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Should I get therapy?
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Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting? Who should I do therapy with? Can I trust my entire life's story with anyone who's not on this site?
Maybe if I tell you my life's story, you can give me life advice.

I was raised by abusive lefty parents who hated their smart white son and often tried to push me towards trannyism. Never fell for it.
First I was sent to a shit primary school. A few kids bullied me there and teachers punished me whenever I fought back. I was a fat angry kid who could punch hard when pushed, and they liked attacking me and then running away. But when we fought properly I'd kick their asses. One time I kicked their asses hard enough to make them stop bothering me.
When I graduated from this school I was sent to the special school of a catholic school, and made the personal property of one old bitch there who hated autistic kids. Around that era I got interested in Game Maker and pokemon romhacking but that interest never amounted to anything, though I did have a USB full of GBA roms and romhacking tools and the fact that I was able to code at such a young age when not all kids were learning that should have shown somebody that I had more to offer the world than shitty schools thought I should.
Thanks to that school, my schedule looked like this: Enter a side building, wait for the day to end, sometimes get insulted by the teachers if they felt like abusing me, usually get to eat lunch at lunchtime but sometimes they wouldn't let me (and it didn't matter whether I brought a packed lunch to school or brought money for the school cafeteria) and eventually go home to a house with parents that, when told the right words by my boomer bullies, would freak out and abuse me at home too. Rarely I'd get to join in a classroom... but class clowns would act up until I'd get blamed for it and sent out.
If I had a tape recorder or decent phone, I could have gathered evidence of the shit said/done to me (audio files of verbal abuse, pics of bruises, etc) and posted it online. But I was never allowed anything like that, because my parents feared I might use it on them. One day at school the art teacher bumped me with her car while backing up into a crowd of kids, I was fine but pissed off and the art teacher shrieked and blame-slinged feministically at me until I lost my patience and started barking back, then she put me in front of the headmaster and I told him about the abusive staff members and called him terrible at his job, so he kicked me out.
Then I was sent to a worthless "speshul" school where a few teachers abused me and the students usually watched in confusion when they weren't joining in. Whenever I trusted an adult enough to tell him or her what happened at home, that adult decided to call child protective services, who sent the same fucking boomer woman over to warn my parents that I was talking about what went on at home again. I couldn't get away from my family until I became the problem of Adult Protective Services, where the slightly less retarded and lazy people go.
A woman my age at the autistics-only youth club I attended got mad at me over retarded internet roleplaying nonsense-drama that didn't even involve me, and she lied about me to the cops and accused me of abusing her, even went to some clinic to fake signs of a concussion she didn't have because she's a spoilt bitch who knows how to play her rich parents like fiddles, she was a low-functioning sociopath woman with histrionic personality disorder and every retarded boomer's sympathy. She lied and got away with it, because the cops weren't interested in this case after she cartoonishly fucked up and started gloating about physically assaulting me without realizing it hurt her case. But even though I said to the managers of the youth club and the friends I knew there "If what she said about me was true I'd be in jail so you know she's lying" they couldn't believe me because they were dumb. There was one weird creepy fucker I used to talk to online because his "woe is me, asian school life is sooo hard" shit kind of reminded me of me at the time, but he got severe TDS and stopped being a person once he stopped viewing me as a person so I'm glad I didn't tell him anything sensitive or identifiable that could fuck me over later in life.
Anyway when I went to college, I was lied to and exploited by the staff until I dropped out. They even tricked me into taking a worthless course that turned out to be the dump where they dump the autistic kids and give them a useless fake newspaper to write. I wish I dropped out sooner, trying to live on barely fucking anything is hard enough when your mom took govt money meant for you, but it's harder when you're forced to spend most of your cash on train rides between your college and shitty home every two weeks and all your cunt government can offer is a discount pass. Now that I'm living alone, I've got a free bus pass I can barely use. Government priorities, am I right?

