Maybe if I tell you my life's story, you can give me life advice.
I was raised by abusive lefty parents who hated their smart white son and often tried to push me towards trannyism. Never fell for it. First I was sent to a shit primary school. A few kids bullied me there and teachers punished me whenever I fought back. I was a fat angry kid who could punch hard when pushed, and they liked attacking me and then running away. But when we fought properly I'd kick their asses. One time I kicked their asses hard enough to make them stop bothering me. When I graduated from this school I was sent to the special school of a catholic school, and made the personal property of one old bitch there who hated autistic kids. Around that era I got interested in Game Maker and pokemon romhacking but that interest never amounted to anything, though I did have a USB full of GBA roms and romhacking tools and the fact that I was able to code at such a young age when not all kids were learning that should have shown somebody that I had more to offer the world than shitty schools thought I should. Thanks to that school, my schedule looked like this: Enter a side building, wait for the day to end, sometimes get insulted by the teachers if they felt like abusing me, usually get to eat lunch at lunchtime but sometimes they wouldn't let me (and it didn't matter whether I brought a packed lunch to school or brought money for the school cafeteria) and eventually go home to a house with parents that, when told the right words by my boomer bullies, would freak out and abuse me at home too. Rarely I'd get to join in a classroom... but class clowns would act up until I'd get blamed for it and sent out. If I had a tape recorder or decent phone, I could have gathered evidence of the shit said/done to me (audio files of verbal abuse, pics of bruises, etc) and posted it online. But I was never allowed anything like that, because my parents feared I might use it on them. One day at school the art teacher bumped me with her car while backing up into a crowd of kids, I was fine but pissed off and the art teacher shrieked and blame-slinged feministically at me until I lost my patience and started barking back, then she put me in front of the headmaster and I told him about the abusive staff members and called him terrible at his job, so he kicked me out. Then I was sent to a worthless "speshul" school where a few teachers abused me and the students usually watched in confusion when they weren't joining in. Whenever I trusted an adult enough to tell him or her what happened at home, that adult decided to call child protective services, who sent the same fucking boomer woman over to warn my parents that I was talking about what went on at home again. I couldn't get away from my family until I became the problem of Adult Protective Services, where the slightly less retarded and lazy people go. A woman my age at the autistics-only youth club I attended got mad at me over retarded internet roleplaying nonsense-drama that didn't even involve me, and she lied about me to the cops and accused me of abusing her, even went to some clinic to fake signs of a concussion she didn't have because she's a spoilt bitch who knows how to play her rich parents like fiddles, she was a low-functioning sociopath woman with histrionic personality disorder and every retarded boomer's sympathy. She lied and got away with it, because the cops weren't interested in this case after she cartoonishly fucked up and started gloating about physically assaulting me without realizing it hurt her case. But even though I said to the managers of the youth club and the friends I knew there "If what she said about me was true I'd be in jail so you know she's lying" they couldn't believe me because they were dumb. There was one weird creepy fucker I used to talk to online because his "woe is me, asian school life is sooo hard" shit kind of reminded me of me at the time, but he got severe TDS and stopped being a person once he stopped viewing me as a person so I'm glad I didn't tell him anything sensitive or identifiable that could fuck me over later in life. Anyway when I went to college, I was lied to and exploited by the staff until I dropped out. They even tricked me into taking a worthless course that turned out to be the dump where they dump the autistic kids and give them a useless fake newspaper to write. I wish I dropped out sooner, trying to live on barely fucking anything is hard enough when your mom took govt money meant for you, but it's harder when you're forced to spend most of your cash on train rides between your college and shitty home every two weeks and all your cunt government can offer is a discount pass. Now that I'm living alone, I've got a free bus pass I can barely use. Government priorities, am I right?
I am an autistic man, I'm 24 years old, I'll be 25 next year, and I've spent so much of my life as property of someone else that I find it hard to notice when I'm hungry or tired and remember that I should eat or sleep without someone or a phone alarm telling me to. I shower every night before bed but sometimes I miss meals, it's what helped me go from obese fatty to only-slightly-overweight. I don't think I know what it feels like to be loved by someone else. Learning makes me happy and I love documentaries but when I tried an online free learning site it reminded me of school and I couldn't do it. Sometimes I talk to people and act charming like those "Charisma on command" youtube vids told me so they'll like me, but I've never given anyone my full backstory before. The only woman in my life I ever kissed was that bitch who falsely accused me and got away with it. I want to say I have no interest in modern women but I still feel the urge to wank to them. But I don't wank any more because of nofap.
>>3147 Talking to a therapist won't hurt as I see it. If you select to see one, make sure to get an psychiatrists and not a psychologists as the psychologists can only do talk and not prescribe any medicine that might be beneficial. Sometimes using medicine for a short while (subjective to needs) can be helpful and enough. It was for me. It can take some time for medicine to work and give new outlook on life, so expect half a year to a year with probably adjusting before seeing/feeling a change. Change will be gradual too. I know a lot say you should not take anti-depressive medicine or the like, but I don't see it as a particular bad thing as it can help. This is also why I think looking for a psychiatrists and not a psychologists is key. Because it takes a while for the therapist to get to know your situation and what might help, and then discovering, if you chose to go to an psychologists, there is nothing he/she can do except offer more talk can be a downer.
>>3152 Some of the things i wrote were a bit too personal, basically detailing my experience with schools and how much i hated it, it brought back some memories i don't want shared. I'll rewrite a certain segment i wrote. Don't keep crying over old tears, it only brings you down further and is probably what those twisted twats want you to feel like, don't let them win over yourself but instead use those old wounds to strengthen yourself, use them as a baseline for how nothing can hurt you emotionally as hard as it hit before, don't let those scars bite back at you from the past, i know you can't forget what has happened to you and neither can i forget how cruel others have been. Focus on something else to get your mind away from self history, walking in the woods always made me feel calm and being around ponies has been a good stress relief, it's nice to be with something that isn't a human yet is still sociable, i don't think i can emotionally live without them at this point as they give my life meaning. >>3153 I never enjoyed telling others about my past except with tulpas, psychology only made things worse for me mentally and i hated how the only thing they could offer were questions, i was looking for a friend but i came to the wrong place. I avoid prescribed anti depressants because i would rather use my own mind altering medicines than them, maybe they would work but the things i use at the moment suffice, i don't see any drugs as bad but rather the people who take them and in what way they use them on themselves, it depends upon how the person uses it rather than the drug itself since a drug is nothing more than a drug, it serves whatever purpose it has for the user but it is the user himself who decides how they use it.
>>3147 >>3154 Therapy is 90% just getting stuff off your chest and prompts to make you self reflect. I say its better to introspect on your own, but there's no real harm in it. You're basically doing that here now.
I think the more important thing would be setting up your mind, body and surroundings so you feel happy. Introspection helps with that.
>>3155 >Therapy is 90% just getting stuff off your chest and prompts to make you self reflect. Whenever i attempted to self reflect it didn't work as good as talking to my thought forms about personal experiences, yes it is mainly about letting out emotion but it never satisfies me enough to warrant me feeling better. >I say its better to introspect on your own, but there's no real harm in it. I agree, introspection within my head was more in depth and personalized than any form of therapy i underwent, i couldn't trust the therapists at all since i knew they would diagnose my mental health with a label which i didn't like if i told them everything. >You're basically doing that here now. Yes, i am and have been for a while due to a couple factors, OP has for a longer time than i have though but doesn't really understand why he is doing it, i have a purpose for what i write and so does he even if he doesn't know it.
>I think the more important thing would be setting up your mind, body and surroundings so you feel happy. Magical workings are the most mentally meditating and effective form of mental help but can also be a detriment if done wrong. >Introspection helps with that. It does and i recommend it.
>>3155 Society is poisoned. It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be. We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity. We are expected to live lies and support lies. Politicians paid by the music industry are trying to attach jail sentences to DMCA copystrikes but they are still less reviled by normies than anyone the tv calls a nazi. We are expected to be perfect enough to keep this broken machine working even though this machine was redesigned to hate us and kill us and drain us dry. Men are poisoned from birth in body and food and nonsense ideas forced on us by hollywood and boomer parents and school. When I try speaking to fellow christians they turn out to be cucked satanist liberal scum who refuse to recognize that laziness and PC lies won't save anyone. Nobody can appease satan or its synagogue. They are pure evil and I wish I could save people. But so many people don't want to listen to reason. So many second hand ideas swirl in my head. I wish I could flush all the lies away. I wish I could speak to a wise all knowing mentor figure who is a thousand times my age and knows the future even though I know those dont exist. I wish I could talk to God and ask him all the questions man could ever ask. I don't even know what I want from myself any more. I have unrealistic expectations for myself. I expect myself to be fine after everything that's happened. And that's unrealistic. People have broken from going through half the shit I went through and there are people out there who survived lives ten times as bad as mine. Sometimes I wonder if a live spent accomplishing nothing and hiding in fantasy would make me happier than a life spent trying and failing. These are normal human feelings, right?
>>3157 >Society is poisoned. A venom has always lingered around the serpent sanctuaries, wherever there is houses there are rats and if there are no measures to get rid of them they will only feed from other peoples work, society has always been the victim of snakes and will continue to be that way until a potent antitoxin has been created to null the effects of street vipers, until then we have snakes creating carnage wherever they please because they can. >It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be. No one knows what they want, they only follow what they think they desire, men can't escape from themselves which most can't deal with so they use methods of cope, men can be whatever they want to be but live in fear of others from a young age which influences their thought. >We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity. The heroism of men has been reduced to a fantasy stereotype of super hero characters, nothing now is expected of men other than to submit to false help and hope, to accept being walked over by those who they are told are better than themselves. >We are expected to live lies and support lies. The narrowness of education has imposed superficial lies about the sexes upon impressionable children which has resulted in them living a life of lies where they hate themselves for existing, the 'men' of today have trouble living with themselves instead of actually living. >Politicians paid by the music industry are trying to attach jail sentences to DMCA copystrikes but they are still less reviled by normies than anyone the tv calls a nazi. While orthodox Jews and Muslims abduct girls with the help of police, get offered bail out of jail when caught and given a soft sentence as opposed to a guy in England carrying a steak knife or fishing without a license, they are offered a discount on life because they are not native which is a clear example the state does not care about the lives of it's own people. >We are expected to be perfect enough to keep this broken machine working even though this machine was redesigned to hate us and kill us and drain us dry. Not everything is picture perfect as people are led to believe, the government is nothing more than secret slave masters who use people for profit then discard them like a used condom, humans have little meaning to the state other than as potential profit or pleasure, their livelihood is not the concern of them but rather the service they are forced to serve and anyone who rebels is locked up in a dog cage built for men. >Men are poisoned from birth in body and food and nonsense ideas forced on us by hollywood and boomer parents and school. There is so much soy or chemicals inside food to dampen the bodies of boys so that they are feminized and thus more accepting to things imposed upon them without their choice, they are told it's okay to have a different opinion and have choices but when they voice their thoughts or do something that is deemed wrong they are treat no better than a dog, the sole purpose of government funded education and entertainment is for brainwashing. >When I try speaking to fellow christians they turn out to be cucked satanist liberal scum who refuse to recognize that laziness and PC lies won't save anyone. Christians are nothing more than sheep, they follow whatever is the most kindest or nicest thing they are told to mindlessly obey to, it is the religion of submission and stupid sin that belongs in the bin, it isn't worth being good for god if there is no benefit for the person who willingly gives them self to an invisible man, it's better to better yourself instead of doing it for someone else who isn't you. >Nobody can appease satan or its synagogue. It's a waste of time trying to make peace with someone who was born to create chaos, the Jews are the embodiment of the 'devil' and definitely haven't strayed from being demons due to genetics, they can't stop themselves from doing what they were born to do nor can they stray from ever riding Satan's sleigh, the ride certainly hasn't ended for the Jews and they will continue to do what their ancestors did since they derive from the same Satanic stock of Sodom. >They are pure evil and I wish I could save people. They are inherently immoral and nothing can change that, they were bred to inflict the worst possible amount of oppression on those who aren't them and were taught that from birth. >But so many people don't want to listen to reason. You must try different methods of mental warfare on those you wish to apply doubt of the masters upon, a dog does not willingly go against his owner without a reason, give them a good point that logically suites the illogical and they will secede to follow you, humans are animals which means the standard rules of pressure and release also applies to them since they are apes so you can create a question that goes against their train of thought in a way that brings their train to a stop, most will not go down easily in their realm of logic since they are obedient to though so observe for the ones who are the least likely to be loyal to lies then you will have a chance of instilling your will if you are confident to do so, be patient as it is a learning process for both you and whoever is your subject.
