I'm not asking to delete the threads about my shit pony fanfic. I'm asking to delete the threads that pose a risk to the safety of innocent people who don't deserve to suffer just because of me.
Anything embarrassing about me in those threads are already in other threads. My fursona is still used as my mascot on other sites. People already know I'm a former chronic masturbation addict scarred by being raped as a kid, people already know I'm a racist sexist christian libertarian with an imaginary friend, people already know I couldn't save my little sister from my pedo parents, people already know my parents sexually abused us as a kid and I didn't know a blowjob was something sexual until I stumbled upon Pokemon porn involving it as a kid because until that point I just thought of it as something my mother did to me sometimes when she felt like it, and people already know a female brony on another site years ago once asked me to write porn for her and then when I sent it to her she lied about asking for it and tried to make me look like a perverted degenerate and then vanished when that failed. People already know I like breast expansion and impregnation and monster girls, especially slime girls and snakes. People already know I wrote a really shit Naruto ripoff webcomic when I was eleven that died in a few chapters and I learned nothing from that experience when I wrote a shit pony fanfic as a teenager. New threads can mock me while I'm gone, I won't mind. I just want to protect the people I care about.>>7685
I don't think anyone is wrong to call my skill at writing pony fiction shit.
That's not what this is about. And I'm not trying to claim superiority over anyone who likes FIM.
Only an inauthentic wannabe internet tough-guy would say liking the pony show makes you a faggot.
The world is full of real faggotry.
FIM had some great episodes, and some great characters.
Some day when I have kids, there's a list of shows I'll show the kids if people still watch TV in that era and we still have running water and electricity.
FIM's on that list, next to Avatar: The Last Airbender.
But not Legend of Korra, fuck that show.
I'm not going to stop liking FIM, I won't hate the show now "on principle" to seem more mature like a kid who virtue-signals his hatred for Barney The Dinosaur now.
I'm just going to stop primarily defining myself through FIM.
I think that's why I've been so reluctant to draw horns on my redesigned fursona.
I don't want him to be a Unicorn any more because I don't want to define myself through the media I consume and identify myself first and foremost as an enjoyer of just one show.
For old time's sake I went back to a Naruto forum I used to use, and a Sonic forum. All my old posts are still there. All the arguments that felt so important in the moment, retarded in retrospect. All the fan theories that were right. Or wrong. Or better than what we got. I remember people saying "Obito can't be Tobi, that's too fucking stupid and obvious" like they really expected better from Kishimoto. All my retarded arguments over where the Sonic franchise is going, where he should go, all that shit. Sonic's still shit. Still ripping shit off without any originality. Looking at him is like looking at a high school friend who never grew out of it. His most recent game was third rate bootleg Neon Genesis Devil Breath of The Rising Colossus. People are calling it the best Sonic game since Mania because their standards were brought that low. I looked into some of the people I used to talk to, and they've all gone down different roads. Some of them changed, grew. Some are mysteries. Did they make it IRL? Some are still there arguing about SonAmy at age 30+. I'm in my 20s. There, but for the grace of God, go I.
I thought how often my posts on this site are met with "I don't like you and I want you to STFU+go away" instead of anything related to the topic or whatever I said in someone else's topic, and I asked myself... Why do I subject myself to this? Nothing productive can come of this. We know the left's evil, political discussion ends there unless they did some new evil shit to talk about for a week. Pony discussion isn't fun either, when it happens. If I'm not really here for pony or politics, does that mean I'm just here for myself? For a place to ramble endlessly about my day? Jesus Christ, how pathetic of me! Is that my only reason for being here? I need to get my shit together and turn my life around. Feel free to call me the biggest faggot of them all. If I'm going to turn my life around, I need to change my habits. And posting here about my day, my opinions, or my projects... That's a bad habit I want to quit. I need to focus on improving myself. No more recovery journals.
I know when it comes to internet tradition your "final post" on a forum is "supposed to" say something like "Fuck all of you, you mean less to me than a fly's fart and I'm leaving for greener pastures where I will be given the respect I'm owed!" but... No.
Thanks for putting up with an autistic faggot like me.
Also sorry about getting angry over the writing advice.
In the moment it felt like you guys were just gaslighting+guilt-tripping+insulting me for fun and didn't have anything helpful to say about what I wanted to write.
It felt like you were all just saying obvious generic platitudes because when push comes to shove writing discussion and writing advice isn't the real purpose of Glim's thread about Glim's writing on the writing of others.
But looking back, I was wrong to view it that way.
Glim's trying his best, you're trying your best, and I was being an idiot.
I was basically asking you to make writing decisions for me and it was unreasonable for me to ask that of you.
I wasn't hearing "Focus on the basics and read more" because nobody in that thread knew anything I didn't already know.
I needed to hear "Focus on the basics and read more" because that's legitimately good advice that would have made me less shit at the basics.