I am an autistic man, I'm 24 years old, I'll be 25 next year, and I've spent so much of my life as property of someone else that I find it hard to notice when I'm hungry or tired and remember that I should eat or sleep without someone or a phone alarm telling me to. I shower every night before bed but sometimes I miss meals, it's what helped me go from obese fatty to only-slightly-overweight. I don't think I know what it feels like to be loved by someone else. Learning makes me happy and I love documentaries but when I tried an online free learning site it reminded me of school and I couldn't do it. Sometimes I talk to people and act charming like those "Charisma on command" youtube vids told me so they'll like me, but I've never given anyone my full backstory before. The only woman in my life I ever kissed was that bitch who falsely accused me and got away with it. I want to say I have no interest in modern women but I still feel the urge to wank to them. But I don't wank any more because of nofap.
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Jesus this exercise bike is hardcore. Worth every damn penny.

It's always pissed me off when demoralized cucks try to deny the superiority of space travel/space habitats on the baseless grounds that it would be difficult and not benefit people currently alive. How does that old saying go again, the one from a wise civilization that eventually collapsed but was pretty based before it collapsed into degeneracy and forgot its own wisdom? That quote about how society is great when old men plant trees so that young people may bask in their shade. Mankind's future belongs in the stars. Without space travel we're just idiots moving matter around on a single planet that could easily become our gravestone. Would it really be such a tragedy in the doomer's mind if jobs were created by companies that wanted to colonize space or go bankrupt trying? I'm sure those working for the industries that supply those space companies with resources for cash would be happy no matter how things go. Those cowardly doomer cucks should take their defeatist attitudes to hospitals and try saying their "lets just give up my fellow white males" shit around terminally ill patients with a slim chance of recovery. They'd get their asses kicked for it. They only talk that way because the thought of space naturally gives the white man hope that his science can answer life's questions and solve its greatest problems, problems leftism can only worsen. That talk spits in the eye of every forefather who fought and bled and broke a fucking sweat so the comfortably numb doomandgloomposter can masturbatorially brandish his cynical corporate-mandated defeatism like he thinks it's something to be proud of. Whites can into space. One planet is not enough. And we'll never get into space if we shoot ourselves in the foot slaving away for jewish slavemasters while pretending we are equal to literal niggers. "Equality" is a lie meant to discourage greatness. "Liberalism" is a leftist weapon meant to dismantle the aspects of functional civilizations that let them enjoy the benefits of Liberty and Plenty and Truth and other thing the ravenous weaponized useless eaters loathe.
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The lack of free will is a myth that comforts faggots by letting them tell themselves they'd be better people if they lived in better times that gave them more opportunities to be good people and fewer opportunities to be cunts or lazy faggots or lazy faggoted cunts.
Anonymous
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Sometimes my hands wander to my hips and gut as if even they doubt the radical transformation of my physique for the better. Is this normal?
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>>3858
It's normal. Feeling your body change for the better can be cathartic.
Anonymous
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>>3859
You're right, thank you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ROJ0-r3zyck
This cringefest helped me come to terms with the crappy fanfics I wrote as a child/teenager.
I feel like I've healed something I didn't realize needed healing until now. If it wasn't for those crappy fanfics, I never would have improved as much as I've improved now. Does Picasso feel guilt and shame over the first doodles and paintings he ever made before he got famous? What about Van Goth and Monet and some other art guy?
Anonymous
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Dear diary

Today nofap got me some bitches on my dick. Well, one. I was resting after walking and jogging on a football pitch when a dog ran up to me and sniffed my crotch. For multiple seconds, even when I moved away or stroked the dog's head while guarding my dick and balls with one hand. I even got up and turned around and tried walking away. The dog followed my crotch and wouldn't stop sniffing it. I didn't like it. I'm not actually a furry I just like big tits. The dog's wet nose made marks on my trouser legs. I'm glad I guarded my dick and balls before it touched anything of mine because this would feel weirder if that happened. Anyway the owner saw this and started walking over, after 10 seconds of this he eventually finished walking here and called the dog away, pulling her by her collar as she continued turning towards me, sniffing at me, even trying to run at me. I smiled politely and said "She's friendly, isn't she?" and he glared at me before walking away faster. Maybe this was embarassing for him too? Maybe I said the wrong thing. Maybe he trained this behaviour into his dog unintentionally (dog likes resting head on legs when it wants pat pats and doesn't understand what a dick is) or intentionally (vomits internally). I had no idea what to do in that situation besides guard my dick for fear of it going from sniffing to biting or licking. I'm glad it didn't lick or bite. It was surprising. I didn't wake up this morning and expect a literal dog to smell the unspent semen within me and seek my wild stallion out like a missile. Would I technically still be a virgin if that thing licked me through my trousers or would I count as a sexual harassment victim? Do those laws even apply to dogs? An owner is responsible if their dog bites someone, does the same apply to humping their leg and other canine shit? If I put on some cologne I'd assume it was that but I never use perfume or cologne or deooderant except for fancy occassions that normally never happen. Normally dogs don't seek me out like that and I had no food in my pocket so all I can think to blame is nofap. I wasn't feeling any urges before or during or after the event because I was thinking about jackets. Even now I still feel like that was something too weird to actually happen, like some unlikely degenerate anime fanservice scene. Then again I've never actually seen dog related fanservice in anime unless anthro dog girls count. There was one hot buff wolf chick in There was that "turn yourself in, man" joke from an anime I forgot the name of. I know eating dogs is legal in china but I hope fucking dogs is illegal in japan. Mares are cute, but dogs are not for sexual.

