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>>6203
I am pretty much the same. Perhaps that stemmed from my low prospects in life. I did not expect a future when I started my own life. The only deal I hoped for was that I'd get to live with a home, food, and the internet until my parents die, after which even that wouldn't matter and suicide would become fair game. Just so I wouldn't hurt my parents at least. For the same reason I was never transparent with them about that. I did not expect them to understand this perspective. They lived way too prosperous a life and I saw the signs of the economy going down the drain in the early 2000s already. Over the years, slowly, the little wealth I had started out with from my parents drained, despite frugal spending. Life would always challenge something important, such as rent or food, and I would have to give up yet another thing in my life forever to keep the basics going.

Pones kept me going for a significant amount of time. Watching the show and all the fan-made stuff gave me a feeling of cosiness, a feeling of acceptance, a feeling of a future.

A feeling of home.

That feeling is long gone now. I do not feel anything in particular when I see them anymore. The grand illusion is shattered and the downward spiral welcomes me in its embrace. The art is still nice but it does not go further than that anymore.

Soon, rent is going to triple for me. I won't have enough for food then. I could ask for social security to help out but I don't feel like fighting anymore. Fighting always resulted in losing, if not the thing I fought for then something else. After over thirty years of life I own nothing that I earned myself but a microwave I bought used way back when. Everything else I own I got from my parents. It sometimes feels as if I was simply not good enough for life or that I am the universe's anomaly of bad fortune. Either way, there is no sense in trying. There is only hurt that way. The hope of outliving my parents was pretty much extinguished this year.

I really want to drown all this in alcohol but I could not afford that since about three years ago. Alcohol always helped. Not a lot and not forever but a temporary solution is still a solution.

Therapy is unironically an utter load of bs, literal jewscience. An anons (from /mlp/) therapist tried to gaslight him into thinking he's a pedo because he likes MLP. Improving yourself starts with altering your outlook and perspective on life. I can't stress enough how good a little exercise or a brief walk in the sun can change your mood, the hardest part is initially motivating yourself. Also try to envision plans, goal and something to look forward to.
>>6345
>I did not expect a future when I started my own life
I was the opposite until reality hit, I've worked since I left school and have little to show for it in saying I'm 30 now. Everyone I know who does "have something to show for it" is in reality, up to their eyeballs in debt. In my country it's practically impossible to be a homeowner unless you got a shitload of money from your parents or you're a couple with a death sentence mortgage.
>Getting raped on rent
Have you considered an alternate lifestyle? How about living in a van or 2nd hand winnebago, it's cheap and can be quite luxurious nowadays, sure initial cost can be high but it pays off quickly in the long run.
>I really want to drown all this in alcohol but I could not afford that
That's a good thing. Alcohol is a poison, don't climb into that pit that you will only go deep and deeper into.

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