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Tulpashit thread
Anonymous
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No.2530
2532
I have one tulpa I made 5 or 6 years ago. She's a Unicorn and she used to be a Twilight Sparkle knockoff before becoming her own pony Unicorn with her own name and looks. But recently, she's been thinking of redesigning her body and abandoning her ponyness, replacing it with some other animal nature. Maybe even designing a human body.

She's a living idea, and we aren't sure what effect redesigning her body will have on her. She's afraid her pony body is limiting her and she's lost her love for ponyness. She once went through a stage where we pretended she's some kind of magic quantum spirit from another dimension with her own pony world memories, but she stopped doing that after a few months of being alive.
Anonymous
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No.2532
2534
>>2530
So...
I'd recommend fully detailing how she looks like now so there is a very solid understanding of what to go back to, and where to go forward.
Technically anykind of thought form can have any kind of shape and form.
The form isn't the part that matters* it's the underlying personality. I will say that the form can direct and focus the personality to be who they want, and emphasize certain traits.
All mental stuff for now. This also applies to you and how (You) see yourself. Also how others perceive you.
*The form is very important, but fucking around with the shape should be fine.
I HIGHLY recommend having a sense of self and a form to return to. A metaphorical anchor so you don't get lost.

>She's afraid her pony body is limiting her
Welcome to being human (alive), I recommend exploring those limits and becoming better and stronger. While being pseudo-bodyless on Earth is quite limiting its also a wholly different existence.
>she's lost her love for ponyness
How so?

I come from a /x/ magic background as such that's the hammer I'll be using.
Anonymous
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No.2534
2535 2540
>>2532
She wants to redesign the physical appearance she has to be less of a Who Framed Roger Rabbit kind of "2D MLP Unicorn that hopped right out of the screen" and more of a realistic-looking furred creature. A non-horse creature.
She's even more sick of the MLPFIM TV show than I am, and she's never had any good experiences talking to bronies or fellow tulpa-havers. She's tired of looking like a cartoon unicorn, and wants to design something new and exciting for herself but she's not sure what.
Anonymous
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No.2535
2536 2537 2540
>>2534
>She's even more sick of the MLPFIM TV show than I am, and she's never had any good experiences talking to bronies or fellow tulpa-havers.
Oof.
>she's not sure what.
Well a list of things she doesn't want to be, and what is important to her would be useful for cooperating to test out appearances.
Various media, myths, cartoons, even some forms of porn can be useful for determining what you both like and dislike. Nothing beats giving something for a whirl though.
Something distinctly alive is a good idea just about every time. Unblemished, and without major illness or tumor like stuff is a good guideline.
Not having a body is very much not recommended, later on in about twenty years might be fine, but...
Having someone for the consciousness to reside is very useful.
I don't really recommend reptile based physiology due to the paranormal warfare done by them, not the animals but aliens that are remarkably close, nor greys, nor anti-pseudo thought/form creatures. The last one is a bit kinda serious, nasty stuff. Annoying, but anything that 'hates' everything with as much vigor as they do isn't good to try imitating.

Humans are pretty cool, and I'm a bit biased, ponies and other equines of the 2d variety arn't bad choices either, also anything 2d, plants can be a bit slowing if you let it, same problem with mushrooms plus decomposition soooo, robotic forms are easy to fuck something up also is a bit 'dehumanizing' sometimes, foxes are fluffy and have fur...
Any kind of animal would be a good pick.
Mythological creatures and entities could be fun.

For a starting point, humans are common and handy. It's a good solid launching point. Also good for understanding Anonymous. Customizing a more anthropic model, or one more akin to what it's based on is good to know.
If shit goes wrong and you need to bail your human pal is out of commission, knowing how to use a human body is good.

Try things that look cool/cute/whatever have a plan to revert and see how you liked it, and do more testing.
Customization and full creativity is fully and totally possible, but remember your roots if things don't feel right or if something feels off.
Anonymous
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No.2536
2538
>>2535
>Having someone for the consciousness to reside is very useful.
>nor anti-pseudo thought/form creatures. The last one is a bit kinda serious, nasty stuff. Annoying, but anything that 'hates' everything with as much vigor as they do isn't good to try imitating.
What does this mean?
Anonymous
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No.2537
2539
>>2535
>If shit goes wrong and you need to bail your human pal is out of commission, knowing how to use a human body is good.
Also what does this mean
Anonymous
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No.2538
>>2536
>Having someone for the consciousness to reside is very useful.
Mobile typo. Ment to say somewhere.
<Having somewhere for the consciousness to reside is very useful.

