

I'm making good progress on my sonic game and I designed a pretty cool opening segment for my next Pokemon game with a small local rental Pokemon tournament and just a little backstory before the villains show up and do evil deeds. The gamecube games certainly have their issues but if the grind was reduced Shadow Pokemon would be a great way to ensure certain powerful pokemon can be caught at a level relevant to the current challenges without needing to make wild areas full of countless pokemon per route. Though I'd probably recode it so the shadow Pokemon is given to you when you win and can't be caught in the middle of the fight. Or code battles so the winner gets to take one Pokemon from the loser. Battles like that in Pokemon Pink were fun as hell.

I wish there was an open source Pokemonlike engine. It could be made in Linux, then it could run on a ton of shit and if it could load content packs in a row like how Fallout NV loaded mods, making that dream Pokemon game with all regions would be as easy as assigning teams to recreate different regions and then loading each one into the same mod folder of your project. No need to deal with RPG Maker's size limits, inability to compile games over a certain size, other technical limitations, lag, and shit system where if you import maps into a new project every warp gets fucked up. Every staircase, every cave ladder, every door, every teleporter, they all send you to the wrong places because they're using numbers that were incremented by however many maps were already in your project file. All the best hack patches could be recreated in that engine as patches for this engine. And making new content would be faster and easier. No need for old dodgy sites with broken links to get incomplete sets of external hacking tools. Nobody would need to use fucking ruby. The Open Pokemon engine could come with its own tools for making the files it recognizes as pokemon, maps with NPCs, battles, and so on. People could pass around files and copypasted code for their rivals and NPCs, the engine could be programmed to understand Pokemon Showdown team builder code to save time, combining the fakemon from two separate projects into one game would be easy, it would be epic.

Hell, you could even use the engine for entirely different games. And if the engine has netplay, we have our Pokemon Showdown killer with more Other Metagames and custom banlists than PS and PSlikes ever would. And a Union Room inspired by Guilty Gear or Thems Fighting Herds lobbies plus lobbyless ranked and unranked matchmaking queues. I love when games let me talk to people in lobbies and rooms and run around challenging people or whatever while also waiting in a universal matchmaking queue.

Right now if you want to make pokemon game content your choices with essentials and romhacking have downsides a fully open source linux engine wouldn't. Romhacking is a bitch prone to corrupting and essentials has too many technical limitations and doesn't run on original hardware or anything like it. But the Steam Deck can run linux, other consoles can run Linux, most handheld fake GBAs or whatever can probably run linux. The RetroPi might even be able to run OpenPokemon. Or maybe it would need a ARM port first.
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In an early version of Pokemon Pink there was going to be a letter to my dead little sister but I deleted it because the internet probably wouldn't appreciate it.

Mega Man Rock N Roll ended with this letter to the creator's dead dad and it made me want to cry.

I remember spending time with my dead little sister before she died. I don't have any good memories of my pervert parents or the shit places they forced me into. But I remember liking my sister on the days when she decided to be my sister first and my parents daughter second, having a good time with me instead of reporting everything to her parents hoping for a reward. I remember times when I'd swipe food from the kitchen downstairs and eat it with my sister in her room. Or my room. Times when she'd cry on my shoulder and times when I'd cry on hers. Biting into a block of cheese like it was an apple. Eating biscuits. We'd talk about all the places we would visit together some day and all the things we would do when we were old enough to run away together and get real jobs and live somewhere better. I remember these books about faraway places, sometimes fake ones. Pictures, text, descriptions of food... whether it made a real country or some made up place full of fairies and elves sound amazing didnt matter. It wasn't where we lived, a hellish pit of shit surrounded by pointlessly cruel assholes. We'd read the books together. We'd read other books together. She'd make all these lists of places we could go and trace maps onto her notebook and draw lines everywhere for our travel route and forget which direction went what way sometimes. We'd play video games and she'd ask me to take over during the harder parts. She had nightmares about Orxon in Ratchet and Clank and the Elephant's Graveyard in Kingdom Hearts and that fat sack of bugs from Nightmare Before Christmas who sounded like a nigger. She mained Zelda in smash bros melee. In smash I mained Samus, and I'd throw matches sometimes if I felt she was improving and deserved this win. She got scared of Slenderman so I put together a shit game where you can shoot him and oogie boogie and playing it made her feel better.

I remember making this shit Super Mario World knockoff featuring her and I as playable characters, she wanted her character to have infinite double jumps so the game would be a cakewalk if you played as her. We hadnt played a single kirby game at that point so we didnt know a game had already beaten us to that punch. I gave my character a sword and Spindash because Sonic and Mega Man are cool. I remember Sonic Adventure 2 and Sonic Heroes races with my sister. I remember taking turns playing a Sonic Heroes level and seeing who can beat it faster, she'd pick Team Rose and I'd pick team sonic or team dark as a handicap. She loved the bobsled races in Heroes. And Sonic Riders, too. And Spyro, especially the speedways. She was autistic but my parents didnt want her diagnosed like I was. We came up with a symbol language for our notes in case anyone broke into our house and stole our notebooks and ripped us off. Don't look at me like that, we were kids.

