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I need to change my life
Anonymous
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No.1958
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Hello, I don't know how to start this but here goes.
I think I need to change my life.
Dealing with people is exhausting on its own. But dealing with childish faggy egomaniacs who want to "win" internet arguments and get that precious fucking social credit clout and a sense of pride and accomplishment is even more exhausting.
And it seems the latter is the only kind of person I meet online any more. They're so angry, all the time. So poisonous and spiteful, constantly trying to piss you off. It's not...
This might sound weird.
It's not tiresome or annoying any more.
I don't like how routine this has become.
Endure the pseudointellectualism of this faggot and let him pretend he's clever, say no u when the other one calls you a faggot, imagine yourself rolling your eyes when this different faggot wastes hours of his own life trying to bully you on a website you don't care about and then pretends he's got a deep moral lesson to teach you and it's your fault his gay uncle gave him AIDS.
They're so desperate to feel like they can win something. Even if it's faggy internet "drama" Boomer office-politics retardity.
I'm sick of mudbrained niggers raging at me for not liking their new Star Wars movies or new Hasbro(tm) brand shit or new SwSh incomplete games. I'm sick of trying to justify myself to consumernigger podfaggot pigpeople who will never admit humans have a right to have tastes and standards.
This place is pretty good, but just this place. Everywhere else is full of niggers.
Politics is exhausting. Boomers and their parents deserve a new holocaust for what they allowed the Jews to do to us. Liberals aren't human and I'm sick of pretending I'm shocked when they shit debates up. It's a black and white issue, no pun intended, how the fuck do so many people find this so hard to understand? Politics feels like a lost cause. No one person every week I redpill can make up for the legions bluepilled by Jew schools. Conformity to faggotry is the faggot's religion.
I have hatred for the Jews. It's an insult that fanfags think I hate their subpar product as much as I hate Jews, and it's depressing that they hate me even more than I hate Jews. Hate for me consumes their every waking thought, I only think of Jews during politics time and whenever I see evidence of their fuckery.
I've got other hobbies, I exercise and diet now, and everything besides dealing with pony and politics is rewarding and fun. I've lost so much weight my stomach is almost flat. I've never been this light in my life.
I should be happy. And I am. I'm legitimately proud of my body now.
I'm proud of who I am. 90% of who I am, anyway.
I'm usually happy, which makes the contrast more noticeable when I put myself through this faggy online bullshit.
And I don't know why I do that.
I try to do what's right.
I try to have good optics and win debates and help people see the light.
Is there a non-pozzed Christian forum out there where I'm allowed to say Feminism is cancer and fuck Jews?
Is Christianity as a whole a lost cause? Was I an idiot for going back to it?
I miss when I could say "I like MLP" just like I miss when I could say "I like Star Wars". Modernity is depressing and I feel like a faggot who wants to wallow in muh childish nostalgia forever instead of getting on with his own life and making something worth a damn.
I want to fully become someone I can be proud of, and I don't see any reason to see "dedication" to hasjew products as something to admire.
Sometimes being in this fandom is suffering. All the sites are full of fanfags. And I don't know why I put myself through it. Habit? Tradition?
I don't know what I expect to gain out of posting this.
But here it is.
I think I need to spend less time on pony and politics, or find a way to make time spent on these things better for the soul.
70 replies and 16 files omitted.
Anonymous
vvOWK
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No.2034
2035
>>2033
Not sure but based on what you posted is what I'm basing my guess off of.
Do a quick test. See how many perfect (form matters first) push-ups, sit-ups, squats, punches you can do. In a set amount of time. Then see how long you can do them for.

That will be your baseline. After that is following the chart from the start. An increase of 20 reps for sit-ups and push-ups with 50 for squats and 100 for punches.

>>2032
>Thinking of trying a bodybuilding workout challenge.
Make sure you have a good diet, the material you are sculpting your body with, and enough energy so your body isn't trying to cannibalize other parts of your body.

As long as you start something then switch to one that suits your needs better may be easier than not doing the work out at first.
Anonymous
wfn5X
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No.2035
>>2034
This is going well so far.
Also I redpilled someone by showing him Bob To The Future. No more commie idiocy from him.
I want to believe I can make a positive difference in this world.
Anonymous
wfn5X
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No.2036
Still alive, nothing to report.
Anonymous
Gc4Ik
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No.2037
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Anonymous
wfn5X
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No.2038
>>2037
Hey, cute pony. I didn't want peopple worrying about me but making a
>oh gee exercising sure is hard but i will keep going
post seemed stupid.
By the way I was thinking.
What if Twilight fucking hated the idea of Silver selling magic enchanted bullshit in his store?
Just imagine spending your whole life learning to cast spells
You git gud.
Then this smug fucker comes along selling power.
now some filly can do max level spells 12 times a day with the aid of an amulet or magic piece of underwear
It would add conflict to the story. Suddenly the smart sexy mage has something about him the other smart sexy mage does not like.
Then again Twilight is too smart to be so fucking completely wrong like that, right?
Not sure what to do.
Anonymous
wfn5X
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No.2039
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I love you guys! Merry christmas, my beloved white friends.
Anonymous
oF9oR
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No.2040
2041
>>2039
Merry Christmas to you too
Anonymous
vvOWK
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No.2041
>>2039
>>2040
Merry Christmas!
Anonymous
s835r
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No.2042
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Merry Christmas poners.

