/vx/ - Videogames and Paranormal

>mfw been watching like a cuck the whole time, but not really sure what to say now in this situation,because it hit a personal nerve for me...
>>17160
It's appreciated.

>>17209
Well, Torc's to sick of Trump to come back so I hope you have telopathic comunication

>>17209
Trumpaladin goes to Tracy and unties her from the chair. He walks her over to where she can sit down

"Tracy... Why do you fear being loved?"

>>17211
Never got tied cuz frogs.
"Can I let go now?"

>>17212
"yes"

>>17210
Trumpaladin is the upholder of righteousness. But his faggot is a genuinely bad person.

Come back any time

>>17210
Torc sees a face from the clouds
Torc> Who the fuck are you
Torc's faggot> the faggot controling you. Now listen, trump and the others are going about it a different way. Now go back.
T> fine you bitch
Torc turns around, wishing he didn't have to deal with these fucktards

"Tracy, I shall ask again

Why do you fear being loved?

Why do you fear belonging?"

>>17215
KEK
>>17213
"Kay!" Thez lets go and turns to Infernius. "You ready?" she says, pulling the stick out of her bracelet.

>>17211
"... I.. I'm not sure.. It's just that.. this it what I am, and.. that's not going to change at all any time.."
*looks at the ground*
>>17216
>belonging
*long sigh*

>>17218
"Do you not want to be one of us? Do you not want to be part of a larger group? One you make you own, and assume its fortunes and misfortunes?"

>Torc stops in the doorway
"Listen you faggots, the next one to grapple, bind, tie up, curse, infect, or harm another player gets turned into a newt. So, lets settle this"

>>17220
He says this as Thez is preparing to disembowel Infernius.
GM just realized he misspelled "Casual" in the thread title

>>17221
Torc notices the immenant disembowelment
"Why the hell did I come back"
"Now Tracy, come and talk with me for a minute. Trump, then you can talk to her"

>>17223
"... Okay.."

>>17223
"Sure. She doesn't trust me anyways"

>>17223
Okay, I'm really fucking curious now
Where the hell diid the trips go?

>>17226
I noticed it too

>>17226
>>17227
this

Oh well, carry on

>>17224
"Okay, listen. I don't expect you to change much. Hell, I don't expect you to change at all. But you need to stop stabbing and stealing from everyone in the party. You can do this to your enemys, but not us.
Beides, Trump is not happy. Piss him off anymore? He'll take.the child and raise them without you. I know.you don't want that, and I don't want to see someone else lose a child. So please, stop stabbing us."

>>17231
"Worse, he might stop playing altogether." ._.

>>17231
".... That would make sense..."
*looks back at the ground*

>>17233
"Listen Tracy, I don't like this either. But will you try, for your foal?"

>>17231
>>17232
>tfw you could never say this so effectively

>>17234
>I don't like you being asked to not stab other party members
Where is Inferius to kick your ass?

>>17234
"... I'd do literally anything for my foal, no matter how much it changed me. It's just that sometime I wonder..
.. Just what have I been up until this point?"

>>17235
Thats not what I meant
>>17236
"Listen, you may never know you really where in the past. But what matters here is who you are. Soon you'll be a mother, and hopfully married to (the somewhat annoying) Trupadlin.
But most of all, You are Tracy cage, and who you want to be"

>>17238
Tourcil can I answer some of these pwease

>>17242
"Obviously you want me to leave now, so you two have at it"
Torc brings back Mr. Senk and talks with him

>>17243
"No no, you can keep talking. She needs someone with credibility to talk to her. So by all means, continue"

"Tracy?"
Trumpaladin asks in a way that seems strangely reminiscent of licking your thumb and putting it up to the wind

>>17238
>You are Tracy cage, and who you are meant to be
"Hahahah..! Tracy Cage: the baddest OC of them all.."
*pauses for a bit*
"In the lace that I was born, people think differently from normal ponies. They're attention spans are inconsistent, either too short or too long. They spend hours on end looking for the single most offensive thing they can find, only to save in a place they'll never look again..
My nickname was the Element of Unoriginality; I alway's represented something that wasn't there, like a 2D image covered in layers and layers of autism.
It's how I lived, how I live today. I'm edgy, that's what I am; that's all I am. A product of a group of collective faggot's imaginations obsessive over one autistic nigger's April Fools joke. I didn't start out as edgy, people made me like this; and I'm actually glad they did...
If I weren't edgy, nopony would ever remember me."