I wish I had racing games she could play but I didnt have a lot of games or a wide selection of them. It depended on whatever we found in the second hand store or preowned bargain bin. Hard to believe we seriously found Melee and SA2 and a cheap gamecube in the bargain bin but back then dipshits chose second hand stores over online auctions. If mom ever caught us eating I said my sister didnt eat anything and I was eating everything and trying to tempt her into misbehaving, that way my parents only attacked me instead of her. I remember my sister going from having a crush on Tails The Fox and Aang to having a crush on Shadow The Hedgehog and Zuko. She had this notebook she took from school and hid under her bed and filled with doodles. Kingdom Hearts OCs, Naruto OCs, Fakemon, all sorts of stuff. Even fanfiction she didnt want to put online for fear of getting hate mail. Sometimes she'd throw these paper plates around her room with Axel's chakram designs drawn on them. She was a kid. She was my kid sister. I miss her.

But my parents got to her, broke her down, gaslit her while I wasn't there. Made her feel guilty about being a jobless child in education just because my parents were wasteful wiggers who cant handle money responsibly. Blamed me for how they had to move once they couldnt steal my benefit money any more, even though they sabotaged my life by forcing me to spend extra years in a useless daycare school for retards full of abusers who hated me for not being retarded just so my parents could get extra money from the govt meant for me. My parents made her give up on all her hopes and dreams and get a job sweeping the hair off some muslim barber's floor. My parents made her resent who she used to be and embrace being theirs. Now she tells herself it's childish to dream and I'm "just a dumb disabled lying kid who never grew up" for teaching himself everything, escaping his abusers, creating video games and animations, having a career with the possibility of upwards mobility, and succeeding despite the best efforts of everyone in my IRL life I've ever met. She could have left too. Nobody ever threatened her life and forced her to say "My dumb disabled oversensitive brother is lying and my parents are good people" every time someone asked me about my bruises. My parents didnt have blackmail material on her. It was just easier for her to be theirs than it was for her to be her own person. And no matter how hard I try to move on, I still miss her.

I still miss those good moments when she wasn't helping my parents abuse me and reporting everything I did to them hoping they'd reward her for saying something after they hurt me. My sister chose to be an awful person to me. And she chose to give up on her potential. But I miss her. I can't make myself hate her even though that would make everything feel simpler. I still miss her.
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>>6290
>Might also play it if there is no excessive grind or gacha.
Don't have to worry about that. Each mission has predefined characters, half the time you get a bunch to choose from.
Your actual Valkyries which you upgrade and shit, are not really allowed in the main story.
They are in the first chapters, but it's pretty much irrelevant given the weaker enemies early on.
Anonymous
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>>6291
That is a very upsetting story and I'm sorry that happened to you and your sister. Being able to mourn for her is important, so if you word the letter sufficiently vaguely I think you should include it. Don't care about what others think about you, care about what's truly important to you.

Also, the thread has moved past bump limit so you might want to consider a continuation thread.
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I've read all of your posts on the matter. Sorry for not commenting on what happened. I just feel like I don't have anything of value to add.
But I should've said something at least.
Am sorry for what happened fren. Despite your flaws, you are a good goy Anon. You guys deserved better.
>>6293
>Also, the thread has moved past bump limit so you might want to consider a continuation thread.
There's nothing wrong with that idea. But I think he continued past bump limit this long thanks to the claims of Narcissism.
Anonymous
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>ID finally changes
Why live?
Anonymous
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>>6295
>>6293
I don't want my thread to pop up on the front page whenever I post in it. It should only be viewed by people who want to come here.
Also I recently had a taxi driver from Poland who was still learning english. While waiting for the taxi some guy in a town hall invited me into the warmth and I helped them set up TVs and game consoles for a youth club, they had a PS2 and I told them about Free MC Boot and a list of multiplayer games the kids might like. Guilty Gear was on the list. Their collection of ps2 games wasnt great, but it will become infinite as soon as they download and install it. The old man works full time then comes home for barely half an hour before going out for charity stuff.
I love helping out charity stuff like this. Did I ever tell you about that time I baked a meat pie for a church near here that was feeding the homeless? In the moment when baking that pie I felt "This isn't enough. What am I thinking? I'm pissing in the rain here and pretending I'm part of the storm. This isnt enough. Nobody will care. I'm not helping enough". But I brought that nice hot pie to the church and seeing these people, knowing I helped them, it felt right. I think I'll make this a regular thing. There were so many homeless people. And old people who didnt look homeless, talking to each other or a family member or two. They were here because this is warm and their homes are not.
Those fucking Jews... I will never forgive them. Even if they turned everything around and decided to be a force for good in the world, we will know they only did it out of fear of the white man awakening, and when they think the white man is asleep they are happy to rape his wife and rape his daughter and cut his sons cock off and freeze his granny and poison everyone until they pull the pfizer pirrouette like they're searching for God in their final moments.
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>>6297
Anyway the taxi shows up and phones me and I got into the taxi. He doesn't speak english very well. And there's no shame in that because he's white. He's clearly trying.
"Its okay. English is a hard language. I tried learning Japanese. It was too hard for me."
"Japanese?"
"Yeah. I liked anime when I was younger. Japanese cartoons like Naruto."
"Never heard of it."
"One Piece, Code Geass, Death Note, Pokemon..."
"No. No pokemon. I dont play games. No more, its stupid. I play game... jump game, old game. Long ago. No more."
"Was it Donkey Kong?"
"No, its go right game. Go right three days, not done. I tell my kids, no game. Watch tv. Polish comedian. Football. Factory. Youtube. Science blow shit up show. Car show, top gear. Watch anything else."
"Was the game Sonic? Mario?"
"Mario! Mahrio? Marryo? Him. I play... three days. Three days and not done. Videogames are stupid. I'm 58! I had boat! I fish boat! I have kids! Waste of time."
"Yeah. I watch this youtuber who plays online games designed to steal real money from players."
"...Steal?!"
"Yeah." I said a line about MMORPGs he didnt get, then I realized my mistake so I talked simpler. "Imagine a car racing game. The racers get points they can spend on buying new cars. The winner gets more points. You dont get paid real money for racing. But you have to pay real money to get the best cars. Otherwise you cant win. Its not even close. Like a ferrari or formula one racecar racing a bike."
He laughs. "A bike!"
"Yeah. Everyone else buys the best cars to win. They cheat like that. And if you dont cheat like them, you lose."
"Do they get money back?"
"No."
"Thats shit. Thats stealing. Shit game. Poker but you always lose."
Poker but you always lose. What a great way to view these games!
"Yeah, exactly. You pay to get in the casino, you pay to win, but whether you win or lose you cant make any real money back. The online games are like that but you are knights with swords who fight dragons. And to get the best swords, you need to spend money or play for 100 hours."
"100 hours! 100 hours... its too much."
"Yeah. You play for 100 hours to become a stronger knight. Then you fight the same dragons over and over. Five men, or ten men, or fourty men, all working together to kill one dragon twice a night, every night. Takes two hours every time. All for the small chance that you might find a better sword this time, and maybe get to keep it."
"Hundred hours..." he repeated, thinking to himself. "Fuck."