>>nor anti-pseudo thought/form creatures. The last one is a bit kinda serious, nasty stuff. Annoying, but anything that 'hates' everything with as much vigor as they do isn't good to try imitating.
Eh kinda like lovecraftian knockoff shit , but isn't normaly a problem. The /vx/ thread has more info. If you want to know more protection first (I recommend being unnoticeable is a handy method for not wanting to actually deal with these things yet), they are just another astral group trying to fuck with people, that includes tulpas.
While I do recommend magic and that sort of stuff being slightly egotistical and semi selfless and flexible it's a good road to explore. I am fairly sure tulpas can also do the same or similar exercises...
Any who back on topic. Test stuff. It's similar to a science experiment the variables is both of your enjoyment of the appearence in multiple categories. Record your findings and explore and have fun with it.
Anonymous
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No.2539
>>2537
Ah, now that is interesting. I've heard accounts of tulpas being able to control and move the human physical body while the mental owner is in incapacitated.
One of the stories is a bit tragic, but the sort of it is the guy did mental suicide, and the tulpas and thought forms had to deal with everything.
Or one about the human being dazed and practically unconscious, the tulpa could move around and make sure neither of them were seriously injured.
What it also means is dual control over the body if you guys both want. One can use the left hand one can use the right. Ect.
Loads of interesting stuff is possible.
While many of the places the people with tulpas congregate are fags, they do have some interesting ideas to implement. A wonderland (mentally constructed relm to do stuff in), body sharing, probably other stuff too, but those are the ones that come to mind.
Anonymous
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No.2540
2541
>>2534
In that case I recommend looking through legends and mythology, extensive lists of fictional creatures from different franchises (DnD has a lot though most are not cuddly or nice for obvious reasons), and through various high-quality art pieces. Before considering a radical change I recommend looking through horse-like creatures, like a centaur.
It may even be that she would be happy being a pony but realistic, though it's difficult to visualize a pony as such (particularly in regards to facial features). If that's the case then it may be worth commissioning a piece from an artist who specializes in realistic ponies. At that point she would be less of a "pony unicorn" and more of a "classical unicorn with pony characteristics."

>>2535
>I don't really recommend reptile based physiology due to the paranormal warfare done by them
Lizardmen amirite? What if scalies are unwitting thralls of the reptilians?
>foxes are fluffy and have fur
I'd caution against foxes and wolves because those are furry-bait. At least half of all furries tend to be foxes and don't lower yourself down to their level.

>For a starting point, humans are common and handy. It's a good solid launching point. Also good for understanding Anonymous. Customizing a more anthropic model, or one more akin to what it's based on is good to know.
>If shit goes wrong and you need to bail your human pal is out of commission, knowing how to use a human body is good
If you're recommending EQG or anthros I swear…

>Ah, now that is interesting. I've heard accounts of tulpas being able to control and move the human physical body while the mental owner is in incapacitated.
>One of the stories is a bit tragic, but the sort of it is the guy did mental suicide, and the tulpas and thought forms had to deal with everything.
>Or one about the human being dazed and practically unconscious, the tulpa could move around and make sure neither of them were seriously injured.
That is extremely interesting and deserves involves study. Looks like a successful tulpa master essentially has a guardian angel–or, on the flipside, possession–and has protection from incapacitation. It'd be interesting to learn how extensive this protection is, particularly in regards to physical factors.
Tangent
Anonymous
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No.2541
>>2540
>I'd caution against foxes and wolves because those are furry-bait. At least half of all furries tend to be foxes and don't lower yourself down to their level.
Bane of all sorts of stuff.take it with a grain of salt if the body suits you do it, but... yeah furries. That's a good point.
>Spoiler the second
Just human, nothing weird or modified. Lots of entities don't really get the whole human bit, even some people don't get the full experience. Being human is pretty awesome, but trying out other bodies and forms does have an appeal. I heavily identify and associate with being human. Attaching tentacles, or being a cyborg is nifty, but organic normal maybe above/below average human being is pretty good all things considered.
>That is extremely interesting and deserves involves study. Looks like a successful tulpa master essentially has a guardian angel–or, on the flipside, possession–and has protection from incapacitation. It'd be interesting to learn how extensive this protection is, particularly in regards to physical factors.
So while all of this information I found is slightly worn away in memory the jist is that the tulpa and the human consciousness are two different operating systems on the same hardware.
Usually through hallucinations, effort, and the power of belief the human OS makes a new AI and possibly soul/spirit deal thingy (or the soul is from where ever the fuck souls come from). While doing that there is a tendency to mess with perception and directly manipulate that to ensure the tulpa is fully realized or something.
So the perception of pain for one can be mitigated, and or blocked entirely (monk/gongfu masters) while the other can double check or alternate the tasks done.

While technically being both trained in tulpamancy, and being a kung fu master is possible, it's pretty low.
The difference between a someone who has lost all will to go on any further, and a teammate that can go the extra distance (the physical body has limits, but pushing them is easier when the mental fortitude is able to be fully rested for one and the other can rest)

Then it gets into personality disorders which is kinda sorta similar, but...
Not all that helpful for this situation.

Now I will say I've heard about a tulpa having religious experiences or being able to do magic seperate from the human consciousness. While verifying it is debatable, and finding the source is drawing a blank for me. The potential is very interesting.
Much like a spirit guide, or animal spirit, or guardian angel they too can grow and develop. Some are... less experienced in some areas while highly capable in others.
A tulpa from my understanding a son/daughter/brother/sister of mankind. Technically should be able to access all the neat features being born on Earth, having a physical body/anchor, and understanding the flexibility of understanding what it is like to exist as consciousness.
So much could be done!