>>17247
"Do they remember the one known as "Scruffy?"?

>>17245
Hey, thats pretty good. So are the rest of stats besides int the same as a constrictor?
>>17247
"No, not "meant to be."

Who you want to be. Forget those people, make your own path. Define yourself rather than letting them define you. You have a chance here, a chance to redefine yourself. But only you can choose where you go."

I'm willing to wait if it means good back story.

>>17252
Yep
Also this

>>17249
"Of course they remember the Scruffy: the Evil One. He hurt them in places they didn't know they had; took away good things they took for granted. He was invisible, but they'll always remember the one who hurt them so badly for no other reason than that he wanted to: a symbol of terror, oppression and malfeasance. There's a special place in everyone's memory for the Scruffy..."
*trails off*

>>17254
"Tracy, may I ask of you but one thing, exactly one? Do all that crap Tourcil mentioned, but please, please do not become Scruffy. Inferius and I kind of feel like you've been, well, "the invisible one who hurts us for no reason other than that you want to." Like you've been Scruffy in a way. Please don't be a symbol of terror, oppression and malfeasance. You don't have to be remembered that way"
\r

>>17256
"That's all I want. Don't be the Evil Invisible One. I've already started to miss someone I took for granted..."

>>17256
>>17254
Who tf is scruffy? I'm confused
>>17255
Write down the bones, then meat it up tomorrow.
I'm leaving for the night, see y'all

>>17262
Thez smiles and sniffs. "Its okay. Take care of yourself, but try to take care of your friends too K?"

Alright:
Norway filly and Taylor Swift, I would like to hear from you ITT if you plan on participating on Saturday. Don't feel obligated or pressured, I am just looking to see if/how to integrate your characters. If you prefer to lurk and observe (or decline entirely) that's fine, no judgements or criticisms, but this next session is going to be as intense as I am able to affect. Additionally, (esp. wrt Norway) I want to assess how early we will need to start so to coordinate with and accommodate divergent timezones. I have no qualms with doing so, but I also don't know the schedules and responsibilities of current players. I hope you decide to join, either this session or future sessions, and we'll go from there.

>>17217
Inis's faggot got side tracked with apple whiskey. Sorry guys.

Specifically im sorry to thez and her faggot.

>>17261
>>17260
>>17259
Listen you faggots, I was still a newfag on 4chin when /mlpol/ so cut me some slack
>>17262
10 shekels says she doesn't want anyone to get to close to her, for fear of them abandoning/hurting/betraying her
>>17267
>>17265
>>17266
I only started browsing during the republican primarys, and only because of /pol/

>>17269
No worries, I passed out in the middle of a game session once remember?
>>17271
>10 shekels
I won't take that bet, but I DO win the other. ^_^

>>17273
Mlpol in general, but ^this in particular

Where is Tracy? I want to finish this!
And not do my law journal source pull assignment

>>17276
Me too, I eagerly anticipate reading what she has to say, and not in a trollish sense.

>>17273
>>17274
I wish i could say this wasn't one of the first things, but I don't like lying
>>17276
>>17277
Gib bakstry plz

Irrelevant blogpost:
>be tracy's faggot
>wake up from 16 hour hibernation
>brain on fore (dumb bull cursed the wrong player)
>Everyone is still waiting for me to type something intelligent
>every instinct says "go back to bed"
>lol no
Where did we leave off again?

>>17279
You were explaining yourself to all

>>17279
>intelligent
Not really, just readable

>>17285
*bullys hard*
Let's take this a step back first.
What's the quick rundown current situation, altogether?My memory is fucked.
>>17286
>pic

>>17287
Inferius and Trumpaladin are pissed off with Tracy's general behavior (especially after she stabbed Inferius with Korak's Sword), so they take her and try to fix her. This most recent incident happens after Thez comes back, and she joined in. Tourcil is generally unpleased with this situation. Inferius has convinced Trumpaladin to use psychoanalysis instead of magic curses, and then Tourcil further negotiated for the restraints to be removed

Tourcil has just said some sappy Disney movie existentialist bullshit about "be who you want to be." Tracey gave this speech about being the element of originality. Trumpaladin got her to describe the evil Scruffy, and implored her to not be like him. And here we are

>>17288
>fix
Wait, wat?
My memory really is fucked.

