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Should I get therapy?
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Is therapy just a joke, or is it worth getting? Who should I do therapy with? Can I trust my entire life's story with anyone who's not on this site?
Maybe if I tell you my life's story, you can give me life advice.

I was raised by abusive lefty parents who hated their smart white son and often tried to push me towards trannyism. Never fell for it.
First I was sent to a shit primary school. A few kids bullied me there and teachers punished me whenever I fought back. I was a fat angry kid who could punch hard when pushed, and they liked attacking me and then running away. But when we fought properly I'd kick their asses. One time I kicked their asses hard enough to make them stop bothering me.
When I graduated from this school I was sent to the special school of a catholic school, and made the personal property of one old bitch there who hated autistic kids. Around that era I got interested in Game Maker and pokemon romhacking but that interest never amounted to anything, though I did have a USB full of GBA roms and romhacking tools and the fact that I was able to code at such a young age when not all kids were learning that should have shown somebody that I had more to offer the world than shitty schools thought I should.
Thanks to that school, my schedule looked like this: Enter a side building, wait for the day to end, sometimes get insulted by the teachers if they felt like abusing me, usually get to eat lunch at lunchtime but sometimes they wouldn't let me (and it didn't matter whether I brought a packed lunch to school or brought money for the school cafeteria) and eventually go home to a house with parents that, when told the right words by my boomer bullies, would freak out and abuse me at home too. Rarely I'd get to join in a classroom... but class clowns would act up until I'd get blamed for it and sent out.
If I had a tape recorder or decent phone, I could have gathered evidence of the shit said/done to me (audio files of verbal abuse, pics of bruises, etc) and posted it online. But I was never allowed anything like that, because my parents feared I might use it on them. One day at school the art teacher bumped me with her car while backing up into a crowd of kids, I was fine but pissed off and the art teacher shrieked and blame-slinged feministically at me until I lost my patience and started barking back, then she put me in front of the headmaster and I told him about the abusive staff members and called him terrible at his job, so he kicked me out.
Then I was sent to a worthless "speshul" school where a few teachers abused me and the students usually watched in confusion when they weren't joining in. Whenever I trusted an adult enough to tell him or her what happened at home, that adult decided to call child protective services, who sent the same fucking boomer woman over to warn my parents that I was talking about what went on at home again. I couldn't get away from my family until I became the problem of Adult Protective Services, where the slightly less retarded and lazy people go.
A woman my age at the autistics-only youth club I attended got mad at me over retarded internet roleplaying nonsense-drama that didn't even involve me, and she lied about me to the cops and accused me of abusing her, even went to some clinic to fake signs of a concussion she didn't have because she's a spoilt bitch who knows how to play her rich parents like fiddles, she was a low-functioning sociopath woman with histrionic personality disorder and every retarded boomer's sympathy. She lied and got away with it, because the cops weren't interested in this case after she cartoonishly fucked up and started gloating about physically assaulting me without realizing it hurt her case. But even though I said to the managers of the youth club and the friends I knew there "If what she said about me was true I'd be in jail so you know she's lying" they couldn't believe me because they were dumb. There was one weird creepy fucker I used to talk to online because his "woe is me, asian school life is sooo hard" shit kind of reminded me of me at the time, but he got severe TDS and stopped being a person once he stopped viewing me as a person so I'm glad I didn't tell him anything sensitive or identifiable that could fuck me over later in life.
Anyway when I went to college, I was lied to and exploited by the staff until I dropped out. They even tricked me into taking a worthless course that turned out to be the dump where they dump the autistic kids and give them a useless fake newspaper to write. I wish I dropped out sooner, trying to live on barely fucking anything is hard enough when your mom took govt money meant for you, but it's harder when you're forced to spend most of your cash on train rides between your college and shitty home every two weeks and all your cunt government can offer is a discount pass. Now that I'm living alone, I've got a free bus pass I can barely use. Government priorities, am I right?

I am an autistic man, I'm 24 years old, I'll be 25 next year, and I've spent so much of my life as property of someone else that I find it hard to notice when I'm hungry or tired and remember that I should eat or sleep without someone or a phone alarm telling me to. I shower every night before bed but sometimes I miss meals, it's what helped me go from obese fatty to only-slightly-overweight. I don't think I know what it feels like to be loved by someone else. Learning makes me happy and I love documentaries but when I tried an online free learning site it reminded me of school and I couldn't do it. Sometimes I talk to people and act charming like those "Charisma on command" youtube vids told me so they'll like me, but I've never given anyone my full backstory before. The only woman in my life I ever kissed was that bitch who falsely accused me and got away with it. I want to say I have no interest in modern women but I still feel the urge to wank to them. But I don't wank any more because of nofap.
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Got paid good cash to help a hoarder friend move some heavy objects around and throw out broken trash he's held on to for far too long. I would have done it for free but he insisted on paying me. Must be all that self help shit paying off, he can tell my time is valuable now. He can smell the infinite male aura around me, because greek letters like alpha and beta are too beta for an infinity-sign male like me. Feels good.