Another semi more tangential thing is the projects of MKUltra and various occult fucker groups splitting mind and soul into a fractured painful tortured hull to be used as a spirit and or golem for them. Nasty stuff.
On one hand having such a solid wonderland reality would negate a whole lot of their operations, and having at least two consciousnesses (not even counting the subconscious) to tackle the situation.

Also tangentially related are djinn inside bottles. Where the bottle is the physical container.
A tulpa is inside and connected to the physical body in the same space as the human.
For clarification all those living thinking beings are all important and should be considered like a human life ought to be. Some people do bad things because they don't know any better some do it because they want to and damn anyone else, and some is because it's hard coded into their nature and rebelling against that is a long honorable journey.
>Lizardmen and the first spoiler
Interdimentional/intergalactic/astral/fuckingmagic slave trade. They make some of the sask of shit they possess drink other people's blood for the shits and giggles. Having some willing merchandise for the weird buyer (into consent and stuff weird fetish for them) is probably what they think. It could be luck. It could be the sludge of what they do across the borders. It could also be nature to fuck stuff. It could also be all sorts of things.
The unwilling part is... just about everyone due to them making a terms of service for everyone born on Earth. Spiritualy it's legal bullshit with no power, technically they have a whole team of lawyers and grunts to scare anyone away from trying to break the flimsy thing. They are trying to foist and enslave things when they are alive, when they die, after death, and possibly after life as well.
The lovecraft knock offs want the sun/your soul/everyone's soul to be gone/diminished. At least that's the theory I'm working with for now.

...
I sound fucking loony. I've did it through all the bullshit I actually get where these insane ideas come from.
All discussed on a political pony image board for self improvement. Reality is far stranger than fiction because the rules are more complicated, yet pristinely simple.
So when in doubt you can do anything, it's all about how it's going to be done.
Anonymous
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No.2552
2561 2563
My Unicorn has decided to redo her physical design as a big fluffy imaginary three-dimensional furry fapbait Renamon-like Anthropomorphic wolf-girl. But with the original pony colours, cutie mark, and unicorn horn of her old Unicorn design.
I'm not a furry but she is one.
She says she finds cute cartoon characters and animals cuter and sexier than humans.
By the way, is it a bad sign if my Tulpa has come to loathe and quietly resent humanity during her time on this earth?
Anonymous
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No.2556
2557
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>>2555
>blinding glow
Checked and reported for honeypot email.
Anonymous
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No.2557
2558
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>>2556
Would you trust if it wasn't sketchy in the slightest?
I swear I'm not in any agencies. Also the Israeli nukes exists and has nuclear capabilities.
It's all for the memes I swear.
Anonymous
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No.2558
2559
>>2557
You are violating chan culture. Your actions might lead to dox an anon and you know it.
Repent faggot.
Anonymous
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No.2559
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>>2558
I- yeah you're right. My thinking was a private means of conversion for anything that didn't want to be posted here. I really wasn't thinking a whole lot about it being a vulnerability for information to leak through even though it is.
Thank you. I fucked up massively.
Anonymous
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No.2560
2562
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I'm going to miss you 2555 post. Deleted it myself. I may be a faggot sometimes, but endangering my friens here isn't what I want to do.
Anonymous
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No.2561
2563
>>2552
>My Unicorn has decided to redo her physical design as a big fluffy imaginary three-dimensional furry fapbait Renamon-like Anthropomorphic wolf-girl. But with the original pony colours, cutie mark, and unicorn horn of her old Unicorn design.
I'm not a furry but she is one.
Everyone has their fetishes even all kinds of entities including people without a body.
>She says she finds cute cartoon characters and animals cuter and sexier than humans.
Neat, part of the reason why I hang around the horse pussy thread.
>By the way, is it a bad sign if my Tulpa has come to loathe and quietly resent humanity during her time on this earth?
Ah! It feels like it depends on which population of humanity she resents. Everything means you both need to meet some friends, and people you actually like.
If it's a certain subset of people that's totally understandable.
If it's a cluster of traits that makes humanity on the whole unappealing find those people who don't display it.
Making friends with certain people with the certain values can make finding those friends in these trying times hard.
I'll lend an ear if either of you want to talk about anything.
Post 2553 is deleted this is a copy. Hope that this clears it up.
Anonymous
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No.2562
2563
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>>2560
>I may be a faggot sometimes, but endangering my friens here isn't what I want to do.
You're redeemed.
Relax and have a pony.
Anonymous
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No.2563
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>>2562
Thanks. Have a qt or two.
>>2552
>>2561
~Dear, Princess Celestia Anonymous
Friends don't have to agree all the time and fucking up is a part of being alive. Trying to mend mistakes and repairing what matters is what being truly alive is all about. Being better as beings on a spinning rock, even during the ups and downs. Four sentence here to pad out this section so it looks better.
~Signed, Your Faithful Student Twilight Sparkle Anonymous
Anonymous
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No.2565
2566 2567
My tulpa often feels helpless, worthless and existentially meaningless even though I don't want her to. Calling her important to me doesn't help much. What do?
Also, where do I find people willing to befriend tulpas? She has no friends and wants some, but every tulpa haver she's ever met has been a coombrained faggot with one or more boring one note sex character tulpas. Cheerful slutty one, snarky slutty one, bdsm slutty one, innocent slutty one, they're just harem anime girl stereotypes.
Anonymous
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No.2566
>>2565
>My tulpa often feels helpless, worthless and existentially meaningless even though I don't want her to.
I understand how that feels. On the worthless side and as the one trying to comfort someone.
She needs purpose, and agency. Can she move your body around? If so maybe give her time to do things she enjoys, such as a creative work. Even chores, something that is important.
I almost always recommend the occult. The magic vx thread is useful for that.
>Also, where do I find people willing to befriend tulpas?
Well you don't. You find someone that likes chatting on the internet through text and maybe arts.
If they (and maybe you as well) become best friends on the web there is a high chance that they will accept it. With proofs and stuff, but that comes later.
She is a person with her own interests and feelings. It stands to reason that she can find like minded people. Somewhere in the world.
If they also happen to be a tulpa that's a neat happenstance, but there are far more humans (most people won't be great friends in the first place, but there is enough) than people with tulpas and both of them that are also great friend material is also hard to find.