Also I forgot to tell you this but I've been walking a lot and walking/jogging/sprinting down a football field. Good exercise. My weighted vest makes it even more intense. Being healthy is good. No wonder the jews want us mining or paying for dopamine in shitty grind games like Gayshit Impact instead of exercising.

Your faithful student, Nigel D. Narutofag.
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>>3907
Hilarious. You don't often see dogs doing that unless they have done it before, the guys body language would have said it all and the way he reacted is a dead give away to the reason why he ran with his tail between his legs. A bit too friendly ay?
Then again the bitch could probably have smelt your dick cheese a mile off, or perhaps some stains from one of your recent wet dreams. Semen has a strong odor and dogs have good noses, so she might have been able to pick that scent up from you, or she could be in heat. Then again I'm no bitch expert nor enthusiast.
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>>3916
Lmao bruh I have to clean myself well daily or I get skin problems. It must have been the dog because it couldn't have been me.
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>>3930
I get a lot of dandruff. She must have been a horny bitch and you lucked out on a first class ticket to a canine blowjob but declined it without much thought until afterwards.
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>>3974
I know I'm on a nazi site right now so this might be controfursial (hehe) but I'm not actually a furry.
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>>3975
Your penchant for furry/futa images begs to differ
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>>3976
Some furry art is well drawn. Some anime art is well drawn. And futa is the only way to make yuri less gay.
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>>3977
Pray tell, how does more penises = less gay?
Anonymous
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>>3978
Less or more gay than women grinding their frontholes together?
Anonymous
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>>3975
Neither am I.
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>>3979
If your media preferences lead you to choose between furry futa and lesbian fronthole rubbing, you're a faggot and should kys
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When I borrowed Persona 5 from a friend and tried playing through it, the game's focus on getting as much as possible out of your limited time as deadlines inexorably marched towards you kept reminding me that I am wasting my time playing Persona 5, an overhyped weebshit RPG for babies who will only call P5 a masterpiece if they have literally never read a book in their lives besides Harry Potter at most.
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>>3981
Don't be gay when I'm winning a humorous argument over the pointless semantics of fictional beings.
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>>3985
Your points have been casually/effortlesssly refuted for a week. When were you 'winning'?
Anonymous
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>>3986
Why are you being gay in my thread?
Is it homosexual to touch a woman's ass?
Is it homosexual to fuck a woman's ass?
If women had wings, and a culture that says winged females should be the one grooming male wings, would it be homosexual to groom her wings?
What if women naturally had penises of their own?
Then women could penetrate other women without being gay about it.
Theoretically.
Maybe, theoretically, I'm just fucking with you because I know you're a screeching shell of a former human so obsessed with me you'll latch on to anything, anything at all... as long as you think it makes me imperfect.
Think, clown, think. You desperately want to turn everything into a competition so you can feel like you're winning something for once. Even though you lack the balls and drive for self improvement necessary to have a thread of your own like this.
You're not doing any favours by screeching at me in every single thread on this website. You're a mad dog and you bark when commanded. You say you're not the spiteful cowardly redditor hclegend? Alright, stop talking like him and stop acting like him.
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>>312674
The shit show just doesn't fucking end. Nigel's spine and masculinity wars with the indoctrination. So the only thing in his tool box to work with ONLINE is moaning about shit, because being a silent pussy does jack shit.
>>312674
Fuck you, the thread was just fine and dandy in the nigel thread bring it up there because fuck you'll have all the ducks in a row.
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>>312383
There is a perfectly fine thread. That's all on topic.