Speaking of feeling good, THESE FUCKING MUSCLES. I don't think I'm a masochist but goddamn these burn so good. I've lifted heavier weights before but you use more muscles at once when lifting oddly shaped heavy shit and carrying it around. Including muscles they probably don't make exercises for.
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>>4265
Why did my ID change?
Anonymous
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>>3147
I am OP
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>>4264
I no longer have a Play Station 1 or 2 anymore I played on it ages ago so I haven't in around 10 years. I still have my original Xcocks though which I still play monthly although not weekly nor daily, my favorite on it is Gaylo Cumbat Erected. (Halo)
Thence, there is no possibility to play (S)Spyro at my current position.
>>4265
I did 2x10 reps on the bench press with 58 kg earlier then did 20 pushups afterwards. Then ate the forbidden fruits henceforth wards after.What does your daily routine look like?
>>4266
>>4267
Sometimes it does when you change your location or use a VPN.
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>>4268
>Sometimes it does when you change your location or use a VPN.
Oh no it's changed, whatever am I going to do without my numbers and letters.
Kek.
Anonymous
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>>4269
Oh thanks it's back I almost started sweating.
Anonymous
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>>4270
Oh hells bells it's gone again, buggers.
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>>4268
Hey imagine if they made a Kamen Rider series called Kamen Side. Geddit like Kumin side? Ha ha, semen. Anyway that Duckstation emulator is great for PS1 games. Unless your PC and phone are weaker than a PS1 it should be fine.
I exercise different muscle groups to failure at different points in the day, and take a protein bar after each exercise. Plus two "all in one" vitamin and mineral supplements a day. The box says to take from one to three a day. 2 in the morning sounds like a good compromise.
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>>4272
Ahhh, the joys of ejaculation. It's always better without needing hands and using a meat hole instead.
I have not heard of the Gayman Spider series before, perhaps you are referencing Spooder man?
>I exercise different muscle groups to failure at different points in the day, and take a protein bar after each exercise.
I like to do different things for each given day of the week. although it is only 3 or 4 days maximum that I do them. usually I have a mixture of instant coffee and 97% cocoa powder with boiled organic unhomogenized whole milk after a session.

How has your day been today?
Mine has been rather exciting, I got to see my favorite mare today and took her for some ballroom ballet on the high road. She has been up and down in emotions and so have I, for our bond is beyond spirit or soul and surpasses what I have chanted upon with will and intent. Now my goal is complete and harmony is achieved, the only matter that concerns myself at the present is how long will it last?
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>>4276
My day was great, but fuck Windows. Every so often it will start choking to death on nothing and when I check Task Manager some random weirdly named process I can't disable is to blame. I go online to learn more about the process and turns out it's just more shit windows uses to slow the pc down for no reason.

My piece of shit PC uses Windows. I hate it but Game Maker will only turn on if Steam is active. I need an OS that can run steam. And preferably also run emulators for games.
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>>4278
Sounds like linux is for you.

Check out manjaro linux. Good shit.
Anonymous
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>>4279
Can it do everything Windows can do? I've heard some games/emulators/programs dont play nice with linux and some emulators have inferior linux ports.

Audacity, paint dot net, inkscape, gimp, open office, Handbrake VGMtrans, VLC, do these work on linux/have linux-friendly replacements?
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>>4283
Try it yourself and see.
Granted, many games won't work properly, or won't work at all, because they have been written specifically to use Micros$oft DirectX technology.
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>>4276
>how long will it last?
No longer may it continue, for she has passed on into infinity.
Although her hair shall forever be within my plethora of memorabilia, the memories I have of that mare will stay with me until the day I die.
Lest I forget.
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Finished moving. My new house is such a shithole but instead of bitching I've been a manly man fixing shit.

Needed wifi extenders. Living room tv on wall was mounted before a usb or HDMI could be inserted inside it, so I stuck a HDMI switcher up there to make switching HDMI easier in the future. Cleaning the oven to an acceptable degree took too damn long, fucking thing looked like its previous owners had never cleaned it, fucking burned food in the fucking shit cancering fuck.
and the baking trays were so filthy I trashed them and bought new ones. I ain't eating fucked up chicken from a dirty oven.
Toilet seat is broken on one hinge and while the toilet is normal sized it uses an improperly small seat. WHO THE FUCK owned this house before us?
Two wifi extenders, not one but fucking two, are needed to get the wifi around this tiny house. I have one wifi extender extending the normal signal of another closer to my router. God I hope people were kidding when they said 5G causes cancer, good thing I'm unvaxed or that could be dangerous.

I put my stuff in boxes but unpacking that stuff and finding room for it in a smaller room takes time. I'll need better storage, I'm stacking chests of drawers atop heavier chests of drawers to fit everything in and I don't own a lot of things.

Some women have enough clothes in their house to open a store. I've certainly seen my fair share of women's bedrooms like that. Okay well one or two. Still counts. Psychologically it feels weird to be in such girly places but at the same time it also feels like I am taking my masculinity into them to dominate them absolutely. I don't care if her posters and stuffed animals and pricey figurines seem to stare. They can watch. I am man. Confidence oozes from man. Man is man. Where the fuck was I going with this? Why do women decorate their spaces to be so girly anyway? It's not like anyone's going to smell the neon faggot hues and random signs and flags and weirdly jokeless unicornic demotivational posters from outside and decide to fuck her. Nobody's going to see her bedroom unless she's bringing them not just to her house but to her bedroom. If they said yes instead of "I'm gay" or "I'm busy" or "I'm taken and my girlfriend goes to another canada" they're going to fuck unless one of them changes their mind. And an ugly messy hyperfeminine room just screams "I have poor impulse control and financial skills". At least the ones I saw did anyway. Maybe better ones exist out there. Do you think if a smart woman existed she would hate women too? Or would she feel some weird vagineous loyalty to them and refuse to admit every woman she ever met was dumber than the most average man she ever met?