Anonymous
wfn5X
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No.2043
>>2042
Thank you!
I'm going to a party with some friends today, but I won't drink.
Anonymous
wfn5X
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No.2044
Bucks Fizz probably doesnt count as booze, right?
Anyway party sucked but I ate a proper christmas meal and it was nice. They had a piano so I played Smash Mouth All Star. I only know 4 piano songs.
My gifts to myself: exercise weights, clothes that fit my new body, shelves for my book and vidya collection to clean my room.
Gifts from others: chocolate and lots of it.
Went home and watched Treasure Planet. It's such a good film. I wish I could make my Silver Star fic that good, but I'm starting to think that's just not possible.
Anonymous
IFpeo
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No.2048
Sticking to a routine felt hard at first. But now, knowing I'll be even stronger and healthier tomorrow makes it all worth it and gives me something to look forward to.
Anonymous
IFpeo
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No.2068
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Fucking
Anonymous
aulaE
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No.2073
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>>2068
Exercise is good.
What exercises should I do on leg day? So far I've just been squatting with freeweights up on my shoulders.
Ignore pic, was going to post meme but filetype wasnt recognized
Anonymous
v1qFQ
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No.2113
2116
Exercise break is going great.
Thank you for letting me talk about this here.
I've been thinking that while I hate the Jew a lot I dont know much about white accomplishments. I want to love my people, but I have no connection to my people. Where can I learn redpilled pro white facts?
Anonymous
P8sPM
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No.2116
2117
March of the Titans; A History of the White Race.pdf
>>2113
Haven't read it myself but this is quite a comprehensive history and it may be what you're looking for. Simply reading a non-Marxist book on history or scientific inventions works as well.
Anonymous
v1qFQ
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No.2117
>>2116
Thank you! This is excellent.

