/ub/ - Überhengst

>>2326
Ok.
I will keep doing exodus 90
no distractions

Exodus 90 is still going and I bought a bunch of cans of soda to tempt myself with. I need to train my willpower. I need more of it.
Coronavirus means no walking around outside to exercise. Just squats and lifts and push-ups.
My mind is still so fucking hazy and confused. Paying attention to anything for more than a few minutes is difficult. One day I woke up and realized my head was always this shit. Will I be cured soon?

>>2331
>One day I woke up and realized my head was always this shit.
You are on the right track. The first step to solve the problem is to recognize you have problem.
>My mind is still so fucking hazy and confused.
Perhaps you need to be alone and refuse distractions like internet. Once all the brain noise is gone, your mind will find its proper balance, I believe.

>>2331
>Paying attention to anything for more than a few minutes is difficult.
Lack of focus makes meditation difficult, if not impossible. A way of training yourself is through verbal prayer: if you can maintain attention through a long verbal prayer like the rosary then you're on the right track (also saying a rosary every day really does help fight temptation). If you're having trouble with that then I recommend the chaplet of divine mercy, which is shorter and also rhythmic.
The advice here is also good: https://www.artofmanliness.com/articles/your-concentration-training-program-11-exercises-that-will-strengthen-your-attention/
>Just squats and lifts and push-ups.
I've been doing these three times a week in combination with other exercises and they're highly effective: https://www.artofmanliness.com/articles/wwii-workout-week-conditioning-exercises/

>>2332
Thank you. For now, I need the internet since it's where I get tutorials and videos on game design. Once the game's engine and all its objects work fine, I can turn off the internet and focus on making levels/sprites.
If I did take a vacation from all internet stuff anyway, what could I spend that time doing? I have a shitload of books I haven't read yet and some video games I haven't played yet. Since I started making this game, I decided to only play games that are like what I'm making in some way. It's not like I could get inspiration for a level or move from a visual novel about fucking anime girls or some more online COD matches or another hundred hours wasted on modded MGSV trying to complete pointless ingame challenges.
Sometimes I think about farting out a low-effort visual novel about fucking some kind of unusual anime girl/girls just in case it makes money and keeps my game dev business afloat for longer. But I don't want that to be the first game I ever make. I don't want that to be what I'm known for.
When I was a retard I used to scroll TVtropes pages for hours. That was a waste of time. I fucking hate tropes, they're worthless for discussing stories. It's needlessly reductive to boil stories down to what cliches they use, and yes, tropes are just a fancy and less-negative word for cliches. A random generator could build a story out of tropes but it's a writer's vision that can tie those design elements together. Imagine reading Shakespeare, understanding nothing, but remembering what cliches happened in it and thinking you understand everything. Imagine watching some famous movie like Citizen Kane, understanding nothing, but remembering what cliches happened in it and thinking you understand everything. Imagine thinking "You used a cliche I don't like, fuck you", "This cliche was used", and "You used a cliche I like, thank you" is the be all and end all of literary analysis.
>>2333
Thank you. I will follow all of this advice.

I have an Eyemask for sleep and a solar lamp. What if I left my solar lamp on at night for more sunlight?

Is time getting faster? Quarantine is fucking with my head. Still healthy and prepped. Lost so much weight. I've never been this thin before. Gained muscle, too. Focus is returning slowly, still doing nofap. I feel so much temptation to regress into fat fappy faggotry. But I won't gay. My body is a temple and a faggotry free zone.

How ya holding up big bong?

>>2372
Thank you.
I'm doing fine.
Working on a game is tiring. But rewarding.
I will turn my life around. No fap. Build muscle. Become someone I can be proud to call me.

>>2373
>I will turn my life around. No fap. Build muscle. Become someone I can be proud to call me.
Glad to know.

>>2373
Happy to hear, and all the best of wishes to you.

>>2374
>>2375
Thanks guys! Turning my life around is a slow process so far. Nofap's helping a little.
Been reading a lot and exercising. What do you do about the feeling that you're just trading in one vice (anime addiction) for another (book addiction)?
I fucked up my internet somehow, can use Steam just fine but Brave Browser will only let me online if my VPN is active.
Also the Alternate History community is full of fucking annoying liberals and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because fantasizing about a world where America's revolution failed and everyone ended up enslaved to the EU is their cup of nigger-jizz-infused tea.

>>2400
Which vice is helping you more? Which one will bring you closer to what you want and desire?

>>2401
You're a fucking genius.
Reading more books will help me understand books better and write better books.
"My imaginary friend writes her own book" is on my list of shit to do. We talk about what to write, I write what she says, then we talk about what to change about what we wrote. We've passed 50,000 words so Nanowrimo can suck it I guess, even though it's the wrong month for that and the story's not done yet.
It feels weird to talk about having her. When we tell people she's a tulpa there are four reactions: "I don't care lol", "lol what's a tulpa", "I don't care if you're not real, do erotic roleplay with me NOW" and "you're insane and I'm going to call you a loser on the internet".
When I talk to other grown-ass adults with imaginary friends, we can't relate to them since all they do is masturbate all day and pretend they're fucking. It makes me feel like I'm only two steps away from winding up like a permanent coomer like them. Me and my imaginary girl have ambitions and deep intellectual conversation. We're past the "brainless coomers" stage in our lives.
You know what else is weird? According to the online Imaginary Friend Community aka the tulpa guys, a "Servitor" is an imaginary friend NPC who obeys you mindlessly and a Tulpa is her own unique personality built inside your mind. One capable of thinking and growing and changing. But every single Imaginary Friendfag I talk to has the exact same tulpa: Generic girl who is either cheery and ditzy or snarky and obnoxious but invariably loves her "landlord" and says slutty things sometimes. Literally every single one of them was like this. No wonder so many guys got bored of their one-note girls and made more imaginary girls with their own underdeveloped one-note personality.
"Undercooked brains", says my girl.
They were less like a second personality and more like the personified uncontrolled sex drive that rules a coomer's thought processes. Their vision of the girl that controls them through sex. My imaginary friend's better than theirs because my one disagrees with me, encourages me during exercises, plays chess against me, and keeps turning her imaginary bedroom (in the imaginary house we made together) into dumb random bullshit every night.
We're even having an argument right now over whether her book should be a genuine attempt at writing a good story or another "hilariously ironic" low-effort shitpost or both at once.
God, it feels fucking gay to say shit like that. "My imaginary friend is the bestest in the world!".
It's gay enough to remind me of that time I went on one of those Four-Letter Personality Type forums for INTPs and ENTJs and everything in between. All the "Feeler not thinker" idiots were the "MY FEELINGS ARE THE BEST IN THE WORLD YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS YOU FUCKING GRASS-MEASURERS" types when pissed.
I'm a fucking weirdo, I typed on the self-help board of a horse porn and politics forum.
Anyway she and I still aren't sure if the story should be serious or a shitpost. But I've been thinking lately that it should be a serious attempt at a good and funny story because wrapping yourself up in layers of irony to cushion your ego in case you fail" is something inauthentic low-effort faggots do.

