>>1727>I feel like my anger is starting to hurt me instead of motivate me
attempt to find something you enjoy doing that makes you patriotic of the white race that you are a part of
and when these thoughts become too distracting start making a document with all you're beliefs (a manifesto) and over time keep changing it to accommodate you're improved beliefs or start researching something you like
i managed to do this by finding something created by a white person and i enjoyed doing it because it was something our ancestors did such as, reading, going into wilderness and appreciating the ground our white ancestors built upon, going to new places which i haven't been to before and was created by the white race and appreciating their unique white culture, learning to help children grow better and help them become Übermensch, learning more about the nat soc system, these are things which make me happy because i know these things are helping other people of the white race
>One friend recommended guided meditation but I failed at it
i believe the greatest form of meditation is going outside into the wilderness, relaxing with horses and watching them eat grass or stroking them but this requires precaution and experience with them beforehand or lifting weights, no other meditation works for me because the most modern forms of (((meditation))) only works for women and they want white men do these forms of meditation to make them feminized cucks and you'll see it is primarily used by leftists as a way of ignoring the problems in the world and telling yourself everything is perfect and nothing is wrong these are things meant for the sheep that cannot handle modern life such as you'll see soccer moms and antifa members do most feminine forms of meditation such as, yoga, guided meditation and so on so forth
>Plus I'm still too unfit and untrained to successfully snap so I can't snap yet.
you have to put lots of preparation into planning a attack like Breivik says it took him years of preparation to complete his 1518 page manifesto and Brenton Tarrant says he started thinking of the attack 2 years prior and first you have to learn to love yourself and you're race and must start to develop philosophic thinking to be able to successfully plan an attack but if you lack these things or are incapable of understanding the greater good and pre planned decisions you will end up like Earnest with 1 month of preparation and 1 kill and if you are nigel it'll be very hard to do an attack with firearms so you either think have of another way of proceeding with the attack or you don't do one at all