I agree. We also talked about how the tv license is a scam.
At first trying to talk simply felt awkward. I sounded like a guy trying hard not to swear. But felt natural over time. Car arrives home, I pay, I get out. I come home and say hi to someone, still speaking simply, I ask how her day was, she assumes the worst and hugs me because why else would I be talking so unusually? God she really cares about me a lot. I try not to cry in her arms. Even after all this time, affection is something new and beautiful. She laughed when I told her I was just still stuck in simple speak mode because I was talking to a guy still learning english.
I know a guy who said learning Toki Pona helped him think clearer. When he feels stressed, he switches his brain and thinks in that simple language where there is no rarity scale.
That language is too simple. It feels incomplete.
You don't hear "Gargantuan tree" in that language and think "Did he just say gargantuan? Nobody says gargantuan. Rare word. Four fucking syllables of effort there. Must be bigger than a big one, to justify the use of that word". Not in that language.
If it's good for him, good for him. But Toki Pona seems retarded to me. If you're making a conlang it should be a better form of english for faster communication and densely packing more info into books while minimizing opportunities for miscommunication. Not just making up random rules for no reason to make your fictional world feel more like Tolkien's or trying to create a language so simple even niggers can speak most of it. Translate an english novel into TP and important shit is lost in translation.
Not just a regional dialect cultural thing that can be localized like how Japanese media with "Idiots from Osaka" are given redneck or brooklyn accents in the english dub, or Phoenix Wright was moved to America from Japan and Nine Tales Vale, Los Angeles is said to be full of Japanese immigrants.
Some other old guy talked to me today while waiting for his wife to buy him a panini. Coronation chicken with cheese and pickles. He hates the BBC license fee and refuses to pay it. He likes Lord of the rings and hates the new show. You love to see it, folks. But when he said his wife carries the money in case of muggers, that was cringe. Should carry something the cops dont want you to have, conceal it well, and act natural so you never get searched. That's how you keep your wife safe.
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Literature teacher: The curtains are blue because they represent the inner turmoil of the passionate dolour of the soul's crosswaved langitude and longitude of longing
Literature writer: The curtains are blue because the curtains are fucking blue

This is a mediocre anti intellectual meme when misused. Here's a better one.

Critic: Sonic wears nothing but shoes and socks because the creators are perverts.
Creator: Can't spell blue streaker without blue streak lmao. But for real he's naked because it makes him easier to draw.
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BTW, I am talking about Honkai Impact 3rd. Not the newer title.

Do you know of any other instance of this concept? Variations are fine as well.
>Character is OP after "x" happened to him
>Using his powers slowly corrodes his body and mind.
>He's tipical shonen MC, so he'll use them anyways to do the heroic thing.
>Fren doesn't likes this at all
>Story tricks you into believing he's gonna make it.
>There's an emotional turnaround where nothing but his sheer will, allows him to resist the corruption.
>It seems like he has tamed those powers and will force its way through all the shit.
>"Will burn this shithole to the ground"
>Turns out this isn't the typical shonen story
>After being healthy and strong just a few chapter back.
>He's now suddenly fucked beyond comprehension and won't be able to save jackshit.
>On second thought, there were signs all along.
>This forces fren to make a decision and/or change entirely.
Afterwards. The story is now driven by this fren. And the audience is left thinking.
>He couldn't make it in the end.
>But this other guy, he's different.
>Could he finally pull it off?