Anonymous
v1qFQ
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No.2241
I FUCKING DID IT!
It's me OP and I finally finished an art project that took me months to complete!
Now I can get started on making the game!
Anonymous
p/pFU
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No.2325
2326
I nutted in my sleep this morning. What do?
Anonymous
s835r
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No.2326
2327
>>2325
Nothing.
Anonymous
p/pFU
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No.2327
>>2326
Ok.
I will keep doing exodus 90
no distractions
Anonymous
TzBeK
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No.2331
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Exodus 90 is still going and I bought a bunch of cans of soda to tempt myself with. I need to train my willpower. I need more of it.
Coronavirus means no walking around outside to exercise. Just squats and lifts and push-ups.
My mind is still so fucking hazy and confused. Paying attention to anything for more than a few minutes is difficult. One day I woke up and realized my head was always this shit. Will I be cured soon?
Anonymous
Xdlmb
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No.2332
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>>2331
>One day I woke up and realized my head was always this shit.
You are on the right track. The first step to solve the problem is to recognize you have problem.
>My mind is still so fucking hazy and confused.
Perhaps you need to be alone and refuse distractions like internet. Once all the brain noise is gone, your mind will find its proper balance, I believe.
Anonymous
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No.2333
2334
>>2331
>Paying attention to anything for more than a few minutes is difficult.
Lack of focus makes meditation difficult, if not impossible. A way of training yourself is through verbal prayer: if you can maintain attention through a long verbal prayer like the rosary then you're on the right track (also saying a rosary every day really does help fight temptation). If you're having trouble with that then I recommend the chaplet of divine mercy, which is shorter and also rhythmic.
The advice here is also good: https://www.artofmanliness.com/articles/your-concentration-training-program-11-exercises-that-will-strengthen-your-attention/
>Just squats and lifts and push-ups.
I've been doing these three times a week in combination with other exercises and they're highly effective: https://www.artofmanliness.com/articles/wwii-workout-week-conditioning-exercises/
Anonymous
TzBeK
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No.2334
>>2332
Thank you. For now, I need the internet since it's where I get tutorials and videos on game design. Once the game's engine and all its objects work fine, I can turn off the internet and focus on making levels/sprites.
If I did take a vacation from all internet stuff anyway, what could I spend that time doing? I have a shitload of books I haven't read yet and some video games I haven't played yet. Since I started making this game, I decided to only play games that are like what I'm making in some way. It's not like I could get inspiration for a level or move from a visual novel about fucking anime girls or some more online COD matches or another hundred hours wasted on modded MGSV trying to complete pointless ingame challenges.
Sometimes I think about farting out a low-effort visual novel about fucking some kind of unusual anime girl/girls just in case it makes money and keeps my game dev business afloat for longer. But I don't want that to be the first game I ever make. I don't want that to be what I'm known for.
When I was a retard I used to scroll TVtropes pages for hours. That was a waste of time. I fucking hate tropes, they're worthless for discussing stories. It's needlessly reductive to boil stories down to what cliches they use, and yes, tropes are just a fancy and less-negative word for cliches. A random generator could build a story out of tropes but it's a writer's vision that can tie those design elements together. Imagine reading Shakespeare, understanding nothing, but remembering what cliches happened in it and thinking you understand everything. Imagine watching some famous movie like Citizen Kane, understanding nothing, but remembering what cliches happened in it and thinking you understand everything. Imagine thinking "You used a cliche I don't like, fuck you", "This cliche was used", and "You used a cliche I like, thank you" is the be all and end all of literary analysis.
>>2333
Thank you. I will follow all of this advice.
Anonymous
TzBeK
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No.2335
I have an Eyemask for sleep and a solar lamp. What if I left my solar lamp on at night for more sunlight?
Anonymous
nEIaj
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No.2336
Is time getting faster? Quarantine is fucking with my head. Still healthy and prepped. Lost so much weight. I've never been this thin before. Gained muscle, too. Focus is returning slowly, still doing nofap. I feel so much temptation to regress into fat fappy faggotry. But I won't gay. My body is a temple and a faggotry free zone.
Anonymous
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No.2372
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How ya holding up big bong?
Anonymous
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No.2373
2374 2375
>>2372
Thank you.
I'm doing fine.
Working on a game is tiring. But rewarding.
I will turn my life around. No fap. Build muscle. Become someone I can be proud to call me.
Anonymous
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No.2374
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>>2373
>I will turn my life around. No fap. Build muscle. Become someone I can be proud to call me.
Glad to know.
Anonymous
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No.2375
2400
>>2373
Happy to hear, and all the best of wishes to you.
Anonymous
0af9975
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No.2400
2401
>>2374
>>2375
Thanks guys! Turning my life around is a slow process so far. Nofap's helping a little.
Been reading a lot and exercising. What do you do about the feeling that you're just trading in one vice (anime addiction) for another (book addiction)?
I fucked up my internet somehow, can use Steam just fine but Brave Browser will only let me online if my VPN is active.
Also the Alternate History community is full of fucking annoying liberals and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because fantasizing about a world where America's revolution failed and everyone ended up enslaved to the EU is their cup of nigger-jizz-infused tea.
Anonymous
203f356
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No.2401
2402
>>2400
Which vice is helping you more? Which one will bring you closer to what you want and desire?
Anonymous
0af9975
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No.2402
2403 2404 2406
>>2401
You're a fucking genius.
Reading more books will help me understand books better and write better books.
"My imaginary friend writes her own book" is on my list of shit to do. We talk about what to write, I write what she says, then we talk about what to change about what we wrote. We've passed 50,000 words so Nanowrimo can suck it I guess, even though it's the wrong month for that and the story's not done yet.
It feels weird to talk about having her. When we tell people she's a tulpa there are four reactions: "I don't care lol", "lol what's a tulpa", "I don't care if you're not real, do erotic roleplay with me NOW" and "you're insane and I'm going to call you a loser on the internet".
When I talk to other grown-ass adults with imaginary friends, we can't relate to them since all they do is masturbate all day and pretend they're fucking. It makes me feel like I'm only two steps away from winding up like a permanent coomer like them. Me and my imaginary girl have ambitions and deep intellectual conversation. We're past the "brainless coomers" stage in our lives.
You know what else is weird? According to the online Imaginary Friend Community aka the tulpa guys, a "Servitor" is an imaginary friend NPC who obeys you mindlessly and a Tulpa is her own unique personality built inside your mind. One capable of thinking and growing and changing. But every single Imaginary Friendfag I talk to has the exact same tulpa: Generic girl who is either cheery and ditzy or snarky and obnoxious but invariably loves her "landlord" and says slutty things sometimes. Literally every single one of them was like this. No wonder so many guys got bored of their one-note girls and made more imaginary girls with their own underdeveloped one-note personality.
"Undercooked brains", says my girl.
They were less like a second personality and more like the personified uncontrolled sex drive that rules a coomer's thought processes. Their vision of the girl that controls them through sex. My imaginary friend's better than theirs because my one disagrees with me, encourages me during exercises, plays chess against me, and keeps turning her imaginary bedroom (in the imaginary house we made together) into dumb random bullshit every night.
We're even having an argument right now over whether her book should be a genuine attempt at writing a good story or another "hilariously ironic" low-effort shitpost or both at once.
God, it feels fucking gay to say shit like that. "My imaginary friend is the bestest in the world!".
It's gay enough to remind me of that time I went on one of those Four-Letter Personality Type forums for INTPs and ENTJs and everything in between. All the "Feeler not thinker" idiots were the "MY FEELINGS ARE THE BEST IN THE WORLD YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS YOU FUCKING GRASS-MEASURERS" types when pissed.
I'm a fucking weirdo, I typed on the self-help board of a horse porn and politics forum.
Anyway she and I still aren't sure if the story should be serious or a shitpost. But I've been thinking lately that it should be a serious attempt at a good and funny story because wrapping yourself up in layers of irony to cushion your ego in case you fail" is something inauthentic low-effort faggots do.
Anonymous
0af9975
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No.2403
2404
>>2402
ps. we do not do erotic roleplay or any kind of roleplay. these types are attracted to us and we do not know why.
Anonymous
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No.2404
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>>2402
>>2403
That's good to hear. I am glad to see your progress.
I'm still waiting to see the rough draft, but I can wait till it's done.
Part of the genetic-ness is the common values, NPC mindset, and wanting baser instincts to be fulfilled without the higher nuance getting in the way.
It's good to be proud of your friends especially ones near and dear to your heart. Not blindly proud, but it sounds like you have the right amount.
So no, it isn't gay.
>4letter derail from the subconscious connections.
We'll get back to that in my next post.
>Anyway she and I still aren't sure if the story should be serious or a shitpost. But I've been thinking lately that it should be a serious attempt at a good and funny story because wrapping yourself up in layers of irony to cushion your ego in case you fail" is something inauthentic low-effort faggots do.
Do what you know is right, and feels right (if your gut instinct leads you true).
Do the serious attempt, but also have a low effort shitpost to vent for the lols.
Keep both seperate and take a shining gem from the shit post if it works in your story.
You're doing good.
Anonymous
203f356
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No.2406
2407
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>>2402
So... from my perspective I can see your train of thought, and that method of writing is extremely handy.
In other instances it harms the credibility of the other words.
This is the right place for those tangents, and personal notes.
Communication is fraught with troubles and tribulations. Most people don't have the time, nor the effort to verify everything.