>So many second hand ideas swirl in my head. Same, i have lots of creativity but limit myself because i don't know what i truly want so i ignore my artistic ability, it is the result of a creative imagination which is more of a gift than a curse, i don't want to be normal and i know that it's best to think outside the box than to keep yourself close minded, by thinking of what you can do to create something new you are letting those thoughts run free which is good to see since not many people can look at things from a philosophical angle with an open mind. I appreciate you for doing what you want.
>>3156 Talking things out doesn't necessarily have to be talking. Consider getting a journal.
A pen an paper journal, and write in it. The tactility of using a pen instead of a keyboard to write can sometimes help. Getting your thoughts out and fully written down can tell that part of your mind that's stressed about those thoughts that you've worked through the problems as much as you can. You'll find that you worry about those things less.
You also don't have to only write stuff that bothers you. You can write down the nice things that happen in the day. If you've had a decent meal, a good workout, an interesting dream, et cetera.
>I wish I could flush all the lies away. It's not that easy to simply end it all, suicide is the weak man's option and while down in the dumps everyone questions their existence, no one is exempt from this life of toil and strife but we are still here to live in fear, it doesn't make sense why everyone is so horrible but sometimes there isn't a good reason for why things happen and existence doesn't need an excuse to keep being bad or to do good, there is no answer to the questions we want to ask ourselves and you will never find it no matter how far you go for that knowledge, it will not come to you unless you accept that pain is temporary and necessary, it is worthless crying over your ineptness or a situation out of your control, the world is full of shit and it's hard to flush when there is no handle on life. >I wish I could speak to a wise all knowing mentor figure who is a thousand times my age and knows the future even though I know those dont exist. I am not that person and you will never find one, they are just men with experience in thought who have practice with their psyche, there are no gods other than what we are capable of knowing which is confined to our human intelligence, i know nothing and neither does anyone else, it's all mind games that do not mean anything other than to get part of a wider answer, i'm not old nor am i wise, i just spend my time doing what i like to do and that is the same with everyone else. >I wish I could talk to God and ask him all the questions man could ever ask. Why? What would you gain from asking some guy in the sky why people live and die for apparently no definitive reason other than to merely exist? I don't care because i have no good questions that matter in the grand scheme of life, i wouldn't trust him and his answers if he wasn't myself as his answers would only make sense to him because he is only an extension of man. We all wish for something but it only comes true if you make it actual through the will of your inner self, inside yourself you are a man and you know what men are able to do but you only need to listen to yourself instead of relying on the hearsay of others, their words do not apply to you and your life. >I don't even know what I want from myself any more. Neither do i, nor does it matter whether i exist or not but i do, i do exist and i am here writing to you while on my surf across the web, i am thinking of responses to your responses while i exist but i do not know why i do these things at all, although it doesn't matter why since i am enjoying it so i put aside my other wants because i feel it is necessary to give you something from me, my words on a screen may mean nothing to you and neither do they have a meaning to me because i don't care about their meaning since the answer is not for me to know. >I have unrealistic expectations for myself. So do i, i want all the mares i could ever get my hands on but i know i will not be their master since it i am not meant for that role, i expect myself to stop myself yet i cannot since i am guided by my desire which is stronger than my opinions or biases, i expected to be a better person than i have turned out to be, i had so many opportunities i missed out on but yet i still take the path i know since it is all i know. >I expect myself to be fine after everything that's happened. You have expected things that have not come, you have been let down so many times by others that you expect nothing from them, you only expect betrayal which is logical given your vast amount of bad experiences at the hands of those you thought you trusted, your calls were so many times ignored that you have grown accustomed to being the subject of hate, i will give it to you that you are definitely persistent, you haven't given up yet at the hope that someone is there for you somewhere, you are still looking for someone to trust since you never had anyone trustworthy throughout your whole life, you are looking for that affection you missed out on. I trusted people i shouldn't have and was punished for being a fool so much so that i figured it's best to keep away from those i don't know since i have come to fear people more than my eventual death, it is only logical. >And that's unrealistic. You will eventually feel like you are in a good position but you have to fight for it, the struggle of life is a fight and i have fought all my life against people along with myself, it is a game we are eventually going to lose at some point but we must fight like men if we are to become strong, even if we are only a shell of what are supposedly men, we mustn't give up for everything we have been through for everything we have fought for would be in vain. >People have broken from going through half the shit I went through and there are people out there who survived lives ten times as bad as mine. I have never handled stress from other people very well, i break like a twig when faced with something i'm told to do, i do not follow orders very well and never have done so i make my own rules because i can't follow others, the school told me what to do and think so i struck out against them for treating me like their pet which i was punished for, it didn't work though since i didn't listen to their word or care about what they had to say, they didn't care about me so i didn't care about them. >Sometimes I wonder if a live spent accomplishing nothing and hiding in fantasy would make me happier than a life spent trying and failing. It doesn't matter whatsoever what you do with yourself but if you do what you enjoy the most then you will have a life of love, the words or thoughts of others cannot affect you other than what you let yourself do to you, your fantasy or enjoyment is subject to you, no one else. >These are normal human feelings, right? There are anomalies in every man's emotions, no man can feel the same about the same as another of his kind, do what your human brain enjoys the most instead of doing what other people like.
>>3164 I already have tried that, the most i could do was write about my dreams for a few days until i got bored of writing about a manifestation of my sleeping mind, it doesn't matter to me how much good or bad i do in a single day since it will always be something different the next, call me crazy for not caring about myself but i hate writing about the little things i do throughout the day, i don't care about what i do and neither do i consider it worthy to write down because it doesn't interest me.
>>3166 >>3164 Part of writing and being thankful is a psychological reward for the subconscious mind. You made yourself a nice lunch, it was really tasty. Thanks. You might not remember, but your subconscious will note down this victory and strive to have that kind of victory again. Maybe bigger or better. <You wrote down your dreams, it was something. Thanks. Your subconscious will lean a bit more where you remember it. <You write down the interesting things. Thanks for helping me spot it. Your subconscious will be on the look out for those neat things. <You accomplished your goal today. No matter what it is. Thanks. Your subconscious will help you achieve any and all goals you put forth. These little steps add up, it's training and it's extracting enjoyment, contentment, or at least engagement from day to day life. It builds history you can rely on. <Remember that one time we pulled through? Let's that again. <Remember that weird experience? Let's use this specific part for this purpose. Then someones asking retorical questions you get replies. >"Where did I leave my keys?" <flash of thought, table plate >"Thanks." The metastructure remembers that, and will strive for that goal. Although it didn't necessarily have to be writing, but a physical testament to these things can be useful.
>>3166 You seem to lack patience and focus. These arent practices that are going to work overnight, and progress will always be slower than one would prefer. Theres no magic bullet/cure. >I already tried that For how long? A few days? Get real.
>>3167 >>3168 I don't care about writing down what i do throughout my life, i would rather not go through with the process instead of doing it, i have the tools at my disposal but i will do it when i'm ready or when i feel like it, if i do something like writing about my dreams or something i did then i can't bring myself to continue the cycle for more than a couple days otherwise i get frustrated quickly, whenever i have written about them i like it but easily lose interest after repeating the same action with a completely different dream. I have seen certain things while asleep that directly tell me what is going to happen throughout the week but the dissection of what the hell went on in my head is often too in depth to detail in full, my dreams are complex so it's easier to just not write about them because i often have 4 or 5 dreams per night, i have the choice of not writing them. Yes i'm very impatient and i hate focusing on a certain task if i don't feel right about doing it, i get bored so i move onto something else or get frustrated and destroy what i have done so it's better not to push myself.
>>3169 Sounds like boredom and frustration are self defense mechanisms geared toward justifying for you what you do and dont want to do, which seems to include (but is not limited to) pushing yourself.
>>3170 You are right, thank you. I can't get over it, i have tried and tried, it has plagued my life, limited all my capabilities and i hate how childish i am when i make a mistake while i was enjoying something like drawing or writing, it has led to me hating what i thought would have been nice to do so many times, i like art but know i would get flustered over something that shouldn't matter so i don't because i know that it would be gone at the fault of my hands.
>>3172 It's as if this behavior has been engraved into my psyche, it's a part of who i am and i despise it, my father suffers the same mental hardship so maybe i should seek him out and ask him, he is the one who knows since he is the one who has dealt with this longer, he has done things at the fault of himself that he regrets like i have regretted... Anyways thanks again.
>>3169 I understand to an extent. And the doing what is right with gut instincts is really important and it is vital, but also verifying them for outside manipulations. In my experience gut feelings are true. Writing (or any action undertaken) shouldn't have to feel frictional and harsh. The point isn't dissecting dreams, just key elements or a word or two a distinction that it happened. Arts also happen to be excellent for subconscious communications. My experience when the urge for self destructive practices (or feelings) emerge I brutally deconstruct those urges to find out why and what reason. If it's magic related and the answer is magic, that's a bit tricky. At least as much information I can unearth or require. When all else fails save and make a copy or two (if possible). Then do as you wish upon the copy that isn't related. Or switch to a new frustration art piece that explores the feeling. >>3157 >Society is poisoned. It can't make up its goddamn mind about what it wants men to be. We are to be self sacrificing unpaid interns barely paid a living wage yet we are still expected to support the female ego and its obese container in all of its greedy inhumanity. That's the point. They want to grind away at the fabric of your being. >>3147 With that said the most important thing is to reinforce and discover, and know yourself. >>3171 I would recomend Jocko Wilink, while he isn't perfect he does have good advice for self control and discipline. Mostly the other cohosts expanding and detailing. Do it or Don't do it A martial art might also help. >>3172 This is very useful. I would suggest for the time being picking one tiny itty bitty thing you know you could easily do that would help you. I'm talking instead of reading thirty books a day, read a sentence a day. Something that is easily done you would laugh at doing, and contributing to do it. Maybe more at times, but at least meeting that minimum your goals will be accomplished.