Anyway fuck my new house. But I can make this work. I could build some shelves myself for more storage space.
It's a good thing this new place is cheaper. Fuck, I can't wait until my indie game makes me rich enough to afford a house with room for things. At least my roommates are good people.

Played some fighting games with the lads, all hail Retropi master race, Street Fighter 2 is retarded. As Ken I loat to an overpowered Vega and who thought "the losing player should be rendered helpless for a few seconds to piss his player off" would be a good game mechanic? What game punishes the loser?
Weird how they went in the opposite direction with "reduce the impact of skill to level the playing field between man and nigger" and "reward the loser for losing because muh cumbaks muh epic win montages muh evo moments muh sponsors who say they want unpredictable matches with a rotating cast of who's randomly selected to be top tier now".
Also played the sega version of mortal kombat hacked to have all characters yet for some reason the game seemed to only have 3ish buttons. I chose Centauro and kicked everyones ass except when they picked Hammmer Skull Helmet fag. I am not a Mortal Kombat main.
Jojo's HTTF was more fun for a bunch of casual newfags like us. I main Dio and Hol Horse and Jotaro but that doesn't mean I'm actually good with them. I've probably played less than an hour with this game. I should try a combo tutorial some day.
Fighting games are fun. I should make one. I have the experience, I made that mugen abomination a while back with a frame3 jab and frame 1 overheads/lows on light. Just fucking approaching you is a 50/50 mixup. Of course his movelist was a mess. Half his shit was FUCKING

REFERENCES

I know lets give him all sorts of moves that already exist haha im so good at videogames.

I really had no idea what I was doing back then. I don't even know what kind of character he was supposed to be beyond the vague title of "rushdown but with good tools for big brain smart men who can keep track of their many tools and inputs". Monkey brain just see numbers and like giving unicorn better numbers. Big buttons equal neuron activation. Timestop for a mandatory jojo reference plus Guilty Gear style instakills...
they were a cancerous combo.
If I ever have meter (and I start with 1k out of 10k meter because jojos) and you're not intangible or invincible I just win the match
gay
If I ever make a mugen character again I need to make sure my guy can't Instant Kill while time is stopped Personally I love and hate DBFZ style autocombos these days, I should give my guy some of those.
There isn't enough room to set up my exercise equipment so I'm making do with freeweights and a weighted vest. I miss my bench already but I haven't found room for that yet.

Man

I've changed and grown so much.

I bet the old me would have cried in a corner of this room instead of solving problems like a man and making the most of it.

This stupid OC of mine...

Feels like a different person made him
How can he represent me now, and be his own character?
Agonizing over questions like "SICK METAL ARM? Y/N" and "is a four-way hybrid too much?" is missing the point
Before I can design his tools I must design his hands (fuck battle saddles) and the rest of him
Forget updating, time to reinvent.
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>>4296
>Living room tv
I sympathize and congratulate you. You go poner!!!
Except one little detail.
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>>4283
Audacity, inkscape, gimp, open office, VGMtrans, and VLC work natively. They're all open source, and generally anything open source supports linux. Notepad++ is an exception, but Notepadqq is a 1:1 replacement

paint dot net is proprietary and doesnt work, but its outperformed by gimp or krita anyway
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>>4297
Don't worry, no connection to any electric-jew aerials.
Fuck TV, Netflix, and more. I'm not watching copaganda police-chases or soap-opera bitches. A good TV is like a good monitor: Just a monitor for gaming and torrented stuff.
Also the only games I play these days are games similar to what I'm going to make. Back in the day I'd either replay the same nostalgic old gems over and over or force myself through stupid unfun grindy crap. But now I'm a game developer who can appreciate the artistic merits of games when it comes to their gameplay and stories.
Fighting games are the best thing for me to play because DMC-Likes are basically single-person fighting games except you're OP as hell and enemies have specific challenges for you. Chun Li has more than 10 moves but you can always expect a Hell Caina to act like a Hell Caina. Until you deal with other challenges in the room and get around to fucking its shit sideways with your chainsaw motorcycle. Then it's a punching bag suspended over ten feet in the air eating shit until the sheer mass of shit it's consumed drags it back to hell.