https://youtu.be/IJEaMtNN_dM

>It's gay enough to remind me of that time I went on one of those Four-Letter Personality Type forums for INTPs and ENTJs and everything in between. All the "Feeler not thinker" idiots were the "MY FEELINGS ARE THE BEST IN THE WORLD YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS YOU FUCKING GRASS-MEASURERS" types when pissed.
It's technically good. There is the setup, the who, and supporting description.
It is isolated, and excess information. It is not a Chekov's gun for the topic at hand (good for streams of consciousness, not staying around the central topic).
>it's gay enough to remind be of feely faggot personality type forums.
Most prople here would know what you mean. If not they'll ask for clarification, or they'll lurk around till they do.
>I'm a fucking weirdo, I typed on the self-help board of a horse porn and politics forum.
Yes I and many others also post on a horse themed forum on the politics of pony pussy. You needed to get it off your chest my friend.

So back to the main point of this post: Staying on a singular topic for easy, minimal effort comprehension. Is important, not doing what I just did.
It's akin to hunting a single target. Knowing what the target is, where to strike to fell it with minimal pain. Having your tools at hand for every situation and using the right one at the right time.
Then you strike.
Your ideas, and message coming across cleanly and elegantly.
I'm not so good at that, but more or less that.
You have excellent ideas, and a rich background in both depth, breadth, and experience. You have the right foundation to properly broadcast everything, and anything.
Though sending out a multiple messages at once get's in the way of sending one message perfectly.
>pics related by being unrelated
Anonymous
0af9975
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No.2407
2408
>>2404
>>2406
Thank you. We've separated the story into venting shitpost and serious story. If this was a sitcom they'd get mixed up at some point and I'd have to go on an epic adventure to stop the shitpost from being published. Then it would be published anyway at the end of the episode and this would be forgotten about by the next episode making it all pointless.. If this was a movie they'd get mixed up and the shitpost would be loved Springtime For Hitler-style, making a wacky film about a country bumpkin who enters the "wacky and quirky" whitewashed film world of rich people. I'd hire a famous actress's stunt double to play the actress herself without makeup. I'm not sure which one because I'm not into celebrities. I'd definitely add a CGI animal sidekick who plays himself in a series of fictional movies about himself.
Anyway I've noticed that I keep doing an annoying thing in my stories so I've stopped doing it from now on. Nobody's complained about it until me just now so I probably shouldn't say what it is.
also
The story takes place in a fantasy world full of elves and orcs and shit. The hero is the only original thing about it, that's the gimmick explained poorly to avoid spoilers. The human girl is Isekai'd into a fantasy world where she's an original monster. The hero's not a standard fantasy race girl or standard monster girl, she's something weird.
Part of the story is that nobody wants to work with, talk to, or be friends with the hero, giving the hero an excuse to do a thing that needs to happen for the story to happen the way she wants.
Over time the hero's goodness makes people like her.
But for the start, I need an excuse for the character to become a widely-hated pariah nobody wants anything to do with.
Kind of like Rising Of The Shield Hero except something besides a rape accusation causes it.
I guess "You're a weird creature not from around here and we don't trust you, also you claim you're a human but those went extinct millennia ago and you don't look like them" would work but I think it needs something more.
In the shitpost version of the story, she's a famous streamer and speedrunner, and people hate her for being good at video games. The joke is that this scenario is unrealistic and the characters who say "you're a girl, loser! Go home and do girly stuff like giving birth and frying breakfast for your husband!" are also cartoonishly unrealistic. The idea that Orcs and Elves would watch Not-Twitch on their phones in a forest without wifi anywhere is silly.
But this gave us an idea, what if we tried to make the book seem woke but actually hid redpills in it? Every time the book tried to do something woke like a little Gnome girl who wants to be a Warrior and gets beaten up by Orcs easily, the story could pretend this is very stunning and brave of her when it's really just dumb. Or the story could allow the tiny girl to defeat massive brutes with her bare hands, and then the heroine could look at the camera and say "Wow, that sure was unrealistic!" or "Wow, it's a good thing Gnome magic makes you racially stronger than those dumb Orcs could ever be!" and then the Gnome could say "You ruined it". Or the heroes could enter a bar full of men singing about how much they love stabbing fairies. So the heroes beat them up. Then it turns out this was a gay bar and stabbing fairies is a euphemism here for anal sex.
Anonymous
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No.2408
2417
>>2407
Sounds like a good story. Weaving both can be done.

