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I need to change my life
Anonymous
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No.1958
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Hello, I don't know how to start this but here goes.
I think I need to change my life.
Dealing with people is exhausting on its own. But dealing with childish faggy egomaniacs who want to "win" internet arguments and get that precious fucking social credit clout and a sense of pride and accomplishment is even more exhausting.
And it seems the latter is the only kind of person I meet online any more. They're so angry, all the time. So poisonous and spiteful, constantly trying to piss you off. It's not...
This might sound weird.
It's not tiresome or annoying any more.
I don't like how routine this has become.
Endure the pseudointellectualism of this faggot and let him pretend he's clever, say no u when the other one calls you a faggot, imagine yourself rolling your eyes when this different faggot wastes hours of his own life trying to bully you on a website you don't care about and then pretends he's got a deep moral lesson to teach you and it's your fault his gay uncle gave him AIDS.
They're so desperate to feel like they can win something. Even if it's faggy internet "drama" Boomer office-politics retardity.
I'm sick of mudbrained niggers raging at me for not liking their new Star Wars movies or new Hasbro(tm) brand shit or new SwSh incomplete games. I'm sick of trying to justify myself to consumernigger podfaggot pigpeople who will never admit humans have a right to have tastes and standards.
This place is pretty good, but just this place. Everywhere else is full of niggers.
Politics is exhausting. Boomers and their parents deserve a new holocaust for what they allowed the Jews to do to us. Liberals aren't human and I'm sick of pretending I'm shocked when they shit debates up. It's a black and white issue, no pun intended, how the fuck do so many people find this so hard to understand? Politics feels like a lost cause. No one person every week I redpill can make up for the legions bluepilled by Jew schools. Conformity to faggotry is the faggot's religion.
I have hatred for the Jews. It's an insult that fanfags think I hate their subpar product as much as I hate Jews, and it's depressing that they hate me even more than I hate Jews. Hate for me consumes their every waking thought, I only think of Jews during politics time and whenever I see evidence of their fuckery.
I've got other hobbies, I exercise and diet now, and everything besides dealing with pony and politics is rewarding and fun. I've lost so much weight my stomach is almost flat. I've never been this light in my life.
I should be happy. And I am. I'm legitimately proud of my body now.
I'm proud of who I am. 90% of who I am, anyway.
I'm usually happy, which makes the contrast more noticeable when I put myself through this faggy online bullshit.
And I don't know why I do that.
I try to do what's right.
I try to have good optics and win debates and help people see the light.
Is there a non-pozzed Christian forum out there where I'm allowed to say Feminism is cancer and fuck Jews?
Is Christianity as a whole a lost cause? Was I an idiot for going back to it?
I miss when I could say "I like MLP" just like I miss when I could say "I like Star Wars". Modernity is depressing and I feel like a faggot who wants to wallow in muh childish nostalgia forever instead of getting on with his own life and making something worth a damn.
I want to fully become someone I can be proud of, and I don't see any reason to see "dedication" to hasjew products as something to admire.
Sometimes being in this fandom is suffering. All the sites are full of fanfags. And I don't know why I put myself through it. Habit? Tradition?
I don't know what I expect to gain out of posting this.
But here it is.
I think I need to spend less time on pony and politics, or find a way to make time spent on these things better for the soul.
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Anonymous
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No.2434
2435
>>2433
So either the heroine's hated for being too good at killing DND enemies,
Or the heroine's hated by people who kill 100 DND enemies daily for killing an Elf in self-defense.
Maybe it would make people like the character more if the heroine killed the Elf guy to defend an elf woman who proceeds to lie since there's some retarded Elf Culture Bullshit going on?
Anonymous
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No.2435
>>2434
I know context makes the story, so I'm not sure how to go about it.
If the heroine is hated they why is the problem, and what makes the story. What would make the story be good, and have the heroine to be "Well Received". I'm still a bit confused about that, closest character might be Paddington Bear, but that's fourth hand information for me.

Since the heroine is unknown they (characters in the story) don't care about her. Problem 1 for heroine they don't care (why is it a problem for the heroine)
Also
Since the heroine is too good at killing DND enemies, they hate her because _______. She's ruining the local businesses? Stealing from others that use the monsters she kills? The bodies she leaves behind attract more monsters? What makes it bad she's killing the monster?
Or
Since the heroine killed in self-defence she is hated by people (who kill 100 DND enemies daily) for killing an Elf. Why would she be hated for killing the elf? Ect.