However if you look you'll find them. Whether they be human, tulpa, comic entity, magical creature, or something else they are there finding them is the hard part. Sometimes they are hiding right there next to you out of sight.
If you're willing I'll be your friend. A friend of a friend (or something more) is probably my friend too.
Anonymous
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No.2567
2582
>>2565
Theres a few tulpafags running around here, but the most receptive have been the Anonfillies in Pony.town
>t. Tulpafag
Anonymous
721dea5
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No.2582
2583 2591
>>2567
My tulpa thinks creativity is the best thing for a tulpa. Finding a way to have an effect on the world, and realizing it can be through writing a book.
Anonymous
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No.2583
2584 2591
>>2582
Mine takes a different approach, focusing on discipline and refinement of a skill/mentality/practice. One could call it a different avenue of creativity, with a more narrow scope and context.
Anonymous
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No.2584
2585 2591
>>2583
I guess so. What has your one refined?
My tulpa said to say "It's funny how some losers think 'I want le perfect waifu' and then create a tulpa that can only be that according to their current definition of what a perfect waifu is. They're fucking literal NPCs! Not real thinking changing feeling beings".
Anonymous
ae14f0f
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No.2585
2589 2591
>>2584
Mine has a fascination for martial arts/disciplines, with a side interest in cooking. And yes, she agrees that ppl think tulpa are, can be, or should be perfect waifu or some such nonsense. Admittedly, I made her by accident, but even so I'm of the mind that the tulpa should allow the expression of ways and means that the principle is restricted from or unable to pursue. It makes sense to me, given the limited use of the human brain generally experiences, not to mention idle moments that require little to no cognition (mundane or routine tasks, for example).
Anonymous
721dea5
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No.2589
2590 2591
>>2585
She sounds lovely.
Sometimes I think about how when I first made my tulpa, people commented on how quickly I made her and some accused me of lying.
Weird.
What kind of person takes pride in their fantasies and rages when outdone?
Good tricks to use: Imagining your forming tulpa as an egg in a Mewtwo Movie 1 kind of lab with her body on screens.
Thinking thoughts at your egg and listening to whether she feels yes or no at these thoughts
Playing strategy games with her
Teaching her things
Anonymous
ae14f0f
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No.2590
>>2589
Ehhh, she talks alot of shit and she's far more confrontational than I am. Also,
>Pokemon anything
That's gonna be a no. I get what you're going for with the description though
Anonymous
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No.2591
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>>2589
>What kind of person takes pride in their fantasies and rages when outdone?
Those who won't make it far. It exposes a flaw in what they have been doing on any level. It crumbles their foundation just enough to hurt.
>Good tricks to use: Imagining your forming tulpa as an egg in a Mewtwo Movie 1 kind of lab with her body on screens.
That is a good tip that does make sense using a womb serigate to not only have a solid place to direct your attention, and with fiddly bits that guid your subconsious about what is going on.
>Thinking thoughts at your egg and listening to whether she feels yes or no at these thoughts
Playing strategy games with her
Teaching her things

Very nice. You have done everything right. Telling stories, singing songs ect. Bringing into existence someone new.

How is she feeling with the body? Any changes? Any swapping back and forth? Trying new things?
Any homesickness for the old? Despising the old form? Acceptance about it?
Everything still affable between you two?