>>17289
Inferius thinks that there is some way to use psycho therapy to make Tracy more friendly. That's what he is trying to do - to discover her past to help her in the present

>>17290
>make Tracy more friendly
>Tracy
>Friendly
>make
Wtf happened while I was delirious from the plague? I gotta re-read this whole thread.

>>17291
Take your time, my mug came today ^_^
>And for a moment, if only for just a moment, all was right with the world

>>17291
Friendship is non-negotiable, anon

The stabbings (of party members) and thieving will end. By whatever means necessary, at any costs, and though Heaven itself must be destroyed. It will end.

>>17292
In his Autobiography, Leo Tolstoy tells of a myth of a man pursued by a vicious man eating tiger. He is pursued into a pit a pit, where he falls down the side, but is able to grab onto some exposed roots. He looks down at the bottom of the pit, and sees a nest of venomous cobras, hissing and ready to strike. He looks up at the top of the pit, and there is the tiger, roaring and waiting for him. He looks at the roots, and sees a comb of honey. He takes his hand and eats some honey. It was the sweetest honey he had ever tasted.

Enjoy your honey GM. I'm glad we could satisfy you with the products from the mlpol store

>>17294
>GM lives in Seahawks-ville
Oh, the real fun is yet to come

>>17296
Just think of it as your character being raped by magic and friendship.

>>17296
"Its all pretty clusterfucked, and I'll admit in having a hand in much of it. Can we all consider resigning the last couple days as having been a drawn out discussion about how the party is the rapists, and the enemies are the rape victims? I know deep down everyone likes eachother, since they're willing to go to such lengths to try and smooth things over.
Trump's position is that the role of a thief, even an evil thief, is to acquire and distribute gainz to the party (and stab enemies) ]but not on a basis of "I don't want this, here have it", but "You can use this better than I can (while I stab more ppl)". Tracy's position of being unoriginal and,... well, damaged is sound, and I think everyone wants her to be however she wants, except not dysfuntionally. Tbh, my faggot has alot more to say on the matter, but he's giving me the floor for the time being. Basically, lets not fight eachother?" she pleads, before turning back to GM.
"NOW can I disembowel I'nis?"
\r

>>17297
>distribute gainz
Okay. No promises; I hate promises (spoils the surprise/tension of the game).

>>17299
"Yay! Now Trump, can you accept that Tracy (as a character) may not always be 100 percent honest, but that assuming she stops stabbing everyone and stealing everything not nailed down she is an otherwise valuable addition to the party even if she is infuriating at times?"

Tarrasqes don't have reproductive organs, do they?

>>17298
>>17296
I am not the rape victim, and that is the end of that
>Everyone wants her to be however she wants
I want my life, liberty, and property left alone, and I will kill anyone who tries to take these away. Texas rules, Motherfucker!
>>17299
Nope! You make promises NAO
>>17300
She'll be 100% honest with me and who cares how she is with everyone else

>>17301
No, it is a unique creature

>>17303
Too bad...

>>17302
>You make promises NAO
Lawful Good cucks, btfo!

>>17304
The nerd does tho. Probably hasn't gotten any either.
>>17302
>No rape Trump
A fair demand
>Life, Liberty, Property
Yet again
>100% honesty
Does that include omissions? I'm trying to compromise here.

>>17301
>Implying you'll live to see that fight
We ain't done with you here yet!
>>17305
Do you want a chance to withdraw that statement? Because I am giving you a chance to withdraw that statement

GM, can we lobotomize her?

>>17306
The compromise is she can stab, steal from, rape, and lie to Tourcil. Leave me and Inferius alone

I'll let her stab anyone she wants for whatever reason she wants. I just won't have her kill-off the party members unless I really want to.
Also, Torc is a bro. His character also seems to have figured out how not to activate the violent response matrix.

>>17309
Leave my character alone, or I am quitting and banning you from this board on all of your IPs

>>17310
No, fuck this. I'M quitting.
>game over

>>17311
Thank you

>>17298
Yes you can.

>>17311
Hmmm. Why though?

>>17312
Don't even start with that high-horse bullshit. If you can't recognize that you are/were an equal if not greatest part in this, maybe you're the one who deserves a ban.
>>17314
"Thanks. Maybe."
>>17315
Don't run off yet.
>>17317
Because players have missed one of the most crucial and underlying purposes of this game, and are more interested in having their way than trying to play along with one another in the interest of everyone getting to have a good time. Wall of text inbound.

>>17318
Don't worry, I'll ban myself too.