I think we've come full circle as a species.
People once called beat-em-ups and fighting games the same thing because grandma boomer can't tell a Pikachu apart from a Digimon or a Street Fighter apart from Streets Of Rage.
Then there were 3D beat-em-ups and hack-and-slashes, or "action games" if you're annoying
platformers count as "action" games. god, genres are weird.
anyway "Character action games" are just good beat-em-ups/hack-and-slashes.
it's weird how we call them "beat em ups" if there's more unarmed combat than armed (finding pipes and baseball bats with your floor chicken doesn't count apparently) and "hack and slashes" if you use swords. Like how your movie is a western if it has a cowboy and sci-fi if it has a raygun. Defining genre through the iconography present, not some inherently different quirk of gameplay that separates "The modern FPS" from the "Doom Clone". Even though we used to call FPS games Doom Clones. But now old-Doom and Quake and the rest have their own inspired-bys along with the new Dooms. Nobody's going to mistake Ultrakill for Destiny because Ultrakill is good.
Real video game genres define themselves by how you interact with the media, not what iconography is present. A Soulslike could throw out the miserable tone and it would still be a soulslike if it had the same combat. a MetroidVania-style interconnected map is a bonus, not something a Soulslike needs to be a Dark Souls clone.
Doesn't matter if Spyro teams up with a raygun-toting monkey in a cowboy level, it's still a platformer.
Some twat once proposed "Spectacle Fighter" as a new name for DMC-likes, but fuck that. That name's a better fit for fighting games that automate too much for the casual audience. like the Naruto Ultimate Ninja Storm games. Sure you'll always look cool zooming around doing stylish autocombos but mentally very little is going on.
"Stylish Action" would be a better name for DMC-likes, because the Style Meter encourages you to play well. Stylish Action games should reward the player for getting a high style meter, too. Mine will.
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>>4306
Thank you! I shall make the switch soon.
Anonymous
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Have any of you seen this? https://youtu.be/IfS02WjRU8g
"FRAWRESS"
"No time for false mother's day"
It just gets better.
And then "Strategy is key to my success" - Balrog. The boxer. The throwloop gorilla nigger.
And when it comes to the gameplay it's surprisingly accurate. They don't know what we call their tricks these days but they knew these tricks existed. And the voice actors are hilarious. I wonder what voice they'd give to a character like Cammy or Juri if they didn't have proper voice actors to imitate these days.
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>>4323
Them's Fightin' Herds is the only fighting game I've played. The quips are rather fun in that too.
Anonymous
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>>4324
If you've never played Jojo's Bizarre Adventure HTTF you're missing out. Check out MAME and Fightcade, you don't need to know anything about the show to understand what the superpowered ghost-summoners are saying and doing but it helps. They put an incredible amount of soul and effort into this game. It's not some NUNS4 shit where characters just have projectiles and punches/kicks and cutscene-starting attacks and everyone plays the same. They really tried their asses off with this game even with whatever budget limits created all those clones. Even simple characters like Jotaro have style.
There's this character called Alessi who turns you into a child, growing more confident and aggressive until you've returned to normal. He's basically a grappler but he can play keepaway too. And instead of having an overpowered grab like most grapplers, he turns you into a child and then it's up to his player to deal huge damage while you're nerfed. They perfectly translated who and what Alessi is into a fighting game. And if the artist never canonically drew your character as a child you're turned into some funny easter-egg show reference, like how Rubber Soul turns into some background fatass seen during his fight.
What other fighting game has anything that creative? Sure the vampire from darkstalkers had Midnight Bliss where he grabs you and makes you a woman then succs. But this isn't some cutscene, this is gameplay. Kind of like the mummy from Darkstalkers whose grab transforms you into something weak. Only better because it suits the character better.
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I decided to do the stupid rick and morty copyapsta meme but about my OC. I don't know how my bros helping me beta test this guy put up with it. The more creativity I enable in his moveset the more degeneracy I uncover with him. I swear I will figure out how to disable his infinites or die trying. Maybe Niggeryuki the Bootleg Blade has the solution. Anyway meme time.

To be fair, you have to have a very high IQ to play my OC. The setplay is extremely subtle, and without a solid grasp of roman cancels most of his overheads will go over a typical player's head. There's also my OC's materialistic outlook, which is deftly woven into his characterisation- his 169% original moveset draws heavily from Sol Badguy, for instance. The Sunny mains understand this stuff; they have the intellectual capacity to truly appreciate Tandem setplay and stance dancing into 1-frame spammable advancing waveshine cancelled lows turned unblockable by high-hitting reverse edge cartoon anvils with wacky SFX on hit, to realise that my OC's not just sexy - He says something meaningful about LIFE. As a consequence people who dislike losing 100% of their health for guessing wrong once in an endless inescapable stream of 5+-way mixups truly ARE idiots- of course they wouldn't appreciate, for instance, the brilliance in mashing 3L, which itself is a cryptic reference to Fox's WaveShine from Super Smash Bros. I'm smirking right now just imagining one of those addlepated simpletons scratching their heads in confusion as the Sunrise main's genius dashing command grab into timestop into 200% damage unfolds itself on their monitors. What fools... how I pity them. And yes, by the way, I DO have a tattoo of Sunny's totally-not-a-Cutie-Mark. And no, you cannot see it. It's for my tulpa harem's eyes only- and even then they have to demonstrate that they're within 1 Ultimate Gohan level of my own (preferably lower) beforehand.
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Today I was moved by an incredible show of kindness from a good friend. It is always good to stick up for your friends, because that's how you prove your friendship is more than just a convenient association and make lifelong friends out of acquaintances.
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>>4337
Dear princess Celestia,
today I learned that friendship is really cool.
Your faithful student,
Anon
Anonymous
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Hard work is hard and rewarding as a man. I look at the shelves I built for myself and smile.
"I built that".
I am an engineer. I made my own shelves.
The Engineer is Engi-here.

...that reminds me. Tf2 has better characters than Overwatch.
Everyone in Overwatch is a shallow product meant to sell toys. Nobody has a deep personality.
Spy and Soldier and Scout and the rest might seem like one-note memes but they have depth.
When Engineer says his "The engineer is engi-here" quote and chuckles at his dumb joke, it's deep characterization. He really is the type to actually fucking say that and find it a little funny. While Overwatch characters just yell corny cliche lines full of tryhard corporate pandering gamerspeak.
also gameplay-wise the characters are just easy mode versions of TF2 characters usually. The Soldier's job is to rocket jump high and rain down rockets. Overwatch's Soldier is an egyptian(?) black woman in bird-themed power armour who can slowly fly up and rain a shitton of rockets down with the press of a button.
Scout must be fast and dangerous to survive. Tracer can teleport around and undo positioning mistakes while using better guns than him.
And the tanks have 10x more health than Heavy or more for crying out loud!
Overwatch? More like... Don'twatch!
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Had a based thought today

Once I heard a myth about a man who survived inside a whale by being resourceful and never giving up. So what if whales don't work that way? Never let truth get in the way of a good myth that sings the praises of a good value. Based myths say it's good to be awesome and smart while never giving up. Based myths say it's good to be a good person. A story doesn't have to be 100% realistic, it just needs to be good. And a good message helps.