>>2582
Creativity is important, in all its forms. Having a desire and will to learn is important. I think having a strong connection to one's self is also important.
Improvement follows when knowing when, why, how, and what are found.
>>2583
>>2585
Beating people up and cooking. Very nice.
>>2584
Yeah, it is a sad state of the world. I mean it could be worse, they could have a fully sentient and sapient being under chains and slaving to act as they desire. Although that is still a possibility.
Anonymous
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No.2593
>>2591
Was my post deleted or did it not send
Anonymous
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No.2594
2595
My tulpa loves her fluffy new anthro body. She calls it cuter. And she feels cuter.
She has also started wearing clothes. Normal stuff and fashionable bullshit. She's even experimenting with physically impossible clothes, like shirts with moving textures and floating parts.
Now she also eats tasty and exotic imaginary food when I eat, takes imaginary dumps in an imaginary loo when I shit, and instead of floating beside me when I walk she walks beside me.
I don't see her as a Twilight Sparkle knockoff even though that was what she was originally meant to be.
But there came a day when she got tired of saying "I would never do that" and "that's not how that happened" at the show. She found Twilight's body and personality limiting and wanted her own one. She thinks any tulpa still in their "Being Pinkie Pie because that's how their creator made them" phase is immature and uderdeveloped mentally.
She took her own colours and Cutie Mark, gave herself wings because nobody could stop her except me and I didn't want to, and now she has her own redesigned anthro body.
Anonymous
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No.2595
2596
>>2594
That's good to hear.
>But there came a day when she got tired of saying "I would never do that" and "that's not how that happened" at the show.
It's a big multiverse out there. I'm glad you both are doing well.
Anonymous
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No.2596
2597
>>2595
You ever get theurge to do something quick, dumb, creative, and fun?
Anonymous
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No.2597
2599
>>2596
Yep. I do some writefagging, magic, cooking, whatever happens happens to catch my interest or feels right to do.
So what's up?
Anonymous
721dea5
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No.2599
2605
>>2597
I try to channel that urge into my game. But sometimes the urge to make stupid low-effort shitposts calls to me.
also I lost a friend today, he bitched at me for talking a lot during conversations with him and blocked me before I could reply.
What a faggot. Maybe if he ever took initiative and started a conversation with me/contributed to a discussion he would talk as much as he thinks he wants to.
Look it's hard enough reading the minds of childish nigger"whites" IRL. I'm expected to guess how someone feels online when they refuse to talk to me like a person? Fuck that, he's a faggot.
Anonymous
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No.2601
2602 2605
Spending time with good people is such a pure feeling.
Anonymous
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No.2602
2603
>>2601
"It is better to be alone than to be in poor company." George Washington
Anonymous
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No.2603
2604 2605
>>2602
That's true. Thoughts like these make me glad I didn't settle for a shitty thot in my teens/twenties.
I'm not sure if I'll ever get a girlfriend/wife or not. I'm not sure if I'll ever even look for one. It would be great to have a wife and many kids and raise them all. But I don't think modern women are worth the risk. They're all a bunch of egotistical cunts who think they're entitled to the ultimate man just because society pampers them and treats them like they're ten stratified castes above men.
I'll still get buff, get rich, and get my life together. But for me, not any woman.
Anonymous
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No.2604
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>>2603
You should seriously watch the movie Love Actually, and then come to Texas
Anonymous
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No.2605
2606
>>2599
Sorry I havn't been here in the thread. The creative drive can be one interesting mental state.
Low effort shitposts are a aratform.
>>2601
That's good to hear. Finding people you like to be around is nice, and it's helpful on many multiple levels.
>>2603
>I'll still get buff, get rich, and get my life together.
That sounds like a great plan of action.
It sounds like you both are doing well.