I mean you could also do both... nothing is stoping that, but covering both might be hard.

As an example Shield Hero ripped apart.
Fantasy land is in trouble
>Human Kingdom has a problem the waves are fucking shit up.
<Summon all the heros.
That should make stuff better

How many heros to summon?
>Having the Shield hero be free could pose a political scandel if another country summoned him.
<Summon mythilogically hated guy any way go all in, and have the most protection.
All the protection all the time

Shield hero just got summoned
>He has Two problems: Get back home, Survive
<Focus on surviving for now
Proceeds to do stuff.

Most people don't give a shit too much about Shield Hero.
>That's a problem for secret cult ideological shit
<Have him framed for rape (Core component is it's a lie)
This is useful to replace the physical princess

Shield hero doesn't know what to do.
>Everyone thinks her is a rapist.
<Fuck it, not going to fix something that I didn't do
Rapist stigma lingers

Shield hero has rapist stigma
>It's hard to do business
<Threaten them to do honest business
Is feared, but can buy and sell stuff

Use being 'raped' to seal the deal with ideologically acceptable heros.
>If he ever convinces the other heros shit will go down.
<Spread the lie far and wide. Stop them from communicating.
Anonymous
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No.2436
2439
>>1958
What if the hero has an imaginary friend who becomes real in the fantasy world
and that makes people mistrust the hero?
Anonymous
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No.2439
2440
>>2436
The story has the world operate on a Caste System where some fantasy creatures are considered people, like Elves and Dwarves and Humans.
Others like Goblins, rat-people, ogres, orcs, slime girls, and so on are considered pets/slaves at best, pests/nuisances to kill on sight at usually, and hated monsters at worst.
So if the hero ends up a "New Creature" nobody's sure about, and has another "New Creature" friend in the form of an imaginary friend turned real, it could give people a reason to fear and mistrust those two characters.
Especially if the character does have to kill an Evil Elf for trying to rape another human adventurer, then ends up with a glowing red This Guy Killed An Elf symbol over his head for a week or two.
Or I could have the characters wait out the effect's duration in the forest, staying away from society. I really like that.
Anonymous
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No.2440
2446
>>2439
>The story has the world operate on a Caste System where some fantasy creatures are considered people, like Elves and Dwarves and Humans.
Others like Goblins, rat-people, ogres, orcs, slime girls, and so on are considered pets/slaves at best, pests/nuisances to kill on sight at usually, and hated monsters at worst.