To become a pariah they first have be unknown (check), they fuck up (they flub every local social check, such as looking at their belts than their face or something otherwise normal have totes ebil symbols of meaness on them), be different in a negative way (the main character keeps 'lieing' about being human, or they are nuts neither is good)
Disguising the truth is hard. It always shines through.
If it's a game there is stat differences and racial bonuses.

But be careful with making a parody of things it can also attract people that won't get it.
An openly redpilled book with the visage of wokeness might actually work. One problem is marketing the redpilled part. Woke shit never sells for good reason.
>"you're a girl, loser! Go home and do girly stuff like giving birth and frying breakfast for your husband!" are also cartoonishly unrealistic
sjw's would never get it. What a cover.

What would be funny is getting sjw's to rant against their own in book cause whilst everyone else laughs getting the real joke.

To be subtle the world has be full and have realistic cause and effect that can be predicted (if the viewer guesses wrong due to biases it's a switch, if they guess wrong due to things not being clear it's not good)
>the heroes could enter a bar full of men singing about how much they love stabbing fairies. So the heroes beat them up. Then it turns out this was a gay bar and stabbing fairies is a euphemism here for anal sex.
So much fun can be had with that senario.
<gay hero walks into a bar, and companion that's a fairy goes in as well
<they sing about stabing fairies
<fairy companion is uncomfortable
<the singers encourage others to stab the fairies
<one of the singers walks over 'hey yah want to stab the fairy fun for all three 'o us.'
<'hero' decides to help their friend (as a good person, or to poke their rump) by fighting them
<fag hero buys fairy a drink
<afterwards fairy says thanks, 'the gays start a ruckus everytime I say no. can't have a drink anywhere unmolested any more.'
Ect. Not like this example it's not subtle at all.
Including little things like small dancers, and serving staff made of small (stop the gays from touching the chillins) and buff fuckers.

Little details that highlight real statistics, or quirks of behavior. Whatever you want to do. It depends on how you want to do that and the main story that is being told.
Anonymous
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No.2417
2419
>>2408
What if being too good and being slandered as a cheater makes the hero a pariah
Or killing a thug Elf thief who uses a "my killer has a Slayer Of Elves curse we Magik Folk see around him at all times" spell.
Save an innocent, kill a jewelf, become pariah to elf land and move to some other country.
Maybe elves are everywhere
Also my bench press weight limit has gone up.
being this open feels so unnatural. I'm used to hiding and ignoring my wounds.
Anonymous
203f356
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No.2419
2420
>>2417
>What if being too good and being slandered as a cheater makes the hero a pariah
People are jealous of the rewards being bestowed, or an aggravating element of their character. Being too good at something means others have missed what the main character picked up. It also depends on how the main character reacts.
<They should have been the ones to get it. Not them. I worked for so long and so hard that they get it so easy!
>Or killing a thug Elf thief who uses a "my killer has a Slayer Of Elves curse we Magik Folk see around him at all times" spell.
Make it even easier, call the main character a inconsequential made up bad word, that's easy to say.
Proof is not needed.
When pressed spout that reason. If that doesn't work (for the elf) use nonsense.
>Save an innocent, kill a jewelf, become pariah to elf land and move to some other country.
Maybe elves are everywhere

