>>388913warning: retarded powerlevel wall of text
I get it, but my only exposure to females being NPCs, in addition to some conservatives saying that women are literally incapable of not being NPCs, actually led me to many anti-conservative/Christian behaviors. In my teenage years, since I was twelve, I got progressively increasing sex identity disorder, viewing my female body, feminine role and feminine interests as symbols of irrationality, so I ironically started resenting being a peacemaking housewife like women are supposed to be. When it got bad enough, I actually started identifying more with FTMs and their own hatred of womanhood, particularly the "truscum", who themselves report an idolization of masculinity as reason and strength, and a resentment of femininity as irrational and weak. I felt ashamed of liking anything feminine, and even started wanting to take testosterone to purge my "irrational estrogen", although I knew the many problems that would induce. I resented my bobs and being called "she", and even considered actually presenting myself as male in public at some point, because I thought, "All the dirty leftists will treat me better than they treat men, so seeming female in public will contribute to their misandry." Plus, since women are socially-minded, and, in all my social spaces, I had to pretend to be male less I be dismissed and resented, you can see how a teenage female would develop that way.
I spread it to other females, too, discouraging conservative and Christian women from spreading their views because they weren't qualified, and, mainly, telling them they also had to be okay with being dismissed and resented for being female. I didn't say I was female in the messages, so that probably gave them a warped idea about conservative men, who are meant to believe that femininity's contribution is important, and that it's the lack of healthy femininity that the Jews celebrate. Feminism is wrong because it disgraces the female role in addition to the male one.
My mom had PTSD from ongoing abuse, with my actually, cruelly misogynistic dad isolating her, telling her that none of the abuse happened, and that her being upset about it was just female craziness and irrationality. She was abused as a kid so she regularly doubts herself, and she was isolated; combining with me, her only support and the only other woman, echoing that same sentiment, becomes particularly deranged when I remember she was the one who Jewpilled me in the first place.
Is everything you just read, if you even read it, retarded? Yes. Was I a teenage white girl, quite possibly the most retarded group? Yes. Is cutting your tits off because of internets the defining mark of the modern teenage white girl experience? Yes. That's why you should believe me.