Am Carlos BTW. In case you somehow haven't noticed yet.
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>>6304
I don't recall ever seeing that. I heard Attack On Titan does make one of the characters become a cunt but I haven't finished it yet.
It sounds like an amazing idea if done well.
I hear one of the older pre-GBA Fire Emblems kills off all your characters and replaces them with their kids after a while. Haven't played that one yet. Hooray for beating FE games out of order.

Hey, do you think it would be funny if Sonichu ended up in a Sonic fangame?
You could play the game as Sonichu.
Or kick Sonichu's ass as someone else.
Even another Sonichu.
It might be the first ever video game to feature Sonichu.
Or the first one to feature Sonichu without being more shitpost than game.
Sonichu might be a secret character you need a cheatcode to unlock.
Or an early game boss.
Or the final boss.
Or a playable character whose face on the character select screen just stares at you.
It could be funny to put Sonichu in here or it could get people to write this off as a gay stupid shitpost game for perverts and troons.

Sonichu is a stupid and lazy character concept.
And the author is a faggot troon manbaby so desperate for pussy he fetishizes femininity and resents his own lack of masculinity.
Parents who overfeed and under-exercise their dogs and kids are abusers.
Sonichu is a shit story in universe and out. Chris was just a faggot and in retrospect he's less funny now that we live in a pozzed society full of leftoids just as insane as him or worse and consoomer culture idealizes money-wasting retards like him.
Name something overpriced he bought. Someone else spent more on Soy Trek or Soy Wars. The Star Wars Galactic Space Cruise Hotel Experience or whatever it's called offers absurdly overpriced drinks meant to exploit this class of untermensch manchildren. Name something retarded he believes about reincarnation and other dimensions, would a hypnopony tulpa believer or new age boomer hippy laugh at it or call it wise? He's a troon but so are countless others and at least he doesn't work at schools pushing troonism on kids. He raped his retarded mother but so did tons of other faggots. Name something offensive he said about gays or blacks or jews or women- Actually let's skip this one, I don't like blacks and jews because they hate me. Gays and women are pushing it, if they want to be my friend they should abandon feminism and lbgtqgroomerism and recognize the existential threat islam poses to their way of life and ours. Anyway he's a cuck and I'd say he's from a lost generation driven to madness if that same generation didnt have people raised on completely different pieces of media and exposed to completely different cultures and influenced in completely different ways.
Look past the amateurish art and source inspiration (to be fair you can taste Berserk influence in Soul Calibur which might not exist if Mortal Kombat wasn't as shit as it is, Star Trek was pitched as Wagon Trail but in space, everything is inspired by something else in one way or another) and the author's disgusting narcissism and nothing is left. Nothing interesting is done with the characters or setting. These are not characters, they are plastic figures in a playset for Chris to fuck with. Sonic and Eggman don't even go on big brain political rants. CWCville is an exercise in masturbation and a boring setting for a story. I made my old unicorn character a retarded niggerfaggot because it's what audiences seemed to like at the time and he was going to grow into less of a niggerfaggot while getting even more OP so audiences will in theory think he is even cooler. Now I know more about writing so I know that was doomed to fail. Fundamentally flawed. The people I knew who praised it, what were they thinking? Was I intimidating? Were they afraid I would get violent if they told me how my story could be improved? I'm not like that at all. Did I seem like a fragile child who would break and give up on writing forever if I got one negative review? That's not me. Or were their standards so low that my work was "good enough by fimfiction standards" and therefore not offensively bad in a way that starts interesting discussions? Did they call it good without reading it? I'll never know.
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>>6305
>Hooray for beating FE games out of order.
Is it like YS? Where you can play each game as a standalone title? Even tho it is the same ongoing story.
>Hey, do you think it would be funny if Sonichu ended up in a Sonic fangame?
I'd say, go for it. Just don't advertise it or throw it at the player right away.
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My ID is jumping around again.
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>>6306
Fire Emblem has 15ish games but they usually aren't direct sequels. They like reusing concepts and weapon names and shoutouts and continents but usually things are only sequels if they have a protag with the same name as the last one, like Ike's games.
Playing FE Awakening doesn't require understanding who Marth from Smash Bros and FE1/its DS remake Shadow Dragon is but longtime series fans might like how Awakening is set 1000 years after FE1 and involves new countries on the first game's old continents.
3 Houses fans might chuckle at how Edelgard is like the 10th take on "the big conqueror character who usually wears red and might hate the gods". Basically Walhart's daughter without actually being his daughter. But a more sympathetic exploration of the idea this time, as she has legitimate reasons for hating her shit society's nobles and gods and caste system and holy bloodlines.
The games don't even develop in complexity in a linear fashion. 3 Houses overcomplicated things but its balancing often felt like a joke and the systems felt like tech demos for ideas that could be refined several sequels later.
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>>6306
Also because of the way my engine is designed if a character is in this game it will be visible as soon as you open the character select menu.
Unless I hide him behind a secret input like "Go to Sonic and press down twice" and after you beat him in the story mode the game tells you this secret.
Though I could put him on the character select menu roster in one of the corners? I made player 1 and 2's cursors start in the two upper corners with their cursors on Sonic and Shadow respectively.
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It's weird to remember the days when people said "I can't believe Sonic and Batman have friends now. Tails and Robin are stupid kids who make things less mature and dark and edgy and turn their franchises into dumb gay baby shit. I hate them" and "Nintendo jumped the fucking shark with Gold and Silver. Apricorn balls? Dive Balls? I already have a ball that's more effective on water types, it's also more effective on everyone else and it's called an Ultra Ball" because now Gold Silver and Crystal are overhyped games looked back on with nostalgia and Tails was so great it took 30 years for them to fuck him up. And how many Robins are there in Batman's bat army trying to recapture the magic of the original? Four? Six? Ten?
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The worst part about sprite art is having to compress detail into a small space because this results in losing detail and a simpler character design.
This isn't Xrd, I can't hide a bunch of engrish text on the clothes of random characters.
Also my characters have to be short.
I prefer tall fit women. But tall characters in fighting games suck because they get hit by shit average-sized characters can low profile under.
And this fucking catgirl who says "It's teleporting time" and teleports everywhere needs to be a TINY FUCKING MIDGET for gameplay purposes.
I just did a morb meme in 2022. Digging up a dead old meme like this is truly morb-id.
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At one point I was trying to make the most perfect Sonic game possible within the confines of my resources and design limitations. Like I'm trying to fix the franchise and retcon this and explain away that. But that was stupid. Stupid fanfiction writers that seeks to dump stupid headcanons on the audience instead of telling a story. And that story, that humanity inside the animal characters, that's what stories are truly about, not how many sick backflips the characters can do. This Sonic game is going to be something for me that I made for fun, and if others like it too, that's great. I'm experimenting with ideas and game mechanics. Boldly experimenting. No game has ever made its meter and burst and controls work quite like this. I'm not trying to perfect things here, I'm trying to have fun. The Sonic franchise is a lot of concepts, it means different things to different people. Sega could hire this man to create the perfect 3D sonic game with Mania-perfect 2D levels where all the special stages are kaizo stuff and there's a level maker and you lose 10 rings each time you take damage so the level design can afford to be tougher while special stages deplete your rings over time for extra challenge without forcing you to play a homoniggering testicleraping minigame for faggays but somebody would still call it imperfect for not being their dream Sonic game, which has... I don't know, 90 hours of randomly generated dungeon crawler RPG and Sonally romance and a high school setting. Or a customizable avatar with romance options and child soldiers you can recruit into your army of weirdos. Or a portal gun. Somebody out there wants portal gun sonic. And that someone is me, portal gun sonic would be fucking epic, portals conserve momentum so if a speedy thing goes in a speedy thing comes out, and Sonic is the ultimate speedy thing, give him a portal gun in a good 2D or 3D game with momentum and his levels can do so much more with their concepts.