>>2402
ps. we do not do erotic roleplay or any kind of roleplay. these types are attracted to us and we do not know why.

>>2402
>>2403
That's good to hear. I am glad to see your progress.
I'm still waiting to see the rough draft, but I can wait till it's done.
Part of the genetic-ness is the common values, NPC mindset, and wanting baser instincts to be fulfilled without the higher nuance getting in the way.
It's good to be proud of your friends especially ones near and dear to your heart. Not blindly proud, but it sounds like you have the right amount.
So no, it isn't gay.
>4letter derail from the subconscious connections.
We'll get back to that in my next post.
>Anyway she and I still aren't sure if the story should be serious or a shitpost. But I've been thinking lately that it should be a serious attempt at a good and funny story because wrapping yourself up in layers of irony to cushion your ego in case you fail" is something inauthentic low-effort faggots do.
Do what you know is right, and feels right (if your gut instinct leads you true).
Do the serious attempt, but also have a low effort shitpost to vent for the lols.
Keep both seperate and take a shining gem from the shit post if it works in your story.

>>2402
So... from my perspective I can see your train of thought, and that method of writing is extremely handy.
In other instances it harms the credibility of the other words.
This is the right place for those tangents, and personal notes.
Communication is fraught with troubles and tribulations. Most people don't have the time, nor the effort to verify everything.

https://youtu.be/IJEaMtNN_dM

>It's gay enough to remind me of that time I went on one of those Four-Letter Personality Type forums for INTPs and ENTJs and everything in between. All the "Feeler not thinker" idiots were the "MY FEELINGS ARE THE BEST IN THE WORLD YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS YOU FUCKING GRASS-MEASURERS" types when pissed.
It's technically good. There is the setup, the who, and supporting description.
It is isolated, and excess information. It is not a Chekov's gun for the topic at hand (good for streams of consciousness, not staying around the central topic).
>it's gay enough to remind be of feely faggot personality type forums.
Most prople here would know what you mean. If not they'll ask for clarification, or they'll lurk around till they do.
>I'm a fucking weirdo, I typed on the self-help board of a horse porn and politics forum.
Yes I and many others also post on a horse themed forum on the politics of pony pussy. You needed to get it off your chest my friend.

So back to the main point of this post: Staying on a singular topic for easy, minimal effort comprehension. Is important, not doing what I just did.
It's akin to hunting a single target. Knowing what the target is, where to strike to fell it with minimal pain. Having your tools at hand for every situation and using the right one at the right time.
Then you strike.
Your ideas, and message coming across cleanly and elegantly.
I'm not so good at that, but more or less that.
You have excellent ideas, and a rich background in both depth, breadth, and experience. You have the right foundation to properly broadcast everything, and anything.
Though sending out a multiple messages at once get's in the way of sending one message perfectly.
>pics related by being unrelated

>>2404
>>2406
Thank you. We've separated the story into venting shitpost and serious story. If this was a sitcom they'd get mixed up at some point and I'd have to go on an epic adventure to stop the shitpost from being published. Then it would be published anyway at the end of the episode and this would be forgotten about by the next episode making it all pointless.. If this was a movie they'd get mixed up and the shitpost would be loved Springtime For Hitler-style, making a wacky film about a country bumpkin who enters the "wacky and quirky" whitewashed film world of rich people. I'd hire a famous actress's stunt double to play the actress herself without makeup. I'm not sure which one because I'm not into celebrities. I'd definitely add a CGI animal sidekick who plays himself in a series of fictional movies about himself.
Anyway I've noticed that I keep doing an annoying thing in my stories so I've stopped doing it from now on. Nobody's complained about it until me just now so I probably shouldn't say what it is.
also
The story takes place in a fantasy world full of elves and orcs and shit. The hero is the only original thing about it, that's the gimmick explained poorly to avoid spoilers. The human girl is Isekai'd into a fantasy world where she's an original monster. The hero's not a standard fantasy race girl or standard monster girl, she's something weird.
Part of the story is that nobody wants to work with, talk to, or be friends with the hero, giving the hero an excuse to do a thing that needs to happen for the story to happen the way she wants.
Over time the hero's goodness makes people like her.
But for the start, I need an excuse for the character to become a widely-hated pariah nobody wants anything to do with.
Kind of like Rising Of The Shield Hero except something besides a rape accusation causes it.
I guess "You're a weird creature not from around here and we don't trust you, also you claim you're a human but those went extinct millennia ago and you don't look like them" would work but I think it needs something more.
In the shitpost version of the story, she's a famous streamer and speedrunner, and people hate her for being good at video games. The joke is that this scenario is unrealistic and the characters who say "you're a girl, loser! Go home and do girly stuff like giving birth and frying breakfast for your husband!" are also cartoonishly unrealistic. The idea that Orcs and Elves would watch Not-Twitch on their phones in a forest without wifi anywhere is silly.
But this gave us an idea, what if we tried to make the book seem woke but actually hid redpills in it? Every time the book tried to do something woke like a little Gnome girl who wants to be a Warrior and gets beaten up by Orcs easily, the story could pretend this is very stunning and brave of her when it's really just dumb. Or the story could allow the tiny girl to defeat massive brutes with her bare hands, and then the heroine could look at the camera and say "Wow, that sure was unrealistic!" or "Wow, it's a good thing Gnome magic makes you racially stronger than those dumb Orcs could ever be!" and then the Gnome could say "You ruined it". Or the heroes could enter a bar full of men singing about how much they love stabbing fairies. So the heroes beat them up. Then it turns out this was a gay bar and stabbing fairies is a euphemism here for anal sex.