Meanwhile shit myths are Pourquoi stories. A dumb man asked the village's wisest man a question. And like any primitive wise man, he doesn't know the answer and that won't stop him from making some bullshit up.

Why does the sun set red?
>Uh... the sun is embarassed when it runs away from the earth.

Why do some things sink when some things float?
>Poseidon likes some things more than others.

Why does meat make you fart?
>Uh... once a wizard shrunk a man down and vore happened and he... uh... sorry i lost interest in the story. Also can you bring me a change of pants? Hehehe if I have my way I will insert my degenerate furry fetishes into as many of your myths as possible. My coom will echo unto eternity.

How do I get a girlfriend?
>Throw car batteries into the ocean until the goddess of car batteries and love is satisfied. She's the only woman you'll ever satisfy.

Pourquoi-worshipping dipshits who think the ocean is made of the tears of the last demon left and only one left alive by their religion's protagonist after a near-total genocide of demons... It doesn't matter if they think swimming and making boats is holy or heretical aka based or cringe, they didn't invent the world's greatest boats. People motivated by stories of greatness understood reality for what it is, not for what the village elder says it is, and they made the best boats. And planes. And everything else ever. Except dynamite vests. Muslims made that. Also some primitive cultures invented stone and wood swords and then never invented anything else so because we pity them we pretend we didn't invent the same things but better 3000 years ago before moving on to iron and bronze and steel swords that could eat primitive tools for lunch and shit better ones out into the rivers primitives drink from.
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>>4344
Years ago I played some shit matches with incompetent teammates where there were more engineers than any other class in the match, the enemies had medics and heavy's everywhere along with soldiers so they fucked us up in the intelligence room of 2 fort then stole all the shit.
>>4346
Myths are nothing more than fiction, stories surrounded in barbarity and glory. They are meant to represent tribal examples, now the shock and awe is centered around the excitement of digital illusions.
Anonymous
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Friend cried a lot today because the clot shot took his own mother from him. Never met the woman but seeing him hurt like this hurt more than words can describe. I felt things then, but now I feel exhausted. A global conspiracy's raping the planet and it's killing people. She spent the final years of her life cooped inside, overwhelmed by fear, a slave of the television until its fashionable faucist jab took her life. That's no way to spend your final days. The enormity of it all is so... enormous. That was a person. And now she's gone. And everyone who knew her refuses to admit it's the vaccine that killed her, not kung flu. These idiot friends of hers are trying not to think about her passing because it threatens their religion. They're openly putting their faith in the death jabs over this person's life. Fear's overwhelming them so much, they can't process loss like this man could. They didn't feel a goddamn thing, not one of them, except this man I talked with today. I've tried to focus on my own life, made some nice sandwiches today, pretended everything's fine. Delusions on a planet-wide scale are distancing us from each other and reality. No wonder we're all fucking insane to some degree. This world's on a downward spiral. In a world gone mad, you'd have to be a little crazy to avoid losing it completely. And now... now we're all just expected to carry on like nothing is really happening. Just keep on pretending we're fine on a world we're pretending is fine. How are we supposed to handle this? If there's some secret trick I want to hear it. Does it ever get any easier?
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No.4354
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Life feels surreal. I'm going through the motions and pretending to be fine but I can't stop thinking about the enemy. My tulpa waifu used to offer hilarious snarky commentary on my life, and she still does that but I can tell this mad world is pissing her off too. We can't think of anything funny to say about the madness any more. The enemy's insanity has become as familiar as gravity and there are no more funny observations to notice or contradictions to reveal. The enemy is just evil and saying dumb bullshit to confuse retarded cunts into joining team evil or being shit members of team good.
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>>4354
>I can't stop thinking about the enemy.
Why not?
They've gone through all the material and it's just reruns of their acts it's what they've always done and it's nothing new, sometimes they put a 'new' coat of paint on their evil.
It makes exposing them smoother because of their enthrallment with evil that they know. Every trick, operation, act, and deed all categorized the thing is they need actual people to do their dirty work and to generate new things.
Point being is that there is a time and place to worry and obsess, but their evil ought to be relegated to plans of action then that's that.
Because they are boring and evil every joke is timeless, those jokes can be well worn, same with comments, same with it all. If you know what they want and what lengths they'll go to what's left is just what you want to do with that foreknowledge.
Sun Tsu said that more or less. All that's left is knowing yourself and occasionally brushing up on the enemy.
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The state they operate in is akin to bugs and a bit like programs. Their choices are limited by their very structural mode of being.
The paranormal factor plays into it, for this conversation what matters is that they've created 'chess pieces' that anyone can move around the board.
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No.4356
Sometimes my ID changes at this location and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I'm relying on wifi extenders.
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No.4358
4361
Maybe the strange quirks and tastes we develop are coping mechanisms?
If men dissatisfied with western women naturally look to fiction and their own capacity to create it would explain why so many furries are either hyper based horsefuckers who want to cum inside rainbow dash and raise good families in Equestria or perverted leftist cancercreatures who fantasize about worlds of unbridled (hehe horse pun) degeneracy and perversion where even they can get laid by tasteless whores: their ideal women.