>>3166 I don't think you really get what I was saying. Write. Writing = thinking. Just write whatever comes to mind. Aim to fill up a page of writing on a regular basis. If writing out all the details of a complex dream is too much to do, then sketch out the dream in general terms.
Your goal is to train your mind to regularly work through ideas and see them through to the end. The self-reflection and mood alteration (from focusing on good things that happen) are almost incidental compared to this. You're trying to build up good mental habits. Good mental habits are a critical foundational skill to have for just about everything else you do in life.
>>3174 >I understand to an extent. Maybe you do, i wouldn't put it on you. >And the doing what is right with gut instincts is really important and it is vital, but also verifying them for outside manipulations. Forcing something that shouldn't be pressured is a good way to create an explosion, your body will tell you when it's ready for whatever you plan to do with it. >In my experience gut feelings are true. Always get an upset stomach when i know somethings amiss or i'm in danger, the gut rumbles and you know what's gonna happen. >Writing (or any action undertaken) shouldn't have to feel frictional and harsh. That's why i don't write often, if the time isn't right to write i won't. >The point isn't dissecting dreams, just key elements or a word or two a distinction that it happened. Like an anchor to the memory. >Arts also happen to be excellent for subconscious communications. Shame i haven't had that happen to me yet, i have had direct subconscious links where something is explicitly shown either just before falling asleep or waking up where i actually see what i am going to see sometime in the future, although i have practiced asking myself. >My experience when the urge for self destructive practices (or feelings) emerge I brutally deconstruct those urges to find out why and what reason. Usually results in me hurting myself somehow, it has a reason but it derives from my self harshness towards me, when questioning becomes part of the equation it only furthers me to being furious so instead i drop what is ultimately causing it. >When all else fails save and make a copy or two (if possible). Doesn't always work, i have ideas for drawings but suppress them because every time i have tried putting my thoughts to form it goes the way i didn't want it to go, i can't stand having to constantly make changes to match my errors because i know i'm just gonna make more so i don't give a fuck about drawing anymore, it's tedious. >A martial art might also help. Forget it, it's not for me neither are any other arts, i am not an artist in anything. >>3175 Sorry to break it to you but it isn't in my interest to write, i have no reason to train my mind to do nothing for the supposed sake of something good, my goal is not to write because i dislike even writing sentences or letters to people so it would be pointless to do it, i am not a writer.
>>3176 >Sorry to break it to you but it isn't in my interest to write It's not about which one of your existing interests you should continue to indulge in, it's about helping you fix your brain. It's about rebuilding the fundamental structure and routines to properly organize the world you perceive such that you can deal with hardships in a more mature way.
I'm sorry, but if this is the kind of response you're having, then I honestly don't think therapy would help you. The minute you would be asked to do some sort of exercises to help you, you'd resist and give up immediately. No-one can really force you to rebuild yourself, you have to do it on your own. At least not until things get bad enough for you to be committed against your will. Even so, it'd be hard going to have your caretakers holding your hand and trying to force you to do these exercises. I think most institutions that used to do this (if they ever did) would have swapped to just drugging you up to the point where you weren't a problem anymore.
We're not telling you to develop a new passion, we're trying to get you to develop a constructive habit. It's like brushing your teeth. It's not all that "fun", but it's good for you.
Writing, whether it be journaling, stream of consciousness, or any other format, is about getting you in the habit of putting your thoughts into words.
>>3179 He was complaining about writing. There was more than one person talking about using writing as a tool. The "we" refers to all the people who were suggesting using writing, or who were suggesting using some sort of tool and applying it for more than just a few days before giving up on it.
>>3180 >He was complaining about writing. There should be another reason for him to not like writing so much. >There was more than one person talking about using writing as a tool. The "we" refers to all the people who were suggesting using writing, or who were suggesting using some sort of tool and applying it for more than just a few days before giving up on it. Alright i was a bit confused, what other tools are there?
>>3181 >There should be another reason for him to not like writing so much. I don't like writing if i don't feel like writing and i don't like drawing if i don't want to, if i'm not determined or lack motivation to do so the idea is soon scrapped and forgotten, it's unlikely for me to do either anyhow because it's never had an appeal to me to be good at it or share it with others, is that good enough for you?
Writing is fun and theraputic when done freely. If it's not fun for you try writing something else. Even if it's just shitposting. Always wondered what it would be like to dump the biggest shitposts in some big writing genre under a fake name. To try and intentionally upset readers with countless meandering chapters of bullshit and suffering and dick jokes.
Been exercising more lately but legs are still weak, ankles and knees are still shit, stamina is still low and run speed is slow. I should get out more but the roads and paths are dangerously slippery in the winter and autumn from ice and wet leaves. even mild exposure to the sun burns me in spring. Maybe I should actually try sunscreen.
It hurts when talking to people I care about and hearing how this plandemic fucked them over. Some people have elderly obese smoker 50 something wine aunts who supposedly died from the Rona so they refuse to listen to any questioning of the narratives or govts. I always wondered what it feels like to have a family full of people you care about. My family was bastards so I never got to feel that. What if I missed out on something vital for healthy and stable human development? I wish a short burst of hyper intense training could instantly make me amazing because I desperately want to become stronger. But last time I went into "push myself no matter what" mode I fucked my elbow up and it took ages to heal. I need to be smart. Slow and steady wins the race.
>>3202 >Writing is fun and theraputic when done freely. If it's not fun for you try writing something else. Even if it's just shitposting. Always wondered what it would be like to dump the biggest shitposts in some big writing genre under a fake name. To try and intentionally upset readers with countless meandering chapters of bullshit and suffering and dick jokes. Intentionally upsetting people has been a favorite of mine for ages, that's what i have been doing here for awhile and has been my main game. >Been exercising more lately but legs are still weak, ankles and knees are still shit, stamina is still low and run speed is slow. I should get out more but the roads and paths are dangerously slippery in the winter and autumn from ice and wet leaves. Try walking long distances in flat shoes or boots, unbalanced heels on boots are a killer and can fuck up your posture so avoid them if you can, if you want to still get out then just walking won't be as bad as running on ice. >even mild exposure to the sun burns me in spring. Maybe I should actually try sunscreen. Sunburns make your skin more resistant against the sun if you can endure it, the spring sun is the time when i'm most outgoing so i get burned early so the skin builds up a defense against the warmer summer sun, it's a nice trade for having fun given it's an eye for an eye with being burned, spring is the best time of the year given how exciting it is waiting for it and how often it pays off at the climax. >It hurts when talking to people I care about and hearing how this plandemic fucked them over. Some people have elderly obese smoker 50 something wine aunts who supposedly died from the Rona so they refuse to listen to any questioning of the narratives or govts. Gullible cattle are so easily herded once they have mislead proof of an imaginary worry, it's quite pathetic how uncooperative with words them become after a single occurrence without further research because of some hoax that they believe. >I always wondered what it feels like to have a family full of people you care about. My family was bastards so I never got to feel that. What if I missed out on something vital for healthy and stable human development? At times it becomes an irritation but for the most part it's worth being part of one due to the added support that comes with a family, on the other hand you can have a real shitty handing of family cards so you get a crap deal that wasn't down to you, it boils down to the parents and how they treated their kids so a bunch of behaviors can become changed from someone's upbringing, neglect from parents or abuse can make a kid become lacking in certain emotions like empathy, if the mother is especially cruel then the boy will become highly distrustful of females or completely lack interest in them, absence of a father figure can result in bratty behavior or mischievous actions leading to nonseriousness about important tasks, there is a lot of changes that can occur depending solely upon the parents actions towards their children, it's all luck really on how you get given good and bad experiences from families. >I wish a short burst of hyper intense training could instantly make me amazing because I desperately want to become stronger. But last time I went into "push myself no matter what" mode I fucked my elbow up and it took ages to heal. I need to be smart. Slow and steady wins the race. Obsession over physique is generally good for both sexes but can turn into an unhealthy hobby quickly from over indulgence in the desire for fast change, there are reasons to want to be the best and look the nicest but they were never a major concern of mine from how fast my interests in the cosmetic dissipated, i value my own strength over being constantly rather than becoming fixated on how i appear to others, my social nature has evolved into becoming unsocial from years of genuine uninterest in the common fads. Patience is a virtue and is totally worth it in the long run, don't overstep the line too quickly then fall over yourself to receive ridicule from others, look at where you are placing your feet beforehand.
>>3215 This sounds like good advice. I don't think I have any interest in modern women. I still like tits and ass but I've never met a woman I actually liked. So many of them are shallow selfish "lesser men" with little to offer the world coasting on their privileged gender while robbing men for fun and profit. When I talk to women I just met I feel like I am waiting for them to disappoint me and reveal themselves to be as terrible and selfish and petty and malicious and short-sighted as their jewed upbringing dictates. I saw a video about post-Avatar depression. That blue people film gave some fags who watched it Otherkin Syndrome. These people actually wanted to go to Pandora and be cute-ish blue cat niggers and live on this pretty planet because it seemed so much nicer than earth. The film's "fuck humanity" message stuck with them. They expressed misery and depression and a desire to suicide and reincarnate into pandora. It reminded me of the weeaboos and bronies with similar mindsets. Just like how when Lord Of the Rings was in cinemas... so many people watched it that it turned fags into Elfkin. Losers who decided they were elves on the inside or wanted to act like elves and reincarnate into elves. Did you know? When Elfkin forums got popular many other weirdos went to these forums claiming to be vampires or werewolves or gods or other misc things from movies they saw as children. Elfkin named those weirdos Otherkin. Modernity. It's so "wonderful" that everyone... even the normies... spends all their time and money trying to escape from it.