>>2407
Sounds like a good story. Weaving both can be done.

To become a pariah they first have be unknown (check), they fuck up (they flub every local social check, such as looking at their belts than their face or something otherwise normal have totes ebil symbols of meaness on them), be different in a negative way (the main character keeps 'lieing' about being human, or they are nuts neither is good)
Disguising the truth is hard. It always shines through.
If it's a game there is stat differences and racial bonuses.

But be careful with making a parody of things it can also attract people that won't get it.
An openly redpilled book with the visage of wokeness might actually work. One problem is marketing the redpilled part. Woke shit never sells for good reason.
>"you're a girl, loser! Go home and do girly stuff like giving birth and frying breakfast for your husband!" are also cartoonishly unrealistic
sjw's would never get it. What a cover.

What would be funny is getting sjw's to rant against their own in book cause whilst everyone else laughs getting the real joke.

To be subtle the world has be full and have realistic cause and effect that can be predicted (if the viewer guesses wrong due to biases it's a switch, if they guess wrong due to things not being clear it's not good)
>the heroes could enter a bar full of men singing about how much they love stabbing fairies. So the heroes beat them up. Then it turns out this was a gay bar and stabbing fairies is a euphemism here for anal sex.
So much fun can be had with that senario.
<gay hero walks into a bar, and companion that's a fairy goes in as well
<they sing about stabing fairies
<fairy companion is uncomfortable
<the singers encourage others to stab the fairies
<one of the singers walks over 'hey yah want to stab the fairy fun for all three 'o us.'
<'hero' decides to help their friend (as a good person, or to poke their rump) by fighting them
<fag hero buys fairy a drink
<afterwards fairy says thanks, 'the gays start a ruckus everytime I say no. can't have a drink anywhere unmolested any more.'
Ect. Not like this example it's not subtle at all.
Including little things like small dancers, and serving staff made of small (stop the gays from touching the chillins) and buff fuckers.

Little details that highlight real statistics, or quirks of behavior. Whatever you want to do. It depends on how you want to do that and the main story that is being told.

>>2408
What if being too good and being slandered as a cheater makes the hero a pariah
Or killing a thug Elf thief who uses a "my killer has a Slayer Of Elves curse we Magik Folk see around him at all times" spell.
Save an innocent, kill a jewelf, become pariah to elf land and move to some other country.
Maybe elves are everywhere
Also my bench press weight limit has gone up.
being this open feels so unnatural. I'm used to hiding and ignoring my wounds.

>>2417
>What if being too good and being slandered as a cheater makes the hero a pariah
People are jealous of the rewards being bestowed, or an aggravating element of their character. Being too good at something means others have missed what the main character picked up. It also depends on how the main character reacts.
<They should have been the ones to get it. Not them. I worked for so long and so hard that they get it so easy!
>Or killing a thug Elf thief who uses a "my killer has a Slayer Of Elves curse we Magik Folk see around him at all times" spell.
Make it even easier, call the main character a inconsequential made up bad word, that's easy to say.
Proof is not needed.
When pressed spout that reason. If that doesn't work (for the elf) use nonsense.
>Save an innocent, kill a jewelf, become pariah to elf land and move to some other country.
Maybe elves are everywhere
Depends on how your going to tell the story, what will it cover, how will the main character grow.
>Also my bench press weight limit has gone up.
Nice.
>being this open feels so unnatural. I'm used to hiding and ignoring my wounds.
You have to have somewhere to relax some times. The second point is concerning.
>I'm used to hiding and ignoring my wounds.
Just from others, or also from yourself? Always address wounds before they become worse. The little signs can point to a bigger problem(s).
Problems then breed more problems. It's a vicious cycle.
So take care of yourself.

>>2419
You're right, thanks.
I often feel like I have to "Play a character" everywhere I go based on how people see me or want to see me.
When I go to a new place I act normal until people decide how they want to see me. Then if I don't go along with their bullshit they get mad. But why should I allow them to dictate who I am? I'm no shapeshifter at Poe's masquerade. I've left the masquerade portion of my life behind, I know what's behind this mask now. I shouldn't care if some retard considers me his personal villain. Hell, if such a colossal faggot hates me then that's a good sign. If he liked me then I'd have to be as faggy as him or faggier and completely in harmony with his faggy tastes. Freaks think normalcy and whiteness are disgusting, so fuck them. Why are there so many mindless sheep on shitty "nerdy product" forums who blindly obey the word of (and endlessly suck the dick of) egomaniac retards who think having three kids doing their best Myrtle's Friends From Lilo And Stitch impression around them makes them popular and dangerous and the coolest kid on the playground?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ttIF_vNCas this is the only video explaining that reference I could find.
Also, Liberals are exhaustingly spiteful subhuman creatures who enjoy being evil. This is the information era, it's fucking unlikely that they've never once met anyone who took the time to explain why liberalism has been corrupted into leftism without them noticing. If you really have humanity and virtue and values, you've been called something by creatures that hate all three of those things and forced onto Team "Well they might be nazis but at least they aren't fucking liberals also turns out hitler did nothing wrong after all".
That's why I don't debate them, I just debunk them and roll their eyes at every dirty trick they pull while explaining why it's dirty. I also raise questions they can't answer. They go to pieces, and I hope that at least one person has their mind changed by this display.
Some of my friends aren't doing stuff. They don't do anything. They just watch anime all day. But I'm doing stuff. I've got a lot of stuff to do and I need to manage my time efficiently if it's ever going to get done this decade. Maybe I should cut down on political stuff again, since I can't do anything major about what's going on. Just the little things like breaking the illusion that conforming to leftism is normal.
Also I don't know if this is a common writing problem or not, but...
I feel these weird pressures. Pressures like "I should make my story more like THIS since it's what a fantasy story usually is" and "I should make my story less like THAT since that's generic fantasy shite" and "I shouldn't put that in my story, audiences might hate that", and "I should make my story more like that popular normiebait story since it made money" and "I should fill my story with sex scenes and on-screen monstergirl-fucking even though I'm trying to stop being a coomer since part of the appeal is that the hero fucks monster girls in a fantasy land"
Also there's the fact that my imaginary friend is writing this story with me and keeps feeling different pressures like "I'm writing too much like you, if I'm publishing this under my name then we should try to make the writing sound different". That friend wants the story and its characters to be liked, I want the story to be good, but if we had to choose then this is her story so she should have the final say in what goes into it.
Writing was so much easier when I only wrote low-quality fanfics and despised my audience to the point where I put shitpost scenes into my story to offend/disgust the audience and get removed later.
Why did I ever waste so much time shitposting? Was it a pressure release I needed during the bad times, and got addicted to?