>>17318
Just let Tracy and Trumpaladin duel to the death, with the loser permanently removed from the game. It's the most elegant solution, as it removes only one player, and allows the winner to have full reign.

>>17288
>disney movie exsyentialist bullshit
"I CAN HEAR YOU"
>>17292
Nice mug

First and foremost, the whole point in and of this game is to practice creativity, to excite and develop one's capacity to respond to a situation and come up with solutions. D&D is a particular game/practice that - while I have no statistical analysis to present - is among the most neurologically developmental practices I can think of, particularly when done over an imageboard.
The sheer act of playing involves visualization, comprehension, imagination, expression, reconsideration, and a whole slough of other activities all at the same time, and especially when misunderstandings occur. Not only is the player creating the scene in their head, but they're creating a response to the situation, and even those responses are determined and affected by a simple die roll, causing increased and continual refinement of both intention, causality, and actual occurrence. I am quite certain that if players were hooked up to an EEG (or whatever the brain-scan device is) their brains would fucking light up, in more ways than almost any game or practice in existence. In a previous thread anon asked "How does one practice and train the resolve" and tbh, this is the best answer I came up with.
Additionally, D&D is such that no one can play without having their inherent psychology bubble up (I think I alluded to this at one point), which can then be either addressed or ignored. It is no coincidence that Tracy's faggot chose a psychopathic, edgy, damaged pony as a character, nor is it a coincidence that Trump's faggot chose to play Trumpaladin. I'm not saying either faggot is a psychopath etc. nor that Trump is likewise, but the characters pertain to one or more elements in their psychology that may or may not be worth addressing. Take me for example, Thez is - among other things - a manifestation of my own helplessness in facing aspects of existence that I lack the power to address or affect. Whether its the untimely and painful demise of dear friends, or unfortunate happenings in my childhood - both of which still haunt me to this day - this is my method of coping and trying to pick apart piece by piece the things which are useful and noteworthy and process the rest to the best of my ability. I don't know anyone's particular circumstances, but I could reference numerous comments throughout that suggest to me a greater mental issue which players might not be aware of or have addressed.
More still, the game is designed to give players the opportunity to develop a greater sense of compromise. In crafting this campaign, I deliberately broke numerous 'rules' advised in the DM's guide (most notably the "no divergent alignments" rule) expressly so that players can come to practice compromise and mutual self and group improvement, which are essential and requisite skills in life and which I have come to realize are skills that may be less-developed in anon-board participants; that has been my experience on 4chan, and is my experience on Mlpol.net. (more)

>>17323
Yes. I do.

>>17323
Don't be an asshole. Read it. I read it

>>17323
It's worth it. It's thoughtful, and not full of salt like everything else in this thread.

>>17326
>>17325
>>17327
i will l8r

I had hoped that presenting players with relatively clear and obvious challenges (which would become increasingly more difficult and vague over time) would allow players to grow together in a sense, as well as giving a venue to interact on a level which positively excites all 4 essential brain chemicals (Endorphins, Dopamine, Seratonin, and Oxytocin), for both immediate and long-term benefit, which is something that I personally am lacking practice and experience with. More specific to context, I offered players all the means to build whatever fucking items they wanted, virtually unlimited resources (if they asked the right questions), and limitless room to grow and develop things however they desired.
On a personal note, I looked forward every day to driving myself to the brink of mental/physical exhaustion just to add whatever touches or artefacts or what have you just to make it even the slightest bit more compelling, in hopes that among other things a developing fascination and enthusiasm might spread to other parts of the board.
Metaphysically, this game was supposed to be a microscopic venue in which players take control and authority over the game, which transitions into their own lives and circumstances. Allegorically, it was to allow players the chance to voodoo against forces and individuals outside their ability to combat or oppose, Soros being the very least of what I had hope to script. (still more)

>>17318
>>17322
>>17328
Happy to see game is still on.
>as I understand it

I'm trying not to be salty about it, so I'll just say it.
Trump, you're a bit of a tyrant. Tracy, you're a bit of a narcissist. Infernius, you're a bit too eager to please. Torcuil, you're a bit too aloof. Me? I'm a sociopath. We all have our faults, and I hoped we might be able to address them, subconsciously if not consciously. I won't go on at length about how things 'should' have gone, but I will say I would rather end the game now than watch it descend into an increasing degree of vitriol over fucking make-believe. Remember, we're essentially playing with dolls here, no matter how attached or detached we as individuals are to our characters. I am particularly disappointed in how at the verge of including new players, increasing threats of stabbing whoever or cutting one another's parts off (even if it IS fictional) lead inevitably to threats of banning people outright. I'm astonished that this is how individuals who are among a group that freely and openly touts that Friendship is Magic are willing to feel justified in such activity. And that's without putting in manipulative shit designed to induce an emotional response, which I am better than average at, and MORE than prepared to do.