>>3216 >I don't think I have any interest in modern women They are strange and make no sense to me, it's a waste of time being around them and frustrating, i can't stand them or their stupid interests so it's hard trying to put up with them for very long given they are no better than children, their bodies are the only thing that is interesting about them. >I still like tits and ass but I've never met a woman I actually liked. I have met horses i liked but never a good woman, at least horses have hearts unlike the female apes. >So many of them are shallow selfish "lesser men" with little to offer the world coasting on their privileged gender while robbing men for fun and profit. Most of them are not worth the light of day to see let alone giving attention to, men are stuck within their own world while women are trapped in their surroundings. >When I talk to women I just met I feel like I am waiting for them to disappoint me and reveal themselves to be as terrible and selfish and petty and malicious and short-sighted as their jewed upbringing dictates. It almost always happens, distrust is the logical solution after being betrayed countless times by other members of your species, i am friends with hardly no one for good people are a rare commodity, they are dicks and i hate them all. Their upbringing is spoiled and bratty due to the way society treats them like they are the princesses they aren't, it results in them feeling entitled to just about anything that they don't deserve, the little girls are the ones who get the expensive ponies from their equally Jewish programmed mothers that they get to make run circles for entertainment, they don't care about the wellbeing of others if they get satisfaction out of them so they are not trustworthy at all, they will walk over you like you are an animal until you are pushed to the breaking point then they get away with it. Their behavior is completely akin to full blown psychopathy and modernity has only managed to influence their unruly attitudes. >I saw a video about post-Avatar depression. That blue people film gave some fags who watched it Otherkin Syndrome. Otherkins are unable to accept the scary world outside so they live in an imaginary world where they might have a more fair chance at existing in a world of rainbows, the Christians are no better since all their efforts are towards an imaginary world too. >These people actually wanted to go to Pandora and be cute-ish blue cat niggers and live on this pretty planet because it seemed so much nicer than earth. People so easily fall into any form of abysmal escapism that they can get their heads around or make them feel the nicest, it's pathetic how it's encouraged in the media to act like an utter idiot and stick your head in the ground so you don't have to see the world for the hell that it is. >The film's "fuck humanity" message stuck with them. No wonder, it was Jews encouraging that people are bad as a method of subversion from reality, visual impressions are so greatly impressed upon any fools who believe the scripts and what they influence along with the madness of the media. Fuck humanity is a good message if applied to Jewish controlled civilization since a slaves life is no life, governments are good when they want to be but in general they are destroyers of everything they touch, it isn't humans who are evil but the self entitled brats who love to be in control, they are the ones who should be persecuted but most humans refuse to acknowledge the misdeeds of those 'above' them. >They expressed misery and depression and a desire to suicide and reincarnate into pandora. It reminded me of the weeaboos and bronies with similar mindsets. It is a literal form of giving up and submitting, they get into the mindset of a depressed dog then instead of biting the hand that feeds them poison they take themselves out of the opportunity for revenge against the world, all those wasted lives were spent in toil due to living in the real devils chains, they gave themselves to the government and spent their free time crying about life rather than making a change, it's like the shepherd and his sheep in the way of how sheep are incapable of realizing the situation they are in. >Did you know? When Elfkin forums got popular many other weirdos went to these forums claiming to be vampires or werewolves or gods or other misc things from movies they saw as children Just like with politics or religion, people give themselves names and defend those names for dumb devotion to a false cause, it's ridiculous how they play like the pawns they are with each other, it involves nothing critically concerning nor does any of it meaningfully matter, people are herded into forms of thought from what they see around them then mimic those same behaviors of others for the sole purpose of being apart of a group that does not have the wellbeing of it's members above all. >Modernity. It's so "wonderful" that everyone... even the normies... spends all their time and money trying to escape from it. True, inaction brings no change and escapism is a form of doing nothing note able or worthwhile, playing games whether it be with yourself or others has nothing nice about it since it is only momentary satisfaction, games have strings attached to them that belong to the puppet masters. The normal fags are money slaves and spend their pointless paper to the paper printer puppeteers that they are devout by, they are sheep and cannot understand how they are being corralled into focusing on the petty problems rather than the bigger picture, they refuse to realize they are trapped in a physical hell made by the devils in control, it's a shame how many opportunities mankind misses by being so focused on the nothingness of false reality than taking the steps toward making the real changes needed towards being in a better life. The "progress" of humans has been haltered by living in a world of pointless pleasure than doing what we can to improve it we idle away.
>>3226 I think society will keep focusing on meaningless fleeting pleasures until it regains its drive and understanding of what to strive for. It will put away the shallow entertainment when it rediscovers age-old sources of happiness like community and family and love. It will remember how to stand and walk and run when it remembers what a healthy society should run towards and what a healthy society should leave behind. Like bad ideas and old lies. I don't think "humanism" can work. Not all ideas or ideologies are right. Not all races are equal. Why should America pay out the ass to India for example ust to keep some poor people in India above the poverty line when rich Indians are thriving from cheap labour? If whites controlled that cheap labour we would make it sustainable and pay it fairly because we're nice like that. It would also stop corrupt companies from outsourcing jobs to cheap overseas labour. If you feed a hobo he will come back tomorrow for more. You can only meaningfully help a hobo by giving him a job, the means to pull himself out of poverty. There will always be more poor people somewhere and there will always be more hungry mouths to feed. I don't think it's possible to feed everyone on the planet and I don't think there's any virtue in trying to feed everyone whether they give and take or just take. Most foreigners don't deserve foreign aid. How do we benefit from this arrangement? Africa and India are overcrowded thanks to foreign aid keeping their birth rates high while our own birth rate falls below the replacement rate thanks to the jews. "humanism" says you are nice if you help a lot of "humans" no matter what they contribute to your quest but that just creates dependency and unsustainable population numbers and rapefugees hungry for even more gibs.
>>3231 >I think society will keep focusing on meaningless fleeting pleasures until it regains its drive and understanding of what to strive for. The human herd is being prodded towards engaging in degeneracy and will be lead down the path of living a life of sexual displeasure disgracefully, unless something steers them upwards instead of downward. It's unlikely the world will ever progress past being "progressive" if the ship is headed directly into a storm of cum. >It will put away the shallow entertainment when it rediscovers age-old sources of happiness like community and family and love. If humankind discovers how to live instead of merely existing it will be better off without tiedowns to those who live low in the world. All irrelevant entertainment is unnecessary to have enjoyment, it is optional as a way of living but leads toward an unneeded expense of skill. >It will remember how to stand and walk and run when it remembers what a healthy society should run towards and what a healthy society should leave behind. Running in a direction without a goal is better than having shackles bound to the feet but is running nowhere fast, a plan is needed to not fail the opportunity for being free, any civilization that seeks to help it's people is better than the hidden slavery we currently exist within, at whatever cost freedom is important but requires a definite destination to strive toward so as not to become lost. What is a complete optimal society? What flaws within laws are the most irritating towards achieving structural success? What commodities are really needed in life? >I don't think "humanism" can work. Neither do I, it relies upon giving rather than making which is destined to doom. How can someone give to another foreigner without expecting to get anything in return while maintaining his success? It is hilarious how people defend an order of disorder while getting nothing in return, they are being used no better than dogs if they serve the masters of disasters. >Not all ideas or ideologies are right. Not all races are equal. Every single being is different, nothing is subject to not being exempt from dissimilarities as there is not a thing that is equal, it is a complete lie to state that life is fair to all. Every thought should not be taught but rather learned, it is a waste of time teaching another man's ideas when your own is more important to you, it should be taken from a viewpoint of how to improve than as never to move the structure of the idea of the ideology, life is always moving and to rely on outdated techniques of thought is to be living in the past rather than the present, time has proven that following another man without a plan soon leads to failure, doing what doesn't work is plainly not going to work. >Why should America pay out the ass to India for example ust to keep some poor people in India above the poverty line when rich Indians are thriving from cheap labour? It shouldn't give anything to nobody other than the people it is supposed to serve, America serves Israel like a dog puppet nation and should be severed from the ability to give unconditional support to those who do not care about the state of the states, if you kill the point of supply for someone then they will be forced to look somewhere else for food, destroying every bit of money made by the fed will benefit the world, by killing those those who wish to get rid of us we are preserving ourselves but the method of doing it is most important so as not to attack blindly. The walls of the white house aren't indestructible nor is the money they make. >If whites controlled that cheap labour we would make it sustainable and pay it fairly because we're nice like that. Is the wellbeing of lesser races really in the horoscope of humanity? A person should first be deserving of that support in order to be worth helping. People may be nice but sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind. >It would also stop corrupt companies from outsourcing jobs to cheap overseas labour. The people who do the labor are necessary to complete manual tasks but profit should not be made from them to someone who doesn't do the work, capitalism is easily exploited and creates monopolies that are left to run rampant on their own accord without correction. >You can only meaningfully help a hobo by giving him a job, the means to pull himself out of poverty. Poverty should be worked out of rather than helped out of, one should be able to help himself to then receive support from others. A drug dealer helps habit rather than offering fundamental support, a soup kitchen only gives food than the opportunity for jobs. >There will always be more poor people somewhere and there will always be more hungry mouths to feed. Pitying the poor is akin to being depressed over dogs, it's a food fight that never wins. >I don't think it's possible to feed everyone on the planet and I don't think there's any virtue in trying to feed everyone whether they give and take or just take. Helping everyone in the world is a fantasy that people believe they can do. >Most foreigners don't deserve foreign aid. A bullet is cheaper than the amount of chicken a nigger will eat in his life. >How do we benefit from this arrangement? There are no benefits to government 'benefits', the profit is not for people but for money, the only person who benefits is the money maker. >Africa and India are overcrowded thanks to foreign aid keeping their birth rates high while our own birth rate falls below the replacement rate thanks to the jews. The Jews work to destabilize the world into disarray, they care about only what profit they can make from people. >"humanism" says you are nice if you help a lot of "humans" no matter what they contribute to your quest but that just creates dependency and unsustainable population numbers and rapefugees hungry for even more gibs. It is false generosity that is made to look good so that charities can make money out of misleading people, it's all for money.
>>3275 >How do you break the cycle? You have to begin anew, one cycle stops and another starts, plan out what you have at your disposal then look at the options as to what you can try, then make it or break it by stepping into fresh waters, in or out of the comfort zone. The cycle (ride) never ends, you can only change yourself. Avast you may do things that bring no satisfaction while asking yourself whether there is more to life yet continue doing the same repetitive tasks, there is a world outside and it does exist while you decide if you should stay inside. I am glad to have known and been alongside the few that I have had happiness with, the cycle of friendship ends and another one begins until there is nothing left to love, then a different type of cycle takes ahold of the previous predominant one. Depending on the way the last story ended the new habits can be greatly affected, due to extreme euphoria or crippling depression, one may start doing things abnormal to the typical character of the individual or doing a task more often from an influx of negative or positive stimuli, thus leading to a type of crutch if unhappy emotions are clouding the head or an extreme obsession to something that offers emotional or mental support, positivity is usually accomplished through being surrounded with what makes one happy, if you can somehow manage to find something you greatly enjoy, nourish it and be happy for being happy that you are enjoying something, revel in the opportunity for positivity for there is no sense in being sad over something you devoutly do like or love. Vril would be the go to guy to ask, wherever he is.
>>3277 That makes sense, thank you. I do need a new cycle. A new road to a new me. I thought changing my diet and raising my exercise intensity and cutting fapping and aimless streaming/gooming out of my life would magically make me a new man overnight. Maybe it's going to take time for that to show results, and for the "I miss unhealthy drinks/cooming/gaming" urges to go away. Keeping up with politics is an addicting rush of anger. Sometimes I refresh webpages because I'm desperate for more. It's like a drug and I should probably cut it out of my life too, or limit my news intake to once a week. I want to save people. But for now I can't save anybody. I greatly enjoy art and animating. I greatly enjoy good anime, even though it's so hard to find and the only way to find it is to watch episodes of a load of bad animes that only sound like something I'd like at first before they waste their interesting premise and turn out to be shit. I should draw more. I will draw more.
Haven't thought about him in a long time. I checked if he's still alive and he's shilling his Hyperdimension Neptunia fanfics on reddit. Despite everything I hope he has fun and I hope things turn out alright for him.
>>3278 Glad you still like watching those Japanese 2D picture pornos and drawing swastikas, my interest in art and shows is long gone, it has been replaced by more intimate and intense emotions. My habits and cycles are dwindling further into the abyss day by day, I have given up on improving myself while my infamousness has only grown alongside my perversions and I have found that this pit of depressive deterioration is a hole that has been gnawing at my soul for a long time, it lingers like a noxious gas cloud that has seeped into my surroundings which continues to haunt my actions like a growing hatred that only waxes in loathe. Not exactly what I expected but at least he is still running his cycles, albeit in a dissimilar way.
>>3286 Please don't give up on improving yourself. How will your life improve if you don't do your part to improve it? Losing weight didn't magically cure my depression overnight but it did help me immensely by letting me think to myself "I succeeded and that is proof that I can succeed. My weight loss goals have been met! I am responsible for my own physical and mental health. Calling myself a short fat faggot won't make me taller or buffer" whenever the dark thoughts start coming back.