>>312565 >Just one post and you're done, I'd recommend it be somewhere else, and for future reference just keep tabs on where all of them are for easier cleanup. Actual glowing shill fucks heors pussy. See post by admin.
>>312569 >The entomology of the various mental pathologies belong elsewhere, the garbage can thread for one off topics would be appropriate.
>>312575 >I understand the fury and rage coupled with duty for your fellow man to rise above from where he once was. As with many of my messages I'm taking an extraordinarily long time to make sure this isn't simply a rant of just repeatedly saying double nigger.
-GGGGGERS!

I'm sure you can guys can guess which pics are totally not posted atm.
So instead have this nice calming pone.
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>>3987
No, youre clearly being gay in your own thread. No help needed.
Anonymous
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>>3990
No, you're being gay in my thread.
And then you say "No you" and then I say "No you" and you keep this up forever.
That's how conversations with you usually go, hclegend/vril. If you don't just plug your ears and go "La la la I'm not listening and you haven't made an argument yet so make an argument I'm willing to listen to la la la"
Jesus fucking christ, you're a Jew.
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>>3990
>>3992
Anonymous
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>>3992
>No u
Why would I bother? The evidence is incontravertable that A. You deliberately engage in precisely the null effort posting and flagrant accusations you accuse others of and B. You lack the articulation to make an actually coherent argument.
Tl;dr Youre only making this worse for yourself
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>>3994
This war must be lonely for you. I can't imagine spending years of my life harassing one website and constantly gaslighting its users in the hope that someone believes your lies. But you can, because it's what you do.
You enter a thread and attack me while you still feel anonymous despite your posting style. You abandon the thread and move on if enough people tire of your antics and tell you to fuck off. And then you start the cycle again in a new thread where you can feel anonymous.
Wouldn't it be funny if there was one special word I'd hidden in posts directed towards you now and then so I could search for that word and find all the threads you've pulled this in over the years? Then I could direct people to that post every time you show up, for the benefit of newfags who don't know why a snarling rabid mutt in the corner best ignored by everyone is hallucinating vividly and crying shit like "You're mad! And butthurt! And a redditor! Not me, you! It's you who never changes! Yooou!".
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>>3995
>You're mad! And butthurt! And a redditor! Not me, you! It's you who never changes! Yooou!
Well its not wrong
Anonymous
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Watched some documentaries with the boys today. Was a good time.

Today I also criticized someone claiming to be Ninjas for the staff's handling of the hclegend problem, even though I'm not sure if that really was a mod/amin/whatever or not. I wonder if this will get me permabanned. If it does, I wonder if hclegend will move on to attacking other users or simply go back to reddit. I'll never understand why hclegend has been allowed to slander and harass me on this site for years in so many threads, and I'll never understand why his recent self-own in a certain other thread got censored. It was hilarious. Maybe it was deleted because anyone who saw it would never take hclegend seriously again. More than once I've thought about requesting a custom flag so hclegend won't lash out at random brits on the off chance that they're me, but this is supposed to be an anonymous site. Then again hclegend loves attacking me out of nowhere and claiming not to be hclegend until he can't any more, only ceasing his attacks in one thread if he feels he's wearing out his welcome in that thread. Then he abandons that thread only to attack me and cry "nigel" at me again in the next thread hoping his anonymity will shield him from the reputation his words and deeds earn him. That narcissist is sad. However if I was given something unique like a british flag with an orange fox in the middle while hclegend is given something that suits his pro-LGBTQ pro-tranny anti-SuperStraight reddit posts https://archive.is/N0cqB like a rainbow fag flag, anonymity would be removed from both of us. Everyone would know to ignore hclegend posts and never reply to hclegend posters. If staff don't want to warn hclegend to knock his antics off, giving us both flags would be a good way to make his usual antics easier for the users of this site to reliably ignore.
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>>3997
Man you are acting like a paranoid schizophrenic. Go to doctor Goldstein and tell him you think everyone who disagrees with you is the same guy that has been gang stalking you for years. Also ninjas isn’t a mod.
Anonymous
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>the joke
>>3998