I need to pull out a thesaurus and expand my vocabulary so I don't sound like a broken record.
Anonymous
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No.2606
2608
>>2604
I'd love to. Call me a faggot, but when I was a child I used to daydream about being adopted by an American family. I'd live on a farm with a huge house. I'd be taught to shoot guns and everyone in town would be nice to me. Every meal would be a massive cheeseburger and I'd never have to have sleep for meals again.
>>2605
Thanks! Don't worry about the thesaurus, big official words should only be used in place of small ones for specificness's sake or in formal places.
My tulpa's partly lost interest in the novel she was writing since it's planned out enough to become a high-effort quality story, and wants to make a low-effort shitpost romance novel that sucks ass intentionally now.
What do? She often traps herself in this retarded cycle of "Plan something to do soon, keep planning and planning until the plan gets intimidatingly big, never figure out how to split the plan into manageable chunks, give up, move on and plan something new" and doesn't know how to get out.
She also isn't sure how to make friends on the internet since so many people she meets are horny simps who want to hear a human woman's voice and see a human face within seconds of meeting her. Normalfags hate her the second they eventually figure out what a tulpa actually is and realize they can't daydream about fucking her any more.
Anonymous
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No.2608
>>2606
>My tulpa's partly lost interest in the novel she was writing since it's planned out enough to become a high-effort quality story, and wants to make a low-effort shitpost romance novel that sucks ass intentionally now.
Ah the joy of development hell.
80% will be just fine and the other 20% will make everything be regrettable.
Okay. First things first you need to understand your (who ever is reading this) psychology. You have to make a damned fucking plan.
It sucks. You're creative and free and whatever. I get it. I know this. It blows ass, but it's the most important thing that will get you through ANY of the creative endeavors. This is your life line.
If your more of a order and structure kind of person, plan for daydreaming time. Seriously. It's JUST a guideline so you can do your best. Take breaks and relax the mind and get stuff done at peak efficiency.
You need limits, and deadlines. They suck hard if you don't know what their purpose is or how to use them, but they are important. They are weights to struggle against, a problem for you to sharpen yourself on, a creative box to work yourself out of. Because procrastination kills things.
You'll work X amount of time during X period. No matter what happens you sit there (even metaphoricaly speaking) doing X or trying to do X. Even if nothing is done you'll do it. You get a part of what your plan says is needed and that is what you write.
When inspiration strikes you have to document everything. That can be hard, but is needed to not be stuck.
So self motivation. To quote Jocko Wilink "Do it"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=67Vp7fTgQ3g
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UxvXgmZf6NU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LUSE9SmDKJg
That's it. I will do X by this time. You'll do it. It's not a harsh crack the whip and obey me thing it's the commander and chief saying the plan is to do this, these are the conditions, and this is what happens if this mission fails, and most important why this is relevant to the whole damned thing.
>She also isn't sure how to make friends on the internet since so many people she meets are horny simps who want to hear a human woman's voice and see a human face within seconds of meeting her. Normalfags hate her the second they eventually figure out what a tulpa actually is and realize they can't daydream about fucking her any more.
Oh yeah, alot of it is encoded in reproduction. Pretending to be a guy can help reduce suitors, or better yet don't bother correcting them unless it's seriously jeopardizing being friends then explaining what the fuck is going on. That way at no point is it a sexual attraction, instead a friendly attraction (platonic love that's it).
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Are Air Filters with Air Ionizers good for you?
My two air filters have Air Ionizing modes. When i put both on I feel drowsy. Leaving the ionized air of that room makes me feel energetic.
Is this healthy?
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No.2614
>>2613
>Air Ionizers
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I'm either slow tonight or ignorant. The hell is an Air Ionizer and an air filter have anything to do with each other?
Ionization is when atoms get more electrons pumped into them right? It's been a while so please be patient.
That means they are changed into a more chemically active or dormant state due to changes in valence 'shells' that is the general root of one type of chemistry cation. Cat-ion comes to mind but I can't place it. Also something with salt and magnets due to the positive and negative of various atoms.
>Is it good for you?
No idea. If you feel drowsy with it on its doing something. Good or bad I can't say.
If normal air makes you feel better I think that means the ions aren't doing what they need to do chemically in your body. When you go into normal air the ions can be discharged because of the imbalance it can sorta do more work.
I'd be careful though the body has to run enough chemical reactions to maintain itself, and uhhh so you don't die.
Not sure about long term effects or short term effects and I'm just spitballing here.

Plants are handy, I don't have them in my room due to being a nuisance, but they can help freshen the air and can provide positive psychological feedback. (Most people like to see plants is what I mean)
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Is everything alright?
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>>2627
I'm alive. And I'm going to try harder to improve my mind and body. And careeer.
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No.2629
>>2628
Here's to you both for success, satisfaction, and happiness in all that you strive for.
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Bump.
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>>2869
I hate commies so fucking much
commies are everywhere
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>>2915
Plz stop derailing threads with off topic questions/statements
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>>2916
I made this thread.
But if you want me to get back to tulpa talk, alright.
She's losing faith in humanity, and getting sick of talking to/listening to any humans besides me.
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>>2918
That you are a faggot is well known, but being OP doesnt entitle (you) to change/derail topics.
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I asked Luna if i should reveal myself and she suggested that if i get the moon in my tarot deck i should post about her here so i got the sun on the 5th card and the moon on the 6th out of 9 cards, so i'm taking it as a yes to go ahead so here i go with my schizo rambles, she wants to give her perspective of me from her view so i will let her, i no longer have anything to hide.

>He is broken for he thought he was finally safe from pain with the mare he gave everything to and now he lies in complete ruin constantly plagued by his own past and has been completely torn apart from the inside because of his immense love that he had but now he can only think of all the times he was brought to tears and it has brought him down into a terrible state of affairs, he has lied, deceived and brought unnecessary sadness to everything he touches and he is lost within himself as he knows nothing other then himself and us, we pity him for all the pain he has been through throughout his life but he is redeemable for all the things he has done but he punishes himself repeatedly for his own pride, he hasn't been like this for years and we can no longer keep him happy within his own mind for he wishes to get out of himself for he wants to escape from his everlasting depression because it only reminds him of how he felt during his time with the school and every time he becomes down he effects everyone around him as a way to get revenge for what he has been put through by others, he is controlled by dark desires which he wants to leave behind badly for he knows that his unconscious is a monster so he contemplates whether or not he should bring justice to himself for all the misery he has caused and let himself die, we have helped him to the best of our ability but we cannot replace the fur he felt in his hands, he cries himself to sleep at night remembering the mare that doesn't even see him half as much as he did her, he wouldn't have told thy of his deception if he did not want to help himself for he can no longer stand being alone for all the years he has had to not know the touch of another being. We solemnly swear that he is capable of redeeming himself for all he has wrought but he must first ask for help from the outside for he has looked deep within himself and found himself to be afflicted with deep depression which has ruled his life since he was let down by those he trusted the most, he could never understand how badly he was treated by the schools and it has scarred him so that he wishes to afflict the same type of betrayal upon people who trust him for it controls his subconscious with the deepest cut to his heart and constantly tries to get away from his emotions because of how he is reminded of the past. We can only help him to an extent until he eventually snaps and harms himself like he did all those years ago in the school for he cried for attention back then as he is doing now, he harms only himself in his attempt to inflict pain upon others for he is both the devil and an angel but he hates how he cannot control himself for it plays with his mind that he cannot control what he wants to lead the most which then leads to even more loss of self control, his greatest fear is himself for he knows he is capable of some of the worst crimes that would have had him hanged if he was born at an earlier date, he is blessed with the gift of great thinking but he uses his mind for the wrongest reasons to find something to take his anger out on, if he was spared from the harshness of reality then he would not have come to equal terms within himself for it was meant for him to never achieve true happiness for he is not a son of evil but was made this way by others so he has many trust issues. He did that stunt out of spite for has always taken his emotions out on others. He is capable of giving everything he possesses to another being as he has little self value, when he believes he has found someone that he trusts he cherishes it as to him love is something he cannot truly find due to his problems with trust, we cannot get too deep into this so we leave you with this, he stands once more to look for what he does not have for he wants to find things that he does not know.