Ask yourself why your old hobbies don't feel as great, and if you need to kick things up a notch. Once I went through a "Video games don't feel as fun as they used to and TV is boring" phase but then realized I only felt that way when playing mediocre games and dull TV. I was watching/playing these just because I had them, not because I actively liked them or felt any kind of challenge from them.. I'd grown as a man and I needed art that can mentally stimulate me. I needed opportunities to be creative when being productive and opportunities to be creative when playing games. As a child any respite from the outside world and any way to pass the time was a rare treat, I'd play through any shit game just because it was there and I'd beaten my best games over and over, but once you become an adult and have control over your own free time there's nothing wrong with raising your standards and going for the good shit. Even if the good shit means speedrunning an old classic. I don't know if this advice will help you, but it helped a friend of mine who needed to hear that last bit before he could admit to himself he was sick to death of mediocre time-wasting cliche-ridden billion-hour JRPGs and wanted to try something for hardcore gamers that want to learn things and improve at a game while playing it. I taught him fighting games and he's gotten pretty good at Marvel VS Capcom 3 and Doom Eternal. It's hard to remember when he played these games like a game journalist, now that he's good at them. His Vergil actually kicks my Vergil's ass now, and it feels good to have a rival to compete with to better ourselves. once he posted about cycles, now he posts about waifu computers and gaming console girls with computing cycles
>>3288 Look anon, let me be clear with you that I am free to punish myself as I please and success is not important to me whatsoever, I have no hobbies but only habits that bring me satisfaction which is all that I really want, telling myself lies is only half the cake and games aren't enjoyable anymore when all I am doing is playing the same shit over and over as games are only mentally challenging, the challenge for me is getting mares to willingly suck my dick without forcing them, which is more stimulating and harder than any copy pasted mortal combat, to rob a stallion of his brides is my hobby and getting away with it is why I still love it, I don't give a damn about riding horses or any other 'normal' hobby most people have, that same old crap doesn't interest me and it's more fun fooling around with ponies despite what everyone tells me, lifting weights is something anyone, even women can do, diets are just as easy if you care so much about the way you look to others. None of it really matters and whatever I do is down to what I decide, no matter how many words you throw at me I will not submit and do what someone told me to do, I do not care how many virtual trophies you have in Minecraft or your reputation within a gay group, I have done nothing what anyone told me to do in this thread or on this board and I'm just fine the way I am living. Have a nice day, you colossal cunt. Yours truly, horse fucking faggot. PS: I meant everything, except the colossal cunt part, you really should stop worrying about helping people who don't need it, honestly it's pretty god damn gay and you are bound to be fucked over eventually out of supposed 'good' will, I can just as easily toy with your emotions and so can anyone else, so don't give them, or let them, have the opportunity to spit in your face, don't set yourself up to fail if you don't have a plan to help people, don't get sad over why gamers aren't buying your gospel about evil Jews, help whoever you can and tell those who are willing to trust you about (((them))) but don't expect those internet normal fags to instantly believe you because you were the one who told them. Keep doing what you are right now while you are motivated, you have made good progress and I'm sure you will get what you deserve eventually, I got what I wanted after enough searching and I am happy enough where I currently am, the snow is a nice addition and I like waiting for spring, for reasons.By the way, I'm not a person who needs help desperately and telling me something like "How will your life improve if you don't do your part to improve it?" is not gonna win me over to start playing fighting games, I hate them with a passion, also another thing.Vril is a nerdy, filthy, faggot E-girl chaser that runs cycles for sluts.
>>3289 You're right, and I'm sorry if what I said overstepped boundaries. I have no right to give life advice or tell anyone else how to live their lives. And now that you mention it, there's someone who doesn't use this site. I think I'm being manipulated by this person. It's like I only exist for this person when he needs my help with something, and he rarely if ever listens to the advice I give. How common is it for someone whose life is a mess to try and make himself feel better by giving life advice to others? Over the years I saw a lot of people try to give life advice to others even though they needed to take their own advice but didn't. I probably shouldn't diss the guy behind his back but he did the same to others. It's weird how Vril tried so hard to look like he belonged here with the avatarfag-flag and "Name myself after something that seems Based And Redpilled(TM) to me" bullshit but his actions here were so childish and petty. Reminds me of the bullshit I saw idiots do to other idiots on anime roleplaying forums back when I was a preteen. Everything revolved around power and trying to manipulate perceptions with that guy, and it was tiresome. He repeated lines like a NPC. "Welcome to Corneria! Welcome to Corneria! Muh cycles! Muh cycles!". Why was he even here? It's not like he had something to say about ponies that could only be said here like "I didn't like the diversity six" or "This popular fanfic actually sucks dick and here's why" or anything like that. Did he ever disagree with "The Herd" you'll see on mainstream brony sites and their corporation-worshipping normie-tier coombrained faggot opinions? All he ever had to say about politics was the same few pseudointellectual memes about baselessly guessing at the future through the 'mystical power' of cycles AKA fictional-world thinking. "Oh no, we must be in the bad cycle now! But things will surely get better because cycles!". Give me a fucking break, the real world doesn't work like a book where things can only get so bad before the author decides it's time to fix shit with the plot-armoured protagonist. Besides, wasn't "Vril" the name of some german psychic chick society? Or was it the name of some "subterranean master race", or a UFO some UFO-lovers think Hitler had, or some kind of energy-being? Or did he get the name from some alt-history fantasy novel about some fictional race with a stratified caste system? I forget, but I think the flag came from that last one. Fuck caste systems, they're gay. Anyway, good to see he's found some other fandom to try and ingratiate himself into. Maybe if he learns to draw, someone will pay him to draw PS2-chan with a pair of K-cup breasts or something.
I don't have anything major to report on my own life. Still eating healthily, still avoiding porn and masturbation. Only drinking water or fruit juice or fruit smoothies or protein shake. I cooked lasagne today for the first time, it turned out great! Fridge is pretty empty, need to get more meat soon but cupboard is fine. One friend told me he got the new Flu Jab. I don't trust vaccines and I'm not sure if he'd understand "Vaccines bad" if I tried explaining it to him. But I want to try anyway. Where should I start?
>>3291 >You're right, and I'm sorry if what I said overstepped boundaries. It's alright, my reaction was more unprecedented than accordingly appropriate. >I have no right to give life advice or tell anyone else how to live their lives. Maybe if you had children then your teachings would mean more to them than me or anyone else. >And now that you mention it, there's someone who doesn't use this site. I guess he doesn't like pony pussy. >I think I'm being manipulated by this person. Does this guy give you the impression that he doesn't like you? >It's like I only exist for this person when he needs my help with something, and he rarely if ever listens to the advice I give. You know there is more in life to see and experience, you don't have to be bound to what people tell you or want you to do, leave him if you truly feel there is no friendship, if he is no fun then what are you getting out of this deal other than being his slave? If he doesn't appreciate you or spend time talking with you then is he really just using you or he is a false friend? What good has he done for you as opposed to the bad? >How common is it for someone whose life is a mess to try and make himself feel better by giving life advice to others? Probably uncommon I suppose, advising someone is hard and if done incorrectly can end in mistrust or misinterpretation of the help. >Over the years I saw a lot of people try to give life advice to others even though they needed to take their own advice but didn't. The helpless are not able to control their impulses, they cannot be able to have worthwhile wisdom if they have a negative outlook on themselves, it's better to leave people to their own devices than intrude. >Spoiler He has always been a Reddit fag gamer girl console cunt licker and uses books as a shield for his white knighting, he is a nondeified book worshiper that lives in science, all he ever wrote about was numbers and frankly even I was tired of it. The word Vril is symbolized with a German idea of power or energy that exists in everything which can be manipulated in some way to change route to the favored desire, there's a bunch more shit behind it but I suggest you lurk moar and find out for yourself. >I don't have anything major to report on my own life. Some interesting things have been happening around me recently but it is partially my own doings, sometimes slowness can stagnate into boredom so I try avoiding the situation entirely so as to avoid feeling lonely, I have begun to hate playing games by myself as it has started to feel lonely. >Still eating healthily, still avoiding porn and masturbation. Well you're doing better than me at the moment but that's pretty easy to do anyways. >Only drinking water or fruit juice or fruit smoothies or protein shake. Oats are good for you and lower cholesterol, porridge is nice with some form of sweetener. >I cooked lasagne today for the first time, it turned out great! Well done, I recommend homemade shepherds pie if you liked the lasagna, it has vegetables mixed with mince meat and herbs with a layer of mashed potatoes above with cheese on top, goes good with gravy. >Fridge is pretty empty, need to get more meat soon but cupboard is fine. Pork loin and sirloin steak are nice cuts of meat. >One friend told me he got the new Flu Jab. He's fucked. >I don't trust vaccines and I'm not sure if he'd understand "Vaccines bad" if I tried explaining it to him. Someone who has already given their bodies to the system must trust them, if you have enough trust in each other as he does the government then he might believe you but you would have to be closer friends to be able to convince him, although I don't him personally so only you would know. >But I want to try anyway. It's your funeral. >Where should I start? Think about him in an analyzing manner, wonder about if he is oblivious to the world around him, what he does on a daily basis, his routines and passions, come to a conclusion that meets the situation you are in. >>3292 Shit happens.
>(you): >Man fuck that Vril guy amirite? Literally who cares? Besides, you of all people have no grounds to be bitching about other posters, particularly ones who havent been identifiably seen in over a year
>>3295 Makes sense, sorry about that. I'll stop. >>3294 >loneliness I've been there. Playing games with others helps make it go away, but only games where there's communication and a meaningful connection between the players. Team games like League are terrible for this, but have you ever tried Ratz Instagib 2.0? Next time I go shopping, I'll buy what I need for shepherd's pie.
>>3296 >I've been there. We all have at some point. >Playing games with others helps make it go away, but only games where there's communication and a meaningful connection between the players. Don't get me wrong I still like games, it's just that there are more interesting or better things to spend time on, team games only often work well with friends yet fall apart without precise communication, well organized groups can steamroll any game they want but must have some knowledge of the game beforehand, a group of speed runners will be faster than just 1 guy trying to get lucky with RNG. >Team games like League are terrible for this, but have you ever tried Ratz Instagib 2.0? Heard about it a while ago but wasn't interested enough to look into it. >Next time I go shopping, I'll buy what I need for shepherd's pie. Good luck with it, personally I prefer it to lasagna.
>>3298 Shepherds Pie is amazing! And surprisingly simple to cook. I wish my fucktarded boomer parents knew how to cook and cared enough to try. Maybe I'd be healthier now if I got to eat something besides noodles and microwaved random crap growing up. I'm still healthy now though. I don't even miss sugary shite any more. I told some friends I cherished them and one guy asked if I was alright. I think I'm making good progress towards being fine, and I can't wait to see how it feels. Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent. Some were just annoying cunts and some were really dumb, selfish, oblivious, and immature. Does anyone alive have fond memories of their parents? Someone probably does, somewhere. But I don't think I know anyone who does. Saw that BlackPilled video on Die Hard and why it's jew propaganda. How did so many people watch that film without noticing how shit the mom was? Leaving your kids alone on Christmas with an illegal alien so you can try to impress your crackhead peers at a party and get so drunk the baby feels it and work your ass off to make a Japanese businessman rich... Insane. But the film pretends it's normal. And for some kid out there, that probably is normal. This planet's so fucked up. I always hated tortured similes that rely on media references. Say "It was long like a summer's day", not "It was long like the distance between Tattooine and Daygoba" for fuck's sake. Not everything needs to be a fucking reference. But sometimes I think of those characters who come from a destroyed future and are willing to die to prevent that future, even if changing the future for the better means they fade away like an old memory. I know there are people out there who had it worse than me. I met some of them. I'm glad my life so far wasn't worse than it was, and I'm glad I woke up to justice in time. Real justice, not those jew lies. I think improving myself and my life makes me feel happy. I'm not sure, but I think this is what happiness feels like.