And do you know what else that game should have? A difficulty choice at the start. Easy/Normal. Except Easy changes nothing about the game. It just adds laughtracks to the story cutscenes.
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>>6322
*stupid fanfiction writING, fuck me.
Anonymous
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Is there a point to any of this? I may never get to save another person again. All the hours of scripting, art, studying, coding, learning, exercise, socializing, is it worth it? My girl yelled at me for forgetting to eat again today. She wasn't pissed for failing at something I promised I'd try harder to keep an eye on. She felt bad for me.
26.
Almost Christmas.
Soon I will be 27.
Soon I will be 30. Then 40, then 50, then 60.
Possibly.
My country is being destroyed and my people are being molested by reptilian jew goblins in the government and banks and three letter agencies and so much more. They control everything and I risk my life every time I visit this site and say I wish I lived in a white christian ethnostate without any fragile aggressive rape apes or jewish pedophiles grooming our kids. Sometimes I post here about media opinions I can't post about anywhere else. Where else can I call fallout equestria or Sonic Frontiers or the new Pokemon game shit? My parents molested me as a child and got away with it because my little sister lied in their defense. And I still can't bring myself to hate her. I'd hate the three of them if they worked together to molest anyone else. What's wrong with me? What makes me unable to care about myself?
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I used to enjoy talking about politics. But I feel like there is nothing left to discuss. No more debates left to be had. WalkAway happened. All the facts are out there. Basic fucking math debunks the biggest lie we are taught. The remaining leftists would rather serve child rapists for profit or fun than do the pragmatic thing and keep their heads down and quietly wait on the sidelines to see who wins. They are all pure evil and they deserve something worse than they would do to us for fun if given the chance. Every last one. There is no middle ground between rapist jews and their white victims. No compromise. No third option. The world really is a simple black and white place, and white men entertain themselves with stories where things are not so obvious. Where genocide is not necessary and merely killing the warlord in charge of the barbarians/mothership in charge of the aliens/AI in charge of the robots/leader in charge of the terrorist cell is enough. When people complain to me that they can't say "Paki shop" I feel like exploding. They rape our fucking children and invade our lands and overthrow our governments without facing any meaningful resistance your biggest concern is what they and their jew allies will allow you to call them? Does everything the enemy did to us mean nothing to these people? And that guy who knows about the WEF but can't stop distracting himself with aliens... Why does he bother arguing with people about the WEF if he is only going to sit around and say "Things will get worse and we are all fucked"? No wonder nobody wants to hear his redpills. Nobody wants to believe they are on the losing side of the conflict and tactics must adapt.
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>>6325
Dude, you are wasting your time, the bronies turned this place into utter desolation.
I don't know what is wrong with them but suddenly they begun to malfuction bad. Vaccinated perhaps?
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>>6324
>>6325
Damn nigga. I gotta say, your spirit is undoubtedly stronger than pretty much everyone I've seen on this site. It's kinda shitty seeing you all black-pilled.
That said, I've honestly lost all faith long ago. I don't really think it will ever get better. But that doesn't mean I'd stop trying. None of this shit can have even the tiniest emotional impact on me, not anymore.
Even if things are hopeless. A man needs to push onwards. Do everything you can possibly do. Even the Lord has been compelled by sheer human will and perseverance.
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>>6326
The longer you spend discussing FIM and not fanfiction, the fandom, other fan media, headcanons, theories, analysiseses, or anything else unrelated to FIM, the more likely you are to talk about a bad episode or bad character. Or misused or mishandled character. Discussion of bad official FIM stuff is ruined by cunts who say "Fuck you, shut up, I like it that way, you're the problem, official FIM has done nothing wrong, the official FIM content you like is worth less than nigger semen, I hate you, your standards are too high, how dare you focus on the negatives and not exclusively focus on the positives instead, how dare you disagree with me, you don't belong here, I hope your entire family gets molested you piece of fucking shit". It rejects discussion and the premise of critique. Prevents growth. Stifles learning. Makes the discussion all about the cunts and their feelings. Shuts conversations down. It's draining. I stopped talking about Sonic on Sonic forums and Pokemon on Pokemon forums because I got sick of that type yelling that shit at me. Why do they have to make their shit taste my problem? Can't those kids let adults discuss kids media in peace without anyone calling me names over media opinions? It's always weird to encounter someone in an unexpected context who offers an opinion like "New dub Vegeta is shit, fuck funimation, I miss the ocean dub Vegeta" that's forbidden on mainstream sites.