>>2420
>I often feel like I have to "Play a character"...
I understand. Often I put on my public mask to keep the power levels hidden, ect. then I take it off. My public mask is who I am, but not everything. Everything is a mess of cooperating principals that on the outside makes no internal logic.
Is it healthy? I have no idea.
It is good to be honest it builds a connection. Speaking of connection. I'm going to post something that might be useful for everyone.

>egomaniac retards who think having three kids doing their best Myrtle's Friends From Lilo And Stitch impression
They were shaped that way, and never bothered to change. Self reflection of their twisted form is not something they would enjoy doing or even thinking about.
>I don't debate them, I just debunk them
Your time is precious.
>Some of my friends aren't doing stuff. They don't do anything. They just watch anime all day.
The slacker in me understands. Sometimes it's easier and better to do nothing, but going back into motion from a complete rest is absolutely hard. You know your time, and yourself to make the right choices.
>Also I don't know if this is a common writing problem or not, but...
I feel these weird pressures. Pressures like
From what I've heard. Comedians, and writers, and creators all feel those kinds of pressures. I'm no expert...
Break down each of the pressures into WHY it is being felt. Then you can come up with responses that properly address them.
>Also there's the fact that my imaginary friend is writing this story with me and keeps feeling different pressures like "I'm writing too much like you, if I'm publishing this under my name then we should try to make the writing sound different". That friend wants the story and its characters to be liked, I want the story to be good, but if we had to choose then this is her story so she should have the final say in what goes into it.
First point personality, and writing blending. It is a writing venture with both of you are doing, so a mix is to be expected.
It is good she understands, and knows how to seperate her style and yours.
But it is writing with two people. The acknowledgements could very slightly and lightly clarify that. Also some editors can really over haul writing (for better or for worse)...
>That friend wants the story and its characters to be liked,
What does it mean to be liked?
>I want the story to be good
What does it mean for it to be good?

I'd like to know more about exactly what you both mean by what your saying. I think there isn't a conflict of interest, but the methodology of how going about either can be a contentious point.
Splitting the writing into another book or chapter or section for your writing could be a quick fix, but it might not be the right one...

The use of "Why Us?"
Such as why choose us versus the other stuff.
You get them to tell you what they think.. UNLESS they have it all preplanned.
Why
https://www.invidio.us/watch?v=27a2IZUf8rY
Mirrors and labels
https://www.invidio.us/watch?v=pHHHg7PWz48
Mirroring
https://www.invidio.us/watch?v=wIBc2T2RKSA
No, and illusion of control.
https://www.invidio.us/watch?v=JTF2w0Dgr3g

"Why?"
Can put an idea into someones head (ie manifest it) or cause them to be defencive.

Mirroring
Repeat the last three words.
Repeat the last sentence phrased as a question. Not the whole part. One single part than you want to go down further into.

They will clarify or expand. Normally.

Labeling
It "bit of info from what they said."
(Neutral)
You "bit of info from what they said."
It looks/seems/sounds like
(Neutral)
You look/seems/sounds like

Also I is a lable.

Get to "No" first
Modernday mental make up a No opens people up, a Yes meams they want something so that means you need to be careful.
The subconscious built the routine to automate it.

63-64 reps to get the skill to engrave it in your mind.
Do it PERFECTLY (as good as you need it to be which is normally to the best of your capabilities) each time, no matter how slow.

"How am I supposed to do that?"

Weaponized cooperative principal

<the human file directory access system>

Negatives have 9 times the impact on decision making

I've got bad news (BAM),
... this is how we're going to deal with it.

The goal is to get them to say "That's right." It's fact. It's connection. It builds respect. (Also how people are referred.)
NOT "You're right." Fake agreement.

Seek first to understand then to be understood.

Nice, Collaborating, Unrelenting, Super nice, (charming).
Doesn't jump on them if they say something accidentally. (Remeber it, and record it. Building the relationship, the understanding all else follows.)

People love to correct. They do it without thinking it through.

Is it a bad idea to do X?
To get the idea into their head if they say it is bad they will say why.

The understanding, doesn't mean agreeing, but understanding.

Denial breeds negatives

"Is now a bad time?"

"Yes" is nothing without how.

It's problem solving. You implant a positive solution. Also collaborative.

