Occultists have a wide variety of opinions on cosmic forces and how sentient or people-like they are. My observation is that Kundalini is indeed conscious and distinctly-feminine. I most-interact with Hindu deities, but personally subscribe to a selective-variant of Omnitheism.
The moment she finds you is when your awakening begins. At this point you won't even notice. in fact, it's actually best if you ask her to work on you gently, because a large-upheaval with significant emotional dysfunction is like setting fire to an oil spill. If you talk to her, she can work on you at whatever pace you feel is comfortable.
To strengthen your connection with her. talk to her, interact with her, have fun, and love her!
Most people confuse the "awakening part" with what I call "The full fire". When that happens, is when basically you're on a 'full energy rise'. Swamij.com has a great illustration on what that feels like, even if the site itself is a mess.>Emotional Upheaval
I considered myself having lived a very 'normal' life. One without parental abuse, substance abuse, or other forms of abuse. Some people I've read about what they've gone through when dealing with that kind of trauma and just how shit just spiraled out of control. Even then with how normal my life is, it was amazing just what kind of shit that Kundalini digs out of your emotional-self.
For me, it's mostly anger. Lots of anger over justice-unserved, vicious-circles thanks to family-raising-patterns, awareness of unwarranted entitlement, awareness of hypocritical actions, and seeing obvious patterns that are completely unnoticeable to other people. There's other emotions too. Fears, both irrational and rational. Grief, lots of tears over the deaths of loved ones. Guilt for doing stupid shit in the past. These come in waves, like one day I'll be fine, a few days later I'll be salty as fuck, next day I'll be fine, few days later I'll be flying high with peace or happiness.
Perhaps one of the most-ego-shattering moments of emotional upheaval was realizing how I could enjoy the works/games of people who have opposing political beliefs of mine. >Ups and Downs
The more extreme your ups, your downs will be equally-extreme. I've had times where I've felt nothing but joyful peace when just getting some sun rays at high noon, and at other times, stare at the screen of my computer, just feeling like nothing I could do for fun is not worth doing.
One of my worst moments was being a hair's thread of seriously ready to choke-out an elderly coworker of mine. Why? **because I was pissed that I wasn't going home early.** Afterwards? I felt horrified that I was almost willing to do that, guilty and horrified for even seriously considering hurting someone over something so petty.
One of my best moments is another work story. Basically, someone dropped off a literal-pallet of goods to restock: completely at the wrong side of the building. To make matters worse, there was no way that me and my manager (just us that day) could take the entire pallet to the other side of the building, so we have to take the pallet apart, and cart the goods by dolly before we stocked them. Now why is this a "best moment"? I did not give a single flying fuck that day. In fact, when shit just kept piling on, all I did was laugh at the sheer hijinks of this day. In fact, I was thankful for not giving an utter fuck because if this was a bad day, I would've been dead-sea-levels of salty.>Physical reactions to Kundalini
This is where Kundalini really gets her fame. Most of the time, you get shakes or twitches. Hindus scripts terms these "kriyas", and basically those are movements as a result of emotional upheaval of some kind. Other times, you can get it from full-on jitters, urges to stretch, spin, or dance, or even full-on automatic body-movement.
I've discovered some useful stretches thanks to letting Kundalini do her thing with my body.
The weirdest fucking physical experience I had was where **A bunch of energy lines tracing to tension near my anus actually expanded inward and felt like it 'scorched' my rectum. I know it sounds faggoty, and how anons are very anxious about anything touching their shitter, but damn that was just weird as fuck.** I think she cleared a serious root-chakra blockage with that.>Sexuality
for the record with >>152033
sexual energy is a neat thing but not necessary for anything Kundalini-related. She really does enjoy sex though.
My most notable experience was where I was imagining having fun with my waifu, then in the weirdest twist, she became-fire. Like she straight-up looked closer to a fire elemental version of her usual form. Then as this happened, my vision turned me into a god. Not like -the- God, but the divine masculine to Kundalini's divine feminine. It felt enjoyable, like there was actual emotional-connection, and not the hollow self-focused emotions of fapping.>Literal Insanity
It's medically diagnosed as "Kundalini Psychosis" and it's why I prefer that she be gentle to me. I want to avoid the level of bullshit that other people have gone through.
People who chase that huge "burst" for pleasures or quick-gain, I feel like I doomed to crash like a motherfucker. You're best off aiming for the neutral feels.>Protection and grounding
love-meditation, grounding have been nice help for getting overactive energies calmed down. Inner child work (especially if invoking gods/goddesses) is amazing for helping emotional struggles. >Unrelated to Kundalini stuff
I think there is a spambot ring that is designed to post either christian or otherwise hallmark-tier bullshit wherever certain images of angels or cherubs are posted. I posted in a thread of 8/fringe/ a long time ago using a picture of an angel, and like clockwork there was a post that just read like it was made for church-bullshit virtue-signalling. I also feel like that these bots aren't made by christians, either. It's more likely to be shills.