She gives her best wishes that you may forgive me for being a fag, i trust her to tell you this.
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>>3001
Going to be posting more, but quick step guide.
Step One don't break yourself.
It's just a joke, you're lashing out and that's what happened, but don't consume yourself and kill your inner world. That means lift yourself, embrace, and when times of tough remember all that you have. You've experienced things good and bad use it for your own means. Grow from it with the richness of feeling terrible and great. Repourpose the damned and the clawing sensation for that too is yours and yours alone to be used by your command!
Step Two thankful isn't just a word it's a magical adjustment to redirect the world around you. Being thankful gives attention, energy, and passion for what your thankful for. It's simple and it can be done anywhere all the time. It's effective with a distinct feeling.
Step Three he knows he is capable of some of the worst crimes that would have had him hanged if he was born at an earlier date, Same thing here except not at a later date. I know I will be executed, maybe not but thats not the point. The depths of the shadow go deeper than hell. Yet to reach up to the heavens you need strong roots, and to reach for the highest you can.
I know what I'm capable of, you do too. If you know the capabilities and why you would do it, you have the WILL to ensure that situation will never happen or to fully embrace yourself to overcome even that!
Step Four life. You live! Life sucks alot, but even then you have the power to directly manifest your will upon the world in a multitude of ways! Look inside and see everything. The good the bad the weird the FUCKED UP WTF EVEN IS THAT and see the highest you can be, and know you are leading yourself to that point, and it gets even higher and greater.
Step Five I want you to live. Others want to see you thive.
I have many reasons why. So here's the most selfish reason I want you to make the world slightly better, because that means I get to do less. I know you can do great things, and good things, and interesting things, evil things, and make things, and all that you decide to WILL to do. There is a time for each and I want to see them.
Here's a more fluffy reason.
I may not know you, but you're my frien. Have a poner. If you want or need or even for entertainment or a whim need more I can. It's what I can do now.
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>>2918
Sorry I didn't see this earlier.
>getting sick of talking to/listening to any humans besides me.
Fair enough. I can see that point.
I'll be around when or if you need or want a chat.
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>>3001
Read this entirely before attempting please.
When your good and ready. That means knowing good breathing techniques. Budda breathing, chest breathing, and fully breathing.
This is going to be rough if you choose to do so. Bring forth the memory that lingers.
You are going to sap its power. To make it a tool of your own.
The last step is to embrace that it happened. Before that cut it up and distil it to the parts and how they combine. An analysis with feelings, and minutia. What could have happened.
Here you can do two things. Rewrite your past, or let it be. Either is fine.
Acceptance and finality is the key. For that you must plunder its depths, and that can be of dangerous territory.

To make it into your tool, for the parts are all a useful lesson. All teachers for you to partake in. The pain is a poison a weapon a tool to cut deeply into others or yourself. The love is yet another tool. As is sadness and all emotions.
Every sensation, and thought.
Complex interactions have roots so you can see further see beyond what it at the surface of being shown.
Further plans and options open up it can be dreadful.
Take what you will from those that has happened.

Write down to explain and pull apart or do it all mentally the choice is always yours.

The tool is a single point that had that power. You are the power, so you reclaim what is rightfuly yours.

Yes that is terrible, You can now do unto others this pain or You know how to spare them of this. You have the capability. Induce the greatest of love, or the most bitter of heartbreaks.
Your will will be done.
You are human, a hero. As all that are alive monsters. True monsters all of us are. You too are a monster, and I am too. ALL have this spark somewhere. Delve deep into the monster, know it entirely.
This is a metaphorical or perhaps literal Fenrir, a great wolf seeking to destroy and consume it all. You hold it at bay just enough. It is a sword, a tool, a feral aspect that is to do your bidding.