Depends on how your going to tell the story, what will it cover, how will the main character grow.
>Also my bench press weight limit has gone up.
Nice.
>being this open feels so unnatural. I'm used to hiding and ignoring my wounds.
You have to have somewhere to relax some times. The second point is concerning.
>I'm used to hiding and ignoring my wounds.
Just from others, or also from yourself? Always address wounds before they become worse. The little signs can point to a bigger problem(s).
Problems then breed more problems. It's a vicious cycle.
So take care of yourself.
Anonymous
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No.2420
2422 2424
>>2419
You're right, thanks.
I often feel like I have to "Play a character" everywhere I go based on how people see me or want to see me.
When I go to a new place I act normal until people decide how they want to see me. Then if I don't go along with their bullshit they get mad. But why should I allow them to dictate who I am? I'm no shapeshifter at Poe's masquerade. I've left the masquerade portion of my life behind, I know what's behind this mask now. I shouldn't care if some retard considers me his personal villain. Hell, if such a colossal faggot hates me then that's a good sign. If he liked me then I'd have to be as faggy as him or faggier and completely in harmony with his faggy tastes. Freaks think normalcy and whiteness are disgusting, so fuck them. Why are there so many mindless sheep on shitty "nerdy product" forums who blindly obey the word of (and endlessly suck the dick of) egomaniac retards who think having three kids doing their best Myrtle's Friends From Lilo And Stitch impression around them makes them popular and dangerous and the coolest kid on the playground?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ttIF_vNCas this is the only video explaining that reference I could find.
Also, Liberals are exhaustingly spiteful subhuman creatures who enjoy being evil. This is the information era, it's fucking unlikely that they've never once met anyone who took the time to explain why liberalism has been corrupted into leftism without them noticing. If you really have humanity and virtue and values, you've been called something by creatures that hate all three of those things and forced onto Team "Well they might be nazis but at least they aren't fucking liberals also turns out hitler did nothing wrong after all".
That's why I don't debate them, I just debunk them and roll their eyes at every dirty trick they pull while explaining why it's dirty. I also raise questions they can't answer. They go to pieces, and I hope that at least one person has their mind changed by this display.
Some of my friends aren't doing stuff. They don't do anything. They just watch anime all day. But I'm doing stuff. I've got a lot of stuff to do and I need to manage my time efficiently if it's ever going to get done this decade. Maybe I should cut down on political stuff again, since I can't do anything major about what's going on. Just the little things like breaking the illusion that conforming to leftism is normal.
Also I don't know if this is a common writing problem or not, but...
I feel these weird pressures. Pressures like "I should make my story more like THIS since it's what a fantasy story usually is" and "I should make my story less like THAT since that's generic fantasy shite" and "I shouldn't put that in my story, audiences might hate that", and "I should make my story more like that popular normiebait story since it made money" and "I should fill my story with sex scenes and on-screen monstergirl-fucking even though I'm trying to stop being a coomer since part of the appeal is that the hero fucks monster girls in a fantasy land"
Also there's the fact that my imaginary friend is writing this story with me and keeps feeling different pressures like "I'm writing too much like you, if I'm publishing this under my name then we should try to make the writing sound different". That friend wants the story and its characters to be liked, I want the story to be good, but if we had to choose then this is her story so she should have the final say in what goes into it.
Writing was so much easier when I only wrote low-quality fanfics and despised my audience to the point where I put shitpost scenes into my story to offend/disgust the audience and get removed later.
Why did I ever waste so much time shitposting? Was it a pressure release I needed during the bad times, and got addicted to?
Anonymous
203f356
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No.2422
2425
>>2420
>I often feel like I have to "Play a character"...
I understand. Often I put on my public mask to keep the power levels hidden, ect. then I take it off. My public mask is who I am, but not everything. Everything is a mess of cooperating principals that on the outside makes no internal logic.
Is it healthy? I have no idea.
It is good to be honest it builds a connection. Speaking of connection. I'm going to post something that might be useful for everyone.