That's a fairly decent 'why', to be distrusted. That also brings up another question to explore why the lesser beings are considered lesser. There is an entire history that made the caste system come to be, which means overcoming that will be difficult.
>Two new creatures appear.
Has there been a history of new creatures appearing before or is this the first time?
Who would really like a super rare one of a kind servant/pet/rug
>Especially if the character does have to kill an Evil Elf for trying to rape another human adventurer, then ends up with a glowing red This Guy Killed An Elf symbol over his head for a week or two.
That sounds fine.
>I could have the characters wait out the effect's duration in the forest, staying away from society. I really like that.
How would the character(s) know that? How much knowledge about the world they are in do they have? If they do know about the world is it accurate?
Would one of them get the mark or both?
Did anyone see the act tale place and run back to wherever letting them all know of a 'murderous' monster on the loose?
Anonymous
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No.2445
2447
>>1958
Jesus fucking christ, I can feel the heart problems this political shit is giving me.
It's taking over my life again and every spare minute I get, my thoughts are dominated by this or trying not to think about this.
What can I do, lord?
"All that I can", right?
Which is nothing.
I can't save anyone from here.
I lost another friend yesterday.
He got butthurt at me for repeatedly mentioning the raped little girls in england, the ones trafficked by Muslim child-grooming gangs.
So he says I "can't be saved" and he doesn't want to talk to me any more.
This fucking piece of shit, in all his self-righteous bullshit, can't go ten seconds without trying to bullshit me about how hard he cares about this or that.
Bullshit, he's a fake cunt.
He doesn't care about anything but himself and whether he gets to feel moral or not.
Every so often that faggot would whine to me about how hard he has it, because boo hoo hoo he has to message all his liberal friends every day and pat their little poison-filled heads and tell them it's okay, The Drumpf isn't coming for them tonight and the scary whites with their tiki torches aren't coming for them now either.
If he really wanted to help them stop panicking over nothing he'd tell them to stop fucking watching panic-porn fake news networks like CNN!
This fucking antnigger.
He would bullshit me about how hard he supposedly had it every time he wanted to manipulate me.
"Liberalism is the best, I love working for google! Wait, you want to bring up facts? Wah, I can't talk about politics right now! Or ever! Now agree with me or you're not thinking correctly and open-mindedly like me!"
For fucking years, he's been manipulating me. In full view of thousands of people. He even runs a fucking fake brony charity that pretends to help people by doing the literal most retarded money-wasting thing you could think of.
I've been played like a damn fiddle by the person I thought was the first real friend I ever made.
And he tells me, fucking me, the best person I know at acting calm when I'm pissed, that I've gone too far.
But I haven't done anything.
He says I'm too far gone, because I kept sinning, I kept making him feel unhappy. Stupid fucking cunt. His feelings are all that coomer cares about.
He tells me I'm "too far gone into right-wing propaganda" for thinking the raped little girls in the UK exist, and for bringing it up repeatedly when he's trying to shame me into going liberal.
And when, just to see what would happen, I play along and give him the "Oh it's so terrible! I don't want to join but they're sucking me in! They're the only group with solutions to the problems facing my people! Can you personally promise me that you would have my back if your people came for me" lines, what does he say to me? He repeats the "you're too political and propagandized and I can't help you" bullshit.
I can't save him. His fucking porn-addled ant brain was made for Starcraft and roof shooting and bullshitting people about his own fucktarded BDSM fantasy country, not humaning.
I feel the urge to change the post's tone and write something snarky
But fuck that. I need to change something to improve my life and health. Jews would laugh at me if I died from a fucking brain aneurysm or heart problems.
Anonymous
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No.2446
2447
>>2440
>lesser
Long ago, there was an evil Dark Lord of darkness who ruled everything. One hero from each of the Core Races formed an adventuring party that killed him.
So their races are seen as cool, and they got to own their own allied countries, one each. Those who didn't help are seen as lowly beasts.
Variant Races like "Sun Elves" from the crystal desert and Dark Elves from the underground ancient elf-city ruins are seen as "almost as good" as real Core Races.
Some non-Core Race people were able to get jobs in the countries that are more tolerant of non-Core Races than others. So it's somewhat normal to see a Centaur innkeeper or Half-Dragon assassin.
>new creatures
It's a somewhat common thing. Sometimes the people who pop in from Other Worlds get to keep their unusual race. Sometimes they become something normal for this world, like Elves or Dragon-People. Sometimes they become something new and unique. Sometimes con-artists pretend to be from Other Worlds to prey on optimistic idiots and con people dumb enough to think this mysterious new stranger needs a place to stay and a roof over his head and food in his belly and totally won't rob the house during the night.
So people who say "I'm from another world" are mistrusted because con-artists outnumber those really from other worlds. And they aren't all from the same place so the Elves can't quiz this new "I'm a human I swear, ignore my centaur body" guy on Napoleon History some human brought up 300 years ago for example.
>lets the town know of a murderous monster
I like that idea. What if someone doesn't see the act take place, but spots a smelly and forest-dwelling monster in the woods with an Elf-Killer Mark roasting wild boars and eating them, then runs back to town ranting about a strange monster he saw in the woods?
