>>402607I was just memeing. It's way too easy for me to coom and takes herculean effort not to. Seems to be the opposite problem for some.
But it doesn't matter because there's no way I'll ever fuck. I'm just here to make myself even more jealous. Wanna see what happens if all I can think about is jealousy, anger and hopelessness. Maybe that way I can learn to ignore the desire I can't satisfy. Lmao would've offed myself long ago, but alas, I'm a coward.
Want an anecdote? I was recently watching a moopie, the whale (got curious because of the memes) and when the character's rather pretty daughter began to drag a proselytizer into a bedroom I just shut the movie down, deleted it and went to sleep. Even a hint at someone else's intimacy makes me think nothing but ripping their innards out and bathing in them. Just because I can't have any.
It's funny. I get to be made into an undesirable braindead retard without a life of his own, because a shitskin muslim broke my head when I was a kid so I never developed right, and now all I get to do is watch others live. Read about others living. Hear others live. I especially get to see metric tons of shitskin muslims everywhere, multiplying like locusts that they are and being all jolly. They live, I dream of living. I feel like their entire kind stole my life, and everyone else did nothing because they had their own and why would they care?
If I could I'd just make everyone eat one another alive, without rhyme or reason. It's exactly what I want to do. Crowds of people all around the world just losing their shit and biting into themselves and others until they stop breathing. No catalyst of any sort, no virus or weapon, just *pop* and mass insanity ensues. Just because I want it.
I wanna do like "the thing" and drive tendrils into people, restructure their meat, after playing with them like cat plays with food. Wanna decorate entire landscapes with barbed wire, layers upon layers of it, from tree to tree, building to building, mountain to mountain, and hang countless people from it, wrapped in it, undying. Wanna drown them all in pig shit. Wanna turn entire crowds of them into sky high meat spires, flesh amalgamations, twisted, burning, bleeding, screaming, never dying.