btw I've raised the weight level on my chest press and weighted vest. It's a shame ankle and wrist weights don't work IRL but it's a good thing weighted vests work.
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>>3147
>Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting?
Depends, some people enjoy it and others don't because of personalities and the source of stresses.
If I can recommend anything it would be Equine Therapy, talking to people can be boresome and uninteresting compared to the sensuality of feel and emotion. That's if you're interested in Equus Caballus and their behavior patterns.
Institutional psychiatric therapy can be unpleasant at times and it may be discomforting to partake in the expression of feelings to someone you should or should not trust or perhaps don't enjoy being around, the building itself can be discomforting when the rooms are small and you are around people that are (most of the time) in it solely for money. Psychiatrists in general are judgmental and suspicious of classifications and diagnoses that are affiliated with the patients they deal with.
There tends to be more of a nerve racking sense of claustrophobia when being in those brick buildings than as opposed to standing in fields amongst the wild grasses and stone walls lined with barbed wire.
Horses and ponies can be more friendly than the majority of people are, the bond that forms between these two species is one of the attraction of polar opposites, predator and prey. The domestic nature of these four hoofed equines is temperamental and euphoric within interspecies relationships involving humans and horses, it's exciting for some and scary for others.
I love ponies to the moon and back, adorable and cuddly, more fluffy than teddy bears when they grow their winter coats, pones are more therapeutic than therapists are.
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My cunt landlord decided to sell my house. I hate renting.
Anonymous
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Guys if your dick and especially foreskin is swollen after sex is that a sign of STDs?
Anonymous
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>>4051
Yes.
You should probably see a doctor.
Anonymous
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From a Ginger Catholic Irish Girl that only speaks Geálgé.

That'll cost you 3.5 whole Bitcoins to the father.
Anonymous
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It's just skin irritation. Turns out my cock and balls are fine.

:apogee:
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>>4053
Éirinn go Brách. Agus mo ghrádh d'am sneachta
Anonymous
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>>4060
Yeah, I can't believe I actually had sex either. A hot babe started talking to me flirting with me and I panicked.

by the way a friend got sick of "Far Cry 5" for the PS4 and offered it to me for a tenner. I don't even keep my consoles plugged in any more but it might be interesting to see how a modern game plays since I spend so much time with older games or games similar to what I'm making.
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>>4063
So far this game is irritating.
At first the game demonizes the idea of religious white militants buying up farmland and making a state of their own. The interview style opener even makes a point of calling them DIFFERENT, RELIGIOUS, MILITANT. In fucking montana where everyone for miles would be better armed and more religious than these walking mockeries of what atheists think christians are. Some guy comes in to betray their trust and record them for a documentary demonizing them and gets caught, wow. Maybe Sneed has psychic powers and maybe he can smell the soy on this faggot from here.
"Maybe we shouldn't fuck with them. Maybe we should leave well enough alone" suggests one fedboy here to violate the laws of this land.
"We have laws for a reason" insist the fedboy cunts as these "holy" knights of DC or whatever come to fuck with what Seed fans willingly built. These fedboys gave themselves an arrest warrant for the leader of these people, and if it was a wild west murder warrant it would be just as meaningless. Swedes can't arrest Canadians for violating Swedish law on Canadian territory. Right?
And it gets dumber. We walk through a sp0000ky path full of angry armed whites. A cop grumbles that people don't respect the badge. "maybe they'll respect my 9mm" says some fedboy teammate as he invades foreign soil surrounded by whites armed with baseball bats and shotguns and other weapons. Christ I didn't expect this game to give me so much to talk about every few seconds. During the opening cutscene I had to pause it to write this out as things I wanted to comment on piled up faster than I could type them.
Wow how spooky the american church is singing amazing grace. Now he's ranting about how enemies want him arrested and his nation and people and religion destroyed.
Now they say he kidnapped? Neat. Fedboys did worse.
Seed looks like a weird cuck with stupid hair. He keeps blabbering weird pseudoreligious shit so he'll sound crazy when he says "the enemy wants us gone".
Lmao a cutscene and QTE. "press X to arrest the father". Why does this damn OST keep trying to make Amazing Grace sound spooky and haunting? Was "ring around the rosies" copyrighted or something?
"Sometimes the best thing to do is walk away" says the game... did I miss some alternate ending where if Snake waits long enough he doesn't shoot Quiet and fucks off? Does walking away instantly end the game all about fighting these fantasy whites and their all-american state?
Wow so many people are fucking with this copter. Wouldnt surprise me if it was sabotaged. This is stupid. The feds sent a few guys to arrest the leader of a tribe to either humiliate them and make an example of the leader back in weimerica or start a firefight and get "justification" for an all out war. Now Seedy McSeed survived the chopper crash and has the feds radio whore on his side and he's yelling about how "nobody will stand in his way"? I thought he just wanted to live here away from sin and eliminate any sinners in his land however he wanted.
I think Ubisoft made this... they also put out Watch Dogs Legion which demonized brexit and whites while blaming problems caused by jews on whites and capitalism, right?
I hate unskippable cutscenes. This game let me choose between man and woman. Why wont it let me join the Seedclave?
Tiny FOV is suffering.
my friend just got downed. I revive him now we're fuck it. This game is cancer. This is a PC game poorly ported to consoles not a console FPS designed to help players tolerate the anti-futurism and anti-ergonomics of a disgusting fucking shit console. Fuck this I'm out. Disconnecting PS4 and putting it back in the closet. Time to lift some fucking weights.
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Man... there was a time when my response to a bad game would be "I don't care how long it takes me. I will beat this game. I am an epic gamer used to a lack of choice".