>>2420
Wew, lots to unpack
>"Play a character"
Sorry, but that's life. Society doesn't tend to favor individuals, and going against the grain/norm offends and delegitimizes many people's sensibilities. In some case its fear/apprehension of the 'other', in other cases it's the intimidation that results from an expectation that you will/should care what they think, and then facing the reality that you don't. Autonomy, especially in situations of social pressure, is unnerving to people. They rationalize with statements like "I don't know about that guy" or "They don't seem 'right' to me", etc. The perception in their minds is that their behaviors, feelings, and actions have some objective foundation, which they don't. This is why I'm so quick to get on your case about the difference between subjectivity and objectivity, but I digress.
>if such a colossal faggot hates me then that's a good sign
Hey, I don't hate you at all. Sure, you irritate me so I return the favor, but you're still one of my favorite regulars. Kidding, I dont assume you meant me, but in case you did.
Seriously though, you're improving and developing per your ability, which is the most anyone could legitimately ask. Dont expect anyone to appreciate that though, and it certainly wont discourage criticism.
>Some of my friends aren't doing stuff
MAJOR red flag there. Who we associate/surround ourselves with is a reflection of who we are as individuals. If you're wanting suggestions, I say lose 'em. Otherwise, they will continue to attempt to recondition you back to your 'old self' (which is just a generalized summary of your behavior combined with what they have come to perceive is your personality, which at best is half baked and incomprehensive). Unless your associates suddenly get a hankering to self-improve, which might inspire you to redress, I'd advise eliminating any/all obstacles to your physical, mental, and spiritual development. You owe it to yourself IMO.

>>2424
Not you, was thinking of a fag on a retarded videogame forum I'm only on because when my indie game is done, I'm going to advertise it there subtly by changing my avatar from pony to the game's protagonist. Anyway, the faggot, he's decided to stalk and insult me on that site because he doesn't like that I know The Institute is badly written.
Such a fucking boring and gay reason to hate someone.
Look, if you want to pretend the Institute is consistently written, by picking one idea of what the Institute "Is" (like a group of smart guys bringing science and safety back to the wasteland) and ignoring every time it was anything else(wasting time with the robo-men and thinking feeling slave-bots, wasting time with Synthetic Gorrilla creation, destroying the Commonwealth's first attempt at a formal centralized government, creating Coursers but not sending them to clear out Super Mutant settlements or Raider bases, doing nothing when their Synths turn into Raiders), go ahead. I'm not stopping you. You can't stop me from thinking you're wasting your time. You can't make me respect you for thinking the Institute is an under-written over-hyped contradictory mess of a faction written because a brainless boomer tard-wrangler and his six diversity-hire space-wasters at BugthEAsderp decided they wanted to invent an Evil Faction that could beat the Enclave and House and the Legion and NCR and the Think Tank at the same time while ripping off the Think Tank badly.
That's what I said to him. It's a fucking video game, does it even matter that much? Why is no dissent or discussion about ANYTHING allowed in the NPC's brain?
Fuck's sake.
Also. want to know some really stupid thing I just remembered?
One time when I was a child under the age of ten, I went on this website where you could make your own Yu-Gi-Oh cards using a tool on the site. It also had a forum where people could show them off and get feedback.
One faggot and his six Myrtle's Friends decided they didn't like one Yugioh Card idea I showed off, so they harassed me for seven months. Every time I made a post on that site, they would insult me for it within the thread I just posted in. They would insult me and call me things and accuse me of things, but I didn't know how to properly handle people like that back then (you're meant to poke holes in their lies) so I'd tell them to leave me alone and call them losers every time. It confused people new to this retarded internet fight so some took my side for a few days before getting bored and moving on. some took their side for a few days before moving on.
I was a nobody on that site, so they followed me and never stopped bitching at me. There were people who rigged contests on that site so their best friends would always win, but they took issue with me existing on "their" turf. Moderators did nothing, and I didn't care. I just wanted to see how long these people, supposedly in their late teens and twenties and thirties, would waste on insulting a child for making yugioh card ideas he didn't approve of. Eventually I got tired, logged out, and came back under a new username. They celebrated over the "defeated" guy who gave up on them, and never had any problem with what I said under the new name because it was never about me. I was never responsible for them or their behaviour.
Also, thanks. I have a lot of friends but I try to spend most days solo working on myself and my projects.
>>2422
You're right about the mask.
I didn't explain the writing problem well.
My friend wants the characters to be "Well Received". Wants the audience to like, admire, or respect the characters at all times. Or 2/3 at once. So nobody can make any mistakes unless it can be blamed on a villain character.
I think the story would be more interesting if the good characters very rarely made errors that, through no fault of their own, caused failures and got people killed to show this is a harsh serious dangerous world so the hero is cool for surviving in it.

>>2425
*You can't make me respect you for thinking the Institute is
>anything more than
an under-written over-hyped contradictory mess of a faction written because a brainless boomer tard-wrangler and his six diversity-hire space-wasters at BugthEAsderp decided they wanted to invent an Evil Faction that could beat the Enclave and House and the Legion and NCR and the Think Tank at the same time while ripping off the Think Tank badly.
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>>2425
>My friend wants the characters to be "Well Received". Wants the audience to like, admire, or respect the characters at all times. Or 2/3 at once. So nobody can make any mistakes unless it can be blamed on a villain character.
>So nobody can make any mistakes unless it can be blamed on a villain character.
At all times? It depends on who the audience is.
To be respected the audience has to truly get the character, who they are and used to be, and why they do things. Also have ANY kind of emotional attachment (love, hate, cuteness ect.)
I'd recommend your friend read Mary Sue fanfiction. Also the original Superman comics.

Making mistakes is fine it's a normal part of the human existence, but growing from them and ensuring it doesn't happen again. To be better than you were once before.

>>2427
Which original superman comics? What era should we look at?

>>2432
I don't really know. For a paragon Superman comes to mind readily as a template.
But, thinking on it more that might not be the best example.
>Part of the story is that nobody wants to work with, talk to, or be friends with the hero
So racking my memory, the closest thing would be Krito from SAO... which isn't the best example either.

Whatever idea either of you had should work.