So, let me put it to you all this way:
Is it possible that Tracy - stabbing whoever or whatever she wants - could "just happen" to not want to stab, steal from, outright lie to, or otherwise malign the party?
Is it possible that Trump - responding to his particular idiosyncrasies and proclivities - might be a little more lax about demanding compliance from his allies?
Is it possible that Torcuil - in still being the 'cave dweller' that he was/is - might be willing to magic some assertive resolutions to the situation without walking away? You DO know that you're essentially the most powerful character in the game, aside from Thez who - spoiler alert - was going to be a character who regresses in experience and ability?
Is it possible that Infernius,... ah I don't have much against him; I haven't figured out if its bias or not yet.
Basically, my overall rhetorical question is this: is it worth it to continue playing, if everyone is going to end up tearing each-other apart?
>end rant

>>17330
im glad you said all this. the only way to work through our problems is to have them all out in the open.

I lied, I've got one more

>>17331
... Okay.. I'm kind of still want non-lethal stabbing, but whatever...

The riddle of the faggot. I deliberately directed characters to be aware of their faggots for a philosophical point. The idea is that behind the faggots is another sort of faggot, who controls their actions and behaviors. One could call this 'God' or 'Spirit' or whatever, but the idea is that what the player feels as compulsion, inevitable response to circumstances, the natural course of events playing out or whatever, is dictated imperceivably by some'thing' beyond the individual's ability to perceive, and yet can be known to some degree. The characters are aware of their faggots, and yet the characters are entirely at the whim of their faggots. Characters do NOT decide what they are going to do or how they are going to respond, no matter how artistically that is made to seem. Tracy's faggot DOES have dictatorial control of Tracy, regardless of what Tracy Cage's OC has depicted in memes and artwork. Trump's faggot DOES have dictatorial control of Trump, regardless of what/how the real Trump acts and depicts himself.
The ball is in your court, and I'll break every rule in the fucking book to make that possible, and try to make it entertaining and compelling, even to my own detriment (and believe me, I've thought long about the implications of that too).
All I ask is that you PLEASE stop trying to force one another to act per your OWN desires and requirements. I don't even care if you kill yourselves off a dozen times or more, there's PLENTY of ways to undo THAT (incidentally, Infernius is almost as powerful as Torcuil, just that Torcuil can use both arcane and divine spells), but if we ARE to continue, make it about Lulz rather than spite and venom.
>NOW I'm done

>>17330
>>17331
Fully understand your feeling. And if it is going to be a downward spiral to blackpill station, and not to friendship and magic, much if not all of the fun will be missing.
>still hope friendship will win in the end

>>17337
Me too ;_;

>>17322
>no one can play without having their inherent psychology bubble up... which can then be either addressed or ignored
I know
>Numerous comments throughout that suggest to me a greater mental issue which players might not be aware of or have addressed
Please listen to me because I would really like you to understand what I am about to say: I am fully well aware of my personality flaws and how they have reflected in this game
>I had hoped that presenting players with relatively clear and obvious challenges... would allow players to grow together in a sense
Now matter how little it may have showed, I promise you, it did
>I looked forward every day to driving myself to the brink of mental/physical exhaustion just to add whatever touches or artefacts or what have you just to make it even the slightest bit more compelling
So did I, and you did
>this game was supposed to be a microscopic venue in which players take control and authority over the game, which transitions into their own lives and circumstances. Allegorically, it was to allow players the chance to voodoo against forces and individuals outside their ability to combat or oppose
That's exactly where it all went wrong. I discovered over the summer that I have the strong tendency to feel like the people around me, who I am supposed to be working with and trusting, are plotting and working against me. I am paranoid and megalomaniacal. And the game, unfortunately, just created another instance where I felt powerless to prevent people from working and plotting against me. That was the source of all of the problems in game.
>Trump, you're a bit of a tyrant
I know
>I would rather end the game now than watch it descend into an increasing degree of vitriol over fucking make-believe
I know. I wish my IRL were going well enough to compensate me
>I am particularly disappointed in how at the verge of including new players, increasing threats of stabbing whoever or cutting one another's parts off (even if it IS fictional) lead inevitably to threats of banning people outright.
I know
>I'm astonished that this is how individuals who are among a group that freely and openly touts that Friendship is Magic are willing to feel justified in such activity.
I know
>Is it possible that Trump - responding to his particular idiosyncrasies and proclivities - might be a little more lax about demanding compliance from his allies?
I don't know. I am more damaged than I realize
>is it worth it to continue playing, if everyone is going to end up tearing each-other apart?
I need peace
>PLEASE stop trying to force one another to act per your OWN desires and requirements.
Is "don't be overtly malevolent" that unreasonable? Okay...
>if we ARE to continue, make it about Lulz rather than spite and venom
This.