It's strange how some fetishes are exaggerations of what's normal while others are entirely abnormal by design.

There is art with tremendous breasts and asses of excessive size, wide child-birthing hips, impossible hip to waist ratios, pregnancy taken to the next level to produce ten healthy kids or more, hand-holding, revealing clothing, consensual straight sex in the missionary position between conventionally attractive morally upright characters that ends in him unleashing two thousand gigaliters of semen inflating her to herald her incoming guaranteed pregnancy. Your favourite female fictional character or someone's OC chick is ploughed by a self-insert character, a floating anonymous dick, or a fit conventionally attractive male.

But no matter how impossibly exaggerated everything might become, it's still sex. Normal healthy body parts (and maybe also wings/horns/tails/extra limbs) are present. The exaggerated characters are engaging in traditional sexual activities in bedrooms. And maybe degenerate places like bars and strip clubs. Maybe even in forests.

And then, there's inherently disgusting shit that makes no sense like facials/shit/piss/feet/necrophilia/BDSM/the perversion of traditionally childish aesthetics and activities/gore/obesity. I'll never understand how anyone can like that. It's completely alien to me, like a foreign cultute too divorced from my own to be comprehensible.

Could anyone here with a hoof fetish explain that to me?
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>>4358
>Maybe the strange quirks and tastes we develop are coping mechanisms?
They are perversions that originate within the development of puberty or raised upon by adolescent curiosity.
>If men dissatisfied with western women naturally look to fiction and their own capacity to create it would explain why so many furries are either hyper based horsefuckers who want to cum inside rainbow dash and raise good families in Equestria or perverted leftist cancercreatures who fantasize about worlds of unbridled (hehe horse pun) degeneracy and perversion where even they can get laid by tasteless whores: their ideal women.
The madness of this modernity is unparalleled, gays run rampant and all manners of lunatics are free to roam as they please. So many debauch deviants such as myself are unhindered in fulfilling their deepest and darkest desires.

>It's strange how some fetishes are exaggerations of what's normal while others are entirely abnormal by design.
Fetishes stem from fixations upon certain areas of sexual subjectivity that can be by definition arousing and then some are by fundamental values uninteresting, the matter lies in the mind as to what one decides they find pleasing or not, it is down to personal preference.

>There is art with tremendous breasts and asses of excessive size, wide child-birthing hips, impossible hip to waist ratios,
These are rather plainly common as to what excites most people to erotic stupor. Boobs and bottoms are primitive perversities and so are rendered acceptable in normality.
>pregnancy taken to the next level to produce ten healthy kids or more,
That is more along the lines of dog and cat rates of fertility and so could only plausibly be achieved by genetic manipulation of female eggs and sperm cells, a woman is the hostess of impregnation so she could have multiple premature fetuses inside her at once if there were to be several umbilical cords to feed them and the woman was to be exceedingly tall so she could have a larger womb to accommodate double digit infants inside her.
>hand-holding, revealing clothing,
Eh, patrician tastes. Holding hands with a woman is more friendly than intimate, clothes are only worn because they are a part of the standard culture so nakedness is by far more revealing and natural.
>consensual straight sex in the missionary position between conventionally attractive morally upright characters that ends in him unleashing two thousand gigaliters of semen inflating her to herald her incoming guaranteed pregnancy.
Gay. That's the most blandest procreative act possible, changing sex positions intermittently over the span of time with a girl you are going to have a family with will surely bring ecstatic excitement to both parties due to the variability. Foreplay is open to many options prior to the ritual of ejaculation, sometimes it can be very fun to do kinky shit so the pleasure increases during vaginal intercourse.
>Your favourite female fictional character or someone's OC chick is ploughed by a self-insert character, a floating anonymous dick, or a fit conventionally attractive male.
Meh, suit yourself but that's honestly pretty boring.

>But no matter how impossibly exaggerated everything might become, it's still sex.
To a practical extent, yes.
>Normal healthy body parts (and maybe also wings/horns/tails/extra limbs) are present.
And so is the genitalia.
>The exaggerated characters are engaging in traditional sexual activities in bedrooms.
Set and setting can have a lot to impact upon the experience, envision the scenario of sex on the beach (fuck the cocktail) or even in the polar opposite of on the ice, in a field or stables, in the snow and underwater. There are many places to go and women to fuck other than in the sleeping chambers.
>And maybe degenerate places like bars and strip clubs.
Doing the dirty in a bar's public bathroom is just lazy, a strip club makes more sense if they were just hookers instead of strippers and pole dancers.
>Maybe even in forests.
Now you're speaking my language, to hear the rush of a summer stream whilst pounding a bitch from behind against one of the many trees.
Bliss.

>And then, there's inherently disgusting shit that makes no sense like facials
I understand the notion of swallowing semen more than facials, for there is a minor amount of nutrition in doing so. Handjobs with oils are alright but a good blowjob beats it (get it?) by a longshot.
>shit
Nasty.
<piss
Depends, mine is bearable with some type of fruit juice to mask the taste, if not then it's horrible. Pony piss is salty and grassy but varies from mare to mare too, it's a lot better than a woman's.
>feet
Fuck those things.
>necrophilia
Maybe if you're into necromancy.
>BDSM
Yes and no, most of it is pointless unless it's to do with leather.
>the perversion of traditionally childish aesthetics and activities
Pedophilia?
>gore
Oh hell yeah, glory and guts. Sinew, pulmonary systems, organs. Blood is a effective lubricant if it's only my own.
>obesity.
Nah.
>I'll never understand how anyone can like that.
I sort of agree with you. Some forms of fetishes are a definite no go while others are invigorating.
>It's completely alien to me, like a foreign cultute too divorced from my own to be comprehensible.
Placing oneself into another's shoes can be quite difficult, it's a concern to do with psychology are the majority of far fetched fetishes I believe.