>>2433
So either the heroine's hated for being too good at killing DND enemies,
Or the heroine's hated by people who kill 100 DND enemies daily for killing an Elf in self-defense.
Maybe it would make people like the character more if the heroine killed the Elf guy to defend an elf woman who proceeds to lie since there's some retarded Elf Culture Bullshit going on?

>>2434
I know context makes the story, so I'm not sure how to go about it.
If the heroine is hated they why is the problem, and what makes the story. What would make the story be good, and have the heroine to be "Well Received". I'm still a bit confused about that, closest character might be Paddington Bear, but that's fourth hand information for me.

Since the heroine is unknown they (characters in the story) don't care about her. Problem 1 for heroine they don't care (why is it a problem for the heroine)
Also
Since the heroine is too good at killing DND enemies, they hate her because _______. She's ruining the local businesses? Stealing from others that use the monsters she kills? The bodies she leaves behind attract more monsters? What makes it bad she's killing the monster?
Or
Since the heroine killed in self-defence she is hated by people (who kill 100 DND enemies daily) for killing an Elf. Why would she be hated for killing the elf? Ect.

I mean you could also do both... nothing is stoping that, but covering both might be hard.

As an example Shield Hero ripped apart.
Fantasy land is in trouble
>Human Kingdom has a problem the waves are fucking shit up.
<Summon all the heros.
That should make stuff better

How many heros to summon?
>Having the Shield hero be free could pose a political scandel if another country summoned him.
<Summon mythilogically hated guy any way go all in, and have the most protection.
All the protection all the time

Shield hero just got summoned
>He has Two problems: Get back home, Survive
<Focus on surviving for now
Proceeds to do stuff.

Most people don't give a shit too much about Shield Hero.
>That's a problem for secret cult ideological shit
<Have him framed for rape (Core component is it's a lie)
This is useful to replace the physical princess

Shield hero doesn't know what to do.
>Everyone thinks her is a rapist.
<Fuck it, not going to fix something that I didn't do
Rapist stigma lingers

Shield hero has rapist stigma
>It's hard to do business
<Threaten them to do honest business
Is feared, but can buy and sell stuff

Use being 'raped' to seal the deal with ideologically acceptable heros.
>If he ever convinces the other heros shit will go down.
<Spread the lie far and wide. Stop them from communicating.

>>1958
What if the hero has an imaginary friend who becomes real in the fantasy world
and that makes people mistrust the hero?

>>2436
The story has the world operate on a Caste System where some fantasy creatures are considered people, like Elves and Dwarves and Humans.
Others like Goblins, rat-people, ogres, orcs, slime girls, and so on are considered pets/slaves at best, pests/nuisances to kill on sight at usually, and hated monsters at worst.
So if the hero ends up a "New Creature" nobody's sure about, and has another "New Creature" friend in the form of an imaginary friend turned real, it could give people a reason to fear and mistrust those two characters.
Especially if the character does have to kill an Evil Elf for trying to rape another human adventurer, then ends up with a glowing red This Guy Killed An Elf symbol over his head for a week or two.
Or I could have the characters wait out the effect's duration in the forest, staying away from society. I really like that.

>>2439
>The story has the world operate on a Caste System where some fantasy creatures are considered people, like Elves and Dwarves and Humans.
Others like Goblins, rat-people, ogres, orcs, slime girls, and so on are considered pets/slaves at best, pests/nuisances to kill on sight at usually, and hated monsters at worst.
That's a fairly decent 'why', to be distrusted. That also brings up another question to explore why the lesser beings are considered lesser. There is an entire history that made the caste system come to be, which means overcoming that will be difficult.
>Two new creatures appear.
Has there been a history of new creatures appearing before or is this the first time?
Who would really like a super rare one of a kind servant/pet/rug
>Especially if the character does have to kill an Evil Elf for trying to rape another human adventurer, then ends up with a glowing red This Guy Killed An Elf symbol over his head for a week or two.
That sounds fine.
>I could have the characters wait out the effect's duration in the forest, staying away from society. I really like that.
How would the character(s) know that? How much knowledge about the world they are in do they have? If they do know about the world is it accurate?
Would one of them get the mark or both?
Did anyone see the act tale place and run back to wherever letting them all know of a 'murderous' monster on the loose?

>>1958
Jesus fucking christ, I can feel the heart problems this political shit is giving me.
It's taking over my life again and every spare minute I get, my thoughts are dominated by this or trying not to think about this.
What can I do, lord?
"All that I can", right?
Which is nothing.
I can't save anyone from here.
I lost another friend yesterday.
He got butthurt at me for repeatedly mentioning the raped little girls in england, the ones trafficked by Muslim child-grooming gangs.
So he says I "can't be saved" and he doesn't want to talk to me any more.
This fucking piece of shit, in all his self-righteous bullshit, can't go ten seconds without trying to bullshit me about how hard he cares about this or that.
Bullshit, he's a fake cunt.
He doesn't care about anything but himself and whether he gets to feel moral or not.
Every so often that faggot would whine to me about how hard he has it, because boo hoo hoo he has to message all his liberal friends every day and pat their little poison-filled heads and tell them it's okay, The Drumpf isn't coming for them tonight and the scary whites with their tiki torches aren't coming for them now either.
If he really wanted to help them stop panicking over nothing he'd tell them to stop fucking watching panic-porn fake news networks like CNN!
This fucking antnigger.
He would bullshit me about how hard he supposedly had it every time he wanted to manipulate me.
"Liberalism is the best, I love working for google! Wait, you want to bring up facts? Wah, I can't talk about politics right now! Or ever! Now agree with me or you're not thinking correctly and open-mindedly like me!"
For fucking years, he's been manipulating me. In full view of thousands of people. He even runs a fucking fake brony charity that pretends to help people by doing the literal most retarded money-wasting thing you could think of.
I've been played like a damn fiddle by the person I thought was the first real friend I ever made.
And he tells me, fucking me, the best person I know at acting calm when I'm pissed, that I've gone too far.
But I haven't done anything.
He says I'm too far gone, because I kept sinning, I kept making him feel unhappy. Stupid fucking cunt. His feelings are all that coomer cares about.
He tells me I'm "too far gone into right-wing propaganda" for thinking the raped little girls in the UK exist, and for bringing it up repeatedly when he's trying to shame me into going liberal.
And when, just to see what would happen, I play along and give him the "Oh it's so terrible! I don't want to join but they're sucking me in! They're the only group with solutions to the problems facing my people! Can you personally promise me that you would have my back if your people came for me" lines, what does he say to me? He repeats the "you're too political and propagandized and I can't help you" bullshit.
I can't save him. His fucking porn-addled ant brain was made for Starcraft and roof shooting and bullshitting people about his own fucktarded BDSM fantasy country, not humaning.
I feel the urge to change the post's tone and write something snarky
But fuck that. I need to change something to improve my life and health. Jews would laugh at me if I died from a fucking brain aneurysm or heart problems.