But fuck that. I have choice now. I am a man. I'm not a boy trapped in a cupboard under the chairs forced to choose one of a few repetitive meaningless timewasters. I don't have to choose between my overused crash-prone copies of the ratchet series or smarties meltdown or TLOS or other shit games still with their low price and preowned stickers. I am a man. I can choose to go to places the jewrona cant shut down. I can climb a medium sized mountain. I can exercise. I can grow as a man instead of wasting my time with some pointless baby shoot game that solely exists because jewish marketing executives thought taking the dull formula they "perfected" and applying it to an anti-white copaganda story of a "heroic" fedboy teaming up with a local american violent "resistance" group to eliminate a religious minority of white pseudochristians would help turn more dipshit barely-whites against the best interests of their betters. I love the way my body feels after hardcore exercise. I need more. I am a man. A man with big pecs and no beer belly. My knees and ankles are fine when I stand thanks to how fit I have become. I am a man and I don't have anything to prove to a piece of jewish media meant to target my worst vice (gaming) and use it against my race. My worst vice used to be masturbation but then I stopped wanking. Gaming is the jew's third favourite type of media after TV and comic books. Good games can be fun or good stories or both but shit games... well, I just touched one and it made me feel so dirty I exercised with rage right after putting the console away and throwing the disc away. I have to be better than this. My game has to be better than this. I will never achieve my dreams if I waste time pretending to be who I was before I grew. Fuck nostalgia for gaming and fuck shitty games. I'm not the AVGN. Nobody's paying me to play shitty games and yell ass and fuck. I fucked an ass recently. I am a fucking man!
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A woman bought me a drink but it was so sugary it burned my tongue.
I don't remember getting sugar burns as a kid. But now I'm in my mid-twenties and sugar burns me.

What the fuck?