>>17339
>Is "don't be overly malevolent" that unreasonable?
No. My only comment on that is "baby steps".
>More damaged
We're anons posting on a nazi-horsefucker board. I'd be surprised indeed if every one of us wasn't scarred more or less.
>I wish my IRL...
I'm in a similar boat. Being here (in thread and in board) has helped me grow by degrees I'd never have imagined, and pardon my selfishness in wanting that to continue at all costs.

I'm sorry if that all came across as brow-beating. This whole game - from start to current - has been far more emotionally involved/-ing than I could have predicted. I've gotten triggered more times than I can count, and each time has been a learning experience for me. I just want everyone to be there for one another, even if they're not getting along at the moment.
I'll have no more threats of banning legit players tho. You may be a mod, but I won't tolerate that. I've come to rely on you in particular because you have the authorization to affect change beyond mine. In exchange, I promise not to get salty if you wanna mangle Tracy now and again. Deal?

>>17342
>We're anons posting on a nazi-horsefucker board. I'd be surprised indeed if every one of us wasn't scarred more or less.
you're right.

Also to the IRL bit, making one's situation better is a mix of perseverance and patience; the former is a matter of practice and resolve, the latter is a matter of both relaxing and/or occupying one's self in the interim.
>>17343
P.S. I'm not just talking about ITT (that's for the lookie-lous)

>>17330
>aloof
Can't argue with that
>>17331
Oui, but I had nothing at that point.
Can't help the fag if the fag isn't there.
Also, you're doing a great job GMing
GM why cant Lenos extend the barrel of a gun? I'm not asking for the pistols to turn into a GUA avenger

I've already come this far, might as well get it all out
Thez and I - and the fact that I can express that without shame, guilt, misgivings, or whatever - love you guys. Its not romantic, but there is a degree of intimacy. Trump IS fearless, upstanding, and resolute. Torcuil IS reasonable, considerate, and brilliantly creative. Infernius "I'nis!" IS a paragon of generosity and selflessness. Tracy IS an archetypal lone-wolf, yet contributive, and often surprisingly social. Your characters - and though them you - have re-ignited aspects of MYSELF that were quite literally deadened. As pissed as I was earlier, I'll keep these threads going as long as there are players willing to play.
>>17345
Wait, that's all you wanted? Yeah, he can do that (I thought you wanted to modify the mechanics or something) Also, yeah I was grasping on that bit.

>>17345
I like the aloofness: it's fitting for an old cave-NEET who gained meme powers by studying ancient shitposts in isolation.
*stealthily removes knives from haggis*

>>17346
Can we have a fresh bread without drama, and leave the salt-posting in this one?

>>17348
It would be my pleasure

>>17346
>Thez and I - and the fact that I can express that without shame, guilt, misgivings, or whatever - love you guys
D'AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. i love you to no homo
>Infernius "I'nis!" IS a paragon of generosity and selflessness
im just glad to help.

>>17342
>Being here (in thread and in board) has helped me grow by degrees I'd never have imagined
That's my problem though. I feel like this whole experience has fed into and made worse my paranoia - and it's a problem I've never had IRL. It's also fed into megalomania by making an arms race necessary, and megalomania is a problem I have IRL. I'm not sure if I am growing or degenerating
>I'll have no more threats of banning legit players tho.
It's because it's the only power I have. I am completely powerless otherwise...
>In exchange, I promise not to get salty if you wanna mangle Tracy now and again. Deal?
Can I have something to make the fights a little more in my favor...?
>making one's situation better is a mix of perseverance and patience; the former is a matter of practice and resolve, the latter is a matter of both relaxing and/or occupying one's self in the interim
Can I be forgiven if I want more trustworthiness?