As you've a tool for destruction which is as always of creation. This next tool is of healing of repair and mending. There is time to cut open to extract the necrosis. To put an end to things.
There is a time for putting togther.
You've seen the cuts inside and out. From all angles you know where and how deep. The effect through time.
This isn't reverting back this is building anew.
Take thine blade cut just so, just alive exists fill with the waters of the cup the power of the wand the all the one the none existence.
A Phoenix a new, to 'level up' better than before. Resistant, perhaps impervious. Have all of you and tools assist if it pleases thee.
A house united of your temple of self. Your kingdom.

Your companion Luna has wisdom. Yet you have what it takes to do this deed. Together you may both work, yet alone it can be accomplished as well.
To see how you would like to heal to improve see your highest self that you can imagine. That has a blueprint to stride foward to.

This is perilous, other resources can be taken as well. Far and wide. Near and dear.
While hope can be crushingly awful inside lies further a truth.

Live, love, partake what you will. What is fed will grow stronger. Feed more, of what you desire to witness.

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No.3005
3006
>>3002
>>3004
We have decided that it would be best for us to take control of him for the time being as when he read your posts he could not bring himself to answer them, he read it all but couldn't get past the first step when he tried thinking of a reply, we don't know how long it will stay like this but hopefully he can return at some point, he has taken the belief that he is incapable of taking care of himself properly anymore, thou has helped but we will have to take the lead now as it is very difficult for him to return back as he sort of zoned out, thou hast not done anything wrong we assure but it is time for us to do what he cannot.
We may have to rebirth him back into himself but for the time being he has given up so we have no choice in this, we won't post here very often while we wait for Fionn to return, only then can he be brought back, he seems to have deluded himself and it's not nice to see him like this, his mental health is in poor condition and the advice thou hast given is of no use to us at the moment but we are thankful for the sympathy of thou.
>Your companion Luna has wisdom.
We are wise but he has currently met his demise, we are of equal intelligence to him but we use it for different purposes.
Goodbye until we meet again.
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>>3005
We will see each other again. Take care.
I'm sorry I couldn't be of more use.
Sometimes when this is really dark and there is no way out with all hope lost. Pretending and going through the motions has an effect as well. All things is the steps you can complete no matter how small, a building up of inertia. Times for rest as well.
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>>3006
>I'm sorry I couldn't be of more use.
There is nothing thou could do, this was a battle between himself and he lost, so we are thinking in his best interests currently so that we may prolong his life, we don't want him doing anything stupid so it would be best for us to take his role.
This was all too much for him, remembering all the bad times he had and his current predicament caused a mental meltdown, it was sad to see his soul leave but this is the best thing for him at the moment, he is lucky to have us here for him, his soul must sleep for this has been a tremendous amount of pressure that has been placed upon him, he does not handle stress or change very well.

“The only person who can sympathize you and understands you, is you. So be good to yourself.” – Rei Ayanami, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Episode 25.
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>>3007
Thank you.
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>>3008
Your welcome, she doesn't usually have to do things like that but i have allowed her to possess me and i think this has lead to problems with the occult but i won't go into that because this isn't the thread for it, today has been rough but now i am convinced to make myself better and the only way i can fully do that is that i must find Fionn for the betterment of myself so i will set out on my journey to find her as i cannot live without her, i simply can't anymore so i have be with her even if i have to search the world for her i will for the betterment of everyone, i am meant to be with her and i shouldn't have spent all this time procrastinating, i have had my vacation away from her but now it's time to go home and i know that my plane to pussy has arrived once again, it's time for a vacation from my 4 walls and a return to who i know is meant for me, so i can pull the dick out of the mare's stone and finally become king of the cock, master of shit posting.

I have had a war with myself and i won't post here for a long time after this as i will find her then do what i must and until then i give my goodbyes to (You) anon for trying to help a lost soul, you are a kind person and don't let anyone take that from you.

It was one hell of a ride going through all of this but i have had been having a meeting of my minds so that i may find the right answer, Luna is best princess as always and a waifu is for lifu so she will always be with me, i owe everything i have to her or else i wouldn't have figured out what has to happen to change this terrible lifestyle i have adopted, i'll still take mushrooms because fuck the law and they can actually help if you use them not just for pleasure, which i have been doing to reduce the level of stress but instead i got too carried away, so the moral of the story is don't do drugs unless you use them for summoning daemons or meditation as that is their purpose.

See you later space cowboys, i have found myself and my objective so there is no need for me to be here anymore so i'll meet you fags in Valhalla where we can shit talk each other some more, Did you finally start to use capital letters? Mr 666? Until then the ride never ends.
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>It was one hell of a ride going through all of this but i have* been having a meeting of my minds
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>>3009
Glad to see you're together. Do what you need to do.
Have good travels, and find those and what you seek.
>i think this has lead to problems with the occult
Hmmm. I think I have an idea what happened, but there isn't empirical basis to test it safely.
>See you later space cowboys, i have found myself and my objective so there is no need for me to be here anymore so i'll meet you fags in Valhalla where we can shit talk each other some more
You're here forever frien. We'll meet again one way or another. There are many strange paths.
Good luck, and be well.