>>360625Personally I didn’t feel very influenced by mushrooms in the way you described it. It was more of a subtle ‘awareness’. You have a lot of control over it, because you are still you, and still have all of your thoughts. What you put into it has powerful effects as to how it goes, with mushrooms especially in my experience. If one were going to do psychedelics I’d advise psilocybin in a small dose, as that’s pretty gentle, you might not even have visuals, just a nice feeling.
Even on DMT I just felt like I was me, but not in my body. As if I had died, but was still a ghost with my mind and my thoughts. A lot of the things I saw/learned made perfect sense, and I was like “woah I wish I could somehow show this to people, but I can’t transmit my experiences to them, and it’s so fantastical they would never believe me, so I guess they have to have their own experiences.” The things that didn’t make sense were more like infinite fractals and impossible extra dimensional shapes, that it felt like my mind just couldn’t comprehend, but I could tell they had purpose. Like when I spoke to my girlfriend, I would see shapes forming in my mind that would then float out of my head into her head, burst into bubbles and that’s when she understood me, and vice versa.
I also had a moment while cuddling with my gf where my empathy for my girlfriend got so strong, that I couldn’t tell the difference between us, I was like “wait which one of us am I? Have I been her all along or was I always me?” It was literally like I possessed her body, while I was trying to get back into my own.
I did experience some scary stuff on DMT, but I was able to will myself away from it pretty quickly. For example I saw thousands of different rainbow colored humanoid wasp entities floating in bubbles in a Martian looking landscape, some as big as me, some tiny, all of them humming in my head and shape shifting, growing boobs and ass trying to tempt me or something, that was scary, but I willed myself away from it so fast, and it really wasn’t an important part of my trip. (Come to think of it some anons here would probably enjoy the shapeshifting wasp girls, but I just wasn’t sure if they were demons or some shit, so it spooked me)
Absolutely though if you don’t feel right about these things trust your intuition. I only ever do it when I feel everything is lined up and correct so to speak. If I have a bad feeling at all, I wait until some other time to do the psychedelics.
My bad if I’m rambling just felt I had some experience on the subject to share, as even most DMT enjoyers haven’t had full ego death/breakthroughs like I have.