Is this because I've spent so long being a fit man who only eats meat, fruit, vegetables, and protein shakes? Has my body just forgotten how to deal with sugar?
Anonymous
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A friend of mine with ADHD turned his life around for the better and started actually completing adult tasks like "clean room daily" with the help of a phone app that fills EXP bars and makes videogame levelup sounds whenever he does tasks he sets for himself.
Sometimes he sets "do nothing for 2 seconds" tasks for himself because he wants to hear the congratulatory sounds and get that dopamine.
That's weird.
Anonymous
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>>4198
I have met other people classed under the term of Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder before, there was one in my junior school which happened to be inside my year that I knew but he always got in trouble one way or another, the majority of the time it was either being disruptive inside class or shouting at the teacher, other than that it was getting into fights with kids.
I remember inviting him to my house one day and punched him when he came through the gate, he proceeded to tell my mother but his dad couldn't come for him because he was doing something that I cannot remember, then afterwards we played some games in my bedroom until his father came to pick him up. After that night he never called me names again and told his friends not to mess with me, so they didn't. That and I beat the rest of them up or confronted them, I hated them with fury. As the years went past he evolved into bullying fat bastards in high school while I was plagued by my own mental demons that haunted me through those corridors and classes.
>>4065
>I fucked an ass recently.
I Didn't know you were into donkey mares, anon.
I guess that makes us two.
Anonymous
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>>4248
Lol that's not what I meant by fucking ass but good joke
This might sound weird but every ADHD kid I met as a kid had four things in common
1) Single-mom household, or the dad was an irrelevant cuck or an ignored quiet hard-worker forced to barely be a presence in his kid's life by his job
2) Spongebob is his only positive male role model and smiling through the pain is his coping mechanism
3) Eats too much sugar and drinks too much artificial orange, same goes for his obese alcoholic smoker mom who usually ate herself into diabetes too
4) As he grows older and gets a healthy diet figures out coping mechanisms despite the best efforts of any adult paid to hover around him or any schoolteacher or "professional", you end up wondering why he was misdiagnosed with "too much youthful energy for our tastes and/or for some mysterious reason he isn't taking any interest in dull hyper-easy ultra-slow condescending timewasting lowest-common-denominator lessons" disease
I've never met someone permanently fucked up by ADHD. They probably exist out there. It probably sucks for them. I hope they wouldn't think less of me for saying I've met people diagnosed with ADHD as a kid who got better later in life because it was just their pathologized normal childishness.
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>>4249
The kid who has ADHD had a dad that took steroids but never went to the gym and a mother who was abusive to her son while drunk, he was with his dad the majority of his upbringing but went to his mother's every once in a while which he proclaimed to dread. Funnily enough, she was also a heavy smoker too.
This one time I was in class with him and we were looking at a map so I pointed out the country called Niger to him which he found highly amusing due to the resemblance of the word nigger, so he then laughingly showed the female teacher the map and the country which he said was called nigger, upon which the woman recoiled in shock and hastily looked at what he was pointing at within the middle of Africa, her response was that it's name is Niger (nigh-jer) and not that. He then turned to me and laughed which by this point I was laughing too.
Anonymous
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>>4250
Now that's a formative memory! I remember this one time a school guy (i can't really call him a friend) gave me a USB with a pokemon Emerald rom for me to hack, I told him what I can do, he said "make Birch give me a Rayquaza at the start" so I did.
And also renamed Professor Birch to Professor Bitch and gave his lab the smoky/misty white weather and had him talk about weed a lot. I also cranked up the encounter rate to 100% in a few routes, filled them with Hypno, renamed him Rapeno(because he kidnaps a kid on one of the islands and he has a big jew nose), and drew dicks with the grass in a ton of areas using AdvanceMap. I also added an Eevee Hall area to Oldale town, a building where one room with a talking Eevee explains the place. There are doors leading to a bunch of hallways where you can EV train each stat. A feature that would be super cool and convenient for any kid who understood EV training. My sense of humor back then was in dickland where weed is hilarious. Anyway the reward I bartered for was that I got to keep the USB. Was my first ever USB and provided a good place to store files i didnt want my parents noticing on the family PC. It didnt have a lot of space but I still have it in my collection. Maybe if I got more PC time as a kid and took Game Maker more seriously I could have made a profit back then, had some savings for when I escaped.
Anonymous
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>>4251
I was never interested in Nintendo or Sega, my usual preference was the play station 1 and the original Xbox. I played games that my mother got me and most of them were above the age rating that was way above mine, in some cases double.
What I played were the classics, my main favorites were Crash Bandicoot, Halo Combat Evolved, some Scooby Doo games and the Spider man ones. My usual choice was the Xbox over the play station due to it's plethora of variety, I liked Jaws on the PS1 and the Spider man which were about it.
As I grew into my teenage years I got a Xbox 360 from my brother that I still have and play on occasions, never cared for the PS3 or 2. The games I liked were Call of Duty World at War, Halo 3, Fallout 3, The Orange Box and the good games that were released following the late 2000's into the 2010's were, Call of Duty Black Ops, Fallout New Vegas, Portal 2, Aliens Vs Predator, Skyrim. Had a computer but it was shit.
Anonymous
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>>4252
The only PS1 games I had were Spyro 1, 2, 3, and inherited scratched copies of Everybody's Golf, Alundra, and the last two Final Fantasy discs.
PS2 wise I had a collection of "whatever had cheap stickers when it was around christmas or my birthday". I remember good games like the Ratchet And Clank series and I remember shovelware like Smarties Meltdown. When the Wii came out the adverts made my parents want it so they bought it and plugged it into the tv downstairs and barely ever allowed me to use it. They wouldnt let me take it upstairs either. We had "zack and wiki quest for barbaros's treasure", more like crappy wiki quest for the answer to this shitty puzzle. Also smash bros brawl, wii sports, mario kart, and LOZ skyward sword but no wii motion plus. I ended up trading with someone I knew for a gamecube and Pokemon Colosseum, Sonic Adventure 1 and 2, smash melee, and Pokemon XD GOD. That might be the dumbest name ever. Just call it Colosseum 2: Rise of Shadow Lugia or something. The wii did gamecube games but the wii I had was for downstairs use only and being downstairs was risky around my bastard parents. Never knew when one would blow up at me over nothing. Now that I live alone I still check the game stores for preowned deals but I hate how gaming's full of overpriced overhyped AAA garbage now and I try not to spend money on gaming any more anyway. Most cheap preowned discs are still pricier than something on a steam sale. Or something pirateable, not that I would ever pirate anything ha ha wink wink. But seriously fuck AAA gaming. The indie gaming scene's better. Can you believe Crazy Taxi's creators copyrighted the game mechanic of the arrow that points to where you should drive, which drove GTA to make the Minimap that became standard for most games? Imagine if Nintendo could copyright the mechanics of all their old NES games. There would be no nintendo clones in the indie gaming scene which would suck since some include better ideas that make them better than their inspirations. I play a lot of Fallout New Vegas, I also played Skyrim and it sucked but it's great with mods replacing all the bad content. If you liked Skyrim check out FNV because it's better.
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>>4253
Never played Spyro before or Final Fantasy either, let alone Ratchet and Clank. They never motivated my interests.
The fucking wee, what a load of shite. Played it ages ago but hated it due to the awkward controls and bodily movements required for it, most of the games on it were excessively bland or sports themed. Liked Mortal Kombat but wasn't heavily excited about it as such with some others which put me off the rest of the fighting replicas that followed it, haven't played a single Street Fighter or Super Smash Brothers to this day.
In my former days pirating games or copying discs was the way to go, I still have a copied disc of Halo 3 somewhere and a crappy Need for Speed too. Also, I haven't ever completed a single Pokémon game before and won't be anytime soon, in my prepubescent pathology of logic it didn't make much sense to fight these Japanese monsters against each other, so I decided not to go out of my way to play it.