>egomaniac retards who think having three kids doing their best Myrtle's Friends From Lilo And Stitch impression
They were shaped that way, and never bothered to change. Self reflection of their twisted form is not something they would enjoy doing or even thinking about.
>I don't debate them, I just debunk them
Your time is precious.
>Some of my friends aren't doing stuff. They don't do anything. They just watch anime all day.
The slacker in me understands. Sometimes it's easier and better to do nothing, but going back into motion from a complete rest is absolutely hard. You know your time, and yourself to make the right choices.
>Also I don't know if this is a common writing problem or not, but...
I feel these weird pressures. Pressures like

From what I've heard. Comedians, and writers, and creators all feel those kinds of pressures. I'm no expert...
Break down each of the pressures into WHY it is being felt. Then you can come up with responses that properly address them.
>Also there's the fact that my imaginary friend is writing this story with me and keeps feeling different pressures like "I'm writing too much like you, if I'm publishing this under my name then we should try to make the writing sound different". That friend wants the story and its characters to be liked, I want the story to be good, but if we had to choose then this is her story so she should have the final say in what goes into it.
First point personality, and writing blending. It is a writing venture with both of you are doing, so a mix is to be expected.
It is good she understands, and knows how to seperate her style and yours.
But it is writing with two people. The acknowledgements could very slightly and lightly clarify that. Also some editors can really over haul writing (for better or for worse)...
>That friend wants the story and its characters to be liked,
What does it mean to be liked?
>I want the story to be good
What does it mean for it to be good?

I'd like to know more about exactly what you both mean by what your saying. I think there isn't a conflict of interest, but the methodology of how going about either can be a contentious point.
Splitting the writing into another book or chapter or section for your writing could be a quick fix, but it might not be the right one...
Raw notes: negotiation, and the human condition (for most people)
Anonymous
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No.2423
2450
The use of "Why Us?"
Such as why choose us versus the other stuff.
You get them to tell you what they think.. UNLESS they have it all preplanned.
Why
https://www.invidio.us/watch?v=27a2IZUf8rY
Mirrors and labels
https://www.invidio.us/watch?v=pHHHg7PWz48
Mirroring
https://www.invidio.us/watch?v=wIBc2T2RKSA
No, and illusion of control.
https://www.invidio.us/watch?v=JTF2w0Dgr3g

"Why?"
Can put an idea into someones head (ie manifest it) or cause them to be defencive.

Mirroring
Repeat the last three words.
Repeat the last sentence phrased as a question. Not the whole part. One single part than you want to go down further into.

They will clarify or expand. Normally.

Labeling
It "bit of info from what they said."
(Neutral)
You "bit of info from what they said."
It looks/seems/sounds like
(Neutral)
You look/seems/sounds like

Also I is a lable.

Get to "No" first
Modernday mental make up a No opens people up, a Yes meams they want something so that means you need to be careful.
The subconscious built the routine to automate it.

63-64 reps to get the skill to engrave it in your mind.
Do it PERFECTLY (as good as you need it to be which is normally to the best of your capabilities) each time, no matter how slow.

"How am I supposed to do that?"

Weaponized cooperative principal

<the human file directory access system>

Negatives have 9 times the impact on decision making

I've got bad news (BAM),
... this is how we're going to deal with it.

The goal is to get them to say "That's right." It's fact. It's connection. It builds respect. (Also how people are referred.)
NOT "You're right." Fake agreement.

Seek first to understand then to be understood.

Nice, Collaborating, Unrelenting, Super nice, (charming).
Doesn't jump on them if they say something accidentally. (Remeber it, and record it. Building the relationship, the understanding all else follows.)

People love to correct. They do it without thinking it through.

Is it a bad idea to do X?
To get the idea into their head if they say it is bad they will say why.

The understanding, doesn't mean agreeing, but understanding.

Denial breeds negatives

"Is now a bad time?"

"Yes" is nothing without how.