Sonic was never good.

Sonic was good*.

*if you only play perfect games like Sonic 2, 3+K, Advance 1, and Mania at their best (dont buy segas shitty rereleases) while swearing to overlook all flaws and missteps and glitches and jank if you play anything else with some good parts and some shit parts like Sonic Adventure 1/2/Heroes/Battle/Shadow The Hedgehog/06/Unleashed/Advance 2 and 3 and the Rush games. And find the OVA somehow. And ignore Generations and Colours and Lost World and Forces for being pure shit. And ignore the TV shows that don't appeal to you based on what you do and dont want out of animated Sonic media. SatAM is babys first dark war media for kids, AOSTH is silly wannabe loony tunes complete with crossdressing and weird fetishes and HOW THE FUCK DID THEY GET JOHN LONG JOHNSON BALDRY IN THIS, Sonic Underground exists unfortunately, the Toei Junio Sonic OVA was fucking awesome and that hat was so cool Ken Penders stole it, Sonic X is a bit of low budget slice of life fun until they adapt Adventure 1 and 2 and then run out of ideas and go to space to save the plant princess, and Sonic Boom is comedy gold. It's supposed to be an action show but the writers know they don't have the budget for good action and comedy is the best thing you can do with a setting as inherently limited as Sonic Boom Island, sixish characters, and barely four locations. It even does a CWC episode for crying out loud. Funniest shit ever, we should watch that one on movie night some day.

Mario is a cereal box mascot. Sonic has countless imitators because he wants to be more than Mario's imitator. Sonic has more potential than Mario ever will. But people lose faith in the franchise and character because every time Sonic Team tries and fails it refuses to learn from the failure. The latest reinvention of the Sonic identity was Sonic: Breath of the Shadow of the Neon Genesis Colossus Revengeancelion. Before that it was a racing game and gunless rail shooter hybrid called Automated Boost Sonic. Before that it was an automated semi 3D game called Automated Adventure Sonic. How fucking hard is it to program a fucking blue sphere in red sneakers to roll down green hills with actual physics? Get blue spheres? How about you get blue spheres, SEGA, and go outside and touch grass and roll blue spheres down grassy green hills so you can learn how physics work and stop being decades behind the times?
>>6327
I have crippling depression. I fight it every day. If I ever seem like someone who has everything together, it means I am winning. But I will never kill myself. If it seems like I did it means I was suicided for finding information that could lead to Hillary Clinton's arrest. That's a joke, there's no point looking because nothing short of a pipe bomb or sniper or heavily armed mob ready to start with gunning down ZOGbots will ever end the tyranny of enemy politicians. I fucking hated talking to this one guy... let's call him friend C. He was a libtard cuck. His life was nicer than mine. Had it easier than me. But he was addicted to making shit up and smiling about it. If he was ever losing an argument he would threaten to kill himself. And if I told him to stop pulling that shit every time he feels pressured to tell the truth and admit fault people nearby would look at me like I'm the monster. They didn't know. Didn't know he would just talk like that for fun and pretend he was more than another soft leftist zog worshipper coomer with an empty council house full of dildos and an overpriced laptop the taxpayer paid for full of man on man porn and furry porn and discord kittens he sent nudes to. If I ever sold nudes it would be for tremendous sums of money, not power over a discord server. And I won't sell my nudes. Fags like him might masturbate to them and that might hurt my chances of getting into heaven. My huge cock might be worth a lot (it leans a little to the left. Only thing about me that does) but I will never be a whore. He posed in embarassing girlyboy fashion and tried hard to appear harmless and nonthreatening for personal gain despite also wearing the aesthetics of violence and insanity whenever he felt like it and ditching either persona when inconvenient for him. Talking to him was like talking to an AI that can't remember to stay in character or who it is supposed to be. Except instead of forgetting which body part belongs to who or how many tails we have, he forgot which personality trait he is supposed to emulate in this social game he turned everything into. Niggerfaggotballsfagfucknigcunt.