Tried some tabletop games when I was younger but the process always frustrated me in strategy and decision, so that I wouldn't participate in the pointless delusions of them with other kids and teachers for it was more of a nuisance than a pastime. Fucking monopoly, fucking checkers, fucking backgammon. They will forever be avoided when possible.
Gambling is a waste of time and effort, I care not for the profit nor the thrill of such nonsense and so it is meaningless to me. Blackjack, roulette, slot machines. They are designed for the purpose of greed and competition, for which my interest wanes within the squabbles of petty rivalry over villainous victory. My passions lie not within the illusions of gambling games, more so to my awareness that my passions are illusions in of themselves and so are many others but they are not for the same reasons as such for the indirect gain of some corporate casino.
>If you liked Skyrim check out FNV because it's better.
Hahaha, throughout all my hours of nonchalantly playing both I refused to complete the main quest of the the 5th elder scrolls, while on the other hand I was by far further intrigued by the distracting side quests and locations within it, the caves and (sex) dungeons were where all my time went within, levelling up the werewolf skills were fairly nifty. Fallout New Vegas was great at first but after 800 hours went past ever so slowly the excitement stagnated into a repetitive cycle of doing the same thing again and again but with a slightly altered arsenal as well as apparel. I did just about everything in that game, except side with the New California Republic because they're a bunch of faggots.
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>>4263
You're missing out if you've never experienced the Spyro trilogy on the PS1 or Guilty Gear Xrd Rev0.
download them now. Even if you have to pirate them. Get rev2 and then the rev0 mod as seen on Youtube. Potemkin with a working airdash is love, Potemkin with a working airdash is life. Most games bore me these days but fighting games have limitless potential for self expression, creativity, and depth in every fight. Against a person. NPC battles are lame.