I wish I could join in on the lubby-dubby, but I am not well right now

>>17352
whats wrong friend can i help in someway?

>>17353
>>17354
D'aww, thanks. I'm fully aware this bullshit has been my doing, by the way

I'm going to wait to bake, 'cuz I want to do it right.
>>17351
>megalomania
An old friend of mine once asserted that there is no such thing as a person who doesn't have or express some form of megalomania, and that all one can do is learn to manifest it in ways that are more or less appropriate. I also experience elevated (often extreme) levels of paranoia, particularly in my professional and personal affairs. I don't know that I have any solutions to offer at the moment, but I'll commit myself to it, to whatever degree I can.
>banning is only power, are powerless
That is NOT true, and I hope I/we can help with that.
>make fights more in favor
Are you talking combat fights, or group in-fights?
>more trustworthiness
That's one of the parts of your position I agree with entirely. I'm one for compromise, but I feel you're absolutely right on that. You need no forgiveness, but if you feel you do, you are forgiven.
>>17355
Everyone played their part, me most of all (no matter how I may want to rationalize otherwise).

>>17356
>make fights more in favor
>Are you talking combat fights, or group in-fights?
hes talking about fights with tracy i think.

>>17357
I'm way ahead on that part
sorry Tracy

>>17351
>Can I have something to make the fights a little more in my favor…?
Do you not realize that I've intentionally made sure to only give her powers that your character is resistant/immune to (I make her decisions with math, so it's annoying to me if she sees opportunities? She's a field monster: you could knock her out in just 1-2 hits with Smite Evil (It's the safe word! I've been hinting at this for weeks now. Remember it!)

GM can you look up the artillery luger, and tell me if lenos can do that?

>>17360
So like this, or longer?

>>17361
while we are talking about firearms.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UExcdWxmev8

can i get something like pic related?

>>17339
I can tone down to malevolence, gradually.
But seriously, why do you have to make things harder than it is? You know that I make most decisions with math, but you still treat it like it's some kind of power struggle? Why does your character always ask so many obscure inquisitive questions that his faggot already knows the answer to? You know that she's going to be doing all this edgy/evil shit in secret, but your character keeps prying or making passive-aggressive movements to mess-up whatever he doesn't actually know is going on (i.e. following Tracy all the way to the dome for no reason, while Port Barry was being burned down). I have to pull-out a graphing calculator in every scene she's in with your character in it, so stop intentionally saying stuff that no sane person would say around their psychotic stalker: she's not oblivious to your character casually implying he doesn't like her or that he likes other females; I have to jump through hoops to avoid violent outcomes with muh flowcharts.
Just let me do evil shit in secret so I can play her as neutral in the open, and stop making your character ask questions he wouldn't think of or make passive-aggressive movements like it's some kind of game of chess. Nothing my character does hampers yours directly, so let him mind his own business while the mysterious ghost pony wreaks havoc on unrelated/deserving populous at night.

>>17361
Yes like that, but god those colors are awful for a gun.
Now I can shoot stuff from half a mile away. Sniping time

>>17363
>You know that I make most decisions with math
Why do you do that. Change the math to something better for the rest of us

>>17364
I thought you'd like the colors,....
How about this then? This is more along the lines of how I envisioned the guns to begin with.
>>17365
Noted, and I think I can accommodate
>>17363
As I said to him "Baby steps"
>>17362
Its possible, but you'll have to ask the right people the right questions.

>>17359
>Change the math to something better for the rest of us
It's not so easy as it sounds (you try to create your own math system to emulate a psychotic mindset). The system as created to abdicate control and make the game more interesting. I reserve one rotating day per week for pure faggot-driven banter.
Also, if I changed it or tried to predict where it will come out as, it wouldn't really be a yandere plot, would it? An essential part to a yandere story is the unpredictable potential violence.