It's problem solving. You implant a positive solution. Also collaborative.
Anonymous
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No.2424
2425
>>2420
Wew, lots to unpack
>"Play a character"
Sorry, but that's life. Society doesn't tend to favor individuals, and going against the grain/norm offends and delegitimizes many people's sensibilities. In some case its fear/apprehension of the 'other', in other cases it's the intimidation that results from an expectation that you will/should care what they think, and then facing the reality that you don't. Autonomy, especially in situations of social pressure, is unnerving to people. They rationalize with statements like "I don't know about that guy" or "They don't seem 'right' to me", etc. The perception in their minds is that their behaviors, feelings, and actions have some objective foundation, which they don't. This is why I'm so quick to get on your case about the difference between subjectivity and objectivity, but I digress.
>if such a colossal faggot hates me then that's a good sign
Hey, I don't hate you at all. Sure, you irritate me so I return the favor, but you're still one of my favorite regulars. Kidding, I dont assume you meant me, but in case you did.
Seriously though, you're improving and developing per your ability, which is the most anyone could legitimately ask. Dont expect anyone to appreciate that though, and it certainly wont discourage criticism.
>Some of my friends aren't doing stuff
MAJOR red flag there. Who we associate/surround ourselves with is a reflection of who we are as individuals. If you're wanting suggestions, I say lose 'em. Otherwise, they will continue to attempt to recondition you back to your 'old self' (which is just a generalized summary of your behavior combined with what they have come to perceive is your personality, which at best is half baked and incomprehensive). Unless your associates suddenly get a hankering to self-improve, which might inspire you to redress, I'd advise eliminating any/all obstacles to your physical, mental, and spiritual development. You owe it to yourself IMO.
Anonymous
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No.2425
2426 2427
>>2424
Not you, was thinking of a fag on a retarded videogame forum I'm only on because when my indie game is done, I'm going to advertise it there subtly by changing my avatar from pony to the game's protagonist. Anyway, the faggot, he's decided to stalk and insult me on that site because he doesn't like that I know The Institute is badly written.
Such a fucking boring and gay reason to hate someone.
Look, if you want to pretend the Institute is consistently written, by picking one idea of what the Institute "Is" (like a group of smart guys bringing science and safety back to the wasteland) and ignoring every time it was anything else(wasting time with the robo-men and thinking feeling slave-bots, wasting time with Synthetic Gorrilla creation, destroying the Commonwealth's first attempt at a formal centralized government, creating Coursers but not sending them to clear out Super Mutant settlements or Raider bases, doing nothing when their Synths turn into Raiders), go ahead. I'm not stopping you. You can't stop me from thinking you're wasting your time. You can't make me respect you for thinking the Institute is an under-written over-hyped contradictory mess of a faction written because a brainless boomer tard-wrangler and his six diversity-hire space-wasters at BugthEAsderp decided they wanted to invent an Evil Faction that could beat the Enclave and House and the Legion and NCR and the Think Tank at the same time while ripping off the Think Tank badly.
That's what I said to him. It's a fucking video game, does it even matter that much? Why is no dissent or discussion about ANYTHING allowed in the NPC's brain?
Fuck's sake.
Also. want to know some really stupid thing I just remembered?
One time when I was a child under the age of ten, I went on this website where you could make your own Yu-Gi-Oh cards using a tool on the site. It also had a forum where people could show them off and get feedback.
One faggot and his six Myrtle's Friends decided they didn't like one Yugioh Card idea I showed off, so they harassed me for seven months. Every time I made a post on that site, they would insult me for it within the thread I just posted in. They would insult me and call me things and accuse me of things, but I didn't know how to properly handle people like that back then (you're meant to poke holes in their lies) so I'd tell them to leave me alone and call them losers every time. It confused people new to this retarded internet fight so some took my side for a few days before getting bored and moving on. some took their side for a few days before moving on.
I was a nobody on that site, so they followed me and never stopped bitching at me. There were people who rigged contests on that site so their best friends would always win, but they took issue with me existing on "their" turf. Moderators did nothing, and I didn't care. I just wanted to see how long these people, supposedly in their late teens and twenties and thirties, would waste on insulting a child for making yugioh card ideas he didn't approve of. Eventually I got tired, logged out, and came back under a new username. They celebrated over the "defeated" guy who gave up on them, and never had any problem with what I said under the new name because it was never about me. I was never responsible for them or their behaviour.
Also, thanks. I have a lot of friends but I try to spend most days solo working on myself and my projects.
>>2422
You're right about the mask.
I didn't explain the writing problem well.
My friend wants the characters to be "Well Received". Wants the audience to like, admire, or respect the characters at all times. Or 2/3 at once. So nobody can make any mistakes unless it can be blamed on a villain character.
I think the story would be more interesting if the good characters very rarely made errors that, through no fault of their own, caused failures and got people killed to show this is a harsh serious dangerous world so the hero is cool for surviving in it.
Anonymous
0af9975
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No.2426
>>2425
*You can't make me respect you for thinking the Institute is
>anything more than
an under-written over-hyped contradictory mess of a faction written because a brainless boomer tard-wrangler and his six diversity-hire space-wasters at BugthEAsderp decided they wanted to invent an Evil Faction that could beat the Enclave and House and the Legion and NCR and the Think Tank at the same time while ripping off the Think Tank badly.
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Anonymous
203f356
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No.2427
2432
>>2425
>My friend wants the characters to be "Well Received". Wants the audience to like, admire, or respect the characters at all times. Or 2/3 at once. So nobody can make any mistakes unless it can be blamed on a villain character.
>So nobody can make any mistakes unless it can be blamed on a villain character.
At all times? It depends on who the audience is.
To be respected the audience has to truly get the character, who they are and used to be, and why they do things. Also have ANY kind of emotional attachment (love, hate, cuteness ect.)
I'd recommend your friend read Mary Sue fanfiction. Also the original Superman comics.

Making mistakes is fine it's a normal part of the human existence, but growing from them and ensuring it doesn't happen again. To be better than you were once before.
Anonymous
841cd18
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No.2432
2433
>>2427
Which original superman comics? What era should we look at?
Anonymous
203f356
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No.2433
2434
>>2432
I don't really know. For a paragon Superman comes to mind readily as a template.
But, thinking on it more that might not be the best example.
>Part of the story is that nobody wants to work with, talk to, or be friends with the hero
So racking my memory, the closest thing would be Krito from SAO... which isn't the best example either.

Whatever idea either of you had should work.