>>3300 >Shepherds Pie is amazing! Nice to get some feedback on a dish I recommended, really I didn't half expect you to do it, thanks for going ahead and trying it though. >And surprisingly simple to cook. Sometimes simplicity is more satisfying rather than going all out, you don't have to break a leg to please yourself. There are lots of foods to indulge in, the world is your oyster to try whatever suits your palate pleasantly. >I wish my fucktarded boomer parents knew how to cook and cared enough to try. So many kids have become accustomed to the laziness of sloth style fake food, some families rarely know the treat of meals made with love and it's disheartening, like Léon Degrelle said, the family structure is being torn apart. >Maybe I'd be healthier now if I got to eat something besides noodles and microwaved random crap growing up. I remember trying those microwaved lasagnas and hating it, the taste is like plastic with a mix of horsemeat. >I'm still healthy now though. That's alright, you can still fix yourself through appropriate care and appreciation of your success. >I don't even miss sugary shite any more. Empty sugars are really pointless other than to aid in making you obese. >I told some friends I cherished them and one guy asked if I was alright. People are prone to be sympathetic to another's discomfort, they will feel sorry for the soul that had it's childhood corrupted. >I think I'm making good progress towards being fine, and I can't wait to see how it feels. Good luck with that, there is one thing I will warn you against and that is don't exceed your mental or physical limits, you are bound to be disappointed if you put too much trust in the future. >Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent. There are people who meet someone who have enough similarities in conjunction with one another that leads to attraction which may prove to work out or not, the dating culture should cease to exist due to it's inadequacy at creating children, the way natural attractivity works does not base from that of complete and utter opposites, the incompatibility of men or women who have nothing in accordance within interests has proven to be ineffective at providing long term relationships. I would get better on with a crazy horse girl that matched my insanity than some typical bimbo bitch. >Some were just annoying cunts and some were really dumb, selfish, oblivious, and immature. There are certain people who were born to be dicks and assholes. >Does anyone alive have fond memories of their parents? Someone probably does, somewhere. But I don't think I know anyone who does. Yes there are good times, as well as bad, I've had good and bad times with my parents. >Shit movies made by Hollywood Jews. They are poison to the brain and should be taken as jokes, There are good and bad movies which Jews almost always have made to be objectively terrible at what flicks should strive for, the ordinary shows are garbage and are not that of the quality from the past, the modernity of television favors quantity over quality while having the ability of 'copyrighting' whatever they desire. >And for some kid out there, that probably is normal. Kids are innocent to the mercy of those older than them, they have no choice to do what they really want to. >This planet's so fucked up. Yes, it is. We are truly living in an era of chaos. >Not everything needs to be a fucking reference. They should keep more to themselves and encourage creativity more within the multitude of arts. >But sometimes I think of those characters who come from a destroyed future and are willing to die to prevent that future, even if changing the future for the better means they fade away like an old memory. Men have become weak, the modern man does not bask in glory beyond that he achieves within a game nor do they engage in any worthwhile challenges to their very being, a man should take risks to do what they desire than wasting away in these modern caves. The boys are being castrated and feminized to be faggots by outside influences beyond their understanding, these normal lives are all meaningless and boring when there are no sacrifices to be made. No one really wants to have something to die for anymore and these mundane lives do not make a man mighty. >I'm glad my life so far wasn't worse than it was, and I'm glad I woke up to justice in time. Real justice, not those jew lies. You definitely made the right choice, at least you have some degree of wisdom. >I think improving myself and my life makes me feel happy. I'm not sure, but I think this is what happiness feels like. It's always a pleasure to learn and experience new things every once in while, as long as it's worth doing.
>>3300 >Eventually people reveal their tragic backstories and it sounds like everyone on the planet had at least one shit boomer parent. Well stories about good parents is fewer, and the normal and good times seem to be buried. It's personal and to some degree feels like bragging. Well my grandparents those who were alive had their moments with their children, my parents ect., that qualified for that sometimes. As the grandchild it was different as the good kid, they were nice and caring if different motives. Frankly my parents are awesome considering everything. Sure there are moments when I disagree or looking back would have adjusted things, but as people they are decent. Wouldn't trade them for anything. They aren't perfect but I love them all the same, and the feeling is mutual. It's a miracle considering some of the wacky shit that happened with them and around them and their siblings. It makes a person thankful for what they have, and the hardships others went through.
I love you guys. I really do. Those jew bastards are warring with us constantly and you'd think we'd all talk like perpetually-scowling angry people since that's how the TV usually depicts war vets when it isn't playing the shell-shocked ones for sympathy/tragedy. But here we are, and here there is real positivity. Here there is good advice from wise masculine men. This genuine culture focused on self-improvement is good for the soul. It warms my heart to know our souls are not dead.
Watched a painfully generic action movie online with friends today but I forgot its name. The film was full of gay jew shit and I took a piss break halfway through, but I'm proud of myself for hiding my power level yet swiftly and unobtrusively using one-liners and "Is she seriously...?" questions to help others notice and laugh at the most obvious and simplest-to-understand parts of propaganda. One girl whined "They fridged her!" when a woman died in the film. I asked her "Was it fridging when the hero's parents died in every kid's movie ever? Was John Wick's dog fridged?" That shut her up but I don't know if it made her think or not. If a movie wasn't on she'd probably bitch loudly for a while without really saying anything. They insist "Fridge-ing" is when a female character is killed off for the plot or for a male character's motivation. They insist depicting the killing/harming of women is responsible for real women being harmed, because they need something to blame for what's caused by the way they import rapefugees who love to rape poor women and steal/traffic daughters and randomly attack whites who are sometimes women. They also insist Frigde-ing is only fine when feminist writers do it, because it's just a power-grab. They want to spread lies and censor artists and feel like they have the power to "Sanitize fiction" and mold it to their shitty mary-sue-loving power-tripping standards. "Oy vey, a real stronk womyn can never struggle or die, don't you know? Oy vey, won't someone please forget about the men starving on the streets outside our windows and think of the fictional women?" Feminists love pointing at fiction made by feminist jews as evidence that the world's anti woman. Because if films show Jason Vorehes and Nightmare Clawhands (bad guys) killing men and women and fans/critics cry for the women while the men they kill rarely if ever get mentioned by fans or critics, then surely it means society's normalized violence against women riiight? It's just normal for a film to kill characters off, especially once they've outlived their usefulness. It's normal for characters to die in service of the plot or another character's motivation. It was good writing when The Empire killed Luke Skywalker's parents and burned his farm down. Made him extra-motivated and removed his ability to back out of saving the galaxy. Sometimes a baddie will kidnap/kill an adult male character's girlfriend/wife to piss him off but that's because doing the same to the male character's ageing parents or pet puppy or box of old collector's item dolls just wouldn't have the same impact. Films have killed men to shock/motivate women, killed kids to shock/motivate parents, and killed parents to shock/motivate children. Was it fridge-ing when the Shark from Jaws ate all those people or Darth Vader blew up a planet to shock the audience and motivate the heroes to stop the baddies? When nameless masses fled from disasters or perished in them, was that "fridge-ing"? If you only watch films with gay characters and only the horror movies where everyone but one character dies so therefore the gays probably die you're obviously a faggot desperate to have something to complain about. And don't get me started on how many animes give the hero dead or missing parents. Or how many times, in anything ever, the master teacher guy dies! Someone with more free time than me could probably go through a bunch of movies and animes and compare the number of dead parents and dead husbands and dead teachers and dead kids and dead pets to dead wives/girlfriends. But it wouldn't change the mind of a feminist. At bet you can get them to shut up for a while, but they'll always be weaponized karens until society turns against this behaviour and stops elevating women above men so hard that some men actually end up wanting to be stepped on and treated like shit by women.
I thought about making a thread where we post movie names and then discuss if they're jewish pozzed propaganda or not and why. But for everyone to discuss those jew films we would need to see them. Watching all those propaganda films might fuck someone's head up. Though taking the piss out of them could be fun. A normie friend said he hates the new Star Trek and misses the old Star Treks, which he watched as a kid. So I thought about Star Trek, I heard it turned many into "Futurist" libtards convinced the future will let them be as cool as Kirk and Picard combined times four in a universe of flying cars and friendly aliens and Replicators that give you everything for free and no money or jobs. Going through that show episode by episode together and talking about why this episode was dumb wrong gay jewish propaganda, or written so bad it was accidentally anti-black instead of pro-black, or childish commie bullshit could be fun and interesting.
>I love you guys. No homo, right? >I really do. Whatever, I love you too, you massive faggot. I get what you're on about, I agree with why you don't like the Jews and their movies or the gullible women who love those shit shows made by kikes, I agree with you on all that bullshit too. Why do I agree with you? Because you give a reason with an answer to why it's wrong. I want to let you know that you are welcome to write about whatever you want to, you are not doing anything wrong by complaining about walking vaginas saying some stupid shit, I don't really have much to write about movies and anime, nor do I really give a shit about star wars or star trek, I like being here with you, I'm not too interested about what you are into but that is my preference, you are free to write what pleases you and I won't complain too much, unless you write something dumb or I get flustered over ponies, we don't have much to complain about and I'm glad you like it here with me, you don't really know me but I think we have a lot in common, except you're a bigger faggot. I'm not a fan of thriving from conflict or being argumentative, I'm here to have fun and be a dickhead sometimes, we can be friends while we're here together, so long as we both respect one another I think we'll get along fine. there isn't a whole lot that I have against you so it's cool but time will tell what will happen.
>>3307 >Is it possible to bruise your elbows by exercising too hard? Yes, when you are training hard with heavy weights there can be a point where your body will require rest, if your arms are still hurting then you should just let them heal for a while. >I think I did that and can't extend my arms fully. There is a certain amount of strain for all bones and if you have been working hard on those joints then maybe you could have hurt them.
Arms are recovering nicely. About a week or two ago I really fucked one of my feet up. Came down too hard on it when running, bruising the heel. Also got infected skin and the muscles/nerves in my foot practically fucking dissolved from the swelling. Couldn't wiggle or separate my toes or pull them closer together or bend my foot towards my legs. Was stuck in bed for many days. I remember turning up 5 hour music mixes and trying to drift away from the pain. Painkillers didn't take it all away. I thought I would never walk again. Every so often I would feel this weird twitching sensation along a line inside my foot as though I was a puppet and that puppet-string necessary for foot movement was reconnecting itself. But I got better. I did physical therapy myself, stretching and exercising my foot. Learned to walk with crutches and one foot fast. Walked on both feet with crutches, and eventually stopped needing crutches. Now the foot only hurts when I walk on it for the first time every day or after a long rest, but the pain goes away after about a minute of walking. Will that eventually go away?