>Could anyone here with a hoof fetish explain that to me?
Hooves are sensually pleasing to touch but the frog is not when it is hard, soft frogs are enjoyable although. There is a reason why Equine pediatrists enjoy their job.
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>>4361
Huh. Well, you do you as long as you're not hurting anyone good.
Have you ever noticed how often jewish media pushes Inflation? It was in Space Jam 1 and 2. It's almost always in kids media. If someone isn't swelling up due to bicycle pump bullshit or blowing air into their thumbs or failing to blow up a balloon they're swelling due to a drug or allergic reaction.
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>>4361
>That is more along the lines of dog and cat rates of fertility
I recall reading that up to 10 kids is fairly common in many muslim households
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>>4363
Must be easy for them when they've got housewives they're legally allowed to punish, potentially multiple wives, and no jews fucking with their food prices or economy by brainwashing women into wanting to choose careers over kids.
Still they don't have 10 kids at once, the wife's just put through back to back pregnancies.
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>>4362
>Huh.
Ah huh, kek.
>Well, you do you as long as you're not hurting anyone good.
Fine, although some people do need to be hurt for the greater good. As you already know by now (((who))).
>Have you ever noticed how often jewish media pushes Inflation?
I fucking hate it, the producers of Hollywood are filthy cunts and belong in the oven.
>It was in Space Jam 1 and 2.
I watched the first. I've never liked Disney or the Looney Toons altogether, the musicals are incredibly obnoxious.
>It's almost always in kids media.
It's an experiment to sexualize impressionable children, the most vulnerable to subversion and indoctrination as well as brainwashing.
>If someone isn't swelling up due to bicycle pump bullshit or blowing air into their thumbs or failing to blow up a balloon they're swelling due to a drug or allergic reaction.
Idiotic plausibility's that don't make logical sense, the process of this is more gruesome if it were to be real for the body would explode in a red mist because of the skin and muscle constriction of that inflated size.
>>4363
At one point in the past Europe had such birthrates but now it has diminished and withered.
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>>4365
Everyone's heard the old jokes.
>I asked my dad what he did for fun before the internet and he said he watched TV. I asked his dad what he did for fun before TV and he said "I don't know, I'll go and ask my twelve brothers and sisters!"

I blame the "Green" bullshit, all those lies about how whites need to lower their birth rates for the good of the planet...
Meanwhile it's "totally fine" to keep funding more worthless births in sub-90IQ African shitholes because "they use fewer resources", and it's "totally fine" to import them here or consume incalculable resources sending more resources over there to babysit arguments against evolution that only know violence and lies and can't maintain a functional society without whites around to do all the work and all the thinking...
And then because there aren't enough young people working to pay the retirement costs of the elderly, "Future lawyers doctors and teachers" were imported to "culturally enrich" us aka demographically transform us for the worse. Niggers were imported to replace whites and steal their opportunities and economic power and kill whites with police protection. Niggers were imported and paid to reproduce so they can have more kids than whites. Feminists brainwashed women into being hysterical sociopathic narcissistic baby-murdering retards who choose their life on easy mode and their privileged careers over being a functioning female member of society aka a housewife.
Whether the thought of exterminating all blacks down to the last man and woman and child turns your stomach or turns you on, the fact remains... If whites want to secure a future for themselves and their white children they need to stop those trying to take their future away. Kicking all blacks out of America(and sentencing those who refuse to leave to death) for now is the fastest and safest option. Jews deserve prison camps with trials and executions but blacks are too numerous to bother with camps. Bringing them here was a war crime and keeping them here is homicide via negligence. Our based ways are superior, we will produce more high-quality men and women than our enemies when blacks are gone. Any future plans for a worldwide crusade to purge enemies everywhere else will become very possible when we're not facing extinction in "Our" own home.
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No.4369
Hurt myself exercising, tried too hard today. Rested it off, felt better with time.
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No.4382
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I should load retropi on my old PC that's just gathering dust.
or maybe my new one considering how slow and shit it's become at this point. Fuck windows.
have I been overburdening this device over the years? Its two hard drives are currently completely empty. Mostly. Ok I have 100gb of games installed including mugen. I'll uninstall them when I beat them. Also holy shit I forgot how much I fucking hate mugen and working with mugen's code. Btw body recovered from exercise injury. Time to exercise more.
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>>4382
>Btw body recovered from exercise injury. Time to exercise more
Glad to know.
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>>4385
A "based" website with one cucked jewlover moderator banned me (it only takes one pozzed cunt with power to ruin a whole site) so I've lost that source of social interaction.

I kind of wish I had a more interesting life to talk about full of exciting adventures. But at the same time I'm glad things are quiet. I am a simple man working on myself and my projects. I've never liked the spotlight, I only desire a quiet life, and making my dream games will make me happy.
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>>4368
>Everyone's heard the old jokes.
Hearing jokes is different to telling them, it requires an effort of charisma or else it falls apart when the body language doesn't reflect the emitted vocals.