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My zipper's open
My cock's what I'm choking
I've even forsaken my race
For now is the season
To discard all reason
And nut on Rainbow Dash's face
A glorious ass
But I'm not just crass
Her mane is what I long to feel
(I really like her mane!)
Human puss I spite
As my dick stands upright
The only thing I know for real
There will be nut! Shed!
In that video Dash is giving head
Rainbow will be! Bred!
I'll ride upon that feathered back
Because mounting's all that's left I can take
OH NO THERE WILL BE NUT! SHED!
IT'S THE ONLY THING I'VE EVER BLOWN!
Losing all my dignity
Fearing I might not succeed
I'll fuck the horse in front of me
I must fill R.D. with seed
As we're fucking at this deadly height
Over Ponyville, it's raining white!
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That faggot jew tried so fucking hard to appear harmless and appealing to women when he wasn't trying fucking hard to appear dangerous and exciting and interesting to men. One second he claims he juggles knives for fun and killed someone with a chainsaw once. The next he claims he could talk his way out of a rape gang trying to take his money by trying to appeal to their emotions or offering to buy them a pint and have a good time. Fucking faggoted white negro. Fuck. I'm over that guy and I'm glad we stopped talking but writing shit he said into this work means looking back at the shit he said to me. Pisses me off all over again.

Maybe if I was better at arguing I could have fixed him?

No. No, that kind of thinking is poison. He is over 25 and he isn't disabled, just a lazy faggot on benefits who jacks off to skinny shotacon boys with tiny tiny doodled dicks and ugly fursonas raping each other with fat dog cocks. Fucking pervert. It is not my responsibility to fix or save anyone, especially a degenerate who does not want to be saved. He has less value than a fart in the wind. His only contribution to this earth is an object lesson in what not to be. His inauthenticity masks the lack of anything worth talking about beneath all the lies. He's just a lazy pervert obsessed with pleasure and lies.
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I don't have the right to feel like the good I do is meaningless. I wouldn't have the heart to look an old person or disabled person or poor person or some mix of the three right in the eyes and say "I feel as though I am nothing and what I do to help you is meaningless". I couldn't say that to any of the people I've fed. So why do I keep hearing it in my own mind? Sure, if I help one in a hundred, I'm not helping 99 others. But if I sit on my hands and feel my ass grow fatter, I'm not helping anybody.
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No matter how good or bad my Fire Emblem game turns out it can't be worse than the two romhacks I played today.

What felt like a whole hour of useless lore infodumping irrelevant to the current events and the characters filled my screen before I eventually got to play as the game's protagonists, nigger Chrom and girl Robin. Everything currently relevant about the setting and current events could have been summed up here, with the characters saying shit like "Woah, why is this nation attacking? I thought those fucks were our allies! That bastard King Dharkonian must be behind this! Why would they attack when they normally make so much money selling fruit to the Northerners?" or whatever. In the moment, in what is supposed to be an action-filled prologue even though the characters take too many lines to say what can be expressed in few words to preserve a sense of tension, what matters is "Survive" and "Fill the audience with reasons to give a shit about the survival of the heroes", not "Blah blah blah magical all-powerful runes blah, there are many countries and here are the names of four and their gimmicks and "this country spent money on research which was very wise", fuuuuuck me. We could have been introduced to the specialties of each country when we fight it for the first time or see a unique unit from it.

And then another one making the same mistakes but worse. Blah blah blah, this world once had dragons, they turned into humans, some bred with real humans and some didn't, there are clans with names, and then we get shitty sprites and "We had better kidnap some of our enemies and torture them for info. I know what Dragons are like. They are proud and would rather kill themselves than give up info. But these Dragons are faggots. They will probably tell us everything". And then there's a shitly designed second map where the fucking enemies flee behind terrain I can't cross while infinitely respawning filler guys die to my two overpowered Jeigens. If I said the first map felt randomly generated it would be an insult to random map generators everywhere. When I saw map 2 start with an absurdly OP enemy within striking distance of all my guys I checked for a Talk command with each character until I found the one that recruited him. I wonder if he'll die in a cutscene to deprive me of this absurdly OP guy so I don't solo the whole game with him?