>Arms are recovering nicely. Alright then, hope you take it easy while you recover. >About a week or two ago I really fucked one of my feet up. At least you didn't lose it or break it. >Came down too hard on it when running, bruising the heel. Bruises heal, eventually, it's the pain that you can't run away from. >Also got infected skin and the muscles/nerves in my foot practically fucking dissolved from the swelling. At first when you get an injury it hurts like a bitch but over time it gets better. >Couldn't wiggle or separate my toes or pull them closer together or bend my foot towards my legs. Once you can do circles with your foot without it hurting then it will be fine but for the moment keep yourself out of danger while you let your wounds heal accordingly to your body's recovering rate, you will know when you are alright to start beginning new projects at the correct timing. >Was stuck in bed for many days. It gets boring sometimes when stuck in between 4 walls. >I remember turning up 5 hour music mixes and trying to drift away from the pain. Distractions can help you forget about the pain but it's easier to just accept and work around it, don't let it bother you too much given it's only temporary. >Painkillers didn't take it all away. Strong pain reducing drugs can't get rid of the struggles you have to face later or in the moment, there are some things that cannot be avoided and you must look back on this experience while taking some form of wisdom away from it, the future promises to brighter if you can see the light at the end of road while ignoring the darkness surrounding you, you fucked your foot up and walked away from it with a mark to remind you of your errors. >I thought I would never walk again. You were overreacting a bit too much but your worries shall soon come to an end, you have endurance to withstand it for now and pain is a part of life as torture is temporary and all the 9 circles of hell you have to endure are there for you to be tested to your limits. >Every so often I would feel this weird twitching sensation along a line inside my foot as though I was a puppet and that puppet-string necessary for foot movement was reconnecting itself. Well that must be your nerves or the other bones in the heel, the biology and anatomy of our bodies is weirdly complex. >But I got better. The rain will clear soon and sun will shine down on you, all you have to do is be patient. >I did physical therapy myself, stretching and exercising my foot. Learned to walk with crutches and one foot fast. Walked on both feet with crutches, and eventually stopped needing crutches. This must be new to you to have to be bed bound in chains, it broke down your views and you must learn to get past this situation for yourself. >Now the foot only hurts when I walk on it for the first time every day or after a long rest, but the pain goes away after about a minute of walking. Will that eventually go away? Yes, it will, ride the pain train till you can't no longer, withstand the storm over your head and you will see freedom some point soon, everyone is subject to some form of injury that slows them down until they get back to their feet, get back up from where you have fallen and face your fears with your head high till death do you part, stand up and be strong in the face of fate.
>>3310 Thank you. A few days ago, some woman artist normie said she wanted to collab with me on a game where I do all the work and all she does is draw things plus I have to use her characters exactly how she wants. Lol women. I expected her to flake out at the earliest opportunity. So I said "Okay, let's make a fighting game. Here's a list of what you'll need to draw. I'll program everything, you just draw the following animations..." and she went quiet after a list of the basic stand/walk/crouching/crouched/blocking/crouched blocking/jumping animations. For one out of eight characters. I didn't even mention attack animations because I didn't think we'd get far enough into this project for anyone to even consider that. Whenever I tried reaching her she "left me on read" as the kids say/do. And right now, after multiple days of childish silence, I got a message where she says "I don't want to work together on this project cos I don't want to make a game" Women, am I right? Can't rely on them for anything, not even if this was her idea from the start. I'm glad I didn't actually put in any work while waiting for her to fulfill a promise for once. She's flaked out of artist collabs before. I expected her to be a total girl about this and that's what she was. That's all she was. I'm not upset about this and I don't want to sound like I'm upset and denying it. I expected this completely. I didn't expect her to blow my expectations out of the water but I feel like I wish I did. We're only friends because we like the same kinds of shows. I wish I knew what it's like to think the world of someone. I wish she had passion and drive and creativity. I wish she actually tried at life instead of lazily drifting through it and expecting the best (im)possible result every time. There are a lot of people I respect but she isn't one of them. I wish I knew what magic words and correct dialogue option I could say that would get her to start getting her shit together.
>>3315 >A few days ago, some woman artist normie said she wanted to collab with me on a game where I do all the work and all she does is draw things plus I have to use her characters exactly how she wants. Not that surprising, you present yourself as being knowledgeable of coding so obviously you are going to attract people trying to take advantage of you. >Lol women. Haha, yes, haha, ho ho, he he ha, he ha ho, very funny. >I expected her to flake out at the earliest opportunity. So I said "Okay, let's make a fighting game. Here's a list of what you'll need to draw. I'll program everything, you just draw the following animations..." and she went quiet after a list of the basic stand/walk/crouching/crouched/blocking/crouched blocking/jumping animations. For one out of eight characters. I didn't even mention attack animations because I didn't think we'd get far enough into this project for anyone to even consider that. Whenever I tried reaching her she "left me on read" as the kids say/do. It's evident that she makes promises she can't keep, you gave her the chance to work together with you and she failed to go through with the plan, it's probable that she may be acting out of emotion towards you, rather than even attempting to do it she backs out when called to do work. >And right now, after multiple days of childish silence, I got a message where she says "I don't want to work together on this project cos I don't want to make a game" It is a half faced lie, she is prioritizing desires above teamwork and that will be her doom if she cannot learn to work around problems, she might specifically not want to be your partner also as a way of avoiding you, she has emotional fantasies of being an artist yet cannot gather the courage to do something beyond her capability. >Women, am I right? Can't rely on them for anything, not even if this was her idea from the start. It is a tendency of theirs to be opposed to success when faced with big scary decisions that surpass their expectations, modern women are little girls trapped in a mad world. >I'm glad I didn't actually put in any work while waiting for her to fulfill a promise for once. She's flaked out of artist collabs before. I expected her to be a total girl about this and that's what she was. That's all she was. I'm not upset about this and I don't want to sound like I'm upset and denying it. You have been let down for the millionth time by those you know you shouldn't trust, all your actions and behaviors were planned from the moment you met this woman, it was her actions that told you everything that needed knowing. >I expected this completely. Naturally, we both would have done the same. >I didn't expect her to blow my expectations out of the water but I feel like I wish I did. We're only friends because we like the same kinds of shows. Putting trust into someone (especially the opposite sex) is betting against the devil. >I wish I knew what it's like to think the world of someone. I wish she had passion and drive and creativity. I wish she actually tried at life instead of lazily drifting through it and expecting the best (im)possible result every time. Your hopes of others exist within the walls of your imagination, hate to break it to you, but these wishes are wasted, the creations of the mind are nothing without actions to fulfill dreams. >There are a lot of people I respect but she isn't one of them. That is agreeable. >I wish I knew what magic words and correct dialogue option I could say that would get her to start getting her shit together. Find out what fuels her fears, she shies and cowers from the tasks, burdens and expectations that she has been faced with in the past, she is afraid of losing so her preferred choice is to never to put herself in that situation where there is a daunt of disaster of being the loser, her habit is to run from danger rather than owing up to it, the threat of her social integrity is in danger when threatened by a challenge that scares her ability to feel good in ignorance of her skill.
>>3317 You're unnervingly right about this woman. She has no father figure and a petty overemotional boomer mother who is terrible at communicating and worse at treating others like people to talk to and reason with instead of whining at them about unrelated shit when dissatisfied with them and hoping they guess what's making her butthurt. She was going to art college to learn animation but she failed a end of year test twice and had to redo the year twice in a row. but her mom somehow convinced her to take a year off from college and learning animation to spend doing housework and getting a job. This... this year. In this economy. In the middle of the World Government's Cockdown and World War Three against whites. She's white but ashamed to be white thanks to her stupid boomer mother and feminist brainwashers. Shitty boomers probably go to super hell when they die. Dante's Inferno left that circle out because it was too shocking for audiences at the time. This girl draws like Steven Universe fucked Isabelle the dog and the baby has rounded rectangles disease. She says she's "studying cuteness like Sanrio" but if she isn't tracing the calarts toonboom style or FIM poners she can't draw. Or animate. Jesus what has this girl been doing for years at college besides whining to me via text about how she wishes she had a social life and a billion dicks in her ass. Is it weird to be glad that she's too scared to go to parties because it means there's no chance of bad shit happening there? Anyway this lazy scared girl, let's call her Joan. She's being groomed by feminists metaphorically speaking, they are brainwashing her and every time I show her evidence that feminists are wrong or evil she clams up and stops thinking. Her mom is easily able to guilt her into doing whatever she wants but she feels no shame at anything unless an adult tells her to. Also she is terrified of upsetting the perpetually upset twitter tards and refuses to believe "you should not give a fuck about them" is good advice. They also influenced her art by making her afraid of big tiddy and drawing hot babes. If she has to draw boobs she makes them pointy and curved the wrong way. She keeps trying to mentally regress into a toddler state 24/7 and as someone who is sexually into age play and hypnotism this disgusts me because she's doing it wrong. That was a joke, hypnotism is gay and age play disgusts me unless wanting to impregnate anime milfs counts. That's the only acceptable form of it. Anyway she's weird. but maybe if we met in person she could temporarily age regress on purpose and then I could pat her head and call her the bravest little princess or whatever the fuck dads are supposed to do to make sure their kids turn out right? Is that what girls like her are into? Would that help her? Is this something I can do over the phone? If she was a character in a visual novel there would be a sidequest where you fix all her problems by telling her fucking obvious advice until she decides to listen to it. And maybe getting her away from her mom and into a healthier environment. My imaginary girlfriend thinks this woman is an idiot and time I spend talking to Joan instead of exercising or meditating or eating healthily or working is a waste of time. But I wish I knew how to talk Joan out of being like this and into being completely mentally healthy just like me. That is also a joke because I don't think I can call myself healthy yet. I am still recovering from a lifetime of bad influences and still trying to grow into a proper intelligent, wise, heroic man.
It doesn't feel right for me to talk about someone behind their back like this. But if I want good advice that can help me solve this person's problems I need to be honest. I don't hate this person, I just can't think of anything positive to say about her even though I want to say nice things about her to balance things out. Joan's mom is an annoying cunt but she doesn't seem evil like my mom was. My mom enjoyed hurting others. But this boomer tard just seems like she's used to having everything go her way without putting in much effort. She certainly never gave Joan life advice for better or worse.
>>3319 >>3320 >>3324 I'd say your first move should be to be ho est with yourself about why you give a damn. By all indications you seem to have all incentive to tell her to kick rocks. And yet you do not. >But I still want to try and fix her Why? Are you certified to administer as a counselor, therapist, or psychologist? Are things going so well for you - all your ducks in a row, all your goals and projects that warrant your actual diligence are complete or overwhelmingly completed - that you have an abundance of time to commit to this wamen? Be honest. No rationalizations or excuses allowed. Your behavior toward this rapidly and increasingly worthless wamen is a symptom of something else. Put off facing it at your peril.