>I blame the "Green" bullshit, all those lies about how whites need to lower their birth rates for the good of the planet...
Incompetence at the highest echelons of power. Large families are no longer supported by the ministries themselves.
>Meanwhile it's "totally fine" to keep funding more worthless births in sub-90IQ African shitholes because "they use fewer resources", and it's "totally fine" to import them here or consume incalculable resources sending more resources over there to babysit arguments against evolution that only know violence and lies and can't maintain a functional society without whites around to do all the work and all the thinking...
Expendable apes, leave them to dwindle in their sun scorched savannas. Dumb darks.
>And then because there aren't enough young people working to pay the retirement costs of the elderly, "Future lawyers doctors and teachers" were imported to "culturally enrich" us aka demographically transform us for the worse.
The rates of unemployment are at an all time high of sloth and laziness, most of the elderly are being paid to sit inside their homes and watch the terrible television until they rot away to a skeleton.
>Niggers were imported to replace whites and steal their opportunities and economic power and kill whites with police protection.
It is extinction by pacifism, the willing march to the genetic graveyard. The imported numpty Negro's have mixed their blood with the careless naïve and so have created abominations, even so that my own freak of a half caste half brother is nothing more than a death and dumb bogeyed retard because my foolish father was a greater degenerate than I.
>Niggers were imported and paid to reproduce so they can have more kids than whites.
And so were the inbred Indians when they were delivered here.
>Feminists brainwashed women into being hysterical sociopathic narcissistic baby-murdering retards who choose their life on easy mode and their privileged careers over being a functioning female member of society aka a housewife.
The natural feminine role has been superseded by corporate need for greed, so that they spend more time working than finding potential partners. This online dating culture has otherwise ruined the potential for face to face relationships, while the pubs are becoming redundant areas for meeting young women for most of them are too bothered with work, college and university. They appall me such that the only redeemable qualities most have are their physical bodies rather than their meaningless mentalities.
>Whether the thought of exterminating all blacks down to the last man and woman and child turns your stomach or turns you on, the fact remains...
Kill them all! Kids and mothers blood on the wall. Burned bodies and sizzled screams, barbecue blacks, hack them up then eat their remains and gnaw the marrow, massacre men and butcher bitches. Ha Ha!
>If whites want to secure a future for themselves and their white children they need to stop those trying to take their future away.
By the elimination of opposition, the emancipation of the nation. Discard these democratic dictators, rid me of flaws and disorders, deluded laws and obedient orders no more. Freed from faggots.
>Kicking all blacks out of America(and sentencing those who refuse to leave to death) for now is the fastest and safest option.
Certainly, prioritize the main targets first and foremost.
>Jews deserve prison camps with trials and executions but blacks are too numerous to bother with camps.
Camps are too time consuming, it's easier to euthanize by bullet while gas requires chemical preparation beforehand and gunpowder is far faster to produce.
>Bringing them here was a war crime and keeping them here is homicide via negligence.
What is happening is an orchestra of planned invasions, fulfilled by the docility of modernity.
>Our based ways are superior, we will produce more high-quality men and women than our enemies when blacks are gone.
The underline meaning of European ethnicity has lost it's integrity in the eyes of elites, the preservation of our cultural heritage is a hereditary birthright that is bonded unto blonde bloodlines.
>Any future plans for a worldwide crusade to purge enemies everywhere else will become very possible when we're not facing extinction in "Our" own home.
Correction unneeded. Wipe the lesser from a world as illustrious as this, for they do not deserve a slice of the world's wonderful pie.
>>4385
How unique are your identification numbers. mon ami?
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>>4393
>How unique are your identification numbers. mon ami?
If you have to know... then let me show you.
Look at the (you)
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No.4396
>>4394
Ah hah! Not required to know but thanks anyways.
Triple six, triple K. Fuck that triple H though, he's a pussy wrestler.
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I forgot how exhausting parties are. One guy brought his PS4 and no games, forgot he deleted everything to make room for fucking AssCreed and GTAV and expexted us to just watch him fuck everything up in these single player games for the entirety of the party. Thank fuck for retropi, plugged that into the party host's bedroom tv and we played fighting games while the faggot played AssCreed Odyssey on his own in the living room. Being the gamer chad who saved a failing party feels good.
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>>4410
>I forgot how exhausting parties are.
Any party groups with more than 4 or 5 people is always stressful to be around, sociability is hard when it's divided between such numbers because attention has to be frequently diverted amongst the crowd.
>One guy brought his PS4 and no games, forgot he deleted everything to make room for fucking AssCreed and GTAV and expexted us to just watch him fuck everything up in these single player games for the entirety of the party.
Sounds inconsiderate of him, the newer consoles with their multi millionaire games companies are a waste of technology. Machines designed to eat up peoples money and time, no objectively intriguing story premises to be truly learned from.
>Thank fuck for retropi, plugged that into the party host's bedroom tv and we played fighting games while the faggot played AssCreed Odyssey on his own in the living room.
Sometimes the energetic entertainment of squabbling gaming competition can be the epitome of emotional enjoyment, other times can be debilitatingly depressing when the people around are sore losers and so ruins the fun among everyone else.
>Being the gamer chad who saved a failing party feels good.
To be the star of the limelight and all appreciative attention is focused upon oneself is a sensation of leading pride. Although group activities are mostly only intriguing when partaken within good company, as opposed to others that you share no common ground with.
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I was at a new store, buying eggs without a mask. I asked a chubby woman in the store's uniform, "Where are the eggs?"
And she takes me there while flirting with me, asking me what I'll use the eggs for, I tell her I'll eat them, she's internally screaming while staring at me like I'm the hottest motherfucker she's seen all day, and I say thank you and walk to the cashier with the eggs.
Women are weird.
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>>4425