>>142296Also to give some more advice on depression, anti-depressants aren't a miracle cure. They don't even work at all for some people.
I've taken 5 different kinds, and they don't do shit for me. (Some of them even had permanent effects)
Don't just jump from pill to pill until one works. (The second one I took gave me a really bad reaction, I literally felt like I was dying.)
Meditate on your day, week, month, years or life behind you. What made you happy? Why do you feel the way you do? What makes you sad? Why does it make you sad? Is there anything you can do about it?
My depression doesn't come from a chemical imbalance in my brain or something like that. (At least, this is what I feel)
It comes from the fact that every moment of my life I've been in pain. There's absolutely nothing I can do about it.
I've been depressed as hell to where I thought about death (not suicidal) every single day.
The thing that pulls me out of it is just accepting that some things cannot be changed that easily.
You take every chance you get to change those things, or impact them in a way they will eventually change. But don't let them control your life.
Explain your situation to others, tell them exactly what is bothering you.
Let them know how you wish to live your life. Really try to connect with them on a deep and personal level.
Don't live "In the now", but don't worry about the future, either.
I'm not a christian, but I think their attitude of "everything is in god's plan" is the perfect way to live your life.
If it happens, it must have happened for a reason. Do not dwell on it.
Don't regret the way you have lived your life. Think about what is really important to you.
Live by your own moral code. Do not surrender it to anyone.
Think of the kind of person you want to be, pick a life's goal, try to live up to that ideal or goal you have created for yourself.
I'm not the best at giving advice, at least I don't think so. So I'm sorry if my jumble of words up there is confusing or awfully written.
But above all else, take pride in your life. Regardless of where it has taken you, or where it is going.
As long as you are alive, you can change. Both yourself, and the world.