>>3325 I will be honest with you even if this sounds weird. I like the idea of helping others. I think it would be nice for me if she got her shit together and became someone I can talk to intellectually without her retreating into her metaphorical pillow fort whenever things start scaring her. Some of my friends are getting their shit together because I inspired them and gave them entry-level redpills. It feels nice to talk to them about getting your shit together and how shit we used to be. I know I shouldn't sacrifice my own wellbeing for hers so I won't. I am not a qualified quackdoctor paid to do that. If I try and fix her and she doesn't listen I won't beat myself up over it or hate her, I'll just stop trying to help her and stop feeling bad for her. I'll be able to tell myself I did the right thing even if it doesn't work out. I don't simp for her and I don't want sex with her. So I don't have some stupid fantasy where I solve all her problems and then get to bone her or marry her and have ten kids. She is unappealing. I can name three people I know IRL I'd rather be with. I'm not driven by lust or desperation. I'm driven by the thought that a good person should try to help others if he can do so without compromising his ability to help more people. If she can't be helped by me or anyone then that knowledge will give me closure. But right now I can't stop myself from thinking that maybe I could help her if I just knew what to say.
>>3326 Did this sound too harsh/mean/weird? Whenever I wrote down something that sounded nice like "I want to help her because I feel bad for her and think it would be nice to see her happy for once" I deleted it and replaced it with something that sounded less sappy.
>>3319 >You're unnervingly right about this woman. These types of women are predictable and they share cloned characteristics, they are programmed to think a certain way. Wouldn't it be funny if those were lucky guesses I made like some kind of magician? >Backstory She's a bad artist that has been lead down a red road by left-tits who are manipulating her, nothing eye catching. >Anyway she's weird. Sounds funny coming from you. >but maybe if we met in person she could temporarily age regress on purpose and then I could pat her head and call her the bravest little princess or whatever the fuck dads are supposed to do to make sure their kids turn out right? Genuinely try to give her ideas for drawing and help her draw while praising her work, even if it looks like a 5 year old drew it, keep advising her on paying closer detail to being slower with her lines and circles, if you try mentoring her art style too quickly or continuously criticizing her 'art' it may remind her of her father, just try being genuine and friendly while going with the flow of the moment, if she's alright with being close to you then making a move to persuading her actions will be easier, getting a lost woman to listen to your ideas might work but it has to be slowly as you will have to learn her and how to step carefully into her comfort zone, if you can give enough support she has potential to listen to what you have to tell her, if you can wedge your way into being that fallback pillow for her to come crying to, then you have a chance, when you have yourself the pillar that she holds onto then you will be able to do what you want, she is lacking in embracement by her father as he has never been there for her to coming crying to, be the giver of affection that soothes her sobbing then she will be utterly at your mercy, give her what she craves to her by simply being there for her to cry on or for her to open up to, either way she will eventually begin to see you as a role model while the intimacy deepens, keep this up while being her teddy bear to cry onto, she is mostly innocent in heart as her immature thoughts are that of a confused girl without any parental guidance, she is afraid of what she doesn't know and if you can explain to her in a comforting manner that you want to help her then she may accept your advances towards you being there to support her, these daddy deprived women are looking for a father figure who is there for them to listen to them talk when they are frightened with moral decisions, don't come on too strong and she will decide to choose you, when you are in the right circumstance and if you play your cards right. >How do red pill feminist? Sounds like a tough challenge, the spell is broken if you can get close enough to her that she'll trust you more than her twitter followers, good luck with that, if your primary goal is to 'help' make Joe Anne bend to your command then you need to make yourself a trustworthy friend or her boyfriend, she might trust you that bit better if there is a closer bond between you both, which means your influence over her thoughts will be stronger, she is likely to be a man hater and if so will be harder to get her to do what you want since she has told herself to not listen to advice from the opposite sex, get to be around her a bit more often to learn her patterns and behaviors, let's say you have known her for about a year or perhaps less, over time that trust will slowly build up until she is more accepting to your wants (assuming she doesn't try to get away from you) then she will begin to listen to you if you give her some affection rather than forcing yourself onto her, spend time with her and get to be her friend then maybe she will believe you are trying to help, situations will come together in a way where you are the one for her, don't push yourself too much in her face or she might get scared that you are a danger to her wellbeing and interests. >>3320 >>3324 >>3326 >>3327 You are nervous about what she may think about your actions and thought process, this is in anticipation of the desired outcome and is fairly ordinary, you are lying to yourself if you claim to be completely uninterested in her, you wouldn't have brought this woman here if she wasn't on your mind, there is something about her that intrigues you, am I wrong to suggest that she reminds you of your own upbringing? You are under the assumption that she can be dissuaded because she is sitting in a similar situation like you have previously been, look at what are her influences and deduct whether she is savable from them, remember that this is is a gradual process of learning how to befriend and comfort this woman so she falls into your arms without forcing it, you must be willing to be dedicated to her for you to have any impact on her thoughts or feelings, if you are in the back of her head then you are not going to be a grand subject of question to her, let alone be of any importance, don't worry too much and you will be fine with her.
>>3328 This sounds like good advice, but up until now I was always told men who try to become the "shoulder women cry on" just end up stuck in that role forever as "beta male cuck orbiters" who get "friendzoned". Supposedly she sees you as the boring safe backup option while she runs around trying all the dangerous criminal crackhead/buff chad dick expecting sex with her to turn them into her ideal husbands. Also supposedly she starts seeing you as an object who'll always be there no matter how she treats you, because she assumes you enjoy her interactions as much as she does and you enjoy wiping her tears as much as she enjoys having them wiped away. Are you sure I won't end up like that? I'm open to the idea that I was lied to about women because this technique's actually super effective. But so many losers get cucked by being too nice and supportive and unconditionally loving towards women that view dedicated and loving men as a boring safe option to settle for after turning fourty if he hasn't found a better option. How do i avoid that fate? Joan already comes to me when she needs a shoulder to cry on or some advice. Is this good?
When it comes to our backgrounds, she was neglected by a lazy whore mother who didn't care how her habits and behaviours affected her daughter, but I was actively abused by two lying narcissistic parents who enjoyed hurting me and tormenting me and spreading lies about me. Child protective services aided and abetting them, this obese whore showed up to my parents house whenever kid-me trusted someone enough to talk to them about my home life and answer questions like "Why do your eyes look so tired?" and "Where did those bruises come from?" honestly. And because I'm disabled I wasn't allowed to move out on my own, and my parents stole my money so I couldn't just sneak out one night with a pocket full of cash and a dream. I couldn't get away until I became the problem of adult protective services, who finally helped me get away from my parents.
Joan doesn't take important things seriously or put effort into achieving any goals she sets for herself or has set for her. And she wastes too much time worrying about nonsensical bullshit like "I'm worried the 10ish year age gap between the gay simpsons characters I'm writing fanfiction lemons about is too big! And I'm worried there are toxic power dynamics going on!". Both are adults, who gives a fuck? It's gay bullshit about the fucking simpsons, who gives a fuck?! If you write faggots as abusive cunts, women get off on it even more! Probably. Women loved Fifty Shades of Grey for being degenerate bullshit just like gayness. So if you combined gay with fifty sharts of gay you'd get the secret to the money of dumb women everywhere. Also it annoys me that she blindly listens to her whiny mom, who just says random bullshit whenever she's upset even if it makes Joan cry for hours. She wastes hours every day watching trashy normie tv shows that don't help her art or relate to art, such as The Jeremy Kyle Show. When she's not watching shit like that she's watching the same 3 Cartoon Network cartoons from her childhood over and over. It's very rare that she makes art, and I don't know when she practices art or if she ever does. She did go through a "I want to bone Jack Skellington and Sans Undertale" phase but that ended and now she's in a "I fetishize gay men and want to see them fuck and I love how much easy positive feedback I get for posting this on twitter" phase. How can I introduce her to new things? I have a lot of animes I want to show her but she's been brainwashed into thinking all anime is pedo shit that's morally wrong for having big tiddies and fanservice. This ignorant slut couldn't sit through episode one of cowboy bebop. She said Tea Gardener from Yugioh dresses like a slut when I showed her yugioh! Pic related, it's Tea from Yugioh. Joan also said she hated books when I tried introducing her to some good ones. At least she never read Harry Potter, right? If she's going to write stories that are actually good for once she needs a wider "Pallete" of ideas in her head to draw from when designing original stories/animations/characters/cartoon ideas that are actually original. Everything she writes still feels like a fanfic for something else with most of the names changed because she still hasn't figured out how to put original spins on ideas she's seen before. There's so much obvious shit she just doesn't get. And when I try to help her she just ignores any piece of advice she doesn't like hearing. Also she's stuck in the "Feel depressed and empty, try to fill the void with distractions, fail, repeat" cycle. How do I get her out of that?
>>3326 >I like the idea of helping others. Of course you do. Everyone does. But, rattle this around wit ur tea at 4:00. Are you willing to take responsibility for being both incapable to provide the 'help' you envision AND the repercussions? Seriously. I'll let Jordan Peterson say it, cuz it clearly not listening. "Set your house in perfect order before you criticize the world" Is your house even in order, let one perfect order? Cuz until then, what business do you have? Who elected you to so graciously sprinkle your opinions upon people? The fucking nerve of this bong!. You could have avoided this by being honest. I told you no rationalizations, but u didnt lisyen.
You want to save ppl cuz then you're absolved of saving yourself. Fix yourself.
>>3330 But my house seems to be in order now. I have a healthy daily schedule full of good habits and I work on my projects at a sustainable rate, I sleep regularly, I exercise and eat healthily, I don't feel like an empty shell any more, I found God and the light and love of God and Jesus Christ, I have no contact with my abusive parents, and I don't blame myself for how they treated me. I nutted in my sleep last night but my nofap streak is still strong. I even got myself heavier weights and a standing punchbag for more health and more varied exercise. Punching the fuck out of it feels good. I cook my own high quality meals. I have a circle of friends I unironically care about and it feels good to be a good influence on them. But at the same time I avoid being too preachy/political with them. I save that talk for when it's needed instead of saying that stuff constantly like some sitcom character gimmick. Sure I could be buffer and richer and I still don't have a car but as far as things go I think I'm doing pretty well.
Anon, without going into too much detail, there are places you can work through this kind of stuff alongside or without therapy. I haven't read most of this thread but the little I've glanced at makes me think you might be able to benefit from this. It'll be there if and when you need it, and this isn't your typical AA-style meeting, where the only objective is appears to be not to drink; this program is specifically to help work through issues like these and have them stop affecting people's lives well into adulthood. Nor is ACA reserved for children of alcoholics. It's for anyone that comes from a broken home. https://adultchildren.org/literature/laundry-list/
I won't be able to help you work through any of the particular issues you've mentioned thus far but I'd be happy to answer any questions you might have about the program itself.
>>3329 >Friend zone. The friend zone is where you get placed on a scale set by a woman on how valuable of an asset you are to her, if to her you're worth keeping around then you will be used as a tool for whatever she wants, usually they see you as desperate and a reliability that craves attention so they put you on a pedestal of attractiveness. >Are you sure I won't end up like that? Depends on how you present yourself, you are the one who puts your feet into dangerous territory. No, I'm not sure but women are deceitful so take care. >How do I get her out of that? It is ultimately down to her, forcing someone to change themselves because you told them to works only in specific situations, where there are lines of respect and understanding between one another, the mutual care flourishes while cooperation becomes second nature. Make a move and see what happens but be prepared for consequences that will be brought after the action has been taken, concoct a plan and fulfill it while developing psychological strategies to enact perfectly according to the subjects own patterned psyche, organize your decisions carefully, if you fail to grasp or understand the magnitude of what you are planning then you should go back to the drawing board.