Fire Emblem Awakening didn't do this. You help a blue-haired lord slay an obviously evil wizard, then you betray the lord. That's map 0, a tutorial for moving your guys and attacking foes. You awaken in a field in the past, saved by the lord, who recruits your amnesiac cultist-cloak-wearing ass into the military and makes you its tactician. Map one, filthy bandits from Plegia are attacking innocent civilians, kill their asses. Map two, your time-travelling daughter from the future saves your blue-haired husbando's little sister from zombie monsters you later learn are the fault of Plegia and their satanic dragon god Grima. Map 3, trading items between units, weapon triangle, and introduces the idea of the Shepherds, and creates forwards story momentum by telling you we're going north to get aid from the snownigger khans. Map 4, it's snowy and you learn barbequeing armourfags deals Super Effective damage as you learn about chokepoints and Pair Ups and gain a pegasus knight. Next map, fight your daughter from the future who fights just like Chrom, simple combat room map to suit the story focus, then you're saving a girl from the Plegian Mad King Gangrel holding her hostage and about to kill her, then you're defending Chrom's big sister Emmeryn from a Plegian assault led by the evil wizard you killed at the start, he survives because of a mysterious force, then there's filler where your new better second Pegasus Knight says "I'm the only survivor, I still hear the screams of my fallen comrades!", then there's the climax of Emmeryn's arc.

You could even say that this is where Emmeryn... PEAKED! Ha-ha!

But yeah the mission to rush in and save her with your Pegasi riders is foiled by enemy anti-air archers (this is established earlier) and then Emmeryn tries out the japanese national sport of skydiving without a parachute. Chrom gets pissed, kills his way through enemies in the rain as sad music plays, you kill your way to Gangrel and kill him, story pauses. Then there's filler about Valmese fags, then you return to killing Plegian scum and prevent them from awakening Grima. Then Future Grima from the bad future where he won shows up and you kill him, Gangrel's bitch Aversa, and the dark wizard Validar. Happy end, game over. The narrative focus is almost always on infusing this story with forward momentum, with mystery, with setups and payoffs. It's hardly shakespeare but it had the sense to not frontload this tale with narrators narrating their fucking purpose as fourth-wall-breaking narrators to your face before awkwardly infodumping all the shit in the author's worldbuilding documents like a CERTAIN shit game I played today.

Eirika's Fire Emblem? FE hackers sure love the GBA games so let's look at how Eirika's one handled things. There's a bit of loredumping at the start but what matters is the Princess fleeing from baddies at first and she has to fight them but based gigachad Seth is there to solo the game for her if necessary.

Thank you, Fire Emblem community. Thank you for the reminder that Pokemon fangames and Fire Emblem fangames are subject to the same curse that plagues most fanmade media made by fans for fans.

You need a diverse pallet full of ideas from more than one source. Draw all your ideas from one well and they become stagnant. To make a great Pokemon game, you need to know of RPGs better than Pokemon, strategy games better than FE, and characters and stories better than the writing in both.
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For the record I had units who could have crossed the thickets like the flier girl but if they were dead and the cowardly enemies chose to hide behind that wall the map would fucking softlock.
Second map in the fucking game. Christ.
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If RPGs are a joke, Pokemon is the punchline.
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Early morning sex is so good and pure. No exhaustion from the day. No caring about what time it is. No checking the time before you fuck. You feel loved for the whole day when you're done cuddling with wife and helping her clean up. Porn stories end after the jizz or fade to black because they don't like that part. But I like showering with her.
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I know it's a bit early to think about my new years resolution but I think I want to stop blogposting and spend more time being creative. Can this homosexual blogposting thread be deleted? It is full of personally identifiable information I probably should not have said, and I even admitted my parents molested me and several teachers I had in my life groped me. I don't want every stranger to know something so personal and private.
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Christmas was nice this year. Attended a party with one of her friends. Left at 3pm because everyone else was leaving at 3pm. What kind of lame ass party ends at 3pm? We should have stayed there until 3am the next day getting drunk doing each other and drugs! Haha just kidding. I'm not a degenerate. No drugs for me. It was not an orgy with drugs. I would never go to a place like that. Instead it was a wholesome friendly party with friends. I played video games with new friends I made there and my girl bragged to all of her friends about how amazing I am! That surprised me! I don't know why. She loves me and praises me a lot. She praises me a lot when I do good. She really thinks the world of me. I'm not used to it. She sees the good in me even when I can't. I would die to protect her. I would kill to protect her. It always feels weird when someone has something nice to say about me. She talked about the amazing game I am making from scratch. Art, code, music, character design, animation, hitboxes, all of it. I am single handedly doing all of this. And I was playtesting my game with these people at this party because I brought it with me. Some people spend their lives improving at just one of these fields. They went to college to learn this shit from the best of the best and improve what they have been doing for decades. And here I am teaching myself to do literally everything so I can do it all. When you put it like that holy shit, I guess I do sound pretty amazing. I have no illusions about the quality of my work but it's good to know even people who have never picked up a controller before can quickly learn my game and git gud. The industry has a lot of issues with that. With teaching, and being teachable.

Also my roommates grew up and aren't colossal faggots any more. Now they are cool. They got based and dropped all their bad habits and they work out with me. I feel bad about calling them faggots now.
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"Stupid fighting game selling clerk made me late! That trilobite didn't know a 6P from a DP! Heh. DP. Heh. More fighting game humor."
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Designed a speedrunner tech into my Rivals Of Aether OC: back aerial gives a great decaying momentum boost. Platform cancel your back aerial or jump cancel it on hit to cancel bair and fit more bairs into your movement to accelerate your speed beyond its usual limits.
Another tech: Preserved Invulnerability Neutral Grounded Aerial Schmoovenent dashes, or PINGASdashes. Jump cancel your rolls to preserve up to 7 frames of invincibility and challenge your foes for aerial supremacy.