>>2440
>lesser
Long ago, there was an evil Dark Lord of darkness who ruled everything. One hero from each of the Core Races formed an adventuring party that killed him.
So their races are seen as cool, and they got to own their own allied countries, one each. Those who didn't help are seen as lowly beasts.
Variant Races like "Sun Elves" from the crystal desert and Dark Elves from the underground ancient elf-city ruins are seen as "almost as good" as real Core Races.
Some non-Core Race people were able to get jobs in the countries that are more tolerant of non-Core Races than others. So it's somewhat normal to see a Centaur innkeeper or Half-Dragon assassin.
>new creatures
It's a somewhat common thing. Sometimes the people who pop in from Other Worlds get to keep their unusual race. Sometimes they become something normal for this world, like Elves or Dragon-People. Sometimes they become something new and unique. Sometimes con-artists pretend to be from Other Worlds to prey on optimistic idiots and con people dumb enough to think this mysterious new stranger needs a place to stay and a roof over his head and food in his belly and totally won't rob the house during the night.
So people who say "I'm from another world" are mistrusted because con-artists outnumber those really from other worlds. And they aren't all from the same place so the Elves can't quiz this new "I'm a human I swear, ignore my centaur body" guy on Napoleon History some human brought up 300 years ago for example.
>lets the town know of a murderous monster
I like that idea. What if someone doesn't see the act take place, but spots a smelly and forest-dwelling monster in the woods with an Elf-Killer Mark roasting wild boars and eating them, then runs back to town ranting about a strange monster he saw in the woods?
The hero could be unrecognizable thanks to a disguise worn during the forest camping trip(makeshift gille suit and a mask or armoured helmet?), but it would add tension to the "Survive in the forest" thing since the hero has to evade any more elves who come to investigate/hunt her down. Kill any more elves in self-defense and the marker lasts longer. Or could become permanent, to add more tension.
Anything to make this one-week "Magical hero survives innawoods" part of the story more interesting.

>>2446
>Backstory
>Town
It all checks out. Being the dumping grounds for all sorts of beings can really cause a problem. Plus not everyone or everything that is brought to the world is good natured.
>innawoods
If it helps the story and the character be more enriched.
>>2445
>Everything
That's really fucking rough. Losing friends, even ones that have abused you before is hard.
Don't let it consume you. Your time is valuable.
As always you can vent here... I mean this isn't perfectly private, but this should be fine enough to air grievances.
I know one of my friends used to be in an abusive friendship/lackey sort of thing with someone. He was fairly bitter and cold toward to world.
He's better now. At least since I last saw him.
>I can feel the heart problems this political shit is giving me.
On the bright side one less element to cause political anxiety?
>"All that I can", right?
You are improving your physicality, emboldening your skills, and exercising your mind.
If you feel like you need to do more, expand your scope and range. Break out of perspective and look at the situation at all angles to find the path that will work.
Find like minded people near you, I haven't yet, but potentially a good source of physical interaction.

>>2447
I keep wishing I could have made him see things my way and stop being such a colossal cunt.

>>2448
I'm sure you've heard all these sayings before, "You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink," "Don't cast pearls before swine."
It's a shitty situation. You can only change his mind when he decides to change it himself.
You can appeal to his mind in a way he understands, but all the facts and logic can't change them if they resist.

>>2448
More to the point have you seen things his way?
The Alphabet soup person here in the videos has some tips >>2423
It can help, but it's very difficult to change them if they know what your doing, and resist everything.

>>2450
That fucking starcraftnigger won't even talk to me at this point. He's currently """Ghosting""" me. You know, that method of abuse in which you break all contact with your victim after yelling "I CAN'T DEAL WITH YOU ANY MORE, THIS IS YOUR FAULT!" and then wait as your victim (hopefully) squirms and angsts and blames himself for your behaviour while wondering what to say and beating himself up for "making it come to this".
I've officially gotten over this faggot. I hope he gets AIDS and dies.
So what if he was my first friend? He wasn't really my first friend. He met me in the life advice forum of MLPforums, read my daily posts about my abusive parents and shit childhood, and immediately knew he could bullshit me. Exploit me. Use me for emotional support while pretending this relationship was the other way around. Now the roofnigger literally runs a fucking organization full of faggy virtue-signalling brony "artists".

>>2454
If he talked me into sexting with him and doing pony erotic roleplay with him when we were teenagers should I tell anyone about it or pretend that never happened?

>>2454
>>2455
>2454
That's... not good. Steel yourself you are above him and his manipulative fuckery.
>2455
Fuck him with a rusty spoon through his funny bone. I get being a teen is a weird ass time full of hormones and developing minds, but fucking with someone else to fulfill their own shits and giggles is wrong, especially when they actually needed help.
Fucks sake.
Thank you. You are an amazing being, working on yourself and improving by the means you can, despite all the bullshit.
It looks like this is going to be rough, but do you have other friends you can count on?

>>2457
Thank you. And yes, I've got more than ten good lads I can truly call my best friends. I have a lot of other friends, but they're my best ones.