The hero could be unrecognizable thanks to a disguise worn during the forest camping trip(makeshift gille suit and a mask or armoured helmet?), but it would add tension to the "Survive in the forest" thing since the hero has to evade any more elves who come to investigate/hunt her down. Kill any more elves in self-defense and the marker lasts longer. Or could become permanent, to add more tension.
Anything to make this one-week "Magical hero survives innawoods" part of the story more interesting.
Anonymous
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No.2447
2448
>>2446
>Backstory
>Town
It all checks out. Being the dumping grounds for all sorts of beings can really cause a problem. Plus not everyone or everything that is brought to the world is good natured.
>innawoods
If it helps the story and the character be more enriched.
>>2445
>Everything
That's really fucking rough. Losing friends, even ones that have abused you before is hard.
Don't let it consume you. Your time is valuable.
As always you can vent here... I mean this isn't perfectly private, but this should be fine enough to air grievances.
I know one of my friends used to be in an abusive friendship/lackey sort of thing with someone. He was fairly bitter and cold toward to world.
He's better now. At least since I last saw him.
>I can feel the heart problems this political shit is giving me.
On the bright side one less element to cause political anxiety?
>"All that I can", right?
You are improving your physicality, emboldening your skills, and exercising your mind.
If you feel like you need to do more, expand your scope and range. Break out of perspective and look at the situation at all angles to find the path that will work.
Find like minded people near you, I haven't yet, but potentially a good source of physical interaction.
Anonymous
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No.2448
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>>2447
I keep wishing I could have made him see things my way and stop being such a colossal cunt.
Anonymous
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No.2449
>>2448
I'm sure you've heard all these sayings before, "You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink," "Don't cast pearls before swine."
It's a shitty situation. You can only change his mind when he decides to change it himself.
You can appeal to his mind in a way he understands, but all the facts and logic can't change them if they resist.
Anonymous
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No.2450
2454
>>2448
More to the point have you seen things his way?
The Alphabet soup person here in the videos has some tips >>2423
It can help, but it's very difficult to change them if they know what your doing, and resist everything.
Anonymous
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No.2454
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>>2450
That fucking starcraftnigger won't even talk to me at this point. He's currently """Ghosting""" me. You know, that method of abuse in which you break all contact with your victim after yelling "I CAN'T DEAL WITH YOU ANY MORE, THIS IS YOUR FAULT!" and then wait as your victim (hopefully) squirms and angsts and blames himself for your behaviour while wondering what to say and beating himself up for "making it come to this".
I've officially gotten over this faggot. I hope he gets AIDS and dies.
So what if he was my first friend? He wasn't really my first friend. He met me in the life advice forum of MLPforums, read my daily posts about my abusive parents and shit childhood, and immediately knew he could bullshit me. Exploit me. Use me for emotional support while pretending this relationship was the other way around. Now the roofnigger literally runs a fucking organization full of faggy virtue-signalling brony "artists".
Anonymous
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No.2455
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>>2454
If he talked me into sexting with him and doing pony erotic roleplay with him when we were teenagers should I tell anyone about it or pretend that never happened?
Anonymous
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No.2457
2458
>>2454
>>2455
>2454
That's... not good. Steel yourself you are above him and his manipulative fuckery.
>2455
Fuck him with a rusty spoon through his funny bone. I get being a teen is a weird ass time full of hormones and developing minds, but fucking with someone else to fulfill their own shits and giggles is wrong, especially when they actually needed help.
Fucks sake.
Thank you. You are an amazing being, working on yourself and improving by the means you can, despite all the bullshit.
It looks like this is going to be rough, but do you have other friends you can count on?
Anonymous
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No.2458
2459
>>2457
Thank you. And yes, I've got more than ten good lads I can truly call my best friends. I have a lot of other friends, but they're my best ones.
Anonymous
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No.2459
2460
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>>2458
That's great to hear. You sir, are playing with the cards you've been delt. I'm glad there are those for you, amd you for them.
>>2455
If you need to get it off your chest tell someone you trust.
Also here's a pony.
Anonymous
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No.2460
2463
>>2459
Thank you.
Why are you so kind to me?
Anonymous
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No.2463
2464
>>2460
So the selfish reason is that the more well bodied, excellent mentally and spiritually people there are, the less I actually have to do in the long run. Every person happens to be a source of entertainment and amusement for me (they have the ultimate spark to craft everything), and I dislike the horrid agendas that (((they))) all push. I hate them so much more than trying to fulfill my own fleeting twisted dark desires. It's not worth it in many facets.
The more altruistic reason is that lifting you up raises other up as well as being a good person has infinite potential, and unstopable drive to do what is right.
Everyone that inherits their own truest, highest, more perfect self makes literally everything better. For everyone now, and in the future everywhere.