>>17368
meant for >>17366

>>17367
Thats better, gold is terrible look

>>17369
>>17368
heres something that might help you out.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-0hgP1tNH8

>>17363
>Why does your character always ask so many obscure inquisitive questions that his faggot already knows the answer to?
So he can get answers
>You know that she's going to be doing all this edgy/evil shit in secret, but your character keeps prying or making passive-aggressive movements to mess-up whatever he doesn't actually know is going on
I think you just answered your own question there
>I have to pull-out a graphing calculator in every scene she's in with your character in it
Just... why would you play like that?
>following Tracy all the way to the dome for no reason, while Port Barry was being burned down
How the hell do you come to that interpretation? I was going somewhere because I wanted to expand my empire, and I didn't give a shit what you were doing. And neither of us knew Port Barry was burning down. Cardishore was the city recommended by GM. I would have just as happily gone anywhere else
>or make passive-aggressive movements like it's some kind of game of chess
Then don't play chess with loot or unicorns
>let him mind his own business while the mysterious ghost pony wreaks havoc on unrelated/deserving populous at night.
He's Paladin of Port Barry, so Port Barry is his business

>>17371
>eat faces
"Check!"

>>17372
I'm sorry, but if your character can't stop prying needlessly on whims he shouldn't have with his level of knowledge, don't expect me not to be sneaky about things; I still intent to play an evil character.

>>17363
Nigger, I scored high on the LSAT. I can do basic logic. If Tracy disappears exactly at the moment the unicorn is being talked about, that means Tracy is going for the unicorn, or at least the odds are high enough to merit spending time on it. Same with who took the thing, and so on and so forth. I have been limiting knowledge
>>17375
>prying needlessly on whims
It's called being suspicious. If you don't want that, then stop being suspicious

>>17373
Fukkin subb'd! TY!
>>17375
May I suggest that Tracy interpret Trump's inquisitiveness as genuine interest rather than prying? Given Tracy's interest in him, wouldn't his questions be interpreted as concern and/or growing devotion? Rather than respond defensively, might she instead respond with intrigue?

>>17375
And I still intend to play a Good one you kike. Have you learned nothing.

>>17373
Okay, meta-gaming isn't wasn't I thought it was

New, Low-sodium bread when?

>>17377
This.
The love interest can be Yandere too

>>17381
*Tsundere

>>17377
no problem.

>>17381
>>17382
WEEEEB
what do those mean?
>>17373
>I'm a noob at RPGs so I cant meta most d&d shit
I'm okay with this

>>17380
How did you know I was going with "Low Sodium"? Soon.

>>17386
its the next logical step.

>>17384
Wat.

>>17385
Yandere means an person with an obsessive romantic interest that outwardly presents the appearance of niceness, but on the inside is just crazy and aggressive. Tsundere is basically the inverse, being hostile and cold on the outside, but being loving on the inside

>>17386
>>17380
I don't think we've resolved the issue. A less salty bread can wait until there is less salt

>>17389
I want low-sodium now, so I can post stuff I want there, and dump my autism in this cesspool of a thread.
>>17388
>wat
I took extensive lengths to create a system that minimized increasing attachment and the decay it created, and applied a function to make it so that your character isn't the center of the world anymore.

>>17390
Can we not have Yandere decay though? That just creates a monster none of us want to see

>>17391
The system itself is created to regulate decay and become increasingly chaotic: it was originally developed for this purpose. The detachment matrix slows the process, but relies on the character focusing on other thought-lines to obscure obsession: in this case, that thought being the arrival of the new most important being in the world.

>>17392
did you even watch the video? it shows you how to play an evil character.

>>17392
Uh... Okay. Just can you play it in a way that isn't unfun for the rest of us?

>>17394
Fuck off

"Maybe this will help," Lenos says with a strange multi-button rod in his hands.
He points it at the party, and not dissimilar to the Frog Swarm, a stampede of adorable kittens shoots forth from the tip, covering everyone in adorable little buzzes with big eyes and cute little ears. The whole place is now filled with the sound of "Mew"s.

>>17396
infernuis hugs as many kittens as possible.

*freezes in place not sure what to do*
"A.. A-ah..! W-wha-what do I do with them? They're all so.. fluffy!"

Finish salty things in this bread, and when its settled, there's a new bread.
https://mlpol.net/vx/res/17398.html#17401

>>17395
Sure.. I can do some more math..
>>17393
I did, it was helpful.

>>17404
Good. I hope we can leave drama behind

>>17403
Can you give me something so I don't feel deletion-y. Pwease

How about (and I'll dup-post in new bread) we agree to disagree, but not act like faggots toward one another, or else GM will start nerfing characters left and right? ^_^
>sweetest of disingenuous smiles

>>17419
>How about (and I'll dup-post in new bread) we agree to disagree,
What
>No offense, I find that most players are being much more reasonable
What