>>2458
That's great to hear. You sir, are playing with the cards you've been delt. I'm glad there are those for you, amd you for them.
>>2455
If you need to get it off your chest tell someone you trust.
Also here's a pony.

>>2459
Thank you.
Why are you so kind to me?

>>2460
So the selfish reason is that the more well bodied, excellent mentally and spiritually people there are, the less I actually have to do in the long run. Every person happens to be a source of entertainment and amusement for me (they have the ultimate spark to craft everything), and I dislike the horrid agendas that (((they))) all push. I hate them so much more than trying to fulfill my own fleeting twisted dark desires. It's not worth it in many facets.
The more altruistic reason is that lifting you up raises other up as well as being a good person has infinite potential, and unstopable drive to do what is right.
Everyone that inherits their own truest, highest, more perfect self makes literally everything better. For everyone now, and in the future everywhere.

A more cynical reason is that for every post it's a limited interaction between you and me. I'm at my most generous, rather than at my most insidious. Roughly speaking. I like my own time, the nature of the internet ensues that it's always on my own time. Anytime anywhere. If there is any irritating point I can analyze that to see if that's my own weakness, or from someone else. Then the only way to be better is to discuss it, at the very least to understand exactly what is going on.

The greed (and highest ideal clarifying that the highest ideal is not greed it's THE Highest Ideal) in me wants there to be more beautiful things everywhere (the greed would rather have it all to myself, but that's not sustainable and would limit the amount of potential), to do that I need to do something sometimes as well. Importantly if I help others become their own paragon they too for whatever reasons they have will also create beauty, and righteousness. This compounds in a positive loop helping others be better, and to fulfill their creative and destructive intents to ensure amazing great works are done.
The world stops being a crapsack hellish pit, and becomes the best of us all in the end. I'd much rather the best than the torment of the worst.

On a more occult, magical level this is a means to make sure fuckers from else where fail on such gravity that forever more everywhere throughout the multiverse (ect ect ect.) can contact each other and not be plundered and raped into oblivion. It's a matter of making sure the things and people I like keep existing.
I like you as a person, a creator, and more (no homo), and as a means to my own agenda.
You are helping me by striving to be the best you can be.
One day I will face judgement, and I'd very much rather see my end in a great world, than a torn husk.
I might be embellishing slightly, but I really do mean you the best. I'm open for questions, comments, and concerns, but seriously I'll lend a listening ear.

>>2463
This is so much more real than those "Because ur bootiful!" posts you'll see on fraud-filled social media.
Good is rational, and logically right.
I wish everyone on this planet could see this and be good people.
I wish the letter of the law and the spirit of the law were one in the same, and I wish every country on this planet was its own free and perfect free-market-capitalist nationalist meritocratic "Zeroth-World Country" that has solved all the first-world problems like jewery and leftism and other forms of short-sighted evil and selfish tribalistic greed.
This might sound weird but I miss the days when I posted on pseudointellectual forums where every fourth post of mine said "I sure do love science! Mankind's glory is unquestionable and the light of science is unstoppable! All problems will be solved in the future! Humanity, fuck yeah! The future will be bright!"
It felt so good to piss off the "There is nothing good about humanity, I am a proud sociopath who admits it openly and I wish we had another plague, humanity is a plague" faggots by making wannabe-Star Trek speeches about all the shit about the universe you thought was cool as a kid like rockets and stars.
It's an unexpected redpill to one day notice that all the positive attributes you praise humanity for in "Humanity, fuck yeah!" speeches are exclusive to the white race. And maybe a few other foreign countries learned a few positive attributes from us but we invented them. We invented the wheel, the engine, the car, flight, and the spaceship. We invented logic, reason, libraries, and more. We created a religion so perfect, it could survive almost anything. It was our civilization, western civilization, that discovered Good first. We had the enlightenment first, and many other races never got around to it.
Once my grandfather showed me an old PSA for adults warning them not to get into cars with strangers. Normally we're told this as kids these days. But the thought that adults would need to be told this by the government... It's so fucking alien to me. The idea of having that much trust for another is completely alien to me. I was raised in a world where the threat of getting betrayed was just an expected fact of life.
I think I remember a sci-fi show episode where some "Good and perfect aliens who don't fight any more" have to have their asses saved from evil by the heroes. It's bizarre to think that our ancestors were once like that, so willing to let their guard down and let enemies into their countries because they thought the need to think was gone. But their lives were only that good thanks to previous generations sacrificing and bleeding and sweating and doing everything they could to build a world that's better than the one they were born in.
And the Boomers betrayed that. The generation that raised the Boomers betrayed that by failing to teach the Boomers morality. They were asleep at the wheel while our countries were infiltrated and overwhelmed and sent right to hell.
I don't know how to feel about the big shit like that. I should hate those people, right? I should probably hate those generations for failing us and forcing us to deal with the consequences of their selfish and anti-future actions.
I should get back to working on my creative projects, like the book. I've decided to include mild "parody of wokeness" elements but primarily focus on fantasy adventuring. If it was too political it wouldn't attract anyone not already into politics.

I had this one idea for a scene where some incredibly fucking rich jew-elves (while their country is at war with some baddies) are smirking and snootying it up in a mansion surrounded by guards, feasting on fancy food while whining about how rare and expensive things are getting for them while people in the trenches die and people in the streets starve. One slave-girl accidentally calls an elf by his actual gender, forgetting he's decided to pretend he's a woman today, so he sentences her to be flogged to death for this crime. The heroes are there to act as private security but this pisses the heroes off and makes them save the slave girl and kill the elves and fight a shitload of security then after winning, they uncover an Evil Religion Shrine in the basement and get to keep everything those jew-elves own for revealing this crime to the country. No worshipping evil gods, that's highly illegal. Good and Neutral gods only. Chaotic ones are pushing it because the biggest authoritarians in power hate them while regular rulers are neutral on the matter.

>>2464
*could see this fact
Good is objectively good, marxism is gay.