A more cynical reason is that for every post it's a limited interaction between you and me. I'm at my most generous, rather than at my most insidious. Roughly speaking. I like my own time, the nature of the internet ensues that it's always on my own time. Anytime anywhere. If there is any irritating point I can analyze that to see if that's my own weakness, or from someone else. Then the only way to be better is to discuss it, at the very least to understand exactly what is going on.

The greed (and highest ideal clarifying that the highest ideal is not greed it's THE Highest Ideal) in me wants there to be more beautiful things everywhere (the greed would rather have it all to myself, but that's not sustainable and would limit the amount of potential), to do that I need to do something sometimes as well. Importantly if I help others become their own paragon they too for whatever reasons they have will also create beauty, and righteousness. This compounds in a positive loop helping others be better, and to fulfill their creative and destructive intents to ensure amazing great works are done.
The world stops being a crapsack hellish pit, and becomes the best of us all in the end. I'd much rather the best than the torment of the worst.

On a more occult, magical level this is a means to make sure fuckers from else where fail on such gravity that forever more everywhere throughout the multiverse (ect ect ect.) can contact each other and not be plundered and raped into oblivion. It's a matter of making sure the things and people I like keep existing.
I like you as a person, a creator, and more (no homo), and as a means to my own agenda.
You are helping me by striving to be the best you can be.
One day I will face judgement, and I'd very much rather see my end in a great world, than a torn husk.
I might be embellishing slightly, but I really do mean you the best. I'm open for questions, comments, and concerns, but seriously I'll lend a listening ear.
Anonymous
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No.2464
2465
>>2463
This is so much more real than those "Because ur bootiful!" posts you'll see on fraud-filled social media.
Good is rational, and logically right.
I wish everyone on this planet could see this and be good people.
I wish the letter of the law and the spirit of the law were one in the same, and I wish every country on this planet was its own free and perfect free-market-capitalist nationalist meritocratic "Zeroth-World Country" that has solved all the first-world problems like jewery and leftism and other forms of short-sighted evil and selfish tribalistic greed.
This might sound weird but I miss the days when I posted on pseudointellectual forums where every fourth post of mine said "I sure do love science! Mankind's glory is unquestionable and the light of science is unstoppable! All problems will be solved in the future! Humanity, fuck yeah! The future will be bright!"
It felt so good to piss off the "There is nothing good about humanity, I am a proud sociopath who admits it openly and I wish we had another plague, humanity is a plague" faggots by making wannabe-Star Trek speeches about all the shit about the universe you thought was cool as a kid like rockets and stars.
It's an unexpected redpill to one day notice that all the positive attributes you praise humanity for in "Humanity, fuck yeah!" speeches are exclusive to the white race. And maybe a few other foreign countries learned a few positive attributes from us but we invented them. We invented the wheel, the engine, the car, flight, and the spaceship. We invented logic, reason, libraries, and more. We created a religion so perfect, it could survive almost anything. It was our civilization, western civilization, that discovered Good first. We had the enlightenment first, and many other races never got around to it.
Once my grandfather showed me an old PSA for adults warning them not to get into cars with strangers. Normally we're told this as kids these days. But the thought that adults would need to be told this by the government... It's so fucking alien to me. The idea of having that much trust for another is completely alien to me. I was raised in a world where the threat of getting betrayed was just an expected fact of life.
I think I remember a sci-fi show episode where some "Good and perfect aliens who don't fight any more" have to have their asses saved from evil by the heroes. It's bizarre to think that our ancestors were once like that, so willing to let their guard down and let enemies into their countries because they thought the need to think was gone. But their lives were only that good thanks to previous generations sacrificing and bleeding and sweating and doing everything they could to build a world that's better than the one they were born in.
And the Boomers betrayed that. The generation that raised the Boomers betrayed that by failing to teach the Boomers morality. They were asleep at the wheel while our countries were infiltrated and overwhelmed and sent right to hell.
I don't know how to feel about the big shit like that. I should hate those people, right? I should probably hate those generations for failing us and forcing us to deal with the consequences of their selfish and anti-future actions.
I should get back to working on my creative projects, like the book. I've decided to include mild "parody of wokeness" elements but primarily focus on fantasy adventuring. If it was too political it wouldn't attract anyone not already into politics.

I had this one idea for a scene where some incredibly fucking rich jew-elves (while their country is at war with some baddies) are smirking and snootying it up in a mansion surrounded by guards, feasting on fancy food while whining about how rare and expensive things are getting for them while people in the trenches die and people in the streets starve. One slave-girl accidentally calls an elf by his actual gender, forgetting he's decided to pretend he's a woman today, so he sentences her to be flogged to death for this crime. The heroes are there to act as private security but this pisses the heroes off and makes them save the slave girl and kill the elves and fight a shitload of security then after winning, they uncover an Evil Religion Shrine in the basement and get to keep everything those jew-elves own for revealing this crime to the country. No worshipping evil gods, that's highly illegal. Good and Neutral gods only. Chaotic ones are pushing it because the biggest authoritarians in power hate them while regular rulers are neutral on the matter.
Anonymous
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No.2465
>>2464
*could see this fact
Good is objectively good, marxism is gay.